Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: I have become rather troubled with my inability not to see my father as “contaminated”, for lack of a better term. I can’t prepare my meals when he is in the kitchen or drink beverages he stands near for fear he’s breathed near them. I can recall not being able to eat any food he even stood near from adolescence, which meant left-overs or seconds were a no. I can’t enter a room he’s been in without spraying an air freshener and I’ve not sat upon the couch for this very same reason. The thought of using the same utensils, regardless of how thoroughly it’s been washed, is absolutely revolting. If I know he’s used it, I cannot. I feel bad, as it must be heartbreaking for your own child to treat you like some sort of plague-victim, but I can’t help it. I have an extreme dislike of human smell, breath, saliva, and mouths in general-I can’t even watch scenes which incorporate close ups without feeling the need to not breathe or expel the air (exhale forcefully) contaminated by the screen-but it is at its extreme with him. I know it probably has something to do with our rather rocky relationship and the fact that, having grown up around him, I’m privy to his poor hygiene practices. As I’ve stated prior, I’ve felt this way from early adolescence, so perhaps these aspects aggravated an already-existent, admittedly irrational, hatred of the human mouth. I know he gets offended, as he should, but I can’t help it. What on earth should I do? Is there any way I can wean myself off of these irrational precautions without making myself overly uncomfortable? Thank you in advance.
Distorted part: I have become rather troubled with my inability not to see my father as “contaminated”, for lack of a better term. I can’t prepare my meals when he is in the kitchen or drink beverages he stands near for fear he’s breathed near them. I can recall not being able to eat any food he even stood near from adolescence, which meant left-overs or seconds were a no. I can’t enter a room he’s been in without spraying an air freshener and I’ve not sat upon the couch for this very same reason. The thought of using the same utensils, regardless of how thoroughly it’s been washed, is absolutely revolting. If I know he’s used it, I cannot. I feel bad, as it must be heartbreaking for your own child to treat you like some sort of plague-victim, but I can’t help it. I have an extreme dislike of human smell, breath, saliva, and mouths in general-I can’t even watch scenes which incorporate close ups without feeling the need to not breathe or expel the air (exhale forcefully) contaminated by the screen-but it is at its extreme with him.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I have been drawn to children — ages about 5 to 15 since the age of about 30. The only time it becomes a sexual attraction is with girls who appear to be at least 19 or 20 — still highly inappropriate, given my age, I know. Also, rarely, am I attracted to a woman older than say, 35 or 40. When it comes to children under about 15, I am simply taken by their beautiful skin, silk-like hair, perfect features, etc., but, thankfully, never have sexual urges towards them. Sometimes they look so absolutely perfect that I just want to stare at them (if in a picture or movie — not in a public setting because I realize it wouldn’t be normal or would be misread as sexual attraction). Is there somewhere I could learn more about this or do I have a one-of-a-kind condition?
Distorted part: I have been drawn to children — ages about 5 to 15 since the age of about 30. The only time it becomes a sexual attraction is with girls who appear to be at least 19 or 20 — still highly inappropriate, given my age, I know. Also, rarely, am I attracted to a woman older than say, 35 or 40. When it comes to children under about 15, I am simply taken by their beautiful skin, silk-like hair, perfect features, etc., but, thankfully, never have sexual urges towards them. Sometimes they look so absolutely perfect that I just want to stare at them (if in a picture or movie — not in a public setting because I realize it wouldn’t be normal or would be misread as sexual attraction).
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: From Switzerland: I’m 23 and I’ve got a problem: My boyfriend and I have been dating for 2 years and almost 3 months. He’s a great guy who never got angry at me or furious because of my OCD (afraid of germs), he was supporting and even changed his behavior in public to avoid me having a panic attack.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I’ve been dating my boyfriend for 14 months now. During our relationship we’ve been back and forth a lot, mainly because it’s his first relationship (even though he’s in his late 20’s) and had a lot of insecurities. He broke it off once with me because we had been fighting a lot, mainly because I created arguments because I didn’t feel like he was in the relationship like he was supposed to be. He told me he wasn’t 100% sure that he was in love, and he said that he wasn’t whole heartedly in the relationship anymore. 3 weeks after we broke up he came back and said that he was sure about how he felt about me, and that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me because he was miserable when we were apart. Since then we’ve had a good relationship up until recently. He lost his job and is very stressed out and nervous because of it. He is always moody, snaps easily, and has no understanding for my wanting to talk things out and be understood when arguments come up. When I try to peace things out in a caring and loving manner he gets angry and says that he hates how we have to drag things out all the time. I try to explain to him that I want reassurance that he really wants to be here this time and the conversations become longer because I’m waiting to hear something reassuring from him while all he does it get angry and try to brush me off. He tells me he wants me to be his wife one day, that he wants to have a family with me and that he’s in love with me, yet I don’t feel it. I don’t know if it’s just from his moods or not, but I am scared that he is only saying this because he’s afraid to hurt me again. When he is in a good mood he is more loving and caring, but that almost never happens anymore. When he got angry yesterday he said that our arguments makes him doubt whether he wants to do this for the rest of his life, and it broke my heart. Should I leave him be when he gets in his moods or am I right in wanting to be reassured without having him get mad?
