Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient question: I was accused of murdering my cousin when she came to live with me and my mother, and stepfather. I was unwell and under care of a psychiatrist at the time which solely led to police unwilling to move their focus to anyone else. It was public, and things came out that I felt were unfair, both true and false. I’ve been obsessed with having my side of the story known. My life since then has been aimless and but for that goal. I now realize I lost 15 years trying and hoping for something that I had no evidence would make any difference anyway. That too, something of an epiphany further adding to my current state. That is one where I now feel no purpose or have any desire to do anything with life and feel it not too far away where it becomes unmanageable and I will commit suicide, albeit not wanting it. Can it be as simple as writing to a newspaper and saying “up yours if you think I am the killer, and all these other things you have read about me”? To the police who botched the whole investigation from day one, never to even give us a crime scene, ” I think you need to provide answers to my family, and show why I should still be a suspect when there is no evidence, not just against me, but not against anyone or anything. Nothing. There is zero but for my having mental health treatment from a doctor which I sought. I went for help. And ended up before the courts and newspapers because of it. I’ve never been able to get past not speaking out in my defense, and I guess also that no family did for me either. It was horrible and now its all for nothing over a decade later. How can I get a sense of drive, purpose in life. I care not for work or career of any kind now. I don’t fear consequences for myself.

Distorted part: That is one where I now feel no purpose or have any desire to do anything with life and feel it not too far away where it becomes unmanageable and I will commit suicide, albeit not wanting it.
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient question:  Although I know it’s wrong to self-diagnose, I self-diagnosed myself with dysthymia just in February because I started thinking about killing myself, although I never actualized my thoughts (because I know it’s wrong), when before, starting when I was around 8, I just thought of about how life for me and for everyone else around me might be better off without me being born – because I noticed the favoritism of my parents toward me over my sister.

Distorted part: Although I know it’s wrong to self-diagnose, I self-diagnosed myself with dysthymia just in February because I started thinking about killing myself, although I never actualized my thoughts (because I know it’s wrong), when before, starting when I was around 8, I just thought of about how life for me and for everyone else around me might be better off without me being born – because I noticed the favoritism of my parents toward me over my sister.
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient question: The only time I feel any happiness is when I’m on LSD, and the next three days after a ‘trip’. It’s the only time I feel as I have any feelings…in general. I’ve been this pretty much ever since I can remember, way before I even began taking LSD. Doing LSD is pretty much the only good choice I’ve ever made. I believe I started a few months after I turned 14.

Distorted part: Doing LSD is pretty much the only good choice I’ve ever made.
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient question: My older brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia 10 years ago. Before his psychotic break, we were close. After he got sick, I moved away for college and never moved back to my home state. For almost a decade, he’d only communicate with me in person. He was afraid to use email or the telephone because he thought people were spying on him. We I did talk to him, depending on what meds he was taking, he might be talkative or might not speak at all. He’s not really in treatment. He sees a psychiatrist every 2 or 3 months and takes a long term injection. That’s all. Other than that he never leaves the house. Technically he’s been medicated for 10 years, never off antipsychotics, but his delusions are always a problem. He still believes that certain people have betrayed him and tried to ruin his life. So I can’t say he was ever recovered or stable. His psychiatrist is aware of his ongoing delusions. In the beginning I encouraged my parents to get him to see a psychologist or other therapist and work out a treatment plan. They said, “He doesn’t want to do that.” So it never happened. Now I’m not close with my brother. He’s missed much of what happened in my life over 10 years, including my wedding because he didn’t want to go out of the house. My parents are trying to get us talking more. They use group text or Facetime. At first it was strained, and a year later I feel like I just don’t like the guy anymore. I don’t like the way my brother acts now. He’s rude, pushy, arrogant. He’s always criticizing and belittling me. He tries to manipulate me into buying things for him online. He starts fights about politics that seem endless and he won’t ever let them go (and we all have the same politics, we’re all registered democrats, so I don’t even know how we manage to fight). He never asks me about my life, job, husband, hobbies, house, town, etc. When I talk to him about my life he changes the subject. He only likes to talk about his interests (movies, politics, music). If I talk to a friend I haven’t seen in 10 years, we catch up. My brother’s not interested in that. It feels really one-sided. There’s no give and take the relationship. I currently have health problems and my physician asked me to avoid stress. I just feel like it’s impossible to do that with his toxic tantrums once a week. But I don’t know how to tell my parents to just leave it alone, let us grow apart, we have nothing in common and just shouldn’t be talking. If he was in REAL treatment maybe things would be different but he doesn’t want things to change. If a friend was this judgmental, rude, abusive, manipulative, I wouldn’t associate with them anymore. I think I shouldn’t have to be subjected to that.

Distorted part: But I don’t know how to tell my parents to just leave it alone, let us grow apart, we have nothing in common and just shouldn’t be talking. If he was in REAL treatment maybe things would be different but he doesn’t want things to change.
Dominant distortion: Should statements
Secondary distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient question: From a teen in the UK: I have never been diagnosed with any type of issue. But slowly, I’m feeling so lost and confused. Nothing excites me anymore, I just pretend to be happy so the people around me don’t try and console and feel sorry for me. I hate attention.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From England: Okay so ever since I was very young I’ve had a problem with zoning out. When I was about 4 my parents became very worried, I zoned out in the middle of conversations and I could be walking from one room to another and end up walking into a door or wall because of it. I have two older siblings and neither of them ever did this so my mum was ready to bring me to the doctors but my dad thought it was just my age as well as an over active imagination. My older sister has aspergers syndrome so my mum feared the worst but when I was older (around 6-7) I got checked for this and like my other older sister, I was fine. I still did well in school, it never really affected that but I did zone out in class occasionally. It never went away but was less frequent after around 10 years old however now I am 15 and for at least 6 months now it seems to have been becoming more and more frequent. I’m zoning out more and more and when I finally snap back into reality I’m not even sure how much time has passed, its kind of like being in a trance. Its not like it only happens when I’m bored, I can be doing something I really enjoy and then I just zone out. I’m also developing a strange liking for a little bubble I’m starting to create, which is totally separate from the zoning out as I actually feel conscious during it. I just go into a kind of ‘bubble’ and begin imagining different things, I find this really comforting but I’m concerned about how much I’m enjoying it, I could do it for hours on end and it feels so much better then real life. I’m more concerned about the zoning out more though as I’m not actively imagining or thinking during it, I’m just kind of not there and I cant stop it happening, it just happens whenever. I definitely don’t think I have ADD or anything, I would just like to know whether I should be concerned about this behaviour or not.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I saw two motorcycles race past my house a few nights ago than I heard a loud bang and glass breaking a second later. Then I heard a lot of screaming. I went inside to get a phone and I called 911. One of the motorcyclists had t-boned a car making a left across the street a few houses down. I was the second neighbor to the scene and expected the worst. When I got there the first neighbor was trying to talk to the driver of the car and the screaming was coming from a group of the motorcyclists’ friends who witnessed the accident because they were there watching the motorcycles race. I went to the motorcyclist and instantly knew he was gone and that he went in an instant. I tried calming down the spectators and getting people back until help arrived. A few of the spectators started to become hostile. They began throwing things at the nearly split in half car and yelling threats to the driver and myself. I became so angry at them I decided to walk away. I could hear police coming so I decided to slow down and redirect traffic on the usually busy road. Now here’s what I’m having trouble dealing with:

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: When I was about 4, I used to bully this girl in my class. I pushed her down the slide and hurt her, but she was too afraid to tell anyone that it was me. As I got older, I began to feel like I wanted to kill someone. I don’t want to feel like that, but I do. When I get that feeling, I’ll stop whatever I’m doing and I’ll think about murder and how I would do it. Sometimes I’ll giggle and/or laugh while I’m thinking about it. My parents think that I’m lying and over-exaggerating. I’m not sure what to do, and I’m not sure if there’s some sort of problem going on. Half of my mind tells me to go out and kill someone, while the other half says that it’s wrong and I shouldn’t. I’ve gotten to the point where I have cut myself so the feeling would go away. Is there anything I can do to stop this feeling from becoming too strong? I don’t want to hurt or kill anyone, but sometimes I’ll get that feeling, and I’ll hurt myself instead.

Distorted part: Half of my mind tells me to go out and kill someone, while the other half says that it’s wrong and I shouldn’t. I’ve gotten to the point where I have cut myself so the feeling would go away.
Dominant distortion: Should statements
Secondary distortion: Magnification
Patient question: From the UK: We have a new son, now 9 months who is lovely. Most of the time I am absolutely fine. But regularly I feel depressed, I comfort eat, I feel that I am being a terrible father, I feel that I am not supporting my family correctly and feel extremely guilty for having these feelings. I am finding it very difficult to enjoy any element of my life. One of the most upsetting elements is the strain having our baby has put on my wife and my relationship. I also am becoming angry far quicker than I ever have. I guess I am really after a little advice for coping. Many thanks.

Distorted part: But regularly I feel depressed, I comfort eat, I feel that I am being a terrible father, I feel that I am not supporting my family correctly and feel extremely guilty for having these feelings.
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary distortion: Personalization
Patient question:  From Egypt: i have acne not only in my face but in my body too , shoulders , chest and my back i aslo have stretch marks, cellulite and im over weight! i have every thing that makes me hate myself, i go to the gym but still hate myself , i aslo tried to treat my acne but its not helping. this really affecting my self-esteem and my social life i dont feel confident at all and i hate myself

Distorted part: i have every thing that makes me hate myself, i go to the gym but still hate myself , i aslo tried to treat my acne but its not helping. this really affecting my self-esteem and my social life i dont feel confident at all and i hate myself
Dominant distortion: Personalization
Patient question: I’m a freshman in high school, just starting therapy bc of social anxiety and mild depression. We’ve had 3 sessions so far. My therapist is a man and I’m a girl, and having anxiety doesn’t make it great when talking with the opposite gender. Ive also avoided telling my therapist about things or lied about it bc I feel uncomfortable sharing my thoughts with someone else. The first time, I admitted about having suicidal thoughts to my therapist, which I’ve never told anyone else before, and I cried a lot afterwards. Having social anxiety makes me genuinely afraid of sharing things with someone else, even though my therapist has told me that he won’t judge me or tell anyone else about it. I’m very used to having thoughts all to myself. My therapist is a very good man, he can talk to me easily even though we’re far from the same age group and encourages me on my hobbies. But sometimes I would pop up thoughts like, “he’s just doing this to be nice,” “it’s just part of his job,” etc. I don’t know why these thoughts come up and they bother me a lot. I’m very scared of someone not caring enough about me. I just really don’t like sharing my thoughts with someone else, to me it’s very difficult to form it into words and actually tell someone else or write it down. Do I address this with my therapist? If I do, I don’t know how should I start it. I’m still uncomfortable around my therapist since we’ve only just started.

Distorted part: I don’t know why these thoughts come up and they bother me a lot. I’m very scared of someone not caring enough about me.
Dominant distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary distortion: Magnification
Patient question: From a young woman in the U.S.: In November 2015, I was diagnosed with Conversion Disorder. It started with a slight stutter that progressed to a stutter so severe that I was impossible to understand over the course of several hours. Right side weakness, a drop in the right leg, tremors (particularly severe in the right hand), cognitive dysfunction, intermittent, lingering headaches (localized on the right side), and dizziness developed as the episode progressed. CT/MRI/Chest X-Ray, and blood work were all done to rule out what appeared to be a brain tumor. The root of the issue then was easily identified and corrected. The episode came to an end.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I have had this problem for the majority of life where it began with a suicidal depression at the age of 9. I no longer have strong impulses to commit suicide, although these visual thoughts and impulses has changed into hurting or even killing others. I am a visual thinker, which I guess is why these thoughts seems so lifelike. These thoughts also come very sudden, and are related to the present situation I am in. I am right now in a relationship with my girlfriend and we have a child (2 years old) and two cats. I have had previous thoughts of harming my girlfriend, which is usual to me since I get these thoughts often towards other humans. On the other hand it started bothering me when I got very strong, visual impulses to hurt our infant child. I got real reason to worry since I have never been good to remember any dreams, but the last two or three I can remember involves harming or killing our daughter, which is very distressfull. Sometimes these impulses can be very hard to handle, which is the reason why I chose to register on this website. We got a new kitten the other day, and even that she is in a new location, she has adapted very well. But due to something as simple as her not wanting a cuddle drove both thoughts and action to treat her very aggressively and rough. Stopping myself from harming it, I had to sit alone in 15 minutes to calm myself down. I am concerned that if I can’t control my impulses to something as innocent as a kitten, what can happen in the future towards my daughter? Thanks for helping.

Distorted part: I am concerned that if I can’t control my impulses to something as innocent as a kitten, what can happen in the future towards my daughter?
Dominant distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient question: From the U.S.: I do not believe that hate, resentment, or just a lack of caring are the appropriate feelings to have when someone is having a problem, and yet, I feel these types of feelings. Seriously, one time my mom came home saying that her gallbladder was acting up and it really hurt, and what did I do? Not even care!

Distorted part: I do not believe that hate, resentment, or just a lack of caring are the appropriate feelings to have when someone is having a problem, and yet, I feel these types of feelings.
Dominant distortion: Should statements
Patient question: From the U.S.: I am 25 years old and am feeling lost. I have a creative brain and am drawn to the arts but I have a hard time being “creative” I feel like everything has been done already and everyone that I know is on a path to success.There is nothing about me that stands out as an artist, and I feel like I just don’t offer anyone anything. I went to film school and graduate with a film degree and I still don’t know what I want to do with it. There was nothing in school that really stood out to me as far as something in the film industry that I excelled in.

Distorted part: There is nothing about me that stands out as an artist, and I feel like I just don’t offer anyone anything.
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient question: My brother was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder about 10 years ago. He’s 35, lives with our father, he’s dependent, unemployed, doesn’t really leave the house at all unless to go to therapy because he has a lot of issues with social anxiety, all his groceries and meds are brought to him. I know it’s not an ideal situation but I have no control over his treatment. He’s pretty well enabled to just watch movies and smoke cigarettes all day.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From the U.S.: My wife and I are foster parents with the opportunity to adopt a child that has been in our care for a year. We have been asked to adopt her brother who suffered a traumatic brain injury at the age of 2 and was neglected much of his life. He is 7 years old now but has a history of aggression and has physically attacked both adults and children and there are incidents where he has shown cruelty towards animals.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: Hello, I need help. I have strong urges to torture people/animals and force them into a bloody death. Blood satisfies me, I find pleasure from leaving self-inflicted cuts on my skin. At first I thought I was just depressed but I don’t hurt myself for that reason, I hurt myself to see my blood. I like the way it looks and feels. But that’s not the only violent act I wish upon myself, I fantasize about being tortured, I want to die as a murder victim, I want my murderer to cut open my body, I want to see my insides. These strange fantasies scare me, I can’t stop myself from thinking this way. In my spare time I catch myself glaring at people, planning their gruesome murder and seeing how I’d get away with it. I physically want to kill someone but I mentally don’t. I’m not sure if this is making sense to you, because it doesn’t even make sense to me. The only thing stopping me from hurting others is getting my satisfaction from illegal videos online, on gruesome websites such as ‘bestgore.com’ and ‘liveleak’. On these websites, people upload either real-life murder videos that they have committed, or videos of gruesome things that they have seen. I am not disgusted by dead bodies, gore or blood. Instead, I wish to be in a situation involved with a lot of blood. I have two very close, childhood friends that know about this, but no one else knows. I’m afraid that one day I’ll be sent to a mental institution if I end up doing something horrible. Let’s backtrack a little. I grew up in an abusive family, i don’t want to get into that situation but it might have something to do with the way I’m feeling right now. Ever since I was a child I had always loved death and gore, I remember when I was young, I watched the movie ‘Titanic’. I was never interested in the romance, instead, I would skip ahead to the scene where the ship sank and the passengers froze to death. Whenever my parents weren’t home, or I was alone, I’d play that scene. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I really need your help.

Distorted part: I’m afraid that one day I’ll be sent to a mental institution if I end up doing something horrible.
Dominant distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient question: From the U.S.: For the past 4 years, I’ve been experiencing memories of bad stuff that’s happened as a kid. I have been bullied at school and have issues communicating with people and family. I don’t have to many friends and have a hard time talking with people. I get extremely irritated around a lot of people.

Distorted part: For the past 4 years, I’ve been experiencing memories of bad stuff that’s happened as a kid. I have been bullied at school and have issues communicating with people and family. I don’t have to many friends and have a hard time talking with people. I get extremely irritated around a lot of people.
Dominant distortion: Mental filter
Patient question: My father and step-mother were seeing a counselor for marital issues (imago therapy–I’m not sure what that means). After a couple of sessions–a little more than a year ago–the therapist told my father in front of my step-mother that she believes he has Aspergers. I’ve since witnessed my step-mother routinely manipulate and abuse my father with this informal diagnosis. She’s broadcast to friends, acquaintances, even strangers, that her husband has Aspergers. She talks openly about her daily struggles while touting her own strength of character and tolerance for putting up with my father. She tells him he’s incapable of empathizing with people, then scoffs at him for crying–“that’s not empathy. You’re just being sentimental.” (I cry every time I I think about it,) My father’s friends and family have pulled away from him, because my step-mother makes them uncomfortable. At times it feels surreal, like I’m living in a case study from that book by R. Hare (the  psychopathy checklist). My father has an eccentric personality and mild social anxiety (he doesn’t like large gatherings, but he manages). Those are the only Aspergers traits he exhibits. My father’s friends and family are very concerned about him, and I can’t help feeling like his therapist gave my step-mother the weapon she’s using to pummel my father. I don’t know what to do. Are there guidelines about offering diagnoses in a family therapy setting? I feel like I’m watching a train wreck. My father agrees with me that something is wrong, but he won’t walk away, even when my step-mother leaves him for weeks at a time, and tells him she loves someone else. What can I do. Am I making a scapegoat of their therapist? It just feels like she behaved recklessly and at the expense of my father. (age 38, from US)

Distorted part: Am I making a scapegoat of their therapist? It just feels like she behaved recklessly and at the expense of my father.
Dominant distortion: Personalization