Is Christianity a repulsive religion

I will spend this round attempting to keep this debate from getting derailed! Just in case my opening post is not clear enough! To be honest I was hoping you were a devoted Christian who would simply be evangelizing as part of their doctrine! I will however continue to share my concern as to why I have never found Christianity to be worthy of my investment! "Christianity through their sermons(?) and Holy Book (Bible), shows the path to purity and righteousness." My argument here is that the bible does indeed make claims of facilitating the change in ones life to attain purity and righteousness... however it does not deliver! It claims it has the perfect word of God.. but again.. does not deliver. It claims it knows the truth of the beginning and the end.. but does not deliver! It assumes the reality of Sin and salvation.. but does not deliver! It tells stories of the magnitude of God's benevolence... but does not deliver! It boasts moral superiority... but does not deliver! It proclaims its own validity and simply does not deliver. It would have you fear a being without evidence for its own existence. It wants you to obey... but what are you obeying: God? or the Church? "Throughout the Bible, there are hints of overcoming temptation, following what you believe in and scattered lessons on morals and how to conduct oneself. " First I would like to mention that there is an endless amount of literature that provides the same moral compass. It is more than obvious that morality is defined by our society and our own individual ethics! The bible assumes that it is the ONLY way to salvation... Salvation from what? I have to ask.. Do you truly believe in sin? Or is sin just part of nature? Like murder, slavery, rape.. the bible will give its own view on these subjects but they are not the absolute wisdom that people claim it to be! By todays standards the morality in the bible is in fact obsolete! It illustrates a God who does not tolerate Sin but has all of the same flaws that he would punish us for! God is jealous, malicious, prideful, greedy, and lazy. He would ask you to live up to standards that he does not aspire to! "With so many pure lessons and a strict avoidance of sin and evil, it would be illogical to call Christianity a repulsive religion whether or not you choose to believe in and follow the religion." Again it sure does talk a big game... but does it deliver. Do the Christians we live with today meet these same expectations? Or do they realize that it is impossible and leave it all in the hands of Jesus. Why else would the Dalai Lama suffer the flames while a serial killer pedophile gets a deathbed redemption? Also how can we be sure evil and sin exists? The bible would have you believe in these concepts without begging any questions. Well that's what I do.. I question.. that is all it takes for me to see past the revelations presented in the bible. Is not all we consider to be evil just a part of nature? People are terrifying but that does not invite such nonsense to help us understand something that is born out of Chaos! Also not believing is not an option.. at the risk of eternal torture.. tell me: How is that not repulsive?