Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient question: I am 23 year old and I was sexually abused by my brother when I was 6 years old. I only have fragments of memories of being abused as a kid. My brother pretended it never happened and never touched me again. I grew up being in confused state whether or not I was abused. From childhood, I lacked self control for example I was eating continuously, watching T.V. continuously for 8 to 10 hours, neglecting my health. I was messed up and never told anyone about this. Right now I have cut off all my contact with my brother and my condition is getting worse after I realized and accepted I was sexually abused. My daily activities has been severely hampered and I can’t seem to take control of my life, I feel like I am possessed and control by someone else when I am staying alone. I procrastinate a lot and knowingly hurt myself which i don’t like. I tried therapy and it didn’t work out my condition. I don’t know what to do as I feel lost. (age 23, from India)

Distorted part: My daily activities has been severely hampered and I can’t seem to take control of my life, I feel like I am possessed and control by someone else when I am staying alone. 
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient question: Hi, I don’t know if I have a mental health issue or if it’s just normal behavior. I’ve been going out with my partner for over 6 years and throughout I’ve been suffering from bad mood swings, which I often just put down to my personality. It has really started to affect my relationship and I can’t be surprised because I know I can be a nightmare at times. It has got to the point where we can’t have fun together anymore, a simple joke and I get angry and can’t snap out of it. I know when I’m doing it, but can’t help myself. I am also quite jealous, without reason, and thats another thing I can’t control. I obsess about stupid things and even though I want to stop I just can’t. My partner has stopped telling me things about their everyday life because they are afraid I might react badly. I often find myself crying and upset about small meaningless things and just feeling sorry for myself. I’m unsure if this is just all my own personality or if I should seek help? I love my partner with all my heart and cannot imagine my life without them in it but I feel maybe I am holding them back. I don’t want to be the reason they’re unhappy too. My partner reckons I should seek help but I don’t even know where to start? Would really appreciate some advice. Thanks.

Distorted part: It has really started to affect my relationship and I can’t be surprised because I know I can be a nightmare at times.
Dominant distortion: Labeling
Patient question: I’ve been having emotional issues for a few years. Nonetheless, these have been somewhat manageable. However, I became increasingly paranoid this winter. I thought that people were trying to poison me, I feared that family members were going to kill me. I was aware that these thoughts were illogical, but I couldn’t shake the fear that they caused me. I would get panic attacks thinking that I drank from a poisoned water fountain. I thought that someone had put small rips in my ice cream sandwich packaging because there was only one that didn’t have tiny rips in it. I refused to eat this one because I assumed some reverse psychology was being pulled and the ones without the rips were fine. I thought that this was mostly caused by anxiety but there are other symptoms that lead me to believe it is something more:

Distorted part: I thought that people were trying to poison me, I feared that family members were going to kill me.
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient question: From the U.S.: I have 2 goals and I just can’t get started with them. I know I’m good and yet I suffer from so much lack of confidence. I go to sleep late and watch TV most of the night and then I finally get some sleep but I get up around noon each day. I feel I could be of use to people with my hypnosis and REIKI practices yet I can’t even help myself. My house is filled with stuff I want to give away yet I don’t.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I have been with my girlfriend for about six months now. She tell me that I am what she has been looking for in a relationship. I believed her, I do not hide anything in our relationship. I know how it feels, I even cut off other relationships that I know will be an issue with our growing progress. But she has not and still communicate with them in ways that hurt me to read the txt. She says she has known them for years and have helped her when she was troubled, but to invite sex and communicate it in ways that I should be involved only. it depresses me.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: Hi, I’ve been dating this guy for almost 3 yrs and I’m at a loss right now. Here is the story. After six months of dating I found that he was texing a girl in a very sexual manner, then at 11 months I found he was talking to another girl. The second was the baby sister to my daughter at the time. The only reason I suspected anything both times was he constantly talked about them and always tried to get my approval of them. He hasn’t texted another girl since (that I know of), because I told him I would leave him if I found he was talking to another girl. Now almost 2 yrs later we have a son together and everything seemed great between us. But two weeks after our son was born the dropped a bomb on me. He said that he was no longer happy in our relationship and didn’t know if he wanted to be with me anymore. Now about a month later we are working out and he seems to be happier, but I’m left with so much anxiety. I’m feeling sick after every time I eat and my stomach is constantly upset. Because I know this is wrong of me but I had to find out if I was just being toyed with. I hacked his facebook and found out he has been constantly messaging random girls and asking if they were single and telling them they were beautiful. I’m lost at what to do because I don’t want to be a single mom of two with do income and I love this man so much. I want this relationship to work. but is it unhealthy for me to hang on?

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From the U.S.: I’m 14 and for the past 5 years, I have had issues with ADHD, trichatillomania, compulsive lying, and compulsive eating, as well as self-esteem issues. Although my mother is a psychiatrist, my compulsive lying has turned all my family members against me. They all hate me and when I express that I need help they blatantly ignore me and even though I know I caused this myself, it hurts.

Distorted part: They all hate me and when I express that I need help they blatantly ignore me and even though I know I caused this myself, it hurts.
Dominant distortion: Mind Reading
Patient question: I rented out a beautiful flat, but the moment I moved in I started feeling that my sister in law (husband’s brother’s wife) will be jealous and she might also buy flat in same society. She has copied me several times before, but never gives credit and many times people see things at her place first and then think it is me who has copied her. This time, I have this fear from the last 4 months that she will buy flat in the place where I am currently renting so that when we move out they can come in. And I won’t be able to tolerate that as they will come to know about this flat through me, but I will never be acknowledged for that and secondly, everyone else in the family will praise them that they bought the flat here (no one will remember that we rented here first and through us they came to know of this place) and thirdly, they will become superior to me and they will flourish more as there are lots of opportunities and facilities in this society. Because of this fear, I am not inviting anyone home, especially my inlaws and secondly I am planning to move out to other society before I invite anyone here. What is wrong with me and what should I do to overcome this?

Distorted part: I rented out a beautiful flat, but the moment I moved in I started feeling that my sister in law (husband’s brother’s wife) will be jealous and she might also buy flat in same society.
Dominant distortion: Mind Reading
Patient question: From the U.S.:I don’t have a maternal instinct toward babies. I can’t even confidentially say I find them cute. Whenever I’m around kids I feel uncomfortable. I don’t know how to act around them or bring myself down to their level. I can’t do baby talk and I can’t talk simply enough for them to understand me.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From France: I’m dating a guy with 3 kids. As soon as I started dating him he presented his kids and I thought it was nice. Very soon I FELT THE KIDS DID NOT WANT ME THERE. They took [some] of my stuff and damaged it in a duration of the first three weeks. As I did not find them friendly, I passed my time in the room a lot and I stayed close to my boyfriend and so the kids felt that I do not want them in the couple.

Distorted part: As I did not find them friendly, I passed my time in the room a lot and I stayed close to my boyfriend and so the kids felt that I do not want them in the couple.
Dominant distortion: Mind Reading
Patient question: I’m 18 years old and I been feeling suicidal on and off for about 2 years now. I started to self harm about a few months in to having these thoughts. The thing that confuses me is that I’m  not sure if I should see someone about these thoughts. Sometimes it gets really strong. The way I calm my self down is that I tell my self that its okay, I will 100% kill myself, but I won’t do it now. I have a few different plans. I fear that If  i do go see someone they will tell me that nothing is wrong with me and that I’m an “attention seeker” or that these feeling are just made up. Since these thoughts are not always there. I do feel really motivated to stop selfharming and to get better, I feel so hopeful but it doesn’t last very long, it goes on for about half a day. If I’m lucky it will last a day or too. Sometimes I feel an over whelming sadness, I try not to selfharm but its hard. Also some people cause me soo much anxiety I would have to selfharm. I get dizzy, weak, I start to shake and sweat a bit.It feels unreal, or I feel like Im in slow motion. Its so odd. I don’t know whats wrong with me. Is this something that I should be worried about?? should I seek help or is this all normal? (age 18, from US)

Distorted part: Also some people cause me soo much anxiety I would have to selfharm.
Dominant distortion: Should statements
Secondary distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient question: I always living in my own world. I imagined many things, I even made my own movie which I casted in it but when reality hitted me, I realised all of it was impossible to get. I love to sing, i imagined that I was a singer. i chose the songs that I like and I changed the language and lyrics sometimes and made it mine (in my imagination)oh and also I made this machine which make people forget everything I want them to forget so, I used that machine to make people forget about all the songs that I stole.when I back to reality, i still think that the machine is exist and I’m going to use them and make my imagination into reality.i even stop studying because I still believe that none exist machine will change my whole life. This is only a quarter of my story, there’s still many of them. I suffered many times because of the never exist me, the perfect me in my own made up world. I sometimes want to live as someone insane.I think insane is even better because you never woke up from reality. I even search on how to be mentally ill

