The reason YOU cannot disprove solipsism is because your NOT REAL!!!!

!! First off, I have to say I'm truly heartbroken to hear about your difficult situation. I can't pretend to know your situation or think that I can help, sadly all I can offer is perspective. I was 16yrs old once (a loooong time ago), I dreaded every moment I was awake, and sleep only offered nightmares. I guess it would be shallow of me to consider your grief to be typical teenage growing pains, but I was a deeply troubled teenager. I remember one day I decided to end my life. I gave away some of my things, I didn't consider anything to be a valuable to me any longer. It was like a great weight was taken off my shoulder now that I no longer would suffer life. Strange though, I became happy, I was even ecstatic at the thought of dying. How does this make sense, I thought. I decided to die because I thought I was suffering, but that choice brought me happiness. If I'm still capable of such happiness, maybe I should let my life play out and see what it may still have in store for me. It took a while for me to realize that my additude toward life affects how I feel about life. Not to say that if you have a good additude toward life it will rid you of traumatic situations, sadly those things are circumstantial. Buddha teaches that if we didn't have bad situations or people who make us miserable in our lives, we couldn't truly appreciate the happiness we experience (I'm paraphrasing, this isn't a direct quote). If all our lives were filled with everything we could ever want without difficulty or unhappiness, then the happiness would no longer make us happy, it would become mundane and it would be difficult to want to continue living, we would no longer be able to achieve happiness, only redundancy. We need unhappiness and difficulty to help us appreciate the beauty and happiness we sometimes have. Oddly enough, my preachy rant does fit into my argument. Solipsism is a radical philosophical extension of idealism. Idealism is in opposition to materialism. Some forms of idealism basically say that our beliefs and additudes actually effect our universe, even in a physical manner. . https://www.popularmechanics.com.... It sadens me to see so many people give into the evils of nihilism when even as we speak, science and technology and philosophy are revealing that we have more influence over our universe then we ever dreamed we could. Nihilism is the prevailing additude today. Why? I don't know. I know that I may sound like an idealistic lunatic who's detached from reality when I go on my "additude effects our lives" rants. I know that a good additude and a smile isn't going to stop a broken child from storming into his school with a gun and committing such useless carnage without reason. Another thing I do know is that those types of acts are done by individuals who think life is useless or meaningless, they don't do it oit of love, all they know is nihilism. I've been there, and after awhile I became sick and tired of being sick and tired. The only true way I can find to combat the decadence is to arm myself with a better additude toward life and others. I don't believe in decadence, and I discredit nihilism.