neon green, 1990 s disney mournful, loose by jeremy geddes, by ralph steadman. a beautiful digital art. a knot at the middle of his psyche was untying. the energy he'd put into holding things together was coming free. he'd fallen in love with the object of his search after he'd lost her. the chaos he'd dedicated his life to holding at bay was stronger & wider & more powerful than he would ever be. 