Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient question: So I will be fine, better than fine, happy even and then one day without anything happening I will hit a wall and fall into extreme sadness. Only time cures it. I contemplate killing myself. When this happens I am impossible to talk to, picking fights with everyone. Friends, family, if I am in a relationship at the time even they avoid me. It makes me more miserable. I have self-harmed in the past but I haven’t done it for years. I don’t know how to fix it, when I come out of my spell I feel dazed, I am apologizing to people close to me for days. I want it to stop but I have no idea how to start fixing it. I have gone to a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with “mild depression” that according to my doctor doesn’t need medication. These periods happen two or three times a month normally lasting three or four days. Please help me.

Distorted part: So I will be fine, better than fine, happy even and then one day without anything happening I will hit a wall and fall into extreme sadness. Only time cures it. I contemplate killing myself. When this happens I am impossible to talk to, picking fights with everyone. Friends, family, if I am in a relationship at the time even they avoid me. It makes me more miserable. I have self-harmed in the past but I haven’t done it for years. I don’t know how to fix it, when I come out of my spell I feel dazed, I am apologizing to people close to me for days. These periods happen two or three times a month normally lasting three or four days. Please help me.
Dominant distortion: Mental filter
Secondary distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient question: I am noticing a trend in my own life, whereas my own negativity and bitterness has become a part of my personality. I have always been on the blunt end of any experience; social rejection, bullying, assault and alienation seem to follow me on a constant basis no matter how I change my attitude. I have learned to simply just accept this, as life for me will never get better, and all attempts to possibly change that belief are futile. My own actions regarding this have not warranted this type of behavior to happen; I try my best to be empathetic, caring and understanding to many people that I have come across, but I always either receive nothing in return or get outright, unreasoned hostility. I tend to talk to people that are no lesser from my own life, for they have also undergone the same issues that I have, but it has become clear to me that not even they want to associate themselves with me.

Distorted part: I am noticing a trend in my own life, whereas my own negativity and bitterness has become a part of my personality. I have always been on the blunt end of any experience; social rejection, bullying, assault and alienation seem to follow me on a constant basis no matter how I change my attitude. I have learned to simply just accept this, as life for me will never get better, and all attempts to possibly change that belief are futile. I tend to talk to people that are no lesser from my own life, for they have also undergone the same issues that I have, but it has become clear to me that not even they want to associate themselves with me.
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary distortion: Mind Reading
Patient question: I’ve had social anxiety as long as I can remember, and I can remember back to pre-school. I did not get diagnosed until I was 17. A couple years before, I started experiencing moments in time where I felt like I wasn’t in reality. I felt as if my arms did not belong to me and that I was looking through someone else’s eyes. My surroundings would seem non-existent. I never told my therapist of these incidents.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From England: I am 16 and I cannot stop myself from imagining I am in a different scenario and talking to people who aren’t there. Everyday and sometimes before I sleep, I am always making up scenarios and characters in my head and live in them. I have these characters I have made up with their own image and backstory and I have a character I have made for myself and now I just automatically slip into this character and talk to the people I have made up without even realizing I’m doing it. This started when I was around 5 and now I just can’t stop.

Distorted part: Everyday and sometimes before I sleep, I am always making up scenarios and characters in my head and live in them.
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient question: I awoke this morning to the sound of someone wearing flip flops walking into my room. The sound was very clear and distinct. My fiance has been out of town the last few weeks so I am alone in the house. After several minutes of panic, I convinced myself I was hearing things and went back to sleep.  Next, I was dreaming and then awoke to someone in bed lying next to me (spooning me) I said my fiance’s name several times and the person put their leg over mine, pinning me and grabbed my hair pulling it firmly. I laid perfectly still for awhile until I realized I no longer felt the presence and then confirmed no one was there. I thought maybe I dozed for a second and the person must have gotten up and was in the house elsewhere. It’s now a few hours later and I am still in my bedroom.  As daylight is coming I am feeling safer. I am certain I must be hallucinating but it was SO REAL. I have never done drugs in my life and I am not on any medication except for 2 days ago I took 1 Zyrtec and used flonase for the very first and only time for allergies.  I saw an allergist about a week ago because of allergies and chest pain with shortness of breath.  I tested positive for the pollen allergies and do not have asthma. I suffered from PTSD in the past due to death of a child 7 years ago. I had hallucinations at that time where I believed I had witnessed my husband getting out of bed to answer the door and talking to people before coming back to bed.  When I asked him about it the next morning he said it never happened. Again, it was so real. I may have had a very small stroke about 15 months ago as I went for several days without being able to write my name though everything else seemed ok and I eventually was able to write my name again after several days.  I never saw a Dr. regarding that incident.  I am overweight and have slightly high blood pressure but do not take any medication. (age 55, from US)

