Not to convince but to rethink prior assumptions

Hello AKMathI recently read a debate, That involved you. It was questioning whether or not God is perfect. My intention is not to convince you of God's existence or to harass you in any maner. I am sorry in advance if I come across offensive or obnoxious. My true intention in beginning this was that I may be able to help. I am aware that life can feel a little daunting if we envision an angry, Ruthless God and downright scary if we can think of a reason for God to be particularly angry at one of us or loved one. If death is not scary enough (probably the reason why death is so scary) we have to contend with a concept like that. That can be depressing enough to send someone in search for hope in a bleak existance. I think this depressing view of God is the consequence of a major misrepresentation due to in accurate translations (note the 'S' not a single mistake but a well planed multitude of them) I think we (yes, You and me) may be able to restore a little peace of mind about the whole God concept. Obviously when speaking about God; we want to be open minded, Ballanced with as much logic as possible. Otherwise it would be utter nonsense & I am one of the many who believe there is real truth in all this. As assumed the both of us should try to remain respectful even though new/fresh views on such a subject can, At first be a shock to the senses. This is more so a warning for me because I am so confident in what I know about this stuff that I some times fear that I may come across a bit of a butt hole at times. So now you know why I started this, Where my perspective is coming from (in a theistic sense as oppossed to an atheist point of reference) Actually I label myself as a theist agnostic. My views on this are my own, However they were influenced through a mixture of other religions and most prominent the bible. I do not think I have created a whole new religion or anything but I do think I have a fair understanding of its original teachings through common sense deductions. This may all be supper confussing at first & so I am hoping this debate method of speech may be able to break it up in to more manageable pieces. So now lets begin. . . As you may have already guessed I will be using the bible, But only loosely. I believe the bible was written as with a forked tongue [figuratively speaking] by which I mean there are some real truths in there from God and then there are parts in there twisted with satans tonge, So to speak. Unfortunately there will be a great deal of concentration on satan because he is the catalyst figure in all this. I believe God originally intended to design mankind with out man having any concept of God at all what so ever. But something happened in which we are clearly able to talk about God today. I believe satan may be the very reason we can even think of God. According to the bible lucifer became satan because his pride convinced him that he deserves to sit in God's throne, Which got him struck out of heaven (how ever the book of job leads one to assume that satan must have some access into heaven, Maybe to place bets against God? You can look into it for yourself) Anyway the bible also claims that satan is king of this world but God is the grand master of the universe! So once satan fell from heaven he became ruler of earth some how? (Your on your own on this one because thats all I got lol) so eventually Jesus arrives on planet earth. Yep, The very same that satan is ruler of & that we are all living on. I believe Jesus came at that particular time for a reason, A reason I am unsure of. Maybe a power imbalance between the rich and poor was at a point where it was nearly irreversible with out intervention. (I am not saying something super natural happened)My interpretation on the life of Jesus goes as such. . . . Mary gave birth to Jesus before she was 13 or 14 y. O. At the time. They did not have words like permisques back then so they still classed her as a virgin. (Then when they translated the bibe from one language to another {hebrew to greek I think} they then read the prase {in what ever language it was back then} 'virgin birth' and the non-sense had snowballed from there)Jesus was also Joseph's son, Whom was a carpenter. (Take a moment to think about what carpentry must have been like back 2000 + years ago, Remember they could cut rock with surprising accuracy) so if he didn't come from a wealthy family (I do not know, But I would assume so) then he definitely met wealthy people whom could afford his services. From there Jesus seen the effect money had on the people. (Money turns angles into animals) It was Ceasars head on the coins of rome & it was Jesus that said "to give back to Caesar what belongs to Ceasar" (but unfortunately still today we are a slave to the dollar)Go on youtube and look up the speech that got JFK killed. . . I believe Jesus was assassinated some what like JFK (it was public and so those who have the power keep the power) obviously he was not killed in the same fashion as JFK but they were both martyrs for the benefit of mankind. When satan tempted Jesus he offered to trade ALL the kingdoms on earth for Jesus to bow to him once. . . Just once. . . And what did Jesus say "get behind me satan" (That is probably my favourite part)The darkest thing I have heard about Jesus (That I highly doubt, But its good to take everything with a grain of salt) what if Jesus was the fool that fell from heaven? But if Jesus was the fallen one would you expect the evil one to teach things like treating others how you would like to be treated (see why I doubt it)I feel as confident as God exists that Jesus was a good guy. But The most mind boggling thing about God to me is Jesus. I try really hard not to bring the super natural into describing God but trying to merge Jesus into what I already know makes sense to me about God is really hard! Something that has helped me understand God was to reverse the personification originally used to understand God. So instead of trying to imagine a God man being, Imagine a God like energy. Specifically love! Understand now how merging a real body human being (Jesus) into something that requires a body but is not made up of a body. This is a really random start (and I am sorry it doesn't make much sense) but I am hoping I will be able to hone in more on the target in round two. This gives you a chance to question & clarify what I have typed thus far. Again I am sorry there is so much to digest (Thats why I tried to lay majority of the foundation in this initial greeting so that we can get on to the meaningful stuff) [the second last paragraph will probably be where I will be starting up from next] heads up: I think I may have bitten off more then what I can chew