,Text,Sentiment 48503,lovley day out side and nothing to do ,2.0 48504,rt forjungs jangan sampai trending sensor namanya he doesnt need to see his name trending bc of this sad newsim shaking and i didnt,2.0 48505,writing messages on a tablet pc is totally funny love tohandwrite twitter stuff ,0.0 48506,body anxiety is hitting me hard tonight,2.0 48507,i feel scared for no reason like this isnt like normal anxiety that i used to get its like i feel something bad is gonna happen and i feel legit fear is this just normal anxiety and im thinking too muchim diagnosed with major deppression dont have any particular anxiety disorders just some anxiety that comes with deppression,3.0 48508,responsible ive been running this through my mind for far too long and i need an external opinion without anyone getting worried or equally socially devastatingsay someone rapes their wifegirlfriend non violent but repeat offense what is the best course of action from the rapistobviously the first step would be to leave the person alone and go nocontact permanently but from there what what justice is servedis it on the rapist to live with the guilt and the full weight of their actions and crimes for the rest of their lives are they to face trial and conviction is it their responsibility to kill themselves so as not to harm another individual againethically speaking how is proper justice served here because i want justice,3.0 48509,just bought plane tickets to minneapolisahhhh ,0.0 48510,zyote tears rolling down my face while looking at the video ,0.0 48511,rt coryrichardson im so sad alexa play my shiny teeth and me by chip skylark,1.0 48512,rt advekit do you agree how does socialmedia affect you mental health ,0.0 48513,miscourtney online ive fallen out with twitter i feel need to get back into the habit and yes iow what a weekend miss it now ,2.0 48514,rt okknavi literally everything httpstcotdigospebk,2.0 48515, im sorry to hear that kara so hard coz u want to be apart of his life its not like u have only been with joe xx,2.0 48516,lonliness and isolation i literally have no friends even online ones and it makes me feel like such a pathetic piece of shit the only social interactions i have with other human beings is casual meaningless small talk with family and coworkers i dont have anyone that i could truly call a friend i thought i could manage being alone but the isolation has been getting to me as of late its driving me crazy ,3.0 48517,rt pablofedados this is sad really really sad 😭😭😭😂😂😂nandossa ,2.0 48518,alarm clock is not connecting to wifi any more ,2.0 48519,rt psuworldcampus reduce everyday stress and anxiety through these guided meditation videos courtesy of pennstates kami dvorakova ,1.0 48520,xxdepinkladyxx meh not in the mood studyin ,2.0 48521,i have no friends on twitter so i guess im posting this one to myself hello self back to facebook,0.0 48522,tired of uni got to sleep an achievement for an insomniac and floormates woke me up but shouting next door hate complaining though ,2.0 48523,my blog is set and ready for next planplanning next plan ,0.0 48524,gonna eat crawfish ,0.0 48525,is trying to give a grammar lesson she fails at life ,2.0 48526,feels really bad that future bro in law got his car stolen yesterday ,2.0 48527,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 48528,got any solutions i am very behind on online school and my mom is mad at me but i have been crying bc school is too hard so now i am insanely behind and probably gonna get grounded for a long time i want to kill myself so i dont have to do school but i dont have the balls to do it any solutions on how to feel better,3.0 48529,jesssicababesss hahaha im suposed to be getting ready stop it yous i blame yous for my latenesss ,0.0 48530,realsaltydogg for the love of transformers please ,2.0 48531,rt noturmcm me wow im actually starting to feel happy again my depression ,0.0 48532,narfmaster im pissed off with itunes cuse its so bogged down now how can i update my apps ,2.0 48533,my head it hurts ,2.0 48534,prolly gonna miss the gap band i really need to get my car,2.0 48535,mrrehwaldt im really sorry to hear that ,2.0 48536,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 48537,missmandarae ur little bf is perfect hes playing instruments and shooting hoops already im so proud of him ,0.0 48538,homeetongue is hurting super bad ,2.0 48539,partytime at what shall i wear,0.0 48540,texas at night is creepy ,2.0 48541,stuartsharpe who was the chicken factory guy i thought she was the cheeky monkey ,0.0 48542,i spent my first quarter of a centuryim and the more i think i know the more that im sure im retarded ass agirl told me yesterday im not so disappionted in myself but im stuck even in this quarantine and all that free time when im supposed to invest in myself i find myself numb no dreams no goals taking what others allow me to pretending to be a saint maybe cause im a cowardi also do alot of sport but it doesnt feel good because it feels like punishment sorry for any language mistakes as you see i apologise even if im not to blame and women ignorance of me even makes everthing worse like there is probably something im doing that is wrong and that is the question i ask myself every night,3.0 48543,maths exam tomorrow booooo ,2.0 48544,homework ,2.0 48545,this is too much ,2.0 48546,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 48547,hilzfuld thanks ,0.0 48548,idk why im so depressed but idk how im going to finish the last four weeks of this semester any suggestions ive been procrastinating on writing a page paper and its due today i have other hw too due the next couple weeks i just wanna sleep and zone out ,3.0 48549,jesusotero u have fun doing that even though i have no clue what that is ,0.0 48550,cebit apple microsoft canon fujitsu ingram micro synnex werent there altech had the best stand with high tech gear on showcase,2.0 48551,i wanna make a resolution to be visibly unashamedly queer this month but i have a lot of anxiety around bein seen as much as i want to be,1.0 48552, we can handle it with mental health a bullet hole in youre kids head,2.0 48553,aerxo thaaanks ,2.0 48554,aaahhhh sometimes i hate being single ,2.0 48555,rt lifeaseva can we all stop treating anxiety like its a choice and something cool to have thank you,0.0 48556,when is it time to get help so this is officially my first post on reddit ive silently observed a while bunch of posts over the years but never actually participated in anythingi have a question for people who are depressed and got help at what point did you know you needed to get helpi dont want to be attention seeking in the least neither my friends nor i would peg myself as a sad or depressed person in any way but i often find myself overwhelmed by sadness debilitated to the point of not wanting to move off the bed for hourshaving been unceremoniously ejected out of and immediately replaced in a year long relationship that lasted my entire adult life the effects have been exacerbated on valentines day but this happened in october and i should be okay now right she was honest enough to tell me she was leaving me because all this was too intense and her new boyfriend is airy and breezy but thats just gone ahead and discouraged me from ever trying to be with anyone again nobody should have to go through what my ex went through dealing with me this in turn has shut down my only hobby playing guitar badly given how most of it was playing and singing songs for herbeing an international student hasnt helped either im away from my family and cant freak them out with any of this from thousands of miles away im very good with code top of my class ahead by miles with minimal effort but just cant seem to land a summer internship rejects have sent me further down this rabbit hole i can deal with it but god damn it really stings ive got lots of second opinions on my profile from faculty and industry veterans who attributes this to just plain ol terrible luck skill has no role to play in getting calls for interviews apparentlya lot of people around me are worse off though but instead of the misery loves company approach this makes me feel terrible because they seem to have their sadness under control with unwavering determination to succeed even though they are sad for a day or every time im faced with this level of sadness im completely devastated this has happened before but i had my ex to help me through itself harm hasnt set in but one day i was trying to find out how life insurance payouts work and if mine can compensate my parents for my rather lavish expenditures as an international student not that they needed it too desperately im too much of a coward to do anything but knowing i have options justmakes me feel better the idea that i can end everything in case things go sideways and not smiling ironically gives me strength to get on with things in lifethis is going to get some serious hate here but im a huge futurama and rick and morty fan because the trivialization of our very existence is the most fascinating theme ever but the nihilism involved just makes me feel worse religion makes me laugh so thats out of the questionbut i really have to mention here that i can be a fun person i have loads of friends who have helped me tons after breaking up and i love them all no childhood issues either loving parents and the coolest sibling in the history of siblings so i cant tell if this is a temporary slump or if im actually dealing with something i need help withdepression is very taboo where im from so i cant discuss this with most people i know and so here i am on reddit asking random people ive never met before to evaluate my psyche and determine if i need helptldr mostly happy person but been very sad for months how to tell if i need helpps general suggestions on how to shake this feeling are also welcome ,3.0 48557,is so excited that theres a hobby lobby in layton utah i cant wait ,0.0 48558,it is normal to be sad or feelingdepressed from timetotime or during the emergencysituations causesofdepression,1.0 48559,monday morning traffic i think so stopping to get some gas then work hello week,0.0 48560,theres a big chance its going to be today my suicide i was going to try amp wait a week but im ready now i think the universe is ready too my main regret is trusting people as cynical or immature as that sounds im ready to let go i dont have any need to be angry at this point if it werent going to be today it would be in a few years max i know no one cares about me or maybe some of them were never aware enough of my situation to know ive been past the point of no return for a bit now at least months probably i dont have anyone to say this stuff to but i accept that i wasnt meant to be here long,3.0 48561,back in economics hell ,2.0 48562,getting better but still failing i told my closest friends under a year ago they encouraged me to tell my parents life got better because i felt free then it got worse because i started noticing everyone handling me like a child im and suicidal my friends were always there and i met an amazing woman who i told all of my problems to anxiety depression the usual it seems and she has helped so much im proud to call her my girlfriend i reached out to a psychologist who my most trusted counselor recommended just started going a couple weeks ago but i still have the bad nights the nights where i drink to slow my mind down except alcohol doesnt slow down the thoughts anymore just darkens them how do i control my brain how do all of you continue on and get better i want to get better for those i love but i just dont know how and i think time is running out,3.0 48563,listening to adam lambert music ,0.0 48564,teen girls are more than likely to experience depression than boys ,1.0 48565,lost my spark again this whole weekend i have been feeling numb and without any energy to do almost anything that i enjoy except getting drunkit started on thursday when i listened to we dont talk anymore again after i got drunk and for some reason those words from the title felt so powerful id say and its been my go to song these past few daysjust venting i guess but damn i feel shitty,3.0 48566,its almost summer i hate school that why im so happy,0.0 48567,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 48568,my dhs depression is weighing on me today today is a tough day for me my wonderful dh has clinical depression i am always there for him but it never seems enough i have my own depression issues that i tell no one about it seems selfish to say it out loud i feel like i want to cry all the time but i need to be his rock i wish i had someone to talk to,3.0 48569,rt forjungs jangan sampai trending sensor namanya he doesnt need to see his name trending bc of this sad newsim shaking and i didnt,2.0 48570,my therapist wants me to take meds but the prospect terrifies me ive struggled with various levels of depressive and obsessive thoughts for years but its become worse this year and my therapist thinks its a good idea for me to try ssris she thinks that a lot of the usual therapeutic modalities are actually feeding into my obsessive loops and making me feel more depressed and that the peace of mind i could get from meds would help me be able to face stuff more in therapy and take more concrete steps toward recovery the idea of being on meds though scares the shit out of me the idea of doing anything consciously mindaltering is really frightening i dont even drink wine let alone purposely let loose and get buzzed or high the one time i ever got buzzed was one time when my drink was spiked and it was awful i know that being on meds wouldnt be like that but honestly the idea of me not being in control of my own mind terrifies me i mean my mind is me isnt it i could handle it if im able to change the way i think gradually and with effort which is of course why i started therapy in the first place but the idea of me being at the mercy of a drug and not knowing what im going to feel like or think like or be like at the end is just really scaryof course im also looking into things like potential side effects increased suicidal risk etc but this is the thing thats really holding me back and i was wondering if any of you might have any insight into this thank you all,3.0 48571, thank u soooooo much lil mama xoxo ,0.0 48572,well bags of fun im going to have burning this lot off tonight ,2.0 48573,katwoman congratulations im looking forward to hearing all about it over a drinkie,0.0 48574,katrinavee wow seriously nice work ,0.0 48575,foxandfriends gretchen i hope your mom left the baby pics at home ,0.0 48576,tommcfly write a song one single for next cd ,0.0 48577,honorsociety lima peru and supporting you guys ,0.0 48578,even to bad to kill my self i am so fucking pathetic i cant even get the courage to kill my self this knife was on my wrist but i just couldnt do it i hope that its going to get cold maybe even scum like me will manage to kill him self if it is a more passive approach any tips,3.0 48579,i feel like im going back to where i was a year and a half ago hi this is my first post in this subreddit so if im breaking a rule or something like that please let me know im years old and i live in italy im saying this last thing since im going to talk about some things that i dont know if are the same in other countries like the school system for example one year and a half ago i was really struggling with depression after i finished high school and due to problems with finding an apartment in the city i was supposed to go to since its a small city with a high demand for apartments especially from students so after searching for an apartment for something like months i started even before finishing high school i gave up that university and i did absolutely nothing from september to march that was one of the worst periods of my life i wouldnt do anything except for laying in my bed eating shitty food and binge eating or not eating at all there was no middle ground i wouldve probably ended my life if my girlfriend wasnt there for me during that time and im lucky that shes still here to this dayafter that period i got a job and everything went better i didnt love the job and i didnt want to do it for my entire life but it wasnt bad i was making some money and the people there were fantastic every day i spent there was fun because of those people i worked in a warehouse in april i decided to apply to another university completely different from the one i wanted to go the first one was a video production university the universitys name is something along the lines of university of arts music and spectacle long story short i got accepted at this university and i started going to it in september everything was fine the university is one of the best in italy and its also only a train ride from where i live so i didnt feel the need to look for an apartment everything went great for a week but then i started feeling that i didnt like it at all i didnt like any of the classes and still dont since as i said before its a completely different university than my first choice and has nothing to do with cinemaphotographyvideomakinguniversity has started again on february the since winter break lasted from the of december to that day during that winter break youre supposed to give at least three exams i didnt give any exams because of how i was feeling then and how im feeling at the moment and since the university started i havent been to a single class simply because just thinking about those classes puts me in a really bad place and completely switches my mood so much so that any time i see the universitys website or just glance at the schedule of the classes i feel that my stomach is upside down i would wake up in the morning look at the schedule and just cry then go back to bed staying there until on a good day and until night on a good day it also doesnt help that i have generalized anxiety panic attacks and insomnia i dont know what to do i feel like im falling back into depression even though im not sure about that i want to drop out economically it wouldnt be a problem since in italy universities are affordable and i pay €year so im not looking at any debt or anything like that i dont know what to do i would go to a psychiatrist as my psychologist advised me to do two years ago but i cant afford it and once again i would take my own life if it werent for the fact that theres my girlfriend and it would crush her to pieces if i did and shes also the only real reason im living for at the moment what should i do how can i get out of this please i need help ,3.0 48580,started fluoxetine weeks ago struggling with more suicidal thoughts thought id make a post here since i cant call my psychiatrists office until tomorrow ive been taking fluoxetine for about two weeks now which is about the length of time my psychiatrist said it would take to start working the past few days ive been struggling with more suicidal thoughts than before and feel more hopeless than before am i having a negative reaction to the medication or am i just getting worse on my own,3.0 48581,peterfacinelli i ve posted your bet on my facebook account in de twilight group more then a thousand reactions already ,0.0 48582,is not liking the weather outside and gutted im up hope everyones okay in la after the earthquakeo,2.0 48583,went out early this morning to look at some cars couldnt find anything that was just perfect ,2.0 48584,dont toy with my emotions abc family its not a new season of gilmore girls just a season you havent shown before ,2.0 48585,headed back to atl here i come you guys whats for dessert,0.0 48586,oweew urrm gb i thinki cant believe its full ,2.0 48587,kellynnchan thanks alot ,0.0 48588,ducksuga wey que pinche sad ,2.0 48589,today me and britney bought a buttload of temporary tattoos and put about five on hahaha i have two tramp stamps ,0.0 48590,too much fun at the dance show with everyone p man i miss dancing it was so much fun being on that stage ,2.0 48591,goodbye sun goodbye mood i feel like i was doing so well then i broke my hand six weeks ago cast is off and i should be able to start doing things i love again in a few weeks but the sun is gone and ive nosedived just like i do every year at this time so much hard work gone i havent had suicidal ideations in six months and here i go trying to live again,3.0 48592,saturday nightno plans no friends ,2.0 48593,yea i cant sleeep idk why guess ill just lay here and listen to some music,2.0 48594,alyssascott hello i really dont know what i am doing but i love you haha,0.0 48595,nhoyie yeah from season dah tu hehe havent watch season though oh hai ,0.0 48596, off summer sale at wwwjawbreakingjewelrycom use the promo code jjsummer at checkout ,0.0 48597,rt charstarlene my heart goes out to those of us whose anxiety has gone from crippling to an accelerating vomitshitdeathlike ever since,1.0 48598,writing helps me get through a depressive episode the quiet still sound of lonelinesshaving friends but no one to really understand youthey dont understand what its like to hope that at night youd fall asleep and never wake upnever again having to deal with anxiety loneliness anger jealousy fear sadnessnever having to deal with the pressures of life and the constant eyes of judgementwhat have you done with your lifewhat makes you interesting what do you do for funnothing nothingness is the fuel to your nightmareyour living nightmare that you call a lifeyou lay there and think whats the pointwhats the point in anything anymorewhy are you herethis is a freewrite i do these to help me sleep at night when im going through a depressive episode i hope that everyone finds something to help them get through the excruciating days and nights ,3.0 48599,guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuud morning ,0.0 48600,ddlovato are you watching the mtv movie awards milez just lost her fist award to ashley tisdale ,2.0 48601,realjameswoods and they care more about other countries citixans then their own sad,0.0 48602,we areabout to land on mars and yet depression a condition as ancient as time itself is being misunderstood it seems like society as a whole is trying to escape our human condition this really puts things into perspectivewe accomplished so much we have advanced so much we are so much technologically advanced that we no longer feelall this progress should favour quality of life right but no self driving cars are being created and yet we still misunderstand depressionwe landed on the moon and yet depressed people are as lonely as everwe can save a person biologically and yet we cannot save someone feeling depressedwhen you tell someone that you are depressed most of the time they take it lightly they reply just think positive or praying for you what the fuck does that mean depression is not temporary sadness it is like having someone else inhabit your body it feels like part of you is dead and gone you cant just change mindset like that you need help not prayers not unsoliticed and useless advice like that on other occasions you are simply despised because you are depressed and people do not want to be around someone who might drag them downsociety sucks we have achieved such high quality of life and yet we still cannot understand each other completely rant,3.0 48603,last day at the ko olina off to north shoreee,2.0 48604,im the problem i fuck up everything i do everything where im involvedevery time i say something i share an opinion i open my fucking mouthif i do something or if i dontsomeone gets upset sad and then everything is ruined for everyonethis happens with my parents my sibling and now my with my friendsim not selfish rude prepotent but i know im the problemevery mistake i make just haunts me everyday it hurts everyone is better without me everyone is happier without me everything is better without meim so sick of this im so tired of livingi want to eradicate the problem,3.0 48605,i like your funny face your sunny funny face ,0.0 48606,im sad conans set is different it was so him ,2.0 48607,whats a good comeback for youll be less depressed if you lost some weight got told this when i finally opened up to a close friend instantly stopped revealing more about my issues and laughed it off pretending that comment didnt hurt,3.0 48608,jeremycshipp i dont think we have any magical forests over here ,2.0 48609,i dont enjoy arguing with my brother it just stresses me out more im upset ,2.0 48610,i neeeed chocolate ,2.0 48611,reminder jokes about suicide arent funny,1.0 48612,my partner is depressed hes expressed that he is not in a good place mentally right now its been about a month he cant explain why and says he just needs to go back to therapy he just hasnt done it yet how do i help do i push him to try to explain why he doesnt know how i can help but i want to help do i even need to know why to help i feel so lost and i dont know what to do,3.0 48613,rt nasirpasir johan nora kenapa tak buat kiki challengenora danish nanti depression kena kecamzizan jangan risau kalau kita d,2.0 48614,just got home from hanging with replay ceviche in major pain right now due to nonstop dancing would love some serious tlc right now ,2.0 48615,so i got a job now and im excited but at the same time im dreading it worried ill fail worried my social anxiety will kick my ass its at a jimmy johns so its not like its anything major and its only part time but im just so scared any words of encouragement would be nice i stay tired all of the time as well so no more sleeping the day away,3.0 48616,my boyfriend of two years just told me he cheated on me i didnt react at all i just stared at him and went back to doing my work i feel so empty right now and im having trouble sleeping now considering we share the same bed help ,3.0 48617,i feel like a loser in this country！ i was a happy and successful person in my home land i had a really good job as a manager at a very young age making thousands of dollar every month while the average wages there is then i moved to the us with my husband who is a us citizen the first months i had to wait for my green card which is also my work permit this time was great cuz i considered it as my break after a long long time working so hard then the card arrived i applied for a county job and other jobs as well but the county one is the one i was looking for good news kept coming as i passed all the tests and the interview was the very last step in the hiring process i failed i failed the driving test too feels like i cant do anything here since my degree is not wellrecognized in this country i applied for other jobs in the mean time but no luck yetive been unemployed for almost a year since i arrived this is like the worst because im a workaholic and id been working since i was i dont have the license so i stay at home almost all day doing nothing but chores and games and studying languages i can speak languages fluently but it seems not good enough here i feel like a loser i want to end my life so bad because of all the stress unemployment has brought to my life people keep asking me about my career and i dont even dare to answer because they are all successful ones ive lost for the last few weeks i have all the negative thoughts in my mind that i want to get rid of but its just so hard im getting crazier and crazier im afraid that for one moment i cant control i will harm myself i still love my life my husband and my family so much,3.0 48618,rt proxactears you already know what time it is 😎 ⊙gt dep,1.0 48619,stayed up all night went to work at only to find out im in tonight fuck thattt im so tiiired i start in mins bloody work,2.0 48620,i am looking forward to this summermany trips planned with family and many relaxing days with my husband ,0.0 48621,rt mysteriousfact not being able to control your negative thoughts is also a warning sign of depression,2.0 48622,hunnykataria im fine thank you ,0.0 48623,coolvsratednext tooth ache headache ,2.0 48624,charliemcelvy thanks i always use sxchu when i need a free stock photo its a great resource im looking for video footage though ,2.0 48625,had a great day at the beach its officially summer getting in the shower now to wash the sand away lol,0.0 48626,rt livpsy be with someone who is good for your mental health,0.0 48627,missing on all the tweetsbusy working ,2.0 48628,is going to get contact lenses hopefully ,0.0 48629,hloeecayy get followers a day using wwwtweeteraddercom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 48630,oops lol well hopefully the party will help them forget their situation for a while ,0.0 48631,i always feel like i want to go home even when im at home or somewhere near home i just always feel like id rather be at home but i dont know where home isi just want to go there its probably just somewhere better than here but yeah i always feel like i want to go home,3.0 48632,kayasmith morning still not had enough coffee away to get quick shower then hopefully clothes are dry that are in tumble dryer,2.0 48633,wants bbq ,2.0 48634,come back some time agrr exam i hate learning but uptated a site a little lublin lvamptt and a book about a boy,0.0 48635,hey guys i like this guy and it totally sucks cause hes a good friend ,2.0 48636, tips to get motivated when youre feeling depressed set the bar low practice selfcompassion recruit support or ask for help envision how youll feel after the task make the goal to do it not to enjoy it acknowledge your courage for stepping out of your comfort zone,3.0 48637,i hate my life everyone hates me and used me i pretend to be an idiot so they will stop treating me like an outcast only for it to make me their favorite punchline i go the gym not to get healthy but to literally escape from my life i hate being alive it sucks ads but i lack the balls to rope,3.0 48638,just got home from work geoff has a sore throat now boiling hot water to make a cup of chamomile tea gots the day off tomorrow yay ,0.0 48639,tweetieelovee haha no its just a pain n th bum to start my laptop lol im thinkin of gettin the ipod touch for wifi lol,2.0 48640,drewseeley have fun seeing the hangover probably the funniest movie ive ever seen ,0.0 48641,hospitalization have you ever been hospitalized for your mental illness why and did it help,3.0 48642,here are safer natural alternatives to anxiety drugs — dr joseph mercola mercola june ,1.0 48643,morning everyone ,0.0 48644,rt dodo cletus the rescue dog has anxiety and so many health issues — but his new parents know exactly how to calm him down httpstco,1.0 48645,so much to do before starting new job tomorrow ,2.0 48646,watching dirty dancing favourite movie of all time sad that patrick swayze is so sick these days ,2.0 48647,aphroditechic cheers ,0.0 48648,is planning for the weekend shutting down soon ,0.0 48649,how do you deal with depression in school i cant believe my own emotions right now i decided to finally speak to disability services before this semester i was diagnosed with anxiety depression and agoraphobia im taking two uc prep courses had a test today and forgot to let dss know about it so took it in a classroom setting the hassle of private testing gives me more anxiety had a panic attack before the test no clue how i did had a lab after and did shit on it hands were shaking and i was still feeling shitty from the test anxiety get home at about tired and dead and burst into tears in front of my boyfriend i still need to study for a quiz for my math class tomorrow morning and i know i wont study enough to make it if i even try this the worst ive ever felt in college and ive been doing it since winter ive been crying every night for a week my sleeping schedule is fucked as i stay up crying from stress i nap in the day time and it screws up my days might drop my calculus class because ive been failing all of the weekly quizzes and the grade is solely based on quiz and test scores this would result in a shit load of money taken from me from fafsa loss of pell i think and obviously not advancing with what i think i want to do i dont even know its safe to say that i cant remember the last time i was this depressed maybe in highschool when i had an abortion im having self harmself destructive thoughts creep up on me i find myself hoping to get into an accident on the way to school and die the only thing keeping me sane is my boyfriend he holds me and tells me its alright is supportive of me possibly dropping my calculus course he loves me and thats all i have in life i barely know my family anymore i have no time to socialize i have no time to write do art do yoga and meditate and read books which i used to occupy my entirety with and love i have no time to work on building my van so i could camp out in it i feel like my life isnt set in the right direction due to this stress but im not sure if my mental illness is dictating everything im having to sacrifice my mental health and wellbeing for a passing grade its not sitting well i am going to make an appointment with a school counselor and psychological service counselor to understand better where i sit thats all i can do for myself,3.0 48650,ambermacarthur gah i changed my twitter url and you went poof nice florida episode of commandn,2.0 48651,wonders who else will admit they have more tolerance for cute bad kids than ugly bad kids its not anything to gloat about tho ,2.0 48652,i had a great vacation last week no its back work ,2.0 48653,i feel hopeless help hi im a high schooler who feels like shit all the time there has been so much on my mind and i feel like i have no one to talk to i feel hopeless and i am seriously tired of living i dont want to grow up because of the fear im not going to succeed in life and im going to have to struggle more than i already am i am capable of getting good grades in school but my motivation sucks ass and i cannot handle doing things outside of school because i am not motivated and im sad all the time besides school there are other things going on in my life my home life isnt great i overthink a lot and i often have random thoughts of self harm i have never injured myself before even though i nearly have i sit in bed and cry and cry and i just want it to stop my childhood was basically wiped away from me i have siblings who i love so much but i feel jealous because theyre getting the childhood i never had i feel so bad feeling that way my parents werent in a healthy relationship and im not going to go into detail but it gave me ptsd that i deal with a lot i went through everything and now they dont have to i hate saying it but my parents caused most of my problems but are unaware of everything i could be wrong but i feel like my childhood was the start of everything ive always been a negative person that really sees no positive side to anything and i hate it because my negativity is starting to affect others im not going to sit here and say i have depression and anxiety or im depressed something along those lines because i have not been diagnosed with those things my parents dont believe in mental health stuff really so its hard to get the help i wantneed i come home and feel so sad i just want to die im tired of getting up every morning because everyday is the same i have had bad thoughts that i havent gone through with but it all hurts so much im so scared of everything how can i help myself how can i feel happy again will things ever get better i feel like i have no purpose im so insecure nothing feels right anymore i feel so disgusted with myself and im so disappointed too as for overthinking and all that stuff i assume i have panic attacks a lot i really really overthink i make up scenarios in my head that will effect me for days and i cannot stand it its terrifying how ill make up horrible situations in my head and start believing theyre true it all makes me so anxious nothing is going right in my life i feel like im hit with constant bad luck i have no hope i feel so alone what did i do to deserve this i dont know if i even believe in god but i have been in so much pain that ive been praying to god every night and asking why me im so scared and i just want things to get better im so tired of living in a nightmare im sorry if this is poorly written i have so much on my mind i cant think right,3.0 48654,rt itsashlyperez today my therapist told me the anxiety im experiencing is called adulthood,2.0 48655,wanting to go home ,2.0 48656,wholesome content just makes me feel worse it used to make me happy to see stuff like wholesome memes or things that were heartwarming but now it just makes me cry its sad knowing im never going to be happy,3.0 48657,echiebabe thanks a lot hun nice and what are you watching on tv,0.0 48658,i keep trying to change my pic wont work ,2.0 48659,i want a boy to call my own ,2.0 48660,scruffysmommy no i am not sorry i asked her but she has me as like a head person at camp now so sorry,2.0 48661,rip david carradine i remember religiously watching kung fu with my family when i was a kid ,2.0 48662,who has managed depression for years ampor decades what methods tools did you use according to my mom i was quite depressed starting at the age of five and have lived with it for decades tried lots of books tips techniques faiths trends and therapies still i dont want this to be about me i want to know what other folks used and whywhat was your life of wandering like how did it work what failed you what would you recommend to a friend or enemy and why,3.0 48663,did some proper exercise for the first time in a while yesterday o muscles all aching today because of that ,2.0 48664,im frustrated today i woke up at in the morning and was planning on going to school today because i didnt go yesturday i couldnt fall back asleep or do my homework thay was do and was hust laying there with my thoughts i got so overwhelmed i told my parents at that i couldnt go to school and yelled at me that was when i took a shower because i was scared and frightened and had a had a anxiety an ptsd episode in the shower meaning i was scared of loud noises and have a constant fear of what happened to me when i was younger and being in a state that is reliving it after i tried to do something productive but for only min and fell took a nap i woke up with no one home and i tried to relax myself and tried to not be in a depressed state but im all alone and everything that i want to do try to do wish to do creates no enjoyment or any type of fulfilment and that makes me frustrated and scared mostly of myself what i am going to amount to if im currently living in my own filth in my room that i havent cleaned in months and how can i find the support with myself because i dont have a support system with others even my own family so im just laying in my bed wishing i was dead but thank god i have at least some hope where i dont want to off myself to be optimitic about my future even if that is of my thoughts i just cant stand myself and i hate myself and i wonder if others hate me to i know this might just seem like a teenager who is a senior is being lazy but it is so disabling that it makes me hate myself more and more and more where i cant stand my accomplishments my apsirations myself and my life i dont know what i am here for or why im even alive and i wished i actually killed myself years ago when i had the chance i apoligize for the selfhatred and negativity that you just read i hope everyone else will experience at least some aspect of stability in your life that creates comfort for you thank you so much for taking your time to read this,3.0 48665,akynos we so need to sit one day over some drinks and have these convos tweeter is a bit annoying for it ,0.0 48666,misterro which bestiary do you have mine are all packed away ,2.0 48667,cool spa were doingnamed after metrying to get out to oregon wwwtheallisoncom,0.0 48668,ttaasshhaa i feel your pain im so sick of this house im so bored too ,2.0 48669,candacecbure can you believe we dont get abc family on our local cable ,2.0 48670,rt konk men seeking help for depression anxiety or any mental health issue is an act of self love that you deserve dont suffer in,1.0 48671,just need an outside opinion so a little preamble after my brother had a pretty spectacular meltdown that cost him his job my family got around to talking openly about mental health we have a long history of mental illness going back at least three generations but up until last week we never ever talked about itanyway while im a little older than planned im currently studying for my degree after my problems finally boiled over in and basically cost me a whole year i had to come back and resubmit some things for my final due to a prescription error i ended up off my meds for the entirety of last month during that time i accomplished practically nothing due to withdrawal and suicidal impulsesmy final paper is due in a few weeks by my calculation if i pushed myself to the limit could use what i have and likely finish it within that time however i would be putting myself under tremendous stress and it would be a piece of crap that would at best barely pass before i came to study i had a low paying job that i really enjoyed and felt happy at least for somebody with longstanding depression doing im now considering abandoning the degree and trying for my old job again after the first real open talk with my family in years i realise they would be supportive of what i do no matter what however i also feel that after the five long years it took me to get this far i owe it to them my girlfriend and everybody else who supported me to at least tryim going around and around in my head and i guess i just want an outside look do i push myself to the limit and risk breaking again for a slim chance at a degree im not sure i still want or do i hope everyone supports me spare myself the pain and go back to my old life,3.0 48672,cianodriscoll happy birthday week to you too so ,0.0 48673,romeany thinks shes terminator cos she has pink eyeshe wants me to play john connor ,0.0 48674, gimme like of em ,0.0 48675,katenallen sounds better than what i had for dinner kate wish that i couldve joined you ,2.0 48676, how come the kareoke has stopped now ive come upstairs ,2.0 48677,mightyrighty love your twitter name ,0.0 48678,oh and dad im sorry i cant spend fathers day with you ,2.0 48679,descentia listening to me talk about nothing ,0.0 48680,lilyroseallen bahaha ok rant over now sorry for messing your page s ps looking forward to seeing you in brisvegas in june ,0.0 48681,can life really get any better i finished school a year ago and started university i made the decision too fast since i just wanted to leave my hometown because i didnt have good friends there i always struggled with finding friends in school i got bullied for a time for my appearance in my last year i found really great friends but in the end they hurt me the most although i explained to them that what theyre doing isnt good im not sure if they were aware of how they played with my mind or if they just didnt care by that time i lost a lot of weight too by eating healthy and i was happy with my appearance but still i was shy and kind of anxious i used to be very scared of buying food in school breaks because it would have meant i need to talk to a stranger so i just starved until i was homewhile the last exams started i got into a new group of friends and i met a boy there i really liked but he was in a relationship with one of my friends obviously i never told him but we had a lot in common and i felt some kind of connection because he told me that he used to be as shy as i was but managed to change he said he might help me to become more confident too what i didnt know was that he liked me a lot too it ended up with him kissing me on my prom him telling his girlfriend and therefore breaking up and ruining our prom i guess i feel really bad because of it i feel guilty although i kind of wished for something like this basically like in all these teenie movies where the unpopular girl gets all the attention on prom finally blabla but i didnt want a relationship to end because of me i didnt want to be a cheater i wish he would have broken up with her before starting anything with me and now i lost a possible chance of love and my friends so when university started i was too scared of the other people i didnt go to the parties since i knew it usually ends up with me crying in the bathroom therefore ofc its my own fault i couldnt find friends and no one talked to me i knew it cant stay like this so i went to a party from my sister everything was alright until more and more people arrived and i didnt know anyone and couldnt talk to anyone i left early and spent the next day in my bed doing nothing soon i realized that i dont like my courses and i wanna drop out of uni and start working first till i know what i want to do i didnt have bad grades in school but im completely lost in this giant pile of jobs and unis im losing motivation to do anythingmy mom thinks im weird bc i dont talk to anyone she isnt wrong but the way my sister and mom talk about me hurts me a lot and make myself think im weird and useless i wish they could understand how i feel what ive been through and why i might be scared of social interactions i always thought my sister would understand me more since she has light depression but she literally called me retarded lolby now im just wondering what is my purpose i dont even have any goals i dont enjoy the things i used to enjoy i used to be a gamer and now i touch my computer maybe once in months for gaming i dont talk to my online friends like i used to i used to draw a lot read and write but now im just watching youtube in my free time maybe so i feel less lonelyeverything is changing to the worst basically and i just want to have a purpose i am scared that i fall deeper into this by everyday i dont expect anyone to read this whole thing but i felt like i need to share this with someone if you actually read this thank you,3.0 48682,help im male and i think no body likes me and always takes advatafe of me i think i have aspergeror some form of autism i really fast have te feeling that people ar making fun of me or talking behind my back every one i talk to just stops saying things back after a few days at first its always great and it looks like i could have a new friend but then boom out of no where the conversation dies i feel like im a parasite or something idkbut the other thing is when i do find a girl thats interested in me i just feel like she is cheating on me or lying to me i just want to be loved by some one im afraid im gonna be alone for the rest of my life i work hours as a welder so i dont really have time to go out much and when i go out i most of the tine stay to myself on my phone because im afraid of getting rejected any way i have acne in my face so that doesnt really help boost the confedence when im on a to long dry spel i just give myself to older men sorry of some things are unclear or my typing in trying my best ,3.0 48683,lawrencekenttt unsa naman sad dol hahahaha,2.0 48684,evantravers we did fix that bug however we cant retroactively fix your files this may help you fix them ,2.0 48685,is meeting becky in abit ,0.0 48686,what is this assessment counselor read a few short stories about people wantingnot wanting to do something then asked if the character was telling the truth or lying does anyone know what this is about,3.0 48687,mileycyrus can you do me a favor and pray for my niece hannah been in amp out of the hospital with jaundice was just born saturday,2.0 48688,supernovalwt its tiggering my anxiety imma drop dead,2.0 48689,greeneash how did you like berlin i couldnt be there yesterday eveningwhere did you stay the adlon hotel hihi,0.0 48690,oh no cbp has my sister ,2.0 48691,so bummed about not being able to go see diazdave this weekend i miss him very much ,2.0 48692,crc im ready for tonight nj woo so excited,0.0 48693,yeay my laptop works but my internet is whacked ,2.0 48694,about to watch afl teams man i watch to much tv no cox ,2.0 48695,screwed up with my fifa password ,2.0 48696,headbigg the mad marathon of gears sessions has done my xbox in lol rrod last night ,2.0 48697,morning busy busy daay so see you guys later everyone have a really nice day missing you yet t tweet tweet,0.0 48698,today im showing depression whos boss so my regular day looks like this get up do nothing surf the web get fatter and unhealthier get drunk sleep rinse and repeatnot todaytoday its get up drink coffee brush teeth and floss go for a run catch some sunlight pullups burpees pushups shower clip and trim everything that needs clipping and trimming brush teeth again take all my meds and some supplements for good measure put on some fresh clothes have a friend over prepare some real food and probably have a friday night like a normal person incl fun have a nice day ,3.0 48699,drinking coffee out of a souvenire coffee cup from salt lake city on the side of it in big bold letters is printed slut ,0.0 48700,pm studiomax said good morning from wicked south beach have a great weekend to all max ,0.0 48701,rt mhcc canadians say disability should include invisible disabilities eg mental health issues read more httpstcoloeanqqlfq a,1.0 48702, have a good day ,0.0 48703,omfg i have to take a major dump amp im in the streets ,2.0 48704,rt realkjrs massago would agree with ☝️☝️☝️☝️all of them are horrible waiting on fair housing repeal sad,1.0 48705,perezhilton hey xoox ,0.0 48706,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 48707,just watched stepsister from planet weird on youtube hahaha ,0.0 48708,tommcfly youre on swedish tv right now gordon ramsays the f word haha very funny lol xxx,0.0 48709,disability disclosure applying for jobs what does checking the box that i do have a disability do as far as my likelihood of getting the job do the employers even see my response to this question,3.0 48710,rt britkaaaa good news everyone barbie just solved depression ,0.0 48711,crystalrain i was listening to the pirates st yesterday awe has the prettiest st ever i just love the violins ,0.0 48712,a discussion about parents so does anyone else not like using time with their parents i dont feel like i see a lot of posts about this but i am not that used to reddit yet so that may be why the thing is i have not been diagnosed with depression and to be honest i find it weird how people talk so much about depression and make it a part of their personality while not even considering to get diagnosed or at least where i live since we have free healthcare i want to go to the doctors to talk about how i am feeling but i am scared that he would tell me that i actually have depression or that i would have to use medication or go to a therapist because i wouldnt know how to tell my parents my family is muslim so that means that it is very looked down upon to have depression or commit suicidemy parents are also mentally abusive or i think that would be what you call it everyday i have to listen to my mom and dad tell me that i am too fat that i am too lazy that i never to out that i use too much time on the computer that i never workout that i wont amount anything in my life if i dont start taking stuff more seriously and holy sht it is freaking exhausting to listen to man the way i deal with my parents is to not listen to what they say and try to ignore them and use as little time as i can with them do you guys have simillar problems with your parents and if so how do you did you handle this,3.0 48713, century breakdown fucking great yesterday was great,0.0 48714,bondservantlz i cant ,2.0 48715,its being stupid again and not letting me get on it now ,2.0 48716,ummmstacy its ok weve all been horrible losers we have no role models lofnotc,2.0 48717,heartbreaking news for swinf flu family as they have lost their baby too httpbitlyxykme,2.0 48718,sandravanderwal hi sandra yes i have a dog named obi he is a white chihuahua mix how about yours ,0.0 48719,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 48720,enjoying the lazy sunday waiting for lunch,0.0 48721,why do i feel this way i am currently undiagnosed for any mental illness due to my parents saying mental illnesses dont exist so im not able to get help and thats why im herebasically my life is fine im years old i have a middle class family that besides having strong offensive opinions try to love me for who i am but i dont know who i am i just feel awful all the time and i dont know why i partially feel guilty for feeling awful when i have such a good life and whenever i try to get help from a guidance counselor or physiologist i feel like in a way im betraying my family and ive noticed recently the smallest things will just set off my trigger and ive almost severely hurt myself for stupid reasons and then realizing the reasons are stupid makes me feel worsei dont know if anyone here who know about mental illness can help but if you can please the feeling that wont go away hurts and there is nothing i know of to get rid of if,3.0 48722,depression news micrologias role in neurodegenerative disease receives further scientific support ,2.0 48723,i just painted my nail pink thats the productive thing ive done today x ,0.0 48724,rt btsmotivator dear you yes you who are reading this i know u say ure tired instead of sad you say ppl dont need you instead of s,2.0 48725,my eyes hurt ,2.0 48726, i am very impressed congratulations ,0.0 48727,want but not in the uk store ,2.0 48728,madeinfebruary im free friday after before night missed u guys at fusion ,2.0 48729,au hey i never got ur last reply just happened to see it when i pulled up twitter weird haha ,0.0 48730,father now knows i own and smoke hookah ,0.0 48731,most hated female in cpeake ,0.0 48732,polyblues i pretty much am the embodiment of my depression i have enough for the both of us and more,1.0 48733,damn i miss him and i dont know what to do,2.0 48734,danceafterdark oh shit keep us posted ,2.0 48735,texting the boy falling asleep on the boy getting woken up by the boy ha predictable cant wait to see what you send me from england,0.0 48736,my anxiety disorder convincing my subconscious to develop more irrational phobias amp disorders ,2.0 48737,siratomofbones loved up pixar has never failed me ,0.0 48738,chuckles watching white people trying to out white each other is something else ,0.0 48739, cool in germany its summerbut in the moment its just raining hope it gets betterwhat time is it in australia,0.0 48740,what do you do when you hate every part of yourself and scratch yourself till you bleed constantly and feel completely disgusted by your being or what about when you discover a part of your life could have shaped you to be a mess riddled with anxiety and need for attention when you thought it was insignificant what if everything is in my head and nothing is wrong with me then what do the people who ive made worry n shit over me do what do i do,3.0 48741,by the way so many boys i wanna collect em all ,0.0 48742,lilbitsassy bret favrethat another person im sick of hearing about my happy tweets are going to really go down ,2.0 48743,just bought some sleek looking usb speakers by lacie for my office ,0.0 48744,i had sudden inspiration so i wrote my first poem to put thoughts into words this world is not what they said it would bethey said there was joy and to just wait and seebut that was a lie as years have passedthey said that the pain would not lastthe pain hurts more as i cut the lineand they dont seem to notice once i say im finethere are the few who say past my maskbut those same few made me not want to lastthey said they would help me so i opened upthen they threw a grenade for more pain to developwhen i met you the pain went awayso it hurt even more when you couldnt stayi never told you how i feltthis is the hand that i was dealtnow here i am thinking should i stay or let it endbut none of that matters since i can not mendi might let it end only time will tellill stick around for now in this world that is hell,3.0 48745,good morningfrom snow to degreesloving colorado today darn i could have worn flip flops today,0.0 48746,past couple of days have been rough trying to find reasons to stay happy and cant think of any has been bad not rough bad ive been to the hospital twice caused by random stomachback pains that caused me to scream in agony turns out it is related to my kidneysim scared it will happen a third time i am eating healthier and praying it wont but if it does i will get emittedi just got my dream job too and it is causing me to be unfocused at work im starting to not care and its not good,3.0 48747,i dont even know anymore goodnight,2.0 48748,spademuzik stay strong u can do it young eddison u got a strong back ,0.0 48749,winintheend your buddy told me to direct that to you i told him so he said direct it to you ,0.0 48750,kyungsoosbitch squareupbichs sad thing is im also this desperate to find hints about exos comeback 😂😭 ,1.0 48751,embarrassed by a teacher so i started the year off in an ap science class that was really boring i switched to chem and had to change my whole scheduleincluding dropping piano which i was rlly excited abt ive only had chem classes but i really dont think its worth it to be unhappy wit my whole schedule when i could just go back to the old science and just be unhappy with one class well i told this to my chem teacher today just so she was aware that i wouldnt be in the class today she told me it doesnt make any sense to leave science for piano and basically made me feel stupid for being more interested in music than science i literally told her because i really respect her and i thought it would be nice to let her know i cried my whole bus ride home and tomorrow i have a double period with this lady i dont know when or if my schedule will get changed i feel hopeless lost and stupid sometimes i wonder why i even try whats the point everything seems so hard and for what i just wish it would end,3.0 48752,i do and dont want summer i wnt it bcuz well no skoolbut then i dont get to see my friends a lot ,2.0 48753,has just added twitter gadget to my blog ,0.0 48754,josieinthecity shes a brriiiiickkk hhhoouuuuuussewoooooo ♫ great song but it wont play unavailable ,2.0 48755,photocentrum thank you for the follow ,0.0 48756, do you want susan boyle to win it seems like the whole world is rooting for her ,0.0 48757,determined to beat this depression sun is out poppy is lively httpsandvichorg is refined and still making me chuckle stats added,0.0 48758,made it to june its june summer is around the corner well if youre in the northern hemisphere like me i want to congratulate everyone for making it this far its a new month and new season which means new opportunities for us were almost halfway through the year and we didnt give up its a struggle i know but look at how far you made it i know summer can be a tough time for us family gatherings and loud fireworks are some of things that can trigger us but we need to remember that we can make it through im proud of everybody here its the last year of the decade so lets try to make the best of it its been difficult for me but things are slowly looking up although i still have intrusive thoughts and have moments where i feel irritated but i have been making progress on my own for the last few months im proud of myself for thathugs to everyone,3.0 48759,ooo i like these send me your inspirational words i need your positive vibes,0.0 48760,had a really nice morning with family now im looking for something to do that does not involve working ,0.0 48761,biology homework now i really hate mondays ,2.0 48762,sianz hehe i wish got my ipod nano on at the mo but doubt my patients would appreciate me listening to that whilst i see them ,2.0 48763,momtron i love my wfb i shouldnt be but ive been combing little bits of it on the sly supposed to be working on the black fleece,0.0 48764,riomccarthy i would play it right now if i could but its ram battery is dead ,2.0 48765,it gets better until it doesnt i was close to suicide and then things got better and i was finally happy now im starting to get depressed again even though i have everything ive wanted my entire life happiness is temporary sadness is permanent,3.0 48766,my work is the thing pulling me down and lifting me up its a rollercoaster so i had depression for good years now it had its ups and downs you know but since i started a new job a year ago in has been wildim an artist who never thought that my talents will be seen then i got an offer for a job as a tattoo artist pure luck i must say but it gave me this power to really start working on my art i started saving money at my regular job for my own equipment working a day just to keep up with the lifestyle that hit me i thought how amazing this is someone giving me that chance to express myself and dying inside from all the responsibility and stress coming at meas i quit my regular job and started working at the tattoo shop i quickly realized that its going to be a pain in the assas a new artist you need to prove yourself every single second in the shop no one trusts you as an artist no one lets you do you own big beautiful thing and if they let you do some changes to their simple and wornout infinity tattoo they want to see like different sketches for which you really dont have time plus you are working all those pointless sketches for freedont get me started on messages for appointments which are rolling in at all hours and as soon you dont respond in an hour or two people are starting to panic spreading bad publicity etc so imagine highly depressed person who barely has enough energy to get out of bed going to work where you are questioned all day proving that you are worthy when people are coming in with wornout designs some days i just do the copypaste tattoos because i dont have the will and energy to change them but it breaks my heart i know i am an great artist and i could do better i know i have an amazing opportunity and i am grateful but juggling depression relationship problems and this kind of work gets me on the breaking line almost every single daydo you have any similar factors in life making your depression a rollercoaster which doesnt stop ,3.0 48767,morning have u seen my yellow converse who took it ,0.0 48768,bridgetm mm im hungry we have no food ,2.0 48769,rt klarksoncelly oomf cant speak english all he says when i try to talk to him is djdjjdjd this is so sad like and rt,1.0 48770,i wanna wake up where you are ,2.0 48771,at the dog park with toby ,0.0 48772,where to start novelracing ,2.0 48773,rt lifeaseva can we all stop treating anxiety like its a choice and something cool to have thank you,0.0 48774,dornilust oh shit that was today i wanted to go ,2.0 48775,llcooldave you know skinnys mean gay to straight folk damn me for wearing straight legs and a fitted ,2.0 48776,rt hogwartsmaglc everything about harry potter that i see now just makes me so nostalgic forever suffering from post potter depression,1.0 48777,loggin off people night everyone x,0.0 48778,ubringmejoi so sad u not followin me yet ,2.0 48779,check out on twazzup some interesting people there ,0.0 48780,mandilynn still doesnt help my dang anxiety plus being asked how old my kid is,0.0 48781,bah its too early i hate having to get up early for work ,2.0 48782,needs to stop taking photos with other peoples cameras luckily photos have been delivered ,0.0 48783,synthesezia i probably shouldve mentioned that its not finished but in ie none of the graphics load no logo no banner no nothing ,2.0 48784,gyant oi really thats on my to do list this mornin too ,2.0 48785,i had so much anxiety walking this ,1.0 48786,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 48787,im so tuckered out from todays activities really fun i like a mid day nap is in order ,0.0 48788,selenagomez i just watched your video with joeyaww your both cute ,0.0 48789,sounds good ,0.0 48790,anyone owe me money now accepting visamastercardsolo i can process your credit card on my iphone ,0.0 48791,playing with the munchkin today talking cakes and getting ready for a yard sale tomorrow not looking forward to that ,2.0 48792,rt cakefacegrace o hey depression nice to see u again,1.0 48793,yes diversity won ,0.0 48794,i dont see the point in all this anymore im a year old male from new zealand where of deaths last year were from young males aged between mental health in nz has been a big issue and were now just talking about it most of the deaths of young males were due to suicide and mental health issues such as depression for myself i wouldnt call myself depressed although i used to be very very sad i am now much happier but i dont see the point in living anymore i understand people care for me and all that and that theyll be sad if i go but seriously who wants to be living for other people just to cause self deprivation sure living for other people and making them happy is a good thing in life but for me i want to be able to live for myself the amount of negative thoughts ive had these past few days have been tremendous and its not overwhelming and stressful to me i just dont want to continue living this world its too corrupted and its unnaturalin america everyone seems to talk about freedom and how its so abundant in the usa but its not we never have freedom with governments controlling the world and the amount of wrong in the world no one is ever free ahh im getting off topic what im trying to say is i dont want to go work in a job to support my wifekids just to live my life who gets to determine what a humans worth is the government there has been no motivation for me for a while now and i dont see the point in continuing this pointless life im just done if i owned a handgun or any type of firearm i wouldnt be alive right now knowing how simple it is to get this all over and done with i dont just want to be okay i dont want the pain to go away i simply want to finish it all and see what happens afterwards life is just so unjust and i cant escape,3.0 48795,isnt going to see rent because her dad is a douche so sad ,2.0 48796,isaiahvest yayyyyyy see ya there ,0.0 48797,help how do you know if youre depressed i am an year old in college im pretty active socially im in a frat and clubs i am doing well in school rn i am majoring in comp sci and my last semester so pretty much all of the signs say that i dont have itbut when im alone i get sad and think about my mom i hate her so much because she left my dad and i i drink a lot of alcohol too like i get drunk times a weekive been seeing a therapist at my school for my issues with women but its basically a conversation with him asking me intense questions and me reflecting he never gave me a diagnosis for anything im just curious do you guys think that im depressed,3.0 48798,last lie in school tomrrow boo but going liverpool today haha,2.0 48799,may the be with you ,0.0 48800, i love ireland but i love me some booze amp good company too enjoy everyone epic dance amp flip a cup por moi ,2.0 48801,gabe with his grandparents miscommunication wfriends so got stuff done around the house then saw up now seeing star trek again ,0.0 48802,alyssaraynebow lol we need to hangout soon im getting sad having no friends i need my alyssa,2.0 48803,i just coached a bunch of little girls at netballit was rewarding ,0.0 48804,jamley i missed the mayfair woz it gurd x,2.0 48805,banteringblonde bookiebo thank you wish you gals could make it ,0.0 48806,staircase owwwww ,2.0 48807,rt entrust you look depressedthanks its the depression,1.0 48808,trying to motivate myself to get out of bed by cooking anyone got some easy recipes i never learned to properly cook its hard for me to motivate myself to get out of bed sometimes when i cant even make myself anything enjoyable to eat i was wondering if you guys could help me out by giving me some very easy recipes to start out with i dont have a very large budget for food so preferably something with simple cheap ingredients im hoping that i can give myself a better start to the day if im eating something that i actually enjoy i currently just eat toast with nothing on it and drink milk so that i can feel full i dont have any dietary restrictions meat is fine with me,3.0 48809,ive cut my leg open it wnt stop bleeding ,2.0 48810,aniedj oh i hope not ,2.0 48811, suckks to be youu ,0.0 48812,stealingkitty quotyou got your violence in my sexquot quotno you got your sex in my violencequot two great tastes that taste great together ,0.0 48813,searching for bluetooth device on best buy website any advice on a good bluetooth,0.0 48814,absolutely shattered stuck in a job centre alldaylong ,2.0 48815,rt necation okay i think im good nowmy depressionhttpstcofssbgcwvmn,0.0 48816,i honestly just feel empty ive had a rough life and ive been bullied alot but never told anyone ive never really been able to talk very well to anyone and ive been cast out and never invited anywhere i have a girlfriend and i feel like all ive done is ruin her life and all she does is forgive me and i feel like shes going to leave me pretty soon im paranoid about that because ive been lied to and really its hard to explain but before her this one girl said she liked me but really she only dated me to prove to her friends she could date anyone and she needed a new toy while her x was on vacation the next girl only wanted to say she has fucked guys lucky me ive ruined my life amd any chance to do something with it,3.0 48817,mattgraham i know its like the apocalypse isnt it ,2.0 48818,maybe yall can give me job ideas ive tried asking in a few other forums but i got attacked and ridiculed for the perceived flaws of my thinking process and didnt get much in the way of ideas i also maybe wasnt articulate about my position in life so ill try here i figure this crowd might be a little more forgiving if my internal thought process could be perceived as problematic oh and im no interloper im thoroughly depressed my backgroundive been fired from jobs times now im living with my parents i do have a retail hourly job but the hours are very few this is tough from a standpoint of my personal pride with an emphasis on the fact that i come from a rich family that includes my brother and father having gone to an ivy league school when i was a sucky teacher we stressed the importance to the lowerincome kids of getting a college degree to make a better life for yourself so here i am with a college degree looking at shitty lowpaid manual labormy hangupsso its a bummer for me to think that i should stay away from intellectual jobs that give me crippling anxiety since that will inevitably lead to failure but thats how i feel and honestly no kindergarten slogan about positivity is going to magically make things better i cant stand the thought of being responsible for just about anything as i have a very strong fear of being judged negatively i hate the idea of creating anything and presenting it to the world which is why i never took serious risks back when i was a journalist of all jobs but i want a job and ive been sitting on this for well over a year i am too anxious to take on a real job but too proud to take the leap into menial work id try to justify myself to yall but no its naked classicism aside from the lesser money made by manual labor there is in my mind a huge stigma that comes with it and for me an admission of failure to the outside world that ive given up trying to be successful and that i literally cant handle challenging work that with my programmer brother and chemical engineer father i cant hold up a job and im a big failure at life so now im doing petty shitugh but because of real life i need a job that pays more than my a week retail job the retail job doesnt give me even a fraction of the stress of the other jobs and its shown me that im not actually lazy you see when the work is clearcut and dictated to me ill just do it for hours on end period when it involves creativity and intellect ill sit on it and play games on my phone etc money is money and id like more of it side note its hard to look cool on tinder without fulltime work and a place of your own feel free to skip the above and just read this look yall got any ideas jobs that might pay halfdecently that i can reasonably apply to without specialized skills and training i dont feel entitled to a job and dont think my college degree makes getting one automatic but maybe yall could help me get think of something a bit nicer than store clerk i come from a snooty uppercrust background so i dont know the world of blue collar jobs as far as my passions and interests ha ive been burned too many times to imagine myself having a job that is not only fair and honest but for which i have a passion im okay working at a place without a passion for it as long as it helps me pay my bills i would prefer structure and clear objectives so ill politely pass on how easy it is to do seo from home in the long run i would like to get back into higherpaying more meaningful work but i need something now id appreciate any ideas thanks ,3.0 48819,what can i do im tired hi ive been in denial of depression for longer than i feel comfortable admitting ive wanted to die for a long time i know my friends and family would be upset but they would eventually move on sometimes i make decisions based solely on my depression and i always find im wrong like the fact that no one wants me around i feel like a freak and a burden to everyone around me im scared i am bipolar and dont know what to do currently im seeking help and getting blood test to rule out other causes i used to use marijuana to oppress these feelings and since stopping i have cried and been upset everyday im scared,3.0 48820,dougiemcfly what happened tonight with percy ,2.0 48821,stupid fever sad to say i cant go out with my friends tomorrow ,2.0 48822,sarahmarina yep yep so youre feeling any better or still the same ,2.0 48823,i am going to kill myself because of the corona virus our church service is done by an application called zoom during our service i wanted to take shower and got naked but i didnt realize my camera was open and everyone saw me naked i cant live with this shame and i am going to kill myself today,3.0 48824,rt jamesjaaay me listening to sad indie music ,2.0 48825,tummyache ,2.0 48826,rt eyequotebudden tryna get depression to suffer from me,2.0 48827, i wish i couldve talk to you today miss you and love you,2.0 48828,kaendri plz help me i try to pm humanhyrokkin but get no repley just nothing at all from thim after plz i cant pk this way,2.0 48829,just got home sadly has work soon ,2.0 48830,watching oth finally have time to watch all episodes again now i have vacation ,0.0 48831,im feeling sicki think that lady did something to me ,2.0 48832,ilaam pennipotenti birds barrus elephant tollo sustuli sublatum to lift up raise elevate carry away ,0.0 48833,sorry for the lack of videos at the latest i will have a new video wednesday,2.0 48834,eating lunch practice soon ,0.0 48835,my friend i dont know what to do i feel so lost right now like im losing my friend to depression life has been very hard for them latelythey are shutting me out and in turn my mental health is worsening but i dont want to put that burden on them i think they know im not entirely alright and in turn thats making it even worse i try my best to be strong and i really want to help i just dont know how we used to play games and hang out every day online but now its like im not wanted anymore they leave without saying a word ignores messages and then i go to sleep i can barely eat i wake up several times in the night i cry at work just writing this is difficult i dont know what to do im kinda panicking this is the closest friend i have i just want this to be over i want to be happy with my friend again,3.0 48836,ducedaprivilege lol im learning i know a few things about the internet itself just trying to figure out twitter its a nice song thou,0.0 48837, lucky for him im broke i like to keep my options open though,0.0 48838,finally in bed gnite loves sweet dreams,0.0 48839,good morning all from the east coast hope youre well and have a terrific day ,0.0 48840, uck raw eggs drink ,2.0 48841,i hate going to get an inspection sticker and betsey is missing a shoe i seriously need to find one before my dad gets angry,2.0 48842,urgh inteenet crapped out on me ,2.0 48843,someone please push me over the edge i just need something to make me spiral out of control so that i finally go so crazy that i dont resist the urge to kill my self please give me that shove so that i finally do it and end my suffering,3.0 48844,two more weeks for my car omg i literally cant take it anymore ,2.0 48845, i hope the world gets better for future generations for our children and our childrens children i hope the world can last as well,2.0 48846,i dont remember the last time i smiled please forgive me spilling out my emotions im so sorry in advanceim a freshman in highschool ive been struggling through depression for my entire life i tried to take my own life when i was twelve and ive been on antidepressants since marked a change in my lonely life someone fell in love with me for the first time and he made me so so happy we started dating and i felt happy for the first time in ages he cheated on me with an older girl during november i felt as though he was the only person i could trust and care for and to be betrayed like that broke me i tried to take my life multiple times throughout that time and the only thing keeping me going was him i still havent gotten over it and i hate myself for not forgiving him ive spent every night sobbing and i dont want to live like this anymore i want so desperately to be held and loved but i know im not good enough for that i want help but i dont know how to get it,3.0 48847, rreally kaingit tt ,2.0 48848,armsultan thanks thanks man yea its a skycity apparently they renovated it it looks mean,0.0 48849,allisonnazarian then it works out well ,0.0 48850,love making sweet like candy promises only to break it some promises are meant to be broken anyway ,0.0 48851,its a lonely feeling when you eat the last cashew out of your chicken with cashews dish ,2.0 48852,not wanting to work ,2.0 48853,nobody sees me how i really am im in what looks like a really great relationship but the fact is that it is really rotten my gf says she thinks everything is fine but i dont and she does nothing to help i do love her and i really want things to work but they dont i really dont know what to do i cry myself to sleep every night i feel guilt over something that is not my fault i am just in a rotten place and breaking up wont work because our lives are too connected it might not seem as too big of a problem but thats kinda where the problem liesas i said nobody sees me as i really am i feel depressed sad anxious and many more not so great feelings every day but nobody can see that people ask how are you and doing and i feel like i have to say great even though it really isnt that way,3.0 48854,dr luz towns mirandas mission to make mental health stigma for moms a thing of the past ltmphd globalmoms jnj ,2.0 48855,written version ,2.0 48856, and miserable had my first kid at got married to the girl because her and my dad were christian prechers ended up with kids by the age of divorced by met a girl that im now engaged to who recently was diagnosed with ms im drowning in child support just lost another job fuck i dont know what to do anymore theres more to my story but im too drunk to even post ,3.0 48857,i love making new friends ,0.0 48858, i dont know how to get the output type from nast and tables but tomorrow i will find that,2.0 48859,my heads thumping ,2.0 48860,how in the heck does this happen how do i lose both siblings and a dog in the course of minute where are they oh gawsh not good ,2.0 48861,finally getting help after being told to seek help from the counseling services at my universitylaw school for weeks and after multiple attempts at going to do so and then deciding not to for whatever reason i finally went today and filled out the entry paperwork and have my first appointment wednesday hopefully this helps,3.0 48862,rt herbbeauty vitamin is a human problem omega are found in seeds and nuts vitamin d is from the sun and meat causes can ,2.0 48863,crazytwism am so sorry left the desk and went to pick up a frnd my bad ,2.0 48864,theblaze jim careys a nut job he suffered from depression for years 🤔any guy that let jenny mccarthy walk out the ,2.0 48865,shooting yourself in the foot ever realize you cant feel anything and then shout yourself in the foot just so that you feel something but then realized the pain in your foot is worse than feeling nothing and the worst part is you cant unshoot yourself,3.0 48866,mels future husband is djing the fashion show ,0.0 48867,rt allouratoms the most gender sexuality race religion mental health inclusive show quite possibly ever and you bloody cancel it wh,1.0 48868,blondore you need to get one that plugs into the cig lighter so it stays hot ,0.0 48869,stroughtonsmith find where apple hides the app store reviewers and punch them a few times for me please ,0.0 48870,this is sad,2.0 48871,checkandmate goodnight edward ,0.0 48872,thebucknation tannersdad sadly that tends to happen a lot with charities costs more to operate than to donate ,2.0 48873,cecenewnew xoxo ,0.0 48874,souvlaki hut for dinner tonight or some shit haha yay i dont want home cooking tonight i dont know why ,2.0 48875,bobblahblawg humarashid good luck on your finals today you guys are going to murder civpro lots of luck to anyone else i missed ,0.0 48876,venessahunt ahh dont say it my faves ,2.0 48877,musicmonday thanks ,0.0 48878, hi have any prefix but do make sure that it comes with a big big ,0.0 48879,meetjonasbros so loving your background listen to this its sad radio jonas brothers thinking of you,2.0 48880, i subscribed to your videos haha i like your fred video good job haha you should do more of those with that voice,0.0 48881,mcing prom tomorrow prom party afterward,0.0 48882,rt simphiwedana the reason i talk about my depression is because silence kills depression flourishes in silence when you name and talk,1.0 48883,pfmonaco good morning i am getting ready to go out there right nowlolgoing to be nuts again today wish me luck ,0.0 48884,i cant twit pic in the quotladies barquot sorry tweets,2.0 48885,i was a mile off wasnt i ,2.0 48886,miyukiii the surreal life eh lol thats really cool that you are student again im excited for you ,0.0 48887,im not depressed but im kinda sad im studying at a normal highschool and like all of the kids here i had somekind of weird crush on this girl she studies in the class next to mine and we see each others almost everyday but i never had a chance to talk to her irl the first time we chatted was on facebook she was very kind and cute and it surprised me that she also like stuffs that i do we ended up chatting daily and at the end of the day i always promise her that i will talk to her at school the next day which i did not because im a big pussy this sounds very simple i know just talk to her you big idiot i say that to myself everyday but still i can not talk to her i always feel extremely worried and anxious around her and ended up run away whenever i see her this makes me feel like im a failure and i should just die a lot of question just keep popping in my head what if she give up on talking to me anyone have any idea of what i should do i think this doesnt fit the sub but i feel like writing this down i havent felt deeply in love with someone this much for years now and this mean alot to me thanks,3.0 48888,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 48889,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 48890, ooooooooh yes hd a bit of a guinness fest last nite so a bit fragile altho looks like a mite hv do the dreaded bampq run ,2.0 48891,that look anybody else get that look from people youre trying to open up and then it feels like theyre judging you and wondering why the hell cant you just be normal,3.0 48892, wish i could be there,2.0 48893,i feel nothing sometimes i feel completely nothing been on prozac for about two months its a kinda hollow worrying feeling its better than feeling like dying but i wouldnt feel a thing towards my boyfriend makes me feel a little guilty for feeling empty,3.0 48894,rt aalibabua a year ago i let depression get the best of me amp i was very underweight my anxiety was so bad i barely left my room with,1.0 48895,i have far too much to remember its making me anxious and i have to get ready or ill be late ,2.0 48896,davidarchie yeahjust heard ur dad talking to daniel lucky though u were not therehaha,0.0 48897,huge queue for haircut i knew i should have come first thing,2.0 48898,hella dramz on the hills drama overload i love it ,0.0 48899,my grandma stopped talking my calls ive distanced myself from everyone else in hopes of one day being able to love myself ive hurt a lot of people whether im right or wrong i have nothing to show for it im always so tired i have no interest or creativity i watch a lot of movies and work enough to maintain the lowest possible lifestyle and set aside money for the occasional nervous breakdown i fell out of love with my girlfriend things get bad and i never have the interest to fix them i never have good news im no longer worth the negativity my name brings to the conversationi cant believe ive made so many people feel this way without ever having any idea of the damage i was doing,3.0 48900,just got up getting ready for school ,2.0 48901, hahahahah thats awesome ,0.0 48902,headache ,2.0 48903,damn i think i have the flu ,2.0 48904,chriseng tqbf turkey bacon gt i know im a mutant i cant stand the real stuff anymore,2.0 48905,netizensmedia we need someone with research working experience hopefully worked in nielsen tns synovate before u know anyone ,0.0 48906,sheisthegirl aaaaaaaaaaa eu já vi esse morri de rir ,0.0 48907,going to church today then out for lunch yumm later study for science test for tomorrow ,2.0 48908, class i am giving on wed in metaplace is full maybe i will repeat it later because i feel bad leaving people out ,2.0 48909,but on a random note i cut my inner lip ,2.0 48910,hmm i believe that the silence is telling am i going to be disappointed dilemma,2.0 48911,missconway thats funny because i think i had just started following right before you started following me ,0.0 48912,justinnbenji almost youre missing on o uncoordinated and shut up just cause u make me fall all the time dont mean nothin lol ,0.0 48913,rothsteinjewlry get followers a day using wwwtweeteraddercom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 48914,celav thanks it was an awesome day,0.0 48915,minnerdinner my goodness thats horrible ,2.0 48916,i do not want to live my life is shit an i want to die i hate myself and i fuck every ting up,3.0 48917,think i may have a eye infection ,2.0 48918,finally accepting the fact that all cute guys are taken ,2.0 48919,idk what the hell is up but im just now going to sleepthis is some ole bullshithappy monday ,0.0 48920,is going wherever andre takes him ,0.0 48921,i made a throwaway account for this i dont know if this counts as a long post by the standards of this sub but i apologize if it does i sometimes wish i had real problems i dont mean to be insensitive or to trivialize the struggles of other people but i sometimes wish i had a conspicuous problem like being paralyzed from the waistdown telling people that you hate yourself for being a pathetic manchild doesnt curry much sympathyi havent been able to get a job that i can support myself with even though i graduated from college almost two years ago and im currently attending graduate school ive worked as support staff at a local church since i was a teenager im currently and i keep working there out of necessity in spite of the fact that im a closeted atheist and bisexual i cant be frank about either of those aspects of myself without getting fired i find it difficult to express in words just how profoundly this single fact eats away at my sense of selfworthwhats worse is that i cant discuss my feelings or beliefs openly with anyone in my family either partly out of fear for the possible tangible consequences of doing so im still financially dependent upon my parents and partly because im a complete pushover im easily cowed by displays of anger and id blame myself for making others especially my mother sad as welli could probably say a good deal more about hating my appearance wishing i stood up for myself more wishing i was better at making friends and forming relationships and a litany of other issues related to my selfloathing but this is about all i can manage organically right now,3.0 48922,i am going to kill myself these past years bad things keep happen to me i feel worthless and a failure i feel like i wasted my times i feel left behind from my friends i dont see any value on me i really hate myself i tried to hang myself twice but i failed i want to do it again i have changed my theraphist but i am not sure this time will work i feel that i didnt deserve to be happy i really cant see future in front of me i really wish i can still see hope but i cant,3.0 48923,going to meet my sis for lunch ,0.0 48924,had the worst possible sleep last night and generally feels like shit today boo,2.0 48925,liquidfyregames i dont have any complaints with its a bit frustrating loosing stealth when using certain turns but thats all ,0.0 48926,sara oh that is most definitely true but i have no coffee maker ,2.0 48927,cityrealist ,0.0 48928,rt depression is not funnyanxiety is not funnyschizophrenia is not funnyselfharm is not funnyanorexia is not fun,0.0 48929,rt xuekaa was supposed to be a stress relief doodle 몬스타엑스 monstax 주헌 jooheon monstaxfanart ,1.0 48930,rt noturmcm me wow im actually starting to feel happy again my depression ,0.0 48931,forgot to take the damn hair dye back to target today looks like scary hair till monday ,2.0 48932,��하기workworkwork ,2.0 48933,rt dejadeshea 😅 you aint the only one ,2.0 48934,anyone else feel their environment makes them depressed anyone else feel like the area they live in is depressing my mom has clinical depression and anxiety she barely does anything around the house as it makes her tired shes been through chemo so maybe thats why but that still doesnt change the fact that maybe she should change her diet or something to make her more proactive anyways why am i talking about my mom i grew up with a single mother in section shes been through a divorce thought she found someone better but he was psychologically abusive had my little brother he became developmentally delayed stepdad keeps coming in and out of our lives i can never maintain a job because that would increase our rent by and my parents would be like you have to stop working isnt worth it the real thing that depresses me is how can i go for my masters program when the program im in right now is so expensive that id have to work full time ive never done full time before what if my grades dont go well why am i saying all this i feel like everything ive been through made me become a depressed numb person i dont know what it feels like to be normal heck i left my last retail job after the first day because it didnt feel right i want to go out of state i want to take a trip to the west coast i asked my mom what does she think if i looked for a university elsewhere besides the tri state or east coast she said she doesnt want me to go there her usual responses are thats too far thats too hot you should stay close to family we live in a convenient area theres no reason to move then i usually say why dont you come with me get out of this depressing area tldr i feel like my family and environment makes me depressed and anxious i apologise if i bounced around topics and it doesnt make sense thats literally a representation of my thought process ,3.0 48935,just wake up n enjoy the breadtalk ,0.0 48936,watchin the flood love this vid ,0.0 48937,cptfunkyfresh i didnt make that picture that picture makes me look like a sith lord haha,2.0 48938,i cant go on a rice crispy jumped out of my bowl and died i cant live like this anymore jk i can live like this for weeks until i commit neckrope,3.0 48939,charleneamandax im trying to look for work ive sent off a million applications sigh getting a tan isnt really an option,2.0 48940,theearmada ahhh you just made my day haha i only live like an hour from houston and i havent gotten to see you guys in concert yet ,2.0 48941,dropped out of high school no goals or plans for the future things just feel like theyre going nowhere and it seems like i cant even do simple tasks im working a minimum wage job and i have no goals hobbies or interests i have no education and the thought of going back to school terrifies me how do i become a person with an actual personality instead of an emotionless blob people say go to the gym and i do but that still doesnt help what am i supposed to do with no education im just losing whatever hope i had left ,3.0 48942,idk what to do i was diagnosed with depression about years ago but nothing was ever done about it because my parents dont believe depression is a real thing ive been trying to deal with it on my own but sometimes it just gets to be too much for me ive tried to get my parents to understand but i just get shut down each time i usually spoke to extended relatives but due to family drama i no longer have anyone to talk to i go to a college i hate and where i have no friends so i spend the majority of my time alone in my door room ive tried seeing a counselor at my school on a weekly basis but ive convinced myself i am just being over dramatic i really just dont know what to do with myself,3.0 48943,druuunsauce whiskey and classic rock but now my roommate is moonwalking to stevie wonder and we should be historians ,0.0 48944,can feel a depressive episode coming i met someone new recently and i havent really talked to them that much and they live really really far away but i feel myself falling for this person and i really dont want to and i feel like that triggered a depressive episode its hard to explain its like this sinking feeling in my gut and just feeling sad you know that feeling you get when you kinda start to realize youre into someone and you find yourself thinking about them a lot and your heart skips a beat when their name pops up on your phone i have that feeling and i havent felt that in a long time and i love it and hate it and its killing me because i cant be with this person its totally unrealistic and i barley even know her ive never even met them in real life but i have that feeling whats getting me is ive been doing so good ive had a really shitty time when it comes to relationships and just recently been feeling better about myself but now i feel terrible i feel like im not meant to be happy i have absolutely no business falling for this person who lives a state away someone i barley know have only talked to a handful of times i guess its because i like chasing this feeling but i know that its ridiculous and that makes me sad because itll just lead me no where and im chasing something thats completely made up in my head then its the thoughts of even if she was closer she would never want me like that and just keep telling myself that im not good enough its a really wtf situation for me i dont know if its because i like the attention or if its just been way too long since ive been with anyone but fuck why am i like this not to mention that as a guy these feelings make me feel emasculated its like i just want to lay in bed and feel sorry for myself and overthink and drown in my thoughts i hate that i associate being depressed with falling for someone i do this to myself i just wish i didnt care about any of that i wish i was content with being alone and i wish i could just be happy i know i sound stupid and probably dont make sense but ive just been feeling all these emotions and i just wanted to write out how im feeling even though im terrible with explaining how im feeling i dont knowif you read all of this know that i appreciate you and hope you get to be with the person you want to be with,3.0 48945,mikeeemoore my mage is now ,0.0 48946,too much fun tonight woop woop love my bombshells savagewinters thedean woop woop ,0.0 48947,duranduran oh gee which album was that i dont know it anymore ,2.0 48948,music music music music music music exams saveee meee ,2.0 48949,doing science sick frm camp activities in the rain shiff,2.0 48950,monicabrighton bjwahlstrom great depression and ,1.0 48951, ohh aye are u cant wait get to see nole rarh aha,0.0 48952,im actually starting to miss school i feel like i need to reconnect with all my friends that i never see anymore ,2.0 48953,i had a craving for marzipan this lunchtime an unsated craving ,2.0 48954,edwardbbaldwin help get more votes for epic to win httpbitlyideablob ill even deliver comeon copywriter motivate the masses ,0.0 48955,ngl i miss the simpler times when depression and dissociation overpowered anxiety cuz at least gender dysphoria was kept at bay too,2.0 48956,im at the trovus tuesday breakfast currently doing the meet an greet thing httpwwwtrovuscouk,0.0 48957,how therapists should diagnose trump anxiety disorder via youtube,1.0 48958,tomorrow is the beginning of the end ,0.0 48959,omgeeitssteph thanks for the positive reinforcement i miss you ,2.0 48960,recamel hehe nice point doll i love that point ,0.0 48961,had great time at grade school reunion thanks ladies hope i wasnt too obnoxious ,0.0 48962,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 48963,xxsceneoxx two places without me ,2.0 48964,is not looking forward for a math final today ,2.0 48965,yumchagirl great to hear that the shoot went well im meeting up with sacharules tonight will get the details from him ,0.0 48966,thats why i love ya jimmy ,0.0 48967, u can look on youtube cause there are videos with better quality than mines ,0.0 48968,off to peru tomorrow for weeks woooooooo,0.0 48969,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 48970,rt jeoncrack me why u sad joon httpstcoxnkbzzxgkp,2.0 48971,vonbon i feel your pain we seem incapable of spending less than quid whenever we go too ,2.0 48972,some help hey everyone i hope you all are doing really well if not then i hope everything gets well real soon so ive been thinking a lot about suicide the past couple of months its always been there at the back of my head but its been way more intense recently the point however is that i feel like i needwant to do something before it all ends i dont know something anything maybe like cutting all my hair off or getting a tattoo or something im not sure if i want to do this because i want to gain experience or because i want to feel something has anyone ever felt this way how did you deal with it thanks in advance tight hugs and love,3.0 48973,littlehallie oh fuck shiiiiit i feel terrible hallie ,2.0 48974,isasmama i dont know but i dont like your tone and i dont think i want to talk about it anymore ,2.0 48975,i just want to be soomeones first choice doesnt have to be romantic or even involving a direct relationship i just want to be picked to be positively singled out i want to know what its like to have someone walk away from their group of friends to talk to me not out of pity but because of my personalitythinking about being someone thats vital and needed to someone or something makes my chest twinge with pain just wanted to get it out there,3.0 48976,thats so good to sleep in but i shouldnt have started my morning by eating a kebab eww s,0.0 48977,i should be quotbus stalkingquot right nowi soo wish i were still meeting jordanknight today ,2.0 48978,at home rather bored waiting for xxx,2.0 48979,rt truthesayer polnewsforever prediction for the future mental health industry will thrive for the next years,0.0 48980,mileycyrus you flight to germany but not to austria why ,2.0 48981,rt coldbeefbroth ppl that dont like cats are too pussy to live with individualistic personalityfilled technicallynotdomesticated cre,0.0 48982, lmao he is the king of the world with the wind constantly breezing through him,0.0 48983,sammountjoy stuart has bin fired as he got arrested last nite amp he keeps missing work so i aint gonna see anymore x,2.0 48984,just woke up and ate a huge breakfast now getting ready to leave and texting lol ,0.0 48985,i have no idea what to do i am no one its been nearly a decade since i was diagnosed with quite possibly worst mental illness a person could contract in their life what the name of it is is not important what is important that for almost years now ive been obeying voices in my head and trying to appease them to make them go away when i was i was at first diagnosed with ocd after a short while my mother noticed that some of my ticks and symptoms didnt seem normal for a child with ocd i was later diagnosed with tourettes but again the symptoms didnt match finally after visiting a specialist i was diagnosed with a widely unknown and extremely rare mental illness that has affected my life ever since over the years the voices would tell me to do different things and give me various rules to follow that were similar to ocd however they constantly have changed and now its at a point where i just cant get a moment of relief unless im completely asleep my dreams are my only safe haven it doesnt seem like a day goes by where i dont think about just ending it but i refuse to because of how caring my mother has been to me throughout my life in all honesty if i didnt have her i would probably just end it ive been trying various medications for years but they never go away there was only one instance when i was that i was put on celexa and all my symptoms went away and for the first time in years i truly felt the bliss of being a normal human being this was to be short lived as soon after the voices commanded me to abide by new rules that hadnt existed before then and i was back to where i was despite being hard to fit in and function at school peers i managed and hung out with a relatively popular friend group during the rest of my high school career hanging out with my friends on weekends and over the summer gave me a pseudo feeling of bliss not like i had before but it took my mind off the voices however high school is long gone and all my friends are at college i tried to commuting to a local university but found it hard to focus in class thats something i forgot to mention i used to excel in academics up until fifth grade when my illness completely took over i managed to bullshit my way through graduating high school because believe it or not all it really takes to graduate is to show up and give like effort so here i am now alone in the dark and i have no idea what to do it feels like everyday i become less and less human i would give anything just for one day of being normal i have friends and have had several girlfriends but with them all gone and me still here im alone with just my thoughts and the voices its overwhelming has anyone had a similar experience that has a solution i know i can feel bliss again like i did the short couple of days when i was i just need an answer,3.0 48986,man i have done pretty good for day of this quoti am not going to talk to uquot bs cuz im just not that into u game ugh u make me so mad,2.0 48987,kimkardashian such a busy lady its all paying offi wish i had a job ,2.0 48988,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 48989,thebibik same hereid be one year older in less than a month again ,2.0 48990,watching outrageous fortuneeee ,0.0 48991,day off grrrrr,2.0 48992,quicha thanks again quichaquicheand i wish i were there with you cassan and cypressim sooo bored ,2.0 48993,rt angeldei im so worried abt everything when is this anxiety going to leave me alone,2.0 48994,blairangela i dont want to i am going to cry all the way home,2.0 48995,yvettegr search quotdrunk history ben franklinquot on youtube were i not workingmobile id find the link myself jack black is narrator ,0.0 48996,kdvcashville omg that was my twin sisters fav song ,2.0 48997,danielhcwong taylor gt ampamp sweet mother of ampampamp my livie is only ,2.0 48998,ive been so lazy the past week or so just woke up from a long nap,2.0 48999,jerryskc what is the quottwitter trickquot i guess it still works if youre getting response ,0.0 49000,traceysolomon my heart stopped and i was excited for you dare to dream,0.0 49001,i hate my days off i have one day off a week i rather be working as that atleast keeps me busy i tried to sleep in as long as possible this morning after that i started to panic and get anxiety attacks from being at home so i needed to get out of the house cant wait to go back to work tomorrow the i feel more useful like im doing something right but i know that when im there i will just be wishing i was gone in bed thank you for reading to the end of this rant,3.0 49002, days weekends feels quicker than weekdays i am miscaculating something,2.0 49003,jaredchristian i know i remember you lovin her in my froshie year ,0.0 49004,tempted to run out and get some taco bell i have no self control when it comes to food ,2.0 49005,i need a good nights rest too much stress gnight world see you tomorrow matta ashita japanese ,0.0 49006,before my nagging turns to ranting im heading to bed good night all ps plz remember to unplug your electronics before bed,0.0 49007,i wish i had a puppy to play with while laying outside ,2.0 49008,qatv ha loves it ur lady friend dont like me tho ,2.0 49009,bored going to watch some torchwood tonight me thinks relax before maths exam tomorrow x,2.0 49010,benstein sounds good to me too ,0.0 49011,saw this in ydays nyt atgiggleswickhttpwwwtelegraphcouk asian families using selection techniques to insure boys over girls ,2.0 49012,mstrecie im good thanks ,0.0 49013,going nowhere in life i dont have any kind of real future still live at home with my parents dead end job that i hate never been in a relationship i feel like i should just give up because i dont see any kind of improvement ever happening considered killing myself but id probably screw that up as well im just not worth anyones time,3.0 49014,rndspringer hope little bunny makes it ,2.0 49015,hows that term go again quotin over my headquot yep thats the one ,0.0 49016,all these glastonbury related tweets upset me ,2.0 49017,lstacey hahahahah i knew ,0.0 49018,sooo tired and sore idk whats wrong with my foot back hurts from last night ha going to dads house this sucksss ,2.0 49019,fellow anxiety suffers listen up anxiety how to calm our anxious selves world of psychology ,2.0 49020,is watching bride wars ,0.0 49021,hiddenbedside hmmm clams ok wait so youre saying shes a goldigger you make me smile ,0.0 49022,the bug got away i thought i trapped it under a big cup but it was just string ,2.0 49023,someone hacked my youtube ,2.0 49024,back at work ,2.0 49025,nysrol hope you didnt get hurt too bad on base hope you get to come home soon,0.0 49026,almost done with college and no friends im a junior at college without a single friend not even a childhood or high school friend whenever i try to talk to someone in class i tense up and cant speak i got fired from the only student organization i talked to people in and nobody wanted to keep in touch with me my only relationship in college ended with them saying they didnt like being around me and they were just lying to not hurt my feelings i just sit in my dorm room alone all day i feel like the best years are passing by and i have nothing to show for them ,3.0 49027,joebevis yea and i will be in college with limited time come on mag uncharted and assassins creed ,2.0 49028,a little sad about changes in the workplace ,2.0 49029, lol good morning wordddhad to use ur shit again ,0.0 49030,rt neverknownfacts not having enough sleep per day leads to desire for sex depression and alcoholism,1.0 49031,listening to just jack embers musicmonday,0.0 49032,hey katbut thanks for the followfriday have a great weekend ,0.0 49033,spicypants lol i like the amp music best i think ,0.0 49034,trying to convince izziesquared to turn around to exit in my town plan failed ,2.0 49035,rt sugaplumcris depression ,2.0 49036,mizcalamity either way i bet the color looks great on you ,0.0 49037,yeah wings and i loooooove my elliot ,0.0 49038,also i am sunburned i am hurting had a good time at meet yesterday but walked all over creation and now am very tired,2.0 49039, you learn well nick just agree ,0.0 49040,lost my radio onair virginity today at the biggest national radio station ,0.0 49041,watching french open final at chijmes with annie and christine ,0.0 49042,felixmeister yeah wish i could pull that one ,2.0 49043,is so anxious to find out what jon and kate plus big announcement is i hope they dont all fall apart,2.0 49044,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 49045,theojg who could not love the original jesus geek often imitated and copied by many there is no replacement for the ojg ,0.0 49046,another rainy monday ,2.0 49047,rt memetribute me trying to better my mental health httpstcoroaxndwibe,1.0 49048,have to go goin to cosco bye bye xxxxx lys,0.0 49049,kelis opens up on her divorce with nas and basically says shes broke ,2.0 49050,bluefuego tshirt is nice but i need more cowbell you know what im talking about ,0.0 49051,lmao i tried to log onto the boards for the first time in like a year but i cant even remember my username fml,2.0 49052,spokewithpics that is so awesomei love arti love to see it and i love to draw mostlyhf now are you so proud i will be back sorry ,2.0 49053,sad about the cs but looking forward to the sox,2.0 49054,sittin at home summer school tomorrow grr really missing him ,2.0 49055,thejenius tylenol pm is where its at dude pobresita ,2.0 49056,i should be proud to months ago i stopped doing my voluntary work mornings in the week because of anxiety and depression after spending those months mostly indoors and only going out for groceries ive gotten myself to the point i went back there againof course anxious as fck because a i needed to go outside again b going on the bus in rush hour and c the whole what are people going to think and say but i was welcomed back with open arms by everyone even people that i didnt get along very well said it was good to have me back i think you can call this whole situation an accomplishmentfor some stupid reason i made a very important appointment after work normally i plan these things apart from each other to not be too rushed while going there or getting myself to worked up about it furthermore i usually take my social worker with me to appointments like this just to be on the safe side but i did it all by myself this time and it went well even the lady from the appointment who is familiar with my past complimented me about it when i got home i was tired as hell not weird if my normal routine is sitting on my ass at home eat a bit or sleep you would think stuff like this makes you feel good that youve accomplished certain things and even challenged yourself to do stuff you are not used to anymore well its the total opposite for some reason that i havent figured out yet today made it even worse it seems like all the bad stuff feels times worse now and even more hopeless than it already was,3.0 49057,can flaming bunnies really replace joanne it doesnt seem likely ,2.0 49058,passed followers now when did that happen ,0.0 49059,new star trek was one of the awesomest movies ive ever seen but so many inconsistencies in the science of their story disappointing,2.0 49060,how to cope with anxiety httpstcoqnuskbmtrw,2.0 49061,today is great customer service day for me highly recommend jordana at mac in pearlridge da girl knows her makeupvery helpful ,0.0 49062,lyzadanger did you check with the hotel concierge they probably have someone on call too,2.0 49063,justinkendall oh my badim only on level dang ,2.0 49064,what do i do everyone around me is trying to help me and i wont let them i know that i need a doctor to help know that i probably wouldnt get better otherwise but i absolutely refuse i dont want to be medicated and i dont want someone getting paid to poke around in my head i dont want people helping me taking pity on me nothing i just want to ride this train until it crashes and everyone wants to interfere now that ive made my decision ,3.0 49065,i have weird followers ,2.0 49066,home sweet home the last few pages of the philosopher and the wolf beckon my attention coming ,0.0 49067,moral support hey im a lifelong sufferer of this bullshit could i grab one of you fine fellas or gals for a private conversation i could use some help ,3.0 49068,depression medicine was wondering anyone have been on depression meds but seemed like they didnt work have been battling depression since i was a teen and depression meds never seemed to help me wondering if anyone felt the same ,3.0 49069,i wish it wuz my bday so i cud have some birthday sex ,0.0 49070,rt saraashcraft you guys what did cronsell amp i tell you they seriously physically cannot handle the stress of thegreatawakening th,2.0 49071,viviankwok haha just wait outside their huse thats not stalkerish ,0.0 49072,brettlutchman damn failed again spymaster ,2.0 49073,i hate falling asleep at only to awake sharp and ready at ,2.0 49074,struggling hard after a breakup hi everybody new to reddit and enjoying the support about weeks ago i found out my ex was cheating on me horribly for months with strippers and prostitutes among several other things months of lying and getting back together when i only knew half the story made things so much worse when the full truth was exposed but in essence it has left me incredibly anxious and depressed i am sobbing in public still and find that everything triggers it i still have a few more weeks left at school with this person until i graduate and randomly seeing them occasionally on campus makes things worse there isnt even any eye contact i am crazy lonely at school and all my friends have graduated and my family lives hours away i have more weeks left here and am considered going on anti depressants im seeing some friends working out eating well and everything i should be doing i just dont know what else to do im miserable any advicerantthanks guys ,3.0 49075,freshmen field day is over im gonna miss teaching ,2.0 49076,i wish my healthy veggie sandwich had bacon ,2.0 49077,jigitz i would come on skype but im at my friends house and she doesnt have it so i cant ,2.0 49078,the wonder girls are touring with the jonas brothers hm thats cool i guess ,0.0 49079,shydd sad bro🤦🏾‍♂️,2.0 49080,daviesgravey how do i find that ,2.0 49081,dang i wont be able to go to the gym today if i cant drive my car for shame sadly i can still go for a run ,2.0 49082,i thought i was following u should be now ,0.0 49083,shrutigoradia there is a reason im not using tweetdeck anymore you can disable facebook in the options does that change things,0.0 49084,today had its good and bad had less flashbacks and general still struggling,2.0 49085,relaxing while emma sleepsthen back to cleaning im sooo bored today but sadly im without a car until tomorrow ,2.0 49086,got back from mah lil bros baseball game we won last nite lost ugh i was madhome now wit a tummy ache ,2.0 49087,xelenixmartianx haha very good good night ,0.0 49088,pjlang doing whaaaaaat ,0.0 49089,jaclynmichele we should start a club ,0.0 49090,did it without the papers a for me ,0.0 49091,tuaw facebook update with no push notification that i can see ,2.0 49092,does it get better does it its been ten years for me now every day feels exactly the same most days i cant feel anything and on some days i feel too much i just started crying out of self pity and then got angry with myself for thinking im worthy of pityi get especially bad around big life changes im going to finish college in months and i have no idea how im going to get a job im considering finally getting treatment but treatment is expensive and money i do not have i look at all my friends who are currently being treated and theyre better than they used to be but they still have days where theyre exactly the same as me if they get as bad as i do whats the point whats the big difference can this ever be curedthe idea that my depression will never go away is the most comforting and upsetting thought i have comforting because at least something will stay the same the sadness will never leave it may come and go in waves but like waves it is guaranteed i want guarantees on the other hand the prospect of living like this slowly wasting away taking up space as the human embodiment of a piece of shit it makes me want to die i want to die a lot all the fucking time but i dont really i dont knowdoes it get better or is that just some shit people say to make you feel like it could,3.0 49093,followstrevors yes theyre magical ,0.0 49094,do u ever just get sad for no reason cause same,0.0 49095,medbie check out httpcheattheplanetcom for guides programs and hacks for neopets all users have access to a yooyuball trainer ,0.0 49096,dougleddon it was craps and it wasnt me ,0.0 49097,rt mochimanggae hows a liscensed mental health professional out here calling ppl that share stories about their own mental health throug,2.0 49098,i need some friends or followers or something i am a loner right now ,2.0 49099,im slowly starting to hate people alright ive been overthinking this post as i usually do so im just gonna leave it like this fuck it,3.0 49100,getchill i tried one of those usmade instantheating coffees they sell at coles etc a few weeks ago pretty bloody horrible ,0.0 49101,rissgarciaa b has been having anxiety and vertigo type symptom on and off for about months and nobody has any idea whats wrong 🙁,2.0 49102,pancakes music and train ,0.0 49103,long torso means funky playsuits are a no go but thanks to finicky fashion will probably be out soon anywho ,2.0 49104,at this very momenti feel like the happiest person in the world ,0.0 49105,marcgoddenactor what ,0.0 49106,rt i honestly hate how sensitive amp fragile i am i am easily stress amp that leads me to overthink amp couldnt think rationally,1.0 49107,buysandskittles thanks hun youre my bestie too via the fact that i have deets to tell you already i love you man ,0.0 49108,likethissong qiwoehsaoihdasohi vsf ,2.0 49109,now trying to fix my siss blog hahahaa so fun wanna achieve tat satisfaction when its done ,0.0 49110,i want to start drinking for all the wrong reasons im years old and i havent consumed alcohol intentionally a day in my life ive never been interested in drinking and i know that once i start there will be nothing to keep me from drinking again if that makes sense but damn for a while now ive just been feeling so shitty and i cant help but think about if i started drinking i feel like i can say i understand drinking pretty well ive been around it a lot as a teenager and i know that the reasons i want to drink are not right despite be aware of this i really dont care anymore if drinking briefly helps not feel like shit then i wanna do it why im writing all thisi dont know im just fed up with how my life is going and succumb to alcohol,3.0 49111,wow i have had thumbs ups so far thanks guys i just need more and my novel will be in the top you guys are the best ,0.0 49112,what the fuck is happening to my life seriously i have no clue whats going on in my life right now its all so crazy and stupid and confusing and dumb and i dont know how to navigate it at all im a year old girl i dont know whats wrong with me i used to be a good student straight as and bs nothing wrong with me academically i also had a really good social life i still do and then some shit happened and i got really sad kinda only hung out with one person despite having about a person friend group because i felt she was the only one who understood me when i tried to express how i felt but honestly i cant put how i feel into words how much i fucking suck at school and friend drama are the only things that swim around in my jumbled up head i want help so bad but im afraid to tell my mom i would never ever do anything drastic but im tired of feeling like shit and i want my motivation back im sorry if this doesnt make sense but i have no clue what to do anymore im a fucking failure at everything school any type of relationship and i overall cant do anything right please tell me anything and everything i can do to help myself feel better because im so close to losing it and giving up,3.0 49113,is freezing right now buuurrrrr lol and im boredi need something to do,2.0 49114,fuchsiastiletto i is fab hoping you is too tried to make him stay another night but apparently he actually has a life besides me ,2.0 49115,holy cow jon and kate plus so sad,2.0 49116, bcuz twitterific was not working but the app store just pushed the update and its all good now ,0.0 49117,watching jon and kate plus makes me sad i hope my husband never cheats on me that would be a deal breaker ,2.0 49118,livenoutlouder that is going to be toughbut i really really hope it works out no fun to stress about should be a happy anticipation ,2.0 49119,nowhere i dont want to be anywhere whenever i am somewhere i just spend my time there wishing i was somewhere else then when i get to that somewhere i was wishing to be in im depressed there and wish to be somewhere else to the point where i finally get to the next next next place i once wished to be in and thought things would be better in this place and just wish i was nowhere this constant cycle feels so frustratingly empty pointless and blank anyone else,3.0 49120,good morning its tuesday yaysetting up my bb to tweet on the go im a nerd but its ok bc im a twitter nerdamp that is acceptable ,0.0 49121,out getting some sun visited my grandma earlier ate some cookies tweet,0.0 49122,i just finished quotoceans apartquot by karen kingsburydef one of her bestsooo good ,0.0 49123,legs itchin me madd sleeping busy like crazxy this week back dividin myself up with friends n fam c u wedsthurs hunny ozzy d ,0.0 49124,jogging isnt really that cool especially if youve got a high fever ,2.0 49125,cyncmar thanks i know your a floridan ,2.0 49126,giulianarancic you know what else is really good papaya w baby spinach dried cranberries and balsamic vinaigrette cest bon ,0.0 49127,gieeatsmisery kalopun ada jg gpp shes nice cantik lg ,0.0 49128,hm its still going on and my coffee mug rolled up rows sad ,2.0 49129,project time ,0.0 49130,tommcfly tom when you come to japan show again ,0.0 49131,though id really rather sketch perhaps i can do that as well crosses fingers depends on if i need to go to boston this week or not,0.0 49132,clippernolan beaudine dorylanenter st thomas with quotjazzquot recorder and bass guitar sony rollins ,0.0 49133,sengupta really i just checked it man i havent set it to private ,2.0 49134,youngplatinum awww in for the night lol booooo jk ,0.0 49135,fonearena i want both which is a better phone,0.0 49136,jrmozart whyd they get rid of elle ,2.0 49137,it becomes physical the more i hurt inside or mentally the worse my physical condition gets it started seven years ago just some muscle aches swelling with a dull pain which i pretended was better after some ibuprofen but it persisted for years now ive dealt with that but dull pain is way easier to deal with ive always had bad ankles but starting about two years ago my ankles get sharp pains when im less stable im fine otherwise and i use a cane to take some weight off other than some weird looks i get im under it helps a lot last year i started getting a similar sharp pain in my left eye followed by intense light sensitivity does anyone else get similar somatic symptoms,3.0 49138,katys new ipod is broke ,2.0 49139,i wish my life wasnt like this i used to have a mom amp dadnice house we lived a good lifedad dies when im everything stays sort of the same for awhilemom dies when im goodbye housegoodbye catgoodbye parentsgoodbye to everything i knew and lovednow im live in section subsidized housing with my grandmother with dementia in the shitty part of towncant even get a degree in college because i have to work monfriday just to stay alivespent new years eve in a factory while my few friends went out to partiesno one even missed me or wished i was there,3.0 49140,jaketapper realdonaldtrump r u paying for all my health issues since u came into office anxiety stomach issues ,1.0 49141,poor toffees i wished they could have won ,2.0 49142,follow new people tweeting about japan great country and culture look forward to learn new interesting stuff,0.0 49143,tommcfly pleeease stay here forever ,2.0 49144,rt ryanxcr isnt it sad how we waste so much time amp energy on certain people and in the end they prove that they werent even worth it at,1.0 49145,jonasbrothers thanks for putting ireland back on the map boys go raibh maith agat ,0.0 49146,yet another fact of life i love nine ,0.0 49147,i dont know where else to ask but im wondering what it actually means to be passively suicidal since i dont really understand what ive managed to find from google and i really wanna know since theres a chance i might be if i understand correctly,3.0 49148,ooo aaronrenfree has changed his twitter dp gutted not as smoldering in the new one,2.0 49149,prettymek cuz i like cats it didnt start as only adopted kittens then they mated now i need to gt em all snipped and clipped,2.0 49150,museumsatnight pretty much anything but sleep ,0.0 49151,my anxiety disorder,2.0 49152,nuttychris i mean ionacosmetics my bad ,2.0 49153,yayitsa hey hey what about u and joseumm ,0.0 49154,passage of minimum wage bill generates worker optimism employer anxiety ,1.0 49155,in skype v can import only thru yahoo m outlook not gmail ,2.0 49156,i am charmed with this follow me ,0.0 49157,oh thats right friend who can be easily talked into a starbucks run is off today bummer ,2.0 49158,suicide note just ready to end the my useless and non important life but i want to leave a note for some people that will take it very hard yet i cant find good way to write out my paper nor find courage to do it,3.0 49159,im going off now talk to you guys tomorrow good night xxx,0.0 49160,downfor reports its just you is up ,2.0 49161,dannymcfly start a trending topic ,0.0 49162,free comic book day yay,0.0 49163,back from vacation ,2.0 49164,rt memetribute me trying to better my mental health httpstcoroaxndwibe,1.0 49165,i can relate to every post in here and yet i feel like my pain is inexplicable every post here hits really close to home and yet it is like i would not be able to explain my own suffering with proper words,3.0 49166,ohsnapitsnicole why does it always rain when your not heree ,2.0 49167,rt baldboyblues is isolating myself from everyone bad for my mental health yes will i continue doing that absolutely,0.0 49168,jacoutofthebox then lets get together for drinks the whole lot of us and tanveernaseer can do a group blog motivation session ,0.0 49169,ghconfidential i tried to use spinelli to turn him on to gh but it didnt really work ,2.0 49170, mc hammer and micheal jackson ,0.0 49171,haasanbarclay are you talking about spiritual contentment depression or acceptance of the idea that you will one day die,0.0 49172,diilee athaatech ma u r supawomen u can take it ,0.0 49173,overcastkidx o me thinks they need a shlapp abbie ,0.0 49174,had fun taking ty ty to the lake today cutest kid ,0.0 49175,white sox game postponed kick beat cubbie ass today lets go cardinals beat them tigers,2.0 49176,checking out the new web site i jtimberlake ,0.0 49177,ever notice how thoughts get worse at night from depression to having ocd thoughts of wanting everything to end stop can someone reply back with youtube clips or techniques that made them feel better i would be really grateful ,3.0 49178,emptiness so i sorta just feel empty and lost and i am hoping that someone can at least sympathize and maybe share some ways youve dealt with such feelings i feel like no matter what i do nothing really matters i cant change anything important because the world is literally going to pieces i cant even go out or see anyone because of this virus im in college i feel like i dont really enjoy my major but i do usually recently everything is empty and i dont really want to do anything but immediate distraction tv video games drugs memes etc nothing actually helpful to my future etc etc there is so much i could be doing if i put my mind to it and so i berate myself for not being the best i can be all the while slipping further into this emptiness of not knowing or caring but still stressing all the time about what i could do better idk,3.0 49179,doesnt know if its the new kernel or some update in firefox but something is unstable ,2.0 49180,i would change my last tweet but its still a problem i have absolutely no idea where my keys are ,2.0 49181,presidentnickj perfect song for today today is years since my uncle passed away from cancer ,2.0 49182,see you again breathe carolina ,0.0 49183,rt the college you attend shouldnt define who you are just because you go to a community college you are no less of a per,2.0 49184,rt philuhmena months ago today i was raped i was ashamed of my body hid my depression today i am a strong happy survivor amp l ,0.0 49185,everything is shit i am shit i dont get it ive got a good job which i suck at but its a stable job ive got a gorgeous girlfriend i live in a flat where i pay very little rent ive got a bit of debt but nothing i cant get rid of in the next year and ive got a family who love meso why do i still feel like id have been better off not existing,3.0 49186,haha taylor swift rapping with tpain i love her and cant believe it was only days ago that i saw her live it seems like forever ago ,2.0 49187, minutesthis is so nerve wrecking ,0.0 49188,going to a meeting w dean mardis so excited not really dressed for the equation since didnt have my car or time to pack yesterday ,2.0 49189,nykkiluvsnkotb im good about to go knight knight to gotta get up early im not happy about that ,2.0 49190,maryvictoria new avatar ,0.0 49191,ivytherese why are you taking ate away from me so quick you are just a mean person haha,2.0 49192,im so fxn distracted i think ima go water my lawn but then again its mad hot outside idk im in a lazy kind of way,2.0 49193,am i depressed i constantly listen to sad music i have a weird feeling from it people told me that sad music is all i listen toi have thoughts of feeling sorry for family members every single night at some point its like im good and out of nowhere it hits me i tend to watch sad things on the internet when i wake up i feel normal through out the day but then it usually occurs around my sleep cycle is asleep rest awake since i work nightshifti feel like nothing is nice anymore the sunset doesnt make me feel good like it once use to i stress over small things is this depression or growing up idekedit im also on of adderall each day,3.0 49194,watching the tonight show with conan o brien yay finally ,0.0 49195,got back from a party at a friends we had to leave early cause the son wasnt feeling well watching hancock wthe hubby square ,2.0 49196,raags very sad one of the greats of our time,2.0 49197,debbiefletcher hi swettie can you wish happy bday to my b friend lahmazzonetto shes ,0.0 49198,woke up at am having cramps as hell not pleasant at pm gt tap beer at my cousins birthday,0.0 49199,rt revolttv prayers up 🙏 augustalsina got real about his battle with depression amp liver disease positivevibesonly watchrevolt https,2.0 49200,can i get likes for no reasonwho wanna be in a group chatthats so sad alexa play despacioon todays httpstcovvuwfuwbut,1.0 49201,taking one more thing i feel like the only aspect of my life that hasnt been consumed by my mental illness is theater and performing i barely a social life the friends i do have arent able to see me outside of school i cant function enough to properly do school i consistently disappoint my family and at this point my hobbies are all for escaping so theater was the one thing i had lefta few months ago i had a panic attack during a really important audition i was able to push through it and i actually think i did really well now just yesterday i went to see a show and i couldnt enjoy it because i was just so anxious im so scared that im going to mess up my next show and then ill have lost this too and im sure that fear will lead to a selffulfilling prophecy i dont understand why my mind has to take one more thing from me,3.0 49202, oooops sorry tick tock tick tock really cant twitter n talk with someone in my living room at the same time xx,2.0 49203, aww thats awesome did he say anything good,0.0 49204,morning all my last week at work until my week off and im so looking forward to it ,0.0 49205,my parents refurnished my room new bed and new nightstand they must want to lure me to come home more often,0.0 49206,filce i know bloody tragedy,2.0 49207,iremember playin uno life other board games by myself because no one else wanted to play w me fckin losers lol ,0.0 49208,dopamine desensitization i am now sure a lot of people have depression because of chronic masturbationporn abuse anyone who has this addiction should stop doing it go outside take a look at the majority of the younger generation interact with them see if you feel some fucked up aura that they have its like they have no expression in their face pmo fries the fuck out of your dopamine receptors taking a peek wanting more and more and more there have to come out some serious studies about pmo to make people aware what they are actually getting themselves into all those articles saying its healthy its bullshit they would rather care about people not getting prostate cancer bullshit btw and being zombies porn masturbation orgasm pmo makes you demotivated af makes you tired procrastination physical painnow are these symptoms not the same like depressions symptoms make a change for yourself ,3.0 49209,himynameiskevin its normal to feel like that sometimes jessis gonna come over in a few hours gonna coke and watch dvds hurray,0.0 49210,its been years since she left my ex has been on my mind lately the past years actually if im being completely honest we were together for years when she left and what would have been our year anniversary is coming up so shes been on my mind more than usual shes married to someone else now though the guy i accused her of cheating on me with actually i dont know if something went on between them while we were together or not but its irrelevant at this point anyway i havent been in any relationship or even gone on a date since she left i do get lonely a lot but i just cant open myself up to that kind of vulnerability again i dont blame her for leaving i was a very toxic person i was extremely controlling verbally abusive and emotionally manipulative id like to think im not like that anymore but i dont know ive pretty much isolated myself from everyone i live alone have no friends and only converse with family and coworkers each year gets harder and harder,3.0 49211, ohthat stuff always happen on vacationim sorry ,2.0 49212,rt thegreatisnate pay attention to extra credit shady people career opportunities your physical and mental health and free foo ,1.0 49213,iamskla they closed down ,2.0 49214,when will i move on from suicide attempthospitalisation tw suicide overdose hospitali overdosed on my medication about weeks ago i knew i didnt want to die but at the time i was desperate to escape i was hospitalized for days and suffered a seizure im on new medication and have been suffering commo side effects unlike my old medication it has been hard to not think about what transpired those days im constantly trying to remember what happened as my memory of the entire thing has blanks in them i hallucinated a lot thought my mom was crying tears of fruit flies and when i tried to give her a napkin she said im not crying it wasnt worth it i regret it very very very much it was my very loud cry for help and am seeking a psychologists help now when will it get easier to not think about the pain i caused to all the people who loved me please seek help i cant stress this enough i saught help a little late but now i know i cant handle my depression and anxiety alonetldr how do i get over my suicide attempt,3.0 49215,everyone reply to this tweet if u hate ur job dont wanna work on my way to hell funn xox,2.0 49216,my gmail spam filter seems to have stopped working apparently im not the only one anybody else,2.0 49217,i want to cry or beat myself up i dont have the strength to do either what the hell is wrong with me should i get some help,3.0 49218,the rain is awesome ,0.0 49219,promise i made a promise to myself and someone else that id give myself a year and if my life hadnt improved by then id kill myself but not even a month terrible shit has just been happening im so fucking tired of it all how can i pick myself up if i dont even get the chance to im seriously considering forgetting about this promise and just ending it,3.0 49220,ew history exam tomorrow morning math on friday morning anf english on monday i had to pass up an mmva wristbad for it ,2.0 49221,i woke up after a nightmare about my plants dying yeah only to discover that i had broken out in hives i still have no insurance ,2.0 49222,fce rhubarb maybe raspberries edmonton free i am looking for a rhubarb plant and maybe a few raspb ,0.0 49223,has an iphone ,0.0 49224,sseagal couldnt have said it any better ,0.0 49225,catmikk oh thats just me getting old ,0.0 49226,i want someone to be with but i dont want to burden anyone with my depression title says it alli daydream about someone who would be with me love me care about me and take care of mebut at the same time this person probably would be healthy happy and sane and i would end up hurting burdening and disturbing himher because of my depression so even before meeting this person i would love so much i already care so much about them that i want to spare them from the problems derived from being with methe paradox of wanting but not wanting someone is maddening i want to die so it goes away from my mind at once already i cant stand it anymore i cant stand this loneliness i cant stand knowing im the reason of someones struggle,3.0 49227,kaylastack shaun amp andy are on a chatroom right now except it crashed ,2.0 49228,depression is terrible but incredibly eyeopening to preface i am not diagnosed with depression i just think i have it maybe im just searching for excuses because i am a pathetic piece of shitlike so many years ago when i was still relatively fine i realize now that i never understood how book authors and the like described the feelings of emptiness and pain and world seeming gray really makes you appreciate literature morecolour feels washed out i guess the greenest trees and the dulles sidewalks just kinda seem the sameon a totally unrelated note every once in a whileevery months or so my gloom will pass for a couple of hours and it just feels amazing it feels like my mind gets set aflameanyone else feel like this sometimes,3.0 49229, realdonaldtrump well mildred your lifetime question of why u feel slighted never loved like u want httpstconwiqiwhkzs,0.0 49230,weirded out that i suddenly cant burn anything to cddvds optic drive busted ,2.0 49231,i have begun to fantasize about my death ill be driving or at home but almost always when im by myself and ill start to think about what it might be like to get in a fatal car accident or maybe get lost in the wilderness or hell just go into the wild and hang myself there have also been times when i have a vision of being murdered and thinking thank god this is all pretty recent and im not exactly sure what to do with it nothing has really changed except that ironically the dose of my meds has gone up ,3.0 49232,ddlovato ah thats awesome i should be able to hang ,0.0 49233,all it takes is one thing to send me into a spiral i was having such a good day today everything was going well i didnt care that i had classes on what was supposed to be a holiday i was happy to be with my friends in each class even got a nice hug from a girl i liked enter college algebra class we had taken a quiz the previous class and i felt super confident about it because i understood the material relatively well only to find i got an ls on the assignment in our county lowest scores are if you put in any effort at all you get an ls why because despite me getting each question right i mixed up a few of the numbers on the graph which spoiler alert had no effect on the answer itself so he marked all of them wrong because fuck me right that alone started to stress and bum me out only to be followed by another assignment that i didnt understand how to do so assignments in my grade book are gonna be lss i ended up just tuning out everything listening to music with my head down as my mind raced with how much of a fucking moron i was why i couldnt understand such simple things how i wasnt gonna get anywhere in my life and be some sad fuck on the street etcas soon as the bell rang i went for my car and drove home only talking with a friend briefly in the parking lot i havent moved from the couch since i got home i dont feel motivated to do anything because ill just failthis isnt the first time this has happened but i feel like i need to start keeping track of incidents,3.0 49234,i was already sad now im fcking dead,2.0 49235,combating feelings of depression and loneliness check out this video ,2.0 49236,it was a beautiful day with one dear to me but not all of them i pray for strength daily lord please grant me the serenity,2.0 49237,finally home wiped still have stuff to do ,2.0 49238,sardun mupnorth yeah i suppose were all the same lol but in my honest opinion i think yous look fab ,0.0 49239,dazzlemethis i bags it hahacya ,0.0 49240,headin to the gym ,0.0 49241,was just a bull in a china shop at yoga class couldnt have loved it more ,0.0 49242,rt igasuphoes me looking for the culprit of my anxiety and depression when im the person who cause it ,2.0 49243,mikey im bored ,2.0 49244,loves my ladies ive missed my shwayzted crew,0.0 49245, im so sorry to hear about your grandmother ,2.0 49246,haleyhodgee its like every day i have another problem to stress about,1.0 49247,bizreviewer thanks so much for that acknowledgementwhat is your name ,0.0 49248,i really want a hug it doesnt even matter who,3.0 49249,watching intense amounts of gossip girl ,0.0 49250,okokmy house needs cleaningclothes need washingtime to put twitter away for awhilewahhhh ,2.0 49251,pinkmeringue just the weekend so you and i wont be crossing paths unfortunately bf business trip a friend of mine lives there,2.0 49252,rt my anxiety and depression when they see me having a good time ,1.0 49253,bloodzillabilly cant send a real cake so im sending you this pic instead ,0.0 49254,whats the point im supposed to go to therapy because ive fallen back into self harming but i feel like it would just be pointless and a waste of timemoney my depression doesnt respond to meds and theres nothing that i can recall that triggers it its just there like it has been for the last twenty four years some days its worse than others most days lately id like to go to therapy for other issues except when i brought them up to the last psych i was told that i didnt have ptsd even though i have an extensive trauma history plus flashbacks and nightmares and i had things like my dissociation and losing time completely brushed off like id just off myself already but cant get a gun in my state and i cant figure out which type of rope id need frustration,3.0 49255,tommcfly maths and blodgee are my faves d oo lt they are harry potter glasses ,0.0 49256,i just cleaned the screen on my iphone and it looked beautiful until zoey decided to lick the entire screen i love her ,0.0 49257, you should have stayed in holland we do speak english ,0.0 49258,cant remember the last time my dad was in town for fathers day ,2.0 49259,at the registersi hate working saturdays ,2.0 49260,face reallly hurts from braces ,2.0 49261,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 49262,dinatome cant today hopefully ill get there tomorrow jukeyshaw definitely wants to hit it up though,2.0 49263, mick from micks film review ah i loved that video nice job haha x,0.0 49264,nessaaxoxo plenty of fluids and rest hope this helps the guys at top level hawaii are rooting for ya get better ,0.0 49265,my godfather passed awayim sad could use some cheering up,2.0 49266,a very wise young man httpstcocljpdeliyl,0.0 49267,im at school and i want to go home so bad but i dont wanna miss out on my work and have to make it up today has been a bad day and its only ,3.0 49268,just got home bout to go crash had a freakin blast last nite i love my friends amp am gonna miss them seniors ,2.0 49269,first step taken ive given up hope ive tried everything and its not working anymore i placed my order for carbon dioxide soon enough ill be going to sleep for the last time,3.0 49270,pamelaweir or music industry sorry for my english i hope in the future to find a good job ,0.0 49271,asingularfate use veggies in place of the chicken or use tempeh tofu or seitan ,0.0 49272,im tired i wanna go home watching americas next top model nba and wizards of waverly place lets go hooommmee ,2.0 49273,binnyva i got that i think i have read it before thank you ,0.0 49274,its kinda sad to realize what this world has turned into i shouldnt be scared to go pump gas by myself but i gue httpstcowiapavuurg,2.0 49275,social anxiety nightmares by georgifriend hey lets hang out togetherme surefriend but somewhere outside you ,0.0 49276,wants to eat to her fullest once her papers end but this few days small appetite how to go sakae on wed,2.0 49277, me and my sister at eco park wee boat ride was funn ,0.0 49278,raid was called wish people would show up,2.0 49279,laurenbugeja thanks so much lauren ,0.0 49280,dannymcfly we love you too danny ,0.0 49281, dog eats better than i do ,2.0 49282,facebook have added usernames come add me if ya wanna httpwwwfacebookcomlollyloodles,0.0 49283,crystalrose haha it was getting a little addicting had to prove to myself i could live without it so the week was like detox ,0.0 49284,sprineas dont worry shell get book as a consolation prize plus panels are boring for hernot enough roller derby ,0.0 49285,work is going by a tad bit slow todaynothing crazy or exciting going on boo ,2.0 49286,i have to say it zac efron is my dream boy ok i said it ,0.0 49287,heading up to tahoe in a bit its supposed to rain and snow fuckin valhalla,2.0 49288,oww my feet are in some pain from new flipflops ouchies ,2.0 49289,is it okay to feel sad about something that is not even there ,0.0 49290,westendupdates thank you back to work now ,2.0 49291,kayelove whoa who said stinkin i only deal with women that smell like water ,0.0 49292,i hate mondays ,2.0 49293,lets go to work ,2.0 49294,yesssss i am finally getting mobile tweets ,0.0 49295,ok ok ok maybe its not so difficult ,0.0 49296,andylamb yeah that one might have a kick ,0.0 49297,xxlaurenbeexx good aww bless isnt old though lol im great thank you you xx,0.0 49298,selenagomez in love with that song ,0.0 49299,i hear robert pattinson is not going to be on red carpet via marcmalkin twilightinfo,2.0 49300,court or bust i got to juvenile court on thursday for something that was totally an accident i got snitched on for something i didnt do that was a serious crime i pleaded that it wasnt me and no one believed me im a good student gpa ap classes on road to go to college when i get called for nothing and now i might have a felony at the age of if this happens its going to ruin my life i wont be able to get into college i wont be able to get a job i just cant anymore thinking about this happening my parents have already given up and i seriously am thinking of killing myself if i do get a felony after this all goes down i know how im going to kill myself too i live in a heavily wooded area and i can easily hang myself with no one finding out what should i do,3.0 49301,geesmyangel im sorry to hear that im here most days if you need to talk ,0.0 49302,this is my update ,0.0 49303,❗️❗️,1.0 49304,is gonna try and sleep for a little whileso sleepy ,2.0 49305, i miss my chamber family ,2.0 49306,back at customer skipped breakfast too many loud senior people at hotel ,2.0 49307,ramseyshow dave they are moving your timeslot in cincinnati to any way u can get back to time i cant listen at work ,2.0 49308,important hotlinessafe harbor crisis line or depression hotline ,1.0 49309,ncvbxfgf oh dear i hope everything will be okay soon ,2.0 49310,rt rtffacts according to studies highanxiety people are more likely to make bad decisions because they tend to catastrophize uncertain,2.0 49311,andrewdoll saw it this afternoon did you stay through the credits for the secret ending of wolverine,0.0 49312,try to dance the hoedown throwdown again really difficult but funny ,0.0 49313,isolatiooonnnn how tf youre not going to isolate yourself when it reminds you of how terrible youve been and shit that hurts you all the time i dont wanna meet anyone see also i genuinely felt like i dont belong anywhere at all i dont want to be a part of anything to be precise thats what i feel right now lemme just run off again and again im so done with everything,3.0 49314, wtf that sucks,2.0 49315,good riddance to and hello had lots of down and low moments and one point i felt hang on why do i keep doing this to myself i know i have depression and we have tendency to self isolate ourselves but i couldnt face going back to that damned place again and i was after losing my last place at the uni did i really evaluate my life so i ditched that horrible toxic group in a real world that was making me feel absolutely shitty the superficial conversations and completely bunked turning up to jims cafe i didnt feel like a huge loss at hurt me it felt like a relief and one less problem to deal with i had a lovely couple of months being indoors which suited my own personality and what i wanted in life got back into music writing and soon began see a positivesi then started making goals for myself my first goals were to get up every morning so i did i then i quit sugar and that made things easier and began exercising then i started thinking what i wanted to do so so i applied for my degree in social work and within weeks in i was actually a student and doing something meaningful and productive againmy ups didnt last long as student fiancé had messed up my passport and literally a few days before the end of the term gather a years a terms and this time i wasnt that backing down leave part way through the year self resilience and determination got me through that bump and thankfully the fees were sorted student finance admitted their mistakes i can finally see things getting slightly betterthen on the december i got the call that my uncle lost his short battle with cancer and ended up having a very scaled down christmas didnt feel like putting on xmas films as i was upset and in shock to this im still in this numb place and then add extra pressure i didnt pass my first exam and that really pushed things right into the dark place i was already upset that my uncle had passed away at and this really pushed my back into self destructive ways new years eve came and i has lovely night with family and my journey continuesbut onwards and upwards things i am glad about no more meaningless groups ruining my mh starting my degree in social work my ten year battle of getting in professional course was over no more messing around saying i dont have gcses the wouldnt take me seriously why cant i just sign jobseekers i have put myself through a lot and my parentsnow im on big battle and this time i am gonna get there no one is gonna stop me,3.0 49316,sillyphylly not sure why im up but taintedidealist said shed snuggle me so theres that at least ,0.0 49317, oh poor air france ,2.0 49318,nikkifbabi lmao everyone knows belizean kant dance ,0.0 49319,cant sleep thinking of holidays ,0.0 49320,listening to daft punk in this horrible weather and realized how i miss daft punk around the world around the world,2.0 49321,i cant wait for this week to be over fuck cops ,2.0 49322,prom weekenddd dts til monday ,0.0 49323,ellshulihee i remember reading quotmister bushquot in my news scripts but it didnt ring as nice btw yup dinner was ,0.0 49324,otnaicus debbiewong maybe my eyes r playing tricks on me ,2.0 49325,tomfelton oh my thats so sad ,2.0 49326,i think shes just jealous that he likes us better now,0.0 49327,had so much fun last nightwhy are my legs hurting ughi dont wanna go to work ,2.0 49328,kimcfly hello my friend isaac told me to follow you ,0.0 49329,rababhkhan lolmidnight sun is twilight from edwards point of view it got leaked so the author shelved the book ,2.0 49330,school tomorrow but but today felt like it was the weekend ,2.0 49331,chasinghayley just been bowling now waiting while lyndsey stalks nathan miss tom want amother autograph,2.0 49332,i could have won a lavalamp ,2.0 49333,prototypepro graphics programming ,0.0 49334,lovely postman just brought me a new book teaching pilates for postural faults guess today will be reading in the park ,0.0 49335,has my new cdyyyyaaaayyyy ,0.0 49336,still recovering from weekend and my mom didnt wake me up ,2.0 49337,oh you are all so critical and mean lol bet you would all cack it if standing on that stage pmsl i know i couldnt do it ,0.0 49338, velcome to twitter ,0.0 49339, dont update ur lock info it blows my set up got all jacked ,2.0 49340,aineokane i know clean trailed outta bed lol what was ur pasta like not loads i have trainin th nite for gaelic wbu,2.0 49341,i want to die i still love louis,2.0 49342,fish and chips tonight mmmm ,0.0 49343,best time for depression so i can sink amp embody my emptiness isolate nyself in solitude while being secure in a h ,1.0 49344,not feeling too good hope it passes tomorrows wedding ,2.0 49345,studio recording todaynew songs ,0.0 49346,my depression im back on it,1.0 49347,trentreznor i won the twitter passes for the indy show but my name wasnt on the list i couldnt get my stuff or get backstage ,2.0 49348,tvxquknow i miss u and tvxq so much so after passing my exam for university ill go to korea to meet u i hope sohahaha ,0.0 49349,maronziovance hope your day is going well ,0.0 49350,miacavallo hehe hi hi i is really tiredfor some reason i took a nap but its like i was awake the whole time sleeping how be u,0.0 49351,black parents depression is real not a white mans syndrome,0.0 49352,omfg i was woke by two different people with in mins now i cant get back to sleep now ohhhhh excited for tomorrow though,2.0 49353, beach with you is so perfect clément mary and erwan ,0.0 49354,im so sad goodnight i love bts nd taehyng millions,1.0 49355,moooorning back from church planning my day right now ,0.0 49356,i totally got nothing done today oh well i still have tomorrow going to try to go see up tomorrowso cute i cant wait,2.0 49357, aint a bad bag i have one a year now itll just about fit a and a about ,0.0 49358,itsbashy good afternoon mr thomas ,0.0 49359,feeling terrible the country that gave birth to me sure i was tortured every single day for yrs just cause im a catholic but ,2.0 49360,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 49361,sht im so sad rn fhjdcjkkk,2.0 49362,rt emoblackthot i think one of the biggest struggles of the constant battle with mental health is accepting that not everyday will be per,1.0 49363,totally destroyed derailleur that was a long walk home ,2.0 49364,i just had followers now i have whats going on here this morning i had this is making me very very sad ,2.0 49365,its so much easier reading a story when u already know the characters loving this fic,0.0 49366,is bored to deathh zz ,2.0 49367,got twitter on the phone now ,0.0 49368,im still bummed that we didnt get to camp on the football field but late night swimming and sleepovers are amazing ,0.0 49369,rt shitreviews saddont be sad because sad spelt backwards is das and das not good😊 httpstcopjwjmdeity,1.0 49370,jamesdeen if i make statements or ask you a questions you just blow me off whats up with that i swear i didnt piss in your cheerios,2.0 49371,tirinda great so i should see u by friday with some dope tees to put in the store ,0.0 49372,»♥ antique pink depression glass display dish duckwells antique vintage depressionglass ,0.0 49373,going my mum gets back tomorrow i hate myself for reals,2.0 49374,messing around withh my friends macbook pro i dont want to put it downn haha,2.0 49375,rusoul yo russ i try to spread love tooyoure leaving me out ,2.0 49376,now youve changed your life still unhappy does it even matter what if unhappiness is integrated in your core so much that you can never ever become happy again some examplesi got my weight back to normal but the attention by females has become much lower than ever basically non existenti got one of the best deals with my salary at a job that i wanted for a long time im already unhappy with iti loved watching netflix and anime but i dont enjoy any series anymore literally the best of them cant even hold my attention for minutesi figured being independent would be awesome because i hated my social environment but now i hate being lonely all the time hell i would even pay someone to live for free with me and just be my friend thats how desperate i ami just wanted to shitpost again while im wearing my nice suite lying in bed with blood red eyes doing nothing but posting this listening to depressing songs and thinking if its better to crash my car with or to set the house on fire not really depressive though or im just wonderful at hiding it from everyone any thoughts of people who feel like this any other general thoughts to be honest i dont need advice but if you have some please do share,3.0 49377,swiftkaratechop i miss you ,2.0 49378,been stressing all day thinking about school😭,1.0 49379,going to take my sociology exam and back to bed,0.0 49380,says the last titanic survivor died on my birthday ,2.0 49381,jeeesss i know i knowbutaaahhh idktwo of my friends are going and i know im just going to feel so left out haha,2.0 49382,i just finished avalon high amazing book ,0.0 49383,depression and feeling like a failure so i went to two years of college and had to leave due to mental health issues since then ive felt like a failure and wanted to know if you all had any inputsimilar experience they would be greatly appreciated im and just feel like a disappointment,3.0 49384,toniestipona ooooh i want cup noodles too thank youuuu ,2.0 49385,linhbergh looks like its all words and numbers for now anyway ,2.0 49386,rt despaceco hi our algorithms determined that u may be a suicide risk please know that ur a valuable economic unit helping to maximiz,1.0 49387,im an unlikable person im an introvert and a lot of people describe me as short tempered and sassy i have a wonderful boyfriend of four years who is so laid back and positive hes the total opposite of me and i honestly dont know what he sees in me i suffer from depression and ive completely isolated myself for the past ten or so years due to bad experiences ive had growing up from living in a toxic abusive household to being bullied in school and having my heart broken as a teenager in the dating scene i think its turned me into a cold and horrible person i find it difficult to make and maintain friends since ive spent a good portion of my life isolating myself ive grown distant from the outside world as a result ive developed social anxiety and ive lost my capability of simply communicating with the public im quick to anger and im confrontational im argumentative too im stubborn and i find it hard to back down from things even when im wrong ive tried to change and ive calmed down over the years i can be mean and hurtful but deep down im actually such a soft hearted person i go out of my way for the few people i consider friends i have a doormat mentality when im around someone i really like id do anything for them even if im putting myself at risk i try to be nice and open outgoing and polite but i always seem to end up super disliked by the majority of people i meet this has been a common theme for as long as i can remember i guess im just one of those people who you really have to get to know before you like me but its so hurtful to have to deal with losing people repeatedly ive been told to seek professional help but i honestly just dont have the time for it i work a lot and on my spare time id rather dedicate it to other things ive always told myself i could fix my own problems without help its actually caused me to lose a friend because i didnt take their advise seriously enough but was i in the wrong its my business after all in despite of all of this i look at my boyfriend and some of my best friends and theyre all such wonderful amazing people how can they be friends with someone like me i dont know what they see in me tldr i find it difficult to make friends people distance themselves from me im lonely and sad about it,3.0 49388,kiannasick haha because i used to live in that neighborhood its so awesome i miss it everyday ,2.0 49389,danielchua i think u need to change the timing of our service in the website as well ,0.0 49390,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 49391,rosiegarcia i know hes ahmazing ,0.0 49392, my besties if only ddlovato was there on twitpic my besties if only ddlova ,2.0 49393,judithandjim sounds right up my alleyunfortunately ill be at a funeral i hope u will do it again,2.0 49394,headed to sharpstown wit my model chick ,0.0 49395,im sick and tired of feeling fat and ugly my whole life i have felt hideous and fat im and female i never had any confidence whatsoever i hate my big forehead weird face shape and weird features im not like the pretty girls you see everywhere im average or below average if i see a photo if myself that isnt a selfie i cry and cut i hate how i have been exercising and eating healthy for months but no progress is being made i still hate an ugly muffin top fat arms and big boobs that make me look fatter if i lost weight i would be able to wear tighter clothes to make my breasts look nicer and so i dont look fat but since i am fat i wear baggy clothes i feel like im never going to be happy with myself yeah i have some things to work with like greenblue eyes and blonde hair but i still feel so fucking ugly i have tried to starve myself but its so hard sorry for the rant i have no one to talk to ,3.0 49396,whywhy why jinx die ,2.0 49397,ashleylastname what are you doing today youre not answering your phone wanna hang out,2.0 49398, eis essn ,0.0 49399,saramorgan lol awk that snedwan is always mr grumpy lol i do not know much about it to be honestnever suffered from it myself ,0.0 49400,goodbyeatticus ,2.0 49401,imaginary friends i dont know if this belongs here but i dont know where else recently ive gone into a really dark part of my life i was moved from one school to another which i hate which made some issues a lot worse and sparked some new ones i have two friends in my head they dont have names i dont hear them like a hallucination but if im feeling lonely there just there one of them is a guy deep voice energetic hes almost like a father figure as my actual father seems to just forget i exist and when he does he treats me like shit the other is a girl soft voice extremely kind and forgiving she doesnt talk as much but shes still in my head i have conversations in my head not out loud with these two sometimes on minor things other times on bigger issues i cant even begin to deal with anyone here know why these imaginary friends are here,3.0 49402,mediumguy a photo at last ,0.0 49403,steviehart sorry about that well what r bella and jenna like work with,2.0 49404,is listening to the maccabees ,0.0 49405,jimmyrocks ha i should have love the simpsons,0.0 49406,hello everyone please visit dkport today he is the proud dad of a beautiful new sonhe is the first person i met on twittercongrats ,0.0 49407,wales was amazing didnt want to come home,0.0 49408,i must continue to live like you want me to ,0.0 49409,curligirl im jewish i cant become a nun orgasmsunday,2.0 49410,i miss whatshisface ,2.0 49411,lmao got these two oomfs who i feel like hate me wish they werent so blatantly rude to my face but at least they arent fake sad yeehaw,1.0 49412,rt alyciatyre i feel so much better after letting go of toxic situations in my life i dont have to deal with them so i wont theres,1.0 49413,lol watched csi today it was the one with taylor swift but she died sad ,2.0 49414,clears throat nick dryly stating congrats on the championship i still hate the lakers i just knew orlando was going to delivery ,2.0 49415, where do you livebro im still waiting too ,0.0 49416,katelizabeth congrats on your big day at aloma i am sooo happy and excited for you ,0.0 49417,omg my secret has been blown ,0.0 49418,is dissapointed we cant go to the fete the rain is back ,2.0 49419,nooooo more horn beeped it all out ,2.0 49420,rt ziwe sadgressive adj a moment of progressive social reform that is sad when you consider contextsentence it is sadgressive th,0.0 49421,i added a video to a youtube playlist depression fckin sucks ,1.0 49422,its not even lunch yet but i want some ramen ,2.0 49423,yumth hey you said quoti will studyquot you study about twitter its too late good night im going to have dinner,0.0 49424,am up way too early court today time to give the city of norman more money that i dont have grrrrr ifuckinghatepatsies,2.0 49425,my heart hurts today ,0.0 49426,mistralwinds sorry my cord isnt working on my netbook where were we,2.0 49427,sings im all alooonee noones here beside me being alone all day in the office actually has more downsides than up ,2.0 49428,yall i was having an anxiety attack yesterday thinking i wouldnt be able to go to school tomorrow bc i had no gas and couldnt pay tuition,1.0 49429,rt hello my name is diana graber i am sharikas neighbor sharika is in the hospital she tried to commit suicide her c,2.0 49430,ok back to work although id rather go to universal today with my company in this degrees weather talk heroes ,0.0 49431,going to six flags with the gang todaylast aces trip ,2.0 49432,had my last class today and going to birmingham tomorrow for my last field trip ,2.0 49433,rt charstarlene my heart goes out to those of us whose anxiety has gone from crippling to an accelerating vomitshitdeathlike ever since,1.0 49434,ive lost everything and dont want to push on ive never been so alone nobody to turn to no one to cry to no home no friends and i just lost the love of my life and its looking permanent i honestly dont believe anyone would care or notice if i was just gone,3.0 49435,i fixed things with elise ,0.0 49436,is working wishing she was still at home in tha bed it was a great weekend though and madison is just a doll ,0.0 49437,rt update sweating n sad,2.0 49438,bennsu well get in a good bk shout out for me,2.0 49439,rt pontiacmadeddg everything happens for a reason manifest that and ya stress will be relieved,0.0 49440,somewhat disappointing drive to englishfolkfans lot more speed speed limits on snake pass than i remember ,2.0 49441,andrewphelps yes love i realize that i just cant see her from here super jealous you are there,2.0 49442,felt better and then people decided to ruin it for the first time in a long time i was starting to feel better at one point i was wondering how i could even get that depressed before and then a bunch of people made fun of me at a party they probably didnt mean any harm to be fair after that it all went crashing down again went from a high point in my life to probably the most inexplicably scared and lonely ive ever felt i tried to swallow enough pills to die but i just vomited now im starting to recover but ive had fucking enough im just gonna isolate myself from others nobody else irl seems to understand,3.0 49443,was a smart gal until i fell inlove ,2.0 49444,work work workboooooo i think i need some red bull ,2.0 49445,im not a fan of dark chocolate but dark chocolate covered pomegranate is beast ,0.0 49446,i need advicehelp i dont know how to start this so ill start with general information i am a year old male living with my girlfriend and kids old and an old i dont have a job as i live in a sea side town so all the jobs are either temporary or seasonal so its very hard to get one down here i am constantly stressed out with my life as the only thing that makes me smile is my kids now i aint saying they aint good enough or anything like that all im saying is theres nothing going for me with my mum and siblings its always me trying to see them or me taking the kids round to see them and im fed up of being the only one trying in this family so ive stopped and as a result i dont see them anymore as they dont try also my mum and girlfriend are always at hating eachother so that causes alot of stress all the time basically i dont know what to do in my life as i feel like im getting more stressed amd depressed every single day that goes by i dont know if theres even any advice or help that can be given for the situation im in but id appreciate any that comes my way if you want any more information to try help jusy ask,3.0 49447,skrappylh hi skrappy i hope to chat with you soon ,0.0 49448,not able to go to the party ,2.0 49449, haha anyway thanks for the follow good thing for your reply coz im bored ,0.0 49450,babygirlvane thats okay get some sleep goodnight vanessa have a good sleep,0.0 49451,ddlovato i was trying to explain to the girl she was beautiful an not letting herself eat is silly its sad shes only ,2.0 49452,hair meet your soulmate vidal sassoon httptweetsg,0.0 49453, driving to gloucester and listening to the radio its full of entertainment unlike dave but its all gravy baby ,0.0 49454,dinokid b can call c whenever n needs to back the fuck off if hes upsetting b ,2.0 49455,hates stomach aches ,2.0 49456,earthfire same to you babe im moseying outa here toosweet dreams sis ,0.0 49457,kiervi vivoree hashtagck kahit sad yun facial expression nya maganda pa rin sya,2.0 49458,my new business cards just came in ,0.0 49459,welcome back havent had a mental breakdown in a while lol almost forgot how it feels but welcome back old friend,3.0 49460,iamdiddy we are all witnessess cleveland is the city where i come from so you better run run cleveland needs this,0.0 49461,no idea what to have for lunch ,2.0 49462,alexalltimelow i have an extra case ,0.0 49463,not sure if i have depression so i constantly feel unmotivate i never want to go out with my friends all i want to do is stay inside and play video games but i cant find any interest in that i i feel tired all the time and cant go to sleep early and the only thing that i actually want to do is work out i have felt like this a long time which makes it so i do bad as school which stresses me out but im not sure if im just lazy or if i am depressed,3.0 49464,jayeads oh no i was spfd so im still pale as ever,2.0 49465,idk what to do with myself quit my job cause im too apathetic to care severed all my friendships cause im too apathetic to care i literally just spend the day mindlessly scrolling through my phone i just cant find the energy or the focus to do anything everything seems like a pointless choredrugs dont even help anymore they just enhance the feeling of apathy ,3.0 49466,on my way home from the city audition went really well yay,0.0 49467,shelbylyyne i was in florida for two weeksthe layover in miami was the worst becuase it was storming in philly and couldnt leave ,2.0 49468,alpcoterie so are we we were both surprised he even showed up actually so then i was all excited ,2.0 49469,hey extremely cool interesting amazing extreme amp not extreme people welcome new tweets who found meextremely cool how are youx ,0.0 49470,whats worse than feeling disliked wether its paranoia or its real what is worse than this say a person feels disliked by his parents and family the people he calls friends and everyone he works with lets say this person is so used to people avoiding eye contact with him that he doesnt even have hope for friends anymore let alone a girlfriend he works hard but has a hard time relating to people and people are put off by him what is worse his parents fake calls coming in to get off the phone with him his friends ignore him for days to weeks at a time girls see him as a toy what is worse than this whats the point of even trying anymore,3.0 49471,its official chris is a graduate the last of his grades came in and my gpa is also better than it has been the last few semesters,0.0 49472,misses rob something cronic and he only left two mins ago ,2.0 49473,i wish i knew do you ever feel this emptiness an endless void that feels as if it will never be filled like youre all alone in a room filled with people no matter how loud you scream they just dont hear you maybe they choose not to hear your screams deciding that its easier that way do you ever fantasize about ending everything today what if you fail what will happen then you get lost in these fantasy worlds where youre a better version of yourself a world where everything works out just like they said it wouldyou ask yourself if its finally over if the chasm has finally closed then you remember it doesnt last the facade will come crashing down eventually and when the delusion does come clattering down youre left more broken than before when does this stop despite everything you do nothing ever gets better maybe youre just not working to your upmost potential who cares anyway do you ever find yourself lying down starring at the ceiling for hours you hide from the barbarian that is your vitality what do you do does this end this constant strain your shoulders do you ever want to cry but no tears come out do you ever yearn to cry but you need to be the strong one these are the questions that constantly plague my mind and i dont know the answers i wish i knew ,3.0 49474,anyone in the phoenix east valley and just want to watch the sunrise let me know we can watch it off the tailgate of my truck or go hike one of the hills,3.0 49475,i read a lot of the submissions on this subreddit and i feel for most everyone here depression seriously throws you under some hard feelings it twists your perception of life into a motionless broken cold realityit burns like a cigarette you know its hurting you but the relief of the drag leads you to the next oneyou see yourself in a mirror but you dont know if that reflection even shares the feeling of your real emotions you know it isnt healthy finding small comforts just to pull you out to the next event youre in a different place you wont feel these things anymore but youve collected all these feelings again youre alone and have only you to feel these things no one really cares because they have their own lives to worry about so its caustic always pitying yourself you know being this upset inside is fabricated just from your own heartbut you want to be better so youve shifted your attention to things that distract you from every downfall youve ever experienced but from the high comes the fallit makes letting go of these harsh feelings feel like your letting go of the steering wheel on the highway youve steered into this situation these feelings and now if you let go its all overbut a release from these bindings doesnt sound terrible its just a burden youd be disappointing those who already have that disappointment in youwe dont stand a chance we can feel this way forever or move forward through a spiral bulletbut we dont and we wake up for tomorrow yet for another chance to feel everything again bittersweet was never best described for someone in a burning house with a fire extinguisher,3.0 49476,watching the office ,0.0 49477,rt therealvonsway turn your volume down juuuuust a little bit 😂 ,2.0 49478,just a rant im and an idiot who cant express himself even as i type this i dont know what to say im frustrated with myself of how i am so useless im a fucking piece of shit i hate my life and i hate myself i dont think anyone close to me could understand how i feel not my friends and not my family i try to be positive enough not to kill myself which works until the next time i think of this shit nothings going the way i want and it pisses me off and im too lazy to change that i kind of hate the people around me now ive almost lost respect to everyone around me sorry my brain is scattered right now i cant think properly nor do i want to,3.0 49479,can no longer use facebook stupid piece of shite,2.0 49480,im so facking depressed hello folks long time lurker first time poster im and have a great husband a son and two girls my son has adhd and severe depression and anxiety not unlike his mother and he has pushed me to the brink of a nervous breakdown the past few days with isolating i get more than texts a day from him hes dying hes sick conspiracy theories comets headed to earth he refuses to take his medication and i cant take anymore of this my poor husband looks like his head is going to explode im so sad i feel like no matter what i do it wont change i think about suicide it would never happen because my kids need me but im in a reality where my oldest will never become a functioning adult and my life will never change im so hopeless this is fucking hopeless my girls and my dog are terrified of him he has good days and bad days like everyone else but hes destroying our home our sanity and our chance at a normal life we have no family support there is nowhere i can send him and with the current pandemic we are trapped indefinitely in the same housei am so alone and ive lost hope,3.0 49481,i hate thinking about you ,2.0 49482,you know what sounds good right now coffee yeah i could use a dose of starbucks right about now,0.0 49483,the show will definitely never be the same ,2.0 49484,dont give in fight it if youre reading this youre still with us i need you to listen please if youre debating taking your life i think that theres parts of you that do want to still be alive the inner conflict inside between these two sides tears you apart i realise this as it did for me it feels like theres two sides at war localized in your head i know its hell but no one can even see but you cant let it win ive always thought of it like this after my first and only attempt if i give in now those beatings life gave me that was for nothing if youre an atheist thats literal youre surrendering the fight for literally nothing if you give in everything will be in vain and for nothing if youre religious like i am then this is part of some plan a plan i dont understand and can never understand despite my efforts it might just be to grow my skin a lot thicker because thats come in handy i dont know you reader but i know what youre thinking and i can say with certainty youre stronger than those thoughts because youve fought them for this long already you may say your friendspartner left you it might be an idea to reevaluate who you consider your loved ones my old friends would message each other saying im bluffing attention seeking and i got called selfish a few times its these people who you need to avoid my ex would allegedly talk to them about me and was just trying to hurt me for them i know what its like we can be friends you and me readeri guarantee you your parents care im gonna tear up writing this like i did last time and i havent shared this story apart from the comment i wrote this in before but if it helps my moms got cancer and she was just recovering from a chemotherapy session she had morphine on her and was destroyed but still tried to stay happy she couldnt move very well but she came into my room and was crying because she found out i was cutting even with that she still cares yours will care about you too my dads a hard case hes a cop and served in riot hes trained to be like this he kept a strong face through break ups and friend getting stabbed hes a strong guy first time i was hospitalized he rang me he didnt know what was happening he tried to sound calm but you could hear the fear and the sadnessthose two get me every time the point is your family do care tell your doctors you dont think your meds are working pressure them dont be scared its their job if they arent helping request a new one ive had severaleating something and drinking something will help anything trying to keep yourself healthy will help i realise you will have no motivation and just want to sleep but if youre reading this youre still here and fighting maybe try do some pushups or a run or do something mentally stimulating can you do that reader i know you canlike i said before i dont know who you are but i know what you are youre a fighter like everyone who has this mental problem this mental hell the invisible and visible scars that we try to hide dont let them define you youre more then thati know you can get through this possible friend dig deepstay with me,3.0 49485, thank you for that and for everything ,0.0 49486,rest easy tony z,0.0 49487, thats what u get leavin me lol rude ,0.0 49488,lets rave in paris skiing was cool in france still skiing ,0.0 49489,stuff im always trying to fit in but it never works no matter how hard i try i can never fit in when im with my friends im always in behind them trying to keep up i have even tried to change myself i dont even know what its like to be myself the last time i was myself was in grade but now i dont even know how to be myself now some of my friends are treating me differently cause of how one of my friends told them i told them that i regret being there friend im not going say it isnt true cause it is but the reason i said that is because she is always ignoring me or pretending im not there and i just got tired of it last year she would ignore me sometimes but the only times she wouldnt ignore was when i had something to give her i tried asking her for forgiveness for saying that but she wont forgive me but now that im thinking of it its better if im not her friend anymore some of my friends talk to me but not a lot and they always give me dirty looks cause she told them i said that what can i do i get tired of her always doing that anyways im sorry for making this long thanks if u even read some of it i know i have horrible grammar and that this is probably boring but thanks if u read a little bit bye,3.0 49490,spaceshipthief the flavaaid krew is missing the saltiest flava ,2.0 49491,i got sun burnt i am sooooo happy diversity won xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx,2.0 49492,despair every day i hate myself every single day i want to die so badly im so tired of being alive please someone put me out of my misery i cant take this i lost i give up i dont want to go any further im too exhausted i have fought all i can my thoughts eat at me all day long and keep me up all night and ive lost control i cant stop falling down and down into this pit of misery and hatred and darkness theres nothing to grab on to and i have stopped looking all i can do is let the abyss consume me there is no hope for me no light nothing to look forward to only sadness only anger only the hell i live every hour of my existenceplease make it stop,3.0 49493,xiiislaughters bhah i forgot you to sorry ,2.0 49494,my day has been off to a rocky start ,2.0 49495,danischouten hear hear ,0.0 49496,your attitude towars corona virus outbreak assuming you are depressed diagnosed or not im curios about your attitude towards the corona virus outbreak especially if you come from a nationcity that has been locked down or where the cases are growing fast outside cina are you scared dont you care do you wish it lead to a general collapse do you actively act in order to spread the viruswrite down your thoughts,3.0 49497,i think i have mono ,2.0 49498,sallyk yep see my comment on your blog ,0.0 49499,there is a massive fly in the hallway its going to eat me ahhh ,2.0 49500, haha someone i dont even know made me laugh ryan ross win,0.0 49501,jeorgina on your quotediting fanupdate entries without them dispearingquot i cant find the zip file is there any other way i can download,2.0 49502,blcsfo sounds about right ,0.0 49503,i hate weddings de ce trebuie sa ma duc ,2.0 49504,drinking turkish tea again and after that ill go off good night everyone ,0.0 49505,trisected yes the weekend ruins my sleep cycle hahaha rmb t buy alcohol when you come back hahaha,2.0 49506,still hasnt seen up grrrrr ,2.0 49507,idiotattoveliden thnks for the follow tove ddoodm idiot,0.0 49508,we are a family that rescuse animals takes people in donates to everything we can now we are in a hard spot and ,2.0 49509,mailinhyloo maybe ill get some when i get to nyc then ,0.0 49510,first thing when setting up windows install av software first thing when setting up lin or osx install twitter client ,0.0 49511,where do i go after therapy and medication doesnt work been in therapy for years no progress been on different ssris in years no progress received tms no difference,3.0 49512,an absolute waste of my entire life when i was i told everyone i was going to be a paleontologist being five everyone just smiled and said id find the next trex when i got older and kept saying it the smiles turned into nervous frowns thats not a big field do they get paid well for that its very competitive are you sure you can make itwhy couldnt i just listen i got my parents to pay for my undergraduate studies i stayed at their house during my off year to get the best applications possible for grad school they paid for the gres which i passed with flying colors there was no way it ended here after everythingand then it did with rejections across the boardeverysingleonewith that went years of my hopes all the money my parents sunk into it every late study night every agonizing test and for whatthe knowledge that i had wasted all of iti dont know what to door even what else i can do you cant just pick it back up and keep goingtheres nowhere to go everywhere has either already rejected me and theres basically nothing i can get done with what i haveive wasted my entire life and lost everything i ever wanted to do what can i do nowand what am i even doing it for,3.0 49513,juss dropped the wife off i love her so ,0.0 49514,this gives me anxiety ,2.0 49515,paradoxtangent bwaaaaaaaaaaah how did you get oh youre in the ukdamn i want a tshirtonline create beta im not selected r u,2.0 49516,inrsoul yups i will start confirming it and tweet it as well ,0.0 49517,yay were blaming mental health here too sarcasm ,2.0 49518,adores every acceptance song that comes up on my ipod why did they break up ,2.0 49519,is all confused and doesnt know what to do ,2.0 49520,photo me and my girls ,0.0 49521,rt if you say the versailles treaty and the great depression contributed to the rise of the nazis does that make you a nazi,0.0 49522,kellylarocca nopeee i havent yet ,2.0 49523,i had prozac added to my wellbutrin for some anxietyi feel like im going insane i feel very under the influence out of it and unable to concentrate and no emotionswill this subside,3.0 49524,in conclusion i am in sad hours right now and am questioning everything,1.0 49525,djackmanson yeah i know not a fan of kennedy but remember willow said that after kennedy asked her when did she know she like girls,0.0 49526,pat k is the most the cutessst too bad dan died his hair ,2.0 49527,sad story smh👆🏾 whatdoyouvalue morals knowyourvalue ,0.0 49528,i feel empty and alone i dont know if this is the right feed to post but it was the one that seemed most appropriatei was first diagnosed with anxiety disorder at the young age of years old however it remained under the radar until this year as i finally graduated high school and moved onto university along with this my best friend left at the same time for his year mission with the lds church all of this change left me confused and scared but with the help of therapy i was able to relieve my panic attacks quicklyits been months since my last panic attack but ive rather been feeling lonely rather than worried i am surrounded by a ton of supportive friends but i would rather not tell any of them how im feeling i feel lonely and feel the need for human connection yet i isolate myself from the world at the same time i will be surrounded in a room by hundreds of people but i just plug in my headphones to tune out the world theres moments where i feel a certain high from life and i wish i could hold onto it but often times that high will disappear i sit in my dark room crying and hidden from the world i am not suicidal but sometimes i wish i didnt exist i do feel happiness but often times i feel alone and lost for the past month as ive been driving the thoughts of just driving off a bridge or into a lamp post have rushed though my head and it scares me that i would even consider that theres days where i love life and others where i wish i didnt have onelately i have been convincing myself to see a doctor to find out if what ive been feeling could be related to depression or not i have had these feelings for close to years now but they have only gotten worse as ive grown older whats been holding me back from talking to a doctor about this is the male stereotype ive been taught in a sense from a young age as a competitive athlete in my household ive often been taught that men dont show these dark emotions and that i should be mentally tougher so i jammed all of those emotions down inside me for years and years until i couldnt anymore i have quit drink alcohol as i was using it as a place to escape reality and ive replaced it with weightlifting as it keeps my mind distracted and happy i have lost motivation to work and i even took the semester off of university to relieve stress but now i sit around all day alone with my own thoughtsi feel scared alone and im unsure what to donone of my friends or family knows how i feel and im scared that people may resent me for how i amif there is any advice at all someone could give me it would be very helpfulsorry for the long rant but i have had this on my chest for months now,3.0 49529,this day sucks ,2.0 49530,rt khayadlanga according to a dr friend depression is increasing globally by it will be most common reason for occupational di,0.0 49531,no for real youre giving me anxiety ashley stop ,2.0 49532,im just venting n shit im so done with all the shit that my mother has put me through that cunt cant even pretend to love me anymore first she started ignoring me and my sister then she made all of us move in with her dick head bf same day that we met him they said theyre getting married what kind of bullshit is she trying to pull this asshole bf also wouldnt let me or my sister eat yeah fucking eat then she wouldnt let me see my dad because she thinks that hes mentally unstable and not a good person like bitch youre not a good person either i also havent seen any of my friends for a full year this shit is my fucking life this is not normal even though she tries to make it normal im fucking done oh i almost forgot im in the closet as pan but my mother is the most fucking homophobic person you will ever meet and the rest of my family is catholic but they actually will always care about me so i can either live a lie and never tell anyone or i can get kicked out of my house for liking two genders this shits fucking insanewell anyway this just some venting if you made it to the end of this congratulations you just read a two paragraph rant about my shitty mother ,3.0 49533,geekvgirl too bad you were busy playing in the mud to come see me ,2.0 49534,trendysd what happened to the other store in the corner jk do you have any broadway mirrors i want a new one,2.0 49535,has a major headache beer,2.0 49536,wuiiiiiih lemesh ,2.0 49537,karencoker i just worked out too joviz i loveeee sour lemonade esp when it has vodka in it ,0.0 49538,isacullen nooooo hides i kinda cough forgot ,2.0 49539,rt ethangrey weve seen the excuses for trumphe promised to shake up the establishmenthis campaign resonated with those who h,2.0 49540,saw angels amp demonsvery goodamp the hottest lingerie at victorias dratsno cash and now wants to strangle mother cause of her attitude ,2.0 49541,firsttiger real phone i just read your blog on phones they are not phones anymore ,0.0 49542,leegarland i have no hammock ,2.0 49543,jarettdelbene so is the jarett i know when r u coming back to nyc we miss you here ,0.0 49544,i think its time for some sims ive got time to spare anyway ,0.0 49545,morning half past and were off home buy caravan buy yarmouth buy wind farm i plan not to be back here with parents for a long time ,0.0 49546,i have to go to school today ,2.0 49547,rt laliftvillal quiero amigas que shippeen jalonso tanto como yo porque con el agarre de manosmás bien brazo ahrede hoy me altere yo,2.0 49548,dawnrichard get on ur hustlemake them hits ,0.0 49549,yaaaaaay i killed my first player tonight yaaaaaaay oh um should i be cheering maybe not whoops sorry ,0.0 49550,is flying home today ,2.0 49551,not even eating anymore im not hungry i dont want to do anything i used to like its just emptiness and reddit which is absolutely fucking pathetic,3.0 49552,is now at moes tacos since udon is only served till ,2.0 49553,is lovin the sunshine shame it only shines about once a year in glasgow ,2.0 49554,otaliarocks now i do thanks pet and i you a whole lot,0.0 49555,i am ridiculously tiiiired ,2.0 49556, i need a distraction does anyone want to talk about random shit i just need to distract myself from my depression and stress right now,3.0 49557,woollymittens i couldve but playstation has sony on it and its not worth the money to me at least i know i wont be buying a car ,0.0 49558,evybabee ok if youre asleep howd you tweet this ,0.0 49559,i ran with grit i was depressed this morning i pushed through i went through it i didnt let it keep me down i ran i ran with grit my legs gave in but i kept running not today i didnt lose today i woke up at i was in bed till depressed yet i ran in middle of traffic not giving a fuck about anyone i won today its a small victory i can do it also its first time i reached day i am proud of myself i dont care about anyone i am just proud of myself,3.0 49560,lilyroseallen french do it better kiss youre a great artist ,0.0 49561,teathigh interface ,2.0 49562,i hate thunder and lightening its shit and scary ,2.0 49563, ohh boohoo lol if you wouldnt be so damn stubborn in the first place luv ya leesh,0.0 49564,belly hurts why did i scroll down and look my quotsweet carolinequot post now its back in my head,2.0 49565,tommcfly would be so happy if you responded to me you guys are so talented amp i hope for new music soon i love you god bless ,0.0 49566,friend is clinically depressed how can i be more supportive my close friend is clinically depressed and he always brings it up whenever we talk im not sure how to react to that mid conversation i kinda just dont say anything but i want him to know im there for him if he needs anything part of it is also that ive never known anyone with clinical depression so i dont know how to react when he brings it up i dont want to pry and ask more about his situation but at the same time i want to be a good supportive friend what should i dosay when he brings it up in conversation again the fact that hes depressed has impact on our relationship btw i just dont want him to feel like im not being supportive of his condition,3.0 49567,acepower its not msn its my internet ,2.0 49568,rt bcfcmedia sad news today as bcfchuskers alumni eddie perrin has passed away on behalf of the entire bcfc we send our prayers and,1.0 49569,cousin nathan howran born june pm weighing pounds welcome to the world little buddy ,0.0 49570,docbaty okay yeah account management is teh suck i dont do it that much so forget how painful it is ,0.0 49571, last day of skool im gonna miss everyone thats leaving and specially you mel mel bye bye good night twitters ,2.0 49572,oh my precious angel i hate to know that youre sad when it damn distance doesnt allow me to hug you ㅠㅠ feel t ,1.0 49573,making ends meet im a special ed teacher in a town that is ridiculously expensive to live in a month for sq ft i live modestly student loan debt blah blah blah i have a dollar to get me through to the end of the month the last few months i have been selling shit to get by but i dont have much left to sell not likely to change in the foreseeable future fuck this life ,3.0 49574,oh my life is just a up and down a beautiful day ,2.0 49575,sad ,2.0 49576,revision consummate to complete marriage through sexual intercourse oo,2.0 49577,ouchhhhh swollen ankle ,2.0 49578,my journey ah man i always swore to myself id never do one of these but fuck it and sorry for the heaviness i remember crying for nothing when i was really young a lot and having really bad mood swings when i was a teenager and throwing things off my bedroom walls for no apparent reason smashing up cds and the such no rhyme or reasonjust teenage hormonesas i got older the feelings didnt go away though and they kept appearing in different forms the most popular being utter self loathing and hatred feeling inadequate as a person this ultimately lead to dropping out of college dropping out of one of the uks best drama schools randomly quitting jobs self harming and some rather weak attempts at the old taking your own life luckily im a big old pussycat the thought of what i put my family and friends through still makes me feel ill with regret and shame thankfully i have gotten a hold of that physical aspect through medication many wonderful health professionals and family and friends but unfortunately the mental aspect still berates me from time to timelike a large percentage of the population i struggle with depression some days im fabulous and others im not so fabulous some days most infact im on top of the world motivated confident happy but then comes along this big black train that steamrolls right into your life and cripples you when this happens it is game over i hate everyone and everything im angry and pissed off at everything but at none more so than myself i spend a lot of time trying to make people laugh because laughing is important in this life i think seeing people laugh makes me feel worth while it makes me feel liked but when this train comes along the laughter fucks off and life without laughter isnt a life i want to be a part of losing the ability to care about anything is pretty much what happens i dont care about the things that mean everything to me on any regular day a feeling of frustration builds up inside to the point that i want to scream and punch a wall or myself i want to burst out crying and hurt the people i love most i want the world to just fuck off i want there to be nothingand thats not me i dont think thats who i amanywaythe train has been making regular stops recently and its been fucking garbage but i also know why i havent been particularly well for the last few months to the point i havent been able to eat for weeks at a time the plus side being im seeing numbers on the scales i havent seen for a long timesilver linings i havent been able to study for a life changing exam due to not being able to focus or get out of bed anxiety creeped in no sleep stress fear resentment and now depression as ive gotten older ive started to try and examine and identify the possible reasons or triggers and boy those fuckers are varied songs smells places people anything can be a trigger and when the trigger is pulled its difficult to get back normalitydepression is a wee arsehole right and it comes in many shapes and sizes its ok to be depressed or anxious or stressed like its really really really ok to be like that its ok to feel worthless and pathetic theres nothing wrong with feeling like you want to just disappear for a while or to stop talking or stop laughing whats not ok is believing that you are on your own because you are not the one thing i have learnt from my journey on this train and its been a tough lesson to learn taught to me by my wife and my family is that you are not alone this world is a shitty shitty place at times but if we all try and stick together we might just be ok no matter how much you dont want it think it or believe it we are good for one another im trying to not give a fuck anymore to not give a fuck about the things that mean fuck all im trying to not give a fuck about depression about being liked or being succesfull and thats why im posting this i dont want to care if you think this cringey or attention seeking if i wanted attention id get on stage or post one of my hilarious instagram stories what i do give a fuck about is people not knowing that its ok to feel like this or that its not normalit is normal really fucking normal i give a fuck that my family and friends and strangers know that depression like a cold comes along out the blue and can affect anyone the most likely or unlikely people that yeah it is normal and it is ok to feel like a fucking emotional wreck and a failure so lets all cut the bullshit and stop pretending to be people that we are not and be the people we are everybody wears a mask in life but its ok to take that mask off be vulnerable to not be ok and for you to do what you need to do you arent a burden and you arent a weight youre a gift and you are special and we are lucky to have one another ,3.0 49579,i really want to spend my time with you tomorrow ,2.0 49580,good morning mrsjonesaxle ,0.0 49581,sheselectric hope your back feels better dear ,0.0 49582,ohtime to get off wish i was going home to someone have to go to mommies award ceremony luncheon later,2.0 49583,what is the best way to helpsupport boyfriend with persistent depressive disorder already posted on depression help hoping this reaches more people throwaway account it started years ago when my boyfriend mentioned to me that hes never actually happy he will laugh and have fun but hes never actually happy since then ive encouraged him to go to a doctor he decided to see one and was diagnosed with persistent depressive disorder and sleep deprivation however he never went back to get medication nor did he seek therapy or receive any kind of professional help it constantly affects our relationship and so i asked him to get therapy after much delay he decided to go and from an outsiders perspective it seems as though the therapy was slowly starting to help him manage his depression since the coronavirus pandemic sent us home from college hes been getting worse not showing up to online classes and missing assignments hes also been distant and i have no idea what hes thinking or doing i just want to make sure hes okay but dont know how to help since we cant see each other we recently got into an argument because his depression has made it hard for me because it feels like ive been carrying the relationship for a long time i have never had depression before so i have no idea what the experience is like all i can do is sympathize and try to understand as much as i can from an outside perspective and this isnt about me but his depression has deeply affected our relationship i wanted to break things off but immediately regretted saying that i think that really hurt him and he hasnt spoken to me in over a week but said he will reach out when hes thought about things more i dont know what to do i want to help him and our relationship i want to be there for him do i reach out when should i reach out would trying to talk to him when he isnt ready going to make things worse he says that he did see a future with me but now things are foggy im not quite sure if this is linked to depression maybe some of you guys can help elucidate this situation for me i want to ask those of you who know what its like to experience depression about what helps you the most i care so much about him and i just want to do whats best for him his mental health and our relationship,3.0 49584,mothers cookies are back pfft i just had some taffy ones they tasted like crap fk you kelloggs ,2.0 49585,made it home in record breaking time slightly was a wastebroadstbanks has stolen my bff ,2.0 49586,the other day i saw something interesting a pigeon mother pushing its child out of her nest the baby squeaked and squeaked,2.0 49587,so since it bums me out i dont want to color anything it sucks,2.0 49588,everyone goes away and its always been my fault im the common denominator ever since i was in grade school family and friends have left me i always thought if i could change my attitude or how i go about things then next time it would be betteri cling to any sign of affection i keep trying to please people with more and more because im terrified they will leave i finally found a person that loved the real me and i drove her away too now im as lonely as ever and i only have myself to blamei had motivation i never experienced before but now i cant even eat sleep or walk straight anymore i relapsed into selfharm again the one person i relied on for support will never come back i just dont want to do this i dont have the will to climb back up again because i know ill just push myself back down,3.0 49589,it wouldnt last lol only jesting ,0.0 49590,rt astroinmemes jinjin feeling sadrocky ,2.0 49591,haaa im just up some revising i think today eurgggh do ya do ya do ya love meeee laters,0.0 49592,is truly madly deeply inlove with joseph marcus yulo i love you hon ,0.0 49593,azurekitsune dude adultswim was the suck a looooooong time ago cn is just taking more time to catch up with the suck train ,0.0 49594,is my avatar coming up green as it doesnt look like it but it is everywhere else ,2.0 49595,james beeing a fugazi no ranch tonight ,2.0 49596,what will happen to me if i tell my soon to be pcp that i am suicidal recently i applied for health coverage specifically for lowincome families therefore my options are very limited i deal with childhood trauma suicidal thoughts and a social anxiety disorder i have isolated myself from the outside world for six years now i believe i have to make an appointment with my pcp before i get help for my mental health problems i remember my mom about six years ago told her doctor she was dealing with suicidal thoughts and from there she was sent straight to a mental clinic and was hold there for a few weeks will this happen to me if i tell my pcp that i am suicidal and if any of you are wondering whether i have gotten any type of treatment before i have not im currently and have dealt with this since i was little boy,3.0 49597,doin a double two days in a row oh how i cherish the weekends ,2.0 49598,rt troubledpoc i met haqiem rusli at starbucks earlier 😅 i asked him why did he faked his depression then he threw his iced americano a,2.0 49599,tanicakes awwiei miss my grandmashe always treats me like a princess ,0.0 49600,about to go swimming people needta come over ,0.0 49601,lalayu nite nite twitt with you again tom ,0.0 49602,rt the door ,1.0 49603,rt noturmcm me wow im actually starting to feel happy again my depression ,0.0 49604,i rock so many socks off ,0.0 49605,i dont want to get better i want to get worse does anyone else feel this way my depression is only mild right now but i feel like im missing some part of me because im my depression isnt worse maybe its just that ive found comfort and miss being in a constant state of disillusioned reality and pesimistic views ive gotten used to moderate depression and its a norm for me but recently its like ive become a different person and ive returned to untainted reality during this quarantine but i hate it i want to go back so badly • music sucks now i dont feel like it impacts my mood as much as it once did•my mood is so static like the flattest desert that extends through an infinite horizon more years of this shit till i die fuck that•i dont like how little im struggling and im unfamiliar with the feeling • i no longer have depression nostalgia as i like to call it my memories are duller and less powerful even if they have some more color than they would if i was really depressed even shitty feelings and •my special creativity and ability to be the advice guy has faded i can sometimes use what i believe is my strong ability to empathize its only strong when im depressed to put a lot of thought into a long response to a complicated situation in turn i earn respect from people and actually feel like im worth something to others by writing those lengthy detailed texts that are a little philosophical at times i cant do that any more•when i used to go to sleep i would imagine different people in my life telling me what a shitty person i was and how worthless i am in order to validate my feelings i dont feel like doing that any more and im losing sleep over iti am rotting away during this quarantine i want to go back i wish there was something i could do to send myself back into a spiraling state i miss the old me ,3.0 49606,im craving some cinnamon toast crunch why is it so cold today ,2.0 49607,set up her room today with a new york city poster homesick ,2.0 49608,that depression that just makes you sleep,1.0 49609,rt soleilhobi still sad we didnt get hqs of this look but alright ,1.0 49610,jack im not feeling so well myself ,2.0 49611,markrosenbauer i am brilliant thanks thinking i may run the gym soon gat a good early afternoon workout have a fantastic day today ,0.0 49612,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 49613,chillaxin in the bed watching him get dress ,2.0 49614,from rulesofengagement quotwhen youre married you can only be as happy as the least happy person in the relationshipquot ,0.0 49615,i was on my way to church and then realized i hav no gas and no money for gas ugh,2.0 49616,and that was my tweet wow i cant believe i tweet that much and probably noone is readinghahahwell pics coming up ,0.0 49617,is feeling tired and peed off with her dad after he was being annoying to me last night what a fcking knob ,2.0 49618,i just wanna stay at home all day ,2.0 49619,im so scared of night i dread night throughout the day im just so scared of being alone and in my head i feel so behind in life and think so pessimistically and dont have the energy to fix the problems in my life and think ending my life would be the best option,3.0 49620,i am sleeping at amys tonight i love this girl best buds forever xoxo,0.0 49621,rt femitheist mens suicide prevention campaignsuicide stayalive mentalhealthdepression health ,1.0 49622,missing her already ,2.0 49623,this cat is insane check his mental health,1.0 49624,slowly failing college i cant concentrate on studying even with medication i even have a very important exam tomorrow and im sure that the highest mark ill get is only if i had the courage to end it all instead of letting my family slowly watch my fail at everything in life cant drive at age cant read a single page without thinking about killing myself no friends to talk to about this issue and the funniest part is i am on medication so yeah i guess this is an answer for those whove been googling can depression be cured funny thing is if i see someone depressed ill keep lying to them and telling them that im doing much better on medication to give them hope lol,3.0 49625,ahhh we just made an offer on our first house ever ,0.0 49626,i feel like waluigi wah,3.0 49627,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 49628,does anyone else feel like theyre no ones first choice popped up in my head and dont go away,3.0 49629,i didnt holla at one girl not one im too quiet ,2.0 49630, flowers and a new pie bird life is great ,0.0 49631,marusula just saw your beer episode and thought it was great keep em coming please ,0.0 49632,whats everyones plans for memorial day weekend maybe we should all go to maine ,0.0 49633, i can only afford one including shipping its exactly the amount i have in my paypal ,2.0 49634,someone is goingits carlaneedsjb ,2.0 49635,modelmandylynn awww mandy you are adorable nice bubble twit,0.0 49636,rt traciethoms but seriously why arent presidental candidates required to take a mental health exam,2.0 49637,dubdew oh dear those chairs look dreadfully hard any other reccos ,0.0 49638,i am going to make a video and the titled will be deleting sad things where i get to talk about some sad things s ,1.0 49639,up very early for a saturday on my way to coffee bean for a tea latte ,0.0 49640,kitsunekael heh that sounds like a fun time ,0.0 49641,i jus got the best news ever and its wat ive been waiting for for years makes me actually anticipate the future to come sooo happy ,0.0 49642,sidviciious im afraid its so bad its not even funny id be too embarrassed and no worries i enjoy reading your replies x,0.0 49643,what does it feel like to stop dissociating i just started a new medication and ive had severe dissociation since my childhood its really hard for me to tell whats normal and whats my condition now since the new medication it seems like everything is more vibrant but somehow more blurry its overwhelming and idk if its coming out of an episode or just a different kind of dissociation what does it feel like when you arent dissociated what are some signs you recognize thanks in advance i really appreciate any input,3.0 49644,late late late gnight ,0.0 49645,xpb thats okay as long as he knows that i enjoy his music x,2.0 49646,rt xxdbreezyxx how you let a nigga thats not even your nigga stress you out sis,1.0 49647,snw same here i can do better than that ,0.0 49648,assuming that all my followers know that marielhemingway is the granddaughter of ernest hemingway among other things ,0.0 49649,thereasonwhy no ,2.0 49650,mystomachhurtssooooo bad ,2.0 49651,thenewbradie hahah somehow i think well end up not going to parkway drive ,0.0 49652,rt lifeaseva can we all stop treating anxiety like its a choice and something cool to have thank you,0.0 49653,i wish i had cancer instead of people who love life it just makes me feel so guilty that i can do so much yet i waste it all while people with dreams are suffering,3.0 49654,worst night ever i dont know what im going to do i get hurt a lot but i think its worth it i just wanna be happy danm it ,2.0 49655,i dont want to exist and i never have im just so fed up at this point and tired with the worldi didnt ask to be born into this system of mindnumbing working just to make a living i never chose to have any loved ones or family which at this point really just prevent me from killing myself i dont want anyone to love me i dont even want help i just want to stop existing i constantly feel like im drowning as if i was tossed into a whirlpool and i cant get out no matter how hard i flail i feel like a failure every step of the way because ill never live up to anyone expectations not even my own im so lost i didnt want any of this and i still dont but i cant end it because of earthly ties i didnt want in the first place at this point i just feel like im waiting for my mind to finally snap and completely stop caring and just kill my selfim sorry for the wall of text i dont post on reddit often at all but im just so tired and i need to write something down somewhere thanks for listening,3.0 49656,wishing all the moms out there a wonderful mothers day im off to go spend time with my amazing mom ,0.0 49657,natures calendar is on while im doing my flash stuff inspires me to do more with my photography and helps me realise why i love it so ,0.0 49658,ive talked with somebody who hurts in the past well ive talked with a person who betrayed me in the past she never knew that i knew about her betray anyway because her decisions im confronting legal consequences for so much time i hated her and i used to imagine about several options to get revenge the time has passed and i think i am a new person now i talked with her she asked about my situation and i look to her eyes and i said im fine and finally i believe it ive been depressed for the last five years because her shit but i think finally ive overcome her that might be the first step of my healing all of this post refers about laboral things,3.0 49659,rt you know what makes me really sad and its something bts have talked about how fast everything is going for them theyre do,1.0 49660,the rain is following me i went to moab to get away from the salt lake rain also i put another post up httpbitlybcfaw,2.0 49661,blwbyrd have a slice mdear ,0.0 49662,at home feeling very sick ,2.0 49663, realdonaldtrump and next crash is not too far in future not trump but big banking gone ,2.0 49664,dwighthoward mhm good job ,0.0 49665,tired of driving but i got a java chiller and i also found out that someone likes me weird day,0.0 49666,rt jaykenminaj melanie doesnt even possess the vocabulary in the english language let alone the mental sufficiency to be using wo ,0.0 49667,black sheep its so upsetting to see family members still struggle with their mental health our family trauma is deeply rooted and it was only after i was on my own that i started my healing journey ive made a lot of progress that im proud of and im now studying psychology in college however now whenever i see my family which is rare it just makes me sad because i understand why they are the way they are i know that if they were to accept that talking about your emotions is okay and seeing a therapist is okay they would find peace it hurts to see people you care about hurt but i have also learned a person needs to accept they need help for the help to work,3.0 49668,thekatoagency i went last nightit was so fun but i have to work tonight so i cant go ,2.0 49669,right studying starts now fusion xp visual studio countless books ben sitting inside on a nice day in front of a monitor ,2.0 49670,leftcoastmama i was wrong its strictly come dancing there used to be a ballroom dancing show when i was young called come dancing ,0.0 49671,chelcystanley i think you can now but our plans to go at midnight now a nogo i have to work the next day ,2.0 49672,koduckgirl workin on it eye sware ,0.0 49673,rt kbelliard nothing hurts more than seeing how much taxes are withheld from your paycheck at the end im left with depression,2.0 49674,called the hotline and the cops showed up im lost and confused i attend a small private school on the east coast its a university that is far too religious for their own good and when they see depression they have no clue how to deal with it that being said i attempted to choke myself with a belt from the ceiling to see what it was like i hated it and instantly stopped i then rang up the suicide hotline and talked to them reception wasnt great and so the call was eventually dropped they then transferred the call and my number to the local police and they showed up at my dorm room with the campus security i was really pissed at myself because i created a stupid situation that was completely unnecessary and now i have a bunch of legal things and counselors contacting me in the morning i would never actually commit suicide life is genuinely not bad im just in a ditch mentally the thing that pisses me off the most about this situation is now i have a target on my back for campus security to watch me i hate that i did this to myself even though im trying to break out of it ,3.0 49675,how good is the mobile net experience contact us and well show you how good it can be ,0.0 49676,no will to do anything i have been suffering from a lack of will to do anything there seens nothing for me to do in real life specialy and i dont know what to do the only thing i get some pleasure from is talking with people online or sometimes playing some games or bronzewing internet and in real lifewhat i like is going to some sports matches but a part from that every other activity is just a massive weight in my back i hate doing everything i sometimes can only stay at bed due to having no will to do shit and i just dont know what to do anyone has gone through similar stuff and could give me some advise i dont know what to do and i feel a bit desperate about it recently,3.0 49677,my mum is so angry at my nan its making me upset ,2.0 49678,realrobbrydon none of the new dates are cardiff trying to get tickets for you on home turf is hard always a sellout,2.0 49679,rxtmr you keep on coughing and sneezing when entering the premises and drinking hot coffee before letting them get your temperature ,0.0 49680,im on the front page wwwetsycom,0.0 49681, that is funny and cool ,0.0 49682, lol yup u need to go to perfumania i promise u will love it my favs are that ed hardy amp viva la juicy ,0.0 49683,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 49684,depression bullies adult sibling abuse survivors rarely get right therapy their recoveryjumpstart your life httpstcomkkfsdofto,1.0 49685, thank you ,0.0 49686,no riches for sin ,2.0 49687,jesusdiaz gah but then i might be tempted by newer prettier more expensive models ok ill wait anyway,2.0 49688,iphwin it was me i broked it,2.0 49689,spss homework tackled gym dominated time for some beers ,0.0 49690, lolyeah makes a girl not what to marry anyone in south carolinaespecially if shes small like me ,2.0 49691,🗣 dont googlewebmd u or your pets symptoms just go the doctor or vet its like a damn frenzy all u do is give yourself anxiety stress,1.0 49692,its a rainy day i guess ill be lazy today ,0.0 49693,tdickinson i wish i could get an underpaid student grunt job to be honest anything to do with what i went to school for ,2.0 49694,im having a breakdown and cant sleep hahaha how funny is that its here and i cant sleep because of those thoughts it hurts so much that i want to curl up like a ball im crying my hearts beating so fast and all i want to do now is to make it stop its been like that every morning for a few days and i dont know if i can endure it the entire month,3.0 49695, wish i could have gone to meet you guys will you still be here on friday,2.0 49696,i cant wait for twilight that long ,2.0 49697,please help me i truly cant feel anything anymore im and a gay man i dont know where this all started ive been sexually assaulted my entire life by different men my exhusband abused me and then left me my family is extremely toxic and have neglected me my entire life i have nothingi dont have insurance my license is expired i cant find my social security card to get a new one i cant get a job unless i have these things im in debt ive been relying heavily on drugs and alcohol my friends are all cutting me off because i either only talk about myself or i dont talk at all i tell them i love them and that i dont know whats wrong with me but most of them dont want to hear thatmy family doesnt support mei genuinely dont want to wake up anymore i have no energy left for this worldi dont know what to do i really dont ive tried everything ive tried every medicine a doctor can offer me ive been to different therapistsi barely eat i have no money im chain smoking worse than ever beforewhat am i supposed to doi wrote a suicide note two nights ago i just wanted to see how that would make me feelim not suicidal now but i need helpcan someone tell me what i should do until i can see a doctor how do i get my energy back how do i stop my friends from all leaving how do i gather the will to want to be better in the first placei think people think that im crazy because i want to feel better so badly but at the same time ive given up on myself and my life and im rapidly losing the will to reverse thati know theres no easy fix but if someone could just help me with that first tiny little step to making this stop id really appreciate it i dont know what other information i need to provide i didnt see a rule section in this subany advice would help literally anything any methods,3.0 49698,rt lydiacharmayne i wouldnt wish anxiety on anyone 😭,1.0 49699,is watching bones work ,0.0 49700,twitter is the only fun social network thats not blocked at work yay hope it doesnt get blocked soon ,2.0 49701,using new visual style for xp its approach matches my current bright dark mood yeah paradoxical ,0.0 49702,just when i thought i found someone to hold on tothey let gojust like dat ,2.0 49703,with paggeeey btw damn i got a tan i hate tans ,2.0 49704,rt so sad i had to work tonight ☹️😢 ,2.0 49705,backstreetboys peru miss you ,2.0 49706, spring has come to georgetown ,0.0 49707,chrisdjmoyles grrrrr how far did you run im jealous i wish i had the will power but im sooooo unfit right now ,2.0 49708,oh what a night couldnt have been better,0.0 49709,pbcproductions why couldnt you let me know sooneri cant call out of work on this short notice oh well here is for next time,2.0 49710,rt iiitsjustandy of depression is caused by being broke,1.0 49711,is making ericas hair into dreads so exhausting no joke,0.0 49712,rt why are church services so early is there a cant sleep because of crippling depression sermon because thats wh,2.0 49713,rt hogwartsmaglc everything about harry potter that i see now just makes me so nostalgic forever suffering from post potter depression,1.0 49714,rt necation okay i think im good nowmy depressionhttpstcofssbgcwvmn,0.0 49715,i deserve more than this i hate myselfim lonelyim too scared to changei dont know who i am anymorei want to change i dont know who to change for i pushed everyone away i live day to day i live swallowed up in years of misery i deserve more than this i should have tried harder i should try harder i dont care i care too much would it be so bad if i just wanted this to end,3.0 49716,leolaporte test days battery life exchange on min inter fetch mode calls hour per day ipod minnet min one day ,2.0 49717,about to hang out with a bunch of graduatess ,0.0 49718,rt timmonsbeck small thread of something i see being misunderstood that makes me sad,2.0 49719,planting flowers and sweet basil ,0.0 49720,vancewahl me too isabelle and leah stagg awaken the house at ,2.0 49721,just more days to iphone os ,0.0 49722,made a tasty soup to make me feel better it did then i ate too much and now have tummy ache ,2.0 49723,rt mxhaei you know what sucks more than social anxiety 😜 👊 ¯ ¯being self aware that youre wasting your li,1.0 49724,packtar no she hasnt seen cassie yet soon ,0.0 49725,the kilometer drive last night i was quite down i was crying in my bed as the clock turned i figured i would get out of the house a little got in my car and started drivingi got onto the highway and was completly alone there were no street lights and a thick fog made it seem like the world just appeared some meters ahead of me i was in a state of constant self hatred i thought how much better it would be if i just did a sharp right turn and let my car hurl of the road but for some reason the voice in my head wasnt done with me you know how it goes fuck you you are nothing but a pest to those around you the world would be a marginally better place without youthis went on for what seemed like an eterinty until the highway ended and i was confused by the road network that layed ahead of me i turned back going back the way i came was no better i eventually ended up back at my own house i didnt feel much different but atleast i was still alivewhy i made this post i dont know maybe i just needed to get it off my chest maybe ist the alcohol making me type some nonsense maybe im looking for sympathy from people onlinesorry,3.0 49726,serendipi hubby and kids away for nightmissing them ,2.0 49727,rt scripturetruth get rid of your of worries cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you ,2.0 49728,got work ,2.0 49729,miraveda well yes i am ,0.0 49730,redoing the hair eff the naptime gonna go party with henny the shop class of ,0.0 49731,poor calvin ,2.0 49732,rt livpsy be with someone who is good for your mental health,0.0 49733,my gf left me and i want to die again just got dumped by someone who picked up the pieces of what was broken before was cheated on by my fiance and dumped over the phone before i started dating most recent ex i am so fucking stupid for getting involved with someone after my last relationship she moved on after weeks it still took me over a year to date again and to top it off my gf left me essentially because of my depression and how it aftects my life i fucking hate this i want to rip my brain out and stomp it into oblivion no matter what i do it feels like i cant live a normal life,3.0 49734,is back from school ,0.0 49735,i want to find someone to do a shoot with this weekend blah ,0.0 49736,super depressed after having edible hi i decided to try an edible with a friend after a couple hours of day drinking not super heavy drinking but regular refills every so often i socially drink regularly and dont consider that a problem but i gave up smoking weed a long time ago in college because it stopped being fun and i had similarly bad experience as i am talking to you about nowonce the edible kicked in immediately started having all these thoughts in my mind about myself my life my family and just about all aspects of my life all the thoughts were mainly negative and i started to spiral into this deep state of sadness self doubt and loathing i used my phone to jot down much of my thoughts and feelings i was having so i could hopefully discuss and fix them overall it stayed in my system for a while and felt like crap for these past two days and i am slowly feeling better but still experiencing these thoughts but with limited intensity the thoughts were the scariest part i found myself doubting who i am what type of life i have created for myself how i treat others especially my wife and family and friends i also became incredible critical of how i manage these relationships im not a terrible person i know this and i live a very fortunate life i live a good kife however my anger and judgments and harmful behavior have great impacts on me and those around me i shared allmost of my he thought with my wife as i couldnt control how much was popping into my head i couldnt turn it off i have for a while maybe for years probably needed to see a professional as i do have angeranxiety issues maybe even some depression and feelings i have swallowedheld up over my life now i wonder at times if led me to a life other that is below my potential or match up with who i am as a person the thoughts were scary to me and intense as it was everything and anything this has happened once or twice before that it was this bad but with time i got over it however even though it was the drug which made me feel like this i do find truth to a lot of the emotions and insight i felt about myself i will try to get help this time anyone else have ever experienced this type of episode how do i move forward ,3.0 49737,finding myself in a vicious circle after someone i met kissed someone else i was in a club last weekend and met a guy we talked danced and made out eventually im not that familiar with doing this but im single so i thought what the heck big mistake he asked if i wanted to go to his place after which i wasnt that sure i said maybe since i knew other people in the club i also hung out with them some times well at some point i was wondering where the guy is and started looking for him to my surprise i saw him making out with someone else it kind of hurt me and i went home i tried to not give it a second thought but it haunts me ever since deep down i know its probably better i didnt went home with him because i would be even more attached we live in another city miles apart but im feeling so down now im finding myself in a circle of what ifs it sounds silly but it kind of feels like a heart break i will probably never see him again how can i forget about this night and how can i stop being so attached to everyone i kiss ,3.0 49738,toddnewton you are too kind and i send it right back atcha cant wait to share the stage with you somewhere congrats on everything ,0.0 49739,this conference call is soooo boring ,2.0 49740,myinnerredd i know ,2.0 49741,patmastroianni jakeepstein officialmiriamm cassandrasteele shaneykipps stefanbrogren fanexpocanada im so s ,1.0 49742,i just feel like venting somewhere so i chose this place its weird because after everything thats happened lately id expect myself to be happy at i finally got a girlfriend who i share several interests with i spent new years doing slightly illegal rebellious teenager things that felt like a scene from a movie yet im just not happyive always wanted a relationship and this person once again shares several interests and is almost like a copy of me yet i feel isolatedi finally had the amazing night that ive always wanted but it seems that one perfect nights not enoughi dont even know what i want for my future anymore,3.0 49743,is getting ready to go to art class and hopefully be able to go to hollywood pop jam this summer to see if they think i can at all sing ,0.0 49744,i am fing lost in ikea you get off their arrowed path by a foot and you cant make it out of the store for an hour ,2.0 49745,rt rep yoder sold american jobs to indian lobbyists by sneaking into the dhs appropriation bill paving the way fo,0.0 49746,in a moment of darkness hi im not quite sure why im posting this im no poet by any means but i wrote this during a time when my depression really took over to try to understand what was going oneverything is darkeverything is remembered yetevery thought is forgotten theres something in the way of thoughtof feelingand opaque filter on being whats left is a forgotten series of wordswhich onceleft a sense of hope but nowan artificial reason for being ,3.0 49747,being a father has ruined me this is poorly written im sorry i dont really have anybody i can talk to but i need to get this off my chest my partner and i have been together for nearly years she always wanted children but i wasnt overly keen on it we decided to have a child i would have done anything to keep her happy once she fell pregnant i began to feel a lot of regret i wasnt looking forward to it at all the more we bought to prepare for the baby the more and more miserable i became i grit my teeth and kept a happy face on after all everybody said its rewarding and amazing to be a parent fast forward to today i hate every single aspect of parenting my child is almost a year old i hate the fact that every single fucking moment i have is now taken up with this little human i am yet to enjoy a single moment of the past months i do what i can to make it as bearable as i can but that doesnt make it better i cant speak to my partner about how i feel each time i mention it i get told to grow up its driving her and i apart bit by bit i hate being at home i hate having to pay for all the child related expenses i hate that i havent had as much as a day to myself in a year every single moment i have at home i am legitimately considering suicide ive lost all interest in my past hobbies i can barely bring myself to do as much as mow the fucking lawn the only relief i get is when im at work i struggle to bring myself home every afternoon i often think i could just keep driving and driving and wouldnt worry about where i end up anywhere would be better than home my home doesnt feel like a home anymore i hate it i dread it i dont hate my child but i certainly dont love them either they are just a chore to me i know its not their fault and its all me,3.0 49748,i stopped at a place called viztango cafe amp ordered lasagna to go but it wasnt that good i read more at ,2.0 49749,i dont know where to begin m a month ago it was my birthday i still have no idea what to do for a career or anything outside of high school i was mostly indoors for a majority of my teenage years i tried football between ages and but in hindsight i wasnt a team player not for being a blowhard or anything like that i just never fully engaged with the aspects of football my longtime friends dont want to be around me anymore i never had a girlfriend i have repressed a lot of negative behavior for awhile that it could be toxic when leaks i dont want to go to college at least for now because i dont think im ready but my dad wants me to go there anyway i have been to a psychologist before but that doesnt do anything for meevery time i have an interest in something that i once like i lose the drive to keep the interest going basically im a quitter i cant make up my mind about many thingsim sure im missing some more details but i just dont know what to do i dont know what to say to my parents about this shit all they want for me to do is to graduate high school and get a career so i can live on my own i know they mean well but this depression feeling is ruining my life i just dont know what to do or where to begin,3.0 49750,i am in pain but i cant seem to do anything about it im sorry if this is the wrong place will remove if it is so long story short if possible ive been on a steady decline over the past year and it feels like every hurt ive ever received is catching up with me i was sexually assaulted twice and i just packed it all down and moved on i have been to doctors counselors therapists you name it my life is amazing right now im doing well in school but i can feel it slipping my family is happy and stable i just got a great new job a loving and supporting partner i know im cracking and starting to lose my grip and im afraid ill lose my good things i am disgusted by my body to the point where im just a mess of disordered eating and purging except every night i lie here and feel nauseous anxiety build up when i drive i wish i would just get in a collision or get in some horrible wreck so i dont have to be the reason my family is broken i dont want to be here but more than that i cant hurt the people i love and who love me but i just wish something would happen some car accident or any mishap where i can just finally have a break from everything im exhausted i feel like ive tried everything and im just tired i dont know where my breaking point is i just dont know what to do or where to go,3.0 49751,in maths with jess x,0.0 49752,bad day spent all day today inside my daughter is at her moms my son is at his mom trapped in the house today with no one to hang out with because the only people i know in town are from my sexes no money so cant go get drunk at buffalo wild wings so im just at home poppin pills all day dealing with my depression ,3.0 49753,rt figgled cool things about being an adult eat chips whenever u want no bedtime tired all the time sad all the time wait a s,1.0 49754,i am dreading the packing trying not to think of anything but the beach ,0.0 49755,another statement because this post pissed me off when youve suffered from anxiety since yrs old waking across ,2.0 49756,enterbelladonna that photo of your feet holding up those blue heels is beautiful i assume aiden took it if so tell him i dig it ,0.0 49757,is lisetning to bigbang ohwow saw it on mtv hongkongwawaweweaweaaweas,0.0 49758,iron maiden special didnt tape ,2.0 49759,its all fun and games until somebody ends up in a cone love you twobostons ,0.0 49760,im not looking forward to anything hi im new here i just want some advicei am having an exceptionally hard time lately its kind of like the feelings i can usually control and look past i now cannot i cant stop thinking about how i do not want to do anything i feel like there is nothing to look forward to at all when i try to do something i feel exhausted just thinking about it going to class homework working out etc i moved to a new city for school in january and have tried to find some professional help but its expensive and honestly makes me more anxious i just dont know how to get past this feeling of not wanting to be alive or do anything i could really use some help thanks,3.0 49761,thanks all for the loft compliments cant wait to post more pictures sleep first then decorate ,0.0 49762,stevewallo you announced the winner of spelling b before it was over i liked the kid who had to spell pallachinkin is that right,2.0 49763, has arrived ,2.0 49764,has woken up with a banging hedache after her horrible dream ,2.0 49765,thatd be cool ,0.0 49766,simplymarci and i got locked out of our car in ac due to my stupidity awesome valet at the taj is hookin us up with a locksmith ,2.0 49767,sigh farrah i didnt know until a second ago rip dear no pain,2.0 49768,i want to go back to vegas ,2.0 49769,i simply cant do this anymore i just turned im in college i cant handle my engineering classes anymore the depression has gotten worse and soon ill have to leave without graduating to work at some dead end job just to survive before i end my life i no longer have a dream job the market is too competitive for what i want to do and my body refuses to put real effort into anything anymore ive tried different antidepressants all which make me more depressed knowing that they dont work years of being depressed and it keeps getting worse the thoughts are really creeping up on me so much that i start physically panicking i dont want to die but living is so painful that i wish i just never existed,3.0 49770,get some sleep loves tomorrow is going to be a glamourlicious day whores ha ha oh and boys come visit my dreams yeah kisses,0.0 49771,leaving on a jet plane cried the whole way to atlanta ,2.0 49772,the gods gate me i am trying to change my life for the better butt the odds are stacked against me example i was trying to change schools the main reason i am deppresed and gues what i did not make the cut now i believe that it is my fate to be miserable and commit suicidei gues beggars cant be chooserssorry for bad english,3.0 49773,dumb bitch ou sad bitch,2.0 49774,help get out of a funk i have a question i mean i dont feel like myself anymore i have a lot of things going on outside of my own world dad being sick not loving my job on top of it i have gained some weight but how do i get out of this depression i am so unhappy with myself and i dont know how to change it any ideas would be great ,3.0 49775,i woke him up in the end got bored ,0.0 49776,imperiousbab aww ,2.0 49777,rt scottsantens annual incomes and employment rates dont show the massive amount of variance in our monthly earnings a ,1.0 49778,finding myself in the dark again ive been getting a lot of negative attention at work lately i hope it all ends soon time heals most but its been rough after being stabbed in the back by a friend who couldnt take no for an answer i cant trust anyone anymore i dont want to talk to anyone but the loneliness hits me so quickly my anxiety has been through the roof i cant control my thoughts anymore there are things going on outside of work that are stressing me out to top it all off my hair started to fall out again i need some light and am struggling to find it anywhere the spiral has begun and im afraid of the direction im going in ,3.0 49779,why didnt i die i had it all set up i felt so relieved knowing that all the pain was going to be over but when i pulled the trigger nothing happened there was something wrong with the bullet people tell me that this happened for a reason maybe i was meant to live but i still sure as hell dont want to whats wrong with me why didnt i die what the fuck is wrong with me,3.0 49780,rt depression is real among high achievers its worsened by impostor syndrome a psychological pattern in which an individ,1.0 49781,my input goes to a window that has not the focus and is not in front and where no cursor is flashing great windows world ,2.0 49782,mrartclark whatcha doin tomorrow i am sure all will be fine ,0.0 49783,just found out i have to be up at pst the day after july to book studio time fml,2.0 49784,magnla uhhhhh spring arrived a week or two ago and then left heh,2.0 49785,rt vrisycha my deep condolences for tae amp his family i know this is not easy but dont dissolve in sadness if u continue to sad then ur g,1.0 49786,listening to the best radio station on the internet slayradio httpslayradioorg while writing a nice piece about toms field campsite ,0.0 49787, lol i was actually planning to crash that beach trip with a few people got too lazy though ,0.0 49788,ralphtresvant went to a bday party last night it was off the chain drank toooo much will pay for it at work lol ,0.0 49789,i just needed to put my thoughts into the world for someone to hear i dont know how to start this shit its midnight and tomorrow i have an interview thatll be dependant on whether or not i get into university i need to fucking sleep but my mind is racing and i feel the lowest i have in a while im feeling the need to get this mental weight off my shouldersi feel like a fucking let down to my entire family i have sisters and they have all settled down been to university and landed a somewhat successful career path for themselves i went to university once years ago and i left midterm whilst living at student accommodation i didnt leave my room for weeks at a time and i barely ate and no one even knew or cared im horrific at writing and my brain is all over the place so none of this is going to be in order or even make sensei currently live on my own and its so lonely again i spend weeks just in my room and barely eating i play video games all day as its the closest thing i have to human connection and i truly believe my bestest friends are online but thats the kicker of this shit i need a real human connection with someone i want a physical connection its so painful to admit that im so fucking lonely and sad all the time that i cant say it to anyonei recently admitted to myself my mum and a few friends that i have that i am depressed one of my friends that we will call ben will text me every now and then and check that im okay and i really love it when he does it touches my fucking heart but i never see him and we talk so infrequently my other friend that we will call chloe knows the most about my mental state and knows the most about me in general she had been my best friend for going on years at this point i love her more than life and i would do anything for her to make her smile but she wouldnt do the same for me i need her right now she isnt here i try calling her she never answers or returns my calls despite her knowing of my situation it makes me hate her it makes me want to die so then maybe she will realise how much i needed her i would never though because i would feel evil i stopped trying to contact her and what do you know we havent spoken since i have no real friends that are actually here i just want a hugim lusting for a relationship probably out of my loneliness i just want to love someone with my entire heart i want to put all my energy into making someone feel special and wanted i now want to move on to things ive never had the courage to tell anyone about mainly regarding my ex boyfriend i was raped i was abused when i was raped i was laying in his bed annoyed with him and just about to go to sleep i was unresponsive to anything he did to me i felt him touching me and then he started having sex with me whilst i was laying as still as anything with my arms crossed and i didnt know what to fucking do so i just laid there helplessly i was or at the time the times he abused me i honestly cant remember specific details of it all because its all a blur in my mind but i remember some of the things he did i was head butted kicked punched and bitten i remember one time i had a few really bad bite marks on my arm and my sister asked what it was and i had to tell her it was from some guy that bit me when we were playing tag rugby in pe she probably knew that was complete bullshit i might empty some more of my mind on to here at another time i just needed to get some of this shit out and thank you for reading this and caring i hope you have a great day,3.0 49790,spent months waiting on ect and now stuck waiting more months i was finally referred for ect by my psychiatrist after losing my job and having a bunch of suicidal thoughts i was referred in september and i finally got my first appointment with one of the only doctors in the city able to do ect during my appointment he told me that theyre backed up due to the record demand of patients needing ect it will probably be another month or two before i can get ect sessions started he recommended that i go into a partial hospitalization program in the mean time since im unemployed and not doing anything what a total waste of timeive been unemployed since august and have been unable to find decent work since im running out of options with finding something to give me actual results in improving my depression ive already done php a couple years ago after being hospitalized for suicidal thoughts it was a complete waste of time for me trying to do it again doesnt sound like itll do me any good my mom thinks itll help me but she mostly just wants me to have something to do while my husband is at work what will it take for people to get that im sick of being like this and im running out of options trying to recommend shit ive already tried is not going to help at all,3.0 49791,sick my tummy is just gurgling all the time i miss my son ,2.0 49792,i feel so empty i feel so tired lately this weekend has been nothing but draining emotionally and i cant shake this feeling of loneliness and worthlessness so all i can do is drink and sleepsometimes the people you love the most can make you feel the worst i guess,3.0 49793,kujunat oh dear not sure what to do then thought i could persuade you ,2.0 49794,sad that when fitness center reopens will not have our zumba class anymore just found out today on our last class before closure ,2.0 49795,human existence suffering i suppose this is really a bit of therapy for me i have for almost years now dealt with my mental health issues alone i have no problem dealing with these things but at times it is nice to know i am not alone in the world my story is nothing too crazy i do not come from a battered or broken home i had a pleasant childhood with the privilege of being surrounded by family and friends sure things were not perfect but then again who had a perfect childhood in a sense i used to feel guilt about my depression namely due to the fact i did not have some crazy trauma or patterns of unspeakable events that fucked me up in other words i didnt have some story of heartbreak and pain i just had a normal life filled with opportunity and support yet i still felt alone and empty inside from an early age as i grew older i became more aware and in touch with my feelings this helped tremendously if for no other reason than i now had an answer or label for what was happening in my brainlet me provide some context for what i believe were a series of life events that ultimately led me down this path i am currently traveling onlife is pretty good minus the occasional self esteem issues that an teenager deals with as i move into my college years life really starts to happen no longer am i sheltered by the strict boundaries my parents used to govern me now i am free in the world no longer able to hide behind the facade within a matter of months the following events happened first real relationship was over granted high school love is subjective my parents who were married for years decided they did not love each other any longer and so got divorced my grandfather passed away i was raised in a christian home and was spoon fed this extremely toxic poison my entire life i had finally gained the courage and knowledge needed to leave that part of my life behind and transition to the non religious lifestyle very liberating but due to the years of brainwashing felt enormous guilt associated with this decision i think religious guilt is something that does not get talked about enough and can definitely account for a portion of my unhappiness and certain cynicism to the world especially organized religion furthermore as my generation moves away from the shackles of organized religion as a whole this topic will become much more prominent in the years to come i have much more to say on this but will save for the appropriate forum the best for last i was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease called ankylosing spondylitis asthis was undoubtedly the icing on the cake for me and frankly was the breaking pointin short as has a number of effects on the bodymind notably to the body the joints in your neck back hips coccyx and sacrum are all inflamed thus pain ensues in addition the spine begins to fuse together creating what is called bamboo spine this process takes some time and fortunately i have been able to slow the progression of this with modern medicine so every day is a painful day to some extent and at some location in the body pain is what allowed me to discover this disease after several years of being misdiagnosed simply due to ignorance and lack of education on as in the medical community the worst thing about as other than the life sentence of chronic pain would be the effects it has on me mentally the worst of them are depression and fatigue i would rather deal with days of pain at level than days of fatigue and depression at half that fatigue is the desire and overwhelming need to literally do nothing you have no energy for one there is a lack of motivation for two the pain is the nail in the coffin when it comes to trying to overcome fatigue now take fatigue the feeling like you have been hit by a truck dragged down the road and left for dead and add depression to it this is a lethal cocktail that can overtake and control your life if allowed i have learned that while i cannot beat these forces being aware and maintaining a firm grip on reality helps me survive these episodic nightmaresthis is not an as forum and so for sake of boring you to death with as and its black clouds of side effects i will circle back to the main topic of this postas i type this out i feel simultaneous relief and uncertainty about what i have said i have always struggled with taking a plethora of thoughts and articulating them in a manner that is informative and succinct i would like to say in closing i know that what i have been through or experienced pales in comparison to some of you who have had to overcome extreme hardships and adversities in life everyone has their battles they are fighting daily some do well in the wake of the battles while others succumb to the unfathomable reality their life has become while i have never been suicidal or wanted to die mainly because i have lost several friends even a boss to suicide and have seen the effects it has on the ones left behind i can appreciate and understand the misery and pain that drives one to this unfortunate demise in this life the only certainty other than death is the notion that humans are designed to suffer as long as we can become in tune with the fact the world is increasingly ambiguous and owes us nothing i think we can get on the right path as a society hope i havent bored you to tears thanks for reading ,3.0 49796,how i feel i want to talk about suicidethis moment in time i got nothing to hidecry myself to bed every night and every day is a fight i want to jump on a flightand leave this all behind me but it chases me i cant escape my emotionsmy parents try to teach me useless notions but im past that stage im filled with rage and i cant engage with the people who love me cause i trust no one and i want to run the stress is a ton and im fucking donedont worry about us we dont like to make a fusswe repeat the process every day until weve had enoughthere was a time that i was happy i had my girl my friends and my familyliving every single day thankfullywhen one by one they left me rapidlyspend all day in my bed in my thoughts im lying dead lost the power to get that breadim barely fed im hanging by a threaddont worry about us we dont like to make a fusswe repeat the process every day until weve had enoughmy head is a mess and every time i prayim only asking that i can make it through another day and that the thoughts dont stay cause i cant live this way and inevitably ill stop feeling this way indefinitelydont worry about us we dont like to make a fusswe repeat the process every day until weve had enough,3.0 49797, i again have an obsession with cookbookscombined with the food networklethal,0.0 49798,going bike ridding but first paper ,2.0 49799,going to get some sleep i have a very busy day long day at work tomorrow ,2.0 49800,doingg revisionn ,2.0 49801,washing my hair and then off to stuff some beach balls ,0.0 49802,im suicidal af but i know ill never do it which kinda leaves me in a weird limbo of wanting to be dead knowing im going to either be homelessmooching off my familyor a drug addicti can see it now calling my parents constanty from states away asking for money like i want to be successful but i have motivation for anything i legit dont care i think the only thing i actually care about is making it seem like i care so that people dont worry got a bit to honest with my mom she wants me in therapy rambling on again like i always do i dont even know what i want i put hours into a game like how the fuck am i going to waste straight hours every weekend playing video games my grades suck im a super senior soon to be an ultra senior i keep thinking that like once i obtain diploma in hand it will be over ill feel a weight off my shoulders but i mean its honestly just a ticket to working till i die reading back on this it sounds all edgy and stupid i was going to delete it like i always do but i honestly just need to write it down somewhere ill delete it when i cool down ,3.0 49803,justinparks good tip i have pages who have bookmarked my tweets also use my url shortener stat that tell me which get most hits,0.0 49804,nothing is wrong in my life so i dont know why i feel this way not sure if i am actually depressed or just being a bit dramatic ive had fleeting thoughts of suicide but nothing id actually act on when im in bed i have an urgefantasy to stab myself last night was especially bad i dont know what exactly happened but i could feel rats or mice crawling over me and wasnt able to sleep nothings wrong in my life so i dont know why i feel this way im finding it hard to concentrate on university im not registered with a doctor and would feel very anxious and nervous about telling anybody this,3.0 49805,dont drink when you are under aged theres a warning to all you you will get in troublelike me hahah pray that i dont die thanks ,0.0 49806,i just want to drink until i can sleep nothing brings me joy right now some days are okay but not this one nothing particularly bad is happening to me maybe tomorrow will be better tomorrow mornings coffee will help,3.0 49807,sookiebontemps i hope you feel better ,2.0 49808,man i bin sleep since i kame hme frum skool nd i still feel terriblegess no movies me tunite ,2.0 49809,imariep you can also play tongits on your pc or mac download the game from httpwwwtongitsnet enjoy ,0.0 49810, me and my sis got pics with her ,0.0 49811,ok i changed my pic now so dont answer that last question ,0.0 49812,steph is a whorey untweeting twat gtlt she ditched me for her nana and left me in tour with the boys ,2.0 49813,watching hot rod with my bestie stephaniemars loveeeee andysambergsnl and jorm funny and veryy good looking guys jealous of isla f,0.0 49814,want to switch on the ac but mom not allowing says ill get ill if i enter ac after coming from such heat ,2.0 49815,me when my crippling depression allows me to get out of bed capndesdes ,2.0 49816, teded lessons about mental health ,1.0 49817,i cant believe that jilian hasnt found out about wes yet he is such a jerk and hes going to break her heart poor jilian ,2.0 49818,noirem and ive wine now a day with both beer and wine is something to celebrate ,0.0 49819,took a hiatus from twitter very strange also back in minneapolis good to be home ,0.0 49820,neighbours from hell are back after being away for weeks knew it was too good to last ,2.0 49821,rt charlieangusndp i thank justintrudeau for speaking for our nation at this terrible time as we mourn we must discuss the proliferati,1.0 49822,hmm thunder and lightning i love it now if only i had a tripod and shutter release for my fb,2.0 49823,nothing can bring me down ,0.0 49824,should i stay or should i go im i am suicidal i dont know if i can handle this any longer my mom knows i have depression but she doesnt know that i cut or that everyday i fantasize about death she also does not believe the doctors that i have depression i just want to be in my room and never come in or talk to people and because of that i get in so much trouble im usually called disrespectful yesterday i came home and made a mistake by asking him about something i found in my room and about my gym clothes my moms fiancé he got mad he told me to stop bitching at me i got mad and of course my weak mind took me to cutting last night my mom explained to him that i wasnt angry that the time i gave him is one i have no control over sadly thats my actual voice but whenever i use it people think im angry last night he called my selfish disrespectful should i just not be myself anymore or should i give in to the voice in my head and kill myself ,3.0 49825, oooo pizza tonight score ,0.0 49826,cancer really sucks so i found out i had a tumor april of last year they were able to remove it but with that comes the chemotherapy which im more than halfway done with and ends in july but i constantly feel like i am close to a breaking point the chemo drains me of energy and fucked up how i eat nausea is a part of the daily routine for me it doesnt help that nothing tastes good just varying degrees of crap so ive been forcefeeding myself what feels like fucking trash for months just so i dont become very underweighti fucking hate eating there were times where id wanna scream or cry knowing i have to eat my next meal im frequently in a lot of pain various pains from the chemo i feel like a walking piece of shit pretty much everydayi feel so disillusioned with the world at large i feel like people are just bullshit artists they say theyll be there but arentive really grown to feel like i hate living but i dont wanna die either its too scary people tell me all i have to do is to look forward to the future but it feels like it never fucking ends im just stuck indoors all day because of my shitty health ive been trying to fill the void with creating art but even that i feel burned out i feel like few people understand how hard this cancer shit is like le positive attitude is all i need well thanks for making it this far i genuinely appreciate it ,3.0 49827,who remembers this from transformers the animated movie thanks thegreatrhetor for the recommendation ,0.0 49828,rt harianahoe ok whores heres ur chance to be added to kissy suicide™️ be a crackhead dont be problematic unless it funny try and,1.0 49829,racheliona mtv movie awards babbby official trailer premier im going to finish the book tonight xxxxxx,0.0 49830,pokinatcha i know soo annoying,2.0 49831, then move your ass here ,0.0 49832,anybody know any good iphone apps that i can put on mine i havent got anything interesting really please and thankyou,2.0 49833,sintrenton twas mutual welcome to my twitter world see you in bratislava next time ,0.0 49834,damn be up this early just get my hair done and there not even open ,2.0 49835,missing the hot weather ,2.0 49836,i just want it to stop its like having an inflammation that will always come back its always inflamed but sometimes it just gets worse and it fucking hurts and i want it to go away my brain is permanently this way depression is a part of my personality its here to stay and it doesnt hesitate to remind me of that and you know what i really fuckin hate my face is so expressive people immediately know my emotions i just want to hide it but i cant my eyes get droopy and sad i stop talking i shuffle my feet everybody at work knows why are you so serious you look sad whats wrong my brain is fucking wrong thats whats wrong mental illness really is a real fuckin illness existing hurts it fucking hurts god it fucking hurts but i cant end it i cant do that to my family theyve already went through enough of my bullshit and suicide attempts and hospital visits and breakdowns i usually get over these episodes quick but man they suck they really fuckin suck,3.0 49837,jackalltimelow i love new orleans im going there friday,0.0 49838,boykillboy yeah i knowhaha we are just friendshaha ,0.0 49839,liverpoolweath im in old swan at the mo looks nice lots of blue skies so far ,0.0 49840,feeling baaad vent here i am super tired and needy of sleep avoiding going to sleep because i know it will only happen after i cry on my bed until my face looks worse than it already istoday i forced myself to go out with friends so that i would not stay at home thinking shit but now that im back all the terrible thoughts unsurprisingly are still with me i dont even know why i expect a miracle like not doing anything to change the way i feel and suddenly feeling better to happeni dont want to go back to college tomorrow because i wanted to feel motivated to do something when classes started again everything would be so much better if i felt that way i have been imagining since last year how it would be if i took a break from college for one semester but it doesnt seem like this would do any good anywayall this just makes zero sense,3.0 49841,bet finally shows a decent movie the movie responsible for me djing and i miss it ,2.0 49842,sports day on friday ,0.0 49843,best recession quote quotthis is worse than a divorce ive lost half my money and still have my wifequot how sweet ,0.0 49844,theodoesart kingofcrybabys tihydp i still have my doubts about them actually having broken up at any point before the anxiety attack,2.0 49845,but still i am feeling very alone ♫ ,2.0 49846,iamlyric get followers a day using wwwtweeterfollowcom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 49847,back to work now ,2.0 49848,ryanpthompson rmulle you are welcome ,0.0 49849,beardedstu ooo the hobbit follows ,0.0 49850,talking to someone about whats going on ive been at my all time low this school year im a senior in high school and we only have months before graduation this year month week has been a nightmarish spiral of accumulating stressors and its making me feel hopeless and wishing for an easy way out its not that i think i could definitely go through with suicide but the idea is there and thats worrying enough ive considered talking to a councilor or even my health teacher but i have an issue with thisschools dont really advertise councilors as being used for mental health they just advocate for educational planning and schedule changes so me walking up to the same counselor who i asked to drop some classes with and telling her hey im a threat to myself sounds fucking ridiculous my health teacher is me just making an excuse because im terrified of speaking to someone ive only known since this semester even though shes open and were currently in the mental health unit of the classi guess i just dont know how to bring it up what to talk about im intimidated im extremely introverted towards adults even though i technically just became an adult ive always been scared and cautious of those older than me which makes this difficult i would like to hear peoples experiences if anyone has any thanks,3.0 49851, pixars up sad,2.0 49852,i need the movie to start cuz this anxiety will definitely not stop until everyone in this theater stops talking,1.0 49853,caseycornett you talked to me ,2.0 49854,getting older sucks i have dealt with depression a lot throughout my life and turned back in september when i was i gave up on medication and got pretty happy for a while but recently i just dont know what to do or where to go,3.0 49855,msbolton cheers for the stw post ,0.0 49856,a huge spider was tryin to share my bed now sleepin on sofa xo,2.0 49857,is uploading new still life and portrait photos ,0.0 49858,lost followers while i was sleeping i guess i snore too loudly ,2.0 49859,im gonna miss the bikes being in trees going out every weekend being with my sisters my best friend being so close im gonna miss p ,2.0 49860,trying and failing at getting a pic of quotvaginas are awesomequot tshirt ,2.0 49861,imajicart mwahahahhaaa i took harvey to the park and had to hide on the climbing frame to get in the shade,0.0 49862,kelowna can suck it sundays seems so far away,2.0 49863,chrisgrandmusic yo i tried to find you but no luck ,2.0 49864,a new low today i screwed up the interview for my dream job id already been having a tough few months so this on top just comes as a real punch in the gut i know its impossible to objectively judge your own interview performance but the job im going for has fairly rigid scoring criteria which are shared with candidates in advance within these are certain red flags whereby if the candidate does certain things or fails to do something that should be done they are deemed unappointable i dont want to go into too much detail to avoid identifying myself and because the recruitment process is still ongoing but the job im going for is within healthcare and in the clinical part of the interview i was faced with a scenario that although straightforward was different to what i was expecting and so threw me because i couldnt apply my normal approach to handling a situation like that i forgot the most basic of things most notably calling for senior help in fact at one point i think i even inexplicably said that i didnt want to call at that point not escalating appropriately is one of the biggest red flags in the scoring criteria now the frustrating thing is that in real life id be able to handle the situation given without any problem which would include ensuring i had appropriate help in fact i was in a similar situation only a week ago and actually handled it pretty well all this wouldnt be so bad if i could just reapply and try again shortly but recruitment is a national yearly process what this means is that im going to have to start hunting for a job to fill the next year and although im sure whatever i end up doing will provide good experience im not sure how im going to find the motivation knowing that i messed up my chance at the one i really wantedthere are several other things going on at the moment from recent deaths of colleagues to the fact that ill shortly be moving to back to a job i strongly dislike prior to my contract ending and me needing to find something new in general im just really struggling with lack of motivation to do anything all i do is work and come home and browse reddityoutube i also cant stop comfort eating and so have gained a lot of weight recently which is only making me feel worse about myself im not really sure what im expecting from posting here but i suppose i just needed to vent about how utterly hopeless i feel at the moment,3.0 49865,wanting to laugh with and ,2.0 49866,rt konk men seeking help for depression anxiety or any mental health issue is an act of self love that you deserve dont suffer in,1.0 49867,beauty junkies remember tomorrow get your entire purchase at ulta its college day just show your school id ,0.0 49868,brucestercom wii ftw mate loving my newly acquired guitar hero too ,0.0 49869,do you think you can actually change your outlook on what life is about do you think you can actually change your outlook on what life is aboutmaybe outlook is the wrong word but more so life philisophy or change the way you look at the world and how to achieve happiness maybe i am not being specific enough but after suffering years of a sharp decline in my lifestyle on a relative basis i find myself with no jobcareer prospects no friends in debt and putting on weight i dont want to sound hyperbolic in any way but truly am lost spending most days wondering around on my own literally walking in circles or sitting on benches feeling uncontrollably confused and frustrated i think we all have a view or expectation of what life shouldcan be for oursleves when we are growing up and how to achieve that its of course different for everyone but i what i want to know is do people think its possible to change your mindset or formula for what happiness looks like to me it is quite shallow in some ways and i guess phantasmagoric a good career that you are intellectual curious in that pays relatively well and that society values in terms of statusthats my shallowness coming out when i say pays well i dont desire ridiculous amounts but enough to live in a big city and not have to worry about paying for a concert ticket on the weekend and be generous enough to help your friendsfamily when they need you a partner or girlfriend who you are genuinely attracted to and like and havent just settled due to internal securities about getting older and loneliness a group of friends that you feel comfortable being totally honest with and actually often do things with a feeling of not necessarily being confident in yourself but at least a calmness with who you are instead of constantly questioning your personality and eroding characterat this point of time i havent got or achieved any of these things not even close and more importantly feel i have lost all capabilitybelief on at least getting on a path build towards these dreams as obviously these things dont happen overnight i feel i have missed the boat for that sort of life as everyone who i know although may not be living dream lifestyles certainly are in jobscareerslife paths that are more orthodox what i want to know is considering these themes have been in my head since a young child in one form or another do people think its possible to let them all go to erase them from my philosophical framework on what life is about in essence reconfiguring my happiness formula to be something else for example try live a life where money doesnt matter at all or career doesnt matter but getting by doing something i dont necessarily like but pays the bills not worry so much about womencourtship and dating but just be happy being on my own not fixating on my weight which i guess is not that bad anyway but be grateful for my health in general and access to a plate of food forget about materialistic or shallow things like the way i look or what i have or what people think of me and build a life on something completely different all of this has been playing in my mind a lot over the past months i have been unemployed for and half years and really have given up on life the only thing i am holding on to is the hope that changing my formula for happiness might work however i cant get all the feelings of failure out of my head constantly even if i laugh at something for a brief second strangely i am reminded how badly i have fucked up every opportunity i have been handed due to my inability to actually do anything of substance in my life again the word substance is subjective and is related to this image of what i think life should be like if i could change it it would help ive rambled again but was very grateful for the responses to my last post,3.0 49870, may gd help you indeed good luck ill cross my fingers for you ,0.0 49871,darkgx good detailed sims video reviewvideo player sux on this site though maybe u will have better l ,2.0 49872,up next we have a chuuune from the fabulous weapon and we have a little converse with them too then in a little while its band on a bike,0.0 49873,currently having a mental breakdown and just need to vent and talk to somebody this is gonna sound like a pathetic pity party but fuck it okay so ive been sitting here for the past half hour uncontrollably crying my eyes out while my essay thats due tomorrow is nowhere near being done originally it felt like this essay among several other bullshit assignments due this week was the reason for me feeling so shitty but as i sit here and think i realize the root of my unhappiness is so much deeper than that basically i just hate school i cant fucking stand it ever since kindergarten its been a nightmare to get out of bed everyday to go now that im in university nothing has changed in fact its only gotten worse im only here because of stupid societal pressures that basically tell you theres no other ways to succeed in life which my parents have unfortunately bought into at i was forced to decide what i wanted to do with my life and even then i had no idea so i was kinda like uhhh i guess psychology sounds kinda interesting so i guess ill do that well now im less than halfway to completing my degree and i cant even take it anymore it feels like everything im doing is pointless im probably not going to even be able to find a job when i graduate and if i do theres no guarantees im going to be happy im wasting my parents thousands of dollars and i feel so guilty about it but whenever i complain about anything school related they wont have it im also kind of kicking myself in the foot because i used to figure skate and i could have easily stayed in it and gotten a job with disney on ice or something like that which i would absolutely love and would make me happy but stupid me decided to quit when i was because i didnt want to compete in competitions anymore i could still go back but it would be pointless if i couldnt find a job with it and i fear that since its been over two years and im completely out of shape that its too late i hate life but at least getting all that off my chest kinda made me feel better i guess,3.0 49874,coronavirus ruined all the progress i was making with my depression i struggled with depression all of high school only had a few friends mostly coasted through my classes but did well enough to get into the college i wanted to i was so excited finally i could get away from my family and be around people i enjoyed being around i could do things i wanted to with my own time and feel in control of my life for oncethats exactly what happened when i started college this year it wasnt all easy but i managed to find good friends get involved socially and i enjoyed most of my classes for the first time in years my depression seemed to be getting better i had people and things to live for and an existence that wasnt entirely awful all the timenow this fucking virus made me leave my friends and go back to being around my family who were the ones that drive me insane in the first place yes i can still contact them but its not the same im not able to see them nearly as often and there was something about face to face contact that truly made me feel better now all of that is gone not to mention that online classes have completely ruined my routine and killed any motivation i had to succeed i got used to feeling hopeless and that there wasnt light at the end of tunnel and right when i managed to find that light the world came and kicked me right in the ass again i finally had hope and now im stuck in the same hopeless void again except now theres also a fucking plague that threatens people i care aboutfuck this fuck this existence once you think you have your shit together life gives you a swift kick in the ass once again,3.0 49875,for many it wil mean going all the way to undergrad sad thing being in the profession that has to tell companies httpstcoqimaidjora,2.0 49876,grounded for a seriously unfair exit at school seriously angry peace x,2.0 49877,bubble bath flowin late night soak just needa relax n clear my head lata gzz,0.0 49878,oh i totally forgot about my fäsk i got a fäsk ,0.0 49879,damiangrounds there you are hows your day going elevensestime,0.0 49880,cocofontana but i really think she won t do this ,0.0 49881,all the tweets r filling up my inbox ,2.0 49882,my life is a trap and ive always known that,3.0 49883,radishtm guess whos watching episode denzel tomorrow ,0.0 49884,playing at river after working dog nailed my wrist hurts ,2.0 49885,rt depressionnote warning signs of depression ⚠️⚠️ low selfesteem⚠️ guilt⚠️ feeling hopeless⚠️ tiredness⚠️ loss of interest in thi,2.0 49886,thank goodness i got a nap in today had granddaughter this evening her new favorite sayings quotcartoon networkquot amp quotlets rollquot ,0.0 49887,alton towers wass good like ,0.0 49888,jaymoneyondeck wake upppppp lol ,2.0 49889,thejessset forgetting sarah marshall is a great one if youre up for a comedy ,0.0 49890,but dont expect me to kiss a frog ,0.0 49891,mbernier no problem i think its better than those lists that tell u who follows back coz often they actually dont stats dont lie ,0.0 49892, hey i love ya youll find love you are gorgeous x,0.0 49893,sensible the people we were supposed to meet up with couldnt make it ,2.0 49894,anxiety is reeeeal fun 🙃,2.0 49895,gusmanleyclarke quotpartyingquot and twittering must be a brilliant party ,0.0 49896,monzica yeh same but i dont know what ti have im hinking ither a toastie or a crisp sandwich l,2.0 49897,tireedddddd i miss hilton head island amp beaufort marrweeeennies ,2.0 49898, need someone to talk to i was crying the other day i have never cried before throughout college i have not had a single friend or someone i can feel comfortable talking to i slowly cut off my high school friends to focus on my degree and my career people tried talking to me throughout college but i always ignored them now that i have graduated i feel so alone i look back at who i was and just wished i had had someone to be on my life journey with me i really want to start opening up to someone but i dont think i know howedit you dont have to ask to message me,3.0 49899,rt wubalubadubdubq anxiety is one big bitch,2.0 49900,ahhhh my god i love the weather i cant wait for the bats to come out mmmm im just feeling really good and positive right now ,0.0 49901, aww thank you ,0.0 49902,where is the headache steaming fromgreat weekend though ughhghg scs life now ,2.0 49903,niptuck is being axed sad times,2.0 49904,i wanted to be an adventurous person but failed myself what can i even say about myself im the biggest pussy i know im a young adult but i cant do shit i cant bring myself to learn how to be an adult whenever i lay in the same bed of my parents house i always cry i opted to live in the same area ten miles away from home for university versus a little over a hundred for a much better one that even gave me a little more money but didnt go for it because i was too scared of going too far and yet there are people here who come from even further than that like its nothing i always wanted to explore more of the outside world but how can i say that about myself if i couldnt even do what they did im only getting myself into debt and taking classes and being paired up with borderline assholes for engineering projects only to not be able to contribute and get neglected by everyone only because i couldnt make the right choices and am unable to even learn things do to the lack of support here cant say im proud of my current gpa at the moment and i would drop out just to learn to be an actual adult i meet new people but they dont stick around hell even my two roommates manage to plan things with my hall right in front of me and then dont invite me no more adventures for me while spring break is here i regret going to this university of mine and only want to drop out but its too late to transfer so theres no point im surrounded by man childs and people who genuinely dont give a shit about my wellbeing all my hopes of going out there are gone,3.0 49905, yup exactly celebrate it with a cold one,0.0 49906,has been unemployed for months and cant seem to find a job i have the worst luck ever,2.0 49907,girltrumpet im not ignoring you my phone has been dead for days ,2.0 49908,my last night as an sf resident ,2.0 49909, ahhh indeed so out of it slept like crap i didnt get it gotta get up at am for flight,0.0 49910,fuck everyone around me i dont know what to do anymorewhen i was little i was deprived of parents i never learned the basic skills of being human my problems are binding with people keeping an agendato do list succeeding at school finding friends that dont use drugs keeping a job getting joy out of anything not being socially awkward because i dont relate to anyone anymore keeping the occasional suicidal thought out of my headnow i am and have a lot of people on the side line that just insult me because i am working on skills that my peers already masteri have no one and am angry at my family because of what they did to me when i bring my struggles up my mom that fucking bitch doesnt even look away from the tv oncei feel like i need someone to guide me like a fucking parent but i dont know someone like that,3.0 49911,fantattitude i have a sad life too no worries lool is that you in your twitter picture thingy,0.0 49912,lately ive been having horrible anxiety and avoiding everyone geminiseasonhasmefuckedup,2.0 49913,falling asleep while watching unwrapped ,0.0 49914,dontyouhateitwhen you get paper to print pictures on to iron on to a shirt but your ms word wont invert the picture ,2.0 49915,having a lovely lunch at the russells house ,0.0 49916,not feeling to good today lol stupid rye ,2.0 49917,kiltiechristy i am blessed to have this happen really ,0.0 49918,abbichicken sounds like a weird taste sensation but if you say so ,0.0 49919,looking at rates for florida in august and october at this rate im almost averaging a vacation a monthnice ,0.0 49920,watching quotfamequot what a great movie ,0.0 49921,been off twitter for a while guess its cuz nothing interestings going on but updates soon,2.0 49922,aspca needs to stop sendin me shit i dnt have n e more moneyz to give to the kitties n doggies ,2.0 49923,cant sleep even though ive been sweating my ass off all day at recital im gonna miss dance to much over the summer and my dancers,2.0 49924,ahhh im awake which mean i have my psychology exam soon ,2.0 49925, i missed churchagainstupid backwards sleeping habits,2.0 49926,the hills bbl laurens lastt showww,2.0 49927,had a good day yesterday ,0.0 49928,forget dunking french fries in a chocolate frosty love the coffee toffey twisted frosty ,0.0 49929,kellysays mine too lol ,0.0 49930,i have been tweeting ddlovato for the past half hour and not one reply shes such a huge inspiration to me i would cry if she replied ,2.0 49931,rt emoblackthot i think one of the biggest struggles of the constant battle with mental health is accepting that not everyday will be per,1.0 49932,leaving the crib headed to the gym legs and back today getehud platinumsouls flo where yall at ,0.0 49933,ive never felt so lonely i know people care i know they doim surrounded by such amazing and supportive people but ive never felt more lonely in my whole fucking life i feel like im only living because people told me i have to i feel so guilty all the time ,3.0 49934,follow me on wwwmyspacecomcaseyfreelove check out my new songs ,0.0 49935,busy with new personal project called quotemblicquot more info soon ,0.0 49936,miss him he didnt reply my message ,2.0 49937,wwdc today hopefully new iphone or at least iphone announced today ,0.0 49938,awkwardfilmgirl probably worst competition ever but i gotcha beat ,2.0 49939,cubanalust iama buy it ,0.0 49940,ohemgee my moms food smelling right bout to become very obese ,0.0 49941,photo crookabelle me too have fun on tour glastonbury is ten days from now loves ya ,2.0 49942,off to bed early have a good one yall,2.0 49943, hahaha sad thats fine im used to it nowi just wish that they still counted even when i can ,0.0 49944, hey sammie youre fine,0.0 49945,not sure yetwe are talking ,0.0 49946,back at work tomorrow ,2.0 49947,chilling starbucks enjoying a coffee and free wifi ,0.0 49948,at workhopefully not another hour day ,2.0 49949,its getting worse with each passing day the amount of work i have to do in school the pressure by my family to be the best at whatever i do my constant failures etc i just dont love myself anymore i see myself as a complete failure by all standards that have been set for me im physically declining i have no motivation to continue what i love which is going to the gym and playing football i just really dont see a point in it anymore crying myself to sleep every night is getting old please tell me it gets better this is the worst ive felt in my entire life common tasks now take an enormous amount of effort to do anyone else in the same boat please tell me someone is,3.0 49950,dougiemcfly hey dougie cud u please at the man apollo sing ignorance its an awesome song and id luv to hear it live ,0.0 49951, girl im still up y i jus saw a mouse on my stove it ruined my late nite cravng ,2.0 49952, yes i would prefer a wild female os like leopard too much more fun but my job is helping ppl fighting w win ,0.0 49953,imranajmain eh he entered before and got quite far tau anywayenjoy the auditions wish im hosting ,2.0 49954, so so over everything,2.0 49955,a big welcome to my newest followers thank you ,0.0 49956,diagnose me mental masters of reddit am i already accepted being alone for the rest of my life and i started distancing myself from others subconsciously not on purpose but eh what can you do about years ago i dont really feel bad or down or anything i just accepted me being alone and people not liking me anyway i think thats because i sort of shifted my outlook i guess about years ago to no one needs you and you dont need anyonei never really connected with my friends when we hang out at school they all talk to each other and meanwhile i just sort of sit there and zone out maybe tell them im going to do something and come back but i never really do i just put in my earphones and walk around school grounds until the break is over i never really told them anything about myself like they dont even know that i have a cat had it for years they know not to ask me questionsive completely ditched my dreams like what will i gain from them nothing so they are just not worth it i sort of accept my situation as it is but i can remember me being me happy cuz im not sad either from before i made it sort of just sunk in when i finished elementary this change also therapy is not an option dont want to be a burden on my family brother with adhd sister with dyslexia i mean do i really need it i just want to gain more information on my condition is it even one or maybe this is just me venting since i cant talk to anyone about this lol i dont trust anyone enough like thatalso ive never been like a social guy ive spent most of my afternoons watching netflix or youtube or just taking my whole bike apart and putting it back together takes me min tops at this point im never bored but at the same time im always bored but where can i go my friends got their own friends that they hang out with after school i dont know them i think i dont want to know them but deep down i know i would love to oh and all my friend live kinda far away because i go to a different school district so i cant just pop down to their place everyday to talk and i just sit here lonely sometimes i ride my bike to the edge of town and watch the sunset over the desert mountains and watch the stars come out thats the only thing i really like to dotldr im lonely and need friends i can talk to badly i think im just venting report this post if it doesnt fit here,3.0 49957,rachfacebby lol well i thought it was because thats what duncan said and thank you ,0.0 49958, make a wish twitter ,0.0 49959,i added a video to a youtube playlist sab kuch bhula diyanew whatsapp sad n emotional video whatsapp video,2.0 49960,im so numb the only feeling i have these days is slight sadness i used to feel everything and then i felt really sad and now i just feel next to nothing its so bland and it feels like theres nothing worth living for anymore ,3.0 49961,sunshiney day ,0.0 49962,glamtweets i find that luckymagazine is bad for tweeting amp publishing things that arent available to buy frustrating ,2.0 49963,relucs perhaps its a gmail glitch then that will get fixed ,2.0 49964,please someome help me i hate my life i hate it i mrunning away tonight and idc what happesn to me hopefully i fucking diealone and nobdoy even fucking bats an eye i cant take my parentes or my only escape anymore dosnt even love me fuck i haet this,3.0 49965,quotune facture de � bah elle existe pas alorsquot need halp i dont looks like one of them ,2.0 49966,tarayqueen youre currently watching hbo ,0.0 49967,bagels without cream cheese is like jlake without a tie its just not the same ,2.0 49968,driving on the motorway in midday sun has given me quotdriving armquot im not keen on one arm being browner than the other ,2.0 49969,hippyofdoom lol i know ,0.0 49970,ambergertner ah that sucks matey tired is no good im in full refusing to leave my bed mode haha,2.0 49971,lovely weather keep it up sunshine ,0.0 49972,it is pay day today but ok im gonna go home,2.0 49973,it just fucking hit me i feel like im seeking attention but idk cant stand without saying anything i was really fucking happy for three days and i just realized no matter what theres never going to be one single person out there thats gonna love me ill always be that shitty person that ruins everything i knew i didnt deserve this life,3.0 49974,obeyyourheart texting should work though ,2.0 49975,a sad life all that im good for is smoking weed and washing dishes im unlovable invaluable unmotivated intolerable and basically any other uns and ins you can come up with will i ever find a god damn purpose and at this point am i even still looking ,3.0 49976,mztiffanymarie ooooo can we make it a members only club ive been dying to release those same exact words for weeks now thank u ,0.0 49977,hi davidi hope we can be friends youre really cool and i love all your songs take care ,0.0 49978,i really dont feel sad about it i dont feel any thing,1.0 49979,ireland june july see you soon happy summer,0.0 49980,tinchystryder i love number it is amazing im also getting one of ur tshirts and sweatshirts i cant wait till it gets delivered,0.0 49981,do i sound like my mom no ,2.0 49982,tiffanykristen get followers a day using wwwtweeteraddercom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 49983,i wish i could spell better im amp i still have trouble spelling things a grader can spell ,2.0 49984,god i cant do mornings think i could do with a light box anyone tried one,2.0 49985,greatowl bleumuze thanks for the love it is greatly appreciated ,0.0 49986,oyeamir itsrizwanhere mai suicide kr ln yeh ziyada best hai,1.0 49987,dannymcfly good luck now is our turn we are waiting for you chile,0.0 49988,anyone ever get so depressedanxious that they developed cancer i started getting severe depression and anxiety when i first graduated college and started my life as a young adult i saw my doctor and we did some tests and everything checked out so i started on ssri seven years later i have stage brain cancer doctor says that my depression and anxiety probably caused it has anyone else had this happen to them before how did you get through it i am sobbing,3.0 49989,waxeye thank you it is very tough ,2.0 49990,xladylungex could it be you stubbed it r u home amp up amp r u poppin round today,0.0 49991,woo just picked up hung out at my neighbor vinces house his daughter is sooo cute,0.0 49992,a great manlife should not be so unpredictable httptrimncjh ,2.0 49993,trutv is forsure very entertaining hahhh ,0.0 49994,i havent showered in a week i use a lot of dry shampoo im just too damn tired after pretending to be ok at work all day every day i showered last monday its sunday night and i couldnt manage to even change my clothes all weekend ive been in bed crying im calling off work tomorrow because im all puffy and greasy and my lips are all scabbed i wish i would just not wake up tomorrow,3.0 49995,ashleighstack a fanfic ,0.0 49996,ok i do know and ive had to fill out forms and forms and forms and forms and forms but its sunny ,0.0 49997,rt dodo cletus the rescue dog has anxiety and so many health issues — but his new parents know exactly how to calm him down httpstco,1.0 49998,its sad that we live in a world where we are scared to walk out to our cars at night to grab something,1.0 49999,i feel bad cause i need to be at work at and i have no ride is there anyone willing to help ill give you dollars,2.0 50000,tsmuse thats no good although i suppose its something to do,2.0 50001,making a dress if i actually finish ill wear it on tuesday ,0.0 50002,i woke up early this morning and now im off to the city with caitlin michaela kyle and jake to see julia andrew and naffanz today,0.0 50003,favorited sweetsheilx and jindt in my multiply ,0.0 50004,a genuine question cry for help whatever ect should i kill myself tomorrow with my dads glock after school why and why not name good reason pleaseive been thinking this over multiple times i manage to come up with a reasonable plan on how i would do it since my dad works till around ish sometimes later and i get back around the only person home would be my older brother who is usually sleeping or playing lol regardless only minding his own business my family doesnt suspect me and the guns are kept unchecked in the closet so i wont be hard i would just walk in when nobodys paying attention grab preferably a pistol or a rifle and shoot myself in the pterion weakest point of the skull or the roof of my mouthive been contemplating scenarios like this along with backups or alibis in case i get caughtfor the reason why which their is none good ones is because i came to the realization on how unimportant and meaningless my life is its been nothing but a up and down road with millions of cracks worth of failures disappointments and inadequate results in between my life isnt hard very much the opposite i absolutely have nothing to complain or be sad about i live in the suburbs with a above average middle class family i never been truly bullied harassed or abused not in my opinion anyway things are easy for me yet because of that and with how i am the way i am i end up hating myself for it along with millions of over reasons i dont have any real friends just a serious of on and off relations with classmates but nothing above it and even if i do get a hint a friendship i end up fucking it up and pushing them awayim responsible for why im in this state of depression and loneliness despite how good i have it and i severely hate myself for that along with everything else i fuck up on the daily not a single day goes where i dont think about hating every atom of my being or killing myself along with extensive thinking over what i could have done betteranyway thats just a simplification i suppose thank you for putting your undeserved effort and time in for me first post btw,3.0 50005,stallfinder thats a shame weve just had a fair cancelled on us without refund or even being informed by the organiser would u believe ,2.0 50006, i kinda aint ,2.0 50007,sergay is being mean right now ,2.0 50008,training soon ,2.0 50009, page views on my flickr i am so happy but only more photos left i need a pro account ,2.0 50010,i wanna go ghost hunting in my town tonight but i dont think anyone wants to go with me i dont wanna go alone either,2.0 50011,and the labtop just got messed up now i cant look at the lessons and tips i hope the psp can go to the website ,2.0 50012,i was meant to go ballooning today but its too windy ,2.0 50013,rt dwaynecobb realdonaldtrump if by chance trump save money on this issue he should put it all to mental health,1.0 50014,i was proding a youghurt and and and it exploded over me ,2.0 50015,my little brother is growing up graduating tomorrow o amp im sad the true blood marathon has ended ,2.0 50016,troupedancer awh that will be my myspace song on thursday kym there is only days left,2.0 50017,poor cezzi feel so bad for him ,2.0 50018,cant wait to drive but has no money to buy a car ,2.0 50019,its toooo hot now off to pick up my dad from work uhhg,2.0 50020,how do i stop relying my happiness on my significant other hey this is my first post so im not exactly sure if im posting in the right group but here i go being with somebody makes me feel alive and happy and not being with somebody makes me feel really low so when im in a relationship i only care about them and i make them my world i tend to forget about everybody else and all of my other responsibilities when one relationship ends i go to another so i dont feel empty and alone right now i just got out of a relationship probably months ago this is the longest that i have gone alone and its killing me but im making myself do it so i dont depend on other people i just dont know how to make myself happy without somebody else but the thing is its hard for me to make friends thats why im just always in a relationship so i always have someone to hangout with does anybody have any advice on how i can myself happy and boost my self esteem or how to make friends sorry this is so long again anything would help,3.0 50021,isupportdemil yay ,0.0 50022,squaccs antisocial neither are they fat or hairy enough ,2.0 50023,bucks is beautiful i feel so at home there plus andy is a leg end soooo excited only a few months to go,0.0 50024,is preparing himself for another big shift at fc clacton tonight a good hours y,0.0 50025,daylerobyn hey chick how you feeling this morning,0.0 50026,jrosell ravigrau qu� musicals que esteu encara ens posarem tontos i tot ,0.0 50027,i told me boyfriend that i feel like i want to die and he brushed me off multiple times i dont know what to do or how to feel about it advice wanted ive been trying for months to choke up the courage to tell someone that sometimes i feel suicidal ive wanted to tell my boyfriend first because he is around me most when im having bad days but when i have really bad days and have these feelings i shut down and i dont talk or text him as much this is out of character for me so when this happens my bf just assumes im mad about something avoids the topic and leaves me to be mad or cool down when i finally start to feel better i confronted him about this on multiple different occasion because this has happened more than once he admits he knows im upset but doesnt wanna argue so he just ignores that i am upset and carries on with normal topics at this point in each convo i decide that he doesnt deserve to know or isnt the right person to go totonight after he had ignored that im upset all day and i confronted him again that i had a bad day he said that it was obvious today i just said it after he said that he knew i was upset because my car broke down i said i wanted to die all day and ive tried so many times to tell u these past months when i feel like this but you always ignore me when i withdraw and you never listened to me enoigh to deserve to know this is what he said back im not ignoring you on purpose thats iti said it again an hour later that i wanted to die today and he said you just said u felt lonely and i tried talking about it when i say i want to die he just defends his side of the conversation is it wrong that i expected some concern or wanting to help or wanting to understand why i feel that how i feel etci dont know if he just doesnt understand or how i should approach thisi feel very violated and dismissedam i wrong in how i feel about all this does anyone have any advice,3.0 50028,tdfnyc hey no probalways behind u ,0.0 50029,jaylastarr i was in quotso you think you can dancequot thursday night search for quotsex with leoquot if you want to laugh ,0.0 50030,why does it hurt so much ,2.0 50031,electrikated mine wont either it makes me sad,2.0 50032,hollywoodyah haha i know the best thing ever would to have a life like friends haha id be monica seeing as im crazy and i cook xd,0.0 50033,thinking of getting a job crying financial times ill start finding one but god please tell me httptweetsg,2.0 50034,runninghome that takes a long attention span ,0.0 50035,im off now for an early dinner with friends husband complaining about the waste of time my flickr is and how my life is fail ,2.0 50036,upi still fai lat sleeping doing absolutely nothing today lol sitting at home ftw,2.0 50037,shermaineee go plurk more get back your karma add me on plurk my username is radioactivebee,0.0 50038,teen looking for guidance im still young and im pretty sure this depression is hormonal but it has seemed to spiral and cause a real problem for me i started off only getting down about big things a friend stopping being friends with me etc but as it progressed i would feel suicidal after some of the smallest things imaginable bumbling my words stubbing my foot doing things that could be considered disappointing im just posting here to look for some guidance because truth be told everyday i feel like i step closer to suicide i feel like the world would be better without me and no one would truly miss me in the end all im doing is burdening my family and causing unnecessary headache to them and my friends if you could just offer me any help in the form of support helpful tips or otherwise i would be very appreciative,3.0 50039,hmm i just burnt my tounge furry tounge ,0.0 50040,i really wana go on holiday someone take me to italy,2.0 50041,kiieeeee im enjoying gay days without you and im not even a lesbian i miss you ,2.0 50042, got nothin but love you too ,0.0 50043,just got home i really want to go to my dads ,2.0 50044,has just discovered a sweet attention in my letterbox thanks celineartiste ,0.0 50045, either its my tweetdeck app or something is wrong with your avi its just blank ,2.0 50046,rt hogwartsmaglc everything about harry potter that i see now just makes me so nostalgic forever suffering from post potter depression,1.0 50047,what does recurrence usually feel like im pretty sure im experiencing a recurrence of my major depressive disorder i cant even bring myself to do the things that have to be done this week my house looks like a mess and i cant motivate myself to clean it i dont feel overly sad though i almost feel apathetic how does it feel for you how do you cope im trying to get in with a therapist but my insurance is taking months to get me an appointment,3.0 50048,we made it safely to the mountains of vermonta little rainy but degrees in june it was when we left myrtle beach ,0.0 50049,i have a tendency for depression but i dont know if this place is the right place for me to talk about it so ok i usually am not depressed but occationally i go through heavy periods of depression the problem is this sub seems like for people that have what could be called clinical depression id personally feel guilty posting my lightweight problems here is there people like me that happen to know where a such conversation would be possible sorry if this is not per rules or an absurd request have a good day,3.0 50050,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 50051,theplasticpoet ,2.0 50052,its not a depression i just hate everything about anything,3.0 50053,i am bored out of my mind i am not a native english speakeri think the core of my depression is my endless boredom i am bored by my studies i am bored by my hobbies i am bored by my peers and i am bored by my relationship for the most part no matter what i change about the situation or about me it always leads to boredom in the end my thrill is so fucking gone and i feel like the only way out is to cut all my ties to this life and start over unfortunately this option presents itself as nearly imposibble shit sucks,3.0 50054,apathetic and empty at the end of this year i was still taking my medicine and severely suicidal had to move back home stopped taking my shit my father is super verbally and mentally abusive im unemployed for months and cant get a job to save my life so im living with my parents i dont cry anymore i just dont care anymore one of my best friends had a baby last night i honestly dont give a fuck i apply and apply and apply ive always been confident in my ability but apparently not its one thing to cry and be so self empathetic now i dont care about anything myself my abuse getting the fuck out of here i do apply to at least things a week because im not stupid but everything else ehh ,3.0 50055,had horrible dream in which one of the sats died the first dream ive had about them that i properly remember and its that terrible,2.0 50056,jbkdogmeat amen ,0.0 50057,i want to go out ,2.0 50058,spadesaregood its sunny here today too im thrilled need to tan ,0.0 50059,were finally done with all the stress packing for the long flight back home its been a great and rejuvenating va ,1.0 50060,oh im so addicted to wet wipes ,0.0 50061,rebeccaholder glad it arrived on time happy brithday,0.0 50062,rt lifeaseva respect and acknowledge people with mental health problems it is a real thing and not something anyone chooses to live with,0.0 50063,gemified what happened ,0.0 50064,cuando suena te vas de ozuna y me siento sad sin ningún fucking motivo maldito ozuna transmitiendo estos feelings jaja,2.0 50065,iphone unveiled tomorrow and i have to work all day hope people dont expect me to be paying that much attention,2.0 50066,does anyone else shut down when given big assignments in school i have the tendency to get really overwhelmed when assigned a big paper or take home exam that instead of working on it i avoid it and shut down completely ive tried breaking it up into smaller parts but i still feel overwhelmed for instance i had a take home midterm due last thursday and i still have yet to turn it in because everytime i try to work on it i stare blankly at the computer and never end up getting work done ,3.0 50067,felt dizzy and feverish all day now i cant stop throwing up but ive barely eaten anything in the last hours anxiety sux,2.0 50068, oh dear any more exams to add to that list goodness s wish you the best babygirl see you the airport tonite love you ,0.0 50069,i feel like im making my boyfriend depressed too i have been slipping into a deep depressioni hate my job but it took me months to even find one to begin with it feels like im everyones assistant i barely get paid enough to pay my bills they give me tasks that are near impossible to accomplish they bring their dogs in im highly allergic and now theyre moving the whole sales team to a windowless office with barely any ac in the florida summer and a dripping ceiling it feels hopeless its so hard to find a job and i am just too tired ive started to lose interest in any of the things that used to make me happy my joy is muted and i feel myself pulling back from my boyfriend we are supposed to move in together in the fall but now i just cant think of the future it doesnt feel like its gonna get better and i just dont know what to do anymore,3.0 50070,jostroot awww how cute ,0.0 50071,i dont know if im a bit down so around a week or two back ive been overthinking things i began to think that some of my friends arent really genuinely my friends ever since then when im around them i cant help but pick and piece every small thing my life feels a bit dull when im with them sometimes i feel that im faking things i want to hang out with those who i havent talked with in a while im especially negative during the mornings i just legit hate talking to people during the mornings for no reasonbut that could be due to waking up at am to start my school days i just want my peace sometimes i feel trapped sort of and plus ive had some derealization like symptoms for around a year so i always end up feeling like trash nearly every day by the end of the daythis happens only when im in a crowded public area usually i just want to live my normal and joyful life i want to be happier again i want to stop living in a dreamlike life i want to stop living my trashy paranoid anxiety ridden life i want to change it all and reset my brain so i can live a normal life i might not be depressed at all but i just wanted to pour out my emotions outthats all,3.0 50072,madhav been there done that ,2.0 50073,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 50074,leahjbfan hey how come the jobros were on channel i missed it ,2.0 50075,sitting at work cant focus dont want to be here i cant focus im just sitting here at work not able to get anything done i just want to go home and lie down on the couch and just watch youtube videos i have no drive or ambition my feel good reward bucket has been empty for years i used to day dream and imagine a future where fun and exciting things would happen now i day dream hardly at all there are a number of things i want to accomplish and i have no desire to do anything about it when i do try i have no emotional reward to keep me going nothing interests me now,3.0 50076,cant seem to get better my emotions have an incredible toll on me and my everyday life i just came to the realization that emotions are not supposed to be fluctuating as much as they are for me and i feel aloneill become angry and frustrated for no reason and theres nothing i can do about it but wait it out i realize when im angry but i cant control it or try to calm myself down nothing can cheer me up when im down i need to wait it out until my next emotion pops outta nowhere sometimes ill be extremely happy and talkative but i dont feel like myself almost like its somebody else in my body these usually shift back and forth sometimes all within the same day or the same hour i dont really know who i am anymore and its making the void inside me harder to fill ,3.0 50077,rt xosam who else gets uncontrollable anxiety out of nowhere,2.0 50078,twinkle now allows u to connect to facebook sad weather in paris ,2.0 50079,not enough claritin ,2.0 50080,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 50081,rt patriotjenn i dont understand i made it through miserable rotten years under barry without developing obama ouchies or b,1.0 50082,waaaa i need more followers help i only gots ,2.0 50083,jonasbrothers cd is amazing i love all the songs on there holy crap,0.0 50084,courtenlow perfectly articulated how i experience depression ,1.0 50085, thanks hah ,0.0 50086,kuch nahi im stressed out i wanna cry,2.0 50087,so i may have accidentally killed an armadillo last night then ran over it again on the way back rip poor thing,2.0 50088,rt jordansather all these deep staters are looking worse and worseanxiety muchsoon theyll be grabbing food at the gitmo bakery,1.0 50089,lakersss won babyyy,0.0 50090,i found lloyd again ,0.0 50091,ughh omg been so busy dnt evenn have time to tweeet omqq not kooll ,2.0 50092,managed to get before all of the server problems and do a clean restore bye jailbreak for good bye qik for now,2.0 50093,southbrookwine awesome sounds like it was a good time ,0.0 50094,is in a bad mood would quite like to just have her life arranged for her,2.0 50095,rt okknavi literally everything httpstcotdigospebk,0.0 50096,whymesweetie thanks sweetie btw it actually feels quite gd to work out that early pumped up start to the day try it,0.0 50097,numb i dont know whyi dont feel anything i feel as though im better off knowing that i never should have been born the only thing im good at is being used by people my parents dont care what happens to me im nothing but a slavei think i was born at the wrong time i was never ment fot this i shouldnt exist i shouldnt be breathing i dont deserve the heart i have im sure someone else could put it to more use then i can i put on a fake smile so people dont see the pain in my eyes,3.0 50098,jackyds youre kidding ive been there at least times haha i havent gone since high schoolthough ,2.0 50099,hannahnicklin sounds like a damn good combination to me ,0.0 50100,deepest condolences i sent to taehyung and his family i hope his grandfather rest in peace dont be sa ,1.0 50101,babyskinny hi im back in chicago nowand yes i had the waffles by myself this morning ,2.0 50102, very nice to meet you bella appreciate your time and offer of assistance definitely tweet again soon smilesaturday,0.0 50103,is new to twitter amp is all ready to get blabbing ,0.0 50104,rawrawlee lol cheers i worked it out now ,0.0 50105,go to see nannnnners blake and amelias open house later ,0.0 50106,mussomitchel sudburys never gonna win ,2.0 50107,ecgric i will check tomorrow the lag is too bad to even move ,2.0 50108,i think this may be one of my best designs yet ,0.0 50109,vacation all i can feel is dread im about to be on vacation from work taking a week off the go and housedog sit i know i should be excited for the opportunity to relax and refresh my brain but the only thing im feeling is dread ive had one of my worst months on record no money mo problems and i cant help but seeing things continue in this way not sure what im missing i just cant shake the thought that more horseshit is going to come my way,3.0 50110,im about to cry listen to them im sad ,2.0 50111,my moms mad am i grounded,2.0 50112,lozingsleep damn that charming skater look is kind ofhot a hot mess catherine pls dont hate me for hitting on your friends tnx,0.0 50113,note to self businesses are unlikely to have boxes lying around on sunday ,2.0 50114,majintensei as someone who slimes everyday it makes me so fuckign sad please kmr just give us coop fes,0.0 50115,does anyone have experience with a depression relapse okay so im not sure if this is the correct place but i have nowhere else to go at this point i havent had a depressive episode since i had tried to overdose and ended up getting help ever since then i have been perfectly fine not a single negative thought i havent harmed myself since then about a week ago i just woke up and just didnt have energy for anything i have nobody in my life to talk to im a broke college student so that doesnt help i gave in to the temptation and relapsed yesterday after nearly years of not harming myself im a failurebasically is depression relapse a thing or am i just being dramatic i feel so lost,3.0 50116,sorry there hasnt been a new video ive been really really busy ,2.0 50117,what motivates you to keep going just looking for some ideas that i might resonate with hard to be motivated when you have nothing to work towards,3.0 50118,finally getting to bed after doing little leisurely reading of my favorite blogs i love peace and quiet love it ,0.0 50119,songzyuuup ugh u always go live when i get off my computer ,2.0 50120,im gonna take a heat stroke its sooo hot thank god im not a man cuz we would starve its like the pits of hell ,2.0 50121,had a nice weekend shame i had to fuckin come home to this,0.0 50122,nothing ,2.0 50123,catarinamatoss gorgeous i miss you ill fb message you ,0.0 50124,mikeyisgood haha i have no idea but it doesnt sound very good ,0.0 50125,oh poop on a stick its raining ,2.0 50126,rt mcmurphysminion cc rodneydavis govrauner replahood protectourcare ilsaveaca iamapreexistingcondition bc i have depressio ,0.0 50127,at fastboys playin that trivia yo ,0.0 50128,im dollars in debt and really need someone to talk to im a college student currently my parents encouraged me to go to college and are helping me pay for it but as ive become more aware of my student loan situation i realized we have been taking out each semester and i will be about in debt by the time i graduate this might not be bad for a more useful major but my degree will not be very useful and it is a bit late for me to change majorsanyway ever since ive become more aware of my situation i have been drowning in anxiety and depression to the point where im not sure if im overreacting or if my anxiety is justified i feel sick to my stomach and obsess on nothing other than this debt i havent been eating much at all because i have no appetite the stress is weighing on me so much and all the color has evaporated from my life it is killing me i feel guilty and financially ruinedmy parents keep telling me its okay weve prepared for this and i do have some money saved up but despite my parents and grandparents helping me i am horrified that this debt is just too much if anyone has any kind words advice or encouragement i could really use it right now because i feel utterly hopeless,3.0 50129,is gonna get the voyager soon ah im so happy ashleyhope,0.0 50130,less interested in being sold products than hearing about your genuine journeyi hope you can share your story ,0.0 50131, ahead wont be so bad i guess ,2.0 50132,streetradioent ear infections are worsum i feel ur pain ,2.0 50133,skullnik wow dude welcome to more than years ago p now im going to play my copy for ds ,0.0 50134,ohtoastt yuppp haaay its fun and all but i oober just wanna be at the club haha but these lamos dont do that i need you here like now,2.0 50135,cocktailrioteer whats your section ,0.0 50136,i may have a job possibility ,0.0 50137,depression is the worst its ever been and its affected my academic ability growing up i was always amongst the smartest in my class i remember my grade teacher joking around saying shed be there for me in high school if i needed help writing my valedictorian speech from middle school to the beginning of high school i was always placed in the advanced classes ive suffered from depression since the grade at least thats when i recognized it in myself it never hindered me too bad i was rather functional and continued to work hard i started to procrastinate more as time went on but i hadnt thought too much about it in the moment as of now id say my depression is at the worst its ever been in my life im now in the grade and cant get myself to do even my easiest school worki have almost no life left in me i think about suicide every day im in therapy right now but im not sure if its working at all ive heard that it gets worse before it gets better but i dont know if im just getting worse im just so disappointed that i used to have so much motivation to do my best work and now everything i do is a struggle on a more positive note by my standards im trying so hard to keep going i feel so aimless right now but im still holding onto the hope that things can get better i dont know how or when if ever i just need to give it more time to find out ,3.0 50138,jytarpley yup i feel terrible for the kid they were talking to him on the radio this morning he is totally mortified ,2.0 50139,crisis counselor job at mental health cooperativ nashville indeed jobs,2.0 50140,have friends but for what countless times it just feels like i made friends only to lose them and be sad afterwards i like to be with them but never have the time to spend with them feels like torture,3.0 50141,rahsheen awwwww man did i miss ur bday happy birthday handsome,2.0 50142,uggers i hate that cory died i still dont want to believe it i need more followers,2.0 50143,apparently billpeduto thinks windmills and robots will lead pittsburgh into a golden era better get ready for the coming depression,0.0 50144, yeps handed an assignment in today and have an exam on thursday then year is overwoohoo ,0.0 50145,my head hurts ,2.0 50146,flaghag lol just being goofy my usual state hehe,0.0 50147,happy sunday mff and maxwell let the church say quotamenquot ,0.0 50148,what a great tv commercial for the googlechrome httpbitlyuxues too bad no mac version yet ,2.0 50149,stressedddddddddddddddd ,2.0 50150,update im at the bookstore and i decided to text my friend she doesnt go to my school so we barely see each other she is nice sometimes i think she is too nice but thats who she is we used to be really close and now she is coming to the bookstore too i hope this goes well ill update yall in a little,3.0 50151,i am at the end well now im more desperate than ever to get with this girl its been plus days and nothing has changed if she decides to go to move away for college im going to kill myself also btw the only good thing thats happened since then is that i told her i like her a lot and she said if her boyfriend and her dont workout its me and you i honestly dont know what to do at this point i know people are going to say move on but i cant i have failed and im just looking for any last piece of advice before i go away,3.0 50152,last lunch with noora ,2.0 50153,guilt just wondering if anybody has guilt and shame about mental illness or feeling depressed im from a loving family in a nice area i am attractive and have a good social life yet i feel empty deep inside and unable to find anybody i really connect with on a deep level i feel guilty like i have no reason to be the way i am my inbox is open for discussion just needed to put it out there,3.0 50154,so its official marley amp me made me cry such a wonderful movie dogs are more than pets they are family i miss my cheeco ,2.0 50155,wow its been a while since ive been online sorry ,2.0 50156, did you notice the glasses in the bag photo our guy is getting older ,2.0 50157,yall out here using fidget spinners acting like frank costanza aint gave us a fail safe anxiety reliever years ,1.0 50158,futuresocialite haha its the best time to shop there they sell some ish soooo cheap it makes me happy ,0.0 50159,i wish i could meet the jonas brothers ,2.0 50160,is tired ,2.0 50161,httptwittercomstudiofairy click my ads please ,0.0 50162,guys cant live with themor without them ,2.0 50163,lmdeaton thanks did you sell it yourself how was your experience any tips are welcome keep your fingers crossed for me ,0.0 50164,laurenconrad your signing is sold out why naperville anyways,2.0 50165,joshedmonds changed my mind and decided to make my own pizzas ,0.0 50166,is getting read for the jonathancoulton paulandstorm concert tonight at variety playhouse still time for tickets if you hurry ,0.0 50167,heidiheartshugs ,2.0 50168,brookeburke omg you gotta a girlfriend that is so hot ,0.0 50169,anything to stop the pain i dont have nothing to live for im just existing when i was young around years old i lived with another family memeber i didnt live with my parents i didnt even know my mom i was happy around this time just living with my grandmother until a couple weeks after i started kindergarten my mother had finally came and got me from my grandmothers house i still didnt know her but at the same time i didnt like her for some reason as i began to live with her i notice her home wasnt like my grandmothers it was dim trashy and sad looking i started going to school again thinking about my grandmas house and her packing me lunch reading me storys and us joking about what was on tv but when im with my mother she just locks herself in her room leaving me and my little brother who i was just meeting for the first time alone in our dim rooms she through away all of our toys because she would find them around the house we were punished she would take our tvs and make us sit in the dark for weeks to months we would have specific times during the day when we were aloud to eat and how much we were aloud to eat we would often see our mother and her husband get into arguments eventually turning into fights were she would end up in the hospital i seen him beat my brother so badly he didnt leave his room for a couple of days i was so sad because i couldnt do nothing about it years later he gets locked up for running over a kid in a car and just kept going years down the line the same things is happening between the dim rooms and anger that i have for losing so many years of my life the hate that i have towards people who hurt me turned into a anxiety my mother told me if i dont see a therapist i would be sent to a group home so i seen my brothers therapist because he was already diagnosed with depression and she said i also have depression it affects me so badly that every conversation i have with somebody ends up weird and at the end of the day i just cant communicate with them putting me back in the dark room by myself again but this time the dark room is my mind were my thoughts eat me alive so many thoughts went through my mind from bad things that i did to sad hopeless memories to vengeful hatred i just became numb i can hurt somebody and not feel nothing no anger no pain nothing i still want to be a person that can fit in and help others like me thats the only reason im alive still,3.0 50170,sometimes when im sitting in public i wish someone would snipe me from a building im currently listening to simon and garfunkel on a bench near the santa monica pier and this really is such a place to be depressed man im and have been alone out here for almost a year now continuously cutting everyone off that tries to get close to me i dont come down to the pier that often anymore because of how alone it makes me feel but sometimes i just want to see people even though i dont want to talk to them sometimes i wonder if the only reason i go out in public is to raise my chances of being in an accident or something i like to close my eyes when im on the bus or my friends motorcycle and fantasize it all happening really fast maybe this is more of a rsuicidewatch post sorry guys,3.0 50171,ninbrevas the depression hours has started,1.0 50172,i think i need to update my quottweetsquot more oftenaccording to some people ,0.0 50173,breaking my own heart i tend to get myself into situations that i know arent going to end well and ultimately make myself feel like complete shit at the end but i do it anyways i hate the sadness it makes me feel but i also find it comforting i fell in love with this boy that i knew could never love me back and when he crushed my heart i felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest and like i couldnt breathe but it was a feeling that almost made me relax because it was so familiar like an old friend ,3.0 50174,damn itunes has fed up my library of lots of songs supposedly missing theyre actually there links to weird lib files ,2.0 50175,natalietran not to seem like some crazy paedofile typing with one hand and fiddling with my willy in the other but you the coolest ever ,0.0 50176,getting really excited about the ep launch ,0.0 50177,i dont know what happiness feels like i have been depressed my whole life never been consistently happy and i guess ive gotten used to it enough to when its milder i can ignore it while im around people but the second im alone it hits like a truck i dont know what it feels like to be happy because even moments that i know are good theres always a lingering feeling of im fucking miserable i feel like im lying too because i function pretty well i guess i do what i need to do at least i used to read and i cant anymore ive stopped drawing i dont do anything at this point i dont think ill ever feel better,3.0 50178,vjim im sure they have the picture you have on fb somewhere without the getty images watermark i like the glowstick halo pic ,0.0 50179,relucs train ride looked too scary for me ,2.0 50180,how do you know your antidepressants stopped working besides feeling depressed im asking for peoples personal experiencesymptoms thanks ,3.0 50181,schofe will have to put it on my itouchjust think a week ago todayhaha i need a huge hug dealing with a depressed sister ,2.0 50182,my car wont start ,2.0 50183,hangover is the best comedy ive seen in forever go see it ,0.0 50184, and i am done doing taxi puff munch sleep so goodnight ,0.0 50185,my ipod is frozen life suuuuccckkkkssssharry potter come quick,2.0 50186,where can i just talk to people online tldr depressed redditor asks where to find a decent chatroom these daysive been pretty isolated for months or years depending how you look at it the only people i interact with are my coworkers and my mother more accurately these are the only people who interact with me recently my mother moved away and i find myself with literally nobody to talk to further apparently im the subject of a rumor which seems to effectively destroy my standing with anyone who hears it im not sure what it is but ive seen at least a handful of people entirely shut me out i live in a fairly small town and worry that ive been marked as some sort of criminalnow i find myself running into a bit of a rough spot i need to move out of my apartment have nobody to help or ask for help and my driving license is suspended all of this is just a detailed explanation as to why im very much in need of normal conversation ,3.0 50187,i am sick and i can´t sing ,2.0 50188,saireybearey yeah i know i miss trevor lock aswell no idea what hes doing now x,2.0 50189,i hade a huge headache ,2.0 50190,cariquinn a combination of blog updating and tweeting sounds good ,0.0 50191,drnatalie re zappos and leadership invoking the mysterious leadership is a catchall almost tantamount to saying quoti dont knowquot ,0.0 50192,xwidep yeah im not to bad thanksare you still working today ,0.0 50193, did you stop and think indiana jones wasnt raped enough in crystal skull get ready for indiana jones ,2.0 50194,mrticky awww it better not be shit ive been excited for months about it shakes fist lol if the effects are good then ill be happy,2.0 50195,carlamouzou hey you are up why didnt you answer my phone call ,2.0 50196,clintvonsteele alex aka quotnew guyquot is a resident ,0.0 50197,oh that kate those people are going to hell ,0.0 50198,jademccray why limit your story to chr tell all what is annoying you at wwwiamsoannoyedcom it will help relieve your stress ,0.0 50199,amandammason up im so excited ,0.0 50200,my new years resolution body fat get good grades did really bad last semester since depression was just too bad dont kill myself,3.0 50201,i have a couple reasons to keep from dying but its hard to stop wanting to i have two cousins who are and they are my favorite people and the older one is starting school soon and i am an emergency contact the younger of the two is my best friend when i call my mom when shes babysitting she takes the phone and she walks around the house and tells me about everything she sees im also going to school to be a biomedical engineer math and science were my best subjects and i feel like i owe the world something and my obsessive compulsive brain wont let me leave anything unfinished which is more a curse than a blessing because i am and i have high blood pressure from the immense pressure i put upon myself,3.0 50202,formfiftyfive though i liked the previous design better this looks amazing as well great job ,0.0 50203,feeling worthlessincompetent all the time hi all i apologize if this isnt the right place to post this if it isnt i would really appreciate the assistance in being pointed to any sort of helpever since a couple events in my late teensearly twenties i feel like due to me not being able to match my perception of whats the best in society in whatever i try i simply stop or even have my body feel drained of any energy i want to do things regardless but it feels like something within me is stopping me as if im fighting myself its not even comparing to real people either sometimes its very simple things that i feel i should be able to do i just cant a couple examples being cleaning my apartment doing basic errands and even my jobi feel worthless and its starting to or always has been spilling over in my life and its reaching a point where im about to cave and i dont know where ill end up some info to be able to help me out would probably be helpful if you would see me in real life it would appear like i have things generally in order but the reality is im barely holding it together it doesnt seem to be getting better either i have dabbled in the few therapy sessions available near me for the past couple years a few examples being cbt support groups and basic counseling however it seems like nothing has worked i have repeatedly refused medications as i have seen what it has done to my sister whos in a similar situation to myself and it terrifies me though at this point maybe just numbing everything is the only possible solutioni miss being able to take on challenge and try new things i miss being able to feel competent but even when i try to replace the negative thoughts and comparisons another piece of me is asking whats the pointso i stumble here in the hopes that maybe someone has something they can say that can get me out of this self depreciating voidregardless who you are and how you try to help thank you so much ill be watching this post for the next hour or so as its another sleepless night though if i do manage to doze off i will be taking that chance,3.0 50204,seasonal depression symptoms so i have some seasonal depression im not diagnosed but ive experienced it for the last few winters anyway i was so happy yesterday i just felt good about life and things happening and now today i feel sad again for no reason is this normal to fluctuate within a day,3.0 50205,living in a monochromatic world i just dont understand how some people get out of bed in the morning and enjoy the monotony i simply cant accept any other meaning of life than just continuously settling and being disappointed until you die how do people go on with their lives happily im not even years old yet and theres nothing that can even bring a smile to my face anymore even the most appealing things to me less than four years ago are dull and uninteresting,3.0 50206,a turtle was crossing the road i carefully avoided it the car behind me did not bye turtle,2.0 50207,got my new guages omg it hurts ,2.0 50208,jenniferniven isolating teens from the reality of depression and mental illness is not safe its dangerous yamatters,2.0 50209,if youre happy and you know it clap your hands clap clap clap and say yeeeeah quotyeeeeeeeeeeeeahquot ,0.0 50210,tracytp the sounds better buying clothes good bit of retail theoropy goes along way ,0.0 50211,vidrioman ill send you my mom if that will help ,0.0 50212,im having a hard time transitioning from receiving disability to working full time i recently just graduated and started my first job ever im i was approved for disability when i turned due to my very long history of mental illness i really do love what i do every day is so fascinating to me but mostly every night i feel so depressed about going to work the next day knowing that this is how its going to be for the rest of my life i literally count down the hours until i need to go to sleep its been months since i started and i still cry before going in sometimes i pray that i will get sick or something so that i can miss a few days when will these feelings ever go away how do other people make it seem so easy,3.0 50213,rt fact smelling coffee can help reduce stress,1.0 50214, literature assignments science revision iphone problems science exam why is all this happening to mee ,2.0 50215,takes a hour long depression nap,2.0 50216,we did it race for the cure no stopping mission accomplished ,0.0 50217,owlcity ahhahah an underwear gtwlt lolzz,0.0 50218,such ɑ waste of time ,2.0 50219,i am with my cousins in my lolas house right now ,0.0 50220,short hair tips dont fall asleep with slightly damp hair and the toss and turn you will resemble a troll or a gremlin ,2.0 50221,everything looks really funny to me right now if i knew how to do twit pic i could share my deliriousness dont think thats a word,0.0 50222,woooah day with ammmber gonna partayy it up tonight chaching rofl,0.0 50223,with taleitalmagejunior and some other randoms ,0.0 50224,gotta love pirated movies ,0.0 50225,jennajean im sort of a bitch when it comes to things lol so i kind of dont mind at all telling people why,0.0 50226,listen to at as sadag operations director cassey chambers discusses the signs of depression ,2.0 50227,mswindows it is a pitty that it is us only program ,2.0 50228,left my phone at homei feel so lost without it ,2.0 50229,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 50230,came from a video shoot this evening found a new great vendor for custompcplanetcom tomorrow is another day ,0.0 50231,advice for sticking to a hobby does anyone have advice for finding and sticking to hobbies ive tried to pick up things in the past but never really gotten a feeling of enjoymentsatisfaction at some point i thought that i could motivate myself by using it as a prompt to improve social interactions but i could never get that flywheel spinning eithertldr what hobbies have you taken up that have stuck what if any separates a hobby that sticks from one that doesnt how do you quarantine the hobby from the depressive feeling that seep in,3.0 50232,i really dont know ,2.0 50233,ddlovato its hard to get a reply from you my comments just get washed away with everyone elses but i shall keep on trying ,0.0 50234, watsup cuz how be all the people back home tried to get tickets for snl todayfound out they only tape in the spring ,2.0 50235,right now in on myspace listening to danity kane i love these girls i wish they were still togather making music ,2.0 50236,how do i improved my life and have selfconfidence japaneseno job or part times shift those days no relations no car neither license virgin pretending had lost for them gambling addiction still dependence on parents inferiority complex cant into speaking english well and defaulting phone utility for over three years by gambling problems so to interfering with my daily life but cant repay not enough on my profitsi connect free wifi by public facility everydayrests is all my money so farall my things to be life goes worse no longer being goodfuck me,3.0 50237,impalaguy i´m still alone in the office the boss is coming tomorrow but i don´t wanna say good bye ,2.0 50238,hoping the sox game doesnt get rained out ,2.0 50239,feels like im just surviving day to day day to day week to week month to month but it feels like im on auto pilot and my wife has described it like im an empty person which i dont disagree with its like i can only manage trying to get through the days and trying to be happy with small accomplishments but unable to make any long term plans or change that scares me,3.0 50240,working on a sunday ,2.0 50241,reneebarber aww youll be right and wow pages is gettin so close,0.0 50242,off to the hamptonstearin up beach bar tonite whooo hooo then landshark on the nautical mile in freeport tomorrow be there,0.0 50243,thanks thanks everyone lomara loads and loads of hugs,0.0 50244,soldier leon quotwillyquot wilsons lucky bullet escape happy news ,0.0 50245,the place where daddy hit me is still so red ,2.0 50246,dibaunaumh cool although if it requires human intervention then it still doesnt solve my problem ,0.0 50247,daniellemhicks haha my ojd is kinda low right now ,2.0 50248,kibbe rufusisnodufus ditch cable a must agreed ,0.0 50249,anniyosh just imagine me telling you a really long boring story and it will put you right to sleep ,0.0 50250,plotting i hate not having someone to bounce ideas off of ,2.0 50251,ive been waitin see quothangoverquot amp my bff jennypooh is takin me ill be out wit one of the hottest dominicans in ny ,0.0 50252,shopped a little yesterday and going again tomorrow its hard to buy clothes when ur bottom is huge and ur top is small ,2.0 50253,tutal hilig kag bata ikaw bantay sakong anak biabusado sad ka te ha he hi ho hu,2.0 50254,revaaron hmm a caffeinated kindred spirit ,0.0 50255,rt vibeables depression is actually so rude u can work so hard amp have everything u want to be happy amp these chemicals in ur brain are jus,1.0 50256,it feels so nice to sleep in a bed again ahhh ,0.0 50257,janongrande so sad some inhumane scumbag,2.0 50258,hazmattmum whay hay have a great time enjoy the bbq too ,0.0 50259,rt directorlacdmh thanks for supporting the lacdmh mentalhealth efforts in long beach supjanicehahn ,2.0 50260,its the holidays and i still feel like shit i shouldnt have been suprised now that im off school theres nothing to distract me at school i can fool myself into thinking i have friends theres a group i sit with but im more of a shadow there at school im distracted i can just keep doing melianal tasks and feel ok until i get home i think im just gonna stay up so its longer until tomorrow but im just fucking lying to myself im an attention seeking sympathy whoring bitch why do i always want sympathy it feels like its the only thing that briefly fills the void inside of me and i hate myself for it i say im lonely yet i literally hung out with someone yesterday im in constant conflict with myself not sure whether im really suffering or just an attention whore no one has to comment i just need to vent,3.0 50261,rt gratitudedna บางสิ่งบางอย่างดูเหมือนเรื่องเล็กน้อยไม่มีค่าแต่บางทีเราไม่รู้ว่ามันสำคัญและมีประโยชน์แค่ไหน ป้ายเล็กๆเขียนด้วยมือแข,2.0 50262,rest in peace brownies you only lasted days ,2.0 50263,chrisgn aha lttr stopp working now think i n to gt a man in translat,2.0 50264,i give up this is not related to depression just really pissed that i cant win this stupid yahtzee game on my phone,2.0 50265,adamshake looking forward to hanging this weekend you are a rock star followfriday,0.0 50266,girltrumpet because its like ten times better than this place xd and its so beautiful and fun and they have gold coast hot dogs xd,0.0 50267,shares a rare article which bash both bing and wave at the same time httppingfmghdgv,0.0 50268,rt willhitchuva i resigned from a think tank at uva today because i felt it betrayed its principles in giving a senior fellowship to trum,1.0 50269,ceslsu how about those of us who are awake good morning southern friend,0.0 50270,goodnight twitterverse have an english final tmrw love the language not so much the subject keep voting resistance fighters,0.0 50271,greyeyesgabriel you are clearly very busy take care of yourself and i am sure you will be fine takes one to know one ,0.0 50272, steps to financial freedom autismbux disclaimer this advice is only for people with a genuine mental illness and absolutely not for people who just want to live a life of comfort study your illness and adapt your behaviours youre going to need to find out what your disabilities are the more the better and the symptoms that accompany them ptsd ocd depression general anxiety schizophrenia get yourself comitted aka sectioned to a psych ward this is by far the hardest step and takes the most commitment this step increases your chances of disability payments and speeds up the process by approach the front desk at your local hospitals physiciatric unit and inform the nurse that you are feeling suicidal and youre afraid you may take your own life you should skip showering for a few days before arrival and appear extremely agitated avoid eye contact wring your hands together and rub your trousers once youve filled in the relevant paperwork they will keep you for weeks maximum during your stay you will have several appointments with a psychiatrist this is your chance to explain your symptoms such as hearing voices suicidal thoughts insomnia youll spend most of your visit sitting around with other patients watching tv eating and playing video games nurses will be observing you during this time and taking notes so make sure to display some neurotic and delusional behaviour but dont overplay it be subtle youll be given your diagnosis prescribed medication which you dont have to take and be discharged within weeks apply for disability benefits online youll receive a letter with various forms to fill out and send back you must make it very clear that you cannot look after yourself and have trouble functioning in day to day life having a diagnosis and a stay at a mental hospital will make your claim much more likely to succeed you will receive an assesment interview at your local claims office be sure to bring all your paperwork that you reveived during your stay at the psych ward you will be asked to repeat nearly everything you wrote down in your application so rehearse your script before your appointment after a few weeks you should receive a letter approving your claim for disability benefits,3.0 50273,i want to cut but i dont want the pain im not feeling that bad mentally right now nowhere near as bad as i am normally but i really want to cut its been keeping me awake all night but i also really dont want the pain right now anyone else experience that i cant think of anything else,3.0 50274,luciebeexxx anxiety is certainly becoming rife in society,2.0 50275,so confused man recently my girlfriend left me and i really liked her she was so beautiful and she just randomly stopped liking me im and i had never been in love till then it blocked all things out and ive never been so happy after she stopped talking to me slowly ive started to feel sad shes drained alot of my happiness and im extremely insecure about everything possible i dont even go outside anymore i just play league of legends and procrastinate fuck man i wanna be in love again,3.0 50276,rt aniballabestia este es el que para los subtes y dice que no le alcanza el sueldoel metrodelegado se fue a roma a descansar un rato p,0.0 50277,rt icedcoffeemaker do you ever get extremely sad because you want to talk to someone but youre so boring that you dont know what to tal,1.0 50278,simple having to greet people,0.0 50279, im jealousssssss lollayed up in bed doing hw,2.0 50280,rt walkonomics people who walk minutes a day are more likely to report better mental health walkability headstogether https,0.0 50281,other good news no sign of any standing water on the glasto webcams ,0.0 50282,tea and the tonight show say hello to john melendez kevin eubanks and the tonight show band,0.0 50283,proably to the poundshe was a pit so i know they put her down ,2.0 50284,not ready to be out in degree weather weekend went by wayyyy to quick,2.0 50285,sunky glad to hear it such an awesome album,0.0 50286,alicehills have a wicked time ha no he didnt in the end told him i was with the boyfriend and he was like i aint coming then lol xxx,0.0 50287,indiecision yay for you lookin good ,0.0 50288,featureblend a maxi bmx hybrid its handmade hope it will not rain today,0.0 50289,facebook and depression walk hand in handnever again,2.0 50290,my mind is right but my heart still hurts does that make sense i feel like im in a good mental state but i broke up with my ex last week and even though i feel like im in a good place i still feel very heartbroken especially when she treats me like i dont exist i want to talk to her all the time but she pays no mind to me throughout the whole day until late at night but its not much it hurts my heart a lot ,3.0 50291,annalethicia eh,2.0 50292,ahhhh i hear the ice cream truck ,0.0 50293,cassieyaaa its sad but its ,2.0 50294,my brain isnt working i am a senior in college and have dealt with depression and a whole bunch of other mental health issues for about a decade now lately i feel like i have become rapidly stupider some days it feels like my brain is turned off i cant think of simple words my speech is slower i have no concentration i take adderall for adhd and i have dyslexia so i tend to already read slower than others but i took some adderall and i still have no concentration im terrified i will get alzhiemers because it runs in my family and that this is an early sign but i also know its a part of depression i just need to fix this because my gpa already went down last semester and i eventually want to go to grad school can anyone help i am desperate ,3.0 50295,selah my king for you my god meditate on that sprat selah king of the jews seee why now ,0.0 50296,need help im a doctor and i see patients all day and their stories are making me depressed the other day i saw a dead baby and i feel fucked up inside i see a therapist and a doctor already to get help but i just feel so lonely,3.0 50297,suzemuse im having quotfoodquot that you cook in the microwave enough said ,2.0 50298,is up late drinkin some cheap merlot yum ,0.0 50299,savvysticks i will do where have you got a guaranteed place after the access cause i was hgoing to go for edinburgh highers tho x,2.0 50300,has had a great weekend with my boo im soo sad you have to leave today baby ,2.0 50301,jdnx a levels kinda took over my life still do you alright pal,2.0 50302,those who say youre not depressed or tell me one thing youre going through in the same conversation saying stop pushing everyone away ,3.0 50303,sailorjerry sorry hun when are you going to be free again,2.0 50304,pifferi hello i see u r an fcb fan ,0.0 50305,i added a video to a youtube playlist whatsapp video statussad dil kyu thoda song,1.0 50306,stephenfry at least youre not a saints fan life is painful for us ,2.0 50307, good day in long beach ,0.0 50308,wossy this is how much people want to be you id be honoured i honestly wish i had hairs like yours curse your shiney locks,2.0 50309,bertspace coffee good donut order regular donut balls chocolate ,2.0 50310, dont get blowd up ,2.0 50311,iamtam not having your lights on concerns me lol stay safe ,0.0 50312,rt btstwt my love taehyung shii❤️fighting ❤️you can do it ❤️sad to hear that your grandfather passed away😭you can overcome all,1.0 50313,farashafly do well ya ,0.0 50314,niquejonas yay hokio hotel lactic acid whoo no way ha poor justi u have no life mall copgreat movie i wanna see hs too well c ya soon,2.0 50315,back to being a short hair girl ,0.0 50316,rt acactonline our june cover story managing anxiety the most common mental illness in the united states ,2.0 50317,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 50318,gulpanag yeah i used to have flying fingers on that as well sigh i miss myphone ,2.0 50319, well moving on i need to figure out if being friends with benefits with mike is worth it what do you think,2.0 50320,why my friends have all turned against me my girlfriend hates me my parents just try to put me on fucking prescriptions and i want to die if you feel the same write it in the comments i just need someone to relate to,3.0 50321,can you overcome your trauma without confronting it so lately ive realised the source of my unhappiness comes from childhood trauma i feel like understanding that is a huge step forward yea dont worry i still hate myself and cant think of myself as one of the good ones but yeah im a pretty classic product of parents alcoholism violence and ive made some pretty bad mistakes myself when i was young and stupid so how the fuck can i stop thinking about my past without actually talking to my parents dads propably going to drink himself to death in the next few years and i find my mother insufferable as fuck i do understand where theyre coming from but holy shit i dont want to talk to them any more than necessary is there a method or a form of therapy where you try to learn to live with yourself which does not require messing with past trauma,3.0 50322,its comming back and i cant stop it i dont know if this is the right place or if somebody has any advices on this but i feel like my depression is comming back everything was fine and dandy for about years but in the past year i started getting more and more episodes of helplessness and an intense desire to stop livingi even had a panick atack about weeks ago and i resumed to selfharm to stop it none of these happend in the past years up to this pointi had more tentatives to self harm but i could contain it i dont feel like im able to kill myself i did tried when i had depression for the first time but as i said i wish i was dead so so many timesim not sure if its really comming back or wtf is happening but in the past year it became more and more annoying and intenseany idea how to stop it im stressed angry frustrated and i hate everything,3.0 50323,duckyporkchop me too but nobody is wanting to sell me one ,2.0 50324, thanks you so much for following me on twitter i hope you find it as exciting as i do looking forward to your tweets ,0.0 50325,doing homework ,2.0 50326,just watched the finale of the hillsit was soooo good ,0.0 50327,i hope that we will make time to sing once again in future ,0.0 50328, wow its so great ,0.0 50329,chaseutley well i believe its you ,0.0 50330,rt isaacoxkidy it was all a lie😂😂 anxiety creeping in slooooooooowly ,2.0 50331,didnt make it through the allergy season without getting terribly sick ,2.0 50332,so real 🤘,0.0 50333,wishes she was horse back riding today ,2.0 50334,rough im having a really hard time so if anyone is willing to talk to me feel free,3.0 50335,a rough patch there are a lot of things im feeling right now and have nowhere to turn im not usually the type of person who vents to strangers or feel trapped within my emotions but i dont have a source of emotional support at the moment and im not exaggerating when i say this is one of the most traumatic and hardest periods in my life in fact id mark it as the first time ive felt completely out of control and distraught to the point ive thought about self harming again like i used to im struggling with coming out of a two year long abusive relationship im years old going on in a few weeks ive been in this situation since high school and have made multiple attempts to break free of this relationship friends even tried to interfere once even going as far as having an intervention for me with our high school counselor i always felt i wasnt strong enough to leave even after very extreme attempts at breaking it off we always somehow ended up back together again sometimes id even go as far as telling other people and he would threaten me and tell me to cut off the people id vent to this kind of insane behavior was what had taken place the first half of our relationship ill spare the details for my own sake but it was pretty ugly it felt like after a year or so he had me wrapped around his finger completely i even started to feel intense sympathy for him a little background he had a lot of stories and trauma from his childhood and mental health issues that i really doubted and still doubt a lot of to this day and he would often use this as an excuse for his actions i think i was even coming to need him depend on him i loved him and cared for him this much was appertent even from the starti went off to college and we didnt talk as much didnt see each other as much we were really falling out and i was getting stronger and more mature by being on my own i went to stay with him at his place and celebrate christmas with him and his family they bought me a lot of stuff and i think we had a decent time together clearly breaking up was something id always wanted to do i became more reluctant the second year of our dating and pushed it off but became sure i was prepared for the break up before i thought could be a year of something new i even had someone i really liked supporting me through it all and we are now developing a relationship i dumped him before cold turkey before getting to spend some time with the person mentioned before i thought dumping him while with someone i felt safe with would help but now that the person is gone im at a loss i feel completely alone and even went to check my exes social mediaim having insane thoughts about being without him hes doing really well and it brought me to tears because im so proud of him and genuinely happy because he probably needed the break up too to help him grow as a person but i still felt sad im sad that im alone most of my friends having gave up on me because of this relationship long ago and the one person who is supporting me works often i feel scared and like i ruined something perfect even though i know thats not the case and just his words in my head still i dont know what to do i think im losing my mind,3.0 50336, its great y ,0.0 50337,is going to the skating show todayagain this weekend ,2.0 50338,httpbitlygzcld must watchpoor situation of the tamils ,2.0 50339,é deu saudades do dia queria tudo again and again and again ,2.0 50340,i want charlie the unicorns crazy friends to take both my kidneys about now soo much hurt ,2.0 50341,lizzyvs what you mean youre really quotboardquot hehe or are you just having another blonde moment ,0.0 50342,cheanu at least you are at home by choice im at home by unemployment must be nice to be retired at ,0.0 50343,jaimgee i hope you slept good jaimie im going to the coleseum i hope your tripdrive goes good ill text you later i love you,0.0 50344,is a little sad that her volunteer work at thge leukaemia foundation has ceased as of today cause they are centralising transport ,2.0 50345,alyssamilano and that makes me a bad person you are right use it as you like im just glad you share ,0.0 50346,i dont think therapy can help my fiance keeps telling me that i should go and see a therapist i suffer from depression anxiety panic attacks and have suicidal thoughts every weeks i dont want to see a therapist i am sure they are not going to help it might sound stupid or arrogant but i feel that i am smart enough to understand whats going on with mei just dont want to someone random a stranger to tell me how to live my life i dont see a point i am too proud to go to therapyi am scared i will get disappointed so much that its gonna kill the last thing that could help meand i dont feel like trying many therapists too,3.0 50347,trentreznor aww im happy for you sweets im jealous wish i was in the same place ,2.0 50348,theres sum kinky ass freaks following me and none of them are cute dudes ,2.0 50349,great now that this weekend is over i need something to look forward to now boo ,2.0 50350,mmm pita with fresh sliced zucchini and garlic hummus ,0.0 50351,news is on ,0.0 50352,no the unusuals wasnt renewed for a season ive never had a show i love get cancelled so soon and it hurts angry,2.0 50353,im deteriorating for the past month life became impossible school is impossible getting up is impossible putting on a fake smile every day is getting so tiring more than it was before i could handle this stuff before but now i feel like i am falling deeper and deeper and this time i cant get back up i think abut ending it every single day not a day goes by without that thought every week takes the life out of me more and more,3.0 50354,i dont know what to do anymore so a few months ago i found out my best friend committed suicide and i havent been able to talk about it before now i knew him for years and he was the only friend i could be myself around with all these other people i have to put on my mask and pretend everything is alright i dont feel comfortable enough to talk to anyone face to face i just want someone who likes me for me and not this facade i need to keep up in front of others when i was alone he was there when i was bullied he was there whenever i was sad he was there for me and i dont feel like i was there for him i feel that its my fault that if i wouldve asked him if something was wrong i could prevent it but i did nothing,3.0 50355,kraftykoala oh dear she must be terribly uncomfortable ,2.0 50356,three day work week for me chicago here i come,0.0 50357,cukagirl glad you had fun with us tonight trish ,0.0 50358,shirtlessrob hahahaha lol as i remember nothing happened very quickly there ,0.0 50359,lavics with the fam then going home ,0.0 50360,can somebody cheer me up can somebody just please cheer me up im just feeling very bad and sad,3.0 50361,i havent been able to cry for as long as i can remember there has been many nights when ive lied in bed wanting to cry my eyes out but instead i get nothing ive tried with sad music and what not but nothing works anyone else that has experienced something similar,3.0 50362,rt depressingmsgs depression isnt always sadness it can also be emptiness anger tiredness or loneliness sometimes a cry for help isn,2.0 50363,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 50364,mznikababii o no wats the problem,2.0 50365,paige feels unloved because she hasnt got many followers everyone follow paigemurphy,2.0 50366,once upon a time i was falling in love now im only falling apart lol erin and i singing in my car ,0.0 50367,working on global do not want,2.0 50368,is sad because im thin ,2.0 50369,i cant trust or be in a relationship anymore all these people lying to me and going behind my back every day has made me bitter and cold i really miss the feeling of meeting someone new and being interested but i just assume the worst in people and cant seem to be happy in a relationship anyone else agree,3.0 50370,mehulved hilarious i hope there are pakodas and samosas involved after a long lunch break,0.0 50371,fuck me i cause too much drama ,2.0 50372,wish i could welcome the spartans back to el but i am stuck in class msu,2.0 50373,sad for justine ,2.0 50374,lotomlean personally i have depression and veganism has only helped me in keeping me healthy and motivated to fight everyday,1.0 50375,no plane to alabama no pennsylvania and new york and no monkeys ,2.0 50376,subversion precisely why bacon loaded mashers would rock ,0.0 50377,augiebop clean me,2.0 50378,about to see tat off to boston im going to miss her so much ,2.0 50379,quotwho are youquot marissa quotwhoever you want me to bequotryan ,0.0 50380,fathers day tomorrow oh wait nvm i cant even see my dad ,2.0 50381,up casino w the momma amp bro ,0.0 50382, have you been reading surviving together i want to get back into writing it im enjoying it,0.0 50383,i dont know whats wrong with me i just want to get away to leave ,3.0 50384,spacerbunny oh that sucks thank god for your laptop,2.0 50385,melissahope why ,2.0 50386,sonoselvatica buongiorno ultimo giorno bisogna festeggiare lorario sarà sempre quello ma almeno non hai lo s httpstcofcidyeoqfw,1.0 50387,omg so tired so early tonight wtf there were so many people on aim too ,2.0 50388,annagirluk i no still waitin nkotb when we gettin our cruise photos or r we not xoxo,2.0 50389,kaymoneylove awww thanks i love you ,0.0 50390,help me with my research hi i am a highschool student conducting research on the link between attention deficit hyperactivity disorder and rejection sensitivity if any of you would be interested in helping me i have created a survey that shouldnt take longer than minutes to complete you do not need to have adhdadd to take this survey i encourage as many different people as possible to take it the survey is completely anonymous and i will have no way of tracing the answers to any individual person participants will also be asked to provide their age biological sex prefered gender mental healthtreatment history take an question adhd assessment test and a rejection sensitivity assessment test as some of the questions can be emotionally triggering for some any questions that cause emotional discomfort can be skipped with the exception of your biological sex and if you have adhdhere is my survey,3.0 50391,nkairplay npand thanks im sure ill have more requests ,0.0 50392,what can i do to stop living in my head i cant live in the moment and enjoy anything anymore i feel like if i could do this id be able to be happy again any tips,3.0 50393,breakfast now ,0.0 50394,tricossascha true i think twitter should allow writing direct messages back in that case,0.0 50395,amyyyox what time they on at i cant i have an exam tomorrow ,2.0 50396,chrisslay have fun ,0.0 50397,today is the first day in summers i wont be going to camp ,2.0 50398,is feeling peaceful ,0.0 50399,ugh so annoyed chuck liddell was at sandbar last night and i missed him still havent met my future husband,2.0 50400,i just want to be happy all i want in life is to be happy but i feel like everyone that i get close to fucking just shits on me i had a bad childhood my mom left and my dad was an addict currently recovered i didnt have many friends growing up and i was really shy as i got a little older i eventually found a group of friends that i thought had my back i have a horrible sense of character and i give everyone my trust and benefit of the doubt when they probably dont deserve itlong story short they were all talking shit ab me behind my back to each other after that i isolated myself until college i found friends that i love in college and im glad to have them i just hope things last with them because my other relationships always ended up hurting mei feel like shit all i want is for people to like me my boyfriend tells me he loves me and i believe it when he looks into my eyes and holds me but hes cheated on me so many times no one else knows besides mei treat everyone that i meet with kindness respect and consideration i want to be treated how i treat others but as ive grown older i feel like everyone is selfish and greedyno one knows about what im going through everyone that i know thinks im happy but they dont know the things ive gone through and continue to go through i dont like opening up to people anymore,3.0 50401,when the anxiety give ya the shakes lt,2.0 50402,got contract for schoolthere are a lot of bad changes going to have to seriously think about this before signing on another year ,2.0 50403,latest is meetn her ex boyfren will we get back together,0.0 50404,glennishamorgan omg i was reading your tweets and saw that about the member wowi didnt even know i googled it ,2.0 50405,looking up summer jobs in paris ,0.0 50406,i used to have a remote for my tv ,2.0 50407,missremi thas wssp have fun ,0.0 50408,summerislovey oh thanks ,2.0 50409,no tethering for japanese iphone ,2.0 50410,yeah u cute but will u bring me closer to jesus,0.0 50411,bigdart glad to hear it scary stuff ive had friends who had cysts on their ovaries glad shes going to be alright ,0.0 50412, jun two years ago i am very concious with my mental illness some controversial people made me feel like a ciggarette filter this feeling brought me with negative habits and sharing these things to someone made me feel more even worse they never listen maybe because im too crazy to smile at people every single day and everyday i felt that something wasnt right to describe what i am living everyday i am just a young lady who love to tell stories but i cant because i am too scared that some people might think that i am crazy that they cant understand me and the most heartbreaking one is that the most important ones in my life cant see me as i am i have to be a different person to be accepted i have to listen but they cant even listen to me i am fighting everyday and i hoped that i will die the night when the surgeon decided that i have to be operated last may eight i really hoped that the operation will not be successful but thanks to that i am still living with problems like this i know someone in this world has bigger problems than i have but for years i am still here hoping that if i am done i am done,3.0 50413,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 50414,i feel like shit and i dont know what to do is anyone up for a chat rproed is gone and idk who to talk to and i really just wanna vent or something,3.0 50415,oops try this one ,2.0 50416,omg darius is now potus who out there saw that coming great plot move but sad that the remarkable tovah f ,1.0 50417,over hours of relaxation in the sun with jonasbrothers serenading me good times then my player had to die hahaha,0.0 50418,estrivra my parents got divorced it was hard lol ,2.0 50419,nickybyrneoffic cant believe its a year today it was croke amazing ,0.0 50420,its overcast todaystorm clouds over the mountains headed our way i am unpacking and organizing my room ,0.0 50421,home from funeral getting ice cream then coffee exciting huh,0.0 50422,the sad hundred ,2.0 50423,frankparenteau itunes takes more money from the artist than bandcamp itunes takes about and w bandcamp you only pay paypal fees ,0.0 50424,rt haofansite wait people are actually pissed at minghao for saying that carats cant date him which is common sense it must be sad bei,1.0 50425,got some decent sleep whoooo no vocal training today kyles got flu hopefully next week oh i also got a keyboard,0.0 50426,translating on the laptop in the back yard while the kids work off their chores by sweeping amp weeding strawberries are coming in well ,0.0 50427,wants his hair back ,2.0 50428,do you ever feel indifferent to living im a soon to be year old male ive been together with my current girlfriend a little over years i have a pretty well paying job in it for my age and level of education i also enjoy my job a lot i have a small but amazing family and some close irl friends as well as online friends i speak with and game with regularly i usually meet these guys for a few days once or twice a year to play some board games i have many things in my life that i enjoy and should be happy about yet i feel so incredibly empty like nothing mattersi never feel this way when im with friendsfamily playing games with online friends or hanging out with my gf but as soon as im alone i cant stop thinking whats the point im not sad and i actively dont want to end my life but i dont see the point in continuing my existance eitherdoes anyone else feel the same way how does one deal with it,3.0 50429,had fame this morning have fame in half an hour fame is dominating my life at the moment ,2.0 50430,izzyknight lol i get that too but its from my cat ,0.0 50431,rt cfmixcdmedias i love you like an italian loves pasta•writer rpfl acc•star m lugo the spxcepup writer•sublittle•tw anxie,0.0 50432,some people are just sad ,1.0 50433,wintertime blues sad seasonal affective disorder first time poster here guysi stumbled upon something very interesting recently usually i am always gloomy and somewhat depressed and withdrawn this time of the yeari just dont feel like myselfi understand depression can definitely be a multifaceted issue but i figure i might be able to help a few people suffering from sad this winterthe suns not out its frigid and icy it sucksbasically i was craving cheese for some reason in my anatomy class we learned about how vitamin d actually increases calcium absorption since calcium isnt absorbed properly without iti decided to do some selfexperimentation immediately after class and what i found felt astounded mei put together a comprehensive post on my experience here httpsvivacityandvigorcomdoyouhavethewintertimebluesfeel free to read and provide some feedback on how it works for youif it worked for me it might work for youeven if this only helps one person struggling with seasonal affective disorder i will be ecstaticmy blogs goal is to restore your health mentally and physicallyi know this can be of value to my fellow redditorsbest regardsbyteofcyberspace,3.0 50434,spending this beautiful day as the garage sale chauffer ,2.0 50435, jakarta indonesia still thousand miles from medan ,2.0 50436,omgitsashton was being hypercritical as he has them now he likes them but doesnt want me to put any on my arms ,2.0 50437,cant wait till august when im going to rhodes soon purchasing some diving gear wee ,0.0 50438,over a years worth of text messages accidentally cleared the sadness,2.0 50439,withdrawn basically new on herelately ive been so withdrawn from everything and everyone i cant bring myself to do anything or to even have a simple conversation it just makes me feel more tired not physically just mentally tired ive isolated myself deleted most of my social media accounts and have been ignoring everyone not answering phone calls just existing ive stopped living i go through stages of like feeling so awful and just wanting to die and then i go into a stage of numbness like i feel nothing and i dont really care and im not sure thats any better ,3.0 50440,anti depressants and climax i am diagnosed with severe anxiety and mild depression here lately it has almost been debilitating i was on anti depressants about years ago but decided to go off them and was able to maintain my mental health state for a while or maybe i was just fooling myself anyways i just got back on them a few weeks ago and was reminded as to why i stopped in the first place i cannot orgasm on them which is extremely frustrating because of all the things i feel i am lacking in life that as at least one thing i had going for me i dont want to get off my meds because they are helping my anxiety and depression but i also dont want to feel like lesser of a woman because i cant get thereneither with my partner nor on my own if any of you have experienced this what was your solution,3.0 50441,its no longer sunny in seattle httptrimsunnyinseattle,2.0 50442,dear twitter whats with all of the quotover capacityquot message and why doesnt my quotupdatequot button work fro the web ,2.0 50443,new to this im sorry if this doesnt read very well its my first time doing anything like this and i am pretty intoxicated as of right now honestly i dont know where to begin i have good friends i just swore into the army classes are going well but honestly im lonelya few weeks ago my grandmother died alone in a strange hospital and now im afraid thats how i will go that i will die alone and forgotten the closest i have ever been to love ended with her cheating on me and accusing me of sexual assault charges were dropped i have never been on a normal date and every time i get close to a girl she rejects me and i always lose a couple friends because they prefer being around whoever it was i was in love with most recently i fell in love with a girl at my school who is in the same company as me military college and she is perfect she is smart funny compassionate has the same taste in music as me and she is just honest to god amazing i know that she knows that i have feelings for her but it hasnt come up in conversation yet since it just doesnt come up that feeling of never finding love and being alone for the rest of my life is all i can think about right now spring break is in about a week and i get to go home and im not sure if ill come back to this school because i cant stand the feeling of being alone again so i am honestly planning on going for a walk into the woods with my favorite whiskey and gun and just ending itsorry for ranting,3.0 50444,off to register for and the playstationblog psnation party at moma hot tamale cafe ,0.0 50445,just got to the bally in springfield ill be here until with no cellphone reception thank god for the laptop with wifi p,2.0 50446,oliviamunn i saw them several times every time i laughed they were really funny very good job ,0.0 50447,problem i think i can work with problem not so sure ,2.0 50448,confusing i know but just wanted to speak sometimes things never change they only get briefly brighter for a second before the little imperfections take over your emotions you wait and hope things will get better but they always seem to shirvel i just want to pour my heart out to someone and feel them do it to me i dont want either of us to feel embarrassed or struggle to express how they are i have many flaws im not very smart and i work a shit job and im know im a failure but i try my best lifes worked out for alot of people but i dont think lifes for me im usually the person who trys to make people laugh and happy but i dont want to do that anymore im sure people will find a someone else to make them laugh its my birthday in a hour and it sucks haha,3.0 50449,fantastic day so happy for laris whew im exhausted ,0.0 50450,rt janinebucks how you beat anxiety ryan shaw selfimprovement selfimprovement selfimprovement,0.0 50451,mizdaisy i can request it off ,0.0 50452,how to get rid of my attraction to girls and replace it to an attraction to dakimuras i never had a relationship with a girl before i tried to talk to girls multiple times only to be called weird creepy future rapist etcis there anyway i can rewire myself mentally into loving a dakimura since all girls dislike me before i get to know them i have been led on and been embarrassed by the nicest of girls at my school and church im thinking if i try to pursue a relationship with a dakimura instead because obviously i cant be out creeping on people or raping women when im inside with my dakimura all day i looked differently from everyone causing them to treat me differently ultimately causing me to act differently i have been pelted with rocks by groups of people spat on led on by girls that liked me only to get humiliated jumped on by different people almost weekly and for me to be the one that gets sent home oss because i was the one bullying themi just wanted to show the world that i had the ability to love others and be loved but obviously it didnt work out that way differently i wanted friends i wanted companionship i wanted a romantic relationship with a girl my age but obviously since it was coming from me i was asking for too much everyone that had similar hobbies to me didnt like said hobby anymore when i asked them to hangout every girl that i asked out replied im lesbian hell nawww ugly ass boy you just turned me lesbian or this is some sick joke righti was known as the school creep and people started taking pictures of me uploading them to instagram when it was starting to boom at the end of middle school theyve then began spreading rumors about me mistruths partial truths lies and other things about me that other people believed because i happened to fit the narrativeif you want to hate me i just want you to hate me for the right reasons about the things that i actually did because i actually own up to them however i didnt do much i stayed silent and only spoke when talked to because in the eyes of everyone i was the bad guy no matter what i did and i deserved everything that came my waymy most memorable experience was when i was walking down the hallway a group of girls not paying attention to me was walking adjacent to me when one of the girls said put me onher assumed friend pointed to me and giggledher friend began bawling and said fuck no thats that scary ass atrocious looking ass niggaive been going to multiple therapists for the past years and they just dont get it they keep giving me all of this bullshit no sense like just be yourself and one day all of your bullies will be working for youthats especially funny when i asked out my crush in middle school she told me she was lesbian and a guy that routinely bullied me showed me a video on his phone of him having sex with her and her screaming his name he laughed and walked awaythis guy doesnt really mess with me anymore but now hes a literal football star and he is respected and loved while no one wants to be within feet of mei gave up on finding female friends girls avoid me whenever i show up and become hostile when i am in the area around them for too long i have absolutely no chance of getting a girlfriend and i made the logical choice and gave up a long time ago because me simply being alive inflicts pain and suffering upon themrant overon side note what dakimura should i buy,3.0 50453,maybe if i fall in love with my anxiety it will leave me too,1.0 50454,rt noturmcm me wow im actually starting to feel happy again my depression ,0.0 50455, its saving i changed the settings so it takes up a lot more of the yt screen but it takes forever bc its still hd,2.0 50456,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 50457,i hate waking up early ,2.0 50458,up early again loads to do but the suns out hurrah,2.0 50459,have to get ready to take my son to the bus stop for his last day of kindergarten ,2.0 50460,eurgh im so tired ,2.0 50461,long day at work and another coming tomorrow i never thought i would say this but i miss my all other houir shifts suck,2.0 50462,hallierina hmmm cik kamal ada fierce sikit dia ada on sikit go work your charm on him la babe pls hehehe ,0.0 50463,really wishing i didnt have to wake up tomorrow morning ,2.0 50464,just a tip from experience if you are going through a low episode i dont need to tell you that youre probably not in a rational mindset you might be thinking about texting that certain person and coming clean about your feelings or telling someone off or anything that might seem rash if your were in a normal mindset and it might seem like if you did that it would help maybe get you passed this hump be a quick fix before you do that describe exactly what youre thinking about in writing reading it back might clear some of the cloudiness and help you see the rational side of things a little clearer it really helps me and god knows this would have saved me some weird embarrassments that ended up just prolonging the low episode remember that no feeling is permanent and the skies are still blue behind the clouds,3.0 50465,damn it i wanted mom to come too ill fuck this entire shit and get cash for next year or go here somewhere ,2.0 50466,jakesbf nao entendi a do lil wayne ,2.0 50467,just finished watching marley and me such a sad movie ,2.0 50468,anybody wanna play shockwave bowling search up quotskybowldcrquot and have fun requires shockwave player tho ,2.0 50469,working in retail makes me want to die even more the entitlement and stupidity of customers idiotic scheduling where hours are cut randomly and having to work every major holiday stupid managers ridiculous expectations unreliable coworkers the pointless busy work constantly having to stand and smile shit payif theres anything that can motivate me to try harder in life its to get out of retail,3.0 50470,saifsiddiqui as my chief marketer your hired lol but u gotta lose the language of marketing in my world ,0.0 50471,depressionanxietyobsessivecompulsive disorderit never gets better,0.0 50472,wow i think i top the cake umyummy for dumb idea of the day doing my high intensity interval training outside at hhoooott ,2.0 50473,i need to study but i just feel so awful and need advice hello im sorry to be asking but i feel stuck and could do with some wise words i have what is probably or hours worth of studyingcoursework to do today but i am so defeated and helpless i cant even drag myself out of bed i have tried starting but i just end up staring at it and going back to bed and crying moredoes anyone have any advice as to how to power through this as right now it seems pretty impossiblethank you so much for any input,3.0 50474,rt ehjovan so not only am i gay because im depressed but being gay is the root of my depression im trapped in an endless cycle https,2.0 50475, hey is it ok if i call you later ,0.0 50476,quoti got bangs my hair is so nowquot ,0.0 50477,plans for tomorrow boring i dont even know why im posting this tomorrows valentines day but that just makes it easier for whats gonna happen i dont think its powered by my lost love or stress ive thought too long for any of that of course its not as simple as that but i really dont care to explainwell tomorrow if all goes to plan ill be lying in bed with a blade in my carotid artery all ive ever felt since i could remember was emptiness and fake expression i remember wondering as a child why i would smile when i wanted to curl up and be alonei have that wish now and i guess im just gonna take it to the next level theres no logical reason for me to feel this way but its not logical im fit i have a promising career friends who i know genuinely care about me and i could have an active love life if i wanted to recently ive become more open with everyone with how i really feel and its just opened my eyes to reality ill always remember what she said to me i would love to im really sorry this is incoherent my family just told me its not a fucking option to not tell us how youre feeling their actions are so much different than their words i can only remember a few instances years ago when my family was concerned for me now i make a request and express why i think it and they acknowledge it and continue whatever it was even after further requests i guess im just gonna fill the void with bloodi know anything commented will likely just be to ease your own conscience so please comment but dont be surprised if i dont reply sorryitll all be over soon one way or another,3.0 50478,jasonmanford but i dont wanna go to bed i only woke up hours since ,2.0 50479, i dunno but i had thermals on the golf course today it was chilly amp super wet ,2.0 50480,starafar well theyre not laughing now pat ,0.0 50481,hates salt lake city at this point misses dfw and people in it ,2.0 50482,on my way to the mac counter wishing i can take pandora with me,0.0 50483,nairobiqueen got a new suit but breasts are still an issue they seriously need to make swimsuit tops for the quotblessed w breastsquot lol,2.0 50484, the most amazing decoration of a store ive ever seen amp its almost been years ,2.0 50485,beer and a massage what a night ,0.0 50486,saresa good night sleep tight and good luck tomorrow ,0.0 50487,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 50488,will it ever get better ive been stuck in the darkest corner of depression for the past years i keep asking myself if i will spend the rest of my life living in a fog people always tell me things will get better or ill get over it but things havent gotten any easier almost every night i think what if i wasnt here ive never attempted anything before but thoughts of taking my life flood my brain im tired of living a life of pain and sorrow its not like im living anyways i live my life as a ghost if im not forced to go to school i spend my days in bed sleeping the hours away i want nothing more than to be the person i once was but im afraid that person is already gone,3.0 50489,about to go to ap to hang wiiiff people haha be back laterr ,0.0 50490,ahhhhh im about to go crazy godmay year i been wifey kirk twitterzand i wnt tlk him right now ,2.0 50491,just realized that eating was so hard been pretty down in the dumps and havent been eating lost a lot of weight and today i started making myself to eat and damn its hard i feel like throwing everything up and dont want to eat anything this isnt my first episode i think ive been through worst but always kept my appetite but damn i hate eating right now,3.0 50492,twitteo mas en mi cuenta sad que aca ah,2.0 50493,my crappy day was just made better by an email from alixfox telling me i had won some yummy april flores art work thanks alix,0.0 50494,yay green day is on the daily top ten on myx xd,0.0 50495,phenomenalmish good i still have a few more things to do before i can be placed but the lady like me so we shall see how was work,0.0 50496,heavy head feeling does any one elses head start to feel extremely heavy when feeling depressed ,3.0 50497,rt andrewpxiv alexa cure my depression,2.0 50498,usa flag fidget hand spinner anxiety stress relief manipulative play adhd toy ,1.0 50499,madlib at fabric pushed back to next tuesday still cant make it though ,2.0 50500,shoppin wit mama thurman bouta eat some salmon ,0.0 50501,the suns out again its nice shame im stuck in doing artwork n,0.0 50502,yawntoday is a lazy day ,0.0 50503,i cant i just feel like writing my suicide note right now no one is here for me and its my only way of escaping it fucking hurts i just want to cut myself to death i know i shouldnt be feeling this way at but i just cant deal with this shit,3.0 50504,says i realized lately that im living a life with no definite direction ,2.0 50505,oh dear isabelle turned out to be a faceless ruse a siren and not a real person at all oh isabelle isabelle isabelle ,2.0 50506,hurt my ankle again at the game lastnight ,2.0 50507,off to iceland ,0.0 50508,maheshmurthy happy journey ,0.0 50509,about to sleep zzzzzz may pasok n tom ,0.0 50510,� today i will be offline till night maybe ,0.0 50511,sophiehoward im the master of cheesecake ill have you know ,0.0 50512,need to put the light on in the office for the first time in weeks its so dark and gloomy ,2.0 50513,katahay big star by kenny chesney because i feel like someday i want that song to be about me shallow i think its more ambitious ,0.0 50514,on break i can see the cloud of dust where the last bit of the aud roof just came down wall left ,2.0 50515, let me know when you are here next so we can try and meet for coffee ,0.0 50516,headed to atampt park how do you prep a stadium see you at bookstock tonight,0.0 50517,new day im a bit tired hmm i wonder why ,0.0 50518,at rehersal seems to be dragging today though ,2.0 50519,sarahhhhhrose im cold too ,2.0 50520,with ayee l in one a pijama party wiii ahahah vale and yaye,0.0 50521,another big brand joins twitter cocacola just signed upcheck emout cocacola,0.0 50522,dwayneyboy lol is it sad that all my tweets are directed towards you ,2.0 50523,beckiejonasx haha cool it better come out on dvd is it the last day in the cinema today,0.0 50524,anyone else if i could even put forth a fraction of the effort i do to succeed at work at homemy priorities shifted to survive the endless twelves i lost sight of what was important because i couldnt get through what work was making me do without losing myself to it now i need to find my way back my children deserve the father i always wanted to be i only stayed in and continued with the air force so i could be the dad i wanted to be now i am letting the air force take that away from me it wasnt until recently i realized how i got through those times i forewent everything and convinced myself that that was most important that doesnt discount the years of depression and sadness i already have to overcome and deal with but its taken me these last two years to even see that i am not even back to normal let alone to where i need to be to start working on what my normal use to be now its time for me my children will be grown and gone what who will they remember i failed them i failed myself they were what i wanted not what i exhaust myself on now work was supposed to give me the life i wanted not become my life ,3.0 50525,facebook memories have me so sadwhat am i doing with my life 😭 im nowhere close to where i need to be,2.0 50526,growing to be less caring and evil i literally dont give a shit about anyone in my family except my mom somewhat and the feelings mutualdont have interest in tv shows or yt anymore sick of it and its a waste of timenot into video games as much anymore for the same reasonsdont care to find a so never had a boyfriend and im almost i dont have urges to masturbate either having kids is something i really do not want to have dont like or care seeing all these ppl depressed abt having no one for valentines makes me laugheven though im finally going to get my degrees in june i dont feel happy about it just relieved im finally getting them so ppl stop giving me shit for itnot particularly smart since i never truly studied since junior year high schoolive pretty much finished all side projects i did in my freetime and not interested in starting new onesi just have zero interest in anythingi only care about animals and protecting good rare ppl that exist in this worldotherwise i dont give a shitreally dont know why i keep existing no point wasting resources and growing more evil as my brain rots from oversleeping and not putting it to use not like i care anyways,3.0 50527,ohindiegirl love that you have an old record player very spiffy and kudos on the harry potter book ,0.0 50528,arrived at the montesquieu bulding of the tilburg university cant start the week with coffee the coffeemachine broke down ,2.0 50529,universal consumer products group universal studios partnerships universal partnerships and licensing pretty important or not ,0.0 50530,went out to get groceriesprices are inflating gas went up another cents to hit tcot,2.0 50531,waiting for my mom to fall asleep so i can get back on aim and see my beautiful baby girl i miss seeing you baby girl ,0.0 50532, i cant smoke weed anymore cause it gave me bad anxiety attacks like times and its not worth the risk me,1.0 50533,rt ahiskens jenniferniven isolating teens from the reality of depression and mental illness is not safe its dangerous yamatters,2.0 50534,peterdorsi happy birthday how does it feel to finally be ,0.0 50535,lorimcneeartist also turn it upside down and observe it for a day or two that way mistakes and unbalance etc become easier to identify ,0.0 50536, why does he have to go i wish he could stay with me ,2.0 50537,ohmegg yup i did and thanks ,0.0 50538,letting go of ai anxiety how machines amp humans together will transform futureofwork slackhq ,1.0 50539,howtogetback yes youre right every relationship has room to grow so ill keep reading your tweets ,0.0 50540,listed felt birdie card for any occasion httpbitlyjtodh yes i love cute stuff ,0.0 50541,ne mogu sad pašće mi kruna sa glave,2.0 50542,working working and working at wwwredirlandaes many hours spent but it worth let�s make red irlanda big ,0.0 50543,donnieklang donnieeee when u comin to the uk ,0.0 50544,has received a text message from kailun seconds ago imisshim ,2.0 50545,jeckman yes i think all the dhcp allocated ip addresses are used up and i need to get on wifi to finish my presentation openvideo,2.0 50546, laura rescued this wee guy ,2.0 50547,i feel like everyone hates me even on reddit either no one notices me or when they do i get downvoted i just want some positive interactions but i guess thats too much to ask for,3.0 50548,mothers day ,2.0 50549,i hope everything goes well in work pray for me thanks,0.0 50550,todays weather not as great as yesterday ,2.0 50551,just got back from tasmania had an awesome time ,0.0 50552,terrymcfly mmhmph ,0.0 50553,says happy mothers day httpplurkcompsutar,0.0 50554,hi tweeters hpe ur all hvin a nice mornin so farim still in my jamies aftr watchin dreses with my dadgsh this guy in it was gorg,0.0 50555,watching sonny with a chance love that show,0.0 50556,thanks to all of my facebook farts who sent me the score disguised as a friendly email ,2.0 50557,been giving in a lot more lately ive been pretty ok with my life of course not really but recently ive had more and more thoughts of suicide and running away leaving everything even the single most precious person i love or at least think i lovein a recent little argument we had she called me out on doing bad habits and that i do things she told me she doesnt like she said shes tired of me constantly making the same mistakes i tried explaining to her that my head is too clouded to remember things that are important to me and she should understand because she suffers from depression aswell and has forgotten our anniversary several times but i never got mad or annoyed at her for that but when i said i dont want to live anymore and that she should leave me before she gets more depressed over my death she said she thinks im making my depression up as an excuse to emotionally abuse and manipulate herive gone too deep in this relationship to breakup with her i feel forced to stay or else shell do something but i agreed that we can 𝘵𝘳𝘺 a poly relationship with someone she fell for in the mental hospital so now knowing she has someone to be happy with and she seems way happier with him than me most the time i feel like i have no worries to cut the ties with everyone i know,3.0 50558, thanks very much for the tip ,0.0 50559, good morning you do sound perky weather here great at home today getting essays finished ,2.0 50560,hailskins not seeing it ,0.0 50561,wants the sun to shine again cos i have three months off ,0.0 50562,mitchelmusso i would if i was in americaa you should come tour in englandd x,2.0 50563,does not llike the new internet explorer yet boo i want back ,2.0 50564,sallytheshizzle slaps big rob voice quotsay it bitchhhh i look goooood with glasses homiequot lmfao hugs x a million,2.0 50565,google i wish i can attend this ,2.0 50566,bad luck jamal idris hope the recovery is quick,2.0 50567,finished a k run felt like i could go forever feel good right now ,0.0 50568,alcarlton that is a bit weird think id be more than a bit freaked out by that at least i am a nice freak ,0.0 50569,youngandfoodish getting serious now while were at it benares and maze,0.0 50570,grasiemercedes sorry about that have fun tomorrow ,0.0 50571,🎶✨✨💛play love motivate inspire keys god jesus instrumental anxiety depression 🌚 ,0.0 50572,register a free account and ill help you all the way to earn money from forex market stress free 👉 ,0.0 50573, ill be back soon xxx ,0.0 50574,rt botanical he spent two years planting thousands of scented flowers for his blind wife to smell to help with her depression httpstc,1.0 50575,needs to feel better concussions fucken suckkk ,2.0 50576,and a quick look at my itunes tells me i am totally lacking some journey ,2.0 50577,hope the airfrance jet turns out okay sounds like oceanic flight o,2.0 50578,gave up on meds recently losing hope ive tried every med there is with no success so i decided to stop them does it ever get better ive felt like shit for years and am fixated on dying i feel like im just waiting to die so i can finally be at peace i feel like i am one of those rare cases that never will get better,3.0 50579,have any of you tried to od on tylenol what was it like how much did you take im just curious as to what an od is like,3.0 50580,anyone else hoping to die from coronavirus ive been praying to be taken out of this life for years now when i first saw this story i actually had excitement in me and followed it every single day since it first was reported in january not that i was happy other people were dying but that there was finally something that might take me outim and have always been healthy with no underlying health issues i did smoke between years old and then have gone off and on the past years so my lungs must have some damage from smoking the nicotine does help me cope with my low energydepression better i did start again a couple weeks ago i figure maybe theres a shot it will actually kill me even though a lot of young people recover but when i heard there are some who recover but are left with permanent lung damage that has worried me if i were to survive but then had to deal with scarred lungs that would make life even worse im so utterly desperate to be done with this life which is one reason i started smoking again to weaken my lungs and make it easier for the virus to kill me but now im conflicted on continuing to smoke or notim sure everyone will tell me i should quit and i understand why but like i said it does actually help me feel better with the nicotine i dunnoi dont know what to think or do anymore i really have no desire whatsoever to continue living i want it to kill me but im also scared of surviving with complications so i dont know what to do about the smokingany input would be greatly appreciated thanks,3.0 50581,my experience on planet earth i am about sure i am depressed and that number comes from my extensive online research spanning over years heres a disclaimer so you dont feel totally scammed if you are that kind of person but i havent been professionally screenedso heres my vent for you during which ill e chilling listening to music and drinking pepsi not that it is relevanti was born a little over years ago as a male in a country that is one of the best countries in the world and i am not being patriotic at all its a fact i was totally average at everything that mattered our grade schools and secondary schools use grading system and i was a student of in grade school which is grades starting the year you turn secondary school is continuation from grade and spans over years i just checked and apparently they are treated as one primary school but i lived treating them as minor and major grades so thats how i present them to youso in grade school grades i first came in touch with the bad vibes you all know and love depression or at least i think i did anyway it was in grade number when i first started thinking about funny ways to kill myself i actually thought i had become insanei had heard of the emo culture and like a normal unstable person i trigger warning went into my wrist with a pencil sharpeners blade i did so again with a real knife nothing too deep but i still have visible scars and i used to hate myself for being so stupid as to selfharm myself but nowadays i dont care i also had anemia that i got for not providing my body with sufficient amounts of foodi spent my days playing video games now i recognize that as escapism but ill add to that later on such as black ops on my and thinking how shit life is i did not and do not have any problems in life like bullying or something like that even though i used to be a pussy in fact i had great friends and a great childhood my emotions started going away this year too and i begun to feel depressedin the seventh grade first year of secondary school i made new friends and learned new things about humans as social animals my me image started to form i no longer felt like i had lost my mind and i got rid of anemia i lived for school and video games i did not have any goals or dreams in life and i have never had any to this day well thats a lie because when i was a small child so small i dont remember i wanted to be a helicopter pilotso in that grade i had a personality and life defining experience i did an oopsie and stole a phone i got caught and alls well the criminal was apprehended from it i learned that life is what you make of it and i began to see the real world and how nothing really matters and we are living in this strange state of volatile harmony people appointed presidents are just people to whom we assign some sort of mental importancy shits fucked grade comes and i start doing normal teen stuff like smoking cigs i never thought i was cool while doing it and i never did it to fit in it was just fun sucking on that bastard i did not want to get addicted so i made sure to not do it too much during this grade my sexual revolution started grade i spent doing under average in school and begun occassionally drinking alcohol i made kilju sugar wine made with yeast sugar and water about if you do it right and got someone to get me real beer i also tried the green stuffnone of this secondary school information really matters because i was just there then not really feeling anything the only moments of real happiness were the ones spent drunk its like every time i drink my emotions flood outi finally got out of primary school and went to vocational school i did really bad so i was lucky to get into the school i wanted otherwise i would have had to gone to grade during which you ramp up your grades to get into the school you wantso starting clean i went to vocational school and my first year went okay nothing sepcial felt more depressed and existential than ever before though i also learned i was gay there ends my sexual revolution i had no problems coming to terms with it at all i spent the year thinking casually about suicide and how easy itd be no real intentions mind you i also became toxic i dont like peoplenow the easiest part of my earth experience to tell the present the second year of vocational school i am not good at remembering stuff because it doesnt really matter anymore now is not then i feel pretty okay overall but i lack motivation and get anxious easily for years i have had this dark background in my mind it is hard to explain but it is usually referred to as mist my thought are jumbled up and my attention span is pretty bad i can read a book but if i listen to music or if theres any background vocals i slow down to snail speeds its easier for me to type a text like this though because it is of my own creation i dont need to tap into someone elses thoughtsi see nothing for me in the future i lost interest in this career i chose to learn in vocational school and i also lost my interest in gaming i do like playing with others but its always this or that game my best friend doesnt play more than a few games and it is hard for me to convince him to play something else on the other hand i dont really like playing with others either because it takes energy to talk and interact i love owning games but not playing them i want to play games though but i lose it the moment i open steam gog or whateveri am not one to skip school but some mornings are just too hard i cant bring myself to brush my teeth and i just sleep a few more hours and then decide to not go at alli just wish i could sleep forever and not know i am sleeping because that breaks the story unfolding my current escapism is my anime watching habit that started in grade but became an escapistic behaviour later on living is just boring to me and sometimes it is so boring my brain feels like rubber that is a strange way to put it but there are no human words to describe the feeling my worst enemy is boredom and i am always feeling bored i dont feel casually suicidal anymore thoughthe thing i am most anticipating right now is my birthday so i can purchase beer and other alcoholic beverages under certain percentage at you can buy vodka and all that luxury stuffmy thought are not flowing very well right now so i think ill leave this here with a tldrtldr been feeling shit and hollow for years and cant see anything interesting in my future feel extremely bored and get anxious easily best thing is sleeping but its too shortlived experience all in all i feel like i am living in a moment long gone i am a shell i am also toxic see my comment history for retarded shit,3.0 50582,kritia drizzling started but then it stopped btw how come did u know that i m in ardee,2.0 50583,meetnig up with meghan then city to finally hopefully get my money and go shoppingg ,0.0 50584,christenndg ya im not so sure i get this thing though lol you missed out tonight btw ,2.0 50585,timknip apparently the debug player implements systemgc so you can do it for testing but even there still takes time to kick off ,2.0 50586,its a sunny day but what am i doing im inside with my computer the wonders of technology today ,0.0 50587, thanks ,0.0 50588,trixie i love your interview with gareth great photos ,0.0 50589,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 50590,matiasengler hey how r u ,0.0 50591,well the big news is in chiann is going to have a baby sister or brother shane is so not happy right now hes pretty upset ttyl,2.0 50592,iamroyal idpol has become synonymous with liberal identity reductionism quite sad actually,1.0 50593,juskosel i can see canada ,0.0 50594,i dont even know man i got out of the hole and i fall back in a lot so i got out of the hole depression kinda climbed my way out literally i found my thing bouldering but every now and i just feel like absolute shit because im reality no one likes me more and im still the guy that just sits in the corner of school and thinks about how much shit people dont give about me,3.0 50595,sad i dont know what to do with my life everything i have done since the age of has been towards healthcare and nursing ,2.0 50596,finally finished homework hr latehope i dont get in trouble sleepy time nite nite autumnann megansnipes u girls have fun,2.0 50597,only person i real want to see is lil kimdont see her yet ,2.0 50598,i finished all the on netflix and i am sad af,2.0 50599,been thinking alot lately life has always been good to me even though i have had alot of ups and downs in my life ive always had friends family support but lately my whole life seems to be crashing down the woman i loved left me for another guy my dad has cancer ive dropped out of two colleges and all i do is smoke weed and sleep whole day and feel miserable about myself then repeat it againthe only time i feel calm is when im high and forget about the shittty things that happening in my life i feel isolated from friends family and i feel as though im just useless and good for nothing also having social anxiety does not help me at all im sorry to all of you peeps out here suffering from depression orand lonelinessits honestly not a good feeling and its making me sad,3.0 50600,early early start today soooo tired im goin home soon to take a looooonnnggg nap,2.0 50601,just woke up from my nap this flu is serious headache headache ,2.0 50602,ive given up talking to people i dont even know what to call the problems i have im depressed anxious and have a drug problem as a result of me trying to cope with the first two ive tried talking to people including the girl i love she doesnt know and eventually they all get pissed off at me for not trying to get help i dont know why i cant ive tried to get help but something always stops me and i dont know how to explain this to people now ive stopped talking to people in fear of them leaving me i feel like a useless idiot who cant look after himself im a burden,3.0 50603,helzerman re govt owned business and your post office example you wouldnt say that if you lived in the uk ,0.0 50604,dopemaneazyecpt it wont even let me get that farits just all blank nothing just all black ,2.0 50605,oh shit yoko ono is at going to break up microsoft ,0.0 50606,dunno where i found this butquotgirl and the seaquot the presets i like ,0.0 50607,ill simmer by continuing to read hamiltons book its amazing that josh got his bat from his momma ,0.0 50608,an quotauntquot now baby julianna arrived this morning hanging out with kevin i love you kevin ,0.0 50609,just watched grease ahhh makes me realize how much im going to miss everyone ,2.0 50610,has updated her plurk lol o ,0.0 50611,is it sad that i look forward to my medium carb days banana pancakes amp oatmeal i will see you at 😂😍,1.0 50612,goin to the yard sale very pooped hahahah malikky likky i need an energy drink,2.0 50613,aplusk your movie quota lot like lovequot is on german tv tonightcan you recommend it to me ,0.0 50614,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 50615,rt hoecry ur wcw sleeps for hours at night and still takes a fat depression nap when she gets home its me im ur wcw,2.0 50616,okaynow i shall sleep ,0.0 50617,woke up at because in oxford that was usually the time i woke up for school ,2.0 50618,is there a reason to stay emotional open ive been struggling with depression for years and for most of that time i kept it to myself i was dating a girl recently who made me feel comfortable sharing and i started to open up to her a lot and even others after a few months my depression started to weigh on my friends and especially on my girlfriend at the time that girl has since broke up with me and i think the fact of my depression was a big part of it i am now way more depressed than i have ever been is there any reason for me to stay open about when im upset,3.0 50619,no press conference because we have to listen to some boring suited man talk about politics anyways off to listen to the forum,2.0 50620,i look like i have my shit together i really dont its probably a usual post here facing similar issues as others and i do wish things get better for all of usmaybe a little different than some ill soon be graduating from university at i had gooddecent grades a lot of research experience led oncampus clubs working on a small startup with a friend and am usually seen to be the social guy but beneath the shiny surface things suck my sleep and eating schedule is messed up my research paper is getting delayed and delayed because my supervisor takes forever to revise and always have new often unrealistic revision demands plus theres a competitor doing similar stuff thiss okay for grad school though someone wrote me a bad reference letter and got me rejected almost everywhere i worked so hard since i got into college so that i can go to grad school and this dream seems to be shattered thanks to my bad choice of referee worse as ive been working in the lab too much my friend circle kept shrinking from the first year me who had fun with a bunch of friends weekly to now i can count the number of real friends still with me with one hand and i cant open up to all of them too and then theres the relationships ive not had a real relationship ive never properly dated anyone and ive tried few people who liked me i didnt like back and conversely people whom i liked never worked out i feel like an insecure loser and a fraud whos so inexperienced compared to my peers who are for sure older than me but that doesnt ease my mindto add to it my best friend in college had a huge crush on me but i was so stupid and never recognized it cuz i thought ah were doing this cuz were good friends so what if shes the opposite gender i guess as she claimed we did in a way have a fake relationship but no romance involved and not physical either so at some point last year she decided shed confess to me that she loves me and i was shocked and i didnt say yes i thought wed never work out cuz we are so different and i didnt want to lose our friendship turnt out after she deleted me from her life and went on exchange i realized how big of a role she played in my life and i really really missed her i stupidly dwelled on that emotion for three months and fell for her those few months sucked so bad after she came back i did everything to see if i could date her but she says shes gotten over me were just friends right now and its tormenting me wed still talk but we are so far than how we were before and i want more she says shes not interested in a relationship and dont want to fall back so its a new cycle of suffering on top of the academic thingsive often been seen and introduced as this young and academically successful boy in a hardcore science major i agree im not dumb and can work hard but i also know i have a bunch of issues i guess i feel isolated and worthless i wasted my time doing things that dont make me happy i dont have much socialrelationship experience and i havent exactly been successful academically now its been proven with grad school and socialwise i know it myself i feel increasingly lonely despite a decent group of acquaintances i could reach out to because i suppose they see me having some sort of value but they arent friends and most arent looking to be my friend i havent had a romantic experience with anyone and i question myself daily for my inability and whether i can ever find someone ill like and wholl like me too i have dreams for my career but i feel they are so far from being achieved and i absolutely despise the suffocating idea of a job for years until i retire i have great parents who live in a different continent and because theyre so proud of me i cant persuade myself to just give up i often ask myself can i ever find happiness an accompany and some degree of success life thats been going downhill and recently tried to repetitively remind me that dont be so optimistic i want to be able to do it but i just want to hide myself somewhere because i lost my confidence on everything i can feel myself slowly losing my shit and universitys counseling service is garbagehas months waste i dont know i feel downthanks for reading this unstructured hope everything gets better for you,3.0 50621,hello to my new followers ei tweeps ,0.0 50622,heading to a potluck for our salon coordinator thats leaving us we will miss her ,2.0 50623,tim just called to find out who left on i love money tooo cute i r smitten ,0.0 50624,nicklookitsmaca goodbye maca gold uu disfrute the movie for me kajaksj loveul,0.0 50625,ebtichosen sure is r u upto anything tonight friday night is date night haha xxxxx,0.0 50626,drinking orange juice which tastes like shit ,2.0 50627,misses taiwan ,2.0 50628,juheisenberg i still want pics for the beforeafter quotstuff like thatquot e foste tu k prometeste ,2.0 50629,juangrande ducks tour was just making fun of it today do you get kazoos you do know youve been docked a few respect points right ,0.0 50630,i wanna make a new videobut no time ,2.0 50631,rt kissameassa to all that think its sad for a year old mother to have a fucking life and fantasies i dont give a fuck what you t,2.0 50632,royfromit yeah part of the lens has come off and the onoff button is stuffed up ,2.0 50633,lachatnoir gladly would were i on you side of the the pond thanks ,0.0 50634,no ipl only mdm,2.0 50635,off to the city now to buy jonas brothers new album lines vines amp trying times i hope its still there ,0.0 50636,i dont once you finish college everything will get betteryoull find a better job soon just keep looking put yourself out there you will find some friends in no time just keep trying things always change dont worry so much it gets better go out and get some exercise everyday i dont want to keep lookingi dont wanna keep tryingi dont even know if i want it to get betteri just wanna lay here,3.0 50637,lizmyxx okayjust eat cookies ampamp not share with me lol ,2.0 50638,businessbarbie the weather sucks here too the choo and vuitton lovers are takin a day off lol,2.0 50639,mamaskates my sympathies go out to curtis and you guys i just had my grandmother pass away in october ,2.0 50640,bed time now oh my mouth is so sore and ive lost the bonjela boo,2.0 50641,im home soo tired need some rest ,0.0 50642,i got ghostbusters the video game and friday the killer cut xbox live is down for hours though ,2.0 50643,tired of the monotony of life hey yall first time posting but i need guidance i honestly do when i was i got diagnosed with persistent depression disorder or chronic depression every day its like i do the same thing wake up at go to a job i hate until then come home and sit until i go to bed at then do they whole day over again i feel like i have no one no ones ever taken an interest in me i left my parents at and got my own spot in the downtown area i rarely talk to them now no specific reason just never really talked much when i did live with them i have even considered vaping as a way to add something new or something i dont know just some advice would be nice thanks guys,3.0 50644, what i wasnt invited ,2.0 50645,i fucking hate myself i feel like ill never be who i used to be i was still extremely depressed a few years ago but i think about how much id do anything to go back to my old self i found things funny and enjoyed talking to people and doing things at home all while being depressed where as now nothing is funny and i hate doing literally everything i often find myself just thinking about all the good times i had at my old job and the people i talked to now i literally hate everything and im aware of it and it eats my brain every single day its like im so numb to any feeling at all ill try so hard to like fake laugh at things and pretend to enjoy things but i truly do hate everything about it im not even suicidal anymore and i hate it thats the only feeling i used to feel im absolutely dead inside and i fucking hate it i just want to genuinely laugh at things once again and enjoy work or talking to people again,3.0 50646,i cant wait for next year ,0.0 50647,jakks i had a crush on him too i still love that movie ,0.0 50648,invisiblepigeon yeah tell me about it im paying for it carpe diem can be a bitch do you think the world will end anytime soon,2.0 50649,natashabrown brads face when he saw that gift is priceless thnx nat ,0.0 50650,cant wait for another school year of me being constantly harassed because im white and bullied for my appearance ,0.0 50651,vautrin that one really did suck of the time i caltrain the other was this morning ,2.0 50652,im awake i hate being sick ,2.0 50653,life is just a blur my past is in my mind is just a conglomeration of random events and every passing second just becomes an addition to that pile of shit that is my utterly insignificant life,3.0 50654,i cant believe the has outsold the on release day stats not with that pricing i would say but clearly it is ,2.0 50655,senthomtillis senatorburr repwalterjones gkbutterfield strongly disagree with djts action re paris climate agreement fear anxiety,2.0 50656,havent found a passion in life and i fear im doomed to a mediocre life of low wage work and crying every night i have zero applicable skills and i havent found what im good at or love yet at first i thought it was psychology and then i dropped that because i thought id be better at graphic design but now im second guessing that too just nothing fits with me i dont wanna work at grocery stores forever,3.0 50657,too bad im not ,0.0 50658,finally in a relationship after years of desiring one and all i can think about is ending it shes a pretty cool girl and hasnt done anything to warrant just being outright dumped but for some reason i cant help wanting to go back to being miserable and alone being in a relatonship is a shit load of work and im just such a lazy person that its starting to get to the point where i lie to her about doing stuff just so i can stay home and play videogames by myself i guess whats tripping me up so much is that this is what i longed for and always thought as soon as i get a girlfriend ill finally stop being depressed but here i am still sad its hard to tell if were just incompatible or if my depression is just kicking my ass business as usual part of me wishes she would do something like cheat on me or just dump me that way i can go back to my room and be alone again editthanks for the comments guys i got a lot to think about and writing it out helped,3.0 50659,my life changed in only months i came to europe to visit my boyfriendim from venezuela we save for like one year to pay the airplane ticketyes we dont earn much and when i finally came one month later my brother called me to tell me that my parents had a car accident they passed away a month later after the accident in the hospital i couldnt be there with them we couldnt afford to pay another ticket we only have money for rent and food and after so much panic i decided to just send all the money to pay the medical bill it was so hard we fight so hard we did so much but for nothing the left me and my brother now my brother is alone at home he was with our family dog but he also passed away couple of days ago im now far from him i couldnt even be in my parents funeral i couldnt even hug my brother and cry next to him i dont know how to describe how i feel i still think that my parents are alive my personality has changed so much its super in the edge now and i just want to cry and hurt myself and i cant go back yet because of the corona virus and on top of dad i have debts from over and that just to tell a few im so done with my life is like a fucking puzzle game that you try to resolve and now because you didnt do it good you need to restart again i just want to start again but i dont want to live my brother alone how can i keep going after all these how can i believe that good stuff can happen to me i just feel like i didnt born to be happy somehow,3.0 50660,concretexkiss seen it loved it i watch more movies then you do ,2.0 50661,trying to study agh im going to fail everything tomorrow ,2.0 50662,how do we escape im sick of this modern slavery bullshit sometimes the only way out really does seem like the most drastic amp stupid let the consciousness pass through whatever veil the body is restricted to or you play the system to be the one with people working for you but thats still a bullshit illusion of controlfreedom whilst you consult with your board of directors shareholderslife is a trip and then you die but you still have time we spend our days standingsitting here all fuckin day almost everyday to claw onto a manmade lifeline taught from a young age within the manmade system to follow the manmade tracks through the manmade education system to get a job in a manmade industry so that we humans gain the right to live under our fuckknowswho overlords favor all the while treating the earth amp the life it creates like it isnt our homehow do we escape this feeling or rather the realisation that were stuck and boxed in asking for permission from your employer to take a day of absence forcing their hand to make any reasonable adjustments via doctors amp notes or hurting yourself so much that theres no choice but to take you out of the machine temporarilyi dont get it i really dont not only do i feel so stuck right now i feel all resistance is pointless how do i get somewhere much more beautiful than here how do i spend my days actually doing what i want to well you have to meet this criteria that criteria have a rather large amount of money for it etchow many of us can wake up tomorrow and decide were spending the next x months travelling having experiences meeting people seeing the world how many of us can just wake up tomorrow and decide were spending days out in nature that is how many of us can make that decision and actually achieve it without substantial consequences such as not working and therefore not having income or losing your job and feeling the fallout of that over the next couple monthsis anyone else in a similar mindset i feel as though i want to break free of it all and have the ability to make decisions like that but without giving into the system there isnt a waywhilst most tend to shrug their shoulders and say well if you want it so bad work for it sometimes all that results in is giving in and sacrificing of your lifetime working for others aiming for that goal and the last achieving itwe get this one life this one experience and i feel like i cant do anything with it,3.0 50663,imarius i thought i did but apparently not how are you,2.0 50664,very hungover ,2.0 50665,i got an a on my psychology exam ,0.0 50666,i saw the raskreddit question of sharing a embarrassing thing but i wanted to share it in here sometimes when im mad at me i think i dont deserve to sleep in my bed so i make myself sleep in the floor but at night it gets so cold that i can stand it so i crawl my way back to my bed feeling self beateni know it doesnt make a lot of sense because of the impractiness is that a word but it is my catarsis ,3.0 50667,mil just came in from work with a leaseshe has every excuse as to why she wont sign it dang,2.0 50668,bharghav welcome to twitter ,0.0 50669,im on my way to work starting another week ♫ ,2.0 50670,misssididdy i was disappointed when it wasnt that ,2.0 50671,link burberry prorsum resort lovin this line ,0.0 50672,rt taylorndean this aquarium is right by me and they have way too many open touch pools i worried about the touch pools because of the s,1.0 50673,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 50674,triplejbrekkie thanks for rubbing it in for all of us who didnt get splendour tickets ,2.0 50675,aww emily surely you know thats bad luck to say to theatre pplz ,2.0 50676,really loving my little craft blog also loving that my skinny jeans fit again all in all life is good ,0.0 50677,jhpapers lol well the dish is already there so thats not a concern ,0.0 50678,rt samsora a new type of anxiety strikes me when im in public on twitter and i accidentally full screen a big tiddy goth waifu,1.0 50679,sarahnicolexoxo no problem so youre an adam fan,0.0 50680,i took some pictures with edward cullen and my coworkers today v,0.0 50681,charliechap why thankyou wish the same to you a wonderful week,0.0 50682,hollahella lmfao corry michelle is with luke and peter but luke is like quotive fallen for youquot and hes so much nicer,2.0 50683,i dont know every once in awhile i struggle to get out of bed do my homework or really do anything and whenever im on a tall building i get the urge to throw myself off into nothing this only happens once in a blue moon and percent of the time im fine happy but todays just one of those days,3.0 50684,cigarettesvaping does anyone feel like smoking such as cigs or vaping helps depression im wondering if its even worth it to even smoke anymore since i quit for almost months but my depression has been pretty bad lately i hear on commercials how cigarettes make your depression worse is that true,3.0 50685,thedanishgirl awwwww and the gorgeous photo from california you two make me melt ,0.0 50686,anyone else genuinely hate themself i do so fucking much i have accomplished nothing in life i procrastinate im ugly i cant begin to express how much i hate myselfi know they mean well sometimes but anyone who says love yourself teehee no one can do you better than can piss off ,3.0 50687,vamom yes it does it shows up on yours and mine i see it and it will also show up on his profile when he logs in and sees it ,0.0 50688,cant hold down a job due to mental illnesses cant treat mental illnesses without a job idk what to do at this point,3.0 50689,rt coldbeefbroth ppl that dont like cats are too pussy to live with individualistic personalityfilled technicallynotdomesticated cre,0.0 50690,rt despaceco hi our algorithms determined that u may be a suicide risk please know that ur a valuable economic unit helping to maximiz,1.0 50691,zombiejesus thanks its not even like done tho workin workin workin,2.0 50692,i just need to write some thoughts down im just completely exhausted i feel like every decision i make every conversation i have every emotion i feel is wrong my indecisiveness is eating me alive i am completely losing sight of what i want in life and who i should be i feel this uncontrollable rage and anxiety constantly sometimes i feel as if i have two different versions of myself that every single desire i have is i hold myself back in everything i do i stay in an emotionally abusive relationship because i cant gather the courage to leave i have completely fucked myself as far as college and am starting to feel as though i wont accomplish anything because i am too lazy to get anything done i feel abandoned by my parents who i havent spoken to in years theyve moved on and have had new children while im pathetically waiting for an apology for years of abuse and neglect i feel absolute hate when i think about my family again i feel weak for letting them get to me i know holding on to this is incredibly unhealthy i know i just cant move past it i cant move past any of it i have a nice collection of medical problems that keep me irritable i have a kidney disease that causes frequent kidney stones i currently have a distended gallbladder that i cant get treated because i dont have insurance i get woken up every morning at am with a gallbladder attack that lasts about hours i had a twolevel spinal fusion two years ago with a nerve still pinched that causes sciatica and muscle spasms i have depression ocd anxiety and ptsd im pretty sure i was misdiagnosed but who knows i have pcos im overweight and im i feel an intense rush of emotions and i feel completely numb at the same time im on autopilot im just going through the motions of what is expected of me except im really not im failing out of school im pushing the one person i do have away from me because i just get too exhausted to talk i just dont really give a shit about other people anymore im just here ,3.0 50693,why are mental diseases and depression so glorified,2.0 50694,the new lolakutty says namaskaaram and good morning to all fraands ,0.0 50695,shower time ,0.0 50696,unemployed graduate and depressed how can i deal with this situation i graduated last summer with a very good masters degree in business studies since then i am looking for a job i was invited to a lot of interviews but in the end i never got the jobunfortunately i also was diagnosed with a major depression last summer which is an additional obstacle that makes my job search very exhausting depression especially makes it difficult for me to sell myself during an interview since i have a low selfesteem and energy i have lost my hope in my job search and my future in general i feel so worthless like a total failure and think that my degree was a total waste of time and moneyi dont know any more how to deal with this difficult and frustrating situation which seems to be endless do you have any advice how i can stay motivated feel better and not like a useless person,3.0 50697, daniellecalkins cant wait to hang out tonight wish jamieoverman was here to celebrate too lame ,2.0 50698,ive started planning its a slow plan somehow things are never in order enough lately ive been needing to erase old posts i made on facebook anything i feel no longer accurately represents me i was going to tell my boyfriend but he fell asleep when i was talking about how bad everything has gotten as i was stifling sobs he was snoring i cant even be upset because hes been there so many times im tired of myself its no ones responsibility but mine,3.0 50699,gahfuck exams and studying ,2.0 50700, min til gl no otalia today but thats ok ill settle for just nat ,0.0 50701,heynicesweater hahah not a fan of any of those either i bought new dishes and cutlery for my new place im itching to get in there,0.0 50702,vinnyger i was like o o o i kno this lol good times ,0.0 50703,is at casa de hilderbrand on the lake letting kaitlyn swim for the first time in the pool pictures to come ,0.0 50704,cant concentrate i need to plug in my binaural tones and stop twittering i got a seat btw woohoo ,0.0 50705,im not really feeling the whole going to class and being productive thing todayhooky ,0.0 50706,ruchirfalodiya yeah shorry ,0.0 50707,jimyvr yeah and thats where everything becomes difficult and generalisations break down not an easy problem ,2.0 50708,getting nervous my day job has been sooo slow come on people spend so i can keep my job ,2.0 50709,charugupta lolz i me and myself aint a group worth a discount lady ,0.0 50710,im afraid that going on medication will change my personality even though i hate my personality its kind of funny in a way but ive been struggling with this thought for some time ive been in and out of major depression a few times with a mildly depressive baseline between episodes ive always been weary of medication for a number of reasons but when i was diagnosed a couple months ago the doctor strongly suggested i try it ive been eating well exercising sleeping regularly staying away from weedbinge drinking basically doing all of the holistic shit i can minus psychotherapy expensive but things arent getting any better im just curious if anyone else hashad similar trepidations about going on medication i know it affects everyone differently but id still like to hear about itthanks for reading,3.0 50711,what is wrong hello peoplei dont know if im depressed but that im considering it might be a sign or notfor me everything is boring and meaninglessim not thinking bad but arent we gonna end up dying anywayfrom the outside there is no good and no badeveryone has emotions like happiness joy or sadness but in the end we die anyway no matter how we livedany ideas or tipscheers,3.0 50712,scottbert its not so bad to cycle in the rain ,0.0 50713,ive graduated into the greater depression haha get it cause poly say were going into a greater depression also im depressed lol,3.0 50714,rinaz i express post it to you can or will they mess around again with the delivery and charge you tax on it p,0.0 50715,iphone stuck in headphones mode it sucks i cant find any solution ,2.0 50716,after a late night nerdy sleep overparty waking at is bad everone else is passed out ,2.0 50717,heybrittanyjane im sorry i dont know why but this weekend is just not going anyones way i dont think haha what have you been up to,2.0 50718,wackyberry plus now im spoiled front rail camera big lens lolla be in back ,2.0 50719,mushyv ahhhhh that hoff programme sounded classs i fuckin missed it hopes theres a repeat innit,2.0 50720,チケット求 水 dir en grey from depression to mode of macabre 中野サンプラザ httpstconywtmtgoqr direngrey ディルアングレイ androgynos,2.0 50721,yea my honey is about to get off of work i can go to bed peacefully when he gets home ,0.0 50722,huuungry but i shall procrastinate eating,2.0 50723,so sad my brain feels trapped in this rapidly moving loop of sadness the sadness will last forevervvg,3.0 50724,happy mothers day just got in from church it was great headed to eat in a minute,0.0 50725, if you wondered i moved heres my castle ,0.0 50726,i dont matter i used to be pretty active on social media like fb etc i thought i had a lot of friends and support about a year and a half ago an event happened in my life that sent me into a spiraling depression i tried to keep on with social media pretending to be ok maybe trying to convince myself it wasnt that bad this time about months ago i just stopped posting it was too much to keep up the facade no one noticed that i stopped posting except my mom at first i didnt think anything of it bc some people stop posting for a couple daysweeks and sometimes i didnt notice more time passed and i heard from no one no one reached out to me to see if i was ok all those people that told me they loved me that they were there for me the people i thought were friends i havent heard a thing from any of my friends it just makes me so sad and i feel so alone like everything i thought was real was just a lie none of my friends care or even noticed that i was gone not even during the holidays i just dont matter,3.0 50727,sacca it puts you ahead of david crosby on the liver transplant list ,0.0 50728,the sky makes the ocean blue ,0.0 50729,has got the crummies in my tummies convinced i caught lactose intolerance from ljanning,2.0 50730,the ladybug fell in the hot crease of my laptop and now its dead ,2.0 50731,just got done watching lord of the rings i know finally know why ppl adore it and the attempt to fish today was a failure ,2.0 50732,dday today i bet mr maguires excitedstrangestrange man ,0.0 50733,rt webmd chronic worry and emotional stress can trigger a number of health problems what you should know https,2.0 50734,getting back to normal life ive been getting treatment for a couple months now and finally feel like my life is back on track with a successful medication regamine and therapy however i kinda fell off the face of the planet while things were going wrong and feel that ive lost a lot of friends because of it i do feel bad for being generally unavailable or a bit flaky but its hard to think about the fact that ive sort of lost my old life before i got sick has anyone had a similar experience or advice on how they moved on after getting their depression under control,3.0 50735,roddee well thats a stellar report quotall human contact top notchquot ,0.0 50736,wishin i was in atl ,2.0 50737, woop woop they will ,0.0 50738,swiftkaratechop quotjake colognequot from hollister makes every girl i hug go fucking nuts too bad im gay ,2.0 50739,dont remember what its like to feel normal help my sister passed away last summer from what we originally believed to be a suicide but later found out to be from pneumonia and about a month later my girlfriend of over years broke up with me since then i though i was fine but now its about months later and im really struggling i cant go to sleep at night i get anxious thoughts and a couple times right before ive gone to sleep ive heard a voice in my head that is not my concious or gotten an intense rush of fear that has kept me up when i do get to sleep i cant get out of bed in the morning one sunday i physically got sick of the feeling of having to go to my internship in the morning and started crying for no reason so i had to quit when its time for me to go to class i cant bring myself to go i had a gpa my first two years of college and this year i failed a class and have no motivation to do well anymore it feels like everyday im just trying to make it to the next the only thing ive been doing consistently is going to the gym but it seems to not have helped much sometimes i wonder what itd be like if i just passed away in my sleep not seriously considering harming myself but it feels like my life is just in a hole i cant get out of,3.0 50740,i added a video to a youtube playlist o sahiba o sahiba songsad heartbroken videowhatsapp video status,2.0 50741,poor puppy has a kidney infection ,2.0 50742,my condition before results every time the sem results have released i have no courage to see my result as always not even once since i came to this college my result has not left me broken from inside i spend days weeks and months every time the result releases to accept it and try to analyse my mistake and motivate myself to do better next time because i can still make up for it but can ifor the semester exams i was determined to do my best i decided that this is going to be my final attempt in trying to do well in exams because this time i was performing to win i was even enjoying the subjects but what did i get only passing marks i was left shattered broken and wanted to give everything up and live the rest of my life in anonymity but giving up on anything is never an option i wish it could be but we always have to finish if we have decided to do something so i still had to face the next exams i was under depression by then its been over months and i still am i tried to get better but i cant because i cant get rid of the root a part of thinks that i am giving an excuse to myself just to get a break in life but the rest of me knows the reason i havent been able to achieve anything in these five semesters i consider myself a loser i have wasted lakhs of my parents money i dont want to tell them this because i dont want them to react by pitying me or because they care about my mental health i can get better only when i can make them proud at least onceits not that i dont like what im doing i love it but the exam pressure doesnt let me enjoy it evaluates me on how much i can recall and on how big answers can i write within the given time constraint i want to ask india is this the right way to judge a future engineer by seeing how much they can reproduce under pressure,3.0 50743,rt mxhaei you know what sucks more than social anxiety 😜 👊 ¯ ¯being self aware that youre wasting your li,1.0 50744,wishing it was the weekend that is wrong as its only monday think its going to be a long week ,2.0 50745,ss officereally boring ,2.0 50746,better start getting ready for school byyyyyyyye twitter talk to you later xoxo,0.0 50747,crysolivarez well enjoy the day off ,0.0 50748,i need to finish learning lines for tomorrows class but im so groggy and sleepy ,2.0 50749,gogo to the rescue read how these wise women are bringing mental health care to an underserved nation ,0.0 50750,tips for couples with a depressed partner my girlfriend and i have been together for years and shes been diagnosed with depression for the latter half of it i love her and plan to marry her but i still have no idea how to support her the way she needs i have communicated this to her but she always says that theres nothing i can do its become especially difficult recently so i wanted insightis there anything i or anyone else in my position can do to improve our relationship and remove the disconnect that the depression has caused even if there is no answer can anyone help me understand why depression does this,3.0 50751,waiting for huneee buneee to come get me i fed up didnt know this recital was hours long ,2.0 50752,will do mileycyrus ,0.0 50753,elena lost the balloon i gave her she couldnt stop crying chazz,2.0 50754,mmitchelldaviss we are not a wall ok maybe but were not mean ,2.0 50755,rt allouratoms the most gender sexuality race religion mental health inclusive show quite possibly ever and you bloody cancel it wh,1.0 50756,checking out dvds for movie now in afternoon ,0.0 50757,marielcox btw my canary yellow polish was from last yr haha i need get some more its kinda thick now ,2.0 50758,rt you know what makes me really sad and its something bts have talked about how fast everything is going for them theyre do,1.0 50759,i got my bear ,0.0 50760,rt henereyg this is a sad story of c martin crokers last days this guy is hugely important to animation history arguably theres no a,1.0 50761,bettymaccrocker to watermark you have to have something like photostop none of the free apps seem to do it ,2.0 50762,is sad cos i had to put my guinea pig to sleep ,2.0 50763,madayar its about the lives of a group of teenage friends in bristol theres a lot of sex and drugs and scandal its pretty good ,0.0 50764,italyberrygirl aww thats good ,0.0 50765, im working on an update tonight promise httpblogdeborahsandidgecom your cure for an infrared fix ,0.0 50766,txphoenix as i live and breathehello great to see you,0.0 50767,limabeanhome haha sorry i forgot how much you dislike nicknames that havent been approved hows baby hank,0.0 50768,rehnatu ramkarthik hey there is some problem with internet connection gets connecting and disconnecting every mins ,2.0 50769,parents force me to take meds my parents force me to take psych meds and i hate it im personally against these drugs and much prefer natural treatments i hate seeing my psychiatrist every month im on an injection and i dont even like psychiatrists pray for me that i will never have to take these meds again thanks for listening,3.0 50770,robocallaghan we avoid bees as rob is allergic to their stings mins for his adrenaline or dead ,0.0 50771,slow on the uptake but summer sundae i am kloot and human league on the same bill weird but appealing also sold out ,2.0 50772,poem the lighthousethe lighthouse quietly stands its groundguiding ships into the soundthough the stonework begins to fraythe light at the top shows no dismaythe ships reach harbour day after daybecause of the lighthouses glorious displaybut little by little on its rocky moundthere are fewer and fewer people aroundthe shining tower continues its grand crusadeto light the path to refuse to fadebut slowly so slowly the sea and the stormstake their toll on the lighthouses resilient formas the lighthouse begins to crack and to molderthe light at the top can now barely smolderthe ships passing by then notice one daythat the lighthouse is gone its fallen away,3.0 50773,lilmui yeah i do they only finish next wednesday,2.0 50774,just start by doing one thing a day depression is horrible draining exhausting allconsuming im living the experience and know all too well the best piece of advice i can impart is to just set the goal of doing one thing a day no need to set huge lavish goals just start off with one small task i highly recommend this goal to be brushing your teeth firstly it gets you out of bed even if its just for a brief second sometimes even just getting out of bed is enough of a change to bring about more energy and drive second it goes a long way to make you feel a little bit cleaner a little bit more human then if you feel a bit more like a person it could lead you to accomplish more tasks maybe a shower after showering nice and clean maybe youd feel like a walk who knows use it as a gateway lastly dental health is really important and can go downhill very fast which could then lead to exacerbating your depression ,3.0 50775,feeling the effects of vegassick ,2.0 50776,dance why do we fall so we can pick ourselves back up the taste of your lips is so goodnight twitter world,0.0 50777,is eating camior light� milk chocolate with hazelnuts pero no sugar added httpplurkcompukdub,0.0 50778,morning up and getting on had the most delicious scrambled eggs for breakfast ,0.0 50779,does eating sweets make you a bit happier its the only thing that seems to be working right now,3.0 50780, yay if rxgellivictor is gellicious i am cherrylicious p sana mameet namin kayo ,0.0 50781,how do you get out of the cycle of living for the weekend sunday thursday im so depressed and everything in my life seems pointless and i have this constant feeling of waiting for something to happen but i dont know what it is im waiting for i even feel homesick for a place i dont know exists when im home but when friday comes round every weekend is amazing until sunday morning and then the whole cycle starts again does anyone know how to get out of this cycle theres a lot more to this but i dont want to ramble on too much not really sure how this subreddit works edit its only amazing cause i spend the whole weekend going out with my friends to pubs and clubs etc,3.0 50782,mileycyrus cheer up miley you rock ,0.0 50783,advice needed so im struggling with depression quite a while now and noone seems to care i dont even know where to start little story first i had to use some meds because i got sick and side effects kicked in i couldnt breathe normally and i was about to get a heart attack had a pulse of so i was laying in my room and took all the strength i had left to try to call people everyone just hung up on me because everything i just could do was some kind of moaning took about hours for someone to call my brother to check on me so my brother arrived and all he was doing was to tell me i shouldnt act like that and things like that this took about another min till he finally called an ambulance yes i could have tried to call one by myself but i was panicking and couldnt think straight doctor told me later that i got lucky and that i have could died that day noone of my family or friends checked on me in the meanwhile i was at the hospital after everything was over everyone just said to me to man up and dont act like a puy so yeah this was by far the hardest story so im here to ask you people for advice how i can deal with this i cant even can get groceries without my brain going completely crazy on me sorry for bad grammar english isnt my first language,3.0 50784,watching potter film with kids and eating their sweets grotty bank hol weather in hoylake typical ,0.0 50785,brittanyysnoww its nothing big lol just really sweet still counts though,0.0 50786,question does anybody else have the problem of trying to hint to people that they arent feeling so well but when they ask whats wrong you push them away i just dont know why i do this,3.0 50787,mild rant back on the road of despair yet again a year later unemployed again this time a lot more has taken place before i was unemployed thanks to a workplaces strict overtime that they didnt warn me of this time i just didnt return because my manager was giving me cancer in that time i had to move because my second roommate ever got very paranoidevery time this happens it numbs a part of me this last summer was difficult keeping a shitty job that kept cutting my hours never making ends meet of any kind unable to pay off debts or pay to do or get anything i enjoyim the coldest ive ever been and i dont like it great thats my survival instinct cant wait for life to chew me up and spit me out yet again hell its either the days become blurs while at work or in your room day by day im not thinking about jobs because theyre all shit with horrible people im at the point that im tired of being the punching bag im different i get itfriends and peers i know see me being quiet but i seriously dont think any of em understand how i feel digging deeper into a life thatll amount to jack shiti dont feel like ive got it in me to deal with more shitty people ive had it with being picked on and singled out it just turns me into a person i do not like always having to explain to myself why i did something because someone didnt like it hard to explain but ive barely got enough energy to write this,3.0 50788,markotaipale tried thattasks are to differing in size requirements are too vague ,0.0 50789,i was prescribed paroxitine maleso i went to the doctor and had a talk about my depression and anxiety and he immediately said that i needed medication therapy and an xray of my brain i read about the medication online and now im pretty scared to take it i also dont know if i actually need it it all seems like to much my doctor also said that if i experience any side effects to stop taking ithas anyone here ever taken paxil should i just not be worried,3.0 50790,writerskitchen welcome lorraine my pleasure ,0.0 50791,stat is the bane of my existance ,2.0 50792,i added a video to a youtube playlist relaxing piano music for stress relief,0.0 50793,to tired right now im slowly falling asleep behind my computer ,2.0 50794,crauds i miss hash browns ,2.0 50795,rt haofansite wait people are actually pissed at minghao for saying that carats cant date him which is common sense it must be sad bei,1.0 50796,treadmill this morning was rough but i did itcant wait to go home and eat my leftover lasagna ,0.0 50797,fearfuldogs yay clicker segment coming up woohoo karenpryor ,0.0 50798,tomfelton aww sweet youre never old for a teddy my stuffed deer rudi n my teddy jim sat on my desk through all my exams good luck,0.0 50799,does anyone want me around anymorecause i dont want me around shawna,2.0 50800,so i guess i am stuck ,2.0 50801,rt troubledpoc i met haqiem rusli at starbucks earlier 😅 i asked him why did he faked his depression then he threw his iced americano a,2.0 50802,rt mikeysunicorn dont be sad because sad spelled backwards is das and das no good,1.0 50803,rt gratitudedna บางสิ่งบางอย่างดูเหมือนเรื่องเล็กน้อยไม่มีค่าแต่บางทีเราไม่รู้ว่ามันสำคัญและมีประโยชน์แค่ไหน ป้ายเล็กๆเขียนด้วยมือแข,1.0 50804,am i ugly i keep thinking about that question i mean it on an emotional level like within not physical i have nasty attitude and tend to be volatile and a brat so much has happened that i think its kinda my way to defend myself against others but it comes out in the worst way possible i had an ongoing string of just fits of rage sadness and then nothingness like i go about my day and motions i lost my love and dedication for school i honestly have gotten to a point where it doesnt matter i put part time job as a priority i dont know what i feel alone sad i feel like venom like the bad stuff i feel is just the tar within me i want to be a good person but am i how could i when there so much ugliness inside there me and i cant explain why i dont know how to fix my behavior how to be less ugly inside it just there and i can change it i keep thinking you want to not be the shitty person but you are you always were and you always will be how do i make other see or understand when i cant when all i ture want is to exist meaninglessly i want to reach out to other but howthe person i trust the most makes me realize that the problem is me and because it me i dont want to fix it or do anything because doing so is realizing that i am ugly inside and if i am can i truly change how do you make tar into something beautiful or useful i think im dying and i dont why i can breath just fine everything is fine i am just dying because maybe a part of me was always dying so it make sense that the rest should also die i guess i was always ugly now it just makes sensei need help i just dont know what i need,3.0 50805,currently editing a new video will be done in a few hours ,0.0 50806,natbags lol i read that n was like what n then i remembered havent laughed that hard in ages i have to build furniture ha,2.0 50807,rt so this is why i keep peeing blood ,1.0 50808,wishing i was just dead just having that low level wish i was dead feeling,3.0 50809,eeshkapeesh haha thats awesome thank you ,0.0 50810,her radiant smile a rain of countless rainbows drenched parched hearts with hope haiku twaiku aarthycrazy used you words ,0.0 50811,i have never experienced anxiety like this,0.0 50812,heyrikey thanks and itsjustmebee u wanna leave me behind shame on u,0.0 50813,trinityrev hope all is well we are living in albany now ,0.0 50814,homemade salmon ceaser salad for a midmorning snackmaybe my laptop being on the quotshelfquot isnt all bad ,0.0 50815,oh and yay finally satisfying my creme brulee craving yummmm ,0.0 50816,i havent been writing full poems in a while im sad about that but i started reading death of a salesman and its so good,1.0 50817,erikcooper ask him if hes picking up female products for his wife on his way home his blog is hilarious,0.0 50818, miar same tweet alright except for the smileys see you ladies later take care,0.0 50819,damn it ruapehu is going to have another awesome season ,2.0 50820,i feel like ive got to do a million amp one impossible things this weekwish i was still in bed ,2.0 50821,me today is going so wellmy anxiety ,1.0 50822,last day of the first class i ever taught ,2.0 50823,moderncat congratulations send some our way please were new to all this lol,0.0 50824,just watched titanic ,2.0 50825,no carrots and no funky alcoholic ginger beer at swindon sainsburys fail ,2.0 50826,best ever ending to a greek episode let alone season this is the greatest show ever ,0.0 50827,owwwww forgot i got paid today ,0.0 50828,my family is falling apart during quarantine my familys relationship has always been rocky but generally we just back off and calm down ever since quarantine started we have all been fighting and picking on each other non stop and its miserable my dad keeps leaving at night to go do his own thing which he has been doing for years and no body knows what his own thing is i am constantly fighting with my extremely annoying sister which my parents are yelling at us for all while my parents are also yelling at each other because my dad is never around but is around more than usual on quarantine and never does anything for the family and my mom hates him for itwhat do i do i am having a terrible time and i just want this whole thing to be over i am about ready to tell my dad to get the fuck out of our house because he is pissing me off more than normal as well,3.0 50829,sitting around making a playlist for my partyy ,0.0 50830,applebees late dinner in sacramento ca ,2.0 50831,rt thenation a major study paints a grim picture of how climate change will affect health both physical and mental ,1.0 50832,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 50833,tommcfly but nothingll be as kick ass as your next show in dublin yeahhh ,0.0 50834,tinalaroo i just spent the last five hours trying to unpack clothes still not close ,2.0 50835,tifaniandco seems like u had a busy wk im sure itll pay off soon its mon btw just sayin thanks for the ff love have a great week,0.0 50836,tweet tweet have been nonstop since like yikes finally i can try and relax ,0.0 50837,neavilag but radar is not useful if they only update once per hour thats pretty dumb,2.0 50838,wishes she was going to disney world with her sisters and their kiddos ,2.0 50839,well we will heal together then ,0.0 50840,rainholly nice i didnt know you are a spurs fan that makes like six of us on lsb hahaha kinda glad i couldnt watch tonight ,2.0 50841,baltarstar räkättirastas no i didnt wash the bird i guess that could make it bump into a window though p,0.0 50842, weve been lazy but u really need to get that ankle checked out makes me sad ,2.0 50843,hpbasketball yeah you also said they sucked compared to other teams were unspecial had no heart etc but they is my boys,2.0 50844,richmond lost ,2.0 50845, thanks for the follow ,0.0 50846, waiting at swim start bored cold wet weather at challenge france ,2.0 50847,super thirsty gt want to go home amp sleeep ,0.0 50848,ugh just four more days of school ,0.0 50849,today is going to be a good day im as happy as a person can be ,0.0 50850,unitedwaywells aww thank you ,0.0 50851,my doctor upped my antidepressant dosage and i cant stop sleeping its interfering with my life could the recent change in my medicine dosage be making me this sleepy it feels like my eyelids are weighted down and im not waking up when my alarms go off just wondering if i need time to adjust or if i need to go back to my previous dosage any input would be appreciated ,3.0 50852,im too sick to sing with enthusiasm right now ,2.0 50853,thebeve or just a pair of sparring pads and a livein boyfriend ,2.0 50854,goodbye exams hello weekend ive had a rotten week somebody cheer me up im aching for some gossip girl scrubs,2.0 50855,cryptworld its my second favorite star wars movie and i think about it and gain depression points,0.0 50856,set up a buildbot for sqlparse this morning httpbitlyfmvyj nice ,0.0 50857,another year and nowhere near another year down and still little to no progress running out of time and im still the same will i ever get better will these thoughts ever leave or will i go my whole life this way its the new year and im worse than i was a few hours ago anyone else,3.0 50858,i dont know all of my friends dont talk to me anymore i never go anywhereive been in and out of the hospital and it doesnt seem to be helping longterm at all constantly lying through my teeth that im doing better because i dont want them to be disappointed im not wellif i let it slip at all ive been thinking about dying ill get thrown back into a hospital to stare at the walls then have people ask me how im doing every hour thinking that will make a differencedepression is a thing that sticks with you no matter what you do you either ignore it and live in happy lies on and off or let it consume you theres so many things that are supposed to help ive tried so many of them im tired of trying them i dont want to try anymore im tired of working the hardest i can for things and getting barely anything in return,3.0 50859,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 50860,i feel like a burden or failure to my family my brother just had a baby with his gf has his own place makes my mom proud and my grandma proud and here i am still with my mom causing problems without even trying not in school bc i have zero interest i did one semester and it was a disaster im the depressed person in my family which just causes more stress in the family my grandmother just says godjust talk to god he will help you ive already tried to kill myself which caused everyone to stress out because im stupid i dont even know where im going with this i feel like a burden and failure im going nowhere in life i feel like im going to die young and also die alone ive never kissed or dated anyone because lol who want some ugly fat girl no one ,3.0 50861,just chillin at home watching some tv ,0.0 50862,i feel like its more then likely i kill myself in the next few years i find little to no joy in anything anymore i spend most of everyday thinking of the best way to kill myself ive tried to make changes in my lifestyle to help but nothing has done much for me i wish i had a way to be gone without hurting my parents ,3.0 50863,divinelysweet it was wishful thinking lol but damndeep sigh,2.0 50864,good grades still shit all my life i was told just get good grades and i believed that getting good grades was the key to happiness all throughout high school i told myself the reason im feeling down is because my grades are bad so i would just stop caring and watch tv and get bad grades then get sad about said grades and watch tvplay vgwatch youtube i always knew i felt down and i was thinking maybe im depressed but then i was like nah i just have to get good gradesthe first two years of college were pretty much the same thing i managed to get good grades in classes i didnt think you had to be smart for also my second year of college i got together with this girl who at the time i believed was my soulmate which is pretty hard for me to admit since up until meeting this girl i was pretty pessimistic about love thought it was nothing more than chemicals in our brain being released once i was in a relationship with her i fell in love for the first time and thought there has to be something more than just chemicals i feel something so much deeper when she eats i become less hungry her drinking quenches my thirst you get the point then she breaks up with me it gets messy after this i started working out going to the gym everyday leading to cook and going out more took a trip to italy which was fun and sad at times i was pretty happy met an amazing girl online talked with her a lot if im being honest i was still very much depressed but i was masking it the third year of college rolls around classes get harder diet and exercise go to shit but i wasnt even mad girl i was talking to over the summer became my best friend met a cute girl in one of my classes and we really hit it off things werent looking too badend of first semester of my third year girl i was taking to online comes to visit me we hit it off in person she shows a lot of affection says youre so cute in person i couldnt really reciprocate the affection but i did hold her hand for a while wish i told her i loved her in person but she left back home before i knew it we went out on two days after sh got back home she cut me off and blocked me on everything i have no idea why also the cute girl in my class stopped talking to me all together because she kept arguing with me that what i believe doesnt make sense and i should turn to jesus so the second semester start im getting fatter because i stopped caring about how i look i am balding a lot more and noticeably i want to shave my head but my parents are repulsed by the idea so i dont i stopped caring about my general health which was big for me because i was a hypochondriac for the past two years started smoking here and there eating out more then my physics test rolls around and im studying with a group of friends like the two days leading to the exam and i think im going to fail but low and behold i get higher than all my friends a one out of the three people to get such high of a grade i couldnt believe it at first i swore it was a mistake it wasnt but i still feel shitty i thought this high of a grade on such a hard exam would kick me out of this funk like ive thought my whole life but it didnt and now im more depressed than ever before i stopped eating food for days half to prove i wasnt controlled by my food and the other half to kill myself literally every time i go up the outside stairs on one of the buildings at my school i think how easy it would be for me to jump everyone around me tells me im so smart and mature but all my life my parents have told me the opposite especially my dad and who cares about intelligence when you feel like the world is all about greed and superficiality which was engrained in our dna and we are becoming more apathetic and less compassionate i guess i just feel alone ive been feeling this way for a long time and that no one understands me and the one person i thought did left me just like everybody else i also think why does it matter any of this we are all going to die and all of our actions are due to our programming so why dont we go against our programmingi didnt mean for this to be so long and trust me i want to write so much more but id rather not bore all of yall also i know im not unique in this thought process also feel like a piece of shit talking about this when children are literally starving and innocent people in other countries are caught in brutal wars and suffer more than i can ever understanddespite all of this i hope yall feel loved and cared for and yall are having a beautiful day❣️,3.0 50865,school will start tom gaah theyre not my classmates ,2.0 50866,letterboys hours later i was wtfing the cavaliers loss ,2.0 50867,watching double jeopardy while i clean cant wait to sleep in tomorrow,0.0 50868,oh no its my last day of donator status ,2.0 50869,two thumbs up big pun ,0.0 50870,is headed to church lunch the pool dbs meeting then out ,0.0 50871,going to eat some bbq pixieheartsu mommas casa ,0.0 50872,daveanddaves i asked quotdo you think polar bears are cutequot hahaplease anwser that in your video ,0.0 50873,yesterday was a fun day i love my work,0.0 50874,oh i dont want to go to school i have no free evening this week cause of stupid summer concert rehearsals ,2.0 50875,i need help awalt i really need more than my opinion so i will explain the casei met a girl in my school last year we started talking she also lifts so i saw her practically at every moment i was every time with my beta mind thinking this girl is the one the last months we were getting very close to each other but when someone talked about a relationship or something like that she said that she didnt wanted any of that things this yearso we were getting a lot closer practically hanging out every day after the gym and we were having an incredible time the thing is that i really started feeling in love this week i always liked her but this week i saw that it was really serious so days ago we went to the cinema i just wanted to try something but i didnt have the balls when the movie ended i dont know why i told her my feelings like a pussy like a fucking betai told her that i liked her a lot and that i loved her a lot at first she didnt believed me but then she said it surprises me so i started crying like a lil bitch and told her that i didnt wanted to end everything she gave me hugs a lot of times because i looked very bad and then she said that all could remain the same my space and everything and then talk again you know basic shitthe thing is that i didnt asked her exactly if she liked me and she told me that i was very cute but she didnt wanted to have any sort of relationship this year also its the final year of schooli texted her to ask if she was going to the gym and man that shit was like talking to another person i know it wasnt the same so i told her to meet today and also talk about everything because maybe we need to put the things cleari was like an asshole looking at the door of the gym every minutes i asked her why she didnt came and told me that she couldnt go today she will go tomorrow and if we can meet monday to talk about all that stuffi really dont know what to do i fucking love her but i think she is now feeling awkward even when she told me that there was no problem and all would be the samewhat i tell her it makes me very anxious know that it wont be the same and i also dont know what she thinks about everything now she is practically ghosting mei need help chads what should i do,3.0 50876,bamaloo thats what im making for dinner very yummy ,0.0 50877,how do i stop being so toxic so im the toxic one in my current relationship and idk what to do i dont even know where to start with fixing myselffor example im controlling and i get upset when i dont get my way and end up making empty threats involving me commuting suicideis it too late for me to try helping myself while staying in this relationship should i actually just kill my self to stop others from ever interacting with me should i just give up and become a hermit im not looking for sympathy im simply looking for advice,3.0 50878,selenagomez selena i live in minnesota and i really wanna go see you perform on may but i dont think i can i am so suoer sad,2.0 50879,i hate winter ,2.0 50880,sad jonny is sad ,2.0 50881,jeromegotangco next year is different last sun javaone this year did you see this ,0.0 50882,my online friend friend told me he was going to suicide today hi ive been talking to this guy everyday for almost a year were really closehe told me he was going to kill himself ive tried to convince him to not in several times and now he doesnt answers my messages or calls what i should do tell someone who is physically close to him just let him do his will i dont know,3.0 50883,djenvy lmfao mommy knows best hunny and every woman needs louis and gucci sweetie its like a right lol,0.0 50884,santa you player i thought we were friends ,2.0 50885,damn sore throat grrr ,2.0 50886,the cure for anxiety tjgilroy httpstcoilbrpstacx ,0.0 50887,i need sleep and i really wanna know if demi lovato is going to tour the uk night night people x,0.0 50888,bye bye bali me gonna miss you see you in august ,0.0 50889,its time to recognize mental health as essential to physical health stat ,0.0 50890,im so fucking sad but not for thee right reasons gahh idk ,2.0 50891, i dont feel like gg also ,2.0 50892,xxmeganxx omg hair disaster i couldnt find any conditioner in this house and my hairs went all gadgy and greasy gadsssss ,2.0 50893,was forced to wake up early boo,2.0 50894, mental health,0.0 50895,rt frankmcdevitt whenever they decide to pull the plug on twitter at least well remember it as a place where all of us utterly wasted o,2.0 50896,rt maclandktm its always harpers fault have you visited your doctor recently you may want to check to see if you have an onset of har,1.0 50897,i ate shit today lol,2.0 50898,anyone with treatment resistent depression have this dilemma you take medication and it does very little or it helps briefly you end up with phases of good and bad but often feel like youre getting nowhere you feel total apathy and complete demotivation because of the medication you take so you wean yourself off of the meds after years of using them when youve weaned yourself off of the poison you have an incredibly short fuse zero patience and absolutely everything makes you angry the anger comes to a head sometimes and you immediately feel like dying because its just easier you dont die you just carry on feeling like shit loved ones around you unfairly end up at the receiving end of your wrathtried a whole bunch of different types of antidepressantdoctor theres nothing else we can dotherapy tragically laughably badsociety full of beurocracy that gets in the way of those aiming to make their lives better,3.0 50899,rebelsher its so great when they have quottheirquot first pet charlotte is yr old and she was so happy to see bubbles this morning ,0.0 50900,fearfuldogs apparently habituation is a weak form of learning mmm hmmm ,0.0 50901,rt hannahssyy as a psych major im frustrated at the stigma against wanting attention all humans need attention in fact its the lack,2.0 50902,theodmoor oh yes if i had a balcony to iron on id be there what a splendid purpose for a balcony ,0.0 50903,wickedbitch gonna sound strange but i miss pmsingi used to ripped new a holesnow i just weep ,2.0 50904,encrypting hd with filevault hours passed soo boring ,2.0 50905,scarletdrkgames its so sad,2.0 50906,what can i do on the outside i am a very happy guy i always make jokes and say wild shit and from my observation im a likeable person however for a long time ive been thinking about killing myself but cant do it cos of family expectations as the first son and sisters that i know would hate me for doing it i dont know what is wrong with me exactly but i tried to self evaluate im super impulsive and do and say things just because i can without much thought hasnt really hurt me all that much yet but im scared of what might happen in the future im a bit of a late bloomer so at i only recently started dealing with women last year i cant get into relationships because i dont see myself making it through the year and even though im impulsive i wouldnt put anyone through that i have really violent thoughts sometimes and it shows mostly when i drink and i frequently get into altercations when i go out the things i used to enjoy like gaming and watching tv shows dont feel the same anymore i find myself wanting the world toend so i have excuse to die i dont feel like therapy would help maybe thats pride talking and ive tried working out to feel better nothing works even tried throwing myself into my passions but everyday its still the same pain and suffering not sure why ive typed this out but i was hoping someone could relate and could offer advice,3.0 50907,has just read something by accident about breaking dawn and cannot believe it o damm u wikipedia,2.0 50908,live updates of britains got talent from us httpbitlynlvdi,0.0 50909,thanks to i know the result for tonights match but lions lost ,0.0 50910,bought a dress ive been feeling low these past couple of weeks add some pmsing and ive been on a rollercoaster of emotions but today i went out and bought a dress im a jeans and tshirt kind of girl and i got this cute little green sundress with blue flowers and i felt immediately better maybe it was also the fact that the sales lady was friendly and nice and it was the first irl conversation i had with anyone in like days today was a good day and the sun came out im going home to see my family this easter weekend which is always stressful for me and i hope this high stays on ,3.0 50911,working on a little anniversary present for my huz will post pics of the process on my blog in a few,0.0 50912,branchesbro aaron gillespie is there go find him ,0.0 50913,troyahyo do you know what your name mean in italian phonetic traslation fun,0.0 50914,i havent seen divinedee in like thats tweet speak for about months ,0.0 50915,wow that was an adventure im hungry ,2.0 50916,i swear from this day on i will never wait to see a bandsingerwhatever i always wanted to see the ventures never did ,2.0 50917,four weeks in hell authors note this past sunday i called a suicide hotline and spoke to someone for about thirty minutes i had my first ever counseling appointment a couple of weeks ago and have one tomorrow night too those are referenced in what ive written todayin the last seventeen hourson sunday the guy said maybe it would be a good idea to keep a bit of a journali got through and made a gp appointment tomorrow morning and also have counseling tomorrow evening i only slept about half of the night before i went home from at pm yesterday because i couldnt sit still or focus i took a couple of sips of whiskey but kept getting up and then back into bed unable to sleep during the day as usual after two or three hours i eventually went to a pharmacy store and got some otc sleep aid i called a hotline again and spoke less than i did the first time the woman told me if i was too bad off i should maybe check into the er i talked about my family and how i loved them very much and that i dont blame them for anything i took two sleeping pills then went to bed in my clothes for a bit and came close to falling asleep got in the shower and changed and slept for maybe almost ten hours after thattoday i actually made my bed and shaved unlike yesterday i packed my gym bag but it will be difficult to goive taken several online tests that indicate extremely severe anxiety and depression as well as severe stressphysically im shaky and cold i am down to lbs after not eating too much yesterday im and usually in the low to mid i have to hang in today and talk more to professionals tomorrow all i can think about is laying in bed under my covers,3.0 50918,rawwrkatie early x,0.0 50919,dae use insomnia as a coping mechanism so i get really bad nightmares every night have since i was little the context changes over time when i was little they tended to be school bullies or my dad when i was a teenager a lot of them were work related in adulthood many have been related to being cheated on they tend to go away if i am sleeping with someone not a euphemism i mean literally sleeping with someone i am in a ltr in but when i am single i just cannot get away from these nightmares i am not talking normal nightmares here but wake up in a cold sweat shaking types of nightmaresunless i sleep deprive myself if i stay up until i am about blackout tired and go to sleep then the nightmares go away until i am fully rested once the nightmares resume thats my cue to wake upbut it puts me on a crazy sleep schedule so i guess maybe its not a great coping mechanism ,3.0 50920,homesick while still at home kind of basically my parents are separating with one of them still living at my home while the other one moved to another state hours away i am also away at school and was when they decided to divorce i feel like i dont belong anywhere and dont have a real home my support system in terms of family is not great this divorce has made everyone turn against each other today was pretty bad had a panic attack during class so figured i would ask for advice here or really just any support im in therapy right now trying to get help but it feels like nobody around me really gets what im going through if this is the wrong sub my bad,3.0 50921,so just canceled plans because of me and i wish i didnt exist so he would still go i hate myself so much right now i cant believe i let him cancel his plans im off to take a depression nap and i hope i dont wake up,3.0 50922,pipingku ha ha not baby blues sunday blues i guess thanks babe kpn yuk maksi lagi ,0.0 50923, your opinion and thoughts about depression hello im the firstyear neurobiophysics student im working on my presentation is the world more depressed and one of the main aspects of presentation is survey so i need your opinion please answer a couple of questions link below ,3.0 50924,just woke up kinda looked like a zombie accidentally left my eyemakeup on so i had black smudged around my eyes ,0.0 50925,fml i was on attendance notice and now idk if i lost my jobive been sick with the flu for a bit now so my attendance took a huge hit off that i had one more time that im late or off currently sitting in my car stuck in snow contemplating how everything i have is gone now all the dreams and goals are gone that job got me more than any other job i couldve gotten now its all gone fml ,3.0 50926,being ignored by family a few weeks ago me and my family went to a close friends house before all the corona drama and as we were at a get together we were talking i was talking about issues with the hosts and my dad but i was being ignored they started to talk without me even though i was literally saying the exact same things they were my dad my mom and my friend were ignoring me and talking amongst themselvesthis has really impacted me as essentially my family was ignoring me and what i was saying for what my friend was saying honestly i felt ignored it really angers me what should i do to change this situation do i confront them or just ignore it or am i just overreacting,3.0 50927,paranoidxo thats a hard i love the new single paranoid by the jonas bros but im lovin demis new single aswell so hard question,0.0 50928,heading into kings x for tapas and cocktails ,0.0 50929,goin to have a nap ,0.0 50930, happy friday ,0.0 50931,pembteaco i like tight fit but youll need to ask some other people too ,0.0 50932,unfair why do i have to spend the majority of my life working to be able to afford to live when i dont even want to live who designed this system its just a dumb cycle of working which stresses me out so i can afford to have a successful life only to hate my life anyways i cant win,3.0 50933,fameandchizz i didnt see you ,2.0 50934,spotty internet is not cool ,2.0 50935,rt koenraadelst eu women regret metoo has gone too far they are too moderate for this us blackwhite moralism being women they have n,2.0 50936,chrissiea trying for fun are you insane i have to ,2.0 50937,is listening to agnes release me l and is contemplating doing english coursework,0.0 50938,in monday bdg great kiss ageediamond this weekend spend at niunia with hanka ,0.0 50939, none did lots yesterday and today is mt rest day ,0.0 50940, it onlyy give me an option to poke back blame facebook not my hopes da puppy eyes work,2.0 50941,chadlad i agree with you argument is good for the soul i dont massage celebs egos so they dont like me ,0.0 50942, so cool to have you in the twibe y u rock were gonna have some fun making a difference ,0.0 50943,i have absolutely no motivation for my studies im an history student and i have a huge pages file to make for today it is right now i finally started working on it for minutes i just stopped working again it has to be finished before i know it wont be a good file already and i absolutely cannot motivate myself to work ffs im tired of myself i had months to make it and even when ive only got hours left i still cannot work,3.0 50944,chromachris clean me,2.0 50945,ahh my phone is so glitchy now gunna have to buy a new one soon,2.0 50946,im so bored help me what i mean is there is just nothing to do in life that seems to interest me everything is shitty and the people that life on earth are soo fucking uninteresting boring there is no one not one person who cares nothing can make me happy anymore im alone fucking contemplating sucide seems like the remedy idk what to do any one got ideas or something helpme,3.0 50947,rt mjaeckel when student protests go too far university of cape town health dean and worldclass cardiology researcher professor bonga,2.0 50948,oh its a wrap on dem earrings yall my gurl just said she shits on clip ons oh well i guess shell be gettin dat flowerbomb frag ,2.0 50949,its sooo beautiful outside n im stuck in work dads havin a bbq later tho,2.0 50950,i had alot of fun hanging out with my bestest friend ryan x radiant today sock puppet head ah lol,0.0 50951,tynzboompow serioussss o then what are you going to do let it close ,2.0 50952,itstayloryall thats cute ,0.0 50953,disappointment im such a disappointment im so smart according to my family but i make the worst decisions and my grades constantly fluctuate because i fall behind in work i dont tell them when im overwhelmed with work because that would mean telling them that sometimes im not doing it sure its just high school but i dont think i could even contribute to society thats eventually what life comes to i guess whether or not you have the skills to contribute to society and make money that determines my worth in the end but i simply lack the skills math is very stressful english is my worst class as you could probably tell and science usually has too much math or memorization i wanted to become a psychologist until i realized it wasnt as simple as i hoped it was at the moment i want to major in japanese language and literature but i have no idea what i could do with that im just so worried that im going to do nothing and end up homeless and commit suicideand then theres my sa which has made me afraid of people i am afraid of judgement and i constantly censor my thoughts thinking that theyre probably wrong or i just dont know what to say and end up looking like an idiot i constantly think that other people see me as some weird twitchy loner and recoil in horror at the sight of me i have no friends and no one wants to be my friend for the most part im just ignored by my teachers and peers anyone who tries to talk to me quickly realizes that i dont contribute a single thing to a conversation i know i shouldnt compare myself to others but they all just look so much better than me obviously there are a lot of people who have it way worse i tend to switch between happy and angry and sad very easily right now i just feel so miserable wheres the light at the end of the tunnel right now i feel like it was useless posting this and that no one will care that i am complaining about nothing i just feel so alone and like i dont understand a thing about myself it feels like im nearing a bad end because im making all the wrong choices i dont know how i could live past high school nearly every job requires some form of communication or a difficult skill how could i compete,3.0 50954, already when did you start reading it have you seen the movie im on chapter havent read it in a few days ,2.0 50955,thinkin about how funny it was last night aha ,0.0 50956,rt huntychan ppl that dont like animal crossing are too pussy to live with individualistic personalityfilled technically domesticated,0.0 50957,tsunimee hiya yes indeed i am and i had to get up for work this morning not good hope you ok x,2.0 50958,its over going to finish my ice cream and call it a night dang ,2.0 50959,rt iamjeffemmerson i dont like crowds a lot i also dont like entertaining at home more than or people i actually like who arent,0.0 50960,has anyone quit smoking weed with the help of medication has anyone successfully quit smoking with the help of ssris,3.0 50961,hello dogear nation fans what did you think of episode tweet us or comment on the blog ,0.0 50962,my best friend killed himself yesterday weve known each other since i was he was only im aware of many warning signs but he was the last person i expected to do this im absolutely crushed im not sure why im even posting this maybe just to get it out in the ether but if youre struggling please let people help you it may be embarrassing and uncomfortable at first but its so essential,3.0 50963,good morning at work dont wanna be there fuckit another day another dollar,2.0 50964,agoraphobia gt depression gt agoraphobia at nauseaum no one understands you or your painno one can help youif im still around its all due to luck i found some specific lifestyle changes and actually useful meds such as entheogens that helped mehad i never found those things i would be out there in the streets im on a world countrywho knows maybe ill fall again i dont carebut these five minutes of glory when im high on lsd or mdma or hydromorphone make life seem worth livingand striving forbut how can i live when most people cant get my pointthat my reason to live is psychotropivñc drugsits not me its the depressionthese drugs make me feel objectively good and make me want to be virtuous,3.0 50965,rt hefinr after years of service to the nhs as a nurse midwife amp health visitor mrs r has today resigned the frustration of seein,2.0 50966,ahhh the stream from xboxcom still isnt showing up ,2.0 50967,clementhyme sorry you didnt like it maybe you can at least enjoy some of the items,2.0 50968,i want more i just want this door to open in my life to change why cant i find magic ive noticed that soicety and human life is chill and if your not chill you go to a place where your forced to be chill and they feed you and take of you so i dont understand whats going on the magic box shows me death filled excitement but i dont want that so i dont know what i want i think a magical door opens i can go to i nice place is so not this or maybe i should be content or kill myself because i cant handle more then this,3.0 50969,needs pubbut has no pub buddies ,2.0 50970,watching young guns ii very underrated imho very nostalgic time to take one last hike in the west tonight ,2.0 50971,a little about me just looking for thoughts hey there reddit i really didnt think i would be one of those people asking the internet for advice but after another drunken outing ending my relationship here i am again alone on a holiday waking up thankfully not too hungover waiting for my ex to come pick up her stuffits a long read but if you have the time id appreciate ithere are the details and as much as you need to stop drinking is the right advice im hoping people might be able to give a little more thankslast nighthanging out with the so trying to make plans for the holiday i work in retail so i rarely get two days off in a row we go out for a decent dinner at a brew pub and escape room which we beat then go to the bar downstairs shes tired and probably wants to go home but im buzzed and want more alcohol and the nba allstar game is on so thats a good excuse i get way to drunk admit to her i think about suicide sometimes and blame her for god knows what she ubers home alone as do i eventually and i dont say anything particularly nasty other than i want to break up mostly because im embarrassed about my behaviourworklife is alright in general im slowly digging my way out of debt got a promotion at work huge wholesale membership based retailer came with a big raise and even bigger in months or so when i finish my training and officially get my own department im a smart guy but lazy when it comes to school i want to be a doctor and very well could but i cant get my shit together enough to study at least without losing motivation halfway through like most things in life sometimes i make silly mistakes at work because im on autopilot that could cost me my promotion if i dont get my shit together im fairly resentful about working in a grocery store still at even though i get paid phenomenally well love the people i work with and the company treats me super welldrinkingi picked up most of my heavy drinking habits in the navy in university i often get blackout drunk and am either rude to people or tell lies i cant take back in the morning because im insecure about how little i am doing with my life or i want people to like me more the funny part is they already do people think im a smart successful wonderful guy i guess thats not entirely a lie i am smart i make good money if you count that as a measure of success and i genuinely care about the people around me and would do anything for anyone to make their lives better as long as im sober drinking beers in a night sometimes alone in my room sometimes out with people who i then immediately cut out of my life out of embarrassment is par for the course with most of my interpersonal relationships drinking that much feels like my equivalent of restarting a laggy computer sure it still lags when it comes back on and you havent really dealt with the underlying issue but at least it can do its job againotherive spoken to a psychologist before but eventually lose interest i actually really looked forward to the sessions but once a week isnt enough to keep me going or committed to doing them i have two childhood friends who know most of this but dont live nearby and very few other real personal relationships in the new city i moved toin reality im not sure why i typed this all out but it was kind of cathartic to get it off my chest now i see why people suggest writing to clarify your thoughtsplease feel free to share ideas suggestions similar experiences especially if youve felt similar and manage to turn it aroundthanks,3.0 50972,feeling useless im not a very outspoken or opinionated person usually but if i have experience with something or know the answer to someones question ill speak up over and over though i get shut down or just flat out ignored it happens so often but for some reason it still hurts me my opinion is not valued and any information i have is doubted by everyone i feel dumb unappreciated useless and depressed as a result its taken years but i think i finally have to just stay quiet and not attempt to help people anymore thats sad in itself does anyone else feel this way maybe im just overreacting,3.0 50973,♫ all i wanna do now is share my constellation they brighten my world everyday hugs ♫ ,0.0 50974,ravensue have you watched dollhouse yet let me know what you thought of the episode ,0.0 50975,i hate my school ,0.0 50976,rt omlar im sad and happy the same time a lot,1.0 50977,best of youtube the birds amp the bees the birds amp the bees subscirbeeee amp leave a commentmake a ,0.0 50978,teddyglamorous in philly im seeing them ,0.0 50979,phoenix is nack just not on the rpg i wanted her on ,2.0 50980,billyyyy didnt win best score ,2.0 50981,want to be outside today so hopping the circulator to georgetown also enjoying the telekinesis album herecomesjeff pushed on me ,0.0 50982,no idea which skill to dooo ,2.0 50983,anyone else a complete failure it seems like everyone or at least of americans learned driving by the age of although this has been decreasing to around since i cant stop obsessing over how i should have got my license years ago im now and i live in washington state driving is necessary i dont use public transit why didnt i even try to get a license i didnt think i needed one because my parents drove me everywhere my dad worked night shift so work never interfered never had to work either parents payed for anything i wanted now we arent rich by any means basically im a coddled disabled man in his who never felt the urge to grow up ie become independent until the past year when i realized im getting closer to than heres a list of my most embarassing failures never had a paying job and never applied for one never made any steps towards driving including drivers ed let alone obtained a drivers license never drank alcohol or smoked weed i know drugs are an uncool thing to many redditors even if its marijuana but im putting it out there anyway never went to any parties never moved out of my parents house not once not even for college dropped out of college even though i was taking less units than of students im still a virgin never had a girlfriend or anything like that only a couple friendships none of them lasted more than a year currently no friends since high school and even at high school i only talked to these friends in class never even met up with them during lunch break i stayed alone just now starting to buy things myself up until recently my parents would be the ones handing the cashier the money just now started making my own phone calls for things i need such as appointments inquiry assistance etc just now began realizing this is a pathetic track record i have nothing to offer to society considering all ive been doing is playing vidya i feel guilty because theres people busting their ass every day just to get by and here i am not doing anything essentially living like a toddler with the responsibilities of a pet cat this makes me suicidal why didnt my parents stop babying me why didnt i have any desire for independencemy disability is purely physical moderately impacts daytoday activities however this lack of adulting has retarded my brain online i may appear somewhat educated but in real life you would think i was slowi would not commit suicide but often times i wonder if life is worth living a life of being years behind my peers seems miserable even if i have years to go i dont wanna be firguring out teenage stuff as a grown man this is simply too overwhelming for me at times so it becomes a vicious cycle i stop trying because i feel hopeless which causes this rain cloud of failure to become larger darker and meaner im waiting for the day the cloud gives in and the heavy rain floods my world,3.0 50984,arieder not anymore youre not i just logged on first time in a year,2.0 50985,oh yeah this is great for my anxiety,1.0 50986, damn it i knew i jumped on rustyhinder s ship too quickly ,0.0 50987,just had my second visit with the therapist and im not feeling much better it hurts to hear him say youre gonna get better when you know youre not i feel like im gonna be depressed forever but thanks to him for trying i guess ,3.0 50988,todays one month with wes ,0.0 50989,if anyone needs new sheets kinglinencom has tc sateen sheet sets on sale for until tomorrow sooo soft ,0.0 50990,what if you cant change it you know i spend sometimes my time reading here and on quora what people are going through and frequently i see someone hitting them with the you should change that or this try getting out more go the gym etc etc it leaves me wondering what if they just cant change it what happens when that girl speaking about how ugly she is is indeed horribly ugly and has no money to fix that what happens when someone feeling terribly lonely can do nothing about it because the why is near impossible to change like horrible social anxiety or something speaking about that i have someone in my class who talks to none and almost none talks to him i do talk to him not because he has things to say he says only yes no or answers directly your question initiative otherwise but because i dont want him to feel lonely he rarely looks at you directly in the eyes it feels like he has been raised like that and wont change for at least some time he probably is doing efforts to change that but it scares me the idea he will stay like that forever lonely i might be just assuming he might be happy more than me or anyone else but its frightening to imagine that hes suffering because of his personality because that means he has important problems very hard to change what about people who have low self esteem for whatever reason and that is impacting their lives theyre told to work on that but how hobbies and stuff okey but sometimes they do have hobbies they do enjoy themselves but it just doesnt work around othersare they doomed to live doubting themselves forever to not having a so just because they indeed act like theyre not good enough what about that woman with the very acute voice or that man who has acnea that just wont go away it does go away eventually but sometimes it takes a long time what about people born with serious diseases like a malformation or a deficiencysimply what should happen when something is annoying the shit out of you is obviously impacting your moodhappinesswellbeing but you can do nothing about itsorry because this post doesnt concern me i guess this subreddit is made for people to talk about themselves but i have empathy for suffering people and i want to be able to answer i can do nothing about it when its true at least once in my life ,3.0 50991,mutazx star trek is awesome havent seen the da vinci code but it was on over the weekend so may go and watch it now ,0.0 50992,songs about depression ive been listening to songs about depression cause they seem to help work through my feelings and im wondering if anyone has any suggestions ,3.0 50993,i run a business i am happily engaged and pregnant but still not happy am i depressed i also posted this in the mental health group as im not really sure where it belongsi am german so i apologize in advance for any language mistake short background story i suffered from depression years ago it started when i was in school at the age of and got worse when i was in university studying english and french in order to become a teacher i was somehow forced into studying by my parents languages were the only thing i was good at and i wanted to make them proud i procrastinated a lot because i didnt really know what i wanted to do in life i didnt like university and as a side job i started teaching students and adults i never really enjoyed teaching but i enjoyed earning money and so i somehow built up a business after many years of struggeling with uni i quit my studies and became selfemployed as language teacher of english spanish and french that was in this year also marked the end of my depression side note i was in therapy for a couple of years until i started being selfemployed i worked my butt off i had more than students in a week i started at and worked until long after midnight i finally had a goal my goal was to earn money and be able to provide for myself i started teaching in my kitchen until i could afford my own office after years long story short after years i own a language company with people working for me now i have a fairly large income and i dont have to do anything for it im not teaching anymore all i have to do is writing invoices and making sure that new clients turn up from time to time heres the deal i am not happy when i started working my dream was to earn as much money as possible now i can see that this is not a good motivation in the long run ive got money and it secures me a nice lifestyle but its not very fulfilling my personal life is perfect i have a wonderful and stable family i am happily engaged my fiancé is the man of my dreams i am months pregnant i have always wanted kids and a husband so this is a dream coming truethe problem is i dont have any other dreams i dont have visions when it comes to my business yes there are things id like to establish and i have two pages full of necessary tasks and steps lying on my desk but i am not motivated i should be theres a baby on the way and one day id like to buy some property and a house but somehow that doesnt get me going its getting worse and worse i dont get up in the mornings i spend hours watching youtube videos or tv shows i attend private social events i love to go out and meet friends i enjoy planning the wedding and baby stuff but when it comes to work i feel so numb it crossed my mind that i might want to do something else which is partly true sometimes i think i was forced into this whole language thing but i never really enjoyed it of course i dont want to give up a business thats going well but at the same time id like to start something new but when it comes to actually starting i keep finding excuses à la „i should rather invest this time into my business and i end up doing nothing i read books about how to get back motivation but nothing helped i lost my drive i also lost my drive when it comes to other things i quit doing sports ive always wanted to learn an instrument but i am too lazy to get it going theres nothing that excites me apart from the baby and the wedding i also started to eat a lot of sugar but that might be a pregnancy thing ive been crying a lot today because i feel like a loser not being able to get up and get stuff done whas is wrong with me am i depressed i dont feel depressed in my personal life how can i find out what i really want in life is it normal not to like his job i am thankful for every advice,3.0 50994,deafmom thanks friend you know you were the first quotonline friendquot i ever met in person followfriday,0.0 50995,trueblud i like to average typos per tweet of mine ,0.0 50996,chefvanda doing well thanks my daughter treated us to dinnera nice change how are you,0.0 50997,beardedstoner yeah suffering from tad trump anxiety disorder baaaaad very baaad,1.0 50998,hates working on a saturday its just not right ,2.0 50999,oh crap colorado blvd is guna be crazy today with the apple store ugh ,2.0 51000, how could i not mention jayz ,2.0 51001,brandonleblanc is that one right now lame i missed it ,2.0 51002, yes as a matter of fact i did play candyland and if we ever played candy land i would whoop you ass and then you would cry ,0.0 51003,faketragedycom i know ,2.0 51004,i finally joined twitter im excited ,0.0 51005,anxiety can fuck off,2.0 51006,giasierra thanks boo good morning n happy friday to u also u goin out tonight,0.0 51007,wala pa pasukan pero nakaka stress na haha kamusta kayo,2.0 51008,billwixey does it feel like old times when you work mornings ,0.0 51009,wow ive just been called a posing obese fat bitch with no friends whos also an emo cyber fights are fun ,0.0 51010, that is such a cute picture he looks so proud ,0.0 51011,from an economic perspective since i am a drain on society shouldnt i not be a part of it graduating from college in months i feel like i wasted my time i have no passion no job prospects i have nothing in life i feel is worth working towards i havent talked to my family in months stopped hanging out with friends and no one seems to care even if i get a job somehow which wont happen i dont even have anything worth putting on a resume ill be paying off student loans until im so i guess my question is that wouldnt society be better off without someone like me i feel like once i get to may it might be the end of the road for me,3.0 51012, thanks for all the birthday wishes yesterday it was a wonderful day ,0.0 51013,amyndm kelcouch thank you heaps for doing this guys ,0.0 51014,i want to be loved i want someone to care about me i want someone to tell me how much they love me i want someone that i can tell how much i love them i want a loving and caring relationship im tired of being cheated on im tired of being rejected im tired of trying to impress people only for it to fail miserably i try so hard to be a good person im sorry i have an edgy sense of humor its just how i am and i cant change it i dont mean to make anyone upset im sorry i cant be good enough i know ive made mistakes and im not perfect ive hurt people in the past but id do anything to go back and change it is this is karma for the shitty things ive done i dont know this didnt make any sense i just typed out my emotions thanks for reading rdepression,3.0 51015,today has been one of the worst days of my year scratch that the worst ,2.0 51016,worried about chooey my cat she has bladder stones again and the procedure theyd used plus the meds arent working back to doc again,2.0 51017,loveablevillain oh no ,2.0 51018,joewitless more nightmares huggles,2.0 51019,aaronaiken lindsayfaith aww so sweet ,0.0 51020,poor baby little man has an upset tummy and then he fell on a toy in the bath and hurt himself ,2.0 51021,watching the mtv movie awards its am in germanywho cares ,0.0 51022,worth years for him huh lol still adorable d,0.0 51023, ohhh so youre looking for a big one oh man thats pricey you must have a lot of lippies haha good luck ,0.0 51024,as if things werent difficult enough living with indian parents makes me want to hang myself ,3.0 51025,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 51026,im in love with my friend i try to tell myself im only in love with the idea of being with her i try to make up reasons to not feel the way i feel but i keep falling back into the same cycle shes back with her ex and theyre trying to create a life together trying to bring a child into this world and it hurts every second i can see she tries to make me feel better tries to build my confident back up but that only makes this pain worse i feel like im just not good enough for her though i feel i can be everything to her but thats not the case and most likely never will be,3.0 51027,depression relapse hi not really sure how to say it but i feel like i might be on my way to a depression relapse a few months ago i weaned off my antidepressant and mood stabilizer lexapro and lamictal i felt like i was in a decent place and was ready to stop them before them i wont even get out of bed to do anything the only time i did get up was to shower and i did that like times a day as well hoping it would distract me im a fairly active gamer and recently i havent been able to play for longer than minutes most of the time and feeling the need to constantly sleep more im afraid i may be heading back inside that dark tunnel but i feel really discouraged about taking my medicine again as i was really happy to be off them i really cant do any activity for more than minutes i am also trying to exercise more i know that a sign of depression is not enjoying what you normally do its like i want to play video games and other things but after minutes i feel bored and burnt out and the cycle repeats i feel stuck and just really stressed out by the situation because i really do want to enjoy things for more than minutes any ideas or does it sound like something completely different thank you in advance ,3.0 51028,today is my last day here ,2.0 51029,elvahsiao hey elva shout out from malaysia ,0.0 51030,lalahhathway just breathe ,0.0 51031,going to bed and gonna sleep like a baby nighty night ,0.0 51032,cycle is always the same for me i want to hate my mom for always belittling what i feel or what kind of a person i am i want to hate her because she spent her whole marriage hating my father instead of loving me i want to hate her because she need someone to despise so she can feel good about herself just like she is doing to me now telling other relatives how useless i am how i never do anything or never help her and the worst part is she is right about that what i have is beyond dysfunctioni want to hate my father for always criticising everything i doi want to hate him because he had so much selfesteem issues he made sure everyone around him also feel the same way i want to hate him because he never knew how to apologize or show something positive towards us i want to hate him because of his cruel jokes when i was just a little kid always end up me holding my tears or crying in the bathroom in secret only thing i feel guilty about is how i feel towards my little brother im afraid i will never love him as he deserved because i cant feel anything i remember when i was in high school i suddenly had a breakdown and do something i truly despise i dont even know when or why i did that only thing i recall is my little brothers eyes on me he was sitting on his bed afraid just looking at me like that growing up with useless parents and another useless and troubling sibling is took its toll on him tooyet here i am its been years and i am still sitting with the same dark cloud on my head still cant find the strength to walk up and go i just cant i keep blaming my parents or everybody else because i thought they took what little i have when i was growing up they never see any problem comparing us with other children but god forbid when we do the same with other parents it was always the same answer my father never showed his affection our mother never cooked us meal ive been cooking my own since i was child etc now im doing the same just slightly different and seeing how true it is ruins me even more i know if i could feel something just a little spark maybe i can see the light but i just cant,3.0 51033,lol im chatting with random ppl on ichat that i dnt know that go to my school this is funn haha,0.0 51034,greew that sucks but good to know its not just me,2.0 51035,i miss adam and kris its only been mintues how freaking sad is that,2.0 51036,having mental health issues makes me want to scream and rant or be silent and isolated theres no in between its httpstcohxawplnyta,2.0 51037,rt hannahssyy as a psych major im frustrated at the stigma against wanting attention all humans need attention in fact its the lack,2.0 51038,i think i might go out on a limb and go for calex comments or suggestions are vaguely welcome i suppose p,0.0 51039,sweetmedicinexx thats so sad alexa play they were never together by me,2.0 51040,talisaduhhh you say fuck them w a smiley face nooooo lol,2.0 51041,im feeling like my old self again my past have been horrible i had been so anxious and depressed that i ruined relationships did horrible in school and lost friends i was hopeless on what to dobut recently ive been going to my therapy sessions and started medication from my doctor i am finally beginning to feel like my old self again i am finally relaxed in everyday situations i am focused on the future and im overall so much better with my relationships my only regret is not taking these steps sooner just wanted to share,3.0 51042,how to help someone who is bipolar and suicidal i have a friend that is bipolar and has been posting some pretty dark things on her finsta fake instagram basically an instagram for your close friends where you can feel free to post whatever you want recently theyve turned suicidal and i cant help but think that theyre low key signs calls for help i want to help but i really dont know the best way to go about itthe other problem is we were friends in middle school but she moved away to a different school and since then we havent talked regularly ive probably only seen her twice in person in the last years and only recently started talking to her again and when we do talk it doesnt often reach a deep enough level where shes opened up to me not that i expect her to at this point i just dont know if i should take that as a sign of her not wanting help from me or just shyness after having not talked at that level for a while nowi wouldnt consider her high risk for actual suicide right now or id get real help i just want to do something to let her know that people care about her and that shes not alone in her feelings she works at a fast food place close to me so i was thinking of maybe just leaving a note and some flowers idk by her car after work to surprise heri guess my main questions arewhat would you want in this scenariowhat would you suggest i doive dealt with people that were depressed but never someone who was bipolar do i help them in any different ways than someone who is depressedtldr i have a friend who is bipolar and has said some fairly dark things and i feel like theyre cries for help i want to do something to let her know that i care and that shes not alone as she hasnt been too open over text additionally we used to be good friends but we havent talked in three years until about a week ago so i dont want to do anything that would come off as creepy or anything but i feel like this is too serious to just let it slide by see questions in above paragraphthanks a ton,3.0 51043,feeling very depressed and useless ive been on wellbutrin xl for almost a year and ive had highs and lows along with a month long manic episode back in january i feel like im going back down into a downer and im starting to really hate myself ive have started fasting and binge eating sleep is getting weird i dont want to do anything feeling the urge to cry im not easily emotional and now losing track of time completely losing minutes and having no idea what happened or what i did during that timeobviously i know i need to talk to my dr waiting for a better financial situation but im worried she will take me off wellbutrin ive had great highs and more energy most the time and im finding other things i can take over the counter that help create more highsanyone else having a similar situation,3.0 51044,whats your weird manic depression mantra right now theres a tiny person holding a teeny tiny conga drum in my head shouting i feel stressed ratta tat tat im so depressed ratta tatty tat its my very quiet rhythmic brain song thats stuck in my head as im feeling very very bad does anyone else have a mantra,3.0 51045,anelkas goal was fantastic why do i always miss goals like that stupid revision thats it next year sky sports,2.0 51046,waiting for teah to get home ,2.0 51047,scottskiba i dont know anything about it ,0.0 51048,isupportdemil haha smart neice lol wat ru doin ,0.0 51049,head is pounding finally got coffee dont want to work on this sunny day ,2.0 51050,its monday tomorrow get to see my samples but really feeling this vaca depression slowly sinking in ,2.0 51051,i need some advice i was in a long relationship when compared to others in my age group im now and was when it started and it ended months ago and im still feeling grief over it about a month after me and my now exgirlfriend broke up my depression became much worse and my doctor put me on antidepressants and antipsychotic medication to help since then ive tried to fill my life with other things i learned how to play guitar i started to really develop an interest in computers and drones and i got a job recently i did all of this as a way to try to distract myself from my grief but it hasnt done anything lately my ex has begun to hang around my friends and not wanting to be alone i am forced to hang around with her its reminding me of how i still miss her and our relationship this wasnt a problem until recently i dont want to tell her flat out that i want her to go away but i care for her too much to do anything about it for fear that it would hurt her now things arent looking so good shes trying to apply for a job at the mcdonalds i work at and im secretly hoping her application is ignored it seems the only way to really forget about her is to completely cut her off from my life but i cant just tell her that all i can do is wait for the day that i go to college and make new friends so that i can forget about her and finally move on,3.0 51052,he was the only thing that made me happy a few months ago i met a guy on a dating website he was not my type physically but he checked a few important boxes so i started to chat with him we went on a few dates and i found him extremely adorable he was shy awkward a gamer and a huge nerd he also had a little russian accent he forgot words in english all the time and i would tease him about it because his reaction was always so cute im a more outgoing person i am forward and never guarded in my approach with people i like he was the total opposite would always stutter when i am around and turn as red as a tomato whenever he tried to compliment me we had amazing chemistry and i started feeling physically attracted to him the more time i spent with him i felt like i finally had someone i can relate to his sense of humor his hobbies etc i stopped feeling lonelywe stopped talking and i dont know why really i dont know he stopped texting after being the one to initiate every time and when i initiated his responses were always so dry afterwards he told me he doesnt want to talk anymore and did not give me a reason i miss him so much and i think of him a lot i feel so depressed and alone gosh im pathetic,3.0 51053,i feel worthless everyone talks about how things get better with time but in my case things have continuously gotten worse over the past few years i feel so completely worthless like ive wasted my life and potential opportunities,3.0 51054,thoughts that wont go away i get these thoughts in my mind that just replay over and over again usually they show up under emotional duress which is the case this time its not exactly a voice in my head as the thoughts are my own but i cant really control themthis time its you were born dead its just that nobody noticed thats why youre so damn hollow all the time theres no soul in that walking corpsegoddamn i just wish they would go away,3.0 51055,seedjay basically days until i graduate ,0.0 51056,juztenrawks yay justin ,0.0 51057,what a wonderful world i desperately try to keep in mind that i am constantly surrounded by an endless and fascinating cascade of incredible beautywhile i experience this fantastic life embedded into a loving family and amidst dear friends who care for my wellbeing native to one of the most privileged countries in the world i still am haunted by thoughts of despairi am hounted by the choices i made and continue to make despite knowing better by the suffering i caused all my life and still cause everyday through my irresponsible patterns of consumption and through my insensitive behavior towards others hounted by how i am drawn to selfish behavior and how i just want to leave everything behind to enjoy the now regardless of future or pasti feel and think i have a responsibility to participate in the betterment of society but i dont feel i have anything beneficial to contribute and i think i have no right to judge anyone but myselfwhenever i start a sentence with an i i am thinking i am a narcissist and whenever i am having a conversation i feel the need to be understood much more than i want to understandposting here seems to be merely another desperate attempt to ease my mind to distract myself from the world that i ought to enjoy and that i ought to protectin the same moment when i am proud to be able to articulate how i feel i am ashamed of how i pity myself instead to live up to my potential and therefore to my responsibility,3.0 51058,talking to my mom germany seems especially distant today ,2.0 51059,next launch wont be until july at the earliest ,2.0 51060,chantelnicole i am lost please help me find a good home ,2.0 51061,i feel like an attention seeker but i really wanted to share my feelings with some people i feel like a big burden just a disappointment i think that the main reason why i dont have a stable mental health is me being unsuccessful i really made everyone that love me work hard just to disappoint them with bad results i really dont make it obvious and never talk about it but i feel so awful and depressed and not worth anything anymore,3.0 51062,officialtila so lucky you can eat all you want and still say fit ,2.0 51063,why are we like this why does it seem so easy for everyone to get through the day but its so hard for us why cant we process our emotions normally why do we hate ourselves everyone sucks but were the problem its so draining and disheartening just why,3.0 51064,what the fuck is happening to me just now i found myself outside very cold night btw halfheartedly smoking a cigarette while listening to radiohead hood up head down letting my long stringy hair hang down just looking into the woods that picture right there is a perfect depiction of how i feel right nowi dont smoke because i know how addictive it can be and the kind of things it can do i usually try to keep my head at normal level because i know itll help my posture i keep my hair washed and out of my face because i know it looks good that waybut for some reason i just dont carei wish i knew why usually when i get depressed its because im really stressed out about something but i have nothing to be that stressed about right now im just depressed and not in a sense of deep palpable sadness id prefer that honestly hell it isnt even a sense of exhaustion id prefer that too at least im used to that and i know how to deal with itthe thing im feeling now is just a kind of emptiness its a sense of cynicism and nihilism and not the fun punkrock kind its the boring kind where you just say fuck it and lie around drinking and smoking because why the fuck not i just dont fucking care its not even that im tired of life or that i want to die i just dont give a fuck one way or another sure this cigarette will take minutes off my life and sure it tastes awful and sure i dont even really like the buzz but i just dont care i remember thinking while smoking that cigarette stuff like i dont care if i puke and less minutes i wont have to wasteall of a sudden i realised what i was doing and i immediately put out the cigarette threw it away along with the whole pack and brushed my teeth to get the taste out of my mouth but just as soon as i came to my senses i went back into that nihilistic depressive state hell even when i was brushing my teeth i was intentionally looking down to avoid looking at myselfand now here i am writing this fucking novel on reddit and for what to vent no you kinda have to have something youre passionate about in order to vent to garner sympathy to be honest i dont give a fuck about anybodys sympathy right now especially not that of internet strangers to get encouragement thats a laugh im pretty much encouragementproof in my current state to whore karma i dont give a fuck about anything right now especially not imaginary internet points maybe its out of habit i dunnothe thing is i almost kinda like it like this it feels like how i normally am is a lie and this state is the truth like i lie to myself to make myself happy and to make myself think theres some meaning to life but now that i know the truth my mind is free to drink smoke and stumble my way through life until i inevitably diewhatever nobodys gonna read this and it probably doesnt make any sense anyway,3.0 51065,jewelsmyfav averagechubby i cant fux wit em if he skinnycant sleep in his shirt mt as well wear mah own ,2.0 51066,day off wooooo ,0.0 51067,tommcfly heeey today is fletcher day be happy ,0.0 51068,tips on focusing on myself more my brain gets caught up in too much i think about the lives of all the miniscule people who shouldnt have a single effect on me people i trade one or two sentences with people i drive next to on the road the people who actually voted for a tv character the strangers who i embarrass myself in front ofhow can i close my mind a little and focus on how to be a better me,3.0 51069,tracyaustin thanks tracy i hope well meet soon ,0.0 51070, because they selfish cowards fuck cheating shouldnt it be out of style anyway,2.0 51071,therealburna get followers a day using wwwtweeteraddercom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 51072,lunch for one at swiss chalet lonely yes but delicious also yes ,0.0 51073,we get orcas in the water where we live and a baby orca died and its mom has been pushing the dead calf for days ,1.0 51074,mquelj your bg is your quotbackgroundquot ,0.0 51075,well the famine was a success it was hard but totally worth it it really makes you think about how lucky you are,0.0 51076,starving and waiting for my daddy i have hella hw ,2.0 51077,missdeeeee then you might enjoy this one too ,0.0 51078,too bad lebron lakers all the way lisamm,2.0 51079,weelaura im gonna give this another chance i need more lessons im afraid,0.0 51080, i hope all is ok so so busy this end my thoughts are with you all the way hug,2.0 51081,just got out of bed fighting off the flu so much for an active weekend ,2.0 51082,missin you already and its only been a day this is going to be tougher than i thought ,2.0 51083,thank you for teaching me values and to be a better person each day i love so much youre the best mum in the world,0.0 51084,crisilouise i think otis is cos he has mmr booster yesterday amp some thing else as well poor little bugger both arms ,2.0 51085,giggleshehe i have no clue how this thing works and i have to teach it at the library this thursday lol,2.0 51086,heoneygom tanda stress itu kal,2.0 51087, shey ditto ,2.0 51088,turtletao awww hey now i cant help it if you have fabulous taste hehe dont worry ill send you your discounted total too ,0.0 51089,happy fathers day im sad that im not in atlanta to celebrate with my daddy but i love him very much,2.0 51090,some of the clash for you all ,0.0 51091,buzzedition you been holding all that back for a while ,0.0 51092,rn factor is a new skin care line made by a registered nurse website not up yet we got a bunch to give away ,0.0 51093,i really need help so im almost and i am just really miserable all the time i am constantly cringing about embarrassing things i did and how people hate me because of it my friends mock me all the time and i feel like i am being too sensitive i feel like everybody hates me i am constantly fighting with my parents and my mom called me a disappointment and stuff ive always struggled with mental stuff but its the worst its ever been ive been thinking about some yknow stuff my friends dont talk to me that much and i feel they are doing stuff without me since its break im just staying in my room all the time spending whole days only leaving to eat or use the restroom i scream and moan not in the yknow way in my sleep i spend my whole days sleepy and lethargic sleeping for hours at night im not as hungry as i used to and i spend hours just in my room silently crying my one friend who was genuinely nice to me stopped wanting to hang out idk if his excuses are legit or just excuses to not hang out at school my friends constantly mock me and walk away from me so i started spending all my time in the library or in the bathroom crying when i try to hang out with others i feel like im just clingy not in their friend group tagging along following one person etc then i feel bad the next day cringing at how they were obviously ignoring me i barely eat anymore and have been losing lots of weight ive lost my sense of time and forget the day thinking thursday is still tuesday etc i spend all day doing homework at school or blankly watching videos im just sad all the time and am constantly fighting with family and stuff thanks for reading this if you did ,3.0 51094,im haunted by the mistakes ive made in my life and its hurting my mental health ive made a lot of mistakes in my life especially in the last year or so and its been extremely difficult for me to accept the past and let go of my wrongdoings i need advice and help from people whove been where im at how can i learn to accept my failures and live my life again im tired of being a slave to this negativity and self hatred,3.0 51095,chinkyeyed yay ,0.0 51096,nedrixvsyou next time youre in perthgo see ryan from elora danan ,0.0 51097,serious question so ive been feeling shitty for most of my life and ive always wondered if the feelings of constant anxiety boredom listlessness etc were because i had some provable illness i wanted some conclusive statement so that i could start with some kind of tangible solutioni dont know if im depressed i went to get diagnosed by a psychologist and after an hour long discussion she decided that i had problems that boys your age have anyway im btw and that instead of seeking professional help from a psychologist i should deal with each problem separately and get help from family and friends with each issue i cant help but disagree with her assessment but i dont want to self diagnoseso i wondered if there was some way of finding out,3.0 51098, nanna nap tee and hee still funny ,0.0 51099,relaxing at sans place ,0.0 51100,jtietema thats awesome news to hear ,0.0 51101,i fought back against my depression but i ended up right back where i started ive been struggling for years fighting against my depression its usually been one bad situation after another starting with my aunt dying when i was little i eventually ended up helping taking care of my great grandfather years later who was robbed and left to die until i found him then i spent seven years or so until i was with a girlfriendaround the same time as my great gpa and looking back at that after therapy was abusive i connected with a girl from my graduating class at college and she helped me get on track there with therapy and being my number one supporter i had tried several times to end it all in years and have numerous scars from self harm but i was getting better i matured more and found self worth and happiness i felt as if i had finally fought off my clinical depression i found love with a girl i met and recently got engaged as i write this today i no longer feel i found my own happiness with myself im back on medication and have no help besides that my supporter is gone and my fiancé doesnt help me at all i got fired from my job since they were a government entity and didnt want liability for me im going into the local hospital to be admitted soon after my first attempt in years at ending it im hopeless and i think the depression might win this time ,3.0 51102,skittles needs a total hip replacement and is getting surgery next week he is hurting really bad,2.0 51103, subscribing to swoozie on youtube and following on twitter adds to your street cred ,0.0 51104,last night i had a dream my room was a mess due to depression i woke up to find that it was in real life as well clearly im staying in bed today back to my counselor i go ,3.0 51105, i do too literally away umm i dropped it a couple of times it didnt respond to well and died,2.0 51106,not a good day ,2.0 51107,after days the sun is shining amazing ,0.0 51108,my mangaer didnt give me edc off quotits because our managers dont understand that edc is like a religious holidayquot glow lmao,2.0 51109,yum im waiting for gnocci with pumpkin sauce then i mite go for a caramel sunday ,0.0 51110,i miss my dad ,2.0 51111,the mighty tap are doing a onedate world tour but i will have a newborn ,2.0 51112,ye yee whats good for tomorrow my mom let me go ,0.0 51113,reneehobbs and class this reminded me of our discussions in class on identity and self discovery what a s ,0.0 51114,headache ,2.0 51115,awwwi will be back on that soon chynadollxo,2.0 51116,maha i cant wait for episode to finish downloadinggg im so so tired ,2.0 51117,laurenconrad gutted that youre leavin the show has been awesome and i hope lo is your successor ,0.0 51118,nap time was wasy too fast ,2.0 51119,i really wish right now i just really wish i had someone to hug me right now and to wipe away my tears i just really need a hug right now ,3.0 51120,adamd sigh sorry i was just caught up in all of the excitement ill be well behaved from here on out i promise ,0.0 51121,will be heading off to church soon this weekend is quotcommitment weekendquot for faith in our future wonder how the attendance will be ,0.0 51122,mcrchat cant answer that question unfortunately or maybe fortunately haha ive read some of those embarressing stories,2.0 51123,a simple trick to get rid of stress and anxiety in minutes ,2.0 51124,applied for unemployment ,2.0 51125,im officially outbid ,2.0 51126,spontaneously in boston until tomorrow morning ,0.0 51127,my daughter is going to icthus music festivel without me ,2.0 51128,does anyone ever feel like they just cried even though they didnt last night i was having my usual sad time thinking about sad stuff when i realized i had an intense runny nose and my eyes felt puffy and tired it was as if i just sobbed instead i was confused because i did not cry at all i also get like this after an intense therapy session,3.0 51129,ive realised something lately i realised theres no point talking unless i have to the more i talk the more people judge me the more people try to fix me and the more people argue with me so ive just stopped doing it all together i know i will still get judged for being quiet but im okay with that because the way i see it i could be an amazing person they just dont know because i never spoke to them ,3.0 51130,funpark tomorrow whee cept were going with the neighbour kids too many children ,2.0 51131,my coach has hated me for years so when i was i was on a synchronized skating team where the girls bullied me whenever we had practice my coach never stood up for me actually enabling the behavior and wouldnt let me sit out when i had an injury she had screaming fights with my mother and never gave me any validation this atmosphere made me feel really bad about myself so i left last year though when i was i decided that i wanted to come back to the team not because of the people but because it was the only synchro team in my area and i rediscovered my love for skating the girls have since been nicer and im close with them now but my coach is still the same she tells me that she didnt like me before and to stop crying when im upset just today i spilled a little soda and she gave me a death glare she tells other girls on the team that she loves them but never to me i just wish that i had a coach that would bring me up and not make me feel like shit,3.0 51132,depressive cycle ive had depression for about years now but it isnt really constant it rotates in pretty consistent cycles of months does anybody else experience this ive never talked to any other depressed person who has a similar experience,3.0 51133,mattgalloway thanks for the hook up with carlyrush and suggesting me again bro you rock ,0.0 51134,telling me others have it worse doesnt make me feel better i know its suppsoed to put my life into perspective and remind me that yes i actually do have it a lot better than a lot of people living in third world countries and such butit doesnt usually work i dunno i guess im just selfish sometimes it makes me feel guilty but it doesnt change me being sad,3.0 51135,missjia girl anytime we gotta support each other you have wonderful day today,0.0 51136,at least i get to do it earlier than everyone else a hee hee hee lol,0.0 51137,freeeeench i cant concentrate,2.0 51138,my throat feels weird ,2.0 51139,cocabeenslinky makes me feel sad that people who were lovely and supportive of our moonwalk feel twitter is hurting them ,2.0 51140,back to work today after over a week off its so hot outside,2.0 51141,sahilk fast we are yes,0.0 51142,camiloarthur that sucks im sorry,2.0 51143, boxing game thing ,0.0 51144,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 51145,idealities my mum has the highest fucking expectations for me and im so tired of this so fucking tiredi must dress how she likes it i must eat what makes me skinny i must stand up straight i must keep my grades b or higher at school i must not grow up to be a lesbian i must look acceptable i must earn money i must use my talents to earn money i must i must i must i must be like her she wants me to be a fucking splitting image of her and i cant live up to that right nowi just cant i cant do this right now im trying so hard to not cry at school ive had to wear long sleeves everywhere because of my self harm scars when i ask her about my possible mental health problem she completley ignores me i dont wanna self diagnose myself but it gets so hard to sleep at night i just stare at the ceiling i always fidget with clothing and pens and im always so scared so fucking scared is this anxiety the hurricane in my head i cant think about anything and it hurts so muchand nobody needed to hear this,3.0 51146,today is my last day of lectures before exams and tbh im proud of myself this is such a milestone in my mental health,0.0 51147,i might kill myself i dont like where my life is heading anymore i keep trying and trying to the point where i just give in to my thoughts i have no special traits im useless i barely do anything i have severe anxieties and depression i easily get manipulated and used but i tend to think as long as im being used then i have a reason to live i live and live till nobody needs me anymore im just a toy life is boring really boring nothing is fun anymore sure im young i still have a lot of time left with life but fuck each day is excruciating and depressing my panic attacks make me sleepless i get anxious each day and night i either oversleep or undersleep i barely feed myself because i am too tired to consume anything im underweight and i cant do anything to fix it im considering killing myself if the next few months have nothing in store for me i cut on a daily basis everyone knows i cut cutting is the only thing calming me down it helps me im covered in scars and red marks and bruises i look tired and pale all the time i dont want anyone to see that so i hide myself i avoid communication my panic attacks got triggered again today people are coming over today so i have to force a lifeless smile i dont know where my blade is so i am angry about that ive been cutting for a year or two now and ive been depressed and anxious for almost six years now,3.0 51148, and ive just woke up i hate that but ifs all with it for that great oasis show last night ,2.0 51149,lukalvsemwet we have to let me know when i have too many tabs up on firefox and end up missing loads ,2.0 51150,hates working on sundaysshouldnt have went out the night before hour enery shot dont fail me now,2.0 51151,tigermarketing i highly recommends you join you can earn money from free shareholder by dividends even you do nothing ,0.0 51152,sodamglamorous i know huh,2.0 51153,going to suicide because i was limitless but lost it all by limitless i mean i was like the guy from that movie who took that drug which made his mind increase fold years ago began changing my life stopped going on the internet began eating well and exercising daily socialising more reading daily studying dailyintelligence starting dramatically increasing all of a sudden started becoming very creative and entrepreneurial had extremely clear mind was very smart started getting high marks for complicated subjects at university was going to start online business was always happy optimistic had an inner believe that i would be successful anyway got employed at a local accounting firm started spending all day on the computer hated the work i was doing started developing brothel addiciton started getting addicted to internet surfing and video gamesmind starting getting destroyed had daily brain fog lost intelligence feel depressedno longer smart no longer have an inner belief ruined dopamine levels some how want to kill myself will no loner be successful ,3.0 51154,i am eating chinese food bad for the waist but good on taste love the peppered chicken,0.0 51155,im having trouble fighting through the darkness and finding the light again ive struggled with depression since i was i am on medication but i also had my dog who was prescribed to me as well he did a lot better for me than the medications did on the best days so o got to where i relied on him more and the meds lessalmost a year ago he died he was being puppy sat as i had to leave town and for the first time in his life i couldnt take him he had a seizure and drowned in the peoples pool who was watching him no one was there to watch himits killed me ive slipped into the darkest parts of my head and no matter the heavy doses of medications ive been put on i cant climb out ive gained weight but i dont eat getting out of bed is a constant battle but i have another dog to take care of and shes the only reason i do my parents arent very encouraging either constantly telling me im stupid and he was just a dog for them that may be true but ive had him since i was yes he was yes he was old and would be leaving me anyways but that doesnt fix the fact that a huge fragment of my soul died with himim not sure what i expect from this post maybe someone out there is struggling with a sort of same situation as me i just dont want to feel as dumb as my family says i am i hate that this is the situation i cant get out of it honestly sucks and the worst part is that july will mark a year and that will make it even worse im sorry for the rambling,3.0 51156,caught man flu from her man dude no more kissy kissy time damn you ,2.0 51157,clean la salsa tortilla chips have a weird aftertaste goodnight,0.0 51158,tw suicidethis song helps me so much when im feeling suicidal and has been for years one of my favorites and httpstcomqewbwpbrk,1.0 51159,williamsharonwilliams i have the mike and everything if that is what you mean this is all so new to me lol,0.0 51160,fourgasm aww that sucks ,2.0 51161,ready for the bad traffic again ,2.0 51162,yqed hellotxtfeedcom looks perfect but the site is down that doesnt bode well,2.0 51163,weerrkkking to and all the while preparing my body to give blood and save lives at toooonight ,0.0 51164,titanic on tnt i swear i can watch this movie a million times and still cry ,2.0 51165,the kid is asleep stomach is full wine in hand and house is filled with the girlfriends laughter this is true happiness le sigh ,0.0 51166,which crimes are most worth going to prison for which crimes are most worth going to prison for i think murder must be truly rewarding it end the life of one and potentially ruins the lives of many others,3.0 51167, we could be seeing christofer drew right now like this is depressing instead were connecting a piece of literature and abook,2.0 51168, i personally dont have any of these myself maybe minor depression that kicks on occasionally but n ,2.0 51169,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 51170,princesammie i like the song quotlovehatesexquot ,0.0 51171,guess no then ,2.0 51172, wish i saw the nadal vs djokovic matchwouldve been awesome always a pleasure watching nadal play ,0.0 51173,queengeorge awww maths revision sucks do you want me to drop your party bag over before work,2.0 51174,whats wrong with me before we start things off i want to clearly address the fact that i dont believe im depressed i just didnt know what other subreddit to post this too as i dont know what to call what im feelingim an eor old male freshman at a relatively large university around undergrads in the south im a conservative im single and i live offcampus i moved to this city for school for a girl who cheated on me days after my arrival back in august since then ive made attempts to gain friends and ive gained a really really good friend who lives in a town closeby and who i share classes with my problem is people of the opposite gender im friendly with a lot of girls but with the couple ive tried to pursue relationships with i always fall short im on tinder and bumble every girl i have interest in doesnt have interest in me and every girl who has interest in me i dont have interest in her ive made a lot of positive changes in my life since coming to college i have lost put myself in more social loose situations that id normally never do im alot more positive than i used to be and a lot more considerate and i would consider myself above average at conversation i dont get nervous speaking to women or stutter or anything really its just i feel like im in between leagues with no real match its been this way since august and now its valentines day and i still dont have a relationship or hell even a hook up its not like all im focusing on is getting with a girl either its just something i figured wouldve happened by now,3.0 51175,i need a hug can someone send me a hug please,3.0 51176,finished training like a firefighter fir the day and now its back to fixing computers and other lame stuff ,0.0 51177,clothesw thank you ,2.0 51178,spent the day window shoppingfell in love with a stunning ring set that i cant possibly afford right nowso very sad ,2.0 51179,apples to apples with the girls back in long island then ihop i wish this sunburn would peace out,0.0 51180,ufoguy ah yesthat was it i only tried to follow because i cant so i guess ff me ,2.0 51181,urgh my shoulder hurts ,2.0 51182, no worries i totally own my pesky yankness ,0.0 51183,stephxrod did you steel any ones best friend lately ,0.0 51184,heatherbbyyy man i used to talk mad twitter shit now look at me lol,2.0 51185,went on a hot date with a cute boy ,0.0 51186, how exciting was it wgen we went to colour tv lol showing my age here ,0.0 51187,i want food ,2.0 51188,rt liltinyisabel im sad because i feel so ugly,2.0 51189,wookiesgirl fair enough sweetie ill take as many of you as i can getlol,0.0 51190,petitelove ugh that sucks but you need to start using your bbso that we can bbm,2.0 51191,thecolorjenny my insides hate me probably aaronbondroff i wish they still had the monopoly ,2.0 51192,phantomzangel but the person who you look up to has put us down i still like aaron though,2.0 51193,to another city to another game ,0.0 51194,just getting ready to go to bed hope today turns out better than yesterday ,2.0 51195,ashneenan ah thats good then id worried id spoiled you already i will refrain from making twitter updates haha ,0.0 51196,yo system crashed if yur expecting mixes today its probably not gonna happen manana tho,2.0 51197,saddlesdirect sent you a few photos of my own hope you have a chance to come to vancouver to take some of your own sometime ,0.0 51198,youcollme and youre right about the new tumblarity too it sucks ,2.0 51199,i am now brushing my teeth oh look i have a text ,0.0 51200, i need to call you againi forget when youre heading abroad ,2.0 51201,pretty sure i am a psycopath i have always had trouble trying to understand what others feel i dont feel sad when i see someone really sad or happy when someone is excited i have known this since i was very young and for all my life i have been trying to understand those things i dont understand how friends or family members communicate with each other how their discussion topics steer from one point to other along with a dash of humor for me things always go in a logical way i would try to reason and think for everything being discussed before speaking up i am a college student my friends would discuss about the problems with college life and others would join in chorus talking how it affects them and my mind goes straight to thinking what can i do to solve and improve the situation someone would say that he likes oreos and i would point out how the sugar compounds in the cream make brain release dopamine others would say i like it too i have learned such small things and am slowly learning to create such a fake conversation i also dont like talking about other people and gossip really bores me i dont trust new people easily i remember when i was a kid i would use my intellect to manipulate others i no longer do that i feel like i am always serious and tense which is why i dont have any real friends but merely acquaintances each and every decision i make is utility based and never have i considered my or the happiness of others in my case i simply dont know what would make me happy and so i go based on utility best university more moneyin other peoples case i do get some idea of what they may want when i think hard about it basing on my past experiences but i have never been able to do so quick enough to influence my decision it usually is more of an afterthought i dont have trouble communicating since i have always been excellent in debates speeches and presentations and have won competitions as well i am extremely confident while on stage or even a onetoone conversation which has a clear purposeis there anyone else who has trouble with this,3.0 51202,rt if you define getting help as being turned away then yes canadian youth are getting help ,0.0 51203,its so damm hot here played a bit with prelink but somehow dont like it hope my classmates will go with me fishing tomorrow ,2.0 51204,oh what the hale its starting to rain no biking for me today,2.0 51205,just talked to thomas for a good amount of time about everything cause thats how we are ive missed him soooo much too long,2.0 51206,theacademyliz their guitarist is inwriting for anberlin nowi think thats the closest we are going to get ,2.0 51207,lynneeezy i dont even know lol but yeah i cant wait we should just make full course dinner though lol ,0.0 51208,itsmejlee ahhh um my house is kinda messy right now too im just too uncomfortable to do anything about it i feel ya tho ,0.0 51209,wondering where she can get some candy right now reallamarodom any suggestions ,0.0 51210,my own little bubble ,0.0 51211,what my depression tells me another way of looking at i know how you feel been putting off my first post here for quite some time but it feels somewhat doable today so im gonna jump inthe following is a list of things my brain has told me over the years which i now recognize as false depression loves keeping me away from facing the anxiety and other emotions i feel instead sealing me in this purgatory where i abuse screens to hide away from fear shame and guilt maybe youll recognize some of these thoughts in your own life or get a perspective for how they feel true but arent apologies ahead of time dont know how to format yet on reddit and im on mobile also long warning the time has passed you by frame of mindyoure and you havent been to uni yet your life is wastedi havent accomplished anything in my life yeteveryone around me is doing better than i ampeople younger than me are way happier and harder workingif i havent accomplished anything yet i wont be able to when im olderim always going to be as alone as i feelam right nowthe me vs everyone else frame of mindother people have it so much worse why arent i happyi have it easy i should be happythe fact that im on a computerphone right now means im luckier than most people why dont i act that waywhy cant i get a bfgf when its so much easier for everyone elseive ruined all my relationships with my friends why do i eat fast food all the time when i see friendsothers eating at fancy restaurantsi should end it so other people dont have to pick me up all the timeall my relationships feel onesided why am so never the strong oneeveryone likes my sibling more than methe selfpity frame of mindim not good enough to cook for myselfi dont deserve to be happyhaving fun is worthless i should be working hardat schoolnothing feels fun to me anywayi dont know enough to be able to talk about thatmy opinion doesnt matteryou cant even get up early youre patheticthe perfectionism frame of mindi didnt meditate in the morning so ill just do it tomorrow at night is a waste ill just do it in the morningsundaymonday were garbage ill be better next weekjust because i had a small success today doesnt make me successfulyoull only be happy when you have a full time jobare in school fulltimeexercise is meaningless today unless i do it tomorrow tooi need to have a string of good days to make a difference anything less is a wasteas i write this i realize that there are billion versions of this talking to myself that ive experienced i can recognize that they are almost always unhealthy frames of mind or that they hold me back from becoming healthy or even allowing myself to feel happiness that being said i still cannot overcome these thought patterns most of the time but just recognizing them at all is a big healthy step if you recognize any of these as familiar or if you have some of your own that feel strong i urge you to share as i said in the title i know how you feeloften times that can be a very hard thing to hear from someone because they simply cant understand what youve experienced or what your emotions tell you everyone lives a unique journey to some degree but there is more crossover than you believe there is i want the list above to prove that i have gone thru very similar challenges as you have i want you to allow yourself to hear that other people face much the same fearguiltshameetc that you do and that there will always be someone who can listen that understands at least partiallynext time that someone tells you they know how you feel even if that isnt possibly true just stop and think about how that phrase makes you feel what is your depression telling you about it are they a liar are they just saying it to make themselves feel better are they just reaching for that because they dont know what else to sayor maybe its the opposite maybe theyve been thru some stuff and you could learn something from them taking a moment to think how true your thoughts are can be hugely beneficial question what your mind is telling you is this thought a blockade from facing harder emotions or is it factual im nowhere near done my journey and im going to need many hands up off the ground to be able to get thru it just writing this post is a hard step tbh again i would love to hear from you if anything in the list felt familiar to you or if you just want to talk in the comments,3.0 51212,feeling tense today not a fan i need a pickmeup jason leaves for sd tonight ,2.0 51213,i loved seeing u ash i hope we can do it again soon i love u goodnight ,0.0 51214,jlovesjonas ill make sure to show them ,0.0 51215,rt neverknownfacts not having enough sleep per day leads to desire for sex depression and alcoholism,1.0 51216,wpspamfree ok thanks ,0.0 51217,just broke up with da bf ,2.0 51218,i want to badly hurt myself just to see who cares i barely have any family or friends and the few i have dont seem to care i know im awful for thinking about doing something like that but i wonder if anyone would actually miss me or go visit me at the hospital,3.0 51219,blumorningglory we have rabbits in our yard that keep chloe restlessand us too some nights ,0.0 51220,aedrianshaene nice ,2.0 51221,lost at monopoly again what a reflection of life ,2.0 51222,jerricaperez thats great i hope ill study with my bff too and well live together wellwe will see ,0.0 51223,yo this and pregnant show on mtv is sad to me i feel bad for the girl n her mom,2.0 51224,warlach curse ye have fun at it i miss doing online pr for paramount pics ,2.0 51225,nambu getting some good reviews as an alternative to tweetdeck sadly mac only ,2.0 51226,imtiredof i am lost please help me find a good home ,2.0 51227,gtvjohn thank you ,0.0 51228, thank u ,0.0 51229,i wish i wish i knew what to do anymore my brain wont stop thinking all these awful thoughtsi wish i was never skint for years and years i wish i wasnt this completely fucked mentallyi wish i wasnt in huge student debt i wish i didnt have a completely failed career path in universityi wish i didnt self medicate every day with weed and alcohol to cope with my problemsi wish i wasnt so jealous and envious of people being much more successful than me and fighting the thoughts all the time so i dont turn bitter towards others who never deserve such treatmenti wish i gained accomplishment and happiness from helping others and trying to make other people smile and feel happyi wish i didnt care what other people think of me so that i felt more at peace at myself but instead the opposite happens so i get paranoid all the timei wish my mother was happier and not struggling all the time and feeling like such a failure towards her i wish she knew how much i want to make her proudi wish i felt accomplishment from losing all this weight but instead i feel more anguish insteadi wish i had a purpose in life instead of sleeping inside a bedroom that is a complete mess because my mental health made me stop caringi wish these antidepressants and therapy sessions workedi wish i didnt feel like i was a burden to other people in real life and on reddit i wish i had stable friendshipsi wish i didnt feel so tired ill and drained all the timei wish that the only girl that i loved didnt ditch me and soon get pregnant with another boy so young and i feel it didnt break me as much as it didi wish i didnt break down in tears all the timei wish i could love againi wish i felt like a normal human being for oncei wish my mental health got better for oncei just wish that life wasnt so fucking complicated,3.0 51230,why should we even try i think life isnt worth living and im also an antinatalist i am not going to commit suicide but i want to die i am not depressed i can do everything go work and all of that so these thoughts arent caused by a chemical imbalance but just rational thinking and philosophywhy are you all trying to like life people assume life has some value like if it was a scientific fact or something why should we try to live our lifes,3.0 51231,goodbye sad empty apartmentwe had some great times ,2.0 51232,im depressed and its over a relationship ive been going through a break up for the last months and its been hell on earth for me i can never seem to stop thinking about her and shes kinda always on my mind im tired of feeling upset and just wanting her back we started dating around the beginning of july and it ended because she just played the i just need a friend card it hit me hard and she kept telling me after that i dont need to say i love you because you already know that and she still talked to me and acted kinda like we were still together but we werent she keep being ominous about dating and here own feelings but she led me on still with talking sexually and always facetiming that was probably my fault for staying in contact but i just couldnt help it because i love her and a month ago she and i fought about it and i kinda said im done with this because i dont want to be upset over this she said keep your word and leave be fake like everyone else mr im gonna fight for you my ass is what she said and she was right i did want to fight for her but she told me not to talk to her ever againi just cant help but cry and be sad over this and it just seems like ill never get over this i just would like some help i always seem to get like this whenever a relationship ends it seems i can only be happy when im in a relationshipany help or advice would greatly help ,3.0 51233,im getting tired of this world mentally and physically i am at my wits end im stressing reliving painful memories and always everyones second choice no one really cares they say it but its not true my depersonalization just makes it worse i feel disconnected from everyone and everything including my family and girlfriend,3.0 51234,gracedent not even worth looking at the odds for friday after the hide and seek episode similarly we are stuck with sree for ages now ,2.0 51235,stampgarden pretty i hope i win ,0.0 51236,game time lets get it cavs,0.0 51237,progress with gsa information its looking up as of right now ,0.0 51238,shaydechelle of course i will u guys are always on my mindi miss u all xoxo,0.0 51239,hookbill thanx a million i appreciate it,0.0 51240,mrsmccracken lmfao me too ah im walking to school amp my stomach is still yelling,2.0 51241,in the car on the way home d verysad ,2.0 51242,rt slaytargaryen now we have to tell goats not all men stress ,0.0 51243,a quick vent about why depression has made me tougher ok so a couple years back i was struggling with depression and once got to the point of holding a knife in front of my abdomen prepared to stab myself but to at least allow a better chance of survival but i turned away from it in the end before that day i was a cheery person who had a long fuse now i have what i would say is a dr jeckal and mr hyde scenario if im happy and all that im fine and normal if someone breaches the wall i will not hesitate to hit them if i know theyll be fine with it and i will enter my stone personalityquick disclaimer only my friends have broken the wall and the hitting is full force yes but they are fine afterword the worst ive dealt someone is a bruise the wall is relatively hard to breech but once it has been it takes about a day or so for my additude to fade offsemioff topic story one time in school we had a mental health meeting and me and my friend were talking about it later and they were saying how my life is good because of the money my family has i come from a long line of lawyers and that i should be happy and that my depression couldnt be that bad saying that my struggle wasnt real is one of the wall breakers from that point forward ive just constantly been reminded that depression isnt fixed by moneybut back to the topic at hand my stone personality is bacically i will not hesitate to put anyone who annoys me into a headlock if they continue and im not quite sure where it stems from maybe someone could think of a cause my depression was sort of kickstarted during a summer because i didnt do anything and my brain needs something to do otherwise it turns darkif youve made it to this line i thank you for taking a couple minutes of your day to read my long rant ,3.0 51244,baileejane i tried but my computer is working ,2.0 51245, great shows at jones beach especially last night in the rain wish i was going up to great woods but just days to bonnaroo ,0.0 51246,citizenfish wow is that an original quote excellently stated far too many quotadultsquot behave like little children in relationships,0.0 51247,httpisgdtgge youth kills father for not voting to chiranjeevi ,2.0 51248,can genesis overcome social anxiety and gamer jerks to win in virtual gamedomand life ya retrogames vr ,2.0 51249,justinmwhitaker hahaha yes and so true of most things that are coming soon huh ,0.0 51250,it is a bit quiet now that you cannot see the replys ,2.0 51251,veronicasmusic lookin and soundin great ladies ,0.0 51252,smosh my anxiety and i will always win cuz we pull the trigger prematurely,1.0 51253,ok i sent that message to ted murphy last night its not really funny anymore curse you twitter,2.0 51254,aplusk dont care about us oregon tweeps ,2.0 51255,alexcritelli silas doesnt have twitter anymore i have less hottie to stalk ,2.0 51256,people dont give a fuck about your depression unless you are good looking ugly and depressed people are not treated like humans in this society and i cant stand it,3.0 51257,the thing i hate most about depression is how you can seem so normal to everyone else and youre drowning a recurrent thought i have is im trapped below water and i fight my way to the surface im taking gasps or breath but then im tugged below again this is a vicious cycle its like sometimes i make headway i swim and i take more air than normal but then im dragged to the abyss again over and over i love life and ive fought so hard to be here but this feeling is so familiar so the thing i hate about depression is feeling like you might make it to shore but no matter how hard you fight you quite never do,3.0 51258,star phoenix reporter is coming to town amp dog day wont be able to make their bruno debut ,2.0 51259, brianlittrell remember my shirt i might use it next week,0.0 51260,star trek wasnt half as lame as i thought it would be its for sure worth seeing especially in imax ,0.0 51261,rt hoecry ur wcw sleeps for hours at night and still takes a fat depression nap when she gets home its me im ur wcw,2.0 51262, sad why are they so stupid racism not so say anymore mfers,1.0 51263,rt this is what logging elephants suffer each amp every day this is their sad reality this is why we must come together end t,2.0 51264,free from all depression and worry for the first time in years then back again in hours what the fuck yesterday i had an epiphany that allowed me to be happy and my whole reality shifted but only temporarily and now i cannot be happy no matter how hard i try has anyone experienced this,3.0 51265,bradiewebbstack how much have you drunken haha you are so cute xo,0.0 51266,im so alone everything is falling apart in my life its been a long time since my last post in this sub why am i still herei started my therapy i started taking my meds nothing workedwhy am i always alone why am i so fucking different from other people i just want to live a normal life but its like theres something that denies me to live my lifei cant get a job i cant study i never had a relationship or a serious connection with someone because im so disgusted by myself is this life no one deserve to live like thishow am i going to be in the future a disgusting creature a failure of society i literally dont have a reason to live and even if i find something my nihilism will destroy everythingim alone in the morning afternoon when i go to the bed i never loved someone i never felt loved how is it to have someone who cares about you who hugs you during the night when your anxiety and depression are killing you how is it to matters to someone in this big universe i dont know and it will probably get worse in the futurenothing will get better some people are born to live like this and im starting to accept this i needed a place like this to vent even though no one can really help me from myself,3.0 51267,did i also mention it will be my moms birthday this sunday ,2.0 51268,rt lifecheating calm is a super power dont let stress kill your happiness,1.0 51269,voiceofchill waddup girl were proud of you ,0.0 51270,jasminebarton smelly are you okay i love you xxx,0.0 51271,sizzlin bacon sunflower seeds yes bacon does make everything better ,0.0 51272,saturday at work now but tonight dinner with my friend l and relaxing nice quiet weekend,0.0 51273,i get anxiety over the weirdest things,2.0 51274,laurawrsaurus well the smaller ones are the more poisonous ones their teeth just cant puncture skin ,0.0 51275,brianmadden they have been up there since at least sept would love to see a kevin goodman session on them though,0.0 51276,longhand google maps ,0.0 51277,normal im new to reddit this is my first post i have found some peace in knowing im no where near alone in my struggles thanks to this i just want to put this in writing i would kill to be normalagain to genuinely laugh again to feel joy again pleasure joy elation looking forward to being productive happy and hopeful all things ive forgotten how they feel all i know is numb sadness frustration hopelessness guilt failure shame anxiety loneliness in a room full of people and wishingpraying i would just die i wont hurt myself i have kids but god its so hard to be a good mom when most days its all i can do to breath and blink ive basically become a shutin i have anxiety attacks when i have to go get toilet paper ffs i just want the pain and the never ending negativity to stop ive tried everything i can see my dr take my meds try coping mechanisms its hard to shower let alone muster up the energy to exercise im sick of hearing dig yourself out of it put on your big girl panties get over it snap out of it and it will get better get some fresh air i would fucking sleep outside if fresh air worked ive started telling people unless youd say that to a cancer patient diabetic or someone in a fucking wheel chair dont say it to me im tired of being asked what caused it im tired of trying to explain why its so god damn hard to do normal daily things mostly im just fucking tired this shit is exhausting my insurance wont pay for rtms or ect so im signing up for clinical trials of invasive treatments im that kind of desperate i just want to thank everyone on here who shares it is nice to be able to read and say things and other people totally get it ,3.0 51278, i just dont get how people can be this cruel and heartless to animals really saddens me ,2.0 51279, he didnt show up dang it ,2.0 51280,tayswiftluvrr ooh thats what i need foodenjoy ur lunch and napsee ya ,0.0 51281,brandempire ait was the only time they cud meetbur welcome come withclast fri didnt finish till so do i get over time ,0.0 51282,sharondv i love it i think the stroked out text was right ,0.0 51283,my day is far from over damn this sucks ,2.0 51284,thompsonlive but why would you just need the battery ,0.0 51285,i liked a youtube video httpstcodjxwswnxdb overcome depression and anxiety motivational video very powerful,2.0 51286,check out my sonar spotify playlist wish i was going ,2.0 51287,serenajwilliams hi serena just want to say good luck in madrid and paris this month ,0.0 51288,datjimilly good way to cure my depression finger gungs click click bang bang 😎,2.0 51289,sfanb but eventually i will find a real job and then the fun will stop wah,2.0 51290,damn sunday morning alonebummer ,2.0 51291,watching hotel for dogs wiff mommy grandpa and the dogs ,0.0 51292,taylamccloud how about stephen mulheren ,2.0 51293,yeah gt,2.0 51294,rt realkentmurphy on a serious note now every rt this tweet gets it sends cents to support mental health programs so do your thing t,1.0 51295,pool day ,0.0 51296,its such a bummer when the fabric you want isnt available in the quantity you need ,2.0 51297,haha my dad signed in to my twitter some how lol i dont care about david cameron no more mod studs woop woop ,0.0 51298,susan boyle should have won the bgt her voice is amazingbut i guess for some people this is not enough ,2.0 51299,those signs really hit different ever notice how some post have family members in quotations imo thats when they dont really see them as family but more as a label what do you think,3.0 51300,when you leave your friend with a sad headcanonthought just as she pops offline so you patiently wait for your dem ,0.0 51301,being a ghost of socializing every time i talk to someone and another person joins in they forget about me and only focus on that person but if the same persons talk again i talk to them they ignore memy friends are a year older than me as they left school i was lonely months later i seemed to find new friends but they seem to start ignoring as well its always like that if im in a group im the one who gets forgotten sometimes i just leave and i dont feel like they noticed even people who do like me do that its not their fault i just feel like i was made to be ignoredi get talked over they look awayif im trying to be part of the conversation just say a quick no and keep talking i can cry while being with them they wouldnt noticeim just tired of it i dont know what i should doi dont want that much attention id get panic attacks if i did but i just want some attention how do i get a little bit of attention dont tell me i should dress differently i already do that not for attention just bc i like that,3.0 51302,rt slxdrinkamy andy samberg is a golden retriever of people that was put on this world to make others happy hes an incredible human,0.0 51303,signalnoise retweet contest will drop at atlantic time check your timezones httpbitlyyabqu,0.0 51304,i dont know anymore before i start i want to begin with that im a m that just finished my first semester in college and i recently was able to become reconnected with the other half of my family last year which is niceanyways i want to say it hasnt always been like this in fact i wouldnt even say that i have depression unless im wrong but it started during when i was still in high school and i got made fun of in the middle of class daily without the teachers doing much about it and ive been told to just kill myself multiple times and pretty much became a laughing stock for that whole year but ive also had friends to at least help forget my problems but after graduation i moved so i dont talk to them anymore ever since then my thought process has been pretty much oh itll be easier to die then continue with all this and that going on whenever im around people in public i can somewhat seem like a clown and nobody ever takes me seriously but whenever its night and it started to become a daily thing in all i can think about is just offing my self and crying simply because itll be easier to escape from everything i have to deal with such as becoming more and more into debt and overall feeling worthless do i want to kill myself of course not in fact i enjoy making others laugh and i actually wanna be a twitch streamer sounds silly right so i can give people somewhere to laugh when times are tough but i dont think thatll ever happen with anyways to end this off i wouldnt say i have depression maybe you guys can tell me whats going on but i needed to put this out there to vent i suppose and you guys can give your cents,3.0 51305,learning exams ,2.0 51306,themusicjury goooooood call out ,0.0 51307,new post my thoughts on netflix reasons why as a mental health sufferer and former bullied teen ,2.0 51308,i would like to have a vacation but i dont ever get any time off ,2.0 51309,fashionismylife just giving shouts to all my peoples in twitterville ,0.0 51310,i am in euphoria i am very excited at the possibilities of this hopefully this situation works its way out for the better ,0.0 51311,i want to die disclaimer i dont have depression but i have psychosis so experience depression as a symptomi want to die i have nothing to live for i dont have any friend or girlfriend all my friendships were superficial i never cared for anyone and i think nobody cared for me either the only way i could draw any attention in school and life was by goofing around once i stopped nobody really noticed me anymore but i want somebody for real somebody who can understand me and know me for who i am really without judgement thats never going to happen because i choosed the loney life i live alone in this dark appartment without anyone comming to visit me not even family because i never really tried to be friend with them i can feel that they dont like me also i dont like them much either they always judge me and teach me lessons they think they know whats the best for me even though im a grown menthe only thing i do is my job i dont care about it not very good at it anyways i would love to be someone with this current job its not going to happen i dreamed of being an scientist or engineer but i dropped out college i never stick to my intentions this way nobody will care about me i wont be popular people will think low of me i will be just regular guyim a failure i cant loose weight cant stop smoking too lazy to do workoutsfor what purpose would i even do it ive been smoking for on and off for years i tried workouts every new yearif the trend continues i think i wont make it even if something magicaly happens i dont think i will want it i dont want anything anymore nothing,3.0 51312,akatsuukki ehanjay beneran wow selamat kakak selamat bertahan hidup seminggu ke depan w juga gatau kenapa ini b ,1.0 51313,my footballsoccer team lost need to win remaining games to stay up ,2.0 51314,lms if depression be ruining your sleep cycle 👍👍👍😞,2.0 51315,do you think its possible to treat depression with herbs hello so i have diagnosed pdd generalised anxiety disorder and panic disorder was in therapy for a lot of years was taking antidepressants the whole spiel im not someone who takes mental health problems lightly last time ive had a depression screening done half a year ago i was moderately depressed which is kind of the usual however due to different reasons mostly around the mental health care system in my country non usa i stopped taking my antidepressants about months ago and about a month ago started using st johns wort drops instead i think its still too early to see if it works tho i do feel a bit better might be placebo and it seems like additional cup of chamomile tea in the evening helps me fall asleep so i was wondering if any of you have some experience with herbs and longer term effects of them,3.0 51316,awe you okay,2.0 51317,what do people see in life i cant think of a more pointless thing than living i cant think of a better blessing than never being born im female and have been on and off about my attitude towards life but the older i get the more i realise it is an absolute waste of time why would i want to study for so long and then go work for the rest of my life what do i get out of that absolutely nothing excites me about the concoction of bills cooking exercise work growing old with health problems and having a family if you ask me that sounds like absolute hell not to mention i am extremely unhappy with my appearance as in i never want to live with someone who will have to look at me without any make up there is apparently a very high chance i am infertile and i could not be happier about that this probably means i will never have to settle down and get married yay i am terrified of childbirth and i could never be a mother i dont even like kids at all infertility just gives me another reason as to why life is pointless sure i love being alone but there comes to a time where i will realise ive had my good run im just wasting space now and end it all for good i have been quite happy lately despite my life going downhill but even when i am feeling joyful i always remind myself i can kill myself whenever i want and that life will never be bad because i wont be alive to experience struggles there is no point to life i am not good at anything academically or as a hobby i only find joy in youtube browsing the internet video games and reading quite frankly i dont want to be interested i have this overwhelming apathetic feeling towards everything like it is too much energy to try and be an interesting person maybe thats why i enjoy my own company and i will end it once i get bored enough,3.0 51318,testing updates from my phone i hope this works ,0.0 51319,mileycyrus im rely sad he he he but how can a humen be sad from his star u know u r the best miley keep on moving keep climbing,2.0 51320,is using twittermobile now iphone ftw ,0.0 51321,i tried to kill myself a few months ago and now i am thinking of doing it again i hated that i failed at killing myself i tried pills and cutting my wrist at the same time so there would have no been any chance of surviving but i was so stupid of posting a suicide note on instagram so some people went to my apartment and broked the door and took me to the clinici want to kill my self again i just want it to be painless i dont want to hang up my self or jump from my apartmenti want something like the pills or if i could find the way to buy a gun i want to shot my self fast and painlessi really just dont want to live anymore maybe i go with the pills and cutting my wrist again but make myself sure that i cant have access to phones or my pc so i dont make the same mistake again of posting anything in social mediai really wanted to be painless and a sure thingbecause of my failed attempt all my family knew and a lot of people knew my mother and my brothers are treating me really bad since them they say i am making them depressed and i cant make them understand that i cant change my depression i just cant say i am happy or act happy i think they hate me even if they dont say it and i understand them they have to live with me and my depression but i just cant change i been depressed all my life and now i just cant find my meds in my country there is a shortage of meds bassically i cant find any kind of antidepressants since almost a year agoi took fluoxetine since i was a teenager and a few years ago my doctor changed me to paroxetine i cant find any of them here in venezuela or even any other type of antidepressantsi dont know if it is the lack of taking the meds or what but i am just feeling suicidal all the time now before i was just depressed but i wasant feeling suicidal since i was that was my firs suicidal attempt that was a lot of years agonow i just dont wanna live anymore and i cant talk to anyone about it i tried to talk to some friends and they freaked out and didnt texted me again or answer my texts i cant talk to any member of my familythank you for reading my rant ,3.0 51322,i just wish i was a different person even if i became the person i wanted to be it wouldnt change the things ive done in the past physically i would still be the same i shouldnt exist,3.0 51323,watching the tonight show ,0.0 51324,otakuqlia ksjaksj same la mayoría q intento estar en algo a distancia conmigo ya se por si les dejaba en claro q f ,2.0 51325, we were supposed to get rain today but instead it was just cold and i just bought a bunch of sundresses ,2.0 51326,alainrussell google my geekzone blog for my herald stories about shane atkinson ,0.0 51327,am in a foul mood after crappy morning during which all my tech has decided to wage a war against me even my macs not playing ball ,2.0 51328,just went on a walk with the niece nephew and the puppy ,0.0 51329,tired of living a meaningless life im only i understand i might not understand things as someone who been through a lot of things but let me how it really is the first time something happened to me i was a child i was abused to the point of developing a speech problem i have scars on my body that will stay there for ever i was bullied to the point where i come home and spend few hours crying myself to sleep the first time i wanted to commit suicide i was years old i started to struggle with meaning and whats the point of living i constantly questioned if this world is just made to make me suffer you dont a lot of year olds thinking about this i was struggling so much when i turned and a half i attempted suicide but survived and was sent to the hospital i was misdiagnosed with so many things until i found out i have ocd with seasonal depression that occurs with psychosis and than goes away and gad with panic disorder im on of prozac and some benzodiazepines i been hurt so many times by my society parents girls friends all the people either used me or took advantage of me my therapist is trying so much with me than i literally feel that shes getting tired i keep apologizing to people that never give a shit about me and will never care i try to help people to the point where i feel useless but i never expect anything from them i feel so hopeless and so doomed to the point where i developed physical problems i cry none stop every day all because of memories and i usually cry on myself not people or anything i been treated like trash because of how nice i am what i have most people dont so i should be thankful i guess but whats the point if none really works im a state swimmer and on top of my class but this year i just gone down the hill and quit swimming and quit studying because i dont have motivation to even wake up i been in a depression episode since august of i just feel helpless and cant do anything if trained professionals are trying their best and they havent succeeded with me and i change therapists and psychiatrists every year,3.0 51330,soycamo im mainly on the web end of ruby more specifically rails totally agree with the freedom thing ,0.0 51331,yup ,1.0 51332,oh my gosh totally saddened by the fact that craig leaves for basic tomorrow but totally excited cuz i got fishing tackle whoo,2.0 51333,rt ladruggie me to me bitch you stress me out 😂,2.0 51334,this gave me the chills now im sad,2.0 51335, unfortunatly no more for me ,2.0 51336,so tired of it all ive always dealt with severe depression anxiety bpd and never really been a normal person lately it just feels like the entire world is crumbling and falling apart and part of my recognizes it and makes me want to do something to preparebut at the same time completely sapping all my energy and will to exist i think im using this crisis as a reason to finally die but have it not be my fault ive always wanted to kill myself i think about it a lot but ive never been able to go through with it its hard to care about work or friends or anything anymore because thats the point this is all going to be gone in a few weeks or months anyway so why try i just want this all to end i just want to fall asleep and never wake up because im just so fucking done,3.0 51337,rt peytonreedus ok please you guys i saw him smoke cigs in an equivalent of mins today and it made me sad please retweet,0.0 51338,im like a piece of a clock just performing my functions week in and week out almost exactly the same no social events no sex i look forward to the weekend of doing a different jobmy recruiter whose seemingly incapable of not being annoying asked me you do have fun do you i dont have any agency currently my consciousness matters little in my life,3.0 51339,meghnak i have lost count of how many email addresses i have dear i remember only when i need them ,0.0 51340,im really missing my real friends back home but happy i will soon make new ones,2.0 51341,rt marawilson trying to view my anxiety not as something menacing but just an annoying unwelcome presence like a neighbor in a s,2.0 51342,rt im in such an in between spotlike im not sad but im not exactly happy im just kind of here,0.0 51343,n csg dormir e to sad,2.0 51344,ctrlsdatacenter my pleasure hope to receive good service from you guys and nice to see you on twitter ,0.0 51345, yeah why ,0.0 51346,joelbirch weve banned junk foods sugar candy we eat only organic lots of raw foods and kids eat poultry only anybody can do it ,0.0 51347,i feel like im a waste of oxygen was the different kid in school and was always mentally isolated from others and ever since then ive been completely incapable of making friends irl because i dont know how to start conversations and terrible at small talk like talking about more of the profound things in lifeim usually really sarcastic and cynical and say stuff i shouldnt when i get too comfortable with someone and i fucking hate that part of myself im also fugly and hate revealing anything about myself guess my childhood contributed to the intense self hate i hadi was probably pretty all good before i turned then i actually discovered love made some good friendships but over time i either fucked it over till they get tired of my shitsince i inevitably ended with barely any friends whatsover and the people who remained didnt even talk i was always the person to start the convo everytime and theyd talk once in a month which continues to this dayi met a girl on a forum in october that year who was just like me and i resonated with her very well but being the emotional wreck i am and with a traumatic past hanging over me i do one of the stupidest things ever imaginable so that i dont look like im clingy to her so i stop texting her for a while and boom she disappeared i just feel so guilty and stupid and a waste of oxygen she was suicidal too so who knows what could have happenedidk life ever since then hasnt been the same ive tried frantically searching her through everyfuckingwhere on the internet the guilt of letting her down rips me day in and day out with constant nightmares and panic attacks ive looked for replacements for her as pathetic as it may sound but nobody wants to spare even a second nobodyand even the people who did say stuff like you deserve happiness because youre an amazing person smile because you arent the only sad person aroundor just im sorry to hear that after i rant like for half an hour but i digress theres honestly nothing they can do when a maniac is just frantically wishing he could just change the past somehow but thats something we all wish forjust been feeling lonely empty ever since then and ive become this mess that has been craving for any sort of connection even my best friend is slowly drifting im just and i feel like i dont know how long is this going to continue,3.0 51348,joelmadden awesome it doesnt come to dallas until the i believe ,2.0 51349,rt bestheel calling your gf fat on curiouscat just to dm her whats wrong babe when she sad tweeting httpstcogodfxqmanj,2.0 51350,cool 我家有cbs，��以看tony award開心開心開心 httpplurkcompyqcnt,0.0 51351,hand spinner tri fidget stress reducer adhd anxiety desk toy edc metal ball via ebay ,0.0 51352,rt healingmb forgiveness can lead to greater psychological wellbeing less anxiety stress and fewer symptoms of depression httpstc,2.0 51353,my house was robbed last night one car cash watch amp laptop stolenassholes,2.0 51354,had a great day at the beach and the pool looking forward to crabs and shrimp for dinner ,0.0 51355,losing my friend so my best friend whos a girl left for college last year and we were very close being a boy i find it hard to talk about my problems to many people but id always tell her even if i was suicidal etc and vice versa i knew she would be moving away and we promised to keep in good touch and whereas i tried to hold up my side of the deal she seems preocuppied with her college life and friends she was home for a few weeks for christmas and we met once she admitted to me she wanted to leave all of what was here behind her and that college was where she wanted to move onto i really dont want to lose her because im beginning to feel lost and very down any advice,3.0 51356,waiting to find out if this chick likes me ,0.0 51357,adobe should no more be the abode ,0.0 51358,found the last two tuner shops on tdu that i needed to find ,0.0 51359,haha i just noticed i spelled quotsalesquot wrong fail ,2.0 51360,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 51361,kristenjstewart you have such a strong personality for such a young woman when i was your age i was nothing more than a complete mess ,0.0 51362,simonfilmer and you ,0.0 51363,its way to warm to work ,2.0 51364,adamparnell i be theeok i suppose ,2.0 51365,stefinraleigh my phone gets such terrible reception home i have to go outside to talk cant wait til our contract is upin a year ,2.0 51366,i watch animal rescue videos on youtube and wish people got rescued like that for example hope for paws videos i find myself in a state quite like some of the dogs they show in need of rescue but people dont get rescued like that even though the situation can be quite similar i relate a lot to the dogs i see in those videos too bad nobody puts in that much effort to save humans,3.0 51367,paycheck is now every weeks instead of every month life just got more complicated ,2.0 51368,depression hits you like ,0.0 51369,anyone else hate social media stories also lives bc they show other people having fun together just at the same time that youre sitting alone in a dark room wishing you werent born also i see lots if things i wasnt invited to so thats always great,3.0 51370, todays panty pic i took this when i was taking self pics for my auction winner earlier ,0.0 51371,awwww lebronmaybe next yeargg magic congrats ,0.0 51372,back in the office its hot in here hatemonday,2.0 51373,am very boredd ,2.0 51374,just saw grand torino ,2.0 51375,how do i let people know without making it seem like im whoring for attention im so lonely i need help someone who will listen and tell me that its all gonna be okay i know it doesnt mean anything and its not gonna be okay but thats all i want just some sort of human connection eve if its fakeplease just tell me that its gonna be okay i really need it,3.0 51376,alzugaraytb jajaja re sad amiguis hablame al wsp te extraño,2.0 51377,trentreznor congrats on years ive been sober for years you have a ways to go to catch up with me a time machine would help ,0.0 51378,house is streaming slow tonightonly got to watch one episode ,2.0 51379,rt younggawhd my dog has really bad separation anxiety and every now and then when he thinks people are leaving this happens and i feel,2.0 51380,is proud of himself for solving a programming tutorial for uni course yeah for me,0.0 51381,pinapasaya ka noon inistress ka na ngayon,1.0 51382,see u in pcds concert lanalexander ,0.0 51383,packing tomorrow with a break to watch brooklyn ,0.0 51384,had a good night mostly moved into his new home it feels good to be with real family ,0.0 51385,heartbreakv ok sent ,0.0 51386,anyone waste time doing nothing i spent the last hour or two just switching between youtube reddit and some other websites spending no more than a couple of minutes on each i couldnt barely finish a single video on youtube and id just keep refreshing the home screen for a bit then checking reddit then some other forums then the game im afk in then repeat again its too much effort for me to even finish a video from start to finish let alone listening to music or even playing the game im afk in anyone else just feel like doing nothing feel like not wanting to live when you are depressed,3.0 51387, indie alternative indie pop chill step basically anything on koala kontrol suicide sheep and related to oh wonder,1.0 51388,depression and cleaning ive been in a pretty deep depression for a few months now when i am this depressed im too tired and unmotivated to take care of myself the worst part is i have been too depressed to take care of the house which has really impacted my relationship with my roommate i totally understand where she is coming from but she sees my explanation of depression as an excuse when ive said that it isnt an excuse and its a problem that i have to address and its my problem that should have never affected her needless to say i really could use some tips from anyone that can help me get out of bed and be more productive so i can be a better friend and roommate any suggestions ,3.0 51389,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 51390,game dayyyyy vs north central on the turf,0.0 51391,perceiving humanism the anxiety of sarah chalke httpstcodqexadjvdn cfp,2.0 51392,feegigglez yea it was bad we looked like the orlando magic out there lol do you need updates during the game it might not be pretty ,2.0 51393,the kickoff concert on the green has been cancelled keep an eye out for other smaller concerts later this summer,2.0 51394,ate my last apple ltemily,2.0 51395,smfh in tickets although i expected more still isnt cool all bro ,2.0 51396,nixing the movie going to read a book instead then pass out work at ,2.0 51397,im just gonna write whatever comes to me and hope someone replies im sorry if this is formatted badly but i just wanna describe this to someoneanyone else constantly thinking theyre not depressed that all this lack of motivation happiness confidence and interest are just side effects of you being a shitty person i dont even play video games that much anymore id rather watch youtube for hours because video games are too much effort am i even old enough to be depressed im only in grade but ive had experiences that could lead to something like depression right am i just complaining over nothing is this just being a teen do i just accept my failure and throw everything to the side because im hopelesssomeone just please reply so i know that someone can hear me,3.0 51398,mneylon my fault unfortunately two days late ffs,2.0 51399,ight yallgotta get my rest and sweat this flu out im still sick peace again i love everybody who made it out for me ,2.0 51400,lgreenberg neither have i ,2.0 51401,shagreenxo aw im glad the truth could do that then honestly im def buying your first published novel no lie ,0.0 51402,rt nvyoome me forcing my friends to listen to sad indie music when theyre in the car with me ,1.0 51403,seeing videos of the planet dying is a huge trigger for me it feels like when you already have depression the videos and articles about climate change and deforestation make me feel even worse i feel even more helpless than i already do i had an awesome day yesterday new job and celebrated my birthday but its overshadowed from triggers whats the point of living if the human race keeps shooting itself in the foot,3.0 51404,thx jesus for everything i know when i call on ur name all things are possible in my life thx thx thx ,0.0 51405,stepheneyre i miss you boy ,0.0 51406,amandalaur um i think your aim is a huge load of failsauce so ily gnight the boys will talk about whatevskis tomorrow,2.0 51407,rt khushsundar dont forget kathuan n unnaodont forget lynchingsdont forget deaths in atm queuesdont forget farmers committi,2.0 51408,parkbike why no what is the strange indicator of a poor economy chuddies about to talk about it on air ,0.0 51409,henriliriani even some of the elements are not so nativelooking the ui still looks pretty good ,0.0 51410, thanks mrsweetstuff ,0.0 51411,roytelm unfortunately that is ,2.0 51412,doing nothing ,0.0 51413,just brought the sims ,0.0 51414,coda crashes my system daily back to dw ,2.0 51415, it rained in westchester too its cold out and i shut my heat off weeks ago ,2.0 51416,sweating constantly ,2.0 51417,mr propp told me to stay on school ,2.0 51418,no king james kobe in games well i still have the cubs,2.0 51419,i am in a creative mood today yay finallymaybe ill get some layouts made,0.0 51420,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 51421,randbay yes just like a girl with a big forehead tht always wears bangs ,2.0 51422,can someone please talk to me i just wanna be able to cry my eyes out to someone and not be judged please i cant ha dle this anymore e,3.0 51423,damn im so fucking suicidal everything is so fucking overwhelming nobody will listen everything is so fucking chaotic to the point where the only singular clear thought in my head is suicide ive stopped thinking about whether theres life after death and at this point all i want is to just sleep and never wake uphelp lol,3.0 51424,fridays a good day ,0.0 51425,how you gonna be like yes im a professional in mental health and go tell a person who is suffering from certain ill ,0.0 51426,rt blingspice lana del rey sings about fucking old men dying and depressionme ,2.0 51427,talitresjolie lol aww man that sucks ,2.0 51428,ohwhat mosdef album drop preview on myspace httpwwwmyspacecommosdef,0.0 51429, clue for online location in under ,0.0 51430,is enjoyin the nice weather shame im in work ,2.0 51431,doggy woke me up but now its time to hit the gym,2.0 51432,is feeling a little wobblywhy oh why do we drink wine ,2.0 51433,rt nasirpasir johan nora kenapa tak buat kiki challengenora danish nanti depression kena kecamzizan jangan risau kalau kita d,2.0 51434,what was the reason you finally actually sought out professional help and how if at all did it improve your mental health ive been struggling with waves of depression since my early teens yo nowi definitely need professional help and would even receive free treatment from my insurance but still i cant seem to get myself to set up an appointment every time i get to the contact form i find a way to convince myself that ive actually been doing just fine these last few days – totally ignoring my spontaneous crying and sobbing outburst that led me to the contact form in the first place i also feel like if i set up an appointment in my current state i just wouldnt go its been like this for the last months now this is the worst wave thus far and it doesnt seem to stopi really hope i can get some helpful insight from someone whos been in a similar situation since all ive gotten from the people ive confided in is to just go and do it,3.0 51435,shamu can talk ,0.0 51436, heylooooooo can u believe maries gonna be a mumwot u doing todayx,0.0 51437, what did you think of gran torino we loved it and we pretty much hate most movies ,0.0 51438,is gutter that everyone seems to be going to see take that but yet im sat at home ,2.0 51439,no idea for tonight i thing i will spend my saturday night with my family maybe were going for dinner or something else ,0.0 51440,anyone feel no matter how hard they think there is no point in living life anymore i was thinking on this today morning and i realized just how horrible my life in has become i was fine up untill when i graduated college it was after that everything went to hell i lost all my friends my parents are controlling i dont have anyone i can love or talk to and no one i can dedicate myself to i just watch anime and code but beyond that there is nothing no supportive family no supportive friends i just feel alone lonely and like an outcast it truely pains me so much it feels as though i am just living without any purpose or meaning the only reason i havent killed myself yet is because i am too much of a coward to try does anyone feel this way ,3.0 51441,i want to kill myself just want to talk about my problems im so sad and lonely but this is how i want to be i dont know how to actually love myself and allow myself to be happy and everytime ive tried its ended bad idk i constantly just think about ending it all i honestly dont think my lifes that bad but i just sit here and i think of every bad aspect ever and it makes me not want to live i could be having such a good day and out of nowhere ill be bawling my eyes out idk whats wrong with me i am on medication i want a therapist but im afraid of actually talking to ppl face to face about my problems i want to die so bad i would feel so bad for my family because i know they care and its not like i think they dont i just feel like i cant go on feeling like this any longer thank u all for listening ,3.0 51442,jpdabest i remember them days but i gotta quit cause im gonna be goin to job corp ,2.0 51443,katahay i love the picture with you and taylor ,0.0 51444,emiliachi me toobeen here since and im here til got my investing in children group tonight too so its going to be manic,2.0 51445,rt innrengineering no work is stressful it is your inability to manage your body mind and emotions that makes it stressful sadhguru,2.0 51446,too lazy to moveim sure gonna miss these moments when school starts next week ,2.0 51447,i told my psychiatrist that everyone hates me he said i was being ridiculous everyone hasnt met me yet ,2.0 51448,pennyraine thats a real blessing all those bales and no rain ,0.0 51449,pureelite good luck with the exam ,0.0 51450,twopeasandpod yum is right ,0.0 51451,why does crying just make me feel worse crying is such a great outlet and physical relief for me but every time i do it mentally i feel so much worse i feel so weak and pathetic and like im giving in to my depression i wish i could just cry n get it over with and not feel so guilty abt it ,3.0 51452,good news finaly got the replacement ear pads for decent headphones bad news iphone headphone socket is shot time no really,2.0 51453,shuttle launch off again bum,2.0 51454,im actually tanned this is the first in a long time no doubt if i go in the sun for any longer ill just burn,0.0 51455,chrisdaughtry please come to singapore and stage a concert missed you guys first two showcases hope to hear from you guys soon,2.0 51456,rip beloved headband u will be missed,2.0 51457,does anyone else lie to themselves so much that they dont know whats real anymore i just lie so much to myself and other people that im not even sure if im telling the truth i try talking about my problems but i feel like what im saying is only half true not sure if what im saying right now is also just another lie does anyone else even have this problem ,3.0 51458,groleaunet yeah im being an ass today ,0.0 51459,im losing my sanity and ive still got the rest of the night to go help me,2.0 51460,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 51461,feeling of helplessness my last semester of university is nearing feel like ive been having a midlife crisis for a while i have yet to lead any major organization or contribute to anything noteworthy once upon a time i felt like things would be more malleable than they are but it seems like in the end everything comes down to a whole bunch of other shit that i in the end have no say in and its worse knowing that all the effort i put in has feels like a waste i remember hearing so many kids wanting to be the president not knowing their zero to near infinitesimally small chance of being anything with such significance as the president its not to say people wont amount to anything but it just feels like everything is so uncontrollable,3.0 51462,well aye what i meant to say was thinking of going to sleep but im not tiredddd ,2.0 51463, me to know and u find out ,0.0 51464,good morning ,0.0 51465,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 51466,i hate me i just really want to die im surrounded by happy people and they are trying to help me and care for me but it isnt worth it im just a mistake undeserving of life i just want my stupid existence to end and nobody understands everybody keeps saying how amazing i am and how im such a good person but i dont believe or deserve those kind lies im just a placeholder that people overlook but nobody will understand me and what im doing i dont want to burden anyone with me or my problems anymore,3.0 51467,off for bit of rampr productive daynight phew ,0.0 51468,fools gold by jill scott on tidal not everything that glitters is gold so very sad 👽♦️ ,1.0 51469,i dont feel emotions anymore i realized that the other day i dont feel anything anymore im fucking hollow inside i cant sleep yet im constantly exhausted i feel like im just biding my time until something happens where that something will be the magic solution to all my problems and my real life will start my best friend moved away and wont be back until next year and i only have one other friend i would call close i dont ever leave the house and i know my mom resents me for leechingedit i was not referring to suicide though i realize it does sound like that im not going to kill myself i also realized that this turned into a general rant but i dont give a shit i just needed to vent,3.0 51470,mootsie morning amp youre welcome ,0.0 51471,limelightfood i saw that as soon as i asked i got followed by a few salt lake city twitter accounts it was amusing ,0.0 51472,rt realdonaldtrump so sad and unfair that the fcc wouldnt approve the sinclair broadcast merger with tribune this would have been a gre,1.0 51473,my macbook has battery wheresmycharger,2.0 51474,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 51475,divorce my parents divorced when i was in year i never felt it got too bad and actually preferred the separation in certain aspects however very often when a good series ends especially a comedy where u can relate to characters i feel empty and sad and more than just because its over i get a feeling that everything good ends in my life that i will never be happier in my life than when i was a worryless little pipsqueak do you think their divorce is connected to this ominous feelings i get that anything good in life will always end,3.0 51476,thats how i feel ,2.0 51477,i am so so so so frustrated im about to start crying going ✈️ sad hours,1.0 51478,ashleybird oh i so miss the starlite in durham first it burnt down years to rebuild then owner died sitting there unused ,2.0 51479,missed the nbc special of the fearless tour ,2.0 51480,my hand just feel asleep ,2.0 51481,missing that special girl ,2.0 51482,sitting at home watching tv soo bored,2.0 51483,postlemonkey wow thank you ,0.0 51484,mandyyjirouxx yayyy your best tweind is mileyyy ,0.0 51485,shelbyyyyyy tell pbj mel that when she sees me at the hookah lounge she needs to come over and say hi that goes for you too ,0.0 51486,kyleandjackieo or green day boulevard of broken dream hinder lips of an angel howie day collide that was such a nice song ,0.0 51487,already home and will watching movies all night looongg ,0.0 51488,i cant do this i cant do the rest of my life its too long and im too incompetent whats the point of being alive i wish i were properly suicidal,3.0 51489,bzani i did two i tried to twitpic but it didnt work ,2.0 51490,oxobrittoxo britt what are you auditioning for drama club,0.0 51491,lauralovesart if you can meet me at the nice train station in the next two hourssure ,0.0 51492,rt mysteriousfact not being able to control your negative thoughts is also a warning sign of depression,2.0 51493,bergenlarsen acidicice lol kittehs rule absolutely ,0.0 51494,kadomi i just killed emalon for the first time priest tier gloves dropped but i lost ,2.0 51495,arcayae ah i see i can try hopefully ,2.0 51496, myspace isnt working,2.0 51497,is sorting jelly beans ,0.0 51498,qnal no is a business trip this time so ill be the only one ,2.0 51499, yeah even tho my fb note was informal i really feel overwhelmed and wthe state of relationships standards are obsolete,2.0 51500,pswam nice link to the visualization of bayes using venn diagrams good taste in talks i was just at that talk by zawodny last week ,0.0 51501,home alone just back from shopping w my cousin took shower again instant noodles online pcs mine now mwhahahaha ,0.0 51502,crushed i am dealing with my emotions the only way i can think off that works for me that is never stop to think i am always doing something playing video games watching youtube talking to people online spending time on my phone when im just walking outsidetoday well i work with a girl who is fascinating i like the way she dresses and the way she talks about her hobbies and over the last few months i got to know her and like her i have the biggest crush that i have ever had i walked upstairs which is where she was only to find her talking to her friend this crushed me i gave her the keys for the casino and left now no matter what i do i keep thinking of them together i play games and it doesnt help i watch videos listen to music talk to friends nothing i have never felt more destroyed and to be clear i dont hate her i dont wish anything bad for her i mean how could i i never told her how i feel its not her fault but now since none of my previous distractions work all that i have been hiding from is filling my head all the negative thoughts all my insecurities my doubts my regrets i just feel like crying,3.0 51503,my day has sucked so far but im sure itll get better quick ,0.0 51504,leaving soon not sure when ill have wifi again bye for now disney here i come ,0.0 51505,mediamolecule yes we are ,0.0 51506,cant wait until tomorrow ,0.0 51507,rt rosylovr i wish i could b a social butterfly n easily talk people but my anxiety kills any chance of that,0.0 51508,i have had a headache all day maybe sleep will cure it ,2.0 51509, alright well ill try yeah definitely sounds good goodnight xx,0.0 51510,bad news is that im foneless until friday morningand cant conctact anyone ,2.0 51511,after some research found a wicked movie to go to tonight started ago no more screenings till tomorrow ,2.0 51512,im going to go to bed since im very sad and lost all energy i hope he knows we all love and support him through httpstcoopmorjehqw,1.0 51513,hello saturday celebrating fathers day since ill be gone ktltgtlt,0.0 51514,night everyone heading to bed now weatherman says its supposed to be stormy tonight so heres hoping i actually get to sleep ,2.0 51515,anyone feel like theyre worth more dead this quarantine has made me realize how alone i am i am about to be so in debt from grad school if i can even manage to finish in the next few weeks i feel so unmotivated the amount i will owe is haunting me my boyfriend sees me as a nuisance and i cant say i blame him i get paranoid and distrustful and hes sick of it i feel like this would be a good time to just disappear who would really notice anyone else feel that way,3.0 51516,i cant do anything right they are few things that im able to do but nothing that i actually do well i dont understand why everyone is able to have at least one thing that they are able to do very well i used to be pretty good at making friends at school and at work but now that ive taken a year off from school and working at at job with only three coworkers who dont seem to like me im desperately trying to hang on to my old friends who dont seem interested in seeing me anymore i thought i was a nice person people used to like my stupid watercolour paintings now no one cares,3.0 51517,jrisjunor and now its dead and injured ,2.0 51518,how do i help my friend get help sweden im from nz but my online friend is from sweden and he wants to get help for depression does anyone know how the system works there hes i think he should see a counsellor andor psychiatrist,3.0 51519,good morning tweets busy day lets get alot done ,0.0 51520,not feeling too good ,2.0 51521,finally got my fone back working it locked me out ,2.0 51522,abiirave i dono u just went silent all of a sudden hahaha the sex went downhill ,2.0 51523,philhellmuth so sad ,2.0 51524,has a really bad sore throat ,2.0 51525,rt you know what makes me really sad and its something bts have talked about how fast everything is going for them theyre do,1.0 51526,ddlovato demii cant you give us a preview or something like that soon i really wanna hear it ,0.0 51527,sooo hot today ,0.0 51528,make shore you go to your ela teacher ,2.0 51529,ironchefkristen aww lets wear matching swim caps the one w the colorful pretty flowers on it we are goin look adorable,0.0 51530,damjanov well just recently some project provided us with foam balls you know what happens with those heh but same ol same ol ,2.0 51531,jellyknuckles i did that too howre you today mr,2.0 51532,i cant stand myself most days venting theres always a voice saying fuck you loser idiot etc and i just want it to go away nothing i can do will make it shut up i always find faults with everything i do i wish i could learn the art of not giving a fuck,3.0 51533,building a cms from scratch with ajax php jquery xml and actionscriptat least thats my plan im scared though ,2.0 51534,another nice day with friends here in northern norway today its windy and i mean windy like difficult to walk upright but no rain ,0.0 51535, gahh still nothing you,2.0 51536,phoenyxangel lolcat spam who doesnt love them ,0.0 51537,ellychick sorry to hear that you are having a sucky day ,2.0 51538,sueissilly yes it is true where is the trust ,2.0 51539,i feel restless and i think im going to be sick ,2.0 51540,finally finished uploading and tagging photos of birthday and wedding now to bed so i can be prepared for soccer am ,0.0 51541,ugh softball tonight and i do nooot feel good ick,2.0 51542,ugh i feel like crap headache sore throat and for the past week i cant eat or drink anything without pain in my stomach as i swallow ,2.0 51543,this tl is just too sad right now ☹️,1.0 51544,says it is almost am and i am still awake trying to catch up on all this paperwork httpplurkcompxbrmr,2.0 51545,rawfish have to wait for the machine to arrive first then freeze the bowl bummer on the big frog ,2.0 51546,oliviaclark the havent announced anyone in a few days yeah well sophie got some have you xx,2.0 51547,juliettemae oh yeah just spotted it next to one friend hmm not a clue why haha ,0.0 51548,yes ptsd is now post trump stress disorder although post trump it will hopefully diminish,0.0 51549,jabula thanks give it ,0.0 51550,what have i done with my life i turn this yearall my life ive been strange attention seeking compulsively creating extravagant lies about myselfive never been able to let people get close whether its because im afraid people will find me boring or pathetic because im so deep into a web of lies that telling the truth will ruin me or because my attention seeking leads me to make a fool of myself ive always been anxious to let people know who i really am being around people has always been a source of anxiety for me i developed a loud personality to hide itrecently ive resolved to change myself by being honest about myself to the people i meet this lying is addictive to me it was a way of being something interesting somebody worth knowing despite being overweight and boring but it has just left me alone ive never known the feeling of being loved or needed by another spiritually or physically i feel as if ive wasted my lifethere was a girl that i wanted to be with she was shy but sweet and had a warmth about her that drew me to her i could relate to her shyness and that made me feel comfortable i felt as if she liked me but i came to realize that any hope i had of being with her if it had existed at all was extinguished by my inability to tell her who i really am and not this character forged by deceit we havent spoken for months we would talk for hours every week but that just stopped she didnt tell me why but i dont blame heri found out recently that she is now in a relationship i am happy for her but im afraid for myselfive never really had a lot of friends for obvious reasons i feel as if it is too late to meet anybody to make new friends im scared of being alone of never being intimate with someone who needs me as much as i need them im scared that my social ineptitude will scare peoplei recently reconnected with my cousins and older brother but i lied to them to the horrible thing is that i became so familiar with deceit that i was able to tell them lies about myself knowing they wouldnt doubt me i take a small amount of relief in that i havent lied to them as much as wouldve but i am still pathetic for feeling the need to do so i cling to my cousin he is one of the people i haveim so afraid of being alone im scared of dying without having a family of my own to love to be loved by i think i wasted my lifei dont want to kill myself but life is starting to seen pointless to me i think i needed to open up about this before i can move on,3.0 51551,i need summer gear oversized tees shorts and playsuits ,0.0 51552,settled for chips and salsa i also got brownies yum ,0.0 51553,misslalaine oh thats sad ,2.0 51554,jordanknight did you see the game last night that wasnt even a fight it looked easy to whip chicago wooooo hooooo ,0.0 51555,justina thanks for ff mate appreciated ,0.0 51556,ohh where ohhh where did my rakita gooooo ,2.0 51557,raziyes that was the saddest thing ive ever seen ,2.0 51558,train going under my feet ,0.0 51559,zoloft withdrawal i switched from zoloft to prozac like weeks ago then last sunday i started getting anxietydepression symptoms worse than ever ie panic attacks which i never get extreme social anxiety suicidal thoughtswould that have to do with withdrawal from zoloft or the prozac not working,3.0 51560,this is all so sad please i really really hope hes okay,0.0 51561,aahoogendoorn interesting i am looking forward to your new insights ,0.0 51562,pandamayhem eh ill miss out on a lot this summer ,2.0 51563,is sad because the gas station didnt have french vanilla cappuccino ,2.0 51564,pretty nice crowd tho my bb not taking pics no more either ,2.0 51565,im stuck in the same loop and i hate myself for it english isnt my main language so im sorry for any grammatical errors im also sorry if the formatting is bad as i wrote this on my phoneeverytime i try to stay consistent with something i always fail and hurt myself for itfor a decade or so i had no childhood whatsoeverno friends and i coped through multiplayer games so i dont feel lonelyi didnt have any talentsany skillsi didnt do anythinglast year i started high school the best high school in my city everyone was vastly more talentedskilledsociable capable that hit me like a ton of bricksi tried confronting my social anxiety through cbtworked for a month or soshit hit the fan and i fell in a depressive spirali lost all my friends and my gpa was a miserable for the americans i somehow got a grip and got a gym membershipstarted playing the guitargot into theater and fixed my half term gpa to a that i continued productively for months and i got lost once morei lost all will and hope and driveeven though the optimist in me would say that im doing more than i have ever done even though unbelievable inconsistent for the past two months i havent done anything the realist pessimist in me bombards me with negative thoughts of self hatredi dont know how to cope nor what to do anymorei dont know how i can garner the will to do any of those things i keep procrastinating and never stopwhile i dont make up excuses per se i just lay in bed or do nothingmy social skills are horrible or i feel like they arei tried or i am trying so hard to be a better person a more likable one but i keep coming back to the same start that is barely anyone calling me texting metalking to meim a good listenerim nicetry to be caringmy sense of humor and playfulness is improvingi put in a lot of effort of looking the best i can be looks wiseim not flawless as i am arrogantmy psychologist said that i use my arrogance as a cover up for confronting my emotionsi have friends i talk to often but i still feel extremely lonelyi dont get whats wrong with meis it my lack of confidence i dont showcase it infront of other people but i dont get iti dont understand why people always have an excuse they cant go out with meam i boringam i weird i dont know and i hate myself for iti dont understand who i should bei dont get what im supposed to do anymore because everything keeps going back to the beginningan unproductive alone lazy mess,3.0 51566,superkappa that sucks ,2.0 51567,welp that was my last regular saturday night at dapps cant get guru josh project quotinfinity out of my head techno beatsss,2.0 51568, man there isnt anything to do ,2.0 51569,rt nasirpasir johan nora kenapa tak buat kiki challengenora danish nanti depression kena kecamzizan jangan risau kalau kita d,2.0 51570,summer school starts today ,2.0 51571,not feeling very well today ,2.0 51572,depressed and immobile writing a poem to express it one of those days when you just feel twisted i wrote a poem to describe the feeling and the effort lightened my load for just a little while its already here and my plans for the day are spoiled again but i know if i keep trying theres something better than this good luck to you all with the day as well good luck with your own twistthe sound of gulls awakes me as i rise from rack to dressa storm though im in port makes it difficult to restblinking forceful thinking i attempt to gather my mindtethered and awful weather to my efforts feel unkindi search the bitts for pieces so many knots left to untieto not unmoor here from this bore i know would be unwiseand so i strain with no slight effort to find the bitter endone last round turn then to wind downturn and its off i sail againbut when at last i rig the mast and a sailor i can beim held fast there by the past and can no longer see the sea,3.0 51573,simsurvivorfanz blueasaga its from the week they got voted out so i was probably real sad haha,1.0 51574,rt trishaobannon celebrate the passing of the mental health law with a spoken word show and open mic hear personal stories from me l,0.0 51575,realmrscott if i was on the beach right now its too hot in athens gaim ready for that ocean breeze,0.0 51576, i feel like they could have atleast asked me i feel like swim team makes me antisocial sometimes all i did was watch tv today ,2.0 51577,ive decided i need counceling ,0.0 51578,anafranil so i recently started taking anafranil for my ocd and after pills i started to get very depressed my written exams start one week from now so i stopped taking the pills sadly im still feeling the effects of it one day after taking the last pill how long until i will feel normal again,3.0 51579,rt pontiacmadeddg everything happens for a reason manifest that and ya stress will be relieved,0.0 51580,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 51581,support groups👍 offer useful tools🗣for poeple living with a mental h ,0.0 51582,bradcallahan aiiight ill be in san antonio and possiblyhopefully another date oh awesome ill definitely see yall then too ,0.0 51583,weird side effect so the doctor put me on of seroquel to see if it would help as my current meds arent working well it made me foggy all day so i stopped taking it after days been wired like the energizer bunny for the last two days hecka energy but the shakes and lack of focus suck hoping i finally crash tonight at least im getting shit done lol,3.0 51584,i have summer school whyyyyy my summer is ruined ,2.0 51585,sixelona i suffer from anxiety and low selfesteem doing something new can be a crippling experience,2.0 51586,piglet how do you spell love pooh you dont spell it you feel it ,0.0 51587,i had a good experience using for about a month but firefox needs my support ff ftw ,0.0 51588,appsmile good morning hope you have a wonderful day with lots of smiles ,0.0 51589,another fun packed week ahead including my first council executive meeting for a few months the agenda does look a bit boring though ,2.0 51590,rt daltaraiders hrc needs a check up from the neck up she is in serious trouble with her mental health i hope that she has obamac ,1.0 51591,i seriously just ate half a big bag of chips now i feel like a pig ,2.0 51592,geeojones you do ,2.0 51593,ashleytisdale i would do it but im stuck on the road from nc to ny ill do it next competition good luck for tmw youll be awes,0.0 51594,alyssabarlow i love that movie quotcan you pass the peas pleasequot ,0.0 51595, ohh that is so cute fishing is so peaceful your daughter looks so focus in what she is doing ,0.0 51596,ryanseacrest saw ryan on conan great im big fan ,0.0 51597, day in college not so awesome as i thought it would be but the advantage is we get to hav notsolongshort break ,0.0 51598,might go to the wakepark for some wakeskate action today wonder if my wetsuit is still wet still have to clean bathroom though ,2.0 51599,joeymcintyre welcome home joey we missed ya here melinda ,0.0 51600,i hate everything about myself and i hope i die i hate my face how clothes look on me my personality my voice everything i had heart disease in past and i hope my heart stops and i die i started smoking because i want to get cancer and it to kill me i tried hanging myself with my belt in and i almost jumped of a bridge in connecticut in i pray to god to kill me i want someone to murder me im a fucking pathetic piece of shit im fucking wirthless and everyone knows it im fucking piece of worthless cum stain fuck me you fucking stupid cock sucking loser you are a fucking failure piece of motherfucking dog shit you fucking loser just fucking die you piece of shit i need to try with the belt again and fucking do it righ you dumb fuck how do you fuck it up you stupid fuck asshole motherfucker worthless fucking bitch fuck you and die you fucking nothing cum stsin,3.0 51601,rt not being sad ,2.0 51602,just had an amazing conversation with a guy that lives miles away ,2.0 51603,mostly sad doe,2.0 51604,jaespiritu because its my first civilian job in years lol but i did okay todaynot too shabby how are yooooou,0.0 51605,my excuse was that i had to make sure it handled well for moms safetyshe wasnt buying it ,0.0 51606,danielletx amp krisphildius if you two need a roomie i am tired of houston ,0.0 51607,amytheallen no i was drunk dialling my family is ,2.0 51608,special moments with my boy i love it xx,0.0 51609,not achieved to much today apart from eating blt sandwiches and watching telly i must do more tomorrow,2.0 51610,everyone is dressed the horses are loaded and were on the road going to a poker run trail ride this is going to be fun bring it ,0.0 51611,rt depression is not funnyanxiety is not funnyschizophrenia is not funnyselfharm is not funnyanorexia is not fun,0.0 51612,rt baldboyblues this is what my mental health looks like right now httpstcodochfilxfy,0.0 51613,i am bored i guess imma go somewhere and do stuff and not be bored like some sort of video game ,0.0 51614,rt soulstaece when taes grandmother passed away he was in philippines but now hes grandfather died hes not in korea i feel so sad,1.0 51615,no life left in me i just go to a job i hate then come home and sleepi miss being myself i used to draw i used to run ive gained a lot of weight which ive mostly come to terms with because i no longer think being beautiful is that important but i just want to fucking run to feel my body doing something positive to itself for a change instead of hating itself or cutting itself i miss how good it felt to run until i was out of breath i miss how fun it was to create with arti cant do it though i cant i am broken as fuckmy mind doesnt make ideas for art anymore and ive realized its because i dont have a soul really because ofc a person with no life in them would have nothing to give creatively cant pull from an empty welland i cant run i try i try i put on my gym clothes and i was so happy and i drove i drove there you guys then i just drove back thats happened the last three times i triedi miss music i miss music so much last couple of times i bought concert tickets i ended up not going one i drove and i broke down in the car crying so i drove back the other few i just couldnt get up to go i used to go all the time and i havent now in years which is unusual for me but i have no one that likes my type of music so i always went alone but now its just so hard the weight of doing it alone and being so lonely is so hardi have nothing in me its all gone and i cant get it back even when i shower and put on my strong face and drive to the gym and i try to reach for my strength its not therewhy am i living i just want to run and feel and draw and dance,3.0 51616,skitguye no but god sure was were alike in more ways than you know and probably shouldnt be discussed on twitter or polite company ,0.0 51617,therealbensmith i did it was for the gigaom pro site wanted to look more adultlike than my avatar ,0.0 51618,headache ,2.0 51619,see you later twitter ,0.0 51620,emilecambry im doing fine just had lunch heading out to the gym in a bit ,0.0 51621,samuelarce yup the second link worked ,0.0 51622,thinking about my life im looking back on my life and feeling really angry at all the adults who sat back and watched me get abused teachers straight up laughed when kids bullied me and called me a dibberdobber if i asked for help instead of addressing the bullies the principal instructed me to spend my lunchtimes in the library i the victim was punished by being separated from the rest of the cohort i was told not to distract the boys i was nine so many times i was made to feel ashamed and at fault by people i looked up to who were supposed to protect me and guide me by teachers my parents and older sibling i dont know what i did wrong i think about the bubbly bright creative little girl i used to be and what kind of a future she couldve had if she had people to encourage and nurture her,3.0 51623,maxilovegood i want grilled cheesy goodnesswith garlic sausageand french fries,2.0 51624,man i just made a fat ass buger mmmmmmmmm taste so fuckin delicious i love food i eat my feelings lol,0.0 51625,angusbrown i got that great that youre saying korea is your home got any plan to come back i definitely want to go nz ,0.0 51626,omarg its nice here too though ,0.0 51627,moneyathome would love to find a legitemate work from home job that does not want me to pay money to start ,0.0 51628,another amazing weekend sunflower lexie alice and hayk thanks for an amazing night ,0.0 51629,heathermaexoxo how did you meet chester french is he a musician and what�s in dc new job ,0.0 51630,everyone keeps saying how amazing up isim definitely going to see it this week ,0.0 51631,poor rpattznobody respects his personal space ,2.0 51632,lack of motivation and zero satisfaction im not sure if ive come to the right place ive never been diagnosed with anything mental before but ive also never been testedive recently graduated from a stem degree and im totally lost i thought it would be good to have a year of less mind intensive work im working at an it service desk and earning a bit of money while living with parents by all accounts i have an alright comfortable life i wanted to spend my free time doing things i was a dungeon master with a dampd group but it fizzled out because my players got bored i started volunteering politically and got quite far but after about a month i cant find the motivation for it i was learning to drive but i just sort of stopped that i was learning to code but stopped that too i cant hold a gym routine it takes a lot of effort for me to go and see friends when id rather stay in and rot playing video games which i dont even find fun any more i have some other things i would like to do but im concerned that ill just find those unsatisfying too id rather hold them as distant that would be cool ideas rather than discover that nothing is gratifyingim just not really good at anything i cant handle it when i get things wrong my peers all seem to grill me for it i got through my degree just by memorising equations and derivations i dont think i display any other symptoms of depression when i was unemployed and just had these misc tasks and job hunting i definitely did show other more severe symptomsi fear that i do have something under the surface but that my fairly hectic day job prevents me from thinking about it can someone point me in the right direction,3.0 51633,chellybooo boo chicago ,0.0 51634,rt sevenbetterdays omg i was sad we didnt make the countdown then mcjairok played our song right after my heart skipped a beat 💕,0.0 51635,could my life get any better right now new phone b lost number turburculosis leave me alone lol,2.0 51636,loubyloubyloux yeah gary died the the other week but now the other three all died too ifeel stupid for being upset over fish,2.0 51637,pissed off now i want a universe where i dont have to choose between bruce springsteen and jarvis cocker on the sat night of glasto ,2.0 51638,is sleepy boo so many homework ,2.0 51639,im a npc i just thought ill put out how i feel on here im sorry for my ramble in advanceive always felt like something is wrong with me i never fitted in at school when i was younger and got bullied for years i never made any real friends just used and pushed to the side when done with like a quest being fulfilled a few years back i was in the best shape of my life because i was bullied for my weight and decided to change it i was enjoying life and was full of inspirationpassion but i notice people were only interested in knowing me because of my body and not for who i am ive lost all happiness and fulfilment in my life ive put the weight back on and never motivated to leave the house anymore all my interests seem so impossible to deal with and never fun anymore i just feel like im waiting for the next player to arrive and give them a quest or help them on their journeyi have never been able to accept myself for who i am because truly i dont know who i really am anymore and dont know who im looking at in the mirror i dont want to end my own life or even live to be honest just feel so empty and lost in a world of confusion never have i felt more like a item or an npc in my entire life i just see that everyone is growing and living their best life which i am truly happy for them and wish them the best in life i truly hope who ever reads this that you find happiness in life live your best life and that you will never be alone with true friends and family around you i wish i could say the same for myself but i dont think i deserve it and just feel like i should guide others to a treasure i cannot possess maybe i was meant to be born to be in the background of everyones life and just feel the space in this world,3.0 51640,jasondigspandas thats a snazzy little picture you have there ,0.0 51641,back in the office air conditioning feeling pretty good someone said supposed to feel like plus today ,0.0 51642,moogrit i think my fav ride was the indoor coaster it was area themed youd really like it as part of the line you go inside a ufo ,0.0 51643,im sad cause doesnt reply me yet ,2.0 51644,scottsommers no can see till computer is fixed ,2.0 51645,looking forward to a fun bday tomorrow ,0.0 51646,dinner was wnt to multigame bt no bro so gnna cntinue wth surfin n dwnldin apps,2.0 51647,tilism jarlathobrien teacher refused to differentiate for my dyslexic child in primary told do it yourself as ,1.0 51648,the show rad thx all who came ,0.0 51649,neither is fish oil i take mg of fish oil a day for bipolar depression,2.0 51650,parentclub if im not following you its twitters fault i didnt unfollow you also sad you wont be there next time for sure,2.0 51651,jesswoodall words written not the intro haha so introconclu words only more to go,0.0 51652,paulinajb youre right ,0.0 51653,anyone else just feels lonely and just knows deep inside that hes never gonna have anyone in life to understand him or even a significant other i just feel ill never find someone ill always be alone my entire life no one cares about me non of that usually i didnt have depression waves this intense but now it just hits me like a wrecking ball lmao it got worse when i found out that i really knew nothing about my best friend it just turned out that hes lied to me a lot about himself and that he doesnt really care about me as much as i thought he did he was probably the only thing holding me together from breaking down like the way i am right now but after ive known the truth i literally just died from the inside and ive been lonely ever since ive been trying to engage with other people and maybe even try and get a girlfriend which ive never had before but my social anxiety coped with my depression just ruin everything so i just came to the realization that ill never be loved by anyone ever all im waking up to right now is emptiness and sometimes some suicidal thoughts feels really bad to be alone especially when everyone i know around me is in some kind of serious relationship and has someone to lean on thanks for reading my rant btw if youve made it this far lol ,3.0 51654,mirkleyjo and another day at work ,2.0 51655,i did nothing today except play sims wow text me if you want to do something ,0.0 51656,i posted a year ago here so i am updating my situation im a french in my twenties diagnosed with depressioni didnt go to school this year and the next one i wont go either i think im capable of having a part time job for september anyways im seeing a counselorpsychotherapist and it feels great to be listened to i always had issues with communication within my family and friends but im expressing more now and my needs too great but could be betterim sad i want to see my long distance so but we cant see each other im still scared of being a burden but they tell me thats ok im so scared my depression will destroy our relationship im trying my best not to i dont have confidence in people easily im tired my nephew is and coming almost everyday to my family house and hes screaming crying so loud that make me want to kill myself some timeshaving a very depressed sad and hurting phase lately i want to cryim so grateful my mom is besides me she tries her best to ease my state i love her sm my father tries his best in his way but he doesnt know how it works at all and im not brave enough to teach him how it doesmy siblings are more affectionate than before and take me serously at lastim still very tired my chest hurts and i want to disapear,3.0 51657,im gonna be binging stuff on youtube me if you need me but otherwise my mental health is being dumb so im takin ,2.0 51658,i cant stand the idea of getting a job im afraid of being away from home even going to the store freaks me out spikes my anxiety and i cant stand the idea of being around people i know my fears and depression will impact my ability to work the last couple years since i got out of high school i have been earning money doing odd tasks and jobs online while living with my parents and im doing ok earning around a month now but i would like to actually have a life and a month doesnt pay for electric bills or groceries heck id use almost half that just paying for our current internetlast time i applied for a job they called me that day to set up an interview and my heart rate went crazy i had to make an excuse and hang up what is wrong with me,3.0 51659, well that makes the both of us hehe lol,0.0 51660,camanomade im sold it will be a while before i attempt the patterns though im still learning the basics ,0.0 51661, welli know my lake hair is not glamorous but im pretty sure ur hair is always glam ,0.0 51662,looking for a room to rent in swindon and wanting to cry ,2.0 51663,sonambhutia i saw ur message here only now i suck at checking direct replies sorry and thanks ,0.0 51664,just had a bad dreamwish is not really happening ,2.0 51665,i was just informed its degrees out study break pool time ,0.0 51666,tell me how how do i make it and go on how do you depression is crippling i have everything a person can want i am extremely successful at my job ppl look up to me but i hide my depression this weight i have on my shoulders is indescribablei see people posting similar things it helps a bit to write it down i supposed but in the end no one can help me i dont know why i am even posting this,3.0 51667,i cant be a part of the beauty something switched it went from oh itll happen things will all fall into place to what have i done wrong is there anything i can do to salvage any happiness in this life i was always too scared to be a better person and to grow and now its too late ive never loved anyone never really had friends outside one year in high school and now every career aspiration is tainted by the idea that that hours days a week will be all i have to live for there is nothing else in my lifei used to be able to laugh at things to see people holding hands and smile or come across some new revolutionary science discovery and feel a sense of wonder now im just jadedhow can i connect with another person when the story of my life is fucking stale toast hey girl let me tell you about the hours a night i stay awake depressed hey man thats cool that your watching the game did i tell you that ive never played a sport and dont even know what the fuck your sayingi try to go out to socialize on meeteup or whatever else but theres just fundamentally something wrong with me its impossible trying to learn to be social when everyone else has at minimum a year head start when it comes to relationships i thought maybe im gay but i think im just attracted to the concept of a well adjusted man who people actually want to be aroundthen yesterday my best friend who just got out of a mental health clinic tells me hes worried about me says i havent been acting like myself for years fuck i should be the one thats there for him and now im being a burden on yet another person in my life if i could give him all my remaining happiness i wouldthe only thing thing i have to live for is my mother if she were to be gone tomorrow or if i had the words to say so that she wouldnt blame herself id be gone the next day but i distance myself from her because how can i but that burden on her shouldersin the end its my fault its my fault that i live in the single best place to live on this earth with opportunities handed to me and i cant figure out how to make anything worki dont blame anyone else for the way i amthe world isnt some horrible squalid place its beautiful but i hate myself for not being able to be a part of that beauty,3.0 51668,i am toxic i just realized on my own that i am toxic i am always sad always want attention on my sadness i drag people down im always crying my boyfriend broke up with me because of it he claims im manipulative which i dont see how but i can admit im toxic for context on the manipulative topic i post stuff on my private snapchat saying depression meal or complaining about my day i always want people around me i get jealous if they have other people in their lives i feel horrible i am a terrible person im jealous of people for having friends i want to be better i started therapy i will never forgive myself on how ive treated the people in my life i have been horrible to my amazing boyfriend my mom my father my sister any friend ive had i wish i realized this sooner because i truly will never forgive myself i hate this i hate how the only reason i was pushed to realize this is losing someone i love i wish i was better i will be better,3.0 51669,jealous wish i was there ,2.0 51670,vittoriarusso uncanny we need to have a serious word with camelot or whoever i had my heart set on some purple velour cushion covers ,2.0 51671,replytommcfly hiya tom im sophie from that bluewater signing who gave u tolberones haha hope u remember me x,0.0 51672,i think i might have some form of depression everytime i laugh the happiness usually only sticks around for seconds i just dont really know how to describe it it almost feels like im fabricating it to be nice to the one that made the joke ive thought that i have had something wrong with me but i just dont really know what i suspect that i might have some form of dysthymia but im not sure i have lost a most of the few past times i have it just feels like a chore to do the most basic things and i have had a few of what i only can describe as panic attacks while laying in bed trying to sleep i just suddenly start thinking about what the actual hell is wrong with me ive even had a few suicidal thoughts during these episodes of emotions and thought of different scenarios of who and why people could maybe miss me if i die ive only told that im feeling like this to my brother and i regret it he has used it in arguments for example well im not the one with a fucked up brain which came up in an argument about why i shouldnt play piano at that moment he was pretty pissed off because he had lost a game in nhl i have thought about getting help but i dont want to because im afraid that this is just me overreacting to different things and that im just annoying ,3.0 51673,yehohkkae its honestly best for your mental health i on the other hand cant help myself,0.0 51674,todays my birthday i always hated birthdays growing up my mom always has big parties for me and when i didnt completely lose my shit over how hard she worked for them it always ended in some form of youre ungrateful so when i got older i dreaded my birthday even someone saying happy birthday to me made me cringe in embarrassment i mean who am i to demand a special day just for the accomplishment of being born and do they think im some ungrateful jerk for just giving them a thanks back they put in the effort to know when my birthday is i dont know their birthday so since ive gotten a job that requires a lot of travel i always choose to travel on my birthday i show up in an a place where nobody interacts with me on a daily basis and they have no conceivable way to know that its my birthday today im in detroit so today i got up and went to work at lunch i went out and bought myself a new out of shoes and i went to eat alone at my favorite place its a pho restaurant in a suburb thats really good i sit down order my food and browse on my phone while eating a good meal all things considered not too bad of a day then a guy with a big red beard comes over to me looks right at me and says im trying to eat over here and your ass is hanging out its really disgusting one thing to know about where im at in my life since starting to travel ive gained some weight medium shirts that once fit fine now pull up a bit i felt back to my read and pulled up my pants higher i sat there for a few minutes contemplating what to do i mean i couldnt stay right i got my check and a to go box and drove back to my hotel and thats where i am now just sitting in the parking lot spiraling i mean i dont want any special treatment because its my birthday but why did this have to happen on my birthday my birthday im fat im old and now im a hypocrite i just want to climb up to the roof and jump off i just want to curl up in a hole and die and now i have to walk in ask the lady at the front desk for a spoon so i can slop up to my room and eat my soup alone like the fat asshole i am,3.0 51675,has bought sonic unleashed for his xbox ,0.0 51676,rt graypiper big depression energy right here ,1.0 51677,is checking out radio swh toolbar me like it ,0.0 51678,ashleegoodman it was a good thought but its not happening temptation lol your source to jonas live chat live gt ,2.0 51679,depression wouldnt be so bad if it didnt turn to rage so often i have the same problems as many others on this sub i have book smarts but just as lackluster social skills feel overlooked etci just wish i could stop placing blame why cant i forgive my parents for letting me waste my adolescence playing video games why cant i forgive my friends for not inviting me to do stuff or the us government for spending percent of its annual budget on building worthless fighter jets and shit when theres a shortage of qualified scientists and engineers if it were one or two things fine but it seems like whenever im not coding all my mind does is spin in circles,3.0 51680,i feel worthless im years old and i cant do anything by myself i lie in bed i rarely make my own food i dont go to the store alone im struggling so much to make my doctors appointments just because i dont want to tell my mom im depressed i want to tell her so she can make my appointments for me but its just easier to stay in bed i dont know what im going to do once the next semester starts i might just take time off of school which would be dumb because its my last semester before i get my bachelors ugh i just want to be better,3.0 51681,rt sugaplumcris depression ,2.0 51682,fighting depression without medication has anyone successfully fought their depression without the use of medication i was on lexapro for almost years and decided to stop using them after they no longer helped instead of trying a new medication and going through months of temporary side effects i decided to try more natural ways does anyone have any advice,3.0 51683,catarino congrats on achieving the ,0.0 51684,depression ,2.0 51685,lol drawing my super hero and it does not look like my earlier sketches ,0.0 51686,steak and wine just isnt the same ,2.0 51687,also my niece has better brand names than me girl is rockin pink baby phat blankets ,0.0 51688,late night customer network changes cant have downtime during the day,2.0 51689, how was church getting ready to head to dipratos then lazy rest of dayloud woman upstairs againmaddie under couch ,2.0 51690,my sister constantly controls me having depression makes me vulnerable my sister is cruel and selfish and is invasive and hard headed anytime i need any the bf from her she denies it with a smile and my parents dont handle it very well as they want me to stand up for myself how do i confront hereg i need to use the home computer to coursework due tomorrow she complete maths questions using it whilst watching netflix she said its not my fault your to stupid to multitask sorry kid its so frustrating she cant understand why how do i stand up to her with no self esteem or confidence my mental health makes it so difficult as conflict really upsets me,3.0 51691,want to go see the new terminator film but nobody wants to go see it with me ,2.0 51692,i hate it when i have no school then theres no btv shows on ,2.0 51693,stolethenight you so txt me about what your bringing on our adventure ,0.0 51694,seriously federov way to go to russia ,2.0 51695,hmm grizz hills is pretty boring to level at ,2.0 51696,gotta work today ,0.0 51697,allenweiss im still following you whatever consolation that may be actually that just sounds creepy doesnt it ,0.0 51698, loves place ,0.0 51699,icehotelsweden thanks and welcome ,0.0 51700,home from work i forgot what morning looks like lol i refuse to sleep until tonight that way i can hibernate ,0.0 51701,yep u can see the same day recovery is like a week i ,0.0 51702, something wrong ,0.0 51703,mileycyrus we cant vote anymore not letting us ,2.0 51704,pinkfroggg i agree completely just didnt want my gay dad friends to feel left out today ,0.0 51705,everyone forgot my birthday i write heartfelt notes do my best to make my supposed friends feel special especially on their bdays but none of them seem to carethat hurts a little bit idk how long i can keep up this facade when my heart constantly aches and i always feel so lonely,3.0 51706,awwww this cute guy called me beautiful while i was on a date lol hey day must have been mah day ,0.0 51707,creacher wow and to think i wont be able to text any more behind the wheel lol,2.0 51708,rt frequentus there is no good in depression and sadness,1.0 51709,watching the broncos why arent they winning ,2.0 51710,rt pettyblackboy me and my homegirls taking a break from our depression to turn up at local functions this summer httpstcobhtbienixw,2.0 51711,wow ive been sleeping really late lately its already so im off to bed lovee yall x,0.0 51712,i love weekends ,0.0 51713,yehonatan just woke everyone up at ,2.0 51714,slapping everyone ,0.0 51715,triplelsociety i know sweets sorryyyy my plans got all messed up ,2.0 51716,johnlacey gastonomically quite a distance from the beer battered fishnchips hope you find it satiating ,0.0 51717,does anyone else hate to look themselves in a mirror or click photos of themselves or hate people clicking photos of you i was told that this behaviour is not normal but i beg to differ,3.0 51718,what do i look forward to im in junior year of high school and its a fucking nightmare after high school is collage which is more responsibilitys and stress then its a shitty job high school is supposed to be a better part of your life and its awful what do i look forward to why keep going on,3.0 51719,me and the homie kleo the black kid with the hair from that movie quotholesquot are the only black people bowling with our party losing ,2.0 51720,wow updates ,0.0 51721,im having a bad day i had the house to myself for a month i couldve killed myself and no one wouldve been able to stop me i shouldve done it when i had the chance,3.0 51722,im sacred of being lonely and im a little unsure about some things right now ,2.0 51723,rt gratitudedna บางสิ่งบางอย่างดูเหมือนเรื่องเล็กน้อยไม่มีค่าแต่บางทีเราไม่รู้ว่ามันสำคัญและมีประโยชน์แค่ไหน ป้ายเล็กๆเขียนด้วยมือแข,0.0 51724,on days like these she is my anchor 💋 🐶🐕🌈🧘‍♀️💝💯🙏😔chihuahua chihuahua chihuahuasofinstagram dog dogsofinstagram ,0.0 51725, hi there whats this about an ollian statue in your garden ,0.0 51726,hopefully this can help some advice on how to help with chronic depression and be ok with everyday life if you read the whole thing it may help depression is fucking horrible it can get so bad suicidal isnt enough to describe it those who know know my whole life i have been depressed and suicidal it feels hopeless as fuck most times yes drugs help but they wont fix anything for you you have to do that for yourself i want to help others so they dont end up in this cycle of drugs and sadness this post isnt so much about drugs but how to better yourselfhere is some advice that will hopefully help some going through similar mind states of helldont let the drugs do you do the drugs getting into an addiction while depressed will only make things worse look at yourself and how your lifestyle is at the moment think of how to improve shit like a good sleep schedule decent eating habit daily social interactions staying busy anything to not feel miserable for or seconds drugs make you feel not miserable right yes but will it actually fix anything just an illusion of feeling good for a little bit im not saying dont do drugs fuck that i love getting fucked up just as much as the next guy but learn not to rely on that shit just think of feeling okay without having to get high its a far vision i know but trust me learn not to depend on someone for your stability and happiness when they upset you you dont have anything to fall back on keep yourself grounded no matter the situation everyone could leave you and you could loose everything and it wouldnt hurt nearly as bad as if you put your life in their hands you need to find yourself sit down and think about what things you have and control and make those things better simple shit improving friendships cleaning your house doing things that will improve yourself get better at being okay with yourself and staying positive about who you are fuck what anyone thinks about you learning to accept things is important try to figure out what you can change and what you cant drugs may seem like a solution but be careful playing with fire not seeing the whole picture and being ignorant will dig you deeper and deeper until drugs are the only thing that make you feel goodyou are the only person that you know will never leave you unless its by choice you need to distract yourself its a skill to learn once you learn to change your thought process you can see opportunities to improve your life any way you can easier and this isnt some corny fake shit either fuck all that meditation fucking you can do anything if you put your mind to it motivation shit count up every single thing that you fucked up or lost and if its possible try to fix or improve some of it learn how to live for yourself simple shit texting someone asking someone to talk doing a easy task if you feel like shit and youre in a corner do something that makes you feel accomplished thing of something you should do but dont really wanna do and distract yourself with it it will pay off trust me hopefully this post helps at least one person because your own mind can kill you and its fucking terrible ,3.0 51727,trying to figure out how this works without any luck ,2.0 51728,gilbirmingham hummmm you seem very busy ,2.0 51729,good timesbeach tonight ,0.0 51730,purplelyna mmm both casa amp dr z are nice ,0.0 51731,rt michaelavenatti my nephews went to europe w a group of students amp everyone said he was hated there a german family told t,1.0 51732,i really think i should donate to pp for people who make abortionholocaust comparisons thats the rhetoric that killed dr tiller ,2.0 51733,your mental health is sooooo important i cannot stress that enough,1.0 51734,ive reached a new low i spent the new years eve countdown alone i had planned to kill myself minutes ago but i was worried my dog would be scared alone all i want right now is just to be held and told everything will be okay,3.0 51735,rt andrewsnively a bath a day keeps the depression away,2.0 51736,is downloading the movie it lets see what other movies i should download from the list,0.0 51737,msjacque haha kya nga e superrr funny ng sonny with a chance fave q c chad dylan cooper haha ,0.0 51738,is wondering what to do with her first day of freedom ,0.0 51739,paulosousayt awesome have fun xo,0.0 51740, spiralgalaxy ymptweet i mean we have the best religion the only thing that we have to do is to follow it the right way,2.0 51741,walking to marble slabmacdonalds sleeeepover unfortunatly ,0.0 51742, hope u have a great day too ,0.0 51743,skovi now that ive finally eaten im friendly again i promise i wont bite again coffee on an empty stomach is bad ,0.0 51744,rt aaronidelson whenever im sad i just go watch videos of cardi b talking and it literally makes all my troubles melt away we do not des,1.0 51745,woofwednesday a few doggie pics ive taken for customers and friends ,0.0 51746,robin williams is just one of the funniest men alivei now want a horse called texas ,0.0 51747,shannonbertin i dont get the channel so megcharest it taping it for me ,0.0 51748,rt noturmcm me wow im actually starting to feel happy again my depression ,0.0 51749,happy birthday to me celebration to spending another year aloneit never gets easier i swear,3.0 51750,im obsessed with hey arnold such a good fucking show i miss jaleesa watching it with me ,2.0 51751,tandcmitchell nope it doesnt bother me unless its tutorial after tutorial then i dont watch them,0.0 51752,its hard to not be envious of how blessed some others are someone said something really hurtful to me today we were having a normal conversation and he was trying to think about good qualities about me then looked me in the eye and told me god didnt bless me with anything ive been up thinking about it all last night and crying because its true i remember reading magazines and watching tv and then later looking in the mirror at a really young age praying to god that ill be pretty like them when i get older i realized at that good looks werent in my cards and i was heartbroken not just that but there are millions of girls who did win this lottery and they were the lucky ones of course i grew up with popular and good looking and rich kids at school but they dont hold a flame to the sorority and fraternity kids at university where to join you need to be attractive rich and preferably have some kind of family legacy with the org its crazy to see how arrogant these people will be about something totally random and out of their control not just other students but instagram is a hub of every schools best who only have to exist and by doing so makes others insecure of course thats not their fault and thats not why im ranting i follow a model on instagram who talks about growing up poor and how blessed she feels that she gets the opportunity to support her family and travel the world and i cant help but think how shes one of those lottery winners i always knew existed now she lives better than everyone just for existing lucky just sucks being on the outside looking in im not that ugly but i do get treated differently because of the way i look add on that im a girl in a low caste and it makes my days tougher sometimes its not that i hate myself or hate being a minority but others make my life more difficult because of the way im treated or perceived and its killing my will to live tldr life isnt fair,3.0 51753,jacketslut hey how are you,0.0 51754,i love my background pic ,0.0 51755,today i realized how much time i was wasting sitting alone in my room and that my dog gets sad if im not with him ♥️,2.0 51756,rqocjd oh yeahmy bad like massachusetts and pennsylvania and those states up there ,0.0 51757,siriuslyheather thats cool they look nice ,0.0 51758,alexschleber as for trout amp ries youll find out everything you need to know about them and branding at httpwwwtroutandriescom ,0.0 51759,im soo feeling someone beginning with an r he just gets me what to do about it is the problem ,2.0 51760,i want to visit louisehendy at work but i cant ,2.0 51761,matter fact kapri and roxy ,0.0 51762,wow idol semifinals starting in ten minutes omg wwwwcradiocom,0.0 51763, off pizza papajohns available only todayi am starving ,2.0 51764,just went to the mall i love victorias secret ,0.0 51765,one day she will die out cuz she has had enough ,2.0 51766, yeahhh my cousin got it for me haha i dont have an mcr mask sadly ,2.0 51767,off to bed tomorrow im going to the swap meet good nite,0.0 51768,im really struggling and want to quit i dont know what to do any more the words dont mean anything my therapy has turned into a waste of time and money i dont have ive lost my social circle ive statred punching myself so hard in the face out of frustration im leaving bruises im stuck in a job i hate and cant find anything else i cant see any value in my existence that couldnt be replaced by another walking meat sackwork hate sleep repeative lost any sense of care for anyone else which is ironic since im posting here out of sheer desperationim empty ive got nothing left in the tank yet every fucking thing i read is speak to someone fucking who exactly for what fucking purpose so they can look at me and shrug their shoulders not that id blame them anywayi hate myself so fucking much i cant see any good in me anymore i dont even know if it even existed in the first placerepeated failures at trying to claw myself out of this hole has just left me with a sense of crushing disappointmenthow do you do it how do the normal people get up and not have this weighing on themis it because i am irrevocably broken i want someone to tell me im not but i wouldnt believe them anyway i dont know why im posting here im just staring blankly at what ive written and cant stop this fucking selfhatred from engulfing me,3.0 51769,intro project stuff wahhh ,2.0 51770,csts are tommorrow i hate tests especially this one ugh testing all week ,2.0 51771, ah thats ok then all is well again ,0.0 51772,cashdolla why are you not at my house right now ,2.0 51773,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 51774,is watching ouran high school host club annnnd preparing for school tommorow ,2.0 51775,jmarianu if my office is locked then someone is in trouble cuz i dont have a key and apparently no one does ,2.0 51776,pandamayhem heehee i know so cheesy aint it it was so hot and icky that morning my face was sweaty ,2.0 51777,why is everyone ill im bored cause they are all in bed ,2.0 51778,williger the sad thing is that i find myself blocking more people per day than i befriend ,2.0 51779,andylarox i love new brighton ,0.0 51780,just washed my hair its nice and shiny now sparkle sparkle ,0.0 51781, after number of runners but we have good d nobody tries to steal on me ,2.0 51782,so sad hearing the news about taehyungs grandfathers passing army amp bangtan are here for you we love you 💜🙏😔,1.0 51783,is thinking times are very good now ,0.0 51784,timeladyk most of the loose ends are amazingly wrapped there are one or two they they are leaving loose because of actor schedules ,2.0 51785,dawgfantc pretty crazy isnt it kind of scary too so did mojo save the day i think cali would just leave me to be ,2.0 51786,just watched boxingpacquiao vs hatton pacquiao won im elated ,0.0 51787,cleaning this house so i can move outits sooo muchwish my husband was here to help ,2.0 51788,i dont work in the morning the afternoon is a different story,0.0 51789, oh god i miss u she treat me bad mama but u ago pick up fi har she treat me bad ,2.0 51790,depression and loneliness im years old and i slowly started getting depressed at the end of the summer of i didnt notice at first i didnt make anything out of it because i just thought it was just me getting sad and feeling down but i noticed it getting worse at the end of last summer of i mood was getting worse it changes every minutes from happy to sad to angry and back to happy i do not have a social life anymore im always at home and when im not home im working at my family business thats the only time i talk to people when im with my coworkers i talk to customers sometimes but i force myself to do it because i feel shy when im at work but when im by myself in public or with people i used to know i feel overconfidentarrogant when talking to people when im at home im always watching shows and movies and i think thats one of the reasons why i became depressed every time i watch shows like one tree hill and riverdale just started watching this show couple days ago i get very lonely and they made me wish i had friends and a girlfriend like that sometimes when i talk to girls i get anxiety because most of the time i got rejected people say im a pretty good looking guy im not ugly or anything when i take care of the way i look i feel pretty attractive and good about myself i want to start going out again have a social life and meet new people that have the same interests as me before its too late and get even more depressed but i just dont know how to go on about it i would really appreciate it if you could give me some advice,3.0 51791,my message for all women cos i know were the worst for this dont multitask when going down stairs ok ,0.0 51792,blazinghotwok yes i checked at gate not w luggage thought would be safe think they just tossed everything,2.0 51793,i wish i wasnt so fucking sad and depressed all the time i really feel like im in hell,1.0 51794,when it rains it pours tryin to get out from under this rock ,2.0 51795,lifeofadq i am so proud of you ,0.0 51796,at lunch right now about to head back to the office and sadly my battery is on the verge of dying must get a charger from fast,2.0 51797,lolstaceee im in speech with you right now mwahaha ,0.0 51798,looking forward to taking birthday boys for lunch ,0.0 51799,asaladaday sadly my horny kitties disappeared i guess they broke up with me as well ,2.0 51800,buboxxpanda no hun i need another job ,2.0 51801,is still alone ,2.0 51802,do i want to die yes ,0.0 51803,i have no idea what just happened to me i need help i just had a very scary random outburst i was completely not in control of my mind way of thinking or emotionsim usually in control of myself i mean im not happy but i dont cry or get angry at all and while suicide is a thinking point i never take it seriously or i treat it like a what if situation and leave it at thatbut tonight when i was laying in bed i was listening to music trying to melt my stress away when i started all of a sudden thinking about suicide but the scary part was that i didnt stop at all and that it was making me happythat followed suit with a complete outburst of crying next i was hyperventilating really hard and then without pain or anything i starting gripping my head because it felt like it was splitting apart or like it was about to explode after about to seconds after that i slowly stopped and calmed down regaining control over my body and mind ive never been so scared of myself in my lifewhat the actual fuck just happened to me,3.0 51804,dont knw how to kill time but its surely is killing me ,2.0 51805,ijsijs sorry come amp try it some time ,0.0 51806,sitagita i love your website very informing ,0.0 51807,i have an owwwie in my brain make it go away,2.0 51808,emxoily unfortunately youre kidding haha im sorry about my english is really terrible ,2.0 51809,going to sleeptomorrow morning the dentist agghbut then hang out almost all day with cathiaangie will be in merida ,2.0 51810,i hope my leg feels better in the morning ,2.0 51811,getting worse all i can do recently is be really shit in school and have a feeling of dread about how my career is gonna be ruined because of my transcripts because i have no motivation to try or to do any homework i barely register whats happening anymore and i barely remember things i have to remember getting out of bed is hard walking is hard talking is hard i just act like an asshole and ruin the two friendships i have i cant even brush my teeth anymore im so tired of this,3.0 51812,just got back yesterday from camp i miss it already once i got back at i went right to bed and didnt get up til now,2.0 51813,so im still sick and of course i did too much yesterday and it got worse so im trying to get some sleep and what happens the ac dies ,2.0 51814, eating a sandwich and watching movies with my boo boo lovin ,0.0 51815,mtthegreat u almost finished neway by the way trip the a w soundtrack to greatness u comin the station jerielarmani ,0.0 51816,anyone want to chat ,0.0 51817,my mommys sick ,2.0 51818,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 51819,watched a movie with my sister and now im off to bed work tomorrow ,2.0 51820,im blogging again httplnibblogspotcom ,0.0 51821,finally found my cute leis ,0.0 51822,travisfitzwater tonyablythe carltonf tammey momediachica ill be therewith my shopping list looking forward to seeing everyone,0.0 51823,connorjack anonymous sender ,0.0 51824,yea me il hav ask my mum and she mite say no but i cnt b botherd,2.0 51825,doing homework on a friday nightand not even complaining ,0.0 51826,rt itsashlyperez today my therapist told me the anxiety im experiencing is called adulthood,2.0 51827,how are antidepressants supposed to work ive been planning on going to a psychiatrist to get meds prescribed as suggested by my therapist but im not sure what to expectdo they make you feel happier more motivated less tiredive been completely lethargic for almost months now and the concept of even feeling anything that isnt anguish and misery is odd to me and i cant possibly fathom how drugs could affect my current status,3.0 51828,rt jaeekaee stg ,2.0 51829,no call my home remodeling service ,0.0 51830,omg true blood premiered yesterday already looking for a link online but to no avail ,2.0 51831,i want to be in the sun someone build me a garden,2.0 51832,rt saraashcraft the psychiatrist dr gray tried to present to the judge this child porn created has a mental disorder called pedop,2.0 51833,rt btsarmyint if youre new to this community and you didnt go through or know about those fucking years of anxiety panic and depres,2.0 51834,just joined twitter not sure about my goals perhaps find interesting people on twitter ,0.0 51835,there will also be menudo ,0.0 51836,thepbg kantnokdahustle krazykid thanks for the chat i enjoyed the grown folks conversation for once ,0.0 51837,just listened to some old music and now i miss my years as an innocent child thats basically it,3.0 51838,sick husband i have been very depressed for a long time i am years old and my husband has parkinsons it keeps getting worse i have to get up at night to help him go to the bathroom his medication gives him nightmares so he screams at night i loose track of time hours days months i feel terrible about myself when i am mean to him i have to hide his medication because he says he doesnt want to go on like he is i also hide the car keys or he will drive somewhere i used to like going out with my friend but now i hope she doesnt call me what if he should fall down the stairs when i am out she got a new job and i am so happy for her because this means she will be too busy to call me i do try be getting nicer and more patient with him because i know he is sick but it never lasts,3.0 51839,yay thanks guys ,0.0 51840,kariinadesiana wawawa miss you too i called you yesterday like a hundred times but you werent home hey gmn garage sale ,2.0 51841,meehsa anellaa and i were hungry so i made us eggs hahah mmmmm it was goooood ,0.0 51842,soooo i decided to do breakfast on the beach by myself better than bein wsomeone thinkn bout someone else,2.0 51843, oh it was some reiligious crap than i understand ,0.0 51844,with this new album and a tour thats a lot on someones mindset has they have done this before but its a sad time ,2.0 51845,autobearography first cd i ever bought ,0.0 51846,kgool whoever you traded the copier and laptop bags to for rjamestaylor really scored id give him away for free ,0.0 51847,jadekmenaheim suicide is painlessssssssssssssssssss,2.0 51848,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 51849,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 51850,neethumary yeah my dvd player tv and camera all are not working running between service centres but wat u didnt understand ,2.0 51851,tomorrowme and my family will be go to nyíregyházaits a great placenice and friendlyi will tweet from there too ,0.0 51852,blusiamese my hubby would want to fight you for the impala especially if its that blue green color ,0.0 51853,hanging out with my neices ,0.0 51854,i added a video to a youtube playlist we will meet again sad emotional music mix hours powerful,2.0 51855, thanks james ,0.0 51856,missing you badly ,2.0 51857,marinamurad yeeeey me too did you study to biology test i absolutely hate this ,2.0 51858,thought things were getting better but hello all my life has been all over the place as of recently depression hit me about years ago when i couldnt go back to college and ever since then its been a roller coaster of emotions dont really have any real friends realized that yesterday when my so called friends didnt invite me to go anywhere with them shit i wasnt even thought of tbh they always ask me to come to my house and chill but only if another friend is with them never want to hang out just to hang out it always have to be someone else there and we have to smoke weed for them to even come in the first place smh also im pretty sure they know i have depression in the past i was cheated on and they cheated with my cousin i havent felt the same ever since ive been trying to look for new friends but in the small town im in theres no one around my age reallyhonestly life just sucks for me and i wish i could just cease to exist sorry if this post is all over the place thats kinda where my head is right now taking some shots to get my mind off things,3.0 51859,i want to feel something i see everybody else so happy and they get to laugh so easily yet its a struggle for me to even smile,3.0 51860,humanperson consider it done ,0.0 51861,lets talk about the different ways that we sabotage our food and training with stress and how to simplify and foc httpstcoielslioiko,1.0 51862,rt yasmiinereda انا كان في مخيلتي اني هكتئب يومين تلاتة بس و الـanxiety تسبني في حالي من نفسها ,2.0 51863,joymeetsworld maybe we are causing the bra fail haha we should each get a new one and commit to hand washing lol,2.0 51864,rt im sister sad,2.0 51865,simonmagus too right bad scene to see bnp elected ,2.0 51866,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 51867,i have my brackets in my mouth for the braces doesnt feel too good but the plus is a radiant smile at the end ,0.0 51868,today is the worst ive been in months i havent been happy in yearsim oldm i also havent gotten help the feeling of walking down an endless hallway the want to only sleep the feelings away hasnt left im finally going to help i know that the school is going to contact my parentsthey dont now my internal feelings and im scared im afraid that they are going to judge me and be mad im afraid that my friends will leave me,3.0 51869,a post that might help you i have seen a lot of people struggle with depression including me after a couple of cycles of depression here is what i realized at least for myselfdepression is egotistical i have compassion for everyone of you i know how it feels to be in torture and just cant find to have a piece of mind while all you wanna do is just lay and do nothing but you have to understand that sometimes depression is nothing but the ego trying to hold on itself there were times that i saw everything as negative and told myself lies that i was the only one to go through this other people dont know how it feels like that i am not normal and that the world hates mebut you have to understand every person on this planet has gone through it was it weeks month or a full year accept it and dont fall in the trap that you are the only one that has it rough there is always someone that has it worse than you i know it is very hard to acknowledge that and to let your ego to the side but it is the first step if you want to end your depressionsomething else that i figured out is that depressions meaning is to put down i came to the conclusion that depression is the burrying of our feelings we dont let our body express itself and we suppress our emotions what is the opposite of depression it is not happiness it is expression we live in a fucked up world that everyday we are told to shut the fuck up and work dont talk do this dont do that and most importantly we give our attention to our brains only every second of our day we are thinking shit we try to organize things or we are on our phones but the body is left out some people are so fucked up that they are emotionally numb they have supressed their feelings so much that they dont even have the impulse the urge in their body to feel anythinghere is what i suggeststart with the very basics learn to breathe deep as fuck i know you have heard it a thousand times all this shit with breathing you are thinking i want a real solution not the same bullshit for every problem that i have but it all truly comes from breathing the essence of life comes from it all people have developed neurological patterns that restrain the body from expressing what it feels the muscular system is often used as a way to suppress our breathing our expression of feelings try during the day to just bend your knees a bit and fall back with the chest being opened up and your hands being widely spread out as much as you can pay attention to nothing else but your breathing open your mouth and eyes very wide and just let the vibration to happen most likely your throat will be very tense as well as the diaphragm and the chest you might as well feel like choking or vomitting that is g o o d let it happen what is happening is the muscular system wants to hold on its tension take huge deep breaths and try to let your thoughts out of it do that times a dayalso try going to a place where nobody can see you or hear you and just begin jumping up and down it will seem very weird and stupid at first but try to keep your logic out of itdont feel ashamed of it own it try making sounds hump and try to fit your voice to the perfect spot where it feels the most comfortable at and let it resonate go up and down and feel the relaxation in your neck and diaphragm i swear it will feel great you might get the urge to express feelings such as laughing crying or screaming usually the most suppressed feeling is anger so feel comfortable screaming as loud as you can rub your throat open it up and allow your vocal chords to reach their max volume beat your chest try also rubbing your cheeks and massage them while screaming from deep into your belly you need to make noise dont be afraid if your vocal chords start to feel pain you need to get it off your system all this energy that has been trapped within yourself please dont start thinking that if someone saw you doing all this they would think you were crazy and dont start thinking that this awkward it is not get some stuff with you maybe a punching bag some things that you dont need and start destroying shit apart make yourself feel that you are in control of your life by smashing everything that you have in your surroundings tear it apart throw it punch it kick it bite it whatever starts coming up just do it and go with the flow after that this can take from either minutes or minutes depending on your situation whenever you feel that you got it all out just lay on the floor shut the fuck up dont move and let the body relax feel the sensation of your blood going through your veins feel the sweat coming off your armpits your head your legs and your chest feel the overheat on your neck and shoulders from screaming open your ears and listen to the impulsive breaths that you cant control that happen in order to make up for the oxygen that your lungs used feel the tiredness and the draining out that you feel going off from your chest and to your exhales that come off hot out of your mouth now you should be in that position for at least minutes stay there for as much as you feel like being you must be tired as hell now go home get a big glass of water go to your bed let loose and fall asleepif that doesnt work for you you must be one of those that have a chemical inbalance in their brain or you need to get even more extreme go crazy take a risk do something dangerousthis way you wont have time to think about your depression also disconnect from social media dont go to instagram or facebook or pornhub just let yourself be in its natural state with no overstimulation and let yourself feel boredi hope this helps some of you sorry for my english,3.0 51870,rt sopetacles hello my name is jyn and im currently losing my long battle with severe depression this may look like a small help but i,1.0 51871,the world changed when i got depressed so we grow up thinking and learning that the world doesnt change just because we get sick or run into problems the world goes around as normal we are led to believe but in my case theres been one thing that has completely changed since my life started to go wrong its how people respond to me now that im lost and depressed as opposed to vibrant and well put togetheri have a high education and have been working for years in my field it has always given me a sense of stability to have my wits acknowledged and to able to connect to people easily and find the good in things i lived in a fancy apartment in a very good neighbourhood if i had to make a phone call to someone about something back then itd be with enthusiasm and about some minor detail like arranging a birthday party or getting a vaccine for my kid etc every communication that i had with people was pleasant or non dramatic i didnt have a reason to contact anyone to solve my problems well the relationship fell apart im the one who had to move out i never found a place to rent or buy after that its been years now ive been renting many places for short periods as this has been all ive able to find my mental health has been going downwards for every year that has passed me by without a place to call my own ive had to call everyone and everything to fix my problems ever since its been one thing after the other because of the domino effect i cant find a place so that adds major stress i have to store all my stuff with family and with storage services find a place to keep my address figure out how to deal with that in conjuction to the fact that i have a kid with my ex and i cant just move my address far away without getting into trouble over it im just floating around out here like a balloon i wonder when ill completely float away life took a turn and everything changed its a nightmare and im performing miracles everyday just to make it into the next day but the problems keep piling up and the people the way they respond to me now ive found that everybody in my social circle is either a stranger now or apathetic towards my situation i have no adults to lean on and everybody puts this extra distance or contempt towards me ive had no help ive really discovered society as a cold place that has just laughed in my face when i needed it the most i feel used by society and thrown away like garbage every time that ive had to explain my ordeal to the municipality office or a doctor etc theyve talked to me like im stupid after learning that im stressed and depressed it somehow takes away my credibility as a person that ive become depressed everyone speaks to me in a baby voice and i just almost reject the world for what it has become to me now im just shattered into bits and pieces mentally and cant even find a beginning or an end to this mess it certainly feels like the dark night of the soul but more than that it feels like the world changed when i changed,3.0 51872,i really want to kill myself i really want to kill myself i think about it all the time but i told my grandma that i wouldnt so i cant,3.0 51873,good morning my friend juliemay thank you for joining me on facebook wishing you an smilefilled day with angel kisses ,0.0 51874,going to work at ,2.0 51875,staying busy distracted me from depressionbut now its really really hard at home hey so i had times in the past where doing anything was nearly impossible i lost my apartment my job etc because i just couldnt get upbut ive been okay for a while i went back to school and while that might sound like i would flunk it actually helped a lot i stayed so busy between school and researchworking in a lab that i was able to keep the momentum going i havent been perfect my apartment has literal trash heaps around but ive been functioning butcorona and i know that seems stupid but im going to be honest i havent showered since the quarentine began i havent washed my clothes and my online classes have been severely neglected i dont know what to do ive been using peoples expectations of me and not wanting to disappoint people as motivation to make progress but its come crashing down and im drowning help,3.0 51876,that ruined my day thankssss but menchies is soo good today cept i wanted the strawberry kiwi again ,2.0 51877,rt marijannss ne razumem one koji prave savez sa multimilionerom đilasom sa jeremićemkoji je od sad tražio da albanci proglase nezavisn,2.0 51878,hannahfaulkes oh hope you get better im good thanks ,2.0 51879, dont put so much thought into it if you quotworryquot about sleeping in you wont just relax i used to be like that too ,0.0 51880,anyone else get angry and annoyed by the snallest of things ive found after being depressed for a long time that i get annoyed and angry at the smallest of things and the problem is that due to being depressed and having anxiety ive never shown it or let it out and therefore it just builds up inside of me and eats at my brain and my head it leads to further headaches and desire to just end my life,3.0 51881,roadtrip to the gand canyon with a bunch of hippies in a five passenger car with five peopleits going to be interesting ,0.0 51882,gratitude eliminates fear worry grief and depression and brings happiness clarity compassion and peace of mind,1.0 51883,birds gotta fly fish gotta swim cuomos gotta destroy new york i would expect nothing less from this sad excuse o httpstcomnevdqbebt,2.0 51884,cynnergies liturgy stmss green avatar as we pray for iran iranelection lt just found out myself ,0.0 51885,peterfacinelli you should add twilight to your tags ,0.0 51886,happy mothers day and to dads it takes ,0.0 51887,help how you deal with everything now,3.0 51888,i miss doing nothing joke i have too much on my mind right now be postivie trixie,2.0 51889,trying to get used to this twitter thing ,0.0 51890,surrounded by three morning people ,2.0 51891,im kinda upset i didnt get on the jury for that murder case ,2.0 51892,time to study more coffee soon ,0.0 51893,is missing her family and friends in dsm ,2.0 51894,dont want to get up early tomorrow ,2.0 51895,what a truly fun nite goin to bed wearing a smile ,0.0 51896,wendilynnmakeup that sucks we dont get season on dvd until october or something according to playcom extremely sadface ahaha,2.0 51897,cernovich prattprattpratt is a pedophile enabler sad that the lake stevens boys and girls club is named after th ,2.0 51898,mtv movie awards tonight yeyeyey well tommorow for the uk ,2.0 51899,annnnnd home bit browner and wishing i could have gone and lounged about in central park today i miss new york ,2.0 51900,ratt rocked nashville toniteone thing sucked no encore like in the they still have a fun show pearcy has that hott bad boy look,2.0 51901,rt lifeaseva can we all stop treating anxiety like its a choice and something cool to have thank you,0.0 51902,bryannwhitee awww thats horrible ,2.0 51903,the fact that i choose to listen to blonde at am shows that maybe i really do deserve to be sad and alone,1.0 51904,kkoehler zoeew i prefer amoral anything over immoral anything any day i just had to ask lol,0.0 51905, wowowowowowo were the hell u been havent read anything from u on twitter all day ,2.0 51906,ive been having little spells of depression though too and those take alot out of me im missing something but idk what,2.0 51907, nmjust working amp replyin to commentsim gonna be busted when my dad comes ,2.0 51908,waaaaa im having a knee injury cant bend it ,2.0 51909,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 51910, ooh i kno it also comes out on the mtv movie awards tonight ,0.0 51911,jftitan hey there trouble i found you on twitter you should follow me as well ,0.0 51912,supernatural hi can u tell me if u have managed to mail them things yet i have tried emailing u but with no luck ,2.0 51913,playdate cancelled ,2.0 51914,majornelson wow sweet bro would have prefered goldeneye with its multiplayer support but i guess the sexy joanna will have to do ,0.0 51915,put that one in the photo album babys first argument on the phone in portuguese have yet to receive the damn wood i bought waiting ,2.0 51916,martinridd ah so youve finally checked it out then ,0.0 51917,depressed hs student hello im a girl thats now in her hsc years ive really been depressed more than ever before i have social anxiety and am struggling to be productive to do work i had the entire christmas holdiay to clear my nwarning letter but i didnt do it i tried exercising and going out with family more but i dont feel any better i invested some time into hobbies and have been talking to people online about my issues this year is gonna be really important to me but i dont feel motivation and energy to do anything ive had sleepless nights and thoughts on suicide ive been leaving scratch marks and drank cups of mouthwashi want to try antidepressants i know they dont solve problems but i want to take my mind off of things even for a moment i get told im pessimistic a lot i have to admit idk much about them and dont even know how to get them i want to bring it up to my parents but cant ill fail my hsc at this point ,3.0 51918,anyone online i would like to vent im tired of keeping things inside and have no one to share with,3.0 51919,cant believe how different the weather is today compared to last weekend ,2.0 51920,i think i have strep throatwill go to urgent care ,2.0 51921,would any of you happen to know who i have to shag to get my twilighted forum acct reactivated after changing my email its been a week ,2.0 51922,machinedreams awww poor baby ,2.0 51923,badeen yeah vicki was that for a while for bruce but they never bothered to do that for alex ,2.0 51924,yagsfan have a great day jenn sorry you have to work though ,2.0 51925,aaron is back to work today i miss him ,2.0 51926,my son has developed the new habit of waking up at im on my second pot of coffee,2.0 51927,phamous go out its hot up here ,2.0 51928,jwinterscom how the heck did that happen ,0.0 51929,how do i know if i dont like something because of depressionpoor mental health or if i just dont like something university troubles unsure of degree choice advice needed please hello this is a long oneso ill spare you the details here but id been busting my ass to try and get on a reputable computer science course at university from when i was or so until i got onto the course of my dreams at i didnt specifically focus on cs as my degree option until i was before that i was just interested in stem i had to do an extra year to get onto the course as i underperformed as in got average grades in my a levels due to a stress related breakdown noncs subjectsive put so much energy and time into getting onto the course that i completely burned myself out and ive messed up semester really badly the support i was supposed to get from the uni wasnt provided to me and ive been in an awful place through last year but especially since september ive been asking for them for help along the way which is the most annoying part but ive received very limited help so i ended up being unable to complete over half of my coursework across the modules as soon as i fell behind i got in touch with all of the proper people but they didnt really do anything they said theyd do what ive turned in has been marked between amp though so im not entirely hopelessour exams start this monday and im pretty sure realistically im not going to pass some of them ive lost a lot of self confidence though with academia as a result of going from a top straight a student to an average one ive got to get minimum in one exam to get overall in the module which can be compensated another need a minimum of all of these exams are hard though and they require a good understanding of the content that i just dont have i know they dont sound like high percentages every time i revise i have uncontrollable panic attacks luckily im eligible for mitigating circumstances due to ongoing family issues and my mental health issues mitigating circumstances are decided on an individual basis though and the board doesnt meet for another monthsone option is resits but they mean you have no summer holiday and i know ill desperately need a break by then i had to resit last year due to family illness during the exam season which is primarily why i burned out the other option is retaking the year but my uni debt is mounting upthe uni just sort of says to show willing but im doubting whether i even like the course or the subject any more its such a mindfuck to put so much effort into trying to scrape a pass idk whether its just my depression and lack of time for hobbies making everything a chore or if i just dont suit the subject luckily this years marks dont count i just need a average to get through to year and have no module less than which is the worry if im struggling this much now how am i going to do future years or am i just depressed with low self confidence meaning that im struggling i find the content is maybe of interest i love learning how things work but i really dont have much interest in computer engineering and such i find it really hard to not forget it all the exams feature bits of the coursework too if i understood how to do the coursework i wouldve done it i honestly spent hours trying to work it outanyway the main problem is im not convinced that a cs job is for me either ive been thinking recently that id like to become a property developer fixing up houses and making them more environmentally friendly theres nothing worse i can think of than being trapped in an office under fluorescent lights all day with no windows sitting trying to fix code its probably just the gross cs building at my uni thats given me that impression though im first gen uni so i dont really know what graduates do my mums friends are cleaners and housekeepers and ive got major imposter syndrome as everyone acts like theyre better and smarter than each other and its just so toxic this lack of a positive future goal has really made me suffer with motivation for the projects we have to work on others seem to make all of these fancy code projects on the side go to hackathons and love creating new csy things but im just here with no friends and being probably the slowest person with the lowest grades on my course i guess cs careers ive looked up especially in the uk amp eu just seem somewhat tedious and limited but idk if the picture ive built is realistic i think the exercises we do are okay but theyre just okay theyre certainly not easy though only a problem when i literally cant do the first step and ive only enjoyed the programming modules tasks how do i know if these struggles are genuine or just mental health related though writing this post i want to sit here and fight for my place on the course and to get myself a way to break into the lucrative industry but then the other part of me says its just the sunk time fallacy and the fact it costs me £ to be here ive seen a building surveyor degree apprenticeship that seems interesting as i mentioned id love to do up houses but also to help people make a decent living wage doing so id like to worry less about bills than i did growing up and help preserve cultural environments and ecosystems as well as the environment itself i previously had great interest in product design so already have some cad skills materials knowledge etc my maths has always been decent amp even my average a levels meet the requirements you even get paid too haha the same as a minimum wage job if not more which means id actually be making money and not leaving my degree £ in debt maybe id even be able to pay off my £ debt by the time im finished of course theres no guarantee id get this apprenticeship and the university its from wont be as prestigious but its not the only one out there and my work experience should overrule that anyway i can email them to ask more but i dont know what to say i dont want to seem unstable and indecisive by mentioning that im still enrolled in my course but that ive been struggling please if anyone has any advice on how to see clearly outside the fog of depression to help me make this important life choice it would be so welcome is it just the case that i just like cs or something or more that i just like tech and programming not necessarily the whole package does the lack of a career goal matter right now is that a good enough reason to choose another path thank you so much in advance for any constructive thoughts advice or tips ill try to reply to all comments amp thank you for reading this far i know its long but im not very good at condensing things and this has been causing me a lot of pain over the past few days and im sure my writing is reflecting that sorry,3.0 51930,twitter was borked ,2.0 51931,how do you comfort a depressed person who starts insulting themselves how do i comfort a person struggling with depression who texts saying im the worst im an idiot or i dont deserve anything,3.0 51932,sheindie im good things are moving along came back from lunch with the sad news ,2.0 51933,gretamiong tonsil sad d ai ka hahaha,2.0 51934,catch you later tweetsgotta take care of my duties as a mother and wife ,0.0 51935,rt chilltyler i was told you have depression just because im not sad about my life when they think i should be,1.0 51936,marcelapache oiiiiiiiii olha eu akiikkkk ,0.0 51937,its so cool being able to lookup on any phone number httpbitlycxrdz ,0.0 51938,moderngeartv oh how i wish there was a device to send food through the internet ,0.0 51939, jacksonpbn most times i quietly ask what country are we gonna leave for our kidsthe next generation so sad,2.0 51940,rogergzz what are you orderinganyway enjoy your dinner have a grat weekend you too ,0.0 51941,will libido come back how long did it take for your libido to go back to normal after quitting an ssri i only took celexa for weeks and quit due to side effects my sex drive was through the roof before and now i barely have any at all im a young male this is awful,3.0 51942,rt adoredbts why u sad idk nan molla ,2.0 51943,rt wolveyjohnson when a joke almost sends you into manic depression ,1.0 51944,rt peytonreedus ok please you guys i saw him smoke cigs in an equivalent of mins today and it made me sad please retweet,0.0 51945,my feet hurt ,2.0 51946,the future project natal takes shot at wii httpisgdlmam motion sensing bar thats controllerfree hello minority report ,0.0 51947,i just want to be happy again where did it all go so wrong i miss my old self im so afraid ill never be me again,3.0 51948,lastfm good to know ,0.0 51949,baby im lost cause ,2.0 51950,went to peru to feel alive but i just made things worse i spent so i could go see machu picchu and feel a sense of self worth i dont know the idea of doing something adventurous and out of my very structured comfortzone seemed like the reset i needed but good fucking god i feel even more lonely than before im sitting in my hotel room wishing i was back home im literally counting the days until i get to see my dogs again and fall back into my depression i cant fucking win ,3.0 51951,rt nahh yall ruined it ,1.0 51952,gussygoose that is not so good ,2.0 51953, there are worse things hun ,0.0 51954,standing at work really excited for my very looong day tomorrow miss my bf boo working opposite schedules,2.0 51955,miss my biffle methadonnie already come back,2.0 51956,night all i really am going to bed now zorsted need zzzzzzzzzzzs ,0.0 51957,brookefraser hey brooke how are ya ,0.0 51958,gayrepublicswag oh that is wonderful depression is not fun,1.0 51959,aahh its good to be converting people to my music taste ,0.0 51960,eventhough it is rainingit is still going to be an awesome day i wish i was a duck today ,0.0 51961,i have just had a nap my mouth tastes strange urghhh disgusting,2.0 51962,i want to be a better person im trying so damn hard i beat myself up because im not perfect and so do those around me because they know i can do better they know i know it too this is something i just wrote to myself because i know its truth i love life though i love it because i know it will get better life goes on,3.0 51963,feblub im in work so am always bored feeling really sleepy as well did not get a good night sleep,2.0 51964,jworthen a church the goal of being for the city i like it ,0.0 51965,making an effort to improve myself but im worried if itll really help lately ive been making more of an effort to be better trying to lose weight im currently obese so i made this a priority and work on my appearance and try to clean up more around the housetry and do better in school kind of late in the game for this one but im still trying etc but im worried if this will really make me feel better about myself what if at the end i still hate myself despite my effort that there was another reason for my depression that i never even considered the thought that all my effort wont amount to anything terrifies me,3.0 51966,rt hatttiegladwell please dont say you have ocd because you like your flat clean have bipolar because you had a mood swing have,0.0 51967, haha yeah i am on the bus right now ,0.0 51968,remember peter schiff is going to be on the daily show on june this should be good tlot economics tcot,0.0 51969, but i like my crasy persian eyebrow lady ion truss nobody once i get comfy its hard to tell me somethin else,2.0 51970,breyten youre missing out ,0.0 51971,mellygoround actually my hair is now entirely greywhite so looking closer to ,2.0 51972,contentedraine im you,0.0 51973, that sux ,2.0 51974,ilsansqueen ah this is sadisnt he somewhere out of korea i feel so bad for him,1.0 51975,and again happy birthday namwennetsirk ,0.0 51976,lizzyron lol ur waiting for jon and im here still thinking about what the hell tink is hahhaa ughhh,2.0 51977,periyasamy it looks like photographer forced them to pose like that barbaric arseholes ,2.0 51978,rt serendipityunki im leaving this here in case youre sad ,2.0 51979,unitechy it was puking day for me as well today samepinch,2.0 51980,ive had it with work i just want to eat chocolate pudding and watch buffy,2.0 51981,i joined la fitness hope it works ,0.0 51982,why i just dont get iti feel as though i am a pawn to everyoneive often been told to stand on my own two feet stop being pushed aroundbut i feel that those who say that are themselves trying to run over me and make me theirsim trying to get a job but every denial feels like a denial of my worth and timelife sucks this is one of my only escapesi thought my parents and brother were perfect and inside im no longer sure how to feel about themi dont know how im going to make it through lifethose how fave lived healthy normal lives and have done the best to your ability i truly applaud you its fucking hard i dont know how you do itwhy must people try and control others even the ones they lovewhy must we put on happy faces to make others believe we are okay even though we want to reach out and want to show our emotions in search of an answerwhy have i not been able to enjoy lifes simplicities latelywhy are things growing boring and oldwhat am i going to do why does it seem as though everyone has their life planned ahead of them when i dont even know what i am going to do tomorrowwhy must we repeat lifes daily chores day after day to seemingly no availwhy are we taught so much useless informationwhy must being bigger be a burden and slow us down giving us less energy to livewhy must we deprive ourselves of more energy just to make our appearance betterwhy am i afraiddo i have social anxietyor am i afraid of the thought of something newwhy must we fear new opportunities why cant i embrace them without fear or regret of what i am leaving behindwhy cant i live in the present why can i only think about the horrible memories of the past and the worst possible outcomes of the futurewhy must i be pushed to do what i dont want to dowhy does nobody want to listenwhy do so few people get recognized in this worldhow many names have been lost in timehow many stories that we hear are actually truehow can we tell if we are being lied towhy would people lie to uswhy do i lie to others about how i truly feelwhy does everybody act like it as a jokedoes nobody want to accept the fact that they too are aloneor am i truly alone and strangers like to make fun of me for not being normalwhy must i have to write this my whole body is telling me enough but my hands wont stop movingwhy must i stay awakeis it insomniado people my and make others happy through the internetwhy are we losing social interaction as time goes onwhy at my time of need are others simply staring at a screen not moving not talking just watchingwhy arent parents interactive with their children why must jobs suck the life out of those we loveleaving us less time to embrace themwhy cant we enjoy what we dowhy are there so many questions with so little answerswhy must i be mewhy cant i be something else,3.0 51983,just got done with deejays vet visit now im at whataburgeri think they are gonna get it wrong ,2.0 51984,coreenfun playoff tix are or more for nosebleeds so spensive,2.0 51985,sunday at work its so boring shayyan is sleeping huh wht a life ,2.0 51986,now i have only the dog left with me yet another load of pain that i can not manage yet another disappointment yet another wave of nausea that rises up my stomach until my mouth sours i no longer have alcohol or drugs im depressed i want to die but at the same time i feel like im shit because i cant kill myself im scared i only have the dog left and the saddest thing is that he has nothing to do with all this and he does not deserve to lick away the tears and the smell of tobacco from my face knowing that he will die having never asked to be brought into this world destroys me when you leave i will go too i love you my only friend you didnt deserve this,3.0 51987,pwofficial and they have a seat on my county council now hat has happened to this country used to be so accepting i feel ill ,2.0 51988,i´ve got butterflies in my stomach ,2.0 51989, thank you we won ,0.0 51990,xosophietweets yeah that would be so cool but life is complicated i wish i lived in londen ,2.0 51991,rt narendramodiin dont forget nirbhaya dont forget unemployed youth dont forget farmers committing suicide dont forget how our soldi,2.0 51992,new yarn tree swing and archery make for a great day ,0.0 51993,lost my free copy of radioactive so cant put it on my ipod grrand i cant go out buy nother coz it came with that paper ,2.0 51994,ahhh i just woke up amp i had the worst dream ever well more like a nightmare ,2.0 51995,from once upon a time hating leg day i now look forward to it fabulous workout loverly walk back to flat in the sunshine ,0.0 51996,has work at half hmm,2.0 51997,my leo portal isnt working like i want it to i cant check my final grades wtf im worrying and to top that off i have class at ,2.0 51998,mclangan if i keep eating the way i do now u might really need to drag me trekking ,2.0 51999,now this currently makes me sad i missed my update because im on tweet deck now ,2.0 52000,either has a bad cold or hay fever or maybe even both either way i feel shit ,2.0 52001,follow katleverx follow me amp ill follow you dday jayz robotpickuplines tetris sims palm pre england its cool normandy audioboo,0.0 52002, no its not ,2.0 52003,karmalaaa oh no i knew i should have stayed home lol ,0.0 52004,detachment it feels like my mind is being taken over my good memories have become painful nostalgia my friendships taken from me in isolation and any intelligence i had gone its turned me on myself to a point of self loathing where i cant stand the sight of my body in the mirror its not me ive realised that i detach myself as its my only way of escapingany resemblance of myself will continue to do this detach further from my reality as its the only way i can cope the holes in my mind where i once was was be filled in by the depression i will become increasingly distant to my surroundings eventually those who love me eventually wont be talking to me i will be lost and all thats left will be the muted disease that has left my mind a shell of what it once was its so selfish but detachment is the only option i have im too scared to die right now im looking forward to loosing myself completely ,3.0 52005,snuggled up in the basement watching a movie i need a cuddle budy ,2.0 52006,cec and hilde no lol ,0.0 52007,thecraigmorris it gonna be aweome x,0.0 52008,up before logged in and quotworkingquot and my fiance is still all snuggly in bed hhmmph ,2.0 52009,craigmarkillie ok cool no prob ,0.0 52010,i relapsed last night i dont remember all of what happened i got high then i snowballed and got violent and started selfharming again im so fucking ashamed i genuinely thought i was past this and that i was improving but now i feel as lost and fucked up and alone as ive ever been ive been taking my meds regularly and focusing on school work and apparently that wasnt enough fuck i just hate who i am as a person like on a core level like i love the person i act lke in front of the people in my life but hate who i really am you know,3.0 52011,rt tonyposnanski sad how we went from mexico is paying for the wall to imma shut this mother fucker down if you dont make americans p,1.0 52012,frozenblueeyes if it werent for you id despise it but youre well worth twitteringsome strange person is following me now ,2.0 52013,forgot my senior shirt ,2.0 52014,jennifertribe unfortunately ive no scanner but perhaps ill try to take a photo of them later amp if it works ill post them ,0.0 52015,its been two months since we lost my grandad and its still the little things that upset me like having to lay the table for one less ,2.0 52016,about to watch eastenders i feel seriously sick too ,2.0 52017,mrericpirate aya seems like everyones having a tough weekend i had a couple friends in tears amp im exhausted no time at all aya,2.0 52018,mandyva hahahaha i want to knowbut nobody knowsand i tweeted joey about it and nothing wtf i will investigate until i find out,2.0 52019,weekend pass by new week to start off ,0.0 52020,junkprints guac and spicy sauce ,0.0 52021,youth i feel that i wasted my youth i should had make more friends i dont talk with anyone and i just want friends to talk with,3.0 52022,homework ,2.0 52023,takin some photos soon should be fun ,0.0 52024,katypayne loli starts with l ,0.0 52025,a post about suicide so ive been pretty fucking depressed for the last couple of years and ive finally started to plan my own death i dont know why i continue to perfect it because idk if it will ever be perfect but i keep writing the details down whenever i feel like killing myself ive told myself that when the plan is perfect then im ok to end it ,3.0 52026,gp doesnt want to connect me with a psychologistpsychiatrist over the years ive become pretty apathetic resulting in the fact that im not enough of a vulnerability to be transferred the taboo surrounding depression is palpable when i talk with my gp or its staff my closest friends know of my condition although i cant really rely on them for talking about it and i no longer think i can fix myself,3.0 52027,jonasbrothers your youtube account has been suspended please do something about it,2.0 52028,drmiracles i dont have a celeb twin fun contest tho,2.0 52029,whoaaa just looked my nails nd uhhh def takin a trip to da nail salon asap its been ova weeks not a good look,2.0 52030,toysrevil anytime ,0.0 52031,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 52032,this one is for you free marketing mangoorange� ,0.0 52033,peterblackqut sure congrats maybe your luck will rub off on me if i go with you or my bad luck will rub off on you haha,0.0 52034, then im going the get entertainment junkiez quotsewnquot into my face just below my bottom lip lol,0.0 52035,for some reason ive been getting a lot of anxiety about posting art and sketches starting back with some simpl httpstcoqkwqmciaul,1.0 52036,on a cab home bus stopped running at i waited an hour for nothing ,2.0 52037,dumpling party next saturday all is invited lol hosted by jayampmyself ,0.0 52038,remyfoster yep but already put it to good use jc,0.0 52039,im hungry but nothing sounds good im sick of food ,2.0 52040,is there really a light at the end of the tunnel i have been diagnosed with sever depression and anxiety i had a very bad reaction to antidepressants so had to stop and the only way for me to get better is by trying different methods i have left my full time job i couldnt get myself to get out of bed in the morning and mixing the job with anxiety it was unbearable i am at a point now that i dont see any light at the end of the tunnel i dont feel like there is a purpose to my life i am in my mid and dont have children and i dont know if i ever want them i blame my parents for my miserable life and ask them why did they bring me to this world and why i dont want to make the same mistake and bring another human being to this world that would probably be even more miserable than i am i have gone to uni and worked all my life and i feel like that was all for nothing i am still renting and i dont know if i ever own my own house i feel like im walking on eggshells at all times that this world im living in is going to collapse and destroy everyone elses lives close to me with it sometimes i wish id just go to sleep and dont wake up it will fix everything when i tell people who are close to me how i feel all i get is youre strong you can do this youve done it before just try this and that eat healthy exercise go out with friends blah blah i just dont know how to make them understand maybe i cant do it maybe im done im just tired of this stupid life im living and non of this blush it things that supposed to make me feel better wonti am tired and just want to rest thats all,3.0 52041,breakzmaybe they subsist on jellyfish for the most part the sad thing is that the poor bastards keep ingesting p ,2.0 52042,my little demonic voice thats what i call her she is the devil on my shoulder she is the one constantly telling me im not good enough never good enough not good enough to be loved to have a good job for people to care about me my little demonic voice made me cry today because my partner didnt give me anything for valentines day he didnt plan anything because he lost some one close to him little demonic voice wanted to convince me it was because he doesnt love or care about me she wanted me to think that he doesnt want to be with me she is the one who tried to convince me that his not responding to my texts for hours on the day he found out was because he would rather talk to anyone but meshe wants to make me selfish dark and broken she wants me down on my knees so she can destroy me from the inside out put that foul nonsense in my head so it makes me rot from the inside until the infection spills out and i do something stupid to shut her upwell she can go fuck herself i refuse to let her win,3.0 52043,drama night last night was fantastic so sad its over now though ,2.0 52044,is now eatin her lunch once l nd wait tym past so she can go trampolining xx,0.0 52045,shall i do there are too many fckers jacking my typing style have originality l,2.0 52046,woodyhertzog i didi was the host ,0.0 52047,loved star trek a bit disappointed that all thats star trek is now erased but aside from that very happy with it,2.0 52048,depression covid amp ptsd best cocktail ever having major depression ptsd war etc symptoms of this dear covid so confinement day best thing ever especially when you still have the brains to understand that we have dealt with this whole situation like mentally challenged countries reallysarcastically yours,3.0 52049,bored with life but doesnt the song say if youre bored youre boring ,2.0 52050,otw to loewy to meet up my elmo ,0.0 52051,josephranseth how r u man where have u been oh well u were sleeping i guess have a great day ahead,0.0 52052, where were the live updates ,2.0 52053,is laying on the beach with sam steve vi daryl hannah amp ariel ,0.0 52054,rt iatemuggles me i need to talk this out with someonemy anxiety youre going to come off as needy isolate urself and handle it all,2.0 52055,pls keep carine in prayer if possible cos she down with fever and flu ,2.0 52056,ehh not even sure what to sayi apologize for the randomness and stupidity of it figures i would try this out because im pretty much incapable of doing anything else to helpmyselfhate to say the typical dead inside stuffbut man all i ever feel is usually anger and depressiononly have family members that i talk tocant avoid it and its always about how horrible things are everyday yet if i tell em its getting me downi get treated like im a horrible person for saying so the rest is work a job with people who arnt exactly decent peopletrying to word that nicer than it really is im not even exaggerating because its the only job that almost pays all the bills cant get another one or better because of time conflicts with what i have to do to help my grandfather and no friends to speak ofi thought i tried to make a few but it was always justseemed wrong to try with them they always turned out to be just unhealthy to be around or just wanted to do stupid things like sitting around talking crap about people or go to bars and have no responsibility for their actionsdrunk driving acting degrading to themselves and to other people ect not very big into religion more out of a respectful thing because my family isnt exactly on good terms with stuff like thati think my problem is just too much tv comics books movies ect because i tend to get jealous of the fictional stuff i see more just ways that seem like things that are kinda based on reality ya know seeing people happy or even the crazy stuff like hero idealsexcept im stuck doing everything i think is just generally pointless i also tend to look at the state of the world and humanity and im very worried for the future of literally everything so im down because i cant do anything to make a pointfull change for that and i dont see anything or anyone else being able to do it eitherits just a daily routine of work think about how things of the time its not good thoughts go home listen to the same things i was thinking about all day and more to add to it finish what im told to do and just sit around distracting myself with games comics and movies because its the only way i dont hear my thoughts yet i dont want to ingore themit just feels wrong to ignore the bad stuff becuase its like thats what i think is the worlds just causing its problems from anywayi dont even know what im looking for lol i guess a bit of happinessways to change things not for myself for the planet in generala bit stupid but my only bit of religous thoughts are that humans should be guardians of the planet and of its history and life so that we can repay the fact that were all really just lucky how things are set on this planetit could be so much worse if anyones even reading this thnx loli have no adrenalineno postivity to act on so really just trying things is a hardship in general just caught up in fantasy ideas that make normal life extreamly boring while hating how the world and humanity is turning outjust pretty much a walking puppet with angerhoping i can find a way work with my own depressing personality btw i do appreciate all suggetions but ive looked into so much it seems like i cant find an answeralso i just cant beleive in taking pills or therapymostly on how little money i have on that therapy thing and the area i live in doesnt provide really anything for the type of person i ammostly for retirees and justbars i guess really nothing else not that i have the time or funds for anything else than what im doing right nowsrry all and only post ill make about depressing stuffdont need to make things worse on other people ya know,3.0 52057,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 52058,i didnt realize how short changed is until now wow im sad,1.0 52059,omfg did not realize that this movie is hours long i feel all invested in the storyline now crap ,2.0 52060,do anyone you have functional depression i work out i eat healthy i drink water good hygiene and grooming i go to work i go to grad school and i have a good support system ive been doing it for years and for fucking what i still cant feel anything everything is baseline what else am i supposed to do i cant even feel sadness theres nothing moving in me someone even told me they were jealous of me that i had it all i wish i told them that id rather have nothing than feel nothing if its not coined already shout out to all the functional depressed people on here that we have them all fooled,3.0 52061,im cold ,2.0 52062,shantl dude is that your natural hair at all ,0.0 52063,woken up by the sound of drilling outside ,2.0 52064,i really think i might die without my mom here im eating popcorn for dinner via mssexay thats kinda sad,2.0 52065,or not i really need to be ,2.0 52066,relapse i was doing well for quite awhile i got to experience the feeling of being okay for an extended period of time for the first time in my life i thought i was finally out of the hole ive been having a hard time with life lately i assume its because i am under a lot of unresolvable stress at the moment every other time before when i felt like this again it was expected even though it was hard to go back to that feeling it was familiartonight it feels devastating there wasnt one person that i could consider calling to burden with my negative fucked up thoughts i have friends but nobody really knows the extent of my depression i would have to provide a lot of information about myself for someone to truly understand why i feel this way i dont think i could trust anyone in that capacity i couldnt stop the sadness from consuming me so i decided to turn to reddit for distraction this is my first time posting here im not sure what im expecting out of this but it has felt better to just let this out im sure many people here can relate to this and it gives me a little bit of peace knowing that someone understands ,3.0 52067,i wish i was dead i havent done anything all day ive barely moved since i woke up i havent eaten and i havent worked on anythingall i did was think about killing myself all day i just want to stop being miserable i want to stop being such a waste of space,3.0 52068,wow congrats very nice,0.0 52069,in the sun feeling human again ,0.0 52070,walkin work wish i was in beddam charter skools can anyone get me a doe job,2.0 52071,not even an hour into and im having a depressive episodewhat away to end and start a yearfuck depression,3.0 52072,alcohol and depression people say that drinking alcohol makes you more depressed its a depressant does anyone feel like its more of a balm an honesty agent it helps you feel how terrible you feel all the time without the bullshit in the way,3.0 52073,brynnmetheney for hey tutti you do a great job ,0.0 52074,wishes he had the chance to see isabeyli hillclimb ,2.0 52075,thebigdebowski how do you manage stress,2.0 52076,does anyone else get extremely depressed if they have nothing to do for more than a few days if im alone or have nothing to do i start sleeping through the day to get it over with overeating and being just generally depressed i never feel this way when i have things to do or im around people and i dont know why i was hoping someone here felt the same way,3.0 52077,mrhudson definately come back to bristol soon ,0.0 52078,redblublur haha in some ways yups a loooooooong time ago ,0.0 52079,ralphmacchio sorry bout the mets yesterdayr u in mourning ,2.0 52080,goooood morning off to sunbathe ,0.0 52081,wheres my partner in crime sob,2.0 52082,i knew it something always got in the way when im too excited ,2.0 52083,chelseydee bahh you suck im not going in to school tomarrow but come visit me after school and help me clean my room k ,0.0 52084, youre welcome they suck so much,2.0 52085,happy mothers day to all my mama friends i hope yours was a great one im lucky to know so many amazing new mommies ,0.0 52086,eating dinner with of my favs mike and lindsey ,0.0 52087,is chillin on a sunday night is the weekend really almost over ,2.0 52088,rt troubledpoc i met haqiem rusli at starbucks earlier 😅 i asked him why did he faked his depression then he threw his iced americano a,2.0 52089,lmao its worse i thought i was just suicidal but now i guess im a tad bit homocidal too ,3.0 52090,gym homework then maybe shower then bed zzzzzzzzz ,0.0 52091,remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk ,0.0 52092,emmyrossum my prom was supposed to be yesterday but it was canceled due to snow ,2.0 52093,does anyone else suffer from pangs of severe nostalgia i know i romanticize the past remembering it as much better than it actually was i miss the freedom and carefree aspect of my youth and i crave it often daydreaming about better times gone by long hot summer holidays playing outside al day long watching the stars first exciting nights out as a teen but the reality is that even my childhood amp adolescence was marred with depressive and negative thoughts id love to appreciate the present,3.0 52094,vishmaker happy to hear thtcontact hs been in my list frm th day my class x frnds mothr refusd to let me take their copy home n read ,0.0 52095,finished something great i think at work i hope my boss and our stakeholders like it ,0.0 52096,james has to email one of the teachers because he got caught skipping lunch my input next tweet ,0.0 52097,i want a redo it matters,2.0 52098,webserials my passholders download link didnt work says my downloads are expired ,2.0 52099,calpumper you are too kind i swear the love i have gotten today is enough to last a lifetime,0.0 52100,i am so glad that i am on here now ,0.0 52101,tight feeling in throat and compressing feeling in heart anyone else feel this when theyre going through it ,3.0 52102,drowning but not swimming i feel like im not trying to get better its feel like im sinking i know how to swim but i just dont want to,3.0 52103,so excitedschool is over yay ok just for today lunch time about to hit up my fav thai spot ,2.0 52104,leneisefjaer no i didnt get it but i dont get international text on this phone ,2.0 52105,i easily get sad rn im about to cry oh my god,1.0 52106,got the brainbone daily question right ,0.0 52107,ughim going to miss conan tonight ,2.0 52108, oh baby,1.0 52109,there is something that is keeping me from leaving all behind hi i wouldnt say directly that i am suicidal but i thought a couple of times that the world wouldnt change one bit with me gone and so why should i continue if it has no importance at all when i was in this groundless black hole which swallows you sometimes i thought of just grabbing a knife and finishing it once and for all but i never did it and explained it to myself that probably i was to afraid of the pain of slicing my arm open or that i couldnt do that to my mother but recently i found the true reason why i still had the wish to live some days before i wrote down a « todolist before i die » i wrote all my wishes down some common once like travelling but also silly personal once like wanting to play a zombie in an zombie film one of the background zombies i realized that i dont want to die before fullfilling all the things on the list i think that is the true reason that keeps me going,3.0 52110,why are some of your profile pics tinted green did i finally drop the phone one too many times ,2.0 52111,okay one of my ears popped so now i know what everything sounds like and everything is reall loud ,2.0 52112,job hunting this economy crazyness is bs in a crazy way ,2.0 52113,rt plynteria adachi i became a cop just so i could legally carry a gun and kill peoplena fans oh fuck yum i love the edgeakechi i,1.0 52114, jon and kate so sad,2.0 52115,getting ready for work tomorrowi hate working on saturdays ,2.0 52116,amyi oh thats nice our local like mi stopped strawberries the last few years doing alfalfa now every spring i hope but no,2.0 52117,listing my books on amazon the semesters finally over,0.0 52118,im still sad ella ☹️,2.0 52119,decided the name kiev doesnt suit that henso shes now called elvis ,0.0 52120,nope thats next monday sitting in the office,2.0 52121,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 52122,rt dodo cletus the rescue dog has anxiety and so many health issues — but his new parents know exactly how to calm him down httpstco,1.0 52123,very difficult to stop drinking and have a more positive attitude when all my friends want to do is go out drinking title says it all really im and live in the uk we have a very strong drinking culture in this country and most people my age just want to go out on the weekend and get wasted in the pubclubdont get me wrong i really enjoy a drink with friends but my depression means i cant have too much because im definitely not a happy drunk it just makes me worseive been told by my doctor to cut down on drinking and socialise more but its nearly impossible because whatever i do with my friends like go to the cinema or go for something to eat always ends up the same lets go to the pub after this or well go to the pub first for a few drinks before the cinema and then we can hit the town after the filmmy friends mean well and they always try their best to include me but at the same time i dont want to be that guy who goes home just as everyone else is having a good time and laughing together sometimes i just decline the invite because i dont want to spoil things for themanyone else in a similar situation,3.0 52124,camillexxo nooooooo wayyyyyy awww ,2.0 52125, there isnt anything we can do for people like that but thrive just sad that they wont know what it i httpstcofirailukzt,0.0 52126,so now i�m going to bed and sleep good night,0.0 52127,cant understand why they cant reactivate my lost but immediately found oyster card ,2.0 52128,going to school now ,2.0 52129, were headed back home to palm beach sigh,2.0 52130,im not sure if im depressed ever since i got back from my first deployment i havent felt any interest in anything ive just felt numb and bored with everything i feel as if im on nothing more than a constant plain of meaningless existence,3.0 52131,trapped in the office till no new acp for ,2.0 52132,ahhhh finally my own bed ,0.0 52133,ishatara it was soooooo small and it only went to feet ,2.0 52134,cod but its laggy as hell ,2.0 52135,im crazypeople care about mei guess theyre crazy too ,2.0 52136,it is so exilerating to see that even though times are tough we are still willing to help those in need ,0.0 52137,myfavouritewordtodayis numpty ,0.0 52138, i couldnt make it to the premier my mom and dad werent here to drive me but i love you demi and selena,2.0 52139,theres more chance of you dying on the way to get your lottery ticket than there is of winning fact ,0.0 52140,so i guess this is different i didnt really know where to post this so ive never been like diagnosed and ive never wanted to go to a therapist of any kind but i guess recently ive been looking at life differently like ive just gotten tired ive gotten so tired it doesnt matter what i do doesnt matter how much sleep i get doesnt matter my eating habits or anything like that i just get tired and i guess its made things dimmer like as if someone came into a room and turned the lights down you can still see but its harder to see and i guess thats how it is with me and enjoyment of my life i do still enjoy things and i am still happy but it just its gotten harder to be happy and enjoy things and i used to always be or try to be at least a positive person but now i dont know its just everythings changed my perspective on everythings changed anyways i dont really know where i was going with this but yeah,3.0 52141,sending my condolences to kth and his family we love you kth stay strong we got your back this is really sad b ,1.0 52142,solarrhyll oh my god that would be genius i actually need a couple shot for my port folio ,0.0 52143,rt depression is not funnyanxiety is not funnyschizophrenia is not funnyselfharm is not funnyanorexia is not fun,0.0 52144,dirticow go to your indian store they make a dulce de leche like dessert yum lots of coco stuff too no churros though ,2.0 52145,i miss you tunisia and i miss my family i want to go in tunisia now ,2.0 52146, world cup just a few weeks away the fever has already gripped me ,0.0 52147,just got done mowing waiting for my moneyyy then gettin food n movies word son,0.0 52148,rt gethinunlocks so sad but so true words cant express the pain that is felt x no winners prisonstorm prisonstorm ybrpyoumatter r,1.0 52149,youngq thanks watch your inbox i have something for you ,0.0 52150,watching a movie ,0.0 52151, then i take that backdont burn anything what about a fireplacefire pit,0.0 52152,u kno how i said id sleep in today well i got the opposite of tht i woke up at it was hrrbl ,2.0 52153,more bubble than squeak but still yummy i love crispy bacon ,0.0 52154,derrickmarrok really good getting things done slowly baking again ,0.0 52155,just started up my desktop only mb of memory dead slow ,2.0 52156,rt adrianxpression bitch move you didnt bat an eyelid at your husbands racist bigotry or his confession of being a sexual predator htt,2.0 52157,watching chelsealately ,0.0 52158, hahahah oh that one was to buck ,0.0 52159,tomorrow im going to reenroll in university three years after leaving due to depression and oh my fucking god i feel so ashamed and anxious everyone in my life is moving on and im stuck here playing catchup feeling the loneliest ive ever been i dont know anyone in my class will anyone even want to get to know a dropout like me why did i have to fucking break down in the middle of the fucking semester this fucking sucks i hate life and i wish i could shut everything out,3.0 52160,two more hours ,2.0 52161,still cant sleep amptheres nothing to watch on tv ,2.0 52162,rt abratasas for all my anxiety ridden folks ,2.0 52163,just got off work going golfing amp dinner with friends a banner day here in the twin cities sunny amp have a good evening four ,0.0 52164,torn between fuzzball and titanic ,0.0 52165,titaniaaelita would u let someone like me bite ur heels ,0.0 52166,manage to let go of my fear of disappointing people will probably regret it later but im content atm as the title says ive manage to realise that what im doing is not doing me any good ive come to a different country for uni only to realise that people treat me differently based on where im from and how i look like this year my mental and overall health declined a lot im in the worst mental state ive been and in the worst physical state as well so i decided to quit i feel bad about and i know that people will hold it over my head just so they can say that the told me so but im ready for it i feel relieved in a way but theres a lot we have to get done before being able to leave this place and mental state and im aware its gonna be hard and its gonna get worse but im just hoping that something good will come my way if not then ill just have to cry about it until i handle it i apologise for the format im on mobile so in not sure how its gonna look but as a nice ending note you not being able to do something people have doubted you about doesnt mean youre a failure you tried or you didnt it doesnt matter you dont owe people anything you dont owe them being depressed just so you can prove them wrong think about yourself first and no matter how much it hurts let it go youre gonna do good i wish you guys nothing but love,3.0 52167,i wish i was going to ,2.0 52168,rt loopzoop hello hour depression nap do you remember mein monaco i made u that bracelet,2.0 52169,joepolitic they make your poop turn green ,0.0 52170,rt cournestone in conclusion im sad,2.0 52171,rt visit everyday until aug and vote daily airdrie calgary yyc alberta edmonton yeg winn,1.0 52172,loser loses lost my battle gona kms tommarow gl all u guys u all deserve happiness,3.0 52173,saw this msg on my run quothopequot its a sign ,0.0 52174,adelinapeltea thats ok i understand if you have any friends that can i have more puppies that need homes,0.0 52175,xingkit awww youre away from home on mothers day ,2.0 52176,wylthenemesis £ for airport airport airport or £ for airport hmm think ill got for the collection ,0.0 52177,uploading ,0.0 52178, lol akwardness tho hope it works out maybe a little way kiss hahaha you should ask lmao,0.0 52179,shit i really feel like getting the orange one but they do not have the small one ,2.0 52180,abvan i tweeted that yesterday my hear almost quotburntquot from her hotness ,0.0 52181,netvalar darkpiano silixell jojova hypnoticyogi dpbeltran thanks for passing on the words some early monday stuff to ponder ,0.0 52182,thegoodoldwar come back to dallas ,0.0 52183,rt lifeaseva depression is diagnosed by a doctor and can be helped its not a sad twitter joke its not a relateable tweet stop joking a,1.0 52184,thats it all done our entry into this years beers of the world awards sent ,0.0 52185, but its well worth the watch ,0.0 52186, still unpacking its very difficult getting your belongings from a three bedroom house into one room but my friends,2.0 52187,patience is a virtue its working so far ,0.0 52188, oh gosh i so know the feeling i managed to bake at least cookies yesterday and now i dont know what to do with them ,2.0 52189,bout to upload saturdays vid btw it sucks ,0.0 52190,joan is going to win nancy,0.0 52191,helpsome of my dms have disappeared anyone else noticed this,2.0 52192, hours ,2.0 52193,i need to get some work done today no time to relax ,2.0 52194, start amy hospital appointment weather seems to be deteriarating thats a really hard word to spell please correct if incorrect ,0.0 52195,rough night my mood is all over the place i havent felt like this in a long time i feel like i cant trust my own thoughts and am thinking about taking myself to a hospital,3.0 52196,sadly has to study for finals but mor full day of sql and then half days of finals yayrzzz,2.0 52197,i cant handle it had an extremely depressive episode when i was it lasted for years and it was allleviated after that but not i am not only having depression but just sessions of excitement followed by depression again my brain is fucked i have no chance my family is fucked my life is fucked i have had poor health since childhood and still do sometimes i just feel i am losing my mind too poor for medical help or anykind of help talking with others doesnt work the threshold of my ambitions was just getting lower and lower through out the year first i wanted to be a doctor no way now i am even contemplating if i should go to college as opposed to just root and die i really cant see any pro in this life i am tired of crying and wheeping and whining over and over i am tired of my family my health everything about me i wish i wasnt born i dont want to talk i am tired and exhausted all the time again i wish i died when i was a child my life is gone i spent my teenage years depression and was so close to do it multipile times and now i am now in my what is left nothing absolutely nothing i want to sleep for ever,3.0 52198,aspekt chatran is alive wooohooo i knew my dad was teasing me when he told me that chatran died,0.0 52199, damie had strep thats how i know so much about it aw that sucks kia yep ill see you on the for fairmont,2.0 52200,i just messed up on the same twice ,0.0 52201,anxiety reduced when i sleep only few hours hello i just realized that i am suffering from anxiety year a go i tried many supplements to reduce it reading some pages about biohacking some of them have worked others have not but these days i am realizing something strange i really feel good and almost without anxiety when i sleep really few hours a night something like hours or not sleeping at all but i can do this for just or nights if i do it for more nights i start feeling tired to keep in mind that i have also a hiatus hernia in the stomach so when acid reflux is too much i feel just more anxious because of the esophagus and stomach inflammations beyond this i have no other health problems i really need someone to explain what is happening with me since all internet websites are talking about that the lack of sleeping leads to anxiety i am so glad to heat from you ps when i dont sleep the night before i can just do all the things that i cant do when i sleep normally hours i can also feel focused and i start noticing thing i do not notice when i am on normal sleep i can also work better and my social anxiety comes to zero with no supplements taken thank you for reading this ,3.0 52202,blarrgh have just been told i missed billy connolly at waiting for godot audience last night boo ,2.0 52203,kira is taking a nap hopefully we can take kira outside again today jason goes back to work tomorrow ill be at home with my babes kira,2.0 52204,rt shaikhlalsakal मी देखील आरक्षणाच्या लढाईतील शिपाई मराठा तरुणाची आत्महत्याबीड,1.0 52205,slumre got pretty close a couple of times ,0.0 52206,i wish the school system could be more empathetic no teachers care about their students well being it doesnt matter if a kid is suffering every day and has suicidal thoughts it doesnt mater if every piece of homework leaves them void of all energy and with no free time to simply relax and be a person for once as long as things are getting handed in its fine to them nothing to worry about the only way to get someone to care is to make some grand gesture that no one can ignore i hate it i just want someone to understand for once its so unfair ,3.0 52207, why does wanna sleep ,2.0 52208,rt pontiacmadeddg everything happens for a reason manifest that and ya stress will be relieved,0.0 52209,mazzer great idea for a lens i went to check it out and many of the videos have now had embedding disabled httpbitlyzkfqp,2.0 52210,rt coldbeefbroth ppl that dont like cats are too pussy to live with individualistic personalityfilled technicallynotdomesticated cre,0.0 52211,is it normal to lose memories because of depression the thing i remembered the most is trying so hard not to kill myself like if i was thinking about something in the past the thing i recall most vividly is about me lying on my blanket thinking about how to stay positive so that i will not want to die i dont think thats the i want to think back to the most but it keeps pop up first and then im all depressed again is there a way to force yourself to forget your own thoughts and make something else be the first thing you think about i just dont want to see my past like some kind of depressing and all sad all the time i had great friends and great memories why cant i think about them instead,3.0 52212,ever been depressed for so long that you start longing for the old times of when you were first depressed and felt sad and lonely but now all you feel empty and numb i been depressed now for about years im and i realized i dont even feel sad about it anymore im just empty i cant feel i want to feel something,3.0 52213,my blog site is broken just wait for the updates ,2.0 52214,im texting random girls i dont know im pretending i know them im gonna insult them soon ,0.0 52215,travisjr you also what i take more better right cos i might screw the ones im doing now up ,2.0 52216,strandloper well if ya can find some sort of rythm dance ,0.0 52217,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 52218,beejive hype seems to have died down but we still dont have the update yet ,2.0 52219,crucifybrett because i do ,2.0 52220,im a man of my word i told u i would keep in touch and i will ,0.0 52221,all i want to do is help people like me nobody should ever have to fucking feel this way im done sitting on my ass while their earth becomes more and more miserable i want to help save everyone it shouldnt have to be this way we shouldnt have to feel alone it doesnt have to be this wayno matter what im going to stay up and reply to every single one of these comments and try to be there nobody deserves to suffer and i want to help even if it kills me i want all of you to be happy 💖,3.0 52222,mskae my cat occasionally emits a noxious odor that is beyond description i have no desire to know from whence it comes ,0.0 52223,boo i keep losing followers am i that awful ,2.0 52224,rt jamilsmith whiteness has been treated as the default for humanity in this country and that is now coming to an end cue the anxiety,0.0 52225,back from church amp feeling good feeling great ,0.0 52226,carissarogers thanks i love finding cool pics like that on creative commons just approved your comment too ,0.0 52227,natazzz we were going to put in a big order with amazon the other day and went with a diffent company instead felt good indeed ,0.0 52228,work is so dull today everyone seems so depressed whats happening in twitterverse today,2.0 52229,franciscoiv hi francisco bunny waving beautiful day here today thinking about steppng out in the city ,0.0 52230,my first girlfriend at i should be happy right im also getting my masters degree why do i feel so empty,3.0 52231,cdhinton ok pal not gonna do it for a while anyway helping out guy in unit next door just now ,0.0 52232, ekaa din when she first had her braces i was like quotcomfortquot ,2.0 52233,depression feels like its about to win not looking for sympathy just looking to understand what is wrong with me and if there is anything i can do i think ive been depressed for so long i forgot that the feelings i feel are abnormal today though it really hit me im and living at home with my parents and year old brother i am getting my masters in public health at a university near by i work for the school and have been with the same organization for over years i make more than double minimum wage plus a full tuition waiver aka my school is free i have a boyfriend of years who i love more than anything and a dog that is essentially my child and best buddy my parents have money and are good people so why am i so tired of this im physically tired all day mentally drained and lonely i feel empty and without purpose i go to work and am bored out of my mind but im too socially anxious to ask for more to do or maybe i just dont want to work harder i like watching youtube all day while im at work because its easy but i hate myself for not deserving this position at all i dont have really any friends that i would actually hang out with and that makes me feel like such a loser and incredibly alone but at the same time people almost always exhaust me and i find them uninteresting most of the time even when i try my best to stay engaged with what they are saying im fit and active and really enjoy being outdoors but now even hiking swimming and exploring with my dog has lost its luster ive thought about joining a club on campus but i can never seem to make myself actually go i always have an excuse i recognize it as its happening but as the negative feelings swell i just dont care i have no motivation to change in the momenti hate my masters degree i hate the subject i hate the professors and i hate the ridiculous amount of homework they assign i can never picture myself actually doing anything professional related to this degree my bachelors was the same i ended up here because i was such a god damn perfectionist i couldnt accept a c grade in other classes and majors i had to switch to something i knew i could succeed at and although i am academically successful as i predicted im miserable what a mistake im so invested in this degree now and ive worked so incredibly hard but its all for nothing because i hate it i would drop out today but its paid forso what idiot would drop out of a masters degree thats free so sometimes i say fuck it im quitting this boring ass job quitting school and ill figure it out after that but i cant im compelled by some internal force to stay and try to push through it make the best of it and actually accomplish something but i cant seem to be happy anymore i feel like dying a lot just because im tired of the game go to school to go to work to work and work and work and then die anyway ive travelled all over the world already and ive had some amazing experiences but im fine if i dont have anymore the rest of the world no longer interests me i dont want children because i find them irritating and gross i want to get married to my boyfriend but i have almost no one to invite to the celebration i feel him pulling away sometimes and it breaks my heart he left to go on a month long trip to nepal without me to volunteer it is destroying me but i dont blame him my selfloathing and dread for the future must not always be pleasant to be around i could give two shits about volunteering its not that i wish people to suffer i just dont give a shit about helping make it better i truthfully think i hate humans in general even when i try my hardest to not and convince everyone that im just like every other happy girl i think ive convinced most people thankfully i look and act very preppy pretty and polite in reality i find humanity disgusting and evil i trust literally no one at all and always anticipate the worst from strangers so im constantly on edge unless im at home im horrified by the violence and brutality ive seen us humans commit online i hate myself for being like this im tired i want to start over but have no idea where to start i have no passions or hobbies other than outdoor things and dogrelated things but i dont want to work outdoors or be a dog trainer i used to paint and draw daily but its been years since i found it enjoyable at all i play scenarios over in my head about lives i can still live if i just decide to change now but i cant change im too afraid of the unknown or of being a fool and regretting my decisionswhat do i do i see a therapist but it doesnt help that much i tried paxil and it made me sick and sleepless alcohol is the only thing that makes me feel free and normal but i hardly ever drink and have only been drunk about times i cant talk to my parents because they came from so much less and worked so incredibly hard to get to where they are i cant talk to my boyfriend because he is so full of hope and joy for life it would pain me to let him see the disdain i have for it no friends id dare speak of this with all i have is my dog for many months he seemed to help but now i feel almost bored of him what is wrong with me,3.0 52234,treasaint lmao no shes not ,0.0 52235,olgakay lookin good have yourself some fun ,0.0 52236,estebanics anytime i know you can take care of yourself but i just dont like you being yelled at sending hugs xoxo,0.0 52237,gonna find that dino crisis walkthrough ,0.0 52238,its the same playbook every election cycle this uneducated person most likely a bot has no clue what theyre ,1.0 52239,life is nothing i living in a shitty country most of the believe in god in islamic wayi am an atheist and i feel very alone hereeveryone so fucking dumb and happy with they doesnt have to question the life itselfdo you ever think about we all are gonna die someday and we are doing some shit we dont wanna dobecause society or parents expects from you shit like thati said to you i dont believe in god because i dont know what do with myselfwith my life and i cannot ask anyone because there answer is islam or god to happiness and thats bullshit in my opinioni am studying computer engineeringi recently got surgery because tyrhoid cancerthey took my thyroid and after actually even before that i always thinking what i am gonna doi dont i invent something useful or write something beautiful so whats the purpose of my life just my parents wanna keep the family name alivemore i think about meaning of life more i realize there is noneyou just one keep on livin til die because as a human thats your only job actuallyreproducethats fucked upi dont want to live a boring life and die in my in my painwhats the point,3.0 52240,otabek is the kind of guy who you walk past and hes saying something like hes got that anxiety disorder man so i went with him to help,1.0 52241,lilyroseallen thats a real nice side of lily ,0.0 52242,why is life so sad i want to get out of my head get a nice job meet nice people make some nice friends get myself a girl you know be happy but im holding myself for no other reason other than im just depressed also some really bad social anxiety lmao,3.0 52243,colemark dude i got the perfect name lol pissed u went to bed already lemme know when u get this message please,2.0 52244,depression is being between alive and dead depression turns you into an entity of existing you dont want to be alive its horrible but you dont want to be dead thats horrible tooim not dead inside im dying inside every time i make a cry for help and get ignored i cry louder like a new born baby all the overdoses and violence is not in my nature im begging for help even my suicide attempts are begging for help but help never comeseven when i try to get help it doesnt help melife isnt real,3.0 52245,rt konk men seeking help for depression anxiety or any mental health issue is an act of self love that you deserve dont suffer in,1.0 52246,rt marawilson trying to view my anxiety not as something menacing but just an annoying unwelcome presence like a neighbor in a s,2.0 52247,can my phone hurry up and charge so i can blast sad music and cry with my headphones,2.0 52248,ive slipped to my old ways not good for me im m and since i was i have suffered with mental health i didnt know until years ago but the last month ive had alot of time to think which isnt good for me so when i was i was pulling my hair out and i couldnt understand why today i have been going through stuff and im completely stuck with some back thoughts i had a break down years ago and attempted suicide i was being treated with pills and it took control of me my relationships broke down with everyone i knew i lost access to my now and a half year old boy to this day we have zero contact so today i woke up and felt hopeless my positive can do attitude has changed i looked in the mirror and broke down i thought about my ex and it really hurt now im sat here thinking is it worth carrying on i live alone and struggle opening up i feel like i cant talk to no one i know as its bad timing due to current scamdemicim usually a very confident man but because my heads gone again im feeling like shit i hate who ive become i hate the way i look i feel so different from everyone i know life is shit and tbh i feel that it would be a better place if i was wasnt here i havent felt like this for a long time i used to take alot of depression pills and last year i finally stopped taking them but months ago i woke up in agony with a back injury and sciatica ive just managed to manage the pain and then my head goes i keep thinking about taking all my pills and tbh i feel like no one would even notice if i did,3.0 52249,needs to get graces hair cut pronto ,2.0 52250,happy mothers day to all the mothers ,0.0 52251,the light has gone i dont know if anyone here is an expert in narcissist personality disorder i used to have a best friend a year ago we were friends for years i used to overlook a lot of the red flags this person would show even when he was accused of rape i was loyal to him and i believed his side of the story this in and of itself caused me alot od grief as well he was popular in high school i was not after starting to spend more and more time with this person i began to feel miserable all the time he once told me i have your life by the balls he would say mean things about my family he would constantly say mean things about people and would put be down alot but just disguise it as joking after a while i became convinced he was a narcissist so i cut him out of my life i feel like i made the right decision a lot of the time but i dont like how i did it i blocked him from my life anyway i knew how and stopped talking to him for long awful months he called me and sent me letters even though i told him we were not gonna hang out anymore after months he finally got me on the phone at which point he called me a psychopath because i was trying to not show emotion in the conversation i knew that if i showed emotion that would only make him keep trying to force his way back in my life so i didnt show emotion while he cried and screamed at the top of his lungs and called me a stupid piece of shit i just sat there showing no emotion because i was convinced it was all a manipulative tactic i think about him every day and have dreams about him all the time i feel guilty often because i cant help but wonder what if i was wrong i hate myself and if the only thing keeping me from committing suicide is my family i cant do that to them i typed this up really fast because it physically hurts me if i think about the details too much i dont know why i typed this i guess i just wanted to get this off my chest whenever i meet someone new and they tell me im a good person i think to myself if they knew this about me they wouldnt think im a good person i just quit my anti depressants cold turkey and the withdrawal symptoms arent helping i hate myself so much im really tired of this life this was all over the place im sorry,3.0 52252,i wish i could just live life with no emotions i havent really a depressive episode in maybe years i think on the exterior my life is decent and projected to be on an incline but lately i really miss just having days where i felt numb to everything i dont want or need friends i really couldnt care less about a support system im in a longterm relationship right now where im the mentallyemotionally toxic one im hurting this other being because of my own insecurities and issues i want my relationship to end im trying really hard not to relapse back into selfharming mainly cutting but its really only pushing me to find other forms of selfharm ex starving overeating etc some days i want to come home and chill and eat and cry i miss feeling sorry for myself i miss hating myself is that weird is something wrong with me i dont feel this way most days im very happy with my progress and all the walls ive broken through and i know im going to regret any relapses i dont know everythings so fucked and its all my fault i want to focus on myself and my career and my goals but i want to do it alone,3.0 52253,leaving the house for lunch in min then straight to the airport ,2.0 52254,has to go back to bed and drown myself in ice feveeeeer i hate youuuu ,2.0 52255,rt you are more likely to have a panic attack when you have excessive stress have oversensitivity to physical sens,2.0 52256,dougbenson yes ive been screaming janice since rol and youre the only one to agree w me i feel so validated now thank you sir ,0.0 52257,englishboots dont u just hate iti feel like im goin crazy ,2.0 52258,simonrossyross they get paid to be underwhelming its in the job discription ,0.0 52259,mental illness engulfing me i am worse now than ever which is saying alot because i have been hospitalized several times for mental health related stuff if anyone is familiar with the rbn subbreddit that would explain at least some of my suffering i moved back in with my parents recently and my mother threatened to assault me several times since being back no i am not a minor but i do have a disability that keeps me kind of dependent on other people for housing if any of you have had to navigate subsidized housing youll know what i mean the waiting list in my area closed in and hasnt reopened since my health conditions are getting worse as a result of my being in their home not to mention my mental illness i wasnt supposed to be back here actually and i walked right into a trap its a long story but i ask that you please dont tell me im to blame for all this i cant take any more guilt or blame right now i do have a way out but the way out leads me back to where i suffered some trauma while being homeless i wont be homeless this time things are different but the trauma is still there and i am not sure how i will handle iti dont have depression only not undermining a serious disease like this but i also have bpd borderline personality i made huge strides in therapy but recently i feel like i am regressing depression at an all time high as well lots of thoughts of doing myself harmthe only thing that keeps me here is my cat i cant stand to abandon her or cause her any kind of pain in my passing we are very close attached at the hip even and i couldnt do that to her but if not for her i have given up on myself and my life i am so hurt inside i dont trust anyone if yu are familiar with bpd you might already know but i am at a point where i dont even know if someone is causing me harm or helping me splitting badly i have been isolating and i am increasingly afraid to leave the house even though it is a toxic situation for me staying here but thats how bad ive gotten every time i get this bad i come back to reddit ,3.0 52260,is listening to sunloungers music waiting for the sun to set ,0.0 52261,chelssss i like quickpull too theres one that makes your notification light different colors but i cant remember what it is ,2.0 52262,going to target for random pool stuffs then vern and victoria are coming over with their little ones to go swim ,0.0 52263,doesnt like him ,2.0 52264,shaundiviney haha nice comeback this is actually quite entertaining p,0.0 52265,headed back home job oh we so sorry gail we didnt need you this morning me ,2.0 52266,is raring for roskilde any tips on what to do in copenhagen let me know ,0.0 52267,yay weekend is here heading to expo for songs of solomon later on ,0.0 52268, always ,0.0 52269,thinking about going lone wolf i love my friends they are just great they remind me that im not alone in this world but im thinking about just leaving my friends going lone wolf basically ive got alot of friends im not the popular kid im not unpopular just the kid thats kind of there but who are real friends this guy calls me gay as a joke and thinks that he is funny when he tells me to go to a mental hospital these people i only talk to because i like the things they like these follow me around everywhere this one ditched the group for the popular kids this one moved away we have person left who actually cares about my wellbeing and acts how a friend should act but i have classes with her and she pressures me to be perfect its not her fault and she does not even know it and its not helping at all so if i were to just stop talking to her then all my real friends are gone but anxiety is better and depression i better it might sound stupid but i have a very messed up mind yes i take cbd and i cant get a psycayatrist why am i on here i dunno,3.0 52270,sinabsolution woah drink plenty of fluids nothing kills fever more than recycling fluids through your body ,0.0 52271,realalystoner hey camp rock just showed on channel in singapore thank god we have cable hi im hannah ,0.0 52272,friends are leaving me friends that told me they loved me dearly and wouldve died for me after months theyre still supportive but i see that their enthusiasm is starting to wane our relationship doesnt feel like a gain and its all on me honestly im not the same person they fell in love with should i leave them leave them for a year or two or however long it takes to return to normal or should i stay with them and burn those bridges being a pathetic person,3.0 52273,mrbradg judging from the amount of ur dmb tweets i can only imagine psycho fan haha jk of course ,0.0 52274,donotrepiyme it is very expensive anxiety,2.0 52275,oh except none of them are technically out ,2.0 52276,he can be grieved thoughgrieved to cause to suffer ,2.0 52277,rt itslaurensview and by chosen family it could be friends relatives or any of the inbetween you should never feel forced to keep in,0.0 52278,no puedo estar más sad,2.0 52279,cobeans im at the airport and i have no computer ,2.0 52280,feeling like shit i just wanna curl up and forget the world ,2.0 52281,dannymcfly you suck assi cant believe you played at the iow festithe only year i didnt go you guna come back next year xx,2.0 52282,faking it seems whenever a popular person my age posts or says something related to being depressed or having a breakdown majority of the comments are depression isnt cute or trendy omg stop faking etc this is why im still afraid to speak about it in person it seems like no matter what you do no one takes shit seriously so is it even worth trying,3.0 52283,over and above dayjob work that i have to do over the weekend freelance clients are also on my case feels sorry for self,2.0 52284,this is sad,2.0 52285,joeymcintyre crying now,2.0 52286,rt bbylychee my depression and my anxiety ganging up on me while im out trying to have a good time ,2.0 52287,i was really energetic and happy for a while today and it felt so weird not really sure why im making this post but i didnt have a specific reason to be in a super good mood so i think it was from having a lot of caffeine today i was just my normal drowsy self until i randomly just perked up and started feeling a lot better and more energetic even though it didnt really last long i wish i could always feel like that no wonder i always feel like somethings missing,3.0 52288,sachinsk thank you for joining httptwittermarketerprocom ,0.0 52289,im an asshole i really want to make this short so i can sleepi was married we got married may i enjoyed being married i loved my husband but i started to feel more like his mom than his wife and i handled it poorly asked him if he wanted to open our relationship he was super ok with that i think part of me wanted him to say no either way i would up asking for a divorce now im with my partner hes kind considerate thoughtful amazing and yet my brain is constantly beating me up telling me my ex husband was my only real shot at love your current partner is way too good for you youre a weak willed nothing woman who is only good for birthing babies and doing laundry youre going straight into the shithole of history where nothing but rabbit turds and garbage will find youyou know the fun stufffuck guys im sorry someone just please tell me im not a fucking monster,3.0 52290,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 52291,is at school on her last day signing topssss ,0.0 52292,guys if we dont take care of our mental health we cant be the dads we could be should be and want to be gett ,0.0 52293,metsphanatic dont pay attention to the deprived of sleep mother of two that asked u that question its a boy yeaaa,0.0 52294,listening to ciccillejus quotmartinaquot brings me so many memories nostalgia even candytron by kb kicks in am i that old already ,2.0 52295,orgasm tips im a female and having so much trouble to orgasm since being on the snri prystiq desvenlafaxineany tips would it help if i went to a lower dose or should i just stop trying ,3.0 52296,well i guess im tried to kick itbut that idea got kicked n lol not not tweets im it n,2.0 52297,cannot wait until tomorrow sjtc with the bestie i deserve a good day,0.0 52298,williger aw you were missed coffee amp twitter the ingredients for my morning too ,0.0 52299,i hope to god my ipod work tomorrow please let me put my music back on you ,2.0 52300,ohsococo now you write about your trips and your blog posts and your videos and of course about your hair thank you ,0.0 52301,rt jeoncrack me why u sad joon httpstcoxnkbzzxgkp,2.0 52302,thedonofthesouf did i catch what ,0.0 52303,watching neds declassified ,0.0 52304, walkin to lunch and find thispoor birdy ,2.0 52305,rwdave noiseboy antics do i want to ask or know more ,0.0 52306,good morrow to all ,0.0 52307,macoop it rarely happens but we may have used about minutes in the last month ,2.0 52308,silence tells me everything i need to know ,2.0 52309,nooo apples server is temporarily unavailable as i was finishing the download thats what i get for waiting for dramatic effect ,2.0 52310,what fewer women in stem means for their mental health edchat edtech ,1.0 52311,jonathanrknight so great to hear from u again today u r the best cannot wait to see u on the cruise cindy with the sign ,0.0 52312,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 52313,argh i hate waking up with a headache ,2.0 52314,i wonder if i should go out on a manhunt this weekend i just dont know if men are worth the effort anymoresadbut true ,2.0 52315, bye untilhopefully sooner than later ,2.0 52316,how can you travel with closest friends who say they are in a recession ,2.0 52317,rt lucldity sad bitch hours,2.0 52318,atlcjj oh ouch i only cast on the wrong number of stitches a few times in a row,2.0 52319,gangstarrgirl djtelle oh boy haha honeydippers its the name of my band lol,2.0 52320,rt sugaplumcris depression ,2.0 52321,rt itsashlyperez today my therapist told me the anxiety im experiencing is called adulthood,2.0 52322,have a serious case of sinus ,2.0 52323, true i think its important be sensitive it when we relate others empathy a reminder we cant judge a book by a cover,0.0 52324,gday to everyone ,0.0 52325,abhishekupadhya danke recently migrated to twitterfox btw i cant use twitter at work ,2.0 52326,i have a headache ,2.0 52327,hooeyspewer wow well even sick that sounds like a pleasing alternative to just lying around hope he feels better soon though ,2.0 52328,my gf has depression need advice i got diagnosed with a bipolar disorder type a few years ago and have been struggling with it for ever since i can really rememberthe girl who i am dating is perfect and i love her the really bad thing is her depression and its really fucking me over mentally ever since we met my bipolar episodes are rare to nonexistanti first got diagnosed with a depression at the age of then got diagnosed with bipolar at the age of so i kinda do have an understanding how depression works every little thing i say upsets her she stays upset for a while and i cant do anything to make her feel better and its killing me she will be upset and wont tell me and just show it and then deny it everytime she just upsets me in the slightest and she notices she will cry and hate herself for how much of a bad girlfriend she isi am scared to show emotions i am scared to talk to her about problems in our relationship she blames everything on herself she cries and then just goes on how fucking terrible she is as a gf what do i do i am eating stuff up lately and its killing me at work i cant concentrate anymore i cry at work and try to hide i make a million mistakes and even my boss is mad at meand i cant tell her she blames it on herself on how she treats me she thinks its all her fault this relationship is slowly getting so onesided bcs all i do is to be there for her help her thru therapy help her with her work and emotions and etc but what about me she knows i am struggling too but if i even just mention something in slightest she will just go and lock herself up cut herself and she even tried to od once on her meds only bcs i mentioned how bad i was feeling latelyi am scared and i have no clue what to do ever since we are dating my bipolar got so much better but why hasnt her depression gotten any better does she not see me the same way i see her i know her life is hard but so is mine should i end it should i tell her all this what i just typedi cant be real with her anymore and i have to lie constantly how i feel i am lostshe is not easy to love,3.0 52329,kirako oh noes does this mean no awesome web dev links from you today,2.0 52330,tired of people offering support only when youre in order i often times feel betrayed and im sick of it people will say that they are here for me if i need to talk or if i need anything when i tell them that im diagnozed with severe depression on a really heavy stagebut they only say that when im on top of my game when i manage everything when i fall out and cant get out of my bed deal with my responsibilities and so on then that help that support seems to leave then i only get shamed upon and disappointment from othersmy psychiatrist and psychologist say that its completely fine if i cant manage responsibilities that should be very hard for me at this stage and shouldnt be expected from methen why does everyone seem to just give up on me and drop me once they need me to be productive or they need something from me or they need me to function properly,3.0 52331, mines june u ,0.0 52332,dorvig happy mothers day sweetie i hope youre feeling better luv julie ,0.0 52333,rt super nakaka proud ang dalawang ito powerful influencers talaga victormagtanggoldestiny aldubdeeper httpstcoi,0.0 52334,rt salon his sons death spurs no one cares about crazy people author on a mission to change attitudes on mental health httpstcoik,2.0 52335,all of you sorry ass hoes in these comments are sad af and are prone to be sorry ass mothers,2.0 52336,evybabee you look like you can play a mean guitar too and cards scott,0.0 52337,cats we had one of our outside cats get his paw injured went to the vet and found out he was bitten sad news he has fiv or kitty aids ,2.0 52338, thanks for the healthy retweet sharingthelove,0.0 52339,i am feeling full and i havent had my tea yet what have i been eating today ,2.0 52340,rt the picture says it allafrica has been brutally abused by both the muslims amp christians the people have been robbed of,2.0 52341,bummed my hubby has to work late ,2.0 52342,whale wars is instense the harpooning is disgusting ,2.0 52343,have to stop eating this almond praline otherise there will be none left for pudding but i have no self control ,2.0 52344,mandyva im on a boat bitch i miss the boat ,2.0 52345,my heart just got crushed im going to cry myself to sleep i loved him ,2.0 52346,handcramps ,2.0 52347,propheteka ive been on facebook for an hour and a half and i have of comic done i need done for today gana be a long night ,2.0 52348,billymccool lolgood luck with that ,0.0 52349,so sick of being at work i wanna go home so i can take care of my baby amp his broken jaw ,2.0 52350,really miffed didnt get tickets to see boyzone ,2.0 52351,anybody else feel like theyre watching themselves live in person i am almost when i was a kid i fantasized about killing myself at of course i would never do it because i am a coward and well now that i made it this far i am like what now i have been taking antidepressants for a year and some months now i dont think they are working anymore i also just lost my job and i am struggling financially buti just feel like a failure my wife and my dog is all i have but even with them i feel so selfabsorbed like i am being consumed by my own negative thoughts i feel like i have a void in myself like i am watching myself play the life game in third person i find no enjoyment in things i used to enjoy cant play videogames cant go to gym cant have sex nothing is pleasurable nothing matters i feel like a doll im trying so hard to keep my shit together and to focus in moving forward but i just feel dumb and worthless and stupid thanks for reading edit i want to thank you all for commenting your own experience and for teaching me this despersonalization word i researched a bit about it and holy cow it is just what am i going through right now i have experienced it in the past but it just comes and goes and now i know what its called too it drives me nuts to be honest some of you have gone are going through this for longer periods of time i admire you for keeping your chin upsome of you described these feelings like you are a sim character thats the way i could describe it too like i am in autopilot just living i am watching myself play myself its weird also not only i have been feeling pretty down but i also suffer from gad so i feel trapped in a vicious cycle of existing for the sake of existing and feeling guilty and anxious i am just existing and not living life my wife is very supportive and my dog is very cuddly so in a way it keeps me going if i didnt have them i wouldnt be here right now i keep telling myself it will get betterthank you guys for your kind words and suggestions i want to get better so i will keep moving forward somehow i have tofor those curious i take of lexapro daily,3.0 52352,i dont want bobby to get popular lmfao mine,2.0 52353,likes how the cd name just randomly evolved ,0.0 52354,chilling w may amp the boys homies crib never seen my fave like that i still miss him ,2.0 52355,at a beautiful wedding photographing some beautiful people ,0.0 52356,watchin indiana jones wbabyy and eric bout to drink wit my sister ,0.0 52357,i am for gay rights just not most gay sites ,0.0 52358,tommcfly tom when are u coming in france i love so much ur band please reply to me ,0.0 52359, quothes soooooooooo gorgeousquot heathy,2.0 52360,gnarly wipeout busted front tire and more cuts ,2.0 52361,yes yes its drum and bass sunday some coffee ,0.0 52362,cc waseembadami ,0.0 52363,morewillie thanks for the followfriday love ,0.0 52364,danashakur she got passion shes ,0.0 52365,alysonfooter dont forget all us little people ,0.0 52366,skylerevers i like that you like my making videos it makes me feel cool haha,0.0 52367,i just burnt my finger on my straightener ,2.0 52368,i want to die im in may im in grade and ive been depressed for about years and suicidal for about year i dont know what to do im an outcast at school im never included in anything whenever i try to be included or even talk to someone i get shut down and ignored my parents dont believe im depressed im short and not very athletic i cut my wrists but had stopped for a couple months but recently started doing it again ive contemplated suicide and pressed my dads gun to my head several times im sorry if this is all jumbled up i just wanted to get all my thoughts out i havent talked to anyone about this i just need some help or advice or something i dont know how long i can be like this i dont want to live anymore i dont know what to do i might delete this later i dont know i just need help,3.0 52369,im desperate i need help i need help i feel like im drowning herethis is the worst ive been in possibly ever i dont know how to get out of this i feel so alone i have no onei dont know what this post is to be about i dont know what im asking for i just i dont wanna be alone in this head space anymore,3.0 52370,frustration amp depression over close call long story short i was close to meeting up with a girl iv been texting for a while and from what we discussed it seemed that the meetup could possibly be intimate or even sexual but it seems that shes found someone else now and though shes still open to meeting up for drinks and a chat anything closer is now off the table forgive me if i sound like an incel or whatever but ehits frustrating and its downed me quite a bit obviously theres like sexual frustration but also like intimacy frustration idk like i can somewhat manage the absence of sex and intimacy and love but when i get close calls like this only for it be taken away its a real gut punch contemplating whether or not to go through with the meet now could be fun and could make great friends with her but at the same time i feel like its just going to always be a lingering frustration of what could of been just to be clear though im not mad at her or anything shes a lovely girl and she deserved to find someone just wondering how to deal with it personally ,3.0 52371,markdotto who takes a nap at pushing through till is more appropriate ,0.0 52372,uuug why right now while i am weaknormally i am strong never crossing that peakbut tonight i cant take it i am not enoughi try to hide but my feelings are fluffi wish someone knew simply so i can talkbut i fear my friends would just sit and gawkits not worth it ill just sleep nowmaybe tomorrow i wont feel as down,3.0 52373,when i stop venlafaxin i get binge eating attacks all the time im finally stable and not suicidal anymore i can stop venlafaxin i took for long time and now but as soon as i stop i get insane binge eating attacks and i dont want to gain weight i cant just use venlafaxin to stay lean o its insane is it a side effect of abstinance,3.0 52374,really should have downloaded a copy of code before i left home only files to go ,2.0 52375,talkstothemoons it was literally the best im so sad,1.0 52376,ambersing it so is pity maccas in lithgow dont do it as its a bit nippy here ,0.0 52377,going to school tomorrow i cant wait to know my classmates ,0.0 52378,i want to learn how to cheer up a friend ive got a friend that i really care about and lately shes been really sadin the past she had some depression problems but she was doing fine the last few yearsnow theres and we are italians so we are locked up in our homes and she just lost her job shes smashed and i really dont know how to cheer her up even more now that we cant even meet upim bad at social interaction trough phones and other media and all im doing now is sending her some memes to make her laugh a bit but its not that helpful please helpsorry for my bad english,3.0 52379,idk how to use twitter on my phone ,2.0 52380,my world seems perfect until hours later i love talking to new people in real life at first i feels that everything is going fine we share laugh and make eye contact hours later i get anxiety hit me looking back at the conversations and making myself feel bad because i keep thinking to myself that im cringe and i shoulnt talking to people anymore im i alone ,3.0 52381,myweakness quothequots touchits magicalnothing like cuddling and being massaged at the same timei miss quothequots touch ,2.0 52382,i have to go bye bye tweets,2.0 52383,helping someone else is making things worse for me im not gonna go into detail about my current situation so heres the short versioni cant sleep at night cant wake up in the morning im anxious all the time increasing amounts of panic attacks used to live alone because my dad moved in with a new woman like months after my mom died i dropped my studies and moved back home to help take care of her and the house super depressed etc etc its pretty bad thats the gist of ita friend we havent known each other for that long has a shitty home life abusivemanipulative parents shes her parents kicked her out and she asked if she could stay with me as she had nowhere else to goof course im gonna try and be helpful i mean thats pretty fucked rightbut shes clingy af i never have time to myself and i wasnt productive before but im sure as hell totally useless now as her constant presence here just hypes up my anxiety she moved some of her stuff into my home office and now too so i cant even just go sit there and at least attempt to get something done im a firm believer in looking after yourself first otherwise youre gonna be useless to anyone else i feel like this is a good example of something like that but now im kind of stuck it doesnt look like she has any plan to get her own place i was hoping to get out of here in a few months and shes looking for a job half assed confrontation is not in the cards for me im at breaking point all on my own although i know its either that or i have to try and endure until one of us leaves,3.0 52384,i didnt have what it takes so ive been extremely suicidical for over months now i was planning on killing myself by slitting my wrists however im scared of sharp objects so i just couldnt i tried and now i have ugly scars in my hand i just couldnt make it deep enough cant do anything right right i mean if i cant even kill myself i must be one hell of a loser i just cant stay i dont want to feel like this anymore damage done is far beyond repair so theres no point anyway im getting overburdened by all the bullshit thats happened im getting flashbacks and forced to relive those moments i cant take it no moreplease whoever you are seek help before its too late i thought i had what it takes to get through everything i was dead wrong,3.0 52385, ههههههههه ,0.0 52386,rt aliceavizandum doctor just whatever you do dont go see that asshole pagliacci he looks like he has depression as bad as you do ga,1.0 52387,thrillpeddlers yay glitterific makeup ,0.0 52388,is off to the last hoofin class ,2.0 52389,the wife and the boy are going to be gone for days ,2.0 52390,flowershoes damn you and your day off i was looking forward to stink pretty samples today but i was let down ,2.0 52391,rt if you drive an old white crown vic or a black charger that looks copish just know that me amp my anxiety u,1.0 52392,this will probably get ignored like everything else people tell me im wrongthey tell me they love methey tell me they will never leavethey say they will