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: From the U.S.: My seven year old son had a friend over the other day and they were playing in his room. My husband went to check on them and heard my boy asking his friend if he could “lick his butt.” His friend told him no and my son told him he would give him all the money in his pocket if he agreed.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: For a while now, I have shown symptoms of depression as well as social anxiety. I talked to a therapist about whatever I could. I told him about some other things like the repetitive tasks I must perform out of fear, my derealization experiences, etc. All he told me was that I was experiencing a lot of anxiety. I’m not sure if I explained myself too well or if he doesn’t necessarily want to tell me about what may be going on. This is quite frustrating, because I need help. Terribly!

Distorted part: For a while now, I have shown symptoms of depression as well as social anxiety. I talked to a therapist about whatever I could. I told him about some other things like the repetitive tasks I must perform out of fear, my derealization experiences, etc. All he told me was that I was experiencing a lot of anxiety. I’m not sure if I explained myself too well or if he doesn’t necessarily want to tell me about what may be going on.
Dominant distortion: Mind Reading
Secondary distortion: Personalization
Patient question: Should I leave abroad to work or go back home? I’m 28, a freelancer for two years in media/photography/journalism with expertise of nearly a decade in the field. I have never lived abroad because I always found work at home or excuses not to leave my home town, but I am part torn apart because I realize and understand my opportunities to grow as an individual and earn the money that could secure me a better life are not necessarily bound to my country.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: I’m in my last year in high school and I have absolutely no friends. This problem of mine started around my freshman year. I had two childhood friends who I used to spend most of my days with since the second grade. After the transition from middle school to high school, they both have found different groups of friends, and I have lost all connection with them. I have found some substitutes for them, a group of people who I used to go to the same middle school with. I never really talked much with them until I had class with them. To this day, I would not really consider them friends, but more of acquaintances. I mainly just used them to have a group of friends to hang around with during lunch time. Around my sophmore year, I had detached myself from everyone in my school. I am just alone on my phone during lunch time, I don’t really talk to many people, the only time I do talk is when I am required to. I have looked into the Avoidant Personality Disorder symptoms, and they seem to line up perfectly with my personality. I feel like I shouldn’t talk to people because they won’t like me for being boring. I just sit home all day, mostly do independent activities all day like programming. The only friends I have are people I have met within the programming community. The only people I would feel comfortable around are the people who I feel I have some form of superiority over.I think the main cause of this is from my sister. She has talked down to everything I ever thought or have done ever since my early child hood. Everything from the music I listened to and even made fun of the types of friends I had at the time. I have confronted her with this and told her how I think this is the main reason for my mentality of being unaccepted by everyone, and she had stopped putting me down for everything for about a year now. The problem is, my social life doesn’t seem to be getting better. As I go through my senior year, it seems to be getting worse. I just need some beginners advice on what to do before this problem becomes permanent. (age 18, from US)

Distorted part: Around my sophmore year, I had detached myself from everyone in my school. I am just alone on my phone during lunch time, I don’t really talk to many people, the only time I do talk is when I am required to. I have looked into the Avoidant Personality Disorder symptoms, and they seem to line up perfectly with my personality. I feel like I shouldn’t talk to people because they won’t like me for being boring. I just sit home all day, mostly do independent activities all day like programming. The only friends I have are people I have met within the programming community. The only people I would feel comfortable around are the people who I feel I have some form of superiority over.I think the main cause of this is from my sister. She has talked down to everything I ever thought or have done ever since my early child hood.
Dominant distortion: Mental filter
Secondary distortion: Personalization
Patient question: Hi, I am 14 years old, and I have had problems pulling and messing with my hair in a variety of different ways since I was little. I noticed my grandma and mom also did this, I always told them to stop, until I noticed I did it too. I thought this was just a bad habit, until I stumbled across the word Trichotillomania online. I googled what it was and I found myself wondering if I had it. Only, I am not sure if I have it or not. I don’t exactly pull out my hair for the sensation of pulling it out. I pull/tug on the ends of my hair repeatedly to the extent where it tears split ends and as a result hair comes out. I get a weird satisfaction by pulling off my split ends which makes them worse. But, I am not sure if this classifies as Trichotillomania because I don’t notice balding, only minor thinning if that. I guess I mainly like the feeling of my hair getting pulled repeatedly and thats why I do it I am not sure. I have terrible split ends and sometimes the tugging on my scalp gives me headaches, but this doesn’t really match with the definition of Trichotillomania. I am not sure if this is a big deal or not, just multiple people have pointed it out, and I do it constantly. And when I say constantly I mean literally anytime my hands aren’t already doing something. I find myself doing this when I am bored or anxious. And considering I am anxious basically all the time it doesn’t really help.I recently found that playing with small magnetic balls during school helps me not pull. If you could help me identifiy if this is anything to be worried about it would be really helpful. Thanks.

Distorted part: Hi, I am 14 years old, and I have had problems pulling and messing with my hair in a variety of different ways since I was little. I thought this was just a bad habit, until I stumbled across the word Trichotillomania online. I googled what it was and I found myself wondering if I had it. Only, I am not sure if I have it or not. I don’t exactly pull out my hair for the sensation of pulling it out. I pull/tug on the ends of my hair repeatedly to the extent where it tears split ends and as a result hair comes out. I get a weird satisfaction by pulling off my split ends which makes them worse.And when I say constantly I mean literally anytime my hands aren’t already doing something. I find myself doing this when I am bored or anxious. And considering I am anxious basically all the time it doesn’t really help.I recently found that playing with small magnetic balls during school helps me not pull.
Dominant distortion: Magnification
Patient question: I been feeling down lately like I don’t know if I having some depressed issues or what sometimes I be feeling like crying all the time. My boyfriend he really doesn’t make it no better. I love my boyfriend but sometimes I feel like he always attacking me emotionally. I can’t tell him how I feel sometimes because he takes it very offensive. I feel like I’m always the wrong one in our relationship.

Distorted part: I been feeling down lately like I don’t know if I having some depressed issues or what sometimes I be feeling like crying all the time. My boyfriend he really doesn’t make it no better. I love my boyfriend but sometimes I feel like he always attacking me emotionally. I can’t tell him how I feel sometimes because he takes it very offensive. I feel like I’m always the wrong one in our relationship.
Dominant distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary distortion: Mental filter
Patient question: From Croatia: Dear psychiatrist! I am 18 and I come from Croatia and I want to ask you some questions about my neighbor. My neighbor is 65 years old and he is evil. I had 2 dogs (one was smaller husky and other is 10kg terrier). 5 years ago he entered my backyard at night, drugged my dog (husky) and choked it to death. Another thing is that before he had also poisoned my dogs, but luckily they have recovered. Here comes something that nobody believed me when I’ve told them. My neighbor recorded some dogs (not mine) and then he played that tape on stereo so he could provoke my dogs to bark. Couple of days ago he started to play that tape again. He had also cut down my fence and poisoned my trees.

Distorted part: My neighbor is 65 years old and he is evil.
Dominant distortion: Labeling
Patient question: I was married to a man with bipolar for 30 years. It was a verbal, mental and sometimes physical abusive relationship. From this 30 year marriage, I now have a 33 year old daughter who was diagnosed with Bipolar also. I just can’t get along with her. I think she just hates me. I was not an abusive mother. I tried so hard to protect her from her father’s abuse. I thought she would be close to me but it is the other way around. She is very close to her father’s family. Her father passed away 5 years ago. I have tried so hard to have a relationship with my daughter and her children. She is so angry with me. It always for some reason or other. I am not saying I am perfect in anyway. I hate to fight and she is always starting one with me. Just need some help on how to deal with this situation. She makes it very hard to see my grandchildren. (age 62, from US)

Distorted part: I just can’t get along with her. I think she just hates me.
Dominant distortion: Mind Reading
Patient question: I’ve had social anxiety disorder most of my life and have coped with it well until it seems recently. Lately, I’m sad and upset all the time, I cry often over nothing more than my thoughts, I don’t get out of bed, and I’ve called out/left work early just to be alone. I feel numb or sad, and I also feel really worried that my boyfriend doesn’t like me anymore or is cheating (though he has given no reason for me to feel this way). I thought it was just anxiety at first, but this isn’t a panicky feeling, this is just utter despair. This is not the first time I’ve experienced this, but the last few times I thought it was circumstantial. Usually this lasts about a month or two before I go back to normal. However, last summer I experienced what may have been hypomania for a month and a half — I had sexual relations with multiple people in a short time, drank heavily every night, and didn’t sleep for a week and felt great. I thought I was on top of the world, that everyone loved me, and I could do anything I wanted. Now I feel utterly worthless, unwanted, unloved, and alone. At this particular moment in time, I feel awful about myself and my life, but I can’t sleep and I feel more awake than I’ve felt in weeks. I’ve been considering seeing a psychiatrist for social anxiety again for a while, but should I consider addressing this issue, or am I worried about nothing?

Distorted part: I feel numb or sad, and I also feel really worried that my boyfriend doesn’t like me anymore or is cheating (though he has given no reason for me to feel this way).
Dominant distortion: Mind Reading
Patient question: Everyday all day, most of what occupies my kind is various conversations with myself about Killing other people and being able to do it well. I’ve learned how to make various poisons, and really want to try them on my friends, who are the only people who make fun of me. My speech — to them is very strange — though I feel like I’m talking normal, and I don’t act the same around people who are not my friends. I don’t have a best friend, but I want to kill my closest one. I am anti-social for I do not talk a lot, except when the ball gets rolling fast. About the perception. I never agree with anyone. I believe humans are dirty and their major folly was being created in the first place. I am in no way suicidal,and my sister and some people I’ve been around for years say I’m very narcissistic. I have very very bad memory, and everything I do seems cloudy. I am always irritated though I do not show it. I am actually very timid. I feel no empathy or apathy. I seem to reflect people emotions back at them so I don’t seem monotone and out of place. I write — when I try — and talk somewhat eloquently. However, my brain always feels like it’s in a net. When ever a teacher give an assignment, I have to read or see it a few times before I can actually read the words; it is not like I do not comprehend; it’s more like I don’t read, even though I am. I feel like I have voices in my head, though I know they are myself, but they feel like other people, who have their own emotions. As well, I bite my nails a lot, and always have to be doing something with my hands, whether it’s touching something, biting them, or pulling on my hair, which I am somewhat pulling out. Moreover, I have no idea why I am writing this. It seems like a good detergent for me to actually kill, because I feel like this would be good evidence against me, expecially that I gave my good email, good username, city, zip, and state. This also plays into my extreme paranoia.

Distorted part: I am anti-social for I do not talk a lot, except when the ball gets rolling fast.I believe humans are dirty and their major folly was being created in the first place.
Dominant distortion: Labeling
Secondary distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient question: I’m 24. Staying in Myanmar (Asia). I got along well with parents during my school days. I also get good grades in school. When I was in college (in Singapore, not in Myanmar), I started to experience dissociative disorder and partial seizures. I’ve been hospitalized for months and I’ve been on deferment. I’m only two months away from graduation. Those times are like my darkest days of my life. I’m in depression. When I recover from illness, my parents start controlling me. They don’t want me to use phones, my laptop and even control seeing my friends.

Dominant distortion: No Distortion
Patient question: A few years ago, me and my brother got into a little fight on Feb 14. He pushed me against the kitchen counter and put his hands around my neck and his kids were there (I helped take care of them since they were babies, no kidding) since the kids saw it and were crying I felt like it was all my fault, so I went on my knees and asked for forgiveness. After that happened, my Mom decided I should still live in the same house despite him laughing while apologizing to me (since he did tried to stop my breathing). Present now something like almost happened I was just giving my opinion on how to clean meat is all and he deliberately ignores me, when I ask why he just says to keep him from getting mad, I ask him why I didn’t do or say anything. But that day he was mad about anything I noticed so I told that he was (as he put it in every situation I get a little annoyed by) needing a midol. And the scene minus him choking me happened again but was stopped by my Mom and sister and he mocked me by and I quote “I’ll do the (my name) and he yelled afterwards towards everyone. In the end we went back to the house and until now I refuse to eat what he makes or buys because if I do eat I feel like puking and disgusted and I know people would die for that food but I just say I don’t want any. I just literately hate my family except my Mom (she’s my Mom) my younger sister and my younger nieces. Even my older sister goes with him and I hate myself for thinking this I really do I just wish I could die, I cut and I know I shouldn’t but I cant help I hate myself to think and just to be like this. My Mom says to forgive but he threw me and my family out 3 times. I want someone to get me. So I just would like to know what do I do? (age 16, from US)

Distorted part: He pushed me against the kitchen counter and put his hands around my neck and his kids were there (I helped take care of them since they were babies, no kidding) since the kids saw it and were crying I felt like it was all my fault, so I went on my knees and asked for forgiveness. I just literately hate my family except my Mom (she’s my Mom) my younger sister and my younger nieces.
Dominant distortion: Personalization
Secondary distortion: Mental filter
Patient question: I have a 33-year-old brother who was diagnosed with schizophrenia about a decade ago. He hasn’t responded to any antipsychotic medication and has delusional thoughts a few times a year. He doesn’t work. He’s on disability. He gets quite a lot of money on a monthly basis because he worked for many years before and after his diagnosis. Our father has control over his finances and he lives rent-free in a home our dad owns. Because of this, he gives my brother an allowance from his disability payments, instead of the whole thing. Anyway…

Dominant distortion: No Distortion