Is pantheism a reasonable belief

I have been calling myself pantheist. I have even entertained the idea that there is a level of design to creation. Even evolution could represent a pattern that may have possibly been of intelligent design. That does not lend itself to believe in Allah or the Hebrew god as the designer... but I have a hard time proclaiming that no God exists. The trick is getting on the same page about the definition of God. To some the only way to know the true nature of God is through a holy book of sorts. My argument is that even those books were written as part of a personal journey to "understand God"! It is valid to believe in a God (and possibly a creator) But again it does not invite mythology to answer these existential questions. In order to even have even a smidgen of understanding you have to believe that the information that passes through your head is in fact valid and not just something you created in your own reality you have designed to maintain the illusion of control! Definition: Pantheism is the belief that the universe (or nature as the totality of everything) is identical with divinity,[1] or that everything composes an all-encompassing, immanent God.[2] Pantheists thus do not believe in a distinct personal or anthropomorphic god. I came to the conclusion of pantheism out of the same desire that Christians have to believe in the Hebrew God. In my experience believing in supernatural, anthropomorphic deity does not provide a realistic interpretation of the natural world around us. In fact you can see the pattern of how these God's were designed out of curiosity. They call them "The God of the gaps". These Gods were created with an agenda. Usually to illuminate some mysterious force like the origin of life or the destination after death. Unfortunately the question of where we came from and where we are going is anyone's guess. But you do not need to invent something to ease your curiosity. You just need to think for a second. If God does exist (I truly mean if) The nature of his existence is still up for debate! Is God a personal being who wants to have a relationship with his "Children" Or does God exist in a more natural state (like nature itself)! Does separating God from existence do us any favors.. according to the Bible and Koran.. No it does not. In fact you would need to completely void yourself of intelligence or even empathy to believe such nonsense! The God I propose does not require fear or obedience. He does not require worship. He doe not require blind faith.. only an understanding that we have now defined existence itself with the word God.. In other words God=Existence! To understand the scope of my proposition I will set a few boundaries to make this easier to grasp. God is what you see when you look deep into existence.. Looking infinitely past atom's or quarks to find an infinite path that the mind cannot explain. Same thing goes in the opposite direction. Looking at the universe from a perspective of the cosmos you will see an infinitely expanding universe that comes back around on itself (like the infinite symbol) If the equation is valid then you find the same thing looking infinitely deep as you would looking infinitely beyond the boundaries of our expanding universe. This is just a theory to help sell the scope of "my God". Within these boundaries is the only way I can define God to you. Therefore instead of God just being a piece of existence.. He is existence. God is the atom, molecule, electron. God is the planet, sun, universe! Again this is simply a definition.. not a gospel! Pantheism is not a religion. It is just drawing a line in the sand. In concept. Within my God exists the idea of the anthropomorphic God as we know it. To me those God's are a creation of Man (Just like Zeus and Vishnu) They were designed out of archaic necessity and not through an honest evaluation! They were created, sold, and gained power regardless of its implications or consequences. Where my God just is. Nothing to blame. Nothing to credit.. It just is!