Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient question: First of all, I’d like to apologize in advance if this isn’t as coherent as you’d like; my thoughts have the tendency to be a bit disorganized. Please don’t hate me. I just turned 20 and I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia and Major Depression when I was 17. I was later diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Mania. I’m really sad all the time. I’ve taken lots of different kinds of medication but they don’t work at all (except for Xanax). One of the problems I’ve been having is that I don’t seem to react to situations the way people around me do. I’m hypersensitive about what people think about me. Sometimes I get really upset about great things. I recently met a great girl and we got along really well so I started crying and tried to kill myself. Other times, people will hurt me and do really bad things to me, and it makes me laugh. If I get too excited about something like a new job, a trip to somewhere fun or even just a really good song, it makes me want to die. But at the same time I’m happy… Sometimes I think about hurting people I care about to show them how much I love them. When my friends do nice things for me, I want to stab them and hold them in my arms but I know that’s not polite. I avoid certain social situations like parties because I fear my excitement may cause me to become suicidal. It’s all really confusing. Is there anything I can do to be more like normal people? I want to be a good person; I don’t want to be evil.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I am 25 and I am really worried that I might have a mental illness. My sibling has had a psychosis since an early age (started when she was 12-13). So far, I have had no hallucinations or delusions, my thinking is not impaired, I don’t neglect my hygiene, and I am not forgetful. But recently (as I have been abroad and separated from the people I love), I have started worrying a lot that I will get psychosis. That’s when a weird feeling in my head started. It’s difficult to describe-maybe as if I didn’t get enough sleep (and I sleep more than I used to) or like tension. I’m also nervous and more clumsy than usual. My concentration for studying is poor, though I do manage to do it in the end. As a child, I had anxiety problems that resulted in motor tics (might be important to note) and I have some obsessions (like repeating some moves).

Distorted part: That’s when a weird feeling in my head started. It’s difficult to describe-maybe as if I didn’t get enough sleep (and I sleep more than I used to) or like tension. I’m also nervous and more clumsy than usual. My concentration for studying is poor, though I do manage to do it in the end.
Dominant distortion: Magnification
Secondary distortion: Mental filter
Patient question: From the U.S.: One of my best friend’s has depression. He doesn’t hide it anymore, and has expressed to his parents and friends that he wants help. We’re only 16, so we really can’t do that much on our own, but his parents are adamant against letting him get treated.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: This happened to me when I am giving my presentation in class, my mind will often blank out and I just couldn’t say out the words in proper sentences. I have been through the worst especially during interviews whereby a few days before, I had to plan and type out all my answers on a word documents in order for me to rehearse and remember what to say in an interview. In addition, whenever there’s a phone call from an unknown number, I will also panic and it makes my heart beats faster! I don’t understand what is wrong with me as I couldn’t find any answers to my conditions and I am jealous of many who are able to speak out fluently. However, during normal conversations, I am able fine. Is there a cure for the condition? Please advice. Thank you very much!

Distorted part: In addition, whenever there’s a phone call from an unknown number, I will also panic and it makes my heart beats faster!
Dominant distortion: Magnification
Patient question: Hello! I am not very ardent in psychosis so I thought I’d consult. I have recently been doing this thing where if I remember an extremely stressful experience or I recall something I’ve been procrastinating (cleaning a room,homework,organizing emails etc.)/an embarrassing memory my mind feels as if it shakes and only focuses on those memories and I involuntarily (I don’t know how to describe it other as being possessed by the memories) lose control of my hands and they/my shoulders tremor (my fingers lose control and shake in the air in a motion like piano playing, and my shoulders jerk back and forth) and my whole body shakes until I push the certain memory away or focus on gripping a table/my phone and then it calms to only my fingers/hand twitching until I calm down enough to be level-headed. It’s psychically tolling and I am always mentally and psychically exhausted after calming. It is only a thing that has happened in the past year. It can also happen in random spikes, even when I am not breaking-down; as when I’m sitting with friends or out at the movies my hands will take control of themselves and tremor. I have diagnosed disassociative amnesia and schizotypal personality disorder but I can’t find these disorders being tied to these symptoms anywhere. I have only ever taken medicine/psychotherapy for depression symptoms when I was 11-12. Thanks for your time and information!

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From India: hello sir/mam, I am an engineering student, it all started from diploma final year, now I have completed my diploma. I was a very funny and enjoying person, I studied very well and scored good marks. When I was in the last year of diploma, that is in 6th sem, I failed in a subject due to overconfidence, and then after everything changed, my one year was wasted and I couldn’t join engineering, in this one year I kept on thinking of my year back, I was depressed all the time, feeling lonely.

Distorted part: When I was in the last year of diploma, that is in 6th sem, I failed in a subject due to overconfidence, and then after everything changed, my one year was wasted and I couldn’t join engineering, in this one year I kept on thinking of my year back, I was depressed all the time, feeling lonely.
Dominant distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient question: From the U.S.: For several years I remained in a job which I did not like — actually hated, but it paid well. One of main problems was my boss’s wife, who also worked in the office. Over the years on a weekly basis, she would say things that I thought were inappropriate creating a hostile work environment (calling me “token,” joking about slavery, inner-city, etc.) The worst moment was when she stood in front of me and said, “On the radio, it is n-word this, n-word that.” She said the real racial slur. I believed she was trying to goad me into saying or doing something. I just sat there in silence.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: We are adopting a little girl who has never had issues with peeing her pants before. The father found out he wasnt the real father and just gave her up. I am related by blood to the girl and she knows us. But she has been having “accidents” a lot. We went out of town for a week and she was great! But started back to school today and the teacher called and told me she peed again.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: My husband and I met in 2006 and married in 2010. In 2011 we decided to take the spontaneous leap to move to a big city which was always a huge dream of mine. The agreement was we’d live there 3-5 years and if we didn’t like it we’d leave. Without jobs we started our new adventure. I ended up falling in love with the city and landing a job that I felt proud of, with excellent benefits to boot. In 2014 we had our first child together after a rough pregnancy where i was mostly confined at home sick. Sometime in 2014 it was decided we were going to move back to our home state (a state i never missed or wanted to go back to) after doing some math and realizing it would be more affordable to raise a child. Throughout that year i expressed that I really didnt want to go back, that i loved where i was, etc. His reply back was always that he wanted to go back to warmer weather (he hated the cold), a place where we had friends and was more affordable. Admittedly he did angrily say on multiple occassion that we could stay – but i knew that he didnt want to. I felt guilty keeping him and also didnt want to deal with someone miserable with their situation. We easily landed jobs back in our home state before we moved back and i thought to myself maybe this was a sign.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I am in a family of five. I am the second oldest, I have an older sister a younger sister and two younger brothers. All my life I have felt as if my siblings team up on me. My two sisters have always been very close and so have my brothers. Whenever it comes to arguments I am always the one who is put down by the others. If I say something at one of them, the rest will automatically defend one of them and attack me. My two sisters have always been super close, however whenever I try to talk to one of them they kind of just disregard me. And every time I do something nice for one of my brothers, the next day they will get mad at me and claim I am the worst sister ever and I never do anything for anyone. Why is it my siblings always team up on me like this? (age 16, from US)

Distorted part: Whenever it comes to arguments I am always the one who is put down by the others.
Dominant distortion: Mind Reading
Patient question: Hello, I am current seeing a therapist as well as a psychiatrist and am taking .5mg Klonopin twice daily, and 10mg escitalopram. I have a great fear of heart testing and any type of test that requires my heart to be monitored. I’m afraid they will find something wrong. My moto has always been if a doctor does not verify you have a problem the problem does not exist. I need to change that moto. Please any suggestions or thoughts that I can reflect on would be greatly appreciated.

Distorted part: I have a great fear of heart testing and any type of test that requires my heart to be monitored. I’m afraid they will find something wrong.
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient question: It has been more than a year now , I feel alone, depressed, don’t feel like talking to anyone, just like to be alone. Also have been too much emotional these days. I don’t have any girl friend or even a person who cares for me , except my mother, in my entire life. This all has started because I cant see my mother not getting respect from my father after staying with him for almost 30 years. I feel this so much , but I am not able to speak on this with either of them. I just keep on crying from inside. I cry while sleeping thinking of all this. This is affecting my behavior and I am no more a social person. I have lost all my friends. Even in office I just talk work. Some of my close friends say that I inspire them with the way I work, but when I come back home I just see all those things which I have seen over the years which makes me to forget the kind of person I am or I was to be. I have never got love. Because of all this my self esteem is gone way low. I am confident when it is work, but when colleagues go for tea break or lunch together I am uncomfortable to go with them as I don’t know or I am not confident on my behavior. I don’t sleep well, I stay awake late nights, get up late in morning. I have lost weight not eating much. Also about my past , I am not been able to do much friendship in school and college as well. Even in my family I have always been kept aside for all important things, they just think that I cant do it just because I don’t speak much. I am fed up of all these, these days and I am seeking for an advice or help. It would be glad if someone can talk to me or can help me to find way out of this. Thanks in advance !! (age 26,from India)

