Belief/Faith as a concept, poses a fatal flaw to veracity of Christianity

OK. So you still think belief is a choice and have described why you yourself have made the choice to believe in God. Your evidence is your personal experiences where you think God granted you miracles and "acknowledgement of history". Since you don"t bother to explain what that means I"ll focus my comments on your experiences. I"m Very happy that you were lucky enough to survive what must have been a terrifying experience. But I"m glad you brought this story up because it points out one of the things that angers me most about religious followers of any kind. The thought that God decided to save you shows an underlying narcissism that you don"t mean to possess, but do. Don"t you think it"s more likely that you were just a lucky statistic? What about all the other people, Christians even, who die in car accidents? Why didn"t God save them? Single parents die in accidents. Children, babies " why would he save you and not them? If you believe God is real, doesn"t it make more sense that he doesn"t step in to do things like this? Wisdom (knowledge through experience) should tell you he certainly doesn"t. Furthermore, people who don"t believe in God have close calls with death as well. To me, it"s very easy to see that a much more rational, logical explanation for such an event is that either God doesn"t exists (or doesn"t intervene) and that you were a lucky statistic just like those that die in accidents are an unlucky statistic. I"ve been hit by a car myself as a pedestrian. I would be dead if I didn"t instinctively react and jump out of the way and am still amazed at how I was able to get away without serious injury. But, I"m able to look at this as an anecdotal experience instead of some key that reveals divine intervention. But as you say, this is enough evidence to convince you. But you still contend that belief is a choice. So tell me, with your experiences that led you to believe, would you hypothetically be able to make a conscious decision to no longer believe? If belief is indeed a choice as you say, you must have that ability. My point is that real belief is not something you can decide. We can't decide we believe in Santa Claus no matter how hard we try. We must have sufficient evidence. Other Things: What does this gibberish about the slaves finding God show? It"s well documented that those in turmoil turn to religion (much like the drug addict example you provided earlier). People in such a situation generally do so out of blind hope when they really don"t know of any other option. They do so irrationally. They hear that they can be forgiven and don"t think twice above following without asking questions in many cases. That is not true belief. You noticed that I "singled out Christianity". You are right, but the same argument goes for any religion. But, the reason I focus on Christianity is because I was raised as such and have lost my faith through intellectual reasons and am hoping to find a great mind on the Christian side to give me a sound enough argument to help my mind cross that bridge to belief. For that reason, I don"t really have any interest in arguing against any other religion. I"ve studied Christianity enough as I have been pretty devout years ago. But I don"t want this argument to be about me. I want it to be about whether or not belief is something someone chooses, or if it is merely a result beyond our control. Some of the other things you say are just absurd. Who thinks God rewards lazy people? I have listened to plenty of Christian and non Christians about their beliefs. I recommend a few of the best. Christians Don Johnson, D"Nesh D"Souza, Atheist Dan Barker (a past minister of 19 years) and Christopher Hitchens. You assume I don"t understand Christianity because I don"t believe. This is lazy and presumptuous. Does Dan Barker, a 19 year devout minister who lost his faith also not understand Christianity? People like him are not uncommon.