I actually met god in a dark back corner of a busy street

Most of the explanations of the bible stories below, I assume that you are familiar with. I am including them for the sake of argument and the audience. These are all to the best of my knowledge from what I have heard, read and been taught. If you didn't need anyone to tell you what was right and wrong, then where did you get the idea from? You just know what is right and wrong? How? Who decided what is right and what is wrong? Why IS murder wrong (I agree that it is very wrong, and I am very sorry if I gave the impression that I didn't think it was wrong in my first reply)? I understand why you see God as immoral and evil. I don't know if I can explain why I don't think he is because we don't share a common understanding of the source of morality. You believe that morality applies to God (correct me if I'm wrong) or in other words, that he need to do certain things or not do certain things to be moral. I believe that morality comes from God so he is above it. I know that you won't agree with this, and I understand why. It feels incredibly unfair. I understand your revulsion at people getting into heaven after doing horrific things just because they believe in Jesus and that normal people do not get into heaven because they don't believe in him. The "believe in Jesus" phrase is very misunderstood. It does not mean just that you believe he existed and that he died and rose again. The bible says specifically that even demons believe this and (from a Christian point of view that believe in demons) are CERTAINLY not getting into heaven. The "believe in Jesus" phrase is often paired with confessing him as your Lord and repentance. Confessing him as your lord means that he rules your life. And if you are truly letting him rule your life, you would not murder or rape people. If you did this before, God will forgive you, but only if you truly repent. This kind of repentance is not just apologizing but turning completely away from your sin and following the commands of God. On the subject of God's commands, yes he commanded the Israelites to kill nations of people. This is a horrible thing for him to have commanded. I don't fully understand why he did. I do know that those nations were often steeped in horrible traditions like mass raping or child sacrifice as norms of their culture. I am not saying that this justifies genocide, but it is important to remember. Many times the Isrealites did not follow his command and they did not wipe out those nations. This led to Isreal itself being corrupted just like he warned it would. Again, all of this does not justify genocide; I still don't fully understand why God commanded what he did. On the rest of God's law in the Old testament, it was written to demonstrate the severity of sin and the impossibility of being righteous before God. There is a heart attitude and purpose behind the laws that the laws can only give a limited practical application of. God's purpose in creating the laws (to the best of my knowledge) was to show how humans can never live up to his standard of holiness. He was demonstrating how we need a savior. I know that you won't agree with this at all; I am just explaining my point of view on the Old testament law. On the subject of people not getting into heaven if they don't believe in Jesus; there is debate about this in christian circles, and I personally have a rather nontraditional view of the matter. I don't believe that people need to say specific words or even know who Jesus was to get into heaven. I believe that if people are honestly seeking God, they will find him. I don't know exactly how, and I need to research more about what the bible says on heaven and hell before I can answer this objection in a more comprehensive manner. Your main objection seems to be that God is immoral/evil. Again, I ask you, according to what standard? Where do you think the standard of morality comes from? The main reason that this is an objection that I cannot dispute is because we believe morality comes from different sources. I believe that it originates from God"s nature and you don"t believe that. Where do you believe it comes from? We can"t exactly debate this topic until we find common ground.