It is possible for an atheist to have a consistent morality of any kind

We didn't define morality but I don't like the dictionary definition because it is not so good for our debate.Morality: A consistent system of determining what really is a 'good' thing to do and a 'bad' thing to do EVEN IF the 'bad' thing seems a more beneficial option because it is a very dirty tactic.Atheist: Someone who doesn't believe in a higher power of any kind for source of either morality nor consciousness.Now I must explain the horror of modern day systems of finding morality (I am a moral nihilist but I realise that I need to find a false sense of morality in religion because without it I'd be a very nasty person oh my gosh).ANYWAY...If you really don't delude yourself of a god (I say delude because to an atheist reader to believe in any god(s) is inherently self-delusion) the what is there to fear if you rape your one year old daughter?A one year old is likely to be so severely traumatised by how forceful and aggressive you were as you shouted "DO NOT TELL ANYONE IT IS A SECRET!" that they will never do it. They cannot pose as a threat of any kind (unless they do blab their mouth about the details which is like 0.001% of one year olds are that rebellious). So risk-wise you have very little to worry about APART FROM... Your emotional guilt and 'conscience' biting back at you. However there are clinically diagnosed psychopaths who, despite being perfectly sane (unlike sociopaths) they literally cannot feel any guilt for any degree of abuse they do unto others. How can such a person (I actually think in a way I am a psychopath) find any morality at all? Surely the only way is to create a source of constant terror of ETERNAL PAIN... Of that YOU ARE ALWAYS BEING WATCHED BY the eye of the supreme being of all. If I'm honest with you the only real reason I wouldn't, given the opportunity, rape someone who I took a fancy to if I figured there's pretty much no way I'd get found out and that they wouldn't even see my face is because I fear a later punishment of some kind brutally from fate. Perhaps I might get REALLY unlucky for rest of my life or in NEXT LIFE (Hindu and Buddhist religion here) perhaps I'll be eternally suffering (judeo philosophy here) this is what makes me go oh... Well what if? What if that superpowerful awe-inspiring he/she/it/thing that controls morality will punish me for it? Only THEN do I truly realise oh.. I shouldn't do that.I have to confess some thing honestly, I used to be a really immoral guy. I've actually stolen people's things at school and cheated on a mock exam [it wasn't an official one] (I had a paper of notes that I found a way to look at). I have looked at horrible rape pornography and jacked off to it too. I've done many many bad things in my 'thoughts' and thankfully had the sanity not to do many of them in real life. This was because I used to be atheist. Then I really asked a very strong (this guy didn't even listen to MUSIC because he said it is a satanic trance and his whole family would beat him up if they found him listening to his own music) and I asked him "why do you believe in a lie?" and his answer changed my life. This is what he said to me: "When your science teacher says "WE stay to Earth because of Gravity why do you not question it? Why do you not question that you are a boy? That you are real? This is because of the urge of sanity, we must put trust in certain things for the sake of remaining a sane human being. This is why I believe in Allah, without Allah I am always left to wonder "is there a god?" Without Allah I maybe would rape a girl I saw on her own in an alley way and think nothing of it. Without Allah I'd be a lost soul, ready to fall into the hands of evil at any time, the only way to avoid this is to stop questioning and start answering." I don't know why but that just made the most perfect sense to me and so if you are reading this (Ali Jaffer) I want to thank you very much (He will know who I am I think).This is more a personal debate for me in that before I just accepted god and said "you know what? There has to be a creator!" I was lost. I am not a very religious person and neither is my family but the core values of sanity (as opposed to psychopathy and sociopathy in criminals) is only possible if I really believe no I MUST NOT EVEN DO THIS NO QUESTIONS TO GOD!I know I seem erratic and I have no real contentions but I fail to see a single way to find morality as an atheist.