Distorted part:  I have never got love. Because of all this my self esteem is gone way low.
Dominant distortion: Mental filter
Patient question: From a young woman in the U.S.: I know that this is a waste of your time since you’re not getting paid for it. I feel that most of the therapist and psychologists real intention for the job is really to just get what everybody seems to die for, literally. For a little piece of green paper. I’m sure they get tired of hearing all the same, stories of how everyone thinks they’re so crazy, or deal with the unbalance everyone has. They eventually grow weary? I don’t know.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I want to know if anything is wrong with me. I crave attention, positive or negative and have done for many years. Over the past year i’ve started to have depressive episodes in which i contemplate hurting myself, and have done, but only minor things to get attention or to avoid having to do something (feel stressed due to being anxious about situations) ive even contemplated killing myself once, though i was under the influence of alcohol, but without the intention of ever commencing the act as i couldn’t do something like that as it would hurt the people i love. i feel ashamed of being like this as i come from a loving family and have great friends and a great life so why do i feel this way!?!

Distorted part: i feel ashamed of being like this as i come from a loving family and have great friends and a great life so why do i feel this way!?!
Dominant distortion: Should statements
Patient question: I am a sophomore in high school, and since middle school I have had suicidal thoughts, and attempted about twice. But that is not the heart of my current issue. Last year, I started having homicidal thoughts as well. I have thoughts of planting a bomb in my school, or walking into my school or mall or church with a rifle and opening fire. I have no reason to want this, I am not bullied, nor is there anyone I outright hate and want to make dead. To be clear, I do not have any intention of doing this, and this is in no way a threat to commit such an act. But the thought often dominates my thoughts. Planning out how such an attack would go, thinking about how the media would react, ect. These thoughts have started to interfere with my schoolwork.

Distorted part: But the thought often dominates my thoughts. Planning out how such an attack would go, thinking about how the media would react, ect. 
Dominant distortion: Mind Reading
Patient question: From the U.S.: Child (15) has urges to bite hand and twiddle fingers rapidly. Also lacks social communication skills towards other people aside from family. She’s not good at listening likes to do things and figure things out for herself. Also likes to jump and squeeze eyes and fists when excited. She likes to play though she is fifteen.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From Turkey: Back in July I met a guy through a friend. He found me through my friend’s Facebook page. After 2 weeks he wanted to become a couple. He seemed to rush things. He invited me to a wedding on the 10th day of our relationship, wanted to go on holiday with me and talked to his mother and sister about me. Then he inteoduced me to his friends. I thought such things were too premature at this early stage. In the meantime, I had a feeling like he had no relationship before and that I was his first girlfriend.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I am the youngest in our small family of 4. The oldest memory that I have is my mom and my drunk dad fighting. My dad has been a drunkard all through his life. He never really earned too much, just enough to buy his alcohol or clear out old debts (at times) so he could take new ones at the time of need. My mother has been financially independent. She has been the sole earner for the family and also the one to put roof over our heads (we have been living in the quarter provided by her employer). She used to be my dad’s guarantor for loans and the ultimate payer as well. My brother and I have not been raised luxuriously nor have we ever seen dearth of basic necessities. Our childhood was spent witnessing our parents’ abusive relationship. Dad beating up mom, him calling up police and then police ripping mom off her money for ‘disturbing’ them just for a family feud (threatening to lock 4 of us up if she wouldn’t), dad shouting out of the balcony that my mother is a bitch, random people coming and telling my brother and I that everything will be okay, my mother making up plans on how she will quit this world and also take us along and many more. Once I even told my friends at school that they wouldn’t see me after summer break. I was 6 when I saw my mother collapse upon drinking some liquid after being beaten up by my dad. All she used to say was she will give the man an answer once we grow up.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I met a woman online in Norway, we emailed for 4 months, our emails became intimate, she ended up flying to Florida to be with me for 17 days. On the 4th day, she told me she had no feelings for me, then a day later she said she wanted to be alone, I left her at her hotel and went home, an hour later she called and I went back to see her, she apologized and said it was her, she felt far from home, she did try to change her flight but couldn’t. The next day she said she thinks she’s falling in love with me. The next 13 days until she left for home, everything was great, she made me feel like she did fall in love with me. Sex was great, we were very intimate, she told me many things, made me feel she would return soon and be with me.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: My ex girlfriend and I were together 3 years, We broke up around August, I believe that she is not handling it well, having been in 3 relationships since, all women, and she now says she is gay, but is going overboard in trying to prove it. She told me that she was with this new girl to “prove the world wrong.” She has maintained contact with not only me, but my family as well. I am deeply concerned for her welfare, but do not want to stick my nose where it doesn’t belong. My ex is a very lonely woman and is willing to move to another country with this woman that she has only known a couple of weeks. My gut is saying something is off but I wanted a professional opinion. Thank You.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year. He has recently come into some hard times.  He lost his job, was forced to move back home, and has been faced with mounting financial debt.  He broke things off briefly because he said he needed to focus on himself while he was dealing with these issues.  While I felt hurt, he made the right decision.  A few days after breaking it off, he called to say he missed me and wanted to work on things. While things in his life were not improving, our relationship was still going well. But the past few weeks it has taken a turn.  A lot of times I try to reach out to him and get no response. I don’t think it has anything to do with our relationship but because of the outside stress he is facing.  When he has faced stressful times in the past, he shuts down and shuts everyone and everything out. I know this is his way of coping.  He usually is back to his old self within a day or two. The longer his situation remains the way it is, the more depressed I see him becoming.  And the more distant he becomes.  I try reaching out to him by text or phone and don’t get any response.  I leave him messages telling him to call me or text me but if he doesn’t feel up to it, it’s ok too.