never forget mepeople fall out of love with mepeople leave mepeople always forget mei know i am not alone in this even my own family does this and i have been suicidal at many points in my life but right now right now i just want to not be here anymore not a matter of dying just a matter of not being not feeling crying stressing seeing smelling touching or hearing i dont want to be they say im specialthey say this time is for realthey say im the onethey say itll last foreverthey treat me like anything but specialthey show me this was in fact not for realthey show me im one of manyand it never lasts forever i say i love myselfi say my emotions wont run my lifei say i will not relapse with my depressioni say ill stay on top of my medsi end up hating the person in the mirrori let my emotions run and ruin my lifei relapse immediately when i say i wonti forget my morning meds every morningi blame others for my down fallsi know its not all themi have the knowledge to understand my mental healthi chose to ignore my education on my diagnosisi am my biggest obstaclei dont know how or rwally want to changei dont want to be,3.0 52393,is home with mom today just baked a cake hopefully going to make banana bread miss you babe xoxox,0.0 52394,happy mothers day to all you mamas out there ,0.0 52395,at nfjs denver please indulge me a whole mess of annoying conference tweets through sunday afternoon ,0.0 52396,really wants to start reading twilight books again hmm i guess ill do it after exams ,0.0 52397,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 52398,at times like this i wish i lived alone or had a more quieter place to study ,2.0 52399,officialndubz ivee seenn itlove the pink onee gunna show mumzyy so shee can get it me lol ,0.0 52400,helped audybaby get ready for her trip to europe yesterday and this morning now im all alone for three weeks ,2.0 52401,lol on bus with the missus ,0.0 52402,acanthe thanks i havent pay it yet but i still have water ,0.0 52403,what a day cant wait for tomorrow love music hate racism is gonna be amazingggg i love connie smith ,0.0 52404, youll get the hang of it ,0.0 52405,new to twitter ,0.0 52406,thatfreakkid well that sucks hey can you make hotels on sims ,0.0 52407,its going to storm tonight ,2.0 52408,ehh waiting for the plane to start boarding im bored ,2.0 52409,im so sad for ghost man he really losing his mind and nobody trying to help him ,1.0 52410,perfectfan yeah im going sorry you cant make it ill send darwin and dave your love,2.0 52411,had to remove fav videos on youtube from those were the best ,2.0 52412,i wish i was at the beach im stuck in the doctors ,2.0 52413,cynicor score zero for the police then thats for sure are you saying this because you sir are a drummer thanks for picture feedback ,0.0 52414,ksammm omg yessss im watching the one i definitely cried when he brought cedricks body back ,2.0 52415,i am workengrossed ,2.0 52416,i love kyles mom for putting us on the opposite side of the room from cassie a very wise decision indeed ,0.0 52417,vikyfaxerfeit lol the new one is poserpro but best to have processor to get optimal usage i dont ,2.0 52418,mileycyrus hey miley youre fantastic ,0.0 52419,getting ready for school cant be bothered to do my hair lol xoxo,2.0 52420,yelyahwilliams true blood is the best my fave character is tara cause shes so fun and sarcastic in a witty way ,0.0 52421, the funny thing is i would forget to call after the pics you would on the ground for like days then the cops would come ,0.0 52422,ddlovato hi demi i like your real name ,0.0 52423,i would like to have a bestie ,2.0 52424,swayswaystacey i saw you i didnt run away gosh shhhh now stacey your beautiful id love to look like you heaps of people would,2.0 52425,goodnight my tweeps talk to you tomorrow ,0.0 52426,urbancritter i am lost please help me find a good home ,2.0 52427,just say hi to me and stephdavies dannymcfly is that hard hahaha we really love you,2.0 52428, the day i wear shorts too ,2.0 52429,ugh last night i got hit i the nose and it stills hurts really bad theres a huge bump on my nose now wish the pain would go away,2.0 52430,jaicca maybe ill make it really worth the wait and go see it at the imax your merchandise its so cute but have no monehhs either ,2.0 52431,jason and i been plannin watch transformers since last yearnw d muvis openin getin nearer i myt see it alone ,2.0 52432,droku awww thanks manure such a sweetheart ,0.0 52433,i love youthats directed to whoever wants it ,0.0 52434,awwww rip danny la ruegoodbye dolly ,2.0 52435,my scalp is on fire apparently i dye it to much its only weeks lol,2.0 52436,behavioral health services in tucson az there are groups out there some totally free i use them but let me tell you something that a lot of other people will take umbrage with stay the fuck away from behavioral health services the one i used put me over a barrel just to look good on their reports to federal agencies research research research i am a strong person fought everyones battles came from a caretaker position in life after a year with cope in tucson im a mess however there is one group called hope duhhhh how funny the names sound so much alike avoid at almost all costs the label smi severely mentally impaired get help for sure generally catholic services will help no you dont have to be catholic hell im a deep water baptist and they helped me but not until i spent one year at the hands of cope behavioral health sevices there are many such organizations out there caution if they all report to the same federally sponsored agency there are all kinds of meds out there and you may have to go through a lot of them to find the right ones but your primary care dr can get them for you again let me say no behavioral health service that reports to or is run by a federal agency do not do a voluntary committal they will tell you its voluntary just like they told me guess what in order for me to get out of that facility it took an attorney and a charge of kidnapping you can find me on out look under the same name if you need to,3.0 52437,itsmaac its a caos ,2.0 52438,rt mabuendiahd if youre not happy about your job but it pays you really well think about this other people are sad and hungry at lea,1.0 52439,mooshinindy hopefully youll also show the after pics ,0.0 52440,kaylacob a laptop is more cumbersome than it may initially seem at least in my opinion i love my macbook but either r good u,0.0 52441,jemimakiss just emailed you links to the photos ,0.0 52442,sad college student hello lately ive just felt like garbage im taking credits and working about hours a week on my campus i know people do more then this for work and school but im getting depressed today i took the day off because i couldnt even get pity of bed to function im also dealing with horrible body dysmorphia im feeling so ugly and i just dont feel like o can do this semester i dont know why ive crashed so hard im getting in touch with my therapist and psychiatrist but damn this mental illness is really making me academic career hard ,3.0 52443,danaloulou ill leave her a ransom note ,0.0 52444,unmarketing thanks for putting a label to my antimarketing mindset developed while i was in business school ,0.0 52445,watching new moons trailer ,0.0 52446,lunch with sue from labri wedding later good day ,0.0 52447,difficult year i am yr old male in my final year of university the last year has been hard i suffer from panic attacks and anxiety which were prevalent while i was spending two semesters abroad this was difficult enough to deal with but when i arrive home the family dynamic has changed completely my father and mother seemed to have separated but have not announced it to us nine years ago my father has taken up reins of the family farm in his hometown after his brother died and he regularly came down on weekends as he has to manage the farm my mother didnt seem too keen on this from the beginning but went along with it nonetheless when i arrive back from abroad my mother has given up on this my dad rarely comes home now and if he does he sleeps in the guest room and they barely communicate my mother is also going through menopause and my brother sister and i have to deal with the mood swings when i asked my mother what the situation was she basically told me that it wasnt a marriage anymore if he was always up there at the farm and when she suggested counselling he refused to go i believe money is another factor as my dad is obviously struggling with a lot of debt and there isnt exactly gold made in a farm in the west of ireland home life has become very difficult for me because everyone is so tense and i am already under pressure with college work etc i cant help but feel angry and frustrated at my dad in all this he seems to have a very archaic mindset where he refuses to get another job because the farm has been in his family for generations and seems too proud to attend marriage counselling with my mother yet he acts all surprised and angry that she isnt acting like a wife ugh i just dont know how long i can take this situation anymore everyone is at each others throats and i just want some stability,3.0 52448,aah the wonders of photoshop ,0.0 52449,andybezbozhny i am puzzled its vettel not fettel ,0.0 52450,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 52451,juliancarter im not a dog person ,0.0 52452,rt bourgeoisalien i love how samantha bee and her head writer hate bernie sanders with every privileged ounce of their rich white lady bl,0.0 52453,maybe i crossed the line ,2.0 52454,whose awake talk time,2.0 52455,trueblood tonight my favourite all these morbid vampire bloody murderous insane plots my kinda messed up thing ,0.0 52456,im bloody revising indoors while the lovely sun is out wohoo im soo lucky ,2.0 52457,just reached the point of intox that is fun and now everyone is leaving ,2.0 52458, good to hear it im doing alright tonight myself just watching cartoons and chillin hahaha ,0.0 52459,sleep paralysis a girl just ripped me apart i have sleep paralysis since i dont feel happy anymore i cant atach to no one and my friends are gone i don t know what to do but it hurts so much that it doesnt hurt anymoee,3.0 52460,rt fvbnessv some of yall have not the slightest clue how lucky yall are that yall dont get anxiety attacks depression suicide thoug,2.0 52461,just got home ,0.0 52462,i wish you could choose your family ,2.0 52463,i need to get a shimmy on lol my friends are gonna be here at i have no food or no idea what to cook lol ,2.0 52464,thebleachworks i love cheese anyway ha ha ha ohhhh well ,0.0 52465,helpful advice for coping with your anxiety httpstcormtgjwuttp,1.0 52466,ffs this is the last thing i need iphoneupdateiscrap,2.0 52467,aymecarolina carolinagrivera ay que sad😢😢,2.0 52468,angelasfeathers sounds great but the link didnt work ,2.0 52469,why sooo many sad songs and shitty poems about boyfriends wanting some space but none ab being ghosted by your coke dealer 😢,2.0 52470,mileyhq hehe yah shes amazing i love her too btw i love your site its amazing ,0.0 52471,randyteakell found you through mrtweet father of scout leader youve got to be quotmy kind of peoplequot ,0.0 52472,im glad when i get to do something creative however most of the time they just want me to quotspruce upquot a powerpoint with clip art uhg ,2.0 52473,jt is really letting me down on snl tonight but bonus star trek cast members and jimmy fallon talkin bout issues,2.0 52474,lynnserafinn too bad i cant listen you have to live in the uk to listen online good to hear from you tho ,0.0 52475,brooketrogdon i got your dm but i cant message you back since your not following me ,2.0 52476,mdhughes im just envious of you guys and very cheap to subscribe to the mac dev program to receive in advance the new toy ,0.0 52477, le suicide nest pas une solution,2.0 52478,i lost my job well my life is even shittier todayi was disabled lot better still some issues so i needed a work at home job found one last year was good but as time went on they made some changes and i no longer wanted to be there so i started applying elsewhere and finally got an interview for a different wah company got the job it paid a bit more and i was excited we had our training orientation on tuesday that was long during it my internet went out for hours i called the company waited etc after it finally came back up i was told by my trainer that because i missed so much id have to start with the next training class so im waiting to hear back and all finally get a call today telling me im done because i missed it and its mandatory i cant continue not apply for the same position in the future lovelywe work from home the internet going out wasnt my doing obviously orientation is important but i didnt know that was gonna happen generally my service is very good they were doing scheduled matinence i left my previous job because i had secured this one now i have neither im so sad i dont even know what to do i have bills now i have no job i was told id still be employed would just have to start a bit later i want to kill myself,3.0 52479,carlysialevert i got studio dang what u goin to go see,2.0 52480,ddlovato i liked get back part but here we go again will work just fine ,0.0 52481,peterfacinelli wow i luv it they did an excellent job very cool ,0.0 52482,weisenly thanks for your concerning ,0.0 52483,had a great weekend hanging out with the streko family now its time for a crazy good week of work ,0.0 52484,i want to die i dont know i want to die but i dont im just tired of being me someone who cant achieve anything of worth a privilleged individual who could have done so much more with what i have but instead fell into a spiral of selfloathing and ineptitude i dont deserve this life so i go on saying that i want to die,3.0 52485,wishing i was feeling better would love to go see kicking myself for having wisdom teeth pulled yesterday grrr,2.0 52486,i am so bored ,2.0 52487,beach day ,0.0 52488,hates dysmenorrhea ,2.0 52489,mjmw thephotogeek lightroomblog sorry to have to rain on that parade ,2.0 52490,getting ready to strike a pose for all the managers hahah cant wait to see my boonizzzzllleee ,0.0 52491,just survived a near miss on the idiot pulled into my lane without any warning at high speed should have got his number ,2.0 52492,if ever there was a song that summed up my life i am a man of constant sorrow ive seen trouble all my day i bid farewell to old kentucky the place where i was born and raised the place where he was born and raisedfor six long years ive been in trouble no pleasures here on earth i found for in this world im bound to ramble i have no friends to help me now he has no friends to help him nowits fare thee well my old lover i never expect to see you again for im bound to ride that northern railroad perhaps ill die upon this trainperhaps hell die upon this trainyou can bury me in some deep valley for many years where i may lay then you may learn to love another while i am sleeping in my gravewhile he is sleeping in his gravemaybe your friends think im just a stranger my face youll never see no more but there is one promise that is given ill meet you on gods golden shore hell meet you on gods golden shore,3.0 52493,hypnoticmelody no but i cant sleep in with sooooooo much to do so i kinda do have to ,2.0 52494,marcustheleo walay kwarta sad,2.0 52495,happeedeb roasted peeps why didnt i think of that aww man i haz no more peeps ,2.0 52496,i heart my dvr im a celebrity get me outta here then beddy by ps lime sherbert owns my soul ,0.0 52497,i just realised that i wish id never been born i wish id never been bornwhy just cause i pictured my death living a httpsenmwikipediaorgwikineardeathexperience and seeing it slowly disappear as i cross the point of no return as i slip into a dark and cold infinity without even being aware of it,3.0 52498,hello multiverse a great day to go goet outside and also do whatever it is god wants you to do ,0.0 52499,good morning my son is with his father until tomorrow and im gonna enjoy the day home alonewell almost my little girl are here ,0.0 52500,realhughjackman no new updates sniff sniff,2.0 52501, hi today was like my last day at schooll i wanna to leave it but its hard isnt it,2.0 52502,helenwayte ill dribble feed them to you over the next few days only view them as revision awards ,0.0 52503,mrtrev morning matey really it cant last ,0.0 52504,rt jianghomeshi greetings track is now playing what is smartphone addiction and fomo doing to our mental health ,2.0 52505, hmmm fries glad the day is treating you well sweets give your mom a hug for me love you,0.0 52506, these two are love ,0.0 52507,i need help so ive been dealing with alot of problems my whole life i have always been put down and told i wouldnt make it in life and just get laughed at and left when i was a bad thing happened to me and i never knew if that caused it but now that i think of it i have always felt like this i have never felt love or i just dont feel real or the world it just feels like a virtual reality game thats very realistic but im on autopilot and just numb its like im watching a movie and its someones life but no one will believe me when i say it could be something like a mental problem i am now and have had this problem for a very very long time and i just want help to feel connected and real,3.0 52508,stephentotilo gizmodo calls it a quotwii killerquot i cant figure out how you would play a fps or even platformer with it write faster ,0.0 52509,off to villette sonique looking forward to another dose of monotonix ,0.0 52510,it makes me sad that natalyas whole character is that shes rondas friend they even advertised rondas shirt ove httpstcosiekttifug,0.0 52511,getting a tan while laying out by my pool ,0.0 52512,mikeljohnsan oh awesome ive been there how come they were stayin with you if you dont mind me askin,0.0 52513,i dont know where to go from here im in a really interesting spot ive reached out for help in the past and its resulted in one of my closest friends being hurt which wound up hurting me deeply because of this i feel like im hurting others simply by asking for help ive become a ton more reclusive because of it im a burden to others and i hurt anyone i try to talk to meanwhile im already dead inside i know this isnt going to ever get any better if i dont ask for help but i dont deserve it not at the expense of others id sooner just be abandoned and forgotten than be a burden to others i dont know what to do,3.0 52514,godfellowmia kinda still sickly but im comin in hope i dont sound horrible ,2.0 52515,our manong calls our dog pupay what a name ,2.0 52516,stressed so i have an audition for high school coming up soon its a music school and im stressed to the max my dad keeps on telling me to practice and that just makes me feel like im not good enough im and if i dont get in i think i might kms,3.0 52517,just saw up with ari it was the cutest movie ever,0.0 52518,xnele for me the easiest im so afraid i have the feeling that im not going to graduate im so nervous,2.0 52519,rt ehjovan so not only am i gay because im depressed but being gay is the root of my depression im trapped in an endless cycle https,2.0 52520,goldymom with a tweet like that i promptly followed flawnt pressure is on ,0.0 52521,i feel sick like dehydrated light headed amp all all bad,2.0 52522, if you like to laughhave a good timefollow meits just that simple ,0.0 52523,very sad that httpwwwfabchannelcom has closed down one of the few web services that ive used for over years ,2.0 52524,greatly disappointed in prescription went in for new meds to treat depression we decided to go with prozac all fine cool then the prescribed amount was mg this is weeks wasted ,3.0 52525,rt पंजाब के किसान किस खुशी मैं आत्महत्या कर रहे हैं ये भी बता दो httpstcoqfuyzlgdgg,2.0 52526,cantaconmigo so youre eating asian food and im guessing its an epic fail with those sticks hahahaha just jokes hope all is well,0.0 52527, whats greenes site everyones getting booted from the ones i know i cant get on facebook either to get it ,2.0 52528,car is cleanedat least the inside now to mardels then my lunch date and eventually swimming ,0.0 52529,rt shannonpurser depression sucks im in the middle of it rn i know some of you are too were going to make it,2.0 52530,overheardatmoo got my moo stickers on saturday theyre so pretty i hardly want to use them ,0.0 52531,thatll be one frozen solid bottle of wine in the fridge thenbugger ,2.0 52532,tweetdeck for my pc rocks but it just keeps crashing for my iphone fail,2.0 52533,shambhala meditation center looks right up my alley ill check out ananda too thanks for suggesting ananda sherryagee ,0.0 52534,jyce you wore them in the rain i have some new dunks wont wear them till its less wet out ,2.0 52535,lovelessandmore im good lool just stressed about exams its good that you have a twitter now too many fakers lol,2.0 52536,crap i jacked up my ankle wont be able to jog tonight ,2.0 52537,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 52538,rt btsmotivator dear you yes you who are reading this i know u say ure tired instead of sad you say ppl dont need you instead of s,2.0 52539,secretlifeofkat my husbands parents live on lake fork so we spend lots of time up there where do you guys go to the lake,0.0 52540,ending it has been on my mind imagine having a super hot gf but still having crippling depression no friends no one to really confide in and constantly and consistently being shit on by your family for every single thing you do or being blamed for every aspect of wrong going even when you had no idea how it happened i feel defeated and broken and leaving this world has been heavy on my mind yes its selfish and i dont care the only people i would not want in pain are my gf and bff everyone else in my life can just eat it,3.0 52541,budjette that would be a dream soundtrack indeed ,0.0 52542,video french greaaat song ever ,0.0 52543,ive got nothing to do ,2.0 52544,watchinggeorge lopez like a mexican ,0.0 52545,valkyrierisen i can read the sites with no problem and ive got a healthy feed reader list just cant comment ,2.0 52546,kennyblak i spoke but when niggas be looking at ya crazi all the time u just stop plus i always used to see yall when i just wanted,2.0 52547,ok spoke too soon still very misty and looks like it may hang around bummer,2.0 52548, you twit more than anyone else i follow ,0.0 52549,redneckmommy i dare you ,0.0 52550,mytiazimmer httpstcoppqyoeskgk,1.0 52551,up amp dont feel like running why am i so lazy ,2.0 52552,romeejb do you see the niley pictures i wanna cry ,2.0 52553,history makes me want to cry ,2.0 52554,im girl had a class presentation today got nervous and didnt know answers to some very simple questions im embarrassed and depressed im in law school my knowledge of laws is above average but im losing my confidence im depressed because it wasnt my first time ive done similar class presentations times before and i did terrible in all of them we have these moot courtsdummy court rooms practices where we act as counsels and the professor becomes judge my professor asked me questions and i started blabbering cos honestly i didnt know the answer although my topic revolved around that one point but i didnt know the answer and the same professor had taught us that topic in our previous class for eg my topic was amalgamation of two companies my professor asked me whats amalgamation and bam i thought oh shit how did i not revise this thing and started blabbering i was a good orator in school but have lost the capability to stand up for myself i wanted to do good in this one to makeup for all my drawbacks but i spoke such wrong words did so terrible and didnt answer any questions cos i didnt know the answers of those simple very simple questions my teacher nodded his head in disapproval and i was so embarrassed in front of everybody i feel like a loser,3.0 52555,superwomanak johncmayer yes yes yes ,0.0 52556,tvfanactic jealous i wanted see that film ,2.0 52557,i miss the sea ,2.0 52558,backstreetboys to use the site man living in nyc we cant afford anything ,2.0 52559,lolitariot hahaha yes yes thats exactly what you need gogoo ,0.0 52560,dougiemcfly haha cant wait to read said interview which of the sunday newspapers was it ,0.0 52561,can i pray for anyone hi thinking of youhave suffered horrific anxietyalso depression as wellcan i specifically pray for you let you know you are loved through the miles,3.0 52562,twitterific is still broken for me ,2.0 52563,has an amzing girl on my mind i realy hope it works out she is amazing i hope jesus see fit to put us together ,0.0 52564,hey i got back from my brothers soccer game then i went to target and then had pizza ,0.0 52565,rt lifeaseva respect and acknowledge people with mental health problems it is a real thing and not something anyone chooses to live with,2.0 52566,i really dont want to get up at for work tomorrow ,2.0 52567,officialmgnfox im so sorry to hear about your loss may he indeed rest in peace ,2.0 52568,andrewdearling im in the uk on a fulbright at lancaster uni to study religion amp i wanted to see a football match in the uk so i went ,0.0 52569,going to bed church in the morning ,0.0 52570,tired im too depressed to do anything right now and all i wanna do is sleep how hard is it to understand that every time this happens i go through it i just let it take over for a while but i know if i deal with it it makes it way way worse i try but it just makes me have anxiety i figured if i just deal with it as it comes its easier in smaller chunks i figured i would just tackle all my problems in one go but that just triggered me more my depression doesnt want to lift its more hey there you are time for darkness shitty part it always happens during that magical holiday season which is october to april im burnt the fuck out depression for me has a happy smile and inside cringes as i have to hear those words of joy its not anyones real fault its just the amount of fake i feel when i say them my words dont feel real ,3.0 52571,coreyfrey from txn another thanks the follow i have warn tho sf fan since family cowboy fans celebrate superbowls solo ,0.0 52572,about to go to macoroni grill with my girlies im wearing all black again on this semiformal occasion haha ill meessss my paulooo ,2.0 52573,note to self check for types you twat my big tough pitbull hid under the blankets in bed with me today its storm season yay ,2.0 52574,its okay im totally going to live i just misplaced it my bad ,0.0 52575,the only way were going to get used to you know talking about things like depression,1.0 52576,hollywills hmmyeah that is strange how is harry i love that name my little cousin is called harry such a lovely name congrats,0.0 52577,rt shaykhazhar whenever you feel grief sadness or stress remember that this dunya is temporary nothing remains forever neither pain,2.0 52578,bifflawson i had plans today but i guess deh r cancelled so im stuck at home wit nuttin to do ,2.0 52579,thereforeiamyou ahh thats pretty annoying task,2.0 52580,rt hoshiwotadoreba honestly i totally get why horikoshi would cry after seeing the bnha movie pv he wanted to become a mangaka his work,1.0 52581,rt isitplausible this video cured my depression and cleared my skin httpstcojljuyplqqo,2.0 52582,llyfrgell ooh i like the rug also i see kitties ,0.0 52583,trackphenom aww seriously im so jealous stupid us cellular for not having iphones ,2.0 52584,shawneyj you could just watch all the people and make faces at them after they pass you bythatd be entertaining a while ,0.0 52585,heavenjones babe im not bout go back amp forth wit u u got issues wit trust until u learn trust me then imma let u be ,2.0 52586, jealous im just excited about mms because my best mate keeps sending me stuff and i cant viewlisten to it and copy amp paste,2.0 52587,lindapilko im going to read time travellers wife and get some good sleep got to stack firewood tomorrow have fun,0.0 52588,got her elllecakes this morning noone else is online ho hum,0.0 52589,rafa i cannot believe this ,2.0 52590,dougiemcfly i reli wanted go to the show last night but i had to baby sit glad yu all had a gd show x,2.0 52591,girl ya like my style oh ya sexy sexy sexy let me work you out gymin it,0.0 52592,htownssupasexxi noo ,2.0 52593,iam like so bored ,2.0 52594,shuyitan which hills are u on i tot of going away also this weekend but too much work to do ,0.0 52595,rt kermltnow my talents include stress eating and falling in love with people that will never love me back httpstcoqwubgpzumf,0.0 52596,everything i touch turns to shit it seems like everything i come into contact to seems to break or become worse im toxic whether it be an object which will break or mysteriously stop working a person who will come to resent me or myself who lays here begging for attention on the internet i hate living,3.0 52597,rt oxforddiplomat it is with deep regret amp sadness that i announce my official reasons for accepting the posting of becoming angela merk,2.0 52598,a beautiful song of hope to help you guys out this song was made by adele and may i say its such a beautiful song go ahead and readi only wanted to have funlearning to fly learning to runi let my heart decide the waywhen i was youngdeep down i must have always knownthat this would be inevitableto earn my stripes id have to payand bear my souli know im not the only onewho regrets the things theyve donesometimes i just feel its only mewho cant stand the reflection that they seei wish i could live a little morelook up to the sky not just the floori feel like my life is flashing byand all i can do is watch and cryi miss the air i miss my friendsi miss my mother i miss it whenlife was a party to be thrownbut that was a million years agowhen i walk around all of the streetswhere i grew up and found my feetthey cant look me in the eyeits like theyre scared of mei try to think of things to saylike a joke or a memorybut they dont recognize me nowin the light of dayi know im not the only onewho regrets the things theyve donesometimes i just feel its only mewho never became who they thought theyd bei wish i could live a little morelook up to the sky not just the floori feel like my life is flashing byand all i can do is watch and cryi miss the air i miss my friendsi miss my mother i miss it whenlife was a party to be thrownbut that was a million years agoa million years ago,3.0 52599,man i hate stupid allergies im sneezing my eyes itch im miserable any suggestions ,2.0 52600,am i weak or crazy its been six years im still stuck in my head and totally withdrawn and i have to fight back that deep sadness often still i used to feel so different i felt alive and able to sense the world around me and find enjoyment in the little thingsive had so much handed to me in my life even though ive worked hard and accomplished some on my own i feel as though ive never had to deal with true adversity and this is simply life and im not ready for iti feel guilty for bringing so much stress and pain to my mother and father sometimes in the day im ok for a few hours after lunch or at least ive convinced my mind of that with adderall benzos caffiene im hoping i can get back to living life,3.0 52601,kidnapdavey the way to do it ,0.0 52602,i feel so worthless so ill start off by telling everyone that i have what most people consider to be a perfect life i have a stable home situation great grades and im a very athletic and outgoing person almost everyday i go out and practice my sports and exercise in the weight room or go out to run however i cant ever shake the feeling that im a waste of space and i shouldnt be here most days i feel like a complete failure to my family and everyone around me to the point that i sometimes will injure myself on purpose i recently came out of a mental health hospital with therapy and antidepressants but i hate the idea of taking them so i convinced my psychiatrist to end the prescription while making almost no progress with the therapist i have everything going for me but i just cant be happy with myself no matter what i do im running out of hope and i really dont see a future for myself happy new years everyone,3.0 52603,love him to death for real id do anything for the man thought i was over those kinda of feelings but i guess not and it sux,2.0 52604, omj i seriously can not find my jb top anywhere moving sucks,2.0 52605,is gutted ,2.0 52606,spinsallnight i want to ,2.0 52607,bustabusta good stuff thanks for the help etc we got some good teamwork going on ,0.0 52608,kaylastack playing and he goesquot oh god courtney thats horriblequot and turns it down a whole heap laughing and does his window up lol,2.0 52609,hows quarantine treating everyone for me its a mess the only thing that used to bring me happiness were my friends which i am great full for but everyone says stay in touch but dose any one actually no how hard that is the foundation of my happiness is gone i can only hope that this virus ends soon,3.0 52610,any tips for improving confidenceselfassurance im about to start college and seeing how everyone is so much more beautifultalentedrich than i am is really sucking ive been doing better lately but i know that that wont last forever and i will crash soon it doesnt help that i got rejected from my intended major but i still got accepted into my nextbest option and i can always try to transfer even with the acceptance rate it has but i just kee getting bummed seeing all of the kids that got the major i wanted while i failed anyway i wanna get ahead of the curve and eventual hellfire of my mental wellbeing and see if you guys have any resources for building confidence or self assurance or anything to find worth in myself thanks,3.0 52611,last count for the day on the facebook group is goodnight my fellow aussie ellen fans ,0.0 52612,loss of motivation and interest is just randomly having episodes where u have no motivation to do anything and bareky being able to get out of bed because u just dont care enough to try or apply urself in anything a symptom if depression idk happens to me a lot like i wouldnt kill myself but also just wanna stay in my room and sleep my life away lmao im not suicidal tho so is it still depression,3.0 52613,lost and stuck in life please forgive for the long post im years old and have been suffering with feeling lost and stuck since i was about overall im a very focused passionate and hard working guy that is when i have a vision to chase my problem isnt that im unmotivated or that i dont try things because im afraid of failure or what others say etc i really couldnt care less my problem is that i have no real vision anymore for the longest time i havent been able to look at something and say that is what i want to do next or that is what i aspire to be because i really have no idea what it is i want in life to the point where it drove me nuts not too long ago and i fell into a severe depression diagnosed by psych got the mental health plan etc no meds though as im a big believer and follower in self help books changing the chemical imbalances naturally etc the hardest part by far is knowing i can do anything i want in life and having that drive but at the same time not knowing what i want to do fullstophowever ive definitely had those good moments and i have achieved every vision and goal i had set each time when i had one i went through a rough breakup about a year after school and went through the whole focus on myself phase got started in the gym amp within years got quite jacked very strong and very smart as my new found passion was powerlifiting and physiotherapy my vision in life was to become a pt and strength coach and to teach help and motivate others as i did for myself well i did exactly that and became quite successful too but eventually i no longer had the passion to follow that career not exactly sure why but yeahanyway im now working a to like job at a bar still hit the gym and diet days a week but again i just find myself looking around for that next task in life but i just cant seem to find anything at all not even a hint im not materialistic have everything i want at the moment and have a close few friends and good relationships with family and all i just dont want anything in life particular at the moment and i hate it its slowly killing me inside i want to put my passionate and hard working side to use so bad other than the gym which im already doing so please reddit anyone with advice what do i do now,3.0 52614,im a old teen male who doesnt know what is he doing help i need help idc what is happening to me i feel so sad im so scared to go to school in school i just want to cry my eyes get watery i try to hide it i feel so sad there at home i worry that i let down my family and i feel so scared and sad alone in my room crying please help 😭 ,3.0 52615,rt i jussssst dont have time anymore time for stress time for doubt time for bullshit protecting my energy at all costs,2.0 52616,cenk seems awfully defensive about pornim assuming he has a porn addiction and is trying to justify his sad lon ,2.0 52617,im not sick but im not well its a sin to live this well i had visions i was in them i was looking into the mirror to see a little bit clearer the rottenness and evil in meim not sick but im not well and im so hot cause im in helli wanna publish zines and rage against machines i wanna pierce my tongue it doesnt hurt it feels fine the trivial sublime id like to turn off time and kill my mind you kill my mindparanoia paranoia everybodys coming to get me just say you never met me im running underground with the moles digging holes hear the voices in my head i swear to god it sounds like theyre snoring but if youre bored then youre boring the agony and the irony theyre killing meim not sick but im not well and im so hot cause im in helland its a sin to live this well,3.0 52618,jchawes so thank you for being nuts and thank kris for me too ,0.0 52619,my mom thinks im crazy my mom doesnt think i have depression she thinks i can just feel better and that im not trying hard enough it is truly infuriating but more than anything it is sad it makes me feel so awful i have days where i really dont want to do anything i would rather just lay in bed with my lights off and lay there i rarely enough having people over at our house i usually just end up locking myself up in my roomim im at a point in my life where i should be doing something at least by my parents standards truth is i have no idea what i want to do nor do i have any drive to find anything to do i stopped my application for my community college halfway through because it really doesnt appeal to me i want to join the army but in my mental state i would be obliterated by boot camp my parents desperately want me to do something anything really but how can if i dont have a drive to do anything ive tried explaining to them that i need some sort of profesional medical help i was diagnosed with depression years ago during my sophomore year but nothing ever came of it theyre under the impression im not trying hard enough today i tried talking to my mom about again but its useless she thinks im crazy she said that only crazy people get help i dont know what to do anymore ,3.0 52620,wednesday is gardener day mowers weed wackers amp blowers start promptly at wednesday quotkill the insomniac dayquot ,2.0 52621,angel is missing her brother ,2.0 52622,ganeshaxi were you a cheerleader in high school theres something very peppy about that tweet ,0.0 52623, dont worry pickles got sand booted in his face last week it happens ,2.0 52624,vent its not that i necessarily want to die if anything i want to be alive but in a different way im just really tired of being myself someone who can barely contribute anything but negativity and disappointment to the people around me even though i am a living a privileged individual who couldve done so much more with their life ive fallen into a spiral of selfloathing i still experience happiness love and compassion but i let even the smallest of things and inconveniences bring me down and collapse me i am sensitive i let my depression take a grip of my life i am ashamed of myself and what i do with my life i choose to wallow in my own sadness but rarely do anything to change myself there are many times where i wish i didnt exist and was never born i feel like everyone who i know would be better without me i leech off of those who i love i take all that they can give and then when they call me out on it i throw a fuss i am selfish and demanding and expect so much from other people when i cant even support myself with the help of other people i will always disappoint those who think i can do more i manage to fall short of even the smallest of expectations i want to share how i feel with those who i care about or anyone but i worry that i will scare them away and alienate myself afterall who would want to be with someone so negative i am not always depressed lately i have been very happy having the happiest time of my life with my girlfriend who i love with all my heart but i feel like i am doomed to mess it up by letting my depression get a hold of me she loves me but how could someone love a person who doesnt always love themself i want to tell her how i feel but feel like if i do she will run away afterall i am pretty much setting myself up for failure if i doi am again putting my own problems on to other people instead of dealing them by myself like a normal person would and i feel like opening up is such a large burden for another person to take when i feel this way i am not myself i look at the negative of things and not the positive my depression is regular but not always a constant i get very dark thoughts when in my lows there are times that i truly do want to die but i fear death in a way i got very close but could not have the courage to do so,3.0 52625,wish i knew how to twitpictook some fab pics of my dogs holding things on her front pawswho needs britains got talent ,0.0 52626,on my way to the park i was going to lie in the sun but with this rain aint gonna happen ,2.0 52627,my classmate betrayed me she said she doesnt love the movie angels and demons she doesnt love the trailer ,2.0 52628,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 52629,rt memetribute me trying to better my mental health httpstcoroaxndwibe,1.0 52630,shelnewman vacation is great dont want to come back ,2.0 52631,i hate it when pretty much everything is sunburned but your facei look like a jackass ,2.0 52632,depression is custom made and this is my design part this is just for me to vent i am not sober at this timeyou are a good friend a good guy you deserve to be happy and any woman who reject you is a airhead and dont know what she has i have heard verations of this over the years tonight as well but those words never bring me comfort they just make me angryi have tried everything given it my all just to be noticed by her but in the end she never chose me cause i was never what she wanted or needed like that she never lead me on lets get that straight i tried to be the right person for her and i failed at every turni hate to be told that i am a good person i hate when people tell me that because i care so much for everyone that my time will come you know what i dont care anymore i think i will be happier if someone was to tell me that i am not worth shit and that i will die alone and no one will ever miss me cause that is how i think about myself even when i know its not truei was out with friends laughing and talking but in between those moments in time my mind drifts to her what it would be like if i had her how happy i would bebut then the rage starts to build up inside you dont deserve to be happy all you should get is to die alone at the side of the road like the trash you are is what i tell myself sometimes i believe it is how i my life should end other time i want it to be a liei scream on my way home i scream aloud alone in my car so no one else but me can hear my cry how broken i am how i think all i have to do is mash the gas and aim for the light polesince the day my brother died i prayed to god ever night not to let me wake up in the morning why should i be allowed to wake up when you took my brother away then i met her and slowly after i begged less and less for my death till i stopped asking all togethernow the thing is that i fantase about it every day i go on the road i wonder if this is my last day sometimes i actually hope that it is i picture in great detail how i die my last breath would i fight to stay alive or would i just die in the end i think i will fightbut none the less i picture the sound of my neck snapping as i hit a wall i picture drowning basically the worst ways to die are how i think i should diei want to believe that its not true that i can be happy live a life that i would like to have but honestly i dont think me being happy is part of the plani would give everything i have for her i would suffer all this and more if i knew that she would live the life that she always wanted and deserves i love her with every fiber of my soulin my head its basically split in two the dark side and light the light is where i know i should be but the dark is where it feels like homethe dark side of my mind is a version of me that i hate but at the same time i want that to be me the me that everyone sees the person who doesnt give a dam about myself or anyone elsethe dark side of my mind hugs me and comforts me i am use to this this version of my mind whispers to me that i am alone no one cares if i live or die the world is better off without me in it he tells me that she did not choose you she did not want you no one dose he holds me tight telling me all this till i dont know what is true and what is the lie i now believehe tells me all this and feeds my anger my rage but the thing is i like it i love the feeling of hating myself and everyone i love how i feel like i can do anything and not care but at the same time there is the other me one that extends his hand out and says you deserve to be happy you are loved and now most of the times i fight the dark i go to light to where i should be happybut the problem is that when i do i always look back to the dark and i see his face my face twisted with a smile cause no matter how much i try in the end i will always find myself back at his side listining to the words of how this is what i deserve and i will believe himeverytime i fall into his grasp she pulls me out and back to where i should be i want to be happy like how she tells me i will be that i will meet the person i am supposed to be with and everything will be fine but i know i already did and its notshe is everything i love and ever wanted words can not describe how i really feel about her i want nothing but the best for her she will forget about me eventually or at least that is what i tell myself god i hope she has the life she deserves i will love her till the end of time and beyond,3.0 52633, yeah we paid on thursday now they are up over for same days ,2.0 52634,whoa busy monday limited tweets,2.0 52635,ubringmejoi howdy have a good one,0.0 52636,rt pettyblackboy me and my homegirls taking a break from our depression to turn up at local functions this summer httpstcobhtbienixw,2.0 52637,excited for missys wedding this weekend in austin and then spending time with my family back home bye bye lbk tear ,2.0 52638,i want my parcel i know its full of tunes and hell yea a font movie dvd and surprises i love surprises ,0.0 52639,i want miley to come to the uk that would be amazing ,0.0 52640,i rly need to stop being so close to my coworkers cuz i get sad af when they stop working w me😢,2.0 52641,high school grad tonight hope its not raining ,0.0 52642,less than hours until the art history exam amp i have to spend hours of that time traveling to working at my job ,2.0 52643,fpenney that pics lovely franks xxx,0.0 52644,ughonce again my car needs fixin ,2.0 52645,yeah trust issues not to mentioni have crippling depression,1.0 52646,going to my bros play high school musical ,0.0 52647,existential crisis or existential depression i just want to know when does an existential crisis become existential depression because i want to know if i should actually look for help or if it will eventually pass,3.0 52648,nypop da hell lol jk youve been sadly missed ,0.0 52649,rt fact having negative friends is linked to depression lowered self esteem insomnia and anxiety positive friends promote good overall,1.0 52650,the wife had to get very angry with a network operator before getting fobbed off hard sales for leaving customers not good,2.0 52651,my phone broke nooooooooooooooooooo,2.0 52652,people will disappoint you god will not ,0.0 52653,i dont want to go to sleep because ill be alone with my thoughts i know i should get sleep at a reasonable time or else ill regret it the moment i wake up but i cant get myself to lay in my bed because then ill start thinking and not have mindless activities to distract me i dont want to think about all my mistakes my insecurities how im going to die alone and how much im going to be miserable tomorrow just like how i am every day of the week i love sleep more than anything in the world and i wish i could sleep forever but i still cant being myself to do it because im too busy trying to keep my mind occupied probably going to delete this later just needed to rant in a place where no one will probably read this and it will get lost in countless reddit threads im fine with that i dont really care i just dont know what to do with myself,3.0 52654,lapcoverz you could come to audition too it is tlckelly ripa looking for female inventors but shhh dont tell anyone else ,0.0 52655,kimkardishan itll look good go for it xx,0.0 52656, me n my sister charitables share the same bond nothing like a brothersister relationship,0.0 52657, lucky you i envy you i wish was away have fun tho ,2.0 52658,fever and a bad tummy i cant have this for a longer time many works to do ,2.0 52659,yay a successful feeding off the tricky boob with no screaming ,0.0 52660,zoloft experiences crippling depression anxiety feeling of worthlessness as title says any experiences i am lost and finally succumbed to going to my doctor and he appointed me these meds i have just started taking them do they work for you side effects how has it affected your lifei sometimes struggle to even get out of bed and i overthink and get anxious about the smallest things it is making it so damn hard to cope and i hardly ever feel like a normal person join this up with a family that wants me to get a really good education and me hardly being able to get through it makes it rough the whole society just expects you to perform so much i feel like i am about to hit a wall but i hope i can finish my education before i crash and burn sorry for the rant,3.0 52661,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 52662,yet another random night with fashodoeee haha fun though whats next good night,0.0 52663,went back to my normal style of poker lost on monday but won last night still up for the week though ,0.0 52664, yes psych dedication i have everything about that show stored in the brain somewhere sorry for the delayed response,0.0 52665,marqueshouston what u goin b n atlanta for cuz i live n da a n i would love see u if u r performing ,0.0 52666,picked up the sistuh now were having a spa day ,0.0 52667,how long should it take to get out of bed on sleepinsunday ,0.0 52668,feliarchie wowhaha soooo predictable haaaaaah wish i could watch it ,2.0 52669,i was sooo happy to see so many juniors and alumni today love love love,0.0 52670,djddouble send me your email and i will send ya a list ,0.0 52671,mellieboozer i know right its not even full blown summer yet so scary,2.0 52672,tired of this fucking bullshit tired of this at all not productive completely irresponsible son and a brother hell i cant see myself clearly since first year of high school also im having my college entrance exam in this coming saturday fuck man i cant tell if im ready or not at all most of the time i feel tired thats why i can tell im not ready at all but the truth is i lack support and shit i got envy lately hell i watched some tips on how to be ready on the said exam i got negative thoughts i thought myself damn shes more lucky the one whos speaking from the videos than me i cant fix my mind from all of these bullshit then last night my aunt messaged my mom that my dad suffers from depression bullshit that night i cant stop my mind going on goddamn circles the reason behind this is that he ha a rough life during his youth his personality declined as the time passed by when they got married to be honest my mom explained me that he sees his self in me i just thought that i suffer more than him i just didnt take it seriously one last thing summers coming i cant straighten my self on how to look at my life as a privilege privilege to cherish such season i think im gonna have some summertime sadness again since last year of summer i appreciate your effort and time in reading my bullshit i hope yall can understand mepeace out,3.0 52673,i get so sad when i think of my past friendships bc almost all of them ended bc of me and i just wanna know what i ,1.0 52674,personalnickjay why did you say that ,2.0 52675,i know the end is soon i have just written notes to my best friends and one for my family i felt it was needed i take stupid amounts of drugs and alcohol because i dont care anymore im resigned that i will take my life through suicide or accidental overdose i dont know why im writing this i just needed to vent really i hope in some way something will change but my bipolar is just getting worse and worse and i am not strong enough to fight it anymore i hope all of you find the help you can and even though i probably dont even know any of you personally i love you all ,3.0 52676,did not win that tupperware lot on ebay ,2.0 52677,rt vinterine wtf is this me when i blast sad music in my earphones and cry while i wash the dishes and clean the house ,2.0 52678, luckier than the people here in germny today very cloudly ,2.0 52679,the rain has gone away outsidebut now theres rain inside omg today is already crazy,2.0 52680,blswens yes you do i was thinking the same but i cant spend money pick out the best coach bag ever and give it a pet for me ,0.0 52681,not sure whether to tell my friend about my problems ive been feeling really down lately it comes and goes but this one seems to hit harder than most i want to tell one of my closest friends my problems but i dont want to lose them or place such a burden on them should i still tell them throw away account as my other friends know my main account and sometimes check my postscomments,3.0 52682,feeling down your whole life can change in a minute,2.0 52683,i just saw that boy who carries the radio around school he goes to my church hes not the same without his radio ,2.0 52684,ajandtjsmommy im sorry ,2.0 52685,one year balance advice on how to deal with negative online professional feedback hey guysbig hugs for all of youits been a year since i attempted suicide and went to intensive care had a big bump back on october but now am back on track trying to live my life as best as possible some days are better than others but im getting therethere has been a lot of issues but my main worry i have anxiety besides depression is my job ive had some bad mobbing episodes but my bosses like me and see im productive unfortunately there have been some negative online reviews by constumers citing the most irrational and out of my control complaints like the weather for example some of them are ruthless and though the head staff trust me it affects me cos i cant believe theres so much evil out there sure there are things to improve always and im not perfect by all means its just that the pressure sometimes overwhelms me topping it with the agressive attitude from other coworkersim just reaching out for coping skills for thison other note my toxic relationship ended on december he called me specifically to leave me its been very hard for me although i know its toxic and even dangerous for my health but sometimes i miss him its just difficult to wake up to lies and the illusion of what you thought was love i feel im damaged and gave so much in this relationship just to have it thrown to the garbagesorry if this was long am needing support latelylovea,3.0 52686, they hatin ,2.0 52687, and forever,0.0 52688,im freeeee for now i hate midterms,0.0 52689,i carry a white heart☁️thats always said about me🤷🏻‍♀️i do not know the truth of the bad hearts🤔the truth is w ,0.0 52690,me rntaknak pikir taknak pikir taknak pikir terpikir lak taknak pikir ugh stress,2.0 52691,greenpartyie pioneers always do well after an extinction boundary i wish you every success ,0.0 52692,reese cups n cheetos n cigs lol i sent him to the store cuz im baked drive ,0.0 52693,finally found something to work on science nobody went ,2.0 52694, dm me with email or you can get to site thru blog its one of a kind opportunity ,0.0 52695,has been chillin in the garden with a couple of beersand is feeling pretty happy ,0.0 52696,why wont school just closee ,2.0 52697,ugh so last night was crazy but fun michael left for his game and everyone else is sleeping anyone wanna hang later maybe ,0.0 52698,bklynjay ewwww im sry u have to sit next to that,2.0 52699,ok so it looks like everyone else is out having a life tonight i guess ill go and watch conspiracy theory or something ,2.0 52700,it was until everyone turned into a pumpkin they r all light weights and were ossified ltstaceygt,2.0 52701,i forgot how jack johnson makes me smile ,0.0 52702,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 52703,cant wait for mtv movie awards ,0.0 52704,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 52705,xxkonstantine really it just says uri too large and wont load for me ,2.0 52706,jiglyumbay lol drink a drink for me im in the crib on a fridayyy waaahhh,2.0 52707,watching the lion king and eating cold pizza with jazz today was good ,0.0 52708,twitermethis you arent a baseball fan too bad its a great way to enjoy the wonderful spring weather ,0.0 52709,times change and so do friends when middle school started i had a group of friends who always loved to play games and honestly it was my only escape from what happens from my personal life they never asked and i enjoyed it because i rather be part of what my friends enjoy we all had xbox s and always found a way to get xbox live membership or sometimes i had a friend be kind enough to give me a day free trial it was the best of times they were the only friends that stuck with me until times were changing its hard to move on when your friends begin to change and time itself keeps progressing high school was the peak of our group disbanding at senior year it was also the time people were changing consoles into a new era of gaming i accepted it without frustration of losing my friends and enjoyed playing games with story and continuing my life but then today i suddenly broke down i look at myself in the mirror and almost didnt recognize myself i felt empty i started looking back at my old account on xbox and looked at all my achievements my friends list and then i started to remember all the good times i miss them i miss the way my friends used to only put their mind into our friendship and the game how we bond and talk about things and now they are just goneits just sad that no matter how many times i try to figure out what went wrong i only find myself at a dead end that this happens i end up blaming myself for the group disbanding it makes me feel lost in a way seeing that i remember these moments yet do they also think about them too i tried messaging them and trying to hang out with them but they either say they cant make it live far or they just have a totally different personality maybe it is that times are changing and maybe im just stuck in the past i still wish them the best in their future i still have great memories of them and have no regrets meeting them i just wish that maybe ill have one friend just one pal to share these nostalgic moments with to watch them or me play the games we enjoyeven just thinking about all of this reminds me of the movie stand by me those are the only friends ill meet in my life ill only be young once and to see it gone i just wish i could live with it forever i hate the idea of growing up as if it takes our childhood i just hope someday that can changethank you to anyone that reads this and to anyone that goes through this kind of scenario i have this to saylove yourself not everyone is going to be nice neither will they be there always but the memories stay forever thats why we live to feel to care to be happy ,3.0 52710,louiss i love toronto amp sci center miss mclaughlins planetarium now closed did you go into the rom its great,2.0 52711,mrsmcfox awww poor baby ill give you hugs and kisses,2.0 52712,crosssector collaboration mental health mental capacity and human rights norwich june httpstcoxrekotpble,1.0 52713,i just took my bath ready to go the wedding now ,0.0 52714,that sounds good i only wish i had some miz dloveable,0.0 52715,back pain ,2.0 52716,i cant stop coughing ,2.0 52717,livenbee thanks ill keep that in mind,0.0 52718,so it smells weird in my room and i gots the hickups ,2.0 52719,all my condolences go to ts family and t im so sad,2.0 52720,a trailer ran over my favorite frisbee today ,2.0 52721, finally someone spreading the hayley love via twitter welcome to the club taylor ,0.0 52722,just got home from an awesome refuge service and is about to pig out on raviolis haha,0.0 52723,have to go to the doctors office arm is not feeling good after vicodin and ice ,2.0 52724,not sleepy but its nice to have the time alone in the dark with your thoughts ,0.0 52725,randomtrouble haha robert pattinson is reportedly there somewhere i want him i mean i want to find him i mean im not creepy ,2.0 52726,chivalry im a little upset that you wont be able to help me look for hoes in the bahamas ,2.0 52727,home in nb bad day for animals roadkill count deer skunk numerous porcupines and a big bloody smear ,2.0 52728,lamismaluna hey hun im good kinda sore from gardening and running yesterday but its a good sore ,0.0 52729,dysthymic patient here wondering why im supposed to be here hi all lately ive been feeling like something went wrong with me in my hardwiring and ive always been a huge advocate for myself and very open about my issues ill preface with this i am not suicidal i am however a sufferer of anxiety and am dysthymic if not clinically depressed i function i socialize i have relationships but i am always unhappy once something good happens either something bad happens shortly after or i find something to be negative about and the funny thing is you wouldnt suspect it im not a debbie downer who ruins parties this is all internal i live a great life im in medical school my family is healthy i have a boyfriend i have an apartment i have friends but theres always something holding me back and my negativity is so tiring i just feel like im given so much and theres always something wrong i say the words that im appreciative but in the end i am always dissatisfied it makes life so stupid tiring and disappointing ,3.0 52730,has been listening to marks sillysweet song enjoying the bright sunny afternoon wfamily amp is now going to take a much needed nap zzz,0.0 52731,darraghdoyle i hope youre keeping a list of these ,0.0 52732,i have been up for like hours ,2.0 52733,catirah what do you like on your public enemy asherroth or elevatorfight or perhaps you like a like questlove amp the roots instead ,0.0 52734,dj hero coming soon whos getting it seems like ima have to retire my guitar hero ,2.0 52735,depression and coping hi everyoneits never really been a problem till lately ive just been going through bad times of my life i feel upset and i dont know why most of the timeas most of you know people love fortnite i love it too i play not just for fun but it just makes me happy not worrying about anything and having a good time on my toes going for more winsif anyone ever wants to play i am on playstation my name is justinmosk and always happy to playleave a message if u decide to friend request thanks all,3.0 52736,what do u see in her that i dont have shadez,2.0 52737,rt sugaplumcris depression ,2.0 52738, me too ,2.0 52739,dassein dowan that wan la take mine ,2.0 52740,ok i know this brisk walking on treadmill is a bs workout when i can tweet wit no problemsdamn u hip flexor pull i wanna run track ,2.0 52741,supercori haha me toowere awesome ,0.0 52742,beeyuncah haha ,0.0 52743,is really gettin chuck i now love it ,0.0 52744,does it ever get better never did i think at years old i would be so miserable that i would cry myself to sleep that i would hate looking at myself i cant even see a future nor do i want to cause i think it will be just as bad as it is now does the numbness and mindless life and effects ever leave its just same miserable day and life over and over again thinking back to the past i know i was happier and never felt this way but i cant seem to get back to that in anyway,3.0 52745, havent in a while cuz of the weak internet its been stormycloudy here ,2.0 52746,i read quotthe picture of dorian grayquot by oscar wilde on english its not easy for me but i try to make out ,0.0 52747,ryanhalloran why not ,2.0 52748,good morning from kentucky warm and humid typical kentucky yuk have a great day everyone ,0.0 52749, lol thanks for forgiving me ,0.0 52750,i miss the old days i miss my childhood i miss my childhood best friends that is now a stranger i miss my childhood memories i miss the days i was happy i miss the days where i would laugh i miss the days where i have no worries in life i miss the days where everyday is full of happiness and laughter i miss the days where i would go outside and enjoy the world i miss the days where playing video games and watching tv arent boring i miss when christmas isnt boring i miss the best times in my life i just miss the old days sooooo much i hate this world i hate life i just want the pain to end💔 time flies so fast af nostalgic music brings back a lot memories i cant bring back everyday feels and looks like the same but when you look back everything had changed😭 i just want to go back in time and experience all of those happy memories again i just want to be happy again man life sucks,3.0 52751,burbujaspy omg uta ve esto now i see everything id ever need its the girl in front of me shes much better lo puso nicky ,2.0 52752,freakin hell im sick again wat is this the time in i hate the flu ,2.0 52753,im spiraling ive been good for a while i forgot how bad it gets when its bad nothing brings joy ive been spiraling down for a few hours feel unappreciated and alone feel fake feel like people barely tolerate me secretly cant stand mewant to drive off the side of a bridge then that gets replaced by wanting to get revenge for things from or years ago too tired to sleep my eyes are burning like i got chlorine or salt water in themnothing breaks the cycle no happiness no pain just spinning down,3.0 52754,not in the mood crazii crazii highly upset now with everything amp everybody ,2.0 52755,going to spend all day revising for exam hopefully itll pay off tomorrow we shall see,2.0 52756,i was going to kill myself but i made a checklist before i did that to at least prove to myself that i tried eat healthy spend more time in nature talk to friends and family seek professional helpi did all except for i either could not afford a session or the facility i reached out to never got back to methe funny thing is whichever it was it worked i feel so much better now and i am ready to live againi went to the beach or park at least five times a week i spoke more openly about my condition to a few of my friends and i stopped eating fast food or instant food two nights ago it occurred to me that i was enjoying life againso i know it sounds cliche when people say eat healthy talk to your friendsi hated it when others told me to do those things but it worked for me i hope they work for you too whoever you are i wish you were happy its hard to enjoy life and i know depression will come back but those things help a little,3.0 52757, emjaystar my dog kai is now as a border collie i probably only have a year or left ill miss him but dex will more ,2.0 52758,suicide probably is the solution is it just me who feels the warmth of relief when someone commits suicide its like ive been going through all this shit just thinking about doing it of course it makes sense that they went ahead with it they were probably going through a lot more shit than i currently am at least theyre out of the suffering now so can i be if i decide to do it ,3.0 52759,britney is definitely a put on a show kinda girl b l a s t,0.0 52760,roomofmusic i cant see you but its a cute pic ,0.0 52761,its my birthday its midnight i just turned i havent had friends for about years now due to depression my boyfriend broke up with me yesterday im attempting to apply for colleges right now and planning on going to the dmv soon basically just trying to act like a living person and not a piece of furniture i need to get my shit together i essentially wasted away for years before this how do i have fun tomorrow how do i live with myself and my failure at life how can i convince myself to keep moving forward when ive been still for sooo long,3.0 52762,i am a highschool graduate ,0.0 52763, haha never seen it all i really watch is sports n the news i was gonna watch the cmt awards but i dont get cmt ,2.0 52764,sad we cant use this for summer it will be so hotㅋㅋ ,0.0 52765,where has the sun gone ,2.0 52766,is waiting for the train ,2.0 52767,yes i did walk several blocks in the wrong direction trying to find a chickfila in downtown atlanta no i did not find it ,2.0 52768,ahhh sleep is tempting but at the same time i wanna stay up like a big boy ,2.0 52769,fuctupmind peaceloveemp grizzlemeister carrieksada stacylstiles ruthieredsox thebradfordfile ,2.0 52770,watching the hitcher on cinemax sean bean on killing spree ,0.0 52771,glennegray i need to sleep but ive got a test to dooooo,2.0 52772,quietandy yayyyy ill text you when im on my way shall i park near your house x,0.0 52773,is going to put fake nails on they r sooo pretty ,0.0 52774,already gone through my work stuff and bored ,2.0 52775,houseofmick you get two actually dont worry about shipping my pleasure ,0.0 52776,please help pass this on ,0.0 52777,lmfaoooo fcked with my anxiety 😫,2.0 52778,three more nights and thencruefest ,0.0 52779,getting lazy i think i need a drink it is friday i can celebrate happy hour at home ,0.0 52780,fjordsecho sounds like a plan ,0.0 52781,firesty hey ya like ur new pic i have one too,0.0 52782,in most cases is the cure to depression to just find some balance and fulfillment in most aspects of your life if most people can categorize life fulfillment and healtg into things likesleepdietexercisefamilyfriendsromancefinancecareervolunteeringgivingcommunity involvementspiritual or religioushobbieslearningreadingself esteemchoresproductivitymorethen you weigh the importance of each for yourself and determine whats most lacking and start to fulfill those areas as best as you can if you do this will you start to be happy and not think about dying all the timethis is a bit simplistic i know because it doesnt talk about therapy meds drugs and alcohol etc but in a way it kind of does say for example you lack in sleep and its tied to excessive drinking then that needs to go or say you are very low on self esteem then maybe its time to get therapy or say you are very high on friends and spend a ton of time with them maybe you can afford to sacrifice some time with them and put it in other areas what do you think is trying to fill in as many life factors as possible the cure to depression,3.0 52783,hi um very new to this just looking for a place to talk im just depressed i have a southern family so every talk of depression is replied to with just grow a pair lol ive never really talked about how i feel before because i dont want people really knowing life just kinda sucks ya know dad drinks and likes to take his anger out of us his kids not physically just a lot of cussing and yelling i love my mom she is a trooper and has put up with him for a long time for her kids i try to live the best high school life possible ima starter in all sports i play i have a all throughout school but nothing really seems to make me feel happier i just feel like no one really looks at me and thinks im anything special i just feel like an afterthought tbh dating has been the worst part because i want the right girl you know but the only ones ive found just reveal after a while of knowing them that they dont feel the same which always sucks sorry im just rambling about my problems but i really have never talked about it if anyone reads this thank you for hearing me,3.0 52784, tell me about it ,2.0 52785,missing you ,2.0 52786,i hate myself im always disappointing people i spent nights crying myself to sleep wondering why i am not good enough i even used to cut myself one time i thought about ending it i had a knife to my stomach but i thought about all the good memories and you know what they say the good outweigh the bad i remember crying for hours straight i doing a little better but sometimes i have these moments where i start crying for no reason i lost my dog a couple years ago we had to put him down i remember being in that room and the vet giving him a shot the saddest part was when he closed his eyes and stopped breathing im crying rn just thinking about i am also self conscious about my body i always feel like people are looking at me and just judging me i just need someone to talk to i guess,3.0 52787,maybe he is galauing another girl on his side acc or who hides in his dmkkt who knows,2.0 52788, i cant believe that reply worked yday i havent done it before i have got loads of work to im worried ahahah ,2.0 52789,cristinaaoww sux i wont be there ,2.0 52790,perboysen been a while but i still really miss vienna im jealous but hope you have a great time ,0.0 52791,jessicanorin yeah wierd that it doesnt work on vista s,2.0 52792,im failing at everything the worst part is i know that im capable of doing well if i put the time and energy in i would be doing fine great even but i dont have the energyand all my time im spending hiding away or in bed or avoiding everything by any means possible im a student and i pretty much just bombed everything last semester even though i started off doing great because i just stopped attending the last like month and a halfi always mean well and make so many plans for things to be different next time and they never are sometimes i wonder if im just naturally like this if maybe im just lazy and meant for nothing if maybe this is all i was supposed to accomplish i used to be the golden child now everything just feels like a lie,3.0 52793,omg ive been on my sidekick for almost hours straight i mean its sunday amp theres nothing to do ,2.0 52794,ggspirit thanks so glad i can be an inspiration i love to be useful ,0.0 52795,woohoo my bday it has been a crap day though,2.0 52796,med👏🏻i 👏🏻ca👏🏻tion,1.0 52797,aeriagames its interesting what youre doing bringing over the asian i remember years ago no one outside asia could play them ,0.0 52798,i just hope this anxiety and shit dont pop up again,0.0 52799,anyone else get hit with a wave of depression when something greathappy happens to you i dont exactly know how to describe the event but when something happy happens like everyone starts laughing at a joke ill just get extremely depressed in that moment or when im with my family having a good time or when i accomplish a task im just hit by this great big wave of depression its as if your depression is just making sure you know youre still depressed ,3.0 52800,zackdft tweet jizzersforlife were fbr fans were jizztastic and were trying to make it onto the tt help us out thanks,0.0 52801,rt forjungs jangan sampai trending sensor namanya he doesnt need to see his name trending bc of this sad newsim shaking and i didnt,2.0 52802,tapdancingnews i love andrew nemr hes so talented but alas i cant make to ny in under hours ,2.0 52803, i wish ,2.0 52804,thank you all for the berfday wishes love each and every one of you what a blessing to have such amazing friends,0.0 52805,the offspring are awsome ,0.0 52806,i find myself repulsive i wake up every fucking morning just aching with pain in my chest everything races through my head i cant face the crippling loneliness and the breakup in a healthy way anymore because all i do is just masturbate or hook up with people to drown out that voice in my head i cant sustain anything everyone leaves me in the end and all i want to do is just lie on my bed and cry im not enough ,3.0 52807,idk maybe someone understands i probably didnt explain it right ok so idk whats up with me but when i feel like shit i go to people and it just seems there not interested or they dont care one guy stoped texting me after i opened up to him and told him i wanted to kill myself and idk what to do and the ppl that do show they care its not enough cause im looking for a boyfriend and no guy wants to talk to me as more then friends so i constantly feel lonely no matter how many ppl im with i never feel full bc its not a guy that wants to be with me but i dont really feel bad during the day and i still function fine but when i get home and arent talking to ppl recently i started cutting to feel something none of this probably makes sense or sounds like bullshit ,3.0 52808,still up wide awake im seriously a vampire,2.0 52809,mcdonalds cashier what sauce would you like with your chicken nuggets my social anxiety chocolate,1.0 52810,rt mariachonx datiang saya saya kopag may article kayojhopero ngayonsad to saypuro negatibo ang comentoat nakasimpatiya most,1.0 52811,omg i think im will from the inbetweeners ,2.0 52812,supernatural is amazing that chevy impalar is to die for drools,0.0 52813,help me httpsimgurcomgallerylekqxvci dont really have any a questions about the undisputed fact that i am the most hideous thing that has ever been i just want to see how you people react to it for the amusement of it i know i am hideous beyond any fathomable comparison to the point that obviously no word can even begin to describe my ugliness that being stated my usage of the words ugly hideous etc are to compensate for my lack of a better term since it is not possible for a word that fully describes my truly atrocious nature to exist i have no friends i only state this as a single testament of how ugly i am i am always wrong about everything except for that which is the main point of this paragraph i am not necessarily right either it is not possible for me to be right about anything because of how disgusting and depraved i am i know i am being selfish by posting this photograph which captures only a mere but massive part of my ugly and truly hellish and disgusting nature it would make even the most faithful of believers question the supposed benevolence of a possible god even this possible god would be truly horrified by the morbid nature of my existence in the universe by posting this i know i am showing how completely selfish i amfor lack of a better term and i understand i am causing very intense and severe traumafor lack of a better term by posting this but as the disgusting thing i am i naturally dont care about the well being of any living thing will you people please list ways to commit suicide from least to most painful,3.0 52814,mandyyjirouxx tell her good luck i voted and have fun both of you ,0.0 52815,mayerelle i know cant wait na nga to go home wheeeh i got an i phone im playing it now wheeeh ,0.0 52816,evieluvsmuzic nah that was just me trying to not be grumpy when a little kitten kept me up all night ,0.0 52817,i danced yesterday ,0.0 52818,exam in an hour still not in mood to study god save me,2.0 52819,taking advantage of free redbox codes excited for museum monday with the roomies yay for usf students getting in free ,0.0 52820,sometimes i feel in another dimension and i dont need drugs its just depression,1.0 52821,rant how the fuck are so many of you successful im unable to keep up with my job and college i live in my parents basement at i went to a psych hospital due to a suicide attempt i have no friends or girlfriend what am i doing wrong i read posts about these people who are strong enough overcome the obstacles and have successful lives and its making feel like im even more of a failure than i first realizedbut for those of you are able to achieve so much with this illness in my particular case bipolar disorder i am so happy for you and wish you the absolute best,3.0 52822,mom is in the crystal palace tonight ,2.0 52823,requests to change the old cpantesters urls now dispatched hopefully the guys can do the updates over the next few days ,0.0 52824,thehappyhours lol thats funny feeling better today my vet gave me that advice i told you btw shes amazing,0.0 52825, it does sound goodwill have to get it up and runnin would be nice to chat properly instead of characters ,0.0 52826,rt fatimaxkhan imagine a life without anxiety and stress wowowow,2.0 52827,rt awonderdj anxiety is a helluva drug,1.0 52828, magnificent monday to you ,0.0 52829,easyspace ram is not available as an addon if you already have a vps with you guys ,2.0 52830,i fucking hate myself i constantly repeat to myself that im a worthless piece of shit and no one gives a shit about me why the fuck am i like this why cant i just be fucking happy fuck me,3.0 52831,tommcfly you were all soooo good last night at leicester and we broke the record thanks soo much for an amazing night ,0.0 52832,laurendane glad to help im getting in on tuesday so ill probably sight see on wednesday seems like the least scheduled day,0.0 52833,i help people with their love lifes including my crush it hurts a lot but i need to stand up on my own coz nobody wont care to help ,2.0 52834,danced to torpedo boyz yesterday at the club they dont have deep lyrics but they have fun and you can hear it httptinyurlcomktzjnf,0.0 52835,joyfulfortress im still going to pa for memorial day but katie wont be there ill still get to see mom the girls and mike though,2.0 52836,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 52837,yall its me ,2.0 52838,trentreznor so proud of you let me tell you sober looks good on you to another years,0.0 52839,can anyone even give me a reason to live anymore never had a girlfriend ✅ugly ✅unattractive ✅dont have a license ✅losing interest in sports ✅college overwhelming ✅never had a job ✅social anxiety ✅idiot ✅im years old whats even the point ,3.0 52840,kimkardashian i had really long hair and i cut it super short sry its a lil late,0.0 52841,rt eswanmaryam study medik tahun jauh drpd mak ayah pstu habiskn duit parent bulan duit flights lagi duit yuran almost rm ,1.0 52842,the boyfriend unfollowed me cause of harpersglobe im veary sad now ,2.0 52843,phoenix gt japan is about miles i miss matt,2.0 52844,how do i let my depression just show like i always try to hide it smh i guess its a superiority thing and by that i mean like if im not showing im not depressed then im weak,3.0 52845,ive fucked up badly ive fucked up badly like worst day of my life badly how do i keep my head above water how do i reconcile who i have been my whole life with what ive done how do i stop from getting depressed,3.0 52846,for junior year not like before i want summer already im sick and tired of it all ,2.0 52847,i feel like crap today but had heaps of great laughs i l my friends,0.0 52848,rt laaillaaaa feel free to send me ur sad playlists,1.0 52849,at work this sucks,2.0 52850,loooong day at work ends of the things on my todo list got did ,0.0 52851,plan for today more sunbathing x,0.0 52852,is excited over the new legend of zelda coming int ill be nursing and playing zelda,0.0 52853,bendihossan did you get spotted by it ,0.0 52854,dont wanna go the airshow alone ,2.0 52855,owwww arms hurt so much anyone wanna help,2.0 52856,singing at noon mass today come hear mikees solo ,0.0 52857,i feel like im going to throw up ,2.0 52858,summers here today was so hot i was out in a bikini summer rawkssss ,0.0 52859,heading to rainbows for a healthy breakfast ,0.0 52860,stevophilo ha yes i already thought of that fml ,2.0 52861, they should create voice automated tv sets then we wouldnt need remotes ,0.0 52862,i wish i was born as something cooler i was born into an pakistani indian family i find nothing interesting about pakistani or indian culture i find them to be weird i wish i could have been something cooler such as afghan iranian turkish or arab i often think that i will never find love because people will see pakistani indian culture for what i see it as boring and weirdyep i am depressed about that say what ever you want,3.0 52863,why am i sad rn,2.0 52864,uhh what can i do against headache it feels like my head explode ,2.0 52865,i am sooo tired i got max of sleep last night ,2.0 52866,showerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ,0.0 52867,pdebaare did u see the hannah montana movie its like awesome and lucas till is kinda hot with his super tandpasta smile xd ,0.0 52868,rt you know what makes me really sad and its something bts have talked about how fast everything is going for them theyre do,1.0 52869,hhhhheeeeeellllooooooooooo how r u me im fineeven though im still a little burnt i need go bye ,0.0 52870,sighmkay lets get focused again lol time to write ,0.0 52871,hurrah i just printed my class schedule finally figured out how to make it look organized oh yeah ,0.0 52872,im at school doing home work i have a lot to do ,2.0 52873,isplayer has died sorry ,2.0 52874,my screen flows like liquid ,0.0 52875,extremely busy weekend so much work to do cant wait for summer,2.0 52876,shawntjohnson ohhh yesss im definitely going back next year ,0.0 52877,wildlifegardena not sure where rendlesham forest is will have to look it up on google earth ,0.0 52878,mental help apps that cost money im like psh nah does anyone else look for apps offering professional counciling but get angry when you see you have to spend money for itif i wanted to spend money id drive to a councilor in an office which reminds me two days ago i had to cancel my last appt and the phones were busy so i had to leave a message still no return phone call way to earn your paycheck you snobby receptionist,3.0 52879, this weekend went from to with in a matter of hours sorry i was like sat but im all glad ur comin bak sat nite d,2.0 52880,busy doing homework ill be back,2.0 52881,shakeyamg nahhh not even i b workin early so u know wen i get home its a done deal lol,2.0 52882,no more feeling shitty try changing your diet helped me within a day or two i ate out a lot burgers wings a lot of salty flavorful food and all that flavor has additives and msg n it fucks w ur brain chemistry after days or eating salad and fruits and healthy fats and adding tblspn of olive oil to the mixed helped me tremendously mood felt so much better gluck,3.0 52883,sarahabauer hii i was just thinking about you ,0.0 52884,therossman iquotm very jealous you get to watch top gear before we doi think we still have a few weeks to go here for the new ones ,2.0 52885,is waiting hopelessly for futur music magazine june ,2.0 52886,missed quotso you think you dancequot tonight gotta watch it online now,2.0 52887,shower chick flick and welches sparkling white grape juice goooood night ,0.0 52888, i enjoyed it too ,0.0 52889,rivetz i miss hanging out with you too ,2.0 52890,i think im going to lay out all day sound like a plan ,0.0 52891,angelafrench i have a gym membership refuse to go laziness and complaining prevail ,0.0 52892,vatd debates on whether to follow veritys wise advice okay i wont watch that reality crap wahey ,0.0 52893,i wanted to go to sephora during my break tomorrow but i wont be able to grrr,2.0 52894,poots except in our world it probably is the same combination of stuff ,0.0 52895,aplesandshanana ahh with a burn you need to wait hours before you put anything on it anything before that can make it worse ,2.0 52896,wishes she could be in london with her brother tomorrow stupd gcses ,2.0 52897,loves meeting bizarre new people who are basically ridiculous quotpeace love and granolaquot ,0.0 52898,i miss having a garden ,2.0 52899,what are you crying again well fricj it i love my family especially my sweet mom but i just crumble to more finer pieces when i hear those words instead of just checking on me and why i was crying she lits up on fire it hurts it hurts badshe tells me sonetimes to tell her my problems but she always say the same thing over and over again thats just small you know theres still more to come huh then people will ask me why i joke about ending it all,3.0 52900,pinksugr praise god not sure of the entire storybut god is always faithful ,0.0 52901,going to watch the hangover tonight since there is nothing on tv apart from bb of course saturday tv is not the same as it used to be ,2.0 52902,hmtangx omgsh pb o lincoln should just die already hahahah poor self ,2.0 52903,march for babies today in loving memory of my niece brooklynn wish me luck ,0.0 52904,rt fakerapper even the photo used for this article is triggering af ,1.0 52905,savagediana aye that you are ,2.0 52906, see now or gonna make me miss you even more you know i always have your back no matter what,2.0 52907,jessicastrust did the toothfairly leave a note she needs to leave a little note and pop some glitter into the envelope ,0.0 52908,off to workhopefully the last weekend ill ever have to work ,0.0 52909,atebits i have to go to bed soonlemme dl it already ,0.0 52910,listening to emerys new album that comes out tuesday i love it,0.0 52911,im already finished dinner ,2.0 52912,hmmm the sun has come out and buggered up my plans to lounge around all day oh sod it ive started so ill finish,2.0 52913,shit dunno what to get my dad lil sis already bought everything ,2.0 52914,ive completely given up and dont want to live anymore this is my first post and i dont like talking about how im feeling but i need to tell someone ive been depressed since shortly after my dad passed away but ive tried to convince myself that im faking it and i need to stop being a child but the past year has been so hard i even tried to end my life ive only told one person and they urged me to see a doctor but im afraid they wont believe me or ill get sanctioned its gotten so bad ive just completely given up on life i feel like theres no place for me here and that im a waste of space ive cut off all contact with everyone and i just stay in my room,3.0 52915,rt prettyinthin if youre so sadabout being fatwhy are you stilleating thatto lose weightyou must changeand stick withinyour ca,2.0 52916,good morning everyone ,0.0 52917,colleen is coming over soon were going to get ready together for school today ,0.0 52918,i found out sonic food doesnt agree with me anymore and we just got one ,2.0 52919,nothing to do ,2.0 52920,melissoua ooh i went to a bbq last night veen lounging around in the sun a bit today haha what about you xoxo,0.0 52921,meds which dont affect libido too much medication advice needed antidepressants so citalopram caused me to have a nonexistent libido and bupropion wellbutrin apparently triggers my acnedo you know any medication which doesnt kill libido and doesnt make you tired or apathetic during the dayfacts about me f lives in germany problem mainly not enough energylow blood pressure almost always tired etc sleep a lot during depressed episodes no trouble sleeping body is thin,3.0 52922,pvponline i feel like theres a great drawing in there somewhere ,0.0 52923,tinekepauw phew glad i didnt miss it i have a hard time remembering birthdays,0.0 52924,neeffresh dont trip my tweezey for sheezey i gotchu ,0.0 52925,i think the spawn of shawn may actually be asleep im ascared to go check though ,2.0 52926,playboy tgif have a good one ,0.0 52927,rt drdenisemd your support for raising awareness of the importance of mental health leaves me with a smilegratitude ,0.0 52928, i was jumping on the trampoline and my foot went between the springs ,2.0 52929,uhhhh i hate throwin up my tummy hurts ,2.0 52930,waking up to say goodbye is never a happy start ,2.0 52931, lol thank you i still need to improve afro man i cant draw him the same anymore i draw him and it looks like cliff,2.0 52932,hey flotus dont you also wonder about the mental health of someone who mocks a disabled reporter and brags about grabbing lady bits,1.0 52933,cooking hating the fact that this morning was sunny and now its raining ,2.0 52934,souljaboytellem thas wuz upp freestyle for me ,0.0 52935,sarallenconsult yum apart from the hot part toothpaste is too spicey for me ,2.0 52936,its raining heavyly what a fantastic day ,2.0 52937,i took the leap after struggling for nearly a year and self medicating with cannabis and alcohol and breaking things i finally saw my doctor today and talked about whats been going on with me i got a prescription for prozac tbh a little scared to take it and have an appointment with a therapist in two weeks ive just subscribed to this sub and hope i can get better soon ,3.0 52938,nvm on the good day its already ruined fruit my life,2.0 52939,coconutwheel cant got family plans,2.0 52940,in a weird moodbut i dont think its a good weird ,2.0 52941,i just called telecom and they said i cant use the sciphone ok there new xt service ,2.0 52942,i kind of want some cheesecake right now ,2.0 52943,shoinan as ive said before totally loved lost odyssey only current gen jrpg that ive stuck with until the end ,0.0 52944,how do you cope or try to distract yourself at night i usually have nothing to do and am kept awake by my thoughts sometimes i dont even play video games for the fun of it i just do it because i have zero people to talk to and want to distract myself same goes for taking long walks ,3.0 52945,bb joesmithkgw is also down with the bellagio quotcampingquot he is pestering me now asking why cant dawnpatrol eat sun chips nojoe ,0.0 52946,depression hours at it again brb ,2.0 52947,am i really depressed or just faking it for attention at this point i dont even know sometimes i get happy when i play games then suddenly everything goes dark like why am i crying everything is going ok why am j getting sad over nothing sucidal thoughts are constant every couple of days as soon as everyone leaves my house i lie on the floor try to act like im dead lifeless maybe im too afraid to kill myself i dont know i stopped caring about everything by convincing myself that im going to die soonso fuck everything,3.0 52948,theduelies o dont kill your doggy ,2.0 52949,rt kavehakbar the muslim travel ban is now like the crisis down on our collective national list but here just a reminder that its v,1.0 52950,doin on ,2.0 52951,rt mariahmckinleyy its sad that im already looking forward to my breakfast in the morning,2.0 52952,dear everyone on this subreddit you are all amazing people and i love you so a lot of people on this subreddit need to hear this you are cared for people do care about you whether it seems like it or not there are tons of people out there whether it be family members close friends significant others relatives or even just friendly people on reddit that care a lot about you i feel incredibly bad for anyone on here who is depressed as i know what it feels like to think the world hates you and no one would even notice if you were to kill yourself but that is not true no matter what situation you are in now it will get better someday and you can even try and help yourself now first of all if you arent going to therapy you might wanna try that therapy isnt for everyone yes i really just said that but ive tried a couple different therapists myself and they didnt help me much but you should at least try it and stick with it if it is helping even a little bit secondly try going on a walk getting some fresh air is good for you as you need vitamin d anyways even if its just a minute walk outside once a week its good to at least get out of the house and try your best at feeling better if you are stuck in your house and finally just do simple things that you enjoy dont feel guilty for constantly playing video games watching tv or anime or just laying in bed if it genuinely cheers you up doing little things you enjoy everyday is a great way to feel a little better so definitely try itand if youre thinking about killing yourself have already attempted before please do not try again there are so many people who care about you even if you dont think so i mean heck even the music teacher at my school cares when random people die to the point where she will sometimes cry over it so please dont think no one would care and if youre in the mindset that youll be dead and its doesnt affect you then still please dont if someone you really care about were to kill themselves youd be devastated as well and no one wants you to go especially because you will eventually get over it if you try and help yourselfand for those who think it wont get better trust me when i say it does i was incredibly depressed for a few months due to a verbally abusive ex and almost killed myself multiple times but now although i am still depressed it has gotten better and i even have found the love of my life and am incredibly happy right now because we started dating today lol so it will get better and if you ever need someone to talk to come to me or anyone else on this subreddit if you feel like killing yourself make a post here before you do and wait for some replies wait for some people to try and cheer you up because no one here wants you to kill yourself your life is important to all of us and i really just want you all to be safe and happy because my ultimate life goal is to make sure everyone is happy it always has been and always will so i will try my best to make you happy if you are feeling down despite not even knowing you because it is always a great thing to be positive although being too positive can be draining i hope this post helped some of you i really do if it made even one of you happy or reconsider suicide or even cry then ill be satisifed and take my upvotes knowing i made people feel at least a little better tonight i hope you all have a good daynight wherever you are in the world,3.0 52953,its okay if you dont read this just wanted to vent some of my feelings out hi guys its pm here and tomorrow is my birthday i know mine is a very generic story here but i just want to let this out for a long while now ive felt very empty inside i dont know how else to describe it but for that cliche line ive always subscribed to the sayings follow your dreams and do what makes you happy but what if you have zero dreams you want to achieve what if you have no clue what makes you happy i just feel so worthless and hopeless i have tried so many things to improve myself and try to give me a purpose ive tried going to church exercising more going out to nature more but nothing helps i tried to do everything right i feel awful because theres nothing really wrong with my life i have a complete family great friends i am healthy i have everything i need but i just dont know nothings wrong but nothings right i dont feel anything anymore there are so many people who have less than me but really want to live and i feel horrible that im just wasting my life i know i dont deserve to feel like this because i have so much already if i can just give my life to someone more deserving id do it in a flash it is at the point where everyday what i look forward to is going home and crying my eyes out i just want to stop existing i dont like myself at all i hate myself i dont want me to get better i am pathetic this is why ive decided for a while now to end my life maybe this is the purpose ive been trying to find my whole life maybe i was meant to kill myself after all i dont know i wanted to wait for something terrible to happen to me just so that it can justify what i want to do cause i dont want my parents to blame themselves or other people to blame them but i dont think i can wait that long because nothing really happens in my life so ive decided to kill myself on my birthday one more year for me to experience everything for the last time is one fourth of your supposed life i think its a good age to go i just cant live like this anymore im so tired,3.0 52954,healdepression naturally altwaystoheal happy is healthy ,1.0 52955,riddlermusic bovine freeeeeeeeeeeeedommmmmmmmmmm cereal killer ,0.0 52956,now knows that its my flat fault for me not being able to make or recieve calls not happy bout this ,2.0 52957,feeling sleepy this theatre really sucks ,2.0 52958,im constantly paranoid that my bf is going to break up with me dating with depression sucks id done it before got in abusive relationships during high school swore off dating forever afterwards or at least for a very long time did well in school tried to recover from my mental illness then this idiot with the adorable smile and sweetest personality has the audacity to start liking me and i couldnt help it i liked him back only problem is im still pretty depressed and idk if i can handle the emotional weight of dating i thought that i could and things started off well but now were two months in and im starting to freak out im afraid the day will come when he says that he deal with me anymore and honestly i wouldnt blame himi dont know what to do has anyone else dealt with dating with depression and if so do you have any advice ive been thinking that maybe it would be better for his sake to just break up so he doesnt have to deal with me and me emotional baggage ,3.0 52959,depression is a demon depression isnt just a disease its a fucking demon it destroys you from the inside taunts you constantly takes over your mind it breaks you into little pieces and takes away your will to put them back together it turns you against yourself makes you succumb to its demands it makes you despise yourself and everything about you it makes you want to destroy yourself just as much as it wants to destroy you and it succeeds it turns you into a shell of a human it takes away every passion you have and makes you hate it it makes you push yourself away from society so you cant get help then it torments you alone it talks to you constantly and tells you things you cant block out it tells you how terrible you are and how much everyone hates you it tells you the world wants you gone and you believe all of them every word it says to you it slowly breaks down your humanity making you unable to talk sleep study live normally and soon its the only thing in your mind its pushed everything else out everything and everyone you once loved is replaced by despair you hurt yourself over and over and over because depression had convinced you its what the world wants and after you do that depression convinces you its not enough convinces you that its best if you leave for everyones good for the good of everyone you used to love and every time you try to push it out it comes back stronger pushes you into a tiny box where theres nobody to listen to except it and you keep fighting it keep trying to live a normal life but its taken over your mind youre so lonely and its convinced you you deserve it and you try to negotiate with it but its stronger and you always end up crying on the floor with a knife in your skin as it fills up your mind more and more eventually its taken everything from you you realize you cant escape it and thats when its taken the very last piece of your mind you have no more tears left to shed youre a mere shadow of the person you once were you believe everything its ever said to you every cut youve ever given yourself starts to bleed all over again every horrible thing youve said about yourself starts to ring in your ears and then it swallows you completely youre gone youre now another soul of millions the demon has destroyed from the inside outim ive been living with taking over my mind since i was and its been so hard im so lonely i never got to do any of the things adults reminisce about while the other kids were having fun with friends outside i was crying in my closet bleeding but i somehow pushed myself through years of it hoping someday it would go away elementary school middle school high school every year has been increasingly hellish countless medications therapy nothing has worked nothing kills it it took away my entire childhood i dont think ill make it past ,3.0 52960,is eating a milo whilst waiting for rove to come onim sooo excited ,0.0 52961,lasfm is dead ,2.0 52962,when you feel trapped and cant scape your depression feels like the only way to scape it is when we die its terrifying when your head is messing with you,3.0 52963,i wish my baby thought i was her baby ,2.0 52964,is pacman meant to gang up on you they always corner me the little buggers,2.0 52965,consegui botar uma foto nova aeae is that a nice picture twitter thank you ,0.0 52966,working on papers i have to get done today running my application by gca at somepoint,2.0 52967,warrenyip you shouldve went dude mustve been like people in the room will send you links to my presentations when i getem ,0.0 52968,has a sniffly nose ,2.0 52969,watched some rugby playing xbox nowcant go to the pub still on antibiotics ,2.0 52970,hello twitterworld hows everyone i just got home from a one week vacation in palawan ,0.0 52971,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 52972,whistle while we clean ,0.0 52973,animated dimensions of dialogue by jan svankmajer surrealist vegemation extravaganza ,0.0 52974,just bought eddplants album ,0.0 52975,there is no food in the house ,2.0 52976,dropoffashion i know but so sad ,2.0 52977,feel free to message for a chat wherever you find yourself feel free to send me a message for a chat ive been through multiple suicide attempts and have lived through the depression im still getting my life together slowly but know what its like to be hopeless chatting to a stranger can help theres no judgement at all shut your eyes and keep going through it i cant believe im the one saying this now but there is another side to the darkness,3.0 52978,wake upp wake up yawn huhu still sleepy and i want to sleep again and agaiinnn ,0.0 52979,i watching tv ,0.0 52980,rt rtffacts according to studies highanxiety people are more likely to make bad decisions because they tend to catastrophize uncertain,2.0 52981,courtneymorra i heard that was sort of sad ,2.0 52982,high winds today no supply boat ,2.0 52983,we miss us some jim ,2.0 52984,bedtime suns up ,2.0 52985,ugh nothing but small problems consuming my day ,2.0 52986,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 52987,check out dailymission ,0.0 52988, of weed to cure depression i just copped marijuana to cope with my fucked up shell of a life when im high it hurts a little less i know its not a long term coping strategy but its whats for dinner,3.0 52989,sultanasound hosgeldin ,0.0 52990,negative experiences with lexapro ever since ive been on lexapro i feel like my depression has significantly worsened i am constantly fantasizing about my death its literally all i can think about the thought of blowing my brains out genuinely makes me feel giddytime to change meds,3.0 52991,saturday sale shipping on all sale items today only ,0.0 52992,you aint going that fast tonight ,2.0 52993,hardik gimme the exact link yaar trying to find the link there nhi mil rha ,2.0 52994,thorpe park omfg on the train nao dom needs to be here ,2.0 52995,spudballoo i am working for a classification society tho i used to be with big bad shipowner previously ,0.0 52996,my mom just literally told me to man up stop pitying myself and get a girlfriend thanks mom im cured mom,3.0 52997,what is it like for normal people looking into the future hiim and ive had depressive symptoms since i was about im in my third year of university after resitting a year and ive basically decided that im going to drop out because i hate my course i know i dont want to go into that sector and its really fucking difficulthowever when i look forward theres nothing i want to do with my life the idea of working hours a week doing something that im indifferent to at best just seems like a waste of time i think this is mostly hitting me now because im probably going to be leaving studying permanently although i have worked full time jobs before so i understand what its like even now its as if nothing gives me joy so i dont even want to do anything recreational never mind finding a jobso i guess my question is how do you carry on knowing that its inevitable that youre just gonna have to labour for the rest of your life i find it hard enough just getting through one day without ending itthanks for reading,3.0 52998,woke up about an hour ago im really bored ,2.0 52999,thefootballfan the dream team is just awesome ,0.0 53000,my boat sunk in seconds ,2.0 53001,treenuh a myspace blog is definately appropriate for this occasion ,0.0 53002,krisiallen not quitebut im praying for a leniant grace period ,0.0 53003,drjhodgins sure it hasnt ,0.0 53004,rememberingca miss you too ,2.0 53005,iamjonathancook all these free shows are makin me wish i lived in cali ha,2.0 53006,haha i duno why we took glowsticks it wasnt even dark haha so much fun i love our photos with her i miss you guys ,2.0 53007,ktbeeper i dont know what quotmarin layorquot is ,2.0 53008,rt you know what makes me really sad and its something bts have talked about how fast everything is going for them theyre do,1.0 53009,its sunday and the sun is shining need to do some work today around other things it was a good day yesterday bank hol tomorrow too,2.0 53010, hang out with ur best friend later hahah jkk,0.0 53011,i cant do anything when im alone when theres people around me that im comfortable with i want to do everything at once drawing playing videogames watching tv cooking taking a bath going on a walk when im alone in my room i cant do any of those things and when i force myself i dont enjoy doing the things i love at all but theres no way i can have someone around all the time so what the hell am i supposed to do im bored but i cant do anything,3.0 53012,ascaron entertainment sacred files for bankruptcy protection ,2.0 53013,i wish my parents couldnt love me im a failure at i still havent finished university i feel i didnt undestand anything and that i dont have the skills or intelligence to make it in life i only cause my parents and family problems and make them spend money the worst thing is that my parents are the best parents in the world and they absolutely love me with all their hearts the always gave me everything it kills me to know i had everything to make myself an usefull human being a lot of money amazing loving supportive family good education good heath so many chances i feel i wasted all that and someone more deserving than me should have gotten those things someone who could make their family proud i just dont want to be here anymore i feel so defeated i wish my parents would show anger and dissapoinment in me but over and over they just shower me with love and support i dont deserve these i have nothing to gave back i only cause troublei have tried so hard for so long to change but i can only hope to cease to exist i dont deserve such blessings,3.0 53014,need a little help as a depressed teen hey yall im using a throw away because people know my real account which sucks im on mobile so also sorry for poor formatting im currently and live with my mom and my dad they dont abused me or treat me poorly but i just want to get away from them but not in a edgy teenager way i just want to be somewhere else i know this sounds like a fantasy but i just want an average family for once in my damn life my dad owns and runs a fence business while my mom works on a fucking youtube channel you fan tell who brings in the money its just that weve constantly got family problems with my brother or his wife or my nephew its just neverending problems after problemsnot to go into specifics but my friends at school are only my friends because i dont know who the hell else id hang out with outside of school besides just being alone and talking to people online i was leading a life similar to the one before all throughout most of elementary and the first two years of middle school i dont know if this plays into anger issues but im just always upset or angry and if made angry enough ill just snap and usually break something ive broken countless monitors and headsets because people just make me angry for fun especially my friends i wanted to study abroad for japan for a year which i know my family could afford but my parents dont want me to go even though i know i would definitely feel much better than i do now i know this because ive spent quite a long while by myself walking around town and it just feels a lot more liberating but they wont listen to me i dont know how else to change their mind either i just broke a monitor about less than minutes ago and i just feel empty and like a failure i want to be better yknow hurt i just feel like i cant ive been diagnosed with depression and high functioning autism recently and honestly it just feels weird knowing that the thing people constantly make fun of at school and around me is actually me doesnt help that i also have asthma and have been treated poorly by my peers for a very long time elementary my mom also smokes in the house and wont let me on antidepressants or any kind of steroids to help with my asthma she just thinks its allergies which it isnt i also constantly feel tired when i eat after i eat anything im tired but i dont know if thats related to depression or not sorry to people reading this if it seems like im oversharing i just prefer to be anonymous when i talk about stuff like this it just makes me feel better knowing that no one can judge me for stuff like this im going to go take a depression nap and ill be back to respond to replies if anyone replies,3.0 53015,memachelle understoodnp look forward to more from you have a terrific day ,0.0 53016,still has no idea how to use twitter if anyone knows tell me ,2.0 53017,killer headache ,2.0 53018,im view wwe extreme rules ,0.0 53019,i dont get why people dont read outside of school yall must live some sad lives damn,1.0 53020,engadgets got a zune hd hands on ,0.0 53021,anybody else have trouble opening up when people ask you whats wrong or what happened to their straighta student you cant just say that you dont like living you fantasize about your deathsuicide and the after life all dayeveryday life is meaningless were all slaves to the governmentthis body youre addicted to drugs and youre just apathetic to it all but at the same time youre staving for something more so instead you just say idk or im tired ,3.0 53022,back to the grind tried to get up early this morning but i was exhausted will get an early night tonight though school tomorrow ,2.0 53023,shebeegee were you talking about the friday sms if you were i didnt drink enough for me ,2.0 53024,ihavealottosay happy birthday i hope you have a wonderful day ,0.0 53025,i got excited today when my mom asked me why i hadnt showered in almost a week i know it might sound strange but my family really doesnt seem to notice how i feel i had to keep from smiling when she told me that she wanted me to take a shower i guess i was happy that she noticed my screwed up pride keeps me from opening up to my family so it was nice for her to notice it without me having to explain how crazy is that,3.0 53026,i dont deserve what i have first at all im not a native speaker so forgive me about my englishi cannot drive my mind away from the thoughts that i dont deserve my life im a male btw no gf but i have a good job with an amazing environment everyone here are very receptive seems like a real family i got a car and despite im still living with my mother and brothers im the one who pay the bills so my performance at my job is just getting worse as the time pass seems that im not good enough to work with them im always feeling useless i had two negative avaliations about my stability because of bad production im a public employee im always isolating myself at weekend people here meet each other in a happy hour drink beer have fun and im at my home sleeping cuz i dont feel confident enough to go out there and meet them i always enjoyed playing videogames and suddently im not having fun anymore some days ago after a bad day i just drove in highway at high speed crying a lot just wondering why the fuck im still alive and for three times i considered throwing the car in front of a truck on the opposite way just to end the shit out of this i just didnt do it because doing this some innocent person will be killed for no reason and for my little sister years old that calls me dad im always thinking about how it would be devastating to her if i would kill myself i love her so much and she loves me too but im going out of my mindwhy the fuck i have this bad feelings seems that theres nothing wrong with my life i am the piece of shit that dont deserve this fuck me,3.0 53027,had day off ill will have to attempt studying so i dont get behind,2.0 53028,vanessaahudgens i just want to say u are my fashion icon ,0.0 53029,should have done a shift today that would have been fun ,2.0 53030,im slowly losing my mind because of school ive been working on a school project for the last week that i shouldve started a few months ago and im slowly losing my mind i feel constantly exhausted to the point where i just crying because of the pain in my head because of it im also not taking my medication right now due to overdosing on it a few weeks ago due to feeling extremely suicidal and i can feel it i dont know what to do and im so scared because of iti hope i can atleast bear it till the deadline which is in almost weeks after that im going to ask my mom to if she can send me to a hospital for a few days so i could get rid of this pain and deal with my suicidal urges,3.0 53031,i really thought i was better my depression was behind me then everything came crashing down im spinning out of control this will be a long probably boring pointless rant im a year old woman girl whatever i have severe depression ive had it for years i really thought it was over a month and a half ago i was happy at least i was telling myself i was then the man i was in love with left me things had been bad for a while he was abusive i was convinced that the toll it was taking on my mental health was the problem i was getting too upset acting too irrationally not making enough of an effort to keep him happy etc ive now accepted that it wasnt my fault despite this ive never felt more sad and lonely and hurt i thought id feel free from his grasp but all i want is him to talk to me my depression was creeping back in towards the end of our relationship but now its unbearable id take back those days in a heartbeat i spent the first month hanging around train stations for hours on end looking for the courage or maybe the cowardice to jump i could never bring myself to do it thered be a child there or id think of my dog never knowing why i didnt come home or id just be too scared now all i do is lie in bed i flick between the same apps until i can justify going to sleep im missing work i dont have the strength to see my friends ive lost so much weight because im just not hungry i dont want to eat a lot of my clothes are too big for me now im on the road to becoming dangerously thin im abusing my prescription medication to keep myself sedated so the days go by faster im on effexorvenlafaxine im taking that as prescribed in the morning in the evening its strange i think it might help a little bit but it has destroyed my sleep leading me to abuse my seroquelquetiapine it makes me so sleepy i cant control myself but since starting effexor i now only get about solid hours sleep leading me to take more seroquel to get back to sleep sometimes ill wake up again ill take more im going through it faster than i should be and im scared that my doctor will notice and take it away from me sleep is the only escape i have ive also fallen quite hard into illegal drugs my ex introduced me to ecstasy it was like nothing id ever felt because i was happy at the time it made everything a hundred times more beautiful now that im using while im sad it just fucks me up but the buzz is better than feeling empty im rolling once a week at least the one thing he always told me was to test your drugs if you dont know where they came from he said it could kill you i found a dealer and am purposely not testing them i hope they do kill me ive been looking for other things to try to see if i can get that same feeling back i once had im becoming tolerant to molly its destroying my brain slowly i know it is i just dont care the nights that im not high im drinking the other night i visited my exs sister she talked to me and really listened she supported me wholeheartedly i felt so cared about we were drinking us and her neighbours i drank so much that i was happy and loud and fun we had a good time one of her neighbours smoked weed and invited me to join ive never been able to get high off weed i dont know if it was just the alcohol but i was gone exs sister let me crash at hers i lay on the sofa then got up to charge my phone i was so fucked up that i passed out as soon as i stood falling and crashing into the table i broke her vase ive never been more disgusted and humiliated with myself she had been so kind to me and i had broken one of her belongings that she loved im a mess im in online therapy but i hate it it isnt like talking to a real person i have to return to university in a month ill have to get a part time job to be able to afford my rent i dont want to face people i dont want to work i dont want to speak i dont want to move i dont want to be here i just want to die,3.0 53032,therealamina i am lost please help me find a good home ,2.0 53033,quotu can change ur hair and u can change ur clothes u can change ur mind thts just the way it goesquot ,0.0 53034,saffrontaylor dont worry the same in barcelona ,2.0 53035,i still miss roo soooo much i know some people think dogs are quotjust animalsquot but he really was my little buddy ,2.0 53036,gt mrinal is depressed ,2.0 53037,ciaobellaciao not really fun feel like my head is going to explode ,2.0 53038,locked out in ashton denton or hyde dont stress call me now and ill be with you in minutes ,1.0 53039,i hate this feeling anxiety sucks,2.0 53040,up at on a sunday morning and feeling miserable my allergies are getting the best of me ,2.0 53041,cjredwine thanks for the job list unfortunately teaching digital animation really isnt toms forte ,2.0 53042, is he really old or just a young dude in makeup hes so creepy ,2.0 53043,my grandmother blamed my smoking weed every day on the fact that i sleep so much when in reality i only do either of those things because being conscious and sober is fucking torturous just made me feel bad cause i know shell never really get whats going on with me she just thinks im some shitty kid with no ambition,3.0 53044,back from oceanside the evening was a suck fest except for my brothers match of course ,0.0 53045,definitely ready for some sleep today was a very long day i have to be up in less than hours to serve breakfast in bed ,2.0 53046,chuckchuck theyre so cute ,0.0 53047,i feel like my life is destined for suicide i just cant see myself getting old having a family having a stable job etc etc i just feel like im gonna end it all within the next years or od or somethingidk ,3.0 53048,im going crazy at work i want a new job ,2.0 53049,im planning watch xxy at at paramount tonight ,0.0 53050,cant find or config an iphone ssh client w true sco ansi emulation ,2.0 53051,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 53052,missing dad missing colorado missing family and friends ,2.0 53053, thank you but we couldnt have done it without you dont deny ,0.0 53054,i want to try and get better and need some advice uk i dont really know if this is a good place to post this but here goes firstly im not looking for sympathy or for someone to tell me its going to be okay i need to know if theres anything i can do to get better if things dont get better im going to kill myself i dont know when maybe in a week a month maybe a year or multiple years i already have a plan and the means to effectively and peacefully od id just have to write some letters and make a few last trips to see some friends if something bad happens or i get into a bad place i can see myself going through with this its already something i consider seriously everyday so i have a choice to make i can die or try maybe one day i could enjoy living and maybe even be okay with who i am but i always end up back being depressed and thinking about how worthless i am i tried getting better before but i was and more naive i tried mental health services in uk and from my experience they werent helpful i turnt up said i was struggling to feel good about myself or the world filled out questionaires and they essentially said great have some pills of course that didnt work because i have reasons to be unhappy drugs dont fix the problems they might just take the edge off and offer relief so i went for a check up got off the meds and they sent me to some groups that were mainly filled with a bunch of middle aged divorced people i wish they were as good at making people happy as they were with power points because to be honest it was just like googling self help questions now im years down the line and im just so sick of doing the same shit on a different day with nothing ever making me any happier and my problems have only gotten more complicatedthe kicker is that i have aspergers syndrome which means major parts of the human experience are damaged for me its not depression but its a cause for it i used to get bullied and picked on a lot for being different im high functioning now so i can get by and talk to people fairly well but im aware of the ways im different from other people i know i cant ever feel fully connected to people and i struggle with expressing love and its one of the worst feelings to feel like youre separate from others its like living with a wall around me i dont see a point to keep on living if i cant be my true self or connect with others it makes me feel embarrassed and like a freak ive managed to go years and found nothing that i enjoy doing and nothing im good at ive considered private therapy to help but i dont have money for it i dont want to kill myself but at the moment i cant see another way out im so sick of living in this body im so sick of my own head and this endless cycle i have no idea what options i have,3.0 53055,bummer the bell on my bike broke off ,2.0 53056,but maybe this will actually be the start of meaningful democracy in the middle east hopefully this isnt all forgotten by next week ,2.0 53057,is it normal to not cry when undoubtedly depressed sometimes i mean the feeling of numbness just preventing you from getting it out you know i hate when it keeps building up in me,3.0 53058,rt feelingfisky when i drink coffee to be more productive but it just spikes my anxiety instead ,0.0 53059,my mom left for church without me ,2.0 53060,can somebody help me i think i have been going through depression lately but i cannot tell for surei would like ti give you some context herei have always been an intovert guy but crazy asf once i get comfortable with people i never really had many friends though and that has somehow lead me to blindly trust the people i am comfortable withrecently i was betrayed by someone special someone i really trusted and since then it has really been difficult for me to just talk to anyone i have had trouble sleeping i am struggling to speak to people even to people i have been really comfortable with i have had difficulty to concentrate on reading more than few lines i cannot listen to a video of more than mins without getting diatracted i am not able to work efficiently i have no energy to wake up sometimes i am walking slowly than i used to and when on somedays i feel good and decide to do a task i just couldnt bring myself to iti have failed in my exams that i never had till todayand the biggest issue i have never doubted myself but now i have started doubting myself to an extemt where i have no self confidence whatsoever so do you think that i have been going through depression or am i overthinking the situation,3.0 53061,atlantajj lots of rampant speculation but takes weeks to do toxicology tests csi has spoiled people for instant results ,2.0 53062,britl was anyone hurt i hope not ,2.0 53063,sambolinaa yes dont be sad your baby is your happiness 💙💙 keep your head up beautiful ❤️,0.0 53064,rt theashleon ive been so consistently happy keeping up with therapy spiritually grounded but some days depression rears its ugly head,1.0 53065,alleysplace thank you im played it for a bit and love it ,0.0 53066,thebleachworks cool dude awesome thanks hope i didnt make u feel hostile lol just asked ,0.0 53067,sudden crippling depression and anxiety year old male here one night about a week ago i noticed i felt off like an empty subtle depression kind of feeling ever since then ive gradually felt worse i tried exercising at my gym thinking it would make me feel better but i ended up feeling worse i feel so bad tonight i have no appetite to eat and ive cried twice today which is weird because i very rarely cryi feel absolute despair terror hopelessness and am getting no enjoyment doing things i like and just absolutely far removed from the person i usually am to the point that i feel like ill never get back to normal again which terrifies me i almost feel like im in a bad nightmare im not sure what is causing these feelings me getting into my first serious relationship with a girl last month which has been a significant life event for me or just a random chemical imbalanceim so terrified for myself right now not sure what the best course of action is for me thank you so much for reading,3.0 53068,misswaynefasho your so gay n im so fat ,2.0 53069,ever been okay if your plane crashed i remember the feeling i had recently being okay if the plane i was on crashed not that i want the plane to crash cos of all the death but accepting that if the plane crash ill be fine anyone else,3.0 53070,the sun went byebye i still have my fairy tale ampampi really dont wanna do it,2.0 53071,andrewseely hi ,0.0 53072,stinkybusiness uggh sorry i suddenly dont wanna go anymore have fun at the concert ,0.0 53073,decided to quotjoinquot to be a better communicator well no where as public as you magoo,0.0 53074,what could you do with a poe bust make me smile ,0.0 53075,leighalexander whatve you got against poor crecente ,2.0 53076,thinking my birthday is going to suck again this year so much for my champagne bday ,2.0 53077, lol yeah dont rub it in i only got ,2.0 53078,feeling quite nice ,0.0 53079,rt baldboyblues is isolating myself from everyone bad for my mental health yes will i continue doing that absolutely,0.0 53080, lol me too going out at isnt as easy as it used to be ,0.0 53081,sovi at in the morning ,0.0 53082,yes i dont have to go to school for a whole week gotta love the swine flu ,0.0 53083,fuck depression another life extinguished tonight if youre feeling suicidal its okay to seek help its not a sign of weakness,1.0 53084, that was a fast freakin response i dont have your numeber im sorry ,2.0 53085,coming somewhat out the other side ive been depressed since i was about years old now ive been through the usual rising and falling of hopelessness not knowing why i continue to try not knowing why life is worth living thinking about how i should kill myself daily etc ive experienced highs and lows through out these fourteen years or so but ive never gone more than a week without considering how i should end my life though sometimes its more disassociated than others ie why should i kill myself vs whats the best way a person can kill themselves anyway i thought it would be good to share something positive to this sub and maybe show some other people that life can get better regardless of how long you have to waiti still think about killing myself fairly often but life is finally starting to get better im in a relationship with a wonderful girl she has her share of issues but i love her none the less and for the first time in seven years i have a job lined up that isnt a complete dead end ive tried to finish my college degree three separate times and never could because i couldnt see the value in it vs the debt i would accrue but the job im getting is at a college that offers free tuition if i stay for a full year and continue to stay until i complete my degree the job also pays almost double every other job ive ever worked and has great benefits because its unionized my girlfriend is very supportive granted she needs a lot of my support too but it helps me not obsess over my own depression as much anyway when we first starting dating i misguidedly thought it might cure my depression altogether since i was so lonely hadnt dated seriously if at all for over three years but i quickly realized it wasnt an end all be all cure to my problems though it greatly helped besides it would be unfair to put that type of pressure on the relationship anyway having the expectation of fixing all my issues on her that is but overall this is the first time in my life that i feel like its worth toughing out the next five years to see what might happen versus making legitimate plans to kill myself once my future plans are finished originally i was going to kill myself about a year ago but my best friend asked me to be his best man when he got married and i didnt feel it was reasonable to put him and his wife through that then i was going to again but my dad had major surgery and i wanted to be there for him since he was there for me so many times then i started dating my current gf and didnt want to hurt her either i know im fortunate that i have so many wonderful people in my life that i feel its worth sticking around for them even if not for myself and thats something not a lot of other people on this sub feel like they have but i still feel all of your pain i still want to end it all more often than not just to escape the pain of existing but i promise it gets better maybe not enough for everyone but enough for some and if youre reading this maybe itll get better enough for you too life isnt great its not a special experience especially if you believe like i do that we have to do it all over again when we die but that doesnt mean it wont get better good luck everyone and if youre reading this i know life is hard but please know and remember that im proud of you for making it this far,3.0 53086,unhallowed by dissection o dia est� quase a acabar ,0.0 53087,any advice to stop selfharming i started cutting my wrist about a month ago and i dont know why its makes me fell alive when im completely numb by my depression but whenever i see the look of hurt and preoccupation in my mother face when she see the scars and cuts i feel very bad and i dont want to worry her shes already ill so i dont want to stress her more i tried to cover the cuts but she noticed it very fast,3.0 53088,its was so uncomfortable sleeping last night my back and legs are so sore ,2.0 53089,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 53090,getting ready for a meal with my big brother but by going and am going to miss bb on oh well x,2.0 53091,dun wanna go to the liturgy ,2.0 53092,teamtobias bloody hell he is tall ,0.0 53093,rachelpattinson take that omg my mam is making me wear a hat because of my sunburn im going to look like a prick x,0.0 53094,rt uranassface i cant believe there are people out there that just have good mental health and are not depressed all the time like wow w,0.0 53095,rt rachelkellynet its time to recognize mental health as essential to physical health httpstcobwviuyugak mentalhealth,0.0 53096,exoticsabrina dont think so my pack is a bit rounded ,2.0 53097,you ever wish you could get cancer you see other peoples dying of cancer left and right peoples that have everything a life a family children etc and they die of cancer in their me i have nothing im a loser i hate myself im overweight and yet i never get nothing but a common cold im too chicken to do it myself so it seems catching cancer would really be a good thing for me,3.0 53098,gettin reeady to go to stlouis cuz my cousins in the hospital again ,2.0 53099,rt fireballbeto yall dont know anxiety until youre trapped at the bottom of this ,2.0 53100,thumbs up new mario for nintendo wii on its way ,0.0 53101,target and home still no intarwebz quotin summary she did jump off a cliffquot if u can tell me what whats from u get a prize,2.0 53102,is it sad all the nurses know me by name amp face at the hospital cause i think so,1.0 53103,i am getting excited to go to california next week ,0.0 53104,just rode the bike into saline for some drowsy parrot yum ,0.0 53105,amazingly enough nobody snarfed my callsign in the facebook vanity grab i am now ,0.0 53106,anyone want to quotclarify with examples the difference in implementation of two aspects of cssquot go onnn,0.0 53107,mileycyrus tu vestido es genial your dress is cute pink or cream the color is cute,0.0 53108,finally after two days of getting hrs of sleep i got yay me pray it up,0.0 53109,i have everything you could want but im not happy i have friends engaging hobbies im social with most people i meet exercise and have a good physique all that shit ive done everything youre supposed to do to be happy but im still depressed as shit ,3.0 53110,rt punkspepsi roman reigns my depressionseth rollins my anxietykevin owens me ,2.0 53111,is missing bgirl already wont see her until we get back home in a week or so,2.0 53112,uurghmedia examat least i can sunbathe afterwards ,0.0 53113, is it crazy to say that i miss these pups ,2.0 53114,hand spinner tri fidget adhd anxiety austim stress reducer desk toy edc metal via ebay ,1.0 53115,brandondaballa i love that commercial hey lebron kobe mad funny,0.0 53116,ddlovato awwww fun its like winter in the middle of summer sorta lol ,0.0 53117,garyvee congrats with the new born take the day off to relax youve been hustling without any days off ,0.0 53118,miserable im miserable i wish i could go back a few years when i had good friends and did a lot of drugs had a lot of fun and blocked out the depression because i was so fucked up all the time now i have nothing to do but ruminate i have no skills i dont know what i want to do realistically i need skills for a career got to work why not do something i enjoy right but what the fuck do i enjoy your guess is as good as mine my dog my sweet bear is dead my motivation and ambition is dead i think i would rather be dead its been a dull ride of misery loneliness boredom dissatisfaction and anger these past long years and it doesnt seem like its going to stop any time ever every time i think some progress has or will be made i lose motivation welcome back to square one for the thousandth fucking time i cant stand this i have a good mind and a good temperament i think of other people i try fucking hard and all i have is this im just so empty angry that im empty sad that im angry that im empty disappointed in myself is it even worth trying and wasting years learning some desirable skills why should i learn fucking anything so i can be employable i couldnt care less if an employer wants me but food and shelter costs money all i want is a mattress a dog some food and a computer my own mind is my own worst enemy it seems so indecisive miserable,3.0 53119,rt depression is not funnyanxiety is not funnyschizophrenia is not funnyselfharm is not funnyanorexia is not fun,0.0 53120,royalflyness mins till your b day ,0.0 53121,rt necation okay i think im good nowmy depressionhttpstcofssbgcwvmn,0.0 53122,httpbitlykqhdt first entry is from ,0.0 53123,lizkatzofficial kellyjeaaann bigbossboze liz i know you struggle with anxiety disorder correct if im wrong ,1.0 53124,jasoncastro jacks doing a photo shoot wow where have i been oh yah new grandson haha thatll do it every time ,0.0 53125,ddlovato can you guys pleaaaaaaaase make a youtube video please please please ,2.0 53126,rt agree mitch your wife has more balls than you so sad tired of you amp lyng ryan being rinos amp trump obstructionist you,2.0 53127,zoella why do you think there is stigma around mental health in teenagers and in general,2.0 53128,just lost our house im planning on killing myself any sugestions im taking my final suggestions before ending it all so comment,3.0 53129,up gotta sing in a couple hours lord i am tired might not be making that beach run today i got a lot of work to do ,2.0 53130,looks like its all shit at the cinema thinkill just go back to bed ,2.0 53131,danrodriguez i want him but i cant ,2.0 53132,my girfriend broke up with me in one of the hardest times of my life its not her fault but it still hurtsi know its cliché but every time i think of her it hurts so much and everything reminds me of her im in a terrible relationship with my parents my father told me he wouldnt mind if i committed suicide my mental problems took my mother to kick me out of the house i know its my fault and that makes me feel even worse she did it by phone and it was fucking horrible,3.0 53133,how am i gonna make it in this world voice of an angel but no one to listen so sad aint it but im akeep tryin,2.0 53134,just may have killed his linux partition tt stupid faulty electrical outlet my rootdisk is corrupted ,2.0 53135,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 53136,i feel like all i can do is fuck my life up i dont know if this is the right place or if itd be better on rlonely i just feel like i always screw up everything in my life i dropped out of high school for two years which kinda set up a bunch more opportunities for me to fuck up i lost every friendship or relationship id had up until that point and have done the same ever since then i thought id put all that behind me and id started actually talking to people again but now i think i just fucked up with a girl i like and i dont have anyone to talk to because i dont really have any other friends i have a lot of acquaintances but not friends and now im scared that this is going to send me spiraling and ill go back to sitting at home doing nothing every day trying not to cry,3.0 53137,i dont feel so good that ice cream was too much ,2.0 53138,sleepycatt just the one ball though you can knit with two or more different colours which would give you more than ball obviously ,0.0 53139,had a nice moment with cat i was watching tv over dinnerdessert with my mom and this antidepressant commercial came on stuff like i stopped just saying oh im fine and was honest with my doctor my mom said why would you tell your doctor youre fine thats the person that needs to know i was shaking i felt so angry that she couldnt see how someone could be affected to the extent that they would withhold their feelings even from their doctor but i didnt say anything i couldnt say anything later after wed finished eating she picked up our cat we stood there and pet him for a moment he was purring seemed happy it was nice,3.0 53140,just waking up about to go on craigslist ,0.0 53141,anyone get told they just need to find that one thing its the most common thing i get told and by far the most frustrating anyone have any good responses to it either besides the obvious ive tried,3.0 53142,awake and up and getting ready for work kinda still very tired though i still have to to be rid of more boxes yay,2.0 53143,मोदीराज में किसानों की आत्महत्या का सिलसिला जारी up में आर्थिक तंगी से परेशान किसान ने की ख़ुदक ,1.0 53144,brisbane ford falcon ef new ad received and will be posted on the hcc site soon ,0.0 53145,littlemeaggs love you too meggers so great seeing youalways ,0.0 53146,thursdayfizz hey im really sorry i cant its dis birthday present tonight totally gutted ,2.0 53147,still in the studiotears ,2.0 53148,ryomaechizen im sure the knife will melt before her and theni dont wanna say it ,2.0 53149,feeling like crap yyyyyyyyyyy lol besides than dat love my baby n my boo xx,2.0 53150,storyteller didnt have any sad songs and im ready for carrieunderwood to make me cry cry pretty album is already that bitch,2.0 53151,i wonder how it will taste ,0.0 53152,had nachos again tonight ,0.0 53153,selenagomez i love that song ,0.0 53154, big mac sounds great i hate tht i crave mcdonalds ,2.0 53155,brodasaur living under a rock brody lots of ppl wath this ,0.0 53156,i said its ok roach youll get some someday ,0.0 53157,charkinkiezz damn mama good recall i was thinking about our matching collars the other day and mine that got lost ,2.0 53158,god im so bored im on my wetpaint right now uploading more pages lol ,0.0 53159,i slept all day i have a wonderful husband beautiful toddler loving dog and sweet kitty cat but i want to escape it all and sleep my days away i get so stressed out and have a lot of anxiety and i just want to stop thinkingi wasted my valuable time spending time with my family by sleeping all day yesterday and today my husband works opposite shifts than me and i never see him and i wasted my weekend by using him to take care of everything while i escapedi am on medication and keep getting dosed higher but it is a daily struggle i wanted to write about this for myself and for others i know im not alone and i know you arent alone but it doesnt make life easier ,3.0 53160,i cant stop thinking of him hes def my type of guy,2.0 53161,my gay friend a decis ca nu mai mergem la placebo acesta este un anunt oficial ,2.0 53162,battlefied heroes server has been down instead of going outside or doing something productive ive reinstalled xp,2.0 53163,watin friends i miss that show i hope they make a movie of it,2.0 53164,abby leaves for camp today for days i hope i survive it she will have a blasti am already miserable,2.0 53165,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 53166,photo nerovuitton great band when i first heard them i couldnt tell if it was a girl or a guy singing ,0.0 53167,im at the point where i dont even want to sleep to dream about my old friends i swear i dream about them every night if not every other night and their faces haunt me i dread seeing them because they remind me of the mistakes i made and how things came to be i feel guilty for not being there for them and now one doesnt even talk to me anymore even though i explained to him what i was going through and the other i feel like i messed up the whole friendship ive known these guys for years and all weve ever done is stuck together and gone on adventures since we were young and be little rascals we were inseparable we were the big three like like iron man thor and captain americauntil middle school then we got separated and we became distant and made new friends but it was also the time when i was in my first relationship and i got my heart broken and that made me even more separated from them now im in high school with barely any friends and its been about years since ive seen them in person and i am afraid to face them again ive seen so many signs to let go and move on but i just cant i hate how my life is it feels like im living in an apocalypse and everyone i knew in the past is gone everyone grew up but i stayed behind for my two best friends if they ever came backbut they didnt i miss you m amp c,3.0 53168,shadfresh that video never happend ,2.0 53169,anyone know any good taylor lautner fan sites ,0.0 53170,getting my things ready to go back home ,2.0 53171, good ur getting better school was good i was focusing more on my ipod today than school though really lmao,2.0 53172,snap forgot it was maintenance day blerg,2.0 53173,gt gt teas gt coffee enjoy,0.0 53174,mystafied yeah im also going to read them because everyone talks about it im curious if they really are as good as people say ,0.0 53175,goaudio dudessss when you coming to leicester you have loadsa fans here but no one good comes here ,2.0 53176,im not an only child anymore getting the slut from the airport ,0.0 53177,rt i have no time for twitter anymore and that makes me sooo sad ,2.0 53178,hey tweeps i need good new ringtones text and call gimme suggestions please ,0.0 53179,maximilus good afternoon of subject of mine ,0.0 53180,jejune wha who are you talking to ,2.0 53181,ive lost so many readersits shocking ,2.0 53182,kiraplatinum cool is it for a show,0.0 53183,beautiful day in fife just about to have brunch have a plan of attack for the exams a cup of good tea at hand life does not suck ,0.0 53184, bread and butter does always hit the spot ,0.0 53185,last nights desperate housewives was so good i cried at what gaby said to her daughter at the end ,2.0 53186,does it really get better i am already a year in antidepressants after so much effort to get the proper dose i am taking antipsychotics to reduce outburst of anger however i am still feeling everyday miserable every single morning at waking upi use to walk everyday at least two times around an hour i am eating in a schedule with enough protein and fruit i try to keep the house clean everyday when does it start feeling better,3.0 53187, awwww i was looking for something new to buy ,2.0 53188,what the fuck fucking insomnia i havent gotten a good nights sleep in days,2.0 53189,abenton still waiting for the ad network so i can join,0.0 53190,nakxyla no it wasnt bad i just have really bad anxiety 😂,1.0 53191,afraid to falling into depression again ive been diagnosed with clinical depression in two different times in my life ive been felling ok in the last few years but today i broke up with my boyfriend that i still love it was a decision based on incompatibilities about our needs i believe it was the right decision but now i feel so sad i cant stop crying i dont want to wake up tomorrow and remember that this happened how do i deal with the lost of this person that was so important in my life i feel like i lost a part of me im scared dont know if im strong enough what if i drown in this,3.0 53192,really doesnt want to go to work only a week to go until closing ,2.0 53193,in chester this morning doing an install its all multiroom audio i love it imissing out on all the fun in brum thou ,2.0 53194,kooichin well for the pleasure of it and because i am cheap ,0.0 53195,imanwilliams ok i dont get off till tomorrow ,2.0 53196,two down one to go but the last one has said no will be going round with dog tomorrow to persuade otherwise,2.0 53197,rt nvyoome me forcing my friends to listen to sad indie music when theyre in the car with me ,1.0 53198,gabsoriano i cried dont let me listen to songs like that again its the most wonderful piece but the most heartbreaking too,2.0 53199,rt samiotobin dwp to pay two severely disabled men unlawfully discriminated against when moved onto universalcredit total of £ for,2.0 53200,do i have depression i feel lonely i cant be myself around my parents they expect a lot out of me and judge the fuck out of me dont really feel like my life is going anywhere i study but i dont feel like doing anything a lot not even simply listening to music is this depression or just some sort of mild negative feeling,3.0 53201,is in work on a sunday looooooovely ,2.0 53202,rt feelingfisky when i drink coffee to be more productive but it just spikes my anxiety instead ,0.0 53203,my cuppa tea got reduced to a third amidst my work ,2.0 53204,a new iphone case yay this time i was certain it wasnt for an itouchapparently theres a difference ,2.0 53205,claireyjonesy he likes mcfly waaaay kerry wants me to go meet him next monday id be too scared to say anything lmao,2.0 53206, texas tang doritoescame out the same time as cool ranchbut didnt last i loved them,2.0 53207,rt vinterine wtf is this me when i blast sad music in my earphones and cry while i wash the dishes and clean the house ,2.0 53208, awesome too mad i missed it lux is my best buddy d,2.0 53209,relisted this recycled twin peaks pendant david duchovny in drag ,0.0 53210,has a tummy ache i hope to flip its not food poisoning from the bbq earlier ,2.0 53211,rooshoos this is why i have anxiety attacks stress regularly and have urges to harm myself in creative ways painfully resisting 😥,2.0 53212,we shouldnt always mock so harshly all nice guys first of all i want to say that explaining peoples action does not mean that i justifyexcuse them the way nice guys talk to women is clearly wrong and unacceptablehaving been for a while on reddit ive always seen these nice guy posts and blindly agreed with the poster the guy was an asshole the victim was fully in her rights to not answer someone or to turn them down i always agreed and laughed it off with others because i never felt what the nice guy feltive always been a pretty lonely person and ive suffered more and more from this loneliness lately several days ago i met a girl and her group of friends we watched a movie discussed smoked some cigarettes all together everything seemed to go very nice i appreciated this girl particularly and we discussed via text a bit the day after via text we shared a lot in common but then everything very suddenly stopped she ghosted me my loneliness just kicked in more than ever i felt angry looked at a mirror and wondered what was wrong with me why i couldnt create links with others even when i finally had the guts to try why she would ignore me instead of explaining me the situation what she feltunlike nice guys here i didnt send her insulting messages i just let it go but i realized how if i was in a worst condition than i am i could have maybe done it or maybe be this annoying guy that keeps texting you again and againwe shouldnt mock nice guys because i realized this day how anyone in their shoes would have done the same as they do we should definitely not accept this comportment but i thought about what some guys wrote to some women i felt hurt by myself and hurt by realizing what others here could have said if they knew about it i think that i need help more than i need mockerymaybe this is all a non sense maybe no one will care but i had this sudden need to talk about it maybe it could open a debate on the best way to deal with socialization particularly the way it is evolving due to modern society and technology ps pardon my not so great english im not sure it fits here i wanted to post on unpopular opinion but i couldnt as this is a throw away anyway i felt down so i thought this was a neat second choice,3.0 53213,chrisagriffin yeps aso influence only thing is giro mts are better training for tdf than the cali mts sorry cali girls ,0.0 53214,pregnantbirds i just had a layover in charlotte in greenville now,0.0 53215,i keep seeing red mustangs everywhere ,2.0 53216,can somebody listen to me hey im ben superficially i have everything you could wish for a beautiful girlfriend many friends and i recently finished school with a good grading preparing to go to uni next year i got lots of free time to spare and go out with my friends all the timei drink smoke pot from time to time and am a healthy person i have no real problems that come to mind at first glancebut for some reason i feel lonely and unhappy with my friends and girlfriend around there is a void inside of me that i cannot get rid of i have tried professional help but that turned out to be a waste of timei set expectations way too high for myself and need to stop overinterpretingi feel unhappy with my gf but do not want to put her under pressure by telling her that i feel depressedi just feel like i cannot take it anymore and am afraid of myself i cry myself to sleep every day and am extremely emotionally unstable when aloneif there is anybody who would be willing to voicechat with me and listen to me it would be a real help,3.0 53217,todays my anniversary and im all alone thats basically it we were supposed to go out if town but he chosen work over me again ive dealt with depression and anxiety my whole life but today its hitting me hard and i needed somewhere to venti hate constantly feeling alone,3.0 53218,jaiash that would fucking suck for me yo i only drink water and hate carbonated drinks please do not even joke in this manner ,2.0 53219,in a meeting ,2.0 53220,on my third cup of new orleans blend community coffee man i miss my home anyway day weekend this week amp new next week for pioneer day,2.0 53221,im so fucking sad ilysm tae take as long as u need to recover ,1.0 53222,talaivar yeah dude spideys notes are awesome ,0.0 53223, some guys still actually bring u flowers on a date how sweet is this ,0.0 53224,hmmm title is a bit deceiving im a heavy social media user sometimes its harmed now it tends to help i d ,1.0 53225,hi my name is lola amp im a chubby chaser ,0.0 53226,i want to take it downbut im not tired ,2.0 53227,is being stalked by a strange being named holee bee weirdo also jacks a dick head if you read this punch me at school,0.0 53228,ready to work at home ,0.0 53229,its a good day for following today ,0.0 53230,calebfinley haha thank goodness it will end i know i miss you too sorry i couldnt make it friday but we need to hangout soon ,0.0 53231,lindseythefirst ooh sorry lindsey takes foot out of my mouth xx,2.0 53232,on page of of betrayed by pc cast really starting to enjoy this series ,0.0 53233,iran jackieripper is this neda on facebook ,2.0 53234,rt spicaterribie otabeks th scary lookin guy who walks by amp u overhear him sayin hes got that anxiety disorder bro so i went with him so,2.0 53235,wk is crazy ready go party at mayras wedding hooray mayra and aaron ,0.0 53236,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 53237,rt tonyposnanski sad how we went from mexico is paying for the wall to imma shut this mother fucker down if you dont make americans p,2.0 53238,he leave his house at or at in here huuh hes more far away from me ,2.0 53239,sniffle sniffle cough cough ,2.0 53240, nah thanks just had enough sugar for tonight p damn talaga si manong and now my excitement is gone ,2.0 53241,im honestly too sad to sleep i dont know what to do anymore,1.0 53242,ugghi am beyond annoyed ,2.0 53243,erinbethxo this makes me miss you ,2.0 53244,aniszlee yah haha thanks oh u forgot the like what im doing to you haha ,0.0 53245,going shopping today and not for a sailor outfit thank god guitar hero metallica here i come ,0.0 53246,beccahug yeah you gotta twitpic ,0.0 53247,wishes her classes started at like everyday ,2.0 53248,anyone hear to talk to hi i just really want someone to talk to about some issues ive been having for awhile thansk in advance if anyone dms me,3.0 53249,soxjetsfan yes thats been verified by people who would know ie kylepetty and rutledgewood ,0.0 53250,kungpowalexson hey alex im on my phone too ,0.0 53251,jonathanrknight are you still sleeping going to donnies after party tonight i want to but by the time i get there it will be all over ,2.0 53252,loving pinks heartbreaker song ,0.0 53253,ahhh i havent played guitar for more than i minute in forever finally ,0.0 53254,cubswhite soxs game rained outof all nights for ellen to be there its postponed to tomorrow nightwhen shes busy ,2.0 53255,another spiral here we go again i was doing good for a month or two working out eating right doing shit learning stuff and now its just all falling apart again i cant keep consistent habits everything seems dull again games food colors people all just dull and gray and the person i want to talk to the most doesnt want to talk to me so there is that i just keep waking up each day wondering when this will just all end or am i supposed to go years just being miserable,3.0 53256, off all applesac cases today only tell your friends this time via mygearstore,0.0 53257,kittencougar had lots of fun i needed kitten time ,0.0 53258,such a gorgeous and strong women ,0.0 53259,rochesterfcg im in miami wishing i was going to the stylus awards ,2.0 53260,cnn soare they going to have a muslim ken with wife beating action and a suicide bomb vest accessory,2.0 53261,sydneyrenee i miss you love muffin ,2.0 53262, children members of staff playing field huge headache ,2.0 53263,how i was hyper at in the morning idk but not n e more ,2.0 53264,christian lacroix has filed for bankruptcy ,2.0 53265,ugh euro civ exam studio later though ,0.0 53266,zenitramacinom i dont know how to explain itwikipedia it cuz i was mowing the feild on the badass lawnmower i got my cherokeet card ,0.0 53267,is the joker movie triggering i really wan to watch it but i dont wanna be triggered this could also help someone else avoid it if it is,3.0 53268,huneychild well isnt it that time of year again ,2.0 53269,landersie fantastic will keep you informed first two courses on here look pretty good ,0.0 53270,can we fast forward two weeks please extremely bummed,2.0 53271,my bestfriend thinks i dont love her nomore ,2.0 53272,stephenfry i face that this time next week hope it goes well ,0.0 53273,our other special today amitycafe is a grilled ribeye steak sandwich amp golden crisp french fries for only great deal ,0.0 53274,the less words the better be clear direct dispensableness causes anxiety in my opinion,1.0 53275,macbook air will only boot in safe mode after update last night looks like a day of comp fixing ahead ,2.0 53276,kimkardashian which one would you wear i need help,2.0 53277,its been nice walking since ,0.0 53278,hungry and there is no food is this casa good thing the rents come home today squarespace,2.0 53279,banananne me too at least we have on more episode,2.0 53280, achy breaky heart dance ,0.0 53281,just got squeaker from the vet we have the hardest decision of our lives to make by wednesday im very sad tonite ,2.0 53282, pradx in contrast we have this ,2.0 53283,realprincesseli when are you planning on doing a runner then,2.0 53284,i wanna bring a baby into this world i cant let nobody stress me so if letting go of people n stepping back is w ,1.0 53285,chrisnickinson you should wait for the new iphone ,0.0 53286,ilivetolove i knowi really hope the kids do okay ,2.0 53287,the heat is killing me im so sweaty and hot want to take a shower but got a fear of fainting again ,2.0 53288,its and im wide awake ,2.0 53289,iampsychic awh ill be there ,0.0 53290,glenzgolfvi lol really i always thought i too much have a good night,0.0 53291,i feel kinda bad cus sean and i were supposed to leave early i think he had stuff to do today ,2.0 53292,rt crankgameplays today was just not a good day ive just been very sad and just not in a good head space all day long i cant really p,0.0 53293,niallok its sunny here too for the first time in weeks itll never last though ,2.0 53294,i hurt my finger its painful ,2.0 53295,we are the mods we are the mods we are we are we are the mods quadrophenia was ace,0.0 53296,rt adrianxpression bitch move you didnt bat an eyelid at your husbands racist bigotry or his confession of being a sexual predator htt,2.0 53297,constantly fearing death hey guys i am and for some reason i cant quite grasp i keep fearing dying i just dont want to leave this world behind i cant accept anyone i love dying additionally as a result i have been feeling quite down for most of the past week and i keep questioning why anything happens i cant enjoy anything and even my usually high grades have slipped dramatically,3.0 53298, your tweet was just included in the longest poem in the world ,0.0 53299,ithildyn its been since april and i go back on so yup ,0.0 53300,aaa migraine poo k time to go to school i slept in buaaa hate tuesdays ,2.0 53301,whimsigals whatever its calld im not enjoyin it much sore shouldrs r the bane of my life much time desk amp workbench both bad it,2.0 53302,clarktea lol thats fine give msu computers all the viruses miss you doll ,0.0 53303,the icecream truck passed by i missed it ,2.0 53304,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 53305,angelzerkaa im so so so sad all the dogs were taken away and got medical treatment but none of them have homes ,1.0 53306,i miss my boyfriend im having a really rough time this month my daughter spent days in the hospitalmy dog had to put down my mom has lung cancer and they found out its way worse then they first thought she and my boyfriend is my only support system my boyfriend wants to see me i keep having anxiety everytime i think of leaving the house i dont know what i can do to relax ,3.0 53307, wonder if she still has feeling for me like i do her ,2.0 53308,was not very social this weekend due to toothache going to visit the dentist tomorrow ,2.0 53309,failure someone bought my drop dead tshirt ,2.0 53310,figured out life is essentially meaningless was driving and saw the moon—realized we live on a fucking rock amp were all going to die,3.0 53311,oh crap i might be singing for a band pretty soon mah doing a cover of a song hopefully it will all work out just need guitarists ,2.0 53312,rt hannahssyy as a psych major im frustrated at the stigma against wanting attention all humans need attention in fact its the lack,2.0 53313,painting fingers and toestoes separator thingsoreee ,2.0 53314, sorry ,2.0 53315,boring day ,2.0 53316,theyre dead to me peterduttonmp yes they are dead refugees and children as young as trying to suic ,2.0 53317,coatesmorgan you made me offically sad,2.0 53318,tristantaormino sinnamonlove madisonyoung you all tweeted about cupcakes almost simultaneously ,0.0 53319,mileycyrus really i dont know but its the worse in the world ,2.0 53320,seesmic loic personal dislike how cumbersome adding peeps userlists needs to autocomplete or checkbox users from my followers,2.0 53321,i have new music ,0.0 53322,why didnt i turn on the ac this am my apt current temp is set to drag me to hell hot ,2.0 53323,just noticed that im losing friends ,2.0 53324,hola tweets feeling good today song of the day special kind of fool by basic black httpbitlyktbi,0.0 53325,does anyone know if you can buy a charger for a jobo giga one just cnat find it at all ,2.0 53326,had a lovely bbq with sparky gem amp eve ,0.0 53327,filmester rip little fish ,2.0 53328,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 53329,always fucking up i feel like i always fuck up my friendships with the only person i speak to or with my family then im alone for the next year and it continues happening and i just dont know how to not fuck up everything,3.0 53330,oh and the song that i never want to hear again pomp and circumstance is stuck in my head lol,2.0 53331,rt knudsenjac this cured my depression ,2.0 53332,ugh not looking forward to moving this week will be great to be in a house with my girlfriend without a roommate though ,2.0 53333,imdaparty they closed ,2.0 53334,swish had doubles tonight im feelin a comeback swish,0.0 53335,i swear i was drugged i think someone slipped something in my drink i wasnt drunk but last night is blurry my head is throbbing ,2.0 53336,rt athazgor have you ever been so sad that it physically hurts inside,2.0 53337,on gsm and omg i just lost a follower what did i do,2.0 53338,tj maxx has no cute bathing suits tat so not cool,2.0 53339, year ago i wanted to kill myself half a year ago i loved living for the first time in my life and now im afraid im already going back there again so many things happened i never even considered that that phase could come back i thought i overcame it by actually improving my life but no back here we are i havent had suicidal thoughts for months and i dont want them to come back at least not to that extend,3.0 53340,maisabelhiggins ill answer your question for her yeeesssss im going hoooommmeee weeeeee hahahahaha,0.0 53341,i feel like my world is falling apart lately it seems like nothing is the same anymore food doesnt taste the same things that brought me joy lately just make me feel like time is slowly ebbing i think i am getting bad again i have been on antidepressants since i was about at i am on a high dosage ssri that used to be effective and longer serves any purpose other than keeping withdraws away that come from not taking them i can feel myself slowly withdrawing from my own world close friends and family i dont reach out to i am easily startled and upset i cant tell whether this is a really bad manic episode some weird isolation or my head is getting bad again luckily i will be speaking with a oneonone therapist soon i lack positive coping skills and an ability to relate all of this to the people in my life if inpatient is recommended again it will crush me but i know it can only get worse if i dont take this seriously,3.0 53342,no one listens to my cry for help im hurting so much and no one notices help me please,3.0 53343,any tips for trauma i suppose this is sort of a broad questionbut i guess im trying to understand my trauma by reaching out to other people in hope they could tell me how they manage it ive seen some pretty messed up stuff why does it just pop up out of no where its like every time i feel happiness im reminded of what makes menot happy how do you not let your day be ruined by a single flicker of the past whats even worse is that im afraid of becoming what im afraid of it stops me from engaging in relationships any thoughts anyone,3.0 53344,i think staying at home is unhealthy down with fever and flu save me from hell someone ,2.0 53345,rt muthuimkenya it is a sad day in kenya whistleblowers hit hard after cnyakundih twitter account is suspended on unclear grounds,2.0 53346,davidhiggerson did you hear the mighty efc are heading to the ricoh to play cov and im in bali when it happens ,2.0 53347,happy saturday you guys ,0.0 53348,twitter twit twit oo waddup people,0.0 53349,depression hello in need of some advise i have a year old greyhound who i have had for year and i am thinking of giving him up the reason for this is because of my lack of motivation due to my anxiety and depression i never walk him because i cant seem to make myself go out the house i stay at home all day and it seems the only time i ever clean my house is when i have something to look forward which is another story but anyway due to not walking my dog he wees in my house and even poos sometimes he is wrecking my house he chews my carpets eats anything in sight and i just cant cope with him i really do love him but he is ruining my life i cant even take him anyway because he destroys other peoples houses too i think because he is a working dog he needs lots of walks to release his energy and because i dont i think he is using that energy on ruining my house i know i sound cruel but i really am depressed and i feel really bad for him i just need to know what would be the right thing to do if i did get rid of him i would be very upset,3.0 53350,someone come with me to my tattoo apt at ,2.0 53351,philipteeter well philip i had two choices forgiveness or homicide i chose forgiveness the choice was not an easy one ,0.0 53352,it is the first mothers day since my daughter passed and this is an extremelyhard time right now for my family i pray you understand ,2.0 53353,ouch must have been sitting in a draft today my back has locked up ,2.0 53354,ahh havent been on twitter all day i have missed it been in wellington stocking up on my winter wardrobe i love highwaisted skirts ,0.0 53355,chrisdjmoyles bryan adams summer of or chesney hawkes one and only please x x x,0.0 53356,my ipod and listen to some taylor swift now yup yup then i will feel much betterloltext it dreams,0.0 53357,hating yourself seems like an endless cycle you cant get out of how the heck are you supposed to love yourself if you think youre a terrible person ive figured out by now that maybe loving myself more and raising my self esteem again will help me get out of this people always encourage you to love yourself and treat yourself as if you were your own best friend which i understand but i just dont get how im supposed to do that at this point honestly if i were someone else i would not want to hang out with me on top of that most people who meet me even my own family sometimes gives me cues that they wouldnt hang out with me either im just so boring weird im horrible at talking to others and im uncomfortably awkward i just dont understand where youre supposed to start i do recognize when theres something good about me but it still doesnt feel like enough for someone to care about me to put it this way i would understand completely if a person just wanted to stop talking to me out of the blue,3.0 53358,janet is on air now tune in quick httpwwwtalkingitoverorg ,0.0 53359,pranajama haha i dont even remember about that tweet well actually thats a nice song from jason mraz,0.0 53360,wiebner i hear ya ,2.0 53361,rain rain go away you just ruined my hiking day ,2.0 53362,it sucks i cant go out with my tash ugggh i wish my back would hurry up amp stop hurting,2.0 53363,drakkardnoir ur amazing love your music and you lol,0.0 53364,i woke up an hour ago and i am absolutely exhausted already and its sunny as hell outside so i feel like i should be out doing things instead of sitting here typing this watching youtube,3.0 53365,just finished playing trunderworld ,0.0 53366,already put miles on the new bike gym and lamb,0.0 53367,camerontdf i love you your tweets always make my day ,0.0 53368,rt riverdalebreeds welovelili because she was so open about her struggle with mental health lilireinhart,1.0 53369,hi guys me ,0.0 53370,i am so stressed out ,2.0 53371,doesnt want to go to work tomorrow ,2.0 53372,depression feels like being alive is minuscule to sum it up,0.0 53373, very much so sad times,2.0 53374,last day for my surprise percentage off sale use coupon code surprise everyone have a wonderful day,0.0 53375, doin pretty good just cant seem to shake this flu i picked up ,2.0 53376,nextonheroes thanks i still kind of feel bad though ive got so many tweets that i usually no longer go back to read them ,2.0 53377,can i get a bit of advice i cant help but feel like such a burden it feels like im drowning and everything is numb i can still smile and laugh with my friends but that only lasts for so long before i feel empty all over again im extremely grateful for the life i have yet i feel so guilty because i cant seem to snap out of it how do i not lose the relationships in my life when i feel like such a burden to everyone im not emotionally available and id hate for anyone to have to feel like its their responsibility to help me,3.0 53378,do ya do ya do ya love me dont wana hear u say maaayyybe love ya mcfly cant wait till next concert ,0.0 53379,ugh test number one down only more to go ,2.0 53380,having a headache ,2.0 53381, and gs finished eating i just finished cleaning now i can eat foods all cold ,2.0 53382,wishing danny the best of luck for his match tonight dinner shower uploading pictures and then back here to talk to danny ,0.0 53383,im trying to find an online rpg to play but i cant choose ,2.0 53384,talked to my zephyr for an hour ,0.0 53385,what a busy and stressfull day at work im so glad its over now i can go home and relax aww i miss marcorodrigo ,2.0 53386,up at this morning as had lots of deployments ,2.0 53387,emeraldkreshe and then it started to rain ,2.0 53388,a different kind of aloneness i am hopelessly envious of others ive started my first year in uni abroad and everyone is making friends left and right with their class and groupies i feel like leftover the seniors try to help of course always trying to help me integrate and everyone is so sweet about it im even in a music club im sure theyre just tolerating this mopey loser that already failed a class though im just being selfish by using them as an excuse get closer to people honestly and i feel like a dick for it thats not the point of the thing and alli dont deserve it they try so hard to support me but i still cant help but still feel isolated and stuck im afraid they wont like me anymoretheyve told me it gets better friends take time were here for you the whole spiel i can hear it but i cant feel it theyre so kind to me but theyre not close i suppose i see pictures of them and their friends out together and i get jealous even if they invited me it wouldnt feel geniune because im the outlier therei know i need help ive consulted my mother but she told me not to tell anyone as it is shameful for the family and if my father found it hed be disappointed and want to send me back home theyve put in so much money into my education here that i cant just drop out and i cant get help and if i quit the club then ill really have nobody herei feel like i cant win here im sorry i wish i could describe this more eloquently but a painter cant paint a storm when hes in the middle of one and in a dinghy ass canoeheres a question though has anyone ever felt like theyre missing something even amidst a sea of family of friends at home i still feel like theres something i dont have is it just melancholia,3.0 53389,why do i have to be so emotionally weak im so sensitive and the slightest insult can make my mood all sour and shit i have the opposite of thick skin and a tiny insult can get to my head super easily and destroy my self esteem i dont why im like this and i feel like i have no control over it im such a negative person in general and i think so low of myself its unbelievable im just to fucking weak for this world and i dont know why im like this ,3.0 53390,back at work now wishing i was home playing with kendall ,2.0 53391,drewm wow sounds neat would be interested to see a write up on that when youre done ,0.0 53392,garywestman hey will u follow me ,0.0 53393,i dont want to continue waking up doing the same thing every day lie in bed for hours watch some series or game feel like shit every time i eat thinking about how things couldve been so much better if things went differently this is every single day i just feel like shit when i wake up when i go to sleep when i interact with friends its so painful to exist i cant keep going on like this my life is pointless as it is now and i dont have any motivation to change it i just want to stop i want the pain to stop im a burden to friends and to the family i have i feel so lonely in a house of im so lonely in general i miss my friends but im too scared to go outside i hate myself so much,3.0 53394,bereed egg and cheese in a crossant that is please lmfao i already have my coffee ,0.0 53395,all my friends think in happy but no one realizes how messed up i really am all my friends see me as a somewhat happy person that makes jokes and is generally funny but no one really sees me for who i really am and i dont show it very oftenall my friends think ive had an easy life because they see my parents dont make me do much which is because my mom knows what ive been throughin all reality my past has fucked me up i have a lot of health issues from when i was a kid because i had cancer and later my kidneys and lungs failed because of an allergic reaction to a medication but i dont tell people this because i feel like they wouldnt like me anymorei dont tell my friends about my problems because i dont want to scare them off and be lonely againi want to be normal like everyone else but its hard to be when i can hardly walk feet without needing to slow down because of my lung damage i feel like i burden everyone when i go out and i just tell them i have asthma i just want to go back before it all happened i was actually happy back then now im just a mess that cant stand to be alone that cant talk to new people because of my anxiety i dont even like going out because i feel like everyone judges mei hate myself because i feel like some how i failed myself i failed my family and friends when all i wanted was to be normal,3.0 53396,oh no i just saw a small chihuahua like dog running along the shoulder of the the wrong way i hope itll be ok,2.0 53397,eating rice with chili potatoes yummy,0.0 53398,its sunny again finally ,0.0 53399,haircut shop chill with mrblank ,0.0 53400,i dont feel good ,2.0 53401,im sorry if any of you guys think ive been off with you lately ,2.0 53402,just sat down at my desk cup of tea and duel screens ,0.0 53403,any ideas friends currently sitting in the dark chain smoking girl i like found someone else ive drank about liter of sub par vodka and the inner monologue is back with a fucking vengeance yet again fucking covid has ruled out any chance of getting help and i have to work tomorrow,3.0 53404,mizminh yes i just heard id like to be there but waaay too much thesis to do maybe i can sneak over this weekend ill dm u,2.0 53405,why doesnt my picture upload it comes up thats a nice pic then nothing is twitter lying to me ,2.0 53406,is back from her getaway to dunsborough amp margaret riverback to reality ,2.0 53407,i want to take a trip across the country with my friend but my parents want me to find a job first ,2.0 53408,i attempted and failed should i go to the er posted this on rsuicidewatch but idk how to crosspost i feel dumb posting this but im just feeling a little dizzydrowsy and i have a massive headache that has not gone away thats about it for my current symptoms but i have to go to the lab in a few hours idk how thats gonna go its been hoursit was a stupid attempt i honestly didnt plan it even though ik its difficult to pull off but i was really drunk so essential i had alcohol and then of tramadol of valiumdiazepam hydroxizine and threw in a couple antiemitics to keep it all in i passed out for about hours and since then ive just been experiencing the above symptomsthanks for your helpedit im ,3.0 53409,nevermind he queened out to lsm battlestar hotties dont queen out ever ,0.0 53410,stuck in traffic on the ,2.0 53411, that i am currently residing here im moving on wednesday though but definitely dming my number,0.0 53412,rt khiefceefs your wcw sleeps a lot but gets things done shes emotional and greedy but cares about your well being and mental health i,1.0 53413,watching ufc liddell vs couture iii going to bed still no internet fooey,2.0 53414,is life supposed to feel like this right now it feels like nothing is real and time is passing me but at the same time its going so slow and i just want things to get tp that good time but thinking of how far that is from now is jist overwhelming i feel so small and helpless jist thinking about it ,3.0 53415,eating gum ampamp just arrived from sm ,0.0 53416,thanks everyone for the birthday wishes ,0.0 53417,morning all i got quite a bit of mag design inspiration last night httptrimovkg still looking for more though ,0.0 53418,your friends are my friends i´ll keep that concept but yes it makes sense to speak that offer out loud just once i learn a lot today ,0.0 53419, that is true but its always nice to have all the tracks on one cd ,0.0 53420,leakytiki did you have fun ,0.0 53421,good night work tomorrow ,2.0 53422,how can i be a supportive husband for my wife who has periodic depression my wife gets depressed at times she withdraws from people and me and social activities she sleeps a lot and doesnt talk much we go to couples counseling and she also sees a therapist from time to time but is not consistent it is difficult for me because i also can be codependent and either think its my fault want to fix it for her and also i get frustrated and tell myself things like why cant she just be better i know my part is that i have to be there for her not take it on and also have more compassion but its difficult im not sure if there are online or live support groups for spousesfamily members of depressed people or any other resourcesany suggestions on how i can be more supportive in regards to my wifes depression,3.0 53423,simonemckendry erm both ,0.0 53424,i feel like a nuisance on my friend group recently recently i just feel like im not funny or entertaining anymore i dont feel like im supposed to be in this group of people sometimes i make fun of people and they dont laugh and i just feel like im just making myself less wanted in the group today we were doing a game session together and i was getting wrongly blamed for some stuff but that didnt really matter i was pretty pissed though but that is the thing every time i hang out with them i feel like i cause all this shit and i really admire these people and dont wanna cause then trouble im just ranting and dont really know where im going with this so im just going to stop i dont know or fully think i have depression ive just been very down recently and dont know where else to write this,3.0 53425,deathlink never met her she and rob have not been to any of the conventions i have been to ,2.0 53426,rt totallyylex dont be sad lex😔♥️,2.0 53427,rt ladruggie me to me bitch you stress me out 😂,2.0 53428,i got a out of from the toefl test rather proud of myself ,0.0 53429,this day has been complete waste of time also the mood isnt so great either it just sucks if anything doesnt go the way i planned ,2.0 53430,does my girlfriend need medicinedoes she have depression hello guys i have a question my girlfriend suddenly has lots of depressive symptoms all was good on sunday but on monday for days now shes been telling me she is too tired frustrated aboutnot feeling motivated to work on her school project appetite is less and she has thoughts about gore as she said not about self harm just gore and bloody scenes and that she has headaches and lots of selfhating thoughtsfact is she was overworked in school and takes a year off now its a writing school and instead of taking a break she wants to continue writing and that frustrates her when i try to tell her that she may take it slow please she doesntshe goes to bed after am because she wants to watch movies and then she sleeps untill pm and longer not setting an alarmshe is interested in things still and even in writing thats why she is frustrated she loves for examples movies and just watched today again hours with her mother a marathon of a series she enjoys we also watched her favorite disney and she giigled and laughed with methis all is since days and she wants to see a therapist to get medicine so she can feel good again i dont know what to do i recommended her to first maybe try to get regularly sleep and put less pressure on her self about writing on school things again but she said she wants to and when she notices she feels shit in the morning or has weird thoughts she imagines gore and wants to punch things but she doesntdoes she have depression and need medicine i dont know how to be a good partner i am really listening to her and whatever happens she knows she can come to me which she doesps last time she had an depressive episode she actually took placebo and wanted to have depression to feel like she gets more attention after we got together this however stoppedi dont know what to do i just want to be a good partner but i dont want to tell her to not get medicine instantly if she really needs itim just helpless right now i got diagnosed with severe depression but i try to be a complete different person to support her my came slowly and build up and it got worse i had symptoms for over month that evolved to emptiness towards all tho i dont notice a voice talking to me inmy head that tells me im shitshe says she does have it like someone who yells at her what she does wrong i just look at things and feel too helpless to do them knowing im shit i dont have someone who talks to me in my headi dont know what to do i feel on the edge i had to get a higher dosage today because im way too sensitive to my loved ones she means the world too me and hearing how much she suffers and seeing how she distanced all of sudden not anymore just monday and tuesday shattered me to an extend that i cried holding myself in the bathtube for hours straight i really need someone who can tell me what im supposed to do to be a good partner to support her i cannot kick her into bed i tried and tried telling her maybe go to bed babe and darling its quite late and youll have an active mind maybe go earlier so you sleep earlier too and tomorrow im there for you the moment you open your eyes okay were a team in this and i dont leave you aloneand its not working she doesnt she rather watches tumblr videos does she need medicine a therapist but its only day now will it maybe get better,3.0 53431,omg i feel likee readingg like a book o somethingg must be wrong with me anybody,2.0 53432,msupton ,2.0 53433,hab mich gerade als aha fan geoutet aber das neue lied ist doch wirklich sch�n foot of the mountain ,0.0 53434,a shower is looking amazing right now then back to the bampn application ,0.0 53435, i just honestly cant understand what is going on the minds of some armys do they think is good to cr ,0.0 53436,mollycoonrod i think you should spill ,0.0 53437,i have the worst tan ever why do i tan so easily,2.0 53438,my life is going down the shitter right now but i do have somethings that are looking on the up and up,2.0 53439, ftw literally ,0.0 53440,jeffblazer dude i am going to go over followers tonight ,0.0 53441,xrosieeeexx whats up ,0.0 53442,kingsthings i see your following growing quickly do you feel quotcoolerquot yet you are now isnt the whole thing amazing ,0.0 53443,dannymcfly good luck man im sure it will be amazing us soon plleaassee,0.0 53444, 엄살 트름 속싸개태열 와우 ,2.0 53445,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 53446,mulaqueee sedate u its an antianxiety drug,1.0 53447,why am i up at on a saturday uggh darn britney spears video woke me up now im up ,2.0 53448,i dont want to live anymore because living is too painful the sad part is that im not even intelligent enough to come up with an effective suicide method i wouldnt know how to get ahold of deadly poison or how to hang myself i dont know of any tall buildings that i can jump from i dont know what to do,3.0 53449, has so rar been amazing and then the xbox crashed damn you microsoft ,2.0 53450,bethsportsmomma awesome place to start all for exercise gym day is tomorrow for me,0.0 53451,rt necation okay i think im good nowmy depressionhttpstcofssbgcwvmn,0.0 53452,hollyalyxfinch lol its ok you can blame twitter for almost anythingtrust me ive tried lol anyway its sunny out,0.0 53453,iamsuperbianca bof i cudnt agree more i finished it in like or days supeeeeer kiiiiliig ack ,0.0 53454,got so much stress going on,1.0 53455,i am so board today ,2.0 53456,diannawhitley cheers ,0.0 53457,sizemore it sounds fine to me ,0.0 53458,ive just barely clawed my way out of major depression and i can tell you ive been busting my ass trying to choose happiness for years,1.0 53459,why do i exist if all i do is just bring my toxicity to good people that dont even deserve it you know im empty inside im not sad well maybe i am but my tears are falling down my face im so broken to the point where theres no going back you know why thats because i am one fuck of a pathetic useless fat lazy procrastinating dumb toxic piece of shit that deserves to die ive been feeling like this for so long ever since middle school i think and now im barely attending a university i have so many good people in my life my mom and dad whom i cant appreciate enough although theyre working so hard and sacrificing their happiness and relaxation just for me my little dear adorable cousin whom i dont spend enough time with while she loves me because im busy being depressed with my life my younger brother whom i verbally abuse him for because all he does is play games after he comes back for school and i try to wrongly discipline him although i know he has a good heart my friends whom i barely talk to because im busy being isolated in my room watching netflix because thats the only distraction from my broken self and as equally as all my dear boyfriend lyon whom is always so fucking good to me despite hurting and lying to him countless times words cant even describe how much i feel like shit because of the guilt i have while hurting him also if using the word whom wrong when its actually supposed to be who which or that then i apologize for my grammar errors rip this post isnt even focusing on my grammar i am at a point where maybe killing myself would atone for all the bad things ive done i used to think i would be able to change and move on from this stage where i would work hard and study and spend lots of time with my family so one day i can get a wellpaying job preferably in the medicaldentistrypharmacy field and buy whatever makes them happy i dont know if i should kill myself so there would be one less child to work hard for and make their lives easier all i feel like is a burden to them who is useless and doesnt do anything good for them i barely have any friends only a few close ones but i dont know i keep being toxic by lying to people because im afraid of their reactions when i know lying will make it even worse i dont know what to do because all my life ive been privileged and glad that i have people who would sacrifice anything for me and be by my side but when am i going to be the one who works hard for my family and make them happy with my pessimistic depressed ass self,3.0 53460,so this is why i keep peeing blood,1.0 53461,i feel crazy about what i do i cut myself when something really bad happens or when i really depressed i do it because i want someone to be there and show me they care i know that makes me extremely selfish people keep telling me that i always end up telling people people that know about what is going on its like word vomit i literally just want someone to talk to me about it and cry with me instead of telling me what i should be doing i want sympathy i know this isnt right and i really do struggle with depression i just cant help but i guess seek attention when i self harm someone recently told me im like the girl who cried wolf i feel crazy and i am not trying to prove that stigma where people that self harm just do it for attention there are things i dont tell people but this isnt one does anyone else do this or am i just crazy sorry for the length i just didnt know who else to talk to,3.0 53462,want to go and enjoy the remainder of sunshine but doing at least peoples jobs today due to vacation pretty much last in the office ,2.0 53463,i hate doing projects ,2.0 53464,rt animaliatony had a great chat with sunnygradio about the hour ben nevis challenge in august for mental health and have a heart for,1.0 53465,its alive in sfarsit primul meu post pe blog httpwwwconcediazatisefulro,0.0 53466,okay so that was an unsuccessful last tweet no boys fail ,2.0 53467,going to bed now man im gonna get only hours of sleep again arent i ,2.0 53468,looks like rain coming in again after all ,2.0 53469,deeessay thanks dave ,0.0 53470,yaneri good buddies think alike ,0.0 53471,should think about heading to bed work in the mornin arrggghhh ,2.0 53472,going through a rough time hi everyone what i am going to say here is something ive been holding in myself for a very long time not because i do not have anyone to speak to nor because i am seeking attention its just i dont feel comfortable to speak about this with any of my friends or family and i gotta ease my mindeverything started in high school at first i didnt get along with a lot of people but that changed i luckily have enough friends right now my biological mother killed herself and i can easily say that it doesnt matter to me maybe i am just coldblooded but she was never there for me and i didnt know she was my mother until she killed herself so yeah i am adopted i am saying this because it may have something to do with my current state i am feeling empty not worthy and unable to do anything major my grades are fd up i even lost interest in doing something with my lifei cant find the point to live but i dont wanna dieim also anxious a lot i second guess everything i even started to abuse weed and alcoholi just cant describe with words how i feel it is some kind of emptiness i thought about suicide but i dont think i would be able to do that and i know that i dont want to i feel like i do not know what is normal i am becoming unable to make new friends just because i cant start a normal conversation and i am losing some cause they are doing stuff that i hate even if they just say something ignorant i start to ignore them so they learn that they cant behave like that pretty fd up isnt itthank you if you read this which i do not expect you to do cheers,3.0 53473,rt ninthwardjawn me as my mental health continues to decline and my depression and anxiety cloud my judgment and decision making https,2.0 53474,natalietran hey nat im in melb but if i ever made a skypedate with u the last thing i would do would be late xx,0.0 53475,rt anxietydepression is scary af you push away everyone that means the most to you and you start to hate the person you are yo,2.0 53476,beccas back to uni this morning that means my holiday as well as hers is officially overbummer,2.0 53477,officialtila when do you come to sweden again miss you sweet face here ,0.0 53478,im better but not safe followup post i recently told a friend who ive known for a while something ive been wanting to say for ages i thought that saying so would be the final nail in the coffin for our friendship heck even us knowing each other but nolife didnt pause didnt stop at the shock and awe at whatd id said it just nodded and kept movingit wasnt anything disgusting or horrible just me saying im not interested in something anymoreand that id prefer not to do said thing but for weeks maybe months the thought of telling them ate me up i told myself dont do it youll be a dick a moron and grow distant from another friend but so far nothingit could still be the end of my friendship with them that moment could of triggered the process of moving on with our seperate livesand the worst part is if thats truei cant stop itthat same day i told them i threw my thoughts into a reddit post not expecting much but in the end i got a reply that has started to help meget over it not my nagging fear of loosing friends not my fear of starting over with new friendsjust solice in knowing it will be okit feels like the climax to a tv show has just happend the problem has been resolved and now i can move onbut i know that will take time more nights of worrying more days of discomfort and alot more selfdoubt is coming still not every problem or worry ends walking into the sunsetbut now i know what to do to make things easierim starting to cruel out of the hole i dug for myself and now i need to hold tight and keep moving because thats all i can dokeep moving and know theyll be a better day week month or even year ahead,3.0 53479,if i cant do this alone cant help myself and nobody is around to hold my hand then what can i even do i feel so weak my friend killed himself last weekend and it turned my entire life upside down what was a happy semester turned into an absolute nightmare and the depression i finally got under control is the worst its been in a long time its so dark and alone i didnt sleep last night just cried consistently for hours i feel so fucking hopeless my violin professor lets me cry in her office and shes one of my only comforts my so doesnt really know what to do and thats not his fault im convinced its because nobody can help besides comforting me and making me feel less alone alone alone alone alone i am so alone whats a worse feeling than laying wide awake watching the sun creep up eyes almost swollen shut from crying for hours straight and knowing that you are all alone there with nobody except you to pull you out of itif im too weak to help myself and nobody is around to offer support what can i even do accept the inevitable nothingness of feeling so lost and isolated with no way out all i can do is hope my tears dry up eventually so i can see at some point but the feeling is still there the empty the nothing the grief such intense sadness that i would do anything to stop feeling it i am so incredibly tired of feeling like this it is taking everything from mei have to live with the fact that i peaked in high school when i got accepted into this world renowned music school and have done nothing better since i stopped practicing i do poorly in class and i have very few friends in the music school i simply do not have the motivation to rise above mediocrity my life is ruined i have no hope,3.0 53480,vivatheblock i missed it ,2.0 53481,untuckem aww i missed out on all the cool stuff ,2.0 53482,janholben oh no do you mean sleep forever ,2.0 53483,i wanna fucking die for new years hahahahah fuck this godless universe and fuck this pathetic excuse of a life hahahahahahahahahahahahahaah fuck all of you that ive ever known and hated in life i hate you i despise your existence i despise mine there is no fixing this what am i what designed this atrocity of existence,3.0 53484,depression my ass,2.0 53485,i was hoping to sleep in tomorrow i guess its not happening stupid blood tests grrr,2.0 53486,yard sale work ,2.0 53487,innuendogirl harmony should have been in more episodes i know shes going to be on angel but im only on so it will be a while ,2.0 53488,jagangel i failed i ran out of time to eat before teaching last night and grabbed a salad from tescos for dinner with couscouswheat,2.0 53489,is going to revise for psychology like she has never revised for psychology before which is quite true after driving lesson x,0.0 53490,is absolutely shattered lol been a while since ive done that much exercise hehehe,0.0 53491,going to work ,2.0 53492,i am so bored ,2.0 53493, i think theyre afraid theyll be called twits ha ha ha ha ,0.0 53494,kingbomani i might just do that lol why dont you like the rain,0.0 53495,trying to figure out twitterso if you are following me can ya give me a holla however thats done ,0.0 53496,contradicting currently im surrounded by a group of friends that i spend a reasonable amount of time with theyve seen me okay and at my worstbut havent done anything what tends to happen is if they see anyone else in the group anyone feeling down or sad just a little bit why is so depressed or sad and by the way all of these people are much much happier than i could ever be i feel selfish thinking this way but ive been like this for literal years and they havent done anything but when something relatively small happens to someone else they just then feel bad i can tell im the most ignored in the group and i immediately resort to thinking that they dont like me anymore and i should give up but hey at least i know itd be worse if i did that its real fuckin annoying seeing this blow past everyones head i guess i am looking for attention i hate the way i think this is probably the least important thing ive noticed as well awesome,3.0 53497,omg david archuleta had his first kiss tonight im gonna cry i dont why my heart really sank and idk why i feel like crying ,2.0 53498,terruh yeah shes a really great singer and actress ,0.0 53499,elizes red shirt very disappointed that olds left awwhell be content with his bananas ,0.0 53500,twitter keeps making me refresh it its not making me happy ,2.0 53501,madcom happy to chat about rugby anytime ,0.0 53502,goodbye to the worst year of my life as i look in the sky up at the full moon at the arrival of the new year all that i have in me is pain anger hate and suffering that this year has brought me from dealing with the fallout of my ex to stressors at work nothing compares to true loss of my baby boy my soulmate papas i miss you and went to counseling the other night and let myself cry but in the end nothing will bring you back i have your three puppers still that miss you just as much as i do you were my everything mijo my rock and happiness i have now become broken beyond repair and only wait until the day we are together again i couldnt and havent been able to end my suffering because im too afraid even though i want that more than anything i love you chewie i hope to see you soon baby boy,3.0 53503,palringo now available in blackberry app world not that australians can access it httpviigoimkvp,2.0 53504, oh no bb ,2.0 53505,tommcfly ,0.0 53506,i have which is slightly above avg at dinner breakkinda tired too ,2.0 53507,summers here about years ago id be thrilled but now i know its gonna suck because i have no friends and im gonna be bored every day and become more depressed,3.0 53508,numb is anyone else numb to pain or abuse or mistreatment i dont fear any consequences or even feel fear anymore i dont know how to undo this,3.0 53509,my throat hurts i think its sore bleh i dont wanna be sick ,2.0 53510,whedonesque i love farscape and am a phile from way back are you on big light yet the xfiles club created by writer ,0.0 53511,and i spelled his name wrongfail ,2.0 53512,blasia i will be going there sunday ,0.0 53513,jeff is a lap down ,2.0 53514,birthday i turn on april my girlfriend and i are going to a cubs game for the occasion i have tried my hardest to make myself happy but i do not know how i even make my girlfriend sad all of the time whenever i have a night completely to myself i am going to drink myself to death i am tired of feeling like shit all of the time and being the root of the problem i am just done,3.0 53515,monicahiggins really who could ask for a better view ,0.0 53516,what a waste my life has been staying silent keeping all to myself ignoring people its all so stupid i dont have the motivation nor the courage to get out of this hole its been years so many times i think about just stabbing myself in the stomach from the anxiety the pressure they say it gets easier but it hasnt ive tried so many things i tried having fun getting a girlfriend friends opening up it hasnt helped i tried going to a therapist and i felt disgusted i think of killing myself but i dont want to leave this world there is so much beauty but im not apart of iti cant think of the happiest moment of my life its been so long and im tiredi always thought a near death experience would get me out of this mindset i got into a car crash several months back but it hasnt ,3.0 53517,rt adrianxpression bitch move you didnt bat an eyelid at your husbands racist bigotry or his confession of being a sexual predator htt,2.0 53518,watching my sister run on the wii fitshe looks funny ,0.0 53519,rt selinaeshraghi suicide by firearm is a form of gun violencesuicide by firearm is a form of gun violencesuicide by firearm is a for,1.0 53520,it feels like im slowly being eaten alive by my own brain so to keep this relatively short ill just start with this im a year old nonbinary person whos been living with depression since the age of i was on medication and went to therapy for awhile but it got to the point where i just couldnt afford it anymore ive been off my medicine for over years now been out of therapy for about i have my good days like a lot of people with depression do but ive noticed lately that theyre starting to become fewer and far between im also starting to notice everything i usually love doing like cooking and baking etc are starting to become laborious i cant afford my medicines therapy is super expensive and my insurance is basically worthless ive lost my drive to keep moving from day to day and it just feels like my personality is slowly being sapped away and it sucks cause i know that i can do so much more and be so much more than what i am and yet im not because i just cant make it over the hurdles my illness has placed in front of me anyone else ever feel like this,3.0 53521,quit my job i am a jobhopper due to depression,3.0 53522,powerful words from our youth they get it ,1.0 53523,tomorrow is my last day of school ,0.0 53524,christianhanson you know id be there tomorrow if i could miss you ,2.0 53525,foxbusiness loudobbs shut it down arrest jerrybrowngov spoton tonight dobbs virtually all they do to hate ,2.0 53526,sad,0.0 53527,in the rain with pj amir ant almir kristin amp mike love the raain,0.0 53528,nye when i say its just one more lap around the sun i do this to minimise how i cant breathe when thinking about another year when friends invite me out i will say im busy when im not and i actually would love to go out but i end up isolating myself ill stay at home to feel safe whilst having panic attacks and crying into my pillowill plan all the things i can do and watch when really its background noise for the lonely and envious thoughts playing on loop while i stare at the ceilingill send heartfelt wishes and motivational messages to all my loved ones while thinking about how long itll be until i finally kill myself this yeari dont want the people i love to know how i feel because itd just ruin their fun im only in the business of self destruction,3.0 53529,starmunki just about to watch dead snow norwegian zombie nazi film im guessing its your kindof film ,0.0 53530,naughtydred thanks ill look at this soon when im not at a blocked computer ,2.0 53531,beckycallender ,0.0 53532,want help want help dont want the drugs so i try therapy but i find it hard to trust anyone enough to talk about my depression guess its my fear of being judged and misunderstood not sure where to turn next it would be really great to love myself again i hope you all know that you are loved by many people in your life be strong and keep trying to find a way through this thanks for taking the moment to read my post,3.0 53533,this heartbeat on screen is giving me so much anxiety im gonna throw up i hate that sound,1.0 53534,rt lifeaseva can we all stop treating anxiety like its a choice and something cool to have thank you,0.0 53535,working on a few critiques and two paintings at the moment multi tasking ,0.0 53536,nono bay yet week over now ,2.0 53537,just finished doing the july cover ,0.0 53538,packing today for six days on the motorcycle leaving tomorrow am rain or shine good thing i am not a quotprissyquot chick vacation,0.0 53539,really want alcohol but skint really bad times on the upside this time nxt week ill be partying in bangor ,0.0 53540,spammers on wp r actually writing quotps dont be an ass this is not spam quot in their spam comments lol ,0.0 53541,you just cannot fix stupidsad but true,0.0 53542,corrinnerussell oerthrnbw thanks for the help the autlabs project is actually about creating jobs for us rather than finding them,0.0 53543,its weird how celebrities go in threes carradine mcmahon and now farrah ,2.0 53544,my terrible life hey guys im shouta please address me as that this through out this post so today is easter a day atheist like me dont like well anyways my life has been filled with luxuries if you call going on disney every month only to leave instantly cause your parents fought all day in the parks and you never got to go on any rides that basically been my whole life my parents fighting everyday even on my birthday so up until my birthday in january i realized that i have no purpose in life and i will forever just witness more and more of my parents shity marriage i wanted to go to disney for my birthday i asked my parents if they couldnt argue for two weeks so i can enjoy my birthday but that didnt work out so i went to disney with my two little brothers and my dad there but then two hours into the drive my dad pulls over to argue with my mother so then we have to turn back around to get her but when we get back they argue all day then we leave back to orlando again but when we get there all the parks are full of people cause we went in the mid day when everyone is in the parks so i didnt get to go on any rides at all so we left and we went back home my parents argued more so then through out all my years of life i have not had a day where my parents didnt argue at all a few weeks ago my parents bought a pistol just in case if someone breaks into our house and ever since we got it i have been thinking about killing myself with it so in a while i am going to break into my dads drawer where it is and end it all i just wanted my favorite app to know my story before i go i thank all the redditors i have met i love all of you and i will see you all on the other side goodbye everyone,3.0 53545, hehe thanks ,0.0 53546,i cant tell whats real anymore ive had mental health problems probably for the last four years sometimes things are good for a while and i think ive been exaggerating how bad my anxiety and depression were in the past times like today make me forget what its like to be okay i have today off work and went shopping with my friend and sister and i couldnt enjoy any of it i feel so drained my head was spinning and my eyes hurt and i just felt so tired while hanging out with some of my favorite people i feel like such a failure and i cant remember what it is like to be okay i always feel so tired and like bursting into tears if im not feeling like that i feel like i have so much stuff to do but cant because im so overwhelmed at work some days its good but i always feel so tired i have no energy when i get home sometimes i remember that i want to start dating again but then the self loathing and complete loss in motivation come in aspirations for the future cease to matter and i just feel like theres no point in anything my days can be so different that i feel like im making up my anxiety and depression just because sometimes i can fake it i feel like im faking my feelings and using this as an excuse for laziness i dont know i just feel so alone and like nothing will get better,3.0 53547,ketv so sad sending heartfelt love amp condolences to the family,0.0 53548,akavaria textbook fail thats another thingtxtbks are way too expensive ,2.0 53549,it is raining on me ,2.0 53550,what if ive already had my best day ever im every day up until now has been incredibly mundane andor depressing the scariest thought crossed my mind the other day what if ive already had my best day ever ,3.0 53551,ah you know i really thought the weather might actually be good today but alas as usual its raining ,2.0 53552,first day of new life lets rock now ,0.0 53553,babyjane you didnt even watch it with me miss too sleepy all the time heart breaker,2.0 53554,neenz sheilas paulmerrill a workout you love is not work twitfit,0.0 53555,rt marathonsecret secret marathon friends a ⁦justgiving⁩ update from me we are at £ for ⁦alzheimerssoc⁩ the most recent donat,1.0 53556,am i being lazy i think im being lazy actually its really hard to get up on my bed i think i feel difficult to wear clothes but it was okay like few months ago its doesnt seem like i dont want to do this but its like i dont have energy to do this this situation comes often and its really annoying also theres no energy to do assignment im so confused if i making excuses or if i dont making enough effort than others,3.0 53557,rt stellification sammruger mcdmiamivalley i only have 😔 guess i have to have crippling depression forever,2.0 53558,ericannchafe thanks erica ,0.0 53559,rain i despise theeeeeeeee ,2.0 53560,need someone to talk to please respond if you think youll be even slightly available during the next or so hours im seventeen years old male going to be busy today but id prefer if i had someone to talk to back and forth throughout the day im going to be doing my homework and ill shower all between and midnight during that window i need to feel like im not alone so i wont slip up and stop working or decide to not shower open to anyone as long as youre respectful of me and are a good listener,3.0 53561,rt da film literally just wrapped filming so i wouldnt judge it too harshly shazam being silly is what i expected imo suici,1.0 53562,please dont leave me i dont want to be alone,3.0 53563,kangjihwan thanks for your message i watched his tv drama on dvd it was fun,0.0 53564,salandpepper me too i close down pc then about mins later i check again from bed lol will be trying teh phone from nz ,0.0 53565,enjoying a lie in listenting to the rain ,2.0 53566,bummed my antique model t cuff links broke ,2.0 53567,these few days have been extra more sad,2.0 53568,ok more days until one of my awesome interviews must tend garden today its been neglected ,2.0 53569,hen he took out his camera and made a short video with all the fans he didnt get to personally meet which is now ,0.0 53570,got a sore throat just took an antibotic and i accidently swalled a sore throat lonzenge ,2.0 53571,sittin at home on ma own who needs men,2.0 53572,why do i even exist currently i am now years old and my parents got divorced and i always thought of myself i wonder if my parents would never meet in the first place they would have their perfect lives without each other but i wouldnt exist but thats okay for me cuz my life sucks anyways and i just wanna end this nightmare thats been haunting me since i was younger i wish god would never had created me in the first place who knows what my future would look like in my current state probably even worse than this i mean i still have more years of suffering but in the end will i be happy ,3.0 53573,im and single ive never been married ive dated but it never was the right person all i ever wanted out of life was to be married and have a family and i completely failed at it and now its too late what the f am i supposed to do now work a job i hate grow old and die its so stupid thats the thing that pisses me off about depression thats based on circumstances instead of chemistry because its incurable and untreatable it just is what it is like being paralyzed in a car accident or something hope and normality are gone and theyre never coming back theres a scene in dantes inferno where he encounters paolo and francesca doomed lovers francesca says there is no greater sorrow than to remember happy times when youre miserable i think she got it wrong there is no greater sorrow than to imagine happy times that never even happened in the first place seeing young happy couples makes me want to kill myself i wont because i have cats to take care of but maybe once theyre gone years from now ill have the courage to what the hell else am i going to do ,3.0 53574,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 53575, turtles and shoes make an awesome couple if only shoes could talk back to the turtle p lol,0.0 53576,waiting tv at work my knees hurt today gtblondielt,2.0 53577,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 53578, awh im jealous i was suppose to be mountain bar amp grandstar tonight ,2.0 53579,rt juliawalz i have so much anxiety flowing through me rn whyyyyy,1.0 53580,rainman wants to follow me his updates looked like the black board in the professors home quotearth stood stillquot ,2.0 53581,ramsden thanks for the recommendation ,0.0 53582,peterfacinelli ok so do we have u laughing yet or did u start runin we get the longer u let us go ,0.0 53583, i didnt eat it all im still hungry ,2.0 53584, days of school more days until i see teresa kiara where you at goodnight,0.0 53585,exhausted was gonna stop by nyes to say hello to abbiewestra and erikwestra but have to go tear down a wedding boooooo ,2.0 53586,pheliziph cleaning can be a good work out you know ,0.0 53587,wow talk about being extremely bored right now michael needs to wake up and entertain me ,0.0 53588,unmarketing late to the party but hello owen im from cleveland oh i hope you are having a great day ,0.0 53589,got woke up by sister and mum lying beside me in my bed at now cant sleep ,2.0 53590,rt outterspaceswag i only sleep to recharge my depression,2.0 53591,jazzymamas haha yeah he js texted me right now hes at xs in vegas ,0.0 53592,bryankavanagh damn spinlocks can never get enough weight on them lol got my dad to make some dbs for me ,0.0 53593,yts yes we are did you apply any quotprivacy at this placequot settings to a place nearby that will switch you into private mode,0.0 53594,googlebing i like blackle energy saving fast and effective for basic searches httpwwwblacklecom,0.0 53595,this town kygo and sasha sloan all of my friends are settling down theyre only kids but theyre married now lets follow the lights follow the crowd baby we got to get out lets get out of this town i want an ocean view somewhere as long as im next to you i dont care i dont wanna live my life in circles i just wanna find an empty road lets get away from here lets go all of my friends are settling down theyre only kids but theyre married now lets follow the lights follow the crowd baby we got to get out lets get out of this town nothing ever changes here i know another day another year same old i dont wanna live my life in circles i just wanna find an empty road lets get away from here lets goall of my friends are settling down theyre only kids but theyre married now lets follow the lights follow the crowd baby we got to get out lets get out of this town,3.0 53596,missboobiething blushing awww thanks my waterproof camera comes everywhere i can push my boat to ,0.0 53597,morning up and having morning coffee sundays are so nice ,0.0 53598,rt mxhaei you know what sucks more than social anxiety 😜 👊 ¯ ¯being self aware that youre wasting your li,1.0 53599,dazzlemethis bitch no intreguing quite ,0.0 53600,trying to beat mario and feeling really bad about it ,2.0 53601,rt neverknownfacts not having enough sleep per day leads to desire for sex depression and alcoholism,1.0 53602,yoyop it comes from years of training you can thank my wife she trained me well ,0.0 53603,i cant wait till tomorrow cause its a three day weekend and i get to see jt night ,0.0 53604,and no one is mad at lone palm trees ,0.0 53605,heaps keen for next weekend mummy ,0.0 53606,darnellwright nada just bummin it for a bit,0.0 53607,no i havent had a chance to order them haha im slacking sorrry,2.0 53608,this project is kicking our butts ,2.0 53609,how do i convince my best friend that she deserves happyness my best friend lives for others shes a beautiful human being always thinking of others before herself shes apologysing whenever she does something wrong she was abused in her childhood and always told things were her fault she still always believes she doesnt deserve happyness because others have it much worse yesterday she almost took her life and i am in desperate need for advice on how to teach her that it is okay to be happy,3.0 53610,should be going to bed because i am exhausted but playing with my new kindle instead ,0.0 53611,carrying on hi guys im mostly a lurker but its been a stressful week year life whatever im sorry to be a downer but im having trouble with just moving onim trying to live life one day at a time but sometimes i have to ask myself what all these days add up to most days i find an excuse to be positive but some days i cant find that reason anyone got advicetldr how do you get through the days without having an existential crisis,3.0 53612,playing elmo with alex on my way home from wildwood lol,0.0 53613,im at a loss i just turned about a month ago but it feel like my life is already over its been about months of me doing daily drug use yet i cant quite think of myself and an addict a whole year of self harm in many different degrees i want to die nothing makes me feel anything anymore drugs dont fill the void my friends are all leaving me and in return i just want to find even harder drugs to forget every single moment me hurting or killing myself lingers somewhere in my thoughts i dont think that i want to try to go on im just waiting to overdose eventually i dont know where i went wrong in life im just so alone so empty and hallow its tearing me apart but everytime ive attempted ive been fine never even gone to a hospital lost of puking hallucinations and other problems tho but i manage to hide this from my parents i feel invisible like im already dead a ghost i just want it to end i dont know why im posting here i just want to get it out idk why ,3.0 53614,cipralextrintellix side effects hello i am new to this community and am looking for anyones feedback on their experience with the drugs cipralex escitalopram and trintellix vortioxetine and any side effects they have had month ago my doctor prescribed me a day of cipralex the first week i felt great no side effects whatsoever and was looking forward to waking up each morning after a week i started having some pretty awful side effects i was sweating uncontrollably unable to sleep for even hour a night constant jitters and worst of them all is i lost my ability to take a full breath or yawn i constantly feel like im being suffocated and need to take a full breath when i try to take a full breath my lungs fill up but i just cant breathe in anymore i get the urge to yawn but its as if someone stuck their finger in my mouth mid yawn the entire satisfying feeling of yawning or just even taking a full breathe has completely gone it almost feels like the beginning of a panic attack without any feelings of anxiety whatsoeveri dealt with that side effect for about a week and ended up going to my doctor he switched me to trintellix about days ago however i am still unable to take a breath all other side effects are gone except my ability to breathe this is coming in the way of my life as i am gasping for a breathe every minutes i cant properly communicate with friends coworkers family or my partner because of my inability to breathe properly has anyone else had side effects like this id love to hear your stories and hear how long this took to go away tldr cipralex gave me bad side effects including inability to take a deep breath or yawn this has not gone away with switching to trintellix any advice,3.0 53615,i had no credit to update in forever sooo i better gets me some,2.0 53616,rainy day in la ,2.0 53617,chillin listening to tupac yup ,0.0 53618,joeymcintyre aawwwi didnt get picked i understand still brining a couple of books,2.0 53619,rt lifeaseva it isnt easy to get over mental health issues but finding people who understand you and identifying yourself is the first s,0.0 53620,i made hempyarn bracelets and hiphappenin keychain tonight ,0.0 53621,nickybyrneoffic good to see you attending a great event hope your teeth are great now good night,0.0 53622,rt josephraimondo following the tragic death of prof mayosi our vc has called for openness about mental health at our institution i hav,1.0 53623, good for you i was going to go walking to day darn rain ,2.0 53624,i love rock ,0.0 53625,nooooo i forgot that having no laptop eant i cant take card payments at the day fair im doing ,2.0 53626,puppies httpwwwthehomezoonetappsphotos didnt know some of their names ,2.0 53627,i really hope that one day find how will feel to be loved im guy and since the the womans treat me like a piece of shit i never know it why i always have been a normal guy i guess that the problem being normal maybe its something undesirable maybe the society its so praised under the special those people that drive luxury cars and have a wonderful attractive looking maybe i dont fit in this world of person that are complete immerse in superficial stuffs or i just a complete piece of garbage i dont know whatever will be the answer is soul crushing because i always wanted to be loved find someone that love by how i am i girl that teats me nice and say hello hows your day going rather than receive disgusting looking even when i keep getting fit and make my best effort in look decent i have a good job and i have good manners well i guess the world isnt fair after all i guess i just have to recognize that i will always been alone,3.0 53628,just a depressive rant i just turned a few months ago ive had major depressive disorder for over years thats slowly built up from the regular depressive disorder that ive had for to years i only got diagnosed with this year with any of it but i know for a fact that ive been messed up for a long time i have medication and my psychiatrist says that its a good dosage for me i just feel slightly more motivated and am able to focus on my problems i dont actually feel any happier im balding and its bad i never noticed until recently because my brother has been loudly pointing it out in front of other people so now i feel insecure people tell me that i look years older than i actually am and its disheartening ive never really cared about my appearance before because i found it impossible to really care about anything it shouldve been painfully obvious what was happening i even noticed signs and symptoms but i was too stupid to make a connection my hair looks worse than my year old dads and again im only i wanted to at least dye my hair but at this point its not possible itll look like shit and damage my already damaged hair further when im off my medicine i dont feel any different when thinking about the state of my hair because i feel like nothing matters anyways now that im on my meds i feel extreme hopelessness and despair its easily ruined my holidays when it was brought up and multiple other days i stayed up for hours last night because i couldnt stop thinking about it no matter how much i wanted to just fall asleep to forget about it i keep pushing off going to a doctor because i dont want to hear what i think theyre going to tell me that nothing can be done and im just going to be stuck getting progressively worse for the rest of my life i may end up going today out of absolute desperation and will probably come back home never wanting to leave my bed again i lost pounds over months last year and im still not to a body that im happy with even though im on pretty much slipping into the underweight category now it seems like nothing that i have tried to do helps me and everything around me just keeps getting worse i hate it all i just want to be normal and experience a normal life,3.0 53629,hello world hello everybodyim not sure if im in the right place but i have somethings to say and get some opinions to hopefully feel better im had a fucked up childhood with an alcoholic father like father like son i was addicted to weed for years i stopped smoking for months now and i feel like i was blaming everything on weed but after i quit weed it seems like it is just me that what is fucked up first of all i have no energy for hobbies i dont want to do anything i just cant start what i want to do i just browse youtube watch stupid videos etc secondly i have no friends i mean i have friends phsyically but i dont feel that they are close to me i can not talk about these issues to them i dont feel like it i feel like they are just artificial and i dont want to be a part of this stupid artificial structurei started my masters program this year ill be when im graduated and i feel so fucked up about it i feel like im late in my life and it will eventually fuck everything up one way or another this bugs me a lot for months now i do not know how to snap out of it lastly i live in turkey there is always a war threat around us syria iraq and stuff this makes me so depressed i feel like i do everything for nothing i mean what is the meaning if i have a phd degree if there is war and ill die with bombs even there wont be a war i feel like i dont belong here im not even a muslim have no nationalistic urges unlike turkish citizens i like good beer and bacon unlike living decent according to stupid rulesi just feel so fucked up and tired and lonely maybe my problems are not that serious compared to other who posted here but i really needed to share these with somebody thanks a lot for reading amp thanks in advance if anybody will reply give commentspeace everybody,3.0 53630,ssri induced apathy hey everyone i was on ssris for years for severe anxiety and depressionaprox years after stopping my medications and recovering from gad and depression im still apathetic has anyone had this for a long period of time like me and came out the other side does anyone know what medications i could take to get better so upsetting to spend years sick and to only get better and realise youre apathetic ,3.0 53631,kathg heyhey about to go to work na you ,0.0 53632,how to not feel nothing i grew up rural in an isolated environment i was home educated never really saw other kids growing up small town was sad a lot watching tv with people playing made me sad somehow got through it followed the rules got a job make enough to live but thats all i have never had a friend or a relationship i think i should be happy but i just dont feel anything not good or bad i just exist sometimes i try to think of sad stuff to see if i can cry but i cant seem to bring myself to it everyone around me thinks im just fine so i keep being fine i know how to improve but i dont sometimes ill sleep through the entire day no reason to get up sometimes i buy things online and i look forward to it sometimes i buy things for random strangers i dont know why they thank me and go on with their day i shouldnt do it but i do im a decent employee but when i finish im reminded of my situation it feels wrong to write this there are people out there that have it much worse and handle it in stride who am i to complain i dont want to burden or worry anyone i will be fine just here existing i hope to maybe one day feel something i thought maybe writing this post would do that but it didnt,3.0 53633,msraa she says it would be naughty ,2.0 53634,dennysallnightr i really like the list and i am excited ,0.0 53635,trying to work out the solo to that girl on my brothers guitar realy wishing that my strat had strings ,2.0 53636,to be clear i spelt rising as raising intentionally rai lightning ,0.0 53637,what are you actually supposed to do about depression i just realized that ive spent so long using unhealthy coping mechanisms that i have no idea how one is actually supposed to work on their depression are therapy and antidepressants really the only things we can do because neither of those really work for me,3.0 53638,the show intervention makes me wonderwould i have enough people show up for me if i was addicted to drugsalcohol sadly no ,2.0 53639,trying to better myself but i cant let go of the negativity here ive been dealing with depression since i was years old im really tired of feeling like shit and have promised myself to get better especially since im not getting any younger ive quit drinking and have turned towards a healthy lifestyle ive been to the doctors twice now since the new year has started and somewhat have gotten my life on a better track i know its going to take a lot of time to get better but every time i feel good about myself the negative thoughts and feelings come back and at strongerworse than ever before how can i start kicking the negative thoughtsfeelings away ,3.0 53640,dwighthoward good game tonight ,0.0 53641,rt paulatics usscobblerguy nathanhrubin my husband needed brain surgery world class neurosurgeons removed a wedge of his skull used l,2.0 53642,not wanting to go to work i wish i was still on a party buss,2.0 53643,finished packing just waiting for breakfast to start so i can eat before heading to the airport going home,0.0 53644,i could barely handle being a kid is it any wonder i cant handle being an adult f been suicidal since depressed and anxious in some capacity since i keep waiting for my life to get better for me to find a reason to hold onto lifeevery now and then i get it in my head that ive finally changed that i can finally do what i want and be happy those moments are shortlived and increasingly rarefor the most part i feel stunted like i missed some critical stagestages during development and am irreparably damaged,3.0 53645,flowersophy you may be on to something i have been running something in the back of my mind im going start drinking warm milk soon ,0.0 53646,i feel like im losing control and i am very very alone i feel like nobody around me cares my husband just sighs and says nothing doesnt even look at me if i try to explain how i feel i dont really have friends to talk to im alone im too afraid of calling to make an appointment and nobody will do it through email im alone and my mind is spinning i dont know what to do i feel like ive reached the end ,3.0 53647,jeffrfod i cant see kermit tonight all i see is a white box with a red x ,2.0 53648,wtfjayr lmao ikr ehh i have like days left ill get through it ,0.0 53649,jeditigger dave was reading a list of bad headlines ,0.0 53650,just been out with jess amp isis bloody shattered now ,2.0 53651,sucks update is not free for ipod touch httpwwwapplecomipodtouchsoftwareupdatehtml,2.0 53652,startonomics yup although i am damn lazy to go check it out been there seen that mentality ,0.0 53653,thank u for coming to the mall i lost u guys and couldnt say goodbye im sorry ,2.0 53654,rt laurdiy stressed take a bath sad take a bath bored take a bath happy and have hours worth of netflix and a snack ready take a,0.0 53655,sbsalek no prob hope all is well with you,0.0 53656,they should really make nondrowsy perfume or is it just me who cant wear perfume to skl cos it makes me fall asleep ,0.0 53657,fannyfae im with you there hun if we can help contribute in any way let us know ,0.0 53658,hopeinhell mines going to home alone todayhis cough is terriblei feel terrible leaving him ,2.0 53659,fuck im sad,2.0 53660,dont stand in line behind me at the itunes store tried and filed to get ,2.0 53661,rt sarayadaniella ok driving in the dust storm had my anxiety so high idk how i did it,2.0 53662,my knee hurts ,2.0 53663,feeling numb unless im having sex for as long as i can remember ive had depression its a numb existential feeling i feel empty unless im having sex were about to get pretty detailed herei lost my virginity at a extremely young age due to my low self esteem i got almost addicted to the feeling it gave me i risked my health and safety to feel that feeling again but now its getting less effective ive begin to feel numb even when im having sex resorting to almost bdsm type shit to feel something ive been abusing drugs and putting my health at risk im lost and dont know what to do ,3.0 53664, hey babejust on my way to work ,2.0 53665,i dont think ill ever be good enough for her that makes me sad ,2.0 53666,reading john c wrights quotorphans of chaosquot fantasy scifi adventure humor i think im going to love it ,0.0 53667,just woke up aand omg my laptop wont turn on or charge myyy musix projex ,2.0 53668,hamassa disregard previous post sweden and seba visit got it take lots of pictures of sweden im jealous ,0.0 53669, wheres my invite ,0.0 53670,craziixlovee i knowi have photobucket but this is much better ,0.0 53671,mylapa currently it sucks we move to sf for a few weeks then we head on the road to juneau but keoni and i just came down with a cold,2.0 53672,afsoon going police station now thx hunny will checkin w u later ,2.0 53673,wishing it was hours from now tick tock ,0.0 53674,daisyreyes ok thanks ill add you tomorrow ,0.0 53675, sorta what is in the storage is good to go we will have to send a box for the shotglasses dont hate ,2.0 53676,sick to my stomach every time i get depressed i experience extreme loss of appetite within the last two weeks ive lost pounds which for me is a lot because i usually way around when eating normally i am f i get so starving that i make food and then i take a few bites and become instantly nauseated its frustrating because i want to be healthy i feel dizzy and shaky because im not getting enough calories and i work hour days in a warehousei am going through a bad breakup and i miss him terribly stressed about having to find a new apartment before the month is up i miss my family who are over miles away and im trying to keep up with my sobriety i have no motivation to go out and i sleep all day when i get the chance i just have zero energy and i feel like thats making my depression worse because im not keeping myself busy i get around hours of sleep a night because i toss and turn if you can think of ways to relieve any of these things please let me know i am absolutely miserable and feeling so weak ,3.0 53677,maxveenhuyzen hey you must be pleased to be heading back then ,0.0 53678,ddlovato i just thought quoti dont wanna be afraid i wanna wake up feeling beautiful todayquot inspiring song ,0.0 53679,rt esakalupdate marathareservation marathamorcha मराठा आरक्षणसाठी राज्यातील सातवा बळी cmomaharashtra devfadnavis ,1.0 53680,why do i hear voices inside my head whenever i feel im going to be extremely sad again i always hear voices inside my head i heard people shouting at each other and throwing stuff sometimes i also feel so small in fact while typing this my screen feels like a cinema screen and i feel like i am meters away from it what is this ,3.0 53681, oh ok they dont show it here till tmrw so i cant watch ,2.0 53682,and now i smell pancakesor maybe toast or something delicious but no one is at my place cooking ,2.0 53683,i dont know if im depressed or just hit a low im gonna start this off saying that this is my first post i enjoy going on reddit a lot but dont post i usually just read but i just felt like i needed help i wouldnt class myself as depressed but i dont really like my life at the moment to the point were i just dont want to live it im and just started my gcse course and its getting to me i try my hardest and get good grades but something just doesnt feel right im always tired i even did some sort of test to see how bad my tiredness is and i slept for hours and still felt tired i also always have a urge to self harm which ive gotten past before but i find myself in the same point every night wanting to do it i dont know if im just overthinking everything but it gets harder and harder to hide theres something wrong with me everyday thats about it thanks for reading it ,3.0 53684,courtstaggs it says its down for maintence everytime i go to it are u able to watch it right now,2.0 53685,philipwang i have one i can bring it to you tomorrow just say whenwhere,0.0 53686,fuckcity happy birthday andy have a sexy day,0.0 53687,oh no twitter is going down at ,2.0 53688,days clean i hit my lowest at only where i wouldnt leave my bed for days and had no motivation to even shower or change my clothes i used to cut but now im almost a year and five months clean ,3.0 53689,rt healingmb changes to improve your mental health•dont beg anyone to stay•save space for people who matter•keep your circle small•,2.0 53690,im tired of it all i have been dealing with depression my whole life although ive only sought help a few months agoi grew up in a normal happy family ive always had good grades up until college and overall had a normal life but i never felt like i belonged anywhere i struggled keeping friendships and only had my first serious girlfriend last year at the age of im a college dropout with no perspective of future my gf left me last month and i have no friends at alltherapy doesnt really seem to be working and i lost the will to keep going i just dont see any reason to keep trying anymoreive wished i was dead before but had never really been serious about committing to it because i love my parents too much to make them go through it today was the first day i seriously considered ending it all and looked for ways to do itim scared of my own thoughts and i dont feel like i have anyone to talk to about it,3.0 53691,bigguyzee happy birthday im from onm btw im not a randomer xd,0.0 53692,taochild aircraft i like more but i like a nice engine too especially from austria ,0.0 53693,need to just rant a bit im i dropped out of high school in october so i could focus on myself and get the help i needed to figure out how to cope with my anxiety and depression also i wanted to go to college earlier so i got my ged and enrolled for next semester which i am starting in september of this year that is awhile awayi havent had medical insurance until recently so just now am i allowed to start scheduling therapy and an appointment to get back on some medication for my depression and anxiety thankfully but in the meantime i am the same as i have been for weeks i was like this when i went to school and still lived with my ex stepsisters i just wasnt so alone i live with my dad now just him he is always at work i have a huge appreciation for everything he does for me we have a great relationship and he is supportive and tries his hardest to understand what i am going through i am lucky for him even though i have him i feel so alone i am always by myself i cant go anywhere i dont have a car of my own and i am way too scared to take the public buses due to the anxiety of it all i play video games and sleep i talk to a few online friends whom i love dearly i feel like such a hermit i dont want my life to be like this the friends i have in real life are nice but theyre just a little more than acquaintances nobody that i feel like hanging out with all those people are back in my old hometown miles awayi want to be having fun going to parties hanging out with friends going places with them i have always wanted that its too hard going out going to school meeting new people i can barely clean my own room without stopping halfway through and having to lay down from the mental exhaustion i used to love cleaning and organizing and going out and having fun now i have no energy i just want to curl up and lay in my own world ,3.0 53694,i have great newsthat i cant shareyet butit involves my time at the lori foster event carolaniveyhow did i miss you ,2.0 53695,just got home from church with andrew ,0.0 53696,wifey and muffin joined me at coffee bean so happy to see them muffin is wearing his batik ,0.0 53697,advice needed looking for a therapist makes me more depressed because of the way american health insurance is set up so i tried joining a gym but there is no sliding scale for people making minimum wage i try looking for therapists but no one is accepting new patients right now i just dont see a point to my existence i wasted several thousand dollars on a degree but im not making a living wage i dont know what to go back to school for in order to make decent money i dont have family that cares too much about me or a partner and im really not too easy on the eyes because i am fatbut again i cant afford the gym i just dont know what to even do my existence is just so useless ,3.0 53698,marialuvsmusic have a great day maria ,0.0 53699,pattinsonrobt because theyre losers you forgot your passowrd already hehe nice work ,0.0 53700,rt sirkambam im gonna be an astrophysicist goddamni will get this degreei will move outi will have my depression under controli wil,2.0 53701,mikejonez call me babei dont feel so well ,2.0 53702,it hurts to exist dont get me wrong im not suicidal im far too cowardly to actually kill myself im just tired of existing i just wish there was some way i could just stop existing without actually having to kill myself im sad all the time and im sick of it im sick of pretending to be okay because if i dont then i get accused of attention seeking i cant stand being alive anymore im tired mentally and physically and i dont know how to handle it anymoreedit thank you so much to everyone who commented with advice and offers to listen it means so much to me and im sure so many others who feel the same way to all those who commented saying they relate and talking about feeling suicidal im not a certified therapist but im willing to listen if you want to talk about it im just a pm away to anyone who wants to talk ill listen thank you all for making me feel less alone and slightly more normal for a while,3.0 53703,today i admit ​today i admit i am depressedits not a great feelingit actually fucking sucksi lack the motivation to do anythingmy music is taking a hitim scared to make music about how i truly feel because i dont want those around me knowing whats going oneither im missing the signs god shows me or hes not around right nowim only this suckshello depression,3.0 53704,frikkin starving and wants food now edmonton still coming home tomorrow and i hope lucky is okay and sasha isnt too lonely wo her ,2.0 53705,i dont know i feel so empty lonely i struggle with stress anxiety and depression i have no one i can talk to i dont have any friends im close with i barely have friends i just dont feel like life is worth living if its just living in constant pain i dont know why im venting on here and i will probably regret doing it the only thing keeping me from overdosing is that i dont want my parents to get hurt,3.0 53706,me and fabulouslorna went shopping for years today to was soo fun ,0.0 53707,talkin my sis michelle on msn ,0.0 53708,thanks jeffrey now the tumblr us census is cloggin up my dash ddd but i guess its alright ,0.0 53709,zanzoon omg i saw something about a flood in your area on the news be careful zaina ,2.0 53710,my suicide note i think the problem was that i loved everyone and everything too much and i couldnt figure out what to do about it i truly am sorry ,3.0 53711, awh well thanks im hoping youll feel the same about the new stuff too ,0.0 53712,ollicle my pleasure i run nnw on macs had tried to do without oll reflex on one i had to give in eventually its too useful ,0.0 53713,sokeri oh no i didnt know you bruised your eye poor sokeri ,2.0 53714,exam today help i know nothing ,2.0 53715,i feel so alone the depression is so bad at this point my wife hates me and wants to divorce me my best friend and only true friend hates me and is blaming me for something completely ridiculous and there is no talking any common sense i am at such a low point right now im a year old male been married years my year old daughter is litterally the only reason i am able to keep going i feel like i have no one right now and i dont know what to do i have advised marriage counseling and my wife doesnt want to try it says she doesnt want to listen to someone else,3.0 53716,i got prefect i can smell the power ,0.0 53717,just woke up yesterday was a long and tiring day but it was extremely fun ,0.0 53718,larkvamp oohh not tell meplease dont use these kind of words pleaseand you are not telling me the reason either ,2.0 53719,scullyyyyy i dunno everythinggg ,2.0 53720,epic fail another of my favourite restaurants gone cafe tutu tango in universal city is gone tis set to become a brazilian steakhouse ,2.0 53721,littlefletcher i like the charcoal one xx,0.0 53722,goodnight happy saturday by the time u read this getting some much needed rest after house chores all day,0.0 53723,judezxo my throat is soooo ruined right now i dont know how im going to sing on thursday ahha i am playing xbox what you up to missy,2.0 53724,iloveatlasgirl hey lovely how have you been where have you been much love,0.0 53725,merengue blasting through the loudspeakers here at the restaurant dont have who to dance with ,2.0 53726,posta que no me habla ni ancel momento sad 😂,2.0 53727,gracemarylove hello pwde po makipagfriend,0.0 53728,gosh this air france news is very sad dunno if they are going to find this one been hearing the same news since morning,2.0 53729,starving last batch of bananas doesnt seem to be very good only getting of nanner in my tummy ,2.0 53730,rt alipalajulieinq seven killed in bulanting lamitan suicide bombing perpetrated by a foreign looking bomber photo credit to basilan lg,2.0 53731,rt feelingfisky when i drink coffee to be more productive but it just spikes my anxiety instead ,0.0 53732,sfdigital did your last message like that on purpose mobile broadband works perfectly as quot like it just cut off ,0.0 53733,this feeling inside meit sends me sky high ,0.0 53734,my exam went pretty well thnx to rybakontwit for replying my question and making me feel better ,0.0 53735,does anyone else have a certain song that gets stuck in their head when things are starting to get bad like ill know its getting bad again thanks to many other signs and symptoms as well but when its really gonna be rough ill wake up with a specific song playing in my head nonstop anyone else have this experience,3.0 53736,off to work ,0.0 53737,im off to my french listening exam ding ding round ,0.0 53738,this writing about depression is intense i found this writing about depression and its deep ,3.0 53739,i hate myself i fucking hate myself i want to fucking kill myself im ugly a lesbian worthless useless dumb i fucking hate everything about myself there is no good quality about me at least if i was pretty that would make me feel better but im not i hate my face i hate who i am i hate myself i want to die,3.0 53740,i suck at school all my friends have graduated my community college and im still here doing my general ed because i keep failing my classes its been years i keep telling myself never to give up but it gets harder every time im trying online school next so wish me luck i guess i still have no direction in life ,3.0 53741,almost done with this term why does it have to be so nice out today while im stuck in here ,2.0 53742,jonasbrothers hey when does joe single ladies dance come out its been way too long lol ,0.0 53743,combating feelings of depression and loneliness check out this video httpstcodaudpyqyjs,2.0 53744,rt julily no amp now im sad no ones ever loved me like this ,1.0 53745,rt sugaplumcris depression ,2.0 53746,goatfox chardonnay please ,0.0 53747,morphiine yeah just say the ad some time back hilarious stuff ,0.0 53748,ryanlopez are you happy now ,0.0 53749,just moved into the new apartment no internet yet though ,2.0 53750,michelleclaudia lol is somebody abit shy lol aww hes lucky connections and on holiday x,2.0 53751,day off boring without wife home feeling vacant ,2.0 53752, thanks for the bday wish darl ,0.0 53753,rt necation okay i think im good nowmy depressionhttpstcofssbgcwvmn,0.0 53754,glennrhalliday i just copypasted the image from someone elses you can do the same copy it from mine and paste it into your info,0.0 53755,trying to get ready but uhhh my skinny jeans are mia the moment ampyay having followers ,0.0 53756,loveless i dont love myself therefore i will never be loved,3.0 53757,like when im sober as shit i just be sad as hell,2.0 53758,booking a room at the hotel roger williams in nyc ,0.0 53759,rt hogwartsmaglc everything about harry potter that i see now just makes me so nostalgic forever suffering from post potter depression,1.0 53760,rt hoecry ur wcw sleeps for hours at night and still takes a fat depression nap when she gets home its me im ur wcw,2.0 53761,albertusdimas betexpop nadyanique did any of you guys notice that i felt asleep mins before the movie was finished silly me ,2.0 53762,rt mochimanggae hows a liscensed mental health professional out here calling ppl that share stories about their own mental health throug,2.0 53763,a thought if you could think of one thing that helps anchor you to the world what would it beis it perverse in that you hate it but depend on it or is it more beneficial,3.0 53764,having trouble sticking with it feels like im running out of road new old acc cause i lost the login to the other its getting so bad i feel so empty that i can feel it being sucked out of my chest like a vacuum i dont know why im still here death feels so comforting somethingsplease give some advice,3.0 53765,rt clayfeathers melania trump questions kathy griffins mental health after trump beheading photo thursdaythoughts ,1.0 53766,i am on the computer bored out my mind xxx ,2.0 53767,rt patamapost dont feel sad over someone who gave up on you feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would have never gi,1.0 53768,wondering when or if i will ever get the chanc to speak to team demiampselina ,0.0 53769,has a sore throat ,2.0 53770,ooommmm goodness i just checked the school calendar there are days left ,2.0 53771,who wants to write the rest of my essay ill give you a hug and a dollar ,0.0 53772,tonightmy heart is a little broken so it needs a little tlc its ben a rough night ,2.0 53773,danish summer is so depressing rainrain and lot of rain some times it feels like im living in monsoon area ,2.0 53774,my parents dont seem to care about me and its killing me im and sometimes i wish i was adopted by a nice loving family that genuinely cared and payed attention to me my father works all day and barely speaks to me and my mother lives with her abusive boyfriend who hates me and their child i dont have friends as i am incredibly introverted and anti social im okay with this and i dont really have the desire to make friends i just wish i had parents who cared and made an effort to spend at least some time with me maybe this sounds selfish but oh well i stopped going to public school and now im just homeschooled i dont have any motivation to do work it feels pointless im fucking failing my junior year i dont have any hobbies anymore i just watch youtube and tv all day and go on the occasional walk because everything just seems fucking pointless ive began pondering suicide maybe jump in front of a car i do not think id be able to go through with itidk maybe im just blaming my depression on my parents when theyre not the cause of it idk idk idk i apologize for this sounding like a sob story and i do recognize there are people with way more significant problems i just dont know what to do or how to feel or anything please help me ive been in tears this whole evening and i truly wish i was dead than lead a pointless life with no genuine family to be there for me and care,3.0 53775,rt lucldity sad bitch hours,2.0 53776,textmate is broken on my imac ,2.0 53777,alexalltimelow i can do it ,0.0 53778,im working on my lab stuff this is so sad ,2.0 53779,my mum just told me she got alana and my tickets to the academy is not even that can make me happy ,2.0 53780,got stupid report back and failed maths but passed everything else got my first c in geography go me ,2.0 53781,surfers tomorrow hopefully i wont have to walk past shops and see strippers dancing around up on their poles ,0.0 53782,jendisaster missing u no it wasnt finally sleeping more then hours hell yes it was hahaha ,0.0 53783,dawnbalagot you havent accepted my invite in facebook yet ,2.0 53784,basically putting bandaids on your feelings ive been depressed for years now as my therapist put it ive been rejecting all my emotions to keep the bad ones away my day to day life is basically just going through the motions but when left alone i can feel the twinges of sadness breakthrough tears well up in my eyes and just as it came it goes leaving me back in the pit of indifference ,3.0 53785, good morning ,0.0 53786,driis i am enjoying your online radio great am music ps just finished of the wire last night and watched you die ,2.0 53787,its because of the universe i wasnt superstitious or anything before but after fighting it for so many years i believe its the universe fault everything that happened in my life is because of someone else i have been sexually abused as a child and instead of blaming those responsible i blamed myself for my actions though out my teenage life to top it all when people found out about it usually told by the abuser they made fun of me with insults like man whore and other stuff so in order to avoid it i had to be extra nice to everyone so they wouldnt say those things to me which put a dent to my personality because i cant really say what i am thinking to anyone my best friend dont even know who i really am or what i am up against i lost all my confidence after things started to get a little better i didnt had a connection with my father to him i was like a son who he had to provide for no emotional connection at all when relation with my father started to get better he got sick amp died within a year after him my mother took all of my fathers inheritance to make the matter worse after month of his death she had a secret affair with my fathers friend who later died in an accident exposing her secret to everyone because of my dysfunctional family amp circumstances i feel miserable thinking about ending it gives me relief for few moments then its back again even when i try to stay positive something happens which kicks all motivation miles away this is like a time i have observed that whenever after extreme effort i try to be positive something bad happens not because of me but because of somebody else which makes me miserable again i am starting to believe universe hates me amp want to punish me its always one after another thing very few people have this many bad things happen to them from the very beginning and i dont think whatever this is will stop happening unless i forcibly put a stop to it idk if this makes any sense or not but stillenglish is not my first language so forgive my mistakes that i have made above ,3.0 53788,just want to maybe hold him im so sad i hope hes doing alright ,0.0 53789,off to work til then spending the day with the fam its dreary out ,2.0 53790,but had fun with a good friend ,0.0 53791,exploremqt does the performance still suck such a shame xunit is really really easy to host,2.0 53792,amandasan thats how it appears when theyre good at their job ,0.0 53793, u not comin u playin us ,2.0 53794,whitneyhj ummmmmm u could of told me he was going to be in the d punk ,0.0 53795,well ive been doing my it coursework all day i have made quite a lot of progress now im watching people on the wii fit ,0.0 53796,apparently if youre not a mountain biker youre not part of the quotcool groupquot at work ,2.0 53797,had a great work out hanging with the family tonight woo hoo,0.0 53798,is a whole load of tired still on with the job search ,2.0 53799,im boy and a lot of stuff has been stressful and i wish a girl in my school liked me or hugs me i always cry because im alone and a lot of things have been stressful for the past or years like my grades and my dad passed almost years ago and a lot of other stuff i cry myself to sleep too literally ive tried to get a girlfriend but nobody likes me i wish a girl in my school liked me or hugged me and tell me its ok and that would really be a good feeling ive also never hugged a girl ever i know i have my whole life ahead of me but this depression and sadness is so strong and i cant take it anymore i wish i could just end it or take a break from life without acually dying because i dont want to die i dont want to kill myself because i know ill regret it and i know exactly what my family would feel like because my dad killed himself i wish i could go to heaven without dying and just take a break,3.0 53800,marismith have a safe trip doll was thrilled to meet you at ,0.0 53801,thoughts on being depressed and unemployed yet still keeping strong to myself and all of you lovely people going through the same shit its hard to land on a decent job with depression and anxiety then being unemployed no income just make you more depressed and desperateive been in this vicious cycle for a long time its just so difficult to get out of it and it really gets addictiveid advice to work with one problem at a time i say first thing first we have to be mentally strong and healthy to get the rest of the boxes checked try to think positively dig deep into your mind find something you love to do and try to do it often whether its exercise painting cooking learning a new language anything its okay to fall out of the new routine at the beginning remember anything youre doing is progress really just start somewhere youll find something more along the way try not to dwell on the past or feel bad about the present you because its not the person who you really are youre way much better than that you have to keep that in mind one more thing if you dont feel well physically go see a doctor dont delay normally we wont see a doctor when we got a flu because we have a healthy immune system but when were depressed our immune system weakens due to the inevitably poor diet and sleeping pattern as a result it wont work well to fight bad viruses in our body just granted us more beautiful opportunities hope we can make one of them go in our way cheers guys ,3.0 53802,never watch the food network when youre hungry ,2.0 53803,got after school detention lunch times and if i dont go to them i will get more after schools ,0.0 53804,binged at italiannis last cheat day man i swear head still hurtsss ,2.0 