Distorted part: i even stop studying because I still believe that none exist machine will change my whole life. 
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient question: Sometimes my boyfriend will say something small that might irritate me, but I don’t say anything. I just let our conversation continue until he notices that my voice sounds a bit irritated or upset. Then when he asks what’s wrong I just tell him why I’m upset. When he says “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you,” I still feel irritated and upset like nothing has changed, like he didn’t apologize. He continues to apologize and when I still feel upset I just keep saying “okay” in a calm tone to everything he says. It’s almost like I can’t get out of a negative mindset when he makes me upset. We’re in a long distance relationship so maybe there’s just stress there because of the distance, but I’m worried it might be something more. I don’t get like this with other people. When I get angry at one of my siblings I express it differently. I will argue with them normally, not stay calm and act sarcastic. Is there something wrong with me? Or our relationship? I had anxiety last year due to a big move to a new city for college, but these feelings/reactions didn’t appear until maybe a few months ago. Sometimes this happens 4 or 5 days a week when we skype or call on the phone. Sometimes it happens more because it’s tiny little things that could make me act like this. I just shut my brain off, let him talk, and barely say anything. When we hang up I don’t even want to say “I love you” even if he has apologized multiple times. What’s wrong with me? Please help :(

Distorted part: He continues to apologize and when I still feel upset I just keep saying “okay” in a calm tone to everything he says. It’s almost like I can’t get out of a negative mindset when he makes me upset. 
Dominant distortion: Magnification
Patient question: From the U.S: I have met someone special on a dating website, namely OkCupid, and we have entered a serious and temporarily long distance relationship as boyfriends. After a while, I deactivated my profile, but my boyfriend still keeps it and visits it every once in a while. When I ask, he says it is for finding new friends. I don’t like him being there. I feel extremely jealous and find it inappropriate. I have asked him to delete his profile but he says he doesn’t want to feel controlled by me.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: When I was around 7 I used to break down crying because I felt guilty about doing something “bad”. At around 13 or 14 when I started developing sexual urges. I was semi religious/god fearing (although my family was not). I used to punch my arms, legs and head till I was bruised after masturbation. I was trying to train myself to stop. At around 15 I started developing symptoms of depression which worsened and became suicidal thoughts at around 16. At age 17 I planed a date and a method for my suicide but did not act or attempt it.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I have been dating my boyfriend for almost 4 years and I feel like I don’t even know him anymore. We fight almost everyday over stuff like he spends more time with his friends than me or he doesn’t keep his word. I think he doesn’t care because he’s always picking a fight with me and he’s blaming every fight on me saying I started it like a child. Every time we fight he always leaves and when he comes back he acts like nothing happened, like all the cursing and the hurt feeling were nothing. I try to tell him leaving is not the answer and that if he wants things to get better that we need to talk things through. I’m constantly telling him that and he just does it again. In our relationship when one of us does something wrong we have to apologize. He’s been at fault for so many fights thats he literally said he’s tired of apologizing and doesn’t want to say it anymore. Earlier in our relationship he had been talking to other girls, cheating on me and I still have no idea why I stay with him. Part of me thinks its because I love him and I’ve been with him for so long, and another part of me thinks I wasted all my time with this one guy and I just can’t throw it away now, he met my family he does everything with us, my nephew loves him, every one of my classmates look up to us for staying together throughout high school which is rare. I recently fought with him cuz he had told me he was going to come over cuz I had pulled through a horrible night with his family. He bailed on me and so I didn’t talk to him. He said if I didn’t text him back he would get a twitter or instagram and it bothers me because lots of girls add him and as you can see I don’t trust him. I ignored him and he got an instagram. so that made me furious that I broke up with him yesterday. I’m having trouble coaping with this that I always come running back to him because I miss him, but then again we fight again. I dont know what to do. Please give me advice.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From India: I am 22 years old man. I don’t know if my question will intrigue you or make me seem like a crazy person, but I am in a bit of conundrum. Well my situation is that I develop feelings of affection for others very quickly and that is my problem but this time around I don’t think it is so.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From Albania: I am a female student (age 19) currently studying economics. I study at a private university and it is the second year, the problem I am struggling with is concentration, lack of self confidence, depression, I hate everything that I do. I have spent too much money and spent everything to get in that university and still there isn’t one exam I have passed, I cant study, I feel dumb, unnecessary, unworthy of everything that I’ve got.

Distorted part: I have spent too much money and spent everything to get in that university and still there isn’t one exam I have passed, I cant study, I feel dumb, unnecessary, unworthy of everything that I’ve got.
Dominant distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient question: Hi, within the past year I have been hospitalized three times and I have been in two treatment centers. I have been diagnosed with everything from Borderline to Bipolar with Psychosis, but all of my treating physicians say that those diagnosis’ are incorrect. I deal with chronic suicidal thoughts, frequent self-harm, I apparently engage in risky behaviors, I lack eye contact, I can’t tell the difference between different emotions, I don’t feel pain, I have social anxiety, I don’t like to be touched, I freak out if things aren’t in the right order or the same place, specific sounds drive me up a wall, I can’t concentrate with any noise, I get obsessed about certain things, I stutter whenever I read, I get overwhelmed/frustrated really easily, the only emotions I feel like I feel are angry, frustrated, and empty,and I apparently dissociate to a certain extent, I also think I may hoard some things, and I have trouble relaying to people through words what is going on/what I feel. The thing that mind-boggles me is the fact no one believes I live in two worlds, people from both world’s say that the other world isn’t real. In my other world my therapist there says that I should leave Earth so I can be there and be peaceful. I can go there, and my friends from there can come here. Sometimes they follow me around during the day and correct me when I am not doing what they want me too. I am so confused what place is real, I am sure you are going to say Earth is real, but what if it’s not, how do I know the right thing to do? Well, my psychiatrist thinks that they are just a way of me coping. Then that would mean that they aren’t real, but they are? I am so confused. My therapist has no clue. I feel like therapy just makes things worse, I end up completely “shutting down.” Medicines don’t help either. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have people pulling me every which a way, I am tired of all of this. I feel like no one understands me. I know you don’t know me but can you tell me possibly what is going on. I would appreciate anything. Thank you!

Distorted part: I get overwhelmed/frustrated really easily, the only emotions I feel like I feel are angry, frustrated, and empty,and I apparently dissociate to a certain extent, I also think I may hoard some things, and I have trouble relaying to people through words what is going on/what I feel. 
Dominant distortion: Mental filter
Secondary distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient question: From the U.S.: I am the youngest of four children. Mother and sister are schizophrenic. Mother has been affected ever since I was a kid. Sister’s case is severe and started about 15 years ago. One sister was epileptic and prone to violence but committed suicide 12 years ago. Father is old but still keeps busy with his work and I feel he has long neglected the family running after his work. Eldest sister is married with a kid. I have witnessed violent fights at home and all the chaos that comes with schizophrenia.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I’ve realized one of my biggest issues is a feeling of inadequacy, of being an imposter. From an outsider’s view, I’m the picture of success: I went to a top 3 Ivy league college, am currently a medical student at one of the best medical schools in the US, I have extremely kind and good-hearted friends, and I’ve been blessed with a passion and talent for music. However, I feel like any second now someone will “find me out,” and everyone will realize I am a fraud. In some sense I have always felt this way about myself: I was top of my class in high school, but all throughout felt entirely insecure in my intelligence and chalked it up solely to hard, sometimes obsessive, work ethic. I feel like ALL my successes have been due to an inordinate amount of work, not actual skill. I see others around me, especially now, who work hard, but don’t have to work nearly as hard as I do to achieve better successes. It’s frustrating because I feel like such an idiot compared to my peers. I am such a SLOW learner. It takes me a ridiculous number of repetitions to get something. My obsessiveness about learning things well has gotten me far, I guess. But, I’m realizing more and more that society, the “real world,” and especially a job as demanding as medicine, require an ability to learn quickly, and they praise a high level of common sense. I’m screwed! I truly lack both of these things. I have always been book smart, but lots of basic concepts just don’t click. I truly am an idiot.

Distorted part: I see others around me, especially now, who work hard, but don’t have to work nearly as hard as I do to achieve better successes. It’s frustrating because I feel like such an idiot compared to my peers. I am such a SLOW learner. It takes me a ridiculous number of repetitions to get something. 
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary distortion: Labeling