Distorted part: He broke it off once with me because we had been fighting a lot, mainly because I created arguments because I didn’t feel like he was in the relationship like he was supposed to be.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: I want to help my guy. He was sexually abused as a child, as was I. He was taught many sexual things from the woman. She is dead now. He practices light bondage and I try it out with him, I am not adverse to trying some things, but last night he texted he was with bad *her name*. He said when the bad one comes out he can not ignore her. It was like I was talking to a stranger. He is a sweet person, but he stays in his head. He fixates on women from his past and its all he talks about.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I’m 14 and in the 9th grade. I’m failing and I’m not sure what to do. I stopped going to school in the 8th grade because I became very depressed and I had a lot of issues with the other kids. I hated school (and still do). I ended up going to court for truancy and all of that. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder. I felt like my life was crumbling but I acted like it was okay. I got into a lot of bad habits. I didn’t have a single friend and if someone wanted to hang out I’d make an excuse to ditch them. I just couldn’t handle being around people. I started a high school September of 2014. It was alternative and I thought it would work but once again I stopped going because I was afraid and I couldn’t handle the kids. In about October of 2014 I started going to an online school. Right when I started I knew it wouldn’t work out. And now I’m here, failing the 9th grade, completely friendless, I’m on medications and I’m going to therapy but I still can’t get my life together. I try my best to forget about by responsibilities by playing video games or watching TV. But it’s just becoming horrible. I feel terrible about not doing school and I’m so sad and distracted that I can’t focus on what I’m doing. Every time I do anything I feel like failure. I’m scared of failing but I have no motivation to not fail. It’s just so bad, and I want to go to a real school but I’m scared to go back because of all my old friends and stuff. I feel like I can’t do anything. I just lay in bed all day and feel sorry for myself. I feel like if I don’t fix this I’m not going to pass high school. I really need help. I’m considering asking my parents if I could go to a hospital. But that’s also very scary to me. Please give me some reassurance. (age 14, from US)
Distorted part: I didn’t have a single friend and if someone wanted to hang out I’d make an excuse to ditch them. I just couldn’t handle being around people. And now I’m here, failing the 9th grade, completely friendless, I’m on medications and I’m going to therapy but I still can’t get my life together.Every time I do anything I feel like failure.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Secondary Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: I’m 21 and I feel like so empty and confused as will in a way that I think I found both men and women attractive I’m not sure really. I also change a lot of mood like I was happy and very friendly then suddenly when I heard or feel something not appropriate or things that I don’t like I directly shift into a different one and I get pissed and I don’t talk to them. I also tried to cut myself three times in my wrist because I feel so worthless. I also don’t like to hang out with a lot of people because I feel so weak when I’m around with a lot of people. I stay in my room all the time and thinking of many things like why I’m in here? I don’t belong here? I wish I never born. and everything else. I’m also paranoid in getting microbes like I alcohol every time. I really don’t understand I can’t focus on some things and can’t think straight. I feel so empty everyday. I feel it since I was kid and until now it’s getting worst, I also sleep paralyze and it’s so scary and I feel like my soul is getting out when I sleep it occurred to me sometimes when I feel so depressed. I also think I’ve been attack by Panic attack when the time that I really feel like I need to end my life. What is happening to me? Can you please explain to me. Thank you.
Distorted part: I also tried to cut myself three times in my wrist because I feel so worthless.I’m also paranoid in getting microbes like I alcohol every time.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: I don’t know what is happening to me. A month or two ago I started to panic about being out of work. I obsessed about it 24/7 and could not sleep, relax of concentrate on anything not even a tv show. Nothing seemed real. I could not tolerate feeling that way any longer and went to the Dr who gave me olanzapine of 5mg a night. This has helped take some of the anxiety away, but sometimes still feel like I am not real. Also when I listen to the radio or watch tv I get irritated and angry when I hear people talking about their successful lives. Is this a mental health problem or am I just a nasty jealous individual? I feel like I am losing all feeling of self worth. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror now. What makes things even worse is some serious paranoia. Every time I hear a helicopter flying nearby I think that the police are watching me. If I see a strange car parked out back I think that the police are monitoring me. I can’t seem to shake these thoughts away. I just don’t know what to do any more. I have been unemployed for nearly 4 years, rarely leave my room and have no friends. Can you tell me if I am truly sick or is this just a phase that will go away on it’s own? (From England)
Distorted part: I feel like I am losing all feeling of self worth. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror now.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient Question: From Australia: My friend’s daughter is a nice person and I like her. We both have abandonment and reject issues stemming from absent mother. She is 31 years old married to her childhood sweetheart and has 2 little boys. But she is controlling and manipulating her dad. This behavior has been going on for a long time and has gotten worse since having the children.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I’m way too young for this. I have very bad anxieties about my health. I feel so guilty, making my parents take me to who knows how many specialists, MRI’s, ETC. Every day I worry I have something. With that comes the feeling of terror, the all-too-real pain, and screaming at everyone to call an ambulance. I’m too young to have to deal with this stuff. I’m constantly twitching and shaking, unless you take my mind off of it. For everything I worry that I have, I feel the physical symptoms of them, along with horrible chest pains. Sometimes I have my mother sleep with me just in case I die in my sleep (I don’t want to die alone) I cannot even describe how I feel. I lose all basic judgment, and even though I know how ridiculous I’m being, I cannot control it. My hand is constantly on my pulse and if it goes up past 79 BPM, I’m ready to call 911. I feel like I want to throw up. I can go on about what happens, but it’s too much to write down.
Distorted part: Sometimes I have my mother sleep with me just in case I die in my sleep (I don’t want to die alone) I cannot even describe how I feel.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: From Switzerland: I don’t know if there even is an answer to my situation but I guess asking can’t hurt. And at other places people just kept telling me to ask a professional so here I am. (Since I can’t in real life for multiple reasons one ironically being that I am a medical student…)
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I am quite concerned that I may be developing schizophrenia, or some similar issue. I’m 20 years old, and have always dealt with anxiety, as well as some hypochondria. My health anxiety peaked in high school for several months, and it was during this time that I began experiencing internal auditory hallucinations.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I am seeking help because i don’t really know the nature of my trouble. I can’t finance my visits to a psychiatrist. My problem begins a year and half ago when i think had an identity crisis, i was a kind of person who is never satisfied with himself and always thinking that there is something wrong with me. Then, i began doing things i personally don’t agree with but i would do it and cry after it, i pushed myself to very uncomfortable situations, to do things i don’t accept and forced myself to deal with it for a long time without ever stopping. Then i began to lose sense of my own self like losing sense of what i am doing, losing and gaining weight, etc.. it felt like i was doing a bunch of acts that are not connected in any way or any sense. what is happening to me now is that i can’t work because i have a weird feeling all the time that i am not comfortable with myself, my mind is always busy with something that i don’t know. I feel like there is something i should do and because of that feeling i don’t want to engage in conversations, i don’t want to sleep or eat or have fun and my stomach hurts all the time. i don’t concentrate with anything like even when watching a movie i feel like my mind is elsewhere.
Distorted part: what is happening to me now is that i can’t work because i have a weird feeling all the time that i am not comfortable with myself, my mind is always busy with something that i don’t know. I feel like there is something i should do and because of that feeling i don’t want to engage in conversations, i don’t want to sleep or eat or have fun and my stomach hurts all the time. i don’t concentrate with anything like even when watching a movie i feel like my mind is elsewhere.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient Question: My mother is obsessed with making up for being a “bad” mother. She paid very little attention to us as children. We essentially raised ourselves. Now she smothers us, calling several times a day, coming to visit 3-4 time per year (she lives in another state), and staying 10 days at a time. All of our interactions involve her trying to teach us the basics, as if we are still 5 year-olds, and demanding honor and respect simply for being the mother. Conversations a nearly impossible because she is always right about everything and we should simply accept and honor her wisdom, as the elder. I have tried to gently (and not so gently) remind her that we are now adults and do not need this type of guidance any longer, but she insists that it is a mothers job to teach her children all through life. She respects NO boundaries!I could write for days on that subject alone. She continually says things like the mother is the most important person in one’s life, etc…etc… I know her issues stem from having been sent away for her safety during a war, in her very young years, and then being reunited with her family several years later (resulting in two separation/abandonment scenarios). She also married and left her family behind to come to the US from her homeland when she was 26. This left her with no family support, except for her in-laws, which she claims treated her poorly. Lastly she is uneducated and lacked any motivation to change that. I pity her for all her hardships, but I hate her for what she’s become as a result. My brothers are strong enough to ignore her demands for attention, leaving me to console her and defend them. I am at the point where I just want one of us to die, so I do not have to deal with her any more. Sad, huh?
