== If I may == 

 Please take a break and relax awhile. 

 Then come back and say "It's time to realize that I can't do everything I want on Wikipedia, but there is a lot I can accomplish. "  There are a lot of assholes on Wikipedia, and there are lots of assholes in the world. I think you are mature enough to learn to live with that.  I haven't followed all your exploits, and don't even know what the real problem is here, but you should know that there are a lot of folks who were impressed, at a minimum, with your enthusiasm.  All the best.