53805,i was forced to park my car properly all for seconds when the person to be picked up is just in the lift ,2.0 53806,itsrpattinson thanx good luck night,0.0 53807,nite all my tweeps god loves u so much and so do i,0.0 53808,all i wanna do is dance and chill is that too much to ask for ,2.0 53809,lovelyess sorry if i made you upset ,2.0 53810,finally off the phone that conversation was pretty deep realized alot wow kind of an asshole ,2.0 53811,im too scared to commit suicide does that make me a coward i am scared it could be a mistake that that i would regret if i could see my death in perspective,3.0 53812,wishes verizon had iphone ,2.0 53813,jangelo i did use the term hammertime in my books but it connotes something entirely different ,0.0 53814,unexpected visit makes me anxious and depressed my moms boyfriend came around unexpectedly and i dont know why but that just messed me up after a pretty good couple of weeks i suddenly got all gloomy and wanted to cry when my mom asked if i want anything from the store because her boyfriend was gonna come in a couple of minutes i like him and i dont have anything against him but his presence really disturbed me now because im a toddler and i have so little control over my mood im hiding under my blanket crippled by fear im super hungry havent eaten since last dinner and for some reason i just hate the idea of him seeing me eat or seeing me at all and right now i just dislike him and wish he was gone even worse is that my mom just left to go to my grandparents for a couple of hours and i expected him to go too so i can eat something and maybe get out of my room but he fricking asked for pajama so he is sleeping over im so angry and upset and tired it just seems like everything is so wrong i cant even explain why this is happening why am i cring for literally nothing why cant i face him why cant i even moveafter months of pills and cbt i tought the dark and lonely days were being me and now it feels so heavy im trowing an internal tantrum over an unexpected visit i wish i was a normal person,3.0 53815,doing paperwork for may last month of tutoring ,2.0 53816,teresamedeiros i adore authors that help other authors ,0.0 53817, terrible when work gets in the way of socialising good to see you too,0.0 53818,finally a break a whole week off ,0.0 53819,tfw you feel super sad and depressed and realize ur just hungry,1.0 53820,dannygokey danny i love you hahah your amazinggg,0.0 53821,hand spinner tri fidget adhd anxiety austim stress reducer desk toy edc metal via ebay ,1.0 53822,id like to have depressed friends can someone pls tell me about websites or something for young people suffering from depression to connect with each other or just message me idk,3.0 53823,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 53824,spacecampblues ahhh you just got it ,2.0 53825,diversity were fantastic so glad they won last night stavros flatley hilarious surprised they didnt make top three all over now ,2.0 53826,rt heinzehaley learning to cope with my anxiety has definitely been a challenge,1.0 53827,my tommy hurtsso baddd ,2.0 53828,stresspnp,2.0 53829, i never get hit on or talked shit too ,2.0 53830,almost havent finished analyzing the scientific ppr screw school work gotta kill chicks tmr my course is evil gotta sleep,2.0 53831,sam and jenn are coming over to make my day start off wonderfully i love them okay,0.0 53832,emo music playlist suggestions hello allim looking for sad song suggestions when im up in my emo feels 🙄 id love to hear what you guys listen to ,3.0 53833,sun aint shining no more tired and got work soon ,2.0 53834,going to get me some milk ,0.0 53835,explodedsoda its the weekend a week of exams and then youre off home that aint so bad right ,0.0 53836,been bumping ltj bukem tracks off youtube every morning this summer and i think it cured my seasonal depression,2.0 53837,nguyennoir thanks man vì lật lại các tweet trước thì nâu nắm ,2.0 53838,for security reason your session has timedout gt coz i was trying to understand your stupid password policy i dont like to reenter,2.0 53839,why do any of us deserve the pain we go through why do i deserve this why does my family deserve this what did i do god whatd i do did i murder somebody in my past life or what,3.0 53840,timmmmehh omg timmy what a waste it was beautiful today i went to the beach was awesome,2.0 53841,i cant find pleasure in anything hi im years old and ive been depressed since i started high school due to bullying i miss the memories from middle school i wasnt bullied and i always got along i was little bit weird back then but luckily i was funny and people accepted me at grade i hit puberty and i think i grew alot emotionally i became more self aware i couldnt talk loud and shout funny things on corridors and be crazy and that was the only thing people liked in me i became more secluded and started hung around quiet people my old friends tried to be friends with me again by trying to tell me jokes and talk to me but i started to get nervous around them because i feared i wouldnt get back into their group and when i didnt know how to react to a joke i just laughed sarcastically back i dont know what i was thinking back then im cringing rn and naturally they felt offended and they started to mock me well i managed to survive last three years almost alone and depressed i finally went to high school and my only friend luckily got selected to the same high school first year was amazing everyone was nice and mature i was wrong i made alot of friends with same interests as me and my motivation to study was through the roof but then my friend from middle school wanted to get in the tough guys group of our class and he fucking backstabbed me and started to bully me infront of them for acceptance that day on i was yelled every day and i held my tears the whole day until i could go home and cry myself to sleep i had to move to a different school hour buss drive i became more depressed than ever before i had to stop going to the gym because i developed a fear of social interactions and i feared to see my bullies in the public now whenever i try to meet my friends in the public i suddenly get a panic attack and i have to go home fast i have been escaping my depression through video games and i have been working out indoors i have now lost pleasure in any of those activities now everything is pain and i cant even sleep anymore i recently had my birthday and i realized i am almost and still living like a manchild i dont even have a girlfriend yet now i only can think of my middle school crush god i cant stop thinking about her it hurts me more because i know i never could be with her i have literally nothing to offer how can i stop thinking about her is it because my loneliness please help someone talk to me please ,3.0 53842,am end wird sich die ausgelassenheit noch in depression wandelngt vergeben vielleicht vergessen n ,1.0 53843,haha found the key egidius tot zo thesun you better come back very fast or i will burn you down,0.0 53844,asking my mom tu go out ,2.0 53845,acgaughen hooray good news honey congratulations ,0.0 53846,i want a tattoo ,2.0 53847,ahhhhhhhhhhh i love you beck x,0.0 53848,i have to be at work in hours i cant make myself get out of bed this new job and working at night has caused a major flare up of depression right now showering dressing walking to work and working at a job that im terrible at makes me feel sick my husband and parents are also coming home tomorrow and my house is nasty i have to clean everything tomorrow morning im so tired ,3.0 53849,but courtesy of enews last night shout out to giuliana rancic and jason kennedy cmm and hilarie burton are off one tree hill ,2.0 53850,i feel like an alien even in my home with my family i feel like i dont fit in i honestly dont think there is anyone else that im like yeah i relate to some people but i just feel so different from everybody i just want to find someone who gets all of me i thought id found that person but after time ive worked out that they dont get me its like i always have to keep parts of myself hidden from people because nobody gets it,3.0 53851,rt loopzoop hello hour depression nap do you remember mein monaco i made u that bracelet,2.0 53852,making themes for my phone d review starts tomorrow ,2.0 53853,rt quien me va a querer si no me quiero ni yo re sad,2.0 53854,im only with terrible anxt etc and no one relates its always attention seeking this and youre happy sometimes so youre not that and im sick of it everyone my age is so insensitive to my mental health problems and opening up to them about it is just a landline for insults and isolation and i cant find anyone older to speak with because who wants to speak to someone my age about that its useless and my happiness is deteriorating day by day every good day will end up in crying and despair everythings awful and im just not happy anymore childhood isnt the same and its cliche to be sad at my age but stuff really is awful,3.0 53855,twitter is so great on my iphone ,0.0 53856,here comes the pain ,2.0 53857,flyingwithfish i cant make it to sxm with the baby coming ,2.0 53858,followers up to soon be over ,0.0 53859,xpamrose thanks lol i dont think anyone has ever wished someone good luck on their plane crash before but i know what you mean ,0.0 53860,where am i ,2.0 53861,ladymaryann oh no i dont want to mention that thing with the hat more than anoop in my updates ,0.0 53862, although i am sure his replies are full of phs name by now so its not in my power to stop it ,2.0 53863,found out today that parking at kenny chesney on saturday is yowsers ,2.0 53864,ive got a lot of ideas for morganes fictionxd tom wheres your cock pull it out of there now gtlt ,0.0 53865,thatwomansoho or lovingly kicked in the a ,0.0 53866,i really want to see night of the museum the jobros have a small part in it ,0.0 53867, im not sad ,0.0 53868,lovelykatherine oh dear well i certainly hope notsorry ,2.0 53869, happy birthday enjoy it ,0.0 53870,going to my least favorite classes today ugh i hate tuesdays ,2.0 53871,rollercoaster yesterday i was having such a great clear headed day i was genuinely happy and having a good time just going out and about today i woke up skipped class glued to my bed for hours finally managed to get up and make a sandwich i need to go to the gym more than anything but i just cant so im back in bed im so down but no particular reason just anxious as hell and hopeless i have loads of school work i need to be doing but i cannot bring myself to begin im just overwhelmed ive lost my spunk,3.0 53872,purpleface totally get that some of my silly photos are popular like i dont know er well my blurry ones ,2.0 53873,feeling hopeless and isolating after relapsing its really hard for me to be dealing with depression again after i had a good years of being recovered i never pictured myself relapsing this badly i feel like ive failed and this time the storm has come back louder and stronger going through this battle again makes me scared im afraid of getting through this really shitty patch of my life and relapsing yet again its like why do i have to keep going through this what did i do wrong why let me have a false sense of feeling okay and good about my life for years to have it all come crashing down again i guess im just scared that it does get better but it also gets worse again eventually im feeling really numb and lost as to what to do anymore i dont know if anyone will even really read this i just wish someone would understand,3.0 53874,twitter downtime who cares twitters brilliant ,0.0 53875,tinkermom it does make me happy but now i am sad cuz i got french poodle pants dirty while supervising now im wearing boring pants ,2.0 53876,started seeing a therapist just cause im an antisocial loaf with no real friends year old male im married and happy with her no complaints in the love department been married under a year but together years things in my relationship are good butshes kind of my only friend she has a solid albeit small circle of friends shes very close with her family and she gets along good with her coworkers as for me i have one friend im not close with my family whatsoever and i seldom talk to anyone at work i tried talking about this with my wife but now i kind of avoid the topic she kind of takes things too personallygets too emotional i would tell her im depressed and i would get a lot of why are you depressed are you not happy with me and i dont make you happy do i i am happy with her im just not happy with myself and also i feel really estranged from other people im a social failure and have zero clue how to socialize when im not with my wife i feel out of place and sad as fuck i think its mainly because as a child i was very isolated its just always how ive been i have no real childhood memories honestly all i really did was just stay in my room and watch television i dont really recall my childhood i dont think im repressing anything and i dont think theres any trauma i just really think it was so boring and uneventful theres nothing to remember it feels like im an alien that was dropped off here and forgot aboutso i started seeing a therapist been going for about months now i told my therapist the reason im seeing her is because of depression but honestly im just sad and lonely and want someone to talk to i seen therapists in the past but the one im seeing is totally different most therapists make you only talk about yourself and they give you zero information about themselves or they never talk about themselves it kind of feels like an interrogation however with this therapist it feels like a genuine conversation shes kind and funny but i still barely say a word after two months i suck at articulating how i feel because im not used to talking to people i find myself looking forward to therapy sometimes even when its or days away i want to talk to my therapist and chit chat and all that stuff i dont have feelings for her i hope when you read this that is not the impression you get i want to talk to her becausewell shes like a new friend i guess like yay i have someone to talk to i feel pretty pathetic about thati think next session ill tell her the real reason im in therapy is im just sad and lonely and have no real friends to talk to ill tell her i think i need a friend and maybe not a therapist i shouldnt view her as a friend ill ask her if thats inappropriate and maybe i should stop seeing heri dont know this is a long post and i have no fucking idea why i made it,3.0 53877,mellykaples when were you in boston im going up there this thursday ,0.0 53878,circa is back in the studio eating amp catching up on emails convos calls oh my great weekend thanks to great friends amp customers ,0.0 53879,i now be taking requests if anyone wants a song remixed reply me might take me a while since mum takes the laptop again today,0.0 53880,sore head sore feet sore neck ok so my whole body is just sore ,2.0 53881,kingsthings welcome to chicago enjoy the game im redsox fan living in chicago ,2.0 53882,i want to go back to sleep wake up time for a term break is an ungodly hour ,2.0 53883,sunnymchao yum chocolate pudding you tease me with that and the naps i want a nap and pudding too ,2.0 53884,theineffabelle mine too mine is an autistic savant though,0.0 53885,im really strugglin to get on here it never lets me on ,2.0 53886,really want to watch the mtv movie awards ,2.0 53887,rt dloesch proving that i occupy so much of their head space just affirms my influence rather than diminishing it thanks for taking arro,1.0 53888,shannongrissom grannypig followfriday thank you im still not even close to what i had as gottalaff ,2.0 53889,what does depression feel like okay i know little to nothing about mental illness i always had this idea that i wasnt or couldnt be effected by it ive been having some weight loss lack of appetite and fatigue for months now i was sure it was something physical and i went to the doctor everything came back normal besides a common infection that many people have h pylori ive nearly taken all of my antibiotics and while i may feel somewhat better im still so fucking tired all the time i dont feel sad i dont feel anything i feel like a zombie i do think about suicide who wouldnt i feel terrible suicide would end this feeling i cant live like this how do i even begin to talk to my doctor about this i go back to see how the antibiotics did in a few weeks and i dont know how to tell him i dont feel much better at all i shouldnt be depressed theres no way i am ive been given everything in my life my life is so easy i just want to see a doctor everyday ive literally had these thoughts or even dreams of just being able to see a doctor once a month for a check up im not afraid of dying if someone told me that i would die tomorrow i would be completely content with it if someone told me i would have to live my whole life feeling like i do now i would want to die tomorrow i feel so overwhelmed im healthy guy and i should not feel like this is there any illness at my age being healthy that can cause crippling fatigue ,3.0 53890,good morning and have a great day to all the twitterverse ,0.0 53891,completely lost and alone why is it so hard to have anything good i dont know where to begin with this post and i feel like its just going to make things worse but i just need to talk to someone else so badly right nowall i ever wanted in life was friends i dont have the best social skills and ive always been acutely aware of that having real relationships with the opposite sex has been hard because of that but at least in high school for a bit it meant i could be friends with them pretty easy ive never really gotten along with guys as well so having the few galpals i had was great then i screwed that up because one of them liked mefast forward to college a super cute sweet girl found me at freshman orientation and fell for me i was scared and skeptical but i went for it it wasnt without its flaws but it was a great relationship i spent all my time with her i didnt try to make friends i didnt try to build new bonds i was dumb we graduated she left with another guy for grad school i was left behind alonei spent three years after college alone i lived in my parents house working what could hardly even count as part time jobs where i could get them and that was it if i wasnt working i was home there wasnt anything to do in my part of the world if you werent in school unless you liked hunting or being super outdoorsyand here we are now i got a job i moved away from home what little stability i had left i abandoned for money and a chance to start a new life and now here i am still in the same boat i go to work i come home maybe i eat maybe i play some games to distract myself but thats happening less and less i mainly just go to bed now i hate my job and i shouldnt because its what ive always wanted to do but its so stressful and i have no one to talk to i have no one to share the joys and pains of life with i dont care if that person is my soulmate or a good relationship i just want a friend why is that so hard to findive tried meeting people at work but they go through the same stress i do and they have people to vent to at home they dont want me venting to them all the time i dont know anyone here nor do i have much time to do things outside of work i tried dating apps i tried but if anything those just make it worse i thought the dating apps were the worst at first no one ever seems to answer me regardless of how i approach them but the hasnt helped i have had a few people try talking to me and theyve not been bad but something just feels so artificial about it even though i try to make my intentions clear that im just looking for friends it just seems off and now i end up ignored by girls hit on by guys and all i want is a good friend just to talk to ive sort of given up on finding someone near me i really would have loved to have a friend to hang out with grab some food and do things with but even such a simple thing as that seems too much anymore i just dont want to be alone and yet here i am just thatto those few people that have messaged me on here im sorry if this hurts you or offends you somehow i do appreciate that you took time to actually share with me some it just doesnt feel right to me trying to get friendship via what basically feels like a resume showing off all the good and leaving out all the bad in hopes that i fit the criteria of what someone else is searching forive already set myself up to try to get a therapist but she has been really slow and inconsistent in emailing me so i dont feel hopeful about that either and this wouldnt be the first time ive been screwed over by a therapist my last one just up and changed fields without so much as a notification and i was left with no real progress im on meds for my depression and anxiety but depending on the day they either feel like theyre doing nothing or occasionally they just amplify my feelings insteadtldr im alone im a mess and i feel like i cant catch a break i know my situation isnt the worst i know there are people that have it worse in the world i dont need to hear that i just want a friend i dont expect to find them here i just need to vent probably just gonna go to bed now,3.0 53892,desithis sadly it sounds a lot better then it actually tastes ,2.0 53893,ah geez it is quotcall kari and make her feel homesickquot day just got a call from my parents got to hear my nephew he said quothi tia laaluquot ,2.0 53894,jakechew i love that song i have it on my ipod pa nga eh the only bjork song i love,0.0 53895,wake upmagic lost to lakers today thougha lovely day,2.0 53896,oh crud looks like im sleepin with the nitelite on and nitemares now i shouldntve watched that alone i get freaked way to easily ,2.0 53897,just want to remind everyone that there is hope and it does get better i know the feeling of complete and utter despair that many of you face daily i know that in many ways it is not copeable you feel like youre dying inside or you very much have a desire to not live anymore i know that pain and how real it is however just know that with the right doctor and the right combination of medications it will subside almost completely if youre constantly feeling this pain then something is clearly wrong with your treatment just know that it does get better it does get easier brain chemistry can be a real asshole at times but it is very treatable and you dont have to live in a constant state of suffering hang on to that hope ,3.0 53898,watching the spellingbee to ward off depression,2.0 53899,im so down right now dont wanna do anything but talking to u but the question is whered u go,2.0 53900,i has a bright red umbrella they didnt have a pink one to match my ds or a purple to match my purse ,2.0 53901,blueholly naked women or the umhygiene machines ,0.0 53902, i just followed you ,0.0 53903,im really wishing i had someone to talk to about my problems that wont put me down or quottellquot me what i should do just listen ,2.0 53904, red light green light we miss you ,2.0 53905,i was sad and didnt drink enough water fridaysunday and now my lips are a crusty mess i cant wait to smother so ,2.0 53906,gotta sleep soon my whole body is tired from long dayy trip hooaaahhh so sick ,2.0 53907,night god is love,0.0 53908,says good evening httpplurkcomprdqak,0.0 53909, your welcome,0.0 53910,rt sumzox if you dont like her poetry then keep it moving to make someone delete their posts deactivate their social media accounts,0.0 53911,mhjerpe mm good then the eyes are still working good morning ,0.0 53912,help me i build that tall platform of hope and dreams that some day i will be happy one day that im standing on and i feel like someone is slowly but steadily going with chainsaw and i feel like its going to break any min now i cant even write it out rn im losing every part of me im terrified to go to school first lesson starts in hour while im writing this i feel so alone,3.0 53913,oo its late here i will go to bed now good night twitter good night everyone bye,0.0 53914,carlyprunier pre grad depression gt post grad depression,2.0 53915,need to get to bed go to work at ,2.0 53916,shamubaby aww dont do that ,2.0 53917,lananasensation omg i work out wt that too lol in tan color thou ,0.0 53918,going to bedhave to work tomorrow ,2.0 53919,stewartkris sorry your twitter got hacked ,2.0 53920,creating a portfolio by working my ass off in bicol sucks that im missin fashion week boo,2.0 53921,half way through new moon starting to bore me i could just wait for the movie november ,2.0 53922,exercising eating healthy bathing cleaning taking therapy but nothings working depressed from a very young age due to upbringing and my early life family school etc cant feel anything except occasional seething rage and my body feels numb all the time years ago i got sick of it and decided to try helping it read up on body health hygiene and links to depression so i decided to test it out got a therapist i talk to and began working out consistently times a week lifting and running bathing everyday cleaning my room and eating healthy from my own cooking now all i got out of it was a healthy body thats just going to live for longer the change in looks is massive and people seem to be friendlier to me which only makes me hate them more as chances are they wouldnt have done the same before completely shallow and before you ask no i wouldnt have done the same ive been told to just be yourself which genuinely pisses me off after years of this shit and being told to change you tell me to be myself am i supposed to change or be myself make up your fucking mindmy personality hasnt changed im still an unfeeling piece of shit with nothing interesting to say no friends no one intimate untrusting still the same old numbness nothing seems to work,3.0 53923,yay another hot day ,0.0 53924,please tell me someone was watching the bostonorlando game one word wow ,0.0 53925, haha and aw going to bed so soon ,0.0 53926,woopahrah yea iv been meanin to ask how come u left bhs iv been ok quite ill atm with the flu works gettin me down but other than t ,2.0 53927,wendyuk i dont know i wish i didhas all us aussie fans really upset though i feel like a big baby ive been crying alot over it,2.0 53928,jordanknight or at least dm us and say hello ,0.0 53929,annemarieevans well no disasters is always a good start mate hope you have a good one and it stays calm ,0.0 53930,meglizmiller i try to be both one is easier then the other polite that is ,0.0 53931,failing at college ive been in a college for two years my family loves and supports me how much more could i ask foryet here i am not even getting decent grades for the lessons my family paid for ive been letting them down for two years straight people thought that i was smarty pants but all i can see myself is as an incompetent failure i have doubts that ill ever succeed in anything i do it just feels like a shitty reason to be depressed but i just cant lift myself up so many people have it much worse but here i am sobbing over not making use of the opportunities given to me what do i do,3.0 53932,debbiefletcher hey debbie take a look at my new mcflys shirt what do you think ,0.0 53933,anotha sleepless night damn insomnia and i messed up my sleeping habits again,2.0 53934,the hunt for a psychiatrist that accepts my insurance has gotten me nowhere my mind is slowly deteriorating i cant brush my teeth or wash my face in the morning and i feel like i will one day collapse due to my health i cant control my feelings or my thoughts i think i have bipolar and adhd i dont know how i can continue im becoming jealous of those around me and i hate it its beginning to affect other people ionly have a little spurt of energy ive gained all of a sudden to call these pyschiatrists most arent taking new patients i went to three family service leagues with my girlfriend miles apart none are taking more patients for mental health programs others wont answer repeated calls and one is hour i barely got enough money to get a sandwich i try i tell you i try and i pray but i can feel my energy run out im going to collapse maybe wake up in a hospital or in gods hands i do not know whichdeath seems more and more like a more comfortable option but i cannot do that to my girl i just cant shes going through depression as well and itdprobably kill her if i gothose around me can afford these necessary doctors like its nothing but im like a black sheepits weird even thinking about cutting seems to ruin my energyand i cannot follow through with it i cant remember simple things at times i cant keep still it gives me anxiety and i cant ever finish things books homework anything idkim sorry i pray your days are good,3.0 53935,so upset atampt just came out with a new nokia smartphone i knew i should have waited i like my phone but i am a nokia user by heart ,2.0 53936,emmegsmith youre sick nooo ,2.0 53937,jennifalconer ponies will be back was just in a genesis mood my other passion in life ,0.0 53938,the dog is sleeping and looks so incredibly cute gonna get some pictures of him the sexy snake who is currently eating her dinner ,0.0 53939,my dog is in so much pain ,2.0 53940,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 53941,doing laundry when i get back id like to recieve a million replys tytyty ,0.0 53942,today is a good day for a trip ,0.0 53943,it is hailing ,2.0 53944, i couldnt it was hard but it doesnt work on my computer so im only aloud to play when my brother lets me use his laptop ,2.0 53945,ditucci thats ok as long as youre thinking about me great job especially given your extremely busy schedule,0.0 53946,rt pakejadinda cun la untuk korang nak release stress hujung minggu ni ajak member orang pun da best nithe stick kuala kubu baru,1.0 53947,craigslist is broken no one is buying my stuff ,0.0 53948,turning next week and i feel like swallowing all of my medication so i wont deal with it turning next thursday and what do i have to show for it a new parttime job but nothing else not even a fucking associates degree im two classes away from graduating but not even that i can do this semester because my new job interferes with my schedule and its just one fucking class im taking once a week i cant choose one over the otheri dont need to be told that my cousins are moving forward or some bullshit just because they joined the air force or whatever i dont want to go to work next week and have my coworkers celebrate a day where i feel like utter shit im so fucking tired i thought i could do better but i feel like crying all night even on my prozac i suddenly want to die im so tired,3.0 53949,mileycyrus jealous everytime i go it happens to be sunday ,2.0 53950,just woke up not loong enough ,2.0 53951,didnt get the item on videogamesplus which was shipped on april ,2.0 53952,im having a long long very long night till the sun rises ,0.0 53953,at warnet haha w ayu and will go to vertex again ,0.0 53954,themonkeyboy poor monkey boy i had sum thoughts but it was a boy ,2.0 53955, do chickens have ear we just dont know ,2.0 53956,finally weekend tonight my date with mona at elit one strawberry white chocolate martini for me i have to drive home ,2.0 53957,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 53958,tournament almost donee congratulations to those who got place ,0.0 53959,on the bus heading to town ,0.0 53960,i wanted to go out so bad but looks like im gonna be stuck at home ,2.0 53961,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 53962,good thing i texted thea i thought i closed tomorrow i am cosa tomorrow which means getting up early not cool,2.0 53963,networking class is too tiring ,2.0 53964,erincg may ,0.0 53965,this depression shit is mindnumbing years old been depressed on and off for about years now i went to therapy before for a while but my favorite therapist moved away so i stopped going never took medication but i was prescribed it lately just had a massive relapse of depression after some rejections real or just perceived not sure and some blows to my ego depression literally just feels like trudging through the muck and its so fucking hard i just wanna be loved and held but apparently its too much to ask for doesnt help being gay either when will this end,3.0 53966,just finished posting a couple of things on ebay yay ,0.0 53967,caitkitt glad to hear that the writing shall commence rather than baked caitlin ,0.0 53968,jenniferjsmith wooohooo how exciting i cant wait till i can afford to pay to you to design my future house ,0.0 53969,whenever i feel down i go up on my apartment roof and look at the night sky seeing the bountiful lights as solemn cars pass through the empty streets it makes me think twice about aiming for the pavement about ft below and how beautiful this planet is,3.0 53970,feel bad for everyone stuck outside in the rain while rogers iphone s upgrades fail via reneritchie,2.0 53971,esse meu sumi�o do twitter me custou followers ,2.0 53972,deevazquez lol shes offering me a case of guiness can you one up her if you buy me two ill stay lets start the bidding wars,2.0 53973, u r looking smply beautifulyesterday i saw ur tour trip on nbcvery inspired with ur life ,0.0 53974,read that as cockblowing i am less interest ,2.0 53975,turning into a real vampire i kinda likes it,0.0 53976,bad day today was bad i hurt myself for the first time im okay it is practically a cat scratch but still i called my mom in a panic because i was ashamed of what i had done she came home and cleaned me up i told her i was afraid to let my boss know i couldnt come into work today because depression isnt a good enough excuse my mom looked at me and said you are in pain that is enough,3.0 53977,theamybrenneman haha loving that you get cool makeup people post a picture of you in your dress,0.0 53978,lonelybob yep jon is infamous doing really cool stuff there,0.0 53979,take off gives me anxiety but my flights also been delayed hours so im having some crazy mixed feelings about this flight,2.0 53980,dontsqueezeme i am now but i looked really funny walking into work this morning with a water bottle pressed to my forehead ,0.0 53981,i feel so dead inside i dont want to kill myself but i also dont want to exist anymore i feel like im just a huge burden on everyone maybe if i actually did go through with it then my family would get a decent sized life insurance payout then instead of me owing them money i would have finally been able to pay them back my boyfriend would find someone who doesnt fuck up cooking even rice i dont want to die i just cant think of a reason to keep going,3.0 53982, will make a nice change ,0.0 53983,wondering whether the tide will turn someone motivate me for gym,2.0 53984,lets buy hawaii its only money babystill in the car still in pa tiffs sleeping im listening to the years gone by and valencia,2.0 53985,attempted to stop my boredom but the sims only stopped it for a little while ,2.0 53986,almost all of my problems have very obvious essentially failsafe solutions yet here i am i should be in a great place right now considering all the resources i have access to but i just stagnateif i started doing homework and going to class i wouldnt be failingif i turned off my computer and phone at i wouldnt be tired all dayif i got a job i wouldnt be running out of moneyif i told people about my problems i wouldnt have to constantly lie to everyone in my lifeif i picked up the phone and made an appointment for the counseling that is literally free with my university tuition i could start turning shit aroundim pathetic,3.0 53987,yaya sisterhood i can already tell that my best friends and i are going to be like that lol ,0.0 53988,ok now the conversation got boring ,2.0 53989,tabulous ugh i totally want but im broke til friday ,2.0 53990,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 53991,morning taylor i cant find you ,2.0 53992,airliebee it just feels so incredibly heavy sad amp numb dont know quite where to start ,2.0 53993,johnguise aricsqueen thanks ,0.0 53994,i dont have motivation to do anything i dont know man even tho i got the meds from last visit to psychiatrist about two weeks ago ,3.0 53995,cephikun omg me too so much hes like the only dead actor i really miss ,2.0 53996,lol when you rub my pups ears his foot starts going just like thumper ,0.0 53997,should i keep on pursuing my crush with depression so i fell for this girl with depression long story short i asked her out on a date she turned me down saying that she recently got over another guy and is not ready to start dating again so usually i would just brush it off and move on but im truthfully not sure if she is interested but just not ready i would like to wait for her and get to know her a lot better but i think her depression gets in the way and it makes her really hard to open up to me id really like to help her and be there for her because she is a wonderful person however im also pretty realistic and if someone is not interested in becoming closer i generally wont force it i guess im just confused whether its the depression or whether she genuinely isnt interested in becoming closer any advice,3.0 53998,did not get much sleep last night hours ,2.0 53999,speedinuptostop well i appreciate you replying to that no one else will ,2.0 54000,wants to go back to sleep but she cant ,2.0 54001,i am really worried about tomorrow there is going to be terrible bloodshed no doubt about that i just hope i am wrong,2.0 54002,rt imsadimok fuck im sad,2.0 54003,tjhayabusa its not overrrr ,2.0 54004,sad news about nadals decision ,2.0 54005,ugh internet is so slow ,2.0 54006,finished at the dr zach is inches amp lbs he has vision amp good bp hes a little sore from the shots today ,2.0 54007,otaliarocks then you shall have it ,0.0 54008,wana go to septembers fashion weeek ,2.0 54009,gchahal definitely evil ,0.0 54010,no option here when u felt so bad entire life so you cant even imagine yourself happy a bit you even dont want to be happy anymore you just wish its over you dont see even the smallest chance to be happy just for a moment because there is no chance only thing you can do is to live because its not a life anymore if you dont feel anything you are not happy but you are not sad angry mad anymore you just exist you are whatever why would i wait for anything to change when there is no hope no friends no social interactions no hobbies anymore nothing makes u happy even for a moment no willingness to become smarter for myself you dont want to be rich anymore smart to get a good job you dont even want people near you because this false hope would make you also anxious ironicaly you dont even want to be happy anymore what is the reason of sad people existing in this world,3.0 54011,last day at adobe buuuut i just registered for online tech writing course,2.0 54012,are you good at pretending because i am for almost years id been pretending to be okay everywhere i went school friends at home the only place where i could be myself was my room and nobody noticed anything everyone thought i was perfectly fine but two weeks ago i decided to tell my parents and from that moment there was no pretending my parents are shocked they cant believe this is really how i am and think that this is me pretending telling them was the hardest thing to do and now they dont understand nor even believe me great job,3.0 54013,abcdude you are a great tweeter we heart abcdude sorry charlie hogged the anchor desk the other day ,2.0 54014,they extended the contest to may ,2.0 54015,wish people would upload their prom pics lol ,0.0 54016,in need of help should i go visit my grandma who is suffering from depression even though she says she doesnt want me to unfortunately my grandmas depression came back she started suffering when i was really little but it got better with medication i dont remember anything from that time unfortunately after an injury it returned with full force she is being taken care of by my grandfather atm i would like to visit her but she says she doesnt want me to come since she is not feeling well now i wonder if i should respect her wishes which obviously duh but on the other hand i wonder if it might be good for her if i stopped by anywayscould someone with the same similar illness please give me advice on this i want her to know that i care and that im there for her but i dont want to worsen her condition what should i do please help,3.0 54017, she got on the list by mistake she isnt coming ,2.0 54018,i think my problem is i just want to be loved by someone i have this constant feeling of rejection but i cant get close to anyone cause i hate myself more,3.0 54019,increased suicide risk when starting antidepressants as someone who has taken many antidepressants over the years i wish someone had taken the time when i first started taking them to explain why so many of these medications can potentially increase your risk of suicide when you first start taking them first off i want to say i know many people have many differing experiences with meds so i know this is not going to be the case for everyone i just want to share my experience and my psychiatrists and therapists reflections on my experience in hopes of helping people understand what is behind this risk of antidepressants in a lot of cases this is also not a statement of whether i believe antidepressants are good or bad in general that is a whole different discussion that i dont want to get involved inwhat my experience has taught me is that if i have suicidal ideation before i start taking an antidepressant that suicidal ideation is going to persist for some time even after i start to see mood improvements from that medication how that comes into play with increased suicide risk is that many times when i start to take a new antidepressant i am often too depressed to follow through on my suicide plans but as my mood improves i reach a point where even though i am still extremely depressed my mood has improved to the point where i am much more willing and able to follow through on my suicide plans the worst part is that it actually almost feels good when i am at this point i feel like i am in control a few years back i brought my observations to my psychiatrist as well as my therapist to see if this made any sense to them and to my pleasant surprise they told me this experience is not unique to me many other people experience the same sort of thingi wish i had known that years ago to know what to expect when i have severe suicidal ideation and i am starting to take a new antidepressant there were several times in which i wouldve taken additional precautions such as informing my practitioners and other supports and even considering hospitalization before it became an emergency situation hospitalization is definitely something you want to consider beforehand if you are concerned a medication change might lead you into crisis waiting until you are in crisis to consider hospitalization is a much worse situation to be inlastly youve probably noticed that i havent mentioned any medications in particular because while several antidepressants have had that effect on me some have not and more importantly not every antidepressant affects everyone in the same way im not looking to discourage or encourage taking any medication in particular that is a personal decision that should be made with the guidance of an experienced professional i know that majority of people starting a new antidepressant are not going to harm themselves or even have increased thoughts of suicide im just trying to help guide people through situations that i have found myself in i hope my experience has been at least somewhat informative to some of my fellow peeps out there in melancholia best of luck,3.0 54020,just got home from ethans baseball game i hope they win a game soon ,2.0 54021,talynsunshine i just tweeted about itunes ruining my infinity war preorder and im sad cause i cant watch it on mg way to surgery sigh,0.0 54022,i dont know what normal feels like anymore its strange but i havent not been suicidal in maybe years not wanting to live has just become part of my normal way of thinking its my baseline now i would change and i would try to be be better but at this point i dont even know what better looks like all my days are bad days while some days are just worse than others every night im sad and thats just what it is but i wonder what its like to not be sad to not be me i want to be the heroine in the movies i want someone to actually like me but i dont have the smile the personality or the charm i dont have anything to give in anything kind of relationship and im not anything worth taking from im nothing and im empty i would kill myself but im a teacher and though my students are pretty old learning that their teacher committed suicide would be pretty traumatic for them not to mention that someone would have to cover for me by taking care of finals and grade submissions i dont think anyone would miss me but leaving would be a huge inconvenience but that doesnt stop me from feeling bad and thinking about suicide every day i dont know what a normal life looks like and now im too tired to even imagine it,3.0 54023,i wish i didnt fly home to ireland this week i missed wax on ,2.0 54024,hopee yu all have a great dayy amp i am veryy ill x,2.0 54025,greggrunberg this makes me really want an iphone now to bad i dont have one ,2.0 54026, giiirrrlll first stop is job hunting i love interning but i need a damn paying job then boyfriend hunting ,0.0 54027, listened to the phoenix song pretty bitchin they sound french me likey ,0.0 54028,at what point should i go to the doctors ive struggled with anxiety and sadness since i was a child ive had air of ups and downs the last few years mainly with anxiety my sadness has been at bay for about years however over the past weeks its come back i have suicidal thoughts which are only accentuated when i have anxiety which is most days and tbh im just starting to feel numb i cry almost everyday i dont enjoy this particularly and i dont enjoy talking to people as much im staring to withdraw from people i love which is really upsetting especially towards my boyfriend who just wants the best for me recently ive also been struggling with my memory and i lack focus ill be talking to someone and then as soon as we stop i struggle to remember what we talked about yet i dont feel as though i have depression im able to function just not as much i can get it if bed and shower i can speak to my counsellor when i make an appointmentbut at what point do i speak to a doctor if at all sorry for bad formatting or grammar,3.0 54029,she is loving all the attentionjudges are giving accolades ,0.0 54030,sshek morning ,0.0 54031,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 54032,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 54033, agreed sometimes really vapid movie can go a long way ,0.0 54034,kangaru ya tis much fun should be done in a week or so ,0.0 54035,mitchelmusso hey mitchel i feel like ive neglected you today cause i havent replied u a hundred times like usual sorry love you ,0.0 54036,rt itsashlyperez today my therapist told me the anxiety im experiencing is called adulthood,2.0 54037,adland thanks for a nice blog post peterrosdahl should however be given some creds since he has done at least half of the work on it ,0.0 54038,the long wkend is over ,2.0 54039,tariquesani awesome pictures ,0.0 54040,relucs no not harder just different and my boys are really young men now where as yours are still boys ,0.0 54041,thinking about my dad one month tomorrow ,2.0 54042,is in love with the new duet by miley cyrus and nick jonas its a beautiful song,0.0 54043,my nose is stopped up ,2.0 54044,shufflebite doesnt let me go on camdoesnt let me sign onthink they r trying to tell me something,2.0 54045,federer vs porto final with soderling ,0.0 54046,im going to eat a burrito ,0.0 54047,morning today is the day you know what meansits monday and were going to have another great night at the loop tonight ,0.0 54048,in another time decades pass still i dream of youa day is as years when youre the thought what happened i may ask and drop my headremembering all the things we said the joy remains in my heart even though it is in many pieces each piece jas a memory of your smilethe scent of your hair lingers in my mindyour hand has a freckle like mine toes intertwined we shared a slupyafter we went to the lake and made love in the water tears could fall every moment but the do notknowing youre alive and well in the world dries my eyes most daysbut there are times the wound is fresh open and gaping i tell myself every daymaybe in another time,3.0 54049, why is this car smiling at me ,0.0 54050,its kinda sad to realize what this world has come to i shouldnt be scared to pump gas by myself but i guess tha ,2.0 54051,tommcfly aww tom is there any chance you vould come over to mexico again we miss you so much ,2.0 54052,my first bought lunch in weeks back at work katsu don of course too big too much ,2.0 54053,hello world just finished a hearty sausage mcmuffin meal yum yum,0.0 54054,got the last books of the left behind the kids series today excited to finally get to the end of the story and see how it turns out ,0.0 54055,karadiak how about getting rid of all the people who are mean to their dogs first the rspca show always makes me cry ,2.0 54056,quinnb lmaooo its all love ,0.0 54057,thank you vegankitten for your donation to our tipjoy ,0.0 54058,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 54059,s dancing round the kitchen in an attempt to be part of paramore hah ,0.0 54060,erinmusicluver i love you ,0.0 54061,hi all my trip to ikea with gemma turned into a whole evening involving lots of chilli swedish pear cider white wine and rammstein,0.0 54062,another day i wake up and see with my eye holes good morning ,0.0 54063,vegasmusic thank you ,0.0 54064,lalamarika lol biiiiiiitch i cannot believe you put the picture up of memeanie take it offffffffff,2.0 54065,all ready for work actually strarbucks then work picture of my girly dress lol ,0.0 54066,just woke up from my nap feel so refreshed ,0.0 54067,party party party ,0.0 54068,if theres anyone who needs to see my family even less than me its him ,2.0 54069,incendererm i am lost please help me find a good home ,2.0 54070,melo i need to stop being such a scaredy cat every sudden little sound is startling me ,2.0 54071,rt forjungs jangan sampai trending sensor namanya he doesnt need to see his name trending bc of this sad newsim shaking and i didnt,2.0 54072,rt tyeballew its ok to be sad sometimesits ok to be lonely sometimesits ok to cry sometimes its ok,2.0 54073,tummy hurts ,2.0 54074,mrheartbreak lol cant show her my secrets ,0.0 54075, u love but me ,2.0 54076,rt depression is not funnyanxiety is not funnyschizophrenia is not funnyselfharm is not funnyanorexia is not fun,0.0 54077,gonna watch bride wars soon going to hannahs tomarrow to watch the game and then jonas lets go pens ,0.0 54078,cookingwithamy san fran weather annoys me i go there weekends a month i dont think i could ever live there in davis right now ,0.0 54079,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 54080,needs a new spare key person someone more reliable ,2.0 54081,juliannehough helloim glad to meet you how are you i like your hair stylecan you tell me ,0.0 54082,just got onto the train in leeds free web i get to twitter all the way to london with a querty keyboard rather than phone keypad,0.0 54083,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 54084,i want to cry so bad i just want to cry all i want is a damn cry i cant cry nothing will come out im full of pressure that wont release i wouldnt mind passing peacefully in my sleep tonight,3.0 54085,washing up donee farrr to much effort for a week it would be awful nice to have a dish washer ,0.0 54086,i really wish i could sleep at night ,2.0 54087,good day today saw stephen then went to big bear with zack and then dinner with my booger ,0.0 54088,sun missasuaga tonight come by and hang out,0.0 54089,crucifire oh ok koi nahi prob ill b in mumbai faster than i know ,0.0 54090,my hands smell like garlic a night of cooking will do such things so worth it ,0.0 54091,tuckle what took the site down ,2.0 54092,lmao at my dorky videos during party setup yesterday httpbitlyktwpl,0.0 54093, hahame too although both have about the same odds of being played ,2.0 54094,ive made progress on the analysis papervictory ,0.0 54095,rt sad but whats new🤷🏼‍♀️,2.0 54096,mattmagic shedfire just stretch the thong over your shoulders ,0.0 54097,infinity blues makes me want to cry also im sad all my friends went to nyc this weekend and im here alone ,2.0 54098,chillin ,0.0 54099,i should see a professional but im scared so the feeling of having little interest in doing things even things i know i want to do has been a common feeling ive been feeling as long as i can remember everyone including myself has always brushed it off as me being lazy or not trying hard enough and ive always been afraid to talk to people my mind goes blank in conversations with people im not comfortable with im horrified of confrontation in certain scenarios ive always thought this was kinda normal and maybe it is and ive always been described as being shy and ive accepted that i am shy but over the years its gotten worse and worse and i began calling it social anxiety because i heard the term being thrown around more and more but never did anything about it and that got worse along with my lack of motivation and its a bit of a long story but there was a thing with this girl i liked and that hit pretty hard and threw me all out of wack so i started paying for an online subscription to one of those online therapists and she suggested i have depression and that i should see my doctor about meds i dont know if i was ready to be told im depressed cause if anything it definitely hasnt been making me feel better and heres the thing im years old and i dont know how to find myself a doctor or a psychiatrist whenever i try searching online i get really stressed and end up stopping but i feel that i need to talk to someone about this kinda stuff and im definitely down for trying meds if thatll help i dont want my sad moods to be affecting my personal relationships or my education or future and that really freaks me out but i just get so overwhelmed when i look at different doctors and therapists and insurances and reviews and ive always had a hard time choosing things so yeah,3.0 54100,vegankimber but i dont always do such a great job of it ,0.0 54101,check out the track on the charts the ahsphyx remix you wont regret it best of luck to all the co httptinyurlcomrdaqoo,0.0 54102,loves the lonely island youtube them ,0.0 54103,spencerpratt wow what a let downyou sure can talk the talk but cant walk the walk its sad those charities were counting on you ,2.0 54104,i have a boo boo on my foot now ,2.0 54105,damn it policy on crackberry anybody know how to get rid of that shit i tried wiping reinstalling handheldnothing ,2.0 54106,cooking lessons with nannette ,0.0 54107,caramelflavored oh yes sucks really bad i mean it couldve been someone else like oprah or something but then its charice dang it,2.0 54108,rt loopzoop hello hour depression nap do you remember mein monaco i made u that bracelet,2.0 54109,ohhh wish me luckkk ,0.0 54110,flockmaster they are chocolate ,0.0 54111,procrastonating on the homework ,2.0 54112,headache ,2.0 54113,osprey tragedy nest full of eggs plummets into st leonards creek ,2.0 54114,rt nasirpasir johan nora kenapa tak buat kiki challengenora danish nanti depression kena kecamzizan jangan risau kalau kita d,2.0 54115,life forever changed since psychosis years ago so back in april of i had a psychotic break that lasted a couple months posted about it all over social media dropped out of school everyone knew about it fell into a deep depression which faded by the end of that year but life has never been the same im back in school now in a new city engaged and have a year old but since then how i view the world and people has completely changed i also have reoccurring suicidal thoughts and extreme emotional swings since the event just need to know if this is normal and what to do i cant keep suffering like this i just want it to end i feel like i havent been happy in so long my brain is just different,3.0 54116,headache ,2.0 54117,dinner and dessert with sam and his family ,0.0 54118,dodgers won ,0.0 54119,ahhhhhhh my phone is officially broken having twitter withdrawals this is really bad for my social life i feel isolated ,2.0 54120,learning guitar iz hard ,2.0 54121,rt vallllentine friendly reminder that you have no obligation to any family members or friends that are toxic to your mental or physical,0.0 54122,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 54123,planethealer over there is absolutely messy see your smile is soooooo refreshing to me ,0.0 54124,swannny i dont think your ready for this jelly ,0.0 54125,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 54126,lowfat milk yogurt may reduce depression risk many of us opt for lowfat over fullfat dairy products ,2.0 54127,has just woken up ,0.0 54128,itsdemo yea i no but still kutner was awesome ,2.0 54129,rt womensbrainpro to all the neuroscientists out there please look at your data considering the sex and gender factor ideally stratify,1.0 54130,johnaggs oh no did you have a bad workshop ,2.0 54131,leslieroark nope just feeling sick sore throat and no sleep and e took up all the room in bed last night so sore back too,2.0 54132,i dont want to go to work ,2.0 54133, yeah they do just wait til theyre teenagers ,0.0 54134,just gave my tv away and made someone and her daughter really happy ,0.0 54135,floatingprncess the crested ducks now have ducklings thanks ,0.0 54136,who wants a game of squash tonight run is off due to weather ,2.0 54137,socially im at zero and im not coping with it at all right now i feel incredibly withdrawn and alone i have no friends i have arguably never been in a serious relationship in my life the last relationship ive been in was when i was in high school years ago i constantly feel like the people around me do not like me or that i just dont fit in i have no one that i trust or can count on no one whos care for me seems genuine i find myself growing angry resentful and jealous of everyone else and how they seem to have their shit together on even the most basic of levels while im just wasting away into nothing until i eventually blow my brains out,3.0 54138,capnscarlett aww it was good but now you can have a superduper celebration friday how did your exam amp prac go,0.0 54139,waiting for this game is giving me anxiety and my stomach hurts,2.0 54140,twas nice seeing her again ,0.0 54141,cool my followers are back to hahaha who has friendster ,0.0 54142,its exam is day after im feelin damn bored i just want to lie down but i know i wont get up ,2.0 54143,experiences with depression and disliking your significant other first of all i dont even know whether i am actually depressed or not i have been a pretty happy and emotionally stable dude my whole lifenow with i have finished my studies moved to a new city got a new job and a new girlfriendobjectively the job is what i always wanted founding your own company even raised a little capital being your own bossobjectively the city is pretty cool and my girlfriend is toobut subjectively i often find myself in a place of selfpity and hatred of an intensity i have never experienced beforei could go into a lot of details maybe i will if there is interest but essentially it boils down to i should be happy but i am very unhappy unhappy to the point where i want to quit my job split up with my girlfriend and move awayi dont know if i should trust my feelings anymore they change in intensity so much some days im ok others i just want to run away is that normal its definitely new to me how should i know whether the job is getting too much how should i know whether i should stay with my girlfriend or not i used to know these things with confidence but i have lost that confidencei feel like everything would be better if i just threw it all away and i think i could do it it would just be such a shame if its actually just some stupid mental illness that makes everything seem so bleak and hopeless maybe if i tough it out my company will work out maybe if i tough it out things will work out with my loving sois this depression,3.0 54144,aareque sorry delayed i got a cute tiffany charm bracelet for graduation ,0.0 54145,working again and then laying out by the pool later ,0.0 54146,magichat wacko is okay my complaint is that its only a little flat tasting bring back hocus pocus ,2.0 54147,all it took was a girl and cuts i was depressed for a long time now every day i was drinking to escape the pain i was taking pills and shit i lost everything friends trust love emotions and everything else than one day when i was drunk again i started cutting myself i really wanted to kill myself but after cuts i stoped and thought that i dont want to be like that the same day i went out with some friends on a party and i saw a beautiful girl we just started talking and dated i finally think its going to change i just think that i dont want to be depressed anymore and that i want to be with that girl,3.0 54148,second day of waking up feeling like im heartbroken over nothing i feel terrible like something is gone but nothing is im trying all my tricks to get me out of this depression episode but i just cant find the energy to do more what do you guys do to help you through,3.0 54149,im tired of waking up every morning many people say that they are grateful for living and be happy i found no joy in living its like a nightmare in which you cant wake upi dont have the will to go to work today no matter how hard i work theres will always something that destroyed everything including me i wish i died in my sleepim tired of people saying that life is good if we are positive and shit its not life is just a fucking mess and no one can help making it betteri work on saturdays from to plus weekdays from to pm on the weekends i love to forget about my job the office can burn i will not give a fuck its the only time when i can remove a part of my life from my head and i get heartbroken when its sunday afternoon because i know that i need to get in the shit again the thing that i hate the most is someone from there who is not really my allies message me and told me if im ready for tomorrow i hate that i hate you makes me think of that stupid work before timei tried to get a new job i got interviews but my boss wont let me leavei wished today never comes,3.0 54150,sad this weekend is soo busyyy ,2.0 54151,goonerjamie yeah i can finally laugh about it ,0.0 54152,mikalamichelle i notice alot of men fail to wash their hands ,2.0 54153,tonycassidy totally how can you have nick with out margaret mountford she will be missed,2.0 54154,rebeccakaz thanks im very exciuted that we are both pursuing our dreams ,0.0 54155,i need someone to talk to maybe thatll help im not really sure if you can call me depressed maybe i was maybe i have been all this time and im just numb a little background for context im gay and i lived in a shit country with conservative and maybe manipulative parents i got a scholarship to france and didnt return i applied for asylum for how they treated me because of me being gay when i almost got my refugee status my parents guilt me to return back effectively killed my chance to build my own lifethey made a proposition that theyll pay for my tuition to study abroad for a chance of getting pr in canada its been a year and a half since ive returned ive kept my end of the deal while my parents kept postponing their end now theyre suggesting that i get a job here while waiting for their end of the deal which ive stated from the beginning i wont do and theyve agreed on i spend my day in my room i tried to focus on art to keep me from going insane at this point i dont have any friend here but i try to keep my connection with my online friends i honestly feel really bad for not helping them financially theyre on a mid to lower class family sometimes i regret leaving france although i struggle to live there with a bare minimum amount of money i have my cat and my friends and i can be myself and i dont feel guilty for leeching at my parentsi know i sound like a shit child i hate myself for trying to keep my integrity but i really hate living here and the idea of working here and theyve agreed on the term of me returning back i feel like its best for me to leave asap or just die asap im just too tired living like this im too tired hating myself and living like this i just wanna disappear and stop existing im just too tired im over being aliveidk i feel like im rambling and i didnt let out what i really meant to say,3.0 54156,adamariee lol oooh yeah im stoked girl stoked what are you doing this weekend the rest of the week hang ahha,0.0 54157,i went to prom tonight my hair was cooler this time aroundand i did it myself for free ,0.0 54158,theefunk well there you go here we tweet xd ,0.0 54159,sethsimonds oooh i thought timbaland was old ,0.0 54160,seeing you sad makes me sad definition of a true friend 😂😅,1.0 54161,birthday wish number a customized vespa ,0.0 54162,oh nooo feeling very poorly flu symptoms ,2.0 54163,joys in life that dont last long enougha set of little hands rubbing his fathers back ,2.0 54164, nice show tonight man awesomeloved itcant wait for next week ,0.0 54165,tinydaisy ooh that sounds really cute lissy ,0.0 54166,leepadric chrisdesigns cloydrivers as you said suicide is frequently spontaneous having a longer waiting perio httpstcosiptupmtqm,2.0 54167,rt depression isnt a joke,0.0 54168,loving my family on my way to get my daughters phone for her bedroom she is geeked dinner at at heramore indian tacos mmm,0.0 54169,essential employee i cant do it anymore im an essential employee as a grocery store butcher and everyone says i should be happy i have work but its getting to me i deal with hundreds of people a day and every one of them can get me and my family sick every day is so busy and no one gives a damn that were on a lockdown and crowds into my store people say stuff like grocery store employees are heros keeping us fed but i dont see it people are as rude as ever and couldnt give a damn about us i even had a few customers crowd around me as i worked the shelves i want to quit or take a leave but i cant risk losing my job i feel trapped and exhausted its my first day off in over days and i cant get myself out of bed,3.0 54170,im going to miss jay leno on the tonight show ,2.0 54171,just got home and so damn tired my body feels so dirty with all the jakarta pollution i need to take a bath wanting salon ,2.0 54172,beerinbaltimore i had tix to see the sox amp orioles on friday but my flight was delayed and i couldnt get out of dallas in time ,2.0 54173,is having a fantastic morning got my brother and his friend to come to church,0.0 54174,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 54175,depression became such useds word everytime i open up to someone about how i feel they just say stop acting like and start acting like adultso i dont know how to say it to themhow to tell them that i dont like being on this world,3.0 54176,my grandma shes the hbic ,0.0 54177,rt aghostofmgc i hope all of you know you matter if your sad whether for a reason or no reason you still matter youre still important,0.0 54178,ughlt just wrecked a nail closing the window ,2.0 54179,my internet is broken comcast,2.0 54180,rt saiiorhoon i have a question for stan twt why do you guys only care about mental health when smt bad happens to an idol but in the m,0.0 54181,oops my iphone said it lost connection didnt mean to duplicate ,2.0 54182,my tv is not working ,2.0 54183,tired and depressed there are probably tens and thousands of posts like mine but i just want to dump my feelings somewhereim in my gave up having a social life to increase my financial security i went from being in debt to having some savings but i feel just as if not more miserable than i was ten years ago i dont enjoy my work in fact all the jobs ive had i did not enjoy the only thing that keeps me going is my overwhelming fear of going homeless working sucks i hate work and knowing that i will have to work and feel miserable for the rest of my life make me want to get the hell out and just end it i dont have the drive to learn new things or to start my own things i cant enjoy things anymore because ill just feel bad that im not spending the time to improve my situationim tired and i want to go to sleep and never wake up again,3.0 54184,didnt realize my physics homework was due tonight untiltonight got it in pretty quick but it i missed robotics today bc of it ,2.0 54185,ahh stressing for the drama challenge dress rehearsal ,2.0 54186,samelaanderson i havent heard the whole thing either but quotbeautiful messquot quotluckyquot amp quotdetails in the fabricquot are awesome ,0.0 54187,rt sgouater le suicide coe la depression ne st pas issus dune culture les maux psychiatriques et psychologiques attribués aux ,2.0 54188,rt खोंग्रेस के पक्ष में बिना सर पैर के कुछ भी बोलो चमचे आंख बंद करके उस पर यकीन कर लेंगे ।😁😁 ,1.0 54189,back at homes hmm i rly am going to miss my boo for days like wtf ,2.0 54190,alexalltimelow dont be nervous its a really good clip anyways ,0.0 54191,kevvy gah i wanna be there but ill be out of town ,2.0 54192,at the mall checking out the sightssuper sneezy apparently im allergic to dc ,2.0 54193,am i going crazy these days im getting sad for no reason feeling so fcking ugly having selfhating feelings and seems like everything is my fault everything looks like an illusion a game and i dont care about dying no more everytime i crush a pretty girl i instantly think of how fcking ugly i am i wish i can be loved without hate myself please help me ,3.0 54194,rt blingspice lana del rey sings about fucking old men dying and depressionme ,2.0 54195,off to chicago later today i love it there except it is susposed to be cold ,2.0 54196,just came home from a birthday spend the night at a friends i am tired ,0.0 54197,oh cateyedfox i know but i told her i would watch it with her fml ,2.0 54198,in the middle of a crisis and no idea what to do honestly im on the verge of hurting myself badly i need to do something to release me of all this stress and angst that is built up inside of me i was discharged days ago after a failed suicide attempt the mental health team were rubbish and let me go straight away after they treated me for my overdose my family are worried about me and i cant do anything again because itll hurt them too bad so i feel like im between a rock and a hard place i want to cut myself it will help even for a little bit but i cant do anything to hurt my family anymore and i really dont want to its more i need to i literally feel like im in the middle of a crisis and im not getting the help from professionals that i need,3.0 54199,is up and drinking coffee think i am only riding the horse today wahhh neck really sore not compatible with the today for a ride ,2.0 54200,davidbehan its a nice relaxing journey that onelongbut relaxingtip take food with you for the long train from stranraer ,0.0 54201,rt pablofedados this is sad really really sad 😭😭😭😂😂😂nandossa ,2.0 54202,the drama is over with others but not myself on november i was put in inpatient for anarexia and depression i was released on the on december my sister attempted to assault me because i accidentally opened her package thinking it was mine after that she caused massive had leaks the only person punished and blamed was me because she sometimes babysits my little sisterthroughout january i was talking to cps but now its march no drama has happened this month or last and im left with my thoughts and problems that nobody cares for and im left with myself im left with my thoughts and silence distracting myself to avoid my thoughts but distracting doesnt help i might fall back into my old habits though i know i shouldntso with nobody i can confidently trust i turn to reddit where at least i can type how i feel and leave it to get lost and forgotten but at least ill know it was here ,3.0 54203,surfing the net with my cousins ,0.0 54204,my mom left me home cuz she is mean ,2.0 54205,chriswmiller pretty well the oceannot your legs ,0.0 54206,atwossybookclub amazon have got paperback in stock too for � free pampp httptrimstareat wossybookclub,0.0 54207,emotionally tigerseye alleviates depression and uplifts moods ,2.0 54208,i want to be like damn yall in the grade how bad could it be then i remember how i cried every grad ,1.0 54209,hmmm i had been suffering from adulthood for too long someone give me meds for it plis httpstcoveuytnnuwr,2.0 54210,rt camsitsdown spinal cord injury quadriplegic amp reoccurring mental health problems disabledandcute ,2.0 54211,no answer from depressed so need advice the love of my life is fighting with severe depression at the moment hes been staying in hospital for three weeks now i visit him regularly since last week his mood got even more worse and he doesnt answer my texts anymore i just feel helpless should i continue texting him that i do care about him and love him or am i annoying him i also asked him which day he wants me to visit but no answer should i just drop by and visit him or wait till he answers my message i really love him and want to be there for him but dont want to make him feel uncomfortable and put pressure on himim thankful for every answer,3.0 54212,alone last week i got a new phone pixel is vewy noice and as i was setting it up i realized that outside of family i had no contacts to add none i dont know or have a single friend outside of my family ive just been feeling worse since then i tried to be optimistic about it and to have my new years resolution be some bullshit like talk to more people but i know thats not going to happen im so socially awkward i cant start a conversation and nobody wants to talk to meive also thought of talking to a therapist about it but that will never happen i cant see myself ever opening up about any of this in personi just wish i could be able to literally just fucking talk to other people without being awkward let alone have a single friend ,3.0 54213,rt depression is not funnyanxiety is not funnyschizophrenia is not funnyselfharm is not funnyanorexia is not fun,0.0 54214,missing my day ,2.0 54215,worst ever farewell the only best part was getting snaps sitting on the stage rest all sucked juniors ,2.0 54216,my dads antidepressants arent working my dad has dementia and is also depressed all the time he has to be kept under constant care from my mum and sister as he is suicidal he often gets up all day looks around the house for a knife or something sharp so we have to constantly watch himhe was diagnosed with depression a while back and was given medication for it but he still says he wants to die in fact its been worse recently and hes suicidal more than before ive been telling my family that we should go see the gp again and get some other medication but they are convinced that they will not be able to do anything else for himis this true i dont think my mum and sister should have to work this hard to make sure he does not kill himself are there stronger antidepressants for him what should i tell the gp,3.0 54217,gooooood mornin vietnam ,0.0 54218,twilightfairy one of my relatives use this phone love the way its got a battery pack in the cover ,0.0 54219,donj aww dont work too hard mr tweet laterz ,0.0 54220,coming off citalopram hiim currently coming off the antidepressant called citalopram i took them daily for years its been about days since my last dose i broke the tablets in half and took one every other day for a week i hoped this would make it easier despite this im struggling a lot is there another reddit page you guys could point me to for antidepressant withdrawal support and guidance i just want to know how long my withdrawal will lastsymptoms include vertigo dizziness and feeling disconnected to my surroundings my mood is certainly lower but i dont care though i want to be rid of these things tldr coming off citalopram and the withdrawal sucks what are other peoples experience with coming off citalopramthanks in advance ,3.0 54221,is back from switzerland recommends the hotel seidenhof zurich ,0.0 54222,rt pressure depression never arrives aloneit brings along its friends despair selfinjury and suicidedepression is the invisible pl,1.0 54223,feeling saddont know why im and young i should be happyrighti have great friends not manybut a few good ones i have a really great family but i dont think they know what im struggling through im performing pretty well in school but i dont think im succeeding in anything i like to think i have a fine life but i get sad pretty oftenim alone alotsitting infront of my pcaloneyou guys feel the same feeling like you have a good lifebut youre still sadits weirdi hate being sad for no reason ,3.0 54224,joshmiller nah i didnt go i didnt know about it until last night and i had to work today couldnt get there in time ,2.0 54225,i have some different opinions that clash heavily with my friends and family holding these two main thoughts in my head is fucking me up mentally im an antinatalist i believe that having children is morally abhorrent birth creates life that did not ask to exist and all life suffers unnecessarily i very supportive of adoption because adoption can save children from even more undue suffering i believe that each and every single religion that preaches a higher being of any kind is terrible so much of humanitys violence and hatred can be blamed of religion in a perfect world the very concept of a religion would not exist science is the only power in the universe if these offend you somehow id be open to understanding why but these ideals are at the core of my being,3.0 54226,rt jjkhrts guys olease censor his name 😔 i know were all sad and we want to express it and tell him how we are here for him but pleas,1.0 54227,jackalltimelow riandawson you guys are in minnesota and you decide to go to the science museum ,0.0 54228,worse night of dreams in a long time ,2.0 54229,watching gilmore girls and counting down til exams ,0.0 54230,what a lovely day shame im stuck inside working on the up side sams back today ,0.0 54231,depressed clown idk where to start so im just gonna say it im and my depression feels like its older than me idk whats wrong with me i can make people laugh anything they barge in i can make jokes out of it its like nature to me to think that way but one thing i hate on being a clown or a joker in my friends is they can never be serious about what you truly feel ofcourse i can say loudly that im sad but i cant theres two people in my life that knows my situation and one of them just cant handle my overthinking brain yes that one person ignores me when im talking shit about my depression and the other one is well technically hes replying but not quite enough to let my thoughts spill because every second that i step in my room my brain is refueling the same question that i ask everyday to myself is that good enough im known as cheerful humored but they dont know that im wearing this mask everytime i walked out of our house im always smiling but im silently judging i feel all people doesnt want me im always afraid of the outcome if i show them the man behind the mask im always pretending that im okay and everythings all right yes that one friend thought that im okay now no its just me learning that theyve had enough of my drama shit i dont want to be a burden but i just need a slight attention that im not really okay suicide ive thinking about that lately wondering how does it feel to be important to be solaced and all deep feelings to reach my drowning soul out of my pacific thoughts i dont know whats wrong with me i cant literally answer that question either but one thing im sure about i need to be saved because im worried on what i can do with my very own hands with my horrible thoughts please dont judge me 😢 im a horrible person i literally checked my grammar and spelling before posting this ,3.0 54232,depression got my mind down on the pavement but you wouldnt know cause i hold my head high,2.0 54233,thereallizard get followers a day using wwwtweeteraddercom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 54234,eldincampbell damn straight how are you,0.0 54235, awww i hate that make sure you take something x,2.0 54236,thousands of mothers left to cope alone with mental illness ,2.0 54237,ugh if tommy had broken there i would have been able to see the end of this before work ,2.0 54238,is sunburnt singing and doing my laundry life is not bad,0.0 54239,cntraveler what a terribly sad sight,2.0 54240,honestly i wish i could reset my life i have been fucked over fucked up so bad i honestly see no reason to continue years of existence and ive only lived and its been years since ive had any say or control over my life hell years worth of ideas stories art research and memories got lost in my single lowest point by the person im supposed to trust in this entire miserable earth as i watched my family butcher me and leave me to rot and were it not for my adamantite mental fortitude they would have gotten their way and kept me locked in some hellholei think ill sign up as an organ donor and end things right after my moms birthday she deserves better i deserve better most of us deserve so so much better i guess ill end this here for now might reply or something if i manage to get online again after this doubt it seeing im typing this on the shittiest tablet ever and i dont own iti just want to be fucking happyand if you read this boo im so sorry this is the endgame for me ,3.0 54241,melissatweets check your dms ,0.0 54242,rt uwuwell check out these tips for ways to improve your fitness nutrition and mental health this summer wellnesswednesday httpst,0.0 54243,the situation in iran seems to be getting violent ,2.0 54244,i dont want to turn my birthday is on sunday and i want to kill myself before that i should have done it years ago i dont have any close friends and i never have in the past either i always end up pushing people away no matter what it inevitable for me ive never had a girlfriend and i have stopped trying to pursuit one at all im eating like shit smoking weed every day and not exercising at all i used to be a health nut so for me this is especially abnormal i used to never eat junk and work out all the time i treat myself to candy and fried food every day now maybe ive already decided to kill myself and have just given up if this is me giving up then i hope i kill myself id rather die now than grow up to become some pathetic year old virgin pothead loser,3.0 54245,uhm had pft run today and i failed ,2.0 54246,for the first time in about a decade i think ive hit a wall and its time i found help i dont know what im looking for here i think im just looking to ventim not sure how relevant it is but heres some background ive struggled with depression for pretty much the entirety of my adult life it started early in undergrad i spent the first few years just putting on a show that i was fine but really not handling it well behind the scenes this ultimately culminated in the lowest and scariest few days of my life i ended up having a bit of a breakdown in that resulted in a clinical depression diagnosis medication and seeing a therapist for a little while i didnt really see a noticeable difference when medicated so eventually i just stopped taking it and stopped scheduling appointments with my therapist after like months for no good reason since then things have been up and down ive felt like shit a majority of the time but ive found ways to cope i ran until injuries put a stop to that always keep my apt clean and orderly recognize when negative thoughts arent realistic etc and generally things have been fine enough to get me through years of grad school and a couple years of working and ive been able to just grit my teeth and get through rough times but recently i feel like ive just hit a wall and things that have helped me get my head straight in the past just arent really helping and im on a downturn that just feels different than in the past its not as serious as it was in but given my history its concerning enough to me that its time i found professional help before things get worse one thing about being a student for so long is im really unsure where to turn right now in the past i could just walk into the student health center for any problems i had and the person at the desk would just point me to wherever i needed to go to get my issue resolved so im just trying to navigate what i need to do to get in and see someone its not so serious that its an emergency so im trying to figure out if i can just schedule with a psychiatrist directly or if i need to get a referral which means id need to get a primary care physician established probably either way its just frustrating to deal with and honestly its overwhelmingbut im sick of feeling like this and something has to changeanyway i just needed to vent,3.0 54247,says quotlove is never about physical contactquot ,0.0 54248,perriross i shall look em up now ,0.0 54249,school tomorrow last day of freedom xo,2.0 54250,have arrived home from italy early hrs of this morning cant believe my holidays over ,2.0 54251,rrarra your prayers were answered haha you planning on going to eb studio on the take pics if youre going ,0.0 54252,johnsgunn you should just hold the winetwixer in halifax seriously youve inspired me to try and start one up,0.0 54253,back from chillis hangin out with the girls at my house ,0.0 54254,quotmake your own kind of music sing your own special song make your own kind of music even if no one else sings alongquot ,0.0 54255,romelloadonis dont believe you got me watching this im bussin up at these ,0.0 54256,yep definitely a pollen day ,2.0 54257,once again my debugger wont attach to a silverlight process and once again i have no idea why ,2.0 54258,i went to two different malls today looking for a prom dress and came out empty handed sneaking out with matt right now sats tomorrow ,2.0 54259,according to some people i know depression is a choice yup you got me i chose this i chose to have a dead dad and a broken family i chose to be abused i made a conscious decision to feel absolutely terrible every day i chose to be abandoned by all my friends these were my own decisions they completely figured me outgood thing they also came up with a great solution all i have to do is think positively and he happy im so glad the cure for depression is that simple cant believe i havent tried just being happy im such an idiot,3.0 54260, after next wednesday i wont be able to snuggle with lilly when i go to bed shes the best dog ever,2.0 54261,emalltimelow i am indeed lurking really sorry i cant join parents havent approved me for stickam posting yet,2.0 54262,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 54263,saralenag you dont like his bow ties ,2.0 54264,went to egypt for a week for windsurfing and came back with over urchin needles in my foot and hand dont get stuck on a coral reef ,2.0 54265,i wanted brande to be in the finals for celebrity apprentice ,2.0 54266,this is why i have an ipodbut its not the same ,2.0 54267,backstreetboys canada sure does miss you ,2.0 54268,way to mess up the middle of my daypicking mom up and taking her to the doctor so much for me going for a run ,2.0 54269,syntheticseason yup yup it is collld ,2.0 54270,unfokused i do what i can ,0.0 54271,off to print dissertation for there had better be inkpaper ,2.0 54272,feels like a big oof ive send dozens of friendchat request to talk to people that need help or when i need help atm and its not really fun being alone with my thoughtsbut everyone ignores you its just a big oof to my mental health ig,3.0 54273,i am so bored and i have nothing to do and i cant go to sleep ,2.0 54274,laffit and yesssss were fans of one call ,0.0 54275,got a big day ahead coming down with a sickness ,2.0 54276,crap bnp just got a seat ,2.0 54277,idk just my thoughts i just typed in depression in the search bar and found this sub idk what to really say i hate everything in life but i also love life its beautiful yet also saddening im a really strong emotional guy i love to take in everything about life even the smallest things but when all is said and done i remember that im alone in this world im tired of feeling alone i have no real friends besides acquaintances at my university but lets be honest those people dont give a shit about my personal life or my mental state so i just hide it every day is a struggle i wake up and just try to get through the day just so i can go to the gym and blow off my frustrations only to come back to my apartment every night and stare at the ceiling of my room and cry im fucking dead inside and sad this is my first time really admitting it to anyone im such a nice guy but i guess i look intimidating because im big and look like a juiced up linemen or whatever but its the opposite of what i want whenever i go to my universitys gym people just stare at me from a distance but i just wish theyd talk to me i wish they would be my friend all i want is a friend and girls ive only been in one relationship and that was several years ago in high school im now about to graduate and i know its only going to get harder from here ive tried to talk to girls and im always extremely nice and kind not just to girls but in general yet i guess im just not their type or else i wouldnt get stood up and ghosted so much i really liked this girl and we talked for awhile a few months ago and made plans to go on a date twice on the day of those dates shed ignore me after that she never talked to me again i always wondered what i did wrong maybe its my appearance im not skinny but im not completely fat either im husky i guess fuck man im actually crying as i type this just laying in bed wishing someone gave a fuck about me and to make things worse she isnt the first person to stand me up over the course of the past year i just wish someone would hug me and talk to me in person im a gentle giant but also a sad one im just babbling at this point just saying whatever is on my mind i dont expect anyone to read this or even respond im used to it just wanted to vent somewhere,3.0 54278,im here at grazionos chillin with the gorgeous dominique ,0.0 54279,feels much better now maybe it isnt as bad as i thought it would be,0.0 54280,feeling lost and depressed i feel like i wake up every day just going through the motions ive only really been excited to go on vacation now im here and when im not actively doing something i feel myself zoning out and feeling the depression i really dont know whats wrong i just got a promotion getting a house and getting married soon i just feel empty its really crushing me because i dont know how to explain to my fiancee how i feel and she worries about me and most days im worried she is going to leave because i keep feeling this way,3.0 54281,xxtaylormarie please tell me you are kidding legit swine flu oh baby i feel so bad im calling you right now ,2.0 54282,this is what it is my anxiety everyone hates me i am a failure my depression dont worry no one cares about you enough to hate you,3.0 54283,serenity hemp oil for dogs and cats – grown amp made in usa – supports hip amp joint health natural reli ,2.0 54284,fruitshake turning dis july sisaheh ,0.0 54285,any trace of denki can cure my depression bnha kaminari denki ,2.0 54286,at home day feels like forever ,2.0 54287, hours of sleep and off to crossfit at mikes gym gotta wake up jon he is snoring like crazy on my sofa right now ,0.0 54288,crusin to bermudaaaaa with babyy ,0.0 54289,i feel like they wont believe me title says it all but ill give some backstoryso lately ive been feeling really down a event occurred that id rather not speak about making me feel like shit something similar had happened in the past and so it affected me more this time im a character approver in a rp server im in on discord and i made a big fuck up and the co owner went off on me im honestly really sad and dont want to do anything anymore ive really been trying to better myself this year and this brought me to a all time low ive cried more than i ever have in the span of a couple weeks anyways i havent really been motivated to do anything and ive tried talking to friends to make myself feel better and it hasnt worked im afraid that since im apart of the younger group of people everyonell say that its just a phase or youre too young to have depression or be depressed its all overwhelming also to add more to my plate ive been trying to do better for myself this year but alas i look like shit and my mental health is even worse my grades are lowering and not getting better also ill confess ive wanted to commit suicide i may be young but that doesnt mean im not suicidal i looked at one of the kitchen knifes and thought what if i stab myself in the neck with that itll make all the pain go away i also have really dark thoughts were i look at someone or something and visualize something happening thats really bad an example was when i was holding a stick and had a vision of me doing something not very good with it to another person im sorry for unloading this onto you i just needed to confess,3.0 54290,back in hospital after an threat as normal made a threat now in wait to be let out which means another one in a week id give anything for actual treatment ,3.0 54291,nathalianj ,2.0 54292,paulsmalls usually you go lower knowing that your sacrifice will get higher pay in the future you could tell kristen to get a job ,0.0 54293,i have spent far too much money today and now feeling quite sick about it ,2.0 54294, most important no amarok on osx amarok is the best music player amp organizer for any os i found yet it may sound like im,2.0 54295,just starting off with twitter and is very excited to meet new people ,0.0 54296,scribbledoutboy thats a very john cusackjohn hughes looking pictures well done ,0.0 54297,thinks that pipers molars are cutting thru we had a nice lil nap me and the girlnow just another friday night at home w the lil ones,2.0 54298, night n a row with no gym goersall in the new gym playin volleyballsure makes my job easier almost time to go home finally,0.0 54299,i got insulted theres this guy in my classi told him i had depression and all he said wasits all in the mind itll go away if you dont think about it depression is a real thing real people have it people have to understand that people who are depressed dont control their thoughts their thoughts control them ,3.0 54300,two weeks to finish cubehead this short development processes are killing me,2.0 54301,wollemipine combine the two try genealogy of bears ,0.0 54302,your friends are only your friends until your friends are only your friends until you make them privy to your inner tidings then they become unaccommodating cold and distant but maintain the gutted friendship for the conveniences sake you are now seen as a flickering image of your former self who was not visibly mentally ill and therefore fit to be a friend your dehumanised hologram smiles and beams at the beholder your friend and meanwhile the real you frowns with eyes vacant so it happens your friend neglects your emotional health with subtle tact and abandons your true self realising this despair fills the pit of your stomach and you embrace the familiar feeling of descension into apathy to escape the emotional pain whose roots lay in past trauma,3.0 54303,rt resuki come and watch the skinny kid with a steadily declining mental health and laugh as he attempts to give you what he cannot g,1.0 54304,oneloveshared then tomorrow fill out the certificate amp fax it to the at the bottom and send it to my attn and ill take care of it ,0.0 54305,i wish they left me cake ,2.0 54306,just got word the twitter nazis might kill my account if i keep up this beautiful pic of sade as my bkgrnd ,2.0 54307, you mean its not just our fax machine here ours hasnt worked in roughly years or so im told,0.0 54308,rt hello my name is diana graber i am sharikas neighbor sharika is in the hospital she tried to commit suicide her c,2.0 54309,was just at the disney store and i got an up shirt lol,0.0 54310,karenmarie thanks for confirmin the requesthave a nice day wit ur nephew ,0.0 54311,my bathtub drain is fired it haz job do amp it iz fail i got all drano on its ass amp iz still not draining i wanna shower dangit ,2.0 54312,sometimes i block people out mostly because im thinking of something more important sad depression crush writing fml anxiety life,2.0 54313,i miss promo so much i miss jefferson i miss my graders ,2.0 54314,wants to eat ,2.0 54315,rainy day better today than tomorrow though,2.0 54316,men meds kill sex drive do you find meds kills your sex drive i have no desire for anything sex dating flirting solo activities nothingon some level i want to date but its just a confusing mess of problems for me and with no sex drive it makes it even less achievable,3.0 54317,is being strengthened with dunamis power by the holy ghost ,0.0 54318,cant sleep due to anxiety and sadness i just entered a new phase of depression cant go to sleep when i am not extremely tired because of thoughts my mind is cluttered with great amount of sadness and anxiety and when i lie down i just cant make it quiet so i stay up until morning i dont think i will be able to go on much longer,3.0 54319,deadlyx haha ,0.0 54320,my throat hurts so much right now ,2.0 54321,allyrockstar asian girls in general win ,0.0 54322,i just wrote my suicide note i never thought that i could feel so low that its honestly so surprising ive been going through a horrible depressive episode and i cant find the energy to tell anyone how i really feel school is just painful for me nowadays i cant do anything i enjoy anymore and im horrible to be around im so exhausted im just ready for it to end ,3.0 54323,i love wasting time on ebay the art of shopping ,0.0 54324,starkidnatl what else is new starkidnatllol i am glad you finally got you some food though ,0.0 54325,didnt like the movie angels and demonsso different from the book ,2.0 54326,ugh i hate restringing floyd roses i guess ill just play ,2.0 54327,im so sad lol,2.0 54328,the twitter happiness score for cjmac is httphappytweetscom hah i am happy happy happy joy joy smiley smiley chris is smiley,0.0 54329,joined twitter looking forward to use it ,0.0 54330,rashfeather hey we should find time to party for pashfeather and is birthdays when you get back,2.0 54331,looking for info on wikis just not right now someone remind me later ,0.0 54332,gnomiehomie thats a good thing haha i hate it when hes like why is that person wearing that that way urm because its fashion knobhead ,0.0 54333,life is weird dude a month ago i was unbelievably happy like the happiest i ever been now im just an in between ,0.0 54334,djgigidred thanks for the mention gigi i was soo there could have just said quotand that one girl that just showed up kikofbabyquot jkjk,2.0 54335,kashmir started a national toll free number for women in depressiondomestic violence ,0.0 54336,what things should i do to relax fun when insomnia kicks in weird wording sorry i have insomnia what are things i can do for fun or too relax when i cant sleep thanks,3.0 54337,jensantos too bad youre leaving nyc ,2.0 54338,had pure banter today which was very much needed good times x muwah laura aha,0.0 54339,sisters house loking for a gift to me my birthday is coming ,0.0 54340,aplusk lol chill dude peace and love ,0.0 54341,only downside of visiting my parents is eating all day long and ive been doing so good at home spring training takes an l tonight ,2.0 54342,how do i tell to my parents that i need help like the title says i am thinking of having a discussion with my parents and friends about my mental health i dont know where to start as they probably think everything is alright as i try to not scare them and plus i dont live with them and i am not in the same state but my friends might know something as i joke a lot about my mental health depression and suicide it is going to the point that i really need help but dont know where and how to talk to them,3.0 54343,symplexity must be some bad corruption ,2.0 54344,seventhcycle ,2.0 54345,plenty of stuff going on in cdo since i worked last time on it ,0.0 54346,i just took my first iq test i did pretty good think you can beat my score take it n lets compare,0.0 54347,ahhh nothing like a spotless house and clean sheets ,0.0 54348,jasoncalacanis i personally prefer cafe gitane right around the corner from where you are ,0.0 54349,deffinetly had the shakes last nightbring them backthere a sign ,2.0 54350,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 54351,i hate being at home the word home just evokes terrible memories it should be a place of family relaxation and refuge but it is anything but that for me it is the place where i feel the most anxious especially when my family are present ,3.0 54352,analovestito clean me,2.0 54353,burn notice tonight whoot ,0.0 54354,i really need friendslol im too lonely wen my babiis at work ,2.0 54355,katvzack katvnews this is such bs you really think gangs and punk ass thugs are gonna try this no further com ,1.0 54356,tengo que borrar los playlist con música sad alv,2.0 54357, lol was the best part the horse ,0.0 54358,trapwire same to you that was awesome fun we should do this again soon ,0.0 54359,markstamant can you get behind a hochevar pickup this week in a qs heavy thin ww keeper league if not itll be contreras ,2.0 54360,why doesnt celina want a twitter ,2.0 54361,ready for the end at this point yea im ready for the youre just a kid idgaf i want to go my mind and body is screaming for a way out of this fucking horrible mindset of myn im a dumbfucking stoner with a stepdad who literally makes me fear to go downstairs i sit in my room all day and hope that i just fucking die my mom dosent fucking care jack shit about me my step dad gets pissed off over nothing and leaves for months and i swear by this saying those months are the happiest months i ever have my stepfather almost choked his father out when he was and said he wishes he did it which makes me scared to say anything to him my mother knows i dont like him and dont like being near him but she dosent care i was bullied for nearly my whole elementary school years and i was having suicidal thought from the start of grade or and thats just not okay in the eyes of anybody i currently just took pills and hoping i black out i have one friend who i made when i was forced to move back to my old house him and i bonded over stupid and racist shit and now hes like a brother to me i wish he didnt have to put up with my bullshit i love him like a brother and all but i feel that he would get over it soon enough i feel bad for people who have to deal with me and i just want all this pain and suffering of my day to day to fucking end i want me to end i want everything to fucking end,3.0 54362, you forgot massachusetts you dont love me do you lol,2.0 54363,going to watch drag me to hell at the bridgeat scary movie ,0.0 54364,even in my dreams i want to kill myself i had a dream last night it started off as a typical didnt go to school andor do my homework for weeks dream these kinds of dreams always set my anxiety off and put on edge for the rest of the day even though itll be ten years in october since i graduated collegein my dream i remember looking at a laptop of my grades and how i wasnt going to graduate on time i remember my boyfriend trying to comfort me even in my dreams hes always so sweet and wonderfulin my dream i repaid his kindness by screaming at him until my throat hurt the kind that makes you feel like youve swallowed glass about how i was worthless the dream cut to me swallowing as many tylenol pills as i could i began vomiting then but still kept trying to put the pills back in my mouthi woke up pretty shaken and i told him about it i tried not to think about it today but my mind kept turning back to those imagesi wont kill myself i promised him i could never do that to him to my cat he wouldnt get over it and also i cant bear the thought of my cat not knowing where i wentbut fuck if i dont sometimes wish that it could just end earlyi dont have any hope for my future i have a degree in cis but its worthless now as i havent kept up any relevant skills like coding i dont have any other skills like drawing or crafts or even anything practical i dont even have a job i cant stand retail anymore and im not physically strong i want to learn anything but i just cant bear how much i suckim turning this year but i already knew my life was a waste by the time i graduated high school all i do is waste time until i can fall asleep again but theres no escape even in sleep,3.0 54365,paparatxi take care of yourself dear hope youll be fine ,0.0 54366, yeah then you could send it to me a bit at a time so i didnt squander it all at oncelol send bank details lol haa,0.0 54367,douggiedouglass nasty re lady g ,2.0 54368,giographix go get your caffiene im gonna hit the sack hard lol,0.0 54369,djtgutta aww okay lmao you prolly the dj lol but wherr you at ,0.0 54370,stephenfry its nice to get just what you expect sometimes yay sandycove ,0.0 54371,life sucks why even try i feel like bad people are rewarded who arent deserving but people who try to be good and work hard get nothing if i did the bad things that some of these people diddo id be punished but its okay lets reward all the dickheads in the world its hard to be positive when youre constantly reminded that trying gets you no wherelast year was the hardest year ive ever had to face but previous to that it was just as bad tbh but last year was ultimately the worst ive had to losegive up so much just to be safe for myself and my children when will it get better for us 😔 just sick of all the bad luck like it hangs round the corner waiting to make an appearance im on antidepressants which i dont think are helping atm as im here posting this and im on a counselling waiting list which ive been waiting for nearly months apparently can take up to months to get an appointment what good is that 😔 just feel like giving up i try and try and get no where but someone that does bad things is given everything they want and has a nice easy life it just isnt fair yes i know i sound like a child but i dont care anymoreif it wasnt for my partner id of probably of done something stupid by now struggling so bad and can feel the depression coming on with a vengeance ,3.0 54372,hey hawkcam think the bike racetraffic scared away the hawkoholics no one watching the babies hawkcam live gt ,2.0 54373,rt jhsmiiehoya just a few hours ago s were dragging bts mental health and what were not gonna do is compare armys to them for sayin,1.0 54374,i just told someone they needed to stop crying in front of steve aoki ,2.0 54375, actually i would buy them all but im broke so well see if i can get my hands on them ,0.0 54376,alitron i hate that i am going to be away all weekend while you are home ,2.0 54377,yennie i assume tea probably wont help either i feel like a cookie will solve your problems but also that it probs wont,2.0 54378,morning all turned out sunny im off sick today not feeling too hot ,2.0 54379,furthamucka oooo ooooo oooo can i be in it to i use dove i got moisture rich skin ,0.0 54380,thanks to everyone for all your birthday greetings and wishes ,0.0 54381,captainkazz yeah i guess so it would be so much fun if you were in it though,2.0 54382,who feels like depression is not a part of their personality rather like a virus hijacking i do not hate myself i am somewhat satisfied with how i live my friends etc though i cry in pain emotional pain for hours cant barely go to the toilet let alone work communicate go out i just wait everyday to go to bed again and sleep i have gone through therapies hospitals antidepressants one saved my life but did not improve further than that i really wonder how many people are somewhat feeling like me,3.0 54383,quotwhats your name broquot ,0.0 54384,chamillionaire wish i could see you in corpus but bills are keeping me in sa ,2.0 54385,experiencing more gray thoughts than usual i realized last night that more and more suicidal and bad thoughts are creeping into my mind after which i couldnt sleep the whole night is there any way i could help myself a bit until ill be able to get back on antidepressants ive been in a hiatus for months now and i would really like to get back on trackevery kind word and advice appreciated ,3.0 54386,woke up at am to watch spain great result especially the hattrick from torres ,0.0 54387,just another night of staring at the moon to meditate and letting go of all the stress justbreathe,2.0 54388,trying really hard to stay calm today but seems bad news is following me oh well life goes on got my boys to keep me happy ,0.0 54389,everything is going to be okay youre doing better than you think sweetheart remember your worth i know what its like to deal with crippling depression i know how much it hurts a few kind words never hurt though i hope that it at least made you smile even a little have a great day sweetheart ,3.0 54390,maxinewaters we are wondering about your mental health,0.0 54391,problem solving with people in india over the phone ,2.0 54392,clarissamperez btw looooove the pic ur gonna have to teach me how to fix my default its so hard to get that tiny ass pic lol,0.0 54393,perivision btw downloaded iphone sdk ,0.0 54394,jamieoliver �incrediblebakedlambshanks� recipe has inspired me to have lamb this weekend it seems easy to make amp looks delicious ,0.0 54395,tiinag thanks for the followfriday ,0.0 54396,alibaby how did i not know you had a twitter what the crap ps i see you next week ,0.0 54397,got scareded by the little spider ,2.0 54398,giving up on installing movable type ,2.0 54399,hate rain and my parents ,2.0 54400,its one horrible day heere rainy windy ampamp cold soo not the weather for junee ,2.0 54401,just got back from ww too much buffet and red meat this week got some work to do this week,2.0 54402,rt psuworldcampus reduce everyday stress and anxiety through these guided meditation videos courtesy of pennstates kami dvorakova ,1.0 54403,ugh waking up with hayfever in the morning is dreadful ,2.0 54404,feeling hopeless so heres story ive been dealing with major depression and anxiety for most of my life it come and goes as it pleases my last episode before this one was years ago i really thought i was finally out of it until nowthis past july i started to notice the changes in myself but just thought it would pass in november i spent an afternoon plotting different ways i could end my life at this point i realized this was not a funk i was already deep into a depressive episode i ended up quitting my great job because i struggled to even to basic daily tasks i isolated myself from all friends and family for months i was sleeping for most of the day and barely eatingin december i admitted defeat and went to the doctor and explained everything him i was then set up with a phych who prescribed cymbalta after trying it out for a few weeks and even going up in doses i still felt like shit i would feel good for the first week then nothingso now im taking a cocktail of pills that are supposed to be making me feel normal but i feel the farthest thing from iteveryday im taking cymbalta wellbutrin seroquil zopiclone and also some birth control pillsi feel like every time they throw a new drug at me i feel great for a few weeks but it never gets past that im going to therapy i dont drink i dont smoke i see my psych every week and go to groupsi feel like im doing everything possible to feel like myself again but im honestly losing hope i no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel even if this episode does end there will always be another one coming i cant live knowing that i cant be cured from this illnessdoes anyone else feel this way im just so frustrated with myself constant changing of the medications this started for me in july i really thought id be feeling better by now i cant manage this anymore,3.0 54405,rt linzdefranco a lot of people ask how i handle having depression and anxiety the answer is simple covfefe,1.0 54406,too hot cold showering ,0.0 54407,is having convos with friends ,0.0 54408,i just want this all to end im disappointing everyone i feel like im exaggerating when i say i cant do shit because of my depression everyone around me is like but why dont you just put some work in its not that difficult i dont understand why you dont just put some effort into thingsi feel miserable like a complete failure im so stuck my parents know im depressed but im not allowed to take a break from college to recover college is the most important thing im ruining it this way im tired ive been pushing through for years my energy is completely drained theres nothing left i dont know what to do,3.0 54409,that heavy feeling of sadness isnt even one day old and i already or still think about everything i ever fucked up in my life going to quit uni in a few days because i just cant do this anymore im such a disappointment to my parents family i dont know how to pay for my flat anymore my last chance is my old psychiatrist shes the only one that call give me a letter for uni so they know whats up and allow me to pause for a while sry english is not my first language so i didnt know how to describe it better i havent seen her in a year because i moved to a different city ill call her tomorrow im so nervous what am i doing to tell her hey its me yeah i fucked up even more pls help me i really dont know maybe i should have killed myself the last time i had the chance to do soall these thoughts more than i described above are giving me that heavy feeling on my chest and stomach i feel like i cant breathe anymore ,3.0 54410,i dont know what to do anymore im new to reddit and have been having s hard time dealing with my mental state so i figured i would try to reach out to anyone who could give me advice so heres my storyfor the past couple years i feel like i havent been the person i used to be i just dont feel like myself anymore i started college about years ago and ended up switching majors from network engineering to graphic design because as a kid i always loved drawing when i first started my new major i loved it and i was all about going to class and learning but as of a year or so ago ive taken a dive down and i dont know how to get back up my whole life ive always struggled with my self esteem being most of my life but a couple of years ago i decided to change that aspect of my life and lost about i felt better about myself but i have always still had issues with my appearance ive recently started feeling worse to the point i have no motivation to do anything its hard to care about or enjoy the things i once loved like going to the gym playing guitar and drawing im always sad i want to sleep i have no energy and im always irritable i barely show up to class anymore my grades arent good but some how im still pulling through barely ive tried to see a doctor and go on anti depressants and took them for a month but i stopped taking them i felt good at first and then didnt i have no idea what to do anymore and i feel like its killing me i try to find the motivation to keep myself focused and busy but somehow i just always end up sleeping i just want to feel normal again i want to be the person who loved school tried hard at the things i loved and didnt worry about every aspect of life like where the future is headed or that everyone is judging me i just dont know where to turn to anymore ,3.0 54411,happy fathers day i love u amp miss u head still hurts gonna get caffeine and prolly see the neurologist this week,2.0 54412,rt alabeano im sad because i burned myself while preparing a snack i used to tell people food is the only thing thats never hurt me,2.0 54413,lowkaixin hahaha hello kx i know that ,0.0 54414,off to work cant wait for camp still waiting on a phone ,2.0 54415,remember to shower yourself with the same unconditional love compassion and forgiveness you so easily show others ,3.0 54416,what the fuck is even the point to my life i have no friendsmy family hates mewomen dont like meim not good at anythingi have social anxiety so i cant even engage with other people without losing my mindive failed my driving test twice and i live in the middle of bumfuck nowhere so i cant even try to meet people even if i knew whereto top it off i have an embarrasingly high libido so i cant have platonic friendships with females without my dumbass teenage hormones fucking it up somehowlike i truthfully have no point of even existingi could drop dead at this moment right now and nothing would change the butterfly effect does not apply to me,3.0 54417,going to bed ,0.0 54418,up early the car is being motd do i go back to sleep when i get to nannas,2.0 54419,estoni i am exactly in the kansas city metropolitan area in the middle of the us landlocked ,0.0 54420,brassnuckles aww dont say that it did actually crack a smile on me ,0.0 54421,marielenh count yourself lucky my sky plus box is apparently so old that i cant get the new sky epg guide ,2.0 54422,morning everyone its already a lovely day at the lab ,0.0 54423, thats no good,2.0 54424,januarycrimson is that what it was i was gonna ask you what you sent me bc i got something but nothing showed up why fail phone,2.0 54425,that moment when you get your hopes throughout the sadness and despair that life for many people is there are some times when it seems that it will really get better that this is the ticket out whether it is an internship abroad a girl who smiled at you a call from an old childhood friend or maybe from an unclethen if your life is really made of despair and sadness what happens is that everything collapses and all of those things were either misunderstood or were never going to happen in the first placeits really hard sometimes there is no getting used to it,3.0 54426,calebcherry yup ,2.0 54427,eveything i eat is giving me heart burn why ,2.0 54428,spending a family day ,0.0 54429,goin to docs as im poorly lost much weight in days ,2.0 54430,rt thegreatisnate pay attention to extra credit shady people career opportunities your physical and mental health and free foo ,1.0 54431,ifollowmike thank you for that if its not im gonna come looking for ya lol night ,0.0 54432,lost it all once again pushed everyone away and im lonely again and i cant even be upset i did thisim just tired of not being enough tired of losing everyone because of my stupid headim tired im alone im done,3.0 54433,people keep telling me i look like alexavega thats good to hear as a shadow shilo moonfall beats me though i think,0.0 54434,rebekahmcfly aww thanks,2.0 54435,my arms are really sore from we cheer ,2.0 54436,chatting with a frnd i guess i do only that ,2.0 54437,jonathanrknight ,2.0 54438,parked on the on the hottest day of the year ,2.0 54439,jayistherealest its great chillin on the beach right nowdo some sit ups for me ,0.0 54440,newps lol youre the only thing left in your appartement or what i would like to take it but my parents dont want to so ,2.0 54441,rt philipciwf thank you guardian for publishing this appalling story and eyesonanimals for your amazing work please rt widely the,0.0 54442,half heartedly tried to kill myself i want to die but i also dont so i half heartedly tried to kill myself i tried to strangle myself with an ethernet cable but i stopped pretty quickly im so numb that i dont even feel bad about it,3.0 54443,just got up didnt sleep well face hurt too bad ,2.0 54444,songinheart youngest made banoffi pie as post exam therapy yesterday which makes life brighter all round ,0.0 54445,jackyyhdz heyy kackityy jackk whatt youdoinn ntcc hey babee pss aquii enn la libraryy off school wooohooo ,0.0 54446,disappointment i am a disappointment i came out to my mom at years old and she yelled at me and said that it couldnt be my parents are divorced so i went to live with my dad who insisted that it was just a phase and that i would grow out of it i never did he now realizes this and is trying to convince me otherwise i insist that im straight but i know that he knows better from then on my life has just been going downhill my grades started slipping in high school i nearly failed all of my classes all my dad and grandma wanted was for me to get into university and i did but just barely im in first year now second semester i failed of my classes in first semester im on probation i dont have the money to pay my tuition because i spent it on drugs did i mention that i do drugs nothing too heavy though still wasted my money now my dads paying for my tuition he says he wont have enough for the mortgage this month im sick of life im such a fuck up and i wish it would all just end i would love for it to maybe my parents would have been better off if i was never born maybe they wouldnt have divorced maybe they would be happy they probably would be ,3.0 54447,rt depression is not funnyanxiety is not funnyschizophrenia is not funnyselfharm is not funnyanorexia is not fun,0.0 54448,acir lost my phone last week ,2.0 54449,advice wanted should i skip my bfs party tonight ive been really depressed for the last couple days im getting set off my everything and have broken down about three times in the last two days i just cant stomach the thought of going to this party having to interact with out friends and act like everything is fine on top of it all my bf and i got into a big fight over the weekend that i still dont feel totally recovered from i know hell be sad that im not going and im sure my friends will think its strange i could always go for an hour and then say im sick and leave that might be the best course of action any thoughts i know sometimes it helps to get out of the house i just dont think i can ,3.0 54450,is watching yes man again ,0.0 54451,dougiemcfly omg hahaha ronaldo ,0.0 54452,ive just got my streetcar essay back from jerry and its still no good ah man this is gonna be a bad day ,2.0 54453, no i havent tried that but it might be worth a shot it was another night of very little sleep ,2.0 54454,hello twitterers watching tv amp video moi lolita is on ,0.0 54455,abbasservice there are some great aussie folks on here i know several of them it looks to be a beautiful place,0.0 54456,says i am so proud for you people we are so different twifans thumbs up,0.0 54457,id like to think he stood a chance but realistically he doesnt he was so good as well,2.0 54458,rt vminlluvs i feel so sad right now i cant believe this is happening stay strong tahyung and to your family always remember that,1.0 54459,no wonder my leg was hurting when walking around and hitting range balls work slacks were ripping off scabs ,2.0 54460,there are or posts from the maine daily on the upcoming popular page right now and one post from fuckyeahgarrett ,0.0 54461,respect amp love is the answerremember dat via zionhighpower have a good day ,0.0 54462, you have twice the amount of glass required ,0.0 54463,i have everything i ever wanted ive toughed it out through so many dark times where ive been in and out of hospital and residential facilities ive worked so hard to pull myself out of it and build a career in mental health no less where im respected i have a loving marriage i own my own home things i only ever dreamed of a few years ago why cant i be happy im so ashamed ive lost all perspective and i dont even know if things got better and this is just a depressive episode or if its been like this all along and i just pushed myself along by telling myself it would get better when i achieved these things except im here now at the top of that mountain and there is no kind of fulfillment i feel ungrateful i feel melodramatic but most of all i feel lost,3.0 54464,hi to all in workso sad i hate my job ,2.0 54465,digitalizzm hahaha agreeespecially since we podium hoggedbut i left after bump ,2.0 54466,everything seems up in the air and my mind is hazy i dont know where to start everything is getting difficult work chores socialising i am and have suffered from depression and anxiety for as long as i can remember at is the first i can really remember talking to psychologists i dont know who i am as i feel i never had a normal life and being a military kid didnt help currently i have become terribly depressed and it gets worse work has become incredibly difficult im in the building industry doing cabinet making i run and maintain the machines so i am up at and its taking a toll on me my job is so physically demanding and my mental state is affecting my work i get paid so little so money is becoming a huge factor in this i never have any money after paying rent and other necessities waking up with in my account on a tuesday is an awful feeling insomnia is also creating issues not enough sleep then going to a factory to do work is mentally exhausting the dark thoughts keep coming back like what if i disappear it wont hurt anymore and im starting to believe the thoughts its like a second voice telling me this is all jumbled up because im in a horrible state at the moment and trying to remember things as they come im not happy at work i get told off all the time and told how easy it is to get fired which affects me even more i wish i could just quit and take time off til i get a little bit better but the rent bills food which i eat very little of now seeing as im just not hungry through out the day i just dont know what to do with myself time off where i can just sleep in and not work and operate on of sleep would be nice my mind is just so foggy and i cant get out of this thank you for listening to my confusing rant,3.0 54467,dianagallegos depression,1.0 54468,mrscayo thanks babe u too ,0.0 54469,pixiepan punk light bitch pop bubblegum punk ok its not helpful but making shit up is fun ,0.0 54470, lol no party maybe in days tho we will see,2.0 54471,noooo we ran of a vanilla soy milk what will i do ,2.0 54472,yunikesi hi how are u ,0.0 54473,at work at least its a nasty outside since im stuck here doin hair on this rainy daymissin the arts festival thoughhope is ok,2.0 54474,i dont want to get up dragging myself to the shower then off to the salon,2.0 54475, thanx ,0.0 54476,im back during my summer my suicide thoughts finally left me but now ive started classes again and they came again even stronger my difficulty to do a single homework pay attention or anything makes me want to die again and im more tired i have a lot less time and im very tired all the fucking day even the days i slept well and the cherry of the cake im getting more and more fat than eversomebody or something please kill me now pleaseim shit,3.0 54477,thejasonrobison have fun i miss getting to hang out on saturdays ,2.0 54478,rt you ever feel like you anxiety is suffocating you😓,1.0 54479, day to go schools about to start ill be missing twitter lt ,2.0 54480,herneythegreat bleh overally my pic is lovely lol you know you liked the ass dont front ,0.0 54481,i want to see link live i think they are broken up though ,2.0 54482,passing the time something i built to that helps me feel better httpsyouarenotaloneherecom,3.0 54483,funny thing about being hoarse and working with the deaf it doesnt matter ill be signing all evening ha,0.0 54484,just yelled at my sister for no reason im such a terrible human being she is sweet and loving and im bitter from this stupid depression i cant imagine what kind of negative affect my bitterness and anger will have on her when she grows up i just wish i didnt exist because no one around me deserves an asshole like me in their lifeexercise was the only thing that gave me a bit of relief and im injured its like i can see the answer but cant reach it,3.0 54485,idk why people are always so damn sad,2.0 54486,i cant find the great vid of radar with diff angles so i just settled for watching this one ,2.0 54487,i really wanna play some lacrosse right now i havent played in over a week and wont be able to play until wednesday ,2.0 54488,sepiaverse fair enough this threads just given me a nice idea it will be in cold storage till i can make it happen but i will ,0.0 54489,papachote you are welcome best wishes and blessings ,0.0 54490,earthquake in wnyi wish i would a felt it ,2.0 54491,its pm and i still havent gotten out of bed the only things ive had to eat in the last days were two slices of pizza a can of tuna and half a pack of crackers respectively i went to a job interview yesterday but they declined me without even seeing my resume which doesnt even matter because im absolutely horrible at interviews despite my good resume i still tell jokes to my friends on social media but ive barely seen them in months no drive no will to live nothing but pain i want to go to heaven because im living in hell,3.0 54492,pembsdave hi and thanks for the follow have sent you a dm x,0.0 54493,will prozac make me stable and numb or happy was on escitalopram at the start of the year for a few months made me feel awful couldnt feel emotions and didnt feel happy just seen doctor again and he gave me prozac do you think it will make me feel happy and want to start going out again or will it just stop me from having the low days while stopping me from having any highs ,3.0 54494,playing tetris jamming mitchel musso on my way to myrtle beach with ashley wooh httpisgdqagw,0.0 54495,gettin ready to sleep tifflicious y r u always with chrys what about nat ampnic i miss the whole glg new music soon please haha,2.0 54496,she left again ive been with the same girl for almost years we had a big break up years ago and i won her back she got frustrated with work and quick her job to go work with her friend in spain we talked about what it means and it would be a long distance relationship and id come visit a lot i came to visit in oct and it was great when i came home she called and said she wish i had stayed longer we were in a a great place she was to come home at christmas and that time we were suppose to talk about whether shell stay out the year and if i should app for my visa she said i was making this up and thats not the caseand this week she said shes going to see a therapist because everything in life is up in the air including me im shockedshe just got back after coming home for a visit and everything was fine love you and nights together waking up next to each other things were fine and now this years ago i went off i was broken i had to be drugged up and see therapists and i was in a bad place she promised she wouldnt do that too me again and now here we arehow can somebody be so cruel to another person theyve known and loved for years i just took my last ativan and my doctor wont give me more i know that im going to start looking into black market drugs to help i just wish she did this when we were not ,3.0 54497,mandykitkat oh come on now ,0.0 54498,cycle of depression need support long story short i signed up for a new gym membership last night online i used to work out but my depressionanxietyptsd combined with my severe ulcerative colitis has stopped me from going back to the gym for over a year i finally feel like i am in a place where i can physically work out yay for uc flare calming down but im so fucking anxious about actually putting my gym clothes on and going to the gym its a new gym in a new area where i live now that ive never been to its a large gym with a ton of amenities one of my fears is that with online sign up i have to talk to the front desk to get my key to access the gym with sign up you get one free session with a personal trainer the personal trainer already texted me this morning asking what time works for me to have a consult and then a work out i feel overwhelmed and stupid for feeling overwhelmed about it i really just want to put my headphones in do some cardio and lift weights the pressure of it all instead has made me curl up into a ball on my bed unable to move at all i just need some help getting there and out of this state of mind does anyone have any words of encouragement or advice on how to handle this its just making my depression worse even though i know working out will help,3.0 54499,made it home safe hope my friends do ,2.0 54500,might have streped throat s noooo it hurts ,2.0 54501,havent heard anything about the job yet despairing ,2.0 54502,zulkarnainzaki i cant just want hikshiks ,2.0 54503,rt nurinsyazwanaa so stress when ur parents compare u with their friends children esp when u dont get the course u wanted but they gott,1.0 54504,hates this weather dont like thunder amp lightning at all ,2.0 54505,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 54506,fredoontheradio i feel like i should win this because sabrina means so much to me i know she means a lot to other ,1.0 54507,joshgroban isnt chess supposed to be on pbs tonight its not here,2.0 54508,rt senhannahbeth great discussion with local mental health advocates today time to get mental health issues out of the shadows and ,0.0 54509,the suns gone in ,2.0 54510,relaxing on the glassy columbia wish my knee didnt hurt ,2.0 54511,just looking for some friends on here ,0.0 54512,yours is one of my favorites i hope you will feed better and be posting again very soon ,0.0 54513,just got home erick morillo was the business good nite ,0.0 54514,raekwonicewater have you tried that new amsterdam gin real smooth and great with cranberry im enjoying some now ,0.0 54515,stolenrain i thought i did reply though your birthday message,2.0 54516,hungry wish i didnt blow so much munz last night woulda gotten govindas ,2.0 54517,judexmurphy hooray there will always be a special place in my heart for weapons however i am luuuurving bulletproof ,0.0 54518,khloekardashian we love u too khlo glad to see uve finally joined i just joined myself ,0.0 54519,loves that she has the day off studying in the library working out then making an awesome dinner with friends ,0.0 54520,freaksinyellow haha awesome just saw the pics i sent in episode love it keep up the good times guys more fun hawaii pics to come ,0.0 54521,luckily i have madtwitter haha its working ,0.0 54522,i was okay for a few months but now im struggling again for a few months i was probably the happiest ive ever been since i was diagnosed with depression sure i had some rough days in that time but i never actively thought about killing myself suicide was put in a sort of passive state in which i didnt want to end it all but i would have been okay dying right then and there the times were fun went to a comic con with some friends enjoyed the holidays all that good stuff i thought that i had finally conquered this stupid mental disease freaking nopefor the last two weeks everyday ive contemplated going to a gun store buying a shotgun and shooting my heart i think about it in class at work when im with family i fantasize about it just yearning for death the only reason i havent is cause my mom and dad would be devastated if i offed myself i cant imagine doing that to them but im slowly just not caring anymore and isnt that the major bitch about depression it takes every part of who you are until you feel like a husky programmed to do the daily monotonous tasksi just feel lost i just want to be content why cant i have thatthis prolly wasnt the most eloquent thing ever written but i was hoping for some advice from my fellow big sad tm bros i dont want my parents to know where my heads at i dont want them to be hurt,3.0 54523,yoyitha im here again something new,0.0 54524,in my rush to get somewhere my picture gets snapped at a light great ,2.0 54525,best movie ever i only cried once go see up right now peasant,0.0 54526,gonzpiration �a bug grave putain de streaming world record attempt in paris live gt ,0.0 54527,monzica am i just meetin use down town cant txt as i dont have anyy fone me when ur out of school pleasee x,2.0 54528,sad pero its fun kelan ko kaya ma kkumpleto na kasama kayo hahaha thanks for last sabados gig ,2.0 54529,black baby with blue eyes httptinyurlcomccesfh httpplurkcompxymdw,0.0 54530,back from drivers ed its friday not tht it matters nothing to do anyway i guess im gonna go eat,2.0 54531,my feet hurt ,2.0 54532,gatorstooth coming from someone who works at a very high volume shelter i love people who rehome pets its so mu ,0.0 54533,has a fucking bad headache ,2.0 54534,dried pineapple is delish ,0.0 54535,self loathing so i hate myself there it is ive said it i always have but more recently it has gotten worse i now loath myself ive let my wife and family down seems i cant be happy or positive i wish i was like the people i c daily laughing with their perfectly straight teeth not a worry in the world i hate my laugh and my teeth wish i could restart my life this time it has been one fuck up too many and i dont c myself coming back from it whys my head so fucked its that fucked its fucked my body on the downward spiral of depression in go next stop i dread to think,3.0 54536,i have a chocolate soy milk problem ,2.0 54537,oops just tweeted that msg now i know why its trending stupid mouse button ,2.0 54538,cintiaximena is that ya thats whassup youre in md rt and will do get and richkids theyre tryna push a song rt now ,0.0 54539,i feel like my pdoc is presbribing me things just for kickbacks heres a little background on my situation ive been on and off different meds for depression and anxiety since high school through high school and most of college i was on ssris i think just paxil and lexapro when i graduated and moved i stopped taking them and went a while with no meds my depressionanxiety came back after a while and i found a psychiatrist my insurance accepted this doctor had me get a dna test which showed her which meds might work better for me than others pristiq was one of the only ones in the green column so i ended up taking that which worked well for me i was on it for around years when it felt like it just stopped working so i ended up going med free again to just test the waters and see if how i would do with just therapy   it didnt end up working so i went to another psychiatrist closer to my house she was very nice and asked what i had taken before and i told her everything i mentioned above she decided to put me on a sample of trintellix a newer drug that works different from ssris and snris didnt do anything other than make me nauseous so she bumped me up to still nothing up to nothing went to and started getting stomach issues and sexual side effects but no changes in depression or anxiety her response to that was to drop me down to and add in rexulti and she said if that didnt work wed try vibryyd another newer name branch drug   my insurance only partially covers trintellix rexulti and vibryyd so id still be paying over a hundred dollars i told her this i took meds in the past that worked for me at the time i told her this yet she continually insists on me trying this name brand drug i cant afford just to see if it works she doesnt want to put me on an ssri because if you stopped taking them then they must not have been working the thing that really got me was when she said they were low on trintellix samples and pulled out her phone to personally text the rep who she referred to by name to bring more that combined with her insistence on me trying an expensive drug that does not work for me makes me think she is getting kickbacks from these companies has anyone ever run into anything like this before should i ask for a different provider or just find a different place to go entirely thinking about talking to my primary care doc,3.0 54540,wow it me ,0.0 54541,relaxing at home today ,0.0 54542,sitting with sophia ,0.0 54543,its not fairi found it first ,2.0 54544,rt twloha things you shouldnt say to someone with depression and what to say instead via themightysite ,2.0 54545,will i ever be a normal person again hi there new on the sub i started having symptoms of depression and anxiety when i was and now i am went to several doctors and used a lot of med combinations stopped the last treatment a few months ago because it wasnt working and my doctor wouldnt change it im still feeling depressed and anxious and this year will be particularly difficult on college next week i will see a doctor and probably get into meds again but i feel so hopeless depression anxiety and the meds already did so much damage in my life i just wish i could be ok,3.0 54546,watching house of wax now o ,0.0 54547,feel all faint at the passionpit and harlemshakes show so am having to stand at the back its a first ,2.0 54548, god i want to talk to herrr ,2.0 54549,aw up was so cute ,0.0 54550,dougiemcfly jealous i want one ,2.0 54551,i just lost the game folks i love you all too,0.0 54552,epandu i need to move my blog with all contents amp images ,2.0 54553,rt steakumm love is one of those watered down words in our culture which is really sad because of how much meaning it carriesi love b,1.0 54554,robsessedblog i agree so much maaaan iam so sad amp angry at once ,2.0 54555,mileycyrus are u with him ,2.0 54556,how do i help my depressed partner when i myself am depressed title says it all i dont know how to help,3.0 54557,rt lifeaseva respect and acknowledge people with mental health problems it is a real thing and not something anyone chooses to live with,2.0 54558,انا كان في مخيلتي اني هكتئب يومين تلاتة بس و الـanxiety تسبني في حالي من نفسها ,2.0 54559,very exciting though cant wait to get my paints out ,0.0 54560,yes yes she is ,0.0 54561,timcampbelltwit so no money for me damn it hmm i need to find a job now lol hope your well tim ,0.0 54562,ran km on not so very good ,2.0 54563,i finally seek help hi people i have been chronically sad since january i tried so many thingsi even go for running and hang out every day with my best friend but yeah nothing changes i said to myself if i dont feel okay after im back from holidayi will seek doctor then i finally did it was the most horrifying moment for mebecause i didnt wanna go but i had to i have to livei have toi cried in front of the doctor yeah i needed helpi ran a screening test then he said i needed to see psychiatrist i hope i will be fine😊 ,3.0 54564,i am soo sorryyy will you forgive me ,2.0 54565,im tired and i cant go on anymore im exhausted of not feeling anything nothing feels good anymoreone of these days im going to kill myself for good life just isnt worth itplease understand me,3.0 54566,race was going realy well till my chain dropped off the chain ring hope i have better luck next time,2.0 54567,is ready for my girls trip,0.0 54568,i suffered from writers block the entire day yesterday and then after midnight ideas started hitting me and i havnt yet been to sleep o,2.0 54569,what made you realize you had depression im and also going through depression and im curious what made you realize that you had depression what age were you what was going through your head,3.0 54570,hannmcfly im going bed now bun nuit xx,0.0 54571,at the beach w ali ry and chiba smokin bowls blaze it busy day tomorrow ,2.0 54572,wishing that one of the jonas brothers would follow me lol x,2.0 54573,agingbackwards sure but i hope theres no murder on the orient express that would add craziness or great sadness to our journey ,2.0 54574,rt troubledpoc i met haqiem rusli at starbucks earlier 😅 i asked him why did he faked his depression then he threw his iced americano a,2.0 54575,i planned to commit suicide dunno if this is the right place but i wanted to get this off my chest and i dont know who else to tell ive been struggling with depression most of my life but never acknowledged it until a few years ago when i went to a gp for help and got on prozac and welbutrin even with the medication my depression spirals out sometimes and i end up angry and self destructive after an argument with my wife during one of these episodes it seems she tired of my shit and didnt speak to me for two weeks outside of hinting she wanted me out of her life ive had fleeting suicidal thoughts before but last friday i finally made a plan to dive headfirst off a nearby highway overpass next chance i had the next day my wife was taking our kids to a birthday party and before she left i asked if she really wanted me out of her life and told her id never come back if she did i didnt want to tell her i planned on killing myself but wanted to make sure she truly wanted me out of her life we ended up talking about going to marriage counseling and i agreed to it even though i know im the problem now im worried she got the gist of what i was saying and just didnt want me to kill myself i dont want to guilt her in to staying with me,3.0 54576,bridgetdill been there many a day with matt hell play in any temp amp thinks its fun for me to drive him around fun who i ask ,0.0 54577,scared of not being around welcome to my new alt cause some of my friends know my mainso basically ive been in counseling and therapy since i was years old im heavily medicated for depression and anxiety and ive been in inpatient twice and im not even yetive managed to hide how bad it is from everyone living a somewhat normal life ive had friends dated and partied etc but it never fulfilled me in anyway the only time i was ever consistently happy was when i was with my best friend from middle schoolfreshman year but i moved away and it all hit a low that ive been living on for awhilei dont really want to die anymore i just want to find something to make me happy the problem is in the past ive disappeared from school to go to inpatient or intensive outpatient and everytime i come back everyone seems so distant im tired of scaring people away but at the same time i dont want to get close to people and then disappear im scared ill do something and leave then feeling guilty and i hate that im terrified to date or even talk to the opposite sex cause i dont want to get attached or vice versa i dont want to tell my parents cause theyre banking on me doing well in collegesuprise im not and i dont want to go back to inpatient plus my psychologist and therapist are hours away and i only see them times a year so i dont have anyone to talk to which is why i want to find someone but i dont want to hurt them and when i open up to people i scare them away it sucks and i cant seem to figure it outidk what this is its just a vent because its got nowhere else to go,3.0 54578,im alone i cant talk to anyone about my problems no one cares about my issues im always going to be alone i dont seem a point to life anymore i want to cry but i cant cry i keep trying and trying to just let go of all this pain but i cant,3.0 54579,jonas awesome projectnot so much ,2.0 54580,cold day in june what do u do aurian love,2.0 54581,ellenkanner now that has made me really jealous good thai food enjoy ,0.0 54582,as i predicted to my husband earlier i cant sleep for shit when im not home ,2.0 54583,here we go again lalalalalala here we go again lalalalalala here we go again lalalalalala here we go again its gonna be aweshome ,0.0 54584,i added a video to a youtube playlist very emotional sad video for lovers mere baad kisko satawoge song,2.0 54585,rt martinsen from across the pacific mental health shouldnt be hidden under trouser legs venessb ,0.0 54586,so its confirmed that im a debbie downer it honestly did hurt to hear the answer come from my friends but at least they were honest about it and didnt lie to me its better to hear the truth than lies i bet youre probably wondering why im posting this and that this sounds stupid well the reason why im posting this is because i deal with very depressive mood swings which make me a debbie downer i dont know if thats a sign of depression since ive never been diagnosed or if im just sad and itll pass but before it happened frequently everyday i would wake up sad go to school sad go home sad the anxiety made it even worse last year i was so unhappy and at the time i truly wanted to die well surprise surprise people noticed that people saw the mood swings and i presume to think they thought i was crazy which is true in a way but i just wish people would understand when i talk about mental health i wish my friends understood but no everyones so caught up in themselves they dont think about the ones closest to them sometimes i dont want to take my problems to the internet or my journal sometimes i just want the people who truly care about me to listen to how i feel just like how i do for themthey look at my depression or anxiety as a sign of craziness since im not running the streets and gossiping and having a smile on my face because i lean moreover to the other side of the scale im considered crazy and a debbie downerim sorry that i cant smile im sorry that my life isnt so youthful im sorry that i live and feed off of my fears and anxiety im not normaloh im too shy im too quiet talk sorry that i like to live in a peaceful silence i envy those who have popularity i envy those who have great friends i envy those who can actually live life to the fullest and not let anything or everyone stop them because i sure do i dont want to be considered a debbie downer because im quiet and of course youre going to be a debbie downer when youre sad because youre sad i wish sometimes i could live in my own little bubble i wish i had my own world that i can create anything i desire but fantasies are just fantasies sighs in anxiety and depressing thoughtssorry i just needed to vent if you read through this thank you,3.0 54587,my hearing is fine sometimes too sensitive bc of my anxiety but my partner has a severe hearing loss so we have capssubs default on,1.0 54588,new on twitter say hi ,0.0 54589,atfullspeed yep just you haha sorry ,2.0 54590,chichitjandra my condolences call me when ure home bebeeek,2.0 54591,scottish rain dreadful ,2.0 54592,put up or shut up im not wasting time again the credits are rolling and im getting lost again ,2.0 54593,wishing that davidarchie and david cook would return to manila soonfor concert ,0.0 54594,made myself a toast and som orange juice and now im going to watch kill bill ,0.0 54595,buenos dias tweeters up and at em hope you slept well i didnt ,0.0 54596,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 54597,staying at home makes me miserable and depressed but socializing makes me anxious i mean wtf can i catch a fucking break,3.0 54598,kevinsplectrum most definitely there are another set of the same tickets same price on ebay for £ for row newcastle xxx,0.0 54599,morning all just woken up now must get ready for school ,2.0 54600,damarisens thats great how old are you btw ,0.0 54601,the mask has become real but it just a mask ive battled with depression since grade as a kid it wasnt as much depression as very low moments grade was the youngest i remember going to bed crying praying to god begging for him to end my life in my sleep grade years old whynow im married and ive gotten so good at hiding myself i dont know who i am any morei go to work im good at it i can go out from time to time and enjoy it but at the end of the day i end up in my bed at drowning in my own thought wanting to do something but cannot being myself to do itthose around me are blind to it i cry during most emotion segments in shows and movies so i watch them alone i have scars in my arms and legs from my college years when my depression was the highestand yet i have to be the strong one for my fiends and family im the supportive one and yet at the end of the day im the one laying in bed in the dark while the world around me enjoys life,3.0 54602,anyone else have a stockholm syndrome type thing with depression on the rare days that i dont feel absolutely completely shit i kinda miss my depression even though its the absolute worst and i want nothing more than to end it usually i feel bad because it makes me sound like i think its edgy to have depression but i cant help it does anyone else experience this,3.0 54603, how did it go ,0.0 54604,oooohh my dream boy is come to my life ,0.0 54605,where did my appetite go ,2.0 54606,i want a purple comforter but i cant find one booooo,2.0 54607,rt depressingmsgs depression isnt always sadness it can also be emptiness anger tiredness or loneliness sometimes a cry for help isn,2.0 54608,nottheword oh i will you too boyo ,0.0 54609,woohoo twitted on my phonefinally ,0.0 54610,booey does not like this ,2.0 54611,going to go pick up my car from then going on a harley ride so fun has anyone seen the hangover yet might see that tonight,0.0 54612, hey darlin i have an iphone and all you do is upload the app in the app store search twitter i think the best one is tweetie ,0.0 54613,i have test tomorrow lets all hope i pass them all with flying colors goodnight tweets,0.0 54614,stillokay hey wheres your new video dont be lazy ,0.0 54615,the future its so frustrating to hear someone talk about something in the future that involves you or your future in general when you know either you wont do anything with your life because you dont care enough to anymore or itll be over way before you reach the point theyre even talking about fuck im suprised im still kicking around now dont ruin the present by talking about something as fickle as the future especially when you already know im depressed it just brings those negative thoughts about where i might be at that point,3.0 54616,stanandollie ive had about forty or so messages driving me nuts x,2.0 54617,had fun with jessica today she showed me this video httpbitlyuuboc,0.0 54618,im sad and getting sadder my life just feels sad right now and i figured this is a good place to talk about it im a m and i come from a pretty good life ive always had clothes on my back and my parents are loving but recently my life kind of just sucks and i feel down all the time i recently transferred to a new college im not sure why i did it and it was a stupid decision i have no friends here other than my roommates and sometimes i go a couple days without talking to anyone back at my old school i had friends and people to talk to even my friends from high school are few and far between and i rarely ever see them my academics are suffering as well im a premed student but my grades are no where close to get into a grad school i feel like im sinking under my academics i dont know if i like what im doing or not and most days i dont even time to consider it but my dad wanted me to be a medical student and i dont want to disappoint him ive never been super close with my dad despite him giving me all ive ever wanted and more and being there for me always this is all hes ever wanted from me and i dont want to tell him im failing at it most of the time i just ignore all these issues because thinking about them just makes me mad at myself and how ive messed up latelyi know this probably sounds like a spoiled brat complaining about things that dont mean shit i know i have a good life and there are people out there who would love to be in my place but i just needed some where to say all this because i havent been able to say it to anyone i dont even know if im depressed really i do feel sad often but like i havent thought about suicide or anything i know how much that would hurt the people around me and i dont want to do that at all thanks for letting me vent everyone ,3.0 54619,if only wasn´t pouring outside ,2.0 54620,oh no wait it works ,0.0 54621,ahhhhhhhhhhh moving desks again today time in months dont want to move i like my desk where i am,2.0 54622,is having trouble finding sources for his history essay fuck this shitt arghh dont want to faill thou ,2.0 54623,britney spearsin london ,0.0 54624,idk whats wromg with me hopefully someone can relate everynow and then ill get depressed it will last for days or even weeks my grades started off great at the beginning of this semester as soon as we get to doing an essay in english i try so hard to think of what to write but when i try my mind just goes blank i know theres something i can write about but i cant process it and put it on paper so i just give up when i read the prompt everytime i drop below the mark i just lose hope on everything all my classes ive been sleeping in class for the past month not getting any sleep just a fuck it kinda mood its just like everything is going down hill and its all my fault plus everyone is doing so much better than me i feel like im just some skinny white kid whos dumb a failure and never going to make it in life i dont have a car like everyone else i dont make money like everyone else i dont even have the ability to hold a conversation with someone else without thinking their thinking im stupid i just feel like im an outcast i always question life like what if no ones real and this is just a test what if when you die you just die there is no heaven there is no hell your done its over you wont even know your dead everyone will eventually forget about you anyway i just feel like im an outside observer of my life like its all a movie i feel like im not really in control apologizes if this doesnt make sense im not good at writing,3.0 54625,ah almost done finishing papers and reading for class tomorrow going to miami for grandma maga�as funeral in the morning ,2.0 54626,mrssosbourne woah i was your first follower lol follow me j x,0.0 54627,xmannyboix idk where that is im in redlands ,2.0 54628,rt coryrichardson im so sad alexa play my shiny teeth and me by chip skylark,1.0 54629,got my years funding revoked lmao no food literally no food to eat and you know what irks me the most the people in this dorm screaming with laughter and playing happy music i really want to die i hate my life so much lol nothing i do goes rightpeople just see me and decide they hate me lol i just want to be like water and evaporate,3.0 54630,feels like shit ,2.0 54631,if you hit on me while im trying to pump gas chances are youre not my type ok thnx ,0.0 54632,musicmonday bullet for my valentine waking the demon ,0.0 54633,faerieimp i think one of them has mental health issues,1.0 54634,rt mikeeisenbath thoughts on mentalillness and mentalhealthawareness depression sicknotweak iamnotashamed n,2.0 54635,i hate homework its friggin boring me amp stephve been doing our music hw for over hours now ,2.0 54636,sarahjcooki i questioned some girl talking to tyson asking if she was sarah i think the scary barricade ,2.0 54637,rt patamapost dont feel sad over someone who gave up on you feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would have never gi,1.0 54638,chartingstock very cautious indeed just looking to unload thx,0.0 54639,living in depression hurts to bring my loved ones down hi all im writing this as it has been pretty evident that my depression has been affecting my loved ones around me especially my boyfriend there are days when i cant get out of bed and cant function normally i struggle to go to work and social events are especially tiring esp since i am an introvert i see that people who love me try to help me and make me feel better but i hate that im bringing them down i cant do much less enjoy activities that i used to things that my boyfriend and i did when i was in a mentally healthier state seem so difficult now hes extremely supportive and has shared that this is something he is gladly choosing however it sucks when i see that he worries about me and tries to make me feel better with not much success ive tried to share that it is something i am working at and will take a while however i wonder if him being a discouraged because i am not always receptiveeasily triggered by some past trauma that normal activities can cause b worrying about me and my mental health is getting too much it hurts me to see him hurt alongside me i feel horrible for being the needier depressed individual in the relationship i wish i could give more but i sometimes wonder if it is better for me to separate myself and my issues from him because then hed be free of what im experiencing and having to support mei dont know what to do im fine with dealing with my hurt and pain but i hate that im hurting people on the way to recovery,3.0 54640,andrewdever the laksa at the happy chef at the pailou centre on dixon street is the best ,0.0 54641,bellabellini well you could do the work visa or visiting visa or wait marry me and you are us citizen i am a dreamer we should talk,0.0 54642,sadly the sun seem b having day off bad weather after days of sun trying to wake up listening to linkin park v v loud,2.0 54643,being introverted people are always telling me to be extroverted but the few times i try to initiate convos i get rejected i tried talking to a guy by cracking a joke and all he said was ha very funny sarcastically i tried talking to another guy once and he just nodded off into the distance recently i met up with new people and it was going well until he said i reminded him of his partner by being passive aggressive what is wrong with me should i keep trying,3.0 54644,depression strikes again lets see how long itll last this round,2.0 54645,leicentious so with you on that one ,2.0 54646,my student just walked in balling she just witnessed her dog getting hit on the street i dont know what to do to cheer her up,2.0 54647,marikurisato or maybe you are quotexactlyquot where you are supposed to be for such a time as this hugs girl hang tough,0.0 54648,looking for graphic design job andor photography assignments let me know ,0.0 54649,cant find hope as of today my mother has given me two weeks to find something to do with my life or im on my own with nothing shes threatened to drop me off at mission granbury local homeless shelter but i cant do anything since i have no car no license not a dime to my name and a relationship my mother adamantly swears to me every day will fail miserably and ill live the rest of my life alone ive lived through hell and this is what breaks me i feel like everything anyone has ever done to help me was out of sheer pity and,3.0 54650,grenade in warren county turns out to be nothing ,2.0 54651, thomaswictorprattprattpratt sad to say i liked gaurdiansi like those kind of scifi thing ,0.0 54652,mjfrombuffalo that helped a lot with the hairspray stain thx but the ink is still there ,2.0 54653,huming the epic tetris tune ,0.0 54654,depping i was quoting edsger dijkstra who first created the use of semaphore in programming i do not speak dutch yet ,0.0 54655,rt sheriffclarke this is really sad most people her age know that everyday is a blessing and to take life day at a time god promises,1.0 54656,progress foundation job opportunity mental health workertay ,2.0 54657,need some help omg where to start i have been going through constant physical pain for the past months and it is seriously affecting my well being i have seen a doctor about the pain and got painkiller and surgery planned but the closer it get the sadder i get i feel so useless and i hate myself and my body i use to be fit and now i cannot even out on shoes on without crying of pain i keep smiling and all but today i had enough another sleepless night another waking up in agony another day at work where i have to move around i am trying to talk to people but i am getting angry at them for the fact that they arent in pain i am constantly crying of pain and cryingi am physically and mentally drained and i am not sure where to go i dont want people sympathy i just want to feel betterwhat can i do to just make myself feel better or to start liking me a bit moreany advice please,3.0 54658, lol just keep me on there then i dont really care gnight,0.0 54659,detox just to retox is my signature on my phone ,0.0 54660,gadbaby what was the answer clothdiapers,0.0 54661,tishtish we are in barstow ,2.0 54662, we arent machine met but we should act like a machine yaaso saaaddd ,2.0 54663,kirstyhilton likewise ms kirsty and that date we met was my last really couldve done with one more date ,2.0 54664,thank god for the new ac in my room ,0.0 54665,on the cloud now scaling my matrix on the ,0.0 54666,still recovering from a longg morning yesterday at the today show with taylor swift so funn ,0.0 54667,i miss my former internet communities ,2.0 54668,davidhadley i hate you too ,0.0 54669,cool just realized blipfm has added video this also opens up more songs that i could only find on youtube before ,0.0 54670,moonbeamdisco headaches better at the moment wrists are still zinging from the tatwork ,0.0 54671,i think i dont deserve success and happiness this is my first time here and probably ever talking about my depressionsuicidal thoughts to a stranger im a old guy i know what i want maybe wanted in life im a musicianproducer but i am losing interest in what i love because of depression and its really killing me i tried to turn this around i have had some success had great gigs released some good music that got quite attention but right now im badly blocked for almost a year and cant createfinish projects i have been depressed pretty much my whole life and i always shook off the feelings but the last year has been really bad battling with music and financesim in debt not muchapprox cuz of insurance but fucks up my head still but im unemployed and my sidehustling isnt that financially rewarding so i cant really pay it off but i was still motivated in making it and believed in myself but that feeling is just gone now my parents pretty much hates me for who i am i still live with my mom though and yeah i have been thinking about killing myself for quite some time now thing is i dont wanna hurt people around me and people i love especially my girlfriend we arent together for a long time really about months but i still love her and i dont wanna break her by my actions so my question is should i break up with her she deserves better she deserves a man who is gonna be mentally stable and not a year old unemployed dreamchasing kid i mean i still want to succeed and make the whole music thing work is money gonna make me happy i dont know im just so tired of trying over and over again and failing i dropped out of high school when i was to pursue music fully so it makes me pretty much useless in the real world thing is im fearless and wreckless at this point booze large portion of pills doing stupid selfharming shit really for the last months everytime i go to sleep i think of dying and everytime i wake up im mad that im not dead yet maybe im just a crybaby and need someone to tell me to man the up or little bit of advice if you read this whole nonsense of thoughts then thank you i appreciate it ,3.0 54672,sunwayhawaii thank you i needed that my day is already going bad ,2.0 54673, eeek youre amazing i dont know you but thank you for the link ,0.0 54674,sore arms from nurse taking blood from both arms my builder fixed my handle and bath and now i wait to go for my interview wish me luck,2.0 54675,dichenlachman poor fx you should watch merlin or dexter next best shows to dollhouse ,0.0 54676,this is so sad this lady couldnt even make it back home to her daughter new orleans has to do better,0.0 54677,we were going to take a trip to sixflags today but yesterday i caught whatever everyone else is having at the office poor timing ,2.0 54678,joamna so far theres only min its a comic by the hellboy ah im trying to remember by book i lost some somewhere,2.0 54679,catcorrine i miss too ,2.0 54680,loufcd i think ill take you up on your suggestion ill let you know how it goes,0.0 54681,i know its weird but i always have my pocket dictionary with me wherever i go ,0.0 54682,rothbart yeah chubbs full of shit keep the wild man ,0.0 54683,me to my depression when im tryna get out of bed in the morning,2.0 54684,trying to motivate myselfany help ,0.0 54685,i want to go to a concert from fob now i miss it cant wait any longer ,2.0 54686,xstex ahaha same my body clock is all messed up ,2.0 54687,is anyone else smoking cigarettes because theyre lonely ive realized i dont give a shit about the nicotine i cant tell if im even addicted to it either because im already anxious with or without them i feel no difference theres no relief when i smoke the nicotine makes me more anxious if anything i think im addicted to going outside to be around people walking by and what not even if im not talking to anyone anything but being by myself with my thoughts in a way ive realized that i kind of want somebody to just see me just standing outside is awkward but if i have a cigarette in my hand pretending to be occupied i dont feel out of place people see im just out for a smoke even when i have interactions with people it feels like i just dont want it although i dont want to be lonely and go back to just being part of the background and smoke i have this weird mental relationship with these cancer sticks and sometimes it seems like i want them to do me harm its fucked ,3.0 54688,earthmorgan i tried journeyman liked lead actor but others were weak it had potential but studios never give a show chance anymore ,2.0 54689,is reviewing notes for this mornings sermon so he doesnt have to use them he doesnt want to be a quotnotedquot preacher in the brotherhood ,0.0 54690,i think im finally out of gas for a long time now ive felt like i was running on fumes barely making it from one day to the next today it all hit me at once and i just dont think i have the strength to do it anymore i had to spend today trying not to have a complete meltdown at work and im afraid i may not be able to stop myself tomorrow just the thought of going outside makes me want to have a panic attack everything hurts im so lost and scared and i dont know what to do i wish somebody else wouldve gotten my life instead of me someone who was fucking normal and could use the resources i have to make a good life for themselves and contribute to society someone who didnt push every person who ever loved them away i wish i could just cease to exist so everyone could get on with their lives and stop worrying about me i hate being a burden so much i hate that i cant wake up in the morning without wishing i hadnt i hate that i can never do anything right i hate that i can barely muster a coherent thought anymore i hate myself,3.0 54691,pbadstibner thats ok anytime ,0.0 54692,knew it was a mistake to turn on facebook chat ,2.0 54693,starbucks ahh just finished one of those passion tea with the aronia berry juice is awesome too bad its going away ,2.0 54694,ah im up only a hour lecture today ,0.0 54695,etherjammer i think its because im always offtopic and sometimes inappropriate germination and quotfruit pickingquot jokes etc,0.0 54696,at abbies on twitter watching dirty dancing ,0.0 54697,realising how many times i got bitten whilst camping at the weekendtoo many ,2.0 54698,omg ib done finally ,0.0 54699,rt melaninyoongs seattlesd btstwt licensed mental health professionals dont speak like a petulant child trying to use big,1.0 54700,trying to eat healthier but being at home long enough to cook is torture ive been taking medicine and going to the gym but my diet has always been terrible and i know that being fat in general makes me miserable ive been trying to eat healthy but i live at home while im going to school and being around my family is exhausting for a multitude of reasons whenever i go to the kitchen to cook at least one of my family members is there my mom is retired and basically nocturnal and i have the overwhelming urge to either lock myself in my room or go for a drive which almost always ends at a drive thru i honestly just dont know what to do anymore i just wish i didnt have to eat,3.0 54701,goodbye twitterland going to revise ,2.0 54702,buon giorno all sunnychilly moms visitingshe wants help meaning wants clean my house her waywhat happ relaxing sunday ,2.0 54703,nateritter my friend therealtrevor told me u might hav good office chair resources btw i think we met the smedia breakfast on wed ,0.0 54704,iviva can i ask if there is a ant and dec question and answer part because my question still hasnt been answered fingers crossed,2.0 54705,three little guppy left ,2.0 54706,i have no one around me that cares fuck i hate existing,3.0 54707,reveling in the awesomeness that is my circa book of lord byron poetry i looove getting old books,0.0 54708,joyvbehar my mom did the times crossword every day in ink sposed to keep you mentally agiletoo bad the demetia didnt take heed ,2.0 54709,mcrmuffin okay dont hate me ,2.0 54710,im outta here yall see you tomorrow dont do a blessed thing that i wouldnt do because i dont want to miss anything ,0.0 54711,suegelber if not an kgod its def a high dose its here so be advised my fri nite is not reading essays amp listening to kenny g ,0.0 54712,hollowlegs sounds painful we did pork shoulder yesterday what are you going to do with yours,2.0 54713,really dont want to be depressed right now i was nearly suicidal for months before i started on medication medication gave me my life back within the first month of taking it in the second month of taking it an opportunity fell into my lap—the opportunity to own a home near my mom back in my hometown ive lived hours away from her and everyone i know for a few years now and i miss everyone so much so the opportunity to go home and move my life into a new happy existence was incredible long story short everything fell apart and it turns out that its impossible for me to move there at this time i have to wait another year probably more before i can even consider it this has sent me back into depression really hard on top of all of that my boyfriend who i live with literally the only person i have in my life here is leaving to hike for months on the appalachian trail next spring and ill be completely alone and still hours from everyone i love for half a year i wont have anyone to talk to cuddle with cry to ill be totally alone for the first time in my life so now all i feel is dread panic and all consuming depression the meds had started to make my life so much better i wish this whole idea to move back home never even happened i cant handle the heart break i just miss my mom i dont want to be alone when he leaves for months i was going to be close to my mom if i moved and now i cant be i dont know what to do ,3.0 54714,my back really hurts ,2.0 54715,trying to sleepbut cant stop thinking about you ,2.0 54716,mannynorte kl kl i will do thanks ,0.0 54717,depression scenario httpstcoqyhjuheuxk,2.0 54718,tinkerbelledust awwww hope the dreams are worthwhile and i can sympathise though with the gender switched lol,2.0 54719,i cant sleep oh no now i cant stay awake something has to give i went to bed at about last night since i had to be up at i woke up at and couldnt go back to bed i go some nights with hardly no sleep then i have days where i am up long enough to drink something and go to the bathrooom i know this excessive sleeping or no sleeping is caused by my major depression i wish i could get on some type of a decent sleep schedule i have tried sleeping meds they wake me the second they wear off or the extended versions keeping me sleeping day and night something has to give,3.0 54720,im so sad mfor the past few months i have been really depressed and having really bad anxiety im always so sad tired bored and i keep getting weight on my chest my social life is so fucking broken i moved country last summer and i had around close good friends but one of them would always call me ugly and stupid all the time for around a year it didnt effect me at first but as time went on and he kept saying it i started to really believe it he was doing it as a joke too he didnt do it to just me but after months of this i started to hide my face from people and had really bad self esteem other people around me started calling me stupid too especially my mother when she got angryafter i moved country i got really sad about it school wouldnt start for another months for me due to difficulties so i would spend all my time in my room playing video games as it was the only fun thing i could do at this point i was already miserable but when school started it got a lot worse i have very bad social skills and i have trouble speaking since i have a severe stutter and have turrets so when i stutter i violently shake too so due to this i never spoke in class when i did i tried really hard to not stutter and in doing so i could never really say what i wanted this made me have no friends and everyone finds me very weird in school i never speak to anyone in class i only talk when someone else tries to start a conversation but i end up panicking and saying something weirdmy brother at this time also suffered a head injury and lost his personality completely me and him were really close as he was the only one i could talk to and hangout with this loss made me completely give up and i started having really bad panic attacks and hypnic jerks at night so i could never sleep now i have been skipping a lot of school because it makes me feel so empty and lonely my attendace atm is and the school is pressuring me into going which puts a lot of pressure and worry onto me i have spoke to my parents about this and they are really trying to help me but theyre christian so they make me read the bible and pray they dont want me going to a therapist either im really scared about my future i have no idea what im going to do i need to study but i really dont want to i really want to kill myself so i dont have to worry about all of this its all i can think about anymorei have no one to talk to about this not my parents not anyone at school and i know no one in my area everyone just thinks im weird so im honestly making this post as a relieve i really want someone to talk to about all this i have such a big pressure on my chestthanks for reading ,3.0 54721,rt spencerkk give me shelter give me peace anxiety ,0.0 54722,sunburnt face is never fun ,2.0 54723,rt btsarmyint if youre new to this community and you didnt go through or know about those fucking years of anxiety panic and depres,2.0 54724,sleepingwork way to early tomorrow ,2.0 54725,sitting in the sun and singing thee life all alone haa,0.0 54726,lol kalaharinet marketing quotmay the be with youquot ,0.0 54727,fuschianicolee omg my dad born ampamp raised in ny will not stop saying that shit he believes that ny is the world period lol ,0.0 54728,do you know the feeling when its am and youre alone with your thoughts and suddenly the constant stream of youtube and reddit notifications just isnt doing it for you anymore and youre left with that empty gnawing feeling so you start down the google rabbit hole googling things like signs you were sheltered as a kid and signs of adhd in girls and suddenly you are reminded of how empty your life really is how much of a mess and a poser you really are how failure is inevitable and you are not equipped to deal with the real world and then you are left sitting alone by yourself too empty to lay your head down and go to bed ,3.0 54729,trying to figure this out i think im getting it a little though ,0.0 54730,mrslizz i so will and tell him if he finds him to give my digits ,0.0 54731,way too hot today of course wearin a suit doesnt help at all,2.0 54732, i agree have to admit it is the horror of what people will serve and say about others that delights oh amp i shout at the tv ,0.0 54733,dreamstreetbabi heyyy ,0.0 54734,that potato salad had a shocking amount of mustard i remain hungry and unsatisfied,2.0 54735,is anyone having the same problem so if you dont want to listen to a rant then click out but lately ive had no reason for getting out of bed i quit a bunch of things i was excited about ive had to text the crisis line for self harm i thought that after escaping suicide last year i thought it was over but i almost failed the semester because of mental issues but i had a councilor she ended up leaving to a new center thats the second one this year im severely depressed but i dont want medication mostly because i dont want drugs to feel better im constantly wanting to hurt myself im so depressed my relationships suffering my relationship with my family is suffering because im pushing them away saying and acting toxic towards them even though im only mad at myself my friendships are suffering because i ghost them to just be depressed and just like my family im acting toxic towards them sorry but i thought this my be a good place to rant personally id rather rant to strangers that dont know me that way i can be still probably judged except this time without them knowing me,3.0 54736,thecityforever ,2.0 54737,im sick of trying at this point it doesnt even feel like trying is worth it i have a plan to get my life back together but i dont have any motivation or discipline to get started theres just no reason i gave up on having a future years ago when i was still in high school ive been intentionally messing up relationships with the people i love so that it wont affect them as much when i die the only reason i havent shot myself yet is because i know that would hurt some of my family members but its getting to the point where im so desensitized that its not a deterrent anymore i rarely speak to anyone because it feels like im wasting their time with someone they wont even see in a year or two not sure if im posting on here as a cry for help or just to vent but thanks for your time,3.0 54738,today i turn its my birthday and ive barely been so depressed and helpless in my life i just want a friend to listen and take me seriously and be there for me consistently like i am for others i want to find a mutual friend who doesnt mind venting or listeningmy ex is already seeing someone its so hurtful because it seems really disrespectful we still live together and do things together but she keeps secrets and shes a bad liar and i suspect something is going on i just dont know how to come to terms with iti have no job and owe people a lot of money i havent been able to work because i was hit by a car and was temporarily disabled for months im doing better now but had to change my career because of my injuriesi feel alone in this world and like no one values me or wants to know me or even caresthanks for listening,3.0 54739,gunnsforshow damn sad to hear i played a couple days ago and it actually wasnt too bad,2.0 54740,if you want to stay bffls for life dont be afraid to dm me ill send you to my other various social networking profiles ,0.0 54741,want to be reincarnated i dont want to die i want to enjoy life i want to be happy and excited about things i want to be someone that someone else can love so i dont have to feel so lonely and empty i dont think ill ever be that person because its just too hard and i dont think i can do it alone theres me admitting it i can be that person but i never will be i want to die,3.0 54742,rt amamedia docs across australia wore odd socks today to raise awareness of doctors mental health was a cov ,2.0 54743,framolamdu pyt is an excellent song ,0.0 54744,rt sosadtoday its my depression and ill do what i want with it,1.0 54745,feeling desperate hopeless and scared for the future i happened to take upon hobbies and career in an extremely unlucrative and financially taxing fields im just good at a number of things but not great im pretty sure i wont succeed and end up killing myself soon im surprised i made all this way but this isnt going to last long,3.0 54746,kaitnolan ships in the dawn slipping in and out of the gray may your monday be great ,0.0 54747,cubs win ,0.0 54748,cry for death whats wrong i dont understand iti just want to have a companion with whom i can share stuff and increase productivity oh yes i have failure it is always the best companion i gotyup i am full of shit yup i doubt myself yup i am crazy yup i am not a regular beingbut still i am humanstill i want to do something gooddeath is what i see everywherei dont want to be a bad person still i am worstsearching for dream searching for success searching for happinessmay be some day i feel peace in death but also i dont have the guts to commit suicide as i have already seen the outcome of iti dont know why i am so sadistic sometime i enjoy these sad feelings like its a part of meor who i am kidding its what i got all my lifenobody to help all of them want to show their greatnessyes your highness i appreciate your work so just fuck offfthis also proves i am an attention seekerbut still i want to know how many people are like me or i am only the existence of shit in this fucking world,3.0 54749,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 54750, so glad others r up the thunder scared me outta my fauxsleep geeno,2.0 54751,pumped to go to gym to only work out i didnt pack all my gym gear ,2.0 54752,thelonely lmao oh i dont know im just me ,0.0 54753,gailporter shit sorry to hear it ,2.0 54754,i love the redandwhite hat of the cat in the hat wish i had one ,0.0 54755,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 54756,i relapsed the other day last wednesday i broke down in front of my girlfriend after a few months feeling like i was okay i realized now i did nothing but suppress how i really felt now im taking my meds again feeling worse than ever and now i feel more broken than ever ,3.0 54757,shouldve known that an awesome weekend would lead to a very poor monday but june day will be a step up fb,0.0 54758,is sat in his garden all on his own but enjoying the sun shine,2.0 54759,at the job bored as hell wish i didnr have to work ,2.0 54760,retthib awwww hahahatell ur boss i said sawy i hope u visiting my page didnt get u into trouble how r ya babe,2.0 54761,sputnik but weight is so much easier to maintain than your skin ,2.0 54762,im so tired of spencer already mann spencer can go get fucked in the ass he aint no king of television or costa rica jungle,0.0 54763,toongen weeeelllll i cant watch it yet because i have to clean before tonight go to footy sooooon ,2.0 54764,its only i cant be tired yet im not guna nap tho bc then ill be up all night ill fall asleep at gotta get up eeearly ,2.0 54765,forgetfulness i feel brain dead im given simple tasks at work and i forget about them the second they were spoken to mei feel so stupid i just want to be normal,3.0 54766,back to work now i suppose enjoying the sunshine though ,2.0 54767,all sample prototypes for the new line are finished cant wait to see them in person ,0.0 54768,ctirpak glad you are ok that would wig me out too do they still use that word lol,0.0 54769,joycepoiani i didnt like it either ,2.0 54770,cobwebsstir me slow too still puttering around right now,0.0 54771,rt pettyblackboy me and my homegirls taking a break from our depression to turn up at local functions this summer httpstcobhtbienixw,2.0 54772,i want a puppy ,2.0 54773,icherann bwahaha yuup so saddddd and missing theater are we ,2.0 54774,nomessenger twitter does a pretty good job of keeping script kids at bay but we will keep trying ,0.0 54775,foxxfiles nahthe cavs are done go magic,0.0 54776,hey guys im about to release my site ill keep you update when it is already finish ,0.0 54777,gn all turning in early have to intern in the am ,2.0 54778,woke up with a headache time to get ready for work,2.0 54779,rt hi twitterim a new dog mom today and im cryingbecause im so happy meet ezzy ezraand enjoy my ugly cry h,1.0 54780,i have a grad party theyre met fans guess ill have to watch the encore,2.0 54781, nearby ,2.0 54782, quotif it was completely different school would be greatquot calvin and hobbes also quotes,0.0 54783,rt armysreminder so many new btstwt fans are made believe the bs that bh treated them fairely or they are a family w the managemen,1.0 54784,i really want to meet wethetravis or alexalltimelow this summer but it doesnt look to promising ,2.0 54785,rt bdsm stands for bitch i am so d sadm,1.0 54786,just finished tearing down the holley carb and im going to need a rebuild kit ,2.0 54787,heard a wierd noise outside pissing myself laughing coz my sis has a cricket bat im still scared kidquizine and help me,2.0 54788,stephenfry is it possible to get a signed photo of you im a big fan ,0.0 54789,venting a little sorry to just vent here but i have nowhere else to im tired of feeling so empty and broken all the time im tired of feeling like i couldve been more im tired of trying im tired of being hurt im tired of working towards a goal that i can never reach im tired of living a life i dont want a life with little joy little freedom little hope,3.0 54790,i really want a new job but cant apply for interviews because i struggle with aboulia i cant trust myself to groom for the day i have no interview outfits everything looks sloppy and disshevelled on me as i am an obese emotional eater even if i groomed for the day i still have a leftover slop look from living like this my job isnt doing anything for me and is killing my confidence and i need a second job so bad but will never get past the interviews furthermore i have no social skills as living in a psychologically abusive home has collided with my aspergers studying for an interview sounds like a dramatically draining and tedious chore that probably wont even pan out anyways and will further hurt my confidence badly im and just want money to move out,3.0 54791,just got an email and it sounds like two of my favorite guests have split up they appeared to be so happy,2.0 54792,rt incindia किसानों की कर्ज माफ़ी को लेकर सरकार के दोहरे रवैये से किसानों को जान देने पर मजबूर होना पड़ रहा है httpstcoypryvilwqd,1.0 54793,really wishing i was in the midwest today my lovelies are having fun concert weekend without me ,2.0 54794,sick of being fat on antidepressants hey there im sure some of you can relate with thisbefore medication my healthy weight was seroquel was then a terrible thing that shot me up to at my heaviest and i have been off of that for over months now but the lowest i can get with excercise and relatively healthy eating is the other medication i am on and have been for years is effexxor xr and after reading a few others stories i am convinced that this is stopping me from losing weighti hate being this size but know that i need to be on something as even on my dose i can still get quite low but me carrying this weight and having no confidence is making me feel shit tooplease share your experiences with effexxor xr if you want or what other alternatives there are to itas much as i wish i could just stop all medications and naturally drop all this weight i know i cant as i will tank so hard i will probably off myselfim from australia so i know some medications from other areas wont be as commonavailable here but any recommendations will be appreciated and i will discuss thoroughly with my psychiatrist before doing anythingthankyou,3.0 54795,bfd yeah yeah yeahs aoki offspring does it offend u yeah etcetc party bfd,0.0 54796,back to work ,2.0 54797, i know the suspense is too much i want it now but im off now to take my exam wish me luck and ill see what i can do about ,2.0 54798,rt depression is not funnyanxiety is not funnyschizophrenia is not funnyselfharm is not funnyanorexia is not fun,0.0 54799,done work going to the pool tomorrow then colin is picking me up ,0.0 54800,if i get a on my bio test i still have a c in that class ,2.0 54801,reconnected with old pal from high school whoa great fun good night new york thank you ,0.0 54802,does anyone else ever think whats the point of living everything is going to end eventually the main purpose is to enjoy yourself and have fun if im not doing that then whats the pointi wouldnt dare hurt myself or anything like that but it just feels like there is no point in living im just watching the days pass waiting for something to happen but nothing is going to happen life just seems like it has no real purpose to it,3.0 54803,rt janinebucks how you beat anxiety ryan shaw selfimprovement selfimprovement selfimprovement,0.0 54804, ur so lucky there the stage its so close of theem here not i think were dangerous ,2.0 54805,the spelling bee is the most anxietyinducing thing on television rn,1.0 54806,gud nightwith a congested nose ,2.0 54807,im jealous of mileycyrus i wanna be with nick j right now ,2.0 54808,love the hamptons and montauk yey for cowboys hehehe,0.0 54809,prom dress shopping with katie and riley i miss andrea ,2.0 54810,my first time doing something like this ive been struggling with depression for years now it really started when my grandfather died unexpectedly in his sleep let me add that my mom had me young so my grandfather was only at the time his death crushed me as he was honestly once if my best friends also i saw him every single day including the day before his passing to this day it still hurts so much it has had a huge impact on my life i started drinking heavily at point the drinking was so bad i almost lost my girlfriend i have since stopped drinking and me and my girlfriend are engaged but as i plan my wedding i get down bc i know he wont be able to see it theres times where i just sit and tell myself im a fool to still be so depressed about a death from years ago but i just cant help it at this point,3.0 54811,says shoot yanks lost ,2.0 54812,dono y i feel lyk i do it hurts an i dont want to feel this anymore ,2.0 54813,i cant wait til tomorrow dave day,0.0 54814,cant be aces official assistant anymore ,2.0 54815,good newsbad news good news is we dont have to pay a babysitter bc bad news is we lost at the casino ,2.0 54816,almostdangerous me either ,0.0 54817,roycemorgan you to its been a movie weekend for me lol ,0.0 54818,at the parade sippin on a smirnoffnaw im lyin im actually at punk ass work eating these jack in the box tacos lol,2.0 54819,nishitd my heartbreak yes ,2.0 54820,im so done fuck all of this fucking years of meds after years of not talking to anyone about it im so sick of feeling like this and im so sick of getting my hopes up when i get on a combo of meds that seems to work only to crash right back down to where i was its a fucking losing battle and im over trying to fight part of me wishes all of this never came outat least that way i wouldnt have any hope of getting better at least that way i wouldnt have my therapist my parents my friends asking me how im doing it sucks because i cant help but feel like they just pity me and are asking just to seem nice and to keep me from killing myself its all such bullshit i try to surround myself with people who i think care but then when you find out they really dont its like getting stabbed i try to stay active and do all of the cliché shit that therapists and people who dont get it say to do only now im getting sick of those things how are you supposed to do the things you might enjoy and that will help your mood if youve lost all interest in them sorry im feeling so shitty right now and i just wanted to write something out and now im thinking i probably shouldve just wrote this down instead of bitching and complaining to the internet fuck it though,3.0 54821,had a blast last nightnow enjoying a few quiet minutes before the kiddies leave for the day ,2.0 54822,theblackout thanx gav will be watching xx,0.0 54823,rt manuriosfdez idk why but to think that theres a lot of good music out there that ive never heard gives me anxiety,1.0 54824,rt vinterine wtf is this me when i blast sad music in my earphones and cry while i wash the dishes and clean the house ,2.0 54825,maybe single again wish she would let me know whats going on,2.0 54826,going out to eat with a friend for dinner tonight im picking out good clothes ,0.0 54827,candyxtokyogurl eishhhhhhh i dont know ,0.0 54828,i wanna be at fenway tonight seeing dmb ,2.0 54829,aaliyon those are good ,0.0 54830,vfactoryangelz hey what up what up thanks so much for the following glad theres another vfactory team ,0.0 54831,i hate my brain i hate the way it works i know people with depression who are able to make it through the bad days by lying in bed watching their favourite tv shows or reading a book but when mines at its worst it just sucks the joy out of everything i love doesnt matter if its reading or gaming or watching movies or writing or taking a walk or scrolling reddit its all a pointless horrible blackness that makes me feel worse if i even try to do it im only just finding myself able to come up for air today which is why i able to write this post i tried several times earlier and kept deleting it and throwing my phone away because it felt so stupid and pointless i dont mean to say one type of depression is better or worse than another just that i cant bear how mine affects me feeling no joy or enthusiasm about the things that define me is excruciating and i find it amazing how such intense passion cant be utterly extinguished for a day then come back as if nothing happenedi wish i knew what was wrong with my brain ,3.0 54832,kristinnneee goodluck ill pray for yu tonight tehe ,0.0 54833,rt starrylies rt if you want to die constantly never like yourself dont look in a mirror cause youre unsatisfied with your a,0.0 54834,self improvement is fucking retarded this subreddit has gone to shit,3.0 54835, damn bae i wish i could make you feel better,2.0 54836,off to bed good night europe,0.0 54837,i dont want to leave my comfort zone if im given a chance of not having to work or socialize with people all the time i would grab it so i dont have to deal with social anxiety and stress all the time i just want to stay in my own space not having to pretend or make the effort to talk to people and worry about what they think of meif only i can do that sigh,3.0 54838,shaundiviney i amm stuff school short stack more important cant wait xxx,0.0 54839,we live in a sex orientated world ,2.0 54840,i need advice and help sorry if this comes out a little jumbled im trying to figure out how to help my wife she has been dealing with depression on and off for years it has been pretty bad this last few weeks she has been having suicidal thoughts daily and today she admitted she tried to get into the gun safe at one point while wanting to commit suicide i have been trying to get her to talk to someone a counselor psychiatrist or anyone she thinks could help she wont because she says they cant help she believes that her hormones are unbalanced and thinks she just needs to get blood work done and see her general practitioner our gp is busy and not making it easy to get an appointment but i dont think she has told them why she wants this done now and why she needs it done soon my wife isnt following through after an initial call because shes depressed and maybe feels hopeless i dont know what else to do i dont know how to help her but i am really scared i could lose her if you guys have any tips on how to get her seen quickly or some other resource im missing i would really appreciate it,3.0 54841,past is the past but is it okay so ive had some shitty things happen in my life i fully understand that it happens to everyone but i feel like it has completely shaped who i am today the choices that i made in the past and the trauma that i experienced during teen depression has followed me and is holding me back from starting new how do you let the past be the past if the past shaped you for who you are today i dont like the person i am today and i cant seem to change that mindset i guess what im trying to ask is how do you move past depression if depression is the thing holding you back in life,3.0 54842,i think its time for a napi feel bad wasting this gorgeous day ,0.0 54843,dont do what you love for people that dont love what you do depression has seriously been kicking my ass around the past month and a bit so i thought it was time to create a dedicated account to vent my worrieswas a talented coder when i was younger won national championships and so on fast forward health got the best of me and i ended up needing surgery or otherwise id die this went fine and even got into uni on time with the rest of my peers my age ended up studying mathematics amp comp sci for a year before the rent became too much for someone that was doing freelance and i had to move homein order to pay for uni locally i started working this job went shit with new management and they basically just used and abused me to make their systems government compliant so they could start taking on gov contractsgot poached about a month ago by a much larger company which is a nice feeling the part they dont tell you though is that when they work you this hard you burn out and end up hating everything you loved to do i have no passion anymore and my head constantly hurts im constantly dazing off and i have been feeling physically ill for the past months but every doctor says it is nothingso as i sit here at work constantly thinking of how i would love to jump out the window and end it all just to be over with itand knowing that im going to go home just to sleep another hours just so i dont have to think about the depressing day ill have tomorrow and knowing that i have nothing left that i like that i have no motivation i dont even care about the money anymore ive had to drop out of university and leave the one last thing i loved doing just so i can afford rent amp to feed myselfso with all that out of the way for the younger ones about to enter the adult life take this advice dont do what you love if you arent working for yourself or for someone that doesnt love what you do theyll always end up stealing it from you and that will make you hate it you will be left with nothing,3.0 54844,good morning all hope u have a better day than i do sob x,2.0 54845,rt adrianxpression bitch move you didnt bat an eyelid at your husbands racist bigotry or his confession of being a sexual predator htt,2.0 54846,yougotmichelle lol call me when u get the other one ,0.0 54847,mjthedog its raining here i was outside sniffing for my bunnies and i got soaked ,2.0 54848,my odd socks for socksfordocs yesterday raising awareness of mental health for health ,2.0 54849,the sun is shining today and georgian terraced homes of belgravia look even more cosy than ever ,0.0 54850,being in mexico makes me really happy but very sentimental and sad too i wish i couldve been here when my grandma was still here,1.0 54851,rt litabletop dont stress entry to the long island tabletop gaming expo is also entry to the long island retro gaming expo two great e,1.0 54852,hisprosody lol hehe hey twin thx,0.0 54853,rt abratasas for all my anxiety ridden folks ,2.0 54854,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 54855, none of mine do ,2.0 54856,aszcfxvdgcbfh i might go to sleep ,2.0 54857,watched army of darkness went bowling uploaded some cosplay pics and waiting for time to tick down to jp on the big screen tonight ,0.0 54858,hand spinner tri fidget adhd anxiety austim stress reducer desk toy edc metal via ebay ,1.0 54859,im fucking possessed the fucking dryer machine stole my fucking and i got so angry i slammed the door screaming multiple times this is not my dryer there are cameras watch me probably get kicked out of this place i literally just moved in toi need to kill myself,3.0 54860,yeah because society hates women more than of teenage girls experience depression the washington post,2.0 54861,lament i am at work on a saturday when the weather is incredible i want to be out cycling ,2.0 54862, no i didnt lolim askingi havent eaten real food in mad longdarn dentist smh,2.0 54863,itzyung i didnt get ur text i was like this nigga ignored me for days my phone memory was full it deleted pples text i c it smh,2.0 54864,rnaworld agreed i just told them to sign up and follow me much easier ,0.0 54865,on the road long trip ahead of me going back to my home town cant wait to get there ,0.0 54866,rt henereyg this is a sad story of c martin crokers last days this guy is hugely important to animation history arguably theres no a,1.0 54867,bigcatface thats sooo long it will go so quickly tho and be worth the wait xxxxxxx,2.0 54868,supposed to be getting up in hours better hit the sack itll be nice to shoot non people shots for an afternoon ,0.0 54869,damn got caught up product searching and have no time for before sleep office epi ,2.0 54870,one more day of holidays ,2.0 54871,alantudyk that theres usually a lowes right next to it its a fascinating alterhabit for birds that tr ,0.0 54872,dangerous damnyou why did you do that maeve binchey,2.0 54873,a bored morning a typical sunday start ,2.0 54874, haha oh dearwell thanks i think i sound like such a hick,0.0 54875,michaelmagical oh its dinner time here still sulking over missing your fillet min sob so having tea amp toast ,0.0 54876,finally in home thanks for calling me baby boy i miss you too ,0.0 54877,laynemontgomery whoa theyre playing here but i wont be in town when they do ,2.0 54878,looking forward to our playdate with ms j amp ms m i cant wait to see them ,0.0 54879,rt badzachx id rather be happy and irrelevant than famous and sad,1.0 54880,i think its time im im a senior in high school i wake up i go to school i come home i do my homework i do chores around the house i take care of the pets i take care of myself i eat when i should and i shower and i keep my room clean i go to the gym and i actively produce art i listen to music i play guitar i spend time with my mom and friends im not unhappy my life just feels so dull and gray im not sad or angry im not upset about anything there have been previous years of my life that were overcome by anxiety and major depression and self harm and even a suicide attempt but then i was sad i was angry and confused and disgusted ive suffered ptsd since age and that affected me a lot it still affects me especially now that i have a form a physical ptsd thats how my doctor described it i dont know what else to call it from overdosing years when i tried to kill myself but trauma aside i dont feel anything negative of course i have my bad moods like anyone else but really id say i have more good moods than bad moods i laugh i smile i joke a lot im the comedian of my circle i tell you all of this because its so odd that i live my life on autopilot doing everything i should and being more positive than i used to be but almost every hour of my day is filled with thoughts of suicide i fantasize of slicing my wrists open to watch the blood pool in the tub beneath me i imagine driving to the old hanging tree on the other side of town in the middle of the night and leaving my body dangling for someone to find in the morning walking on the sidewalk i laugh to myself as i think about jumping in front of the cars rolling by i dont self harm i dont cry its all funny to me its all a game,3.0 54881,always said stay healthy mentallyampphysically you cant get anywhere without both,0.0 54882,haha chatty man was ace but dad turned the wifi off without warning me so i was cut off,2.0 54883,jondapope yeah mork has work it makes me sad ill give you a ring once i get home,2.0 54884,rt mohamedadeeb im commiting suicide soon,2.0 54885,i hate writing speeches especially for art grrrrr school ,2.0 54886,oh well sonny with a chance ,0.0 54887,andreamona it was today thanks for noticing ,2.0 54888,otw to ancikas gymboree bday party tamanikids kemang alvaro is going to party ,0.0 54889,im too sad to be working rn aa,2.0 54890,graduation party hahah ,0.0 54891,rt wallisday my go to movie when im sad or lonely is moana just thought you should know and i also cry every time know who you are comes,1.0 54892,its on rare occasions to have the refrigerator stocked to its capacity today i celebrate one such occurrence,0.0 54893,yeet my wig has flown,2.0 54894,when will the jobros and taylor swift and demi have their concert here ,2.0 54895, i know but thats good soooo hows frank everything good,2.0 54896,alvinao will wait for iphone to launch and see hopefully by then the version would be cheaper ,0.0 54897,omg that was so unexpected ,2.0 54898,jnicks here i ammm mwahhhh,0.0 54899,folk tired uh ohwanna leave amp r doing so programmingnot so good bday bash ,2.0 54900,life seems boring and most of the time i feel depressed how do i find joy in the routines of life for context im a very outgoing adventurous person and love novelty and excitement in college i loved going to parties taking spontaneous trips and overall just making great memories with friends being stupid and having fun ever since graduating and everyone going their separate ways life seems more times than not seems dull ive always been someone where i find happiness in being with others and dont know how to find happiness in being with myself and spending time alone because i like adventure working behind a desk was grueling and i left my job after months every day i was so bored and depressed that i could barely function at work when i went home after work it was just more boredom and depression as every night was basically the same as the last and would be the same as the next now that im searching for a new job im really worried about going through life unable to find joy like i had in college ive made friends but only get to see them once or twice a week i have a girlfriend but because shes almost an hour away we really only get to eat dinner and watch shows together which has gotten old pretty quick by the time the weekend rolls around im pretty depressed and find it hard to even enjoy that time i like playing video games to socialize with long distance friends and get my mind off my depression but once i turn off the games its back to reality im trying to stay positive but honestly its getting hard and im definitely scared for the future im scared that ill go through life and not find the joy that i once experienced if you have any advice or want to share your thoughts it would be appreciated 🙂,3.0 54901,rafaelluis theyre really good actually i love it here i wanna move back really badly ,2.0 54902,la taza te amo gracias por tanto ,1.0 54903,stuck in a nutshell there comes a time in every persons life where they experience deaths of a friend family member co worker significant other when you marry someone you intend on spending the rest of your lives together right well my case is different i got engaged at age married and pregnant at had my baby at and my husband passed away when i was we were married for months he died in a tragic car accident when my daughter was just months old i was not only new to motherhood but as a widow as well when he passed away i lost everything he was the man of the house and brought the income into the house he was a great husband and father i did not start moving on until months after my husbands passing dont get me wrong i slept around a lot but im nowjust recently i started dating again my new man has been wonderful knowing everything that has happened hes a wonderful boyfriend and hope one day father to my daughter lately i have been feeling depressed and moody constantly i feel alone because i dont think i ever cared for my mental health after my husband died i have talked to councilors a week after my husband died but i just hated talking about my feelings and everything today i stepped up to the plate and recognized i need mental help i finally got the guts to go to the councilor and talk it helped a little bit i am worried that i might lose my new man because i am constantly unhappy it has nothing to do with him im just finally able to talk about my feelings after holding them in for the last year his one year was feb it was a good day my boyfriend took off work for me and my daughter so he could support me and my family which is so amazing and thoughtful we went to the aquarium furthermore as the days have passed i have been seeing things lately that arent there and i blame myself for everything i love my daughter but i feel guilty that her dad isnt here it wasnt my fault for her dads passing but i wish i couldve prevented it and forced him to stay home but im trying to move forward and state the fact that its okay to not be okay i just dont want to drag my man down with me because im still going through grief i hide my grief very well by sex weednot anymore binge eating and such my man has noticed it and has confronted me about it and wants me to express and communicate with him about my feelings but it is so hard because i have not fully understanding myself as a person and i dont want him to think im a lunatic or anything like that but he is so understanding that it scares me he loves me and my daughter which is amazing but it feels too good to be true i dont want my feelings of sadness and anger being him down because i care about his mental health wellness as well god i love this man so much but its scary i say scary because i have so much deep feelings for him and care towards him that my love might be too much for him does that make sense what should i do should i see a psychiatrist,3.0 54904, txcranberry just saw it myself omg i could eat that kid up i want one ,2.0 54905,me a pin for my bag amp a silicone bracelet to wear ,0.0 54906,this rain is seriously depressing me reading the book new moon is definitely not helping as well ,2.0 54907,i am lovin the weather absolutely stunnin ,0.0 54908, stats testrotary speechncea speechnetball x gamescultural nightlack of maoriness atmpacking unhappy miah ,2.0 54909,wasteofpeinture lucky you because thats all i seem to run into here ,2.0 54910,rt slaytargaryen now we have to tell goats not all men stress ,1.0 54911,jonathanrknight there is no way on earth that you can answer everyone will you ask donnie if he got the gift from my yr old lastnight,0.0 54912,hey prolifersisnt it time you got a life yet another example of tailoring religion to fit your purpose so proud im an atheist ,0.0 54913,mediajunkie i get an error on your tweet link doesnt work for me,2.0 54914,thisisdavina me lol have a good show tonight x,0.0 54915,jaredwoods dude that tweet is so favourited ,0.0 54916,i kid you not i have gift stress im so picky about what i buy for someone if im gifting it to them i will neve ,1.0 54917,fwmj so jealous i hate blackberry ,2.0 54918,shabzcohelp can i have it ,0.0 54919,its getting really painful ive been depressed for awhile i dont really know when it started i think it has always been there but it manifested as a general sense of pessimism before now its physical i feel myself draining every day ready to cry at any moment it really got bad after i graduated from college i felt this horrible need to get a job as soon as possible and i ended up working for a gas station for a little bit hated it then i started working for staplesstaples is ok i guess its very stressful i hate having to sell all the time i hate how i get my ass handed to me by my boss if i cant sell at least worth of extra stuff on somebodys computer i want a job thats comfortable and kinda laid back that doesnt pull me in eight different directions and demand immediate results i dont think a job like that existseveryone at staples knows im depressed they can see it in my eyes the way my frown sinks lower and lower as the hours go by the way i drag my feet everywhere i go they ask me if im ok but i havent really talked about it with anyone im trying to move in with my girlfriend in the city we found a nice apartment and were moving in together in about a month and everyone at work is rooting for us i just need to find a new jobfinding a new job has just weighed me down so much ive been applying to places for about a month or two now and ive only managed to get one interview i feel like ive wasted my time somehow but im not sure what i did stare at the ceiling watch my backyard with my forehead against the window crying in front of my girlfriend im not sure what ive done all this time i feel like time is just slipping away i want to move in with my girlfriend but i really want a good job in my field with the degree i earned but i cant even get a basic minimum wage jobmy girlfriend is so good i love her she genuinely understands how i feel and the pain im going through and the lengths i feel i need to go to make sure we can have the life we want sometimes i dont cry because im sad but because her attempts to make me happy are so kind that i feel i dont deserve such kindness i feel so comfortable with her that i could just sit with her and talk and it would be meaningful like just spending my life with her feels genuinely rewarding and ive never been with anyone like that beforebut i cant get a job i hate myself so much for it my girlfriend has a decent job but i dont want to feel like a leech on her while i find something i just feel so terrible i just want a job that i feel good doing and just be moved in already but as the days march on i feel that lump in my throat and i know that nobody is going to hire me i wish time could just stop so i could figure things out im so scared,3.0 54920,getting consumed by depression so i have dealt with anxiety and depression my entire life i got through everything with distractions i focused on school and graduated with a masters degree along the way i drank and hung out with friends anyway basically i just never let myself be alone and somehow made it this far now i feel like i cant get away from it of my day is consumed by bad thoughts im going to a therapist but i feel like its just making me more aware of everything i dont know where to go from here ,3.0 54921,should i tell my therapist around a month ago i was holding a kitchen knife and decided to press it against my stomach i didnt press hard enough to bleed but i did keep putting pressure on it to see how easy it would be to stab myself i feel like this is something i should talk with her about but im worried she might try to send me to a hospital or something,3.0 54922,rt jniewalker มินย้อกถามซอฮยอนว่า depression แปลว่าอะไร น้องก็พิมพ์ตอบให้ ละนังก็แบบ อู้วว ชเวซอฮยอนนน ละก็บอกว่าเนี่ยซอฮยอนเคย ,2.0 54923,therotarm well apart from being woefully lonely and not social its mostly just sucked in general ,2.0 54924,baxiabhishek ,0.0 54925,thesunhasset well cheer up charlie give us a smile then hahah,0.0 54926,i feel like im worthless my mom left me my stepdad abused me sexually and emotionally i attempted suicide at and now my partner hates me for my damaged personality i get jealous easily i know that i feel as if its because abandonment issues ive been going to a therapist for a couple of months but not enough to help me feel better about myself my partner comes home from work and yells at me every day now because he doesnt know if ill be upset that day or not ive been trying to change myself no more checking his phone no more crying over bad thoughts in front of him and no more fighting back with ugly words ive just been trying to be happy when i got upset at my car the other day he thought i was going to yell at him i definitely didnt i was just upset about my car stalling after he got home he noticed i was upset not talking so he figured it was at him and he called me horrible names and stupid every argument he calls me stupid and sometimes he even treats me like im stupid in public lately he said hes embarrassed to take me in public for some reason and that im a failure because i havent finished my ged yet and im years old now hes saying hes depressed and hates his life because of me i feel worthless and unwanted by the person i need most ive been trying so hard to be perfect but i just keep failing i dont want to have suicidal thoughts definetly when i love someone this much i want to be worth everything to the person i love and i feel like he just hates me for who i am now i feel disgusting being the cause of his depression and not even knowing it until now i dont want to feel worthless and unwanted all my life but so far its been happening every day hoping that ill grow out of this bad life at the same time i want to move and leave everyone behind so that i dont have to be their burden,3.0 54927,yeah screw you im hurt ,2.0 54928,azonica ahhh i see dont use a twitter client on my touch not much point when you have to rely on wifi ,2.0 54929,it doesn�t work ,2.0 54930,philipjohn ill be upstairs in apres if you read this ,0.0 54931,i changed everything and years later everythings wrong again apologies english is not my mother tongue so i moved miles away left my narcissistic family started a new major i really liked and surprisedly im good at i dreamt being with him for years and i finally started living with him it means nothing right now i lost my friends i have really bad anxiety i couldnt help him start his career and i swear i blame myself everyday for that i have so many doubts about what my life should or shouldnt be and i dont even now if we still love each other i feel lonely in the old and new place and sadly the only thing that made me satisfied was being on top at uni im a total loser i know i cant see myself being happy and pleased because ill never be satisfied ive been depressed my entire life and now i realise im the problem and just feel the urge to disappear i cant even get proper sleep thinking about this every day,3.0 54932,out in the rain ,2.0 54933,im afraid ill never find someone that really loves me ive suffered from depression since my early teens ive never been able to overcome it i know the best thing is that i get help but im afraid to be open and vulnerable with anyone not to mention now that this virus has most of us at a standstill its hard to find a therapist i find it difficult to like anything about myself or even tolerate im afraid that my own self hate has kept me from following my dreams or living life or even maintain relationships i wake up every morning and look myself in the mirror my shaggy hair little ache scars scattered across the side of my face my weight my height my race which sometimes seems despised by some my glasses and i hate it all i dont know how i could be so unlucky im terrified that ill never find someone that truly loves me because i hate everything about myself i feel like why would anyone love me theres nothing to love nothing but flaws and insecurities i just dont know how i can continue to live like this i used to smoke weed everyday numerous times a day to distract myself if you dont think about it it cant hurt you right well i got the virus and had a rough time ive stopped smoking and now all i do is stay in bed and cry im at a complete breaking point i just dont know what to do im tired of hating myself im tired or being lonely and pushing people away i just dont know how to fix me im starting to think that theres no solution for me at all im starting to think that sometimes some toys leave the factory broken,3.0 54934,cindypon you should give it to me yaknow help pay for college pcoughcoughlyingcough,0.0 54935,ok now twitters being silly why are you being so silly twitter why ,2.0 54936,the kettle is on again time for a nice strong brew ,0.0 54937,rt psa todays smile goal remind someone that it will be ok 🐇 for prints and commissions email me at ,0.0 54938,rhuffles yeah well your coverll look better than theirs ppl will compare the and pick urs cuz its better looking ,0.0 54939,up and ready for another day that is very unlike me but i see good things headed this way or so i am hoping ,0.0 54940, lol i like suspenders have you seen joe in suspendors hot,2.0 54941,soulafrodisiac as long as ur on the road to recovery im happy ,0.0 54942,mmmmmmmm hash eggs and sausage i love my mommys cooking ,0.0 54943,mossy yeah han just went up with the lil one im down here still with wine on my own like a fuckin lush ,2.0 54944,onathologist kidananubix i spend most of my life speaking to the machine in its own language its a necessity ,0.0 54945,my poor baby has to work to bc of the new iphone release im off the entire day oh what will i do,2.0 54946,making life a better place to live hey alli have a lot of say since i am drawing an outline of my life so please bare with me as i could use some support right nowi am in my without much family and with a girlfriend of years whom i am engaged to however things have massively been on the rocks for the better part of the past two years she wants kids i dont and we are massively incompatible in other ways also i live in the north where the seasons change and winter time has been hard on me since adulthood i have always thought i would be more mentally stable with more sunshine and weather that allows me to get out of the house and exercise when i graduated college i wanted to move to california for these reasons and employment but my family guilted me into staying saying things like youll come home to bury your parents just like i did etc in retrospect it may have been a good decision as i doubt it would have went well financiallyfast forward to now and i am in a good place financially with a stable job that allows me to transfer to pretty much anywhere i want to go i feel like i have experienced all that i desire to in my current location i dont leave the house much as it is but the entire environment just feels depressing i want to be near the ocean and travel when i can to experience things i am willing to leave everyone and a lot of my belongings behind to do what i think will make me grow and feel fulfilled as an individual the depression and anxiety of my current location and locale are wearing me thin eroding my self confidence and making the future bleak am i selfish for contemplating relocatingi am planning a vacation to the place im considering moving to which will be a big step forward in holding myself accountable for my thoughtsplansdecisions which historically has been difficult for me to doim sure ive left a lot out but i guess i can address the rest in edits and commentsthanks for hearing me out,3.0 54947,how do you get past morning depression my depression gets a million times worse in the morning same with my anxieties when im at work in the morn its when i freak out the most about things and just plain depressed and by the afternoon im usually thinking logically and feel better,3.0 54948,alone on my birthday my birthday is a week from tomorrow my i dont have any family or friends near mei went across the country for school i got a job and met a lovely boy we just moved in together on paper my life is amazing and i am honestly grateful for everything i havebut after graduation my friends who i have been within a mile of for the past years moved to the far corners of the country my family is still miles away my boyfriend cant get the day off work i work he works ive gotten used to being away from my family for my birthday but ive never actually been alonei have struggled with depression and self harm since i was ive been so lonely and have started self harming again im just so sad i dont want to die but damn this is rough,3.0 54949,surfandsheds thats too bad ,2.0 54950,johnmorgan take it easy ,0.0 54951,dont wanna be work at all wish i was english bay or white rock it seems like im going to gym having the clothes im wearing,2.0 54952, i hate moving i feel like im living in a dumping ground now ,2.0 54953,search feature seems to be working again but all the stuff that hasnt been coming up for hours seems to be lost twitter whats up,2.0 54954,sadi just made the call for a new debit cardim coming to terms with my lost wallet ,2.0 54955,cant get a profile picture to show up ,2.0 54956,man i want a silent hill fangirl ,2.0 54957,lovekelsey im already missin youu and laura ,2.0 54958,i hope i get hit by a car im not going to find a job that pays me enough to live ive been struggling all this time and ill probably be struggling the rest of my life im tired of people not understanding me but im also tired of feeling guilty for being sad when other people have it so much worse so what am i supposed to do theres really no reason to live if my life is going to be constant agony i hope i get in a car accident and die or just get hit by a bus or something,3.0 54959,the perfect ones never crossed my mind cause there was nothing in there but you ,0.0 54960,is drinking a little with some friends got help spelling this,0.0 54961,rt girlsgenratlon i cant take namjoons part why u sad idk nan molla in fake love seriously anymore because of all the memes i saw i h,2.0 54962,has got really bad cold thanks my darling husband you rock for giving me this ,2.0 54963,baking some chicken strips ,0.0 54964,sowhatchasayin tru you think sprints gonna disappear not sure i mind abt itunes since i have an ipod already ,0.0 54965,what a horrible weather for the weekend ,2.0 54966,how do you get rid of emptiness hello everyoneto be honest i never really publicly shared my feelings online ive come at a point that i feel so hopeless ive decided to give it a try i am writing because i wanna know if there is a way i could actually start to enjoy life again my depression started years ago i am yo i had to take a break from school for one semester not that much i know its totally fine it wasnt the case for my dad tho since then he stopped giving me any kind of support even with depression i didnt give up i am working a lot to pay for my expenses and school however i might work too much it has an impact on me i cant focus anymore i feel always tired and it affects my performance i try my best but im starting to feel empty i kinda lost hope for myself i feel trapped and i feel so lonely and sad i am still fighting against depression but instead of curing it its going back to a critical point i do see a psychologist but then my family is not really there for me except my mom sometimes i lost some friends what breaks me most is that my boyfriend seems distant now i feel so bad and i want to stop this vicious circle i just dont know what to do anymoreif any of you has some advices i would gladly take them,3.0 54967,sadly they often turn it around amp say the woman was the harasser sad but true,2.0 54968,grrrr was about to have dinner w pizzz and then he just fell asleep on me while i was looking up restaurants online im starved ,2.0 54969,my dads unemployed and im applying for colleges after my father a software engineer who is very intelligent and hardworking was laid off my entire life has been absolute shit he is our main source of income because my mom doesnt make nearly enough to support the household thanks to our provincial premier being an absolute dickbag my family doesnt even qualify for a sufficient tuition loan i am so unbelievably stressed and anxious about my future and not to mention that my dad has been showing signs of depression even my mom told me that shes been walking on eggshells with him because shes never seen him more distressed my dad has over years in the industry with a degree and still cant find a job which is absolute bullshit i am physically and mentally drained and thanks to this situation im afraid my depression is getting worse this sucks ass because i was really doing better— i was finally becoming happier,3.0 54970,wanna surprise carla but i dont know im scared natalie needs to surprise visit me soon teehee,2.0 54971,i have no other book ,2.0 54972,lovebscott you go girl i love your videos now you can say summer snow is a love muffin xoxo,0.0 54973,ketamine iv anyone its getting harder to stay alive thinking of pouring my savings into those infusions i know the fda approved eskatamine nasal spray but this is cheaper where i live can anybody tell me about it did it help im at the end of my rope,3.0 54974,spite pretty sure everyone here is either suicidal has been suicidal or at least desperately doesnt want to live in their own life that being said have you ever felt so spiteful over the prettiest thing that you wanted to kill yourself just to spite someone else ,3.0 54975,rt rdecavit theweirdworld same with seasonal affective disorder i guess you can say people with seasonal affective disorder are sad dur,2.0 54976,nataliamusic looking forward to see it ,0.0 54977,friends coming tonight hopefully the weather will stay nice ,0.0 54978, my shoot for popstar is cancelled shoot now what ohh ik i get to see mitchelmusso tonight at his concert tonight at wooo,2.0 54979,bethenny just wanted to say that you are awesome you seem like a really fun person to be arounddef my fav of all the housewives ,0.0 54980,all gyms are closed in my area i know it seems irrelevant or even trollish compared to other issues posted here but chasing numbers in the gym is that one stable anchor that has kept the barrel of a out of my mouth and i never even imagined that anchor not being stable,3.0 54981,rt hannahssyy as a psych major im frustrated at the stigma against wanting attention all humans need attention in fact its the lack,2.0 54982,so restless need get some sleep on a flippin double at work ,2.0 54983,i feel like im never doing enough and that im wasting my time not to mention i feel pretty worthless so this is a long one hopefully you stick around to the end i feel like im never doing enough let me explain i have a full time job and im a full time student but i still still feel like im not doing enough and that im just wasting my time it sucks im in a constant state of hating life feeling like im wasting every second i have on the earth and that im not doing enough i cant sit down and relax for like minutes without feeling worthless and like im wasting time it gives me this strange feeling i really want to go and do more things but im exhausted and never want to go do more things it is very conflicting and mentally draining and all of those feeling make me feel worthless my girlfriend says she thinks the way my parents talk to me also just reinforces how i feel i honestly dislike my situation ive been considering a career change and a break from school but even then idk if ill feel content thats the other thing i dont feel content with life and what has happened so far dont get me wrong i was never physically abused and we werent poor but idk whats wrong i just feel so worthless and like im wasting all of time,3.0 54984,zaaditya gt dit jadi follower gue dong hehe thanks ,0.0 54985,lol my cousins just asked me and my bro to hang but i cant go work tomorrow ,2.0 54986,watching icarly makes me laugh ,0.0 54987,burning out im getting really tired of trying to hold on at this pointspending a better part of my life not only battling anxiety and depression but trying to exist from day to day has exhausted me in every sense of the word anything good that has come to me in my life has just seemed to fall apart and you think i would grow numb to it happening but it hurts just as much if not more every single time i dont feel a sense of permanence with anyone or anywhere i go and i feel so easily replaceable like if i disappeared tomorrow no one would so much as give it a thought ive dealt with trauma in the past few years and it feels impossible to unpack and talk about now and its had its way of contributing to my mindset that everything is too good to be true and nothing is going to stick around for me it fucked me up more than i realized and i dont know how to heal from it being stuck inside the way we are certainly hasnt helped either starved of touch and human connection away from the world and away from the ones who make this world more bearable ive spent many of these days in this state of social distancing crying myself to sleep because of how lonely i feel and how much my soul aches for connection im really trying to get better im on a new medication and trying to develop better coping skills and be more positive on my own since therapy isnt really feasible for me right now with this pandemic going on i so desperately want things to finally get better so i dont have to go through life on autopilot as a means of survival getting through by the skin of my teeth i just want the pain to ease already and i want to feel normal and genuinely happy but its just it has a way of wearing you out i feel like a match thats been left aflame and is now burning down to the end of the stick theres only so much more i can give before i dont have anything else left and im afraid that day is going to come sooner than even i can anticipate but what really can be done to extinguish the flame,3.0 54988,yoga for seniors is beneficial for those who wish to maintain and improve physical and mental health ,0.0 54989, ill cover you ,0.0 54990,cant watch the game tonighttoo much homework wishing i was at summerjam too ,2.0 54991,clozapinedream yes yes it is i think its ff ,2.0 54992,rt bipzz depression is real lets support one another and not judge ,0.0 54993, yeh thats wats wrong with our dogshe keeps throwing upand she had bloody diarohea though ,2.0 54994,dropped my phone on the sidewalk d swear i heard it cry poor baby ,2.0 54995,my computer only has gb of hard disk memory left grbe gb napuno na namin in a span of months haha ,0.0 54996,destroyerhk theres always alcohol big guy ,2.0 54997,next masstweet is in isnt it well all be signed off with rs syndrome lol ,0.0 54998,aaarrrgghhh tomorrow is monday counting my days to submision date of moe ,2.0 54999,up early because jack is have i got a cold very bunged up this morn ,2.0 55000,homemade vegetable beef soupyum ,0.0 55001,i think im addicted to these traffic light ice lollies sugar helps me study,0.0 55002,looks like i missed the schwans delivery today bummer im going to be asleep soon i feel it,2.0 55003,ddlovato congrats for your new record ,0.0 55004,i wish i had a dog who was my best friend ive never had a dog always been a cat person but i dont know recently today especially with this loneliness and despairing thoughts i wish i had a dog i wish i had a nice well behaved not loud dog who loved me like a border collie or german shepard or i dont know whats a loyal dog breed see i dont even know dog breeds that wellbut i also cant afford one and so itd be irresponsible and my apartment doesnt allow petsbut maybe one day its just too bad because i really need a friend now and i know its wrong to view animals as serving a purpose like what theyre only good if theyre gonna serve humans thats not an ethical way of looking at another species i dont think but still i think that theres any pet that might be okay its a dog or a cat i just need a bro right now i think that in this moment if i could just hug a dog id probably just start crying into his coat and then hed be like woah bro who the fuck are you i aint ur therapist,3.0 55005,summertomato dude we need to use that word more ,0.0 55006,meds i wake up every morning in dread i go to sleep every night with the physical feeling of being compressed and do nothing about it the second i try to do something about it i fail and bring myself into an even deeper depression opening up the void that i can never seem to close i have no escape they were all taken by my terrible fucking brain video games are no longer fun music brings me no joy work is no longer anything but hours that go by thought and introspection leads to nothing but ones of suicide nothing i can do works im at the point where im considering buying any meds i can find to numb this pain my mothers depression meds perhaps maybe her anxiety pills i was offered absurd amounts of adderall the other day i know its a terrible ideai dont give a fuck anymore as long as i can numb the pain ,3.0 55007,long weekend ahead yay ,2.0 55008,going to the pool soonjetting out early ,0.0 55009,my last day for subbing i will miss my kids this school but i am going atl in days owww,2.0 55010,markryes need to go to shop so i might just do that im meant to be doing some filming at so really need to shake the hangover asap ,2.0 55011,ps to the mike weatherly blog he better not be leaving the show i really like dinozzo next tues is gonna be crazy,2.0 55012,why do you hate me ,2.0 55013,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 55014,weighing out the option again failed in the past jus not sure if im really ready to make the call or just my wife of years has been cheating the whole time the relationship was a lie my feelings werent i have child with her her son i raised since he was i moved out been gone a month though i was doing it right but no sure if or what i want wont go back to her bi love the kids was talking to another girl recently that stole my heart i connect with but guess its only one sided she wants to just be friends and not even attempt a relationship i feel so close to her just lost a best friend moving away everything and everyone is leaving me i want to leave everyone not sure how long i can take this,3.0 55015,mileycyrus all of your fans still love you ,0.0 55016,just spent the weekend in mansfield with chris family celebrating his birthday with his twin brother both got totally shitfaced sigh ,0.0 55017,djbeatbean tristeza ahshaus ,0.0 55018, thats basically it yup x,2.0 55019,i feel nothing im not sad im not happy i just am i live for two reasons i was born i havent died yet i drag my feet to work in a career that was not worth in debt for its all mundane i used to revel in my victories and now nothing i just dont care anymore i go to the gym to get the endorphins kicking and still nothing i feel nothing no pain no pleasure just mere existence i have sex with people i barely know so i can feel some emotion whether its bliss for those minutes or hurt for days when they ignore me afterward at least it triggers emotion because otherwise im just numb not really sure what i want to accomplish by posting it but i dont want to burn out my friends and i dont have a therapy session for another week so i feel like i could post on here sorry if this isnt the subreddit for such a post,3.0 55020,do not use twitter if you value genuine existence ,2.0 55021,had a good day starbucks then a rain had to come ,2.0 55022,tommcfly but we still are in this fight quottom fletcher for mr twitter universequot hahaha love you xxx,0.0 55023,melraff looking for a reliable qwitter replacement try twitdiff httptwitdiffappspotcom – i need testers ,0.0 55024, do you know anyone else in your area that might want to go with you maybe denise,2.0 55025,dont forget to watch andybumatai at wwwtheandybumataishowcom at pm hawaii time later on mainland tomorrow ill be there ,0.0 55026,there was like categories and no supernatural on the show list are they kidding me they are gearing up for season ,2.0 55027,retrospeedway so sad to see this great stadium in this state i have such great memories watching ronnie moore r httpstcoockcxulevm,0.0 55028,i feel like playing tap tap revenge now ,2.0 55029,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 55030,aside from blowing a tire i had a super weekend ,0.0 55031,exam week tomorrow is the official last full day then exams im biting my nails already ,2.0 55032,violetbakes thank you for pic ,0.0 55033,i think lamborghinibow should follow me lol ,0.0 55034,bomb squad im scared ,2.0 55035,staring out the kitchen in my first home what a fucking feeling ,0.0 55036,candicejarrett happy birthday candices gran hope you have a great day ,0.0 55037,sadtiredand happy my dog is not feeling well i am soo tired i am happy because i got good comments on youtube long story ,2.0 55038,oww my cornrows r starting to hurt i think ill take em out,2.0 55039,i have finally caught up on dwljfbtwitterfora etc missed quite a bit online but was thoroughly enjoying quotfirst lifequot offline ,0.0 55040,jmurose that was such a bummer i was pulling for him bigggg time,2.0 55041,i cant bike today saaad ,2.0 55042,crabsoneyes popinas was too packed though we did debate it on the way home doubledinner,2.0 55043,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 55044,danawhite youre worth million and this is the extent of your philanthropy he donated to his hig ,0.0 55045,bp at mercury before my echo echo was ok,2.0 55046,whee anxiety about how i look just in time to start thinkin about leaving for heart projector,1.0 55047,rt vvickyp puta k sad,2.0 55048,i feel the need to cry and i dont know why i feel like im also getting a psychoemotive crash,3.0 55049,the treasure hunting birthday party was a huge success the kids loved when they found the treasure boxes filled with loot ,0.0 55050,what a weekend back to normal tons to do it was a great break will start blogging about it soon brumvsbelfast ,0.0 55051,rt marksolutely jenos armpit is even clearer and nicer than my face this is so sad alexa play go by nct dream ,0.0 55052,rt monicabrighton this is the time in years that all branches are republican caused the great depression caused the g,2.0 55053,technicalfault i left my headphones on a train last year perhaps i should buy some more,2.0 55054,why cant i fucking sleep like a normal person ,2.0 55055,watching arsenal vs chelsea now sad that arshavin and adebayor arent playing ,2.0 55056,rt liezlvdmerwe my mother tried to end her life when i was in the most horrible way because of her disease she was shunned by all,2.0 55057,robhuebel i love this and all it stands for ,0.0 55058,rt jonaschartock one of those days where one needs a dedicated therapist for twitterinduced anxiety httpstcofiecukdngn,1.0 55059,the king of chemistry ,0.0 55060,adamkeun absolutely stay tuned ,0.0 55061,seanyybear traitor ,2.0 55062,no hope i dont see the point of anything anymore my life is over and i cant see a way out i had potential and i wasted it i cant move forward i cant do anything i keep hoping that somehow ill return to my old self but it isnt happening,3.0 55063,a post from a recovered one dont give up there is hope you are worthy an year and a half ago i was seeing a psychiatrist taking prescribed meds wanting to die having hard times eating showering getting out of bed literally i was surviving it was a challenge to not lose my job it was a long period part of a totally threeyear depression with some bright episodes here and there year and a half ago i was crying my heart out this and a few other sad subreddits but i did it i went out of the pit you want to die i wanted too i survived depression you will sirvive and shine too i could so can you dont lose hope,3.0 55064,butterflynova thats unfortunate honey i am super grateful my dad is a mechanic ill keep my fingers crossed that they do you right,2.0 55065,i hate working hrs ,2.0 55066,playing shit loads of ,0.0 55067,dae have depression reoccur at the same time each year things in my life are going well everything is objectively good yet i keep feeling as though im drowning and i cant figure out whyi realized after some reflection that i was in this same spot last april despite the warmer weather longer days and traveling i was also feeling depressed then too im wondering if perhaps this is somehow related to the changing of the seasonsam i grasping at straws here anyone have similar experiences,3.0 55068,i can end it right now and it would be so much better for everyone one less idiot in the world and room for someone thats not like me sorry for the long read thats what i tell myself everyday before i put my mask on and go to school my names pavel and im a freshman at age i moved here from ukraine my parents thinking it was going to be a better life with a better job fast forward years im happy and young no worries not a care in this world and were financially stable all i knew was how to play with my friends and to play sports fast forward years im i still dont really care about anything i mean lifes easy right ffw years im depressed theres no point is there my parents all they do is pressure me but im hanging in there ffw more years im turning this year ive been depressed for years i dont see a point after i opened a credit like a dumbass id do anything to go back to that moment and rethink my decisions im in debt and have no more money my business has failed ive dropped it and im in debt to ebay and to the credit my mothers credit score has dropped drastically my fathers truck has broken down and we dont have a source of income after he broke his leg we have put into it with no change its ok with that because were holding out my parents keep pressuring me and im afraid to tell them anything ive held out but recently ive cried for one of the first times its been days and im broken ive reached my breaking point where i know nothings going to change my friends are leaving me and this amazing girl i met through my paranoia i presume is fake ive helped others for years and its taking a toll on me each time i keep trying to hide my depression but its coming out my mask is fading my arms bleed now and then and its becoming worse im done,3.0 55069,laying on my bed chillin bed soon waiting for kait to get here so i can eat a cupcake ,0.0 55070,tonfue morning sunshine ,0.0 55071,hey sir catch some of those fish for me keetwit,0.0 55072,i need to do so much in sd fack ,2.0 55073,going to my gp to talk about my mental health and im scared its currently midnight and my appointment is at but i cant sleep at all and have been crying for the past few hours im really nervous about the appointment and dont know what im supposed to tell the doctor or if they decide in faking it i also dont want everything my mental health is to become real and the idea i will need to work to improve myself is scarymy boyfriend has been very supportive but im worried ive used him too much as a crutch the past few days and i want to stay at his house tomorrow night for comfort but i feel like i am imposing on him,3.0 55074,mochichick hmm this sounds like temptation toget off my lazy butt and join you for a monday stroll ,0.0 55075,this is my only hope hi im a yr old girl and i think i have depression although im not sure i do but at this point theres no denying it because i felt like this for many years and its only getting even worse it here worse every year and i dont think i can take it anymore years ago its just times that i start crying for no reason every once in awhile and the occasional panic attack but now im having panic attacks frequently and im not eating as much as i should going about days without eating and the number grows as time passes im losing enjoyment of things i love doing like playing and making music what my instruments playing videogames art etc im tired all the fucking time and theres times where i dont sleep and theres times where i sleep too much no matter what im still tired when i do eat i eat junk like chocolate or potatoe chips or something like that but i barely eat enough im already very skinny i am very reserved and i am alert very alert i get scared and started veeerrrry easily my friends seemed to notice that and they keep startling me i have very bad anxiety too i shake and i sweat and im just a mess im also starting to have suicidal thoughts too,3.0 55076,ahhhits guna be a great daypayday is my favorite holiday lol,0.0 55077,the most used word in the title of posts on this subreddit is feel according to ,3.0 55078,feeling suicidal how do you keep pushing forward just to note im on medication i have changed my medication it helps with the anxiety im also in therapy and i have a great therapist i know im very lucky its been about a year and a half since this particular episode and now im back were i startedmaking plans again i feel incredibly frustrated and an absolute burden i guess i want to vent and a little support what do you do when your feeling this low,3.0 55079,burgundywave stan k is a cheap ass when it comes to the rapids sad how i bought tickets so my wife and i could httpstcozresleckzm,2.0 55080,helloo everyone im at work until today and tomorrow i start chemistry monday ,2.0 55081, so not tired ,2.0 55082,backtoschool in himc tomorrow i miss highschool ,2.0 55083,its a sad day when plays more innovative music than kerrang damnit virgin give us scuzz,2.0 55084,i got all that stuff i needed except the red headband ,2.0 55085,the wire on my braces is too long and is cutting through my cheek farrrrrrrk it hurts ,2.0 55086,boodlebrain youre a wonderful grandma punk and akjdhf i feel ya on that creator anxiety hoo boy fandoms man,1.0 55087, its all about the little things ,0.0 55088,my poor babies are not very well ,2.0 55089,when vegetarians travel it feels like half my suitcase were filled with cereal bars ,0.0 55090,fdevillamil cant wait to see whats coming and thank you for being extremely fast at replying hope you are having a great day,0.0 55091,vanessaev probably still better than them coming from your coworkers ,0.0 55092,passives passives and more passives but mostly cider later ,0.0 55093,rt brittanymoniqe i feel attacked ,1.0 55094,couldnt sleep last night and now im up to go to church ugh so tired ,2.0 55095,need a good easy photo editing program that is compatible with vista my picture it will not work ,2.0 55096,mfjmaf namaskar amp namaste r both the same marathi people say namaskar its a marathi word should i naaaah ,0.0 55097,if there would be one thing i can have in life id want to completely disappear i am i run my own business i live with a girlfriend in our own apartment my parents are well i have a few friends to talk to i am smart funny and intelligent guy i have a whole life ahead of meone might think what the fuck is this guy doing hereguess fucking what my business is slowly dying despite me working hours a day and trying the hardest that i can i have worth savings im nearly fucking broke and id rather die than go through the moneymaking process from scratch once again i dont even know if i like her anymore we didnt have sex for months because of me being awfully depressed i dont want to have sex with her but i think about sex all the time i dont even know whats going on with me and if im a male at all i hate my parents who raised me in poverty and beat me when i was a child but i managed to save us all they are doing more than ok because of me taking care of it but they gave me absolutely nothing to go with into adult life i am so depressed that on the weekends i just lay down on the floor and blankly stare into one point for hours with a physical feeling that i am either literally going insane or my brain cells are slowly dying while my friends are calling me to go out at least five times a day i randomly dissociate and just drop out of reality without understanding who i am and what i am doing at this momenti am not suicidal but i want some external factor to end my life as if its not my fault i wish i was never born into this life birth should be possibly one of the worst crimes people can do sometimes i have a feeling as if i do not belong to a human racesomebody fucking help me quit this life this is simply unbearable and its going to be very soon that i wont be able to sustain another greyed out pointless day,3.0 55098,leaving apple store ,2.0 55099,if you like animals even some squirrels for sternenfee amp kstpete ,0.0 55100,raze i wish demi would see it ,0.0 55101,watching mtv awards ,0.0 55102,aeriagames true and sad ,2.0 55103,its saturday and i am draggin it seriously feels like a monday oh well two more days till morro bay ,0.0 55104, that happens to me a lot i just reset it hold the middle button and the menu button it wont delete your songs it refreshes,0.0 55105,i feel so alone i know no one would care if i was gone i have no one i can go to talk about these things my parents dont understand what is going on i told them before about my depression and they question that what is so bad in your life you dont have it that bad etc i have been on anti depressants for almost a year and most of the time i just feel numb no happiness no sadness but lately the sadness has been there and i want it to end i want to end my life,3.0 55106,waiting for the seminar to startim starving ,2.0 55107,jus woke up feel good back in london left the sunny moroccan weather back work amp paaaaarty ,0.0 55108,rt marksolutely jenos armpit is even clearer and nicer than my face this is so sad alexa play go by nct dream ,0.0 55109,there is nothing like a chianti hangover well maybe rioja not even nurofen can dull its relentless onslaught ,2.0 55110,this is so sad and inaccurate people really do hate kinky hair and hating kinky hair is antiblack,2.0 55111, what what happened to it i knew we should have eaten there that day ,2.0 55112, this is embarrassing i was in the wrong class naked,2.0 55113,rovsta hi weekend was okthe week is going ok so farhope you have a great week ,0.0 55114,rt greeniight my depression when its winter httpstcobzquxmqxnv,2.0 55115,papaface i shall check it out then ,0.0 55116,i was catching up with one of my friends and he said me and a girl popped molly the other day and we didnt have s ,0.0 55117,gototennis this nadal situation is bumming me out ,2.0 55118, alienware é crap overpriced ,2.0 55119,just saw night in the museum again fun fun ,0.0 55120,everything is perfect everything is honestly great for me i have a good group of friends and family nothing bad going but i feel horrible i wake up everymorning with no motivation almost impossible getting out of bed i cant do simple things without my mind getting shredded by horrible thoughts i have to put on a mask and push on in order to maintain my current friends i feel tired and worthless i just wish to escape these issues for a small time but i just cant,3.0 55121,blueberrimomma hes just clinging to his mom and sobbing a bithe was having flashbacks and it left him all sad boi,1.0 55122,omj why am i just now seeing the lgt vlog from joeymcintyre thud peace love and books ,0.0 55123,rt sugaplumcris depression ,2.0 55124,letterbombs i love you too good morning love ,0.0 55125,thefrantic i cant find where to go on site to vote ,2.0 55126,prabhasatish the weather in chennai wud have been a lot better if for a strong monsoon have to wait for a couple more days pbly,2.0 55127,happy valentines day i just want to wish you all a happy valentines day if you dont like valentines day like me then have a good day or if your day sucks then i hope it gets better if you want to a new friend feel free to message me just be warned i have social anxiety so i suck at talking but i want to get better at it i am always looking forward to meeting new people i am a male if that means anything your lives will become better it is just your brain telling yourself bad things ignore those bad thoughts reach out to loved ones and tell them how much you love them and how much they mean to you today is about love love for family friends pets and so on just know that you all being alive today is huge i am proud of you all and want you to know to keep fighting and dont give up ,3.0 55128, bless u it just makes me love u even more x x,0.0 55129, me too ,2.0 55130, she gets off at we could start the movie and see what happens lol i also have hot chocolate if youre interested ,0.0 55131,wanted to go to the beach ,2.0 55132,jlsofficial morning ooo what u shoooting for have i told u that i love u marv x,0.0 55133,lynnehutcheson yeah will be til friday night possibly into early hours of saturday have the hump today for no reason ,2.0 55134,trying to find beauty in depression is like trying to find meaning in a blank canvas sure i guess you can do that but in the end its stupid its just a blank canvas there is nothing there no attempt or effort no passion or emotion and sure you can be inspired by it to portray something tragic meaningful and stunning in the end though its a just a canvas left blank it doesnt deserve to be in a gallery,3.0 55135,goodnight ,0.0 55136,found the house keynow off to run errands ,0.0 55137,sitepointdotcom thanks for the shoutout glad youre finding the site a useful addition to the web designers toolbox ,0.0 55138,gf just broke up with me year relationship cut short because didnt have feelings for me for a very long time i felt like i did everything for her im considering taking my own life here now because she was everything to me im in crisis right now what do i do ,3.0 55139,dont want to live but dont want to die background maybe the title sounds really confusing or maybe it sounds really clear either way i will explain what i mean i guess im one of those cliche kids that grew up very smart and vibrant but soon became too selfaware of society and emotions in general i think i know too much about things for my own good sometimes i wish i wasnt as aware of the horrors of the real word and everything that comes with it ever since the start of the highschool i have had social anxiety sure i have some friends and such but i feel so awkward in pretty much every social situation my communication skills are alright i guess i think i care too much about what people think and it hurts me a lot anyway as my social anxiety has ramped up through high school so has my anxiety in general i get worried pretty much everything it could be math or chemistry homework that should only take minutes to do thats my anxiety going i think im a relatively good academic student and ive always held myself to a relatively high standard of work ethic the problem is im a major procrastinator and mentally it always comes back to bite me i always get work in on time but its usually because im working on it for hours the night before i cant force myself to get out of this habit and it takes a toll on my sleep schedule and in return my mental state the next day sometimes if its a major project or big test i have mental breakdowns i just break down and cry or feel mentally numb to a point where i question why am i even doing this i dont just mean the work i mean everything why am i here what purpose do i have do i even have a future what if im doing all this work and killing my mental state just to end up a failure anyway this is where the depression sets in as fore mentioned i think im too selfaware for my own good nearly everyday i think about who im going be and whats going to happen once im done high school i question my purpose and if ill ever have a impact on society will i ever be loved by someone other than my family why cant i just feel happiness for once when i actually care about my emotions i know people can have a bad day week month or even year but i think having a bad is more so unfortunate events happen that hurt your feelings and you i dont have those circumstances its just pure chaos in my mind i suffer to wake up in the morning and go to school it aches me to go to school and act like i like everyone around me i put on a fake smile everyday just to please others why cant i ever show who i truly am to my only friends i am merely a joke surely we chat about our hobbies but they treat me as a puppet when they want to laugh they hit me in my most vulnerable spot being put in an awkward situation they realize how i am in situations like this and purposely do it to get a reaction out of me it sucks but if i didnt have them id have no one to talk to in school and i think that would hurt even more i have been slowly moving away from there and trying to become closer with some of my classmates but its still so tough because im stuck in the middle i have no one to turn to for mental health because im not close enough to either group i dont know if ever in my entire life i have had a friend i could turn to for emotional support online i have some friends who offer great emotional support but i feel like its not a good thing my online emotional support is from people who dont know who i truly am when you have no one to turn to for help it makes you want to end it all ive always told myself even if i suicidal thoughts that i will never kill myself because i know how much it would hurt my family and i dont want to hurt those who felt like they couldve done something to prevent it not to mention i dont have guts to put myself through that type of physical pain i dont think i ever will therefore i want to live but i also want to be put out of misery what do i do tldr depression has ruined my life im too scared of the circumstances that could happen to those around me if i committed suicide but i also dont want to suffer any longer what should i do ,3.0 55140,rt idskaren series watched under academic stress gt series watched when completely idle,2.0 55141, her father just passed away ,2.0 55142,i just found a purse that