Distorted part: While things in his life were not improving, our relationship was still going well. But the past few weeks it has taken a turn.  
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient question: From a 15 year old in the UK: I think I have social anxiety, but my mum changes the subject whenever I ask her to get me tested for it. It takes me months to pick up the courage to try to speak to her about it, and every time I finally do it, she doesn’t help me. The first time I asked, she told me to not “talk wet”. She thinks that the doctor will dismiss me straight away because I volunteer at the local Rainbows and Guides. But when I first started helping out at Rainbows, it took me weeks to finally speak, and I always get nervous when the other volunteer talks to me. I was a Guide before I became a Young Leader in the unit, so I knew most of the girls there anyway. Plus, I have my best friend who does most of the talking. I can’t explain any of the games or activities to them because I start mumbling and I blush.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: Hello, my name is k–. I am 14 years old and have been having multiple concerning (sort of) issues for as long as i can remember. I hate humans. They discust me and their motives confuse me. I do understand I’m a human myself but i feel more…. knowing. I have had signs of social anxiety and MPD. Death bears no meaning to me. I can look at my friend and smile at the thought of sliding a knife into their chest. Often I have conversations with the person in my head I have come to know as Toby Bryers. I consider him my conscience but he says he is a very powerfull being who has gotten tied with the wrong person.He thinks he is going to take over my mind and use my body as a vessel. Yet after all of this talk he turns right around to comfort me or help me out. Sometimes he tells me to do things I know i shouldn’t. such as challenge a higher class human (aka: adult) or even hurt someone or disobey rules. This ends in us bickering and me winning. He says he wants to take me to higher places that humans are to idiotic to understand. I believe him but.. if the occasion that this is untrue.. well.. I don’t want to get into trouble. Animals are fine. I love them and often refuse meat when offered. Humans have stolen their glory and I worry for their well-being. Sometimes i want to be really nice to people and help them. other times I would like to bash their skulls in. Sometimes I just ignore them all. I often find myself talking to myself and rambling (as you may plainly see) in which cases I either stop or worry myself over the person noticing. Sometimes i will find myself laughing cazaly for no reason. I can’t stop. there was something else i wanted to say but I have forgotten…. oh well. I’m sure it was nothing.. Also i haven’t spoken to my parents at all about this. I want to also inform you that i am highly indecisive about my gender. (genderfluid? or nonbinary?) but i am 99% sure that i am asexual. (panromantic or heteromantic?). i thank in advance.

Distorted part:  I hate humans. They discust me and their motives confuse me. 
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient question: For 5 months now, my father has left me and my mother in search for “work” in the Philippines, since he was released from his job in Australia in 2013. Currently, my father rarely contacts us, either through phone or email. He even KNOWS my email and house number. Yet, he never seems to call at all, or seems the least bit concerned. This isn’t the first time my father has done this. He’s done it multiple times throughout my life, but this time, it really seems like he’s not going to return. In fact, I believe that my father planned everything before escaping back to his home country instead of “searching for work” there.

Distorted part: In fact, I believe that my father planned everything before escaping back to his home country instead of “searching for work” there.
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient question: From the U.S.: My divorced parents are using me to get information about each other to use in their child support trial. I thought I could confide in my grandmother for support, but she ended up telling my mom everything I said and now my mom is using that information to use against my father in court.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion