Neptune, while you're waiting this block out (and hopefully reviewing your behaviour), you may also want to think about how WP:ANI works. It's not a "referendum" on anyone in particular. Editors are free to bring issues there which they feel require attention and action by administrators. However, you don't get to fix the terms of what is being discussed, the editors making the review do. The aim of the reviewers is to decide how to fix the problem and this requires consideration of the behaviour of all parties to the problem. It actually happens quite often that the initiator of the thread finds themselves on the wrong end of resulting sanctions, in fact there's an essay about just that.