is silver snake skin pattern its so ugly that its awesometotally bought it lol i love sales ,0.0 55143,i cant sleep im so lonely its ive been staring at the ceiling for what feels like hours im so tired i feel incomplete even though having someone there wont cure me it would definitely help being alone feels extremely crushing for me its all thats on my mind i just want a hug i just want someone to turn to when things are getting bad,3.0 55144,emmedee sounds like a fun evening ,0.0 55145,i hate waking up in the mornings you know when you hear bad news and it feels like being stabbedpunched in the gut or you can feel your stomach drop i get that feeling immediately when i wake up in the mornings when its sunny outside or i can hear birds chirping it makes it worse atleast its winter and the birds are pretty quiet right nowi wish i would stop waking up,3.0 55146,juliana kicked my butt im gonna sleep like a log tonight it was fabulous ,0.0 55147,help me i wanna too being lazy and start getting stuff done i never do stuff and say ill do it the next day but im tired of excuses any tips on how to stop making excuses and get stuff done,3.0 55148,kinda chilly nice n cozy in bed,0.0 55149,buttercookies is tonight ,2.0 55150,rt arniesh i get really sad when a huge drop of conditioner drops in the shower🤦🏽‍♀️,1.0 55151,pharmacoach rootin for the leafs next year also follow the marlies as well ahh the good ol days of the name to st pats ,0.0 55152,why is everyone getting their dresses so early ,2.0 55153,bsbaegirl i was feeling left out ,2.0 55154, lol ur pix look like mine blurry she didnt stand still good show didnt meet u tho ,2.0 55155,mildlyamused oooh i like that one ,0.0 55156,kidintraffic well i guess you are ,2.0 55157,i feel really bad for david ugh that lady takes fangirling way too far nobody deserves to be treated like that ,2.0 55158,im not depressed anymore thats what my therapist told me yesterday and i was so happy she did name something else and i forgot what but less severe anyway thanks for the support,3.0 55159,the absence of politics appears to be good for her,1.0 55160,tommytoast poor mr tom ,2.0 55161,goooooodnight xxx ,0.0 55162,i squeal like a little girl when wee chipmunks successfully scurry across the road ,0.0 55163,made an awesome cake ,0.0 55164,i would like my sunburn to go away my shoulders hurt ,2.0 55165,paulfeig paul since youre in nyc this evening give me a suggestion on what i should do this evening in nyc ,0.0 55166,im really not ok right now i know itll pass it always does i know a lot of my current episode is due to life changes the season and just my normal hormones i know this will most likely go unread and thats fine i just feel so defeated the intrusive thoughts have started up again and i have to catch myself remind myself that its not worth it and in my heart i know this but every once in a while its just its hard life is hard right now and the world is a scary disgusting and dark place i know itll get better but for right now its not and if you read this thank you,3.0 55167,ztnewetnorb o i was thinking barney the dinosaur live but okay ,0.0 55168,abigailj thank u abby ,0.0 55169,dammit i really want to go to dragoncon this year ,2.0 55170,bansheedj and thanks for the advice ,0.0 55171,asot hello everyone in asot and not in anymore ,0.0 55172,rt sonamakapoor i know exactly how you feel wrapping up a film is so bittersweet especially when youre so close to the cast and crew,1.0 55173,pain im and ive had depression for a while it got really bad beginning of my grade year and its been downhill since i didnt wanna do anything bad to myself so i told my doctor got diagnosed showed where i cut and got prescribed pills and a therapist and all that i never went to the therapist and i hate those fucking pills and how they make me feel so i stopped taking them and ive been on a high since like ive been so confident and resilient and every adversitya lot of them i just tell myself i got this and i keep moving on i woke up this morning and it was all gone only thing left was this empty feeling i used to get but like way worst im not confident i dont believe everything will be ok im so fucking sad and my classes and homework and shit stressing the fuck outta me i gave in laid on my bed and cried im not a crier but i just felt like i had to get some of that weight off now im laying down writing this not doing the homework thats due tomorrow cause i just wanna give up im sick of trying and nothing gets better im exhausted of trying of being alive of everything,3.0 55174,guttabutta dont u hate when u go to get some more of ur fooddrink only to discover u just had the last of itman i die a lil inside ,2.0 55175,ooooh im going to miss some of the little eighth graders lmao theyre so cute xd,0.0 55176,rt konk men seeking help for depression anxiety or any mental health issue is an act of self love that you deserve dont suffer in,1.0 55177,drmarquezjr hello haha i am definitely staying away from boys i do not want more headaches,0.0 55178,doniain was that to do with chocolate i was probably a bad girl ,2.0 55179,theres a bee its gonna kill me i dont like bees ,2.0 55180,got words now its probably not productive to think that im roughly a tenth of the way through the essay s,0.0 55181,monkeysx hus nathan kress sorry cant comment upon that ,2.0 55182,rt forjungs jangan sampai trending sensor namanya he doesnt need to see his name trending bc of this sad newsim shaking and i didnt,2.0 55183,syhnz woot woot back to you ,0.0 55184,rubystein eventually worked on my system ruby but far too slow to play ,2.0 55185,crazyirishchick aww why have you had no internets,2.0 55186,im tired its a cycle of work and work without sleep its all group work but everyone seems to not have a slightest of the urgency on the matter currently working alone now and i feel very tired taking care of others mess now this makes me demoralized and im losing sanity havent slept properly for almost month now and im surprised im still a functioning human being,3.0 55187,rt baldboyblues is isolating myself from everyone bad for my mental health yes will i continue doing that absolutely,0.0 55188,nisaho its kim bum his smile ji hoo has damn nice arms okay and hes waaay cute cant stand the yo yo guy,0.0 55189,rt just gotta uzi shoulder shimmy your depression away ,1.0 55190,amk köpeği yine siktirolmus gitmiş köpek bile sadık değil bana,2.0 55191,so earlier i really wanted to watch pride amp prejudice but a friend borrowed my dvd flipping through channels nowits on oxygen yay ,0.0 55192,needs to find his ipod i think the couch has eated it ,2.0 55193,really frustrated with the nc legislature for their decision to go ahead with httpwwwperformancemarketingalliancecom ,2.0 55194,threw my youth away dont care for much these days i dont want to make this post longwinded so here it goesi missed out on my youth i had every opportunity to have a girlfriend pointless sex find a crappy teenagerstudent job and live in a dorminstead i threw away all my opportunities with all the girls with whom i had a chance i refused to have a job before i graduated no clue why im just a stubborn moron and chose to live at home instead of a dorm i also spent most of my time being broke and playing video gamesi was recently let go from wellpaying job it taught me that money means nothing when youve missed out on your youth and its also taught me that i really dont care to do anything these days the only thing i want in life is my youth backnow im years lonely i really just want a rerun of so i can enjoy them i got old before i knew what happened,3.0 55195,no sleep for no reason didnt even go out n now i gotta go w lusciiousjean to visit her brother upstate too tired for alla this ,2.0 55196, ugh its cool im in such a good mood that even that momentary frustration has evaporated ,0.0 55197,more art in the city bloggage httpjackteagleblogspotcom,0.0 55198,jimmyventura rawr at youuuu i asked if were doing something tomorrow because i need to knowwwwww thank youuuuu lol,0.0 55199,i left my job early again and i am a failure friends and family say im not working hard enough i get way too depressed at work to stay i can barely survive on my own but i dont understand how people work while wanting to die at the same time i hate the job im at and lost other jobs last year because i get way too stressedstanding on my feet for hours sucks im looking for another job but it feels hopeless,3.0 55200,jarvitron wait soon youll have a yogurt funk or if you are very patient a cheese funk ,0.0 55201,rt sistertalkspod have you heard ep m is for mental health by sister talks with anaston amp alexandria on soundcloud np httpst,1.0 55202,rt kthopkins dear bluebadgeuk i identify as a depressed nigerian on weds and i am sure i am also on the spectrum please can i have a,1.0 55203,rocwithfort your welcome ,0.0 55204,pascal rocked oxygen awesome preaching ,0.0 55205,i need a new practice staff current one is wobbly ,2.0 55206,depression is weird i just go better from being sick for a week and now im more depressed than ever and i want to be sick again,3.0 55207,wat up tweeters i can finally yawn yesterday i couldnt yawn cuz it would strech my nose that just got pierced and it hurt to yawn ,2.0 55208,emotionally deprived hey everyone happy new wish you hope and good things im not sure if this is the place because i dont feel depressed the issue is that i dont feel the same way as before ive been binge watching these radiotts videos on yt lately which are like compilations of creepy disgusting etc stories from reddit and i found out that im not creeped out or disgusted by them i was never easily disgusted so i suppose thats normal but ive been very easily spooked as a kid and now its like there has to be something really dangerous to make me freak out i catch myself sometimes talking with friends and somebody says about something that made him feel a certain way and i just cant relate with them for example they say something that made them sad and everybody starts to sympathize i just simulate that im sympathetic but i dont really feel it that way i had a rough childhood had to live through a lot of shit and man up early on so yeah that is basically what i feel like lately and wanted to share and ask if theres something i have to worry about,3.0 55209,have a new layout in plurk woot thx httpwwwplurktemplatescomblog ,0.0 55210,my depression is starting to take control of me 😩😡😒,2.0 55211,bird noises cause anxiety,2.0 55212,wishes she could fly to clarksville rite now amp cry wmy kendyll boo ,2.0 55213,might hit up the pool ,0.0 55214,yes im reunited with the kitten my moms a bitch but im soooo happy tonight ,0.0 55215,msloyalty saw the cutest kicks yesterday i want them ,2.0 55216,is sitting bored rele wana go out ,2.0 55217,just got home from paul evan spencer harry bens show my friends are so fucking talented i love them all ,0.0 55218,christines graduation ,0.0 55219,craving some cinnamon toast crunch badly but lazy get off my ass go buy some ,2.0 55220,fluerrezsabelle i would buy either popstar or tigerbeat ,0.0 55221,aarenbrooke why such the bad lodgings in buenos aires ,2.0 55222,cant fall asleep amp need to wake up early tom hopefully i get my class ,2.0 55223,jaxjaggywires wish i had a video camera way back when you were little and loved that movie feel better ,0.0 55224,calrion google quietly got rid of that ethic last year ,0.0 55225,everyday i live through hell and im not sure ill ever not be depressed im going off to college this fall and demons have been fighting me for months this time around i have severe depression and i went to the psych ward earlier this month january and even though im on a new med im still fighting these demons there are times where im not sure i can even go on i feel like such a failure i dont want to die but my life has not been well lived ive suffered my whole life and its not just my depression its just everything in life my therapist isnt helping either and i genuinely hate school im a studious kid too gpa and im taking more ap classes this year than not idk man i dont even know what im waiting for since all im doing is just breathing air and feeling no hope or purpose ill probably end up killing myself im being honest i was sent to the psych ward bc i almost attempted not sure what im even doing right now in my life,3.0 55226,im sad im going to miss beyonces concert grrr whos going to that,2.0 55227,yeah this sounds very good now you need another plan for the nice uncle ,0.0 55228,rt nintendoushio anytime youre sad please just watch charles martinet interviewsive met this man twice and can confirm that he reall,0.0 55229,making brownies ,0.0 55230,rt me pretending that my depression doesnt effect my daily life httpstcoousbvbxnso,2.0 55231,good morning everybody i wish you a nice week ,0.0 55232,memory seems to getting worse years ago i couldve remember and recite whole songs without forgetting the lines and ive learned alot of rap songs from various artists and all i needed was to hear it once now i can hear it whole day and barely remember it all it is so difficult to even recognise the verse after minutes and i camt even study anymore i cant remember anything,3.0 55233,im probably gonna die tonight i just want to slice my wrist and just bleed out again and hopefully not wake up this time im so tired of this world im tired of being alone im tired of being targeted i now see im not welcome here so ill probably just go tonight ,3.0 55234,time to go to work i might se some of you at the movie to night ,0.0 55235,but that�s not the worst part right now i have to go to my social service and i don�t want to spend the day with certain people ,2.0 55236,platypuszero why limit your story to ch tell all what is annoying you at wwwiamsoannoyedcom it will help relieve your stress ,0.0 55237,minneapolis tomorrow and australia on tuesday yay i love life,0.0 55238,for today unless i get a text first i shall not be talking to anyone ,2.0 55239,i miss him so muchhh i cried the last time on my way here ,2.0 55240, maybeeee why got a place for me,0.0 55241,i am going to get a a tattoo on the back of my neck it represents so much to me ,0.0 55242,when theres a long ass line and you still dont know what to order,1.0 55243,thanks everyone subs like this one have really helped me find a purpose in life which was all i really needed there is still a ton of pressure to impress but my enjoyment of life has allowed me to deal with those pressures more constructively im still a person that feels heavily for other people so i have to take breaks now and then but i am committed to returning the favor to as many people as i reasonably can for now focus on building good memories with those you love or maybe just like youve got all of my appreciation for your continued survival in this world you are all pioneers as much as any before hang tight focus on being constructive and keep faith in peoples good intentions help has never been closer ,3.0 55244,uncleweed haha indeed ,0.0 55245,ddlovato i think its sad that you dont reply you fans i would love just to get a shout out from you,2.0 55246,rt crunkmaria i have this happy personality with a sad soul,0.0 55247,iizsam i am tryin my damndest and its lookin good my sammy is almost all growned upexcpt for height of course jkjk i love you,0.0 55248,foleypod when i really hit a stride like that things like sleep or the time of day or night become secondary ,0.0 55249,hehe gonna be heading to a movie n a bithehe quotdrag me to hellquot oo we well see ,0.0 55250,is finished assessment for the term ,0.0 55251,is taking an early nap tonight gotta play piano for a wedding tommorrow ,0.0 55252,we are checking out and on our way home i am rwady to be home,2.0 55253,shinyxgun geeeez whatd rim do ,0.0 55254,sbuxblaze i took a day break from all the work cuz i was getting unhappy with it so im making big changes it looks way better now ,0.0 55255,just had a shower had a long day been at rehearsals all day get to skip a bit of school tomorrow which is good ,0.0 55256,richardbranson i will make sure i watch on wednesday when i go to florida ,0.0 55257,really up in the air about pc or mac on my new computer vs macs are so much better but i dont want to spend that much ,2.0 55258,ativey the work placement im applying online to a few more places then going to get serious and start phoning people up,2.0 55259,mishx i r awsum mish woo i figured this thing out ,0.0 55260,soive decided i miss my family ive been away for months w visits thats about a quarter of my babies life sucky ,2.0 55261,happybdaykrisallen happybdaykrisallen happybdaykrisallen happybdaykrisallen happybdaykrisallen happybdaykrisallen ,2.0 55262,dougiemcfly oh my god i agree with you he is the best ,0.0 55263,wossy glad your daughters feeling better ,0.0 55264,hates having hangovers whilst at work ,2.0 55265, i want one of those puppies theyre sooooooooooooo cute ,0.0 55266, i miss u soooo much xoxo,2.0 55267, hey pntbtrkisses is having twitter twouble cant tweet you back or dm either shes gonna try again later ,0.0 55268,so something positive happened today i worked out at the gym and right afterwards i went to the bar right next door i know right there was a beautiful bartender there and she struck up conversation with me for like three or four hours that felt pretty nice was like a light shining,3.0 55269,two more days till muhh burfdayy bitchess ,0.0 55270,have you ever just wanted people to care without knowing anything it is kinda like you just want them to show that they care but you dont want to share anything with them for whatsoever reasons,3.0 55271,nazhariaschifra i know and there are a lot of cute guys here hahahah ,0.0 55272,misssmith ohh you can do that hmm ,0.0 55273,failchad for some reason i cant stalk anyone anymore ,2.0 55274,hmmm i hope well go to the place where i want to go to tomorrow thatd be fuuun gt,0.0 55275,missing my twin xoxo,2.0 55276,neeed more folowers ,0.0 55277,bistrobess i am lost please help me find a good home ,2.0 55278,yaboyro sometimes i wish i lived over in the usa so i could go to things like that but im stuck in australia,2.0 55279,got my gmat books lets see what days of studying will get me ,0.0 55280,misses her second family i wish things could go back to the way they used to be,2.0 55281,trying virtualbox after autoupdating ubuntu and discovering that doesnt work under parallels ,2.0 55282,licokitty just problems with a friend future isnt looking too bright with her and i ,2.0 55283, you might have remembered only half but you were smokin hot the whole night hope that makes you feel better ,0.0 55284,checkin out hairmakeup and wardrobe for the final concert in dubai tomorrow its been so nice to meet yall here more day till la ,0.0 55285,hadramie yeah man my sched is tightass argh tue is another hell date standby for an early mamak brekkie thu or fri ttdi ok u,2.0 55286,just got back from the pool with the girls fun monday ,0.0 55287, oh you know it ,0.0 55288,agh my friend on facebook told me what happened on eastenders why oh why ,2.0 55289,ruthiecakes and the bnp sneak through the apathy door ,2.0 55290,hoping i get a phone call today ,0.0 55291,thought i was making progress but maybe not i was at a very low point about a month ago feeling suicidal and purposeless i managed to scrape my way back up to neutral probably because my sister came home for the holidays i even got some momentum going i applied to grad school and reached out to friends and cut back on my drinking and drug use then today i was in therapy admittedly i was exhausted did not sleep well last night and i kind of lost touch with all of that progress she asked me about what im doing to make myself feel better like what fun things im doing for me and i burst into tears because it reminded me of how lonely i feeli dont know how to put into words how empty life feels without someone to share it with not even romantically just having genuine connections with people caring for them and knowing they care for you all of my closest friends live thousands of miles away we went from all living together to each of us living in different parts of the country and we talk almost every day and facetime about once a month but its not the same as having someone next to you and just being together im close with my younger sister but shes in college in a different town and pretty busy during the semester with classes and campus life and i want her to enjoy those thingsi feel better now after therapy i decided i needed to treat myself so i bought some books before going to work i still feel kinda lonely but closer to okay now guess i just wanted to get that out there,3.0 55292,hayever is wrecking havoc ,2.0 55293,ok ive stopped being grumpy for the day now lt see im smilin,0.0 55294,another day out in the rain today n havin fun wit ma fren yay thankful ,0.0 55295,lack of motivation to continue with studies dropped out of uni ten years ago and been in the same job im happy self employed and dont need any additional qualifications years ago i started an open university course to finish my degree with the aim of becoming an early years teacheri successfully completed my ou degree and started my early years degree in september just got my results back from the first assignment and i need to resubmit made me realise that my anxiety and depression always seems to coincide with my studies i absolutely loathe education and am only still doing it because if i drop out the last years would have been a waste and the course finishes in july but i just cant bring myself to drop out either i think if i deferred to next year i would still have the issues i am havingis it worth months of being miserable to get this out the way also it comes with a bursary but looks like most of this will go to the business as we need the money,3.0 55296,quotim in hell and someone is singing songs from anniequot max on pf back in the office im tired my head hurts amp i want to go home,2.0 55297, at my dads in ct hmm idk you shouldnt be,0.0 55298,heatherromney hedah we need to hang out soon ,2.0 55299,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 55300,will be chillin at abbot kinney venice tonight around wanna join tgif ,0.0 55301,dcleader hope you feelin better today it was great to see you yesterday ,0.0 55302,i am so sad about leaving my uncle michael and becca having fam in diff states really sucks when its time to go h ,1.0 55303,arugalicious i think its spelled spok but it dont matter ,0.0 55304,sterlingldn hvrrisonldn my eyes feel like theyre gonna pop out of my head anxiety has kicked in and im bugging out ☹️,1.0 55305,monopolydoc dont mention it its my thing ,0.0 55306,feels ill and is therefore miserable ,2.0 55307,depression is cool these days at least you have that going for you ,3.0 55308,at tgi fridays with some of my favorite people ever we made a reservation for and we have like people here hahah,0.0 55309,i was going to kill myself but it didnt work out i went for a backflip but i landed the first one but when i went for a second i kinda pussd out now im here eating some lightly salted taco shells i crushed up and put on a paper plate—theyre stale btw,3.0 55310,hows my anxiety i put on a face mask and it made me feel claustrophobic,2.0 55311,aw man im going to miss that dog theroadworrior,2.0 55312,saturdays agenda thai lunch with tinybritches followed by an sarahkathleen birthday extravaganza should be an excellent day ,0.0 55313,itsbagism aw there there,2.0 55314,rt i jussssst dont have time anymore time for stress time for doubt time for bullshit protecting my energy at all costs,2.0 55315,i basically have no life and finding it difficult to enjoy it fully i am an year old freshman doing a course in general science with modules in physics and astrophysics biology mathematics for scientists and geology having started university back in september i have aspergers syndrome but this only stopped heavily affecting me when i was about having been stuck in a constant routine of getting up at in the morning catch my bus at so i wont miss or be late for my or lectures almost every day of the week then call it a day by usually really sucks the energy out of me honestlyif thats not enough ive been struggling to get on top of my studies if thats all ive been doing for the past five or six months or so it really becomes a life sucker really trying to actually know my content because i tend to forget things easily i only got in my course because of my special disability meaning i am quite behind other students who took it harder to get in so i constantly end up comparing myself to other students seeing how hard and organized they are working yet able to have a life and go out late nights to regular social society events nightclubs and regular outings at the bar while im finding it hard to break out of my social awkwardness make some friends that arent pretentious fit in with the crowd and not have negative subconscious thoughts all the timewhen i was in high school i used to be one of the smartest in my yeargrade until i nearly flunked my finals because i burned out the last two months and wasted it binge messaging on social media such as discord so i knew i should have had it coming until i finally did get accepted in uni anywaybut nonetheless im struggling and still paying the price my lab tutors expect a lot more from me even though i worked countless hours on those reports they give the impression judging from their comments on it that it was shit so i feel dumb honestly and makes me contemplate my life and everything i strived to work fori missed the simpler times in school and i enjoyed the subject before i picked it in uni i dont know why i didnt expect anything else beforehand but i am youngits just the fact that i cant make time to do anything and find time to find out what i actually want be it a hobby or whatever when the only thing ive got on my plate is constant studying and talking with family playing videogames only on the rare occasion and watching movies it all just feels bland and so i have nothing interesting going on nothing to talk about or contribute to the crowd and fit in with other people who are able to integrate many aspects in their lives yet still get on top of their grades and studies judging by how i observe them answering the lecturers questions in the lecture leaving me amazed honestly another thing most other people are more confident able to talk to girls properly seem organized in their life when mine is just a clusterfuck of getting things done which is pretty much pure nothing if i was able to describe what i do for a living with someone honestly it is what it is ive been watching tons of motivational videos and trying to find areas in which cause happiness and how to achieve that ive joined many societies at my college but never been to events regularly because of the overwhelming work at college so i just never have time maybe that imbalance just fucks me up because thats the time ill probably never get back i just wish life would be easier i would stop being a cityfolk and go live in some countryside probably holed up in some cabin in the middle of the woods and actually start engaging with whatever im doing likely behind a typewriter and no timewasting social media like twitter or discord what i spend most of my time on or whatever and a cup of hot coffee beside me i just dont have enough of a personality to be deserving in peoples social group what am i to them i pretty much have no shadowid love to hear some advice though and people to hear me out ive been wanting to let this out of my chest for a while possibly years but i just think noone in real life would take me as seriously because they wouldnt understand unfortunately studying is the life if i want to secure a decent job with an amazing paygrade if medical physicist is what id want to be its been my idea since my middle years in high school i guess but even then im still not sure now if im making a mistakewhich is why i feel my life is in shambles that im following blindly,3.0 55316,niamhsmith i was late mischievous pixies kept me so but feeling good now busy busy what about you,2.0 55317,sudden onset depressive traits in boyfriend trying to help him but nothing is working as stated in my title my boyfriend seemingly overnight went from being his normal motivated employed self to being basically unable to get out of bed his work calls him and he doesnt answer he lies in bed pillow over his head and when he gets up he doesnt change out of his pjs and just sits on his phonei ask how he feels and he says meh i ask whats wrong and he wont tell me i belong to this sub because ive dealt with these kind of feelings myself but he has done so much better for himself than i have hes the smartest most successful person i knowi called his mom the other day to come talk to him and she did get him to open up a bit she gave us money to go out and eat and he seemed a bit himself for the first time in a week i called my doctor to see him and explore therapy and possibly medication but im just so worried about him all i want is for him to talk to me im on reading week but im scared to go back to school and leave him home with nothing but his thoughts all day i dont know what to do,3.0 55318,vanessaliang sorry ,2.0 55319,discuit im at work with no sound ,2.0 55320,rt entro em stress quando vejo ⏳ ao lado das chamas,2.0 55321,ckute you okay well i mean clearly no but ,2.0 55322,vovat i get horny every seven minutes so i guess spock and i make a bad couple ,2.0 55323,just got home wow i hate manila traffic ,2.0 55324,what a lovely day today but id prefer not to be studying all the time ,2.0 55325,thousands of mothers left to cope alone with mental illness ,2.0 55326,kristynkok couldnt agree with you more im melting under the sun here but the shishas good ,0.0 55327,asking for advice i feel like ive been slipping back a bit the past couple weeks ive been getting better the past few months and living with friends has definitely improved my depression a toni still get suicidal thoughts frequently daily varying in severity and nearly acted on them this morning buying supplies id need i dont know what to do or who to reach out to ive reached out to a friend a few times before but i feel shitty constantly burdening him with stuff like this what i dont want to do is go to a therapist and then be placed under suicide watch be placed in a hospital for a few days since therapists are required to report or act on a patients disclosure of suicidal thoughts ive read a lot of horror stories about that and i just want to find means to fucking feel better maybe get prescribed something have someone other than friends to talk to about stuff like this idk i cant talk to family because theyre completely unempathetic and all it would do is cause more problems i could go to my universitys counseling center but i havent heard great things about it and i cant go to a therapist outside the university without my parents finding out im still on their insurance or id have to pay outofpocket which i cant really afford right nowin any case idk what to do or who to go to without feeling some level of doubt or dread or guilt and i really dont want to slip back to where i was a year ago ,3.0 55328,right really going to bed now sweet dreams twitterlings xxxxx,0.0 55329,theres this girl in physics class shes a great artist and an adorable person i havent talked to her much but when i do she seems to be so chill i would love if i was able to talk to her with out hesitating i want to be close with her but i get so nervous that i avoid her even though im able to lift lbs i never felt weaker i hate that feeling i thought going to the gym and getting slimmer would give courage but instead im still as weak when i first started i feel like theres no escape and no matter how bad i want to talk to her i wont be able to just because im too much of a wuss or think its weird for me to just walk up to her and talk to her i wish talking to someone wasnt so hard ,3.0 55330,may the be with you ,0.0 55331, i hope so too i dont hope that im not pregnant whats done is done i just hope i can get through this ,2.0 55332,enjoyed mothers day with my momma and the ones i love hope everyone had a good weekend i hate mondays ,2.0 55333,anyone else tired of living without any goal first yes it is a throwawayim so tired of getting up on monday thinking about the shit which will happen until friday for absolutely nothing i dont know what im waiting for there is nothing im looking forward to sitting around and wait for the day to end or having meaningless conversations with people at the weekend cant fix my life no matter how much crap im reading or trying it feels horrible to play this game without a goal which makes sense very nihilistic ,3.0 55334,cant stop feeling guilty hey guys this is my first time posting ive struggled with depression for a few years and finally started taking antidepressants thankfully this has helped alot with the worst of my symptoms and i now at least feel like i want to live however i still struggle daily with feelings of worthlessness and guilt i just cant stop thinking im a horrible person for literlly no reason at all does anyone have any tips for getting away from this feeling i dont want to spiral back down into the worst of it because i cant get away from this,3.0 55335,taking my mother to the airport todayshe lives miles away in the uk ,2.0 55336,starting work on a gamestate tracker this will make sure that things stay on track menus will pop up when they are supposed to etc,0.0 55337,overview of world mental health day outreach ,2.0 55338,rt coldbeefbroth ppl that dont like cats are too pussy to live with individualistic personalityfilled technicallynotdomesticated cre,0.0 55339, very ,2.0 55340,countroschulla that kevin james movienaah havent seen it ,2.0 55341,rt ekalimusic mental health from my perspective ,1.0 55342,dismayed that tiananmen square isnt a trend but susan boyle and still are ,2.0 55343,hanging with the crew were just missing one ,2.0 55344,how do i help my friend who recently been depress and has hurt himself hours ago my friend od and his status in the hospital is a bit unstable i havent gotten any updates on his physical well being but i pray he makes a recovery how do i help him recover and be a better friend how can i treat him or do anything for him hes always been hard on himself and tried to help everyone but recently he told me he felt alone with no friends hes one of the best people i know and i want to be there for him just like when has for me,3.0 55345,quotmom dad can we get on with it i have hard drives to fixquot i always laugh but none of my newb viewers do chuckmemondays chuck,2.0 55346,tommcfly are u coming back in october is it true please tell me it is ,0.0 55347,filmutopia wow thanks will do that cheers ,0.0 55348,wethetravis mail it to yourself ,0.0 55349,im just hanging out at home listening to jl love the song quotordinary peoplequot,0.0 55350, you did work at pentagon city right that was your training ground ,0.0 55351,walkaway,1.0 55352,icaruswish xd yeah i am strongly considering moving to or vodafone or something but am broke far beyond £ atm ,2.0 55353,givemestrength such a good way to engender respect donchathink ,2.0 55354,rt update warm n sad,1.0 55355,notzach riding in the rain is hard to avoid but tweeting on the fixie thats a choice man ,0.0 55356,mukundajombe acielumumba dai ndiri pa ballot ndatofa ne bp the anxiety is too much,2.0 55357,yahoo just read chuck has been renewed for a third season totally made my day ,0.0 55358,i lost my charity gala ticket damn but i had no desire to go there so whats poppin,2.0 55359,ltherealsavannah do you have an album out i cannot find it at target ,2.0 55360,tommcfly oooooown i want to watch star wars with you ,2.0 55361,rt starrylies rt if you want to die constantly never like yourself dont look in a mirror cause youre unsatisfied with your a,0.0 55362,muttpop that is so true imho i got back into gl when the glcorps started coupla yeas back i really missem ,2.0 55363,atebits i think tweetie would be completely perfect with the addition of number of tweets posted on my own and other users profiles t y ,0.0 55364,nicolamandy do you have a picture lol ducks are pretty cool ,0.0 55365,im tired yet not sleepy why cant i sleep i just really want hugs i neeeeed hugs ,2.0 55366,spanish oral exam today im nervous ,2.0 55367,when motherhood leads to depression burn fat ,2.0 55368,samtagious this seems like the hundredth problem twitter has had since i joined im almost convinced that i broke it ,2.0 55369,watchin tv just chillin out woohoo,0.0 55370,i can honestly say i love my roommates ,0.0 55371,rt irisgutierrez anxiety aint no joke,0.0 55372,on my way back home now been sleeping wonderf did i say im now a big roller coster fan well i am since yesterday,0.0 55373,if you watch this it immediately curse you of your depression ,2.0 55374,sonialexandra the concept of truth is irrelevant to survival but the truth is whatever works is regarded as truth ,0.0 55375, ill ring you in a minute beautiful i love youu xxx,0.0 55376,lilyroseallen lily said a swearthis is so out of charecter ,2.0 55377,arvindsays i contemplate amp procrastinate only over things which require use of brain ,0.0 55378,khaizz before friday if possible ,0.0 55379,sevfurneaux looks lovely down there pishing it down here as usual ,2.0 55380,is getting his stuff ready for tour x,0.0 55381,having service in my job was a bad idea ,0.0 55382,consider gods handiwork who can straighten what he hath made crooked ecc watching gattaca ,0.0 55383,rt allouratoms the most gender sexuality race religion mental health inclusive show quite possibly ever and you bloody cancel it wh,1.0 55384,i just luv th connection we ave on ere ,0.0 55385,jonasbrothers lol they called kobe bryant the one man show and i was freaking out you guys look adorable,0.0 55386,happy new year today is a new start to a new year new goals new ambitions new experiences carps diem guys sieze the moment,3.0 55387,getloaded just another work day for poor little me lol,2.0 55388,time for tea ,0.0 55389,omgi cant get out of bedi feel like shit ,2.0 55390,catalinacruz thank you i love them so much id do anything for them ,0.0 55391,italytravelista ha if only i can be the spokes person for tuscany got more slogans up my sleeves hehe,0.0 55392,on my way the party very late but its a pool party amp i snt swim so ima just b hot enjoyin time w moms havent seen her n wks ,2.0 55393,rt paulatics goofygemini usscobblerguy nathanhrubin i have had chemo treatments on tuesday surgery been hospitali,0.0 55394,obama and joe biden grabbing lunch and seeing g this makes me sad because we have a loon in the wh,2.0 55395,i know drug addiction and depression dont blend well,1.0 55396,is it common to have major depression and adjustment disorder at the same time i was diagnosed with major depression years ago and i just got diagnosed with adjustment disorder due to a loved one dying im just confused about this diagnosis because i thought mdd rules out adjustment disorder,3.0 55397,raecheybaby cheers ,0.0 55398,dang started my bike ridegood momentum then my bike broke ,2.0 55399,i need someone to cheer me up ,2.0 55400,up and ready for a beautiful day ,0.0 55401,roryluvsu wow thanks and you inspire me you and the rest of my fans are the reason why im here today,0.0 55402,i love toy story and pumped for toy story but have to wait until next year ,2.0 55403,i have a feeling that this is going to be a long week ,2.0 55404,i planted a little veg and herb garden hope the rabbits dont feast,0.0 55405,omgoodness hot day today my backs burnt i decided i need to make a new youtube video sheesh i fail lol,2.0 55406,mattyclark you smoke flavoured tobacco i like blueberry ,0.0 55407,good morning my dad called my cell really early leave me alone lol,2.0 55408,tommcfly i dont want you to go to brazil i will miss you ,2.0 55409,taking pills to stop depressionanxiety i am depressed for many years now and it sucks i hate being miserable all the time and wanting to kill myself i already tried hang myself days ago and thinking that i will never be happy or having a panic attack just for the smallest thing i know there are medication for this to make sure that you the depression and perhaps anxiety as well will go away but does it go away for good does anybody have any experience with this because i want to go to therapy because i actually want to better myself but then again i do not want to be addicted to pills ps sorry for my english ,3.0 55410,realladycroft did you watch the video just posted ewww ,2.0 55411,i finally decided to go see my doctor and go back on antidepressants so this has been a long time coming ive had various anxieties about going back and seeing it as a failure but ive gotten to the point where i want to move forward more than i dont want to feel like a failure maybe im just having a good day but its what i think this is the best choice for me but im tired of thinking about death and killing myself all the time i know that can be a side effect but honestly if it is i wouldnt be able to tell the difference i was also given a number to set up counselling that i need to sort out when they open tomorrow my appointment ended at i havent been on antidepressants citalipram for nearly years i was on them for a short time then a few months or so but they did work and i didnt have too many weird side effects the worst for me was weird sparkiness throughout my nerves i guess similar to asmr that in some ways were actually quite pleasurable oh and yawning a lot i dont know what i expect in the long run but well see i want to get on with my life and hopefully ill discover that along the way ,3.0 55412,my depression is ruining my life my depression gives me these extremely irrational amp invasive thoughts at the smallest inconveniences things like misinterpreting my boyfriends texts my car making a weird noise or social situations in general give me intense feelings of selfhatred sadness irritation jealousy you name it i know i shouldnt be thinking this way but they get so strong amp pervasive that they end up dominating my train of thought whenever this happens i tend to outwardly shut down my boyfriend describes me as cold amp distant amp then i end up upsetting him amp further driving people away from me amp the situation gets even worse because i feel shitty that im doing itto anyone else who has ever experienced this what are some good coping mechanisms i can use to stop myself from dwelling on these feelings im going to start seeing a therapist in a couple weeks but i feel really terrible amp depressed right now i dont want to push everyone away amp end up aloneany advice really would be greatly appreciatedbest wishes,3.0 55413,i feel broken so much has happened and im left feeling empty and just so deeply and irreparably broken i dont feel ok i havent in a long time and with every feeling of anger of sadness or disappointment the crack in my soul splinters out a bit more and i feel closer to shattering completely i hate feeling this way but i dont think it will ever get better,3.0 55414,i was so excited when the phone finally rang then i was caller instead of ,2.0 55415,dropping the kiddo back off w his mum tmrw another bash tmrw at my place too late to make it a theme party ,2.0 55416,at gym now with si tasha gilak and afang hahaha ,0.0 55417,my body is feeling neglected i havent worked out in over a week ,2.0 55418,cmyste very very sweet of you to say i just have to get the percentages right now posted details on the secret blog,0.0 55419,peach snapps ,0.0 55420,life is too short ,2.0 55421,xsamanthanicole its a good idea to look near water ,0.0 55422,thanks you callmejors ,0.0 55423,its raining ,2.0 55424,woke everyone up on the way out this morning well done me ,2.0 55425,is figuring it out twitter haha and english paper sucks ,2.0 55426,lucyyhale awesome god bless,0.0 55427,rt softsignal me to a character i made with my own hands i love you so much i will protect you with my whole lifepan out to reveal,0.0 55428,rt veganelff rt if youre a vegan and your omega and vitamin d levels are perfectly fine ,0.0 55429,good morning i got a feeling today that if we dont worship the rocks and trees will its a beautiful morning,0.0 55430,i hate it depression has completely consumed me my whole body feels like it is rotting to the core i cant seem to take care of myself i rarely eat im full of anger i can feel my heart struggling in my chest i just wish the world would let me be me let me live freely itd be nice if i felt like i was worth something to the planet everyone i get close to just sees me as a terrible person they see all the anger and they cant appreciate the good in me ive given up on getting close to people almost completely why should i do that to them they will just say the same thing i dont know what else to say it seemed like a good idea at first i just needed somewhere for my words to go fly away thoughts,3.0 55431,rt fact listening to music for at least minutes a day makes it easier to deal with emotional stress,1.0 55432,my best friend is home weeii were going off sailing tomorrow ,0.0 55433,hitzproductions thats not fair tho u cnt put us all down lol,2.0 55434,ive had a headache for the last days i dont want to go to school todayyyy,2.0 55435,happy for a fleeting moment i moved away last year i went back to visit my hometown recently and met up with some friends we all went to disney together it was probably the happiest ive ever been in a long time and even though i grew apart from my friends we all hung out like old times but all i could think about was man i just dont want this day to endi went home that day and cried i had to leave pretty soon afterwards its only been a week but i want to go back in time and relive that moment it just feels so fresh in my mind i cant process that its over already time seems to mess with me so much what is present now turns into the past a second later that thought is scary when im not making every second worth living since moving ive isolated myself and havent been doing that well i just want to get better ,3.0 55436,so board twitts ,0.0 55437,i dont know whats wrong with me anymore maybe trigger warning on this im not sure im sorry my head is a messugh i dont even know how to start this im sick of feeling like this im on antidepressants because i was so sick of feeling just so so horrible all the time the other day i went to take my medication and it just hit me if i just saved up enough pills eventually id have enough to kill myself it just came out of nowhere like i thought i was fine but i think the antidepressants were just hiding my depression and in that split second it was like i woke up like nothing happened to make me upset i just seen the medication that i had been taking for the past few weeks and it was like something snapped its like im back at the beginning when you start to feel this way but its been going on for forever and you havent gone to get help with anyone like back when i was the only one who new that i was depressed and suicidal i just feel numb again i was clean for like two weeks which is the longest ive ever gone without hurting myself and then i just ripped into my arms and legs im so sick of this i dont want to be here anymore its too hard and ive tried so much its never gonna end is it i dont know why i keep prolonging it why am i waiting around like what the hell is the point anyway i dont want to try anymore the pain is just too much why go on with life when all there is is pain i dont want to hurt anyone i just cant take this anymore,3.0 55438,ugh cant sleep n i hav b up work in ,2.0 55439,loving all my fans ,0.0 55440,phatelara lol there are parts in english debbs ,0.0 55441,rt allouratoms the most gender sexuality race religion mental health inclusive show quite possibly ever and you bloody cancel it wh,1.0 55442,a little disappointed with the new moon trailer ,2.0 55443,letter to my ex sorry wall of text i wish i hadnt left but thats what you wanted isnt it would you have been happy if i tried to get help would you have found another way to make me go i wish i could find out get answers but thats not your style is it im bitter i cry more and more and i feel like im losing my mind you dated months after i went were you cheating on me why didnt you have the decency the guts to tell me you didnt love me anymore it would have hurt but less than being led on how could you make me leave when you knew i couldnt take care of myself was i so bad that i needed to be thrown away so totally you maneuvered me into having a meltdown begging for a scrap of attention to be told you either wanted to remain friends or notbut thats not what you wanted you said i was harassing you that you felt threatened by mein another country km away broke did you ever really know me how could you think that i could possibly hurt you you played me so completely that i am ashamed of myself if i knew what a vicious cow you are i would have made you sell our house buy my car for a fair pricebut you knew i wouldnt do that i didnt have any money to put in for the deposit so you paid it all and i couldnt make you sell when i felt i didnt contribute nothing except years mortgage payments do you think of me do you laugh do you find it funny that you prepared for this a year or more before you gave me any indication there was anything wrong you said more than once that you didnt express affection for me as strongly and romantically as i did for you because you are dead inside im sure it was said as a joke but now i know its true you do so much now that you would never do with me that blonde guy on instagram a selfie like the fuck youd ever have done that with me what else do you do with other guys that you wouldnt do with me we never went out on dates was that on purpose did you ever really love me at all i dont think so but i still love you a year and a half after you cast me aside i still cry when i think of you dating living with some other guy it feels like a punch in the stomach i bet it doesnt for you if you ever think of me at all i want so much to hate you to feel as callously as you feel toward me but i cant i feel betrayed destroyed but i cant hate you i know you hate me you are cold and horrid and i wish i could feel as rotten to you as you feel towards me you will never find this never read it even though its in my usual user name you dont think about me at all unless its to gloat at how you utterly destroyed me maybe im being unfair maybe im ascribing you emotions and motivations you didnt have but i dont know all i know is what i feel and experienced and how you tossed me aside cold calculating cruel i feel badly for the guys you date now theyll be lucky to get scraps of emotion care and love why cant i let go you didnt shed a tear for me why do i for you how did you get so cold and heartless how did you move on so fast i left in may by september you had posted instagram post on a date a selfie how long does it take to feel comfortable enough on a date to post a pic two months three so you dated him in august was my side of the bed even cold im scared that i wont be able to stop thinking about you and that ill kill myself because i cant deal with the depression and you putting me out with the trash i have an appointment to see a counselor next week but i dont think ill go i think i will allow this disease to run its course what else do i do i cant live like this any more i feel like im losing my mind i cant sleep i dont wash i havent brushed my teeth in months i eat garbage once a day i feel physically weak all the time i havent washed my clothes in weeks i wear the same thing for days why cant i be as emotionless as you i dont even know how you feel i cant know you will never tell me you will never contact me again you have your perfect life with the house the car the cats your family and job i have nothing i live on of the money i had when i lived with you after my rent im lucky to have for food for the month plus anything else i have to buy i can not live like this any more why cant i hate you,3.0 55444,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 55445,redkatblonde thanks my dear will you be at the taste this weekend im having withdrawals ,0.0 55446,i went shopping today and bought this i love it ,0.0 55447,rt odilettante had a couple of drinks at a thing tonight and for my casual lightweight liver that was more than plenty but now im home,0.0 55448,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 55449,i miss las vegas and san francisco will i ever see you again,2.0 55450,muted grey and greyishpurples with my guitars and framed alex pardee artwork on the walls my room is coming together nicely ,0.0 55451,yaelernst hey thanks for the blog tweet mention you really made me smile and humble at the same time what a warm bread feeling ,0.0 55452,the sun shines my prayers have been heard in the city for shopping with my mom ,0.0 55453,disasterpeace music tech master stroke ds video on youtube here and info here ,0.0 55454,depression over and over before i give up on anybody i try and try and i try,3.0 55455,working on presentation and waiting for the ipl match but feeling sleepy ,2.0 55456,shopping in big cities is always fun ,0.0 55457,sehrishd yay cant wait lol i watched him on tv last night for the tenth time and he still made me laugh ,0.0 55458,check this out ,0.0 55459,turning down a party offer what am i thinking im getting old ,2.0 55460,any of you people in a similar place im only probably gonna get judged as fuck but im lost and im confused what do i do ive had enough i literally go nowhere or see anyone i sit in a room all day everyday i dont speak to people i dont communicate with anyone except my dealer and doctor i cant go out the front of my house beacuse of drug induced anxiety i cant even get on a train or a bus the doctors gave me a physical addiction to benzos i smoke weed everyday i do mdma all the time and drink alcohol daily and cant go without it my main addictions are the benzos and alcohol but i literally talk to no one or see anyone and it makes me feel lonely asf i was homeless basically all of last year i have no job the a week i get from centrelink only just gets me enough drugs to last a week the first thing i do when i get money is think how much drugs i can get ive been to hospital times in the past weeks beacuse of drugs my mum just looks at me like a junkie so does the rest of my family so they dont talk to me and they dont let me see or ring my little sister n brother people dont understand that im in physical pain until i have a dose i feel agitated sick and angry until i have a dose of benzos and i didnt even decide to start taking these pills my doctor gave them to me so now i get looked at like a pill junkie i really want a job and i want to be clean but i just cant do this i feel so alone beacuse i see absultley no one my anxiety is fucked up my whole life right now is just fucked nothing else except drugs realeases dopamine in my brain i can now see why people commit suicide i now understandbut i really want to get on track and get a job and start communicating with people its been days since ive walked to my mailbox i sit in a room daily every day alone all i do is drugs and play music i take any and every drug to make me feel something i smoked buscopan tablets last week and went delirious for hours in hospital i even snorted heroin ive done pcp ketamine every time i have lsd or shrooms i have a bad trip beacuse of how mentally fucked i am only years ago i was thinking to myself im never even gonna smoke tobacco now look at me im the biggest junkie i no and ive takin more drugs than anyone i no fuckin uselessalso sorry for my language but please is there anyone out there that can give me some advice or help please im at the lowest point in my life i just dont no what to do and i have no help or support so ill listen to any suggestions all i want is to be clean off the drugs and to have a job and communicate with people theres alot more to this than it sounds and im also in alot more physical and mental pain than it sounds i dont need professional help i just need to no what to do so i can do it like step by step from where i am to a job thanks guys and sorry that once again my drug use has wasted another persons time,3.0 55461,louhaffner lol i know he will so make a good president lol so excited for concert now and there isnt a webchat before though ,2.0 55462,going garage sale shopping in the rain ,0.0 55463,greyhounds we heard apples was feeling not so hot get well soon apples hugs from the ark kids,2.0 55464,home had japanese brothers in da mtg one was wearing an irish hat im always happy to see them will have lunch windy evening love ,0.0 55465, hope your enjoying the office hehe benrolfe rozzer,0.0 55466,lilygreenxxx ill post on my twitter quotlilygreenxxx ripquot ,0.0 55467,i dont want to live anymore i am so miserable i have no friends and i cant really talk to anyone about anything because im homeschooled all i ever do is get up in the morning eat do my school work eat shower then sleep every single day my parents do argue a lot almost everyday my dad thinks im an embarrassment while my mom is the one who actually cares about me i once thought about commiting suicide but i just cant i love my mother and my siblings too much they are the only reason why i am still here i cant leave them behind like that i just want these feelings to stop all i ever have are depressing thoughts even when i try to be happy ive been feeling this way since i was twelve and it never left me when i do go outside i look around me and just feel more terrible about myself i see people talking to their friends dads actually loving their children kids around my age with groups of friends and heres me who gets judged for being too quiet or socially awkward so i just shut up and let things go by,3.0 55468,any suggestions for a restaurant for an anniversary dinner in bruges its in belgium ,0.0 55469,jeffarchuleta nothing serious okay thanks for letting us know jeff take care regards to david and the rest of the fam ,0.0 55470,if you love chuck norris then follow me earthquake,0.0 55471,i cant depression fatigue is there such a thing been married about years my wife has had varying levels of depression right throughout that and i think ive got depression fatigue i just made up that term im sure theres probably a real medical term for iti just cant deal with it anymore its consumed every piece of happiness smile laughter and fun ive had in me weve got kids and its affecting them tooi cant deal with her complaining anymorei cant deal with her moods anymorei cant deal with her abuse anymorei cant deal with being used as her verbal and emotional punching bagi cant keep doing everything around the housei cant keep dreading every time my phone rings and its her wondering what it will be about will she be losing her shit on the other end of the phonei cant keep coming home and wondering what sort of mood shes ini cant dread her waking up in the morning knowing shes in a shit mood out of daysi cant walk in or out of the house say hibye give her a kiss to be told to fuck off i hate you youre a piece of shit a cunt or that she wishes i get hit by a train have a car accident or similari cant be told i dont do anything around the house or about all the things i dont doi cant be told that im a shit father and about all the things i dont do with them even though im with them every night and weekend when shes at work i take them to school make their lunches and dinneri cant be told how crap my family is and that my dad who dies years ago was a lazy piece of shiti cant fight with her every time my mum is in town and wants to see us and the kids especially as shes moving to the same town this week so she can see more of usi cant be told how she doesnt have any time for herself yet she directly controls how she spends every minute of her dayi cant her her complain about the house anymore no its not a display home but its far from dirtyi cant hear her complain about the kids and how much they fight where do you think they learnt that behaviour fromi cant hear about finances when we spend so much on takeaway food or fresh food that gets thrown out because its gone off uneateni cant hear her complain about her weight you got the op done lost heaps of weight and havent been to the gym to tonei cant hear her complain about not going to the gym and having paid for the membership for the last months youre in control of your days and how you spend iti cant hear you say to me im different towards you todaytonight did you forget how you told me today what a piece of shit i am you wish you never met me and youre going to go and find someone to give you attentioni cant be told how much i repulse you when we have sex and that you have to think of someone else to orgasmi cant be told that im just here to look after the kids and support you and them financiallyi cant hear again how your money is your money and that i should be grateful you got a job at nightsweekends i look after the kids yet when you bought me a present with your money the first in years i have to hear all the time about how i dont deserve itill likely edit and add more not looking for responses just had to get it out,3.0 55472, im gladi love that song too thanx for listenin amp appreciating ,0.0 55473,justtttl awesome ,0.0 55474,goodnight im still lol from the hangover,0.0 55475,just some thoughts to get stuff off my mind i just finished spring break where i had a lot of fun hanging out with family it was the best id felt in months i felt so carefree and supportednow that im back to starting school i feel im sinking theres already homework and i feel like i cant do it i also am worrying about other things finding an internship over the summer finding someplace to live next year finding a therapist and wondering what classes i want to takei just feel overwhelmed and honestly i use escapism like playing games to avoid thinking about it but i know its going to get worse the longer i put it off i know i need to start with small steps but it seems like itll take forever to finishthanks for reading let me know if you can relate,3.0 55476,lozzy carbonmade is bloody fantastic supports flash too might have to pay for that though ,0.0 55477,yayy i preordered nothing personal and got a pretty shirt with it ,0.0 55478, yes so fun cant wait pic cj ,2.0 55479,new to twitter ,0.0 55480,can someone have a house party where its strictlyteknor apexxtaishou kyuunenpeter brötzmannsachiko mtatsuro httpstcojqqdlfsqft,2.0 55481,rt okknavi literally everything httpstcotdigospebk,2.0 55482,xscarlettmariex me toooo ,2.0 55483,sammyzinclips okay ,2.0 55484,im in bed wondering if i seriously hit a weak spot ,2.0 55485,new blog will have lots of new goodies if has more info on oth related twitters pls email me thanks ,0.0 55486,ashbergsmum thanks for the followfriday props mdear ,0.0 55487,tool in ubunutu for creating effects with windows etcanyone tell me the name of itcant remember ,2.0 55488,what a stupid way to leave primeval i mean ugh although it has now put me in the mood to watch jurassic park yay,0.0 55489,im going to work ,2.0 55490,driveafastercar does it shape your hair using the golden ratio ,0.0 55491,help cleaning my room i cant do it like its been so so long and i just cant i can only sleep on of my bed at least its a big bed i have clothes all over the floor and aside from my work clothes and underwearsocks that i wash maybe every few weeks i havent done any other laundry in months no open food at least but wrappers and crumbs everywhere dust clutter i have bipolar disorder so i overspend when im manic and i have so many useless itemsi need help how do you guys clean,3.0 55492,sitting on the beach in the sun i love living so close to it ,0.0 55493,alexandramusic diversity won it was between saxophone player susan boyle and diversity i wanted shaheen to do win ,2.0 55494,i finished school successfully happy,0.0 55495,wow my post at twitter ,0.0 55496,i know you would be sad for a few days if i died but you dont care enough to just listen to me talk about things for a couple minutes oh no dont say such things dear its no good,3.0 55497,rised my grade from an f to a c in geometry but i wanna get higher hopefully its at a b now im trying the best i can wish me luck ,0.0 55498,rt staarrq you are sad yes want to fuck ,0.0 55499,i still feel alone so im with someone who holds me when i cry or have panic attacks they talk to me all the time they always see if im okay they constantly call me and tell me that im a good person only when i say im not im always there for this person and it just makes me feel like im not enough because im basically asking for their compliments then theyve went out and hung out with people the whole day after we make plans to stay in something they want those are days i feel i can go out and i dont feel like being trapped in the house it makes me feel like im not enough i feel like im always waiting i feel like its because they never wanted to hangout with me so the things they do do i feel like i dont appreciate them enough if they do something sweet i feel like i ruin it when im not in the mood to talk to them aside from me crying they thought i was fine they thought i was just sensitive now theyre noticing they believe me when i say my family always ignores me or criticizes the day they seen cuts they just got up and walked away it made me so nervous they just came back to hug on me told me they care about me that i shouldnt be hurting myself they havent brought it up since i feel like some days i can connect with him other days are just like please leave me alone we have had fun before laughs watching movies playing around with his pets eating the things he cooks orders going to a concert i just feel like its not the same i dont know if its because he knows how i feel sad a lot or maybe its because i feel like it makes me not good enough for him,3.0 55500,fuckadoodledo my arm hurts today ,2.0 55501,officialmgnfox its very sad about farrah im sorry about your kitty too i know how that feels,2.0 55502, let me know how it goes ,2.0 55503,suicide squad,2.0 55504,i swear im faking depression ok so i feel sad and depressed all the time but i keep telling myself that im faking it because i am i cant be depressed because i dont have anything to be depressed about i have great friends and a not so great home life right now but it is great i keep telling myself to tell myself that i am worthless but i think im just doing to to be popular or to get attention i have to be an attention whore i cant be depressed,3.0 55505,good friend opened up to me that he has been depressed i dont know how to support him hey people i am posting here because my closest friend opened up to me that he is in the midst of a depressive episode which has been ongoing for months me and this friend are as close as they come this is a person i have a lot in common with especially when it comes to mentalphycological struggles adhd depersonalization etc we have been each others rocks through thick and thin but right now i am at a loss because he is going through something which i cant really relate his behavior includes lethargy daily naps generally fucked up sleep schedule benders shitfacedblack out every night for a week failing to complete school work on time shopping and buying things spontaneouslyneedlesslyanyway i really really do want to help him but i dont know where to start i do think he should be talking to a therapist instead of me although id always be there for him but i dont want to tell him that outright as i dont think he would respond well to the idea i did get him to lay off the booze for a week which left him feeling a bit better but he blacked out the night he began drinking againany advice on how to nudge him in the right direction would be greatly appreciated thanks in advance ,3.0 55506,dribb you better not fall asleep while your meant to be raving for me o have fun xx,0.0 55507,ooooo paul mccartney is going to be at piedmont park bet i cant afford tickets ,2.0 55508, i knoww the internet hates me ,2.0 55509,was sticking to healthier smaller portioned meals til faced whomemade pizza friends house no willpower over pizza ,2.0 55510,why is it so difficult to get in the shower im lucky if i manage to drag myself in the shower once a week this is clearly not healthy but yet my routine never changes why,3.0 55511,valentines day i planned to kill myself tomorrow and now i cant due to the contract i signed saying i wouldnt kill myself until next yeari think theyre hoping that by then i be suicidal no longer but idk shit seems stupid this is just me giving my thoughts no question being asked,3.0 55512,glados one of the most engaging characters ever to appear in a videogame if only she hadnt made me kill my companion cube ,2.0 55513,happy saturday ,0.0 55514,i need to be tan right now ,2.0 55515,goodnight guys ,0.0 55516,just bought a subway and sitting by myself because everyone else is in exams ,2.0 55517,how responsible am i if at all for my lack of fulfillmentmotivation my therapist tells me i suffer from dysthymia amp ptsd my father took his own life a little over a year ago and nothing has ever been the same i piece of me died along with my fathermy depression has bought me to my knees recently i feel like the world around me is moving at a pace that i cannot keep up with ive learned the insides and outs of my depression what causes it how i get to the lows and the highs yet i cant seem to pick myself up i just smoke weed and fill my life with distractions like im trying to forget i exist i know this isnt me but at the same time this emptiness feels like ill ever truly know can someone give me a little more insight i dont know whether im fighting myself or my depression i just know theres a fight going on in my head and i want to come out the winner,3.0 55518,thewbdotcom thank you for pushing daisies ,0.0 55519,im sick and tired of life i tired of living this life i have struggled with my mental health my whole life and have spent a lot of my childhoodteenage years in treatment centers i live in a abusive household my boyfriend broke up with me i dont even know what to do anymore i dont want to live if this is what life is i need help,3.0 55520,overall tonights snl epic win ,0.0 55521,merrymorgantown you appear to be on the web but not on facebook ,2.0 55522,princemark you could also consider unity for windows theres a one month trial of unitymmf so commit and that to make something ,0.0 55523,new gm ad quotreinventionquot not impressed expensive ad company ad buy u spent our on this httpbitlymeplk,2.0 55524,dbis was a killer zul i did not know what is a data model la httptweetsg,2.0 55525,cool activity of the day u should all go ,0.0 55526,rt psyjogyo 실험에서 쥐에게 사회적 패배 스트레스social defeat stress를 줄 때훨씬 덩치 크고 공격적인 쥐와 한 곳에 두는 방법을 쓴다남과 비교당하는 사람을 보면 실험 속 쥐가 떠올라 애처롭다 이런 스트,2.0 55527,sebastiantombs tennants last one with catherine tate saving it for postexam vegging out ,0.0 55528,squirt bottle smart watertoday is a great day ,0.0 55529,so so sad tomorrow is monday ,2.0 55530,donteverthink about knitting and the second ones def are knitting as well the loopys are what the back of the vs look like ,2.0 55531,i am so boredi need my son to bring me sbux ,2.0 55532,whats the point of it all when youre building a wall and in front of your eyes it disappears i feel like my life is a cycle i convince myself to try my hardest that im going to make something of my life over time i feel like it all isnt so hard and then i start to have meaningful relationships and i hate myself less suddenly i believe in myself and it feels like anything is possible it feels like im so damn close to being happy and then right when im at my last step where i feel like everything is coming together and i can actually be a normal fucking human being for once i let my guard down and it all comes crumbling down and im exactly where i started a mess that nobody loves ever will love or ever should love a disaster whose meager existence is a blot on humanity a literal waste of space a counterexample to those who claim that anyone can be successful an embarrassment to the people who claim that i am anything elsewhy is it that i have to try so hard to just be normal when for everyone else its just so simplefuck me and anyone who ever pretended to believe in me i refuse to believe that anyone would believe in me because if i accepted that they did i dont think i could go on living,3.0 55533,i was too nervous ,2.0 55534,galaxydazzle claire feels left out most of the time ,2.0 55535,still no keys about to eat a tartiflette for comfort and warmth feeling homeless ,2.0 55536,jonathantullett true true crud that means ill have to wait until tonight ,2.0 55537,that feeling when you read this subreddit and cant help but feel jealous i read your posts and often enough in the middle of a hard story about the pain someone feels i cant help but be jealous of all the things they havemention a relationship a job a car children a house a flat supportive friends and i cant help itall these things i never had things i feel ill never have i am and live has been nonexistent since ive left school no job no friends no career no success anywhere i know that people can have severe mental health issues pretty much no matter their situation and i really dont mean to invalidate anyones pain but when i am at my lowest i get so jealous i cant help but thinkwhat the fuck are you complaining about with your perfect little life its so petty and so sadam i alone with this feeling,3.0 55538,thanks all who recommended me chases a cocktail of pills with tequila trust me im a lot more entertaining this way,0.0 55539,rt buarena explaining my depression to my mother a conversation por sabrina benaimparte i ,2.0 55540, oh yeah i got a request from them the other day too they are gooooood ,0.0 55541,udaymahurkar rajnathsingh narendramodi mamataofficial kailashonline incindia do i ,2.0 55542,jdotill haha yah i do to gonna go in a lil early to return stuff yessss i need medddds im so sick ,2.0 55543,why am i even making it into the new year i dont belong here i feel so lost i dont know where i belong what am i supposed to do anymore,3.0 55544,dear prospect ave i will only miss the roomates the apartment and all them crazy parties goodbye ,0.0 55545,luckily tmobile is next door ,0.0 55546,good morning everyone happy fucking friday ,0.0 55547,needs the sun to shine so she can go to the beach its only minutes away and its torture not being able to take advantage of that ,2.0 55548,bbrooke hahaha i think ill pass ,0.0 55549,brain tumour foundation of canada hollys story sometimes depression isnt depression ,2.0 55550,donniewahlberg i dont follow dr phil lol im tryin to get u its not working ,2.0 55551,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 55552,february all i want is to do something nice on valentines day cause i never have is that too much to ask,3.0 55553,dsclarkkent kindaa come on aim ill tell you,2.0 55554,in the country for the we koala roadkill ,2.0 55555,revising for maths in history cos im cool like that ,0.0 55556,holy crap i just screwed up big time and i mean biiiiiig time ,2.0 55557,i dont know what to do with my life im years old and right now its half term holidays in the uk all day i just sit and play video games im really starting to dislike that and i want to do something outside that but i dont know what i kind of like drawing but i dont want to get into it again because i think im not good enough i have friends but they dont live close to me since we go to a school outside the city and they live in different towns what do i do,3.0 55558,just pinned to cbd recipes and edibles cbd heals anxiety chronic pain depression insomnia inflammation stress ,2.0 55559,phone has died in east acton looking at the electric cinema in notting hill fully booked for this evening though ,2.0 55560,gailbarton i was watching blood money but im all out of epis now so no more ,2.0 55561,instamom give them some cookies as a thanks or beer really wishing it was next wednesday,0.0 55562, spanish orals french orals bordem books sheets ,2.0 55563, true ,0.0 55564,just made it to work i want to go home lol,2.0 55565,no wonder i gained wait by going to ballet i dont feel like going getting fatter by the minute crap,2.0 55566,i just passed the new camaro amp shes hot but her rear end doset really fit w the rest ,2.0 55567,depression approaching again not sure what to do so ive been diagnosed with depression a few years back and i find that for me it tends to get really bad in waves so sometimes im doing somewhat decent for a few months never really that great but not cripplingly sad then i slowly start to feel even worse and worse until im very depressed and the cycle continues anyway im currently headed towards being very depressed whenever im not with my bffriends or at work i get so sad i dont know what to do with myself ive lost interest in everything i used to love doing and i have very little energy overall life feels tiring recently i think ive also been struggling a lot with depersonalization as well which i have not officially been diagnosed with so i cannot say with certainty thats what it is but it definitely feels like it ive looked in the mirror and not recognized myself plus i often feel detached from myself and my surroundings sometimes nothing feels real to me at all its very strange the majority of the time the only emotion i feel is sadness asides from that however i dont really get that much of an emotional reaction out of anything i dont know how to feel everyday emotion again or how to simply feel like myself i dont want things to get worse than they already are and spiral even more out of control although in the past ive been far more depressed than i am at the moment i know i could easily get there if i dont do something soon ive been to therapy before but im no longer covered by the same insurance so i cannot afford it at the moment any advice,3.0 55568,my macbook has had all the problems associated with macbooks flickering screen cracking plastic spontaneous restart dead battery ,2.0 55569, that is a perfect name ,0.0 55570,i just saw grand torino it was amazeballs except it made me cry ,2.0 55571,ashleytisdale congrats you soooo deserved it ,0.0 55572,rt iapfeiffer going✈ full depression ,2.0 55573,word tip to move a paragraphtext select text hold down altshift then use the up and down arrows who needs cut copy paste ,0.0 55574,come out this weekend and help us hack mental health register now toronto ,0.0 55575,weathercom put this up tuesday heat advisory for gibson county tn until pm cdt sat jun will prolly extend it tomorrow ,2.0 55576,i love everybody ,0.0 55577,searching for flights to calgary really wish there was a faster way to visit home hours ,2.0 55578,mrubercart twentysixerd ,0.0 55579,i really liked quantum of solace ,0.0 55580,existere hah i had no idea ,0.0 55581,i cant get out of my head when im fucked up i get in my head and i think alot of harming shit and i have no one to talk to to distract me i dont wanna talk to me family about it and none of my friends will care because they dont know how weighing down and severe it is ,3.0 55582,asinisterduck pvtmarcus ive started at ,2.0 55583,annettedubow damn those squirrels ,0.0 55584,rt baldboyblues is isolating myself from everyone bad for my mental health yes will i continue doing that absolutely,0.0 55585,going to see up w rstammy ,0.0 55586,zero energy so much to do yet all i want is to sleep indefinitely im always tired always have a headache my memory is so bad lately my mind feels like a mess and i cant even organize and articulate my thoughts as well as i could years ago this terrifies me i cant even consistently text anyone without feeling some kind of romantic interest unless im trying to take my mind off of lifes circumstances sometimes i can go out and have fun as long as i can manage to forget everything but to do that i need to put in a lot of effort or be heavily intoxicated or on some risky behavior induced adrenaline rush i go to the gym to try and force myself to improve myself but i always feel like it isnt enough i have pretty much no friends family is a mess i cant relate to many people but ever since i found this post i never felt so understood my heart goes out to all of you reading some of the other posts on here brings me to tears because i understand you all so much its a horrible burden we must carry and strive to curb at every chance its just so hard to do that with no energy,3.0 55587,i gots my spiderbites and some nice sunburn n,0.0 55588,jasonsykes yes the favourite was the amnesiac one so gillian wins but i did like your momma is so fat she needs two facebook profiles ,0.0 55589,feeling poorly sick ,2.0 55590,shahpriya nice luke quote goodluck on the test u have been dreading,0.0 55591,this gives me so much anxiety ,1.0 55592,my night off from work drove to newportagain now having a midnight meal at dennys ,0.0 55593,jamesmyson see ya wednesday then ,0.0 55594,difajonaslover thanks for adding me btw hv u heard much better by jb i guess that song dedicated to tayswift,0.0 55595,govegandotnet yeah my mom is allergic to most fruits she always gets a swollen tummy too ,2.0 55596,im working on shrinking my colorized versions of ininja i found a way to shrink each one from to under ,0.0 55597,how to ask for help i definitely need help ive been through so much especially for my age i know thats probably something a lot of people say but honestly im tired of it ive lost more people than i can count and im not even yet ive had anxiety for about a year and a half and i remember the exact day it started somebody i knew had died we werent too close but for some reason when i found out it happened it was like a switch turned on inside me and it hasnt gone off since so for days ive lived with my anxiety i havent had a panic attack in a while and honestly i think its because i dont care enough about anything to actually trigger one some days are better than others ive learned to live with it but its always there and coupled with the depression i always say i dont have and it hurts every time someone ask me are you depressed because i always say no because i dont know how to say yes for some reason my mind wont let me ask for help its like whenever i wanna try my anxiety convinces me not too its painful to think about a life without any of this being able to go out without this weight on me one of my friends said that since he started consistently taking his anti depressants that he feels so much better and that he had felt this way since he was which got me wondering as to what its actually like to be able to be happy for once occasionally ill have a good day or moment but then its gone the day ends or the moments over and in the end i realize im alone honestly i know i need help i just really dont know how to ask for it but for some reason my instinct is rather than actually go out and ask for help is to drink smoke cigarettes and weed because for some reason i feel like this will help me in some way which it doesnt when i drink by myself which is always i just feel even sadder but i keep going back to these habits because i feel like its the only way to help myself which i know its not honestly i just want this pain to be gone im tired of being sad anxious and just unable to connect with people i never talk to people about my issues rather cover it up with jokes or memes hoping someone will catch onto this they never do i have plenty of friends and i love them all i just dont know how to say it its so hard for me to say those words i love you i wanna show my friends i care but my anxiety wont let me it tells me not too that it wouldnt be right so i dont one time my friend saw my wrist and asked me what it was and i responded with cat thats it no story or anything just cat she didnt believe it shes really the only whos seen my wrist like that whenever i do anything i always keep my hoodie on with my sleeves down until he heals anyway ive never gone deep enough to have blood flow from my wrist but every time i do i feel like im getting closer i dont even know why i do it i just think thisll help it doesnt maybe someone will see my wrist theyll help me but that never happens because i hide it i hide my depression anxiety and cuts all because i dont know how to ask for help,3.0 55598,i was like quotman its dark in herequot didnt notice the tarp over the skylight ,2.0 55599,fed up of the real world so im a year old guy living in england any folks on here also from england so ive suffered with ptsd dep for a number of years now along with a couple of other health issues all of which im on strong meds forhave made a few attempts at ending things but hasnt worked kind of had my fill of the real world now so just wondering if anybody happens to know of any communes or something along that line or something like the big brother house without the cameras where folks live disconnected from the outside world im not talking religious etc just something thats more of like a big family type grouppreferably in the uk if you do know of any please leave a reply thanks,3.0 55600,porfix ha ha i totally understand thats ok but you have to see romebarcelonalondon before you make your mind ,0.0 55601,peers whats going on here hmph leaving for work tweeples,2.0 55602,rt konk men seeking help for depression anxiety or any mental health issue is an act of self love that you deserve dont suffer in,1.0 55603,rt sorry i havent been on too much today i was driving around with my mom almost had an anxiety in the mall which im n,1.0 55604,anyone else just afraid of life first off if youre reading this thank you so muchi dont want to write some long story i just want to sharei feel so alone like im in a serious relationship but when it comes to the way i feel i feel pretty alone im afraid of people at workwhat they think of me what they say behind my back if they will embarrass me which is easy to happen because i am very awkward ive tried everything and nothing has helped me i have no interests and doing things i used to love at this point im just trying to survive and too pussy to actually end it alli am sooooooooo tired i cant even look at myself in the mirror ,3.0 55605,medication and yawning hey guys have just started back on meds have previously stopped meds because of side effects citalopram made me fat fluoxetine i stopped and i cant remember why venlafaxine made me yawn so badly i stopped it after a month or so im now on sertraline and started it today too soon to say if itll be effective or not but im already having yawning as a side effect frequent uncontrollable and so hard my eyes are watering do others have experience with the yawning side effect does it reduce over time or reduce on alternative meds any tips around medication timing to reduce the impact of yawning,3.0 55606,i kinda need help to be blunt and honest sometimes i think about killing myself i have a smaller than average member ive had multiple girls in my life who i cared for very much quite simply lose interest in me ive had girls laugh at me ive been cheated on by just about every girl ive ever dated bullied and humiliated over my short comings ive tried so many times to be confident and positive but its like reality has a cruel way of showing you how worthless you are despite how you feel im tired of disappointing seeing a girl who was super interested to not interested at all repeitively im emotionally crippled by this shit its at the point im actually terrified of getting out there anymore i just sit at home in my little apartment smoking weed to keep myself from spiraling into a bipolar depression nd stay away from opening myself upim just staying scared of the fact i cant take much more of it how many times am i gonna feel the cold truth before i lose my restraint this is why i stay singlei see it as life or death which is fucked up i mean i just dont know what to do to fix myself,3.0 55607,and so ends the week of the seventh birthday extravaganza im exhausted and broke but my girl is happy and now i will sleep,0.0 55608,ok ill finish my paper and watch gossip girl ,0.0 55609,have you see the new jb video its awesome like all the others ,0.0 55610,the average high school student has the same level of anxiety as the average psychiatric patient would in ,1.0 55611,andysandimas can u replace without repiercing,2.0 55612,one of my students was severly beaten this weekend ,2.0 55613,have to go to the gynaecologist today i hate that there aint a more dreadful med for me,2.0 55614,something i just want to scream and shout i cant cry my sleep is totally off track masturbation dosent do anything anymore it was my drug of choose to feel something now nothing day run together it almost like i am stuck on repeat or autopilot i want to feel something ,3.0 55615,mayhemstudios o blasphemy well i can detail it for you i look like im on crack and like an idiot end of video ,2.0 55616,wowits warm whats going on are we in chicago okwell im going to enjoy this no one say anything maybe itll stay for a while ,0.0 55617,spestrella i know but i dont like all ages that much amp im not yet soo thats life i bought my ticket for ,2.0 55618,good morning ,0.0 55619,still chugging along trying to get to edinburg so many things going wrong i wish them well ,0.0 55620,analovestito clean me,2.0 55621,waiting to get off work to go to toris ballgameonly three more weeks left ,2.0 55622,going to be degrees today too bad i have to work ,2.0 55623,college graduate with little hope left looking for ways to push through and stay sane hi guysi graduated in may from college and ever since it has been an everyday struggle to find a decent job i have basically been unemployed since graduation i say basically because i managed to get rehired at my old parttime job but its only hours a week despite not having a job lined up after graduation which i heard was normal anyway i was still optimistic and full of life i was so motivated and pumped to finally start working and save up for an apartment etc well it is now january and i have no leads and nothing to show for i had a scheduled phone interview with a bank a few weeks ago but this person never called even after following through after the lost interview after that i just about called it quits and didnt get out of bed all day the next day i also experienced rage and almost tore my diploma in half yeah bad idea i know now though im feeling like shit day in and day out my life is utter shit because i cant find a goddamn jobsomething other than retail honestly it feels like after a certain point there will be no hope for me because by that point i would have applied to just about every company in my area and then some then fucking what what will i do im applying for positions i know for a fact im qualified for yet i cant even get a phone interview the worst part is seeing my mind wither away day inand day out scrolling clicking applying i go to the gym which helps a little bit but then i come home to the same shit hell i havent had an interview in weeks so for all i know my interviewing skills have gone down the shitter dont know what else there is for me at this point im going to a temp agency on monday to see what they can do for me but ive heard horror stories as well fuck this shit sick of screaming at the top of my lungs whenever i drive to work because i am so pissed off with my life and im sick of being rejected for positions i know im qualified for also sick of being ghosted by glorious recruiters and employers who obviously care about my time because thats only the most valuable item i have going on for me right now at least i graduated without debt or id be in a scarier situation fuck this,3.0 55624,good morning twitter ,0.0 55625,ivanfilios thank you sweetie ,0.0 55626,tommcfly helllllloooooooooooo tom gig tonight sorry im not sure when your shows are over there miss you in the uk hi hi hi hi hi xx,2.0 55627,hitttttting the hay unless someone calls ,0.0 55628,vickyhalfon thanks so much im sure your presentation will rock too also thanks for all the support during this hard week ,0.0 55629,coreyfrey cable sux anyway im all about the satellite sweet quotridequot tho ,0.0 55630, you too enjoy your birthday ,0.0 55631,circulatinglib sorry youve had such a crap day hope you have some nice wine at hand,2.0 55632,happy mothers day hug your mommas ,0.0 55633, sent ,0.0 55634,i just wanna say a big thanks to this community writing here whenever i feel like it almost without the feeling of getting judged helps a lot,3.0 55635,excelly whoa oo never heard of the brisbane oo where do you live i mean what country ,0.0 55636,drowning in tears in my dreams drowning in a lake of tears spilled over dead bodies of my family my friends and others that died because of me when i was young i thought that i will be someone that i will change the world make everything better and be the good guy but that all changed maybe i should have killed myself when i was young and that would make my dream come true because without me everything would be better my wife would be just a woman that i never met and live a happy and long life and those people that i used to call my friends would never be there it was always me i am the one that breaks the world if i kill myself now will it change anything they are dead allready and i cant change it but maybe my death will make them die in peace i take my gun and press it agains my head and slowly pull the trigger loud noise hits my ears and few miliseconds after my head shatters and covers everything with blood tears of happines are going down my face as i laugh at myself and everything is over everything ,3.0 55637,rt sushitrash mental health is so dope take care of yourself,1.0 55638,atexasattitude excellent well its all good here ,0.0 55639,landrumdh i am jealous of your shake ,2.0 55640,lunched with friend at chiyoda eel bowl was fabulousbeard papas moved out of cafe zaiya ,2.0 55641,i really need some support hey so basically ive been seeing a therapist on and off since i was nine i have been diagnosed with ocd and situational depression that psychiatrists have said could easily lead to severe chronic depression i went from being extremely social and motivated to be the best to barely finding the motivation to shower more than twice a week my parents think i am just lazy and blame the change its been about four months of this on my phone and it hurts because i really am trying but i have an extreme lack of motivation for things like my social life or school ive only realized this year that i am depressed but looking back on my childhood i believe i grew up depressed my parents dont get along at all and raised me by manipulating me with guilt and by invalidating my emotions i believe my parents are emotionally abusive bc from a young age whenever id mess up theyd guilt me by looming their deaths over my head or by isolating me from the rest of the world and putting it behind the facade of protection my parents have already turned off my phone from and they turn off the wifi at every night so i am forced to wallow in my hopelessness and they shame me for being too emotional but at this point crying is all i know my parents have always openly fought in front of me and blamed me for causing whatever they would be fighting about they sarcastically tell me how optimistic or fun to hang out with i am whenever i try to open up to them and claim i will make them depressed as an excuse to ignore my revelations they refuse to let me go on any medication and have grounded me for the next month bc i had a panic attack after the ridiculed me and threatened to go to my teachers after i opened up to them there is a huge history of substance abuse in my family and im afraid i might be going down that road i fully understand that i can be difficult but i just really need some ensight or a little motivation right now after crying also they accuse me of faking my depression for attention and lying and being grounded is my punishment for that thanks,3.0 55642,rt rachaelmbade answers by saying potus budget is doa hes right of course congress has the power of the purse https,0.0 55643,i twisted my knee and can now barely walk on it not sure what happened but it hurts fb,2.0 55644,off to work ,2.0 55645,munchkinmarcus same here feels like a have a lump to the right side of my throat but i dont its just where its sore xx,2.0 55646,wants to know where all the ben and jerries went ,2.0 55647,i hate to see tsonga frustrated like he is atm ,2.0 55648,hate seeing ants on food ,2.0 55649,working doubles on fridays leave you with much worse than a hangover the next day ,2.0 55650, hugs have you any asprin call the doctor if it gets worse,2.0 55651,invaderxan thanks markus itll take some getting used to but one thing is for sure ill be blogging like crazy acorss blogs now ,0.0 55652,thanks for all the bb twitter app suggestions ,0.0 55653,etherbrian i would have happily looked up your street view to see you dressed up as elvis too ,2.0 55654,how come everyone is having babies and i cant even get pregnant life sucks plus i cant find my car tax renewal form bugger ,2.0 55655,damn it my email keeps getting listed as spam ,2.0 55656,thenolookpass thank you ,0.0 55657,facedamuzk spill it teaser ,0.0 55658,its raining ,2.0 55659,josianna soz to hear it sweetie big hugim okif only they discovered a cure for work i would be happier ,0.0 55660, hoping to be a first to respond so your chances are good theyll respond back ,0.0 55661,how to get access to antidepressants without going broke my health insurance has a massive deductible so basically unless i am hospitalized i pay for everything i have done therapy in the past and although i learned a lot i cant afford to do regular therapy sessions my job hours have been cut because of coronavirus and having to stay in lockdown has taken a severe toll in my mental health for the first time i feel i need to do something to change because i am getting hopeless i am interested in trying ssris and have done some research but i dont know what options are available to get a prescription in an affordable manner are there any online or call in options that have affordable appointments with the option to write a prescription i know there are some therapy options but i would like to consider an rs and dont think psychotherapy alone is a reasonable option obviously i live in america which is why cost is such an important consideration thanks,3.0 55662,erbins if youd clicked my url youd know i use it too its not fantastic but its alright ,0.0 55663,teenagebvrrito every time i was sad she put on my playlist so i could roll the windows down and belt my lil heart ,2.0 55664,lil k is moving to alabama at the end of sept you need to see his recent pix hes growing up so fast saw your comments on myspacethx,2.0 55665,so glad you are still there and in better spirits ,0.0 55666,npssssss mood sad,2.0 55667,lol trivandrum mp is funny shashitharoor ,0.0 55668,tiernandouieb discreet was shells idea not mine it wasnt completely obvious it was a character amp just didnt really fit with the rest,0.0 55669,rt just gotta uzi shoulder shimmy your depression away ,1.0 55670,my stomach is effing killing and i have nothing in me to throw up ,2.0 55671,johnlegere i havent since im vegetarian and i only go to mcdonalds for fries ik its sad,2.0 55672,stevemilanese send us a link bro ,0.0 55673,rt mystylesbutera hamille broke up aw thats sad alexa play they were never together in the first place by me,2.0 55674,rt chiiivlbes mental health is a serious issue,2.0 55675, ikr i dont get why im supposed to represent moral equivalence i may be a lefty moonbat but im the last to pull that shit ,0.0 55676,i feel like i wont change the world for the better and die with nothing done i am almost years old by the way throwawaybefore reading this what im saying is ridiculous i know but i just cant help feeling this way i have for yearsi go to a school with high academic expectations and standards as such theres students in my grade that are smarter than me and by that i mean a lot i make straight as barely and have a few friends but thats about it im not recognized throughout the school as a smart person as there are only a small amount of people who recognize me my own grade plus people outside of it and those who do dont really recognize me as a smart person but just some adorable kid who doesnt really do muchi know ive only been alive for years but i havent done anything good i havent been recognized for anything nor have i done anything huge i havent had a good track record of impressive feat after impressive feat despite my friends and classmates and their good track records i dont feel like im good at anything sports science math that could possibly give me a future to which i could do anything remotely useful i want to become someone that has done something amazing and useful in their lifetime and can live the rest of it knowing theyve done good but the situation i have now makes me feel like i cant do anything like invent a thing that could further humanity understand something like quantum mechanics solve some kind of global problem climate change hunger cancer hiv diabetes etc i dont care about becoming rich or feeling like the smartest person in the world i just want to do at least something that can let me be rememberedwhat im trying to say is that i dont want to feel like this i dont want to spend every day of my life depressed that i havent done something yet i need to do something maybe i wont do it at the age of has anyone but maybe by the age of ,3.0 55677,naomiarifin yaaah too bad resto apa ituwch ini belom sampe ps hehe baru onthewayyyyz,2.0 55678,i think im meant to spend my life alone i dont want to be single sometimes its nice yeah but no matter what i tell people that im too busy with school that im focusing on my career and dont have time for a relationship etc the truth is that deep down im hurting its been this way for my whole life no one ever showed any interest in me in school ive watched friends and coworkers find partners and build lives together nearly everyone else in my life has moved on and i feel terrible i have a degree im working towards a career that should be enough but its not its like theres a void that friendships wont fill i dont know how to describe it maybe i just want to experience something i always felt was forbidden to me maybe its the fact that going home to my cat and watching netflix until i pass out is just distracting myself from the loneliness i feel i dont understand whats wrong with me im smart i graduated summa cum laude im social when i have the energy people have told me im attractive but theres just something wrong with me that must scare people off dating isnt going well either ive tried apps but almost every person i go out with i end up regretting ever speaking to thats all just needed to vent,3.0 55679,mikebeevor that is sad news i grew up reading eddings ,2.0 55680,why do all i do is annoy peopel i am so tired of feeling alone and yet whenever i talk to people i end up somehow annoying them it sucks not being able to meet new people and now even if they do like me i dont believe them,3.0 55681,ullyn missajeng haahhaha gue pulang ga bawa loohhh breadtalk doang p naksir oxford shoes d petitecupcakes pdhl ,2.0 55682,rt essentiallyliv yesterday i started a devotional plan on life with anxiety amp it said something that really stuckthis is your reminde,2.0 55683,rt philuhmena months ago today i was raped i was ashamed of my body hid my depression today i am a strong happy survivor amp l ,0.0 55684,mcgiff lol guy fawkes does make yr blood boil when so many of us struggling make ends meet ,2.0 55685,starting to feel hopeless just so done i dont know what to do anymore and i dont have anyone that can help me my thoughts get worse every day and i just keeping trying to ignore it but its becoming louder and louder to the point where i can barely even get out of bed in the morning i feel hopeless,3.0 55686,poor kimi ill console you ,0.0 55687, 😱 noch mehr 🙈😂😂 ne bei mir ist es gerade umgekehrt 🤗 hab ich ruhe und kein stress dann träume ich 🙈 httpstcoulpkstphnw,2.0 55688,must needs be upon the wings of the wind for now will drop by again later happy quality tweeting,0.0 55689,please can someone help a girl out first post on mobile please be gentle so i got caught in the cycle of stripping a couple years ago and now im truly stuck and miserable the money was great staying up to the wee hours of the morning and sleeping in late running my own schedule partyingit was a dream almost two years later im a hell of a lot more broken than i was i cant go a single shift without drinking incredibly heavily usually to numb myself from that evenings impending sexual assault i distrustam fearful of most men and i have severe body image issues as well as some fairly disordered eating habits the thing that pains me the most is that once you enter the world of sex work people truly stop caring you no longer have your humanity to most good luck with telling people how you feel nobody cares if youve been molested or raped by a client because its your own fault and going to the police is absolutely out of the question i got a regular job part time but the less time in the club the better and should hopefully be starting therapy soon but i doubt ill get any better i was broken before i started stripping and i doubt that will change i hate myself and i truly do want to die i can admit that i fucked up by thinking this was a good job choice i was naive im still a person that feels things but nobody will care if im dead and gone because im just a stupid stripper that deserves it right,3.0 55690,feeling super bad today anxiety is threatening to overwhelm me feeling awful about myself my body my lack of career i have no drive to better myself everyone is constantly on me to do something with my life but i have no idea where to even begin my ex keeps contacting me and it breaks my heart every time but i cant bring myself to cut off contact completely i want to hurt myself i want to disappear in some drinks ugh,3.0 55691,try holy cow serious sauces introductory offer in asda punch flavour into your meal tonight wwwholycowfccom ,0.0 55692,lislbr hmm not really it was sunny a couple of hrs ago but now its raining ,2.0 55693,has a headache ,2.0 55694,नका रे असे वागू भावांनोतुम्हाला गमावून मिळालेली आरक्षणाची भाकरी आम्हाला गोड नाही लागणारएकदा आपल्या आई वडिलांचा ,1.0 55695,now ill see my new dvd of mcfly and after sleepclass tomorrow xx,2.0 55696,hahahaha found my year planner jo telling me to quotbloody chillquot because of what we nicknamed the quotsheet incidentquot hahahaha x,0.0 55697,firedancertat oh no thats terrible ,2.0 55698,thetanyadenali i dont mean yourself silly i mean me tell him the pretty lauren mallory says hi ,0.0 55699,perttumurto you kicked my ass httpdiftypemybrutecom,2.0 55700,septicidal no balloons wow brandeis really is going bankrupt ,2.0 55701,where to go for help when you have no money so i have been in a pretty down state for the last couple years but this month has been a killer i recently found out that im going to be out of job in about a month this job has been good for me but it did not pay well at all im already very poor but now im going to completely screwed financially i need therapy in a bad kind of way but i cant afford it what resources would you recommend for someone with no insurance or really an money at all im open to anything at all because im very desperate for help,3.0 55702,diversity won and deserved it too only exams left d and summer is on the way,0.0 55703,i need a plan to workout ,2.0 55704,parents do my chores and then bitch at me i moved back home after a really bad downward spiral living on my own ive improved since moving back homefinished school got a job i still deal with very bad anxiety and depression my room is always a mess because i cant bring myself to clean it unless im in a good mood i sometimes wake up late and rush getting ready ill go a week or two not doing my laundry floor isnt swept etc when im gone my parents will clean it all for me which im grateful for but they always bitch about it when i get back home they call me a pig complain about how my laundry smells then embarrass me by constantly asking if i wear deodorant or complain that im lazy i just wish they understood that ill do it ill freaking do it i just cant sometimes im aware but then im not because im just stuck in my head i wish i had the energy i wish i was better at organizing myself but im not but i will do it when i feel better i will do it im sorry i really am grateful for what they do for me i just cant handle their stupid comments,3.0 55705,waiting in line with sarah this line for financial aid is insanely long ,2.0 55706,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 55707,slow net far from the router dang it,2.0 55708,oh crap transferred my licenses a while back but forgot to redownload most of my arcade titles lol no castle crashers for me ,2.0 55709,i love my dog even though he chewed up my comforter ,0.0 55710,not lookin forward to go to work ,2.0 55711,im not gwtting on twitter as much cuz im studyin for finals ,2.0 55712,missing cali and all the wonderful people i left behind ,2.0 55713,shakespearef at oclock your time its oclock my time youre sleeping and im just getting to bed this is during the school year ,0.0 55714, dculleney realdonaldtrump but nytimes washingtonpost nbcnews cbsnews abc bostonglobe ,2.0 55715,when i woke lo this am she said quotalready youve got to be kidding mequot ,0.0 55716,ruh ruh now being twitterstalked by so welcome coconutlu ,0.0 55717,thinking why cant i find someone that cares ,2.0 55718,all this shit to help i cant do go see a therapistwith what fucking money also theres none available ive called dozens for weeks i can see one for one day in months and then never again ive seen this point that way over the last year its never paid offfind the right medsmeds make it worse ive tried so many and i cant anymore ssris are garbage they only help a small percentage of those who take them the other non ssris were even worse for mefind emotional supporti have no one and no one would want to begin a new connection with someone as bitter and depressed as i amget a routinethis is impossible im a cna who works chaotic hours and shifts i have no other skills and if i take a new min wage job i can no longer afford billsgo to the gym eat a better diet become soberi did all that years ago and still do it isnt enough not even closepractice sleep hygienesee above routine issuesorry for the rant,3.0 55719,rt gryking its time to question donald trumps mental health ,1.0 55720,seriously about to cry im so done with this ,2.0 55721,im completely empty the nightmares have stopped still randomly wake up out of my sleep its one of those days where i have no will do to anything called out sick from work and now i contemplate on the best way to end it all i have no drive no motivation no energy to even continue living is exhausting and to be honest i wish i was never born ive never been truly happy ive been lying to myself coping with my problems in different ways and im tired of it all i think im done with this,3.0 55722,godzgiftworld thanks jo ,0.0 55723,i dont know im living in germany and very bad with words i dont rly have friends and a very bad relationship with my parentsfamily i even staged suicide for attention infront of my parents when i was didnt even work nothing happend i got into weed through my brother and got addicted to it at age i didnt even believe it was possible to get addicted to weed when i try to find any happy memories of my past years i fail and lately i am just confused i dont know anymore everything is equal kind of sureal and i have so many thoughst but i cant comprehend them its like a puzzle i cant solve very often im frightend and seeking comfort structure its so im dont know if the feeling would be a something else it would be a void just a nothing ,3.0 55724,talking on the phone with saaaaaammm ,0.0 55725,naturallydiesel hi ,0.0 55726,goodnight phoenix quotoh the places youll goquot menetekel geanshanks thank you for making nau so great ,0.0 55727,mcclorybrin catch up already i sent u a message ,0.0 55728,twiddledout you should give it a try sometime trust me it isnt just for quotkidsquot ,0.0 55729,is done done done done with her term paper ,0.0 55730,i dont want to get out of bed incase my head falls off good nite last night ,0.0 55731,gotta get up an walk for relayugh i dont wanaim so soreso sickcant stand itim just gonna lay here an cuddle wit ma teddy lol,0.0 55732,on board the gatwick express start wasnt fun wish me luck flying cheapo airlines ,0.0 55733,good morning ppl ,0.0 55734,cinderellahhhh dont be late theyll blame me ,2.0 55735,rt cesdepaul this workshop is a communitybased movement to train folx in deescalation techniques and protect mentally ill community mem,1.0 55736,glad the cranky rent lady was actually friendly this morning id still like to keep my rent money though ,2.0 55737,cant find love idk man theres so many reasons im alone im too ugly to be in a relationship i wish i was fit and handsome but theres no point every guy here is straight and all my efforts would be for naught everyone i know is social and outgoing i dont know how they dont shit themselves every time they go anywhere even relatively crowded im a fucking loser,3.0 55738,man i got to get up in hours wow ,2.0 55739,tikshi grrr same here chores chores n more chores ,2.0 55740,damn anxiety can be so crippling,2.0 55741,superkaylo how do you view the video player kaylo i go on the blog and it cant display the page aww im missing it ,2.0 55742,cecelyf you not aimin me ,2.0 55743,rt hoodsocialist i know she probably had a lot of people bashing her for her post but shes right amp a lot of people dont talk about thi,0.0 55744,zazabronkhorst you snooze you lose ,0.0 55745,texting with ale right now ,0.0 55746,mikejonesphoto congrats mike way to go,0.0 55747,eddieklive hope you have a great weekend mr k may god bless you with love inspiration vision amp enlightenmentmy new meaning for live ,0.0 55748,rt eqayusry hey girl if you want to hate me just hate me but dont talking rude for me its not easy for me girl im so stress in my life,1.0 55749,catching up with old friends ,0.0 55750,thinking this might be a shortandsweet coffee kinda day ,0.0 55751, mermandaskiis foools im jealous ,2.0 55752,my indentation issue is gone now and i really dont know why ,2.0 55753,leavin my stoodio love ,2.0 55754,charmainewai its a never ending process rock on,0.0 55755,need a hug ,2.0 55756,i have a constant feeling that in a year i will be gone its quite sunny right now and ive taken my antidepressants and went out everything is blooming and nature seems like its theiving i dont know if i have summer sadness but it just seems like everyone is having fun except me like im alone and thats how im gonna die ive been thinking that i have throat cancer or something i dont know im just venting here ,3.0 55757,jogged in the forest with nina heavy wind reminded i need to set up some turbines free electricity ,0.0 55758,rt shannonpurser depression sucks im in the middle of it rn i know some of you are too were going to make it,2.0 55759,em busy doing another article for our school newspaper bye for now,2.0 55760,rt antoniotejadap sevillaftjara ppteamfrancisco ruggarol es masoquismo karolsevilla ruggeropasquarelli soyluna lutt,1.0 55761,vinoaj welcome back to kl ,0.0 55762,myfabolouslife when the money goes lets make love and last time are all amazing i think classic actually might be the word for it ,0.0 55763, last episode of buffy always makes me cryy,2.0 55764,has anybody tried hypnotherapy can anybody tell me what its like did it work have tried a range of therapy cbt dbt group etc over the past few years and am on an antidepressant and beta blockers however i still suffer with panic attacks from time to time seemingly very random with no apparent trigger psychiatrists and therapists all think its a subconscious thing and i cant really make any more progress without figuring out what triggers themmy mum had it when she was my age and said it helped her but im a bit doubtful so can anyone help me out,3.0 55765,annoyed by how much she hates me ,2.0 55766,boarding my plane to phili ,0.0 55767,zandraisabelle yay glad you think so too ,0.0 55768,rowdyeh good evening its morning here ,0.0 55769,gregbosma have a good trip hope the gps guides you right ,0.0 55770,now all theres left is the rain ill just twirl my hnads in the rain while playing cinderella steve curtis chapman,2.0 55771,bored and indifferent its weird how my depression manifests itself in this permanent state of boredom and indifference i stay in bed not because im sad or anxious but because i have no desire to do anything no ambitions and no real goalsi might just be the first to litteraly die of boredomi question everything there is to life only to end up in a never ending nihilistic spiral of thoughts,3.0 55772,theyre going to replay david archuletas interview again wahoo ,0.0 55773,passage of minimum wage bill generates worker optimism employer anxiety ,1.0 55774,msalonen i cant get it to load and i wanted everyone to see my quotbette davis eyesquot remix video today boooooo,2.0 55775, i dnt knw i feel lke i shuld try,2.0 55776,k i ate it ,0.0 55777,smugness gone my train also failed to turn up so im heading for victoria followed by an unpleasant tube ride to the city ,2.0 55778,kitabet god i miss istiklal buskers but i carry their sounds in my head and on my ipod wherever i go,2.0 55779,karlcandido im going to chime haha my dad owns the pub and its closed but re opening in a month ,0.0 55780,im like a dead fish ,2.0 55781,one month ago i was the most happiest person n now ijustwannadie ,2.0 55782,my hr shift turned to blehwhat to do now,2.0 55783,i feel it creeping back when i got out months ago it was absolutely amazing everything in my life is absolutely amazing yeah maybe i dont have the best grades and didnt get accepted into my first or second or any colleges i wanted to go to because before that months was years of doing nothing and barely passing but thats fucking irrelevant because i feel amazing my friends though i always have to start the conversation and i always have to try and try and try so hard to be friends with them and every good morning text and how was your day snapchat gets ignored every single day well the read mins ago are kind of getting to me real bad when your only friends you have and love with all your heart openly make plans without you right in front of you or poke at your insecurities and you just suck it up because you love them it sucks dude love everyone is what ive learned but its so fucking hard dude no i dont want new friends mine just suck i guessi saw one of my closest friends walking home i call then from my car while in driving to see if they want a ride do you know how bad it feels to see your supposed best friend look at their phone for half a second and use the rest of that second to decline a call from you and next thing you know your just staring at them from your car and you have to slow down and turn do they dont see you already in the lane to pick them up like that sucks well anyways i know its been there ever since i got out right below that barriar of feel good music and my cat just waiting for me to look at it and give in and truthfully im about to,3.0 55784,how are you guys hey i just join and i think you may give me a nice welcome i guess,3.0 55785,trying to learn for the exsam tomorrow i think we�ll fck up,2.0 55786,erinjshea thanks you do happen to rock too ya know ,0.0 55787,just got home taking a nice long nap ,0.0 55788,alexalltimelow btw my mom likes you guys just not the swearing shows hahahah amp i think she likes the new stuff i know i do ,0.0 55789, it didnt make any sense to me the suicide thing i refuse to believe that that is actually what happened ,2.0 55790,what are you restrictedbarred from after being diagnosed with depression im thinking about getting diagnosed but im scared of what i might be bannedrestricted from doing in the futuredoes anyone have any information on this,3.0 55791,oh shit drake just blazed the stage goodnight u the best baby ,0.0 55792,drearyclocks yes i will pay you back and yes to well connected wendy will not be coming though ,2.0 55793, i wanna go out some more ,2.0 55794,having really bad back problems today ,2.0 55795,emmerblue yes it is the panthers i want to connect with sadly alumtweet doesnt recognize middle schools ,2.0 55796,story about me age may height weight information that will be useful for the written belowwhy did this happen i ask what happened on that cursed of january when i became sick in stomach its just a flu or a virus i said to myself but that flu never got better sickness only got worse in public why am i suddenly getting attacks of extreme sickness and wanting to run away its probably still from a flu thats what doctor said full month passed and nothing got better decided to get help you have anxiety disorder which is triggering panic attacks they told me thats just the beginning of everything that followed till nowmonths passed with only that sickness in my stomach and panic attacks that lasted my whole day in school school year is over great lets relax a bit and everything will be fine next year i gained a lot of weight i suffer from anorexia and been underweight my whole life and it was the first time i got near on height which i was a big plus it can only get up from here right well thats what i thoughtseptember came i managed to go to school for days until i broke down i was accepted into hospital a lot happened just few days ago with someone i met in hospital but i wont go into the detail with itgreat it worked i went to school again for less than a month in november i went to school times and in december once i already failed math thanks to the teacher in november and i didnt have energy to study it was beginning of the december when i broke down i said i want to commit suicide i dont want to live anymore thats when the depression started suicide wish just got stronger everyday to the point where i was scared to be alone it got better and worse for past months but its really getting bad for few days now in dreams it haunts me every so and then i want to cry and end it someone i could count on basically left me person i met in hospital i mentioned earlieri dont know what to do anymore i just want to cry and overdose on something ive never been drunk or high in my life and i dont want to do it but the wish of actually doing it is getting stronger and stronger there werent a lot of people i told this im even scared of telling this to my therapist i dont want to tell my parents but they will find out sooner or later due to the report you get after every few sessions at the therapist medicine i take· antidepressants of citalopram· antipsychotic of quetiapine,3.0 55797,bluelint ive been ok thanks actually this time of year is usually pretty slow for us we need work,2.0 55798,bom dia good morning ,0.0 55799,omg topshop knee high gladiator boots for £ life would be complete if only i wasnt broke ,2.0 55800,stupid effin computer is not letting me put new song on my ipod ,2.0 55801, whats wrong ,2.0 55802,im and have an imaginary friend it helps me not to feel lonely i also drink a lot like right now im gonna down almost a whole box of wine and pretend someone loves me ive had suicide attempts two requiring hospitals i am also stuck in the house ,3.0 55803,i want to watch nick and norah wiff my bb ,2.0 55804,dougiemcfly i loved the show in rio quotthis is a great way to be noticedquot remember this haha about my shiny mickey mouse hat ,0.0 55805,moonflowerchild haha thanks sweetpea ,0.0 55806,at home done with quantsonly acc left,0.0 55807,bored shitless cant move sooo sore tho sports day was brill ,0.0 55808,rafa lost feeling sad gonna miss the pink yellow clothes terribly,2.0 55809,blah blah blah i think i might look over my viscom sheat soon ,0.0 55810,i dont like it when indian cashier dudes hit on me ,2.0 55811,rt hannahssyy as a psych major im frustrated at the stigma against wanting attention all humans need attention in fact its the lack,2.0 55812,looking at old pictures i love it amp miss the good ol days ,2.0 55813,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 55814,and now i see my life as the banal slog it has instantly become tame impalas past life it resonated with me so much i started to tear up im often happy and have good days but my life seems to have general theme of uneasiness like this is it work home work home work etc it would probably improve if i got a job in what i actually went to college for in engineering design amp drafting but finding one and wading through the x years experience required and other bullshit submitting all the resumes and then getting maybe one interview in which they appreciate my interest but move on with more qualified candidates would fuck me up even more my friends and family so i could be doing so much more with my life in a nice way im really passionate about science and philosophy but despite many attempts ive failed make use of that so far to pay the bills doing something i love it would seem i have all of the ideas none of the motivation can tell you the distance to alpha centauri offhand but not consistently get up on time for work in fast food what the fucki suppose it may just be the scientistphilosopher curse always trying to think up solutions to inexplicable problems when i should just try to make the most of my life instead i more or less drag myself through most the time just waiting to be off work and waiting for the weekend then dreading the week even though its really not that bad i have friends there and the majority of the people in the world have it worse than me and yet im just sloggin my way through day after daythat said i am grateful to have loving friends and experiences to create good memories i think the problem is mostly internal and comes in waves the majority of the time i dont feel depressed although theres always an undercurrent of uneasiness like is this it i was brought into existence for this also i am trying to better my mental health and circumstances with mindfulness meditation and i was trying the wim hof method well see how it goes anyways wishing you good sleep and peace of mind all the best,3.0 55815, italia i want to go back ,2.0 55816,gingerswan umm how am i supposed to get spankransom to like me ,2.0 55817,you guys dont have seasonal affective disorder sadyou dont get to pick what type of depression u have bc th ,2.0 55818,got the sims and no computer to play it on httpwwwhowitendstv,2.0 55819,repeating experiences i dont want to sound negative and usually im the happy go lucky kind of girl but i cannot help but feel like if theres a strange aura around me that people are aware of but im not ill give you an example of an experience that had repeated itself a few times ill make it very short i had people cancel our planned holiday a few times and cant help but wonder why sure there were different reasons but now i feel so extremely anxious about any planned trips that i cannot trust anyone at all anymore first time happened with a long distance bf who broke up i had to cancel the flight it was hard but it was ok time was a few years later another ldr who used to live here but moved away who told me to cancel the flight i couldnt handle it and we talked and ended up just postponing the flight i couldnt handle that it would happen again the relationship went on for another and ended because he had severe mental issues as well as commitment issues reason why we had so many problems that he just couldnt overcome during the relationship he had promised many times to come see me and ended up cancelling his flight last minute oh almost forgot about a friend i planned to go on holiday with this time i cancelled last minute because she hurt my feelings i cut her off another holiday with another friend she cancelled because she got pregnant and wasnt able to flyi never wanted to feel like that about myself but when things repeat themselves you cant help but wonder why and if its you its different scenarios different reasons but its like something keeps me from travelling the ironic thing is that im usually very positive and happy most of the time and people do like me actually i am even a people magnet when i first meet thembut its like close friendships or relationships are so hard i cut people off easily when they disappoint me and in a relationship i refuse to „give it up and end up getting hurt like i dont even know whats im doing right or wrong anymore,3.0 55820, no im not are you i kind of wish i was going now lots of people id love to meet up with are youre doing so great with,2.0 55821,one question sorry for the length what do you dohow should you think when you key word gt believe that you almost completely understand your depression by that i mean for me personally that i understand that im depressed and there may be more underlying issues that i fail to recognize yet i actively choose to do nothing about it it might be is also important to know that ive never been professionally diagnosed with depression nonetheless i still know which steps i need to take to get better i also know that a lot of things just take time to come to terms with im very aware of how i can get better and even so i consciously choose to do nothing in fact i pretty much play into it on purpose ive become addicted to it in a sense i lay in bed for at the very least hours a day and succumb to at least of my negative thoughts i know that lack of motivation is a symptom of depression and ive overcome it in the past its been rearing its ugly head again but this time i just choose to pick my battles with it it wins almost every time i realize there are a lot of details ive refrained from sharing that would help you understand my situation but for me i feel its unimportant when it comes to dealing with these thoughts inside your own head regardless of any one persons situation in life its more than possible to succumb to these feelings were all human which inadvertently leads me to a transition ive been struggling to make in regards to myself which is that i love life i love how unexpected life is and i love the nature of living and everything that this world has to offer yet for some reason of the time i dont want to be here ive been thinking about death and dying every day for the past month or two no concrete plans to do so but its still been on my mind so i guess thats why i ask my original question and in addition to that question ill ask one more what keeps you alive aside from answers like family and friends what is the selfish reason you keep yourself heresorry for the length and if you took the time to read it all i truly appreciate you thank you for listening,3.0 55822,help im not feeling too great today i am struggling so so hard i want to cry and sleep but i cant i have stuff to do and a day to get through its so sad that all thoughts lead to suicide and that it would be the easiest way to cope with things how does that even make sense i know ill sweep all of this under the rug and that tomorrow will come and i wont be as down but today is a massive step backwards im not sure how to cope or what to say or think or do or type how do people get out of their lowest lows i dont want to give up ,3.0 55823,nancy que tienes ,2.0 55824,mileycyrus i made this for you i hope you like it ,0.0 55825,rt joelnobis check out liveunshaken a page dedicated to addressing depression and anxiety and sharing the hope found in christ,1.0 55826,and still anxiety silent toothless,1.0 55827,oh no more babysitting i love how she springs this on me in the morning so i cant object to it ,2.0 55828,doctorpancreas am mobile cant read the text in that comic ,2.0 55829,clintcatalyst thank you so much for the follow friday tweet ,0.0 55830,mistahfab sooooo rmx comin fareal huh ,0.0 55831,anniedafg lol well thats good laughing is fun haha,0.0 55832,no flour now im hungry and depressed,2.0 55833,please give me advice im losing myself im at a loss i feel like im falling aparti suspect i have had depression for years i had a somewhat traumatic childhood that i never dealt with i was apathetic for all of my highscool years i made some friends but always lost contact got a boyfriend who i loved so much but he cheated on me he also groomed mei was he at age i finally moved out with my friend to pursue a higher education had a new boyfriend also ended up failing to come to class because of insomnia and depression from my new roomie bullying me for my physical apperance and my new boyfriend cheating on me with a much older woman and i felt out of place in my class with year olds i moved back home stopped being friends with my roomie and dropped my bfnow i live alone with my brother who is lovely but innocent i have two jobs that i dont care about but want to care about i cant even care and consentrate enough to remember my new coworkers names i have some debt no support system or friends close and an absolutely shattered self esteem i have become apathetic i have a cool new job oppertunity taking care of cute kids everyday but im apathetic my family loves me and support me but im apathetic im young fit and get told im pretty often i still feel like an ugly ogre who doesnt deserve love and needs plastic surgery to look not even just good but normal what do i do how can i kick my ass down to find a decent shrink i can barely manage to be at work without obsessivly thinking about how weird and ugly i look how far behind i am how ungrateful i am how horrible my personality is how utterly broken my mind is please someone how do i cope how do i make new friends how do i get out of this horrible rutsorry for the rant,3.0 55834,oh dear hangover time far too much to drink of everything last night was a good night though ,0.0 55835,my so suffers from severe anxiety and depression and i dont know what to do i dont even know where to begin my so and i have been together for about months now we are in a long distance relationship but try to take trips out to see each other as often as possible and life will let us she opened up to me early on in the relationship about her depression and i have always done by best to lend an ear support her and be there for her when she isnt feeling well however as of recently it has gotten really severe and i am lost for an answer on what do to she has selfharmed the past couple nights and keeps telling me how much she wants to die and begging me to break up with her so she has an excuse to end it and it hurts it hurts hearing those things seeing her in pain and not knowing what to do at all i have tried getting her to calm down telling her everything is going to be okay reminding her of things to live for and look forward to and just being there for her so shes never goes through it alone but she pushes me out so much she denies my attempts to help her now she tells me she doesnt want to be helped she doesnt want to help herself and i dont know how to get her to do so or convince her all she tells me now is how much she wants to die she says cruel things to me when all i am trying to do is support her i am bawling my eyes out as i write this because i am so lost for an answer and i dont know what to do anymore to help she takes meds seeks therapy and has people there who care but even that just isnt enough she still wants to die nothing seems worth it and i cant convince her otherwise no matter how hard i try she just shuts me down she is in a very very dark place please if anyone out there has been in a similar place or known a friend maybe in a similar scenario this is my cry for help begging for an answer on how to reach her ,3.0 55836,i just dont even know i dont even know what im feeling out of times but i do know that i have mixed emotions when it comes to life i want to succeed with my school and life in general but i also just want to die or atleast be able to go invisible to othersschool just gives me extra stress and love isnt exactly helping either i dont know what to do as it is getting worse and worse for especially the last yearone moment im happy or atleast appear to be happy to others and all of a sudden i can just colapse and want to die ,3.0 55837,ill show u the best version of me after i can get rid of this damn depression,1.0 55838,is finally catching her connecting flight to athens wishing alcioneg and gabyf were here ,2.0 55839,i dont want to feel like baggage i want to open up to someone i want to but i just dont wanna ruin their day im not that important im afraid theyll hate me if i keep complaining i hate it why couldnt i be normal,3.0 55840,suicidal thoughts eating me up i tried to commit suicide a year ago i didnt get an aha i can appreciate life now moment perhaps i didnt come close enough to death for that i was just put in the er then the mental hospital i felt worse and pathetic and then figured ill do it properly next timeeveryday i think about ways to kill myself nonsensical ways and possible ways its blurring the lines of what ill do and wont do i told my boyfriend he worries but there isnt much he can do i only told him im unsure of myself im confused living in this haze having sharp emotional pain spurts daily i dont even fucking know what they are myself it is ideal for me im alive purely for others its eating me up i dont trust myself im in this haze i feel fragile like anything can tip me over and it becomes impulsive its frustrating,3.0 55841,shooting yourself in the foot ever realize you cant feel anything and then shout yourself in the foot just so that you feel something but then realized the pain in your foot is worse than feeling nothing and the worst part is you cant unshoot yourself,3.0 55842,dannywood com out come out wherever you are i need my danny fix please,0.0 55843,im really about to kill myself thats what my friend just said i dont know what to say to them aside from the usual comforts dont do this i promise itll be okay you dont want to die you just want the pain to stop dont let temporary pain lead to a permanent choicebut none of that will help im sure so my question is has there ever been something someone has said to you that has helped ease your personal thoughts of suicide,3.0 55844,spiderrobotpig tgurlsammy it is my depression goes away when im like that,1.0 55845,i hate winter having fibromyalgia cold makes my joints hurt to the point of contemplating suicideim so sick of just sitting in front of the fireplace and trying to stay warm burning every peice of trash i can get my hands on i long for summer warmth and walks outside free of pain,3.0 55846,mouse is gayy ,2.0 55847,run it with vmware video contest looks cool think i might enter ,0.0 55848,i dont know im so confused ,2.0 55849,botdfmusic aw im sorryy i hope it gets better ily,2.0 55850,professorbeej oh and i reactivated my wow acct too partially thanks to your frequent mentions of it goodbye life ,2.0 55851,i feel like a complete tool i am a if i can put it like that pretty gentle and helpful person however i have a problem no is a word which seems to be lost to me i cant deny any favor or plea even if the person ist not very nice to me at all i just seem to be that kind of person and that seems to be common knowledgethat is a severe problem for me because it cuts into my free time and sometimes into my moneysavingsand then ists usually back to ignoring me until they have something im useful for its effing drainingi feel like i am a damn tool being user by everyone even by most of the ones that call themselves my friendsmy feelings are never considered and im tired,3.0 55852,i just want to give up completely i dont want anyone in my life i dont want to feel anything i dont want to fool myself into believing that im to some degree of a priority or importance to anyone i dont want to force or guilt trip my way into anyones life i dont want to try to convince myself that im desirable in any way because im not im fat ugly boring and not that fun to be around im an idiot for trying to convince myself otherwise i dont like where i am at in this world i want to be someones everything im average or below average at best im a year old fool wanting a partner in crime for new experiences i fail at friendships i fail at relationships nothing has that deep rewarding feeling i lack feeling connected or bonded to anyone and i dont really know of anyone that cares to share that desire with me im a fly on the wall even when i have tried to be otherwise i feel defeated and lonely i feel like nothing other than a servant to the world im a loser,3.0 55853,annleewai much unlike my poor zeddy ,2.0 55854,watchin amp park still waiting on that fried chicken ,0.0 55855,drivin to church its so gloomy today,0.0 55856, first know the difference between your and youre then come at me with that bs that im jealous and sad 😘,2.0 55857,squashblossom flowers too i kill everything quottag alongquot try to grow stuff to and ask for your guidance or see your set up ,0.0 55858,snaglepus why you rnt using tweetie something about the requests limit really fail ,2.0 55859,i got rope burns on the mile hike and a major headache ,2.0 55860,revising at least its raining,2.0 55861,oyxul usually when anyone pours their heart out its not cause youre supposed to solve anything but cause they ne ,1.0 55862,apparently went it comes to quotsignsquot im pretty much absentignorantindifferent fail,2.0 55863,jamesahart yeah if only the compiler would let you have initializer syntax anywhere but an initializer ie an actionlttgt,2.0 55864,no reason for the last years i have felt horrible waking up feeling i am too tired of everything and just wish i would be hit by a truck on my way to work strange thing is that i have no reason to feel like that i have the best people around me and a loving family job that is ok and a decent salary but then again the dark cloud seems to follow me everywhere i go even when im temporarily having ok time am i influenced by social media music movies etc am i too sensitive to all the negative stuff that you see on the internet does it really control my mind even though i have so much good in my lifeim tired of wondering those things and i feel that all the good is disappearing slowly from me and the bad feelings are just getting stronger ,3.0 55865,i dont care about anything so i dont do anything i feel like doing something five minutes later i dont feel like id enjoy it anymore so i dont do anything im bored as shit and the cycle repeats i miss enjoying life any of it,3.0 55866,peanut butter on bread will have to do for now ,2.0 55867,i really want to build up the courage to kill myself i stopped talking to my mom recently after i told her about my suicidal thoughts she got upset and i told her the only reason i didnt kill myself yet is because of her she treated it like it was nothing so now im going to kill myself i cant find the courage to just do it and i dont have any pills my only option is to slit my wrist or drown myself but im too afraid ,3.0 55868,caitlinjstasey well goodnight amp welcome to twitter ,0.0 55869,natalanihawaii why you are just havent gotten to of the way yet ,0.0 55870,bleh awake wait hours for the alarm to go off not a good start to the day ,2.0 55871,the bf sleeping on one side and the dog on the other saturday night didnt pan out as planned ,2.0 55872,its been one year since the all time low concert i miss it ,2.0 55873,i really hated my cat today poptwiz do i keep a potentially dangerous and aggressive cat but he is so awesome most of the time blah,2.0 55874,plannin a trip up southend wid da gyaliesshud b bre jkes hpefully da weather stays nice,0.0 55875,bff got mad now everyone is in a bad mood ,2.0 55876,lostininaka oops you also ,2.0 55877, i threw my teddy against the wall a couple of times i feel better but i dont think she does ,2.0 55878,farrrk trains arent running to melbourne on saturday gonna have to hit up the ol busity bus or else no all time low o,2.0 55879,lisaveronica hey thnx accpeting me on bebo ,0.0 55880,presentsknits i know right how do you screw that up but i pretty much have to wait for it to come in now and suffer ,2.0 55881,juss got home from work words cnt explain how tired i am and i bet when i get in my bed i wont b able to sleep smh ugh ,2.0 55882,im so sadddddddddddd that i wont be in vegas with and this weekend im jealous take me in spirit ,2.0 55883,there were crazy lightning storms here last night maybe no tennis class again today ,2.0 55884,learning ,2.0 55885,hand spinner tri fidget stress reducer adhd anxiety desk toy edc metal ball via ebay ,2.0 55886,theres a part of me that i dont know whats wrong with im musician and a full time teacher ive had bouts with severe depression and a few times of darkness my sister died of an overdose when i was then my father passed away when i was i prevailed and went through school traveled the country and the world graduated college but now i feel as though something isnt happy inside of me it might be loneliness grief pain or feeling lost theres one instance where i was suicidal long story short i think scared a lot of people that were close to me i think they wont talk to me because of that i know what makes me happy and what makes me feel good i try to do all of those things but lately it hasnt had any effect ,3.0 55887,sbjet i know one of these days im going to get to speak to you even if i have to move here to do it hrhappyhour,2.0 55888,just ate a prime rib dinner fo free thanks to her wonderful uncle ,0.0 55889,sigh even portland is not as much fun if one has given up eating and drinking to excess ,2.0 55890,cairns hospital has worst record in queensland for escaped mental health patients ,2.0 55891,had a greatwonderful day on with aunty siblings amp lil cousin ,0.0 55892,i just want a friend that truly cares because of abuse in my family and because of people who take me for granted or hate me i just want true affection i just want to be loved without fakeness and hypocrisy to be accepted just the way i ami feel so lonely right now with nmom in this house not romantically,3.0 55893,this is retarded ,2.0 55894,back from camp regaining sanity for school tomorrow ,2.0 55895,courtneyxamanda get followers a day using wwwtweeterfollowcom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 55896,schools over for the day and one sleep till my birthday im getting so old ,2.0 55897,my shoulder is giving me lots of grief i think it is the way i sleep ,2.0 55898,rt feelingfisky when i drink coffee to be more productive but it just spikes my anxiety instead ,0.0 55899,the original trio is back going out in morgantown super excited ,0.0 55900,okay my last ever exam is in two hours and it is by far the most difficult one totally underestimated it nervous breakdown happening ,2.0 55901,crap day is raining stupid english weather ,2.0 55902,rt rayavlogs anxiety everyones talking shit about youme nonsense everyone is focused on themselves theyre not thinking about mede,2.0 55903,tom dont talk with me im bad ,2.0 55904,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 55905,so confused about everything i know god is in control tho,2.0 55906,beilaqsodmq ayee watcha up to ,0.0 55907,im god and if you dont believe me youre the devil amp i forgive you peace love amp divercity wwwdivercitycampcom church,0.0 55908,idealbite hey part of the link is missing ,2.0 55909,mayanorton woohoo good to have you back ,0.0 55910,its fake and im lazy i hate the way i act ive been lying to my friend and myself she thinks i have depression and ive done nothing to stop her from thinking that she wants me to see a therapist but i know that as soon as its over the therapist will confirm what i already know i dont have depression i dont have anxiety im just a whiny little btch thats too lazy to get thin or deal with his own problems so he finds anything else to blame his problems on except himself i just force myself to get sad because if i think if i did have depression i would be sad right now the only reason im typing this here is that im looking for another excuse to say maybe i do have depression im looking for someone who will comment and relieve me of taking responsibility for myself and i dont know how to stop myself,3.0 55911,i cant even eat anymore have you ever felt like this its like there is a huge stone on my chest and in my belly it really hurts i can feel how my heart clenches i also cant eat anything at the moment i dont know how to describe this feeling any further but i wondered if anyone of you has ever felt this ,3.0 55912,bigfug drinking snake really gets your yang up ,0.0 55913,laurabligh im really liking this year most ppl seen to be over bb now ,2.0 55914, i watched it unfortunately my email wasnt read out oh well mayb nxt time xx,2.0 55915,ischafer hello ishquez said you had an extra tix to brand exposure tomorrow is it still available ,0.0 55916,woot james marsters tomorrow gonna be totally kick ass ,0.0 55917,paigeiam ok i just wasnt ready to show everybody yet my hormone pills really do seem to be doing the trick though ,0.0 55918,i feel like my end is coming trigger warning mention of suicide hey guys i dont know where to turn i made a new reddit so no one re my boyfriend irl can read how im feeling and tell someone because i have a lot of people worried about me this might be long and idek if anyones gonna read it i just need to talk to someone yes i go to counseling for anxiety amp depression possibly ptsd but i wasnt formally diagnosed just given meds for my nightmares amp insomnia amp given meds i was doing good for about a month then i started feeling everything get bad again then everything just took a turn for the worst the past few days it started with the suicidal thoughts coming back im passively suicidal in a way that i wont kill myself but ill wish for other things to kill me ie car crash natural causes etc then i started getting irritable and sleeping a lot more then two days ago i realized i have no idea who i am i dont feel like the person i was or the person im supposed to be im just completely lost so i dont look in the mirrors today i had a minor disagreement with my bf note hes been hella supportive amp loving throughout this whole ordeal he just wants me to get better and i decided instead of blowing up on him over nothing id take our puppy for a walk so mins later i come back amp everything is fine but then i just lost it i started having a panic attack and i collapsed to the floor while my bf rubbed my shoulders and reminded me to breathe it only lasted about minute but it felt like years thats when i realizedi dont have much time left i truly believe this if i cannot get the help i need then i might finally take my life im a nursing major so school is really stressful but its my dream so im passionate what affects me the most is how my mental health makes school even harder my gpa is a now and i thought id be able to do better this semester but the medication isnt helping anymore and i just dont know wtf to do im not scared i welcome death im just scared of what comes after this is the irrational part of me typing now the rational part is scared im going to end up killing myself i dont want to die but i do i have hopes amp dreams but i donti dont know who i am i dont know what i want in life i dont even know what kind of music i like im so lost i dont want to talk to anyone except my therapist irl but im only seeing her bi weekly now and wont see her for more days so i need help just words of advice or even an upvote to let me know someone read this i just dont know anymore please help me ,3.0 55919,so as of todayim quotemployedquot by youtube p i made itim a youtube partner thank you everyone for the help and support ,0.0 55920,i love my bf but i think im about to smother him with this pillow i think thatd wake him up ,0.0 55921,richardgable yeah its called my secret call girl life by you lol im sizzling man oh no daylight breaking through pah,0.0 55922,what can i do while im off work i suffer with depression and anxiety and lately ive been having a really hard time i was advised to take this week off work which im doing and i would love some advice on things i can do during the days and nights because thats when i often get the most depressed to enjoy my time and feel refreshed after the week my husband is at work so im by myself pretty much all day and just need suggestions on things to do that will keep my mind occupied and hopefully lift my mood thanks so much in advance ,3.0 55923,probably not the best idea to be studying anatomy on my cat hes a tad different from a human and hes not too happy to be poked ouch ,2.0 55924,rt hobivert why u sad ,2.0 55925,what a horrible effect loss of smell the users of zicam have ,2.0 55926,advice how can i be a better listenersupporter to a loved one going through depression what am i supposed to say other than the same old tired cliches it gets better this is temporary how can i manage my own depression severe w psychosis until i can get back on therapy and meds im really overwhelmed im sorry if this was the wrong sub to post,3.0 55927,jessicagottlieb im working now too ,0.0 55928,saw gokwan yesterrday y in gloucester quays x,0.0 55929,jamesandsons damn it its my mums the day after and id totally forgotten thanks ,0.0 55930,spring break is over i dont feel like fixing my hair today,2.0 55931,rt noturmcm me wow im actually starting to feel happy again my depression ,0.0 55932,mizfitonline have a great rest of the day ,0.0 55933,im following every single main character from lost no not the actorsactresses the fictional characters does that make me a nerd ,0.0 55934,just a vent i dont know what it is anymore around my birthday for the last two years ive felt this feeling last year and this year have been bad i quit my job and in a way dropped out of college even i though i still attempt to do my work i rarely show up to any of my classes i dont want to feel like a failure but i continue to fall down the path of failure i feel like a burden to my girlfriend because i want to feel better and i dont want her to think any of it is because of her in a way i want to leave before she realizes she has no reason to continue loving me but i cant leave first im her first ever boyfriend and i know it would hurt her so much if i ended things with her its just strange that at the age of im still fighting this illness i keep telling myself i wont fall back into wether its the sleeping hours in a day or being up all night i feel like im in a constant struggle i feel ok but i know im not ok and i dont know why,3.0 55935,kahilibites thats exciting all im going to do over summer is sit around d when are you betting back i want to hang out with you,0.0 55936,morning all just a quick one before i shoot offshopping for birthday treats with my little sister todayvery excited to be in days ,0.0 55937,chrisclarkson thats not james thats the wierd dwarf dude from the james bond filmsoh it is him,2.0 55938,its over time to play,0.0 55939,i do not wish to go back to the depression stage plz,0.0 55940,im still here in the officeand the sun is shining ,2.0 55941,is watching a movie with jamie amp sam ,0.0 55942,laraduckytay omg your done packing days nooooooo ok so we have to meet,2.0 55943,rt awonderdj anxiety is a helluva drug,1.0 55944,weds already weve broken the back of the week all downhill from here heres hoping ,0.0 55945,i am happy with ,0.0 55946,omg been breathing in second hand smoke all night ugh but fremont street was cool souvenir shopping more days in vegas,0.0 55947,its hard to get out of bed in the morning i guess thats what it all comes down to its very hard to motivate myself to get out of bed i wasnt always like this not that i was ever a golucky morning person but i could get up without feeling empty or sad i dont have a diagnosis or anything and im seeing a therapist so maybe these feelings will pass but this is the worst its ever been for sure ive been thinking about suicide a lot im not going to act on those thoughts because im too big a coward and i dont want to hurt my family that way but if i didnt have to worry about that i think id probably do it i feel so lost,3.0 55948,anxiety and peggy,2.0 55949,i feel that i dont have any dreams to live for sorry for the bad englishi am i grew up loving astronomy and last year a began studying physics at university i was living my dream and for one or two months i finally remember what was like to live without depression but it wont last longer i failed on almost every single exam i got sicker tham ever and the only reason a dont try to end this all was my girlfriend my parents keep putting pression on me saying that i have to do better but i cant every time i try to study i have anxiety attacksi used to have a clear image of what my future was going to be but now i cant think of anything i dont know if i shoud try one more semester or do anything else i really dont know what to do,3.0 55950,try it often httpstcojoimsmbyns,1.0 55951,cant fall asleep ,2.0 55952,im here got here pretty much on time just not had the energy to go online until now its not free either ,2.0 55953,lost in thoughts i spend most of the day wasting time not being able to get up of bed doing absolutely nothing but one thing just think ing thoughts of all kind pass through my mind mostly hopeless although i keep going to school i feel as if i didnt im locked up in bad thoughts i dont even remember last time i had an optimistic one im so lost,3.0 55954,🤧im so sad i cant go,2.0 55955,i am craving sushi its sushiday,2.0 55956,andreamariexoxo aww ok then go for it ,0.0 55957,rt princesshani angeltorixoxo efdp assoffical rtfindom womenruleonly rtpup rtjackass wow thats fucking sad lmao 😭,2.0 55958,just had the loveliest phone message from a student makes me really appreciate how much i love my job ,0.0 55959,stevepizzati lol u lost to waz the shame must be unbearable but its ok ur still my fave ,0.0 55960,dont make me go to work tomorrow not good ,2.0 55961,albertovill que sad amigo,2.0 55962,i dont want to exist anymore i dont want to do anything im a fucking heroin addict who has no skill and has nothing to offer the world im just a parasite im about to be and fuck that i dont want to do anything at all i just want to be unconscious hence why i love heroin fuck living lol i dont want to do this anymore man like why im headed no where its done my life is done everything is done i dont feel like moving or going to work i dont want to live this life at all im headed no where fast very fast ,3.0 55963, christ not what i want to see first thing in the morning or indeed ever ,2.0 55964,at the high line watching them plant new sproutlings ankle throbbing ,2.0 55965,grrr didnt catch masterchef tonight ,2.0 55966,singing w my baby thepianojeanius he makes beautiful musique ,0.0 55967,tommcfly nah had my sweets taken away though my poor ears hurt like hell the whole flight ,2.0 55968,uploading my photos i took to flickr ,0.0 55969, its working great on my phone ,2.0 55970, happy today ,0.0 55971,rt my best friend dont even act like my best friend anymore lol shit sad,0.0 55972,acostumbro a escuchar sad songs por así incrementa mis deseos de huir,2.0 55973,brandonsmithceo happy birthday brandonsmithceo have an awesome birthday ,0.0 55974,i feel unsafe at home i feel really uncomfortable being home like idk im starting to lock my door at night and just sharing a room with my sibling is starting to make me feel uneasy i dream of slamming my head against my wall and dying or other times ive been so paranoid going to sleep that i think my sibling is behind me about to kill me but they arent even there i think a lot of this comes from denying my own feelings and my family making me feel like i shouldnt be feeling what i feel so i just push it all back but its just starting to surface i try not to think about it but i cant help it anymore i dont know how to face it and i cant control it anymore if i open up about it to anyone in my family i think my parents and my siblings would get violent because they have in the past my emotions are getting out of hand and i wanna talk to my teachers so badly about it but i know if i do they might have to report it and thats my worst fear,3.0 55975,depressed stay at home mom im year old female who is a stay at home mom my husband works away from home half the month and my career and identity have taken the back seat to his although i know he does everything for us i never asked for this when i met him i worked and had my own things but when i became pregnant i got put on bed rest and became dependent theres about a thousand reasons why me going back to work just wont work for a while anyways i also moved away from my adoptive family and friends his family is not supportive and my family is an hour away i took my biological brother in for a few years and a year after he moved out and got a girlfriend he calls me miserable and a victim after i texted to tell him i missed him theres a lot more to this story this happened today and made me cry im one year older than him but i have to be his parent due to the fact my bio dad is dead and my bio mom is unhealthy im always guarded around him because i feel the resentment he has towards women my mother was abusivei have never been a victim my entire life im emotional and soft hearted yes i love everyone so fucking deeply it hurts i give people four million chances ive been through hell my entire life and always believed it was meant for some reason due to my religion at the time i believed that when i grew up it would magically be better some things are better i have a beautiful family a beautiful home and car those things should make me completely happy but most days im not im lonely im isolated im sad and i have no hope my kids keep me going and i put on a smile and do the best i can i kept trying to bring my biological family back around because i miss them and they continue to rip me apart which makes me feel worthless but again im lonely and want to feel some sort of connection with someone i thought my biological brother was different im trying to better about cutting my biological siblings off i have a shit ton im the only one who got adopted as a teenager and who has an education i feel guilty for this i live in the bible belt and dont believe in religion hard to make friends when my beliefs offend people most people want me to go to churchi wish i was happy in my marriage happy with my circumstances but im not i dont want to be a victim and it hurt so bad when my brother said that to me after i took him in and helped him out of his depression i just felt so unseen and unloved by him he never once asked me what i go through or if i was okay he just hates women and thinks the man is always right he said so many mean things to me and i couldnt even argue because it hurt me so bad i just blocked him all i could tell him is he didnt know what it was like to be a full time parent and wife whos alone pretty much like always i wasnt always like this even writing this makes me cringe because i feel like im proving my brothers point my biological family has this affect on me that just kills my soul and makes me want to die like im a worthless person who is terrible i cant stop crying and im still proving him right that im a miserable victim all i have ever wanted was to be close to all of my family and to be there for each other but it seems like when they get what they want they move on and take a piece of me with them i dread saying this but i feel i will never be understood for the love i have and i feel life has no purpose besides me being the kids mom at the same time i feel that all of my feelings are invalid and so is my depression im going to post this anyways because i have nothing to lose anymore and im going to hope that someone will help me feel better ,3.0 55976,failing school anyone have any advice on school i have so much anxiety about even doing homework i feel like ive had horrible interactions with proffesors who offer me zero support or understanding i feel like i am in such a dark place and i dont know what to do about it i need to finish school but my fear stops me every time and i feel so lost and like i am wasting so much timemoney i am already in my fifth year of school and i am so scared i wont even finish this year ,3.0 55977,thenewbnb yep you shoud ask crazytwism crucifire brainstuck amp prateekgupta abt that story ,0.0 55978,cant support myself or buy my medication i am gonna end it i posted on reddit my gofund me and all i just need a month till i start my job no family or anything im done my benzo withdrawal hurts and so does my zoloft withdrawal love you all have better life than me,3.0 55979,im disappointed with myself college is coming up soon and i wish i could be happy about the newfound independence everyone is excited about it doesnt make sense that im finally able to semifunction throughout the day yet my emotions stay the same i know i should be proud of my accomplishments and how far ive come since december but i just feel like none of that stuff matters if i still feel like shit add in my crippling shame and you have the recipe of my mental instability im seeing a therapist and am on medication dwtldr college has me stressed and depressed is this normal,3.0 55980,thedebbyryan wish i could have gone my brother vince thomas was their butvthe lady running ur even said he got denied from ur party ,2.0 55981,aww rip author david eddings you were one of my quotgateway drugsquot to fantasy,2.0 55982,michellecpa what my ovaries ,0.0 55983, oommmgg soundslike heaven right now ,2.0 55984,rt bipzz depression is real lets support one another and not judge ,0.0 55985,bellletstalk healthyminds addictions and mental health clinic opening at calgary police sorce centre ,2.0 55986,please someone read this i hate everything about my life although i have a supportive family friends and a girlfriend i just feel like a let down i have siblings and they are all so much more successful than me in life and the way people look at me it just seems like they feel bad for me for being such a failure i feel like i do nothing to contribute to the world or my family and i just feel like a burden i want to end my life but im too scared to this causes me to live life feeling completely empty i wear a fake smile every day and no one in my life knows how i truly feel can someone please explain whats wrong with me because i feel like im losing my mind,3.0 55987,i dont know what happened but all my songs r deleted from my iphone saddnessssssss,2.0 55988,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 55989,rt croakeyblog interesting comments ex dr tim smyth point plan for mentalhealth in response to this article by rosenbergseb ,1.0 55990,is packedwill be omw to airport in about hourspretty sad about leaving sooneriron and my pups ,2.0 55991,ladymspooh it sucks i need a license and a freakin car this isnt cutting it no more ,2.0 55992,johncmayer damn i wish i would have done that instead of dropping on that hooker last weekend ,2.0 55993,levi is getting his hair cut ,0.0 55994, lolhe does doesnt he btw love your new avatar you look gorgeous ,0.0 55995,rt im telling yall right now if the world ever run out of rice i dont see a reason to continue living so yall better,0.0 55996,finally extended the problematic scene not that any bugger will ever get to read it ,2.0 55997,need to get summat to eat hungry ,2.0 55998,about to go and see the hangover i miss la ,2.0 55999,what numbness feels like thats how i feel like that where you just stare off and hold it in but theres a million thoughts going on in your mind its like a big awakening of realization then empty eventually you will be come numb its process a cycle i always find myself in this stage so i stop it i havent felt complete numbness in long time theres nothing like a black hole so you try to hurt yourself so that you feel,3.0 56000,rt peakwolfie me im finally starting to feel happymy depression ,1.0 56001,good morning ,0.0 56002, hehe weebee dear so how have you been ang tagal na kitang hindi nakita sa twitter ,0.0 56003,everything was going well but my mind is ruining it again during the summer i was finally starting to feel a bit better cleaned up my room tried to do things i used to like and it worked for the most part i even started therapybut now i feel fucking terrible again i started an internship for my study and its all going well but constantly i feel like i shouldnt be there that im just a waste of their time and resources my mind is driving me crazy and its only been a week im not sure if i can keep this up for more weeksi just dont want to go on anymore if my life will always be like this giving me hope then breaking it all down as soon as it starts to get better,3.0 56004,in drivers ed car wishing i was on the bus to six flags right now,2.0 56005,i just sneezed again and my head phones fell out lol,2.0 56006,my mommy and brother and sister and nephew and grandparents and cousins are leaving the a today ,2.0 56007,i always have second thoughts asking for advice even online ugh this going to be hard specially when english is my second language and im not good at it so i wanted to make a post of some kind for a wile now but my second guess myself always had stop me and even now my inside are yelling stop you cant tell anyone about your existence but i want to change how i feel every second of the daywell here is the deal im just going to write what im thinking and hope is going to make some kind of sense especially when i keep erasing my progress so this going to be one of my post and a start to future post i hope because im just curious what other think of my situation witch is mostly me battling with depression from my early teens to now im this going to be testing waters because like i said i never done this before where i share my troubles and make past at list year specially i came aware of my depression when i left my parents house at and stared working so i can pay rent and my living experience i realized about a month in livening by my self that im hella depressed i realized when i could not make my self go to the gym and start losing weight so i could go out and meet new people and make new friends and hopefully find a girlfriend but unfortunately for me i did nothing but smoke weed and play games all day and go to work of coursei dont want to make this long so im just going to ask if anyone felt like they could not ask for help or do something to better them self because they feel so broken there is nothing that could fix them or even make them self feel better ugh im going to stop and hope this going somewhere bc right now i feel blank in my brain and again most of my being is telling me not to post this,3.0 56008,angelicdomme dont be jealous it was rough but a very good night ,0.0 56009,haven shower y its like lol its cold ahahahahha ,0.0 56010,michaelstanford awe when the milk fruity pebble ratio is low ,2.0 56011,i cant take my job anymore but i cant quit or get fired my job is my dream job if this was years ago im a rising senior in college now its in research im actually contributing to the lab not just endless pcr experiments i get along with the other members but my boss pi is never satisfied got a good result great but why didnt you do it earlier and why dont you have a clear idea of your next steps got a bad result all hell breaks loose take a break for a week thats ok but you lost so much productivity he overworks us but subtly hell tell us that soandso came in on saturday and now he has so much good data you should consider itproblem is if i quit now i wont get his letter of recommendation or even his reference because i promised him two more years here ive given years already if i dont get his lor im screwed for grad school if i leave now i lose my senior thesis my ta position and of course my income but if i stay i might jump off a bridge i dont know what to do i cant take it anymore and it feels im stuck between a rock and a hard placei know youll say maybe the worst wont happen and thats fair but what if it does ill jump off a bridge too its two whole years wasted on a job a hate without even a fucking reference to show,3.0 56012,very pleased to annouce that kimidreams has signed on to be the voice of tabitha in the podcast version of staked ,0.0 56013,heybru cool yeah their amazing live england is no where near as hot as brazil man ,2.0 56014,pinkyou�re the best after janis ,0.0 56015,omg i cant handle having add and trying to make it through a baseball game its sooo slow i miss hockey ,2.0 56016,peak millennial bc ill never own a house but smashed avocado might distract me from my unending anxiety about ,2.0 56017,kimnishida sharongaskin thanks for the rts yesterday of the tips from my call ,0.0 56018,today was very fun and satisfying and exhausting also two thumbs up for up hell lets add two big toes up for up too p,0.0 56019,phone call with beetle got cut off hate it when that happens ,2.0 56020,off to bed still exhausted from vegas ,2.0 56021,kristinryan oh hai its a present for you ,0.0 56022,wow i thought i was getting over my cold i feel so physically fatigued i dont even wanna movethere is no way i am be getting better ,2.0 56023,lexibexi has the prof from the posted your grade or even quiz avg it says avg quiz score is for class but mines not up yet ,2.0 56024,so stop thinking that the german autobahn is just about being the fastest i now know you can get a fine for speeding ,2.0 56025,daisyx unfortunately andy couldnt get the win todaymatch started around something and ended in darkness at fair play ,2.0 56026,at work it sucks the people i work with suck its almost unbearable ,2.0 56027,witfrontlynaz amen bruh we got this in the bag,0.0 56028,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 56029,o isac is having his haircut it was nice the way it is,2.0 56030,dinner eaten ribroast overcooked choclate fondant was crap no sauce inside now dyeing my roots then paint toenails what a life lol,2.0 56031,wow that was hecka wierd poor eminem he looked hecka pissed off,2.0 56032,dwightfromjerz ims o readyand not all at the same time ,2.0 56033, haha thats exactly how i felt when i got back from arizona it sucks ,2.0 56034,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 56035,if getting fever again ,2.0 56036,i wish something bad could happen to me so that i can justify being useless i feel like im wasting my life away but i cant stop myself from doing so i procrastinate in every single thing i do and it makes me feel like a useless piece of shit but i dont know how to change it i wish id end up in a car accident or something and maybe itll help me justify why im not accomplishing anything,3.0 56037,rt savantyoongi my heart aches after knowing such sad news today we all know how his grandparents meant to him they raised him very wel,1.0 56038,this is probably a horrid picture i ant see it properly cause of the glare from the sun on my laptop sad ,2.0 56039,all is quiet on the western front ,0.0 56040,twhatssaid oh hi there i didnt expect that thered be someone whod care to read my tweets okaygt i will thanks ,0.0 56041,how do you talk aboutheal something so rare thats caused ones depression hi all not to bring down the mood but i was just thinking about this after speaking with my therapist and even them saying that its going to be a tough road but theres no real answersi went through something i dont think many have fucking fortunately where my mother purposely murdered my little brother it was already a nightmare enough but she only got months imprisoned because she had no previous record and the police messed up on her miranda rights basically the whole you have the right to remain silent leading to some facts not being allowed in court and the judge very clearly having a female biasi have nothing against the last part i think that there are times as a man that i cannot understand why he would do this but i am not a judge and he publicly apologized in the newspaper saying that in retrospect he would have done differentlythat being said this happened almost years ago when i was young and it has crushed me on a daily basis i was the last person she talked to before she did it because myself and my other little brother wouldnt live with her instead of my dad she said i would regret my decision fuck off and hung up on me got the call the next dayi have had a life of pretty awful things one after another i have somehow not turned to drugs and alcohol as tempting as they are its all things that are just unavoidable yet that event i cannot even start to wrap my head around it and looking online i cant find a single soul who has gone through something like thisi have no idea what to do im so tired of feeling depressed and almost like a freak for having this happen to me and i feel like its my fault even if my brain tells me that logically an year old never could have seen that coming i feel guilty for living and i wish it would have been me i also cannot understand how the justice system could be so cruel im reminded of it constantly through news articles and what happened with casey anthony it was like living it again i try to stay positive and talk with my therapist but i can honestly feel that each one ive had is just kind of incredulous that this happens to real people,3.0 56042,ah hump day i guess ill have to take mine without any humping ,2.0 56043,not to be sad on main ill probably delete this later but like i keep lowerring and lowering my commission prices an ,1.0 56044,advice on where to post for advice on taking antidepressants hi uk based poster ive recently taken my doctors advice and got a prescription for antidepressants ive been inandout of various states of mild to severe depression throughout my teens amp twenties but ive always figured this is just something everyone has to deal with at some stage or another so ive never sought help even when falling off a proverbial cliff edge after much deliberation someone i care deeply about got me to try counselling but i find that im really not getting much out of it right now as i dont have the will to try and my focus is all over the place im being tested for adhd too but im still awaiting the results my doctor suggested trying a combination of antidepressants and cbt the latter of which i am currently attempting to source a support group for however i have an underlying phobia of longterm medication after seeing several people close to me use it as a crutch and just become something wholly unfamiliar to me as a result ive been prescribed citalopram celexa for those stateside but like i said i have deepseated reservations about taking them and before i tried i wanted to see if there was anywhereanyone i could talk to about their experiences on the drug and any perhaps any suggestions they could offer about managing shortterm months antidepressant medication ive looked at the subreddit rules for this group and im not sure if this crosses rule if so can someone help me find the right place to ask my questions,3.0 56045,listening to some enya amp enigmai used to be really into this music brings back some good happy memories ,0.0 56046,i guess i m having quotkarelequot in lunch yeakh ,2.0 56047,summer school starts today ,2.0 56048,ethandolan graysondolan can relate ,2.0 56049,xlaurajaynex gah i could have done august why not august in the first place grumble if only i had monday haha ,2.0 56050,cavashawn this is true my county still went red though and i dont think ive been there im rarely over there,2.0 56051,rt peedekaf i get so much pussy p panic attacks u uncontrollable anxiety s suicidal fantasies s sadnessy yearning for death,2.0 56052, ive never seen themm wants to see themm d i saw the concert experiiencee moviie of theirs thoughh uu ,2.0 56053,my heart so sore for the poor cat dead on the side of road poor kitty ,2.0 56054,work is slow slow slow ,0.0 56055,goooodnight is about to head to bed ,0.0 56056, downeyisdowney good morning nope thelastdoctor ignores me when you are not around no battles without you but tony was around,2.0 56057,rt esopstl asking cops to handle calls for citizens in the middle of mental health crises is like asking your pastor to perform open hea,0.0 56058,okay now its bedtime been dozing for a while so time to sleep may be waiting two months for the itouch too tis sad night,2.0 56059,treatment without a diagnosis im a computerliterate psychology major so i already know that i check all the boxes for depression however there is a doctor shortage in my location and i cannot a diagnosis without a diagnosis i cannot get treatment and noone will take me seriouslyto make matters worse im a man and there just isnt anything out there to help men with depression or any other mental health issues for that mattersuffice to say things are getting worse for me not betterrelevant detail maybe im also homeless,3.0 56060,rosierage nice seeing you briefly yesterday rosie we should of got a picture though x,2.0 56061,lonosg ufc ufc ufc i have to wait until friday ,2.0 56062,just invited you to twitter ,0.0 56063,my family has made me lose interest in everything and i dont know how to make myself feel better title says it all really theres few things i liked doing or did quite often just for enjoyment like eating junk food or watching tv my family keeps calling me fat over this even though according to doctors im at a good weight for my age and height a bit heavier than perfect but still not overweight or obese all of my fat seems to go to my stomach and thighs i can no longer finish a bag of crispschips without feeling disgusting and fat for it i cant watch tv without losing interest very quickly because it makes me feel fat and lazy i have a few hobbies like gaming drawing and music but theyve made me lose interest in that too just after i saved up enough to buy myself an ipad to draw on i have so many expensive things that ive saved up for or earned through good grades managed to convince them to buy me it before getting exam results back and i dont use them anymore unless its to watch the odd youtube video or netflix show i feel like such a waste and i feel even worse thinking that i could be doing something but dont have the motivation because of them,3.0 56064,nataliemccallum as if your there its crazy you find everyone lol,0.0 56065,selenagomez hmmm i wish i could call from uk london sucks ,2.0 56066,excited about oak mountain tomorrow wils getting baptized even though i hate him im happy for him ,0.0 56067,ja jeden morgen frage ich mich dasmuss dann tatsächlich selbst an die maschine und auf den knopf drücken´ich wü ,0.0 56068,eurgh dont want to feel ill i wanted to go to town today ,2.0 56069,shit no more adam lamberts rolling stone magazine ,2.0 56070,rt kermltnow my talents include stress eating and falling in love with people that will never love me back httpstcoqwubgpzumf,0.0 56071,im sick of disappointing myself i always seem to jump onto the first thing that brings me any sort of happiness then get blown back down when it doesnt work out i thought i had finally found a good relationship for the first time in my life and it had so much potential and of course outside circumstances had to fuck it up i guess the bright side is that i didnt fuck it up for once i hate thinking that there is some sort of unseen force thats just against me but at this point if i cant blame it on something i think ill lose my mind im not a bad enough person to deserve what happens to me ive been trying so hard every day every damn day i just want to know when im allowed to stop trying im tired of being unable to control my expectations of happiness i wish i could just let something good happen to me without investing so much of myself into it this happens every few months really a single good event in the face of all of my stress depression anxiety etc it just never lasts i wish i still had real goals as opposed to occasional thoughts of maybe next week i wont want to die every day it doesnt matter that i stopped biting my nails started going to the gym started eating better finished school any of that sort of stuff because at the end of the day im exactly what ive always been a black hole ,3.0 56072,i feel like a shell i dont know if anyone else feels this way but i feel like a shell i feel like whatever i am presenting to other people is insincere i feel like i am contently faking who i am i dont know who i am whatever this is is something i created to protect myself and i feel like ive buried myself so deep inside this shell that ill never find myself again whats the point of continuing if this is all im going to be ,3.0 56073, yes sounds like a great night ,0.0 56074,i dont like faaling asleep and waking up and cant go back to sleep ,2.0 56075,is so glad we proved everybody wrong go magic were going to the finals baby ,0.0 56076,when you cant get up off the sofaout of bed sometimes when im alone i find myself stuck unable to move from the sofa caught in a trance of scrolling or just lying there today i did what i always did google my experience in the hope im not alone and can find some advice today that was cant get up from the sofa all that came up were a few old forums on websites id never heard of and how to move furniture which i was happy that people experienced that problem more than being unable to pull themselves up anyway to get to the point i read one of these old forums and there was one comment that said start by moving your fingers and toes then your legs and arms it will feel silly but just move your body then start shimmying around and wriggling its so much easier to get up when youre already moving and holy shit it worked from feeling stuck and trapped in my body to wriggling my toes and now im up and going to do the dishes so im celebrating this small win and had to share in case it can help someone else get up when you just feel like you physically cant move too sending love x,3.0 56077, whenever you feel down look up at the sky and try to find the bunnies in the clouds ,0.0 56078,virginflyer glad youre feeling better ,0.0 56079,i cant stop screaming why wont anyone talk to me,3.0 56080, def dont be afraid of color especially in the summer perfect time to get started showing off neon eyes ,0.0 56081,fallenstar write me fic pwetty pwease,2.0 56082,watching the start of the turkish grand prix go jenson ,0.0 56083,yvonnesim httpbitlyanqju ace prize winning fan made vid for best single not released in please keep retweeting,2.0 56084,i never been to central park ,2.0 56085,why does depression feel so individual when its not and why do i feel so invisible when im not i just got to this sub because i feel like i need to find people who are in my boat and then got kinda disappointed that all the post i see here have comments in a community of people come on guysjust had one of those nights where no one makes eye contact with me not even exaggerating i go out with a couple friends and the bartender looks directly at all of them except me the all get personal attention and anything they say leads the conversation whenever i speak up or jump in it gets drowned out and forgotten so quickly it makes me feel like theres no point to trying to be social no one cares at the same who the fuck do i need to impress anyway say that shit and dont give a fck about it sometimes i do but my opinion matters less thats clear i honestly do like myself but i go out in public and feel so invisible most days i walk down the street and have to move out of the way of people walking because they dont seem to see me i walk into a store and the woman by me who arrived after me will be asked if she needs any assistance finding anything before i ever doat the same time one of my closest friends seems to get this attention so much easier than i do hes smarter than me goes to the gym less but gets more physically attractive than me everyone wants to talk with him and our mutual friends sometimes only text me just to get ahold of him to hang out im clearly the less fun of the two of us i just dont even know what to do with myself i havent found my people yet i guess but this feeling invisible is so tough i have hobbies i travel ive made something of myself but still can feel like i can overcome this how have you guys done this,3.0 56086,misschicken hehehe bonny wee ink has an interesting routine that includes this song ,0.0 56087,annaylovekaykay it was good and fun well im off to dinner soon im starving ,0.0 56088,struggling right now i really have no desire to be alive right now my home life is horrible i terrible at everything i do i dont have any close friends and im seriously unhappy what keeps you going at times like this,3.0 56089,i cannot believe josh just ran a toll im so scared of the fine,2.0 56090,is now watchng the sleeping dictionaryawesome ,0.0 56091,having a long island ice tea ,0.0 56092,losing the hability to communicate so ive been in a really low spot for the past two months and the only person that is truly supportive about my depression issue is my girlfriend so i told her that i had the feeling that these was is going to be a bad one and she understood but even though ive always been able to speak and express myself freely with her in the last week im not even able to articulate a single phrase other than small talk it has gone so far by now i feel im pushing even the closest person to me just further and further and hurting our relationship in a way beyond repairive always thought that one can fix myself but me when i go through a depression episode but being able to talk to someone who cares about me and i care about has been one of the best things that ever happened and it makes me feel like shit to fuck that up,3.0 56093,pumpernickel bread amp spinich dip yummm ,0.0 56094,hotsports lucky you which of the canarias,0.0 56095,i never win the baby shower games i hate these things ,2.0 56096,fatherz not sure if i phrased it as eloquently as you but i could tell she had a new perspective she didnt have before ,0.0 56097,morning all studying for year end exams ,2.0 56098,which remembers me true blood season is set up for this august if im not mistaking yummy vampires everywhere xd,0.0 56099,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 56100,i think im just about ready to seek help but i feel like nobody will care actually writing this is making me cry i cant remember being truly happyi think i have body dysmorphiaim very activei eat very welli havent done drugs in a long timei dont understand why all the seemingly trivial things to other people are so overwhelming for mei think im going to be alone for my all of my lifelike if i went nobody would careas a year old im not looking forward to my lifedepression has stopped me trying in schooli dont know what to do,3.0 56101,streeterstevens you broke the internet again i broke my iphone what a sad sad day,2.0 56102,rt revolttv prayers up 🙏 augustalsina got real about his battle with depression amp liver disease positivevibesonly watchrevolt https,2.0 56103,boomerstyle that is my wife and her name is shannon also it must suck for her to have a guys name ,0.0 56104,aaayyee one of my tunays im glad ive met u tbh thanks for all the laughs and chikas 💗 ika isa rata nag classmate ,1.0 56105,hey dont feel bad about the dbacksus dodgers fans lost manny until july ,2.0 56106,pinksugacupcake i never watch the right channels ,2.0 56107,cant be bothered doing homework ,2.0 56108,wow this ,0.0 56109,my voice is shot please pray for its strength for tomorrows show ,2.0 56110,producingmind thanks you do the same,0.0 56111,i hate my lifeno i hate this summer ,2.0 56112,hennartonline hope you have a blast im sure you will and bring back fun stories ,0.0 56113, getting the ticket of tokyo jaaaazzzzzz yeah ,0.0 56114,princessmaria no fear i have read all the books ,0.0 56115,rt mindshiftkqed artistic expression may decrease anxiety feelings of anger and depression this creative process can also enhance cogni,1.0 56116,ahh theres a spider on my ceiling ,2.0 56117,is working all day next day off is sunday yayyy,0.0 56118,at work ,2.0 56119,rt shit sad,2.0 56120,tashalogan its text but ill twitpic it later ,0.0 56121, etsy just listed an owl pillow and an american flag pillow i miss the states ,2.0 56122,creeping back for like the last couple of weeks i felt not depressed at all especially at evening and night hours but now i feel my depression coming back and im afraid these suicidal thoughts will become a daily thing again,3.0 56123,nickel diner s i went there for dinner just for the bacon doughnutthey were out i loved the mac and httptinyurlcomoxxdmf,2.0 56124,i wish my bfs slyfoxy kitamonroe amp were here but on a brighter note two of patron here i comelol,2.0 56125,nathenmcvittie now you know how i feel tmo and their nonsense ,2.0 56126,darceratops in all seriousness i hope your tummy feels better ,2.0 56127, abnormal to be in need of assistance right now i keep staring at my journal and all i can think to write is about how unhappy i am with myself how much i despise existing and how i am perfectly okay with continuing to live another day but i simply laugh at the idea that anyone can convince me that it is worth carrying on if i dont feel the need this is rather abnormal for me but i feel remarkably incapable of anything great interesting relevant or useful ive read a lot of philosophy over the years to cope ethics metaphysics you name it ive garnered a great love for my fellow humans and my desire to assist others is remarkably strong but i feel an utter waste i stare at my journal and all i can think to write is how unhappy i am with who i am how miserable it is to have no passion no hope no particular willingness to drudge through things my politics doesnt console me with hope religion doesnt remotely console me i find even the act of creation is hapless which is how even the existentialist thinkers fail me in all ways but to not lose my last ounce of hope i hate to ask anyone to invest any emotional labour into my mess but i figure i might as well vainly try to capture another humans attention my most sincere apologies for existing in this space,3.0 56128,ahh were going to see up today and im so excited about it ,0.0 56129,good afternoon twitterversehappy sunday ,0.0 56130,lol i wash my hands clean of trying going to go see hk at sungai wang ,0.0 56131,my head hurts ,2.0 56132,manojmuntashir sir,2.0 56133,stir fry is sooo good ,0.0 56134,so excited for josies wedding in mainenhboston area until june ,0.0 56135,anncurry morning ,0.0 56136,addieking omg im so sorry too i didnt get my ts bc i didnt have a bb twitter client yet im so glad you came out ,0.0 56137,i wanna be in san antonio ,2.0 56138,lilfishstudios im so sorry about your little duckie and his favorite too i hope the cookies did help,2.0 56139,not such a great birthday ,2.0 56140,thinks her deviantart and facebook crews better get commenting ,0.0 56141,miniritz i agree were all disappointed but writing abusive posts in not going to change the situation ,2.0 56142,havent had a single moment of relief for the whole of this year constant awful thoughts complete misery no end in sight im and ive wasted my whole life so far ive no career no job no pride in myself no useful level of education and as of years ago absolutely no motivation left either people say hard work pays but its crap i worked hard but i worked hard at the wrong things i had nobody to tell me differently and nobody to give me a leg up in life i need guidance and ive needed it since i left school but nobody was there i was dumped into the world alone never having known the love of a family member i tried alone and desperately searched for help i like to fantasise that there is someone out there in a position of authority looking for someone with just my skills who will give me a hand then ill feel proud of myself for the first time doing something im good at and getting paid for it maybe living in a nicer pet of town away from dog shit and drug addicts but the reality is that nobody important knows i even exist i feel close to the end,3.0 56143,depression vs the day im sitting on the bed staring at the pills laying in front of me i know taking them is supposed to help but i cant bring myself to swallow them forget taking a shower or eating if i can just take these pills i will consider it a miracle the rest of my day will be spent in a forgetful fog of noise and self loathing,3.0 56144,rt iiosha its sad when people who gave you the best memories become a memory,1.0 56145,neekybaby i got a little nug at home waiting to put me to sleep hamptons in the morning,0.0 56146, inoriteee poor fred ,2.0 56147, yea i meant txi really wanna go mohegan but i hve work fri am i went in novamp it was the best,2.0 56148,my fan club just sat next to me on a train he had jonathan creek hair and a tshirt that read i heart sf where can i get one,0.0 56149,yaygot an early mark from work weekendhere i come ,0.0 56150,watching that show man i love them ,0.0 56151, i live here maybe another time all i want to do is get on my train and pass out thanks tho ,0.0 56152,rt janinebucks how you beat anxiety ryan shaw selfimprovement selfimprovement selfimprovement,0.0 56153,just played fuzzball now searching for google wave ,0.0 56154,crunchyk sooo one song huh d cool ,0.0 56155,raining even more now waiting for it calm down now where else is it raining tell me ,0.0 56156,stephenjatdell i like them so much i bought ,0.0 56157,listening quotin and out of lovequot miss you annie ,2.0 56158,thanks forres pecting my wishes ,2.0 56159,product of fundamentals class final exam help wish me luck believe me i need it,2.0 56160,whatever i want to do someone has already done it before me everything feels hopeless whats the fucking point of dragging myself through every day just to go to sleep feeling more depressed than the day before whatever i want to do has already been done and whoever already did it did it a hundred times better than i could ever hope to achieve i feel like a fucking slacker i feel like its too late to do what i wanted to do theres kids that have achieved more than i have at this age kids who know what theyre doing with their lives kids and some of them are only a few years younger than me and reeling in the millions kids winning prestigious prizes left right and center with a pick of prestigious schools to choose from and i have no idea what to do with myself i have nowhere to go i cant change the world my whole life ive been telling myself that things are going to figure themselves out and they havent when i was a kid i wanted to restore clean water to people in africa i wanted to stop illegal animal poaching i wanted to stop the fighting in the middle east i wanted to get accepted into some prissy british school oxford or some shit i cant remember and work towards a phd which in retrospect really was ridiculous considering i dont even live in the fucking uk and theres more that i dont have time to list i thought i was perfectly capable of doing all those things and a part of me still thinks that but i cant i never will be able to im a piece of shit whose only use is dragging people down with me i wish someone finds out how to travel back in time so i can go back and convince my mother to get an abortion when she was pregnant with me would have saved everyone a lot of trouble and a lot of shit they had to sacrifice all for someone whos never going to amount to anything ,3.0 56161,jopinionated made me cry but excellent ep i agree watched it twice too lost eliminates my faves bastards,2.0 56162,rt pontiacmadeddg everything happens for a reason manifest that and ya stress will be relieved,0.0 56163,tarahwolf aaargh i want food and a bonfire ,2.0 56164,haa i got youuuuuu damnn ,0.0 56165,mba galaugalauan i finally know what quothappy callquot is hahaha seruuu bgt emang hihihi maharani ya bok ajaaaa ,2.0 56166,i dont really know what to do with myself hey there i want to do an introduction first im i have been feeling pretty bad last months and a reason for that is well reasons reallyfirst reason is lets say breaking up with my girlfriend with the girl i still like i liked her since july we started speaking to each other in october she was into me like really into me i traveled to another country because of her on her birthday after spending weeks with her she decided to act really weird and slowly change her behavior with me she stopped speaking to me blamed me for breaking us apart and to be honest with you all it wasnt my fault she broke up with me days into i felt so bad i did not really know what to do i tried to forget her but it did not go well she is still there in my mind i still visit her profile and it seems like she hasnt forgotten me either she listened to my advice and she actually changed her behavior and is following her dream i still miss her and her smile her hair her everything she was my first girlfriend and that might be actually the real reason im still in love with her second reason is well i got accepted into university i was really surprised and to be honest i dont really want to study anything at the moment i dont have any will to study i dont have any inspiration neither the concentration to study for exams i just dont feel like doing anything third reason i live in a really small apartment with my family and that is so hard for me i dont have any personal space which i really need i dont have any freedom basically sometimes i really feel that i dont want to do anything and just sit in the corner and cry i felt good for weeks in february but that is literally nothing im feeling bad at the moment and dont know what to do with my lifefourth reason i feel alone even though im not i feel alone i feel like im missing the point of living i dont have any friends that i can go out with i dont know how to talk to girls im lost ,3.0 56167,it took me forever to figure out what to write for my twitter quotbioquot im thoroughly happy with my selection ,0.0 56168,its a tough mental health day today im not sure why im here i shouldnt be considering how good my life is i have two kids and a wife that i have an amazing relationship with a great job with a good salary all things point to be happy dude but i find myself all too often where im at tonight a seemingly empty area of loneliness i have no friends so i have zero people to confide these thoughts to so ive decided tonight that from a somewhat anonymous account thatll ill confide in redditso im laying in my bed atm next to my wife that ive had the pleasure of knowing since i was now we have nearly zero marital problems nearly because we all have nitpicks about our so wed like to change but for all intents and purposes shes perfect she gave birth to our two beautiful children she makes our house a home two months ago i started a new job that increased my salary i finally made it i thought i bought s new motorcycle a few weeks ago i felt like that was going to be a mental escape similar to they way video games are butmore real gym time every morning pulls these feelings away for the hour and half im there so thats nice but fleetingi say all these things because even with all of this i still feel alone constantly i feel like everything i do is mundane i work from home so im in this bubble as well mostly alone with myself my new job is great and while i know my job well im constantly feeling like im the least intelligent person here and one day theyll realize im a fraud and fire me thats a constant fear i think part of that stems because im self taught in my field and these folks are highly educated as far as friends i have none ive attempted to make friends but its just alwaysawkward i cant find anyone interesting enough to feel urge to engage with them no one reaches out to engage with me either so i suppose thats a mutual feeling thisweight has begun to kinda screw with me im not finding joy and fun in video games any longer im less interested to interact with my family i dont care about self educating with work like i normally would be i feel like my brain is wasting too much energy focusing on these feelings and emotions and its clogging up the pipeline i find myself looking at what ive written and its a bit of a mess in just writing what comes to mind i cant really articulate the feeling its more an aura than a feeling its odd ,3.0 56169,jimmietryon never liked the option windows is just a waste of drive space ,0.0 56170,good intellectberr meeting director hugh mcneal a key adviser to mandy seems sold on ict is part of the solution to climate change ,0.0 56171,my ny trip might be postponed ,2.0 56172,going to bed and tomorrow showing mo the awesome apartment we found ,0.0 56173,rt emoblackthot i think one of the biggest struggles of the constant battle with mental health is accepting that not everyday will be per,1.0 56174,wishing i had me a perfect boy ,2.0 56175,headin off to middleofnowhere texas to see the grandparents ,0.0 56176,ah i just woke up by my mobiles ringtone fkin my mobile it cant display some swedish alphabets have to email him from my laptop ,2.0 56177,nxcole fgs why did u log out of msn ,2.0 56178,have tix for the cubsox today and it rained out ,2.0 56179,boss at work wants a corporate twitter acct for me lol i bet it will get more followers ,0.0 56180,usbmark i saw your link for the darksiders usb is this something your company will sell where can i get one ,0.0 56181,depression yelpwhat should i do ever felt as though everything was going alrightuntil suddenly it isnt there are many sources to this depression i am facing its hard for people to understand mainly because they cant relate to my problems there is however one thing that triggered this recent mental earthquake rejection in the beginning of jan life went by wellalmost fell into a relationship with a person i really liked although my feelings for the person were strong the significant other was fickle minded undecisive and changed her mind about me in a month february came alongi got rejected by a university i kept my hopes and dreams alive for then in the same month the person i was hopeful about rejected me you would think that was the end of itbut no i was still in touch and still in love that month has effected my studies and my mindset this month i got my results from the prefinals that took place two weeks ago i got worse than i ever did in my whole lifethe fact that i am doing the ib just adds to this depression every time i think about her with someone else my stomach just tears apart,3.0 56182,mindmaps are the way to go httpbitlyranbi,0.0 56183,summertimegrl oh laura think of meim never going to see them unless i win jordanknight contest youngq,0.0 56184,im done the past weeks have been hard im dealing with a lot of depressivesuicidal thoughts anxiety attacks and insomnia i had to drop one of my classes because i couldnt handle it i also recently told my best friend all of this after i left a party we were at together because of an anxiety attack she also knows that im struggling with lonelyness after moving out and has been supportive the few times ive been able to open up about iti asked her if anything fun was happening and she told me that she and several of my other friends were going on a trip together and that they forgot to ask me before there were no beds lefteverything sucks and that just made it worse i dont know what to do anymore ,3.0 56185,my senior year in high school i just gave up this is really hard to explain but im just posting this because i need to write out my thoughts and feel normal i thought my senior year would be fun first of all but i was pressured through my parents to still take a few difficult classes with a lot of homework the summer before the year i started smoking weed days a week as well applying to college was extremely stressful because i honestly thought my grades werent good enough to go where i wanted to i began to constantly daze out and fall behind in class and not do homework i would just sit there and be quiet i saw my classmates having a fun year while all i did was smoke weed once my fall sport ended i honestly feel like i have no personality and no hobbies or interests i just feel so boring like im a side character who doesnt fit in anywhere weed was all i cared about and i became anxious that its chronic use had permanently turned me into a zombie right before this corona virus shit i started getting romantic with someone but now he has a girlfriend and doesnt talk to me i just have so much regret and guilt and if i could go back i would do things so different but now its all over right when things started getting interesting and different in life they took a turn for the worse and got put on hold,3.0 56186, bye for now nice to catch up x,0.0 56187,patlewandowski i see how it is pat you dont respond to me lol,2.0 56188,loves finding new followers ,0.0 56189,im frkkn cranky ,2.0 56190,had a few drinks at the speakeasy on davie last night they have tvs on the patio i have to remember that for ufc nights ,0.0 56191,is thinking too hard again ,2.0 56192, lol its good to be organized i have to be packed way in advance too with a million lists all over the house ,0.0 56193,does it ever feel like there isnt an answer hey there moderately depressed guy recently found out i had adhd too but i dont know if thats relevanti feel like im taking a lot of losses in my life right now im slipping academically and in my lsat studies my girlfriend dumped me i havent had the time to go the gym and i cant find a social group to participate in im really trying hard to reach out and find something but my none of the opportunities at my college or in the area work with my schedule i live at home and i feel like im socially stunted as a result it makes me lonely stressed and frustrated whenever i ask for help i never get any practical solutions from anyone its always thingsll get better itll pass or whatever no one ever really offers any real advice am i the only one feeling this ,3.0 56194,rt noturmcm me wow im actually starting to feel happy again my depression ,0.0 56195,lashin rain in my jammies cleaned house baby asleep time for a nap i think ,0.0 56196,painting my nailssick ,2.0 56197,lilfeisty i dont think ill make it only cuz theres a shit load of traffic ,2.0 56198,my cousin crashed his motorcycle im going to the hospital my family is always in the hospital ,2.0 56199,girlfriend is in a depressive episode so my girlfriend should recieve treatment for her mental health but she didnt make her second appointment and she is left untreated right now she has a lot of problems with school parents and pretty much everything but she blames everything on me because the last fall i was feeling pretty bad and i wanted to talk to her and see her all the time but that ended months ago yesterday i woke up and saw sweet messages from her like goodmorning texts and selfies and she told me to call her when i wake up so i did after minutes of talking about how we slept and if we had any dreams she suddendly just went silent and when i asked her what s wrong she told me that she cant talk to me and she hang up i gave her space and sent her few texts troughout the day she didnt respond to any later in the night i called her and she kept declining the callthis was our first night not talking before bed since we are togetheraround a year i messaged her to answer my call and she did she told me very coldly what do i want and i just asked her if she is okay she said no and hang up again later that night she sent me a lot of messages that i am not the person she met anymore and that i am a source of all her problems even tho she is in another school against her will has bad roommates in her dorm her parents making drama about divorce and her mom being known as a slut in her town i told her that i am very sorry for that period that happened in fall but i got treated for it and i am normal again she didnt reply and probably went to sleep i sent her a nice goodnight text she left it on seen this morning and rejected my calls i really dont know what to do,3.0 56200,haveyouever drive in the rain ,2.0 56201,and i lost or followers ,2.0 56202,is working at physical jobs over the summer good for your mental health perhaps a part time construction worker over the summer in between semesters for fun is it disrespectful for other construction workers if you do this maybe they might feel like youre treating their job as some form of mental therapy and they might think youre arrogant or something,3.0 56203,homeandhosed o goodness i havnt heard it i lovelovelove her old stuff though the overture the underscore is the best album i think ,0.0 56204,rt kashanacauley economic anxiety strikes yet again ,2.0 56205,rt sugaplumcris depression ,2.0 56206,rapid change in my life i need help and i dont know where to get it hi this is my first post on redditi feel like my worlds coming down around me and i just dont know what to doive and just finished uni a couple months ago had a week break before i started working full time in my professional field this saw me leave my casual job as well im now working monday friday after work i go gym and get home usually about i love my job so much and the people i work with but in the last couple years ive been spending more time chilling in my room and less with my family every week day i get home now and just eat shower go to my room and watch youtube then go sleep im so tired to even do anything else im also seeing my girlfriend way less since i started full time months ago and she works weekends so every other week we get a full day to ourselves otherwise its just a couple hours here and there we see each other she just had her birthday and i screwed up her bday present and put no effort in at all i love and appreciate her so much and i keep failing to show it to hernow ive been stuck selfloathing i feel like ive got my job went gym sorted but lately im constantly letting down my family and girlfriendid just like to hear someones opinion as i dont know where to go i really want to see a psychologist but i dont want my family to know but theres no way i can see one without them finding out as i live at home id even love to just chat life with someone thanks for reading this far,3.0 56207,id love to act itd be amazing ,0.0 56208,just find friends ,0.0 56209, its something i need to look into as people are wanting hard copies havent found the best answer yet ,2.0 56210,just got home from orlnado i hate being home and i dont have to go to school my mom said yay just chillin on the computer all day ,0.0 56211,i hate public transportation ,2.0 56212,moonfrye i wish it was a lebron kobe match up ,2.0 56213,digging through hundreds of emails to find the receipt for my headphones i broke yet another pair ,2.0 56214,goooooood night praying for some sunshine ,0.0 56215,mileycyrus practice makes you perfect hoedown throwdown your own song ,0.0 56216,bye bye puppet commercials i loved those,2.0 56217,good morning im tired stressed and sad,1.0 56218,i feel so bad i cant make it to the hookah lounge tonight ,2.0 56219,i caved on my no alcohol policy ,2.0 56220,i fucked up ive posted here a few times before and oh god im at the lowest ive been since my boyfriend passed i was happy with a but of course that had to end cause i fuck everything up i cant help it im going fucking crazy missing you guys he left weeks ago and it hurts so fucking much and i have to deal with all the anger and sadness from you passing why the fuck am i still here was i made to be depressed all my life thats what it fucking seems like i cant stand you being gone baby i need you youve been gone for months now and holy fuck the pain gets worse everyday im doing shitty in school again god he would be so disappointed in me i cant even fucking function like a normal fucking human all i do is cry and get angry jesus fucking christ why am i still here god i havent cut in months but the urge is so fucking strong i need to right thats how it feels i dont know what to do anymore all i am is a bucket of tears and anger im pushing everyone away because i cant handle my own shit im doing all the shit i did after you passed fuck it feels like it was yesterday that you passed baby time doesnt feel real i wanna go back i wanna go back to when i was with you and stop you from dying i need to im going fucking insane,3.0 56221,hates this silly low blood sugar thing i feel like im just made of sugar but am still weak ,2.0 56222,rt baldboyblues is isolating myself from everyone bad for my mental health yes will i continue doing that absolutely,0.0 56223,wardere have both ,0.0 56224,feeling hopeless ive struggled with depression and anxiety since i was at least but i feel like i was always a sad kid im now and im a miserable adult im at a point where i dont have any reasons to feel this way i have a great supportive family and a job i love but i am still so unhappy i think a lot of it has to do with my problems connecting with people ive always been socially awkward and had some but not many friends and right now in my life i feel like the biggest loser i probably alienate other people by being an insecure wet blanket i wish i could just talk to people casually and comfortably but i feel like an anxious potato all the time like there is nothing going on in my head besides my own selfconsciousness which also makes me feel self absorbed af i am starting to lose hope ill ever feel okay or will ever be the person i wish i was want to be i fucking hate myself i wish i could kill myself without hurting my family i strongly feel there is something undiagnosed wrong with my brain i dont know what is wrong with me but i really need help and any advice thanks,3.0 56225,im just back from dinner lol ,0.0 56226,imageshack is not working for me ,2.0 56227,just killed a mosquito that was sucking my blood ,2.0 56228,currently making a video ,0.0 56229,mamapigeon i dunno as i was telling a friend of mine i was shocked to discover that some sobe lifewater is not vegetarian ,2.0 56230,if there is anything better than dessert for dinnner mceddddddddddds i dunno what it is ,0.0 56231,rt simply tragic amp extremely sad that hamid khazaeis death was preventable the minister has never taken responsibility f,2.0 56232,rt relateshitt anxietydepression is scary af you push away everyone that means the most to you and you start to hate the person you are,2.0 56233,rt ways to ease anxiety symptoms without medication ,1.0 56234,yea know what u mean but due to social anxiety i cant even make the right conversation link or whatever dont thin ,1.0 56235,i want to go to mcfly concert ,2.0 56236,i hate long car rides it kills my back ,2.0 56237,is chasing happiness even worth it anymore every time i feel even the slightest bit happy the world wants to take it away it doesnt feel worth it anymore feeling neutral with my smaller moments of sadness are better than being happy for a bit and then breaking down i feel like this is telling me that i just dont get to be happy i think i should give up on being happy amd just try to stop hurting are there others that are like this what do you do,3.0 56238,rt blainenation only sad people are awake rn,2.0 56239, and i was like oh my god i cant do this but i stayed anyway bc i didnt want to chicken out soo we were waiting ,0.0 56240,how much is too much and how much is too little within this hour i have become very hurt and depressed because of the way a certain relationship has ended i have very few relationships in which i genuinely trust the other person cares for me and almost none of which im comfortable communicating these thoughts with is making a post on social media about how im struggling too much i know it will get plenty of people asking whats wrong and how they could help but none of that would seem genuine to me im not looking for attention and i dont want professional help i understand its rational to seek help whether its through a trained professional or family and friends i just feel as though anything i could do will be interpreted as whiny or a reach for attention,3.0 56241,okay yeah i was sad but this is a good time,0.0 56242,rt ziwe sadgressive adj a moment of progressive social reform that is sad when you consider contextsentence it is sadgressive th,0.0 56243,had a great day well afternoonevening hope yall did too gnight all,0.0 56244,its a goooood weather to slp in how i wish im in bed ,2.0 56245,onlinelawyer bkf i used to write similar posts ,0.0 56246,in the mood to watch quotthe truthquot even though gillian makes me cry when she makes scully cry ,2.0 56247,dpiercexxx addiction ive only been to starbucks twice and that was in germany so i guess i cant understand the obsession,0.0 56248,allmadmoji people call it greedy i say charming people call it arroganti say confidenti talk like this cause i can back it up ,0.0 56249,aylaf im not so sure anymore ,2.0 56250,killerkara ouch hope you didnt hurt your precious mouth or tongue ,2.0 56251,pakistan won next time sa tomorrow is west indies vs sri lanka yay rooting for the home team of course go west indies,2.0 56252,watching no doubt on ,0.0 56253,i just laughed so much watching all time low videos ,0.0 56254,jack when we put our talents together creatively i think we can make some huge i am a legit firm so contact me if u interested ,0.0 56255,dont want to go home ,2.0 56256,jaekuzco sorry about that lol must u be so hard to please lol,2.0 56257,joshuahaines i second that ,2.0 56258,kalylapermata yea i was therebut now im heading grandindonesia with my momohyayou suregila kamu kal udah istirahaaat ,0.0 56259,o nooooo my twitter has gone all retarted again in two days angry face ,2.0 56260,one of the puppies found a home a couple days ago hes gone now ,2.0 56261,gabrocks omg theres the sunshine i was missing gabbylicious how goes it in brazil beautiful,0.0 56262,is going back to brisbane tonight leave adelaide at not looking forward to it ill miss dad ,2.0 56263,nosliwhtes lucky he must like you p,0.0 56264, thats not nicestop calling hector names haha ,0.0 56265,justineeg a tire hit her in the face hahahahahah oh man it was soo amazing too bad you couldnt go i seriously almost peed my pants,2.0 56266,jonasbrothers how was paris i have a friend out there havent seen him in a year or two i hear its absolutely beautiful take pics,0.0 56267,i want fishsallad but the pizzeria is closed i dislike midsummer for real,2.0 56268,velvetdementia yep tax so to get into any of the disney world theme parks its why locals never go to the parks,2.0 56269,rt ano po yun so sad if evermeng is that one rare beautiful soul she deserves to end up with someone better than m,1.0 56270,rt sumayalovesyou at this point im not afraid of losing people because i wholeheartedly stopped believing that people stay for good id,1.0 56271,hollymontag youre so supportive especially for someone whos sister married a goat and i mean that in the nicest way possible,0.0 56272,ok more loud ladyland on my sennheisers and chores ,2.0 56273,stevecairney damn you figured it out it was indeed from prolonged megan fox wanking sessions ,2.0 56274,im learnin math ,2.0 56275,summers hereim not that excited ,2.0 56276, i has sazzys cruddy disease i feel so sicky,2.0 56277,xdennis okay as long as i get control of the remote p,0.0 56278,i just want to feel better need advicehelp i received some pretty nasty replies from people on reddit before so im hoping this will be a better place to post thingskey word hope im currently years old and need a lot of help i recently got accepted to my dream school and program and have hated every minute of it my depression has hit the lowest its ever been back in october of i was diagnosed with clinical depression at that time too and also suffer from panic disorder i struggle with a couple of social quescommunication skills and a memory deficit that makes it difficult to memorize things i have been through a lot of crappy things within my life and have struggled with self esteem ever since the severe bullying began at a young age thankfully i have a very supportive and kind family who would go through hell and back for me and have kept me from various suicidal thoughts throughout my life i am desperate to find a way to change my mindset for the better i have opened my world to psychologists and additional professional help within my area and i feel so bad for my family for their investments in my overall treatment i know its something i shouldnt feel guilty about but ive been getting professional help since i was only a little girl my older brother on the other hand has been completely fine on a developmental mental and social level my current psychologist said that what i have been doing now is the best therapy to feel better he implements act and mindfulness as a lifestyle to me and i practice mindfulness and meditation every night before going to bed i work endlessly in breaks between my college studies desperate to find new ways to look at life and to love myself the way i am its been really really hard and ive been working really really hard each day i am currently in an arts program but plan to switch majors this next upcoming september i am fixated that i want a salary of a year but struggle severely with maths and sciences which puts me at a disadvantage i am passionate about mental health and helping others but fear that my behaviour is too high strung or unsettling to work one on one with a client i would feel bad for them i was also looking into being a spca officer but the pay isnt very high i havent heard a lot of good about it and dont know if it would help with the fact that i already have an anxiety disorder on my plate it almost feels like all of the potential jobsdegrees play against me for my weaknesses or wouldnt fit in with a salary that wouldnt be equivalent to a fast food chain restaurant i have nothing against people who do work there but i do want to do something else with my life with a worthwhile degree or anything that is of minimum wage again this is not to shun people who do work at these places i have friends who do work at fast food restaurants i just wanted to aim higher and find something to be proud of or achieveable of myselfone final thing i noticed i struggled with recently was a victim mindset instead of turning my past scars into something of strength it seemed to beat me down to a crisp and make me hard on myself always calling myself stupid due to my low grades through all of my schooling life minus grade or finding reason to dislike myself whenever i try to bring myself up with positive affirmations i struggle with finding the supporting evidence that i am good and not bad or a failure for example some people argue i am smart because i managed to make it into college but in my head i am stupid because i cant do maths or sciences and also barely pass my classes with s low si do apologize for the large wall of text i was just curious if anyone has ever been in a similar position or could inform me on what worked best for them in order to find themselves and live a happier life i dont wanna feel numb or hate myself any longer i need help ,3.0 56279,i think my twitter is broken ,2.0 56280,within like minutes i went from feeling bad for no reason gt feeling bad bc i saw something that made me sad gt just missing ,1.0 56281,long lost love does anyone else get sad when you see someone who is cute and you want to be friends with maybe even date but the problem is your out of state then you realize that no one at your school is actually cute then you sit in bed and think about how youll never see them again thats how i get my main source of depression ,3.0 56282,majesticflame it has been sprinkling on and off but thats about all no lightning or thunder bummer ,2.0 56283, like the rest of gop and realdonaldtrump s administration seems bent of political suicide keep ,1.0 56284,you are definitely not alone in this as someone who is struggling with depression myself i thought it would be a good idea to seek for help in this subreddit at first after reading some of the posts i just started crying seeing how many other people are dealing with similar dark feelings and negative emotions my first thought was to quit and watch some funny youtube videos instead to cheer me up but that would only be a short term solution and its just silly but then it dawned on me the realisation that im not alone in this the fact that many other people are struggling as well gives me the strength not to give up to face my fears to acknowledge that i am not lesser than anyone else that i deserve to be loved etci know life can be hard and it always will be but i hope that by writing this i brought a bit of positivity in your life that will strengthen you to keep on goinghave a great day and i genuinely wish everyone whos reading this the very best ,3.0 56285,blstuart finished ours fri even a tsp wash failed to remove leaf tannins from epoxy coat white was poor choice when we resurfaced it,2.0 56286,singing along to some old otown songs while cleaning my flat ,0.0 56287,jaibaybee ohh im babysittin bri ampamp bray my sweethearts ,0.0 56288,cant deal with my anxiety anymore need help my life has fallen apart lately everything kind of went to shit this last months on top of it all going bad im on probation and cant bury myself in weed and alcohol to cope which may be a good thing tbh been dealing with extreme anxiety for about months that leaves me manic all the time and unable to relax literally going crazy in my head because i cant relax at all and havent been sleeping well ive been doing all the right things exercise gym or run everyday doing some stretching working on my future career goals ive tried to do some dating which i probably shouldnt be doing but god knows some sex would get my mind off things but a rather complicated situation with a girl is just adding to my anxiety now so im kinda regretting it i need help what do you guys do to calm down im heavily considering going to a therapist but i dont want to be prescribed drugs to help cope i abuse any drug i get my hand on so it is simply not an option for me does therapy without drug use help you guys a lot do you have any other tips for daytoday relaxingi just cant take feeling like this anymore i get off probation soon and im scared i will start abusing weed and alcohol to cope again because those are the only things that relieve the symptoms but i dont want to be that person anymore that person has no goals no future and lives in apathy ,3.0 56289,nickmileyjonas tss i wish i voted for paramore ,2.0 56290,snigdha i read that ,0.0 56291,what happens when youve tried everything i think its kind of sad that im resorting to a reddit post but here i am ive tried exercising distracting myself with hobbies talking to friends reading meditating and everything in the end it just feels useless because im always afraid of an inevitable relapse or ive exhausted all my energy no matter how much i improve my mood or listen to someones advice the depression is still there people say to be gentle with yourself and dont rush recovery but how do you endure so much pain in the meantime im trying so hard to get myself to do things but it gets harder every day i dont know what im trying to achieve by typing this i guess im just all out of options now and i sincerely dont know what to do,3.0 56292,mrvintagecoolhow much do you pay for new cool tshirt designs congratz on yur success ,0.0 56293,redoing my outline for the novel im focusing on made it through the end of act ii tonight yay im excited about this again ,0.0 56294,doesnt have twitter picture ,2.0 56295,blogdesigner yeah im known for those qualities glad to have you back since youre one of the few left that actually interact on here,0.0 56296,so i would say this weekend was the ultimate but im pretty sure next weekend will dominate i love may ,0.0 56297,i feel more contained and at peace after ten days of brutal crushing anxiety something changed im unwell but feel better now thanks,1.0 56298,jonasbrothers so i sat infront of the radio for over hours straight in hopes i win mmva wristbands just to see you aand nothing ,2.0 56299,i bought a new pen and wanted to try some cursive i just wrote what first came to mind this is what i came to write without even thinking of iti want to die but dont want to be dead i want to be dead but dont want to die i dont want to live anymore but dont want to leave i want all of this to be over so i dont have to be in paid and tired forever but i dont want to leave my family i want to go sleep and never wake up but i dont want to miss tomorrow how is it possible to live with such a drastic duality i cannot stand for this anymore but i have no choice why are there no answers why does every doctor tell me i am healthy or that it is because i am depressed that i am also in pain all i have ever known in my thirty years of life is pain and exhaustion could that not be the root of depression and not the other way around i just want to be well,3.0 56300,httweets how sad,2.0 56301,stuck in a cycle hi everyone im just trying to get some stuff off my chest and dont really know what to do quick background and a minor rant i have an month old daughter and am stuck in a career path that i hate before she was born i wound up in this field because i was a very immature student and didnt finish my degree then when i tried to get into a trade i got stuck behind others who themselves werent passing school so they wouldnt indenture until the other apprentices moved up which non did for two years i made the mistake of disclosing a medical condition to my boss and months later i got moved to a different field i hated it but it was secure although at that company it felt like i was working for free then she came since then ive been in a depression where i feel like a bad parent and husband because i make less than i know im capable of i got a job in the same line of work closer to home so im here an extra two hours a day and making a little more money but i still havent shaken those feelings off there isnt any worse feeling that holding you child and wanting to cry because you feel like youve let her down already i feel directionless and hopeless,3.0 56302,going to take pictures all weekend smile ,0.0 56303,rt michaelwood important not to let your ego get in the way of your mental health its courageous to confide in someone you trust to g,0.0 56304,rt takazchits with the way i am looking for election results update i will be late for work chete nhasi must have been declared a holid,0.0 56305,says he just hurt me ,2.0 56306,going to see the hangover yeeeee,0.0 56307,soo many things to do so little time i wish sleep wasnt necessaryotherwise i would love to stay awake for a week ,0.0 56308,my weekend was fine until about an hour ago i work so saturday morning i get home take my dog out my dog is scared of basically everything were out and all of a sudden she sees another dog before i do and wants to get it my yard is a sheet of ice rn so im struggling to get her to leave the dog alone and get her inside its mind you so no ones out looking for their dog we post on facebook that we find a dog brought it inside cuz its super cold out within an hour the owner was informed and the dog was back home fast forward to today im minding my own business and apparently theres a fire down the road i think nothing of it until im informed that the house belonged to the owner of the dog and the dog was in its cage and the house burned the fuck down the dog was super nice well behaved awesome for the hour i knew him i didnt even know its name until the owner showed up i missed it immediately i took one of the last pictures of that dog and now its gone and i wanna cry,3.0 56309,i have to clean my house today oh messy life ,2.0 56310,i know i make u sad,2.0 56311,jolynthegreat i know right i dont want my insomnia to come back do you still want us to help you on ur paper dress,2.0 56312,dannytrs you have bad taste in films ,2.0 56313,home sunday nights are relaxing just wish we could stave off monday morning ,0.0 56314,has speedrunning helped anyone else so my depression started getting really bad around december or january since around then ive started speedrunning which is basically where you use whatever means necessary to beat a video game as fast as possible idk what it is it just feels good to feel like im relatively skilled at something and its also a good time sink its also cool to have a community of people online with the same interests,3.0 56315,not sure why im here but im here and cant escape too many people depend on me a little backstory im with a wife and child ive been working for the same company for almost a decade and have a pretty decent paying job all the bills are covered i havent been happy with work or my day to day living in years i have no particular skill set other than what my job requires so leaving isnt really an option unless i put my family through hell and start at square one ive contemplated suicide since i was in my teens but always told myself its the cowards way out im stuck between a rock and a very hard place i dont feel like i deserve any kind of happiness i live simply for the fact that other people require me to do so im a burden to my family in every way except financially work has become unbearable and i want to quit but cant too many people around me rely on me to keep my shit together and i just cant i feel my spirit getting weaker and weaker every day cant wait to leave this life of misery ive created for myself,3.0 56316,happy mothers day i love you mom ,0.0 56317,rhettroberts im joyful today getting some things off my chest its very cathartic and ive got the next two days off hows you,0.0 56318,in bed getting an early night shame im not tired ,2.0 56319,nickhexum nick can you write me a nice advice to be strong i need support ,2.0 56320,georgejgerardjr sonyacsa he is doing a good job on his own nothing to see here ,0.0 56321,woo got back from n amezin radio show fuled by cups of coffee but its rainin ,2.0 56322,i have pains again ,2.0 56323,chill ass depression 🤷🏼‍♀️🙃,2.0 56324,tylerh and show some love to windows it changed the computing world as we knew it at the time,0.0 56325,triceypooh yea sureur not sorry cries,2.0 56326,cursedjezzy my dog ate the cat ,2.0 56327,narinaanne youre welcome a friend of fitprosarah is a friend of mine nice to tweet you ,0.0 56328,rybo quotthe word is awesomequot quotryboquot ,0.0 56329,i need advice i told my crush yesterday that i liked her but she rejected me i was kinda expecting it because i dont think anyone would like me compared to other options she was nice about it too but im really sad i have my finals starting on and i cant focus on my studies because of this and my dad got transferred to another state and ill also have to leave my friends and move to a place where i know no onehow do i be happier and forget about these things,3.0 56330,rt relateshitt anxietydepression is scary af you push away everyone that means the most to you and you start to hate the person you are,2.0 56331,jst got back frm the mall fuuck im tired flip side tho other love of my life comes back to me tonight wnt see til tho ,2.0 56332,conan funny but i still miss jay ,2.0 56333,time for head shrinky ,0.0 56334, in the us is am in uk that maen i can tweet till am ,0.0 56335,having a day on the couch hungover ,2.0 56336,something little soo i finally went outside from three days being on the couch andfeeling the air felt nice and i went for a little walk saw the night skyi know its not amazing to some but i felt okay for oncejust wanted to share,3.0 56337,wow im fuckin sad as fuck,2.0 56338,supernatural at on ten counting down ,0.0 56339,i love my bffs they set my standard for what i wanna be when i grow up ,0.0 56340,rt coldbeefbroth ppl that dont like cats are too pussy to live with individualistic personalityfilled technicallynotdomesticated cre,0.0 56341,coacheva thanks for such an uplifting profile page i could feel my vibrations raising as soon as i saw it ,0.0 56342,ddlovato i just had a dream that i was eating sushi with you selena and taylor swift awesome dream ,0.0 56343,rt necation okay i think im good nowmy depressionhttpstcofssbgcwvmn,0.0 56344,rt emoblackthot listening to sad songs when youre already sad gtgtgtgtgtltltltltltltltlt,2.0 56345,even my friends are getting sick and tired of me ive been suffering from clinical depression for months now and it took so much from me ive had irregularities in my behavior ever since and obviously it took the attention of my friends but instead of generally lifting me up it actually made me feel worse ive been having frequent breakdowns at school and i feel like most of my friends are getting sick and tired of me it doesnt help that one of my friends confirmed this by telling me the last time i had a breakdown one of my friends got upset because i still act this way even though theyre trying they keep cheering me up one even just gave me advice to just help myself it feels like they think im using the im depressed as an excuse for every breakdown i have i mean i cant blame them even im getting tired of myself but its not really my fault im suffering what im feeling is it i wish i could change myself in an instant,3.0 56346,peterfacinelli no love for canadamust be us citizen to enter ,2.0 56347,senior year hasnt started and im already stress out 😭,2.0 56348,this life is cruel just need to vent depression has been a part of my life for as long as i can remember its something ive learned to deal with and luckily i have a supportive family but this is something i wont tell anyone i know after being in a year unhealthy relationship i was able to break free for a year after i went a little buck wild and had sex with a lot of different people i always used protection i got tested multiple times and always came up std free i started dating a guy names joe consistently and fell in love he and i didnt work out which crushed me he was my first heart break i started going back to my wild ways and continued my routine of safe sex in steps john he is amazing he is loving he is just as broken as me we fall in love fast we start having unprotected sex cut to a year later and i find out john gave me herpes i havent been able to talk to him about itand he and i arent on best of terms at the moment right after i found out about the herpes joe texts me and we start talking about how we miss each others friendship other guys from my past happen to reach out to me too and i realize that my life is ruined there are a million other things going on that have had my depression flared up but this has put me over the edge i cant believe this has happened to me ive always been so careful i have suicidal thoughts constantly which i havent had in years every other problem in my life has been something that can be fixed herpes isnt something that goes away its permanent how do i live with myself ,3.0 56349,runrva you make me cry,2.0 56350,just landed in texas ,0.0 56351,rt taestychai its sad that people cant even respect another human in their time of suffering humanity really has no hope left,1.0 56352,voteforgrant sad you look a little pale,2.0 56353,willingthrall susanpowter i think an aspirin in the water works better ,0.0 56354,lara is confused ,2.0 56355,karenkougar i worked i got high i jerked off and now i am doing it all againin that order actually how was yours,0.0 56356,lliancornish some sympathy from my husband would be a start have a really sore watery eye ,2.0 56357,vitamin d blood levels are super lowhelp hey fam got my blood work back and my level was when normal is does anyone have a top shelf vitamin d supplement and calcium supplement that would be bioavailable and doesnt need to be combined with anything else it could honestly be in the same pill im just curious what works for everyone else also trying to not find a bunk source,3.0 56358,hopes bum will reach home safely roads are slippery ,2.0 56359,i think nobody really likes me i dont get invited anywhere by friends or even cousins that claim they like me im always the last one to find out about trendy new bars and clubs aside from this i feel like trash because i dont have a job i havent travelled around and all i see is people traveling all over the world and talking about amazing experiences and talking about how all the people they know and how amazing their lives are im and i know year olds that have had much more interesting lives and getting paid i have no real talents all i do is waste my life the economy in my country is trash if i manage to graduate college chances are that ill have a barely there salary im tired of everything i havent accomplished a thing i dont have a girlfriend no one speaks to me unless i speak to them i dont find a single good reason to leave right now i hope anyone can give me some advice or some workaround for my trash life,3.0 56360,do i have depresion again or whats wrong with me why i feel so empty and what should i do to fix things i being felling complety empty recently its been just a few months since i officially recovered from a serious depresion and i am afraid it dindt truly gone awayi dont enjoy anything anymore i dont enjoy playing games anymore i dont enjoy spending time with my parents anymore or my family it doesnt bring me any emotioni have been trying to fill this hole bye reminding myseld the pain of some very bad days and even hurting mysefl just to bloody feel something i felt nothing anyway you be wondering why i choose pain thats is because i dont remember any time i ve been genuily happy in my lifewhat happening to me pleae help mep s sorry for my broken english english is not my first english,3.0 56361,shawneyj yikes im very sorry to hear that shawn must not be fun traveling hope you feel better very soon,2.0 56362,i can hear my bed screaming for me to come home and keep it company two more hours,2.0 56363,rt seoulfuljoy for army on my tl sad bcse some tweets sound like japan dates mean end of tourrememberjapan wasnt end of wingsendin,1.0 56364,dwighthoward im ready for the game but shouldnt you be sleeping,0.0 56365,stephiemtx u sure r a busy lady glad hear ur mom is doing well u have kids right they r adorable ,0.0 56366,willstrohl wow lunch for less than you must be feeling ambitious or not very hungry today ,0.0 56367,sagaciousb so sorry i lost a coworker to a drunk driving accident a month ago its never easy,2.0 56368,jonasbrothers dannymcfly i gotta find you ♥,2.0 56369,lilyroseallen wish i was there its lashing in ireland ,2.0 56370,midasjackson clean me,2.0 56371,my friend is attacking my twitter sorry ,0.0 56372,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 56373,longliveyourdog thank god they dont have recalls ,0.0 56374,thinking about dropping this semester need advice ive been severely depressed as of late things were already bad last semester but this semester just started a month ago and i already feel like theres no way im going to get through it without having a breakdown i dont really have a drive to do anything any more the only solid plan i have now is committing suicide everything feels extremely overwhelming and ive become burnt outmy psychiatrist said at the end of last semester that i could do a medical leave if needbe i havent seen him since because hes moved to farther hospital but im seriously considering going to my uni health center and requesting a medical leave the medicine ive been on doesnt seem to be working well and im being pushed to the edge i was wondering if anyone has any advicehas done this before what can i expect if i go this route if i explain how suicidal i am to my psych what is the likelihood that theyll let me take the time off etc etc,3.0 56375,pdebbie ya who knows ,2.0 56376,getting a filling at the dentist but then ice cream and beach it finally feels like summer,2.0 56377,jonathanrknight welcome back im stuck in jury duty today ,2.0 56378,yayamartinez still up you just went off ,2.0 56379,nice one dropping 💣 💣very candid amp factual pov lots of nuggets to pause and ponder on this threadt ,0.0 56380,eating dinner in my pitch dark garden happy birthday dad hope you like the cake happy birthday grandma i wish i was in manila rn,0.0 56381,venting i dont think i can make it to my first psychologist session since i have no insurance and im relying on the charity of out of pocket payment my first appointment is in may with who i assume is a shrink thats used to the uninsured had a mental breakdown in december and quit my fancy first job out of college now im as good as an invalid living back at home with my folks feeling useless and worthless i am religious — and yet i dont know why sometimes i think god sees us as his toys and if we get lucky were restored and put back in the display box just wrote a goodbye letter tonight in case i will myself to pass away in my sleep — pathetic for me to hope i go peacefully and without a mess but in the event i make it through the night i dont know how ill make it til may im just flowing right now — rambling sorry ,3.0 56382,xbillykillsx i dont know how to tweet pics ,2.0 56383,mao jud ni problema nko kay di jd ko kabalo mo deal ug depression ba yate,1.0 56384,between amp brentscher how would anyone vote for a democrat ignorance and intolerancevery sad,2.0 56385,rip my another nig of mine damn all the good ones wtf ,2.0 56386,found my phone and doing sat prep stuff ,2.0 56387,skypewho got one im bored as hell ,2.0 56388,kinda sad i have no one who will care,2.0 56389, nobody in my family is tall ,0.0 56390,tips for getting through a depressive episode got with a depressive low the other day and im currently trying to recover and get my moodenergy up any tips activities mantras etc,3.0 56391,havent waited for a table at wokano in a long time ,2.0 56392,ravenloonatic i bet we cant wait to see you more ,0.0 56393,bumblebunny im sorry ,2.0 56394,oops sorry tomjgray publishing error fixed thanks for the heads up ,0.0 56395, night steph i sent you a text lol tty tomorrow ,0.0 56396,itsdely ayee sha pow to u too my nigga lol and got damn you and lil mama got them heartbreaker eyes lemme find out,0.0 56397,mtvindia all my wishes ,0.0 56398,mariaisaza i dont know im going to miss her so much ,2.0 56399,friday night and im still studying im such a goodytwoshoes ,0.0 56400, ps i come home on the did you think of something to do to my hair ,0.0 56401,new novao website will be available very soon check httpwwwnovaobe for updates ,0.0 56402,kaittycat aw that sucks i get called maam all the time so i know how it feels ,2.0 56403, ok i apologise probs for the best you dont have sky you wouldnt leave the house lol u watchin celeb wife swap later ,0.0 56404,lifetime depression so i have suffered from depression since i am now been through bullying in highschool since i chose to remain in ghetto school because of friends they have adopted left me i became rogue beatings whole class was making fun of me i hraduted later from bachelor and masters worked abroad and home getting laid was always a problem as you would imagine lots of curious and gay thouhts and desires floatin around without big ass women after all now i was been recently on antidep and alco now i am isolated antisocial suicadal and possibly homicidal in regard of goverment frequenting psychotherapy now everything is taking so long even booze seems not enough no sex circumcised because of trauma if you think you have similar problems please tell me how do i move forward as in my country i hate all the single thing about it yet got disapointed about living abroad to do anything as chores finance taxes plan possible vacasions is sooo hard to start i would like just drink my self and eat pizza and mcdonalds to death i am also poor comparing to western standarts,3.0 56405,i dont feel like going out anymore im just not in the mood,2.0 56406,please dont let me wake back up in hell ive been severely depressed and anxious for twelve years now and was by far the worst year i came closer to suicide than ive ever been by some miracle this afternoon i began to feel ok not happy necessarily but ok safe secure whole clear minded me really truly me for the first time in god knows how long maybe the first time ever i think it may be the new thyroid meds i started a few days ago i truly hope so because im sitting here still awake because im terrified yet not really the thoughts are there but my body is calm im going to wake back up in hell im writing this as a success story a time capsule and a plea for support depending on who i am when i wake up if you pray please pray for me and if not wish me luck tomorrow is either the next day in the rest of my life or a reminder that this world is truly a cruel joke goodnight,3.0 56407,going to bed time for two and a half men and sleep ,0.0 56408,mental health survey hi im not sure if im allowed to do this but im currently in grade and i have to do a survey since i chose to do mental health and how it can relate to sexual orientation and ethnic background i thought it might fit hereplease serious answers only,3.0 56409, we will look into it tomorrow at least guildwarsde is me ,0.0 56410, itll be a sad day for endemol ,2.0 56411,the anxiety came back out of nowhere and now im afraid i have to quit all i worked for in march of the anxiety and first burnout symptoms occurred i combined a career with a parttime masters study and that did not work out well for my wellbeing i ended up fully burned out in november lost my job in januari because of it and was declared not fit for work by various doctors until october i worked really hard to get back on track which resulted in me having the best job ever how they treat there employees here is really rare however last week out of nowhere a severe anxiety attack hit me again i had to cancel a family birthday that night because of it i really hoped it was just a onetimeonly thing you know one of those signals the body gives when youve gone too far and drained your battery however it lastedthe scary thing is that i do not have a clue what caused it i started working a day less so i have a three day weekend in which i totally relax my worklife balance is near perfect i make good money and i finished my masters im in a luxurious position for which a lot of people woud kill seriously i do not have a clue how this shit got back in my head again and that scares me because if you dont know the cause you dont know how to threat ithow do you guys handle shit like this,3.0 56412,thats so sad to hear about tae and his family i hope he will be okay 😔,0.0 56413,vlegand looking great iain you can never get ready early enough when it comes to stuff like that p,0.0 56414,i cleaned the cpu fan and the back of my power supply lots of dust dont have a system fan at all still loud ,2.0 56415, nall baby popular qoutables we know ,2.0 56416,can you help me reduce my paranoia please need help i have had issues with anxiety in the past which i have worked on a lot to minimize never used medication but i have benefited from self help nutritional supplements mindfulness mediation and other techniques i have really got a lot of this under control but i still have mild anxiety ocd and some mild depression during stressful times one area that really still affects me from time to time is extreme paranoid thoughts they haunt me its debilitating its drives me crazy its something that i cannot get rid of for example the following thoughts can come upwill i get injured and become handicappedwhat if i get diagnosed with some major disease like cancerwill i wake up blind one morningwhat if someone does something to me to make me publicly shamed and ridiculedis there a hidden camera in my hotel roomwill i be framed and end up an innocent man in jailis somebody conspiring to harm mewill some hacker get into my bank account and rob me of my life savingswhat if my house burns downthis is just a partial list because the list is endless i know that logically most of these things wont happen this is not an issue of logic and reason its much deeper than thatcan anybody provide some advice do you ever experience thoughts like this what are some of your paranoid thoughts sometimes hearing from others helps as it makes me realize i am not the only one to experience stuff like this i know its irrational so dont point that out lol any help would be appreciated,3.0 56417,jonnyoutlaw i am curious and jealous ,0.0 56418,also there are so many priests here i have anxiety,2.0 56419,thought for today if shes quotnaturalquot on the outside then more than likely she has a quotpermquot on the insidethink about it ,0.0 56420,loves eastlink mins from blackburn rd to eastlink on high street rd mins to ringwood ,0.0 56421,please tell me this is all a dream and ill wake up tomorow to find that summer break has just begun please ,2.0 56422,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 56423,driftingstars okays im going niiiight ,0.0 56424,but just gotta thank god cause i know it couldve been worse girls night out turned into chanels week in ,2.0 56425,morning everyone and happy startofweek waiting in for another hour delivery window today oh unbridled joy ,0.0 56426,justinmaller ahh man its to bad that every wp is maximum i need some ones,2.0 56427,urgh doing maths homework ,2.0 56428,my son just woke up ,0.0 56429,sachindalal sorry i dont work for better place just went to the movies and noticed the recharging station ,0.0 56430,crippling depression my cat has end stage kidney disease shes and has had a wonderful life i dont have children shes my everything shes hiding as do sick cats i am devastated wonderful years yet im focusing on her last few days does anybody whos been through this have any advice tyia,3.0 56431,vincentstinks sounds like a plan ,0.0 56432, male not sure what to do with his life so to make it clear i do not suffer from depressions i live kinda normal mature life have a gf place to livesleep have an average job in a bank have university title etcmany would say that i have all the reasons to be happy to a certain extent i agree my problem lies somewhere elsei dont do things i like the problem is i do not know what i like during my whole life i started myriads of different activities i was doing sports working as a fitness trainer bartender cook assistant an agent in an export agency data analyst marketing assistant i tried to become a professional video gamer a journalist wrote a book and created a board game i even started my own businesses an eshop and a consulting company for foreigners in my country all those things within between my and still i was unable to find something i would feel attached to everything i try looks like the right choice but after a few months i find out that i do not like it anymore i start feeling depressed and i just can not continue doing iti envy all those people saying my whole life i knewi would become a journalistbusinessmandoctor on the other hand i never knew what i want to do when i was a child and my parents asked me what i wanna do my answer was different everytime an architect so i can create huge buildings a doctor so i can save my parents once they feel bad a lawyer cause lawyers are very clever a freelance journalist cause i want to travel a lotit was changing every day and so far i was unable to find what i like i tried so many things in my lifethe problem is that i am always starting from the beginningit is starting to be a problem cause this way there is no future in front of me i will just keep restarting my life over and over again and by the time the others will become top managers or will have children i will restart my life for the time finding nth new job and xth new gf i just do not know myself during those i was unable to find what i like,3.0 56433,rainy day today no car so were stuck in the house i needed to go to the post office toobastards,2.0 56434,rt burakkuhaanii tw rape suicide abuse do not watch that gangnam beauty drama yall one of the pds was on the list jang jayeon made of,2.0 56435,rorzshach what up what happened ,2.0 56436,mmph kant get a pic up ,2.0 56437,mrsythe i dont care what you say im towing the official line twitter is public and searchable ,0.0 56438, hes so perfect again is the most amazing movie of the world ,0.0 56439,a post of everything heres whats about to happen you are about to hear every thought that goes through my head every problem from running to suicide are you ready lets do this shit my name is ian i am and just so happened to be born female which is only slightly relevant and crappy that too i have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression ive been to the er for three stitches i have phycho burned into my arm i am months clean from self harm and the withdrawal symptoms are starting to fade i have never done drugs and only drink occasionally i have friends i guess there are other boys that i mostly hang with and they treat me like one of the guys thats another story background✅speaking of friends i have one named ryan he is my age smokes weed and makes a bunch of dick jokes he is a nice kid he just makes shitty life choices the thing is i am simultaneously starting to hate him and also become really attracted to him i thought i was straight but i also knew that that could change i even had a dream last night that we hooked up crazy shit it was pretty hot tho so now i want to punch him and start making out with him lovely this part im on the fence about writing but i said id share everything i used to be really tight with these boys mayz and carlo but now mayz is a dick and i just want carlo to me happy like he deserves mayz gets offended by literally everything and makes him being gay into a whole big thing which actually makes me hate being queer at my school because i suddenly become some flag waving pride marching sensitive little cunt and carlo with his torturous split personalities and insomnia i just want him to be healthy hes so caring on that queer note i came out to my family and friends recently about how im really a guy my brother and dad are great my friends almost never slip up and my mom is still a bitch she fucking gets it wrong on purpose anywho on a slightly happier note i started running again i went miles but not very fast i felt great a question i like to ask friends is if someone gave you a pill right now and all you had to do was take it and you would go painlessly and instantly would you take it they all say no i would take it in a heartbeat im done just done another thing about me i crave intense and unhealthy friendships it all started year later ago when she and i became friends pia suddenly we were inseparable we went from mere classmates to so close that we literally kept each other alive ill never forget those minutes in my backyard tears streaming down my face because i was about to lose my other half i talked her down then and her to me then i left i couldnt bear it anymore so i walked away i left her she ended up fine but i never did now whenever i make a friend it gets really intense really fast and then i lose it all ive been abandoned and heartbroken too many times to count i dont even remember how i did it to her so i just flail around hoping something will work im so broken that its no longer real friendship unless were so close its suffocating carrying so much were in physical pain i can never have a healthy relationship ever again i am toxic toxic toxic toxic toxic now you know me mostly its motherfucking awful and i despise what my life has become leave a comment or dont whatever especially about the first issue i could us assistance tldr lazy cunt go read it the end,3.0 56440,brian cat still hasnt shown upi feel sad and sick im afraid hes been eaten by something it doesnt look good ,2.0 56441,i dont want to be up right now its too early for me i need more than six hours of sleep ,2.0 56442,protesterhelp first link doesnt exist ,2.0 56443,upgrading my blackberry device hopefully it fixes more then it screws up to with html email yee ha,0.0 56444,take one step forward steps back just seems like whenever i reach a nice spot in my life the moment i think everything will start changing im knocked back to a far worse spot that i was previously financially physically emotionally spiritually am i alone in this,3.0 56445,rt wineandbitch me im feeling really depressed today why are you depressed me because i have depression,2.0 56446,parents making my depression worse my father keeps telling me that im useless ornot worth our timethat makes me even more depressed im not gonna make it through ,3.0 56447,thelane oh poor you sounds horrid ,2.0 56448,just found out one of the german girls deleted me of her german myspace thing ahh what the heck im cut ,2.0 56449,bobbergh glad youre feeling better now if we could sort out this weather wed all be better ,0.0 56450,doesnt want school to be over so the pm work shifts can keep ending at ,2.0 56451,ha i got nudged wtff lol sickkk finally got my mc café thanks to lulu ,0.0 56452,smiling these guys are turn up your speakers and smilelife is good httpwwwimtiredonlinecomsmile,0.0 56453,yay my phone is charged again woot woot celebrate ,0.0 56454,yesterday in school we learned how useless twitter isfunny huh ,0.0 56455,amykate yep but i dont really count that its only on for an hour and not particularly exciting ,2.0 56456,rt deepestmessages find someone who knows youre sad just by the change of tone in your voice and be with someone who loves the feature,1.0 56457,thelindalam i love how your always doing this ,0.0 56458,kids are taking turns with fever ,2.0 56459,rustyrockets its my birthday on saturday may i have some early love perhaps interactive presents kisskiss xxxxxxxx,2.0 56460,ive given myself an arbitrary deadline i have decided that if my life goes nowhere in the next x months i will finally end it its a date that is constantly looming over the back of my mind and itll be there for a whileit is looking dark ahead boys,3.0 56461,forcelearning at the moment too much to comprehend with too little time ,2.0 56462,the crashing wave stagnant water is where i float when i begin my day but be careful for anything can disrupt this feeling the tears from the sky as they look upon me forming into a ripple effect dripdripdrip whats this a storm no this is the huge wave of despair pain agony my petals can not with stand this for i will rip and fall apart why is this happening why is the ocean taking hold me like a victim strapped in a car crash boom here comes the thunder crash crash oh no the sky is grown in gloom and gray the winds howl and send shivers down my spine i realize im gasping and clawing at my throat oh no this is it im going to drown please someone anyone here my sorrows flood your ears like a song birds hymn as i start to lose the hope that once rested amount me it stops they sky clears and i can breath once more i examine my petals and they are intact and radiating with color so bright here i was overwhelmed with doom but here i float to take in the rays so fine once more ,3.0 56463, i saw that too id be terrified if my dog fell in the pool and couldnt swim like that ,2.0 56464, i had false expectations ,2.0 56465,mileycyrus so u on mtv movie awards lol u were great and u looked fab i love the way u said robert pattinson on your show,0.0 56466,has to wait hours before i can eat anything ,2.0 56467,i feel empty and lonely and i cant take it anymore hi everyone im not sure whats wrong with me to point out something specific in nature but i do know that im not happy or content with thingswarning this might be a long postim doing engineering currently i do enjoy the course its difficult but its something that i enjoy to an extent and im hoping to go further into audio engineering music is the most important thing in existence to meim lonely and im unhappy with how i am gained weight and looking worse by the day im quite confident and popular at my university and i do well in studies i have friends who care for me and love me for who i am i have supportive parents and while were not rich or well off by any means were okay and were doing fine yet im still unhappy i had a girlfriend of years deeply in love as she was the first and only person ive loved in my life she helped me through some of the toughest points of my life and she made me the person i am today weve split due to being forced to live in places that are thousands of miles apart with no sight of the future or if we could ever meet again the breakup hurt badly i was lonely feeling empty broken and grieving time heals everything and it did the same tomorrow will mark years from the last time i saw her and i can feel my heart ache as i write this down i feel empty and lonely every single day ive moved on now to an extent atleast and ive grown out of that yet i still have so much love to give and so much affection to pour yet i have no one to share it to i fall in love with different people everyday with strangers with random people on the train i make up scenarios in my head and break my own heart again only a shell of what i used to be as a person i feel ive lost my passion for things except for playing music she taught me how to play the ukulele and i moved onto play the guitar bass piano and sitar and im okay at all of them tbh just not excellent but it doesnt matter either i enjoy it ive lost my passion for other things too i dont have the energy to watch movies or draw or read or text anymore a few months ago i met another girl totally different from my ex but still a good person we hit it up well started dating quickly and broke up just as quick mainly to our fault we went in too quick and i went in with the thought of yeah i finally have a girlfriend and not yeah i have her as my girlfriend its bad and itll only ruin things but i did it anyway got hurt started getting worse than before and went down a very bad path of selfharm in non violent and physical ways i dont wanna die but i dont have much to live for either whats a life if i cant give all the love in me to someoneim tired of being lonely and feeling empty im tired of being the popular person but having no one to talk to at the end of the day other than my housemates im tired of falling in love with strangers at the bus stop because i dont receive the love i give im tired of staying up till listening to the same songs on repeat expecting some magical lover to pop up i loved her more than i ever loved myself and when she left i lost the part of me i loved the most and now i only feel like a cracked shell im tired of being me im tired of all of itgoodnight reddit youve been kind this might be one of my last posts thank you for everything has made this a good excuse im still in the process of thinking but yeah the quarantine didnt change much either i feel like im at a mental impasse where nothing affects me anymore other than my own mind quarantine okay last minute stress okay hungry nothing to eat okay i just dont feel things anymore and it hurts not feeling anything except an unfillable empty void,3.0 56468,its hard seeing someone thats your friend be sad and not be sad too,2.0 56469,okay guilt over crazytweeting over im baaaaaaaaaack ,0.0 56470,cutemonsterchik sleeping leave me be lol then work then studying for my logic final ,2.0 56471,hes online and he said katie is awesome fuck him ,2.0 56472,taking over tylers role in the family ,0.0 56473,well i think we are both dieing i hope tomorrow is better for both of us ,2.0 56474,jullyblack lol i cant sleep y r u still up u had a long day,2.0 56475,matineeidyll honey im a big poof lol i dont like it either but its true u and i can be novononrednecks together lmao,2.0 56476,rt troubledpoc i met haqiem rusli at starbucks earlier 😅 i asked him why did he faked his depression then he threw his iced americano a,2.0 56477,i just get so sad sometimes knowing that giraffes are considered a vulnerable species,0.0 56478,sad that postsecret doesnt have sunday secrets anymore ,2.0 56479,rt nasirpasir johan nora kenapa tak buat kiki challengenora danish nanti depression kena kecamzizan jangan risau kalau kita d,2.0 56480,happy birthday redfrettchen sucks about the bike ,2.0 56481,woe its definitely no fun to travel first class with a bike you have to fight your way through coaches til you reach your seat ,2.0 56482,syedansar actually thats not true its better to eat small amount of food just before your hungry we eat a lot more when hungry ,0.0 56483,omg hi ive sprained my ankle i didnt see a step and now i went over on my ankle and it hurts ,2.0 56484,sonyasunshine i love you,2.0 56485, im sorry that their issues have to affect you hun ,2.0 56486,mannn i gotta go home now ughhh see ya laterz hollywood ,2.0 56487, no luck no one has responed yet i dont think anyone crossed their fingers for me lol come on people this is a team effort lol,2.0 56488,i love when my trainer leaves the room for a half hour ,0.0 56489,kafkasdad chieffhg you both need mental health,2.0 56490,quoti dont ever want to not talk to you if that makes sensequot what a difference a year makes ,2.0 56491,igiveyouhell lol thats cool i finished your drawing ,0.0 56492,getting out of bed for work for the gym was out of work from june until last monthout of work as in working service industry for little money finally got a job again which has helped a lot but presenting a new challenge of being able to get out of bed in the morning get myself to the gym im a very active guy and am in good shape but this could get away from me really quickly any advice on how any of you have combatted this would be greatly appreciated ,3.0 56493,rain has stopped sun is out packing up tools amp plants and heading for the allotment ,0.0 56494,i got a smile on my face it wont seem to go away i like this feeling ,0.0 56495,gwenartax yay for your show boooo for no no doubt ,2.0 56496,i want to go to japan following ��면� but i am poorwhat a sad humanbeing i am ,2.0 56497,plaid pantry sells stale swishers ,2.0 56498, thanks for the kind words how much do i owe you for saying this again ,0.0 56499,philonbob good morning to all of you who won the birthday game cannot get you on my radio at my desk ,2.0 56500,rainy day ,2.0 56501,mcflymusic we had to send a lot of messages to the members of mcfly but nobody answer us ,2.0 56502,lexxnicolec even bad bitches have sad girl hours,1.0 56503,walking with alison ,0.0 56504, aikatsu literally helped me overcome a period of strong depression it sounds silly but im absolutely serious about it,2.0 56505,rt if you suffer with depression there is always helpplease call if your ever suicidalrip suicideawareness ,2.0 56506, sad that todays the last day ,2.0 56507, good dayitll be nice for you all to swim ,0.0 56508,i had a game tennis and now im resting ,0.0 56509,rt griffithuni griffithuni research has found being active increases the mental health and wellbeing of australian uni students 🏃 https,0.0 56510,jdar every party has a pooper today its you hehe,0.0 56511,so im not allowed to have mental health issues and love myself at the same time right okay boo,0.0 56512,life isnt fair fuck this shit ive been suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts for a while now and the only person who ever cared for me was my aunt she passed a few days ago and i dont know what to do with my life,3.0 56513,so ebay went down just as i decided to buy this item argh i just want my wonder woman weekend bag already ,2.0 56514,flnonficwriter he does soooo cute,0.0 56515,rt jeoncrack me why u sad joon httpstcoxnkbzzxgkp,2.0 56516,smilingalmost the wkend sooo excited,0.0 56517,oh mannnparents sending me to beddybyes night,2.0 56518,the house i was looking at buying has dropped in price by � so tempted but not the best of timing it has an indoor pool tho ,2.0 56519,rt medpedschomilo would be forced to reduce mental health services amp providers would have to cut school nurses counselors amp oth,1.0 56520,back from my mils house makes me realize how much i miss watching tv lol seems like such a luxury when you dont have it ,2.0 56521,mamoxn zbc needs a serious revamp its a sad story electionszw,2.0 56522,sterre i love you ² you know was so fun ,0.0 56523,kirstiealley of course wilde ones and youre one of them hugs,0.0 56524,would like to stay up and watch mamma mia but going to bed as stevereynolds is up at for grand prix no lay in for me ,2.0 56525,thanks to the virus my routine is gone that was keeping me stable before all this i used to go to karate go to counseling and go to the library on a weekly basis i was in the process of looking for another job since the job i have now isnt cutting it anymore i had that routine in place to keep me sane in between my job i work for elderly people with disabilities in their homes once this quarantine is over i worry that people are going to scramble to look for jobs making my job hunt even harder i know many people are in the same situation as i am i hear the phrase self quarantine is the ultimate sacrifice for recovery a lot now theres people that got laid off or people at home without pay i should be grateful that im still in this job and theres a need for it without sugarcoating it taking care of people just sucks compassion fatigue is a real thing i was also looking for scholarships on an almost daily basis too i applied for graduate school and i was supposed to hear back from them in april this past week ive just been laying in bed playing nothing but animal crossing im not trying to beat myself up over playing video games since i dont really make time to play anyway its the laying in bed part all the time thats starting bug me now,3.0 56526,at the apple store in pioneer place getting the ear speaker on my iphone replaced ,0.0 56527,maybe i would be better if i were a dog or any other animal only humans have a brain that can think maybe if i were any other animal even only living to survive i wouldnt suffer because of my thoughts anything bad would come of outside,3.0 56528,this time of year kills me i mean that almost literally the world just seems draped in a sadness that drives me into a melancholy ennui of hopeless boredom and loneliness a few years ago i drank so much that i was found in the snow not breathing and was in a coma for three days last year i attempted suicide i have been sober for over a year now and have been diagnosed as bipolar ii but this depression pushes me to my limits,3.0 56529,i dont want to have friends and family i really hate myself for that thoughtbut it would be so much easier to finally kill myself without them,3.0 56530,been skipping classes for months now ive never been clincally diagnosed so i feel like posting here is an excuse but theres obviously something wrong here right everyday i feel awful about skipping my classes but i just cant go more so now that ive skipped fricking months of themi want to fix myself but i have no one to talk to im scared that it would stress them or even worse they would just take it as a jokeive emailed a counselor and made an appointment next week but im not sure if im going to go to that either,3.0 56531,todays mynroe posts motdlotdvotd carries the theme amp discussion of black mental health its time we stop the stigma 💞,2.0 56532,tired of being tired im so tired everybody tells you to go on dont lose this fight but ive been fighting for years im too young for this shit im so damn tired of fighting im tired of having to go on im tired of trying but i dont want to be tired i wanna be succesful i dont want to be known as the loser i wanna be useful as hecc i just wanna be accepted idk what im saying at this point i dont even care every time i think i feel happy theres that rotten feeling inside me that just lingers then it gets bigger and bigger and now i feel alone it was worse back then but that doesnt mean that what i feel right now isnt bad i mean im so desperate for someone to understand me that im actually complaining on reddit i dunno i hope this gets over soon,3.0 56533,browntowers blog not found ,2.0 56534,squarespace i cant believe my mom beat me to an iphone ,2.0 56535,singleyep i am lol ,0.0 56536,why am i such a fing failure ive failed two exams now one i was surprised by the other one not so much this was my last chance now i have to retake the courses and ill have to take a semester extra to finish my degree why cant i just get a fing win im such a failure ive probably failed my other exam too and ill probably fail the one im taking in a couple of weeks i wish i could just run away but i would still have to pay rent or move out so running away would be too much work i need to study but its difficult to focus now and difficult to find the motivation but i really need to get this one right,3.0 56537,just realized my butt pockets are still wet fail,2.0 56538,faddy are you looking for a homebased job would you like to offer your services please or dm me ill try to help you find work ,0.0 56539,kindness in people hi redditbasically i just made an alternate account just to post this i havent really used this for things but id like to share my thoughts with people just so i could see other peoples perspective and dont have the opportunity to do in real life there are so many things that i want to summarize in this one singular post just but ill try my best to express myself clearly ive had depression for at least a decade now and ive been in situations where my mental health had deteriorated where ive been in a really bad place but right now i guess im just feeling empty i cant really describe itjust to start off i would like to describe just some things about myself im a very introverted person and i dont really have irl friends and i had zero friends in high school i never had any college life because i kind of had like an online school thing if only i can use this as an ice breaker somehowmy dilemma is that id like to go out of my comfort zone to try to be socially active in any chances that i can be but i always have this thought that holds me back i have had some life experiences that made me the person that i am today and with that whenever i come in contact to a stranger there is always this thought that comes up in my head and sees it as something of a priority always remember try to detect good in people what i meant by that to see kindness in people with the way they talkspeak the way they react to things that i say etc whenever i just hear something offputting like lets say they said something purely critical or something judgmental i just try to cut loose i suppose that explains some things about the no friends storyi try to find time and reflect if this is just an issue that i have that i just have to improve and get rid off maybe im just thinking just purely about myself that im just crazy about this and not thinking about others think too to also try to understand but in the end of the day i always end up at the same conclusion maybe im just seeingknow wrong ones in the wrong place in the wrong time seeing the trait of selflessness the importance and the mutual feeling of empathy is somehow i always desperately try to find in people that i seeknowmeet and i always seem to fail i dont know if its trust issues its kind of close but i feel like its not that precisely in essence maybe what im looking for is to have a kind of meaningful friendships in general but in the current situation that i am in right now which would take another long post to fully contextualize haha and i dont want to sound so pessimistic its unlikely to happenthere is not enough words to describe this feeling that i have at the moment and its the loneliest feeling yetif theres anyone here who had in this similar situation as i am id like to ask for your advice sorry if theres any errors here english is not my first language thank you,3.0 56540,my entire life is for shit if i had to describe my childhood in a word it would be short i spent the first ten years of m y life being beaten and tortured like a wild animal spent the next returning the favor by the time i was i was selling drugs fencing stolen property charging new kids in the neighborhood protection money doing armed robberies doing insurance jobs and collection for gangs which meant sometimes even beating and torturing people for money i look at my three children the two failed marriages they came from and wonder if they wouldnt be better off without me im not the same person i was then ive never beaten my children or any woman ive been in a relationship with but ive still done terrible things and i dont think i can ever change what i am deep down inside even a black panther still has his spots in the right light i once swore that my fathers hate would end with me and sometimes i feel like the only way for that to happen is for me to be gone i have love in my heart but sometimes the hatred outweighs it i am frankensteins monster covered from head to toe in scars inside and out i want to love and be loved but life has taught me to fear and hate i want to trust but my own father told me never to trust anyone especially your own father my own mother told me she wished she had an abortion looking back at my youth i cant say i blame her,3.0 56541, this may help ,0.0 56542,rt wndertrev broo rocket literally lost everything holy sht im sad over the life of a cgi raccoon now httpstcogpyxqbmwvm,2.0 56543,bubulan u cant choose whos ur parents its a gods gift deal it baby theres must be good in there well im going to la at bu ,2.0 56544,communicating is hard i dont why its so hard for me to respond to texts when im feeling bad i guess this is what it means when people say that depression takes away your friends and family lol the thing is ive been working on a lot of selfhealing and even though i know that recovery is a linear process i feel like im focused on a time frame its like i wont get there when people are constantly distracting me and asking me to do stuff i feel remorse about it sometimes but i really just need to pay attention to myself right now if people hate me for my distance even after ive told them what im going through well thats on them,3.0 56545,dwpoyner its still not showing up in the store ,2.0 56546,ugh sats are going to suck but relay for life after ,0.0 56547,rt enchiladad so apparently my theme this summer is gonna be depression,1.0 56548,have some hindi gumbo ,0.0 56549,rickyxfuller wish i could ,2.0 56550,i feel like i am the only quottwittererquot not on tweetdeck ,2.0 56551,tangoastor enchiladas beans and ricemmmm ,0.0 56552, btwwhat does mean wildflower,2.0 56553,mileycyrus the picture of you on the grass was cool lol u look really peaceful remember things isnt always as bad as they seem u rok,0.0 56554,rt motlagae the south african depression and anxiety group details ,2.0 56555,basilleaf an update tweetie was submitted to apple on the i believe hasnt been approved ,2.0 56556,siope havent had one of those in a long time ,2.0 56557,missrogue wow that is an awesome review carry it with you everywhere laminate it read it when downjust plain cool ,0.0 56558,i hate myself for the choices ive made i drank too much last night and stayed over at a friends place my bf is going to his parents place and doesnt want to talk to me i feel like such a fuckup for drinking too much and i think hes done with me ive been extremely upset all day and when i get off work im going home to an empty place i feel like i should just kill myself because i am a problem,3.0 56559,rt jameelajamil all i can say about this mornings extremely sad instagram stories from the kardashians is this post i wrote about what,2.0 56560,i feel worthless i keep chasing people who dont give a fuck about me its so stupid kind of wish i could just pull this feeling out of me its kind of like a curse or some shit keeps me from moving on causes me a lot of self hatred i feel like im never good enough for anyone and its killing me with all seriousness i simply cannot gasp what is the issue with me i keep falling over and over again like a total idiot and it makes me so mad i genuinely thought things would be different this time i was wrong i would elaborate more but im tired anyway thanks for reading,3.0 56561,nopejust kidding glad i never see him anymore ,2.0 56562,rt camtoolit really missing xxxtentacion right now no sad shit goodnight,1.0 56563, stay in vegas as long as you like no need to get ready for the season ,0.0 56564,chantelleaustin ha ha shell probably think she should be higher up in that list but i dont care shes still in bed ,0.0 56565,i want my skin to be back to normal and why the fuck wont my face tan,2.0 56566,dannygokey oh dannybeautiful pic im so sorry about ur lost im sure that jesus will comfort ur heartill pray u ,2.0 56567,mileycyrus this is silly but i had a dance tryout on friday amp i find out today if i made it could you wish me luck amp pray for me please ,0.0 56568,work ,2.0 56569, depression myths we need to stop believing ,2.0 56570,being a dick makes you more happy sometimes i look at all those cunts who constantly torment others and hold themselves up like kings with their obnoxious smiles on their face and wonder jeez they sure look carefree for taking away others happiness lately ive been wondering if i were able to live a second life being a huge asshole would i be as whimsical and selfloving as them,3.0 56571,everyone tells me i talk too much everyone tells me i talk too much and im annoying is it better to just not talk at all when i do that people seem to forget about me any advice i personally dont think i talk too much or am annoying but who am i to say,3.0 56572,seeing the hangovr legal r movie and i didnt get carded epic fail i look old ,2.0 56573,i miss all the guys ,2.0 56574,gassho haha well im just in the mood never hurts to laugh a bit ,0.0 56575,texas go home youre drunk we broke record high of like thats something to be proud of to make ,1.0 56576,put some rose oil on my face skinpromised that it makes you look better yeah ,0.0 56577,just stopped a fight outside my house stupid fn kids i had one of them pinned on the floor waiting for cops to come they thanked me ,0.0 56578,was passiert bei stress in ihrem gehirn lernen sie wie sie konstruktiv intelligent und spontan mit sprache punkt ,0.0 56579,slightsarcasm yeah well you have had it longer so shush burst my little bubble ,2.0 56580,sucked in heather sewage bath xp and poor owen in the bear total drama island,2.0 56581,lost lonely and broken in cinci ,2.0 56582, year anniversary this tuesday will be me and my wifes year anniversary last month she left me moved to a different town and barely talks to meim still in a state of shock over it i miss her so much and dont know what to do my depression is keeping me from doing almost anything i used to enjoyi know i wont get to see her tuesday and that makes it so much harderif anyone has any advice that may help i welcome it i just feel kind of dumb holding out hope that shed come home,3.0 56583,rt sometimes we have a hard time telling sad boys no fuck it im too sad to handle rejection is a form of manipulation,2.0 56584,i miss my sucks its broke,2.0 56585, i know excited silas is really yummy too haha ,0.0 56586,santorini deserves its reputation i really dont want to go home today ,2.0 56587,im going to die soon i dont know when but i can feel it im young only years old but years of bpd and severe depression has weighed my mind body and spirit down like it was filled with rocks everyone around me just sets me up to knock me back down and i can just feel myself sinking to me its just not worth the pain i find it quite pointless to even be here suffering i find it selfish that i cant walk into a hospital and be killed they dont have to live with the thoughts i do every day and theres no way to make them understand no i have to blow my brains out in a bloody mess everything is overwhelming i cry for days straight then no emotion for a few its just a repeating cycle im sitting on the edge my feet dangling down and all i have to do is push off whatever it is thats stopping me is slowly dwindling and its a very sad blissfulness ,3.0 56588,last day of med school sooo excitedwaitin to find out where im gonna go for extern no pay ,2.0 56589,yay on the way to south beach too bad the weather sucks right now hopefully it will clear up,2.0 56590,drinking oj like crazy i cant get sickbut i feel it coming ,2.0 56591,ffs wtf was this i thought i broke my iphone for a second ,2.0 56592,get ready to come see me at the hospital tomorrow thats probably where ill be ,2.0 56593,grantswilson its my birthday tomorrow and my name is britt lol,0.0 56594,is it home time yet ,2.0 56595,girlsgonechild yes finish it but the end wont be as good as the rest of it glad i read it nevertheless prosehos,2.0 56596,probably gonna wake up around noon again damn i need a job ,2.0 56597,bradpickens meganwagner me too maybe fp gave us the sickness,2.0 56598,buffalogold wow ive never done that or tried to only yousure wish i was going to hang out with you guys next week ,2.0 56599,cdsmilez just ran out it was good they be mad when we run out,2.0 56600,rt fordm bruce wayne how can i rid this city of crimealfred mental health care access economic development gun reg—bruce bring m,1.0 56601,getting my nails done and lunch with mom and sister ,0.0 56602,slumber party tonight round of truth or dare in queue ,0.0 56603,i have hope but i am doing bad feel like such a bad person that i have to cover who i am and what ive done i am a shell i find it so hard to fake confidencehappiness i need a fucking wake up call jolt thing and im gonna have to give it to myself,3.0 56604,i just learned that omar is moving away sooner than planned hes leaving this sunday ,2.0 56605,depression may be expressed in ways others dont expect such as rage or despair or it may be completely hidden ,2.0 56606,queennx heeeey thaaaanks im soooooooo happy now dont forget following greggarbo ,0.0 56607,rt michelenull letting go of ai anxiety how machines amp humans together will transform futureofwork slackhq ,1.0 56608,going back home from hypermart ,0.0 56609,help needed i just lost my top and botoom toolbarsthe top one reappears if i move my mouse up the top of the screen help please ,2.0 56610,in post office queue ,2.0 56611,vannavii lmao thank you ,0.0 56612,what the hell is happening in the formula damnnnnnn and what now ,2.0 56613,rt netizenbuzz its true no one can understand the feelings of someone who chose to commit suicide,0.0 56614,is in agony with his back again think will spend the rest of the day lying down,2.0 56615,someone to talk too idk if its allowed in here but idk where else to go butt i kinda need to talk my ig is mysticnacs,3.0 56616,emmjay yummy i will fly on my magic rug and come over for dinner aladdin style ,0.0 56617,saw kittens want to eat them annoyed about sandals and on the hunt for dresses,0.0 56618,kalebnation goodnessfinally not that we havent seen it like times already ,0.0 56619,ewww one of the small campers just put melted chocolate in my hairyou see what i get for leaving the office and try to be helpful ,2.0 56620,life is pointless i want to die i dont want to graduate from high school or go to college or get a job or get married or have kids cuz whats the point anywayswhy do i keep on livingwhat am i living foryeah u would say i live for my friends and family and people love me and there are good moments in life and blah blah but do i have a purpose unattached to anything or anyone just maybe a clear purpose or point to any of this i just really really really want to die and i dont know if this feeling will ever go away,3.0 56621,jodymeyer dafug that one would be a lot closer now wouldnt it ,0.0 56622,the fear of friendship so does anybody else have this thing where you make a friend and the minute they leave you on read for seconds or dont act like an excited puppy around you you panic and assume they hate you and realise its because everything you think about yourself is truebecause every single timemaybe im just crazy who knows,3.0 56623,kylesays im so sorry my brother needed me i missed you amp i was super sad im sorry i talkd to ya briefly feel so bad please forgive me,2.0 56624,time for school oh noes im still so sleepy,2.0 56625,has a sore throat ,2.0 56626,tippprincess no we all met for lunch in limerick and you were the only angel missing im good thks had a nice wkend and lunch was fun,2.0 56627,habbomoonbow jup ,0.0 56628,yes,0.0 56629,early bed time tonight my head hurts night all in the land of twitter ,0.0 56630, good morning nadia ,0.0 56631,didnt go to skool six flag trip was today im noard nd hungry ,2.0 56632,darrenchu keep up the play by play tweeting go lakers,0.0 56633,svish thank you so very much ,0.0 56634,alphajd i just need to know what mine is ,2.0 56635,how would i get out of this situation need some insighthello so for years or almost years not sure i have been housebound since about yo and i just now realised how bad my life really is its crazy to say but ive been delluded and trying to tell myself everything is fine heres the problem in that too i live the same day everyday and i know its not fine because i wouldnt be housebound for years if i was fine i guess im now finally realising how sick of this life i really am i recently played through life is strange and throughout i thought the game was really corny but as soon as i ended the game i was hit with a ton of emptiness and despair i dont know if i thought i was in the game or what not but it really made see how lonely i actually am i live in a poor neighbourhood in the uk so its pretty grunge and gloomy where i live but the place the game was set arcadia bay made me feel a little happy since it felt like a nice place to be i cringe as i type since im trying to collerate my real life problems with a game and it really upsets me that its the only escape i have dont really know what this was but im the middle of a mental breakdown and im super lost i dont like talking about my problems since im a male and have the toxic mentality of all problems should be kept in since everyone suffers but here we are,3.0 56636,rt carbhere gmanetwork fayeahl so sad that there are people like her employee pa mismo ng gmanetwork so unprofessional f,1.0 56637,since alex left my anxiety has gone waaaaay down 🙌🏽,2.0 56638,getting ready to head out for some fathers day shopping still feeling all sickly but going anyways ,2.0 56639,i feel like im wasting my life why cant i use my years to get stuff done i want to do as much as i can to help people but really ive just been doing absolutely nothing i wanna help people again like i used to but i seem to not care anymore i want to help so bad but every time i go to do that i tell myself that ill make them worse so i show a bit of fake compassion and stop until they bring up something new i just wanna fucking help again,3.0 56640,and whenever i bring this up people start making fun of me like its my fetish or something—its not i just loved ,0.0 56641,rt sorry i havent been on too much today i was driving around with my mom almost had an anxiety in the mall which im n,1.0 56642,giving up am a year old malenot sure if im allowed to post here but ive been undergoing depression for about to years on medication i have thought about suicide but decided not to cause my family my friends said they wont be able to take it im not sure its due to stress or whatever but a few months ago i just cant seem to find the motivation to carry on i know people say oh you should not give up on your life but to me i really find it painful to continue i cant set any goal i cant look forward to most things what should i do ,3.0 56643,frankborin sucks ,2.0 56644,johannakeene haha yes he is but he is making sure that they are my thoughts alone ,0.0 56645,bellovski i know poor dixie i cant believe it ,2.0 56646, no sucking at the ritz carlton last night ,2.0 56647, it was great but the first one is still the best i think ,0.0 56648,schlingl not so much but its boring i dont like the drawing anymore ,2.0 56649,vickiilee hhaha yes yes he is but you can have him love your new original,0.0 56650,brain amp mental health parental baby teeth link autism and heavy metals study shows ,1.0 56651,and since i missed uprising and the cool event skins im depression,2.0 56652,is asking that everyone please join me in praying for my mom she just got home from the er and has to go see a heart doctor ,2.0 56653,my throat hurts ,2.0 56654,ps graduation wasquick ,0.0 56655,darthchilli but my legs blind people because its so pale ,2.0 56656,wouldnt be good to publisise ,2.0 56657, whats happened to it ratchet ,2.0 56658,my life keeps feeling more shittier see my previous post pleasemy life feels like it keeps getting shittier day by day i keep wondering how i would survive in a shithole like thisa b in my report card totally fucked up my life i cannot recover from thisi would have to change my plans and that involves shit jobs that i did not expecti want to kill myself but i dont know what the afterlife would look like it feels comfortable but scary at the same timemy friends are helping me out but i cannot shake off the fact that i cannot go to the high school i wantedmy life is too hard help does not help me this is crueli am in a state where one reddit reply makes me happy for one secondi never smiled for an entire week except the fake smiles i do in front of an important person,3.0 56659,evilovesmcfly whoa really definitely too long ,0.0 56660,big brother live on now dont have a clue who these people are i never watched the launch show lol,0.0 56661,igetaddicted you know what to do with a cunt right fuck em ,0.0 56662,cws damn texas won good game though now we have to wait forever for another game ,2.0 56663,exhausted and starting to peel ,2.0 56664,let the ant and dec withdrawal symptoms commence ,2.0 56665,good morning going to school ,0.0 56666,why i want to grab a booze and cry lets lay it all out i lost my virginity a year ago at to i girl i loved now i miss her everyday since we moved away i was suicidal a lot after that one of my attempts ended with my bandaged wrists i am clean from self harm in over a month for now i cant get therapist psych or school involved cause of child support and court shit i am antisocial freak who cant talk to anyone his own age be because i dont know what and how to say something i recently tried after all that time dating a girl again ended up embarrassing her and me when it came out public i was trying on her she is shy i am lying to most of my friends as pretty much people with depression i hate myself,3.0 56667,ran over a snake foot black racer poor creature,2.0 56668,rt adeapristine bellletstalk is supposed to help people feel comfortable opening up about mental illness unfortunately in my case i se,1.0 56669,missing my christinaface hope shes back before too long ,0.0 56670,how much is too much i have really bad depression and my life has a couple of really bad things going on on top of that i also have a boyfriend who i confide in amp he treats me wonderfully he always tells me i can talk to him but i find that telling him whenever i am depressed often overwhelms him which is understandable i just dont know how to find a balance on one hand i need to talk so i dont just hold negative thoughts and events in my head on the other hand i know that i can be overwhelming and the last thing i want is to drag someone else down with me i dont know how to find a balance especially when it gets bad for long periods of time how do i release my sadness without overwhelming others,3.0 56671,i have soooo much homework its not funny im gonna fail psych and bio ugh and maybe methods,2.0 56672,is now moving boxes alone ,2.0 56673,kimwiththeshoes zelectrician depelteaurobert maryfrommarin johncitysq fingersflying progpoker peggyruppe ,0.0 56674,i missed my turntables ,2.0 56675,my life is a joke bruv at this point im just waiting for a mental breakdown so ill finally get the courage to kill myself,3.0 56676,i cant wait to go to the protest today gay rights but first i have to go to work ,2.0 56677,riskybusinessmb aww i miss yall live on saynow thta makes me sad ,2.0 56678,update from last tweet im a five paragraph essay on spartacus and an accounting final away from summer vacation ,0.0 56679,bitshow hahaha bits next year aabangan kita haha,0.0 56680,rt sadhgurujv if you know how to handle your thoughts and emotions there will be no such thing as anxiety stress or tension for you ,1.0 56681,andycyrus im still awake too lol cant sleep glad your up tho ,2.0 56682,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 56683,springawakefest this schedule gives me anxiety lol 😳,2.0 56684,still working i should sleep tomorrow will be a rough day coffee will be my best friend ,0.0 56685,darkeyedwhite i dont post a whole hell of a lot there but i am indeed i am jelly hi ,0.0 56686,why is it so difficult to prepare burgers in burger mania i always fail diner dash is way easier and more fun to play haha,2.0 56687,cupcakehitman on underworld did you get to see rise of lycans was it any good i wanted to see it pretty badly ,0.0 56688,quothigh timequot final day what a wonderful experience this was,2.0 56689,good morning people ,0.0 56690,world would definenly be better without me everyday i feel like a burden like im a waste of oxygen when i think who would miss me i cant think of person out of my friends i have no special talent so ill probs be homeless in a year should i just end it now ,3.0 56691,ready not ready ,2.0 56692,i want chocolate i can smell it and the bars in the shop are calling me httpisgdqjbj,2.0 56693,headspace app does anyone have experience with this app three days in and it seems to be working for me ive never meditated before the exercises are calming ,3.0 56694,arg i am completely soaked dang you rain drops,2.0 56695,just got twitter still learning ,0.0 56696,ciaranmoore nooooo how gutting their still in the country party time anyways whatcha doing tomorrowxxx,2.0 56697,sorting tickets making good money thinking that i dont have anyone to go out with and spend makes me sad ,2.0 56698,i accidentally pocket dialed my ex d that was embarrassing and left me with so much anxiety,2.0 56699,leighannmol let me know what you think of your getz i just got myself one ,0.0 56700,thatguyfsuatl really isnt it awkward your dog is the cutiest thing ever haha im just tie dying shirts ,0.0 56701,rt hefinr after years of service to the nhs as a nurse midwife amp health visitor mrs r has today resigned the frustration of seein,2.0 56702,atki sure got quiet in a hurry tough to back up a season ,0.0 56703,teenagedboyzmom thank you ,0.0 56704,andymurd reviews have been mixed but i never take any notice thanks ,0.0 56705, so sorry about that job i kept checking your twitter hoping youd say something thrilling,2.0 56706,im a monster i literally feel as if i am a monster i think about suicide every single day even on a good day i think to myself being dead would be better than this im a horrible friend a horrible person im so ugly i feel the stares from people in public because of my horrible looks why did god make me this way im over it i dont want to live like this anymore it will never get better ive been hearing for years that it will get better when when will this pain end ,3.0 56707,am about to start bio assignment after brekkie i think it best to do it in in parts so i dont overwhelm myself need to buy study guide ,2.0 56708,needs him so much ,0.0 56709,the site is going to be changing hostsso things will be a bit up in the air for a little while the pic update is on hold ,2.0 56710,rt velvetcyberpunk i had family in the sit down strike of flintmichigan unionstrong ,2.0 56711,feels like october outside guess my bucket of frozen margaritas is gonna have to wait ,2.0 56712,california depression its not a real term its a term that i made up after i found that a survey had discovered that the most depressed group of people in the world except low class third world people who suffer from harsh survival difficulties is teenage girls from california who enjoy easy survival conditions but still believe their lives arent good enough because they are not the ideal they dream of i got to say that my depression is very close to that kind im really jealous of other people who are more successful than me and this feeling as we say in my language im not american eats me from within im trying to better myself but its not easy and sometimes i cry because it seems like it comes naturally to some people,3.0 56713,a terribly long rant im sorry if you read this i just dont have anyone to really rant to i wish i had a friend that i could talk to with no worries someone to share my thoughts comfortably i have friends that i still speak with occasionally but its not the same moved to outer state colleges and the other is always busy with their life school and worketc its just how life is how eventually everyone you met in high school go their separate ways and find their own new friends and such and i feel as if i am stuck and not moving forward i feel as if i am left behind as i watch others move on i miss having someone to talk to whenever but i worry that i burden them or annoy them and it sucks i struggle socially but i try to make an effort to make friends in college and when i do manage to make a few friends they dont seem interested in actually being anything more than a peer to get hw answers from i sometimes hated myself for being an asian because i feel like people only get close to me just to benefit last semester was awfully terrible for me mentally i was nervous about being able to make friends and i had transferred from uni to a community college for financial reasons i was super happy that i managed to get to know my peers in of my classes everything was going well and i was actually looking forward to this entire semester but i began to notice something off in one class one would text me for hw answers and i was totally fine with giving and eventually theyd miss a day or two from class and ask for updates i thought i was overthinking things and ignored them but then id notice how almost everytime theyd ask for hw answers but never return the favor another would deliberately try to make me look dumb in front of the prof theyd ask me a question about the assignment and i would reply honestly that i didnt know the answer to and that they should ask the professor for clarification and when they do theyd turn to me and exclaim see i told you so the first time they did that i was so confused as to what they told me then id notice how almost every class period we had theyd do the same thing over again i hated it im a nice person and im not the kind to talk back so id just sit thereand take it i guess it was mentally draining and i hated going to the class whenever they do it i felt everyones eyes stare through me and i felt so uncomfortable the third person on my table mostly kept to themselves and would occasionally ask for helpbut they too would have a remark or two about how smart i was and that i got everything handled she made it seemed as if i was such a genius that everything came easy and shed laugh it off as a joke it was suffocating i shifted my focus on my schoolwork and made perfect marks on my exams and whenever the prof handed the test papers for us to see i could tell they were jealous and it seeped off them i could feel it wed all compare our exams and theyd be annoyed that they couldnt get an a even though they studied a lot and i was shocked i even made perfect marks on the exam because ive never done that my entire life i truly felt the exam was difficult and it was exhausting spending hours and hours studying and i would tell them all of that and theyd reply with a sarcastic remark eventually id stop giving out my opinions about the exams whenever theyd ask the class wasnt difficult because it was mostly memorizing i always felt super guilty about my exam grades because i felt that i shouldve helped them study as the school semester went by the worse it got and i just shut myself off but im too nice to ignore them so everytime i see them i would smile and remain quiet i kept myself busy with classwork to avoid talking to them it was so mentally exhausting i felt bad about the entire semester and id beat myself up over it i thought to myself that maybe if i communicated better none of this wouldve happened almost everyday that i had to wake up for that class was extremely hard every morning was exhausting no matter how many hours of sleep i had i didnt want to get out of bed and i had to force myself out and as soon as class started id want it to be over with in another class the person that sat next to me was chill and nice as i thought there wasnt need to really talk to each other except group work i ended up having to do all of the group work and present the groupwork myself while they stood there i was awfully furious about it but i didnt want to confront them about it or email the prof about it because they werent doing well in class and i felt bad towards the end of the semester theyd text me and ask me to help them on the exam which i refused because i told them i havent studied for the exam due to the fact that i had other exams going on same day and in that class one low exam score was allowed to be dropped and i told them that i chose this exam to be a drop grade and theyd reply with im sure youll do well even though you didnt studied likeok and when i didnt help them out they eventually moved seats next to another person which i was totally fine withsometimes i wish i was more confident in myself and others i blame myself for things like this happening to me because i allow it i have no control over it but at the same time i do in a way i fear this semester may be the same and i dread it,3.0 56714,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 56715,jonasbrothers i am so happy your youtube is back up i love you guys ,0.0 56716,i feel clueless worthless and hopeless ive never been good in any area of academics im about as far from an athlete as they come i aint much to look at and out of every hobby ive had ive always seemed to be the weakest in terms of associated skill level a friend of mine once asked how is your dad so cool when youre such a loser even now ive no clue as to how i became such a loser to begin withi dropped out of college after year still in debt and was adsepd from the usn after months when i tried to take my own life im now almost a virgin and living with the only friend who still answers my messages hes a solar electrician who makes almost twice as much as i do and is getting married later this year whereas i havent had a relationship since high school one i quickly ruined with my lack of patiencei need new friends but i rarely work up the courage to go out and when i do im too timid to actually talk to people i need a new psychiatrist since i just moved but every time i call the nearby behavioral health providers i end up panicking and hanging up i need a hobby that keeps me away from my monitor yet after work i spent most of the day playing league of legendswhen people look at me i feel judged when they watch me work i get paranoid and anxious when they get in my way i quickly turn angry and lash out at them when i get in their way i feel like a jerk if i get criticized i immediately get defensive yet if im complemented i feel like i dont deserve itmy brothers think that im cool but i fear the disappointment theyll feel when they discover what im really like my father thinks im strong yet i feel so weak my mother thinks im kind and empathetic but all i do is stress over my own self imageim lazyim unmotivatedim apathetici know everything is my faulti dont know how to stop,3.0 56717,feeling a lot better now after having spoken to my friend about the ongoing issue at last ,0.0 56718,so im at a friends house and i just had two anxiety attacks in a row and i was so afraid that she was me ,1.0 56719,i need cheering up short stack tv it is ,0.0 56720,just a bit of venting in my friend group ive always been known as the guy whos cracking jokes and who doesnt care about anything that used to be true but for the past year thats just been a mask id wear around them very recently my mental state took a dip for a multitude of reasons that i dont want to go into right now my mind is always racing at night and i cant sleep so ive been finding ways to hurt myself so i can focus on the physical pain instead of all the thoughts in my head ive been wondering if i should kill myself and just make it all go away i tried to reach out to my friends but they all started ignoring me i just wanted someone to talk to but they didnt want to deal with me and i cant say i blame them i cant talk to my family because theyve never been good with dealing with this kind of stuff and my parents believe im some perfect son and i feel like if i let them know whats going on with me theyll be ashamed of me since i didnt have anyone to talk to i decided just to put my mask back on i immediately went back to making dumb jokes and then all my friends started talking to me again i dont feel like im a person anymore i feel like im just a character whos here for others entertainment because when i try to be the real me no one seems to caresorry for this scrambled wall of words just needed to get some of feelings out there,3.0 56721,nainaa months i got more years to go ,0.0 56722,went to his house he wasnt there,2.0 56723,trying hard not to eat cadburys clusters sitting next to me ,2.0 56724,taylormomsen ohh how did you do that upside down tweet ,0.0 56725,ricohs house ,0.0 56726,is it normal to spend so much time missingthinking about someone my ex broke up with me months ago and i went through a period where i felt i was really on the up and up and moving on and then out of nowhere it felt like it just happened all over again i literally will think of him every day i even dream about him my friends keep telling me to move on already but i cant just force myself if i could make myself stop thinking about him i obviously would because it just makes me so fucking depressed sometimes i think the only way it would go away is if i was dead because it seems like it will never stop otherwise my head feels consumed and i feel like i have no control am i just going through a normal breakup is this normal to think about an ex so much i feel crazy sometimes,3.0 56727,sweetdigiscraps thank you ,0.0 56728,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 56729,bengeeb oooph been partying out in town its sunday i am cold but other than that i am good ,0.0 56730,fucking hell will all this shit just go away depression is a bitch to put it frankly it robs you of your soul your happiness your will to live ever since depression has entered my life i have been forever changed the happiest moments of my life feel duller and the saddest moments of my life feel more heartbreaking it takes away anything that i register as positive whether that be a hobby activity or even a person being a college student i am surrounded by people constantly they always engage with me and want to know about me depression makes me feel awkward inadequate and simply put an absolute fucking joke all the positive aspects of my personality are held captive my this awful mental illness and the negative aspects are expressed in my interactions with other humans why does my own brain fight against me why do i feel like such a loser and ideate the end of my life on such a daily basis why cant i be normal i feel like such a nuisance to my family and my friends daily i feel inadequate its obvious that i care more about others more than they care about me i am a nuisance if i die it is a simple annoyance to their way of life they are conditioned to feel about my absence as that is what society sees as necessary i want the pain to go away i want someone to love me and to validate my being someone that holds me and gives me basic human comfort at the same time though i dont deserve this i dont deserve shit im all around a fucking joke who deserves nothing but death all i do is whine and feel sorry for myself normal people dont do that so why should i fuck i need some being to make the pain i carry in my heart to cease make it all go away i hate this constant cycle of anxiety and depression make me normal oh lord,3.0 56731,tommcfly glad to know that were not the craziestiwas afraid that you werent coming back because of the first time you came to brasil ,0.0 56732,i cant stop crying i wanna die i wanna give up i want to leave i want to feel emotions other than sadness,3.0 56733,tellingtales im gonna do a whole blog post on monday showing all the nonsense ive been up to ill let you know when its up ,0.0 56734,why is today like or degrees colder then yesterday i hate u global warming,2.0 56735,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 56736,geekswithblogsnet is down httpdownforeveryoneorjustmecomgeekswithblogsnet,2.0 56737,karma for abandoning people ive had an issue with maintaining relationships with people for last couple of years ive cut ties with all of my friends my friends list on facebook dropped from to in couple of monthsive met some people since then but after couple of weeks i abandoned them too i fucked up a potential relationship by literally forgetting my feelings to the other person then i met somebody who i enjoyed spending time with i knew i wont abandon them we understood each other we were so alike too much alikethe person had the same issue as i do she forgot about what she felt to me in a matter of couple of days karma got hold on me for leaving people behind it sucks to be on the other side of this situation im commited to not abandon people anymore at least i want to trylife sucks if you have nobody to share it with ,3.0 56738, it is ,0.0 56739,im tired need to rest for nother day in school,2.0 56740, days till my daughter is flying home please pray with me for a safe trip ,0.0 56741,yeaaaaa magic we got this ,0.0 56742,is it normal to think about suicide every day for people who are considerably happy does the thought of suicide ever cross your mind or on a frequent basis i think about suicide almost every day if not every day and i still dont know if im depressed i feel like i havent had any single event that could claim responsibility for being depressed but i constantly wish that i was never born in the first placeon top of this i have never harmed myself and have never felt the urge to tell anybody close to me or seek professional help,3.0 56743,so excited for this time next week blissneso in melbourne with love them ,0.0 56744,summer ,0.0 56745,mcflyharry harry harry harry juuudd are you still alive we havent known anything about you in ages how r u doing much love xx,0.0 56746,bbrannan i didnt say it wouldnt be available i said it wasnt my decision theres a big difference sit tight for now ,0.0 56747,rt kaitlynbri i wish some understood the gravity of depression and the day to day struggles that come with it i become so antisocial and,0.0 56748,part of my room needs some touch ups ,0.0 56749,off to work for hours then got the house of myself for tonight probably some tv time i think x,2.0 56750,eatsleepdraw guess who wish me luck on my job interview tomorrow good luck and this is awesome ,0.0 56751,rhaissamorais its ok it often happen to me tooohi have to take a batharrrrh,0.0 56752,depressed but not suicidal this may sound dumb but is it possible to be depressed but not suicidal i dont really care much about my life where i end up my job if im married or have a family or anything i dont care about anything to be honest and i dont know why everything in life feels pointless i stopped caring about the people around me stopped speaking to all of my friends and dont really give them an answer why i had a relative get cancer recently and to be honest i didnt care it was when this happened where i took a step back and thought to myself am i a sociopath or something up until about years ago i was a pretty emotional and empathetic person and i dont think i just became a sociopath but i do think ive become apathetic looking at a list for signs of clinical depression i basically match up perfectly with everything except for suicidal thoughts theres no part of me that wants to kill myself i cant say im super concerned with my own safety or health but im not actively wanting to take my own life or think about doing it nothings really triggered this empty feeling in me no family deaths no past traumas ive got a nice family and a pretty decent life i started becoming a pretty anxious and sad person around the or grade and hated my life for no reason to this day i cant answer what started it or why and then about years ago is where i just stopped caring about anything i know people have it alot worse then me and i dont really have any problems in my life im not looking for attention either im just curious as to whats wrong with me currently sorry for the rambling btw,3.0 56753, i cannot hear the podcast for todays class at all ,2.0 56754,now i get it its really quite cool i love it i adore it im bored ,0.0 56755,margreteh sounds nice trying to do some homework ,0.0 56756, i only bought one lol i am poor i feel like a bad fan ,2.0 56757,tjabif ,0.0 56758,i dont know what to do anymore i dont know if i should post it here or in rsuicidal but oh boy here we go so im a year old guy currently living in italy and my entire life has consisted on me being pathetic and weak always disinterested on what you folks would consider normal and whatnot id say that it all started when my family and i moved in this country back in when i was still years old which led me on a social isolation because i had no ducking clue about what language they were speaking and because my parents were uptight about us passing a goddammed minute outside our house so my routine pretty much consisted on going to school then back at home i mean what could possibly go wrong certainly the fucking kid will never be fucking awkward right well surprise surprise what a fucking plot twist the kid became so fucking awkward that he grew knowing nothing of what a social interaction is i pretty much wasnt the best student in the class not because im stupid or anything i just wasnt interested then boom im suddenly the most messed up guy in the whole goddamed universe oh did i forgot to mention that im gay fucking la di da i think im seeing a pattern here universe oh it looks like you fucking hate me universe moving on alle scuole superiori im not sure if its college ing english i pretty much just wasted years of my goddamed life before one of my teachers helped me change course to something more interesting i thought to myself hey you got another chance man dont wast it up i actually tried my goddamed best to better myself and surprisingly i actually did i even made lots of friends mostly girls but still i actually thought for once that maybe my life will turn for the better now well it seems like the universe saw how much better i was doing so it fucking decided to beat the crap out of my life because oh boy what the hell just happened theres this one guy that i really liked for some reason i mean every goddamed day he used to playfully insult me in class for a whole fucking year i took it but you know what it wasnt enough for him that i almost cried most of the time because of how it hurts no he had to top it somehow but how oh i know how about a public bus so as we entered the bus filled with people we chose to stand in a spot and guess what happened he started toplayfully insult me belittling every thing about me telling me how pathetic i was he probably was right because i still remained his friend but he actually treated me better probably because i stopped holding my emotion and i just cried in front of my class more than once like how pathetic am i right another reason for my emotional outbursts is probably my friends part of my female friends the ones that i thought liked me turns out that they despised me they just didnt care even if i was sitting in front of them in the middle of a lecture no they always fucking repeat talking shit about me everyday till i just couldnt do it any longer well it seems like that the universe was finding it really amusing being gay wasnt enough nonono the universe being lovely as it is gave me depression turns out depression hits you like a motherfucking truck filled with explosives obviously it pretty much led me thinking about killing my pathetic self every single day to this fucking day and listening to sad music doesnt really help i dont believe in god or anything like that but if there is one i just want to ask him what did i do to deserve all these crap in my life just why is it like a punishment for something terrible i did in another life is this my hell my very special hell where ill just suffer every single day of my pathetic life i seriously dont know anymore i tried killing myself with a knife but every single time that i try to i stop myself because havent i suffered enough or is this what you planned for me,3.0 56759,rosannasuppa thank you this is to darn hard but i promise there is never a dull moment with me just wait and see stay tuned in,2.0 56760,suppose i got to start getting ready for work ,2.0 56761,storms grow in the tropics they become a wavethen depression then a tropical storm and onsome become hurricanes ,2.0 56762,hrzmatt i havent been keeping up w it this year like i normally doi love baseball and footballgo denver anyway im outta the loop ,2.0 56763,my laptop fell off my bed cracked my screen it isnt horrible still completely usable ,2.0 56764,sassypackrat oh yay have fun with your new space,0.0 56765,mama got her money mama is happy mama is about to go shopping gotta get a dress for this wedding,0.0 56766,iv only buggered up me ankle flippin hurts and has swollen up mahoosively ,2.0 56767,deathly lonely i am currently single unemployed for now not sleeping feeling very empty i just dont know how to handle this level of emptiness anymore ive dealt with depression and anxiety for years but nothing this bad dont even know why im posting here i just need help and do not know where to turn,3.0 56768,i miss my boyfriend ,2.0 56769,the meds are futile ibs symptoms are possibly worse than last week i want to be on mc ,2.0 56770,im slightly addicted to the song quotheads will rollquot atm im not sure whyyy aucht well ,0.0 56771,petewentz the sound isnt working on the invisilbe children youtube video you posted ,2.0 56772, its raining here too so sick of it i want the sun dammit,2.0 56773,trying to break my sugar addiction is so hard i did great for a while but making amp sampling my brothers grooms cake set me back ,2.0 56774,good morning wishing it wasnt raining ,2.0 56775,wenjg thanks for the heads up earlier ,0.0 56776,imtheniceguy lunch is never long enough ,2.0 56777,aboodabi what hot barbados sun its nothing but rain today how sad ,2.0 56778,ukdannim course work just isnt that much fun but yes iy has to be done ye chloe new pics of freya please,2.0 56779,am i alone whats wrong with me i have no one to open up with i hate my life it is the worst thing in this universe just kidding i know others have it much worse please hear me out im a year old guy who has made the wrong choice so many times in life i was in an automobile accident years ago and had the potential to make a lot from a settlement but i stupidly decided to go to the gym during it and what couldve potentially been a figure payout for me turned to negative debt and extreme selfhatred and poor selfesteem for that decision it is probably the thing that haunts me the most in life am not sure ill ever get over it im not sure as to why i am here i am a burden to my family am drowning in debt and all i am is an embarrassment i have a deadbeat absent drugaddict father a mother with personality issues and an emotionally detached sister also a stepdad who is very loving and his parents who are the same im socially anxious i believe most people are judging me and its nearly impossible to maintain friendships unless they do of the effort i sleep on a couch dont have a bedroom and have to share a bathroom with my sister who gets annoyed with me easily which i can understand why all i have is my girlfriend who is amazing and is shockingly empathetic and understanding of my situation she even just got her bachelors degree many days i still cant figure out why shes with me i have absolutely nothing to offer her weve been together for five months and sometimes talk about plans later in my family loves her and i think her family likes me lol i have my workstudy job and i have my medical assisting school but theres no guarantee am going to be decent at my job or even my externship i have a moderate level of adhd and crack under pressure and get red and embarrass myself easily i dont take meds because they make me feel too wired and cloud my brain many weekends i am forced to do post mates in order to barely make enough to balance my checking account after paying bills which i stupidly accumulated from very poor life decisions i am on a debt management program for my credit cards and am able to pay my bills with the exception of a couple of them being days late i have no hope for my future many days i wish i could have a doover and make the smarter choices but i cant i just want to know why am here because i am taking up space and am not needed by anyone or anything im envious of people born into wealth am jealous of people who found their calling in life early on and are good at it im jealous of charismatic individuals who are also smart and attractive im by no means ugly i have had girlfriends growing up throughout high school and my pathetic community college days but am not good looking enough or tall enough to be a model and have an easy life or be popular on social media or be admired by many i got up to of my aa degree finished but had to move to a new city in a week after i lost my office job and broke up with a toxic ex so a move breakup and being laid off all within the same week it was very hard for me emotionally and i had many nightmares this was months ago but i am thankful for what happened because i hated that town and was embarrassed by living there i also dont think im too dumb when it comes to school i maintain above a gpa and have a right now my highest ever am pretty smart at whatever i put my focus towards but the problem is i believe am not good enough for most thingsi have months left of schooling and then i have a month of externship in which i pray that i am hired to others like the staff at my job and my teachers i present a bubbly happy and enthusiastic side of myself a side of myself that i never give the pleasure of treating myself like i think its something i present to others because i am sad inside makes sense to me i am student ambassador and everyone has a positive opinion of me i guess i am a people pleaser im hoping and planning to correct many mistakes when i have this full time job the credit debt pay and get rid of the stupid expensive car i leased two years ago laser the stupid tattoos i impulsively got and to look for a roommate to free my family of me and to end the tension that is created in the apartment because of my poor decisions ive never opened up like this online before or told anyone in great detail my life i spontaneously decided to write this today at work i dont know where else to turn to i cant afford therapy in my life right now i just want to know whats wrong with me and if im not alone in being the biggest dumbass on the planet i know this is jumbled im so sorry for the read,3.0 56780,pulling a britney and walking around barefoot cuz i spilt icky stuff all over my shoe ,2.0 56781,major depression after hair transplant days ago was it anastecia was it the drugs they gave me advice thanks ive had major depression for days after hair transplant for no reason hairs fine no infection i have whole body weakness muscle aches pins and needles sensation in my back always feel like falling asleep always feeling very very sad and advice,3.0 56782,just chatted with julianne moore ,0.0 56783,jst joined twitter ,0.0 56784,wishing i could get a smoothie from jamba juice ,2.0 56785,boooreeed i need nothing personal,0.0 56786,still watching breaking bad but i feel so antsy idk whats wrong w me i want to talk to is just so unavailable right now,2.0 56787,taking the cpa exam then to kriss in the hamptons til tuesday ,0.0 56788, am too early jeje going to school ,2.0 56789,mallorybrasher aww i love you too mallory ,0.0 56790,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 56791,have a feeling my homework due tonight isnt getting done tonight feeling super lazy after getting home,2.0 56792,luck or something else i have been dealing with depression for the past years many overdoses later tonight i did something different i took a loaded gun and placed it to my head i held it there for a while before i pulled the trigger it was a misfire the cartridge failed and didnt go off luck or something telling me its not my time,3.0 56793,thekatbot oh god the bount arc i remember that glad things picked up again aizen just keeps things interesting ,0.0 56794,katiadominos lmao yeah it is xd amp omg i put joe dancing to single ladies on my ipod ,0.0 56795,im straight on this city son like cant wait to i get from down here🤦🏾‍♂️ like its really sad😭😭 i just saw this l ,0.0 56796,i wanted to be better but im in a worse position than i was on new years in i know its stupid to give up on a whole year before the first day is even over but i really thought id be in a better place by now and im not can someone give me a pep talk,3.0 56797,rt walkonomics people who walk minutes a day are more likely to report better mental health walkability headstogether https,0.0 56798,ozdj i havent gotten that far into the site yet still browsing the items bummer about the lack of delivery info ,2.0 56799,rt gratitudedna บางสิ่งบางอย่างดูเหมือนเรื่องเล็กน้อยไม่มีค่าแต่บางทีเราไม่รู้ว่ามันสำคัญและมีประโยชน์แค่ไหน ป้ายเล็กๆเขียนด้วยมือแข,2.0 56800,my girlfriends going through serious depression and its affecting her life so heres the story lets say her name is jen jens going through rough times with her lousy alcoholic mother who puts all the weight on her and blames jen for everything that is her not her fault but the moms this depression from the mother has caused her procrastination which stops her doing work and getting bad grades then when the mom sees that shes not doing so well she talks down to jen as if she is worthless and makes comments no parent should make to their child do you guys have any advice on what i can do to help her ,3.0 56801,omglolomg the answer is beyond me ,0.0 56802, i dont see it hate my internet connection,2.0 56803,quotlameoverquot thats genius ,0.0 56804,nobody is here someone want to talk with me ,2.0 56805,rt i n f l u e n c e r swhen aldub started it gave me the opportunity to touch more lives — naamplify yung reach namin ni,0.0 56806,rt casscalinawan what if maabot mi ani na point shet ayoko na 😭☹️ ataya maka overthink man sad ta aning the hows of us animaaaaal,2.0 56807,following jess now ,0.0 56808,drunk and down so ive never really posted before im highly intoxicated and on the verge of killing of myself im always thinking about but never have to balls to the alcohol gives me the balls to i dont know what to do does anyone else ever have these feelings if so how do you overcome them,3.0 56809,freshplastic good supportnokia and thats that mate ,0.0 56810,random spouts of depression when you wake up from a great nap gt,1.0 56811,so apparently my theme this summer is gonna be depression,1.0 56812,awe my new cute shoes are too big size ,2.0 56813,daisyheadlights im watching omg i will never get sick of watching man really love it ,0.0 56814,had dinner with fam at the best pakistani restaurant yum kulfi,0.0 56815,gsiegman done looking forward to hearing from you ,0.0 56816,cameraobscura you guys should be playing pretty soon so sad ,2.0 56817,ericmack eric the blog entry you link to is from pscs vp of collaboration i would guess a bp is already on the case ,0.0 56818,rt lilireinhart having alone time is valuable for when you decide to scroll through sad reddit posts and cry on the couch while also bing,1.0 56819,munkyboz yeah then you can see where i work i work in trump tower,0.0 56820,minauderie i think we all have other stuff we are doing tweeting optional ,0.0 56821,pelicans are getting a ass wiping this is not good still martini hung over they are to be night cap from now on,2.0 56822,my bff rocking hotel california now no nkotb songs done stay the same whats next hmmm careless whisper,2.0 56823,i dont know anymorw i really dont know what to do anymore i just dont want anything in life nothing excites me,3.0 56824,what have people said to you when youve told them about your depression how have people reacted when youve told them the truth about your mental state in the past my mother told me that her and my violent abusive father wont stand for it if i do anything that lands me in a psychiatric facility thats a threat and probably the weirdest reaction ive gotten,3.0 56825,jordanknight i am watching the full service concertoh wait it was cancelled guess no full service for me and the rest of my posse ,2.0 56826,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 56827,pindec you need to follow me so i can reply ,0.0 56828,cathietranent like that one cathiedd works for me ,0.0 56829,julieannepeters awww im sorry to hear that ,2.0 56830,photovia dirtylittlestylewhore how much i love you ,0.0 56831,it makes me sad for them,2.0 56832,on a roller coaster i tried writing this before but it got really long before i was even close to finished which made me realize just how complicated this is i feel like i am on a roller coaster some days are high and some are low but if feels like the highs dont even compare to the lows and the highs only really happen when im able to temporarily put the lows out of my mind as soon as i think about them again i go right back downi never wanted to say that i was depressed or maybe that isnt true maybe i felt like if i called myself depressed it was just my way of making an excuse for the fact that im not good enough it was a way to justify my failures its not my fault i have depression i worry that if i say it im only saying it because i want to be a victim and then there are all these other people who should actually be depressed because they have been through really hard stuff and they are way happier than i am or their depression is way more intense than mine so mine isnt really that important its just me complaining about nothing it sucks and it feels like my mind is too clouded to know what is real anymore i have so unbelievably much that i should be grateful for but it feels like it doesnt matter it hurts im trying to learn and grow as much as i can but im always sad i feel like im always being looked down upon people think im stupid and weak and too timid and im not confident enough they always say im nice and to me that has become code for too weak to stand up for yourself but nice to have around when it comes to being attractive to girls this feels like a stab to the hearti just rambled and tried to get everything that was in my head out im really glad that this subreddit exists because ive never talked to anyone about this and i dont think i will have the courage for a while to talk about it in person i dont know if the things i said above are all true but thats how i feel at the moment im not really sure how to reconcile feelings with reality it seems like just telling myself something that seems objectively true makes no difference in changing how i feel for the better so i dont know its all confusing im glad that i got to write it out though,3.0 56833,blah back to work ,2.0 56834,this is really aggitating i dont care who you are text me ,0.0 56835, i thought today was bike to the zoo day for free admission or i think it is ,0.0 56836,sun sun dont go away stay again for another day holla for vitamin d,0.0 56837,skinner terrific looking forward to it thanks ,0.0 56838,why does discourse always give me bad anxiety,2.0 56839,zaharozoe that song is so beautiful ,0.0 56840, ranting i originally made this post for rrants but i dont think they want this over there these are some of my darkest thoughts so if anyone is reading this and has thoughts of suicide please read a more lighthearted postbasically im trying to seriously lose weight for the first time in my life so the first thing i did was turn to rfitness post gets removed for low karma whatever so i turn to the faq and go to the i hate exercise section and what does it say just do it i mean good god its nikes fucking slogan no shit sherlockanother thing is that ive struggled with anxiety and depression for forever and i only recently started therapy i had always told myself that hey once you get help a path to happiness will become clear but after a few sessions something else became clear everyone else is in the same boat as mein life there is no gold at the end of the rainbow theres no solution just out of reach life is a terminal illness and just because youre depressed and youre fat doesnt mean youre special depression doesnt mean you struggle with something different than everyone else your problems arent worse than the other guys youre just weaker youre a pathetic piece of shit who jumps to suicide at the first inconvenience that crosses your path i mean for gods sake youre writing this dumbass post right instead of doing anything you stuff your face and cry while you type away at your greasy keyboard at in the morning you fucking slobi am a fucking loser piece of shit who thinks theres some magic wand he can wave to solve all his problems pathetic youre too lazy to do anything or take a risk to solve your problems so you drown it out with alcohol and ice cream and what are you gonna do about it kill your self the reason you dont do it isnt because youre afraid of death its not because youll hurt your familyits because youre too lazy to go get the fucking rope you fat lazy disgusting waste of semen scum of the earth fucking degenerate piece of shit,3.0 56841, one in the same full version sang by selena gomez and demi lovato ,0.0 56842,rt thatsickbabe alexhaagaard its so hard and it takes so much energy just to already advocate for ourselves in general not to mention,1.0 56843,just broke someones heart and it really doesnt feel good especially since its the time in just over months ,2.0 56844,wossy how can i get tickets to see your show went on bbc site amp apparently your show doesnt exist couldnt u just invite me instead,0.0 56845,rt realjfairclough anxietydepression is scary af you push away everyone that means the most to you and you start to hate the person you,2.0 56846, anooo lmaoo first tym a saw it a though he was pure seriously upset lol funnyyyyyy stufffff x,0.0 56847, well ill give you the details on msn if u about ,0.0 56848,i am lost i try to make sense of everything and i fail i am so lost in my mind i dont even know where to start where to look i mostly just have angst i turn off my brain and its likeim here in my room living in eyesight but if i turn on my brain im back in a maze frantically running around because im lost and on a clock i dont think i could ever make it back to reality so i just dont know what to do i cant escape to my mind my mind is mush i honestly just dont even know what to do,3.0 56849,oh and halfprice tiles at tilestyle this bank holiday weekend we got some nice cobalt blue mosaic tiles plus grout etc for � ,0.0 56850,hi my mental health has me in a chokehold lately and i feel like crying at any given moment most of the time life ,0.0 56851,courtneydudley all say hello back and megan sends kisses ,0.0 56852,work work work work i am fed up going out for a drive in my ferrari ,0.0 56853,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 56854,i wish i had my diary with me im on vacation with my parents for weeks so far the best way ive found to cope with my feelings is by writing in my diary i wanted to travel light this time so i didnt bring it i completely regret that decision ive been feeling pretty bad lately and i have no way to escape i should have made a little room in my backpack and brought it ,3.0 56855,love u so much i hope see u again fly with me i really love this song it make remember u miss u,2.0 56856,when your paranoid thoughts end up being a harsh reality ive always struggled with paranoia along with my depression thinking that my friends were hanging out without me convinced my coworkers secretly hate me and that my parents were actually disappointed in me well tonight i got confirmation that my coworkers actually do hate me and keep dropping me from their life one by one it feels like this sick and twisted game or social experiment they are trying and everyone is in on it except for me my job is one of the few things i enjoy in life and going to work has now become a major struggle i also just recently achieved a major milestone at work that i want to be really proud of but i tend to view it more as the least i can accomplish oh well you win some and you lose some i guess i just wanted to tell you guys about the day i lost some thanks for reading hang in there my friends ,3.0 56857,north carolina is losing so sad ,2.0 56858,my mobile twitter is keeps giving trouble ,2.0 56859,my little sister tried to kill herself she moved school because she was being bullied by people at her school for months it turns out that she is being bullied at her new school a few days ago she told our sister that she had taken over paracetamol tablets i took her straight to the hospital and hours later they started to give her the treatment luckily she survived but im worried she will do it again i suffer from depression and i know what shes going through im not sure what to do to help her though,3.0 56860,i want to die im just so sick of all thisi have no goals in life no friends no motivation no interests no nothingeveryday im just either sleeping or browsing endlessly through the internet reading about things that i dont even really care aboutwhat do i do,3.0 56861,clock got put back an hour somehow missed journey today sorry journeychatt hope everything is going great,2.0 56862,the power went out im so sick of the rain ugh ,2.0 56863,why just why i grew up in a really abusive conservative household which in the end gave me a whole load of mental problems such as ptsd and severe anxiety i can hardly hold down a job and i have no social life or friends i dont understand how god can know about all the bad things that were going to happen to me and still let me be born it just seems crueli really hate this life and want to die i dont see a good reason to be here really,3.0 56864,daniellejcarey im ashamed too aww man,2.0 56865,rt life ,1.0 56866,omg followers ,0.0 56867,icklesal i told you i read everything that was the most efficient way of letting him know,0.0 56868,why yes past come on n im always up for a good hauntpshfml ,2.0 56869,found solution to my high cpu usage problem stupidly simple but never would have figured it out on my own no more reinstalling windows ,0.0 56870,at lir boylston come and say hi or come by and pick up your race packet and sleep in on saturday ,0.0 56871,i have this habit of sealing off frustrating thoughts inside my head since graduating high school the good thing is that i feel relatively less anxious and suicidal than in high schoolthe bad thing is that i feel more empty inside also it seals off important things as well such as assignments for uni,3.0 56872,poor dinara well played by kuz though,2.0 56873, started off soooo bad ,2.0 56874,in true badrealitytv fashion quotim a celebrity get me out of herequot is a complete trainwreck that i cant turn off poor patty blago ,2.0 56875, why do you always have to act like this httptweetsg,2.0 56876,onescrappygal is it your anniversary have a happy one ,0.0 56877,dinner almost ready ,0.0 56878,working on new website is looking good so far,0.0 56879, quoty must people insist on talking about stupid politics on the comments of a bubblegum pop song sorry get outquot ,0.0 56880,brittheintern good morning to you as well hope its a very successful day ,0.0 56881,i´m very bored because there´s nothing to do at work ,2.0 56882,i got the best of my life being complete with him is all i asked for ,0.0 56883,grandma going back to somerset today ,2.0 56884,millymiley aww hope u get to go on it soon tho,2.0 56885,rt itstaytorres depression isnt always suicidal thoughts and loneliness and unending sadness sometimes its sleeping too much or too,2.0 56886, well take it ,0.0 56887,where are the american apparel outlet stores i need that in my life ,0.0 56888,feelingmore than just knowing and thinking feelings like happiness and love confound me i know there are people in my life i should feel love for but i never truly feel it i just say the words and try to do things which i know make them happy and feeling happy well i tell people im happy and i smile but i cant seem to feel it its not that i dont want to love or be happy i just cant feel it like i feel frustration and anger if i keep saying it ill eventually feel it right ,3.0 56889,i heard mushrooms reset the brain and helps with depression i was excited to take them not so much for the trip but because i thought they would really maybe rewire the brain to not be depressed its what id heard anyway i took some last week but no good still extremely depressed life still meaningless wish i were deadwoke up to the recent exs vacation pictures on facebook oh look that guy whose guts i hate is on the same cruise and shes taking and posting his picture sooo theyre fucking coolmeanwhile i got tinder stood up last night friends flaked in me today no one to talk to about this bullshit venting to myself on redditi wish i even had the courage to end it but i dont even have that fuck,3.0 56890,my description of what depression is like heres the analogy i use when describing it to a nondepressed personimagine that you have to move yourself from point a to point b feet away for a normal person they just stand up and walk across the ground for the fifty feet and theyre done very simplewhen youre depressed the task is the same but its not solid ground its loose wet mud that you sink into up to your knees and its completely surrounding you to move you have to lift your leg up so high as to get it completely out of the mud then plant it back into the mud somewhere in the direction that you want to go then repeat until you get theresometimes you fall down and get covered by the mudwhich sucks because you dont want to look like youve been traipsing through the mud but your legs are already covered in it anywayits not that your destination is that far away its that the effort involved to do even the simple act of trying to get there is exceptionally draining you can still get there but its slow and exhaustingto top it offwhen you actually arrive at your destination youre still covered in mudwhat antidepressants do in this context is lay down planks over the mud for you to walk on you get where youre going with a lot less effort and a lot more speed you can focus on doing the thing you meant to do once you get there instead of on the act of getting there it wont guarantee that youll be completely mud free and you can still fall off the planks right back into the mudbut its better than no planks at allsource personal experience as a depressed person,3.0 56891, hmm idk that song ,2.0 56892,rt ziwe sadgressive adj a moment of progressive social reform that is sad when you consider contextsentence it is sadgressive th,0.0 56893,fake friends im in high school right now and ive realized that my friends of years are just not best friends to me theyre more like coworkers theyll act nice to you and crack a couple of jokes in front of you but they will never pursue a relationship with you otherwise and it really hurts on new years eve some of my friends and i were in discord think skype and they made plans without me while i was in the callfor my new years resolution i decided to emotionally distance myself from them so i dont feel a soul crushing loneliness when they go places without meits helped me see that people are fake but ive also become really paranoid when talking to actual coworkers i think theyre not real like theyre just faking liking who i am so theres no awkwardness and ive become depressed because of itdepressed might be too severe of a word but i just feel shitty constantly any tips on how to get out of this cycle of painsorry if i posted this in the wrong place,3.0 56894,im frustrated the game is soooo hard my hand hurts ,2.0 56895,askywalkers ugh sad,2.0 56896,celebrating my one year wedding anniversary ,0.0 56897,dzhimbo butbutwere the city of brotherly love ,2.0 56898,denied from all fit schools ive actually never been this depressed in my life i put so much effort into my college applications for fall got a decent gpa great ecs good sat but i guess it doesnt matter my guidance counselor and i worked together for many days to find good schools that i had a good shot at getting in but apparently all that time was wasted out of the schools i applied to i was denied from all my reach as expected and then denied from of my fit and waitlisted for the other the only schools i got into were the two safety schools i had no interest in attending but now i have to attend them i feel so terrible and i feel like all of my efforts to be a good student and do the right thing have been thwarted all my peers are getting into high ranking schools whereas i couldnt even get into a comparable state school even though i do better in the same classes i am honestly destroyed and have no more motivation to do anything my life is honestly shit right now i have to attend some university that i have no interest in for four yearsfuck,3.0 56899,igaeilge far too machiavellian but a great idea ,0.0 56900,twilightfairy she was spocks mother ,0.0 56901,i am watchin the united match xxx,0.0 56902,is studying allllllll dayyyyyyyyyyyy allll alonee ,2.0 56903,i have the worst cramps ever ,2.0 56904,soooooooooooooooooooooo ready to go home ,2.0 56905,jadeth tmi but we love you anyway ,0.0 56906,gkjohn no it should not be and i am nowhere suggesting it should ,0.0 56907,daliuhh i know i know that its impossible but we can write it it isnt painful xd jonaspoland,0.0 56908,jakeycake lmao u was sayin u wasnt a loner lastnite n met a new friend so was askin like xx,0.0 56909,today i got a text from my boss saying i lack work ethic i have a new job and have been liking it for the past few months i just find it so hard to get up and go as usual but feel like ive been doing a good job today i realized we were off work for thanksgiving and friday but not saturday and i work at a hair salon thats very relaxed and asked if they needed me saturdayi have no appointments because ill be out of town but could come back if they need me my boss sent me a long text about how i need a better work ethic and he was concerned and wants to have a meeting with me ive been so upset crying on and off all day and cant get it off my mind ive felt accomplished and decently happy at this job and im so upset that my boss thinks i come off as unmotivated i dont know how to stay positive and keep a job it seems im finding it harder and harder to do day to day things even take a shower and i dont know what to do ,3.0 56910, million of the worlds children work as child labourers million of these children work in hazardous conditionsquot sickening ,2.0 56911,reallifesarah were in the final stretch looking forward to meeting you soon ,0.0 56912,this is unfortunately a sad post i love you all and i say goodbye with a heavy heart read all of it before jum httpstcovvunuwmhpg,1.0 56913,jesscahhfosho aww my cousins dog rosie had seisures all the time itl be okay,2.0 56914,johnlloydtaylor i was just in pa for a class trip to gettysburg it was fun but im back home now i hope youre having a great time ,0.0 56915,ive never been on twitter this long oh my im getting off the pc but it wont help many of my good twitterfolk come to my phone lol ,2.0 56916,does obamacare cover trump anxiety disorder 🤔qanon maga mega rentonmagauk sineinjuria ,2.0 56917, baldo but u havent got sky ,2.0 56918, yes lovie it was there when i got back local meeting sorry,2.0 56919,rt lmao my physical health trashmy mental health trashmy bank account trashmy skin trashme ,2.0 56920,a letter from the grave a poem by a suicide survivor letter from the graveto everyone who mattersim sorry i wasnt enough im sorry if i loved you too hard but hated myself i wish i was a better person but im not i am rootless yet grounded by the weight of who i am or who ive become i dont understand why i cried i prayed i went to doctors i went to the gym i let you in i inhaled exhaled and i numbed the pain nothing works im still the samei hope your lives prosper in my many ways but ill see you all in our gravesmaybe i acted strong because i was weak and my silences was your queue to speakoh well now my memories are yours to keepmama im sorry i couldnt accept your love in the ways you showed it because i know you did maybe youve always been right and im an ungrateful bitch maybe i ruined your life even before i was born with a naughty sick baby must have been a storm i loved you so much i slept to the smell of your scarfs from your closet many nights when i needed a hug i dont know why i never came to you i felt angry and not enoughthe more it went on the deeper it set i am so wrong i am choosing to reseti have so much love for all of you my heart sometimes feels like its going to burst its not a cute look being and acting like you need something to nursesister i am sorry you always lived in my shadow but trust me it saved you from being burnt you are beautiful and smart and a sister i never deserved you should have been the first born take care of our family be a real one for once maybe our parents dont know how but you do know how to love have family close because friendships get tainted like the blood on my latex glovesdaddy im sorry i failed you as a daughter i am sorry your life has been so hard and you do it all for our futures i know it is selfish of me to put you through more loss but you should know yourself that this world can be harsh i just hope you forgive me because its all too much for those who stayed thanks for every moment that we shared i wouldnt have made it this far without you therefor those who didnt thanks for trying to tell me that you were there i understand i would leave me too im sorry for everything i put you throughthe reality is none of you need me i mean really need me think of moments when i was the one to save the day scarce arent they i am the storm that needs to blow away it hurts too much to love in this broken wayi promise youll forget about me one daywe might see each other in heaven or hell or in a dream if that day comes then maybe we might say what we actually meani hope i see kumari and nana when i go to sleep i hope theyve seen every secret i have been trying to keep i hope their love heals me and i am free to forget what it feels like to weepi made my bed and now i lay in it deep im going to sleep,3.0 56921, minutes and my birthday is over woot woot ,0.0 56922,vishalmodh yup youre right and also every dog has a day we know ie had their days still in france most of people use ,2.0 56923,has to study hard today ,2.0 56924,realannieduke keep wearing your ppppoker face and youll be fine go annie,0.0 56925,neonbluetornado i made a video of me pretending to be a science nerd then im not fucked to edit it ,2.0 56926,snake ah ok then i�m fine i thought some special trouble for you just less than weeks and party in stralsund can�t wait ,0.0 56927,gets to decorate my bff for the prom tomorrow yay ,0.0 56928,rt konk men seeking help for depression anxiety or any mental health issue is an act of self love that you deserve dont suffer in,1.0 56929,is back and having some delicious biscuits change my mind on the sandwich cos fillings sucked,0.0 56930,does anyone else hate the holidays for the sole reason of being left alone with your own thoughts disclaimer i like many others love the holidays for having no school grinding showsgamesetc having more time to relax overall however the longer the holiday the more time i have to my thoughts most of the time when i am left with nothing left to do i start to fall back to the deep ocean of thoughts that rack up in my head and it slowly chips at my confidencelifespan sometimes still in school anxiety runs high for me and many others who feel like nothing compared to the more socially giftedpopular ones and then this is piled on by the factor of me being lonely and wanting a gf but cause im me i know that the girl i like would probably turn me down and my love would never be reciprocated im self conscious of my overweight body and know that would also stop me from getting into a relationship but i am going to the gym to improve im stuck in a cycle of selfhatred even though i know there are people who genuinely love me hopefully i will get over this hateful statejust wanted to know if people are the same ,3.0 56931, nd again best day of my life so far ,0.0 56932,im so tired of being an extra in other peoples lives it feels as though every friendship i have is onesided i just want to feel intimacy with a girl ,3.0 56933,i do not enjoy how sore my shoulder is its stinging like a bitch why did i only burn on one side ,2.0 56934,im tired of never being enough nothing i ever do is good enough i look for validation from people i dont really know just to feel like i matter i feel like my body is not mine my voice is unfamiliar and my face is someone elses im a major failure and dont even have my own personality at this point the only thing that i enjoy is reading about death and suicide it makes me feel peaceful i am home but still feel so fucking homesick it kills me,3.0 56935,why im sad at the moment i am leaving for my second semester of college and tomorrow i will have to move all of my stuff into a new dorm which i will share with a girl i have never met before my experience with random roommates last semester was probably the worst time of my life i was not comfortable or happy there and i fear that this situation will turn out the same way i am upset that i will be away from my cats i already miss them and it would kill me if anything happened to either one of them while i am away because their lives are far more important than my schooling i will miss my family even though they may sometimes be the source of my sadness my mother is the only one i can confide in and even though i can call her it is not the same as having her by my side at college i have real responsibilities i have to go ro classes for a large portion of the day and while i am not in classes i have to do homework andor study although i want to do well in school i have no motivation to complete my work to the best of my ability i am not confident in my current major but there is nothing else that interests me and i fear failure i am disappointed in my inability to make new friends or put myself out there at all i do not speak up in class or talk to many people for fear of judgement which is weird because in my mind i dont particularly care what people think about me as a whole for the last few years maybe i havent felt like im myself though i dont even really know what that means anymore i have trouble connecting with others even if i truly want to deep down i havent had a best friend in around years which has severely impacted me i feel alone and unlikable ive never been in a relationship or even held hands with another personpeople try to get to know me but i simply shut them down i think this is because i am scared that i wont be enough for them i hate that i am this way i wish i was carefree and confident but instead i am insecure and anxious this is reflected in my voice which is unusually monotone according to many people i know or have known maybe this makes me seem standoffish a few previous friends of mine have told me that i intimidated them at first which is the last way id like to come across it baffles me that i a year old girl with a baby face could intimate anyone but i apparently defy all odds i dont know if im going down the right path in life or not i feel lost many days i just wish i could disappear off the face of the planet because of how utterly hopeless i feel and how negative my outlook of the future is i feel that even if i successfully graduate with my degree and make a large amount of money annually i will not be happy however i dont know what else i could be doing at the moment to endure my future happiness so in my mind its better to be unhappy with a degree and a lucrative career rather than be unhappy with nothing to my name even though it doesnt really make a difference for the past few years i have suspected that i have depression but my own self doubt keeps me from doing anything about it my problems seem small to me even though i am deeply unhappy i always think that even if i did go to a therapist for a diagnosis i would have no idea how to explain why i am sad and i guess thats why i am writing this to find out why i am sad i feel that my case is not serious enough because i have never had serious suicidal thoughts and the closest thing to selfharm ive ever experienced is punching myself on my thighs or arms i also have trouble confiding in others in general so i dont know how therapy could ever work for me additionally i dont want to put a financial burden on my parents to see a therapist i just keep hoping that this will go away on its own but it hasnt so far the only things i ever feel like doing are watching twitch tv shows or playing videogames my sleep schedule is in shambles i either sleep too much or too little i want to be proud of myself i want to feel passionate about something but theres nothing it annoys me when people assume i must be smart or very accomplished to be an engineering major and a spanish minor because i am not satisfied with where i am i did well in high school but not well enough to go to the college i hoped to go to i cant even transfer to it because i have zero accomplishments and the minimum required gpa for transfers is a while i have a thats dwindling and even if i could i would feel inadequate compared to classmates who got in the first time and would likely be a year ahead of me im just unhappy with every aspect of my life i know i have no right to be i am very privileged to be where i am right now and many people would kill to be in my position but im still deeply sad and unfulfilled,3.0 56936,got taken gonna watch it tonight ,0.0 56937,sadnessdisappointment ,2.0 56938,can this help me slip in a coma i am not eating or drinking and i move for long periods of time getting me dizzy and black lining in my vision right now i am serverly under weight dehydrated and always doing something involving walking i have been getting dizzier and dizzier but i havent passed out,3.0 56939,i dont want to live i wish things were different everyone fucking hates me i dont want to live ive been thinking of my death again if i were to kill myself who would care honestly my friend has told me that multiple times i cant even keep up in school im a fucking failure,3.0 56940, yes yes it is amp there all out frinking having a laugh i never got to say goodbye to some people as well ,2.0 56941,woke up early for nothing nadal match is being held for nbc this afternoon watched murray for nothing thinking they would switch ugh,2.0 56942,is the day over yet just watched the teaser of a teaser for its going to be a long wait ,0.0 56943,hanescymru meant to ask you can you send me your original photo my scanner can filter that texture out no luck with pty filter ,2.0 56944,flying over the oceanitaly i miss u already ,2.0 56945, sorry to disappoint but it was a blue bikini ,2.0 56946,richardmadeley great to see that you follow everyone who follows you richard and im lovin your profile pics very inventive ,0.0 56947,i feel so angry and mean i feel like my depression and anxiety puts me on the edge a lot im always feeling extremely sensitive and reactive to even the slightest stimuli when im going through my downward phases its even worse i think mean things about my friends and in two instances ive said passive aggressive things to people i love i always take accountability and apologize even if i havent done anything wrong and my friends will tell me what do you mean youve been acting normal all evening but its hard to feel nice and like my normal self w all these raging negative thoughts in my head i dont like feeling this way against people i love any ways to cope,3.0 56948,omg the sookie stackhouse is so good i wish i had another one to read right now ,2.0 56949,shadowdealer i did for thursday ,0.0 56950,rt forjungs jangan sampai trending sensor namanya he doesnt need to see his name trending bc of this sad newsim shaking and i didnt,2.0 56951,watching the victoria stafford memorial on tv i shouldve been there its making me cry so sad ,2.0 56952,no release form for uk summit yet getting nervy,2.0 56953,im happy im following danny from the gradual report ,0.0 56954,the most numb i have ever felt have any of you been so done with life you are just going through motions have you been so numb family friends all the bad things going on you simply just dont care i lately have more thoughts of suicide and i am about there i am tired of trying when everything falls apart i hear people say i dont really want to die when i have been asking myself that lately i do want to die i dont know how to shake this feeling of emptiness and just being numb to quite literally everything how do you guys get through it i am really needing some advice,3.0 56955,i am so thirsty but i spent all my money on cheap beer bottled water or beer from tap,2.0 56956,id really like to say im not listening to nin right now but id be lying nine inch nails into the void musicmonday,2.0 56957,biggc i know they must hate them being home enjoying time with their families ,2.0 56958,dinorawrrs oh my god i cant wait i love soy chai so much and you i cant wait to give you huggggs ,0.0 56959,sashakane just flew from la to philly timechangeenergy baby sis is getting married next week and u,0.0 56960,parents does anyone elses parents just trigger them and make them so sad my mum has been off work for over two weeks in which i cried every day and finally went back to work yesterday and my dad was away for work and i felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders and i was free for the day and most of today when theyre home i dont leave my room unless theyve gone out so im like a prisoner in thereon monday i got really bad i thought i was going to kill myself even planned that whilst they were on holiday in a few weeks i would clean my room get rid of my clothes just so they had minimum things to deal with when im gone after that whole breakdown and speaking to a friend i felt a lot betteruntil cut to today i was cleaning my room feeling happy after letting trash pile up in here for a good two years as soon as my dad got home he complained about me putting the bags in the spare room literally no where else i can put big trash bags cut to where i am now ive gone from being super positive feeling like im getting my life together just because im cleaning my room and its like his presence in the house has sucked out any hint a motivation in me and im just sat on the floor in the middle of all my trash sorry for the rant,3.0 56961,rt thegreatisnate pay attention to extra credit shady people career opportunities your physical and mental health and free foo ,1.0 56962,rt hoodsocialist i know she probably had a lot of people bashing her for her post but shes right amp a lot of people dont talk about thi,0.0 56963, as i told kim diversity and flawless will split the vote unfortunately ,2.0 56964,rt manlikekofii the academic neglect adds seasoning ,2.0 56965,my dad wont get out of the bathroom grrrrrrr x x,2.0 56966,relaxing music for stress relief calm celtic music for meditation heal via youtube,2.0 56967,anybody got tips on how to parallel park i suck at parallel ,2.0 56968,just earned for helping out at some vip event something along the lines of the anniversary of the popes inauguration yay money ,0.0 56969,maratha quotas fresh violence in maharashtra one more suicide ,2.0 56970,rt insanepukhtoon guys this girl interacts nicely with everyone but whenever i reply to her tweets she dont even reply she ignores me l,0.0 56971,took me awhile to recognize what im feeling is hope i was always afraid that deep down my depression stemmed from my invisibility to the opposite sex that as prepared as i believed i was to die alone i was never going to be able to happily accept it then the sudden possibility of me making real money somewhere opened upand when i thought about it i smiled at work i havent lusted for death all day i cant even remember the last time ive had some of these thought im experiencing now if my future isnt dead if theres real possibility of me having the things i want looking the way i should having the financial security i need wellthen maybe i can become the self sufficient black dodge charger with leather seats and a sunroof driving bad ass who lives life on his termsmaybe my life can be just as fulfilling or more so than well adjusted normies maybe i have a shot at getting what i want out of this life after all thats all i ever wanted,3.0 56972,but then theres all the rest ,0.0 56973,rt dianasnutz i dont get why people dont read outside of school yall must live some sad lives damn,1.0 56974,kennycarlile what type of puppies and that sucks ,2.0 56975,rt xxdbreezyxx how you let a nigga thats not even your nigga stress you out sis,1.0 56976,pshh keith fell asleep dork we were in a good conversation too oh well i love you babe ,0.0 56977,missed the federer vs soderling game argh oh well way to go federer,2.0 56978,talloracle im off to bed be safe later ,0.0 56979,nimblerunner yeah completely understand that more a developerpaid advertiser than seo person myself but thought id add my two cents ,0.0 56980,jst installing my new digi cam and well be off and running hahaha,0.0 56981,juicywebdesign omg you tweeted im sorry to hear that youre on the hunt but glad to see you here ,0.0 56982,andreashale thats cause uve been mean to me ,0.0 56983,at work organised chaos home time work to do more organised chaos oh my poor sanity is taking a battering ,2.0 56984,what are you guys doing kinda bored here ,2.0 56985, also hereeto hoootand i have to study sigh im listening to the song in the gossip girl final sceneso lovelyyy,2.0 56986,just back from a morning on the tandem with mr b finished off by a couple of hours at the pool summer is officially here ,0.0 56987,rt troubledpoc i met haqiem rusli at starbucks earlier 😅 i asked him why did he faked his depression then he threw his iced americano a,2.0 56988,im craving pancakes waffles and crepes but i just worked out so i dont want to eat them ya know ,2.0 56989,oxnanciibbyxo im awesome i miss u more u need a freaking phone nowww,2.0 56990,in serious pain cant go to the doctor till fuck ,2.0 56991,bible verses about depression ,2.0 56992,anxiety is on a million i cannot wait for this game to start nbafinals,2.0 56993,hates life lets put it that way ,2.0 56994,im at work and got an hour to go yay but im feeling so fat and icky today well lately i think im gaining weight ,2.0 56995,im so sad for our t hope hes ok,1.0 56996,breezyballababe oh awwwww dats how ima feel in weeks i wish i wuz graduating wit u guys,2.0 56997,working on some bannersthe concept looks great hope the execution makes it better ,0.0 56998,i have nothing i have no close friend girlfriend left me failed a class in university no job bipolar type why should i not kill myself,3.0 56999,rt nigerianewsdesk panic as ekiti local council officer commits suicide via todayng,2.0 57000,xeroxcandybar oh theres no way in hell i forgot ,0.0 57001,chilling at hamilton island ,0.0 57002,unfollow friday got on my list toodaloo booboo ,0.0 57003,working hard sends me into despair this post is more cathartic for me than it is meant to spur on meaningful conversationanyway here it goes i am i am a navy veteran i used gi bill money to push myself through college and law school i was a decent lawyer but constantly felt depressed then i got a less stressful government job as a regulator still depressed now ive gone and started my own consulting firm it is four months in and a pretty good success for a one man show i can cover all my bills with profitsbut i am still fucking depressed as all hell each time in my life i hit a milestone where i thought id feel accomplished it never happens the day i graduated law school was one of my most stressful days of my lifei cant be happy in private industry public service or as my own boss i think i hate the need to work more than anything the harder i work the more depressed i get i picture myself sustaining this much work for another years and i immediately feel suicidal nothing is worth it nothing good ever happens i wish i had become a garbage man ,3.0 57004,makikaysantos i agree you should be whatsmysection,2.0 57005, is following me waving hello and ive no desire to block himlt waves back thanks for not being a cockblocker ,0.0 57006, so you never get to sleepin i guess on sundays i dont mind working saturdays,2.0 57007,im starving this diet is killing me but i cant eat after ,2.0 57008,same ☹️ ,0.0 57009,zrhero haha i would but it dsnt look good when its tiled ,2.0 57010,i did some self reflecting and reminded myself of all the things ive learned unlearned and am proud of myself for even if in everyday life i overlook these qualities in myself they are still good we put so much pressure on ourselves and overthink so much we forget about who we really are after having somewhat of a breakdown being very anxious i got deep in thought about how i am not the things that happened to me but that i have learned so much i dont give myself the credit for sometimes we get and are stuck in a depressive state because we gave no confidence in ourselvesand we paint a picture of ourselves as our problems or the unfortunate events weve experienced i decided to write a letter to myself about what i am proud of what ive learned from my mistakes what good qualities ive kept despite going through hell and what i hope to discover about myself in the future its really helped me have a more confident calmer gentler way of seeing myself i am only human its ok to not be okay but its not okay to think you are garbage because of the stuff thats happened,3.0 57011,im a new mom and i want to end it all dear people of reddit im planning on killing myself today for a little bit of context the man i had this baby with we were together for about three years were not together anymore i am asexual which means i dont enjoy sex in any way shape or form my ex oftentimes would force himself on me but on this rare occasion when my daughter was conceived i did agree to have sex with him however he came in me without my consent im not really sure if youd label that as rape or what all i know is that its wrong im now hes ive gone through a lot with this man and even though my family is absolutely in love with my daughter my parents especially theyre in their now and poor as hell and i cant help but feel that by having my daughter i placed a financial burden on their shoulders even though they would never say it i know that i did the worst part is there was nothing that i could do to stop it throughout my whole pregnancy i was forced to watch my body distort and change into something i never wanted it to i never wanted any children i also cant help but feel like my ex forced me into this position as if to say hahaha now you cant get rid of me i was having issues with him before my daughter was conceived im also having problems with his family his family harassed me for over a year they did all sorts of things to me including forcing me to stay outside in freezing cold weather with nothing but a bathrobe on and no shoes for over an hour now im scared that one of these days those racist morons are going to find my daughter or at least find out about her because of everything that i went through with that family im afraid for her safety overall i just want the pain to stop every time i look at my daughter i cant help but feel like i was taken advantage of like the role of mother was forced upon me something that i never wanted to be i was forced into even though my tubes are completely severed i still cant help but feel this way irrational thoughts that flud my mind that say all anyone was ever born to do is to reproduce and die so goes on to the next generation and it worries me that i have a daughter it scares me to think that some day the same will happen to her and i dont want to be around to see that happen to her it absolutely infuriates me that evolution has left women with such a disadvantage because unlike men women dont have the option to pull out women cant just check a box and say i dont want to have kids we have no choice in the matter ultimately as a woman it doesnt matter what you want all that matters is what your body wants i cant take this anymore i just want to end it all maybe in the next life ill be lucky and ill come back as a man at least then ill have an option i hope i do,3.0 57012,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 57013,the big d i have been thinking a lot about depression and being depressed the big d is like a death penalty you can try to act like it isnt there or real but it always comes back into your head that you are in this shitty situationi have been trying for almost a year now to better myself because i always thought that i made myself depressed so i tried to workout have a better attitude about nearly everything in life to be greatful when i think about how greatful i should be i get even more deeper into that empty dark feeling because i start to feel pitty for all those who have it even worse doesnt matter who if i think about a child somewhere that is molested hungry or sleeping in the cold and how i am pretty well off in comparison to them i feel so ashamed and so sad if i workout it numbs me completely i find myself cycling or running all the time and thinking almost too deep even when i am listening to podcasts or audiobooks it distances me even more from the world the worst is when people ask me what is wrong with me what should i answer they act like they care or they tell themselves they care but in reality nobody wants you at yor worst not even your family for me family was what triggered depression it is so hard to put in words what it is and how it feels i know that for everyone it feels a bit different i really do understand people who think about suicide i totally get it now i dont even want to take my life but i wouldnt mind if someone would shoot me while i am doing my run in the forest or if someone accedentally would run me over with a car i just wouldnt want that person to feel awful for it or go to prison whatevever if i would tell anybody this in my real world they would ridicule me or tell me how i am overreacting or say those awfull things like we can talk about it as much as you want i am here for you i dont want to anymore the worst part about the big d is that in your heart you know that it wont get better or at least you can not see it,3.0 57014,holy shit they was so young d i love atl,0.0 57015,franky fell off the bed onto the hardwood many tears and a bloody nose i feel like the worst mom alive ,2.0 57016,its already midnight and im hungryi guess id better sleep instead of having supperhahamy supper is my exam material ,2.0 57017,eating peach yogurt mmm ,0.0 57018,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 57019,roxycottontail rox so sorry ,2.0 57020,rt badthingtoyou leaving fifth harmony was the best thing for camila regarding her mental health im so proud of her ,0.0 57021,jasonvonberg that is so so sad ,2.0 57022,what do you mean when you say you cant do something there are lots of things i should be doing and not doing small things like throwing away that cup on the counter doing the dishes or responding to an email i think i need to do this i want to do this its not hard it will only take minutes but i know most days i wont obviously i have the physical capacity to do these things ill stare at a pair of socks on the floor and think i should pick those up but i dont i know i could but historically i dont do the thing i want to and should do i feel weak saying i cant and yet the socks are still on the floor and its been over a month that i havent answered that email do others feel the same away ,3.0 57023,modernmami bring laptop to blogher just not to each session that was also said if you have a smartphone that pad and paper is good ,0.0 57024,three days since my last tweet and no concern i could have been dead peeps the reality is i forgot my password ,2.0 57025,working on a research paper with my momma ,0.0 57026,letting opportunities pass you by bc of anxiety and only realising after that you fucked up is the worst,2.0 57027,rt vinterine wtf is this me when i blast sad music in my earphones and cry while i wash the dishes and clean the house ,2.0 57028,looking at baby pictures ,0.0 57029,hubby at a fancy restaurant with coworkersand im home with the kiddies ,2.0 57030,rt cloutlesskert me waking up in the middle of the night due to anxiety and stress ,2.0 57031,rt current stress level about college starting ,2.0 57032,someoneeee loan me to fix my tireeee ,2.0 57033,my life is nothing i started feeling this way during high school im tipsy right now so ill try my best here i had a tight knit group of friends in elementary who i enjoyed being around but they all ended up taking academic classes while i took applied classes because im kind of dumb and also was not willing to put any effort into high school this is now a regret because i spent most of my time in high school around people i didnt really like while all my friends were having a blast with each otherthis led to issues because since i never talked in most of my classes i never learned how to socialize properly and its destroying me i can be pretty confident at times but as soon as someone tries to initiate a conversation i freeze up and start giving one word answers leading the conversation nowheremy social issues have also ruined any good chance at a relationship one of the girls i work with who also used to go to my high school showed a lot of interest in me but since i was always awkward and couldnt give more than a yes or no at most times it ended up going nowhere even though i was also interested in herthis makes me upset because i am a year old virgin and all i really want right now is a girlfriend i can spend time with im not even worried about losing my virginity at this point i just want someone i could be close with and spend a bunch of time with so im not so lonely all the timeloneliness is another huge problem in my life i only have close friends and we try to hang out whenever we can the issue is of those friends are a couple and the other used to be in a relationship but split up though they occasionally hook up still it bugs me because i feel like i may spend my life alone because i cannot connect with anyone while everyone around me are in relationshipsdespite all of that i still enjoy all the time we spend together however its not often as they all either work or are in school so we can rarely find times where we are all available i used to love playing games online when i was in elementary because i got to talk to whole bunch of new people but my anxiety i have today prevents that from happening anymore i would feel much better if i had some close friends i could play with online but im no longer able to do that because i dont feel comfortable talking to people anymorei tried doing shrooms once to see if that could help my depression but of course i put way too much faith into that and it ended up doing nothing even though i enjoyed the experience while it lasted as i felt as though i had no care in the world for a few hoursalcohol also doesnt work as well as it used to when it comes to socializing two years ago i could get drunk and have a decent time at parties but now being drunk doesnt help me at all as i only get more worried about what everyone thinks of me out of a fear that ill make an ass of myself somehowi dont get out much i work about hours a week at a part time job even though i hate it there and my friends are more often then not busy so i cant be with them i try to use video games as an escape but they dont work as well as they used to years agosorry for the ranty post that went nowhere this is all something ive wanted to get off my chest for a long time but i never felt like i could until now feel free to comment or ask any questions and ill try to get to them when i wake up thank you for reading,3.0 57034,willtothe next time u call me at least say nice not bitchin me out ,2.0 57035,sugar levels dropping munchies setting in luckily i have a black chocolate toblerone in the fridge ,0.0 57036,eureka i hope this helps someone other than just myself i think i may have stumbled on an idea of the function of panic and anxiety is first introduced to our brain functions and the reason behind why i think depression is a by product of these circumstances it struck me as i woke up this morning in my haziness of waking slumber i spent the last hours trying to put it into wordslet me start by being clear im no medical expert this hypothesis is solely based on observations of personal experiences for nearly decades nothing that what im proposing here is based on any medical study or expertise just shooting from the hip here here goesi think panic and anxiety are anatomical responses to the advent of the notion of social usefulness and the never ending constantly growing need to prove personal usefulness to self and others around depression is the neurological attempt at assimilation and adaptation to these constant stresses in response my idea is that as an animal humans werent developed to live life in high stress situations anxiety building to panic is a primitive survival function when we were living in the wild we remember sounds that belonged to things that may cause us bodily harm roars thunder fast flowing water etc this caused us to fight of flee the primary responses to a threat once that threat was neutralized or gotten away from the anxiety would subside and life could go on naturally only needing to obtain food and shelter we also instinctually seek other interactions like procreative instincts and desire but those usually come secondary to basic survival needs dread is the mental response to not being able to fight that threat or flee from it depression happens when we dont know what the threat is and uncertainty of our ability to escape it essentially we are just experiencing and influencing our environment our use was simply to survive as long as possiblewe have to first identify the traits of the human as an animal what is the basic primary functions of a human animal in the wild we have a relative of our lifetime already set in rhythm for sleep that functions as an energy recharge and the time your body repairs itself and grows the most the rest of the day was spent primarily seeking survival mechanisms food shelter something to cover our fragile skin to protect it from the elements that could be several things from mud animal hides primitive weaved fabrics from leaves etc the daily activities and functions needed for human survival were relatively basic and minimal and most of the advancements in technology minus militarywarfare has been to better provide for ourselves the basic things necessary up until we had relatively mechanized survival this happened at about the industrial revolution in the late s at this point industrial manufacturing of our survival tools began to grow and quickly most of our needs began being met by industry grocery stores shops for clothes home building subdivisions gas and electric companies hospitals etc industry gave way to the military industrial complex and global military became the biggest industry on the planet this is in part what facilitated and all wars since then and those wars gave people something to feel useful about useful to their communities useful to their countries useful to their friends and peers they were fighting alongside this was a manipulation of preconceived notions of nationalism as a method of social influence this is still a mechanism that is pushed today fast forward to the s just after and in the united states the outlook was one of a new golden age everything was possible and outlooks were positive many still refer to this stereotype as the good ole days this gave rise to an economic boom of people wanting to obtain the possessions that provided a solid secure life a home a car financial abundance all the things we consider today to be key markers in what delegates a persons basic achievements in life was the primary social pursuit take care of yourself clothe yourself feed yourself etc most of us would all agree that this should be a relative standard amongst the general population although that isnt always the case this massive influx of this demand for these possessions along with new growth in population baby boomer generation led to increasing demand for industrial manufactured goods since these goods had manufacturers suggested retail value this also leads to a higher overhead needed per household higher over head demands a higher wage higher wage is proposed to be obtained by a higher skill set so this opened up opportunity to industrial education this available education then lead to an increasing standard in what is expected of the general person in oder to signify to themselves and the people around them that they are indeed successful enough to take care of their basic needs this outlook has lead to the global measure of success primarily being determined by bankroll education level and professional status all of which are determined to a certain degree by the amount of effort you out into achieving financial and educational milestones as well as your proficiency in achieving them but one cannot argue the a lot of it is also based on chance occurrences for example certain opportunity is obtained by simply meeting and interacting with people often people gain access to career opportunity simply by knowing someone they were friends with in college or some other social interaction these friendships are often treated as if they have more value than others if you achieve these goals in the top percentages of proficiency and happen to know just the right people you are deemed the most useful therefore the most in demand in your particular expertise this goal is to obtain the best chance at obtaining the most wage to work hour ratio to produce as much assets as possible to sustain the personal survival needs of you and any group you choose to provide for family etc this finally creates an atmosphere in which you must toil to create the most demand for yourself your skills and whatever else you can offer that is useful to someone else that determines whether you become one of things a social asset or a social liability this constant atmosphere leads to an unusual set of conditions which lead from anxiety to panic to depression and ultimately to dreadhopelessnessmy goal of writing this all down and sharing it is to hopefully give myself and other a better hypothetical outlook on understanding the nature of these emotional and mental states so that i can better cope with them in the moment of experience hopefully this can alleviate some of the whats wrong with me and will i always be like this feeling when these episodes occur by my remembering that this is just a neurochemical response to an unnatural situation that i am coping with applying scientific observation to instinctive traits that will enable me to have a better chance at my basic human function survivalbe gentle to yourself for better or worse we live in a mechanized civilization and certain achievements are needed in order to live in a modern social environment but try to remember survival is your only real required use everything else is just what you choose to do whether or not you offer something to the world today should not be your only measure of self worth the fact that we are embodied and aware in an organic vehicle and not only able to interact with but influence our environment and each other is in itself one of the most astounding and undeniably incredible aspect of being a living human being just that alone is pretty amazingdont let yourself get overwhelmed by what the world is telling you that you should be doing do what you think you should be doing do what you want to be doing be in your experience be in your body in your life joy and pain are part of what indicates that we are alive and that in itself can be beautiful im doing my best everyday to not let any of the monsters or shadows in the world ruin my subjective experience as awareness embodied because ill only be me once and i want to enjoy this ride as much as i can i want to love i want to create i want to laugh thats more important than my survival functions thats my instinct and applying instinct to intention is an approach that could make us remarkable be you be free and remember you are useful you need you to experience this awareness thats primary what you do with that experience is who you ultimately become and remembering that my friends just might be enough to help me get through a tough day express your awe lift an eye to the cosmos and be in the universe together we can survive this too thats what our species does survives,3.0 57037,its so unfair the usa have the sims right now and i have to wait until friday x,2.0 57038,sad to say bye bye to these beautiful mountains ,2.0 57039,morning twiggas the weekly recap is up on go check it out ,0.0 57040, this pic is amazing soulglowactivtr is an awesome guy ,0.0 57041,lilpsycho good morning ma did you ice that knee like i told you to ,0.0 57042,triciapsguard just going through my tweets hehe,0.0 57043,changing my bg in youtube ,0.0 57044,rt brentconner im so fucking uglyand its 💞💖💘💕,0.0 57045,rt jossyjay my name is josalynn thomas and i am in need of a emotional support dog i was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety an,2.0 57046, oh no ugh we sorted him out but now dangerjoe is lol ,2.0 57047,rt shepherdmpofu sa professor commits suicide due to depression hope someone up there acts faster,2.0 57048,olerafa what about the pic so sad pic this one broke my heart,2.0 57049,da air condition just brokeahhhh da heat it feels like nigeria up in dis mug ,2.0 57050,depressions coming back because work changed my job amp want me to change with it so in august last year i had the perfect job for me i was genuinely happy i was adding value to the firm and i was exceeding all my objectivesin september the business had a reorganisation my team and i were moved into a new department but doing the same jobs in theory this was a basic move we were told nothing would changeobviously that was a lie i knew it would be but i hoped i was being cynicalsince then ive seen every aspect of our ways of working previously agile be eroded im unable to achieve anything the new department doesnt allow decisions to be made theres no delegation of responsibility theres no team working i raised this with my manager today and he told me that this is all my problem my frustration needs to be reigned in i need to get my head into this department i cant describe how demotivating this is i was good capable respected across the firm now im being told that what i did what i showed i was capable of is irrelevant the black dog is circling i dont know what to do everything is my fault even though ive had no say in these changes im frustrated angry depressed im horrible to be around and i cant bear itto top it off i went for a job with my old department same job title i have now and i didnt get it im not good enough to get back there and im not good enough to be where i am im just not good enough at all and i hate myself for itwhat do i do,3.0 57051, hope your exam went well im sure you aced it ,0.0 57052,bkkevents enough with the automotive parts already ,2.0 57053,i did it today i texted my mom that for the past five months ive been struggling with depression for years ive had depression on and off but i always thought that i could handle it on my own i never wanted to burden anyone with my own struggles my depression recently though has taken a turn for the worst im a freshman at college and its suppose to be the easiest semester of my college career really though i can barely get out of bed in the morning ive had to have friends sleep in the same bed as me in order for me to fall asleep at night ive been cutting myself and suicidedeath is constantly on my mind last night though i was out with my friends and i couldnt even bring myself to smile it was too tiring for me to even try to be friendly or happy and i was just disgusted with myself this morning i woke up and was like fuck it i cant do this alone anymore so i told my best friend whos the only person that knows im depressed that im telling my mom my best friend and i met up and helped me figure out what to say i was just honest with my mom i told her that im struggling and i need help but im not ready to tell her everything yet so my mom gave me her best friends information whos a psychiatrist and weve already made plans for me to start therapy and to go on medication ive been so ashamed of my depression for five years i wanted to die before i had to tell my family what was really going on i realize now though that i had nothing to ever be ashamed of my family is so supportive and only wants the best from me and im so grateful to have them i hope everyone here is able to reach out and find the help they need and well deserve youre all so loved please remember that💕,3.0 57054,themandymoore hey shy girl lol xoxo ,0.0 57055,how do i make sense of what happened i am now but when i was in highschool i was in a year relationship with a girl who emotionally abused me and gaslighted me to the point of myself attempting suicide multiple times im not one to get triggered but hearing her name in passing sends me into a spiral the topic recently came up with my longtime boyfriend as i had been pushing it away for years avoiding the topic i dont know how to explain the situation without sounding crazy because it does sound crazy why would i date someone i actively hated for years why wouldnt i just leave when i realized i was being abused i dont know its because i was being manipulated and threatened that if i left i would be responsible for her suicide its because i was tricked into alienating all my friends so if left i would have nobody left its because when i was still in the hospital after overdosing she continued to tell me how i was selfish i was being its how she told everyone i attempted and then blamed my best friend for the reason the whole student body knew i was gone my closest friend who witnessed it all real time is the only one in the world that truly understands as well as i do what happened and i know she knows why this happened but i dont know how to express the pain to anyone else without sounding like an idiot i dont even know how to explain to myself what happened and if it was all my fault after all,3.0 57056,damnit sure im glad that connex are out of the picture but i just wrote a song about them for my show now my material will be dated ,2.0 57057,rt shinemygold i tried to commit suicide today never doin that shit again i almost killed myself,2.0 57058,yung feeling na uxtuh mo mag kiki challenge kaso la ka car kiki lang sad,2.0 57059,annemarike woohoo enjoy your book and how awesome was the usskelvin i loved star trek you must must watch all of it ,0.0 57060,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 57061,babblingbrookie oh my gosh i cried so much when you got eliminated on the top im such a big fan ,0.0 57062,avarfieldagent well i hope theres no deleting,2.0 57063,ff more and more ladies missstonewall bajerianqueen ptrini redhottchillip tresespieces,0.0 57064,iamalejandra but i love you though ,2.0 57065,random im tired i need to learn how to sleep earlier ,2.0 57066,new music again tomorrow im going to my uncles place to go see the bubahh then off to khoders place,0.0 57067,is taking a much needed break this weekend and heading to lex ,0.0 57068,lilethiopian i wish we had nap time for classes longer than minutes pull out them blue mats ahhso tired now ,2.0 57069, look at what i did yay work killed me though ,2.0 57070,feeling groggy this morning need sleep but have a lot of work to do ,2.0 57071,ddlovato i just watch princess protection program and i loved to film is great ,0.0 57072,thinking about going to a recovery center hi everyone recently it seems like everything is imploding and i have been crying for almost a week straight my depression is horrible so im thinking about going somewhere to have a short stay to work through some of my emotional problems can anyone recommend a place thanks,3.0 57073,joeexclusive ahh but alas we are print on demand gift bag sponsorship would leave us bankrupt ,2.0 57074,says yay one topic down ,2.0 57075,picken up khloe i havent seen her all day ,2.0 57076, you are driving a prius thats a motherfucking ugly car ,0.0 57077,im always ghosted can i please die now everybody always ghosts me i havent had irl friends in over a decade since high school since then i have tried to make online friends some people have actually contacted me it never lasts the longest was a couple months i started to feel a tiny amount of hope but then i could sense it then sure enough they wrote to me i responded and four years later they have never written back sometimes i go back and reread the messages god im stupid no wonder they ghost me why am i never good enough why couldnt i be like normal person people why did i have to be me so ugly and unlikeable garbage from the inside out why must i be forced to live why cant i please find peace it has been years and im not getting better just let me finally have peace ,3.0 57078,losing yourself i lost myself a long time ago ever since i was a little kid i acted around people i acted the way i thought they wanted me to act from a young age i had this ability to really read people and conform myself to what i perceived them to expect from me i did this with every person i met so i became a thousand different people and in the process lost the real me and i dont mean this in some unimaginable abstract way but rather in a very real and palpable way that inner voice that we all have right there for me is hidden deep inside tucked away beneath the many other voices that have hijacked me and acted in accordance with whatever motives this adulterated version of me has hard to articulate but is so painfully present now aged ive gotten slightly better at being myself but still have a very long way to go since so much of what i do is dictated by whatever bs ive absorbed and decided i need to act like it makes me sad because ive lived unauthentically for so long a slave for other peoples pleasure people who are now long gone from my life and completely irrelevant i sold it all for nothing i dont even know where this post is coming from youd think it was a plea from the real me for help but it might not be i dont know whats dictating these words and fwiw when i say voices i dont mean schizophrenia type stuff i mean the internal dialogue each of us has that is constantly on and thinking weird thing to lose yourself,3.0 57079,witchycleo same girl i dont even take pictures or look at any part of my body other than my stomach in the mirror ,0.0 57080,vampsaam epic win ,0.0 57081,is starvinggrrr i hate it when i need food alsowatching old smackdown episodes from year kennedy will be missed,2.0 57082, and never had an offline friend or been in a relationship i am almost and to this day i have still never had a friend i could go hang out with or kissed anyone i have spend a very large part of my life depressed and suicidal mainly because of this reason there are other reasons as well but the main reason is just utter lonelinessit used to be my family dog was my friend of course she is long gone and its next to impossible to own a dog now adays on minimum wage as nowhere will allow pets or at least not dogs that are bigger then a rat and i cant stand those little yip yip dogsi find myself thinking more and more about suicide everyday when i am alone lying in bed i think about it when i am at work i think about it i think about what i would put in my note to my mom and dad i think about how i would do it either hang myself or go to the gun range and rent a gun and just off myself right there,3.0 57083,matheusfragoso hey yaa ,0.0 57084,glasshalffull you better go quick it probably will not stay ,0.0 57085,vmdoug gives you plenty of time for the new toy ,0.0 57086,story time today has been a hell of a day originally started as a pretty good day but turned shitty pretty quickl ,0.0 57087,and if your arabian isnt like that then you need to spend some more quality time with each other we grew up together ,0.0 57088,lifelong dream voice for a cartoon ,0.0 57089,tiredboredand listening music ,0.0 57090,neoangel ahah welcome back ,0.0 57091,sourasith mmm gyoza yum yum im so hungry i keep eating when im bored ,2.0 57092,why has my life gotten so emotional and hard this past year and im feeling more lonely then ever ,2.0 57093,rt morganriiey your wcw is a piece of shit who takes depression naps a day she also pushes away everybody who cares about her its me,2.0 57094,rt mtnmoxiegirl gratitude eliminates fear worry grief and depression and brings happiness clarity compassion and peace of mind,1.0 57095,awwww i hate my ob jerk,2.0 57096,anti depressants someone close to me is on anti depressants i cant remember what ones i could find out if needed but hes literally just coming off some and waiting to start a new kindwhat im wondering if obviously not supposed to just take them forever so at what point is the person deemed well enough to come off them surely when they do they feel awful again too in which case if they arent going to do themselves harm is it beneficial for them to take them at all i dont want to sound ignorant here i know what depression feels like including ptsd but what hes feeling is obviously more severe than what i ever felt and our experiences what hes been through no one should have to experience i just want to learn about the best way to help him and be supportive etc while hes coming off these other meds hes feeling awful and im wondering if its even a good idea to be taking the pills at all but im sure doctor knows best but i dont have a doctor to explain to me about it lol ,3.0 57097,ive decide i am me and thats all ,0.0 57098,really wishes she could go see taylor swift this summer but seeing jonas instead ugh i wish i had more money so i could see her live ,2.0 57099, where the green at where the talent i want it all if not all some of it hook it up lock in w ur man httpczaus,0.0 57100,chasinghighways flight of epic fail love it ,0.0 57101,jesus no updates for days er ooh i have a newfound respect for blur best of is great ,0.0 57102,there is hope this time a year ago i was admitted in to the hospital for the second time for attempting suicide may of last year i was so depressed and my anxiety was so severe that i couldnt take it anymore i hated myself so much and thought it would be better if i wasnt here for the second time my husband called and forced me into emergency after overdosing i was then transferred to an inpatient facility for mood disorders for the second time i was mad at myself that i was back in there again for god knows how long this time i was devastated i was putting my husband through this pain and stress again he kept telling me that it wasnt my fault and that i was sick and that he was there for me as many times as he told me that it was hard to believe at the time and then something changed i met the most amazing psychiatrist this was the person psychiatristpsychologisttherapist etc i was seeing some i saw were great some were so awful they shouldnt have their practicing license but number i wish the world could meet him he worked with me he told me we were a team and together we were going to decide what was best for me he was funny he was patient and he was extremely smart and not just book smart street smart too the way i was able to laugh at everything i was going through made everything seem lighter easier to deal with and something i could actually manage for the first time the world didnt seem so heavy anymore he worked with me on my terms we laughed a lot and i really cant describe how much that helped me figure things out for so long i felt crazy so i felt like my opinions didnt matter or didnt make sense but he told me my opinions were valid and i know me better than anybody and he helped me find me a year later im out of the hospital and thriving im getting back in to doing what i love going on an exciting bucket list adventure next week which i never thought id make it to and back to doing what i love i just want everyone out there to know there is hope and people told me that before and i never believed it trust me keep going to different therapists until you find your person you will get better god damn it takes a lot of work but i promise you it is worth it i can genuinely say i am happy and my husband now has said i always knew you were still in there,3.0 57103,iamjonathancook you being upset makes me upset ,2.0 57104,depressed with anxiety needing distractions im in college right now and the only things im focused on are my grades and my classes and while im sure this is a good thing for studying i dont know when to stop and my mental health was really falling apart last quarter it ended up with me having a few panic attacks which really makes me upset i need a way to distract myself from school and some new hobbies ways to clear my head you know any help with this would be great thank you for reading ,3.0 57105,millakokujo basically they spammed that dumb fivemeters comm with guro pics of gilbo awesome shit but noe its been deleted ,2.0 57106,chemistry science gcse tomorrow i hope i do well ah i no i wont tho ,2.0 57107,regretting that lunch is at least awayand will consist of soup and stale bread ,2.0 57108,men in our society need to be brainwashed with soap and a hard tough scrub ,2.0 57109,just finished getting ready i have to stay afterschool all week till for color guard tryouts ,0.0 57110, ummmmmmok thanks i guess ,2.0 57111,prozac side effect i female took prozac about ten min ago after eating had half a glass of alcohol before feel awful extremely nauseous face tingling sweaty headache what can i do this happened yesterday too,3.0 57112,time to go swimming ,0.0 57113,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 57114, that link doesnt work snmt,2.0 57115,kidchan you organize it i will go it ,0.0 57116, ouch that sucks ,2.0 57117,aintyourjam but marks gone sad,2.0 57118,rt iatemuggles me i need to talk this out with someonemy anxiety youre going to come off as needy isolate urself and handle it all,2.0 57119,how to tell my mom i need help im and on my parents insurance they have no idea im depressed really they just think im kind of moody but they dont know how bad it is ive been having the worst episode of my life this last week and im so out of touch with reality im so thoroughly not okay right now i want to say something to my mom but my parents are arab and their attitudes towards mental health arent good i dont want to say something and be treated like im super fragile but i genuinely need help i was thinking of just sitting down with her tomorrow and being like im so anxious all the time and i really think i should see someone does anyone have tipssuggestions,3.0 57120,pink i understand him he doesnt like to loose or what ,0.0 57121,finally made an appointment for an evaluation today and have acknowledged that i am powerless in my situation and i havent felt this good in ages and its all thanks to me discovering this subreddit it may sound silly but ive never felt more relieved to see on here that so many people think the same thoughts that i do it reminded me that i wasnt crazy and most importantly that i wasnt alone thank you all for the contributions you make on here and the loving community that you guys present youve all made a very positive impact on me whether youve tried to or not ,3.0 57122,rt athazgor have you ever been so sad that it physically hurts inside,2.0 57123,serious question anyone else feel like they dont want to live anymore but at the same time dont wanna die yet its been on my mind for so long now does anyone else feel the same way and know the reasoning behind it,3.0 57124,rt dizque ojala la depilacion laser me quite los bellos momentos que pasamos juntos jajajajajjaja so sad😞,1.0 57125,feels like shit and cba to stay awake ,2.0 57126,long day on set and even longer day tomorrow call yikes,2.0 57127,omg phillyd is so close too bad i haz no carz ,2.0 57128,xxrckrgrlxx its all good i still love ya lol thanks for the support,0.0 57129,wife gone to work my plans more presentation creation rock band and outside time if sun shines,2.0 57130,blahsodmg im on facebook aim itunes amp twitter multitasking,0.0 57131,rt craigslistlover this is so sad ,2.0 57132,songbookbaby thats good and yes im better today ,0.0 57133,dmctweeterscount change number and dont repeat ,0.0 57134,jasonmraz really loving quotshy that wayquot today sunny day in the uk perfect for such an occasion thank you ,0.0 57135,ive got a cold ,2.0 57136,how do i get rid of coughs this one likes to keep me up at night ,2.0 57137,xyladevera are you into teaching korean kids i wanna try it kasi for a change na sawa na ko call center eh ,2.0 57138,i wish i was a snail ,2.0 57139,oh darn alex is still sick i hate missing work ,2.0 57140,i wanna have a birthday party tomorrow night is everyone already busy ,0.0 57141,final exam in still tired tho lol,0.0 57142,really had me thinking i was crazy and overrating but the whole time i was right the truth will always come to the ,0.0 57143,davidrosam got it from a new underwear ,2.0 57144,cant wait to watch tarix jabrix ,2.0 57145,hand spinner tri fidget stress reducer adhd anxiety desk toy edc metal ball via ebay ,1.0 57146,cant upload picture so sad ,2.0 57147,welcome home a vietnam vet just walk on up put out your hand to shake and say welcome home they never got that honorvets,2.0 57148,nonono i fell asleep the wrong way gahaha,2.0 57149,mileycyrus just heard a clip of that song its really good ,0.0 57150,freekyzeeky wow dont do that to britney ,2.0 57151,god im to old to learn a new social networki havent even figured out the old one yet ,2.0 57152,bfs depression is worsening what can i do having to use a throwaway because he knows my actual reddit usernamefor a bit of background my boyfriend has aspergers syndrome and has always had trouble with his emotions no matter how he felt over the years there have been many improvements but if his mind isnt in the right state the vulnerabilities start to show due to my personal circumstances my boyfriends family took me into their home last septemberhe was diagnosed with depression last september and he was prescribed citalopram to help with his mood hes had setrolin in the past and has reacted badly to it however his family and i have just discovered that he ran out of tablets weeks ago and had been refusing to take them when he did have them at this point red flags are going off because hes always been able to take his tablets when he needs to even when he was first diagnosed his mum managed to get an emergency prescription through and shes now going to be holding onto his tablets and give them to him daily like she does with me i tried to od last summer so im under strict instruction not to handle my own anti depressants hes been missing a lot of classes because of it all and its getting to the point where hes sleeping more than hes awake last night he slept from to then to around half its really worrying me as well hes given up on himself and just shuts himself away all of the time he tried to barricade himself into his room yesterday so his mum and i had to try and get him out this is very much not like him he also bit my finger swore at me and tried to throw a packet of something at me again very much not like him im guessing it was an autistic meltdown but whether the depression is contributing to the severity of them i dont know his family and i are worried that if he keeps going the way he is hes going to self destructi would like to ask for any sort of advice or ideas you give me to help him if you could help me understand how much i can do thatd be greatly appreciated im autistic too so trying to understand things from his point of view is slightly harder than it would be thanks in advance ,3.0 57153,jus stopped at sonic for a drinkdrivin down tha hwy tired as helltweeting yall ,0.0 57154,krapps good to hear that we should not talk of socal problems again have a nice evening,0.0 57155,my indescribable hatred for the human race the regular human in this day and age is a weak minded coward why do i say so the average human is lazy and evil always turning a blind eye to the suffering he causes in order to protect his piece of mind and self image as long as he can eats sleeps flaunts his wealth he will keep on doing so until he dies he will not think about anything else sadly most people are incapable of seeing beyond their self image most people will cling to the temporary rather than the permanent like a child to the breast of his motheri have lived my life alone i have not had a single friend in years because of who i am and what i look like it has messed me up mentally often times i felt like i was going to die from the loneliness but i am happier knowing that i do not have any fake friends but without this loneliness i would not have known the true evil nature of human most people are narcisstic that is why they do not choose different people like me to have in their social circle which i am greatful not to be a part of i will continue on living alone until i one day find people who are similar to me until then i hope to be alive,3.0 57156,awful about the air france plane ,2.0 57157,marcode jealous wish i was in italy ,2.0 57158,lurre eeeek if its a straight break all you can do is tape a baby toe but if its compound that means surgery keep an eye on it,2.0 57159,gordon brown or brown um brownhm my coat is brown anyone agree message me,0.0 57160,happy monday its lovely and sunny i can see ahead a really proactive day at work ,0.0 57161,going to help keith move a car something tells me that this might end with me running for my life ,0.0 57162,is away from puter ,0.0 57163, i see you on the open house party ,0.0 57164,waugaman oh re chicks ive also been described as a gay man trapped in a womans body ,0.0 57165,ik most people reading dont give a fuck but i dont have any to say this to so im gonna say it on here my life is like good i cant complain i have a home friends family food on the table and yet im so fuckinh suicidal and depressed and idk why idk if anyone out there feels the same like ur so done with life for no reason ur sad mentally physically and emotionally exhausted but you dont know why i fucking hate it its killing me if there is anyone reading this and if feeling the same way please lmk how to deal with it or i might just off myself honestly ,3.0 57166,mia coachella where is jimmy so sad,2.0 57167,just woke up from a goodass depression nap 👌🏾😫😤💯,0.0 57168,shes coming i love it,0.0 57169,joshmyheart attacked by the seatbelt oncethat thing did not like me very much ,2.0 57170,sad and in pain ,2.0 57171,what are the signs that tell you your depression is flaring up so to speak me ill drop something and mutter i need to kill myself i think im passively suicidali say i want to kill myself and sometimes i really do which is awful i think considering that objectively my life has been good but i cant actually fathom doing it plus im afraid of feeling physical paini also sleep a lot and dont eat much and i love to eat food in general,3.0 57172,rt andrewfootie from the archive exhibits that perfectly explains the geographical fragmentation logistical difficulty and trading ni,1.0 57173,drhorrible any have you guys go the lo down on castin calls for the sequel id love to get involved ,0.0 57174, damn i cant believe that its come down to thatoh how i miss vegas ,2.0 57175,volta pros trendings bouvierbday frenchiebday bouvierbday frenchiebday bouvierbday frenchiebday bouvierbday frenchiebday,2.0 57176,too much homework im going to fail the us constitution test ,2.0 57177,want a support dog i am struggling with so much right now i feel like ive been thrown away and abandoned by the one person ive trusted to death and now im pretty much alone to sort out all these tricky ass feelings its hard not to feel depressed when you look around and realize that maybe all the hard work was for nothing i really would like a support dog but i dont have the money or time for it what else can i do to feel better,3.0 57178,this morning my iphone became an ibrick looks like the dev version of expired but itunes keeps insisting it is up to date ,2.0 57179,i feel like my friends are only staying with me out of pity so im and have been really depressed and suicidal i recently told all of them that i was going to kill myself and they called the police on me and so i didnt now i feel like there only friends with me so i dont kill myself and actually one of them just left me this is the exact text she sent me today okay so im not sure how to bring this up in a nice way but i maybe think we shouldnt hang out its not that i dont like you its just that you have a lot of stuff going on but so do i and i just dont have the time or emotional energy to try and help you through it youre really nice and a good person but youre not seeking professional help and youre seeking comfort in your friends instead and were not qualified at all to deal with it so basically what im saying is i cant deal with your emotional baggage because you make me feel like its my job to keep you alive since youre kinda fragile and your drug use is a problem sorry but you brought it up so until youre more stable i cant hang out with or talk to you because i have my own shit im going throughand now i feel like the other two feel the same way ive been coping with this depression with drugs and they hate that but i dont know how else to deal with iti dont even know what to do anymore or how to feel me and one of the other also got into a fight and the ending was good and we came to an agreement in the end but it still doesnt change the fact that we had a fight i guess im asking how i should deal with this situation because my suicidal thoughts just got worse with this event,3.0 57180,is moving in weeks i finally know where im going to be living during summer hols then after that househunting again for uni joy,0.0 57181,a sprinkle of sunshine and a dash of depression,2.0 57182,broke down yesterday but today was a good day i have no one to share this to but you guys and it felt soooo goodi broke down yesterday again and felt like it was the end of the world fast forward to today walking to school a stranger smiled and said hi to me made my day because this basically never happens later in class i somehow managed to meet people including where i had a crush on for a while the first i met because it turned out we played the same video game and we talked about it for a while i met the girl who i had a crush on because she needed supplies so i lent her them best part is we exchanged numberssocial media i honestly dont think there will be another day like this and im just glad this happened to me today like there was a light at the end of the tunnel for me,3.0 57183,purityring where u at ,2.0 57184,i guess i need to stop being so opinionated ,2.0 57185,just got back from manchester i went to the trafford centre motor show it was very small and sucked ,2.0 57186,wants go bk bed not feeling gud and have a bad back ,2.0 57187,how to fight the fear for future i am turning this year i am oldest child from my family i am considered as wise guy by much people but kinda antisocial never was on a party or anything but i am in anxious feeling that i will fail expectations i wont achieve anything i will probably kill myself when i will finally fail i hate being responsible for anything thoughts about possible future are so depressing and mostly causing me to be sad i have one best person of my life my girlfriend that is far away and i was with her irl only once my parents wont let me go to her either i am not questioning that she loves me but i am afraid that in the future she would leave me and i wont have any basic reasons to live how to fight the feeling,3.0 57188,yea its hot dwn their im in ny ,2.0 57189, this my new more private acc will only use it for close twitter friends ,0.0 57190,french dutch and romanian already ready for the fastest fox video campaign ,0.0 57191,health class outside ,0.0 57192,eashmore like for reals this time guys ha gnight amp happy birthday kid ,0.0 57193,mznitra haahhaa imma have to snatch mine out the fridge too imma be turnt inside tonight tho i wanted b out w yall hookers ,2.0 57194,i want a labradoodle ,0.0 57195,sigh starting to rain outside ,2.0 57196,rt lsababe bitch yes wtf i have severe anxiety ,2.0 57197,what are some silly things you do when youre depressed i watch old episodes of star trek which makes me even more depressed before going out for a walk ,3.0 57198,its not raining in mumbai ,2.0 57199,rt salon his sons death spurs no one cares about crazy people author on a mission to change attitudes on mental health httpstcoik,2.0 57200,woke up to early now i have more than hour to do something hihi i cleaned my room ,0.0 57201,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 57202, night mia are you going to bed ,2.0 57203,editing some photography for a bitwaiting for the hot water to work ,2.0 57204,jwcarroll it was pretty interesting on friday visit gatlinburg ,0.0 57205,im in the school working ,2.0 57206,am i a dick i feel like crap but everyone i know is out having a great time drinking or partying or receiving good news whatever its great im happy that theyre all enjoying their saturday nights but im sat at home feeling like absolute shit and all i can think about is how i wish i had somebody who felt shit to talk to about this i dont want to ruin anybodys good mood its so rare for everyone to be happy at the moment with stress from school and personal issues but i still want to not be so alone i guess its just loneliness or a desire to feel a little less isolated i dont know am i a dick for this ,3.0 57207,aww my babuy girl keeps tryin to give me kisses i think she knows somethings wrong ,2.0 57208,sore head go away ,2.0 57209,funkychunks i dont think im ever gonna get mine done ,2.0 57210,gotta go to bed but im not tired ,2.0 57211,denharsh unless you really use those digsby features that are not in pidgin why not use pidgin ,0.0 57212,mrswerewolf hi looking forward to the weekend have a great day ,0.0 57213,dont up on yourself put yourself first do what makes you feel alive depression is a dark soul draining sickness many people go through it nowadays after we have been through something traumatic picture a train on the roll being struck by a semi truck at full speed it is damaged and becomes derailed sometimes it makes us vulnerable to things in everyday life everyday life is difficult when were down but please understand that you need to be there for yourself more than anythingtake your time when youre down to gather yourself repair the wounds find out what makes you feel alive what brings light to your worldbefore going through depression majority of us roll on the track that is pretty much set for us since birth circumstances just major influencesin general such as our familyfriends or decisions we have madeif youre down slowly gather your thoughts and once youve done that begin the process of finding out what would satisfy you and make you feel better everyday and give you a reason to go out and make things happenlook for your why then your what then worry about the how dont give up on yourself as i know alot of people do when they feel alone its the strength we obtain and the understanding we develop of ourselves while we are alone that will give us an edge that in most cases we wont be able to get from the countless therapistsshoulders we choose to lean onnot saying to not to go to a therapist or talk to others if you need to but recognize the pattern and when you feel ready break through it and begin a new pattern only you can make that happeni love you all my family of the human race we are all on this planet together i wish you all the best and want you to take control of the remainder of your lives and make them the best you can make them ,3.0 57214,please tell me you get it please tell me im not making it up in my head that you all understand this pain this sickeningly lonely ache inside the way your mind wanders while youre working and all you know is that this sadness has you by the neck and wont let go i am trying so hard yall i mean it some days i have to fight to get out of bed i love my job its one of tye only things i have going for me ive explained to my boss i was raped i have ptsd and even before that i struggled with this dark sadness that words cant describe for years please tell me you understand what its like to find yourself running late because you cant get your mind and legs to work at once that you sit on tye side of tye bed desperately trying to find it in you to slap on a smile and make them all think youre ok youre normal you can handle it my boss is great but they still dont get it i had a massive meltdown recently in a situation with an aggressive man that triggered flashbacks i was so scared i couldnt leave the house i called in they didnt understand why i couldnt just get in the car and get over it long enough to get to work its like if you have a cancer on your face that people can see they know youre sick thry believe you thry understand why you cant do this or that but if you have a panic attack and feel youre dying and cant breathe they think you can choose happiness and get over it i feel like a speak a language no obe understands despair truly is its own language please tell me im not crazy please tell me im not being weak im trying so very hard bug nothing is ever good enough ,3.0 57215,buried under work working for the past few weeks hope to get my life back in a week or ,2.0 57216,well yeah yesterday was wear me down and today was fool play it over and over and over geezz ,2.0 57217,wishing i was at th supernatural convntion ,2.0 57218,rt ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀retweet this in seconds to have⠀⠀ stress free yrs of college 🎓⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀,1.0 57219,sometimes i feel like things will get better but most of the time i just wallow in my own pity and self doubt is it fucked up that i envy people that have had the courage to pull the trigger maybe but i dont really care i honestly dont even want to be happy anymore i just want to be a sociopath atleast then i wouldnt have to deal with emotion anymore,3.0 57220,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 57221,depressing title i was at the manchester bombing i cant stop seeing it in my nightmares one of my friends max was there and i didnt know he wasnt that far from the explosion and when it happened he was screaming so loud and i recognised his scream straight away as soon as people around the arena started to turn their heads and panic i was shouting for max instead of running and i was tearing up the next thing i know he fell from the top tier he didnt land far from me and i was screaming with fear no max no his face suggested he was gone i was crying so much and didnt move for around minute before realising that almost everyone was gone so i picked him up and carried him out still crying i cant say what happened after however he was at hospital for months before he came out he unfortunately has major depression as well as melast week i had a huge argument with my mum that damaged our relationship my dad had bought me and my girlfriend billie eilish tickets and we were overjoyed we were there having a good time until i got home to my mums house my dad had lied to my mum saying that we were at a party my mum hates billie eilish to bits because she thinks she is a bad influence to my already depressed self truth is i just love all of her songs and not all of them are depressing however she dosent believe it long story short we were close to swearing at each other and the day after my dad picked me up from school and said i was staying at my girlfriends house for the weekend and then at my dads until wednesday which relieved me because at the time i didnt want to look at my mum i only just made up with her yesterday but the argument had scarred our relationship and i fear she may be abusive to mesomeone please support me as i go through this uneventful and sad life,3.0 57222,is really not feeling well ,2.0 57223,rt mochimanggae hows a liscensed mental health professional out here calling ppl that share stories about their own mental health throug,0.0 57224,for once in a while week i managed to not sleep during the afternoon and apparently the next main issue was why dont you go out if i had someone to hang out with i fucking would dont you think but maybe im the asocial shit around here uh,3.0 57225,today was so important for my mental health,0.0 57226,how sad is this,2.0 57227,lanemcleod oh no thats okay thanks for trying congrats on all of the success,2.0 57228,followfriday stephanosis a thingybob just for you ,0.0 57229,my baby girl is snoozin on the couch shes so hot ,2.0 57230,wossy seems a real shame to see your radio shows going to be prerecorded now at least you have your saturday mornings back,2.0 57231,this shit aint funny man yall break peoples self esteem on this app are yall that sad and bored smh,1.0 57232,my gecko just died ,2.0 57233,rjoysims awww thanks for checking up on me i got the normal hours of sleep just been so busy at work today ,2.0 57234,i cant do anything well i have been struggling for a long time trying to have a balance in my life trying to have a normal life ive quit yet another job to stay at home i am trying to be a freelancer as i believe it might work i stare at the monitor all day cant write anything cant watch anything cant even play any game for more than minutesantidepressants dont work on me and i dont know what to do to be honest ,3.0 57235,without legs pants would be like duh now wat do we do ,2.0 57236,what do new moms often get depressed about regarding postpartum depression first of all this is not intended to insult anybody with depression now i have very little knowledge about this topic of depression what i think i know so far is that depressionanxiety is triggered because of life events or high stress situations like if your loved one dies for example or if you recently got fired from your job or broke up with your so or youre preparing for your very first job interview or you feel everyone hates youbut what things in life trigger postpartum depression like what sorts of activities cause a new mom to be suddenly depressed over a new child is it because it turned out to be not the way they expected it to turn out or what sorts of things regarding the newborn baby make the mom depressedi heard about this recently from one of my friends that his wife got into a massive depression after birth ,3.0 57237,rt morveer sad story of the day ,1.0 57238,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 57239,jadorebrown awww dont hate i coulda told you after game it was done ,0.0 57240,davidjay yes i bloody well am and yep i love it ,0.0 57241,tehtrickster best not id hate for you to get smited maybe when this is all over we can go have a beer somewhere sometime,2.0 57242,chipped my coffee mug ,2.0 57243,calling it a night twitterlings i leave you with some ovah poetry from kanye xoxo,0.0 57244,tubbyemu dumbass logic emu shows you the true majority of the wwe fanbase these days and its sad,2.0 57245,how do i bring this up to my partner im sad im lonely im tiredwe moved to another country a year agowe live in a city where i know no one i just got a job finally after my visa got here but i feel so lonely my husband has very severe anxiety and has been having frequent panic attacks hes on a month long trip right now and when he comes back we agreed hell be looking for meds and will change jobs because it stresses him out so muchthe thing is i feel like a leech i work at a coffee shop so he basically pays for rent bills and most of everything else i know he feels overwhelmed and over beared with responsibility especially because he also cares for his parents who live abroad they depend on him financiallyand then theres me i feel like i cant tell him how lonely and unhappy i am because i dont want to make things worse for him i have no friends here i live waiting for him to come home so i can talk to someone i need people in my life but problem here are so different culturally i feel lost i do have friends from my country who live in a nearby city but i dont see them more once a month if evermy job at the coffee shop doesnt do much for social interaction at all i feel so dumb and stupid and incompetent all my friends have office jobs and they have way more money and they see each other all the timei am on the verge of self harming again i feel so overwhelmed with guilt and shame and loneliness i didnt expect to spiral like this while he is away i was doing so good,3.0 57246,yeah that sounds very materialistic clarification pairs of cute things that i plan to wear on my feet for many years ,0.0 57247,i stole the cookie in fact ,0.0 57248,twitter is weirdthough its addictive ,0.0 57249, ive been using sporclecom for my brain workouts but i think ive run out of quizzes ,2.0 57250,another day well today is just another day my life doesnt feel like it could get any worse really a week ago i was told my insurance wasnt going to cover my spravato treatments anymore because i had not shown a improvement in two weeks yea you heard that right fucking idiots i hate insurance companies and the government and anyone else who plays with peoples lives and dont even give a fuck all while still raking in money from the poor people and letting the rich live the good life and get by with shit that poor people would spend life in prison for but thats a soapbox for another day so here i am spiraling from no treatment for a week now when i really felt a little better after my last one and my mom died a year ago next month and her bday is march so yea you can imagine how these next few months are going to affect me so i really fucking need help right now im feeling like just ending my life and saying fuck it,3.0 57251,緑谷と爆豪でタッグ点灯 sabwn igual me pone sad pensar que cuando termine esto ya no voy a ver a la misma gente en la tl ni los memes,2.0 57252,wow now that was a victory party for the outlaws last night case bubbly and bottles ,0.0 57253,dsawyer i have far too many librarians on my tweetlist to react to that statement ,0.0 57254,irishjonasfan psssh one is being made to go on a bike ride today so no webcam well not unless i find my other one l andd,2.0 57255,chinewinelover ,0.0 57256,pedo also wishing splendour would hurry up ,0.0 57257,dianication hey how are you i think i know who you are ha funny anyway im following you youre wendys and blairs friend ,0.0 57258,this makes me really sad httpwwwpersecutioncom,2.0 57259,magicsmiles what is the jab for then i hate jabs i am not looking forward to having my cervical cancer jab ,2.0 57260,my anxiety has been building up in a way that just makes me want to scream andor run away,1.0 57261,im watching slumdog millionaire good so far,0.0 57262, thats like days after my one year anniversary of meeting my idol for the first time i like keeping track of dates haha,0.0 57263,rt taestychai its sad that people cant even respect another human in their time of suffering humanity really has no hope left,1.0 57264,lol cant believe i have a twitter lol i have no followers and only following ppl lol lets see how this goes ,0.0 57265,oh i found blake my ultimate crush ,0.0 57266,wanting to listen to adeles cd but too bad its all scratched up now ,2.0 57267,technophobicxo not much different really shorter with the side fringe put back in and slightly longer at the sides but only a little ,0.0 57268,wolverine was awesome ,0.0 57269,rt itstaytorres depression isnt always suicidal thoughts and loneliness and unending sadness sometimes its sleeping too much or too,2.0 57270,ive never liked myself and i dont think i ever will even when i was young i always found a lot more flaws with myself than strengths everyone around me seemed to have a much better time without my company ive never been invited to parties i wasnt the weird kid violent kid or even the village idiot i worked hard everyday and try to avoid conflict as much as possible i was always and i mean always bullied growing up whenever i tried to do something about it my principal would always say that i should stay away from the bully when in reality they should be the ones staying away from me the worst part is they were hardly disciplined for it and it feels like they got away with it the only thing thats worse than being bullied is being bullied and knowing they got away with it whenever i tried to make friends people just pushed me away it also feels like people are just not interested in me as a person such a life has turned me into a bit of a loner ive had a near death experience not too long ago i posted it on facebook and you know how many people asked if i was okay two people two out of three hundred and thirty one friends wanted to know if i was alright meanwhile there are guys who are unemployed and smoking pot until their brain cells are dead and they are getting hundreds of likesspeaking of facebook i barely use it nowadays i mostly just use it to stay informed about world events and wish people happy birthday also for three years no one has wished me happy birthday no one i am beyond positive they can see it on their facebook wall so why do they ignore me whenever i look at myself in the mirror i cant help but cringe at what i see i also have body insecurities ive been taking a weight training class to break my gym stigma but it really hasnt helped i was also mugged a couple days ago my attackers didnt steal anything mostly because i didnt give them a chance to hell i managed to mess them up a lot more than they did to me i got a bit of a black eye also is it weird of me to wish people asked how i got my injuries ,3.0 57271,tanlo and its not a lakers game its a dwight howard game ,0.0 57272,time to flip the lights out hi there i am years old female autistic with no hope of getting a job despite having previously worked but had to leave due to relocating back to my parents house due to my failing mental health ive always struggled with my sense of self worth and not having a job for almost a year now has been eating at me now i do truly feel that suicide is my only option left as im a burden on my parents epsecailly my father who is also struggling and i feel that if i was gone it would be easier for him i see no point in continuing my sad shitty life anymore,3.0 57273,me and jaimeelambarth are constantly attacked and abused by school work ,2.0 57274,followfriday everyone should be following and loving weshotthemoon seriously ,0.0 57275,my girlfriend and i are splitting up and i cant stop blaming myself ive been unhappy in this relationship for a long time but love her to the point that i would rather be unhappy in this relationship than without her for the last several months ive let my unhappiness affect my behavior and its slowly destroyed the relationship shes a very selfish person and really everything has to be exactly how she wants it or else things start to go wrong ive just adapted to this to keep it going but i havent been able to stay happy and keep her happy its come to the point where frequently shell do something minor and it will slide me into depression well it ended tonight with her saying we arent really back together yet after our brief split a few weeks ago i kept trying to get her to admit she wasnt happy and she finally did im not good in bed and thats been a strain for months maybe over a year now all i can think about now is how things will go back to how they were before we got together she will be fine and i will be single struggling every single day to get through it i had long given up on dating and just settled into just existing truth is the pattern of behavior i fell into with this relationship i probably have been doing single middle school now im and am telling myself ill pick myself up and fight to get back to where i want to be problem is ive never been able to do that ill still be me every morning i give it another shot and i feel like its only a matter of time until i break tldr i fell into a pattern of behavior that destroyed my relationship and the more i think about it that pattern only stopped when i was with her until it started again ,3.0 57276, it was delicious and my dad was in a really good mood that i called him for a fatherdaughter dinner my dad ,0.0 57277,fridayfun for trispinner fidget blue edc adhd foucus toy with high speed small bearing anxiety relief toyssmaller ,1.0 57278,re freaking tweet,1.0 57279,why people with depression feel alone do you know why people with depression say they feel alone all the time even when they have friends family and people who care its because even though physically they arent alone mentally and emotionally they are it doesnt matter how many friends they have at the end of the day when they are suffering and they think wow i wish i wasnt alone right now or i wish i had someone to talk to they check their contacts when they look through the list of names all they see is all the energy they would have to put into confiding in each person for starters that person would have to believe that their friend is depressed they have to listen to them and try to understand what it must feel like to be them then they need to know not to give unsolicited advice and so on i dont reach out to people for multiple reasons theres no one im close enough to that id feel comfortable with them seeing me like this im afraid of them not believing me or telling me to be practical or logical i dont wanna hear anything they have to say unless its im here for you i cant imagine how hard this is i dont have the energy to entertain them or really have fake conversations i just want them to sit next to me thats all so far no one in my life fits any of the above ive tried talking to friends about my depression before and they dont get it its hard enough to let people in when im good so im sure as hell not gonna do it when im like this i really wish i had just one person id want them to hold me and sit by me and watch tv id want them to truly get where im coming from so that i dont feel judged i just want someone who can carry some of this im alone because the people around me cant give me what i need can anyone relate,3.0 57280,stressed sometimes it feels like i am drowing maybe suffacate without being in water,2.0 57281,i think this has to do something with depression does anyone else go to that state where your eyes are wide open and they are focused on infinity as if you are thinking about something really deep but in reality your mind is empty and doesnt have any thoughts in it you are not thinking about anything youre just not in that moment you do not know what is happening in your environment and if a person is talking to you you dont know what he is speaking youre just in another state not thinking about anything you are not lost in any thoughts you just not there ,3.0 57282,musicmonday paparazzi by lady gaga ,0.0 57283,good morning hope everyone is having a great tuesday so far ,0.0 57284,happy new year to all of you i know everyone is going through their own struggles right now and some who lost hope in most things but i wish that this year might bring happiness to at least some of you happy new year guys ,3.0 57285,lexibadger we can swap here and there i think we should think of more ideas for you with teh camera ,0.0 57286,pj day today im iiiilll ,2.0 57287,i was fast asleep had b here ,2.0 57288,i or my toddler apparently lost the ac adapter to my notebook enjoyed using that machine as my dinky linux test computer ,2.0 57289,�o p th m� ht size ,2.0 57290,i want to go home im actually bored sorry guys,2.0 57291,hasket thats good you should play some shows in calif my day was boringschool amp how was yours,0.0 57292,thehoshow my stuff never seems to make it to the lost articles office anyhow ,2.0 57293,youngq i still cant pull up twitter blockheads seem to break or crash everything we touch haha,2.0 57294,finalday lol hey up to much im bored ,2.0 57295,i hate job interviews and jobs in general like the stress level,1.0 57296,is finding it hard to breathe ,2.0 57297,adding my stats to veteranbattlefieldcom to get some unlocks for bad company ,0.0 57298,wow and im still up got alot on my mind ,2.0 57299,mileycyrus great job im glad you won btw nice shoutout to andy bout bein on a boat d,0.0 57300,vonnieee i found a link on wwecom httpwwwwwecominsideindustrynewskennedyreleased stinks,2.0 57301, hey just checked twitter i cant find his number written down i dont know if hes called im worthless right now ,2.0 57302,djabomb ill blaze to that ,0.0 57303,omg facebook connects you to some real distant mates just caught up with an old colleague now in tata communications i forgot her ,2.0 57304,lastfm is down ,2.0 57305,how often is clinical depression genetic i know somebody who has clinical depression and ptsd caused by childhood trauma its not very common though most people with depression have it because of faulty brain chemistry,3.0 57306,lassam hehehe whos wojniak,0.0 57307,oliviamunn what area are you in i live across the street from fashion valley mall ,0.0 57308, this suxwhy am i up i fell asleep at now imide awakenoooooo hate jetlag ,2.0 57309,yaeljk im trying not to even read them but even so ,2.0 57310,notice me ,2.0 57311,is studyinggggg advanced developemental psychology and developmental psychopathology at least its not boring ,0.0 57312,i dont want to do this anymore my whole life has been an endless struggle the last time i was slightly happy was years ago i am a burden to everyone ,3.0 57313,violanile me no see it ,2.0 57314,wadebagley always good to be home ,0.0 57315,someone please talk sense into me before i impulsively commit suicide i know this is attentionwhoring at best but i am so done with everyone i just cant anymore i feel like im so close to walking to the kitchen and just slit my wrists i dont want it but the urge is unbelievably strong,3.0 57316,leeyian just wait and see ,0.0 57317, oohwish i was therejust watched hollyoaks on sadplease dont leave chris ,2.0 57318,gad damn it just poured coffee on my white top ,2.0 57319,just venting i am terribly depressed since childhood and every year it gets gradually worse i dread each aproaching winter and for the last few years the most beatifull sunny summer days made me feel even worse my experience with therapists is that they are uninterested hacks because every advice is the same shit about moving and exercising like its going to solve all my problems they dont care for what i have to say but cant wait to speak again theyre human after all when i tell them that i work out daily since theyre at their wits end exercise is good though because its the only aspect in my life that i feel having controll over with nobody trying to stop me except for fitshamers but i dont care about them one positive thing i can say about myself is that i am very disciplined when im interested in something so when i was interested in having a sixpack i just went for it and got it im not interested in much else and working out has become a tedious daily chore antidepressants made me feel like a tasteless piece of tofu neither happy nor sad just empty and not really human i realised that id rather feel sad than feeling like that i guess i chose to be miserable last year i did acid for the first time and it was the most powerfull and overwhelmig experience i ever had i had an amazing day and afterwords i felt great for about three weeks straight not just not sad like on my usual good days but really happy is this how normal people feel all the time i dont think that i want to be high all the time but then again it was the only time since childhood that i felt genuinly happy and content to be honest i dont even know if i ever was a happy kid i look sad in about of my childhood photos i have aspergers too so i realise that this is probably one of the sources of my misery just venting,3.0 57320,how to get help i have had depression since im im and just decided to get helpive made quite a few attempts started going to therapy but quit after a few sessions i just hate myself its just being sad and miserable with no friends part of what i am ,3.0 57321,argh school tommrow ,2.0 57322,apperently it was national donutday but nobody told me ,2.0 57323,opera unite beta crashes on my mac ,2.0 57324,ugh work ,2.0 57325,nice lens for the canon eos camera ,0.0 57326,getting divorced years of my life is now over my decision he is a great guy that just made bad decisions its probably the hardest thing ive ever had to decide but i know in the end it will be better just feeling it harder than i thought i would,3.0 57327,rt piersmorgan i blocked her because shes so annoying she was making me mentally ill httpstcorhrhflhcbr,2.0 57328,veggiev fortunately we dont need forms that need signing good job one does them all and all correspondence done by email phew ,0.0 57329,mattycus you can solo man group quests as holy the scarlet onslaught admiral one for instance,0.0 57330,hospital staff warn of more adverse outcomes over bed shortage httpstcoggprkxbaxd via abcnews,2.0 57331,rt lifeaseva depression is diagnosed by a doctor and can be helped its not a sad twitter joke its not a relateable tweet stop joking a,1.0 57332,talking to mommy she feels guilty about clashing plans wblack amp white affair party still undecided to go tho,2.0 57333,waaant to go see thew weezys concert in montreal the ,2.0 57334,caroladam youre just pulling a kristy then you must hang out with us ,0.0 57335,ladygaga thanks for following me back its nice to having you as my follower and im such a great fan of you ,0.0 57336,good morning dave humphrey a new follow this morning ,0.0 57337,should i see a psychiatrist hi its been years since i had some heavy personal problem which was nothing really serious but it made me feel destroyed at the time and i dont think i should go on detail now for the sake of concision and since then although i have lived a relatively normal life being functional and active i never really felt recovered from what happened anymore in the best days i am fine but in some days it gets really bad i dont wanna do anything cant go out just wanna sleep etc but then i get up of bed have a day and when im alone in bad i feel all the same things from the start of the day until i sleep nobody can really say that im not feeling good because i dont talk too much about myself to others not even family and when i am in social situations i tend to forget these things a little bit until im alone again in the summer things get worse i really dont wanna go out in any way and if i do its like im being tortured in these period i went to two therapists but i dropped the second about a year ago because i wasnt seeing any evolution with him and i dont have the disposition for talking about these problems at all times so i figured that therapy was just hurting me more by keep going back on the bad things that happened so i started to think should i see a psychiatrist could i be functionally depressed maybe i do need to take some medications,3.0 57338,going to tgifridays for lunch i love the overall good feeling from going to church and seeing friends ,0.0 57339, you admit it all the time i get tired of hearing how much you miss him but i forgive u anyway ,0.0 57340,is having a lovely lazy sunday ,0.0 57341,this show is giving meanxiety im on the second episode,1.0 57342, and mine are near the belly button so cant be disguised ,2.0 57343,i just cant pass the interview have been interviewed in companies by now around if you include the times where i failed the exam just having an eye to eye contact is already hard for me then they ask technical questions on where i instantly go into panick im still trying different ways to avoid these kind of situations like practicing and faking confidence but not seems to work i have an upcoming interview next week and a technical one at that i just cant stop having thoughts it will be just like the previous ones sorry just want to rant it,3.0 57344,ninasfeet i do remember that sharing food with him was pretty fun just saying ,0.0 57345,i believe i can fly i believe i can touch the sky think about it every night and day spread my wings and fly away ,0.0 57346,rt kimkardashian this anxiety omg,2.0 57347,change of plans ha at yummy dairy queen with kayla willhill far and tessa then renting a movie ,0.0 57348,sad nigga hours once again,0.0 57349,oh weekend is basically over ,2.0 57350,rt asarambapuji परोपकारीसंतआसारामबापूजी has been a great support to every needy person saint like him is in prison due,0.0 57351,feeling worthless im using a very obvious alt ive worked all my life and wanted a change so i trained in a different field where i was promised work i was fired after week for a bullshit reason i was unemployed for over a month and landed a job i was fired for damages to a truck that was made before i started work i know this sounds like im being a victim but i am not i never have been i just feel so pointless im over qualified in a field i hate and very unexperienced in a new field that i dont even think i like financially im ok my gf is doing well and has no issues supporting us and has been great but my entire life from age ive worked thats my identity i have always had depression and was just getting over it now i feel almost suicidal again because i just feel so worthless i feel i need to support my girl and i cant do any of it im not sure if im looking for help or just to vent or if this is the right place i have to sign on to government support tomorrow and im humiliated ive never asked for help before in my life i hate this all of this,3.0 57352,happy lost season finale day everyone well if you have access to a torrent downloader and low morals lost,0.0 57353,online therapy is a joke ok so i have been struggling with anxiety and low self esteem im getting much better now though but i feel like online therapy would be really really useful however it is an absolute joke it costs at the minimum a week it should be bloody free or atleast not that much,3.0 57354,xsparkage well of course we never see your whole body on youtube but i didnt have the feeling that you need to loose weight really ,0.0 57355,unmarketing common sense is the least common of the senses ,0.0 57356,how to handle others with major depression first time posting hereeven coming here really surprisingly i have depression myself ive had it for aslong as i can remember but i never did anything about it until last year and was diagnosed with dysthymia basically a more mild depression but it is chronic for me and has been this way for at least a couple decadesthat being said i never experienced the very deep dark depression others do the complete and utter sense of hopelessness i can understand and imagine it but only to a degree i touch on personally my friend however does experience thati dont know how to deal with it when they get into that very dark place i want to help but it feels like fighting against a brick wall everything is bad everything is impossible everything is hopeless they say they dont want to live or exist ever and claims any time theyve appeared happy has just been being very good at hiding it they dont want to get help they dont seem to want anything except to let this continue as is they sees absolutely no way out and that it will never ever change get any chance of improvement is impossiblewhat is the best way to handle such absolution like that there is literally no budge i want so badly to help i can empathize with them almost too well because it triggers my own depression to see them like that edited for a bit more anonymity,3.0 57357,rt lyndamfiller high anxiety exotic places mystery suspense iartg rrbc novellas kindle   httpstcoguxvj,2.0 57358,mandyva i agree i got teary eyed when i watched it last week i never thought their relationship would come to that sad ,2.0 57359,im having major issues with this app today ,2.0 57360,nailmusic that sounded like a gig not to be missed ,0.0 57361,nkotblorib i know right i guarantee the second i leavehe goes live ,2.0 57362,white horse ,0.0 57363, yay repetition gone now though ,0.0 57364,what is the point i turn in days time the last of it have been completely empty i dont really have any close friends just coworkers that im friendly with i havent been in a relationship since i was havent been with a woman since i was havent even been on a date since then my brief or month relationship freshman year of college is the only time in my life i can honestly say i was happy about years ago i had a bit of a breakdown and almost killed myself i often find myself thinking back and wishing i had gone through with it i started taking medication about years ago that helped a bit i started seeing a psychologist about months ago every once in a while i almost think i have a shot at a normal life but its a fleeting feeling im a genius im funny im good with people but i have social anxiety and extremely low self esteem i genuinely cant imagine people wanting to even be my friend let alone date me i dont even really fantasize about women anymore since i dont know any that i have even the slightest chance with and even if i did i dont think i could keep even a fantasy working with how much self loathing i feel i feel like my life is over im never going to be happy ill never fall in love or get married or have kids ill never do anything to enrich someone elses life ill just exist until one day i dont like a shitty sports team just playing out the season i feel tremendous regret for a life wasted i feel like anyone who knew me when i was young would just say he had so much promise what a shame he didnt do anything with his life lately the only thing i want in life is for its end anything more ambitious like happiness feels unattainable i hope one day i will look back and realize how stupid this feeling is but ive been hoping for that for many years now,3.0 57365,hand spinner tri fidget adhd anxiety austim stress reducer desk toy edc metal via ebay ,1.0 57366,joshfrydenberg markbutlermp davidspeers listen josh nobody does failure better than you you know climate ch httpstcomzdvihoyoc,1.0 57367,ready for bed todaycatch u all soonnight night xx ,0.0 57368,rt blairnecessity why yes mamma mia did clear my skin cure my anxiety and convert me to the church of cher with our patron saint chr,0.0 57369,the air france thing is so fucking sad ugh i hope they at least recover the bodies so that the families can have proper burials,2.0 57370,ptrsha good for you youll be having your prom this year while me its gonna be next year remember i stopped for a year ,2.0 57371,im burning argh sooo hot here ,2.0 57372,theskinnycow kimderose and i are currently sitting in our cubicle eating your ice cream sandwiches and lovin them tgif ,0.0 57373,whole foods makes my world go round ,0.0 57374,rt harishbpuri nandini the sad fact nandini is that we ultimately get the government we deserve if enough of us turn out to be the,0.0 57375,i got the best massage of my life last night but i went and f up my neck and upper back today smh ouch ineedyouu,2.0 57376,aipchristina i used to like it but it is becoming increasingly difficult to hack it ,2.0 57377, hows everybody im finna go how about them apples d,0.0 57378,aaand here comes anxiety to rear its ugly head in an otherwise great day,1.0 57379,whenever i get on twitter i get sad because i cant see any of my babies then i decide to never come back but alw ,1.0 57380,lmfao jai ho omggggggggg that was sooooo funny hahaha but ohhhhhh i want both siavash and benazir in theyre badass,2.0 57381,the los angeles lakers took game of the nba finals and acquired their nba championship joy lol httptinyurlcomksfqpx,0.0 57382,allrightytime for my morning nap good night for now ,0.0 57383,i need somebody to hear my story and give me some advice this is really hard to write i need somebody to just understand me and to hopefully chat with im a year old guy currently isolating myself at home got suicide on my mind and ive also been selfharming too two years ago everything started to go sharply mentally downhill when i left secondary school for reasons i still dont know despite starting to see myself very negatively and losing my interests and motivations in life ive somehow kept up my appearances and pushed on but now its almost impossible to do so i tried to go to my doctor multiple times but the shame of admitting how depressed i felt led to me underplaying it all and thus ive been denied any degree of professional help i could never tell my parents the truth too since trying to reach out to them at all led nowhere only to guilt and me feeling like i was making it all up ive only ever felt a burden so i tried lsd ketamine etc as my own depression treatment using harm reduction resources online and sadly these havent been the cures i was looking for this also kinda fell into drug misuse at points too my friends have never really helped or understood so im just lucky if they listen to me that is when i dont push them away my exgirlfriend had her own issues but she was the person i trusted most to reach out to with how i felt yet as much as she could understand me she stoked a lot of conflict with my family over my mental state and also emotionally mistreat me when i gave her my all for example she would intimidate and belittle me and overall left me confused about whether i was actually mentally ill or just a deeply horrible person now shes put me in a position where i have to tell my parents everything about how i feel or shell do it herself in the next couple days what do i dothis is so difficult and i really need advice i almost killed myself a few weeks back too i cant believe i used to be a happy person at one point i wanna reclaim that somehow almost as much as i want to end it all or fall into endless drug abuse but thank you all for reading it means so much to me i just hope one of you can help,3.0 57384,hello everyoneeeeee headaches gone phew how is everyone what have i missed xxxxx,0.0 57385,i dont wna feel this anymore ,2.0 57386,np feblub followfriday,0.0 57387,ugh gay allergies sneezing like crazy,2.0 57388,omg its rainy eatin some nothinfor breakfastthen gettin a shower wake from for my girl rooney its okay girl we got your back,2.0 57389,rt adrianxpression bitch move you didnt bat an eyelid at your husbands racist bigotry or his confession of being a sexual predator htt,2.0 57390,tehkimber i should maybe take erin while shes still young looking thru pics my dad reminds me how fast allies grown ,2.0 57391,school makes me want to die i realize that i probably cant be saying this cause im only in grade and it gets harder from here on in but everyday i wake up in the morning thinking to myself why do i continue to do this every single day i get up and go to school just to learn the exact same things im not actually gonna kill myself im not going to put my parents in any pain or my sisters or anyone its just school is so stressful and it makes me want to die but not to the point where i actually will do it ,3.0 57392,cant get vlc http interface connected now ive got to fysically move to my computer for playpause anyone tips s not firewall afaik,2.0 57393,gennygoesrawr is this directed toward me cause i have a good explanation ya know ,0.0 57394,rt klarolove they killed klaus and now my klaroline heart is sad thank you for all that you provided for these characters and this cou,0.0 57395,am i a terrible friend i have this one friend named cat shes im we met through mutual friends she always has drama at work and never likes her boss she changes jobs every year she sometimes gets in arguments with her roommates where she ends up crying because they arent as clean by her standards sometimes i make plans with her to go hiking on the weekendwell make plans for one then she wont text me the day of until five saying sorry i slept in shes done it about three times to me she just doesnt set the alarm because she knows shell wake up i always seem to be doing only what she wants to do we went to a restaurant i loved and she said we could never go back because they took the pasta she likes off the menushe makes comments about the way i look and my personality i told her i was harassed and bullied so severely in high school she has made comments about how my hair looks fake and overprocessed i go to school and sometimes work as a freelancer shes made comments to me sometimes when we hang out like some of us have work in the morningshe says i ask too many questions because usually when i see my friends i want to know whats going on in their lives she doesnt ask many about me ive gotten upset about her questions comments but a mutual friend who i used to date says she probably thinks you ask too many questions or talk too much because she never stops talking about herself shes made comments like you either say nothing or express too much love you thoughi sometimes binge drink when im stressed i dont drink everyday or most weekends ive been trying to cut drinking out of my life because i dont want to become a problem drinker i see a therapist two times a week and always talk to my family about itshes made comments about my drinking like oh my god your out of control and thank god your not drinking this weekend she also tries to baby me in front of people and take away my drink even if im having one beer she smokes weed every single daywhen i ask her to do stuff i love like going to the movies she always says no and makes passive aggressive comments about how i should stop asking her about it ive gone to six different concerts she likes even though ive never listened to those bands to be supportive in the last couple of months ive become silent and walked out when shes made passive aggressive comments because i dont want to go off and say mean things to a friend so i storm off and go homeshe recently made a group chat sharing an old of my friends and me im blackout drunk in the photo and its very embarrassing i texted her to not post shit like that she said she didnt think anything of it before she posted because it was a nice picture i just said whatever i hadnt talked to her in a couple of weeks and she texts me about how our relationship didnt stay healthy and she doesnt want to stay friends anymore am i the asshole,3.0 57396,in subway unvoluntarily close to other ppl i miss my car ,2.0 57397,i feel like my husband doesnt love me weve only been married months and i am head over heels in love with him but i hardly ever feel like he loves me back ive always had depression but its getting worse and i dont know what to do we fight all the time and anytime i bring up my concerns of not feeling loved he always gets super defensive and blames me for our problems anytime we argue about sex he always says that i push him away so he doesnt wanna try if all i do is reject him but he either tries at the most inopportune times or my depression from lack of love makes me feel used for sex instead of loved and i dont want it im a hot mess but i just wish he would empathize with me i know im fucked up but i thought he still loved me anyway maybe he didnt realize how broken i was when we got together and now hes finding out just how bad it really is and i might be too much work for him i dont really know why i came here to post i guess its cause i dont really have anyone i can talk to in person about it ,3.0 57398,bruisinales standing outside ur store will have to check it out in the daytime ,2.0 57399,bupropion xl side effects should i try sr or prozac hey alli have severe depression and fatigue to the point that i can hardly move or get off my couch or bed i sit at home and binge eat and cannot do any simple task required of me work or school related i also have difficulty being happy and went a few months without being able to laugh or smile which was incredibly traumatic and detrimental to my personal relationships i avoid interacting with people and cancel most of the plans that i commit to i had previously taken zoloft for a few years on and off in my early which helped my social anxiety and relationships but gave me episodes of suicidal thinking since going off of zoloft approximately years ago i have gained about lbs and have had zero libido for the last yeari started taking bupropion generic wellbutrin once a day about weeks ago the first week was great and i cleaned my apartment did all of my daily tasks and exercised without even batting an eye i felt amazing i was watching an episode of friends and actually found myself laughing and would smile every night before bed and think to myself i am happy right now then the third week started i developed a rash on my legs and ankles which was so itchy that i couldnt sleep at all i scratched to the point that i started bleeding also noticed a major increase in anxiety and was up all night convinced that i was having a heart attack and checking my pulse over and over again almost went to the er but decided to call my pharmacist the next morning he told me to take a week off and see if anything changedone week later and im back to sitting on my couch nonstop had an easter dinner yesterday and almost had a complete meltdown i dont even know why i just was unhappy and wish i were alone on my couch watching tv ive gained pounds this week havent exercised havent touched my schoolwork and havent left my apartment however the rash is gone as is the extreme anxiety now i just feel like a puddle againi really liked the positive effects of bupropion and want to continue taking it but i cant handle the anxiety and rash has anyone tried sr and found a decrease in side effects or maybe different side effects i am also considering prozac but i really liked how happy and energetic i was with the bupropiontldr was on bupropion xl for three weeks felt amazing happy and motivated until i developed rash and anxiety side effects went off for a week anxiety and rash are gone as is my happiness and motivation is bupropion sr any different does anyone have any advice or personal experience also considering prozac,3.0 57400,looking forward to hosting acoustic pm on soundart radio this afty papa fernando will be playing live in the studio yay ,0.0 57401,deleting social media made me feel a lot less depressed im not the most social guy ever i have horrible anxiety and ive got a bad stutter so i prefer talking through messages when i can im also really into photography and spend a lot of my free time editing photos for social media i usually used instagram and facebook photo groups for my outlet i used to rely so much on social media to give me confirmation that i mattered to other people if i spent a long time on a photo and it ended up not getting any likes or comments id feel pretty bad about it and put in even more time trying to make my photos look perfect so that someone would give me validation a few weeks ago i realized that this obsessive behavior to stay relevant was drowning me in depression and decided to stay off social media for awhile when i did this i realized that none of my friends on facebook actually kept in touch with me afterwards and didnt seem to actually care about me i also noticed that my obsession with caring about what people thought about me seemed to go away deleting social media to me was like ripping off a bandaid it stings at first when you realize how irrelevant you may be but once you get over that feeling then you have a lot more time to do things you actually enjoy you can even meet some great people depending on your hobbiesthis obviously wont work for everyone with depression because we all have our own reasons for being depressed but try thinking about how much time you spend looking at social media when was the last time you actually saw something on facebook or instagram or wherever that personally affected your life in a major way its easy to get into that habit of mindlessly scrolling through your friends posts for hours but all this does for you is make you feel bad about your own life and wish you were as cool as them pretty much every social media site is a popularity contest of people bragging about how great their lives are try deleting all of your social media for days and see how you feel afterwards,3.0 57402,rt longguokr im crying sanggyun and donghan has to go their separate ways upon arriving at incheon and donghan called out hyung to gyu,0.0 57403,is it okay to show my girlfriend with depression and who has tried to take her life movies involving suicide so we have movie night weekly and for this week i would like to show her one of my favorite movies gt the shawshank redemption lt movie censored to prevent spoilers but needless to say this movie has a very sad suicide part will it be okay to show this to her i want to just ask her but i dont want to seem insensitive by asking if this is something i just should not do thank you,3.0 57404,gutted out on bubble after on river ,2.0 57405,anyone else in financial debt trying to fill the void i cant stop spending money i dont have i feel good when i buy something stupid i dont even need then its gone minutes latermy shelves are full of movies ive never watched clothes ive forgotten abouti am really lonely and suppose i am trying endlessly to fill my life with somethingdoes anyone else do thisim digging a hole of debt im not going to be able to get out of,3.0 57406,idk what to do anymore was with a guy for years we lived together had a dog promise ring and everything he cheated on me so i had to move back to my moms half way across the country had to leave my job my friends my dog everything havent been able to find a job dont have friends here miss my dog and stupidly miss my ex too ive dealt with depression since i was a kid but this feels so different idk i just dont want to be here anymore,3.0 57407,i have overcome my suicidal thoughts but i feel so exhausted trigger warning i am talking about all the thoughts i had and i was at a dark space at that time about months ago i slipped into a dark space it started with me crying at least twice a day for no reason other than to cry most times i felt sad and did not knew exactly why i was rather just very very sad additional crying started happening soon after it was usually thinking about a thing i said that day or a way i moved or me simply being there and i felt anger and shame and sadness all at once for me being there so soon after i couldnt stop thinking how everybody would be so well off if it werent for me my kids would have a chance at a better mom my partner might meet the love of his life and i wouldnt be blocking the job i have for someone actually deserving it i did never actually try to kill myself i wished for it constantly until i made a pact with myself i would bring myself in a situation where i would likely end up dead i failed so there was me even not getting that right for the next months i continued my thoughts but also tried to get better i practiced yoga everyday i tried to see the good in live but mostly i told myself over and over how my death even if it looked like an accident would scar my kids even if their second mom would be better even then i got better and i am functioning right now i dont feel this calm soothing fuzzy when i think about my death anymore but i am so exhausted i wanna sleep and hide all the time everything feels scary now and i love my family still i am so disconnected from everybody as if they are shiny and beautiful from a different planet with me being muddy and disgusting i feel shame for myself when i am on a walk with my kids i hate how people look at these precious beings and i am there to soil them as i cannot help but soil everything i even look at all that makes me exhausted so how do i get over thatthere is a lot if i and me and i am so sorry for that i dont intend to be an egomaniac but maybe cant help it and again sorry for that,3.0 57408, what cd or recording is that sounds great have you got the abwh show from that had a great solo spot from howe ,0.0 57409,my dude the antfucker made two depression quest isnt a game tweets last week ,2.0 57410,grr forgot i was wearing sunglasses so they so fell off when i took my helmet off chipped the lens and took paint off ,2.0 57411,ginzone thats very exciting news indeed ,0.0 57412,gran parents came over for a visit how sweet ,0.0 57413,chrisaxe thank you keep it down theres a good lad ,0.0 57414,maybe ill regret this but wth here it goes amy winehouse do and a notiphone,0.0 57415,moriagerard give or take a day or two yeah i want this to be over with,2.0 57416,does anyone here take sertraline i dont know if its helping me or not im not much of a poster so sorry if this isnt written that well i took sertraline for about a year around six months ago i could feel the depression creeping back went to my doctors who then doubled my dose to this helped i had a good few months then i started feeling i dont know how to explain this kind of slow in my thinking and a bit stuffy in my head and slightly nauseated i decided to reduce the sertraline down to and felt betterhowever now im going through another depressive episode ive increased it back to and now have that slow stuffy brain again i am forcing myself to get on with things as i dont want to become really ill with it i have come a long way with handing depression over the past few years and im determined to not let it beat mei just feel is too low and is good for a few days and then makes me sick and lethargic if i keep going with will it get better or should i change antidepressants all together which worries me as id have to go through all the side effects again and it might not workjust wondered if anybody else had any similar experience thanks for reading,3.0 57417,ka sad ba sa lyf,2.0 57418,mythadventure omgawd pink floyd bowie and then to top off my the clash ,0.0 57419,rt tearjin im so sad my heart actually hurts i love him so much and would do anything for him not to feel sadness this world is cruel an,1.0 57420,emilygracebhb u get sushi very often whats ur favorite sushi hope d sushi makes u feel better ,0.0 57421,this tugs at the heartstrings ,1.0 57422,raisinlike that sounds like torture sorry that you have to go through that ,2.0 57423,how to survive at a dance when youre in a bad mental state for background im im a senior and tomorrow is my last winter formal ive never been to one and my best friend really wants me to go ive already bought my dress and the ticket and got hr full day off of work so itd be a waste for me now to go i was looking forward to it before but or the last few days ive been in a really poor mental state i thought id learned how to manage my depression but it creeped back in like it always does im honestly hurting right now and feel like shit to the point where its hard for me to pretend to be happy especially when im going to be surrounded by so many people who make me anxious i cant cancel so i dont know what to do how do i pretend that im fine tomorrow when theres nothing id rather do than be alone i dont want to fall back on drinking because im afraid ill become too dependent last time i drank i felt so great and i dont want to become dependent i want to learn to be fine on my own ,3.0 57424,ines i saw andykaufman too rebcchi,0.0 57425,rt lessthanjr if you cant control it dont stress over it,2.0 57426,to my girls sorry ive been a homebody lately just dont feel well doesnt feel like end to me ,2.0 57427, mc hammer shut your face i wish i would have been in town that weekend ,2.0 57428, u can eat a lot of guacamol hahahahahahaha xd love u guys so come to guatemala xd ,0.0 57429,scullycat i cant respnd to ur dm cuz ur not following me but i dont mind if u dont mind i dont judge ,0.0 57430,moniquecourtney hahah i know aye ,0.0 57431,lalo i miss you i thought i dint but i really do fuck ,2.0 57432,creating twitter account ,0.0 57433,almost over ,2.0 57434,gah spent all morning trying to get this wap in crozier to work still being an asshole though ,2.0 57435,uploading pictures wwwjanesplanamultiplycom hehe,0.0 57436,bronzie cool good choice indeed hope your toes arent too sore today hehe,0.0 57437,angelinmesj hey atb ur test ,0.0 57438,paulsteele at present i am well as sat in garden but will be back at desk in half hour ,2.0 57439,how do i avoid a breakdown i would say i am high functioning with my depression i go to school i juggle two jobs and i just recently got a girlfriend my mind only slips when im alone like in the car driving to work or home and when im about to go to sleep lately though regardless of what i do i just cant stop thinking about killing myself and how meaningless and pointless life is and how worthless i feel all the time and it is eating me alive ive been at work for the past hours and my coworkers can tell im acting different i literally feel like crying when they ask me if im alright the worst part is most of the time im a clown so they treat me that way and ask me if im having fun yet and i just wanna tell them that i never have fun and so on i just feel like quitting my jobs and quitting school but i know thats not gonna help at all and only make things worse,3.0 57440,gulpanag thats pretty bad quality and probably the worst pic u posted till date ,2.0 57441,laceyschwimmer lacey yourr soo pretty will u be on nxt seasons dwts ,0.0 57442,finally woke up ,2.0 57443,what should i be wearing when i go to the euro pride parade butchlook ,0.0 57444,playing fuzzball reminds me of prolife httpfuzzballcomtwitter,0.0 57445,only and more days ,0.0 57446,munkymunch awwwwwwww and my bestest friend forever is moving to colorado next month ,2.0 57447,lost i really dont know what to do anymore i lost the only thing that brought me happiness in life i couldnt make her happy anymore and now i have nothing and no one i tried and tried to fix it and all ive done is push her father away and anger her i have been depressed sense i began middle school i developed anxiety and insomnia at the start of high school i am now and the only thing holding me back from suicide is my parents as long as they are alive i wont put them through that pain i wake up in pain i go to bed in pain i just want to not be here anymore thanks for reading ,3.0 57448,in need of food i hate living at home my parents never have any food to eat i want to order a pizza but it is way too late ,2.0 57449,as we were disembarking tswassen we saw a pod of killer whales id just finished pointing out that id never seen bc killer whales ,0.0 57450, realdonaldtrump you actually need help id go get a mental health exam as soon as possible,1.0 57451,dreary daywish i couldve stayed in bed hope to get some rest this weekend today is the anniversary of my lil brothers passing ,2.0 57452,i hope subs for eden of the east come out today ,0.0 57453,therealjordin how is your tour going aslo that really sweet of u to do a show for the diabled can i plz talk to u,0.0 57454,dont give up i know have nothing to live for and at the same time i cant kill myselfto everyone out there struggling dont give up there is so much left for youhold on and believe that youll get through this be happy be kind to yourself and to everyone if you get a chance to help someone do it you dont have to give them much i cant say things will get better i just hope theyll dowe are all here to support each otherhave a nice day and stay safe wherever u are😊❤,3.0 57455,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 57456,moronichoe i also have a pretty open schedule unless i am driving ,0.0 57457,my company gave me highspeed emobile data card new one is twice spped as old one ,0.0 57458,itsmemorphious thats terrible ,2.0 57459,haylieduff darling you and hilary are the best sisters in this world i am a hugee fan of you guys keep it that way ,0.0 57460,i want to die english is not my native language so sorry for the grammar mistakesim sorry if i sound like i want attention i just want to talki cant talk about my depression anymore my friends ignore me too much everything is so hard right now and everyday feels like hell i cant even remember the last time i was happy my friends probably think that i just want attention i just want to end it all i dont know what to do anymore ,3.0 57461,struggling for the first time in years i thought that i had overcome my issues with depression ive always had anxiety but with counseling i figured out how to manage it for the most part however this past month ive realized that i havent a lot of it is circumstantial and i dont know what to do about it my wife was recently promoted from a bartender to a manager she went from working monthurs to working shifts that start as early as am and end as late as am days a week i hate it i see her for maybe hours a day and thats when shes getting ready for work and eating dinner before bed ive been trying to stay busy but there is only so much i can do in a day to pass the time i guess i should add that im a sahm with kids that i homeschool so going out and getting a job or whatever to keep me busy isnt a viable option i want her to quit but then i feel super guilty about that it is a better job on paper but for the number of hours she has to work and the schedule its not worth it to me she says that she will quit if thats what i want for her to do but i dont want to have that type of control over her life she worked hard for this promotion and although ive never wanted her to take it she did and now here we are financially we could take the hit if she quit her job and found a bartending job somewhere we currently live with family so we dont have a crazy amount of bills i just dont know what to do when shes here im so anxious that i know my time is limited with her like yesterday she had the day off and i couldnt stop thinking about how much i dreaded her going to work today and then when shes gone i just feel so empty because i know that itll be after pm when she gets off and then she has to shower eat and go to bed i also know how stupid all of this sounds and how i should just get over it because its a good job that shes lucky to have ugh idk im just so empty ,3.0 57462,how do i get home looking for address on dudes mail to call a cab its not what you think,2.0 57463,paolizq because i changed the tweet like times before sending it ,2.0 57464,i am far too tired for waking at stupid curtains oh well today is the day we win ,0.0 57465,manishamusic thanks very much i will check out some of your stuff as well ,0.0 57466,ksulisto kariiiim call u lemme knw abt dentsu by this week soalnya i need to let the fortune guy knw gtuu,2.0 57467, she did ok they paralyzed her to make it she is on on the vent ,2.0 57468,how do i get help im so alone i cant communicate to my doctor my fault not hers i dream of just wanting to sit down with someone and telling them how i feel but i get nervous everytime someone asks how i m doing mentally,3.0 57469,hrjas yeahi dont even b on aim like that nowi just wish more of my peoplez were on twitter ,2.0 57470,blink is on the cover of ap httptweetsg,0.0 57471,cripe got bloodwork information back will discuss with doctor tues up to thinking starches are the issue here,2.0 57472,big issues ,2.0 57473,just finished three loads of laundryhate doing laundry ,2.0 57474, awww is that tonights episode ,2.0 57475,depression cure taking this every day could help symptoms httpstcowxaiakgcha,0.0 57476,sometimes you just gotta give yourself credit for trying right i applaud everyone here whos miserable like me life sucks man its sucked my entire life and the best things fizzle out because those thingspeople want no part of me due to my mental healthphysical struggles nothing ever works out but i at least fucking try so everyone around me is good everyone in this community is a fucking champion even if it means we end up losing in the end 👏 godspeed friends cheers to all of you 🍻,3.0 57477,iantalbot ,0.0 57478,flippin ice cream van music is interfering with my stereophonics session ,0.0 57479,retrobakery thank you for the followfriday recommendations you rock,0.0 57480,this was a fucking great saturday like fucking aweeesoome en este tipo de dias amo mi vida los amo a tooooodos ,0.0 57481,denifty im really sorry i thought updates were free for touch users too ,2.0 57482,rt soulstaece when taes grandmother passed away he was in philippines but now hes grandfather died hes not in korea i feel so sad,1.0 57483,rakkert omg yesh i will text you on my way there because i will be lonely ,2.0 57484,rip honcho you will be missed sad day for dubstep,2.0 57485,decompensation completely normal for me gtdecompensation is what happens when your usual ways of coping are no longer working and your symptoms worsen indicating a decline in your mental wellness when we reach the point of relapse or crises there have usually been many signs or clues along the way beforehandhttpliesindisguisecomsignsmentalhealthdecompensatingthats my everyday life without me being in a crisesso whats the fuss about this,3.0 57486,i still think constellation is the correct course maybe not in hindsight ago but from where we r now it is few seem to agree hsf,2.0 57487,eraseandrepeat babe i got some materials here for u if u want you come by la in the night and take a look ,0.0 57488,slpowell working on a post last nite how mothers day isnt the same wo my mom lost her yrs ago of days i miss her most sorry ,2.0 57489,sweet dreams zzz zzzz,0.0 57490,ritawardi yeah i dont speak inglish ,0.0 57491,httpwwwmyspacecommasonmusso httpwwwmyspacecommetrostation check it out ,0.0 57492,going to my first therapy session tomorrow wish me luck finally had the courage to make an appointment if im being honest im really scared to go the thought of opening up to another person terrifies me even if its their job to listen to my problems im sort of paranoid that she wont take me seriously or that shell be laughing behind my back but im just scaring myself at this pointi do have one question for you guys any of you have any tips on how to get over these fears and how to make the most out of my fist session,3.0 57493,setting a condition on a breakpoint in visual studio crashes every time ,2.0 57494,finally finsihed art thing but not in time to be able to watch that hour movie tonight ,2.0 57495,i felt better yesterday than i do today ,2.0 57496,just got back from a party lots of fun ,0.0 57497,vaniiii my heart is bleeding for you i miss you too much how are you feeling now love you x,2.0 57498, damn i wanna go but im not in la you should have a party ion ny i will def attend ,0.0 57499,she was like quotnice of you to tell me after the doctors office closedquot i was like quoti didnt know anything was wrongquotits all red amp hot ,2.0 57500,how to help someone out of depression my sister is medical student and just completed her year of college she was very bright and hardworking but from past couple of months she has lost her confidence and is kind of depressed and cant perform well in internship she needs help i dont know how to get her out of that situation ,3.0 57501,trouble upgrading wordpressthen figured out it was the browser chrome browser musical chairs again,2.0 57502,dat quicklydidnt even give it a wk but wit dis heat i have no other choice bc dis face is not lookin right layin in bed watchin,2.0 57503,rt freakymarko praying for you demi 🙏🏽 addiction and depression isnt a joke httpstcobvxsxmkjlo,0.0 57504,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 57505,how to all posts of this subreddit any suggestion ,3.0 57506,studying mcat at httpwwwstudystackcommcat well actually checking out for my daughter tool that i will use with other teachers,0.0 57507,im still a fan of green day but their music is getting a little i dunno but its not as good to me ,2.0 57508,today is my last day of holiday so im back to school tomorrow gotta get ready for my exams,2.0 57509,whats going on im not sure if im depressed or not i looked up symptoms and they resulted in only weaker descriptions of what im experiencing i have an amazing family that care for me ive been separating from society but im just unsure if this is just one of the things that come with becoming a teenager i have never cut myself but ive considered scuicide and even kept a rope near my bed just in case my grades have gone significantly down and i lost all of my friends except a couple i just need to know if its the real deal or if im going through a rough patch ,3.0 57510, wow dude got a new bed and now u waiting for wifey lol that didnt sound right lmao jk man yo but didnt cone thru ,2.0 57511,submom wat happen in moldova in april sorry if its a stupid question ,2.0 57512,pool with jules kyle josh and jeremy in mins happy saturday ,0.0 57513,seanahern i heard olie got upset after no one wanting the pizza ,2.0 57514,troptraditions i have been using ttco for over years the best waiting with baited breath for next couponmissed last one ,2.0 57515,alone i just wish someone one day would come up to me and just give me a hug and say you know its going to be okay or just some words of comfort i havent had anyone tell me they love me in years i havent had friends ask whats wrong its just kinda like im living in this fake presents where no one knows whats going on it doesnt take a rocket scientist to see my life has been going down hill from being abused to kicked out of my house no one once stopped to think hey maybe jay needs some emotional support they just let me keep on going life is so hard like this,3.0 57516,i ate too much now my tummy hurts ,2.0 57517,not one of my friends will go see kingsofleon with me whats up with that,2.0 57518,myweekendapp great thanks will take a look at those ,0.0 57519,loudobbs potus tuckercarlson realdonaldtrump shut it down arrest jerrybrowngov spoton tonight dobbs virtu ,2.0 57520, heard of smoke but not the othersbut glad you had funtake me next time ,0.0 57521,noooooo i failed to get again ,2.0 57522,fallingforyouou deandobbs why do depression help us all,1.0 57523,mnrmg oh purrleeez you know this is a different kind of ross song dedicated to you good morning ,0.0 57524,isbbq yeah its always hard to lose a pet it just never gets easier with each one ty,2.0 57525,quarantine schedule xpostedhello friends vegas resident here we have entered unprecedented times all while lucky enough to be afforded the time to self quarantine im a teacher and our governor just called for schools to be closed until after spring break i am going to do just thati had a depressive episode about a month ago i could barely get out of bed for a time things are much improved now but i worry if i dont establish a routine ill be susceptible to fall back to that place anywayany tipsideasthings you are already doing we made a write up of what our kiddos schedule would look like during this time i basically wanted to figure out an adult version especially time allotted for no technologymedia i think this may be a healthy thing for all of us who are potentially quarantined themselves stay well friends ❤️,3.0 57526,im not feeling good ,2.0 57527,my aunt brought me a brand new coach purse from wisconsin i love it i feel so special ,0.0 57528,and still no iphone it got loststolen booooo,2.0 57529, and i am still awake pathetic sleep now,2.0 57530,had an awesome time bowling with cheryl nick and holly tonight ,0.0 57531,feeling really lonely today jasonmraz making my lonliness go away is a gift only u have quotburning bridgesquot,2.0 57532,siempre sad pero no por ti,2.0 57533, aw you must be on your best behaviour then im goin to be off today some family stuff to sort out talk to u ,2.0 57534,am i doing this right hey im a relatively young person and just like every other young person i am desperateas i see my peers move up in their life and find their dream job graduate college getting married buying houses having babies i cant help but feel so far behind and the main cause isi have no talentor feel like i dont really excel in anything i have hobbies and i have passions i just feel very lacking i envy those who have a raw talent and make it into something so grand and so special i feel like im just living day to day and going through the motions im in college in a major i dont really like but need a stable job and i work hours a week as a server so you can say my life is very rinse and repeat or exhausting i just want to feel confident in something anything i envy those who are good at everything when i feel like i have to work harder just to be average i want to feel special i want to feel selfassured i want to wholeheartedly believe that i am one of a kind how the hell do i find that thing that makes me feel this way what do i look for how do i know ive gotten there i just want to be happy,3.0 57535,zoeys been awarded the rain waited till it was over now its a perfect time for a cuppa and some tim tams ,0.0 57536,i wonder what happened to my last two updates that i posted through my phone they didnt go through ,2.0 57537, girlwhoshould scar ,2.0 57538,rt korinamaiya this video gives me so much anxiety ,1.0 57539,just chillin down the coast ,0.0 57540,lovepattz my first language is german i cant even think about such thinks in english but i can read it hihi,0.0 57541,not sure i can do this about to start my internship at a treatment centre for youth i dont know if i can do this my anxiety and depression levels are super high right now need to complete this internship to complete my degree but i am seriously considering walking away i havent moved from my bed for two days except to drive dc to friends house husband is worried and keeps me fed but doesnt know what to do to help help please ,3.0 57542,cooking his mommas secret beef tips recipe ,0.0 57543,ect vs ketamine infusions obviously i have treatment resistant depression ive tried around different drugs from across all of the classes and have had little to no relief my depression is milder than most so im kind of functional but still very depressed and just generally miserable i see my psychiatrist wednesday to discuss last resort options hes already mentioned ect but ive researched a little bit about ketamine infusions right now im really on the fence about what i feel comfortable with im not working currently so i dont have to worry about how ect will interrupt my life i know ketamine isnt covered by insurance whereas ect is so thats also a big factor id love to hear anyones experiences with either one tia,3.0 57544,arierj where yu att ,2.0 57545,chloemcfly lol shes such a goon hahahahahahahaaha xx,0.0 57546,had a great day at six flags no lines ,0.0 57547,i dont know what to do anymore i tried community college hated it tried a few jobs they didnt like me joined the military got kicked out for medical issues and now i feel like my life is a dead end i can drive for miles and feel like i didnt go anywhere i could have all the money in the world but no one to spend it on the few friends i had in high school have either left or taken a different path ive never been in a relationship before and it never occurred to me that i was supposed to be in one i lived in my own little world where everyone always had my best interests at heart people were generally good and people would unconditionally accept me for who i am but then i lost what i didnt know i had i woke up to the fact that the world is a dark soulless place when youre by yourself and that the friends i had are a rare breed the kind of people who wont judge you and can just enjoy your company i dont leave the house much because i have nowhere to go sometimes i feel like im not really there the days have started to blur together and everything that once gave me an identity is fading away like a distant memory i dont feel a connection with my family they just feel like cohabitants of the house i dont know what to do anymore i feel like i missed a crucial stage of social development and ill never be able to catch up im tired of living this way and im tired of being in pain if anyone has advice i would appreciate it very much,3.0 57548,go roger go this year youre the french opens winner,0.0 57549,can someone relax me by explaining to me there is no life after death so if i kill myself i wont go to hell i know logically hell cannot exist and once we die we are dead today the worst thing imaginable happened to me and without your meaningless internet intervention telling me its all okay i realize the only thing i can do is kill myself i just want someone to explain to me for certainty that hell is not real i imagine that hell would be worse than my life but my life is pretty shit and eternal peace just like the peace i felt before i was forced to be alive sounds better than this,3.0 57550,on train to edinburgh ,0.0 57551,my parents made me delete my myspace gay,2.0 57552,the math placement test was hardddd ,2.0 57553,is listening to alejandro manzanos soothing voice music ,0.0 57554,this is the lowest point in my life most of my teachers dont like me every day i lose friends and disappoint the friends that stay my mom and dad and i argue a lot and i can tell that their tolerance for me is draining most people dont pay attention to me im the last one noticed in a room im ugly fat and ill always be alone i always have been im not sure if i want to die as much as i want to disappear to start over run away and get a new name and everyone who knew me would be happy that i was gone and i would be happy happier than i am now at least ,3.0 57555,realtyra you inspire me so much your an amazing lady and i wish that day i would be able to work with you ,0.0 57556,still unhappy at my lack of guitar string i really wanna play oh well hopefully someone exciting will come on msn ,2.0 57557,do opioids ever sound nice to you guys idk sounds nice to not feel anything for a while,3.0 57558,concert is over never really liked the music so this is an unqualified yay itll be weird not choiring again until september though ,2.0 57559,wants to go out for a drive its such a nice day ,0.0 57560,shelliwazzu aaaaw thats good ,0.0 57561,ktiax omgsh you okay whos fault was it,2.0 57562,just got back from socce we lost,2.0 57563,is almost ready i think has yoplait and still feels terrible ,2.0 57564,morning everyone should i sing to you all,0.0 57565,this seat is makin my azz hurt ,2.0 57566,mistersill sorry to hear that ,2.0 57567,off to guitar now i almost said swim phew ,2.0 57568,says i got cards today from eva n clara thanks guys ,0.0 57569,interview today ,0.0 57570,rt stiftersara school hasnt even started and im already overwhelmed with stress,1.0 57571,jennettemccurdy how was the photoshoot ,0.0 57572,hey guys havent used this for ages but great news to hear you have signed the lease over now soon be back here for winter ,2.0 57573,my life ended the other day and im just waiting to die got rejected from grad school now i have hard evidence that i am a dumb worthless person since a panel of highlyeducated experts decided so im just watching my friends and girlfriend get to studytravelinterview whatever and wherever they want with no problems or obstacles im doomed to keep working my humiliating food service job until i die which im hoping i can work up the courage to make happen soon im not a real person ive wanted to be a writer my whole life and today i finally manned up and deleted everything ive ever written from my laptop its cringey dumb garbage and im so embarrassed that anyone has ever seen it im not a real person i dont deserve happiness or a career and i will never have them i need to find a way to give my savings to real people before i die and then this joke of a life can all finally end most of you in this subreddit are real people though you are deserving of life a d happiness i hope some of you can see that ,3.0 57574,launching our day in napa valley nice night at meritage now to yountville for breakfast the hills are already dry here need green ,2.0 57575,my confession ill probably delete i havent eaten in days nor do i have any intention of eating anytime soon not from any form of punishment at least not intentionally im just sickened by the thought of eating anything and im constantly drunk or trying to be im even wanting to be drinking at work not a lot but enough to take the edge off i cant sleep without medication anymorei hurt myself most days if not everyday and the only reason i dont take it further is that im a coward and i would never wanna hurt the people who love me i know ill be ok from my heartbreak but as a person i really dont think im actually okay and i dont know what to do about that cause none of this behaviour is new ive just realised tonight how bad its really got ,3.0 57576,followmekalan nasty squirrel no nuts for you tonight ,0.0 57577,wow its taking me about minutes to find a parking place big enough i miss my small car ,2.0 57578,jonasbrothers ddlovato just waiting for may ,0.0 57579,exams start today wish me luck darn how much i hate history btw are we still trending bsb oh well bsb bsb bsb bsb bsb bsb,2.0 57580,i love cute texy messages especially when he calls me mandy ,0.0 57581,downloaded nambu for the mac but the desktop icon only bounces when clicked what does that mean on a mac disappointed new mac user ,2.0 57582,followfriday cmpriest is a writer whose words as sharp amp shiny as diamonds you will thoroughly enjoy her writing amp tweets ,0.0 57583,just got home thinking of how close i was to breaking feeling the walls in my stomach burn reading an update on quotfor you and iquot ,0.0 57584,i dont know whats wrong with me i will continue adding to this post daily i think this makes no sense but if anyone understands please please leave some adviceplease listen and trust me never start smoking weed mixed with tobacco i wanted to carry on with writing this as there is so much more to this post than you may think i know it makes like no sense and theres no reason for it but i know for a fact there is someone out there who has the same mind set or has had it in the past and can help me i have no fun in life anymore i feel as i am without a purpose life is boringi am currently year for referenceit all started in year when i found the group of friends that i am sadly still friends with i hate my friends and not for no reason anyone on this site would hate being friends with the people i am they are bullies they arent friends they are bullies they got me into smoking weed the worst mistake of my entire life although its harmless we smoke it with chop tobacco which gets you really addicted anyway all we do is meet up and smoke for the past years thats all weve done every single day i think to myself why am i still friends with these people what am i doing with my life i always make an excuse im sick of it i hate my life and i really want to change i have little to no motivation anymore i have no job i dislike all of my friends im extremely underweight i have terrible teeth i want to change so badly but its so hard i have no friends that i could ever talk to about anything except for smoking i have no social life except for smoking what do people do for fun i think ive forgotten how to have fun im my years as a child are coming to an end and i feel like my life is just going to go even more downhill from here i have level qualifications from high school and thats it ive left school i cant handle it all day with people that hate me with teachers that hate me i had no one to be with when i was at school i wasnt smart i failed a lot of things it never used to be like this until i started smoking the year before i started i would pass with as the last year i was at school i passed maybe things out of the i did i am now quitting smoking as of today i will never think or talk on the past years of my life ever againi want to go somewhere and start over move and start a new life with or without anyone i know i hate doing what i do i know this post has no point to it this is my first post and i am extremely emotional as i am typing this out and im so confused i really dont know how to ask for help i also know no one can help me but myself im sorry ,3.0 57585,rt salon his sons death spurs no one cares about crazy people author on a mission to change attitudes on mental health httpstcoik,2.0 57586,suzyelizabeth i think hes doing worse my poor puppy im so far beyond worried at this point,2.0 57587,i literally want to off myself but i feel bad for the people that are gonna have to deal with it during the corona virus what should i do should i like wait until this blows over cuz like just bc i want to die doesnt mean that its other peoples problems i honestly feel bad for these innocent lives that are being taken and im here like um please take me i actually want to go im probably gonna wait so that doctors and nurses can treat everyone else first,3.0 57588,rt onlinehomo theres a lot of things i can handle heartbreak being broke depression anxiety but cockroaches no sweetie its game,2.0 57589,time to spit all this shit out from late adolescence i have been suffering from depression depression along with my self anxiety and natural introversion has pretty much fucked up my significant years from around to adulthood i thought it would get better when college came but turns out freshmen year was the worst year of my life i had an image of what university was going to be like and all that prior to stepping into college my horrific experience at an orientation camp at college set the tone for my whole college experience really i joined this residence in freshmen year where they gave verbal abuse to freshers which was some bullshit about strengthening ones mental strength anyways i was scarred by that experience and was so hurt from that especially considering i was suffering from depression self anxiety and introverted self before that whats worse is that some random dude from that residence just came up to me one day after i quit that orientation camp and normality resumed and he said to be i find those who quit the orientation such pussies that felt like a fucking punch in the face and my self esteem reached an all time low as if it werent already at that moment i really wanted to just fucking punch that prick for even having the ego to say that and not knowing what i was struggling with but i let it go anyways i spent pretty much the entire freshmen year trying to force myself to enjoy college even though i knew i was struggling i would try and force a smile around people when i was so done i met a few friends but i eventually ended ties with them in the spring term as i just got so depressed and they were constantly making fun of me well it was more sort of banter but i just couldnt take their shit anymore whats worse my grades obviously suffered as well and i pretty much spent the whole of my second year trying to chase my gpa which led to further downfall of the lack of building meaningful friendships and sense of isolation for most of my college life there we go not much more to say but i had to let it all out sick of keeping this shit to myself,3.0 57590,rt brentconner im so fucking uglyand its 💞💖💘💕,2.0 57591,lost my futurama dvds fail,2.0 57592,rain off to see matty x,2.0 57593,eyeranprotestr antiiranian twit stream ,2.0 57594,jarodcooper you have good taste the golden girls is guaranteed laughs everytime,0.0 57595,wasabhi that would make an awesome blog post ,0.0 57596,swayswaysarah chill out,0.0 57597,victhaney lmao dont think im into him still im just saying i miss my memories w him and i haha,2.0 57598,sad ass story smh,2.0 57599,i confessed to my crush she said she also liked mebut i feel like im not enough for her,3.0 57600,the state of the world makes me really sad ive been struggling with depression for years now and its really bad a lot of it is internal and a lot is external lately ive been feeling okay more optimistic than in the past but fuck it just doesnt make sense to be anything but cynical this latest shooting has depressed me beyond belief i just cant keep reading about innocence people dying and not only that but so many people are supporting it and saying the people deserved it even australian fucking politicians are blaming it on the muslims trying to exercise their right to practice their religion shootings blatant racism homophobia misogyny global warming the rich doing whatever they please medicine so expensive etc it all feels so bleak like theres nothing we can do im just tired of it all,3.0 57601,okay so has anyone updated their iphone ,2.0 57602,mizfitonline wondering when i see my guest post on mizfit ,0.0 57603,rt digitaldeenrcds ya allah replace my sadness with hopeya allah replace my anxiety with reassuranceya allah replace my depression,1.0 57604,i matter but i think i dont matter people tell me that they care about me and that i matter to them more often than i can remember but i dont believe them ive always felt like they dont mean itand as of lately ive been feeling kind of guilty for not being able to accept that they dotoday i posted a status on facebook saying goodbye with a picture i took recently at my home town i recently started traveling for work and when one of my friends saw that he said he was heartbroken i thought no one would take it this way because im not really important to anyone or so i thought but i was wrong and now im starting to feel bad for all of the people who tell me they care about me but i disbelieve them,3.0 57605,all signed up for the gym which includes use of pool and classes aqua aerobics and pilates tomorrow ,0.0 57606,i think the end of this month would be the best time to kill myself im going with a friend on a vacation near the end of this month so i think that would be a good placememory