Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient question: Hello! Since i was a kid i always had problems of making friends. I travelled a lot, went to summer camps in Europe, prestige ones, graduated a good university(bachelor degree). But i always had the same problem: at some point i was becoming a person no one paid interest to or even tried to ignore me. Sometimes it even turn to fights… When i turned 18 i have found a couple of very good friends and we were drinking every weekend. didnt pay attention to health issues and many times (about 10) drank till blacking out… couldnt control myself and felt completely happy while being drunk. I also was smoking marihuana for about half a year. Ive never had a girlfriend(not because i am an unattractive, but my behavior) . The second problem i face–i cant concentrate at all. Since i was very young i have lost like 10 cell phones, credit cards, wallets, driver license, laptops. And i really hate myself for this. I tried many different sports(triathlon, half-marathon, boxing) for building precision, watched 100-s of TED talks, took some courses in coursera but seems like it getting worse and worse. Friends and family call me lazy,moony etc. While studying i distract every 5-7 minutes. To enter this question i spend like 3 hours. But sometimes feel very energetic, enthusiastic for a couple minutes. I jump, shout and feel like a champion. And i cant really predict this or control. Especially when i listen to the music. I stopped drinking alcohol for 3 month and do not plan to continue. I believed that i can start a new life and become a normal concentrated person within 3 month of writing down all my activities in my diary and analyze it weekly. To sum up 4 hours a day on average i spend in a “focused mode”. But after 1 week of having a rest i returned to the previous version of mine. During these 3 month i cried a lot, punched myself in a face, tried to die while doing sports. Time goes faster and my mental power is reducing. I forget things more often and sleep more. In the period from 8 to 16 years old my daddy used to punish me physically and was shouting at me probably everyday. I really want to switch but seems like i cant find an appropriate tool for it by myself.

Distorted part: But i always had the same problem: at some point i was becoming a person no one paid interest to or even tried to ignore me.  The second problem i face–i cant concentrate at all. 
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient question: From a 14 year old in Canada: Ever since I can remember I have had very detailed thoughts about sex, most of which involved me personally being harmed and/or shamed. I had dreams were I was violated while large groups of people stood around and watched. Dreams were I was tied up in a glass cage, naked and in public, while people gathered around. I’ve dreamt that I was tied down and tortured, being told that if I made the slightest noise they (the torturer, whose face was never seen) would start the methodical torture over again, until I could endure it without making noise. In these dreams the torture was very overtly sexual.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I have a 9 year old boy and a 6 year old girl. All my life I have had terrible, terrible ways of dealing with frustrations large and small. A good example: if anything makes me angry–trivial or truly important, I might put on a wild, embarrassing, very inappropriate, and very unhealthy display of rage. I never physically attack another person, but I’ll start hitting my own head–hard, repeatedly, with both hands–sometimes open hands, sometimes fists. Not in a “stupid me!” kind of gesture like slapping one’s forehead–these flailings have no intended expressive meaning. They’re the exact same as an angry guy punching a wall or a piece of furniture. (Actually I do that plenty too–usually if I’m hitting myself, it’s because there’s nothing else nearby that’s “safe” to hit–safe for the thing itself, or safe for my hands.)

Distorted part: A good example: if anything makes me angry–trivial or truly important, I might put on a wild, embarrassing, very inappropriate, and very unhealthy display of rage.
Dominant distortion: Magnification
Patient question: From Bangladesh: I am 34, married, have a daughter who is eight years old. I love her a lot. I probably have very low self esteem and also obsessions/compulsions. In the sanityscore.com I scored 75 in self-esteem and 56 in obsessions/compulsions. Although, I am sure I didn’t answer a lot of questions correctly.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: My mother has always had a strong attachment to my oldest brother and been rather detached and resentful of us other kids. She didn’t talk to us or show us physical affection or spend much time with us. she was never there and when she was it still felt like she was absent. She admitted to me that she wished she had only had my oldest brother and not my middle brother or I. she has chosen men and relationships over her children and let us all go and be raised by someone else one time or another throughout our lives. She never asks my oldest brother for anything or blames him for anything. She asks my other brother for things and demands or manipulates things from me. she wishes that my brothers talked to her more and hates that I talk to her so much. when my middle brother almost died she only visited him once in the hospital and helped as little as possible when he went home. she and I used to talk about everything and see each other everyday. I have a broken hip, my own fault, when I told her she cried and said she would come to the hospital immediately then talked only about her relationship for 45 minutes and didn’t come. From then on she only visited when asked for help and only if she had another excuse to be in the area. she only called once of her own accord 3 weeks after surgery, she talked about herself the entire time, begrudgingly asked how I was, then asked if I was still using a walker to get around. I was going to work for her this summer which would have made her life a lot easier for her to see her boyfriend, when I told her that I was going to be laid up for quite a while she offered no sympathy or even acknowledgement and changed the subject back to herself and got off the phone. That was 3 weeks ago and haven’t heard from her since. Sorry its long and broken up by facts-but any insights on what’s going on or what I should do would really help. I would like to resolve this lifelong issue with her and move on with my life.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From a teen in the U.S.: So I will often either when bored or stressed (from anxiety) or just for fun  head out on a walk (or home) and there is a couple things i might do. Either play a trailer and pretend like im the director and people are reacting to it while i play out the characters in the trailer or play a rap song and be the rapper or me (and I often have a little backstory when I do). Or alot of times I might just pretend I’m me singing or playing guitar and being amazing at it while family members or school mates are watching.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: Not sure where to start to be honest, I’ll try my best. 8th grade and before: I wanted to become a mechanic and have my own shop since I’m good at that and am interested in that field. I now would be in 11th grade. I quit school, trying for me GED soon. Waiting to hear if I get help for money soon. I no longer know what I want to do since I want to live a better life: Nice house, car or two, eating organic, have a social life, etc. I want to talk to girls make friends and am social but I like phobic. I don’t have much help from anyone. Currently live with my mom and brother but in an eyesore of a neighborhood, low-end public housing and have no vehicle or jobs. I also want to live more of a free life instead of working most of my days. I feel as if I need a plan because I feel lost. I’ve had therapists but never felt like I had true help, I don’t need medications I would benefit from a life coach most likely. I don’t know what career path I want to take. I know I want to be happy doing it, have a lot of free time to enjoy life, have enough money to have the life I want. Maybe I could have my own business but nothing really interests me. I don’t want to go to college all that much, I don’t have money as it is nor want any more debt than I already have. Since a young age I always wanted to be famous, but of course I have terrible anxiety and am not good at talking to people or being in front of crowds. I know there’s nothing to be afraid of but still get the fears. Also I’m stressed out with this but also with my mom who is a smoker and heavy soda drinker my father is doing some time and recovering from drug addiction. A lot of family is like this. I want my parents to be around awhile so I can afford to give them the life they never had or never gave my younger brother and me. My relationship with my brother and mother isn’t good either. I don’t have any friends or girlfriend.to sum it up I is very different than the rest of my generation and need guidance. In advance, Thanks for the help.

Distorted part: Also I’m stressed out with this but also with my mom who is a smoker and heavy soda drinker my father is doing some time and recovering from drug addiction. A lot of family is like this. I want my parents to be around awhile so I can afford to give them the life they never had or never gave my younger brother and me. My relationship with my brother and mother isn’t good either. I don’t have any friends or girlfriend.
Dominant distortion: Mental filter
Patient question: So I started masturbating when I was about 15. One time I was talking to my dad about–I was going through puberty so we talked about sex and body changes a lot around this time–and he told me about how he liked to masturbate by externally stimulating his prostate. I thought it sounded cool and so I asked him to show me how he did it. At first he demonstrated on himself, but I couldn’t find my own prostate when I tried it, and so he used his hand and did it for me. He only did it for a few seconds just to show me where it was. It felt really amazing, but I didn’t orgasm because he stopped once I started getting an erection and then left for me to finish on my own.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From Germany: I am 21 years old and currently in my third year of studies. Last semester, I was having a hard time dealing with stress and loneliness and my own behavior started to scare me. Whenever I was alone –which was the case very often- I would keep talking to myself or singing. When I forced myself to stop, it just went on in my head and got really tiring. So I decided to go to the psychological consultation offered at my university. The first appointment was very helpful because I really needed someone to tell me whether I was going crazy. The psychologist told me it was my choice whether I wanted to come again or not, and we set an appointment for a month later. Back then, I thought it was a good idea to give myself the feeling that I was seeking help and also to feel a bit encouraged/“pressured” to follow his advice before the next time. Since I was no longer in that hysterical state, the second session felt a bit unnecessary. I don’t like it when I keep complaining to others (although very often I feel that I need to do so) and of course I admitted that I was feeling a lot better. Nonetheless, I agreed to have a third session another 2 months later, so that I wouldn’t be “all on my own” from then on. However, the thought keeps bothering me that I am just seeking attention. In fact, it makes me feel super-attention-seeking, just writing that. I used to be a good student at school, and now this kind of recognition is missing at the university. I keep involving myself in voluntary work, but the only reason it makes me happy is that it gives me acknowledgement from others. When I go to a doctor (which I rarely do) now I somehow enjoy being the center of attention. And that really bothers me.

Distorted part: However, the thought keeps bothering me that I am just seeking attention.
Dominant distortion: Personalization
Patient question: For the past two years I’ve been going to a therapist and have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety and situational depression. Although it’s been going on since I was about eleven at least, that’s when I had my first major panic attack. I’ve tried a number of anti-depressants to treat my depression and anxiety, but they either didn’t work or the side affects were to severe. So now she put me on a “life style change”, where I am supposed to sleep more and exercise. I don’t know what to do anymore. My depression and anxiety have been so bad in the last six months I nearly throw up every morning from stress. I cannot seem to get out of bed, the very thought of facing the world every day makes me cry and debate my life. Furthermore, I cannot seem to sleep more than 4 hours, even with the melitonin my doctor prescribed me. My sleep deprivation has caused me to go into hysterics from crying and to laughing more than a few times. I’ve lost all interest in any activities I used to do in the past four years. I once danced, I quite that too now. I feel so emotionally disconnected from everyone. My family and friends notice it as well. Usually they’ll make fun of me or show real concern. Furthermore I wish I didn’t have the two friends I have. It’s stressful, I never do anything with them no matter how much they want me to. I feel like I’ll either be a bother or I just don’t want to do anything. I used to be an A grade student, I’d overload myself with advanced classes, now I’ve failed out of three of them. I just don’t see the point anymore. I hate myself. I cannot function in any social situation and now I can’t even seem to do any simple task anymore. Not to mention my weight changes, I’d go from binge eating to nearly starving myself because I just wasn’t hungry any more. It was so extreme for a few months, my weight got to a high of 135 pounds to a low of 117. In a week I lost ten pounds. Quite frankly I don’t know what to do, I’ve used support sites and they don’t seem to help. I feel like I’ve extended all my resources.

Distorted part: I cannot seem to get out of bed, the very thought of facing the world every day makes me cry and debate my life.  I hate myself. I cannot function in any social situation and now I can’t even seem to do any simple task anymore.
Dominant distortion: Magnification
Secondary distortion: Personalization
Patient question: My girlfriend has sexually masochistic dreams where she is engaged with another individual or multiple men. She is mostly in a helpless state being tied down or held down and molested in these dreams receiving physical abuse and pain. She has a history of childhood sexual abuse and these dreams have been there since childhood. Most of these dreams start by recalling the memory of the said child abuse where she goes back to being a helpless little kid. She has a self-blaming and self-victimizing attitude when depressed. I recently took her to a therapist and she is dealing with the issues and feeling much better in coping with it. I would like to have a second opinion on this issue.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From a teen in Canada: When I was younger, my mom and I used to get along great. I don’t mean just the regular every little girl gets along with her mom. She’d always be on my side whenever my dad would yell at me unfairly, and she was always the first to defend me. And when I got diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome when I was twelve, she was so supportive.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I didn’t realize I was suffering from depression until many years into it. I finally went to a psychologist and psychiatrist when my life was falling apart. I felt awful and had felt awful for a very long time, but after getting on medications and feeling like a normal, happy person for a couple years, it all felt like an old unreal dream. So I decided to stop my medications. My doctors advised me against it, saying that if I had suffered more than 3 episodes, I should stay on medication indefinitely, but I had never “counted” my episodes. Really, it just felt like I was born with one long and nasty episode. I have been off my meds for a month now and I feel horrible. My anxiety is so bad that my whole body hurts from being so tense and shaky. I’m missing work either because I’m too busy crying or I just don’t want to deal with life. I feel lonely, sad, and hopeless. I feel like I am cursed for life. From what I have read and heard, depression occurs in episodes. But I feel like I am doomed to feel like this forever, having no respite unless I take high doses of medications. Is it possible that I just have a “lifetime long episode”? I only went to see a psychiatrist when I was 22, about a year after I moved out of my parents house. My parents are deniers of mental illness – the have a “pick yourself up by your bootstraps” / “you can’t possibly have depression” attitudes, so I always attributed my poor mental status to a character flaw. But when I reflect on my childhood and adolescence, I don’t ever remember being happy. I think I was always depressed. I cannot possibly live my life feeling this depressed but I don’t want to take medication for the rest of my life either. I haven’t even mentioned that my medications and behavioral therapies have done absolutely nothing to help my OCD. That I have heard can last a lifetime. I don’t think I can live like this. It’s getting to be too much. It can all be tolerated until you realize that, for the rest of your existence, none of this will go away.

Distorted part: I feel like I am cursed for life.
Dominant distortion: Fortune-telling
Secondary distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient question: From the U.S.: Where to begin. About 5 years ago when I was very young (16) I met my first love, to whom I lost my virginity to and fell deeply in love with. However, his parents at the time were getting separated and he took this out on me. He didn’t treat me right and I broke things off after about 2 years – not because I didn’t still love him but because we had too many issues at the time.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: Hi I’m a 14 year old girl who’s been suffering from anxiety for as long as I can remember, and I’d like to bring up a new fear that has been bothering me nonstop recently, On Friday I had some friends over for the weekend to hang out, and they suggested we watch a scary movie. I was a little reluctant about the idea, but I did it anyway. Well I really REALLY wish I hadn’t. Ever since then I’ve been afraid (I know it sounds ridiculous) I’ve been afraid of being possessed and hearing voices. There was no fear around this topic until they mentioned watching the movie, so I’m most likely sure that’s how it started, although this is a fear I’ve had in the past, I don’t recall it being this bad. This fear turned into not only the fear of being possessed, but the fear of hearing voices and becoming schizophrenic. It seems like no matter what family tells me I can never seem to believe that everything I’m afraid of are just thoughts. I want to learn how to not doubt that all of my anxiety is really JUST anxiety. It’s been so scary to go to sleep at night, because I’ve been afraid of not waking up in the morning. I’m afraid (not meaning to be graphic) but I’m afraid that I’m going to be possessed and hurt myself in my sleep. I’m almost done with my freshman year of high school, I want to be able to enjoy my life again. My heart is racing just writing this. This morning I started thinking and although I normally have intrusive thoughts, this morning my thoughts didn’t sound like my voice, it was still in my head, but it still terrified me. I’m absolutely terrified, I’m afraid that I’m going to die or develop some kind of psychosis. Please help and respond quickly, I don’t know what I can do. I’m afraid to no end.

Distorted part: It’s been so scary to go to sleep at night, because I’ve been afraid of not waking up in the morning.   I’m afraid (not meaning to be graphic) but I’m afraid that I’m going to be possessed and hurt myself in my sleep.  I’m absolutely terrified, I’m afraid that I’m going to die or develop some kind of psychosis. 
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary distortion: Magnification
Patient question: I have feelings for my school counselor. I know this is completely inappropriate, and I want to get passed it. However, I am not really sure how to go about doing this. I am currently in therapy, and have been for over a year. I completely trust my therapist, but am so embarrassed and scared of this situation that I don’t know how to approach it. The attraction is somewhat sexual in nature, but I think it may be related to past trauma. I have sort of created three of this counselor in my mind; the one that’s just normal, the one I have sexual feelings for, and the one I just want to be emotionally and physically close with. I have had similar feelings toward other people that I am not supposed to feel that about, but never anything on this level. Does this sound like a somewhat typical response to trauma? How do I go about addressing it, so that I don’t feel this way anymore?

Distorted part: I know this is completely inappropriate, and I want to get passed it.
Dominant distortion: Should statements
Patient question: From Canada: My brother started by reading about the chi power and other stuffs related to it. He is 15 years old and in 10th grade of high school. After almost 2 months, he told mom that there is no reason for him to study, this is not what he wants to do and that he will work a part time job to get money to rent his own apartment, and that he will take a career related to the power and soul stuffs that he reads about.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: Over the last couple of years I slowly started to realize that I’m not normal in the way I feel emotions. I don’t ever remember being hyper-emotional, but when I was young I still FELT, I remember crying, having crushes, etc. In the past 4-5 years, however, I’ve been having a hard time feeling anything at all. The only emotions I can seem to feel are irritation bordering on anger, slight depression, and uneasiness, outside of these emotions, I can’t feel anything. To make matters worse, I’ve completely lost the ability to empathize with others, or rather, I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt empathy towards anyone. I noticed my issue upon a death within the family, throughout the entire process I didn’t feel anything, at points I even tried to force myself to feel as I thought I would be a horrible for not doing so.

Distorted part: To make matters worse, I’ve completely lost the ability to empathize with others, or rather, I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt empathy towards anyone.  I noticed my issue upon a death within the family, throughout the entire process I didn’t feel anything, at points I even tried to force myself to feel as I thought I would be a horrible for not doing so.
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary distortion: Labeling
Patient question: From Romania: We are together by 8 months now. He is 10 years older, divorced with a daughter that lives with her mom in another city. We are also in a long distance relationship, we live 600km away. We spoke many times per day, he used to send me video with love declarations, we made plans for marriage and moving in the same city, everything was perfect, like he came, he hugged me and I felt like I never did, no more pain, frustrations or bad memories. Just love and the future in front of me.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion