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Introduction You can choose to take everything about your situation and past and let it defeat you, or you can use every single thing as a tool for progress. If your looking at the bad you will fail to see the good. The first thing to ask yourself when in you view a situation or event as negative is this. "What is perfect about this situation?"(quote from Anthony Robbins). Don't move from that question until it's answered. This question will help you to start taking perceived disadvantages and using them as advantages. This one tool alone without the rest I describe will dramatically improve your life. Humble Beginnings A lot of great people have come from humble beginnings. What is needed is a good knowledge of people who have similar origins to you. Study history. Draw knowledge and inspiration from people of the past who overcame incredible odds. You'll come to see that your situation even though rough and seemingly hopeless is serving to harden you. This time is serving to teach you. How can you lead and inspire men, who have their back against a wall and a gun to their face if you haven't experienced the same thing. Here is a list of men who have achieved greatness despite their humble beginnings. Study their lives to gain inspiration. Remember you need to be a utilitarian. Don't judge the morals of these men just judge what they had to do, to become great. Ivan the terrible Went from the butt of everyone's jokes and a door mat, to Russia's greatest leader ever. Ghengis Khan Came from humble beginnings to take a band of savages and marauders to lead them in becoming a civilized and powerful people. Adolf Hitler Was at odds with his father. He was a lost youth who eventually turned his life around to be leader of Germany and virtually worshipped by his people. Philosophy These are horrible times are not only a time for learning from experience. It also gives you a time to work on developing a strong philosophy. With a good philosophy you can focus your attention on other things and be decisive in action. You need to focus on a good working philosophy and not on something that is totally useless and focus's on the nature of the universe, or anything like that. Here is a few philosophers to get you started. Their works can be found free online. Aristotle His work will teach you logic. With better logic, comes better decisions. When stakes are high and time is short these skills will come in handy. Nietzsche He will teach you everything you need to know about morals and will also teach you how to develop a good code of honor. Good Son Be a good son. Try to be a perfect son, when you're not studying philosophy and history. Learn as much as you can from your father try to gain his favor. Internally you can disagree, but externally you need to learn as much as you can from him and be his protege. His influence and power will help you immensely in life. What will also help you is learning some universal truths about succesful men. Not all things can be learned from books. A great many things can only be learned from osmosis. Shadow your father. The skills you learn from him will be useful at some point. Passion Follow your passion. You don't have to know what you'll do for the rest of your life. You just need to do what your passion is now. If something strikes your fancy, pour your entire heart into it. When you find a new passion abandon the old one and move on. The specialist is a dyeing breed. They are all being replaced by computers and robots. When Donald Trump was in college he was heavily involved and passionate about film making. He then went into real estate and all signs pointed to that knowledge of film being a waste. Now that he is back in film we can see the knowledge was no waste at all. You don't know where these passions will take you, but I can tell you your multitude of passions will start to naturally develop an overarching theme. Every single one that seemed unrelated before will come together in some wonderful ways. Love If nothing else you should keep going for your sister. She needs her brother to teach her and to protect her. Let love be your driving force in everything you do. People will run into a burning building for love. You won't see that action for hate. With love you are at your most powerful and most dangerous. Use love or it is wasted. Conclusion I have given you a guide for life and a reason for living. Now concede this debate, because nothing is hopeless and everything can be used as a tool for good. Go live for your sister, yourself and the world. Pursue greatness, but pursue it with the proper knowledge if history and philosophy.