Consider Repentantance and mentoring
I don't know if it is too late for this but if things look as bad as Igor is suggesting you might consider asking for mentoring. Of course that would require a willingness on your part to look at what you accusers are saying an consider that they may be at least partially right. Just a suggestion. I think you got alot done with the CAM portal and although I don't agree with all your POVs I think it would be unfortunate to lose the productive side of your energy at wikipedia.