And it ' s so hard trying to live without you . It ' s so hard to smile without you . It ' s so hard laughing , knowing that I ' m lying to everyone and to myself . It ' s so hard living day by day , knowing that I ' ll never know that happiness again . It ' s so hard realizing that my life is a failure , and that I have no one . It ' s so hard realizing that I disappointed everyone , and disappointed myself . It ' s so hard realizing how pathetic , uninteresting I am . It ' s so hard seeing that even my family is disappointed in me . It ' s so hard having projects and knowing they will fail , for I ' m not strong enough anymore .