Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question:  From the U.S.: I was abused mentally by a woman throughout my childhood into my adult years. This woman adopted me and groomed me as she had seen fit – that is into a housewife/sex kitten for my husband; which she picked out. It wasn’t that I complied because I wanted to please her, I was just too exhausted to defend myself any further because every time I made an attempt toward independence, she layered on the guilt or threatened. I won’t get into too much detail. But she was very manipulative, controlling, and cruel. I felt like she had repressed homosexual urges that she projected onto me. For example, during a family event she was ready to leave and refused to do so unless I kissed her on the mouth. In front of everyone. Even though I felt uncomfortable. (And made others uncomfortable.) She used to physically groom me for dates or meeting her male friends by doing my hair, makeup, and how I dressed.
Distorted part: But she was very manipulative, controlling, and cruel.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: My parents are in their 50’s and have begun hoarding stuff and their quality of life is greatly diminished. They have raccoons living in the attic, there are open holes in the side of the house, both have collected things beyond what can healthfully fit in their space, they have 8 cats and some other little things I am concerned about. The house is a constant mess because they can’t keep up with maintenance and general cleaning. I do know they realize that some things need to change, like plugging holes in the house that raccoons are getting in but when i offer help or suggestions they are super sensitive or just say “i know, but”. There is always an excuse or reason they have not gotten to it yet. I live across the country and can’t physically help around the house. There is a extensive history of self esteem issues with both parents. So how do i talk to them and help them realize I am extremely concerned about their lifestyle without them shutting down or getting extremely hurt?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I really am having trouble describing this, but I have two people in my head- yes I know that sounds down right insane, it is myself and it. I know the consciousness doesn’t exist, but the consciousness thinks its alive even though I think its my issues.It gets upset when I say it doesn’t exist, even making a show of crying. I think I’m insane! Its been around since I was a toddler and I have grown up with it, but now I am at a age where I need to question this for my mental health, because I know normal people don’t have voices that can talk or have emotions of their own. Do i have a sort of Schizophrenia? Or is it just some weird hallucinations? I really don’t know what to do.
Distorted part: I think I’m insane!
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: Thank you so, so much for reading all of this. I’m not at a very good place right now. I get my schoolwork done when I have to, but I waste a lot of time writing poetry because it’s the only place I express my thoughts. I’ve forgotten how to do anything but smile; I feel like I have to act happy and be there for other people all the time. I’m a bit of a hypocrite because I always advise my friends that their own health should come first, but I don’t believe it myself. What I do believe is that I only matter based on what I give to humanity. I just can’t convince myself that that’s not true. I’m so tired, but I sort of like it because it makes me feel like I’m doing enough.
Distorted part: What I do believe is that I only matter based on what I give to humanity.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question:  I’m slowly coming to the realization that there is a greater possibility that I have some mental issues. Most of the time I feel numb – kind of like I’m outside of my own body watching myself do things. This happens a lot when I’m nervous (in any kind of social situation). I’m unhappy and I hate that because I don’t have anything to be unhappy about. I live a blessed life thank God. For that I am eternally grateful, I really am. My life hasn’t even been that hard – the hardest thing I’ve had to go through was just a big move and my crush (,his family) and my own family making fun of me. Its pathetic – extremely pathetic, I’m aware of that. If I could tell you what’s wrong with me I would, believe me, but even I don’t know that. There’s just this extremely unsettling feeling in the pit of my stomach that I just can’t shake. Not to mention this completely hopeless attitude to life that I can’t change. This looming sense that nothing’s going to work out.
Distorted part: I’m unhappy and I hate that because I don’t have anything to be unhappy about.  This looming sense that nothing’s going to work out.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: Hi I am having some trouble. This is very embarrassing and I can’t even talk to my therapist about this face to face because I feel weird about it. I know that this section of the website is for setting up consultations but I really need help. Ok so here I go: I have been diagnosed with OCD when I was young and have had it all. I havent masturbated in over 3 years and the reason is something that bothers me. I always feel like something changes in me when I did it whether I felt unsocial, different, or weird in any certain way. I have avoided it because I am scared that I will feel that way and go back on things that I have worked so hard to conquer. Ik it’s OCD and the correct thing to do is fight it by masturbating to conquer the fear but I just need assurance that that’s what I need to do. Please help me. Thanks so much.
Distorted part: I have avoided it because I am scared that I will feel that way and go back on things that I have worked so hard to conquer.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: I don’t know what is the problem with her she keeps on speaking and fighting with the family. if we say anything to her she doesn’t listen and talks very rudely to her children. I tried a lot to change her but she doesn’t change at all. She blames my dad and his family for this problem. She fights a lot with my dad and her children to. I am really frustrated with her because she just keeps on blabbering stuff and doesn’t do anything. We thought she needs a psychiatrist so we wanted to take her there but she says that she is fine and my dad needs a psychiatrist. She thinks very highly of herself. She doesn’t really care about her children too. I have a brother who is a special child but she keeps on being negative about him that he will die eventually. We get really tensed about her as she takes everything in a negative sense. We joke around with her but she starts fighting. She doesn’t even accept her mistake. It is really frustrating seeing her like this. Please help me out.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question:  From a teen in Canada: um… I really don’t know how to say this but I’ve been wanting to have a mental disorder for years now, and I know you will think I’m just seeking attention like everyone else, but I’m not. There’s no one who i want to pay attention to me. In all honesty, I think it’s because I want people to stay away from me… to fear me, almost.
Distorted part: I really don’t know how to say this but I’ve been wanting to have a mental disorder for years now, and I know you will think I’m just seeking attention like everyone else, but I’m not.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: My mum has had issues with alcoholism. She was diagnosed with severe pms which causes her so much stress that she turns to drink (and goes on week long benders). This has been happening for over 17 years. She is currently 43. During this time she gets extremely violent with me and my father, has trashed our house many times and fought with anyone- neighbours, police, etc. We have always suspected that it was more than pms, she’s practically an alcoholic and her behaviour isn’t cyclical as you would suspect from pms. Over time, her mental health has been getting worse. She has been on less benders in this time, however she is never happy. She is constantly stressed- even though there is no stress to worry about. She doesn’t take jokes, and we all have to choose our words very carefully in day to day life to avoid her going off. She has two other daughters under the age of 7, both of which she does not mother like a normal mum does. There’s distance and not much love. She has odd behaviour, like going shopping for groceries every day and buying things we don’t need. She associates herself with people who drink a lot of alcohol, so that when my father refuses to buy her any more she has someone to go and drink with. My father and I are under the impression that she may have an undiagnosed mental disorder like bipolar or schizophrenia (along those lines) and because her condition seems to be worsening with time, i wanted to reach out for an opinion. My family can’t live like this anymore. It’s unfair on all of us, and her. She is convinced that her issue is pms, so it would be hard to convince her to get help without premise such as advice in this forum. the drink will kill her one day, unless she stops. We want to live a normal life and have her back to the way she once was, if this means appropriate treatment for a potentially undiagnosed mental disorder, then so be it. Thank you for your help.
Distorted part: the drink will kill her one day, unless she stops.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: Hello doctor — I hope I get an answer for my questions because I desperately need one the problem is not in me but my mother, two months ago mom called my dad and when the discussion was over she over heard him saying stuff to another woman, and since then she was shocked and my dad completely denies it but she won’t believe it the problem is she became like a different person, she stalks every move he does she took away his phone she’s suspicious about every little thing he does, no matter how he treats her she keeps giving him a hard time and never satisfied, she began talking to herself, she faints and starts screaming like a maniac, when she sleeps she wakes up in the middle of the night screaming and cursing dad, when I talk with her she never listens she keeps repeating the same thing saying she keeps replaying the words he said to that woman and its killing her and that she still can’t believe it and hopes that it’s just a nightmare she’ll wake up from and she starts questioning everything that has happened before, in short the home is a wreck dad is sick of everything, my little sisters are confused and I’m really worried about them, and mostly mom’s mental health I feel like she’s going crazy soon and its killing me no matter what we say to her she won’t listen she treats all of us badly, I just don’t know what to do I’m really worried and living a nightmare I hope I get some advice. (From Algeria)
Distorted part: Hello doctor — I hope I get an answer for my questions because I desperately need one the problem is not in me but my mother, two months ago mom called my dad and when the discussion was over she over heard him saying stuff to another woman, and since then she was shocked and my dad completely denies it but she won’t believe it the problem is she became like a different person, she stalks every move he does she took away his phone she’s suspicious about every little thing he does, no matter how he treats her she keeps giving him a hard time and never satisfied, she began talking to herself, she faints and starts screaming like a maniac, when she sleeps she wakes up in the middle of the night screaming and cursing dad, when I talk with her she never listens she keeps repeating the same thing saying she keeps replaying the words he said to that woman and its killing her and that she still can’t believe it and hopes that it’s just a nightmare she’ll wake up from and she starts questioning everything that has happened before, in short the home is a wreck dad is sick of everything, my little sisters are confused and I’m really worried about them, and mostly mom’s mental health I feel like she’s going crazy soon and its killing me no matter what we say to her she won’t listen she treats all of us badly, I just don’t know what to do I’m really worried and living a nightmare I hope I get some advice.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: This year, one of my best friends has gone through a lot of issue with his other friends. He really feels like he has no one left besides me. All he ever does is work or stay at home. He rarely comes to church anymore. He deleted all of his social media accounts and now he wants to switch to online schooling. I’m really worried that he will fully isolate himself if he does that but I could also see how it would be good for him. I only want what’s best for him and I’m not sure if I should encourage him to stay in public school or do online schooling like he wants.Is this type of isolate healthy?
Distorted part: I’m really worried that he will fully isolate himself if he does that but I could also see how it would be good for him.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question:  From a teen in the U.S. I have a twin sister And she’s been abusive towards me my entire life. I can’t put everything she has done into this, but I’ve been physically and emotionally abused by her my entire life, ever since I can remember (which is three).
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: When people honk their horns I think they are honking at me. I scream at people for teasing me. I assume people want me dead when they give me criticism. I sent a nasty email after being dissed by a coworker. I said that a football teammate is my least favorite team mate because he made fun of me in front of my teammates. I am currently in treatment and the only thing that changed is my blood pressure levels which changed for the better. I walk on eggshells around my coworkers even though they personally never harmed me. I wanted to tell a scammer who was trying to scam me to go screw herself after I found out that someone was trying to scam me. I was bullied as a child and in my teenage years and that is giving me a lot of problems.
Distorted part: I assume people want me dead when they give me criticism.  I was bullied as a child and in my teenage years and that is giving me a lot of problems.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Secondary Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question:  Ever since i can remember, I’ve been overweight and my single mother has hated me for it. throughout my childhood she dragged me to numerous doctors to “fix” me, filling my childhood with hundred of different medications and injections. she would buy clothes for me while i was at school that were far too small for me, and when i came home she would tell me to put them on in front of her full length mirror and give me looks of pure disgust when they would bulge my stomach or arms out. grunting and sniffling and asking me if i thought anyone would ever love something who was fat like me. things changed when my sister was born. on the bright side she stopped standing me in front of mirrors, probably because we no longer ever had alone time. however her rage was without measure. i rarely spoke to her for fear of being screamed at. i love my sister dearly. growing up being the unwanted one was difficult however. many times my mother and i would fight, though i would never hurt anyone i mostly just took whatever she threw my way. insults, wishes of my death, the silverware drawer, lamps. i haven’t lived with my mother since i was 14, i moved with my grandparents when i couldn’t bare her hatred anymore. i very rarely speak to her now, once in the last year- however when we speak she acknowledges her “failure as a parent”. i hear she is a meth addict, who just recently stabbed herself in the stomach with a steak knife in drug induced psychosis. i try to contact her to see how she is. i frequently do, she just never answers. when my sister and i speak of her, she tells me my mother refers to me as “the bad child” and calls me “druggie loser” which i don’t understand at all. the problem lies with me though, as no matter how long i’ve been away from her i still cannot find the strength to not hate myself. i know that i’m kind and beautiful in my own way. i know i have a husband who loves me. i know it’s all in my head. but everyday i doubt my husband’s love. everyday i wonder how can anyone love something like me? seeing myself makes me want to cry. i’m unsure how to overcome.
Distorted part: throughout my childhood she dragged me to numerous doctors to “fix” me, filling my childhood with hundred of different medications and injections.  i rarely spoke to her for fear of being screamed at.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question:  From a man in the UK: As long as I can remember, I’ve had an issue where if I am holding a partner for more than 5-10 minutes, I get really physically tense. It builds in intensity, to the point where I just have to break away into my own space for a while. It can happen sat on the sofa, or when going to sleep. I don’t feel emotionally distressed, just a build of muscular tension where I really need to tense muscles as the tension builds to unbearable levels. It does feel like I need to escape/run, but I’m not at all emotionally panicked, it’s just a physical response to something. It’s rather like a purely physical portion of a fight/flight response.
Distorted part: It builds in intensity, to the point where I just have to break away into my own space for a while.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I am so out of touch with reality I don’t know what to do anymore. There have been times where I believed I had some sort of ability, fantasized about killing people and willingly ‘chose’ insanity (which is insane). I’m mentally confused and have terrible memory. I spend, at times, 90% of my waking hours in mental fantasies that are too often disgusting. I talk to myself 100% of the time I’m alone, like I’m a different person. I don’t have a split personality, but at one(more than one) point I tried forcing myself into having one. I think it’s some sort of emotional disorder that started this behavior, maybe out of a feeling of emptiness or left out and this being my way of feeling special, or possibly rebelling against a world that left me feeling alienated. A lot of these insecurities are gone now but my habits have gone too far, and it’s driving me crazy. I don’t see an end to it, and it’s messing with my ordinary thoughts and the way I think them. The bad memory was from a carbon monoxide leak in the room across from mine(for the years I had these habits). Could they be the source of all this? I have negative sexual habits toward amount of masturbation and what I do it to. I’ve worked a lot on this and gotten into what I would call a ‘normal’ routine but there’s always the thought. It’s just another terrible behavior I forced myself into for no reason. I have this imaginary meter in my head, and when I move in a certain way I automatically counterbalance it until it ‘fits’. I’ll also second guess a lot of my thoughts, and then second guess that and so on until my head hurts. It’s like I split myself into two angles when I’m talking to myself, or deciding to do certain things, but I’m still controlling both sides, and I know in the back of my head how stupid it is, but it’s so ingrained in me that I can’t stop it. I have so much more to say, but I’m meeting the character limit.
Distorted part: There have been times where I believed I had some sort of ability, fantasized about killing people and willingly ‘chose’ insanity (which is insane).  A lot of these insecurities are gone now but my habits have gone too far, and it’s driving me crazy. I don’t see an end to it, and it’s messing with my ordinary thoughts and the way I think them.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Secondary Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: I haven’t felt like I’ve been at home for about a year or so. It’s like to me, my own house is just a place I live in, and that there’s nothing special about it. But at the same time, I don’t want to leave. I hate moving, I’ve done it 3 times already. I know other people may have moved more than that, but still, it’s like I want to go somewhere else. I recall a week ago, I was in my house, home alone, and stressed out about homework when I suddenly screamed, “I WANT TO GO HOME!” But a second later, I realized that I was in my house. But my next thought was ‘I’m not home’. I talked to my dad about and I have a therapist I can talk to, but, I just want to know this NOW. If I can’t make myself at home in my own house, where can I?
Distorted part: I talked to my dad about and I have a therapist I can talk to, but, I just want to know this NOW. If I can’t make myself at home in my own house, where can I?
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I am a 25 year old woman and I feel very confused. For some time now, I have experiencing lesbian tendencies. I feel that I am “straight” and have a history of dating men. However, I have always had a problem with having an orgasm while having sex with a man and usually have to do it on my own, even during sex with a man. I find myself to be attracted to women, particularly those I see on TV. I even find myself searching for lesbians on web sites and I find I get extremely aroused when I come across lesbian pornography. I have talked to a girlfriend of mine who has the same feelings (she is also straight), even further than me. She does not believe that this means that we are lesbians and assures me that every girlfriend she has feels the same way about this attraction to women / lesbian pornography. I even fantasize about women when I am trying to get an orgasm with a man. I know I am attracted to men and I am not attracted to the everyday women I see and talk to everyday, only those “fantasy” type of women I see on TV and on pornographic websites. I don’t understand this as I have never even considered pursuing a sexual relationship with a woman. I have thought of experimenting with a woman sexually but would be too afraid or feel too dirty to do it. What is going on with me? Is this normal?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion