she is actually putting of her own money .
like she
yeah but I think that they
I don't know .
and so now what's happening is basically what they're saying is that in order for Barack to win like the entire election in order for him to become president he has to basically get her support .
mmhm .
so he can get so he can get the rest of the democrats that she has (be)cause she has a couple .
they want him to get the rest of the democrats .
mmhm .
and if he gets the rest of the democrats that's it .
he becomes the next president .
oh my god .
yup .
has that ever even happened before ?
a black president ?
no .
no not a
I know that much you know hello .
ok ok .
well I'm saying like has that ever happened before like when they like
when when two people like running like that ?
I'm not
no I'm saying like that they already know who's gonna win from like before .
no no no it's not that they already know who's gonna win .
what's happened is basically that um they're running against each other for the same within the same party .
mmhm .
like they're both on the same team if you will .
oh ok .
and basically like you know there's there comes a certain point when you you already know .
like they keep like you know like
oh ok ok ok no now I see what you're saying .
yeah .
so now they already know that he's the one that he's gonna be running for that team .
yeah yeah .
so there's no reason for her to still be there .
but she doesn't want to give up .
:w that sucks .
but whatever .
don't feel bad for her .
why you want you want Obama to win ?
yeah I want Barack Obama to win .
in a way I want him to win too .
but then I was kind of like rooting for gir(l) .
you know xxx ?
yeah of course (be)cause you want you know you want her to you know change .
yeah yeah I'm a girl yeah .
so what's going on with your hair ?
it looks very nice today .
you know what ?
I didn't want to brush my hair today .
that's why .
I didn't I I didn't feel like looking the same today .
you look nice though .
thank you .
you're welcome .
you look nice yourself .
I like your hat .
thank you I wear it all the time .
well thank you .
oh yeah .
I was gonna I was gonna tell you that
so why why do you think that I was like mad at you .
I don't understand .
because hello you didn't talk to me the whole Sunday .
: actually no the reason why is because like like I kind of felt bad like about what happened .
and I don't really want like for me to be the issue like between you and my mom .
you know like I don't want that I don't want myself to come up in like anyway or form possible like .
mmhm .
and it's and like kind of I was just kind of like 
+" well you know like like I don't know what to do .
(be)cause the thing is like the thing is I you know
mmhm .
yeah .
you know I don't have to say it .
but it's just like I think sometimes like it when I try to like talk to you and stuff like that like it can be taken as like ammunition you know to like xxx .
ammunition what is what what do you mean by that ?
like the fights can get worse just because you know like something might happen between us or whatever .
and I'm just like 
+" :w .
I just kind of felt bad (be)cause like the last thing that I want is for you and my mom to fight like over something stupid that happened between us you know .
yeah .
and I'm just like whatever .
kind of like the same
.
yeah .
go ahead .
kind of like what ?
no go ahead .
kind of like what I'm saying [=! laughs] .
kind of like the reason you gave for not like doing that thing a long time ago when I asked you .
I'm trying to be like
yes .
yeah .
I'm trying to think .
it's kind of like the same reason that you gave her .
like you don't want like your relationship to go bad because of what happens between us basically .
ok .
you xxx ?
but um what was I gonna tell you ?
but I wasn't mad at you .
like it doesn't make any sense .
think about it .
I mean you called me in order to talk to my mom .
yeah yeah .
and I picked up the phone .
I know .
I kind I figured .
but I was just
anyways it's ok .
it was I wasn't feeling to good on Sunday anyways .
oh : ok alright .
it's ok .
yeah .
you thought I was
you see you don't really know me like .
I mean I told you I was mad for like one day .
and then I was like forget it .
yeah .
yeah .
I didn't I didn't xxx
I felt really bad .
but I just felt xxx the whole thing was just misunderstood .
it was
yeah .
all right I don't want to talk about it any_more .
it's like old .
.
whatever what d(id) you do today ?
what do you mean what did I do today ?
what d(id) you do all day ?
uh I tried to get some more people .
like I made some phone calls .
uh for the bilingual research study .
and like I I've been doing a lot of reading .
xxx .
really ?
yeah .
I didn't go to school today .
you didn't go to school today ?
I couldn't get up .
I had like
I don't know what was wrong with me this morning .
I had like allergies .
and I was sneezing .
and I was so sleepy .
I couldn't open my eyes .
my alarm went off .
and I I woulda been late anyways .
+ <and you and you stayed in bed ?
yes I wake up at six thirty (be)cause I have class at eight .
and by the time I get ready and everything and traffic in the morning get on the highway like I get there like right on time .
xxx .
I missed my alarm clock .
it was already like seven when I actually woke up .
how much longer do you have to go ?
I mean you're half way through the summer right ?
no it's it's
yeah it ends I have like three more weeks .
really ?
and I shouldn't have missed today .
but the thing is like I shouldn't have missed it .
but I just couldn't get up .
and how do you feel now ?
I don't know .
I feel good now .
like it went away .
it was weird .
it was a weird thing .
it was like a little phase or something .
the morning sickness .
but I shoulda went .
(be)cause I think I have a test on Thursday .
you're not pregnant are you ?
no .
.
yes [=! laughs] xxx .
.
.
that's morning sickness xxx .
.
you get up in the morning .
you can't get up .
you're sick .
you're xxx [=! laughs] .
yeah I think I even threw up in the bathroom [=! laughs] .
yeah there you go [=! laughs] .
.
.
oh god you imagine ?
oh my god that's crazy .
.
yeah that that that would be pretty funny .
but whatever um
yeah that would be funny .
yeah .
extremely funny that would be like
what like Je(sus) like uh Mary Mary Jesus funny ?
+ <I would have to be I would have to
no no .
I would have to be like the the next like scientific study .
.
oh my god .
yeah I I don't think so .
so you like the radio station .
yeah it was good .
I'd never heard it before .
yeah it's really funny .
I listen it I listen to it now all the time .
I don't know it's it makes me laugh .
and there's like so much stu(ff) like good stuff .
like they talk about stuff like you heard like the stuff about xxx and stuff like that .
mmhm mmhm mmhm .
they talk about politics .
good talks about politics .
not like that crap where it's like oh you know it's all over your head .
xxx you know good politics .
yeah yeah .
and uh no they have like they're always giving away money .
really ?
yeah yeah yeah .
always giving away money .
I never heard it before .
they're the people that were giving away the tickets for the the concert .
oh for the concert .
yeah .
really ?
I never called .
but I should have called .
yeah you sh(ould)
I probably woulda won some .
xxx .
and I coulda gone by myself .
.
it's not funny .
I'm just joking [=! laughs] .
.
no that's not funny .
.
I didn't even enjoy the concert god .
I can't believe you
you that's the one thing that I really xxx .
I was so mad .
I was like god .
that's the thing that makes me angry that I don't 
why why ?
(be)cause the thing is like the the thing is like ok look .
let's be honest with each other .
like I would have gone like if I really wanted to go to the concert I would have gone regardless .
like I would have just bought the tickets .
mmhm .
like I would have just said 
+" forget Elizabeth I'm going .
ok I know where you're going with that .
ok but but like at the same time you know you know it's not just like you know going together .
I know .
that's not the point .
the point is going together and having a good time .
mmhm .
and I know you wanted to go to the concert .
so it was important you know that you had a good time .
yeah .
so when you tell me like 
+" oh I didn't even have a good time .
I was like
I didn't .
it was
I was like 
+" great !
so like
it was good (be)cause you know I got to go .
whatever and I saw her .
oh she's she did really good actually .
yeah ?
yeah she looked really pretty .
yeah ?
but (.)
I felt bad .
(be)cause I knew like from xxx you were like
ah whatever .
I don't want to talk about it any_more .
yes yes let's not let's not
anyways there will be more .
ok .
there will be more
oh so now you're saying there will be more concerts .
yes .
there will be !
and I'm gonna make sure that you go that you go with me the next one .
(be)cause I feel really bad .
for that ?
not for that .
but I know you wanted to go too so .
yeah ok .
no comment [=! laughs] .
ok .
but anyways
so yeah that's all you did today ?
um
xxx .
yeah I kinda helped my parents out a little bit .
um I was kinda I kinda figured that I would just be doing this .
so I was like ah you know whatever .
mmhm .
I've been studying for the for the G_r_e too .
you know like
yeah .
but like there's a lot of vocabulary in that thing xxx .
I have like four hundred like index cards that I did .
xxx .
additional index cards of like words and stuff like that so .
wow .
and like wow that's a lot of stuff .
like I've just been writing like this whole time like just putting all the words on index cards .
xxx it's taking me forever .
mmhm .
xxx .
wow .
so what are you what are you when are you planning to take that test ?
I don't know .
I really don't know .
I mean I thought I would be done by you know by mid June .
and I'm still like taking down like words you know so .
yeah .
I took a practice test though .
really how'd you do ?
I got
do you know yet or no ?
+ <I did really I did better on the math than I did on the
oh there's a math part ?
yeah .
oh my god .
yes .
I hate math .
yea .
there's a xxx and a math portion xxx .
I did ok like .
I had not really studied .
I had just looked over everything really briefly .
mmhm .
but whatever .
like it's weird .
like the test basically like adapts itself to you .
like it asks you questions .
and then like if you get (th)em wrong it asks it asks your an easier question .
mmhm .
and it goes like that .
it asks you hard questions and easier questions .
ok .
you know the C_b_t's like that .
really ?
mmhm .
yeah .
if you like if if you take like let's say there's a question or whatever and like it's really hard and you get it wrong it like keeps lowering and stuff like up to like
or it asks you questions like if you're like stupid like .
you know I really wish you had come to that party .
really ?
yeah .
I really do .
I wanted to come here but
it would have been it would have been a lot better .
xxx I procrastinate on everything .
I think you know to be honest with you I think that given enough time like like you would have become like really like really really good friends I think .
yeah .
(be)cause we get along
yeah .
+, for the most part .
I'm nice .
I'm a nice person .
I'm not mean .
xxx .
I'm nice to people .
who said anything about being mean ?
you know I'm just saying I'm nice to people in general .
hey don't get a big head on me all right .
I'm not getting a big head .
I'm just saying like I'm nice .
.
like even when like I even remember like in high school and stuff like the people that like the kids that nobody would wanna talk to like I would be
aw .
no seriously .
you're a philanthropist .
even though I was pretty popular you know [=! laughs] .
no seriously [=! laughs] .
that's so messed up .
I would I would be one of those people like I would be like 
+" hi what's your name ?
even though sometimes those kids they're really bitter .
oh of course of course .
they're really bitter .
but they're they used to be mean .
but I still was nice you know .
what about me ?
I felt bad .
what you think I wasn't popular in high school ?
no [=! laughs] .
what what are you saying [=! laughs] ?
I didn't say nothing [=! laughs] .
you said no [=! laughs] .
that was a reaction [=! laughs] .
no I wouldn't say like no I never thought that but
I was gonna tell you um
I was actually really popular in middle school .
and then like because of how popular I was in middle school I decided that I didn't want to be popular any_more .
really ?
no seriously I was like really popular yeah .
it sounds funny though the way it's being said .
no it's true !
it happened .
.
it was something about my hair .
really ?
it made me cool .
yeah .
(be)cause I used to have like a a
I told you this .
I used to have a lot of hair .
mmhm .
and it was like really curly .
and I used to put a lot of gel in it .
yeah .
so all the girls would be like 
+" oh let me touch your hair !
.
and I'd be like 
+" hey .
.
you know I like mohawks ?
you like mohawks ?
yeah I think they're so cool .
there's this guy in my social environment class
uhuh .
+, he has a mohawk .
I guess he used like wax or something .
yeah .
it's like really like slick .
like bees wax .
yeah .
yeah .
and I'm always looking at him .
I'm like 
+" oh my god I love your hair .
+" it's so cool .
yeah .
yeah .
so yeah like it used to get hard like after like after a certain time .
then in the afternoon it was like hard like all
yeah .
and it was like curled and stuff like that .
yeah I used to use more gel than I use now .
my hair used to be like rock hard .
like it was like 
rock hard [=! laughs] ?
yeah it was bad .
I don't think it's not like like as you get older you realize that it's not necessary necessarily necessary .
you know ?
yeah .
it's just something that you know it's cool like when you're growing up .
you're like 
+" oh .
you wanna do something with your hair .
so you start slicking it back .
and everybody's like 
+" oh watch out !
.
yeah .
yeah yeah yeah .
so are you so are you ready for the wedding ?
am I ready for the wedding ?
yeah .
you know I'm still trying to decide ah on how many days I'm gonna spend up there .
really ?
yeah .
why ?
my father's coming uh a little bit after my mom with my brother .
oh yeah I think you're mom told me something like that .
so he's only gonna be there for like three days .
so they're so like the weekend basically .
yeah .
and I don't know whether I wanna like go in for like the entire week or just spend the weekend .
like I'm still I still haven't decided .
ok .
yeah .
I'm trying to figure that out .
the thing is like the thing is like once the thing is when you get up there you're gonna see like they're really like in wedding mode you know like .
wedding mode ?
wedding mode .
you know so it's all about the wedding .
and like you really you feel out of place .
it's like you go .
and like you're a girl so you're gonna be fine .
and you're gonna
yeah .
you know they're gonna be like 
+" oh yeah you know help me put on this dress whatever .
+" let's go shopping for the shoes .
+" we still need this .
yeah .
and they're gonna take you with them .
they're gonna drag you up and down all over the place .
uhuh .
with guys it's different .
like you can't
like that you don't really get included you know like that .
you know you hang out with the other guys and
yeah yeah .
like I guess I guess the only reason to go would be to just get to know um Isabella a little bit better .
you know my Cynthia's son .
oh yeah .
yeah .
and probably Fernando because honestly like I don't know either of them like any of them like Luis you know junior Luis like .
mmhm .
and Fernando like I've met him .
and like talked to him like maybe like twice and stuff like that .
but I really haven't
I don't even know him that well you know .
my mom's spent like uh like two weeks up there .
yeah yeah .
like he took her out and whatever .
yeah .
they got to know each other so .
what about xxx ?
how do you feel about it ?
I'm excited and nervous at the same time .
yeah ?
I'm excited because I haven't been on vacation since like (..) I went to go see my dad which that was like two thousand one two thousand two I think .
yeah yeah .
yeah .
so I'm excited about going to the airport and stuff (be)cause I love the airport .
and I've never been to a wedding before .
you've never been to a wedding before ?
never been to a wedding .
that's shocking .
so I'm excited to see what it's like you know .
that is shocking .
it's really nice .
.
it's really nice .
like you have a party .
it's it's nice .
yeah .
so I'm excited about that .
but I'm nervous (be)cause like oh my god .
I don't know twenty people and stuff so .
no I mean I mean for the most part like my mom tends to hang out with um uh Cynthia .
Cynthia .
mmhm mmhm .
xxx so whatever you'll get to know her .
and Cynthia you already know .
yeah .
and Cynthia is just her sister you know so .
that's it .
yeah .
and then like on my father's side of the family I don't know what they're gonna do with that .
I don't know if they're gonna introduce you to my father's side of the family .
that remains to be seen .
like my mom doesn't
like they get along .
but it's just like they're
they've had a lot of problems you know like .
a lot of stuff has happened .
.
yeah .
tough stuff with them .
my brother loves though you know xxx .
+" oh yeah .
you know you can't get enough of them because they're they're more like
I guess they're more er um
how can I say this .
+, urban_centric .
you know more like he is .
yeah .
because he doesn't he doesn't take after like the whole Christian side you know .
and like Cynthia you know .
oh yeah yeah .
xxx and Cynthia and their cities are more like Christian and stuff like that .
yeah .
I mean they're cool and stuff like that but
you know they're Christians so you can't you know certain things there are certain limits to what you can do you know .
yeah yeah .
but whatever we'll see we'll see how it goes .
yeah .
but yeah .
yeah the school's really big .
the school is really big ?
yes .
yeah it kinda is .
it gets bigger all the time .
my school I I kinda get lost sometimes in the school to be honest .
because I don't really do too much .
you just go in and study and come back .
go to class .
and sometimes I stay like you know like just relax and look around .
yeah .
when I when I'm when I'm not in a hurry to get home .
yeah .
why would you be in a hurry to get home ?
that's exactly it .
I'm I'm not in a hurry .
I'm never in a hurry to get home .
I thought I don't think I'm ever home .
that's the thing .
I think I only to go like sleep .
yeah .
you don't think you're ever home .
you know that's
it happens though .
it's not it's not just you .
a lot of people live like that .
yeah .
I know .
the to be honest with you like that's one of the things that I'm very grateful for right now that I have so much free time in the summer .
mmhm .
because I've come to realize that especially during the these last two semesters at school like I've been spending just so much time like just doing crazy stuff like trying to get stuff done .
mmhm .
and always like hurrying .
and always being like you know
trying to be like one step ahead of everything .
yeah yeah .
and I'm like
like I don't know like about maybe like a week ago is when I finally just like let go of all that .
you know just like just relax .
and finally just let it go .
yeah .
like you don't really have to do anything tomorrow you know just .
yeah .
and like I I rested .
and I was like .
I realize like man you know like man so much time like gets wasted on like you know watching television you know like looking stuff up on the internet .
something you don't even need to look up just like garbage .
yeah .
you know and it's like
yeah .
when I finally just let it go I was just like ah .
like I finally like just read I finally I read an entire magazine like between yesterday and today .
yeah .
and I was like 
god .
+" oh this is great .
you know I read the entire magazine .
.
that's something really like oh my god like
so already have like your bachelors .
like I I wish I could already be there like .
I feel like school is like I like
I mean it's not it's not enough .
I mean just having a bachelors is not
it's it's all about you .
you know it really is about you .
mmhm .
yeah .
you know like I I like the degree .
I'm not gonna lie to you .
I think it's nice and everything .
but I don't think the degree defines who I am you know .
mmhm .
it's the degree is just a reflection of like my commitment you know of what I decided to do you know in my life you know .
like I alr(eady) I had I already knew like that summer like when I came back to school that you know I was gonna finish .
one way or another I was gonna finish .
and the only thing that I kept telling me uh telling myself xxx is like Colin you have four years left .
you know you just have to hang in there for four years .
just keep going .
yeah .
that's the only way I made it through .
there were times when like like I was like really messed up where it's like you know I had to stay up for like three a_m in the morning four a_m in the morning like writing a paper and stuff like that .
and it's hard .
it was funny .
last night I was talking to Maria for awhile .
and like
yeah .
+, she like she was we were just talking about it like man .
I was telling her the same thing I'm telling you like that I feel like I just started college .
and like oh my god like three more years .
and like not even (be)cause I haven't finished my first year yet .
and then she's like 
+" well you know think about like this like
she said that like
and it's the same it's the same thing I was thinking .
like in high school like when you were a freshman you were thinking the same thing .
mmhm .
you were just 
+" oh my god four years of high school .
+" it's gonna take forever .
right .
and like now it's like you think about it .
and like man it's already been a year that I'm out of high school .
hmm .
you know and it's like now you wish you could go back .
you know ?
so it's like
xxx .
I mean even though high school's very different from college .
but either way you know .
it just depends .
I mean there's a point in your life when you realize that
I like that's interesting that you say that .
(be)cause I don't really know what exactly it is about high school that you wanna go back like what it is about high school that you like so much .
that's the thing .
what it is about high school that I 
that's a very easy question ok .
what is it ?
you don't have
in high school like everything was easy for everybody mostly everybody ok you .
: .
you didn't have you had responsibilities .
but not as big as the ones we have .
and ok I'm I'm gonna be honest with you .
yeah .
in high school I barely remember it .
+^ like I think the most times that I ever like opened a book was like three times
mmhm mmhm .
+, to study .
right .
you know ?
and then in college I've had to learn like your your grade is based on tests .
mmhm .
you know if you don't open that book and read you're gonna fail .
right .
you know ?
so it's like so then like I guess like in college now I'm kind of trying to like redeem myself for high school .
because I didn't do good in high school like .
right right .
I was an average student .
I I had like a what ?
I graduated with like a two point like
right .
+, six or something a two point seven like .
when I was that actually my my my college G_p_a went down to a two point one so
yeah ?
yeah .
but
no what am I
wait .
two point one ?
no what am I talking about .
one point : a one point two .
yeah .
but I guess in a way like in college I'm trying to do my best that I can .
you know and then I realize I'm like
(be)cause I never thought like I would look at those like like smart kids and stuff .
and it's like nah ["] .
and like I wish I could go back .
and like get like bright futures and all that crazy stuff and
well
it's it's
.
I don't think it's really about
I don't know .
I've been to people's houses that like you know that you know have educa(tion) have an education .
and they have several degrees .
xxx and stuff like that .
and to be honest with you it's not
you know I look at their lives .
and and I don't really want that life .
you know like that's not what I want .
yeah .
you know I don't look at their lives and say like wow you know I envy that .
you know and that's what I want .
yeah .
um the only to me like the only motivation for me to like do well is is first for myself and also for you know for whatever future I might have with somebody else basically .
.
mmhm .
you know I think of it in that in that sense you know .
I I always wanna be I always have a backup plan you know .
I always wanna be prepared in case anything might happen .
yeah .
and it's just having a better life for you know for not just yourself but for other people too .
you know ?
yeah .
you bring something to the table like you know whenever like you meet anybody .
so yeah but trust me .
just because you have an education doesn't mean squat like
it's true .
like that girl that I told you about that I like I went out for like a for like a month she was like she's working on her masters now and it's like like you just feel bad for her .
like honestly that's the only thing I can tell you .
like I felt bad for her .
because like there's nothing you can do like .
you know it's like she's thirty and she still hasn't figured out that you know if she doesn't like put on the batteries like she's just gonna be alone for like the rest of her life like .
oh my god you see that's something I don't want .
I don't wanna be alone .
my god she's like thirty .
and like she she just turned thirty .
and she's like still like going out like partying and drinking and stuff like that .
yeah .
and it's just like
I'm like
and like she's having such a hard time like letting go of like that part of her life .
like she's kinda like has like half and half right now .
my god .
so whatever I'm like whatever .
but that's you know that's that's her choice .
you know like that's her choice .
what ends up what happens with most people though is that um they don't realize that they don't really know what they want you know .
I actually asked this to my mom the other day .
like I was like 
+" tell me the truth .
+" when you were like young you know did you know what you want with your life ?
and she was like 
+" no .
and I was like 
+" ah ha you see I knew it !
.
and I just walked away .
xxx .
that's what happens though .
xxx .
that's what happens .
that's why I try to think about that sometimes .
like man I hope I'm choosing like the right career .
and like
just the thing is
I'm trying to learn like one thing I'm trying to change about myself now is like
(be)cause like you're though like these last couple of months man like it's been hitting me hard like .
like like now I'm trying to like realize like man like
I used to be so happy all the time you know .
and then like there like they used to be like like this these last couple of months I'm like oh my god .
and you know like I was thinking that this isn't me you know like .
mmhm .
I didn't I used to care but like not where I made it like
mmhm .
+, the centre of my life you know like .
you know what you know why because what ends up happening is that eventually the problems that you might not have paid attention to like you eventually say to yourself 
yeah .
+" you know I gotta resolve them .
it happened to me too .
there are problems that you have to take care of .
yeah .
but I don't know .
like I'm I'm I'm good now .
I'm not
you just have to learn to be happy regardless of what you're doing .
xxx .
yeah I know .
regardless of what you're doing .
you just have to learn how to do that .
like me it doesn't where you put me .
my mom laughs .
she's like 
+" it's fine .
+" you know you can come like a week before the wedding .
+" it doesn't matter .
+" we'll just put you in the living room with a book .
+" and you'll be fine .
yeah .
.
it's true .
so that's something that you have to learn .
like but whatever .
no it's you know it's interesting .
what ?
I dunno like
I think that sometimes that I think we try to get away from from feeling you know and and thinking about things about things that should matter .
you know ?
you think ?
I think so .
I think that that's the point of having so many distractions .
yeah .
for example I think that sometimes people get scared of being like absolutely alone like with nothing going on .
really ?
yeah .
like people get like you put (th)em in like for example have you
what's the longest you've spent like by yourself with like nothing going on ?
.
I don't even think like five minutes like I 
you see .
you see .
I hate it .
like oh my god .
like
but why ?
I dunno .
why do you hate it ?
xxx that's one thing about me like that's like really like oh my god .
I hate being alone .
like I hate being alone .
I don't like being alone .
.
if I'm in my house and I'm like oh my god like there's nothing to do nobody here like I'm leaving .
you know like I would run 
yeah you go do something else right .
xxx I'm just gonna go for a drive or something and like [=! laughs] blast my music .
I dunno it's like you know .
.
I I'm actually quite like the opposite .
like the thing is this like it's hard like it's hard to get to a place where you're just like you're alone like and you can actually think you know and just think about whatever comes into your head you know like .
mmhm .
you know why are things the way they are you know .
have all these like weird thoughts .
and it's like
I feel like most of your life you go through you go through it .
you know you just
people like yelling in your ear all the time .
that's what it feels like to me .
like it feels like people are always yelling at me .
you know like not literally .
you know what I mean like .
no like people literally yell at me all the time .
but that's what I feel like it's like it's happening .
.
like there's always like something going on .
and then it's never like we never get a chance to just like think .
yeah .
you know just like concentrate on like
it's funny (be)cause it's like
I've been sitting around and thinking about the test you know and studying for it .
and I'm thinking to myself 
+" man you know it's taking so long .
I wanted to get it done in a month .
you know I was like 
mmhm .
+" yeah you know I'm gonna study for a month and that's it .
it's gonna be over and that's it .
I don't have to think about it any more .
yeah .
and you know what I've realized ?
that the things that surround you make you want to like do things faster by not paying as much attention to them .
you know or not put as much value to them .
you know and I think that's just I think it shouldn't be that way .
yeah .
I think that sometimes you really have to slow down and think about what it is that you have you know and appreciate it .
it's true .
but I don't think I don't think that a lot of people have that mentality .
well I don't think that a lot of people can even even think about that stuff .
I mean period so .
yeah .
you know what I what I found in the back of a magazine about three three days ago ?
guess what I found ?
?
guess what I found three days ago .
what ?
um Popeye .
no way !
a D_v_d collection for Popeye .
really ?
yeah .
ah .
oh I haven't seen Popeye in forever .
that used to be one of my favorite shows .
I know .
I know .
I know .
aw that's so cool .
I was like I looked at it .
and I was like 
+" hmm .
.
oh my god do you know what I used to watch a lot too ?
I used to watch the Power_rangers .
what ?
yeah .
and the Ninja_turtles [=! laughs] .
Power_rangers was when it first came out was really popular .
yeah .
a popular show .
aw I miss all those things .
and it's like it's on is gone on like forever .
Power_rangers is still on on the air .
yeah but
it's just in like weird like cable channels .
.
yeah but I don't think it would be the same as
oh .
or I don't know if it's
like ok (be)cause you like the other day .
not the other day .
but like like I would start like
once like when I was in high school and I was like a freshman I was like man like
now like you know you see like Christmas and all those things .
yeah and like man the holidays xxx the holidays any more .
do you think it's because you view it differently (be)cause you're older now ?
like
+ <it has to do it has to do with the same thing that I told you about before .
because you don't put as much value to it as you used to .
oh yeah .
that's it ?
it's been thirty minutes ?
then get outta here .
we're having a conversation .
.
um I think it's for the same reason .
really ?
yeah .
yeah .
so maybe it does have a little bit to do with people growing .
I think if you slow down I think it would be still as important .
(be)cause it's not it's to be honest with you it is it's not about the presents .
it's really more about the feelings that you get and you know like what you want .
xxx Christmas spirit .
yeah exactly .
yeah .
you know like that anxiety of like getting up at like twelve a_m in the morning to open up your gift .
I used to love Christmas .
.
just because you want to see what your parents got you .
.
yeah .
I used to do that all the time .
I remember one time I got some like transformers .
and I was like 
+" : transformers .
.
oh my god .
and I played with them like over and over .
you know um they started working on Transformers_two like
oh the movie ?
yeah like the first of June .
oh really ?
I didn't know that .
yeah .
yeah they started working on it .
(be)cause I was watching the the
what's it called ?
movie awards I think .
yeah the movie awards on Sunday .
it was on a Sunday ?
yeah I think it was on Sunday .
and one of the guys from the movie whatever he he won an award .
your hair looks really nice .
so there .
oh thank you .
and uh you know what ?
I was gonna tell you .
um we went to the worst theatre [=! laughs] this weekend .
what theatre ?
the one in Homestead .
the absolute worst theatre you can imagine .
the one in Homestead .
it's called Flagship_cinemas .
oh my god yeah I I went in there once (be)cause Kathy lives in Homestead .
oh my god .
we tried to go there one time .
but I never got to go inside inside .
oh it's terrible .
it is really ?
like we
why did you end up going there ?
because the thing is like we wanted to see the Forbidden_kingdom .
and like you know it's basically getting out it's coming out of the theatres now you know .
like it's it's leaving theatres .
oh ok .
so it was only being shown at uh
what's it called ?
+, Flagship you know Flagship and some theatre in Kendall .
uh huh .
and so Flagship was closer .
it was only like seven miles away from my house .
so like we decided to go there .
yeah mmhm .
so we get there .
and like the time that we had seen on the on the on the internet right like the show times and stuff like that was like off by like uh twenty five minutes .
yeah .
so it was like at nine .
and the movie started at nine twenty .
we were there like at nine forty five .
right .
and they're like 
+" oh .
you know .
+" the movie's already started .
I'm like 
+" xxx what the ?
what's the matter ?
the internet yes the show times .
and they're like 
+" ah well you know like you can see something else .
+" ok well what show you know like
+" oh well What_happens_in_vegas you know .
so we went to see What_happens_in_vegas .
it's like the movie was good .
but the theatre was terrible .
really ?
yeah it was .
oh so yeah what I was telling you .
I'm surprised I didn't forget .
um the guy one of the guys that were from the Transformers the first one .
I don't know who he was .
I don't know his name .
um he went up there .
and he was like 
+" oh xxx so much .
and then he's like 
+" oh we just started filming .
he goes 
+" actually tomorrow we're gonna start filming Transformers_two .
.
I was like 
oh my god there's gonna be a Transformers_two ?
that's so cool .
oh yeah .
yeah those people are making so much money .
and like the people in comics and stuff like that .
and like it's ridiculous .
like it's like movie after movie after movie after mov(ie) comic book movie after comic book movie after comic book movie like back to back like the Hulk Ironman uh Batman um the Dark_knight uh
let me see .
what are the other ones ?
and then like some other movies like I can't think of right now .
but xxx
+ <did you did you guys end up seeing Indiana_Jones ?
Handcock is another one .
yeah we did .
we did .
really was it good ?
it was ok .
it was ok .
it wasn't amazing .