Nihilism

--Nihilism-- I've seen a lot of people question Nihilism lately. As I don't know where this "moral earthquake" is coming from, I'd like to ask some people what to have against the belief that life on earth is meaningless. If anyone wants to try to convince me to put down Nihilism, go ahead and try. This should be interesting. As my own first statement, I should say that Nihilism as I know it is the simple belief that life on earth is a coincidence, and as such it does not need to have any purpose. As I do not believe in any higher power than the human mind, I will not listen to any of that "soul" this, "soul" that bull****. Why would life have any purpose? Why would we really have been brought here for any purpose if all most of us do is die meaninglessly?? What's the use of living your entire life happily if you can die early with dreams remaining on the edge of your mind, wondering about how far you could've gotten, and dieing at least peacefully, instead of dieing with all of your hopes and dreams having been shattered and crushed to tiny bits of the air we breathe? Why would one person be lucky, and the other unlucky? Is it because of "karma"? Is it punishment from some illogical deity? Is there truly a use to such an illogical thing as life? Little story about how I became a nihilist, while only 8 years old at the time. I used to be a very promising young kid. I had the best grades in school, passed any test easily, beat anyone at chess, had friends and hopes and dreams. Then, without warning, my mother fell ill. She had a brain tumor, cancer. To make matters worse, my dad got three heart attacks in a row recently after my mother fell ill. My uncle killed himself. My brother kept beating me up. My grandmother fell off of the sidewalk, breaking her hip, immobilizing her. My grandfather had a heart attack in the garden, while mowing the lawn. He never fully recovered. My mother got a second brain tumor, my grandmother died, my grades dropped greatly, my friends got sick of me and I never saw them again, and I started to search for answers in my computer. The only thing that has kept me from killing myself has been the many manga's I read. Thank you Tite Kubo, you lengthened my suffering. I'm truly grateful. This all happened in one year. WHY oh WHY would there be any deity or higher power or purpose, if lives are THROWN AWAY that easily, like sheets of paper with failed attempts at a drawing. Why would any being be that cruel, that heartless, to make someone LOSE THEIR DREAMS AND HOPES! (Quote Mozart) It truly isn't. At the age of nine, after having spent my birthday alone in my room, I just lost it. I thought about life, and about why it should have a meaning. And you know what? Our existence is futile. We cannot survive forever, and if we do, more and more people will come, more and more wars will come, more and more people will be killed! And you know what? WHO CARES! LET THEM ALL ROT AWAY IN THEIR GRAVES! NOONE CARES! ANY EFFORT TO PLEASE SOMEONE HAS AN UNDERLYING ALTERIOR MOTIVE! I HAD PUT SO MANY PEOPLE INTO THEIR GRAVES AT THE AGE OF NINE, WHY WOULD I CARE ABOUT DEATH? ...sorry, lost it but too tired to delete it all...If someone wants to discuss Nihilism, it's open. I'd like to convince some people life is not of any use. Not to take away your life as well as my own, but to make people realize. In realization lies life.