Girlfriend is questioning abortion

I accept your challenge, and will assume the role of the female. Her name will be Jennifer. Although I am male in real life, I feel like I can quite easily and effectively argue my points from the woman's point of view. I am pro-choice, I support the decision made by the woman and her right to do with her body what she chooses, and believe that the Choice can only be made by the one with the life within them, not by outside influences. I am 17, I'm not even graduated from high school, my life is in so much chaos and uncertainty, and I know I do not have the capability to be a mother, nor should I have to carry the burden of someone else's decision within my womb. I know my boyfriend sincerely believes that there is a way to get through this without aborting the child, but I simply disagree with him. If I want to have a child, I want to have one with him, of my own will and desire, in the most beautifully intimate and romantic way. These conditions that have been placed onto me by forces outside of my own control is not fair. Everyone deserves the right to make a decision. I was not given the right to make a decision. My life was invaded under false pretenses, and thus I should not have to hold the burden of carrying this child. I don't think I can deny that life begins within the fetus the moment the sperm touches the egg. Consciousness, on the other hand, can be argued differently. The 24th or 28th week is the week that is scientifically recognized to be when the baby first contains 'consciousness'. It becomes a consciously aware being at this point, although its level of consciousness is extremely low. I am not yet at my 24th week, so I can get an abortion without the being within my womb being consciously aware of what is going on. The life-form is not technically human yet, it has not developed to that point where it can be considered human. It is merely DNA right now, in the growth process of becoming human. But it is not yet human. I hope, Johnny, that you can forgive me for my decision. But I want to have a child with you, not with anyone else. I can't look down at this child's face knowing his face is not a reflection of yours, that his DNA does not contain any of yours. The pain would be too unbearbale. What am I to tell him or her when they get older? That his birth was the result of rape? A complete accident? I could never bring myself to do that. I don't want to put him or her up for adoption either, because then that baby would know me as the mother that didn't love them at all, or was irresponsible, and I can't live with that idea either. They may end up with cruel foster parents, or even worse circumstances. It is better to abort the child. It would be for the best. If reincarnation were real, well, maybe the soul will find a better womb than mine. If not, I hear that God, if he exists, takes all the aborted children and takes care of them in Heaven. Maybe if I go there I can explain to the baby why I made my decision. And, well, if there is no life after death then who really cares anyway? I would be doing this child a favor by not bringing him into such a cruel world. Sorry, Johnny, but I think it's for the best. Tomorrow morning, I'm going to the abortion clinic. Not without discussing this over with you. But this is an invasion of my privacy, an invasion of my own right to a free and happy life. If I kept the child, it would be against my will. I can't love something that only reminds me of the face and eyes of the man who raped me. That is too much to ask of me.