Why would anyone "want" to believe in god? Count all the people god wants to murder

Ok I am going to end this debate immediately because it is absolutely clear that you are brainwashed, indoctrinated and groomed so that no matter what anybody says to you, even if they were to agree with EXACTLY---TO---THE---LETTER of what you state, say and believe, you would still manage to find fault with that person. Your god does kill which is the exact same thing as murdering. You should look it up in the torah to find that the terms are the same. What"s worse about you and only a small, extremely small pitiful little band of christians somehow seem within your jiggly little rotted brains seem to think that its somehow justified for your god to rip the innards of mothers, to drown babies suckling on their mothers nipples, to kill innocent children for absolutely no reason at all. And you believe that its completely moral. Um no its YOU and YOUR god who in which you cannot even prove exists btw, that are completely immoral and bankrupt and has no moral compass whatsoever. Atheists are BY FAR the most peaceful people on the planet. Religious people like you create hate and war and massive genocide. Simply google "which is more peaceful atheism or god" and BANG you get about 2,460,000 results. What"s even worse about you is that you simply cannot and will not take for any reason your bible at its word. Therefore you do not believe in your god. You cannot go around and twist the words of your bible to make them suit you and only you. After all serving you god as per his laws is a true impossibility. The same thing is also true in serving your christ. It is also an impossibility as per what the bible states. So you are not a christian. Now did you watch the video? No. Of course not. You the invalid christians cannot take ---any--- actual evidence of any kind especially when slapped in the face with it. And you start off with "Hello, friend." ARE---YOU---KIDDING---ME?????? Your god has killed/ murdered 2,821,364 in his bible alone all in one little splatch of land. And NOBODY deserved it. Not one person. Why? Because this god of yours could have easily brought in an era of peace, love, harmony, care for each other, kindness etc etc etc. Nah. He chose hate, evil (which he mentioned THAT HE WAS EVIL several times in his bible), anger a few times, wrath a few times, rage, fury, JEALOUSY A LOT!!!!!!!!!! Jealousy from a supreme deity? Jealousy is nothing but anger as disguised fear. And even worse is this god of yours neatly passed down these emotions to man so man could learn to hate. Great going god. Great going you for believing in him. But nah you don"t believe in him because you invent your excuses and lies to make your bible suit YOUR wants, needs and desires. That shows that there"s 0% chance of you being christian" more like a rabid dog searching for his bone in a puddle of gravy. We"re NOT friends because its you that doesn"t believe as such. YOU drove a stake in the heart of believability and stabbed it into ridiculousness with a shake of sickness and a ton of swabbing immorality that nobody who is sane would ever pitch a nursery rhyme at. So because you take enormous pride in believing that your god is moral in killing innocent babies suckling on their mothers nipples, killing innocent children for 0 reason and pregnant mothers also for no reason, this debate is now over.