to end on ive been unemployed for about half a year now i just bum around at my parents house still i have never had any passion for anyone or anything and i doubt i magically will any time soon unfortunately im just not compatible with this world and this life it offers hopefully the next one if there is one will give something greater,3.0 57607,rt mutambavhusc rebzmano willdesireemoyo advocatemahere this is sad loss to all of us bkz she truly worked hard and had the passion a,1.0 57608,starting my internship today wonder what its going to be like im so tireddd,0.0 57609,brittanyraebake yay you are on twitter now ,0.0 57610,no one is signing up to come talk the lighting on this webcam sucks ,2.0 57611,nickjonas nicholas youll say im mad but i see you everywhere ok its weird however ,2.0 57612,bored to death in math class ,2.0 57613, im sorry youre sad i love you,2.0 57614, already the weakend flys by back to work tomorrow boooo,2.0 57615,gotta go get packed to go to my gmas for the weekend buying my new th shirt hampm tomorrow so stoked ,0.0 57616,good morning sun that doesnt shineim watching angel episodes and having my cup of tea sleeping is overrated ha,0.0 57617,venting seeing a psychiatrist when you have a past addiction seeing a therapist when you hate being social to the point you have panic attacks ptsd leaving me constantly on a rollercoaster my emotional pain feeling like three knives in my back with salt constantly pouring over it no one gets it the system is broken no matter what and so am i,3.0 57618,apartment searching again hella excited to live in the city ,0.0 57619,wow mercury in retrograde effin sucks my mailbox stopped working for days ,2.0 57620,just like everyone else going to go see wolverine soon irvine spectrum,0.0 57621,am so exhausted my body is shutting down good night tweeters oox,2.0 57622,i dont even think mac makes rocker anymore this is my last tube,2.0 57623,quite an eventful day solo time with pook ,0.0 57624,scum im used to paying for everything ,0.0 57625,is signing out httpplurkcomptqyyc,0.0 57626,how i cope we make appointments to see whats wrong inside of usis our brain really that messed up that we need someone else to tell us what we are thinkingwhat about all the good things in life that just seem to pass in a blur but all the bad things weigh on us constantly making us feel like were sinkingive written out letters time and time overtelling family and friends that i had burdens i couldnt carry but all these letters time and time over have been ripped upput in the bin because i couldnt pass on that grief and let that become something that had to carrypositive days pass by but its something i no longer notice in the presenti think back to it days later asking myself why didnt i enjoy thismy mind is mushmy brain is achingall the demons inside me just keep taking and takingbut why dont i enjoy the good daysits something i always want but something i always missive been to doctors and councillors and they tell me the same thingthat things will become better just exerciseeat well and go see friendsbut on my own in my own housefriends seem light years awayfriends what friends ive pushed them away so they dont see me like this but hope they knock on the door todaythe phone rings they ask if youre okay and i reply yes and have a bubbly conversation wishing i just told them that everything hurts and i want it to endnot life to end just this hurt to end if life ends the hurt ends but i always tell myself nothats the easy way out and i can fight thisive fought these demons before and they come back againagain and again is this like ive won the battle but not the war how hard is it to tell me that my mental health is poor i know thatthats why ive asked for help but doctors cant come spend with you and make sure you dont take the jump ive got people around me who will tell you im the joker of the groupwholl always listen to your problems and make sure youre okay the one wholl take buses and a train if it meant that youd feel better but nobody knows that person who is the joker of the group really we are at home crying wondering how we got to this place and how it all hurts and how we cant cope and how we just want it to go away nobody knows who we really are youll get a glimpse then we laugh it off saying were being a party pooper but why laugh it offpaint on a smile every day put on that brave face everyday acting okay everyday who for its not for the world we know its not for the world to seewe wish they could see see us for who we are and hug us and tell us theyll help but instead we do this for ourselves because we know we wont survive if we dont,3.0 57627,demophon thanks highly appreciated ,0.0 57628,springnet thats so sad ,2.0 57629,its a never ending battle im so desperate to never be sad and i just keep falling through the cracks of medical help ive been hospitalized many timesyoud think after the fourth or fifth time youd figure it doesnt really work my mother broke down and cried and said she was sorry that i didnt get the right help sooner ive been so depressed for so long and i just keep fighting for my family but recently its so convincing that my depression is holding them back too theyre always worried that one of these episodes is going to take me away for good im and transgender and ive been in transition for over a year i started my transition because i was so sad i owed it to myself to see if this would help me even a little and it hasnt i hate my entirety i wish so bad for this sadness to leave me alone id die for it to never come back and here i amwanting to die just so it ends so im never sad again i hate being sad i hate negativity and yet im sad every day im suicidal every day i dream of it its been so long now its ruined my memory ive isolated myself to my room ive no one to speak to to relate with even laugh with its broken me over these years ive made a mile long list of every medication ive tried and have failed for me what do you do when youre sad forever,3.0 57630,kitta know the feeling and sorry cant help you with either ,2.0 57631,wrestlerish ,2.0 57632,noooo what a great end amazing win for johnson shame stewart couldnt hold it nascar,2.0 57633,operian got it ,0.0 57634,bittusahgal very sad no one is allowed to raise voice,2.0 57635,im out this rain got me feelin weak i miss alex damm baby whyd you have to leave me ,2.0 57636,rise amp shine folks june are at the half way mark hit it hard amp make it counteveryday is a new adventure of course smile ,0.0 57637,priyaq i once got such an invitn went th meetng find tht th gift is free for ppl who subscribe their lakhs per yr package ,0.0 57638,poop back to work ,2.0 57639,im going to kill myself less than months,3.0 57640,tough i just need to get this somewhere sorry you dont have to read any of this crapim just laying in bed crying now i dont really know why i wish i could explain it i miss hanging out with my ex and i miss school honestly it let me talk and hang out with people and that would make me feel ok you know like i was an actual human who was just hanging out withother humansive been worrying and freaking out with anxiety since yesterday afternoon because i feel weak and a little shaky i am pretty sure its nothing health wise and just be being on edge but i cant stop worrying i honestly just want to dissapear to end these feelings i hate myself and i dont think i can ever go back to feeling ok,3.0 57641,wish i could have spent longer at the swedish festival today ,2.0 57642,i ended my friendship with a friend well i ended my friendship to i thought my best friend i am having troubles that when i see him with his other friends happy make me feel really that im just a trash makes me feel that im dragging him down with me when i chat with him it feels like im annoying him and just seen the message then respond later even if his only the whole day before i ended my friendship with him we where at school playing the new pubg mobile game when his friends came in and join but it was just for person so i didt join him i let his friends play i had a mental breakdown and waited for my parents to leave before i cry and tell him that im not gonna be his friend anymore sorry for this long post i just wasted your time i unfriended him in my fb like that so i cant see him again,3.0 57643,dollfacenerd lol i know its pathetic haha damn im being forced to wash up grrrrrrr ,2.0 57644,resting after a long tough day with my beautiful wife ,0.0 57645,im one of the last to be able to register for rebcoc now to make the travel arrangements looking forward to my second rebarcamp ,0.0 57646,zeryck hope i have helped you ,0.0 57647,oh dear the man has arrived with the key better do some work have fun guys i will return x,2.0 57648,fish are friends not food haha i just noticed the one shark has a hook through their nose like a piercing haahah,0.0 57649,awenya phusionade i have to agree with you i hope i wont have to code for anymore haaaaah ,0.0 57650,eating icing and chocolate chips seemed like a good idea at the time i dont feel gooood,2.0 57651, i know its great how was your workout,0.0 57652,jesscarreiro i love you too and i know almost ill be okay by wednesday afternoon but just right now im ready to breakdown,2.0 57653,multiple antidepressants does anyone know what will happen if i take multiple antidepressants i just want to sleep for a while and feel numb but im scared,3.0 57654,ksosna i lie when i say that u r lazy and crazy ,0.0 57655,tidusofsh oh no what happened to your old channel ,2.0 57656,i havent seen my boyfriend in weeksand ya im pretty fucking sad,1.0 57657,watch the lions game online looks like the boks will win ,2.0 57658,bedtime one day left in grove ,2.0 57659,i am now in pain as whilst cleaning some of the glass got into my foot it wont stop bleeding and hurts like hell ,2.0 57660,xloubyx god theyre well posh im going to be living in a box ,2.0 57661,cikbedah im replying to your twit cik bedah ,0.0 57662,last day of preproduction for the new shit ,0.0 57663,to my fitness buddy 🚲 ty sa tanan and u r super smart and maganda lol ty for listening everytime mag rant ko abt li ,0.0 57664,sad head,1.0 57665,blueeyedcat yarrr send them a twit shortstack shortstack shortstack shortstack shortstack shortstack shortstack shortstack,0.0 57666,avoiding study by signing up to this off to quotfollowquot people im actually interested in or people i know ,0.0 57667,my printer tray pops out automatically when printingi did not know thisbut the deodorant can which aimed for my head apparently did ,2.0 57668,terrymcfly dang i aint had a tweet from you in a minute but i cant i couldnt find noboy to come up there with me ,2.0 57669,am i broken last night i wanted to die more than anything else but now im in the best mood in months im not bipolar as far as i know does anyone else experience anything like this,3.0 57670,knkofficiai hey bro s i miss u now and im sad suddenly pls come back,1.0 57671,finally spoke to cornish rex rescue group after months of tag not likely to find the cats a home but might name a kitten after me ,2.0 57672,scottrmcgrew flippy floppy swirly twirly super flying leap hugs love you mwah,0.0 57673,stuck in the office staring longingly out of the window at everyone else having a lovely time in the sun ,2.0 57674,rt slothboiii cracking open a cold can of depression not with the boys tho i dont have any friends,1.0 57675,rt bybuku lord please help me trust you even when it doesnt make sense allow me to believe in you more than i believe in my plans el,0.0 57676,just finished watchin again woohoo zacs so awesome there ,0.0 57677,yet its you i see wasting the dream that only i deserve ill tear off your face to see your smile ,0.0 57678,sionnnn although sockets have trouble behind corporate firewalls ,2.0 57679,ajmahler dont even think about buying my beach in hawaii ,0.0 57680,not trying to stop being sad is it common usually when i get sad i dont want to stop thinking about those sad things its like some sort of emotional masochism my chest fucking hurts and it feels awful but for some reason i dont want to try thinking of cute things or doing something to distract myself so besides that i want to know if thats bad andor what to do to help it should i cry talk to people force myself to do other things i was diagnosed with depression just earlier this year first time i actually went to a doctor and it was luck he linked me to a psychiatrist and before that i thought i was overreacting or something its dumb im rambling thing is im new to this and even though im sure theres no easy answer i want to know what do you do to deal with that whats worked out for you etc on a separate note i am so happy that the other day when i was feeling bad a friend started telling me a story it was like an induced daydream its silly but it felt so god damn good,3.0 57681,im getting in the bed i hope i aint got ants in my pants tonight ayo to u my friendsee i have new friends dont be a stranger,0.0 57682,exams are doneeeee ,0.0 57683,meeks err umm sorry i was famished,2.0 57684,loneliness yes thats right im lonely youve heard this story many times before havent you me too it becomes tedious after a while still we cant avoid the truth can we the thing is despite being surrounded by family members as well as someone who genuinely loves me for who i am i feel completely alone im not the only one am i no im not theres probably a majority of you out there who feel the exact same way i do isnt there but once im alone i really feel it aside from the general loneliness i feel numb empty i feel as though im not here you know i just i feel as though im waiting for death really just waiting for my body to completely and utterly give up on itself and eventually wither and rot its the truth though isnt it we cant prevent death no matter the circumstance were all going to die i honestly dont know whats wrong with me recently i just feel out of order if that makes any sense whatsoever if im being completely honest i dont see a future for myself in fact i never saw one from the very start i just i dont know what to do ,3.0 57685,lonely this is gonna be short but hey so no matter what i always feel so alone like no one is ever here for me the only person i have is my boyfriend but even then i feel like its only a matter of time before he leaves me our relationship has become more unstable recently i dont have any friends that ever take the time to listen to me when i have problems in my life no matter the few people i have in my life i still feel alone whenever i try talking to someone about my anxiety or what not it feels like i am talking to a wall getting the same answers over and over again i feel alone no matter what and there is hardly anything i can do about that feeling,3.0 57686,fear making depression worse i have my own business its been knocked hard by this virus im terrified ill lose my business and go back to working for other peoplei had nightmares about losing my independence and losing all protection from the dreadful women in my life exboss mother sisters dad is gone depressed as it is but now also hysterical and close to a breakdown i cant be depressed and broke and in pain two are enough three is a bit more than i can cope with,3.0 57687, also always mess with people who are sleeping bed to you rules of life its in there somewhere ,0.0 57688,forget some clothes i want food im starving ,2.0 57689,outdowntown and seriously im in brewers gear n sum sweet dunks haha comfort is key to a successful night ,0.0 57690,so many times and places ive felt quotout of placequot i like it here because i feel at home sonya is content in the valley,0.0 57691,ps i want more galaxy im hungrryy ,2.0 57692, the phone is not working its not updating ,2.0 57693,do people relate idk probs loads of people do relate but when i experience those few good days or happy moments in my life i cant help but think well it doesnt really matter cuz ill be dead soon every single time those thoughts come up like nothing really matters cuz itll all be over soon,3.0 57694,burningoblivion httpbitlypmvry or httpmallplacecom spread the worddeadline next june ,0.0 57695,richardsager how ambitious of you i wouldnt dream of working that hard the thought of it is well revolting and now to the hammock ,0.0 57696,how do you know if your ssri is right for you ive been on citralopram for weeks started with for weeks and just upped to weeks ago first bout on any kind of medication im feeling worse than before i started taking it sad tired listless anxious not hungry brain is forgetful and foggy i missed work today because i just couldnt get out of bed and i can usually drag my ass there even if i sit there miserably how long do i give it to kick in and is it common to get worse before it gets better ,3.0 57697,lol im jj i missed u especially at interval coz it was cold and i knew that if ud been there u wud have hugged me so i sat wit mike,2.0 57698,yeahhh orlando amp naw lakers wont stop them either via nba on ,0.0 57699,am pretty sure yr supposed to get a hangover at weddings not take one with you walk along the river to the church shd sort me out ,0.0 57700,hsbc main server is down customers therefore cant get money out of the atm or pay for anything by card as i found out at the checkout ,2.0 57701,going to the lake today should be a good day hardly any wind at all,0.0 57702,i think im going to have to retire the basketball shorts ive had for about seven years ,2.0 57703, ha ive had the most mentions ,0.0 57704,loves rain especially when she is inside and she can just watch itsometimes i wish it was purple though so i could sing prince ,0.0 57705,new years realisations so new years came around not long ago and it made think of what i have done in the past year and in all honesty i havent done anything the main things ive done were fall in love get my heart broke and finally cut my hair short dont change my appearance much so this was somethingthen i remembered the most exhilarating thing ive done this year was cut myself on the school bus while going home and this lead to me wanting to talk to people about this but im someone who values being thought of as cool too much and ive never shown my friends anything but a smile no crying no anger nothing but smiles and i can really use having someone to talk to about my dark flaws that i can never share im not remotely close to my family and have no intension of getting close to them because theyre a major factor of my behaviour the dark parts any way when im not in school i isolate my self in my room and i live with my mother and sisters im a dude so talking to them is uncomfortable there are no guys in my life i feel i can trust with my emotions also i quite heavily loath my family especially my mother as shes the main reason im so messed upim also increadibly fascinated by the idea of death in i think this may soon evolve into some thing much worsei lack a reason to live beyond my year old nephew whom is autistic and im beginning to despise the very site of him hes incredibly annoying and may soon becoming a driving factorplease help me,3.0 57706,ordered my netbook yesterday will hopefully have it by the end of the week going to skillsusa finals on sunday but first work ,2.0 57707,foot still bleeding so cant wakeboard or rather forbidden to wakeboard but will still be on the boat enjoying the sun,2.0 57708, haha not ill not do that ,0.0 57709,those who ruminate looking for your advice ive been heavily ruminating the last months of so a little context i feel im responsible for fucking up a friendship what i do comb over every detailgtdwell on where i went wronggtallow that to further fuel my negative self imagegtspiral further down and go into an anxious loop of self hatred what i know dwelling on it doesnt help all i can do is learn from my mistakes and move on i need to focus on healthier things ultimately i need to change how i think what ive done sought counselling attempt to practice mindfullnessit comes in waves sometimes im perfectly fine for a bit mostly when im distracted which only seems like a band aid solution but then it takes one little reminder and im back at it i appreciate any tips advice or even if you just want to chat about your own experiences ,3.0 57710,i dont hate myself but i want to kill myself ever feel so alone that you want to kill yourself i wish everyday that something would happen like a car accident or me just not waking up but i cant work up the nerve to go through with killing myself and end the pain of being miserable am i the only one,3.0 57711,god im hot now will use this as excuse not to start housework and have a seat for ten mins instead molly playing on gym thing ,0.0 57712,big hugs to never meant to upset you ,0.0 57713,what in the fuck do you do when all of your interests cease to interest you playing music going for a run lifting weights video games reading netflix hulu drawing its all so boring and pointlessi work days a week and spend my one day off a week searching for something to keep me entertained to get that feeling of excitement again when doing something i love any advice,3.0 57714,drjared ah you look lovely ,0.0 57715,rt peakwolfie me im finally starting to feel happymy depression ,1.0 57716,jacvanek but then you couldnt eat it ,2.0 57717,i wish i could turn my brain off it feels like its about to overheat lol missing my bff anonymousjen so bad ,2.0 57718,still tired amp miserable for no good reason wish i could go back to sleep amp just wake up in a few days when i feel better,2.0 57719,robbytakac ur good deed can be saying hi to me that would make my life lol love the studio cams,0.0 57720,ok going to bed for real goodnight ,0.0 57721,lisaveronica right there with ya lisa early mornings ew ,2.0 57722,can depressed simply be a personality trait i dont believe i am clinically depressed or in need of medication but i dont think theres a time in my life where i was happy someone asked me once do you even enjoy life and i really had to stop and think about that question because honestly i dont i dont really see the point of a lot of things i definitely envy people who seem to have a better life than i do a better life meaning just being happy growing up i kept to myself and could not relate to people now as an adult im conflicted because while i see the benefit in having friends i dont particularly want them i have a boyfriend but after being inseparable for a year straight and now being long distance he no longer fills the social need i have but then i think about having friends it just doesnt seem like its going to solve my problems i grew up with a distrust of people and its all i know i can socialize just fine and i have friends but i dont hang out with anyone in person besides my bf its like everything i do is just to get by but i dont think about the future much im always asking myself is this even worth it i guess what im trying to say is i just dont find life to be worth anything ,3.0 57723,therussiansurge omgsh that would be amazing ,0.0 57724,not sure im doing ff yet if name pops up in friends may be ,2.0 57725,just received my autographed copy of defying gravity which i won by advertising the cd here on twitter ,0.0 57726,worried my nanoloop cart from teh is lost in the post ,2.0 57727, oh mannn i love that jam you got me hooked that looks delicious im here eating pop tarts ,2.0 57728,nickybyrneoffic i no o how shocking lol i went to see you on march and i have to say best concert i have ever been too wb x,0.0 57729, shortened the name saves me characters palm pre hmmm you and all the gadgets,0.0 57730,sethsimonds kind of like that you mean ,0.0 57731,vivyenx you never reply to my idf comments anymore ,2.0 57732,how to cope with anxiety ,2.0 57733,i have to go and watch manu at a pub but i wont turn off ,2.0 57734,alycee okeefeeee youre amazingg i lovee you ,0.0 57735,im not gonna see james for a month and a half ,2.0 57736,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 57737,immunoglobulin not this week but next ,0.0 57738,rt janviernoir wrote about drug addiction depression transgender issues family ties in beautiful ways and vivid storytelling,1.0 57739,migraines suck i hope truffles dont make them worse ,2.0 57740, pshh whatever its gonna be cool i wanna do a little bit of dr seuss sea creatures and the rainforest ammaazziinngg ,0.0 57741,its amazing to realise that the world goes round and round and nothing in human nature ever changes off to the beach ,0.0 57742,the wii he is onbly three year of age ,0.0 57743,oooh bummer just realised i missed my update ahhh well night,2.0 57744,feeling sad,2.0 57745,nareejo sorry nothing yet ,2.0 57746,i fuckin hate feeling so sad all the time about shit i got myself into why do i make my life so hard for myself,2.0 57747,our phone actually got cut off today please pray eric will be able to start his own business and it will prosper ill make vids soon ,2.0 57748,whats the point aka my attitude towards everything im an absolute wreck ive probably been depressed for about half my life now ive certainly had deeprooted problems with negative thoughts self loathing absent self worth self doubt defeatism and maybe at some points i was handling them or distracting myself from them better than others but this past year or months as ive tried to open up even the tiniest bit more and even just to myself ive realized how bad off i am my self loathing and my inner demon that tells me im worth nothing other than death lives in a room in my mind that i cant open i can hardly look through the gap under the door and yet it has succeeded in shaping my reality like a room rotting with mold whose smells pervades the whole house i dont believe in myself i dont think im an exceptional person a talented person a capable person sure id like to think im worth not dying im not evil or a monster but by the standards set by reality of what it takes to make it in this world to support ones self im not worth it i dont have what it takes there are billions and billions of people out there who will sacrifice more than me struggle more than me suffer more than me in order to stay afloat me i dont see the point im not competitive im not cut throat if the world has to exist through some system of a few people fighting their way into positions to attain wealth while most are relegated to poverty all the while little to no consideration is given to anything not monetizable like the quality of the environment or the joy people get from spending time with a stable loving family then i cannot summon the passion to run that ratrace what haunts me the most is that the people i knew throughout my life who died early via tragic accidents or some by suicide they all deserved to live way more than i do they all deserved more time the ones who wanted more at least thats just plain fact i knew at least people that were friends of mine all of which died years before life expectancy would have you believe and of whom were good people hard working people trying to make a contribution trying to help others trying to forge connections taking time away from them and leaving me here is such a shame i cant do with my life what they could have done with theirs i dont think ill kill myself its too assertive and there might still be a part of me thats holding out hope that ill find a way to get by i started going to meetings a depression support group i found out about online its the only hours of meaningful social interaction i have every week so i value it pretty seriously but i also hate the way the rest of my week feels in stark contrast to social contact with understanding and honest people right well what i hope doesnt happen is i hope i dont get stuck in this stagnation for too long such that i lose all hope or i go from feeling like nothing is worth it but that i cant wait to die and take it upon myself i guess i am that vain that i would be ashamed to take my own life or at least i would prefer something else kill me before i do hahahahaha the ego trying to protect itself even in selfdestruction hahahahaha absurd well thats where im at for the moment i dont feel i have anything to live for other than avoiding the shame associated with opting out i dont see a solution i dont see a calling for myself a purpose i cant see any light at the end of the tunnel but occasionally i can still coalesce together some wisps of optimism into an imagination of an encouraging future a change for the better around the bend a trace of light up ahead like a flint it lights up some sparks and embers that burn for a bit allows me to continue on a little further and temporarily holds darkness at bay a little like a stranded man in the desert out of water but able to gather small drips of condensation at dawn some days to provide respite from an otherwise barren subsistence,3.0 57749,ohhhh i know they pointless but they do kill time tehe x,0.0 57750,only thing that peeked during my junior year was my stress level,2.0 57751,good morning lots to do today going to my parents lake house tonight ,0.0 57752,is relaxing in a pedicure chair ,0.0 57753,today wasnt a good day for me i just want to cry ,2.0 57754, damn it half way through the interview the sound cuts out just as u talk abt books ,2.0 57755,rt toomeywright clearly in this instance the woman was mentally ill but was her childs life worth nothingshould she not,1.0 57756, hello i said not to tell me lol,2.0 57757,still at work its going to be one of those long days again no complaining easter is here business going well ,0.0 57758,mythsting shit i was definitely going to go to your bday party until i forgot sorry ,2.0 57759,one of the best songs of the night ,0.0 57760,anyone bueller does anyone else constantly think that its just a matter of time until the suicidal thoughts win i was passively suicidal for a loooong while but i keep getting right back to this low now i feel its just a matter of time until it just eventually gets me like addiction cancer or diabetes some just give up ,3.0 57761,whygodwhy ,2.0 57762,cakephp book is here sat on my desk time to get reading ,0.0 57763,just finished the goodfun part of my weekend now in santa barbara now off to the hardsad part of my weekend in la i hate this stuff,2.0 57764,wants to be back at camp ahh more days,2.0 57765,hautecowgirl fyi apriori is mlm cosmetics co contcted co to try their product they just want to sign me up i just want try prdct ,2.0 57766,cant wait to get out of work just more minutes twitter seems to be growing on me gotta reformat my laptop i hate vista ,2.0 57767,dairuku yay three more for me ,2.0 57768,vacuuming cars in the hot sun on a sunny day boo ,2.0 57769,jordanknight i feel your paini pulled my back out at work tonight see you thurs at mohegan,2.0 57770,im awake for real this time daystar she burns hey notacon folks check out myrcurial s talk at pm ,0.0 57771,maxwjlb hahaha eminem left the show everyone was like o my god hahahaaha ,0.0 57772,fuzzz emenel krooj astroboy shapelike good luck at paristoancaster tomorrow dudes make me proud ,0.0 57773,me to myself bitch you stress me out,2.0 57774,nooooo andy samberg chopped off his ragamuffin hair le sigh at least he still looks adorable ,0.0 57775,sazzlechops hello sarah its lucy redman please add me noone else has ,2.0 57776,just done with photoshopltdcom photoshopltdcomtest now working on ips inventory management system ,0.0 57777,stevegonzalez miraculously my headache went awaythank you ,0.0 57778,jmjones my brain is really trying too drive that home but my anxiety is hard to win over,2.0 57779,rt bitemelucas if you dont go through it yourselfyou dont fucking joke about ithave an ed sure joke about itsuffer from depression,0.0 57780,getting ready for a night out on the town boudros and then get some culture by watching quotwickedquot at the majestic passing up the fights ,2.0 57781,ashumittal oops that was supposed to be a dm lol and yet another example of the difference ,0.0 57782,having another quotblahquot sunday ,2.0 57783,blackthundr u missed jerk sesh part the other night i better see some jerkin in the freestyle circle at the fair tho haha,2.0 57784,the honor society show was indeed amazing i loveeeeed it ,0.0 57785,so much packing left to do it makes me sad not many ppl have wished me luck i guess they dont care ,2.0 57786, it was fine orientation is gonna be on sat ,0.0 57787, i made it my own ,0.0 57788,rt kermltnow you look depressedthanks its the depression ,2.0 57789,no one seems to care especially my wife a year ago in january my wife and i welcomed our first child i was the happiest dad ever but shortly after that things went to hell we moved out of our house and in with her parents to help with the baby and so that we wouldnt have to pay child care we finally sold our house in december but it was a long painful process that caused many fights additionally were always fighting about something im always the one being called mean being told that im taking away from her time with the baby although im the one home with the baby all day long while my wife works in fact ive always been the one taking care of the baby its the reason i lost my work from home job back in october i dont feel like a husband anymore i feel like all that im there to do is take care of the baby and care for the house ive always suffered from depression and anxiety issues ive tried therapy in the past and ive tried natural remedies and even if ive been able to tame it for a while it always comes back i feel like no one cares about it that when things are really bad everyone just tells me to suck it up nothing feels worth it anymore,3.0 57790,like you motherfuckers are the picture of mental health 😂,1.0 57791,ive not been happy for a long time context for the past around years my family has lived in a hotel we live in new jersey and if you know anything about nj then you know its expensive to live herei feel like nobody ever wants to talk to me at school in the hallways im always stressed and have terrible grades my life only seems to be getting worse and i dont know what to do i didnt have anyone to talk to about all my problems so i came to this subreddit everything seems unfair and ive been sad for a long time im suicidle ive never thought that to be something id ever do i sort of just deal with it all i used to have a home and a nice one at that but then i moved closer to shore and here i am now,3.0 57792,in case talking with strangers is like therapy for you there is a new website to do just that talk with strangers literally i mean vocallyhttpswwwvoicechatroomxyz,3.0 57793,raytoro any chance of another update sorry if youve been asked this a million times ,0.0 57794,forlorn cry concerts en juin ,0.0 57795,sunday cold weather n cold hands love brazilian autumn rockferry sounds like autumn too ,0.0 57796,oh dear im being followed by someone that claims to help you stay young the end is nigh,2.0 57797, awwwthanks bro youse the bestest,0.0 57798,pamelablairg i like your thinking pam ,0.0 57799,wwooohh im not feeling good in my school anymore ,2.0 57800,my friends depression is starting to affect my mental health i seem to be the only one who always helps and says all the kind words and brings my friend back up to themselves again but it feels like i only get them at their worst she doesnt have many friends but when its anyone else shes made plans with shell force herself to go however when its plans with just me shell ghost or cancel last minute even though shes been excited about it for weeks up until the morning of the day its hard but i know shes not doing it to hurt me she just knows i understand but it kinda sucks you know you leave a day planned and you look forward to it for weeks and then boom gone or im the one who gets her out of her rut but i seem to spend very little time with her when shes at her best im trying to refrain from saying shes using me as an emotional tampon because its not true depression is extremely hard on people i get that but it really affects the ones closest toolike i understand and i dont and thats the worst part i want to distance myself to help with myself mentally but then i dont because if i do ill feel worse because ill be putting that person in a worse state mentally its hard its so hard this morning she never showed and then texted me hours later saying shes sorry and then kept saying how bad she felt and she kept asking was i annoyed and of course you will hate me for it but yes i was annoyed i never said it to her but i was annoyed what rational human wouldnt be annoyed when someone stands you up and then texts hours later but she perceived i was annoyed based on my lacking texts and my inability to show emotion in them when really it wasnt because i was annoyed it is just because im so burnt out my head hurts all the time worrying constantly waiting for a cancellation text wondering whats going to happen this time i dont know what i want to gain from this post i love this girl as a friend but she makes it so hard and i know shes not doing it on purpose shes going through so much and i dont want her to feel like shes losing her closest friend but i need space and i dont know how to get it so if anything comes from this post is i just want a way to get space with causing minimal damage to her mental health,3.0 57801,day one of this iphone is done i miss my ipod touch ,2.0 57802,maybe i shoudl consider that group therapy the mental health nurse told me about like ill probs refuse to talk to them but eh,1.0 57803,rain rain go away and take the bolt of lightning that came way to close with you,2.0 57804,tell me it gets better mom of one bonus mom of one married home owner i went on medical leave from my it job and ended up quitting instead of returning it was good money but the commute sucked politics sucked and i wasnt passionate about it i have a hormonal imbalance pcos adrenal fatigue and struggling with infertility anxiety and depression im on an antidepressant a bunch of vitamins and seeing a therapist im at my heaviest weight ive been in my life and i hate the way i look my husband still wants me sexually and always tells me how beautiful i am but i hate myself i used to love taking selfies and i have posted a pic on my social media in forever ive apparently suppressed a lot of emotional trauma from my family and pst relationships i was a true single parent for five years with no help and it was very stressful i pretty much have had a physical and emotional breakdown i have no idea what interest me or what im good at so i have no hobbies or outlets i feel like my kids cant stand me bc im always so depressed that im one of those maybe next time kind of parents and that breaks my heart my husband is like the best as far as husbands go i think i hit the jackpot yet i feel so unsatisfied and i have no idea why sometimes the pressure of being a mom and wife are too much and i just want out and i hate myself for feeling that way i struggle with so much guilt i dont know how to get back to this person i once was will i ever be happy fulfilled full of life and energy for my kids will i heal from my past will i lose the weight get healthy have another baby or will i lose my husband my friends will my kids hate me will i be fat forever will i always feel like i have nothing to offer will i find something that bring me joy do i even deserve it i feel like im doing everything im being told to do therapy working out specific diet vitamins antidepressants distressed my life by quitting my job and i feel worse now than ever today i had a severe panic attack and i slapped myself so hard in the face so many time that i broke the blood vessels around my eyes like wtf is wrong with me get a grip i have this nice life why do i feel like this ,3.0 57805, heheheh nice input ya maybe i should ,0.0 57806,sarahxfrancis ahh really ive only gotten halfway in season fail,2.0 57807,my foot is asleep and it tickles too much to move it which sucks cause i want a cigarette ,2.0 57808,he said yes guys im now engaged ,0.0 57809,creating is beautiful but we never get back the advice we need to receive httpstcosthbtcpjku,0.0 57810,i hate new years eve i hate christmas fuck these holidays they always remind me of how lonely i am always reminds me of how dysfunctional my family is always reminds me how depression can ruin these holidays more for me ugh i wish i could enjoy these celebrations like normal people,3.0 57811,ddlovato thats awesome congrats i will vote ,0.0 57812,darthshalom i belong in front of a camera ,2.0 57813,downloading the torrent of last nights sytycda where my love bj was tragically but predictably eliminated ,2.0 57814, eat a lemon and have a green tea with honey and lemon orrr boil a pot of lemongrass and then go under a blanket that works,0.0 57815,puking is not fun ,2.0 57816, so weird i havent received any of your tweets on my phone i only saw them now ,2.0 57817,has anyone with depression used a prescribed stimulant with any success i was watching a new documentary on netflix about adderall and other related drugs and almost everyone on it described how amazing they felt while being on it they felt focused motivated and just generally like the best version of themselvesi have clinical depression and anxiety in the past doctors have said adderall couldwould possibly heighten anxiety but im so unmotivated and blah all the time from my depression i could really use a leg upanyone have experience taking it thats in a similar situation,3.0 57818,jcwilder hey doll long time no gossip ,0.0 57819,i hate getting sand in my shoes ,2.0 57820,rt sad day for marlins rest easy girly,0.0 57821,found an amazing apt in charleston but im kinda scared to live alone i love decorating ,0.0 57822,so much for a lie in had to get up to mix down that track and send it off happy now clothes shopping now today is a purple suit day ,0.0 57823,im really hyper now and i want some mountain dew ,0.0 57824,caitlingray just did ,0.0 57825,shaundiviney haha cmon no band wars are needed xd elora danan they broke up anyway ,2.0 57826,citralopram and alcohol reduce dosage or skip been on for months now started at for first month and few weeks ago changed from taking it morning to nightso off to pub quiz tonight and famously everyone gets rather drunk and i intend to as well iresponsibly i knowso what would be the best option out of these skip dosage tonight taking it first thing tomorrow morning take just tonight and tomorrow morning just take and hope for the bestanyones expierence would appreciate your insight and like i said i know i shouldnt drink much but one off occassion every year or so so dont judge too harshly ,3.0 57827,scottishstevie nice i saw iron maiden lst yr in paris ,0.0 57828,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 57829,rt xjocc less stress more sex,2.0 57830,my lips might fall off ,2.0 57831,good nite everyone sweet dreams ,0.0 57832,i have a feeling i wont be able to go to the show june ,2.0 57833,ita really cozy here on the couch in the living room in the dark listening to the rain crash on the window ,0.0 57834,mellalicious white russians get back to us when you have run out of milk ,0.0 57835,getting rubbed all over rules making dollars in hours is sweet too,0.0 57836,ahhh todays weird because all the seniors are gone but at least itll be quiet in homeroom suck it ,0.0 57837,im hurting so much and its affecting everything i made a new throwaway account cause my friends know my main i have never felt more alone i dont know how to trust anyone one anymore i hurt like i have a physical heaviness in my chest i want to cry but i cant i dont even know if i have friends at this point i want someone to sit with me and tell me ill be fine but i know thats asking too much i got all ds and fs last semester of college and im afraid thatll happen again then ill be kicked out and ill have just wasted money i have no future what the point,3.0 57838,no one tells you i thought my childhood was lonely and that i didnt always connect well with others no one tells you just how lonely adulthood is whether you have loving family a spouse good friends whatever adulthood is lonely and it scares me im i should be well adjusted but i am definitely not ,3.0 57839,fauzibijak no i havent wonder when will he replied to me sigh sure i vote for him everyday i even made about or acc to vote p,2.0 57840,torontos unpredictable housing market stokes anxiety via globeandmail ,2.0 57841,loving the sunshine wish poor richie would feel better ,2.0 57842, whateverthats just cause u like pcs and ur which im sorry doesnt compare to the iphone ,0.0 57843,now im depressed againugh help ,2.0 57844,ahhh wish i could go to the mcfly signing today mcfly mcfly mcfly,2.0 57845,chrispbambrough thanks chrisi know its rather fancy isnt it it was actually my mums idea were taking a bday picnic too ,0.0 57846, so i was going to email you but i cant find your email address anywhere internet fail ,2.0 57847,lovepeaceunity great tweets cheers ,0.0 57848,feeling hopeless after failed surgery i just had surgery a few days ago for an eye condition i have and now i have constant double vision i cant see my own reflection pour myself a glass of water or even put on my shoes by myself writing and playing piano is a huge part of my life and everything i hold dear seems inaccessible now i feel dependent apathetic and pathetic its like ive lost the ability to care what happens to me nothing seems worth caring about and i have no way of distracting myself from this the one upside is that since i cant see and dont have decent depth perception i cant hurt myself my friends keep telling me over amp over to just wait it out because my eyes are still healing as if its that simple to just sit and wait unfortunately with dissolvable stitches the longer i wait for it to be fixed the more hopeless it seems ive never felt so strongly about wanting to be dead in my entire life its not that i want to kill myself i just dont want to be alive to deal with this i need a break from my own body all ive done since surgery is stare at my ceiling and try to sleep just so i dont have to be conscious i waited years for this surgery and my eyes functioned better beforehand i dont want to stumble around unable to see normally for the rest of my life i wish that instead of being bombarded with medical advice from people who cant even pronounce the condition i have that just for once i could be taken seriously and be allowed to be upset is anyone else irritated by peoples wellmeaning but still annoying good vibes™ speeches its like nobody wants to just acknowledge someone is going through something that sucks i dont even know what the point of this post is i just feel like im trapped in my own body and everyone i know wants to make it about them or tell me how to feel im exhausted,3.0 57849,rt aghanaiangirl remember what you guys did to bom when it was her depression meds 😴,2.0 57850,misstattoo still dont get of all songshe did that oneits so weird seein him do that after so many years tho ,0.0 57851,deepest condolences i sent to taehyung and his family i hope his grandfather rest in peace dont be sa ,1.0 57852,idk what to do apologize in advanced for my lack of writing skillswell the title says it all hahaim a year old male who works in construction im a slightly short handsome person who is terribly insecure for almost no reason ive had multiple chances to get close with woman in the past and i just pushed them away idk if i thought i could do better or they just were not for me but i regret it ive created a life full of solitude and anger i quite honestly just want to die ive spent my entire life being lazy with school and work i have lost so much life gaming and watching tv i this i that im so tired of i i just need a break from my self maybe a permanent one i know thats not the answer but my mind is just killing its self from the inside its almost like a cavity im a good person and i can be really funny my best friend says im the only person who is real because i havent changed for as long as he has known me how ironic that the real me is dead inside i cant take it anymore if you saw me in real life you would probably imagine me having a girlfriend and a happy life well no im a little bitch who doesnt take any risks and just stays inside because i worry too much about what people think when and how did i become this way can i blame society can i blame my parents i sure as hell blame my self i smoked weed earlier with my brother and im sure thats why my emotions are just fucked at the moment im just riddled with anxiety and anger and depression that i just cant even grasp the concept of time anymore either its going too slow or going too fast i cant live in the moment honestly just want to die only reason i dont is because im almost too certain ill be back in this trap of an existence,3.0 57853,jasminearia aww i hope u are okay ,2.0 57854,harveylevintmz why are u s mean to them ,2.0 57855,usa under donald trump falling in to dictatorship trillion dollars in trump family deals worldwide followe ,1.0 57856,suchagoodgirl mthan id suggest just zzz it off i dont need antih but i had take antibiotics knocked me out i could do ,2.0 57857,woke up with the driest mouth ever feels like the beer monkey has done his business in it ,2.0 57858,i feel like i am being drowned by my life i just want to start out by saying im sorry if this isnt a big enough deal i just dont know what else to do i feel like im a whiny bitch posting this but at this point i think im out of options a few things have happened recently that have helped put me into this position and to top it all off my kitty of years died on christmas eve maybe thats not bad for some people but shes been there for me through suicide attempts and a whole bunch of other shit i am pounds no skills and no job i will eventually lose my car because i cant afford it its hard for me to find any kind of work because of this regardless of my weight my back prevents me from working i was lbs years ago and the pain hasnt changed i feel like a fuckin bitch because i cant try suicide a time out of fear of failing again and i am really at a loss idk how to find a job from home that i can do and my anxiety about interacting with people in a business sense is overwhelming like if i were a delivery driver the fear of messing up the change idk i am probably going to delete this post in minutes again anyway ,3.0 57859,last hours with rich after dos semanas triste triste,2.0 57860,i wanna qo to six flaqs sadly ive never been there beforee ,2.0 57861,d no ones tweeting ,2.0 57862,junonialtd felt guilty making my daughter wear a jacket this morning with her skorts think happy thoughts and it will be warm ,0.0 57863,my doctor wont refill my prozac until he sees me and he cant see me for a month and a half ive already been out of meds for a week or more i dont know where to post thisthrowaway because whateverim already feeling the effects of depression creep up quickly and seemingly with a vengeance severe symptoms impairing my ability to function effecting my relationship in the past i also have gotten brain zaps and shit if ive been off it for more than two or three weeks so ive got that to look forward to as wellwhen the receptionist told me he wouldnt refill my meds due to not having seen me since october yes thats my fault i know i brought this on myself i instantly started crying havent had that happen in months love it and couldnt say much i also have social anxietymy general practitioners office just closed down and i havent been informed if shes willing to transfer patients whether or not shes even found a new job yet or where etc so even if she would be willing to pick up prescribing me prozac she cant now im really at a loss as to what to do here,3.0 57864, days until the nba draft still ,2.0 57865,i hate when a program freezes during installation ,2.0 57866,there are so many common life experiences that i havent experienced yet and its tearing me apart i am in my early and there are so many things people my age have done that i havent done yet some of these examples include going to a concert going on a date first kiss being in a relationship getting my first car living on my own etc every time i think about it i just burst out crying out of nowhere this even happens in public sometimes i get tearyeyed and try to stop myself from crying because i dont want anyone to see me i have no friends so it is hard to go out and do anything fun my biggest fear is that my life will continue to be this way and i will waste all of my sitting my room doing nothing i partially blame my sheltered upbringing my parents are awesome and supportive but they can be overprotective i remember that i couldnt go to those big field trips in elementary school and high school because they didnt want me to now that i am an adult i have trouble doing adult tasks making appointments driving to places cooking applying for jobs etc are very difficult for me i feel like such a loser and hate myself so much,3.0 57867,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 57868,says tomorrow is another day ,2.0 57869,back from the zoo had fun,0.0 57870,june first day of school i totally had fun eep ,0.0 57871,hershey kisses papi ,0.0 57872,today was bad im writing this to get it off my chest im not asking for answers or help in any way i just need to tell someoneive had depression since my teens on and off im almost now there has been times when its bad times when its manageable and times when its virtually nonexistentthe past few months have been a rough patch which is fine i can handle it im back on meds going to therapy again but daily life is still tough im always tired often irritable and can rarely find motivation but i can handle itor so i thought until today i had a day off work switched my day off to get some much needed rest whether i was tired or just couldnt face work i dont know i lie to myself about this kind of thing a lotim in bed all morning waking up and dozing off again in my awake periods the dread is setting in the feeling of worthlessness tooat that point i did something ive not thought about for a long time suicide mulling over how id do it how to make it less traumatic for the person that finds me and the people around me where id hang from or who i think would be best to find me its a thought i believed id never see again but here it was rearing its ugly head once again the next few months could be tough but i have to be toughercheers for reading i hope youre all having a better day,3.0 57873,i really wish i had a coffee now only had time for one this morning ,2.0 57874,kennethgmusic ravuth just woke up and ready to party addicted to partying ,0.0 57875,rt iaminfiresfoxy if youre sad here is baby jungoo to cheer you up ,1.0 57876,i knew today would suck at work ,2.0 57877,there was no traffic at all on my way home and all traffic lights were greenim afraidiowe karma a big check ,2.0 57878,emiliodelgado dude i know youre not coming here i was wicked upset i love every avenue ,2.0 57879,torodelfunk it is that meowd fishin for me ,0.0 57880,awwyeshhh toy story but till june ,2.0 57881,jiminthemorning not many tweets from you today ,2.0 57882,pretendr why limit your story to ch tell all what is annoying you at wwwiamsoannoyedcom ,0.0 57883,rt muthuimkenya it is a sad day in kenya whistleblowers hit hard after cnyakundih twitter account is suspended on unclear grounds,2.0 57884,i was having so much anxiety last night and just,1.0 57885,gee looks like i need more coffee my follow friday does not have my tweeters in red ,2.0 57886,lechatmalefique i dont think so in the mornings my anxiety hasnt had time to warm up yet p,1.0 57887,im and have an imaginary friend it helps me not to feel lonely i also drink a lot like right now im gonna down almost a whole box of wine and pretend someone loves me ive had suicide attempts two requiring hospitals i am also stuck in the house ,3.0 57888,dermot thanks ill be sure to tweet about it when its up ,0.0 57889, i only played for fun in college ,2.0 57890,free unlimited ringtones httptinyurlcomfreeringring usa only awesome iphone ,0.0 57891,joeymcintyre still in awe of vabeach show no doubt yall blew that power out in jersey cant wait to volunteer for lgtf tom in dc ,0.0 57892,franciine i cant wait either its their last ,2.0 57893,just got to paiges house nice computer katelyn said i could just take it so i got a new laptop jj ill leave it here ,0.0 57894,just listed a new elegant leather journal httpbitlynxgfm i hope you like it guys via ,0.0 57895,bummed im doing some major shopping next week for myself tmobile ruined my bday gift ,2.0 57896,perfect dog walking beautiful sunshine and my quotsunny dayquot ipod playlist ,0.0 57897, thanks i know you would sorry for letting you down about scotland all the time though ,2.0 57898, ohhh damn i wish i was in the us id absolutely take them ,2.0 57899,cant wait for the miss my class and gl ,2.0 57900,anneftw not pisseed still appreicated honey ,2.0 57901,off to see coraline at a cineworld hey ho once youre inside its less horrible,0.0 57902,zenmonkey haha thanks ,0.0 57903,tip for ssri withdrawaldiscontinuation i know a lot of people here might be suffering with ssri withdrawal and i wanted to make a post about it because i suffered badly with itmake sure you taper off the pills that you take it can be extremely importanti actually found my withdrawal symptoms improved faster when i tapered it probably has something to do with your brain being slowly repaired rather than being sent in disarrayi thought going cold turkey would make the withdrawal leave sooner but it actually just made the symptoms harsher and more persistent i just wanted to post this because i havent seen many people talk about this and i felt awful at the time and dont want anyone to feel the same ssris are very effective for me anyway but its clear some people have adverse effects so its important to note if youre suffering from abnormally harsh withdrawal or discontinuation syndrome that tapering can be a complete game changerthanks,3.0 57904,accidental encouragement of a negative mindest or empathising is it ok for me to respond to a friends comment by telling them i identify with what theyre saying and after they have shared a sadly relatable but funny song send a similar song back or could that be accidental encouragement of their attitude towards life,3.0 57905,thanks for the sweet direct messages more facts coming up soon,0.0 57906,jeffzelaya i will next time upset i missed you man ,2.0 57907,my twittascope is crap today ,2.0 57908,twnklgel ikaw tong way phone,2.0 57909,tomfelton those are really good i like them ,0.0 57910,any tips for completing work when feeling incredibly down not really sure where else to post this but i am desperate for advice if anyone is willing to give it im in college and exams are fast approaching meaning they start monday not only do i have three exams i have hardly studied for but i also have two huge projects due very soon im trying to catch up right now but i am having an extremely hard time due to the fact that i have felt numb all day i think the pain of everything going on became too much for me so now i feel just nothingness as my own way of coping i dont care about my classes right now but i know once i get out of this funk i will care i need to get some of this homework done any tips for concentrating and toughing it out when completely numb i have been just staring at my laptop screen for two hours any tips will help,3.0 57911,i think my birthday is now in four days ,0.0 57912,tracydetlor i saw that movie its really a good one and its even more sad to know its a real story ,2.0 57913,kristalinabina amandarumm it was only a trim and a touch up so no worries ,0.0 57914,testing the shamwow guys claim that sweaters will be dry in no time with his product well see ,0.0 57915,ferry needs to get rid of wally and boobie this summer but theres no way bron would let boobie go so were screwed again next season ,2.0 57916,what do i have to do to feel better meds or drugs are a good temporary fix but is there anything else,3.0 57917,noangelvfc no shit i think i helped get him on the trending topics list haha hooray for bradie l,0.0 57918,is goin go b with a friend ,0.0 57919, alright tell me if i missed someone ill make a train for u i love my twitter family make me a train ,0.0 57920,andynulman ha ive been working on projects with markgoren since we met that night lets find conversationage and get her back here,0.0 57921,rt septicnjh heres the suicide hotlines for your area please dont be afraid to call it your life matters ,1.0 57922,loving the pay check that cammee for this week didnt really deserve it though ,2.0 57923,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 57924,did i chose the wrong college i feel like i chose the wrong collegei am years now there and i dont really like iti know sounds stupid but at the same time i want to finish it but i just cant and also i dont have job and im having everyone push me to finish so i could get a job lololololyou dont imagine how difficult it is to finish an it college and after years realizing that my path is not therethe first years were goodnot bad not perfect after that it was down hill for mei dont even know how i managed to get in there in the first placefrom freaking studying like no tomorrow but now i dont feel in a mood for thatwhat should i do what do you thinkshould i just give it up and search for a job and make some moneyi dont know what should i do with my calculations i will finnish in or years from now which is years overallim really really desperate i think thats why im writing hereps sorry for my english vocabulary and grammar,3.0 57925,nickjonas lines vines and trying times is awesome been listening to it for straight its amazing x,0.0 57926,rt carterow when i get sad about overwatch i just watch this video and it calms me down ,1.0 57927,calculator died on sats ,2.0 57928,why do i have to go to the sitty job more often than the nice one ,2.0 57929,yummywebstudio ive seen that many times i like kate hudson too,0.0 57930,misskatieprice hey i think u are so cool wot u up write bk plz ,0.0 57931,houseofcrazy hang in there fingers crossed that something will come up soon for you ,0.0 57932,getting ready for school cant be bothered with todayyy ,2.0 57933, yea i know ,2.0 57934,my daughter took a nap this afternoon shes still up this is why we banned naps ,2.0 57935,thinktankninja im with ya trish i hate billing clients but i love cashing their checks ,0.0 57936,so irritating that i cant make calls or texts on my iphone till included min and texts dont start till ,2.0 57937,nicolle i do not connect today in the whole day that bored uu i miss her i miss you baby ,2.0 57938,im going gokarting cool ,0.0 57939,cant sleep quotcall me a doctorquot peter andre lol its buzzin in uk lol,2.0 57940,i fucked up my life and i dont know how to fix it im pushing have a bachelors degree in philosophy work at the same texmex restaurant for ten years and im miserable every single goddamn daywhen i was younger i wanted to have a job that would make me feel good and pay the bills so i thought i could go the academia route i loved feeling smart once my idealism wore off and i realized that i will never pay off the ridiculous amount of student loans that i took out to pay for that worthless piece of paper i sucked it up and took a management position at a fake mexican restaurant seven years into that and i was ready to hang myself so i stepped down started just waiting tables and tried to get into a technical school i was rejected im trying again but im positive ill get rejected again i have no skills outside of the restaurant industry that i can put on a resume and i am beyond broke i started on lexapro a few months ago for anxiety and that worked okay but my depression has gotten worse i want to go to sleep and not wake up i dont want to get dressed in the morning i drink massive amounts of coffee to stay awake because im constantly tired and while i havent had a drop of alcohol in two years i really want to binge so hard that my liver fails i am worthless i fucked up my life and i dont see how to fix it i hate my life i dont want it anymore fuck,3.0 57941,i need to vent i was diagnosed with depression about a year ago a few months later finished my relationship with a a girlfriend this relationship last five years she dump me because i wasnt me anymore my future was over and i didnt wanna do anything and other painful reasons she put now im with other woman she loves me takes me with the doctor and encourages me to heal but sometimes tells me that im not empathic person maybe i lost that in the past years and maybe never gonna be that old me she wants to help me but sometimes the words hurt me a lot a lot i dont longer know if im a depressed person or me with depression,3.0 57942,god why would they even want this doublespaced im not having a good day ,2.0 57943,thank goodness for laptops and cordless phones the garden has become my office for the morning ,0.0 57944,tr just say what youre doing or what you think its a fun way to interact ,0.0 57945,omg todays the day hahah but not here ,2.0 57946,yay its raining ,0.0 57947,oneradiovixen i have a confessiont i am addicted to scary movies and had one too many shots like diddy hungover ass last week,2.0 57948,night with the guys at bens grandmas while shes out of time pizza mountain dew and life is good ,0.0 57949,airgeorgia ill cheer you up boo lol ,0.0 57950,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 57951,watching gilmore girls my favorite show ,0.0 57952,lezizzle way to make me feel bad punkkkk ,2.0 57953,dragonball evolution was nice was just able to finish watching it now haha ,0.0 57954,eating ice cream to reduce the heat ,0.0 57955,i just had to ask for an extension on an assingment for those who know me that is a huge deal ive never let my depression get this bad beforethis past week ive done nothing but lay in bed and feel nothing no motivation no hunger maybe a lot of guilt and self loathing im missing class today because my husband is worried and taking me back to my doctor to see if theres something they can do about my medication no longer helpingim posting to you guys because i feel so incredibly lost i cant go to my best friend because she is currently dealing with some stuff i tried talking to my brother and he just said to figure out whats depressing methats the issue i dont know im just depressed ,3.0 57956,is back on the clock and is struggling mightily always tough first day back at work from a vacation currently feeling crappy ,2.0 57957,made and ate french toast with vanilla not sure if i like it better than the standard but it was still yummy ,0.0 57958,i need help but i dont know how to get it ive been keeping a happy face on for my family because i dont want them to worry about me but for the past year and a half things have been getting worse for me there are full weeks that i feel like i should just stay asleep forever and i have been losing a grip on reality aometimes that honestly scares me to my core i even been waking up at to in the afternoon barely able to get out of bed sure i laugh and stuff when i need to do that my mom and dad and everyone else i know wont get worried but i sont know how long o can do that hell before this i was an ab student in college but now i cant even atand the thought of going there at all and im failing im scared i dont want to hurt rhe people i love but how do i continue when i feel like im just this fat anchor arpund their necks,3.0 57959,rt nightmargin depression aesthetic is looping putting a song on loop and suddenly realizing its still playing like hours later,1.0 57960,fredgarrett yup they rescheduled it due to the crisis in iran im sending out positive energy for everyone caught over there ,2.0 57961,rt depression bullies adult sibling abuse survivors rarely get right therapy their recoveryjumpstart your life ,1.0 57962,didnt fail today hopefully sunburnt face though ,0.0 57963,just slept hours and im going back to sleep now for moree welcome summer ,0.0 57964,he wont text me back i think we broke up for goood this time jaymilski,2.0 57965,domness it sure is ,0.0 57966, thats sad about mr mackey ,2.0 57967,i hear these kind of people like to build and then fly home made airplanes crazy stuff ,0.0 57968,sticky and sweet tour diary dance moments httpbitlyhbfxb hope you guys like ,0.0 57969,volverene oh last year my blog was complete i loved it but then the domain broke down now i have another one but its not complete ,2.0 57970, hour days amp hours of sleep makes me with i would have known about bs sleeping pill a bit earlier im gonna hate life today lol,2.0 57971,my mom cleaned my room because she thinks i have legit depression,2.0 57972,antidepressants and natural supplements i was wondering if anyone has more knowledge on the interaction between wellbutrin and i am definitely out of my depths here but i know these basics wellbutrin is an aminoketone classed as an atypical antidepressant ndri thus predominantly works on reuptake inhibition of the norepinephrine and dopamine transporters this sets it apart from more typical antidepressants classed as ssris which work largely on serotonin receptors is an essential amino acid that is implemental as a precursor in the production and regulation of serotonin thus additionally melatonin its the byproduct of the brains processing of ltryptophan and has been proven to increase levels of serotonin as well as melatonin our bodys sleep hormone necessary for deep sleep and thus healing and higher brain myelination which can be importantuseful to repair dysfunctional neural pathways that can perpetuate unhealthy thought patterns and associations it is possible to reach dangerous levels of serotonin by supplementing with chemical proteins and amino acids which can lead to serotonin syndromeso since hypothetically and wellbutrin work on different neural receptorssynapses are they safe to take together,3.0 57973,rt necation okay i think im good nowmy depressionhttpstcofssbgcwvmn,0.0 57974, fyi you have your name spelled with an uppercase b in twitter ,0.0 57975,yahmi all the time ,0.0 57976,has been bumming the whole day ,0.0 57977,nodoubtvw i would have a mullet if i could a curly black people kind with venetian shades like kanye my dream ,2.0 57978,let the sun shine in face it with a grin smilers never lose and frowners never win ,0.0 57979,i just got up well late and im meana be studying today oops blink tour dates out not one of em in the uk never been so gutted ,2.0 57980,feeling really fucking bummed out grossed outguilty about living in sf ,2.0 57981,im a little miffed the store was out of my favorite cookies sad sad me,2.0 57982,loopyjohn why are you following me yo ,0.0 57983,first time checking out sunday nights blogchat discussion very cool ,0.0 57984,its my best friends birthdayyyy kreksss i love you ,0.0 57985,pinkypenny thx boo wish u was here ,2.0 57986,slicktalkj have fun wish i was there ,2.0 57987,rt versesforever get rid of your of worries cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you ,2.0 57988, baby i hope yalls night is better than my last i needs a stiff drink lol and we know ion drink much lol wish u were off ,2.0 57989, i have to copy n paste ur name eevry time i talk to u rofl so ergh,2.0 57990,neostylez nice i would go and visit but im working my arse off ,2.0 57991,rt aliaastaman bad husband gonna be a worse father then the kid will be less likely to be schoolready less cognitively developed can,1.0 57992,iko i really dont get their problemwhy so much drama bout a prompt post ,2.0 57993,theres a particular guilt to having depression and it is slowly killing me i just feel so guilty i feel terrible for feeling so low and depressed and hopeless i feel guilty for wanting to die i feel guilty that my meds arent working i feel guilty that my parents have to take me to doctors and pay for therapy i feel guilty that my friends need to worry about me and force me to eat and make sure im not selfharmingi feel so guilty for having depression however i cant help it its always there slowly eating away at what is left of me i try so hard to get better and it just wont happen to me why do i feel so guilty about thatim not okay and i hate that,3.0 57994,massive headache ,2.0 57995,my anxiety and depression is crippling im about to kill myself any minute or in the following week i cant do this anymore its like my lungs are filling with water and im drowning from the inside every time i try asking for help no one wants to because im not broken enough im done im not worth itive been in control of my emotions for too long i never cry i only lose control when i let myself but that composure has been fading by the day ive been cutting myself non stop its not that i cant control my emotionsits that i dont fucking want to ive been crying loudly in the school bathroom which ive never done before i never let anyone see or hear me so fucking weaki just cant care enough anymore at this rate i will kill myselfim a senior in high school and im done im not smart there are things about my life i cant tell anyone some really fucked up things and its hard talking to someone because they wont ever get the full picture only a very small part of a picture that i cant even paint properly no one will ever understand me either im too fucked up or im not fucked up enoughmy school counsuler is a fucking asshole im just a problem to be solved im not a human being he was nice for the first few times i came in with an anxiety attack but later he was just irritated my mother is seeing me suffering and it breaks her heart she cant do shit about it everyone around me is suffering the kids at school also complain about their fucked up lives im suffocating everywhere i go everything i feel is pain i look around me and all i see is painim also stupid as shit so for some fucking reason my dumbass thought it would be a good idea to sign up as a student ed a freshman asked me to help with her geometry homework guess what i couldnt help her do regular high school geometry im dumb as shit im useless im slow ive been diagnosed with adhd but that doesnt excuse me being stupid we have autistic people who are prodigies and do amazing things i never felt so fucking humanliated no one called me stupid but it was like everyone was calling me stupid looking at me like i was stupid i cant do this anymore i have this urge to cut myself to bang my head against the wall until my forehead bleeds i want to hurt myself to the point where i wont feel anything i like sleeping i like that feeling of nothingness i want that if death will give me that then i want it i want it im done im done im done im done im done hahahha im done i am out of my fucking mind and im done im going to order a helium gas tank from amazon and wrap my head with plastic bag itll be peaceful i wont feel anything ill spare my family the pain that would if i shot myself or overdosed,3.0 57996, the surface of the moon sounds like the top of mauna kea ,0.0 57997,came back from that awesometastic dance gawd it was fun i was sweating bullets dancing ,0.0 57998,i think i just experienced a psychotic break i have major depressive disorder anxiety and ptsd ive been especially depressed this week but tonight i broke i slapped and punched my face repeatedly i am an adult and ive never done that before i cut as a teenager but this is the first time ive ever resorted to hitting myselfi dont know why i wrote this but i needed to ,3.0 57999,quotthe very thought of humanizing hitler makes me queasy if he had a good side i dont want to know about itquot i love ignorant americans ,0.0 58000,so i watched quottakenquot over the weekend with my sister and i must say its one the best movies ive seen in a loooong time ,0.0 58001,i was at sammys woodfired pizza httpwhrrlcomefkcsu,0.0 58002,lisacasinger thanks thats our new fancy logo ,0.0 58003,fantasycreative cool ,0.0 58004,is upset that he didnt get his fix tonight ,2.0 58005,bliumchik have you dmed your email to fictioncrush yet for a start in case loons busy sleeping or looking pretty or something ,0.0 58006,i wonder if the hangover is funnier with an actual hangover someone should test this theory ,0.0 58007,marcforrest i absolutely hate it when you get to tweet that ,2.0 58008,feeling fucking sick all of a sudden my poor hemogloban ,2.0 58009,goodnight ,0.0 58010,with growing mental heath concerns im thinking of putting up my own mental health clinic anyone out there inte ,1.0 58011,it doesnt get better it gets worse im just hoping that something one little thing will make me genuinely happy or change how things are going and nothing does i have too many demons and current problems to fight on a daily basis pretending to be getting happier for my husband is killing me im drowning in pain right now and i just want to go back to being numb and in a daze like i have been for the last few weeks it always goes back to the numbness sometimes i have to completely lose my mind first but it never goes back to being okay or good its never really been good maybe i can name a handful of minutes in my existence i could label as good or happy but everything else has been pain or numbnessi just feel like im worthless and i shouldnt be here on a daily basis i know for a fact my family would be better off without me i dont need any of the but you do this bull because i dont everything i do what little it is could easily be done by someone else and in a happier tone and quicker at least once a month i cry so hard i practically drown myself it feels like im breathing underwater and my whole body hurts for days after im worthless i can barely move after besides typing or scrolling through things to try and find something to numb the pain someone who has it worse than me which is everyone because my pain is worthless since im worthless i just dont feel like anything is ever going to be slightly okay ever and i dont want to keep guessing if it will be,3.0 58012,so first night anxiety attack and second night swollen collarbone this trip is gonna kill me,2.0 58013,why do people swear theyre here for me but are actually never or pick up on any depressionesque traits ive developed i always use to be in doubt of my depression a few months ago i expressed my feelings to a handful of family memberssince then my depression has gotten worse im coming to terms with it but despite them saying theyre here for me nothing comes out of it,3.0 58014,work back in the morning ,2.0 58015,rt mcjairok btsarmy always on my mind i got you and i support you ,1.0 58016,mmazur good seeing you again ,0.0 58017,so the dj at after numas sucked but i gots to go to ihop with some good friends ,0.0 58018,is gunning for a real date night tonight ,0.0 58019,johncow get followers a day using wwwtweeteraddercom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 58020,im so tired my back hurts ,2.0 58021,danabingham i know exactly what you mean my treats are more awhile than once in ,0.0 58022,thank god for another day its saturday in the morning ,0.0 58023,lonely international students hmu all of my birthday wishes from yrs old to had been to come to canada and leave the sexist god awful mess that is my countrythat is indeed what i did i applied to schools i didnt know anything about bc offered me a scholarship and that was the biggest achievement of my entire life but even with the scholarship i still couldnt afford it i go to york now i dont fit in here i dont have any friends my parents left last night and i have never felt more lonely i dont know what my purpose is everyones here to become something im here as a runner finally permitted to figure myself out its hard ive spent all my yrs learning this language sacrificing the opportunity to learn my own culture to learn another and here i am being ignored by canadian girls my age that think this rich spoiled international students whole life is going to be a waste of money getting mocked for my inability cope with this huge pile of unfamiliar and truthfully i think maybe i am just a waste of money time and space i dont belong anywhere i used to think im smart i dont anymorei used to think im worth something i dont anymorebut i know i can stay alive and for now thats all im good for but it also feels like im wasting precious oxygen breathing hurts but i still do iti finally got what i wanted but i feel like shit,3.0 58024,rt jtrevv sad hours,1.0 58025,joeymcintyre tweet a bitgive us some inside good stuff ,0.0 58026,oh no i just broke a chair i guess its now confirmed i am heavy ,2.0 58027,good morning i hope today is warm im ready to stop being chilly ,2.0 58028,bethurz beeeeeeeeettttttthhhhhhhh hey how are ya xxx,0.0 58029,yesterday i finally realized how much i hate myself hi reddit im have friends family and a job i know i dont have a lot to complain about other than the fact that i fucking hate myself and im totally depressed currently im on a snowboard trip in pas de la casa with of my best friends yesterday we went to a bar and i drank myself to death when me and my friend who we sleep in the same room reached the room i puked all over the toilet and i couldnt stop i started crying and saying repeatedly i hate myself i dont deserve having anything good and i couldnt stop it was terrible and embarrassing my friend was there for me and helped me but i didnt want his help i wanted him to go away so i could sulk alone of course i was drunk but it released my inner thoughts about what i think about me its just one of the reasons i suffer from depression there are many other reasonsi know there are many people who suffer a lot more but i just cant help it i hate myself im awkward i dont have a girlfriend i used to be such a good funny person who didnt give two shits about what people think of me and now i overthink everything and feel like nobody loves me even though people do i feel like im the worst person i know and i hate iti dont know how you guys can help i just wanted to write this post because i felt like itthank you very much i love reddit,3.0 58030,fairmonthotels so who can i talk to about my erroneous internet charges ,2.0 58031, been feeling off i am so fed up with feeling out of whack like tired or moody it started with the time change and got worse yesterday i had a flare up of health issues yesterdayany advice,3.0 58032,jamesgotfredson im somewhat amused and not surprised at all that you of all people would be twittering from his commencement congrats ,0.0 58033,i got fired hey guys this is my first time posting on this sub anyways my boyfriend left this morning for uni and then i got to work only to be fired im in such a shifty place right now and i have literally no one to go to please send help update had a bit of a panic attack on the sidewalk someone called the cops,3.0 58034,had a great service today at church everything was awesome god is so good,0.0 58035,help i need someone to talk to ,3.0 58036,twittering is just like talking to myself youre all a bunch of boring fools who never talk to me ,2.0 58037,ginoandfran qq i start a conversation be friendly and then i make sure that she knows that ive a crush on her before we part ways ,0.0 58038,trisandy get better i have having that feelin he said his name was raaalphhh haha,2.0 58039,i dont remember the last time i was this sick ,2.0 58040, that i am ,0.0 58041,rt carbhere gmanetwork fayeahl so sad that there are people like her employee pa mismo ng gmanetwork so unprofessional f,1.0 58042,mrzmosley ur welcome hun ,0.0 58043,ginjam youre just like michael palin you arebut ginger ,0.0 58044,shit im burnt badley i feel awfull and im spending my saturday in bed i feel so rubbish i cant untill im better ,2.0 58045,everybody seems to think that im happy even though i dont feel happy at all im always told by strangers and relatives that i have everything i could possibly desire i got into my first choice university i have a few caring friends and a boyfriend that loves me very muchbut then again i go out with my friends because its what im used to do not always because i really want it i feel bad if some times i would prefer to stay inside by myself so instead of risking an overwhelming sense of guilt afterwards i just go out even when i dont really want toevery time my boyfriend tells me i love you i feel almost obligated to answer i love you too but immediately after i feel guilt once again because even though the words are there i cant feel anything while saying them and i look extremely fake to my own eyesmy grades are failing because i chose a pretty hard university and i know rationally that i cannot do everything in the best way possible just as of now this is my first year but i end up procrastinating every assignment i have to do since if i cant do something perfectly in my mind its not worth doing it at allso i just sit here on my bed surviving waiting for time to make things better because even the idea of getting up and actively doing something to change the way i live is exhaustingand then people that i dont know too well tell me how lucky i am how grateful i should be and how happy they would be in my place and i just smile and tell them theyre true because they are i just cant feel happiness when the cause of all of my problems in found in myself and yet even waking up in the morning is too tiring let alone do something and get better,3.0 58046,are there any uk people here whove spoken to their gp about their depression and can give me advice obviously not every doctor is the same but i booked an appointment for next tuesday to go and see mine and i think im going to tell him how depressed ive been the last year or sothe suicidal thoughts ive been havingi just keep picking up the phone wanting to call and cancel the appointment though because i feel like ill sound stupid and just be wasting his time and like i should only be there if i have an actual physical issue i guess the fact ive been sleeping almost all day everyday for months counts as a physical issue but i dont know if thats because of me being depressed or if its just because i have nothing else to do i just dont know what i should say and dont really see how any medicine hell prescribe if he even does give me anything will magically make things better but i dont know what else to do and i have nobody to talk to im only doing this now because im starting to realise how little the idea of suicide scares me now,3.0 58047,im ok until im alone then i eat until i puke rinse and repeat times or until i fall into the toilet bowl because im all fucky and weak and pass out then i sit on the floor and crythrow a tantrum because an acquaintance wants to hang out which is subtle for sex but sometimes im so desperate for human touch because i havent been hugged since january but at the same time i was sexually assaulted in a closet two years ago and i dont want to be touched in that way ever again not even by myselfso i say no and slap myself until ive painted my body with black and blue and green bruises because i get so fucking riled up and anxious and i dont know how else to release itafter a quick scalding hot shower until my skin is screaming and red i go to bed and keep myself distracted with my phone because im scared to sleep and see my so that i lost to suicide two years agoi wake up a lot during the nightits just so funny because during the day and at work im all smiles and have a bounce in my step good morning im lovely today how are youpeople tell me all the time that im so cheery and they love how kind and polite i am all the goddamned timefake it til you make it you knowi dont know who or what i am anymore nothing i do or feel seems to be right or real i just want everything to stop,3.0 58048,my happiness is only tenporary during the day i would just be happy or so i thought or maybe i am just distracting myself during the dark or whenever i am going to sleep all of my feelings and thoughts start to come back i am so tired of pretending to my family that everything is going well but the truth is i dontedit temporary,3.0 58049,good morning tweepleshere weather is cloudy day luks sunny my tummy is empty and i hve mails to check before i tweet ,0.0 58050,i dont feel well ,2.0 58051,tommcfly this is too evil im very curious now ha good night tom ,2.0 58052,was so lazy to go out today that i just hibernated in my bedroomunproductive day ,2.0 58053,garethcopley welwyn ,0.0 58054, oh you better believe im jealous ,0.0 58055,jordanknight ummmbecause you da jam ,0.0 58056,oh my god twitter was down and i thought the apocolypse was coming ,2.0 58057,mmmm what to wear on a chilly but sunny day as you can see i like vest tops ,0.0 58058,cant get past in flight control ,2.0 58059,eltweeno urgh i have a cold you know when you cant breathe out of your nose how very annoying ,2.0 58060,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 58061,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 58062,tommcfly plz say quothappy birthday or roni amp mickeyquot plz plz plz ,2.0 58063,moonyschick in yer face nah jk but ya know something yoo need to listen to dani sing like a human fer sure,0.0 58064,groovygeorge damn that sucks ive got it wear a disguise like your an old man then theyll hire you for sure ,2.0 58065, hug you got my number you wanna dump feel free to call me and dump im a great listener got a nice shoulder too ,0.0 58066,loebette pleasure ,0.0 58067,ive had hours of sleep watching serendipity and just put the second layer of vegan german chocolate cake in the oven ,0.0 58068,rebeccamasters i know its boiling isnt it which means work is gunna be dead everyone will be on the beach xx,2.0 58069,really really needing some insight what was this i experienced so i dont wanna get to into the weeds with this but ive struggled with stress and anxiety my whole life tried medicine for it couldnt make myself continue it so i have just learned over the last few years how to deal with it on my ownmy wife has had a bout of depression and anxiety bad enough that we ended up in the er with her having suicidal thoughts shes been on medicine for it but still has very down days today was one of those dayson top of all this ive been dealing with financial stress doubting my capabilities as a dad and hating being away from everything while im working hours a weekwhere is the issuewell today has been an overall very bad day i got to work and have been extremely testy and felt myself reaching my anxiety ramping up point and i started breathing exercises after a few minutes of doing this i felt very very peaceful almost serene for a minute very calm but for whatever reason my vision was very dark almost like my eyes were kinda peeled shut then out of knowwhere i slowly felt this extremely darkalmost evil feeling creep in and take over my whole being for a couple seconds it legitimately scared the shit out of me and i panicked threw my headphones down and walked away for a minutei dont know what the hell that was ive had bad anxiety to the point of tears before but i legitimately felt terrified for a few seconds anyone have any idea about what im describing,3.0 58070,thanks for the props theeggmachine boolean jenmo auntardythe beautiful south � quotdont marry herquot ,0.0 58071,jordanzafra nope got exams on monday sucky sucky,2.0 58072,itsonitsgone not available going to check that out at the public screening next wed evening,2.0 58073,storms grow in the tropics they become a wavethen depression then a tropical storm and onsome become hurricanes ,2.0 58074,is still awake and packed if i could leave now i most definitely wouldalas i cant who do i reach out to cuz when i do i feel air,2.0 58075,i dont like when the door is openits scarysomeone come protect me ,2.0 58076,at work already finished my book and i have nothing else to do boo occupy meeee,2.0 58077, years could use some stanger love ive been struggling with depression for over years now currently aged and am scared ill lose my only prevailing will to live for the first years or so i kept my suicidal thoughts a secret because i was scared that nobody would understand so for all these years my loved ones have been the reason i cant kill myself i would never want to hurt them by taking myself out of the picture that all being said it is so damn hard to try and find a reason for me to live it has taken a toll on me emotionally and mentally now i struggle with a very bad social anxiety disorder i am currently not working because all i could think of was suicide while doing menial workthe past half a year ive been really trying to tackle my problems i have a psychiatrist two counselors and multiple groups that ive been attending i intend on staying in a program for weeks when a bed is available this will bring me closer to professional help during this process ive eliminated weed and alcohol weed was a very bad crutch for me was high almost all the time but it honestly helped me deal with the racing thoughtsemotions of depression the thing is it didnt help me find techniques to get rid of my depression only damperdistract me when its at its worst so weed is gone alcohol was less of a problem but ive eliminated it as wellthis all brings me to where im at now ive been trying really hard this last little while but it can be so damn hard i never thought id be the age i am now i thought i would have committed suicide by now i really struggle with finding what i wanna do with my life nothing quite satisfies what id like to do what i would love to do is impact the world for the better somehow but getting to that point seems impossible with how depressed i am nowthe reason that im still here is because of the loved ones that surround me the reason why i want to live now is because i know i can do good in this world currently im not doing anything significant to this world nor do i know the right path to achieve this goal ,3.0 58078,i will be in london at the end of julyanyone around ,0.0 58079, that just made my heart hurtknowing he has a wife,2.0 58080,katelyntweets i used to love putting my socks under the couch cushion amp my mom would get pissed but how old is vincexcao now hahaha ,0.0 58081,im going to amazon to look up gails novels ,0.0 58082,desperate for helpi hate my lifedepressedrant pls read description sorry for long post for potato see google images im desperate at this point i hope someone can help methe problem is that whenever i go outside on the bike i get annoyed and irritated at other people using the roads all traffic pedestrians bikes scooters cars busses trucks and i dont know what causes it or how to stay calmon one side the traffic almost all of it is extremely rude and arrogant leiden netherlands also anywhere else in the country wherever i go it doesnt matter what i do it stays that wayalso to make things clear the traffic blocks the way at points where the rules say they cant and pedestrians cross the road everywhere even if it is prohibited especially thenjaywalkingalso if someone else in traffic wants to pass by then i feel forced to go out of the way feels like i have no other option at that moment but if i need to pass by then noone goes out of the way and they block my passagei can sometimes go yelling while continue to ride to my destinations also with some very rude curse wordsi have the feeling this goes all automatically in my head like i have two parts in my brain one part is my conscious self which i have full control over and the other part which is halfconscious and takes over in the faster situations which makes me do all those stuff automatically which my better brain part doesnt want to doi tried so many things to keep calm in traffic and some other situations outside of the house but doenst help completely or at alli tried the doesnt help because im to busy at that moment with being angry furious and annoyedi have tried some valerian cannabis pills without thc in it but that does work only partly it keeps me reasonably calm but not entirelyi have tried ignoring all of the stuff happning in traffic but that doesnt help either it just comes back automaticallylistening to music with headphones in doesnt help either trying hard fast music like metal doesnt work listening to calm slow music doesnt work and not listening to music at all doenst work eitheri even get angry when someone is with meoh and to be clear i dont want to get angry or furious but it starts automatically by the bad part of my brainalso the bad part of my brain wants everyone to follow all the traffic rules perfectly which obviously isnt possiblei also tried therapy at a psychologist but didnt help eitheri feel as there are only two options left for me to stop the behaviour go to a psychiatrist for some heavy medication but thats not ideal because of the side effects being drowzy for example or just end it all suicide only talking or thinking doesnt seem to work for menow some background info about mei have aspergers obviously im a years old male i had a terrible youth everything in my childhood and youth automatically so i never had real control over my thoughts and actions til i was years old or somy parents got divorced after years or marriage i was only child a couple of months after my parents got divorced i went to a juvenile correctional facility for a year then and a half years of boarding school i dont want to talk about the why i was bullied almost my entire youth partly because i am really bad at social stuff bad at body language bad at nonverbal communication i often say the wrong things without understanding if i said something wrong for me being in the jcf was traumatizingim also heavily depressed almost everything always goed wrong i cant do fun stuff because i have little money and because i am so much tired after hours of work i really really really hate all peoplehumans even if they are kind to me normal people are so fcking stupid annoying and arrogant excpet of course for small people who are only arrogant and often annoying i have a lowincome job factory worker my wife almost never wants to have sex and if she does she only wants one particular position at first it was always missionary now its always her on top riding sort of because im too heavy when i talk to her about that she doenst want to talk and if she does she says shes gonna think about it and then nothing changesi want to know how to keep really calm when riding bike in traffic i only dont know howi posted it here because i think it has something to do with my aspergers or maybe ptsd or depression or multiple of thosesorry for the long post,3.0 58083,johnnygweir ugh thats too bad i hope your car will be fine and im so glad to hear that you had a beautiful brunch ,0.0 58084,going to see a gp so i want to go and see a gp about my depression and how i should deal with it but when it was coming up i cancelled it because i was honestly scared about what i would do about it because at that time i hadnt told my parents that was a few weeks ago and i have told my parents now but now i dont know what to do about anything if i try to make another gp appointment are they going to think ill cancel again and so im not worth their time or do i try to make another one and worry that everyone there is judging me for cancelling the first time or do i go back to repressing it all which has worked for the past three years,3.0 58085,rob looks great as usual ,0.0 58086,itamicahbitch lets rekindle our friendship i never stopped caring im just bad at catching up ,2.0 58087,tormaroe have a nice week in oslo with audun and henrik and all the other fine people at your new überpc has been ordered btw,0.0 58088,rt botanical he spent two years planting thousands of scented flowers for his blind wife to smell to help with her depression httpstc,1.0 58089,has a question mark where her face should be ,2.0 58090,watching again for the third time ,0.0 58091,i need help ive never written a post and i dont know how this is supposed to go so i apologize if this is written terribly but this is a spur of the moment thing i dont really have any friends to vent to so you guys seem like people i can talk toive hit a creative slump lately i mean i just have terrible writers block and i dont know what to do for a few upcoming projects for my digital media class that are due this week on top of that i need to pull an all nighter tonight because by the teachers request i need to do over a project thats due tomorrow no exceptions creativity and just being creative is something i enjoy quite a lot but the stress of school work and life in general have just made me doubt myself to the point im constantly wondering whats the point to it im alright at things like digital art and acting but im slowly losing my love for themive been feeling so down and alone lately more than usual at least sure i try to joke about it but it hurts being lonely and it hurts being aware of my depression and that i have the ability to be happy but this immense weight is just pushing against meright now my parents are fighting and i had to physically separate the two and my dad claims i dont love him and all this stuff on top of that i had two mini panicanxiety attacks and im in my room trying to catch my breath but my chest is killing me ive been clean from cutting for quite a while but im scared ill do it today i dont know what advice you can give or if some will see this but i hope someone does because im just alone right now and i really need a shoulder to cry on,3.0 58092,katieschultz thank you so much today was an awesome day i had so much fun ,0.0 58093,rt janinebucks how you beat anxiety ryan shaw selfimprovement selfimprovement selfimprovement,0.0 58094,rt gratitudedna บางสิ่งบางอย่างดูเหมือนเรื่องเล็กน้อยไม่มีค่าแต่บางทีเราไม่รู้ว่ามันสำคัญและมีประโยชน์แค่ไหน ป้ายเล็กๆเขียนด้วยมือแข,0.0 58095,is having a freaking awesome weekend so far ,0.0 58096,but no my physical amp mental health isnt as important as my future husband wanting kids and not being able to because of the surgery 🙃,0.0 58097,fuck just hit my shin really hard on corner of bed frame it hurt gonna have a huge bruisebump and my bridesmaid dress is above knee ,2.0 58098,alextrup upscale ive wondered why chinese companies dont seek help w english is it that expensive to have someone proofread ,0.0 58099,recently i cant eat so about for the last month ive noticed i havent been really eating at all my mom says its because i play a lot of video games and forget but i dont think i can just forget to eat because im playing games ive been playing video games for a while now and this has only recently became a problem im dropping weight really fast and its kind of scary some times i just dont feel hungry at all others im starving but almost any type of meal sounds disgusting to me if i force myself to eat i start getting sick and nauseous can this be caused by depression ive literally lost almost an inch and a half from my waist my pants barely fit me anymore my mom was telling me she was worried and i thought nothing of it but now im getting scared because its still really hard to force myself to eat a full meal i can only finish half most times really unusual as before i ate a fuck ton ive been in a bad spot mental health wise the last few months too really stressed and sad i just didnt think it would cause me to stop eating ,3.0 58100,lizuk its like harry potter a shared literary experiance ,0.0 58101,garymeyerza amy likey rather entertaining would be good if you got it going again ,0.0 58102,i just ate i want to start drinking again before all the effect goes away ,2.0 58103,i dont enjoy many things fall is usually my favorite season theres halloween the weather cools down crunchy leaves corn mazes pumpkin patches my birthday etc it doesnt even bring me happiness anymore,3.0 58104,already attempted dont know what to do on january i attempted suicide and ended up in an inpatient care program for a few days it sucked now im back living a normal life heavily medicated lol and i just feel numb all the timei want to try again but i know that if i do ill just end up in the same spot and ill hurt the ones i love the most again and i cant deal with that guilt againim just so sick of feeling numb or suicidal i wish there was a way to end this without ending myself anyone got any ideas on how to keep moving,3.0 58105,rt update freezing n sad,2.0 58106,soi see an empty couch in the york library i wanna sleep am i doing here so early,2.0 58107,grouchygreg what dominos scandal i mustve missed something ,2.0 58108,i want to do things but i cant i want to go out and hang out with friends i want to play online with them too but for some reason i cant for some fucking reason i dont get it i feel like such a fuckup staying home all day instead of doing shit like a normal high school im just wasting my precious childhood am i,3.0 58109,eugh im so tiredand i only just got up like an hour ago neeeed coffee ,2.0 58110, really awesome tanks ,0.0 58111,burbujaspy his voice his face his hair his everything omg i love him haha,0.0 58112,krapps good idea but i grabbed the cheapest bottle i had too late ,0.0 58113, sweet action im in springmo now so ill see you all when you get here ,0.0 58114,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 58115,squidoo loyalis is in the chat room come join us ,0.0 58116,is now not going to prom ,2.0 58117,so hot hates the weather,2.0 58118,i love the rain ,0.0 58119, wish i was in today ,2.0 58120,gah ive hurt my back ,2.0 58121,morning its a very wet one in manchester and to make it worse ive got no food in for breakfast oh well at least its the weekend,2.0 58122,i think whennu found out it as already a year or after gay too cuz i never to go back i only went once for grade and thats it ,2.0 58123,ladabody heyyy i was in atlantic cityy for the weekend ,0.0 58124,therealjordin man i wish i could come to one of the concerts there is no concert date in mississippi ,2.0 58125,followdaneita lol i love what u say babes u can talk me all day,0.0 58126,schoolwork is impossible for me to do my depression has been at its worst lately and im a sophomore in highschool so im getting bombarded with work whenever i gather the courage to take my school stuff out i have some sort of mental block where i just cant do it yesterday i sat in front of my computer screen for hours and didnt do a thing i get super worked up and then eventually just give up all together and just fall asleep does anyone else have this and im getting really behind in school and i just need something that will help me push me through my mental block to do my work,3.0 58127,isolation i have isolated myself from everyone i care about i have ran out of times and ways i can say sorry ive been busy i disappear for weeks months give a half assed apology then disappear again i miss everyone so much but im so depressed i cant break out of the cycle i dont think they even believe me anymore anyway ive become an asshole i am the one causing my own suffering but i cant end it so instead i browse reddit late at night with a bloody wrist and wish i was dead but am too scared to make the leap ,3.0 58128,what stopped you from committing suicide im depressed and anxious and have ptsd i dont want to commit suicide but ive been close what stopped you,3.0 58129,ayyyedrian sad,2.0 58130,social media happiness today i ran into an old friend whom i hadnt seen in a few years but still follow on social media he asked me how i was but stated it as how are you man i see everything youre posting on instagram you look so happythis took me back because in that moment i was aware that i put on such a show for social media and am actually pretty depressed i know reddit isnt the place for this or maybe it is but have to put it to paper some how anyway it just brought to light that im sure a lot of you out there are feeling the same way even though your social media says other wise keep pushing through it ive found a glimmer of light in writing and recording music just channeling the level of depression through a guitar and singing has brought so much more than any pill has brought me so much so that through this period of depression im releasing an ep this month thanks to a lot of you guys for helping out through the dark times tldr social media self is different from portrayed self trying to find ways to improve depression through songwriting ,3.0 58131,i think that not having sex sucks ,2.0 58132,back to the grind tomorrow gnight and have a great week ahead ,0.0 58133,just listened too jeffreecuntstar song quotblushquot omg i love it too bad it wont be on the cd ,2.0 58134,gonna go play dragonica while waiting for darling to finish tuition amp pick me up the game is getting really tough to level ,2.0 58135,andromedah how much does it cost ,0.0 58136,rt wellnessmarquee how about we talk about post traumatic stress disorder and depressionthis is a thread✔ ,2.0 58137,rt gmusignac send nudes its for my depression and anxiety ,2.0 58138,what to do is this even the right place for a post like this i dont know but if it isnt just let me knowanywaysok i suffer and have been diagnosed with depression and many other things and recently one of my closest friends has also been struggling however she is the kind of person who is always happy and stuff like that and only i know about whats going on she told me she has felt this way since she was younger and was previously diagnosed with an eating disorder but got better and now she has stopped eating again and i feel awful because i am such a bad person for her to be friends with right now as i dont eat a lot either so when she skips meals and stuff and i tell her it might be a good idea if she ate she just tells me the same and i cant when she tells me she wants to kill herself i am shit at helping her because it takes me so much not to just say same someone please help me as i dont know what to do she needs help and i cant do anything her parents are part of the issue and our other friends are shit when it comes to stuff like this and im not sure what to say to her half the time sorry for the rant x,3.0 58139,just curious do you have any songs that relate to you as in anything that describes your depression mine has to be im not enough and im sorry by tekqoi basically it describes the way i feel because i tend to think im not good enough no matter how hard i try to better myself,3.0 58140,hello karenbgibson welcome to twitter ,0.0 58141,rt electroboyusa mental health is not a dirty word we all have mentalhealth like we do physical health good or ill prince william,1.0 58142,should l tell my friends how im feeling or keep it to myself again i dont want to be a happiness parasite they are all physically and psychologically in good places currently they have worked hard and they have lots of other friends money and exciting lives i am alone in the middle of nowhere far away from them i stopped responding to them months ago i never ask them how they are doing anymore even though i think about it a lot because they will ask me the same thing im tired of responding im fine i cant really handle hearing about or worse complaints about things that i would consider amazing opportunitiesis it better for me to just fade out and let them forget about me or should i burden them or should i just suck it up and continue keeping things to myself to keep those i care about happy is that just how life works tldr has opening up about you depression helped or hurt your loved ones did it change anything ,3.0 58143,my selfvalue is based on attracting women how to fix this hello everyonei have an issue that im sure many other men have had at some point in their lives i myself have spoken to a counsellor on this matter for help but i am stucki have had pretty bad depression for the last year and its driving myself friends and family crazy it all begun from around middle school and high school when i first took interest in girls i was a pretty popular guy but i was rejected by every single girl that i liked or approached i never had my first kiss until very late and i am now and still a virginive always been super confident funny and a lot of girls tell meyoure an amazing guy and any girl would be lucky to be with you i get told im attractive also im and pretty good shape and i personally feel very confident when approaching girls and dont get hurt if they say nothe issue however occurs when i am by myself and it hits me that if i actually am such a great guy why am i still a virgin and never had a girlfriend i begin to question myself and start to think about how the girls actually may not like me and that if i was an amazing guy i would have a lot of girls who wanna be with me and getting much more actionmy question is how can i stop placing so much of my happiness based on women my own value is placed on women and how they feel towards metldr i feel very confident with women but still year old virgin and i begin to doubt myself then a lot of my happiness and self value is placed on getting women and the reception i get from womenthanks everyone,3.0 58144,mtvslobosworth welcome to twitter it easily becomes a obsession,0.0 58145,elvabriggs because i had my hopes up ,2.0 58146,publicityguru ty posting this have chk it out ,0.0 58147,richardepryor lol shame utd didnt earlier ,2.0 58148,question is there any way of getting medical treatment or anything in that direction without your parents knowing i dont know what i am supposed to do otherwise,3.0 58149,have to do some geography homework i dont want to so tired today,2.0 58150,omg im so happy i have happy warm butterfly feeling i really really like him quotprobablyquot yayyyyyyyyyyyyy,0.0 58151,noah better come over tomorrow i miss my bffl ,2.0 58152,too sleepy in the morning gtlt where lyka at ,2.0 58153, my friend sierra wh doesnt want her pic taken and she is moving away ,2.0 58154,zeddessarts in fact its the quottime between timesquot as the old celtic people called the time when its neither night or day magic time ,0.0 58155,omg i havent tweet for this day ,2.0 58156,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 58157,alvinsexybeast tiff liang ,0.0 58158,working on a song on garageband sounds cool tonight vegfest,0.0 58159,i missed a lecture today i know this doesnt sound like a big deal but to me it is i never missed a lecture at uni the only thing which is keeping me going is my good grades to be honest other than that i feel like i have nothing and i am nothing i feel so lonely even though i have family and friends i cry so much until i cant cry anymore im just so exhaustedi just want someone to tell me that its gonna be okay im really trying to give my best,3.0 58160, ,2.0 58161,so hiya im on twitter ,0.0 58162,nope not true i do room with her on the road sometimes though ,0.0 58163,rt softsebstans do people who dont have an anxiety disorder know how lucky they are like you can just go out and do stuff without get,1.0 58164, i wish i liked them haha i wish i was any good at them but im not ,2.0 58165,yekith i just dont get whats the big deal ,0.0 58166,rt gofacts sleeping is a cure to forget about pain problems stress and everything else for a while,2.0 58167,officialbabyv help how are you listening to radio disney in canada they broadcast in the us the website only shows us stations ,2.0 58168,my dogs the cutest in the world but she must insist on raiding the bin naughty girl,2.0 58169,digitalshawn thanks shawn its hard at times to get a picture when they are both looking in the same direction lol,0.0 58170,i do t know what to do why is it that all i do is constantly dwell on everything and cant get over anything i just give up on everything and life its making me depressed so bad i dont k how what to do anymore it came down to me not having anyone in my life anymore and not anyone liking me or wanting me in there life its that bad i dont know what to do anymore im basically not even human anymore what do i do im gonna kill myself,3.0 58171,going the mall tomorrow to meet my new friend from manchester but shes not a mcfly fanshes a jb fan ,2.0 58172, goodnight niiki hope everything is doing good with you quotthis girlquot has been keeping me in great spirits ,0.0 58173,wow i really abandoned twitter but im back school is finally over and now i get to take care of my career,0.0 58174,fayenottage haha are you gonna get tickets if i dont get mine the only answer is sucide xoxo,0.0 58175,is enjoying his htc touch what a nice phone ,0.0 58176,blissneso i voted of your songs ,0.0 58177,nsfw medication side effects my doctor wasnt entirely honest about the side effects of my medication which includes decreased sexual ability when i first started taking it i was extremely suicidal so i didnt care about side effects ive started to get better and tried to participate in sexual activities and couldnt i looked up some of my medications and saw it listed as a side effect id like that side effect to go away but i know my doctor is christian and i feel really awkward bringing it up im just wondering if anyone has talked to their doctor about this or just has any advice on how to bring this up,3.0 58178,i want to be asleep so badbut i canthate this feeling i probably shouldnt be on my phone tho ,2.0 58179,oh my god finally 😱 tell me what should i do shoul i happy or sad but thank you very much you must feel strug httpstcoyyzjvbnkpt,1.0 58180,omg i forgot micheal so sorry ,2.0 58181,vindee thank you ,0.0 58182,is enjoying caramel crunch to make herself feel better ,2.0 58183, ive just said that on rwap hes lush ,0.0 58184,im tired of being alone my life has been pretty bad lately my gf and i just split up and my only friend didnt pass so i am stuck with a bunch of people i dont likewe are in high school my only times going out were when i was going to see her but now it has passed about a week and i never left my bed except from going to school and ive decided that i will at least post it here even if nobody sees this i think it might help me cheer up a bit but i feel like nothing even matters and life is numb,3.0 58185,rt electroboyusa mental health is not a dirty word we all have mentalhealth like we do physical health good or ill prince william,1.0 58186,i miss them more and more ever day my father would have been proud of them my dad was a marine for years he c ,2.0 58187,nyomanarnaya i love danny gokey too tau ngga sih dia br married sbentar trus istrinya meninggal krn sakit huhuhu kasian ,2.0 58188,im actually gonna miss my hott history teacher ,2.0 58189,antidepressants dont actually work sure they make the depression go away but it doesnt fix it antidepressants just make you numb the reason you dont feel depressed is cuz you dont feel anything and youre mind then tells you that youre better off being depressed rather than being a soulless shell of your former selfat least thats my experience ,3.0 58190,many shows i like are being picked up for another season while shows i dislike arent alas the summer glau chronicles are dead ,2.0 58191,suzetell thanks re edna wouldnt rush a transfer though vision going myopic amp innovation ignored more amp more sad but true ,2.0 58192,larainbow and you love it lol i love it too had my mate ian accompanying me in guitar he wants us to do acoustic concerts ,0.0 58193,aussiecynic well hello there ,0.0 58194,just scrolled through my old facebook page and good fucking lord what a massive mistake that was seeing people i used to know in middle and high school going about their business going to parties studying dating doing something meaningful with their lives makes me seriously want to end it ive spent the last five years wallowing in depression and seeing the contrast between me and them really highlights just what a state ive allowed myself to get into its been continuously bringing me to tears just thinking about it no friends no boyfriend no qualifications i hate what ive done to myselfsorry for the vent i just needed to get this off my chest,3.0 58195,whoever keeps blipping korn over and over again pls stop ,2.0 58196,im all good now thanks to you ,0.0 58197,maxboot i totally agree with you and jeffrey tubin these prof are teaching in elite universities stephen coh httpstcoztpsuhgbcv,0.0 58198,relynchjr thank you very much ,0.0 58199,advice for dealing with suicidal thoughts hey all so at the beginning of the year i ended up attempting and then i saw a new psychiatrist and therapist and am on new medsbut im still having an extremely hard time dealing with my suicide thoughts to the point where it almost feels debilitating and i just am seeking advice for the best way you all deal with itive been walking my dogs when i can but we live in canada and theyre small dogs so i cant take them out for long i suppose it helps some but it still feels like there is this giant weight on meive also taken my art more seriously and do as much cleaning as i can around the houseany sort of advice is welcome,3.0 58200,dont know what to do next so ive been bettering myself tremendously for the last year i had terrible anxiety but managed to get over it with surprising success although it was pretty scary at times but in the process i noticed that a big part of my anxiety came from feeling alienated and inferiour to others because for others life and joy seemed so effortless and a big problem was that i never got fully invested in friendships because i felt like i would inevitably disappoint themlong story short i had anxiety but it had some underlying problems and disconnecting my social interactions from these problems made it much easier to connect meaningfully with people on the other side though it seems this underlying problem is that my baseline for happiness seems much lower than that of most people since i cant remember ever feeling different this is a bit hard to pinpoint as i cant just look at other people and compare their feelings to mine and the approach i used for my anxiety doesnt seem to work as i cant think of any reason why i shouldnt be as happy as others and while i had my troubles that created some issues such as anxiety and some with my sexuality none of them precede me feeling well depressedso im asking you for help to identify my problems ie how do i know if i have some form of depression how did you deal with your depression when you first noticed it might be the source of your problems and what steps could i take to further improve ive been quite frustrated with this lately and it feels kind of hopeless i will probably go see a doctortherapist but this will take time and if i find out more about how i feel beforehand it will be easier describing my situation to themthanks to everyone who takes the time to respond and feel free to ask questions of any kind,3.0 58201,razzman hmmmlebron vs kobe shattered ,2.0 58202,star treeeeek only one hot guy there and i get to watch him do his hot stuff woo,0.0 58203,so i have spent the last hours crying and you i feel like a miserable piece of shit how has your been so far what happened and what will happen in the next days makes me want to stop living,3.0 58204,completing reports and meetings this morning interviewing people this afternoon busy bee today blurrgghh ,2.0 58205,bio stinks today we were supposed to wathc madagascar ,2.0 58206, my baby went in for heart surgery today cant wait to get her back ,2.0 58207,never want to talk to anyone im so of trying to tell people that im depressed every time i tell someone i cut my self they act like i do it on purpose and can control when im sad they always say the same dont do that i cant believe you would hurt your self talk to me next time and proceed to make me feel like shit and then try to tell me to get a copeing mechanism but this is my copeing mechanism and its the only thing that works ,3.0 58208,juliakontos my camp friend laffyhe called you a butch lesbian isnt coming back to camp he just told me im sad but kendra will fix it,2.0 58209,amyyvee exactly whats the place like,0.0 58210,babyanidala here ,1.0 58211, found out today is world environment day amp national doughnut day save calories think trees not donuts ,0.0 58212,no way my dad and iain are leaving me alone aarh ,2.0 58213, nope they dont ask for your billing info or make you buy anything they just need you to be n from usa oh n they pay weekly ,0.0 58214,im pretty proud of my self i had an interview with launchcode and i have a day plan but im having trouble telling a new firend that there are certian subjects i have trouble talking about or even seeing posts on facebook about because i havent experenced those yet and still think that it wont happen to me,3.0 58215,starting to feel a bit better been dreadfully ill ,2.0 58216,unable to get ketamine infusions because of coronavirus honestly i dont know what to do the only clinic i have access to is closed until the pandemic is over i started out ok but its been about weeks since i was supposed to have my last booster and my mental state has declined pretty rapidlyim unemployed and i spend all day with no work and no appetite for things that dont distract from from everything thats happening my girlfriend gets angry at me when i bring up my worries because i was quite wealthy but it has all went away in the stock mareket panic i feel unable to work and my fortune has evaporated but she tells me that being scared is unfair because other people have it much worse while its true other people have it worse it has distanced me from her to the point where i dont really even want to interact with her because she has made it clear that the way i feel of the time is not legitimatei keep trying to help out with projects that could help the pandemic but i hit a wall where i feel like i cant really help not skilled in the way that is needed i just feel so superfluous and unnecessary i try to find work but invariably i am unqualified for everything i basically made my money in a freak stroke of luck and now that it is gone i know i can never make a living for myself againthe suicidal ideation that i thought was banished by the ketamine infusions have crept back and honestly i think after this is all said and done i will kill myself probably before that point im no use to anyone i dont enjoy doing anything and i dont see any prospect of that changingi hate waking up because it means a whole day of trying to trying to invent things to pass the time clean this change the oil on the car try to find a job i hate going to sleep because it means when i wake up ill have to do it again when it all gets to be too much i anesthetize myself with drugs and alcohol but i know that isnt healthy i just dont know how to escape it paraphrasing david foster wallace the building is on fire and the only thing i think i can do is jumpive always been able to stop myself because i can imagine a world after the pain where i could be happy again but i dont think thats true any more the person who i thought was the love of my life has made me feel so small and like my pain doesnt matter im so ashamed that i squandered a fortune i cant even talk to my friends about it because they arent idiots and are doing fine financially im such a fool and id be better off deadthe only solution to everything is to find work but i have no qualifications and have a learning disability so i have a lot of trouble picking up new skills in fact have never done it,3.0 58217,remedial test posponed to tmrr ,0.0 58218,just wok up has to do exam review now ,2.0 58219,mongin out in the morning to slipknot ,0.0 58220,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 58221,pt running dayinsides hurt ,2.0 58222,ive had a sore throat since monday morning joeyawesomeim just sick of it hurtin and i want some freakin sleep ,2.0 58223,óóóóun achei fofo me salvem ,2.0 58224,who knew ultimate could be so fun ,0.0 58225,the rain followed me home n wont leave ,2.0 58226,i love mileycyrus im sooo excited about her tour ,0.0 58227,rt aatweeter translation the totally biased fakenews media refuses to cover the wonderful amp positive stories of children stolen fro,1.0 58228, your house is famous didnt you know d im guessing its because everyones practically familiar with your house ,0.0 58229,really happy i got to talk to phlegm after a looong time really misses him ,2.0 58230, ugh,2.0 58231,god sends me a load but never an overload ,0.0 58232,emmacathryn just told me im gonna love her twitters oh man i hope so ,0.0 58233,kimdandy aww we love you too ,0.0 58234,jessicasimpson hey jessica my name is caleb price i was dropping by to say hello to you and hope your doing well on your parts wb ok,0.0 58235,ooooh tweets i love you cool ,0.0 58236,dexsireddd me too me and architctrblx witnessed the same thing when we took my dog for a walk and i literally had an anxiety attack,2.0 58237,it sucks to be me right now ,2.0 58238,sherirajana wow miles thats cool good job i work miles from where i live and i get tired driving it everyday ,0.0 58239,watching gps and they are talking about the iranian election plus i put stuff in magdas ear and she hates it ,2.0 58240,mad depressed i cant go to the mmvas tonight so many people i now cant seee ,2.0 58241,had a great group datemeeting the girl is damn cute and personable and ridiculously intelligent andi got her win,0.0 58242,should i be worried about my thoughts i f am in my midtwenties growing up i was never talked to about depression anxiety or really any of my feelings i was very moody around age basically until now and my parents never really helped me figure out why and instead thought i was just being whiny and too old to act how i was and often blamed my friends and tried to get my school to do something i never did anything bad besides yell at my parents a lot i did relatively ok in schooli was also bullied for a few years about my weight skin and kind of weird clothes since then ive always felt kind of socially awkward with very low selfesteem and feel like im judged everywhere i goso basically i just grew up thinking something was just seriously wrong with me for being so mad all the time and i was the only one like thatfast forward to college and i had one year where i was not doing well at all i talked to my parents about seeing a therapist and they really looked at me like i was insane and said youre not going on medication and that was that i ended up seeking a therapist at my school and never told them now im a little older and understand how the world works a little better i see my own therapist we talk a lot about my continued lowself esteem and very obvious anxiety i always thought anxiety was something other people had but its definitely what i experience and it was just never talked aboutone time i did bring up depression with my therapist and she kind of brushed it off because she doesnt like it as a defining term i really kind of want to see a psychiatrist to know if somethings wrong on a chemical levelthe reasons for this post iswhenever i feel like i say something stupid or am causing issues i really say to myself i want to kill myself or i should just die and start thinking about ways to do it but not seriouslylast night this happened and i stared to wonder if this is how a path to suicide really starts and if i should be scared about not addressing my thoughts i havent told my therapist in fear of it coming off as just being dramaticrecently i found myself hitting my forehead with my hand after an embarrassing moment and i did this for a few days i have no other history of selfharm besides binge eatinganyways im looking for clarity on what im feeling i can get up in the morning but also have daily i want to die thoughts im wondering if my confusion is due to never being able to name my feelings as a child and always being yelled at for being upsetwhat is it really like when you see a psychiatristany insight would be helpful,3.0 58243,think big quotthe size of your thinking determines the size of your resultsquot bob proctors great advice httpwwwwealthwithsoulcom,0.0 58244,therealryanhiga aww im so going to get a group of ppl and were gonna chant quotupload it upload itquot outside ur house lol,2.0 58245,chinggayski catching up on a lot of work besides im working nights this week more like always no time at all jia you yanaliao,2.0 58246,just letting out my feelings in text i fucked up my brain using drugs it lead to my mental health being shiti found a cure which is silence and acceptancebut i dont know how long will i last this way im in a shit spot and opening myself to love might help temporarily but it wont fix my biological problemi dont want to pull my own plug but days pass by it wont get better and ill be frightened maybe its my peter pan syndrome but this sucks i just want out ,3.0 58247,less than hours till i get to see timelmo well im really tired so goodnight ,0.0 58248,roseisroadkill hehe yea diversity is great too,0.0 58249,sharefeel 안녕하세요 ,0.0 58250,going to bed with this sunburn sore legs and broken shoes ,2.0 58251, sad to see it in writing but its not surprising thank you for letting the livepdnation join you on ,1.0 58252,frozen for the past weeks ive been depressed i think combinations of moderate use of alcohol vivid flashbacks of my dads struggle and death from cancer and pressure coming from my work and school triggered it flashes of suicidal thoughts have been popping in and out ive struggling to tell anyone this has halted all my productivity i was doin so well im crying rn just writing this,3.0 58253,quoti was hiding under your porch because i love youquot ,0.0 58254,i feel so broken here is a long story of my traumatic experience with my torn acl it was november my first preseason sophomore game we were supposed to play on the football field but football was in cifs so we played in the very bad field i was so happy and excited i was the captain of the soccer varsity team and we kicked off i was doing really good and then i did an over the ball step and stepped in a little dip and felt my knee and leg snapi was in excruciating pain and i felt paralyzed for a minutethen they lifted me upafter minutes i was on the bench with my coach really worried saying shit you probably tore a ligament i thought my self he was overreactingim only out for weeks was the first thing i thoughti never had a bad injury like this so i thought i was ok i was barely able to walk my mom and girlfriend were telling me to go to the hospital but i denied barely keeping my breath about to pass out from the pain keep in mind im a tough guy i never cry from pain no matter how bad it isi broke my elbow and the pain was unbearable but nothing compared to what i feltthe game ended and my team won my coach told me to go to the hospital tomorrow and i agreedit was that same night and i was having so much pain i couldnt lay downthat whole night i couldnt sleep and it hit in the morning where i had to go i tried getting up and the moment my leg touched the ground i collapsed so hard i had a really sharp bad pain on my knee i tried limping and even worse when ever i would limp it would tug my leg down which it would hurt so much i would scream my only option was to crawl to the toileti then went and crawled feet i finished and tried to crawl out now but this time it was hurting me more so i was stuck there i over heard my brother playing video games so i yelled for him to comehe came and i asked him if he can carry to my bedhe carried me to my bedi did not sleep that whole night and i missed school on the morningthe morning comes and my parents told me im not going to the doctors im going to the chiropractori agreed because my personal chiropractor always heals me up from my injury keep in mind i cant bend my leg at alllimp or crawlmy brother once again carried me to the car and we went to my chiropractor ive been going to her for years and helped with every injury i hadmy coach called and asked if i was going to the hospital i said no that im going to the doctors lying to him so he wouldnt get madthat is a mistake im going to regreti just wanted to go back to the sport that help me cope with my problems asapwe made it to my chiropractors house my brother once again carried me to the house and put me on the bed and i was laying therei wasnt scared i thought i was going to be ok and it wasnt going to be as painful as the moment of the injuryshe starts massaging my kneeshe said she never seen anything like thisshe is a year old lady that has been doing this mostly her whole lifeshe is not certified she came from mexicoshe said my knee was so messed upwhen she was massaging my knee i didnt feel anythingall the times she massaged me there before that injury it would be painfuli thought to my self that this was going to be a piece of cakeshe then tells me to go on my stomach and tells me to breathe in and out and all of a suddena loud scream came out of my mouthshe started pushing my leg towards my backi was screaming so muchno pleaseeee stopp pleasee pleasee i was begging hermy brother came and held me downshe repeated this process till my leg touched my back timesi started crying the pain was so badit was unbearablei never had pain make me cry before it was all so sudden this by far the worst pain everit felt like someone was cutting off my leg with a chainsawmoments after she makes me lay on my back again and start extending my leg as straight as she can while im screaming and she starts tugging it with her might while im screaming she does that timesi started getting a fever from the paini felt like passing outshe tells me to stand up and walk surprisingly i was able to walk again but barely only with my toe touching but painlesslyshe said to walk like that a lot so it can get used to it and i will be good in a monthi took months off just in casethe next day i told my coach that the doctor just said it was sprained that i should take months off and i will be goodim back with my team i was so happyi went to the first practice and i was sprinting back and forth the whole timei was so happy to be able to play the sport i lovei noticed that my knee felt unstable but didnt think much of itit was the first practice back and i felt so energetic i didnt get tired one bitwe were doing a drill where its a defender vs offense and i was the defender and it was my turnthe offense was attacking me and the guy passed the ball beside me and i reached out for the ball to get it and i felt my knee snap againit hurt as much as the first timei started grabbing my knee but then my coach was looking so i got up and started jogging by the goal and sat down but the whole time i was forcing my self to jog through the pain barley putting any weight on my right legi started getting a fever again and the whole time i was sitting down i felt like passing out i sat out for the rest of the practicemy coach told me to just run around the field but i just hopped in to the drill from desperation practice ended and my coach told me to take more weeks off so i would be back for our actual league game and i was ok with that weeks past and i went to practice and the same incident happened again but the pain was less and i got up quicker was able to run a bit smoother then the other timethis time the coach didnt notice and i didnt mention anythingthis happened overall like about more times till i had enough i was scared to play soccer i didnt feel right i felt like i would dislocate my knee any momentwhen i would turn to the side i can feel my thigh going to one side and my knee and leg going to opposite side i had to call it quits and probably realized my season is gone i still had no clue of the injurymy coach was confused through all this from the left out information i went up to my mom and told her that i need to get my knee checked out by a doctor so we didthe doctor said its just sprained but i disagreed that it doesnt feel right i know something is wrong and i begged her if i can get an mri and so she scheduled and mrithe day of the mri camei was in period and my mom called me to the officei walked in the office and i saw my coachhe was surprised to see me there and asked me why i was there i said im taking my mri todayhe was excited and said that he is glad that they finally accepted my formmy mom said that i might be scared of the noises of the mri they put me in the machine and gave me ear plugs but i can still hear the noisesthe whole time i was in there i felt peace and tranquilitythe mri has finally ended and they said they will give me the results in weekthe results came inmy heart dropped it said that i had a full thickness tear of my acl and a partial tear on my meniscusi felt so bad my coach was right i shouldve listened to him i messed upi realized how wrong i was only if i listened to him my mom was crying and my dad was stressed and felt at fault for taking me to the chiropractori told them its fineinside i felt brokeni dont like showing my emotionsim the positive person the uplifteri had a meeting with the orthopedics so they can give me my options with my knee this was around february surgeon came in and was talking to my parentshe was really nice and then i popped up the question and asked him how long is the acl recovery to go back to sports and he said a yearmy heart sank i felt like crying so badi dont like showing my emotions in front of my parents so i held it and my parents looked sad and not guiltyhe said that the surgery will be scheduled april and i asked if there was any earlier and he said no that the soonest i can get it and i was even more bummed out since i have a lower chance of playing but thats when i realized i should just give hope up on my junior year and just wait for my senior year to play and i felt so broken insidei felt like crying so badthen in march i hear about the corona virus outbreak spreading a loti didnt think much but my parents were worrieda week later i heard it spread to the usmore and more cases started coming in but i really didnt care or listenedi had one last meeting before my surgery which was the th of marchduring that time they canceled school for me because of the virusi walked into the orthopedics and my heart sankthey were checking peoples temperatures before they let them in and they checked mine and asked if i had any signs of i said no and they let me init was so scarce the chairs were all separated from each other then i look back and i see my mom walking away and my dad coming inmy dad said that they didnt let in my mom that they only allow one person in and since im a minor its acceptablei was in the waiting roomthey called my name and saw my surgeontill this point im just about traumatized from everythinghe tells me that im not allowed to go outside of my house or come in contact with any human outside of my house if i do they have all rights of canceling my surgerythey said if i cough once that they will cancel my surgeryi didnt think it was bad if my surgery cancelsuntil he mentioned that my surgery is urgentits necessary i cant wait on it because i can get arthritis because of my partial tear of meniscusthat i cant wait longer because the virus can get worse and if i dont get it on april then it will probably be till months and that will be to latethey also said that it depends on the government if they dont cancel surgeries across the usim just about scared shittless by this point i didnt sign up for all thisi dont want to be told thisits so traumatizing for a teenagerhe also proceeds to mention that i can only have one visitor after my surgeryi thought to myself if it can get any worsehe then gave me the information and not to do before the day which is do not eat at midnighti leave the orthopedics and i see my mom cryingshe said she is scared for mealso my dad was facetiming my mom so she can hear what the doctor was sayingi told her to not worry its going to be fine and the one that should be worried is meeven though i was just so broken in a million piecesas of writhing this im in quarantine days so far i havent stepped foot outside of my house for days i feel trapped and emptyi am in a really dark place as of right nowmy surgery is in days as of writing thisplease dont share this to my coach or tell him i just wanted to tell you my experienceupdate from march and i got news that someone tested positive for the corona virus at the hospital i was supposed to get surgery tomorrowmy surgery has been canceled a day awayeverything was just traumatic them telling me and forcing me to stay in my house for weeks straight just some idiot to not follow what the doctors told that person to do and get infected and ruin it for everyone else its unfairit was a little hospital for surgeryim guessing the patient didnt take serious what the doctors told that person to do and went out and traveledits really painful stressful for me to take inthank you if you have read this far,3.0 58255,just bought adelines princess toddler bed awe little one is growing up ,2.0 58256,roguepanda did he show up ,0.0 58257,watching boyz n the hoodaaw poor ricky ,2.0 58258,i just dont see the point in trying anymore day in and day out my life is filled with dread from work the fear of being alone and just plain disdain for myself up until last october i had a fiancee who i had been with for years but she left and i felt so alone until i thought i managed to meet someone but that person recently called it quits citing there wasnt a connection she did this although she was the one pursuing me and making plans two major rejections in that space of time has rocked me to my core i was already depressed to begin with but not ive got no hope im so burnt out i dont enjoy anything and i just want the pain and loneliness to go away,3.0 58259,cadistra time to go to the doc and get youself checked out might have something stuck in your second stomach ,2.0 58260,please check on your loved ones today trigger warning his name was chad we were in inpatient together he always would laugh and joke he ate so many bananas that we called him a minion from the short time i knew him i knew he was a great guy the day after i checked out he hung himself in the hospital he had to have planned it perfectly because the staff had done everything they were supposed to do my heart is heavy for him his family and everyone affected by his tragic death please check on your loved ones today do it for chad,3.0 58261,gonna miss the hubby this weekend he has military duty ,2.0 58262,beckybuckwild i think im gonna start doing taco tuesday all i have is taco bell though ,2.0 58263,zesylene i felt that way yesterday with them in the park ,2.0 58264,prepping for my dandi interviewsooo excited to sit down with her ,0.0 58265,depressed everyday people here i suffer from whole body sweating diseasevery rare conditiondue to which i am not able to get any jobsvery embarrassing condition in public and no sign of future life partnerit doesnt matter whether its cold or hot i sweat every second not only this i suffer from a condition known as micropenisi dont have lifespend all day in a single dark roomi am hating my life these daysi have huge dark circles due to lack of sleep,3.0 58266, i had fun watched him sign peoples books i will get mine signedhug ,0.0 58267,jdksisks i am giving my most to protect it nods,0.0 58268,has a really really bad cough ,2.0 58269,rt i was sad u changed ur dp but then ur header 😂😂👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼sassy never disappoints 😉choicefandom btsarmy teenchoic,2.0 58270,scotland isnt meant to be this hot especially this earlyand i have work today ,2.0 58271,i get depressed for months at a time and then i feel better for a while is that normal is it still depression if it comes and goes i have months where i feel normal and mentally healthy my depression is triggered by bad relationships in my life ive just gone through an extremely painful breakup and im depressed and it feels so familiar i know that ill probably be here for another or months before the fog starts to clear i feel like i take an abnormally long time to heal from emotional pain i internalize it and agonize over it and drag it out for so long when i feel better though i forget what this even feels like then im fine for a while until something else happens that triggers it is this depression,3.0 58272,dont u gettin disclaimers u should of gotten hand ex u should check the top on dat cuz da contents cud burn u chemically ,2.0 58273,kellyruthxo yeah i am bored already i want my hair done,2.0 58274,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 58275, ikr i should b podyes bobbyedner deff deserves the best thats y he should kick it wit me lmao jk or am i ,0.0 58276,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 58277,i need some motivation on i had a grade ii astrocytoma removed from my left temporal lobe on i had a grade iii astrocytoma removed the tumor had worsened and was then classified as cancer i am currently a graduate student and have had to balance cancer treatment radiation and chemo and school for the past few years treatment ended about months ago but i still have to see my oncologist every so often my most recent visit was on and thankfully there was nothing new however at no point over the past few years has my doctor used the word remission i never think to ask him when im there so i sent him an email asking whether this word applies to me and whether he could make any ballpark estimate given my personal situation regarding my life expectancy there is currently no tumor so im aware that its a naive question for me to ask he has made it very clear to me that there is no way of knowing and that statistics can mean nothing in these situations but given the fact that i have had two brain tumors removed the most recent of which is classified as grade iii cancer i will likely not live more than years i wish i could say i was not slightly relieved by this however as of today my fiance the woman ive been with for the past years is officially out of my life on christmas i noticed that she seemed upset and when i talked to her that night she didnt yet have her thoughts in order but i had a feeling i knew what was happening we very awkwardly spent the next day together going to see my oncologist after that she said she needed time to herself i knew right then what was going to happen consequently the past two weeks have been the most emotionally challenging times ive ever experienced ive gradually watched as she removed every trace of me from her social media accounts i am now years old and single for the first time since i was may not seem like a terrible number but i cant help but doubt that i will ever find someone and have a family before my time is up i had been with her for so long and im so accustomed to her and only her that its so hard for me to even imagine talking to or being with another woman i know my life expectancy is entirely indefinite but those numbers mean something to me i dont want to give up and assume that im going to die tomorrow but i cant imagine having a genuinely successful longterm relationship with someone who knows that i will likely not be around for very long part of me is relieved to know that itll all be over soon but a bigger part of me wants something to look forward to fyi we ended on relatively good terms i did not like being left in the dark for two weeks but i dont blame her for ending it,3.0 58278,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 58279,it is really hot in changhua i just go straight to the refrigerator and get häagendazs ,0.0 58280,is in topeka wishes braden was here to keep me company ,2.0 58281, scottamarshall humans are social creatures so being treated that way all the time doe ,1.0 58282,last night was the worst night of my life ,2.0 58283,i cant believe how sick i was yesturday and on my birthday and i still feel like shit oh well bonfire tomorrow ,0.0 58284,im so incredibly lonely scared and hopeless its been over two months since my wife ended our relationship she was everything to me my best and only real friend for years i miss her so much i want to call and text her but its not that way anymore shes seeing someone else right now has feelings for somebody else none for me and im not emotionally stablewe have kids the youngest is going to prek all day this year after i drop her off at school im by myself until i pick her up hours lateri came home today forced myself to eat a yogurt cup and tried to go back to sleep i slept in our small bedroom closet it was dark and cramped but i felt safest therei got up an hour and a half ago because i didnt want my wife to come home to dirty dishes unfolded laundry and a messy house i didnt want to disappoint her again but i didnt do anything i just read on my phonei tried calling my dad the only family i have besides my wife and kids the only person i can talk to but he didnt pick up he lives hours away so i cant even go see him i thought about textingtalking to a neighbor friend but ive already imposed myself too much in the past few days i dont want to scare them awayi cant see my therapist until next week i called my case manager to see if they could set me up with another in the mean time and they couldnti havent worked in over a year and a half and after talking with a lawyer i wont ever be able to get a legal job again i would even settle for a job at mcdonalds making minimum wage at this point just anything to make me feel like im not a worthless burden on my family that i can contribute something that im a human beingive been having to ration my medications because i cant afford a full months supply at i take a day supply so i have for food for us or gasi desperately need someone to hold me while i cry right now i had an anxiety attack yesterday and i asked her to hold me she did but i didnt want her to let me goim a year old father of and i need someone to sit with me and talk with me hold me care for me i want my wife back so badlyi dont even have the opportunity to throw myself into a job save money and build a new life past this one i have to rely on my wife who isnt in love with me anymore how long will this last when will i lose my kidsive been thinking about suicide more and more i dont want to hurt my kids that way though thats the only thing thats keeping me alive but how do i get out of this i cant even support myselfand i watch my wife leave almost every night now she doesnt sleep at home anymore most of the week the kids get to her and im falling aparti cant do this not by myself im not strong enough for the kids and i wont put this on themhow do i get out of this alive,3.0 58285,my lip hurts no band for me tonight ,2.0 58286,a busdriver almost hit my car today ,2.0 58287, i miss you lovie i hope your flight went well ,0.0 58288,rt briannahylton wow the world is not fair such a sad day😔,0.0 58289,kflosworld booooooo ppl r dumb from one flo to another,2.0 58290,oh august why is everything happening in august or so it seems,2.0 58291,i must finally admit that i can no longer keep up with all my online social networking and have any kind of real life must trim it down ,2.0 58292,deleting all social media recently i just want to leave everything and be forgotten i left every social media i was on people are wondering where i am i take every night ambien at early times because i just cant stand everything anymore i want to dissolve i am getting more body dysphormic sorry dont know to write that word day by day,3.0 58293,aniluck ,0.0 58294,i feel like i dont deserve sleep like when i first started highschool i was determined to sleep a full hours so i wasnt so tired all the time like past yearsrn i feel like i dont deserve sleep like i deserve to be tired i just want to draw or listen to musici love sleep but not really atleast not rn i wish i didnt have to sleep but did at the same time cause im sure my depression would just get worse i want to feel depressed i realized later today i was happy for a few days and hen after that moment i just wanted to be sad idk what im talking about,3.0 58295,sad 💔,2.0 58296,soo tired after crappy shift yday n now in the lib roll on paris,2.0 58297,jepcke you got it on the nose of course they shoot the messenger reformatted drive upgrade system software legal software licensing,2.0 58298,i loled at a lady laughing at me over me playing barbie girl and she shot me with popping balloons ,2.0 58299, oopps she bashed her cheek on the bedside table on daddys watch ,2.0 58300,our baby taehyung ，i dont know how to comfort youbut our army and those who love you will be by your sidedont b ,0.0 58301,thisisdavina bless bienazir it was kind of hard to watch ,2.0 58302,rt sciam opinion its time to recognize mental health as essential to physical health via ,0.0 58303,saw quotyear onequot last nightmichael cera and david cross why did you fail me i want my back ,2.0 58304,annoyed vent long story short someone traced a meme back to my reddit and then saw my suicide watch post about how i plan to kill myself then told my parents about that and now my parents wont leave my house and now i have to go back to the phycologist leave me alone,3.0 58305,going to springfield for my cousins wedding shower tomorrow ,0.0 58306,should i keep putting off therapy my friends and family recently found out that i had wanted to commit suicide and that id committed self harm my parents and friends have known i struggle with anxiety and depression but my mother has been trying to get me to go see a therapist but i keep blowing it off and saying i feel fine in reality i dont feel fine but i just dont wanna go to a shrink is it worth giving in and going to talk to one,3.0 58307,we couldnt resist this little headline fun on superwoman chortle,0.0 58308,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 58309,first time posting here my wife is leaving me and i am very broken i want to not exist my wife whom ive been together with for years more than of our life is leaving me i am very broken in heart mind spirit emotion i dont want to off myself i dont want people who care about me to be hurt i wish the world to end a missile to come and blast me away i want to be in some fatal accident or a homicide victim i want to crawl into a hole and not exist where no one has any memory of my existence i want to go back in time and try to prevent her from ever stop loving me i cant cry i want to cry like really break down and cry everything out but i cant cry i dont really have anyone to talk to my mother is not soft and caring she cares but her words of advice are harsh i feel awkward talking to my brother and i know it hurts him to see me hurt so i dont want to do that to him whenever i see my best friend i just want to distract myself and have fun with him but when i dont see him i want to talk to him but cant some days i have my ups and accepted but i feel like they were illusions seriously considering they were more denial than acceptance i cant tell i cant focus on my work im losing my work i cant pull myself together to look for new work i really really should but i cant,3.0 58310, in the morning chatting with peeps i miss the fun with shipei ,2.0 58311,i dont even get love on reddit no comments no upvotes hell not even a downvote,3.0 58312,sleepless again guess that means writing more late night poetry sigh ,2.0 58313,rt charlesdropout fake mental illness twitter already starting about how its almost winter amp their depression is kicking in as if that s,2.0 58314,rt zeenewshindi भदोही पहले किशोरी को लगाई आग फिर ट्रेन के आगे कूदकर की आत्‍महत्‍याhttpstcoekkxrqvbmt,0.0 58315,rt torieaceves i literally text talk to no one its so sad 😂,2.0 58316,thiinkk greeenn ,0.0 58317,rt ohthatlook this whole sequence has been medically proven to reduce stress and clear skin ,1.0 58318,playlist sad songs,2.0 58319,final of apprentice tomorrow how exciting ,0.0 58320,drag me to hell actually scared me ,2.0 58321, yes the camry ,2.0 58322,so sunny but stuck in the studio again wheres the justiceeee xx,2.0 58323,horatiooutside good luck and nice picture ,0.0 58324,just a liddo edit i qoe to bed nite twitts ,0.0 58325,noooooooooooo who pinged me im not lookin ur soo mean i sed no pingin and u ping im gonna b stronghow do i turn the flashin light off,2.0 58326,damnation orangeswagger volleyballphan oh jesus this is sadyou dont even know the lingo lmaooo 😂😂😂😂😂,0.0 58327,dodgecreations hi debbie i just finished plying the stuff i am in love and another oz is on its way sweater,0.0 58328,ok so the job market sucks big time out there family members laid off in the last weeks let me know if you have any admin jobs ,2.0 58329,rt both insidemindspgh and dbsalliance by our staff were featured as the top mental health podcasts huzzah ,2.0 58330,jayelectronica hi ,0.0 58331,had a bad dream last night why cant i get you out of my head ,2.0 58332,jhummrich i want to eat that sigh just having a bowl of cereal its certainly not the same lol,2.0 58333,pizaseven i wouldnt mind the for the week if it wasnt only hour out of the day thats just completely absurd,2.0 58334,samiralove damn and im going out tonight for the first time in ever im sorry your back hurst ,2.0 58335,begthehobo lol i am watching the movie just boycotting the trailers amp related ,0.0 58336,nightmare quot majestical parade quot album ,0.0 58337,polaroidcamera get back on msn i didnt get to say hi ,2.0 58338,cat put to sleep family mourns ,2.0 58339,my wolf shirt didnt arrive in time ,2.0 58340,i plurked this earlier now ill tweet it im wondering if all quotnba fansquot are really fans or are they just joining the bandwagon haha ,0.0 58341,petlog aww yep will be going to see it and will cry i know the loveless is a busy girl puts u off being famous ill stick to teaching x,2.0 58342,getting hit by a wave of anxiety at when you havent properly had anxiety in years ,1.0 58343,i wish i was at the pussycat dolls and lady gaga ,2.0 58344,self esteem issues i dont know where else to state this so ill just put it here i guess im and ive never had a relationship i know this sounds extremely stupid but lately ive been feeling really really down about myself for it i cant get it off my mind it got triggered back a few months ago when i downloaded dating apps for the first time i did it for the fun of it at first and because i literally cant approach cute girls in real life no matter how hard i try to bring myself to do it but then i came to my nagging realization ive had some pretty good success with them and i even went on my first ever date but i still cant shake this feeling and my confidence and self esteem have plummeted for some reason ive been pretty depressed over the past years since leaving high school but now im at an all time low im in college now working towards a degree that im not even sure really fits me and i just dont know anything anymore its almost as if ive gotten used to the pain of waking up everyday and dealing with my lonely thoughts when im not at school i realized i never know what to do with myself so i decided to start working out to increase my confidence and distract myself but it hasnt been working i have a decently long history with depression and its only getting worse i want to go see a therapist but i dont have the time because im always working or hanging out with my friends which is the only time im actually happy nowadays another problem i have is that im very socially awkward and i have a hard time making new friends at school so ive never been to a big college party or anything like that which also greatly upsets me i cant tell if im upset because i feel lonely am missing out on big experiences or if im just upset with my lack of social skills maybe its all three but i dont know please help what should i do,3.0 58345, yeah sergioooooo aww lowry still is cute even though i havent seen him in dunno how long ,2.0 58346,listening to that karaoke song again ,0.0 58347,my life made into this comic tear ,2.0 58348,omg all time low the take action tour is not far away now i got fliers get excited get your tickets wwwmyspacecomdestroyalllines,0.0 58349,mcfreak no i havent we havent been that lucky have you xxx,2.0 58350,rt kinda sad kinda dont care ab anything anymore,1.0 58351,cleaned my room yes its a small task but its the first time i think i have cleaned my room in a year or so i havent had the motivation until a few hours ago probably since my birthday is tomorrow and i wanted my room to be nice for it it sounds silly when put into writing since its a small victory but im very proud of myself,3.0 58352,i dont really care if it makes my family and friends upset im tired and nobody gives a shit nobody really wants to help they just want me to bring different emotions to the table so they can feel better about themselves i really dont want to make it to ,3.0 58353,how does this happen had a mini panic attack while getting super drunk with my friend now i feel like my depression has gotten worse and its scaring me i know i can help myself but im scared dont want to kill myself i just dont know what to do i dont want my girlfriend to be sad fucking shit,3.0 58354,i figured out i just like this thing ,0.0 58355,rt girlposts when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 58356,i like the song surrender from billy talent heehee surrender every touch every smile every frown surrender yourself to me ,0.0 58357,behb definately thanks ben love you ,2.0 58358,gchance we canadians are known for our politeness not that many people abuse it ,0.0 58359,i keep going to put songs on then realise theyre on my dead computer ,2.0 58360,anyone have any experience with betterhelp im in a weird place with my insurance because i am currently on my way to getting a divorce so for the time being i wont have insurance ive always been curious about online therapy and this better help place is the cheapest ive found about a month with weekly sessions iirc idk just curious if anyones had experience with this one or any others in particular how it went etc thanks in advance,3.0 58361,dansumption totally forgot about the dgree show et al now ensconced in home wine and ready for bed ,2.0 58362,rt thegabbieshow time flies when youre having anxiety,2.0 58363,thesummerends im really sorry to hear that youre so down,2.0 58364,after occasionally playing those crane games to win prizes throughout my life ive finally managed to win times in days even ,0.0 58365, hahaha i bet you are dont be modest p,0.0 58366,tomorrow will b insane study gg finale one tree hill finale what will my summer mean wout these shows ,2.0 58367,musicfiendkicks lol i need do something though i have been eating very bad over the past few weeks nothing but fried food ,2.0 58368,thereda удал�й мен� первым люблю по�ле обеда поболтать на различные темы ,0.0 58369,i dont think i am ever going to evolve riga ,0.0 58370,im sad kissynialler ,0.0 58371,rt whattheffacts singing when tensed helps you avoid anxiety and depression,2.0 58372,seeing as its and we just sat down to dinner yeah no gym today p ,2.0 58373,got off work early because i dont feel well at all my phone is soooo broken ,2.0 58374,imjstsayin lol damni love those things too ,0.0 58375,damnit if id waited a week i could have gotten my hosting package for cheaper excuse me while i go drown myself,2.0 58376,omg rang the jonas brothers the other day but it sucked cos they didnt ring back ,2.0 58377,still cannot open the bloody pictures ,2.0 58378,rt onlyonenetra true it is really sad when some literature demeans entire language and the followers both i feel this can be overcomed,1.0 58379,rt feelingfisky when i drink coffee to be more productive but it just spikes my anxiety instead ,0.0 58380,im sad,2.0 58381,datboyxo oh wowhope hes ok u take him the vet,2.0 58382,my existence means nothing for years i felt like life means nothing my existence is pointless meaningless and worthless everyone only talks to me out of moral obligation and im just a place holder till someone better and more deserving comes along i could disappear and no one would notice or care i dont want to live but im too much of a coward to do anything all i can do is go through life hoping i get hit by a truck or something is it too much to ask to have one thing in my life go right ,3.0 58383,is not looking forward to the dentist tomorrow ,2.0 58384,seriously been up all freaking night im so tired cant fall asleep ,2.0 58385,ok off to work takign it for granted that work is only away lol liking this highwaisted skirtnever worn it before xx,0.0 58386,timbarcz yep and yep ,0.0 58387,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 58388,seanseven lol finally found a way to distribute them ,0.0 58389,orchidslayer i bought dresden files audios i know you said the were background but the type a in me wont let me start ,0.0 58390,chelsea did really good job but everton scored first ,0.0 58391,richelle mead succubus bluesfabulous read very entertaining lots of fun and interesting too next please ,0.0 58392,on my way home over an hour early thanks to brissybilla cant wait to hit the gym loves ya kells fb ,0.0 58393,misses bobby everyday but today kinda feels the saddest ,2.0 58394,dad had a serious heart attack sunday around pm stubborn man didnt get to a hospital until or last nightone artery blocked ,2.0 58395,rt pennstateeim now presenting on the impact of our kpap classes on student physical and mental health guess ,2.0 58396,blokeslib good night from me i have a long drive in the morning for my pups weekly chemo dont work too hard,2.0 58397,ouch epic bruise between my toes and a lump just under my ankle bad times,2.0 58398,rt craigslistlover this is so sad ,2.0 58399,rt mystylesbutera hamille broke up aw thats sad alexa play they were never together in the first place by me,2.0 58400,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 58401,mattdavelewis you might as well let it grow ,0.0 58402,i get separation anxiety when layla is not here and snoop gets separation anxiety when im not hometranslation me and snoop have problems,2.0 58403,im proud 😍 ,0.0 58404,frodofied my green i dont understand ,2.0 58405,rt jabbstract i listen to sad music when im sad to make me even more sad ,2.0 58406,myelectricheart no ,2.0 58407,tell me something good about the world to make things short i hate myself and i hate the world i figured if i heard something good i would feel a little better im not gonna ask for compliments because none of you know me and the compliments would just be made up and ingenuine so i just want to hear something good about the world something awesome i should strive to see or something that is happening that is great im tired of hearing about shitty things like the coronavirus or some dude getting shot by police i just want to hear something good for once maybe this wont only make me feel better about the world but also make some other ppl think that the world isnt so bad afterall,3.0 58408,this is the face i pull when sarahftw is drinking alcoholic beverages without me and i am at work hahaha ,2.0 58409,suziam i have that movie on dvd twas a childhood favourite ,0.0 58410,my hair feels gross i washed it but its still weird d oh and hes bored out if his shitblock head right now,2.0 58411,stream is now showing nintendo logo ah memories of and unfortunately same logo same colours every year ,0.0 58412,mileycyrus you were robbed i voted like a million and two times ,2.0 58413,casscalogeraxxx you poor thing i will trade you though had a bike accident yesterday can barely move my right arm,2.0 58414,its absolutely pouring down outside no chance of heading out to enjoy nature on yule so tea and the internet it is,2.0 58415,desrai owww yeah greenbelt shall be rocked by us haha ,0.0 58416,can numbness and apathy be considered depression i used to be super emotional and negative but now im less emotional and more apathetic and sometimes it feels like im just there like just living and breathing like it feels almost spacey im also super lazy and procrastinate hardcore idk if its possible for me to still have depression especially since i dont get severe sadness anymore and rarely cry im i just something else,3.0 58417,zaibatsu would love to friend him stupid rule ,2.0 58418,justrobby awwww thanks ,0.0 58419,people keep saying to feel better i need to help others its not working i dont feel better i feel used it didnt help at all ,3.0 58420,hotfudgesundae i just ate the soya ice cream nice hehe ,0.0 58421,says nitey nite twitterverse x im going to stretch my limbs and then get some shuteye need to restore energies to tackle uni work tmrw ,2.0 58422,hello darkness my old friend i needed it i craved it so i stopped all my meds some by choice and one by force as my dr got a head injury and had to close his practice my anxiety meds are what i could no linger get with my medicaid its not easy to get a new shrink i have to go to facilities and wait all day and hope someone can see me if not rinse and repeati am in my been this way since doctor confirmed i need the darkness sometimes but this time it is worse and real bad it took decades to know the signs of the darkness coming i know them now for awhile to be honest yet i dont want to let go yeti dont want it to stopi believe that i wont harm myself now that i am a mom i truly believe those demons i can still fight for a little longer anywaywhy am i like this why do i want the fucking darkness to consume me but i doi will probably delete this later tonight as i cant risk anyone finding out this and risking my kid her dad is great so i dont worry if anything happens to mei just dont get it i know better but yet i want and crave the darkness,3.0 58423,i am really hungry right now i would go to steak n shake the eggs with the works but dont feel like driving ,2.0 58424,charlesgokey once you take god out of the equasion bad things happen that is why our country is going down the toilet ,2.0 58425,rt emoblackthot i think one of the biggest struggles of the constant battle with mental health is accepting that not everyday will be per,1.0 58426,rt jessieecombs ive been a giant ball of anxiety and stress lately i feel like such a mess 💀,1.0 58427,tristanrogers keep the bubble tweets coming they are the best gh was great when you were on what happened ,2.0 58428,michellebdotcom baby u got me all resface just watching u ,0.0 58429,why the fuckkk does xbox live have to be down today fml i guess im gonna do something trashy like eat vicodin and dl monday night raw,2.0 58430,fear quit school work socializing gym family hobbies job etc all because of fear of failing and im also done writing this post fuck it,3.0 58431,im really hungry and really want some panera but theyre seriously going through every single persons name ,2.0 58432,me and justvurb finished watching avengers for the first time 😭😭 im late but that was some sad stuff,2.0 58433,i feel so alone i dont even know what to i feel so sad,3.0 58434,hehe i give up with the distance agicc ,2.0 58435,djsmokke i dont get no love today some big brother u are sighs,2.0 58436,disgusting😤 niggas think this is funny this scars a woman for life amp the anxiety when walking past a group of me httpstcomjryjbyada,1.0 58437,who can test my site on but work on firefox opera chrome safari please contact me ,2.0 58438,therapy for years made a lot of progress with my anxiety and depression but just broke up with my gf of years the sadness is deeper is it different im used to the seasonal dips of depression i can pick out the manic recovery too but what i feel now is different it feels more solid it hurts somewhere else not usually on the verge of tears and used to feeling more hopeless this may be more like mourning we had a good relationship i just couldnt get over the hump that she was the right direction for me lots of conversations and ultimately a calm good bye ,3.0 58439,how to deal with stress anxiety and bipolar disorder anxiety is one of many troubling symptoms of bipolar di ,2.0 58440,suncatcherph download glee theres only episode i think you will love itits about a glee club ,0.0 58441,bored watching tv ,2.0 58442,i dont know what is wrong with me i try to be kind and understanding to everyone around me despite my anxiety but no matter how much i try people seem to want to avoid me i dont know whether if they can tell im depressed or autistic or if they think i am unattractive but people i know try not to talk to me and strangers try to steer clear of memaybe im being paranoid or making up shit but when i see people having fun with each other constantly i wonder why i cant seem to do the same ,3.0 58443,shaundiviney ive sent you a million comments and u never wb strting to hurt me shaun but ill survive ps i still think your rad xxx,2.0 58444,i really need a new laptop ,2.0 58445,rizkyinayati amin for me and you ,0.0 58446,christians in therapy do you ever feel bad for not representing your faith well during therapy specifically when working with a therapist who does not share your faith do you share struggles youre having in regards to your faith i feel like i need to but i dont want my struggles to add to the reasons she doesnt believe i really have a hard time allowing my faith and my mental health to mesh because i feel like my faith should help me navigate my mental health struggles instead it seems to raise more questions,3.0 58447,mcsheffrey this video is sick all in one take crazy thanks for sharing ,0.0 58448,quotquotquotquotquotwaiting for it to stop rainingquotquotquotquotquot ,2.0 58449,feeling far away from the real world im always feel numb and sad i cant connect with people i always try to hide myself my thoughts everything about me from others i feel like i can never have a normal life im so disconnected from reality from the worldits like im living in my headmy own little bleak dull reality where everything is pointless and empty rant time ro get some sleep,3.0 58450,local be like 😮,0.0 58451,jessicahui youre welcome yes the hot chocolate was delicious and i love that quotas it is in heavenquot song ill b praying for you thurs,0.0 58452,too hot and potentially stormy for our planned and anticipated family outing to valleyfair today now we have to wait til august ,2.0 58453,thankyouuu rizizzle and ive followed her khloe kourtney amp rob ,0.0 58454,jordanknight omg is this really you have you joined in the fun finally wow come on jordan show us what youre made of xx,0.0 58455,donniewahlberg florida does it better than them all come check us out ,0.0 58456,watching the rest of fireflyi missed this just doing nothing its lovely ,0.0 58457,mandielyse italian ,0.0 58458,my family refuse to accept how i feel and i dont know what to do hey guys as the title says my family refuse to accept my feelings i have struggled with depression for around years now and it has progressively worsened to the stage where i have began to consider suicide on the really bad nights i spoke to my mum at first who straight up told me she didnt believe me i went to my doctor secretly and began to receive councillors and medication but it continued to progress in i met an amazing guy who i thought could make me happy and who did for a while but long story short i suffered a year of emotional abuse and cheating which left my depression at an all time high and throughout and i selfharmed regularly and although i did not reveal this to my family told them how i felt and they still refused to believe i was depressed i cant talk to my family about anything because i know they wont take me seriously and it hurts to know that i cant seem to break through to them and it makes me so angry i just want to end it and i know im running out of time and i dont know what to do,3.0 58459,im gonna do the dishes then go to sleep ,2.0 58460,rt lifeaseva it isnt easy to get over mental health issues but finding people who understand you and identifying yourself is the first s,0.0 58461,lizziemcflyer sure it might give my town folk something to talk about ,0.0 58462,fayetan hehe fayes on a shopping spree of late p glad you enjoyed urselfhate it because its sooooo cold franklin not like this,2.0 58463,only me and itsnotalemon came to see mr kane ,2.0 58464,cant find the piece ,2.0 58465,or i would be going but my boyfriend tied me to a chair ,2.0 58466,nancykenny it would seem im the only one who didnt like that play ,2.0 58467,i am so drained but i have no idea how im gonna sleep tonight ,2.0 58468,mediahunter great link ,0.0 58469,meanstepmom congratulations have fun moving ,0.0 58470,jobs for people who are unstable what is a good job for someone who has panic attacks is severely depressed frequently passes out over exercise i need money to be able to afford food transport and therapy,3.0 58471,tonight at viviiiii amp tomorrow cinemaaa great ,0.0 58472,why would you share the existence of this person ,2.0 58473,its raining might not be going to hemlock now i am so depressed about tha hopefully it will stop and dry up abit,2.0 58474,rt lifeaseva can we all stop treating anxiety like its a choice and something cool to have thank you,0.0 58475,a pretty awful day advicesupport very welcome well i dont know where to even start i have a pretty long history of mental health problems and comfort eating as a coping mechanism im in group therapy and other therapies but when im in crisis all good plans go flying out the windowive lost pounds since and ive been proud of myself but today everything went very wrong i had some pretty bad arguments with family contemplated suicide and the decided to binge eat then after eating a dominos large pizza and chicken strips i vomited i have had a phase of bulimia when i was in my teens and it all brought it back as bennet fody said starting over is harder than starter up i have no idea what to start with i havent felt able to really talk to anyone close to me or therapists they are a bit mismatched with my personality atm and i struggle to speak with them which is why im looking to reddit,3.0 58476,also just discovered several spammy sites using my friends name as a bait to try and install malware so much for yahoos siteadvisor,2.0 58477,goin to church ,0.0 58478,rt spicaterribie otabeks th scary lookin guy who walks by amp u overhear him sayin hes got that anxiety disorder bro so i went with him so,2.0 58479,carbs and depression are related sugar makes me really depressed of course but i think carbs like noodles rice makes me mood swing is this happening to you ,3.0 58480,lost and confused im tired had a panic attack cried every night and broke down in the train a week before the semester began teared up during classes breaking down when teachers talked about our future my final year exams are in days and i am a month behind on course content my head feels hazy and my heart feels heavy everyday being in classes feel suffocating and i cant concentrate no matter how hard i tried at this point i dont know what to do with myself thought about changing my major but it feels like im giving up when times get difficult even if i overlook that part i have no interest in anything else and even if i do my low self esteem convinced me otherwise everything feels empty and lifeless,3.0 58481,rt btsarmyint if youre new to this community and you didnt go through or know about those fucking years of anxiety panic and depres,2.0 58482,im a loner ,2.0 58483,does anyone else casually think about suicide as a back up plan ever since i was a kid i always saw suicide as a back up plan i remember in middle school i was terrified of starting high school because all my older family cousins and family friends would tell me how difficult it was and i would think to myself oh its cool if i cant do it ill just kill myself it sounds funny to say out loud any hardship or future fear would always be accompanied by the thought that if anything unpleasant happens for a long period of time ill just kill myself i remember feeling sad for no reason when i was young and i told myself that if it was always like this then at least thats a viable option at i gave myself until im now i still think this a lot i dont know why im posting this idk ive never actually said it out loud and i wanted to just to see if anyone else has thought this way or maybe still does,3.0 58484,ihateraquelreed what oh my god what happened ,2.0 58485,tatumshea my b that im just now replying haha paramore was amazing as always ive seen them like times now i love hayley williams ,0.0 58486,rt btsmotivator dear you yes you who are reading this i know u say ure tired instead of sad you say ppl dont need you instead of s,2.0 58487,ive assigned my bestfriends in my phone contacts their own ringtones hah yeap had that much time to do so wonder what alhakeem ,0.0 58488,im and i live with my parents granted its a nice home in the suburbs but im a loser by all accounts no girlfriend since high school few friends i never see due to personal insecurities and lack of interest though we still group text had an old friend visit me two weeks ago probably the first time in a year i talk to someone my age face to face even my dad looked at me like oh look he has a friend also im unemployed my last job lasted weeks anyway what age did you guys move out ,3.0 58489,rt ingrahamangle whats the deal if realdonaldtrump doesnt get his wall hell lose the midterms wrongno trump sup,1.0 58490,kind sweet peoplepoor little chap dumping such a sick little doing how cruel but kindness will out ,1.0 58491,sleep i can deal with the negative self talk i can deal with the suicidal thoughts i can deal with the low self worth i can deal with the feelings of hopelessness what i cant deal with is sleeping hrs a night as trivial as this may sound sleep is really fucking up my college career and future i cant for the life of me wake up for wait for it an no its not an its a damn the worst part is i am only mildly depressed like i am still somewhat functional i also do not have health insurance so its a pain in the ass getting a doctors note i dont know what to do i got blood work done and everything came back normal expect my vitamin d levels which were lowim just done trying anymore thank you for reading i really appreciate it ,3.0 58492,rt jaywalkr realdonaldtrump youre a sad old man with no real friends,0.0 58493,rt rubotdragrace maybe shes born with it maybe its clinical depression,2.0 58494,does anyone feel like theyre not going anywhere in life ive felt like this for quite some time and cant quite shake it off,3.0 58495,lauraellwood yeah wont be on for weeks lol,2.0 58496,sigh i need to find my reallife effron ,2.0 58497, nopeive got exactly the same problem ,2.0 58498,its about time i start a new book or a new painting anxiety needpeace,1.0 58499,i spend most of my time in bed in the dark i dont have the body strength to shower so when i do find the energy to bathe i have to take a bath then i get right back in bed ive completely cut myself off from everyone that loves me and i ignore anyone who still tries to contact me i started seeing a new therapist about a month ago i dont find her helpful at allmy living space is a disaster suicidal ideation is a huge part of my life but i am too much of a coward to actually commit suicide all i do is think about the past or worry about the future i smoke cigarettes and eat cereali am and in the past ive been functional while depressed i was able to pretend to have a life and be around peoplebut as im getting older its easier to isolate and disappear for months at a time its almost comfortingive been diagnosed with major depressive disorder ive been on and off meds for two years and they just cause anxiety im here to see if anyone has any suggestions how you might have gotten thru a similar episode or if i should practice acceptance and just be depressed,3.0 58500,rt joeyginz rip corner hero the best thing that ever happened to me and to this town this is the worst day of my life might have an an,1.0 58501,me and my friend are not friends anymore her name is sarah,2.0 58502,i think im forcing them i feel like im forcing my friends to talk with me they dont start a conversation with me and im sending tons of messages to my friends because i want someone to talk with me i hate this im trying to delete them but i cant i hate this i dont think they dont have time to talk with me i hate that seen thing a lot i just want a closefriend ,3.0 58503,philstratton my bb still has the oars on the side thanks for the recommendation if mine fails i will soon be in bb heaven lol,0.0 58504,aashishbansal thanks ,0.0 58505,no yo me merezco a sara real que ws una de las mejores amigas que me dio el fandom tipo que siempre me motiva o ,0.0 58506,snaaaap alize cornet wow anyway we got some family visiting from sd and they brought some goodasfuck bagels nyquality goddamn ,0.0 58507,misskatieprice such nice weather ,0.0 58508,saw tonight kudisch was out sadly but at least that bumped up justinpatterson ,2.0 58509,up the monument tower what a cracking view today but one hell of alot of steps up here the breeze is well needed after that hahaha ,0.0 58510,perspective i am a middle aged man who has mostly lived in the same city all of his life had for the most part have had very little success at making friends in i was basically diagnosed by a psychologist with either some type of schitzo or border line personality disorder though it was never made official moving head i have always been a little different but try to be as sincere of a person that i can be and am generally polite nice etc i do however have an odd since of humor and perspective that others dont seem to understand where people seem to tolerate or interact generally well with me in a work scenario no one seems to let me into their lives outside the organize environment i try to compensate my oddness by adjusting my mannerisms to the company i am around but i mostly sit quietly trying to get a feel for what is going on i am afraid that people get the wrong impression when i do this and dont involve me i feel empty as i cannot achieve a connection of with anyone i have a suspicion that there are times that people talk about me trying to reconcile with each other reasons why they should not get to close this is really taking its toll on my life and i am kind of lonely lost eveni always get excuses that these people are busy they dont know what they are going to do and cant make a commitment or they are hanging out with some other friends am i reading this wrong should i quit trying to make friends and accept my circumstances should i call them out on it just to see where i stand with them,3.0 58511,oh yeah i also dreamed i met bj surhoffmy favorite ballplayer from back in the day darnwish that was real ,0.0 58512,jeangrae ha ha ha im just not in the mood today im trying to be cool but im just not having it already had to curse someone out,2.0 58513,guess im totally over twitter it may get deleted very soon,2.0 58514,erinmckenna sorry i updated im addicted and must tweet,2.0 58515,sorting stuff out for my trip to paris tomorrow sunny i best pack some shorts days meetings and thats it cushty ,0.0 58516,bettertogther kl wots that just gonna update my saula story ,0.0 58517,hellyeah the last day of final examsready hngawt w d gurls well work it out baby sadly cnt wtch pcd ,2.0 58518,a simple trick to get rid of stress and anxiety in minutes ,2.0 58519,relapse i was good for about a year id say for a year i wasnt depressed but i think ive relapsed due to recent eventsi can barely focus and im doing way worse in uni than i expected i cant revise and i keep finishing essays at the last minute and doing a relatively sloppy job on them too i can barely even remember anything in general a lot of timesi spend most of my time in my room now i dont really leave unless i need to eat or go to the toilet the first week it stated getting bad i didnt even shower for like or days and i only went outside onceit takes me forever to do anything last night it took me like hours to go to bed because every time i closed my eyes i started crying even tonight ive been trying to sleep for hours when i do sleep i sleep for hours and i struggle to wake up at all when i wake up it takes me about hours to get out of bed and get ready which is an improvement from hours just to leave the bed when i was depressed before it wasnt like this it was different ive not been like this since when i first got it when i was youngim worried its gonna get worse and im gonna be stuck again but i dont know what to do im trying to eat more socialise more and exercise a bit but its so hard to do anything ,3.0 58520,etherradio wwwrachelsuzannedeviantartcom ,0.0 58521,anima bung ini rumahkokicom khusus buat pria ya according to halo bung ,0.0 58522,i have to say a week later im back to seesmic desktop lounge was great but i missed some features ,2.0 58523,soakin up the sun in the south bay football time ,0.0 58524,life sucks i just dont know what to do,3.0 58525,oh btw im not that sure if its a stereo lol whatever its called ,0.0 58526,when my dog dies im out my dog is and is already started to get grey hair bit of an old soul i like to say my only real friend he is too attached to me so cant kill myself earlier but as soon as he dies which hopefully wont be for a while for his sake he deserves to grow old im gonna do it tried feebly once already but stopped myself when i thought about how lonely he would be,3.0 58527,ahhhhhhh nothing like a good cool glass of san miguel pale pilsen to enjoy the afternoon ,0.0 58528,i dont want to kill myself but i want to die ever since i was like years old my constant reaction to anything bad has been telling myself that i want to kill myself but every time ive attempted ive ended up panicking last minute and chickening out ive realised recently that i dont have it in me to kill myself because im such a coward but i want to stop existing i dont want to have to carry on with a life that i hate so much ive tried getting help but im not taken seriously mainly because i havent been rushed into hospital because of an attempt if im comparing myself to my friends i just dont know what to do anymore tl dr i can never bring myself to kill myself but all i want to do is die ,3.0 58529,wolfgang just coffeevelvety foamed coffee ,0.0 58530,rt humansofny i dont think im going to miss eighth grade its been a tough year a lot of my friends are struggling with depr ,1.0 58531,depression feels comfy to me now i hate that i like it sort of but i cant help it,3.0 58532,rt itsrjhill trying to put change in my wallet at the cash register while people in line put pressure on me by just standing httpstco,0.0 58533,its in the morning and im researching exit bags and i dont want to tell anyone i know cause they cant help anyway but i wanted to tell someone so here i am i might go buy a nitrogen tank after work tomorrow just to have around so i can exit quickly once i work up the nerve and before i chicken out,3.0 58534,had the absolute best night out last night but has decided she does not want to grow up ,2.0 58535,rt bestmenshair celebs who escaped from the terrifying clutches of depression ,1.0 58536,currently crying in bed where ive been all day and watching stupid fucking cooking videos texting my friend whos in some deep shit and crying for them crying for myself because im miserable eating so so much candy i was losing weight because i was starving myself and now im gaining too much back because im stuffing myself fighting with my friends over stupid shit i wanna sleep forever but i cant sleep because im worried about everyone and everything my grades are slipping and im isolating myself my care and motivation is plummeting the only thing i care about is one of my friends theyre keeping me going i cant loose them please dont go this probably made no sense but typing it made me feel so much better,3.0 58537,madilovesmerder reading the quotes now great job thanxs ,0.0 58538,michaelmidnight yeah i know i wanted to goughhhh im gonna be in the area that day too ugh,2.0 58539,my depression is straining my relationship im years old in four month relationship with someone who is genuinely my dream girl shes everything ive ever wanted in a person and i do love her a lot sometimes however with my depression the only thing i can feel is just crushing emptiness even if im lying next to her she can sense this and it hurts her she knows i have depression and she doesnt blame me but it makes her feel like a bad girlfriend or like i dont love her neither of these things are true but i have a hard time helping it im sorry if this is poorly written english isnt my strong suit,3.0 58540,happy year and months honey♥ ,0.0 58541,just left up with the garneaus very sweet movie jordy slept through most of it sound asleep in my arms ,0.0 58542,patrickallen have fun too bad vegas werent the plans this weekend for me that would have been fun now go get stupid drunk,2.0 58543,welshmermaid thank you for the follow yesterday ,0.0 58544,two things that you are though is jealous and irrelevant ,0.0 58545,rt ninthwardjawn me as my mental health continues to decline and my depression and anxiety cloud my judgment and decision making https,2.0 58546,how to distract your head from negative thoughts any ideas please,3.0 58547,＠wangyazhou 我这里twitterfox twittercom twhirl都连接�上去 现在是通过tor，访问的。,2.0 58548,did weed make anyone a whole lot worse weed used to be so much fun for me everything was better when i was high however over time i became more anxious and paranoid when i was high if i smoked with people id go all quiet id worry what they were thinking of me worry what to say i even got like this chatting to people online eventually i started to smoke alone in an attempt to lessen the anxiety and paranoia i would also drink to relax myself more before getting high it didnt really work though id be paranoid my brother or sister or parents would come in while i was drunk and stoned and want to chat about something sometimes id be paranoid the cops would randomly show up at my house i would also start dwelling on how shitty my life is thinking about all the ways ive messed up my past and how scary the future is a few times i had panic attacksafter a bit of a struggle i gave up smoking weed however i feel like the damage has been done my anxiety and paranoia are still there im constantly dwelling on things i also feel like it might have made my ibs worse too possibly because of how much it has raised my anxietya couple of years ago i went to europe with my family we visited amsterdam while there my parents know my sister smokes and know i used to smoke we split up and me and my sis went to a coffee shop i was hesitant but id been so long without weed i thought i might be ok if i just smoked a little i had half a joint and it didnt take long before my anxiety and paranoia was through the roof i sat there barely saying a word with a cold sweat my heart racing i was having a panic attack my sis suggested we go back to the hotel my legs felt like jelly as we walked back it took a few hours before i felt normal enough to have a conversationthat really cemented that weed has totally fucked me up has anyone had a similar experience with cannabisfor the record i have absolutely nothing against weed if it helps you,3.0 58549,just got done taking pictures with kaly it was so much fun and i cant wait to see them ,0.0 58550,just loving the beautiful red color of my road rashmust of made some lovely skid marks ,0.0 58551,thank you for the advice ill work on that when im not at work,0.0 58552,up early so washed and waxed the car im sure the neighbours think im mad i wash it nearly every week ,0.0 58553,morning i had an amazing night i had a dream with tom ok now im off ill try meet mcfly or just meet tom and harry ,0.0 58554,stillmank im pretty sure the shape of punk to come is the most perfect album i have ever listened to ,0.0 58555,scared im slipping back into depression at the beginning of this year there was a three week period of time where i was clinically depressed crying all the time uncontrollably i just couldnt figure out why i was feeling this way which made me feel even more scared like i had lost all sense of control and hope that i could do anything to make it better eventually i got better through therapy and its been pretty good since then but now im feeling those familiar feelings it feels like its starting all over again and ive started getting really panicked and anxious the last time i was like this was awful i feel traumatized from it i dont know what to do im so scared to go back to that time im scared that im just going to wake up one day and have to go through weeks of hell again with no way out ,3.0 58556,ugh its too early ,2.0 58557,what is it thats giving you depression fake friends family problems fake friends fake friends are the some of the reasons that are giving me this,3.0 58558,hotvogue oh yes absolutely thanks ,0.0 58559,i am so sad that molly is leaving for camp ,2.0 58560,selenagomez thats very cute ,0.0 58561,stampfliturci bet you had a great time helmut cornwall is lovely too ,0.0 58562,rt lifeaseva respect and acknowledge people with mental health problems it is a real thing and not something anyone chooses to live with,1.0 58563,rt angelsulk anxiety anxiety anxiety,2.0 58564,depression fckin sucks via youtube,1.0 58565,saw last chance harvey tonight really lovely film well done chick flick for grown ups followed with beer yo sushi and gossip friday ,0.0 58566, im not coming til late in the evening but i might stay overnight ill txt u ,2.0 58567, then come although you wont be able to stay over because my roommate has friends down this weekend ,2.0 58568,break free from fear and anxiety with this free devotional and resource guide usershareurl,2.0 58569,djdorothy she later called up some other people to move the table near the lan socket ,0.0 58570,datadirt hahah okay then thanks for this short explanation ,0.0 58571,backward slide on months of progress with one comment hi everyone in a nut shell i have been on and off antidepressants for about years do to postpartum depression i usually can stop taking them once my baby turns about months after this last baby i stayed on them much longer approximately months in the past few weeks i have felt im in a good enough place to start tapering off with dr guidance we just moved to a new neighborhood about months ago my son has been making friends with the next door neighbors kids ive been really excited about this and happy however today the little boy told us that his parents dont want us living here and when we moved in we were too loud and they dont like us the little boy is young and he didnt mean it to be hurtful i also have boys that finally have a big backyard to play in they can get loud as kids do but i really feel that we have been kind and respectful neighbors this hit me so hard i feel like i have back slide all the way to the dark times i feel so low this is not what i wanted and i feel so hurt i feel guilty for letting my kids play in their backyard i feel like such an outsider and my house doesnt feel like a happy place anymore i am overwhelmingly upset somewhat irrationally ill admit i dont know how to cope or deal i dont know if i should quit tapering off my meds and go back to the full dose seems silly to lose all my progress over one little hearsay comment from a child but i feel so down and upset i was finally doing better i worked so hard for this,3.0 58572,davech happy birthday to you ,0.0 58573,brianputz not yet i am stuck at work without my laptop till how is it so far wish atampt would step the fuck up and get mms working,2.0 58574,likes it how her daddy is twittering ,0.0 58575,do not depressed individuals really not think about suicide i have dreamt of killing myself pretty regularly for the past decade dreamt in there form that i have mental videos play of me taking my life whether it be driving off a cliff or releasing my gray matter to the air i have these videos play in my head almost daily even when i dont feel depressed i dont have any true desire to kill myself but i do seem to find some relief from having this mental imagery play in my head but it got me wondering if this is something other people experience,3.0 58576,flyingphotog very cool im gonna be sad when the last of our is gone down to about of them now,2.0 58577, some of my fav ladies ,0.0 58578,illegal rave just started in the field behind my house no sleep for me tonight then ,2.0 58579,momochalao you look so cute in your picture ,0.0 58580,you know what makes me sad when i fine out about a show i want to go to but i am pretty sure i cant go to ,2.0 58581,i feel wanting to die every single is worse than actually dying i wish i was an orphan so no one would care if i end my life it sucks having to hang in there just to not hurt your family i know i failed them i deserve to die but they dont deserve to suffer im a complete waste of resources and oxygen years of miserable life with no end in sight to it im overwhelmed theres a lot going on in my mind right now but im not able to let it all out all i want now is to experience what it feels like to live with peace of mind for a single day a mind thats not constantly at a never ending losing battle,3.0 58582,daverosin omg that is horrible sorry guys ,2.0 58583,ill be tweeting by my cell phone cuz im going to a family trip and i cant bring my laptop with me ,2.0 58584,nuttychris why thankyou ,0.0 58585, well i owe ya some gas moneybut its not near that much be careful with wayne ,2.0 58586,mrspaulkjonas i want to find some of commans music good idea ,0.0 58587,rt landsrauhl i cant believe as fans someone whos supposed to support and want happiness for the fav are wishing depression and for h,0.0 58588,marialkanellis would love to see you back on raw the trump would be graced with your presence all the time ,0.0 58589,benayers happy to be of service ,0.0 58590,realbillbailey im guessing the tickets r sold out ,2.0 58591,theres been a resurgence of interest in the anxietyrelieving powers of ltheanine an amino acid found in green t httpstcobplanhtgjx,0.0 58592,one of those days one of those moments i consider myself to be extremely lucky im well aware that i have mild depression but not to the extent of selfharm etc it is still within control and im thankful for that it could be worsethat being said its not like it doesnt affect me all i can say is i manage it well better than somei may start off my morning all cheerful and happy as if the air i breathe contain happinessin the middle of the day these random feelings just hit me out of nowhere like a time bombwhen it hits it hits me pretty hard i will start off by feeling very empty and slightly sad for a reason i cant tell what then when the feeling slowly sinks into me i will start to think about things that happened in the past that made me sad past experiences of being bullied my overthinking worries etcim currently on my way to attend a concert but im just not feeling itthe sadness and emptiness is eating me up and because i cant just let go and disappear from this world for good the closest i can get is laying in bed in my dark room and cry silentlycan anybody tell me what i should do now while waiting for my friend to arrive at the concert venuethank you if you made it till the end of my post,3.0 58593,leandn malamaang iyaaan pinaka na stress ako sa ginawa kay dara ,2.0 58594,totally bored xx,2.0 58595,never trump idiot savant ben shapiro plays sad violin for crying hillary supporters via youtube,2.0 58596,rt essentiallyliv yesterday i started a devotional plan on life with anxiety amp it said something that really stuckthis is your reminde,2.0 58597,reaching a point where happiness feels strange anyone else reach a point of depression where when you get a boost of genuine happiness it feels strange for me it feels like my depression is dragging me back down to reality telling me i shouldnt feel that and all the time i just let it happen because i actually dont like feeling happy it feels strange and makes me uncomfortable ,3.0 58598,i am just replying to my irate boss for not doing something i wasnt even included in awww this sucks big time,2.0 58599,my life has fallen apart hi i just wanted to share my story i feel like getting it off my chest would maybe helpive always struggled with feeling down i have a habit of knocking myself out and cutting myself struggled big time with self harm in general long story short years ago i had to leave my apartment due to my housemate being a thief couldnt get anywhere to stay im based in dublin ireland so ended up moving to london had a great job there with fantastic prospects however i was so lonely and depressed i broke up with the love of my life over the phone as i wanted her to get away from me as i planned on killing myselfshe ignored my calls and texts which i dont blame her just would have been nice to talk to her again she was my best friend it was recommended to me to move back to dublin as i had people around me i moved back and within one month of arriving home i developed a cocaine and alcohol addiction three years later ive had to leave two jobs due to me cutting myself on site i have zero motivation for work and drink myself into oblivion every night i havent cut myself this year so far but i have knocked myself out several times im fairly tired of being tired would just love to die really im so disappointed with life and with people im angry all the time thanks for listening,3.0 58600,eastofnorth ouch ,2.0 58601,sending love amp respect to all the mommies out in the twitterverse you all inspire me ,0.0 58602,finished college now this time week ago i was in disneyland ,2.0 58603,i regret listening to the deh soundtrack while working on them too bc now im sad,2.0 58604,am i going through a burnout phase or just some weird low mood thing going on or is it my anxiety talking or is it all of the above,1.0 58605,rt salomeeno depression is treated as a hushhush topic for us africans guys if u ever find yourself in a prolonged unhappiness pls t,2.0 58606,ugh i hate when my grandparents are precious im at dinner please disturb me ,0.0 58607,why cant you just tell me whats wrong i cant help you if you dont tell me because i dont know how do you not know whats wrong i cant tell you because i dont fucking know ,3.0 58608,i need somebody i can trust im feeling like crap ,2.0 58609,loving these late night conversations ,0.0 58610,at din with my baby teen and toph and hesse red lobster for life,0.0 58611,being alive,0.0 58612,revising is such a bore i wish i could go to sleep ,2.0 58613, hi selena gomez is your cousin i just found your twitter page and im wondering ,0.0 58614,youngmoneyreef ugh nothing exciting you i miss everyone on the tour though ,2.0 58615, your very welcome ,0.0 58616,wondering who wants to go to alice cooper concert with me let me know ,0.0 58617,just finished my workout and heading home to do my quiet time ,0.0 58618,rt mtnmoxiegirl gratitude eliminates fear worry grief and depression and brings happiness clarity compassion and peace of mind,1.0 58619,waiting on the train very very cold,2.0 58620,one hour away from getting my stand so then i can actually play my digital piano properly ,0.0 58621,rt adriijimenezz got bigger things to stress about im done,2.0 58622,at cheers for the last night in boston ,0.0 58623,oh fuck lol,1.0 58624,nelisalr welkome back ,0.0 58625,some grey goose rockabillycheese fries ,0.0 58626,i dislike rainy days but its gods way of doin whatev he does so i dont mind ,0.0 58627,jamieoliver hey i love your showscan you please help me with dinner my soon to be in laws are cmng i dnt knw what to serve thanks ,0.0 58628,feel not good in my company feel tight ,2.0 58629,rt ur wcw takes depression naps a day worries about nothing and eats everything in sight its me im ur wcw,2.0 58630,see you later ,0.0 58631,stupid laptop missing out on all those sweet updates ,2.0 58632,tired and missing some of my friends this hasnt been a very happy sunday im afraid ,2.0 58633,my nose feels naked ,2.0 58634,stommped me tooo me toooo i havent had my lunch boooo ,2.0 58635,thx for the followfriday recommendations from eaglesflite datgirlcarolyn ,0.0 58636,britney darling i know you want my sweet ass i know how round and beautiful it is but i dont swing that way and stalking me is bad ,2.0 58637,wait im so fuckign sad this,2.0 58638,ecstaetically so sad ,2.0 58639,grade is the trashiest year of my life in terms of friendships grades family mental health im gonna pretend this year never happened,2.0 58640,pills arent working if i cant use pills as a crutch then what hope is there,3.0 58641,new study treat anxiety depression with bouldering httpstcoqtlwqyvrue via thegearjunkie,1.0 58642, cant afford to see angels and demons so i watched it for free httptrimlvbu,2.0 58643,misscarlybaby yayy fer drunk bowling ,0.0 58644,i love all the twilighters on here theyre so awesome mtv movie awards are almost here its a must see ,0.0 58645,i want to die but im also excited for my future please help i want to die but im also really excited and anxious for my scholarship in a school abroad i have months till i start in my new school but i honestly want to die already i feel like theres a hole in my body that just makes me want to crawl out of my skin ,3.0 58646,rt troubledpoc i met haqiem rusli at starbucks earlier 😅 i asked him why did he faked his depression then he threw his iced americano a,2.0 58647, alone and lost depression has swallowed me whole im alone here in the east coast my family all lives in the west coast now i work it for a managed service provider the main customer i work for just switched to a different service provider my boss just told me that once the transition is complete i will no longer have a job i just cried for an hour straight i have never felt this sad or alone in my life,3.0 58648, public public ,0.0 58649,abominable thats okay you told me your real answer privately ,0.0 58650,different so i have these depression episodes and i usually cut myselfthis time i dont have anything to cut withand i noticed that im eating alotis that a thing if you dont cut you just find another outlet,3.0 58651,rt joeyginz rip corner hero the best thing that ever happened to me and to this town this is the worst day of my life might have an an,1.0 58652,rt travon turns around to cameraoh hey didnt see you there i was just sitting here counting all the fucks i give about this sad jo,1.0 58653,yeah i feel like existing is a curse not a blessing we are all just working to die comfortably we struggle our way out of terrible spots in life whether be mentally physically or financially just to find another struggle you may learn a lot from each experience but the end result doesnt change and the struggles continue then as a man you get insulted and slandered when you show emotion to any of the problems going on me personally have never had anyone my entire life who has supported me the sole reason being my attitude towards life what can anyone expect from me when all i have ever known is struggle and pain whilst not being able to express any of it except anonymously i have heard the statement fake it till you make it many times throughout my life so i learned to put a mask on that has its drawbacks as well considering youre not acting like yourself and when put into situations where you have to take the mask off no one knows who you really are i also want to put out there that the only thing i want out of life is love just a healthy relationship with compassion from someone who knows me yet i cant put myself out there as much as i like due to struggles and unfortunate circumstances i find myself reaching out to my exes to fill the void of having no one and just end up hurting myself again not physicallyim not brave enough for that guess the reason im posting this is to see if anyone has any advice about having the mindset that i do right now if you read till the end thank you stranger,3.0 58654,aaron is going to be at the much music video awards in toronto on june ,0.0 58655,talking abt his depression boy can we talk about something else nowme yeah what kind of music do u like wtf is wrong w me help,0.0 58656,mrbeatnick wow your concrete remix is nice bit laid back but nice neverthelessmy mum also doesnt buy records anymore ,2.0 58657,rt bphopemag the ultimate guide to social anxiety and bipolar disorder bipolar mentalhealth,1.0 58658,heading out to catch the bus ,0.0 58659,saturday morning time to do a little work on the blog ,0.0 58660,tomowalter alright dude give me a buzz tomorrow ,0.0 58661,how is this not a sign from the universe my meds have stopped working and increasing the dosage has done nothing how can i not take this as a sign from the universe that im not meant to be alive what is the point of suffering when everything i diligently try does nothing i wanna die i just dont want it to my fault cause maybe that would hurt people less,3.0 58662,a dissapointment nothing i do is really worth a praise i partially understand why im in therapy for almost a year and ive improved some compared to the last couple of yearswhere my depression was very bad but its not good i still have issues and honestly it would be easier if i were gone im conflicted with my feelings and my thoughts so i apologize for my rambling thoughts,3.0 58663,scottmallinson rainycat thanks for the tips guess i have to endure being stuck in bed ,2.0 58664,heading to work then off to record the next big thing cherie moyle at her gig tonight ,0.0 58665,yawn well im off to bed night twitter ,0.0 58666,headed to draft on taft for bottomless beers and bad decisionmaking ,0.0 58667,plus hypervm of the hosting service i am using was hacked and it appears that all nodes have some level of damage so box is down also ,2.0 58668,hishaamsiddiqi you take reaaaally good shots homie i love em so much and i just saw the new port beach one that thing is kickin ,0.0 58669,rt esopstl asking cops to handle calls for citizens in the middle of mental health crises is like asking your pastor to perform open hea,0.0 58670,aint no stress on me lord keep movin forward 💃🏽,2.0 58671,naomipalmer hehe sorry hunny but i am super duper excitied woo hoo,2.0 58672,need to contemplate my graduate studies got some bad news about reimbursement today perhaps the beach retreat will shed some light,2.0 58673,thesouthernstar which font wingdings ,0.0 58674,shantecurtis all the original members of destinys child will always have a place in my heart yeah thii is so cool ,0.0 58675,i luv tweet tweet ahhgg my fish died quotfat albertquot ,2.0 58676,these infinity war tweets surfacing again is gonna put me into stage depression 😭😭😭🤧,2.0 58677,meetings this morning and this afternoon tweet ya soon,2.0 58678,pamelabey attempt who is pamelabey ,0.0 58679,rt dejadeshea 😅 you aint the only one ,2.0 58680,rt aloezehra seifadwar on their sadness whereas we have a lot of free time and its all we do also when you have no physical problems an,1.0 58681,ricklondon dont look at me like that mr rick ,0.0 58682,twadwords get followers a day using wwwtweeteraddercom once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0.0 58683,my ex is pregnant and im not gonna stick around my ex is pregnant which is kind of a world turner i broke up with her after i came in her when i found out she was lying to me about a guy she was talking too im super mad because i trusted her enough to want to have kids with her but obviously she shouldnt have lied about talking to another guy and her excuse is we only spoke when her and i were broken up but she always initiated the break ups and a day after we broke up she messaged him saying your super cute i feel fucking betrayed or used or something im all honesty i was thinking about signing my rights and away im trying to talk to my ex about maybe adoption not just for my benefit but for hers and the babies and like i know im gonna get threatened with her family coming after me i just cant love a baby that came out of a lie maybe this makes me horrible but i cant im also not gonna go into court for custody or anything also i know im the father if it was maybe blurred during my post she said she didnt tell me about the guy so it wouldnt fuck my anxiety but like why do it at all if you were afraid of the consequences i do also suffer from depression and anxiety and this whole situation and what ive been told is making me suicidal im not trying to be horrible or shitty or anything i was also told to post here,3.0 58684,im not exceted for the shots im about to get at the clinic im going to shit my pants,2.0 58685,im mad the next jonas live chat is the same day and time as my soccer tryouts also i have no idea if theres an episode of jonas today,2.0 58686,mom wont be here for mothers day but shell be home i the phillipines work tomorrow all day happy mothers day my surrogate momsfb,2.0 58687,shit life by no means am i saying my life is the worst i know other people have it way worse than i mine has just been shit after shit with no light anywhere elementary school was fine but as soon as i get to middle school it took a turn for the worsefrom grade to my senior year ive been unbelievably bullied nonstop in middle school i went to a predominately black school and i thought id be relatively accepted there but nah that wasnt the case it fucked me up pretty badly where my barely into my teens ass thought no woman in my race would ever want mei know that i was in my preteens and i shouldnt have been worried about any of that but it still got to me shit it still affects me to this day my so called friends back then if you want to call them that would often do the same even though they so how hurt i would feel they even abandoned me at one point but my naive self just went crawling backhigh school wasnt much different only real difference was that i actually found real friends it helped but the shit that happened from middle school dragged its ugly head into high school it felt like the bad outweighed the good now often times i look at myself and wish i was someone else someone who never went through any of this someone with confidence that never fades in a blink of an eye i just wish i wasnt myself i dont want to be me anymore,3.0 58688,have you guys figured out a way to combat brain fog its the one symptom which seems to be hindering me the most at the moment,3.0 58689, into a better day cant wait to cause trouble tonight call or text,0.0 58690,my plan to stay single until the hsc finishesseems so fucking far away hmphhh ,2.0 58691,tineymarie haha bad tin i never took leno hes hilarious im glad hes carrying over headlines amp jaywalking his primetime,0.0 58692,melinamatsoukas when im not with you all our store people ask where my tall sister is i miss u ,2.0 58693,derkapitan be careful you dont put someones eye out ,2.0 58694,divine calm shower gelnya tbs mantafff nyesel deh beli travel size doang ,2.0 58695,wow its warm sunbathing on my trampoline ,0.0 58696,cinemabizarre why and in berlin how about chicago lol jk but this is really sad ,2.0 58697,for those who have mental illness such as panic attacks depression anxiety attack exc yall would know how amazing it feels ❤️,1.0 58698,emilymatthews nothing really just music how about youu,0.0 58699,rt wowyorkregion mental health supports was indicated as a top need among our south asian female participants wowyorkregion httpstco,1.0 58700,good morning twitterverse hows it going ,0.0 58701,with mommy ,0.0 58702,dougiemcfly hi just going to ask if you can write back to me because my two best friends are in love with you ,0.0 58703,angelicagee its al good i have a microwave ,0.0 58704,nuttymadam i totally agree shes under an enormous amount of pressure ,2.0 58705,i need a haircut ,2.0 58706,feliciaday i want one ,2.0 58707,maurizioc have a good snooze ,0.0 58708,exoticbella never that just making sure u dont ruin the goods and i thought we was top notch ace boon coonsi never get promo help ,2.0 58709,off of work earlygoing to head to the gym im excited ,0.0 58710,katzmandu true though it couldve been a good revenueraising move for the airline amp would b entertaining for other passengers to watch ,0.0 58711,mandyyjirouxx you and miley need to make another miley and mandy youtube video i miss you guys hurry up too love ya,2.0 58712,getting ready to watch lenos last show ,2.0 58713,alexsnaps it sounds like youve been fully integrated into the company happy javaone,0.0 58714,rt friendstagram be with someone who brings out the best in you not the stress in you,1.0 58715,myinnerbitch hey it happens i can be a bastard sometimes too ,0.0 58716,claireboyles sorry when read it it appeared you were saying you had said something online and now its considered a fact ,0.0 58717,httpwwwreadguitartabscom approves of the new star trek ,0.0 58718,jadeibet i dont have much swag sorry ill get you something at the coop its open special on sunday,2.0 58719, and i miss you already so when i our little graduation at your housedid someone update it,2.0 58720,on my way to my interview at starbucks ive always thought starbucks was a little cliche minus their green tea lattes but money calls ,0.0 58721,oh yes thx for listening uniteamplisten by matttuck has ended im still around for a lil bit longer ,0.0 58722,i just ate a whole fucking special k bar and didnt taste it fark im sick i will go tomorrow ,2.0 58723,thisisrobthomas happy anniversary ,0.0 58724,needs to start the big clean for the party next weekend plus homework ,2.0 58725,have to work today just for an hour or so ,0.0 58726,nickrampage rolls eyes ahhhalright i guess ill forgive you we all make mistakes lol ill stay ,0.0 58727,rt bluewindspeed sadness is a spike get over itdepression is a pit keep goingcheckpoints friends that give liveseven with that ,0.0 58728,i feel like i would be genuinely happy if i woke up knowing i had cancer and was going to die in months title was really all i wanted to say,3.0 58729,rt gothforbid then do us all a favor and dont approach women ,0.0 58730, deadlines mon rough copy of nepal film un grant amp grant film is exporting un grant done last touches on web app now ,0.0 58731,ohblee awwwwww i just want loads more theyre so squidgeable ,0.0 58732,it always comes back its like im doing well for nearly a week and then all of a sudden i come crashing down i hate this cycle,3.0 58733,super bummed about the canucks ,2.0 58734,whatthefcksousa hey just did my hair now im hungry and then gotta go back to school you,2.0 58735,rainbowspitt so glad eddies okay really sucks about the car though ,2.0 58736,my heart is broken ,2.0 58737,rt lpolgreen on the killing of nia wilson and the anxiety of being a black woman ,2.0 58738,work work work ,2.0 58739,i cant be fixed its been four years since ive been diagnosed its been a rollercoaster and its going down again i want out,3.0 58740, i am very angry at this information marcos ,2.0 58741,back to work after two week holday x,2.0 58742,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 58743,will go on a san francisco city tour today no shopping in chinatown for me ,2.0 58744,hdloverforever good cuz it didnt work ,0.0 58745, even harsh left now there seem to be less and less reasons every day for me to stick around here,2.0 58746,i just wasted one week of my holidays need to plan on something fun before everything ends,2.0 58747,its raining but its alright then the grass will get greener good for the horses the school ends soon yeah im so happy for that xd,0.0 58748,i feel like im going downhill again when my depression was at an all time high last year i cried everyday for months stopped eating dropped pounds it was a dark time but slowly for a short time things looked brighter i wasnt crying as much i started eating more and now its happening again im crying more eating less losing weight again i dont talk to anyone and i can feel that dark cloud hanging over me again i dont want to get back to that point but i feel like i have no control over my own stupid mind i hate this,3.0 58749,catching up on my blogging amp getting ready to run to port city java i heart ilm ,0.0 58750,welcome to fatherhood garyvee congrats man,0.0 58751,phpfunk it looks really funny w the big tv in the background ,0.0 58752, just people i deal w daily delusions of grandeur ,0.0 58753,kingsrush so sad glad it fell into an open area yikes,1.0 58754,anxiety destroys my fokus cognitive functions normal im starting a new job soon and ive had a hard time focusing lately and keeping my thoughts together which results in me forgetting little things all the time ive many years have anxiety of going madalot of drugs and head injuries in teh past and im wondering if these rough past is starting to catch up with my brain or if its just the anxiety crippling my brain and ability to workin itanyone who have had similiar happend to themtips to deal with itim so scared that it will stay like thos and i wont be able to perform at my new job because of it,3.0 58755,rt noturmcm me wow im actually starting to feel happy again my depression ,0.0 58756,rt traciethoms but seriously why arent presidental candidates required to take a mental health exam,2.0 58757,sashavujacic congrats sasha and to the lakers i had a friend who absolutely avid fan of your team and shes inlove with kobe,0.0 58758,rt craigslistlover this is so sad ,2.0 58759,i just need someone to talk to can someone talk to me anyone,3.0 58760,starofsavannah please follow suit and take pics ,0.0 58761,i thought a shower would help but no such luck my lame friday night plans now involve bed running on fumes and working early tomorrow ,2.0 58762,rt tonichaille missinmarko connieballou subtlerbutler sallyalbright broadeyeview capwaterfront ,1.0 58763,bunniesnbuggies the one i want right now i cant afford my kids think stuff like vacation electricity and breakfast are more important,2.0 58764,rt nintendoushio anytime youre sad please just watch charles martinet interviewsive met this man twice and can confirm that he reall,0.0 58765,mimsypeppercorn bringing community to see the impacts of how addiction effects us all with mental health ,2.0 58766, day hopefully ,0.0 58767,btw my mother said i cant go audition for american idol amp if i even think of doing so shed kick me out of the house oh well,2.0 58768,this is sad oh my god,1.0 58769,working on improvements to fdropit ,0.0 58770,i like extremely sad things or comedies there is no inbetween ,1.0 58771,i invented a new recipe quotconfetti spaghettiquot its amazing its just me and the sister having a date night ,0.0 58772,is employyyed but i has to get up at booooooooooooooo,2.0 58773,feel like something crazy want to go for a midnight walk on a beach ,0.0 58774, ugh i could spend all my money at uo they are way expensive ,2.0 58775,good morning up early to do some work before church must finish this seminar the house is so quiet ,0.0 58776,good morning ,0.0 58777,rt turkiyem müminlerden öyle adamlar vardırkiallaha verdikleri söze sadık kaldılronlardn kimiallah yolunda şehit edilmek suretyl,1.0 58778,my gomdori must be really sad 😔,1.0 58779,day of the quotbuddy post surgeryquot watch wound looks exactly the same as it did this is not encouraging ,2.0 58780,scarfbaby did you get that job you interviewed for ,0.0 58781,does anyone else feel pressure to be in a relationship i feel so much pressure at this age to be a relationship whose mostly been a lone for my entire life ive had a few meaningless hookups have a well paying job live in a major metro area with tons of single women my friends are mostly in relationships starting to move in together and get engaged and here i am on the sideline wondering if my very unattractive self will ever find someone that fits with me but then i look at that and i think not everyone in life finds someone thats the hollowing truth the pressure continues to make me more depressed seeing whats happening around me and the joy and happiness my friends are getting to experience is really ticking me off the last few days ,3.0 58782,stuck in the rain ,2.0 58783,how to stop selfdoubting hey there everyone i hope youre all doing fineim about to have a big examination sat kinda thing in a few days and im tensed up all to hell lately ive been having trouble sleeping and almost lost my appetite completely i had a bit of a melt down a couple days ago and i cried in bed for a good hours my eyes were swollen and i had to take the day off from studying sometimes i have thoughts like what if i fuked up again and its not good for my morale all these things made me all the more anxious and the more i think about failing the more i want to run away from it all i tried to stay positive but cant cram for exam if i am tired and tensed all the time i just dont have the courage to hang on through this monthsome backgrounds i am a years old high school graduate crappy high school the people were ok but i spent way too much time tried to fit it rather to make myself actually smarter when i took my first college entrance exam i failed so bad i might as well didnt do it went to a night college and tried the exam again i fared better this time so i went to a community college all seems fine new beginnings huh then everything went to crap the curriculum was nowhere near to what i had expected or can handle so my grades suffered the people were the worst god the people there the only thing i got from the community college was depression after year i decided to cut loss and call it quits i was at the closest to suicide at the time i keep thinking that i was a massive fck up and cant do anything right everyday was a living hell only thing kept me going was working to pay the tuition back to my familywhich i did in a few months small victory there i think my brother said maybe i should try taking exam again even though i think i have wasted too much time on it and i often feel ashamed that most people my age are graduating and i am still stuck here as a hs graduate and it led me to the aforementioned anxietythis is my third attempt at the examination i know college isnt a must but finding a job other then cashier was quite difficult without a college degree hey it youve read this far i just want to say thanks and its good to have someone to hear me vent a bittldr how to stop selfdoubting and latenight panic attack so i can save time and energy to study,3.0 58784,waseembadami bhai ny apka question poocha hai 😄 ,2.0 58785, agreed we can never have enough twilight and isnt rob so adorably awkward onstage its quite cute ,0.0 58786,self destructive cycle and worriness i have been having repressed worriness in my mind and cant sleep unless my brain is completely shut down which means ill try to stay awake as long as i can my sleep cycle has shifted by an hour every day and now i sleep in the morning from not a week ago if i try to go to sleep earlier i will be with my own depressing thoughts have to think about my from future and cry myself to wake and play video games i promised myself to improve by doing productive things in the day but due to my messed up sleep cycle i ended up put it off because of headache and play video games insteadhow do i stay productive and optimist despite the fact that my worst nightmare is inevitable in the coming few months,3.0 58787,andrewismyname just so you know we can hear everything you are saying right now these tent walls arent thick ,0.0 58788,is wondering why her and sleep dont seem to mesh ,2.0 58789,im bad person i trying to fix myself for example stop lie so i trying first time to tell story about my real life and not lie at least anonimus i from east europe my family not rich but i always had home food and i think even love i will tell things i thing inportant for memy father then i was kid punish me around times per week i think i was good kid who was very active and who make a lot stupy mistakes thats why then i was kid i lied always a lot first time then i felt lie is good was in school year somethink happen and i with teacher go out of class dont remember if she cry before or after but i told how its hard for me becouse father lost finger it was lie my feeling mixed about this event i have problems with bullying me but it wasnt hard for me i had friends my best friend and i was good student avarge my result was till school year secound big lie witch i remember was with my best friends friend i liked her so i told a lot fake story about myself and everyone i think i remember this becouse it didnt worked it was in classmy life started fuck up in school years my parents started divorce in hard way years process police calls runing from our home to live in help centre and so on we started have money problems but everythink worked in good way i remember this moments then we all worked togever after months family protection blocked my father from living in our home and after months everythink was almost ok i was studying in art school also my mom was teacher in same school with new school year i organized class party in forest and from this moment i started drink first time didnt comeback home becouse i found nice girl in concert becouse our school had many room to practice we drinked in school miss lessons and so on it was fun moments i started missing about lessons per semester in school year i lost best friend he didnt wanted share music cd so i stolen for a day and copy it he saw it after he few friends teached me lesson i told about it for director all class started protect him and at this moment i thinked my life is ending but in same week my happen even bigger disaster my granny die i didnt come to school about months i not remeber much but then i comeback to school my goal was to stay repeat school year becouse my music teacher told me i will never get in university so i wanted get more time for me teacher was like a father and i think it was biggest mistake in my life so i convinced my mom i want move to other school where my music teacher learning and i did everythink to fuck up my school becouse i wanted to reapeat year but becouse my mom was school teacher she fixed it after i moved to new art school i lied about my class and they taked me in same school year they didnt check my papers just trusted my word i not joking this school was worse but had much strong music students from my instrumentafter i started study most people was from my perspective losers everythink was easy for me everyone was drinking and smoking so i join them in winter i found love in internet away and i started autostop a lot and miss lessons i missed in first simester around lessons in secound gf left me and after a lot drama i was expelled from school i had grandpa in my girlfriends town i got idea to move here i worked hard and got to good art school the idea was to show how good im for my exgf for my family this big city was last place where i could continue my studies so they supported my again with first school papers i got to year school started my golden year before semester i found way how to make money on the street started party nonstop got a lot friends and so on in new school i come like rock star i had amazing music group and had many activities non stop i found gf in my class for weeks after i left her becouse i didnt started it and i started to be boring with her after i left her i had problems with class again school again but before i also was missing lessons just now started even more i think first semester i missed and secound again a lot drama in familyafter i fuck up i comeback to my home town and i was trying to finish last years in adult school i didnt told about it for anyone in this adult school nobody care if you are in lessons or not just tell them u are working and you not need to go so i lied and i always was drinking parting and autostoping every week from km to play with my band meet friends and so on my look i think was max but i found gf who i think was now she is profesional pole dancer we were able to be togever years i lied to her a lot about my past for example i told i before was drug dealer and so on i told many good real stories but it was not enouth for me i was hiding fact i was studing in adult school for a year i think after i told but dont know why she supported me after i finish studie i with my family moved to other country after few months gf left me and it was hard time for me i was not going to language lessons but i didnt wanted learn stupy language with idiots who cant read so i was played everyday hours in small music school my family thinked everythink is ok until they got info about me from school after this i started learn in curses for working in shop but at the same time i registrated to university and i manige get in in university exam i lied to profesors how i had punk green haircloth actualy i had only long her and only times i painted them and i thinked again im superman relaxed and started play computer games in summer i got weight from to university was not in english it was language witch i know only basic things first lessons was easy for me but i didnt feel in right place after main music teacher pressure i didnt come back i stay at home and played games until i was expelled from university i still didnt told for anyone about itnow im and years old i never worked in my life living on minimum money whitch i get from my mom she thinks i finished university working just cant surivive without help i know this gona finish but i wish to live like this more i had idea about killing myself but i dont want to die i know i will always find they how to be piece of shit and keep my lies safe forever but i wish to change my plan is stop lie and learn to say things who i really am and can be proud of myself start doing sports becouse now i cant normal move find fucking jobbut its almost inposible and i trying to find way to do iti feel bad about many things but i think im not bad person i not feel bad about lies i feel bad about not being good in some situation i cant delete them or accept it i dont know how to work for now everythink i have is my moms money shit live i have now is ok for me its hard to imagine somethink better i hate school i love music but i cant listen it anymore without hating everythink about it now i writing from square room with month trash and beetlesso ye my life and i suck but maybe some good advice will come also i want to see people reaction to my life,3.0 58790,yahyan you made me feel worthless again with what you just said my grandma grandpa and aaron are in the living room,2.0 58791, im still hurting but getting stronger think my summer is ruined ,2.0 58792,divacandicem dont go thank you for everything ,2.0 58793, charity remember bee ,0.0 58794,gingercm congrats you win send me a dm w your email cgft,0.0 58795, aww lucky theyre so expensive but so big and full of space for tv shows such as hannah montana and arrested development,2.0 58796,watching the da vinci code all by myself ,2.0 58797,elisabethx i got a riding hat today not hard top but one ur wear under totally for u ,0.0 58798,so my dad died like years ago this very hour sad times ,2.0 58799,josh the song i told you id play at your funeral is playing ,2.0 58800, wow guey i am getting all weepy and teary eyed reading my old threads ,2.0 58801, good luck wjob hunt working but barely getting by myself started new biz right economy crashed savings funds evaporated ,2.0 58802,twitter is the worst drug ever with facebook i have to back to work ,2.0 58803,how cool would it be if like the bulls ever made the finals i think id make er trips within the series due anxiety—but it be a blast,1.0 58804,what do they say about the best laid plans theyre now driving to tampa to catch a flight hopefully and only from home ,2.0 58805,stuck in my bed dont want to move from here ,2.0 58806,depression anxiety x madness artist amp contemporary art london nytimes wsj httpstcopbahtycjow,2.0 58807,signing out of twitter bye evryone ,0.0 58808,trying to fall asleep at a sleepover and the other personpeople are already asleep so i feel a huge amount of pres httpstcoazkjscfydq,1.0 58809,is trying on clothes and i feel so great im a size or smaller and my ass looks great in these jeanslol ,0.0 58810,no enjoyment out of all my old hobbies it just feels so draining trying to improve things and one of the main things people say is find something enjoy the thing is that everything i used to enjoy just seems bland to me now i used to love gaming now ill just sit there not knowing what i want to do untill i just turn it back off and lay in bed,3.0 58811,the first amendment slowly may begin to die with the pentagone report ,2.0 58812,rt vinterine wtf is this me when i blast sad music in my earphones and cry while i wash the dishes and clean the house ,2.0 58813,is today old,2.0 58814,rt abratasas for all my anxiety ridden folks ,2.0 58815,losr my knitting mojo again cant do anything and it sucks,2.0 58816,im sad we are getting rid of george tonight ,2.0 58817,jaredleto thats the question right do you drink blood ,0.0 58818,gf ended things on valentines day feeling mentally and physically weak we had a relationship of nearly years though it was very long distance for at least half the time and we are still in school she was my first real love in january she decided she wanted to take a break i agreed and have had feelings like that in the past—that a break would be good for us and allow us to grow and experience college but now i just hurt ive had a nasty cough for a while and that plus my anxiety keeps me up for most of the night ive been to a few counseling sessions that have helped me think about my situation but i dont think ive gotten better i know that isnt supposed to fix anything but its painful to mope around she knows how i feel and i fear pushing her away and making her not ever want to even try again because im too crazy or weak or not the person she loved i romanticized our reunion i thought it was a chance on valentines day i asked her if she still loved me and she said she didnt know she said she keeps thinking about the negative nuances of our relationship and things i did that hurts really bad knowing youve hurt someone else but too late now she said she doesnt know if she wants to try again when she originally said i had been looking forward to that so much during or after the summer it was keeping me goingshe said she still loves me as a person in her life and i believe her but the fact that she doesnt want to be together or want to try again for a long time hurts really bad she explained a year test to me which basically would be for us to move on from each other be with other people for a while and work on ourselves then in years time we could assess where our professional live have taken us after school and see if we want to date again i totally understand where shes coming from it sounds fun and practical but my brain wont let me forget how happy i was with her and how i lost that im stuck she was my other half and so now ive lost half of who i am im scared to move on i know i probably can but will anyone make me as happy as her my nightmare probably selfish is that she has someone she loves more than me in years it makes me sick its morbid perhaps but im not in the right headspace now i might have the option of visiting her during my spring break—our schools breaks do not coincide the week after that shes going to miami with her friends for her spring break which also gets stuck in my head as i know shell probably get with other guys i know ill be so happy to see her but i also know its probably not smart will i get closure or a chance to recognize how i might be romanticizing what we had we used to talk on the phone every day that was such an important part of my sanity that i dont realize until it was gone havent gotten more than hours of sleep in a few weeks usually less i feel unproductive and physically weak from my cough my head physically hurts from no sleep i have too much in my head ,3.0 58819,ahh just woke up from a long ass nap hella tired from grad night ,0.0 58820,i feel like my only emotions are apathy or sadness been on antidepressants for a while but sometimes i just feel happy i also feel guilty because i know ive had a good privileged life with minimal problems exciting things happy to me and i feel like i have to fake happiness to not be fucking weird exciting things have happened a lot recently too good things but i still get in a car and think it wouldnt be so bad if i got hit and died i still feel like i have no purpose i dont know what to think sometimes im not suicidal by any means but i just dont enjoy life ive been considering swapping antidepressants to see if another is better but ive had bad experiences in the past when swapping not sure if im ready for that againjust needed to vent i guess im not someone who has ever talked about this stuff before,3.0 58821,just got in a fight with my mom ,2.0 58822,tommcfly have fun hope you sleep well when you get the chance to good question i have no idea lol x,0.0 58823,kikila why are you wasting time waiting for a phone call do stuff and if they call they call your better than that ,0.0 58824,rt baldboyblues is isolating myself from everyone bad for my mental health yes will i continue doing that absolutely,0.0 58825,not being able to open my car door fast enough in a public place,0.0 58826,help me i am i have been feeling depressed for long stretches at a time and every once in a while i will feel fine but i go back down seemingly out of nowhere and i am depressed for what feels like forever i live with my parents and i dont like talking to them about my issues because they just tell me i am complaining i dont have my own doctor and with this covid its not like i can go anywhere to seek help i feel stuck and i dont want this anymore,3.0 58827,lost my brother to depression ive recently lost my brother to depression i didnt know he was depressed and after he passed my parents told me that they tried their hardest to give him help but he didnt want it he wanted to always be happy and the life of the party and just be fun and never showed he was depressedi am having a really hard time dealing with this because my brother that ive known for years is suddenly gone for an illness that i dont know a lot abouthas anyone lost any loved ones to depression can i please have advice on how to handle this because im very numb and sad how can i help others with depression ,3.0 58828,i finally told my mom i have bpd todayshe looked at me like okay surelol no one ever takes my mental health seriously,0.0 58829, mine has been acting weird it wont let me add ppl to bbm ohhh yea what quottypequot of shoot did you wanna do,2.0 58830,rt schoolfession when someone says dont be anxious and your anxiety is cured ,2.0 58831,i dont know how to prevent myself from falling into the deep dark hole of nothingness there are two parts is me one depressed part when i am depressed i do nothing and feel shit i dont even eat i am too lazy to breathe but in my clear mind i know what to do to make me feel better the second part is full of motivation and i feel like thats the real me this part is not manic its calm and motivated knows what its doing and is just a cool guy so when i am depressed i wait in bed for several days while eating nothing until a motivating thing happens and then the other half comes out and i just get shit done and feel good about it until there is one thing i cant handle or comes not as planned most of the time i fall into the darkness again do you know a way to stop falling into that,3.0 58832,heading to work at least the sun is out,2.0 58833, i want one i want one have one for me im at work ,2.0 58834,theredstone lmaooo id google as well but since im on dial up speed now google is impossible lmao,0.0 58835,its like im not even existing i dont feel any emotions anymore its like im just here and i have to life through this shitty life life doesnt feel right i live for no reason,3.0 58836,just not enough opportunity for pisstake tonight disappointing as i cant livemastertweet again til next sunday ,2.0 58837,hi so i havent been outside in days something happened to me when i was on a date the first date in years it scared me so much i dont know what to do ,3.0 58838,rt medelmarr yeah u cute but are u good for my mental health,0.0 58839,now that the numb is beginning to wear off my mouth hurts and im hungry this is a terrible combination,2.0 58840,i thought the last two days of highschool were supposed to be easywhy is there so much work to do ,2.0 58841,itoneb and lets not forget u did state my name therefore u cared who it was had u not said me name it would have meant u didnt care ,0.0 58842,really bad stomach cramps ,2.0 58843,emilwilbekin congratulations on the new gig im a essence reader for life btw what do you know about rare essence gogo fan ,0.0 58844,cooking cake php its not easy as cooking realy cake without php ,2.0 58845,and im quite chuffed finally shelled out the cash for my ticket to wwdc now theres just that matter for passport photos amp my flight ,0.0 58846,aplusk awwww i remember when my yr old did thatthx for the memories ,0.0 58847,centralcommiti theirpeaceiswar so very sad,2.0 58848,went to the mall w peeps yay for not being bored all day lol im so thirsty getting a drink amp going to bed gnight take care ,0.0 58849,peterfacinelli everytime i refresh you gain a follower if just keep at you will win but my phones going to die i dont got my charger,2.0 58850,rt kauairockchick please hurry people will die from depression and anxiety this is not sustainable ,1.0 58851,ghostlightning bluefoxalley now that is something new,2.0 58852,nikfourpeace to goto philly and get my toes done lol ,2.0 58853,patrickboegel theropolitans mri must resist irrelevance we cant give up yet or can we im kind of done actually ,2.0 58854,tempted to listen to lvatt on yputube ,2.0 58855,wetbar tonight for bablaks nineteenth too bad im not going ,2.0 58856,back at work been here about hours and only more to go im way tired tonight missed sleep for a dud,2.0 58857, only got a couple bits to do today so i can take it easy ill start by making a list,0.0 58858,rt baldboyblues is isolating myself from everyone bad for my mental health yes will i continue doing that absolutely,0.0 58859,amiemccarron lolmy calves are too skinny i have bird legs and cant fill them out ,2.0 58860,nearly birthday timei want to stick at ,2.0 58861,rt coconutoilbae when you want to be friends w ppl but ppl think ur mean and unapproachable cus u have a resting bitch face and soci ,1.0 58862,rt elwa semua hal lagi berjalan lancar lagi nggak ada masalah signifikan yang menguras tenaga tapi kamu tetap capek mungkin kamu secara,1.0 58863,the numbers can be found on the back of the us dollar bill in the bushes at the base of the lincoln memorial now go look ,0.0 58864,i had a decent weekend i guess hopefully next weekend will be even better i hope this week will go by nicely too ,0.0 58865,classic never get tired of it ,0.0 58866,i didnt lose it airline did i checked it in it nvr appeared thereafter ,2.0 58867,waiting for the clock to turn ,0.0 58868,sleepy today and other daysin class after the professor ended explaing i layed my face down closed my eyes and began fantasising as i was about the sleep he puts something in my ear and allarms me for a moment you suffer this kinda things way too much when youre about to sleep he was playing obviously i smile i always smile when talking for no reason and say sorry im just too tired and he says he noticed and said sleep or whatever if you want then the other hour i woke up from sleeping turn around and the professor asks me if someone punched me in the front im too white and laying down had left a mark i somewhat jokingly play it of saying it was my classmate who did thisi dont appreciate this kind of episodes happening to me but i cant do anything i literally cant keep my eyes open and head up it weights too much i drink coffee too but it doesnt change the result does this happen to anyone else and does anyone know how to deal with this ,3.0 58869,suffering from low energy im not exaggerating when i say taking care of myself feels like a full time work cooking cleaning and taking a shower is hard for me i gave my two weeks notice and i wont be working anymore im legit too tired and worn out to do anything anymore i feel exhausted even though i havent done anything i just feel worthless and tired all the time depression loneliness physical health issues im just tired of living i dont feel like doing anything,3.0 58870,i wanted to be open with my mum but i want to stop i said to her that i do not want to go to a family gathering because i really dont enjoy it and she insisted because this is the status quo and that is how everybody does it i am pretty sure that no one there will miss me i didnt want to go to a wedding some years before and i was invisible to my cousin who was getting married she seems to care about her image she will be in the bad spotlight and regrets raising me this way she says that if she raised me more authoritatively i would have been more meek or i would have done everything she wanted this really disturbed me i opened myself before her this year and she has no sympathy for my mental health each time i talk with my parents they see me as a failure i do not want to open more i d rather go to my therapist than speak with them i wanted to tell her more about the reasons i am hating my life but i guess it is not the best idea,3.0 58871,going on a run ,0.0 58872,wake up wanting to die and sleep praying for it helloi have melancholic depression and severe social anxiety i have tried everything i could to manage the anxiety and depression but have learned that it is hopeless i work in a field where i regularly need to interact with a lot of people with the possibility of client presentations which scare me to the point of breaking down and crying wanting to die i have no motivation to work and going to work daily is something i absolutely cant do for the rest of my life i just want it to end just want to write it somewhere where theres a chance someone reads it i do hope the situation improves for you all ,3.0 58873,rt lifeaseva depression is diagnosed by a doctor and can be helped its not a sad twitter joke its not a relateable tweet stop joking a,1.0 58874,robocallaghan ill keep my eye out for that special cuckoo ,0.0 58875,i have a fever someone make it stop ,2.0 58876, arms are cold shoulders are now sunburned and about am aka my bedtime so goodnight twitter people ,0.0 58877,just blahim guna end up goin to bed mad ,2.0 58878,rocktress there will probably be tons of people there blah we could try or can you spend the night any time this week anyway,2.0 58879, still no storm well not yet ,2.0 58880,whoa how did i miss ethansuplee in fan boys hes so freakin awesome quotyoure only as strong as your weakest linkquot,0.0 58881,no more high school no more classes no more teachers ,0.0 58882,fixing to take patrick to dallas for several weeks makes me hate summer vaca,2.0 58883,its so lovely outside again success ,0.0 58884,depression makes not wanna get a job hi im here to get some help from you guysive been struggling with severe depression since i was a little kid and have never worked before im years oldim in a long distance relationship with my gf for years i live in mexico and she lives in korea but since i have never worked and dont have money we have never met before she cant visit me because shes a student and dont have enough money either but we fight a lot because i dont try to get a job which i should and my gf understands my depression but not fully so she wants me to get a job to visit her shes been patient for the past years and shes got more years to finish her degree but i dont feel like im gonna start working anytime soon because of my depression and i dont wanna make her wait any longer does anyone have a similar experience and if so can you share it with me,3.0 58885,why does have to replay the metal gear announcement on the its so painful ,2.0 58886,so im i the only one that feels emptiness when there love around me i think is just my own mind but i feel that every one that says they care really dont the people that say they love really just find me annoying maybe i really am nobody like im but i live in a shelter im homeless basically but i will never find anything that will fill my emptiness i play games to try and distract me but when something negative come in my head im just sad i just hope my next life isnt this horrible,3.0 58887,its been exactly a year since i found out my friend passed away i still cant get over it he was my only and dearest friend i have no friends now life was just like wait you actually have a friend lol not anymore i still cant get over it and i feel like a fucking baby my mom told me i should get over it in about a week since it happened thats cute i hate life i had depression before that but that just tops the cake i cant do this anymore but i cant kill myself because im a coward and dont want to disappoint my family,3.0 58888,rt mattnelson you can measure depression by how long washed and folded clothes stay on the end of your bed and not put away,2.0 58889,really wanted to stay ,2.0 58890,lost and confused hey reddit this is my first post in the depression forum and im just going to open right up and be honest about things because im lostconfused and need to find out how to handle this ive been struggling with depression for the last years since i was im now the last years have been just liter hell and paranoia and isolation ive done nothing but push people away from me i constantly isolate the only place im comfortable anymore is in front of my computer in my apartment which is section because im such a loser that i have a job that i do from home which is telemarketing but because of my depression i cant get myself to do anything except sit in my computer chair and stare at the walls for hours on end till i get tired and go to my bed roomi have no energy no motivation and im currently on medication for depression which isnt helping very muchmost days i just hope the day passes fast so i can get to the next one because i hate life and everything it entailson top of the depression im struggling with drug addiction it used to be amphetamines and opiates but now that i live where weed is legal i just smoke weed all the time just to get though the day and tbh that doesnt help very much i spend alot of my time figuring out how to be by myselfmost days i wish i would sleep and just forget to wake upive been suicidal before and cut myself but it was more of a gesture and not a real attempt however i tried to commit suicide with drugs for years and now that i just am smoking weed im ok with this however and i just dont knowi dont think my employer cares i havent loggedon remotely for the last weekswhile i do enjoy working from home the job is shady and stressful but i need the money and i cant make myself talk on the phone anymore its just so damn bad and i have no one to really open up with about iti feel like therapy isnt helping me much however i havent been able to attend lately because of the daytime work schedule but i just dont know my family wants me to go get checked into a crisi center to get stabilized but i want my freedom i dont want to get locked up in a place like that i was in and out of mental institutions in my late teens and early along with years of off and on substance abuse treatment ttrying to improve my life because thats what everyone wanted me to do so i did it and i tried for all of my adult life to get and stay sober however this is another goal i have yet to achieve and at this rate will never achieve it dont know if anyone can really help me but i just thought i would vent this off,3.0 58891,libbyextra hey no problem looking forward to the weekend got an addition to the family coming home have a good weekend,0.0 58892,lilchick is crystal a member of the mile high club ,0.0 58893, you know there are starving artists in ohio who have no breakfast burritos ,2.0 58894,subsero ill be calling u oh really take cover ,0.0 58895,just cleaned my balcony for the summer wow its much better now but where have all the flowers gone must get new ones,2.0