Distorted part: My brothers are strong enough to ignore her demands for attention, leaving me to console her and defend them.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: From Cyprus: I don’t know what is wrong with me. i feel like i am not living. i am scared i will die, soon. I used to be a ‘happy’ person with the occasional ‘sad’ moments, now i am a sad person with some rare ‘happy’ moments. I have lost interest in almost everything i used to enjoy, in everything that used to keep me going and because of this i feel that i’ll stop living . I am not scared i have something incurable, i just think that one day i will disappear. I am scared. I am terrified and at the same time i think ( and its scares me ) that i am at peace with dying. All these make my paranoid little brain to believe that i will really die soon. I don’t feel like putting my life in order, or saying heartfelt ‘goodbyes’ to people. And I can see myself in the future ( with less excitement than what i used to before) but i do , and i am somewhat looking forward to somethings in my life. There is a crazy war of thoughts in my head and it scares me. I think i am taking a downfall and i will never stop — recently during the 2014-2015 I lost 3 people from my life , I took some life altering decisions about my academic future and in a couple of days I am turning 20 ) I don’t know what’s wrong with me,please help me if you can!
Distorted part: I used to be a ‘happy’ person with the occasional ‘sad’ moments, now i am a sad person with some rare ‘happy’ moments. I have lost interest in almost everything i used to enjoy, in everything that used to keep me going and because of this i feel that i’ll stop living .
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Secondary Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: From years now I’ve been suffering from something unknown to me, and I’ve spent a long time doing some research to find on my own, I know that I really need to see a professional. I’ve been dealing with self-injury since I was like eleven, I don’t know how to explain it but it always felt like someone/something was always in the back of my mind telling me to do it because I deserved it. My beliefs are very odd, I’ve never been able to fit in my social environment and I never felt like I could, like I always needed to play a roll to fit, to put on a mask and act, and I must add that I don’t feel any desire to fit in, nor to have close relationships and I never feel comfortable with affection, or physical interaction.
Distorted part: My beliefs are very odd, I’ve never been able to fit in my social environment and I never felt like I could, like I always needed to play a roll to fit, to put on a mask and act, and I must add that I don’t feel any desire to fit in, nor to have close relationships and I never feel comfortable with affection, or physical interaction.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Secondary Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: Dear Doctor: I hope that you can help. I guess my question is how to help me cope with this situation. My partner (f) was diagnosed with PTSD last year following childhood abuse & traumas. In connection with this she does struggle to live her life, but she is getting help, both therapy cognitive and medication including anti psychs, pills for depression and anxiety.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: For a while now I’ve had this problem where if something doesn’t feel exactly right I have to fix it until it does feel right and it’s hard to focus on anything else if I leave it. This can happen with anything. The way an object is positioned, which fingers I use to type something, how I say something, etc. This will usually make me look really weird if somebody notices. If something takes too long to fix, I will become frustrated and completely give up. This is making things hard during class, because if I can’t seem to write a word the right way or if I have to keep writing and erasing the same word I will get frustrated and want to push the paper away. It’s been getting really bad, and is making my grades go way down. My parents don’t really know what to do with me. Along with my problem, I have been feeling depressed for 8 months. All summer I was inside on the computer and barely went outside. Towards the end of summer I started running out of things to do online, but still didn’t want to go outside. So I stayed inside all day listening to music. I started thinking really pessimistic thoughts on life, getting myself down all the time. School started and it just kept getting worse, because of my grades and me losing friends. My problem is just making it worse. Are there any ways of controlling my problem? Is there a name to my problem? I just don’t know what to do. Sorry if this is confusing to read. (age 13, from US)
Distorted part: If something takes too long to fix, I will become frustrated and completely give up. This is making things hard during class, because if I can’t seem to write a word the right way or if I have to keep writing and erasing the same word I will get frustrated and want to push the paper away.
Dominant Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking