Should you stay or should you go now..... 

Your problems here began with the improper and unsourced edits you made to the bio of Andrei Treivas Bregman (alias Michael Lucas), at the behest of Lucas. Lucas listed on the talkpage of the bio the changes he wanted. An anonymous editor suggested that you had done this in exchange for sexual favors from Lucas  it had nothing to do with any foreign trips you made. With these edits, you reversed your earlier edits and contradicted your earlier statements regarding the content  content you eventually changed for Lucas. Later, you engaged in a prolonged exchange with another editor over the inclusion of "Bregman" in Lucas's real name. Despite the fact that Bregman is reliably sourced, you removed it like Lucas wanted. Most recently you became embroiled in conflict over the use of your Farrell picture; no need to go into detail about that.

Your recent conduct and your posted word show you to be arrogant, capricious, emotionally needy and teetering on mental instability.

Editors have offered to help and support you as you're having difficulties. The kind of help you need cannot be found here.

The real question that needs to be answered is this: Should we dissuade you from leaving? The answer is a resounding, NO. Leave here and go and devote yourself to getting the kind of professional help you need, as quickly as possible.  Don't look back.72.76.11.171