Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: I am 14 and I KNOW I’m sick. Its been 4 months since I started passing out. People say its just day dreaming but its not. While I am unconscious, I still communicate with people. Its not like DID. Its like automated message. It feels very bad and at those times I want to end myself. I was waking up in shock, seeing things such as spiders, snakes. Then It happens when I was fully awake. I cannot control my thinking. I sometimes think about disgusting, bad or weird things even if I don’t want to. I feel like a failure. I am in my head more than out. My inner and outer world have collided. What should I do?
Distorted part: I cannot control my thinking. I feel like a failure.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Secondary Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: I’m really freaking out.i don’t know what’s going on with me but I’m starting to question my reality. The other day with my 9-month-old cousin and was questioning whether he was real or not. It scared me so much. I know that it’s isn’t true but that thought get repeating in my head. I suffer from anxiety so I’m hoping that it’s just that but pls tell me what’s wrong. I don’t hear or see things. But i am all of sudden having mildly delusional thoughts that r freaking me out. Pls help.
Distorted part: The other day with my 9-month-old cousin and was questioning whether he was real or not. It scared me so much. I know that it’s isn’t true but that thought get repeating in my head.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: From the U.S.: I love my girlfriend but we fight often. She gets upset when we are not on the same page, or if she does not get what she wants. This is about small, non-essential issues, at least to me. From what kind donut to buy to which exit on the freeway to take we fight about.
Distorted part: This is about small, non-essential issues, at least to me.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: Since I was about 8 years old I have experienced the feeling that people in photographs can see and hear me. At first, this feeling was enjoyable and entertaining; I loved the thought that my favourite celebrities were watching my every move and adoring me. But as I got older, this feeling became less enjoyable, and much more distressing. I removed all posters, covered up DVD cases, drew over the eyes on books. I am now 27 and still feel as though people in photos are watching me. It is only certain celebrities, never people I know personally. I was diagnosed with social anxiety in my late teens. I have never spoken about this and I feel very ashamed. I know that, logically, this has no basis in reality. Is this a fairly common symptom of social anxiety? Or perhaps indicative of another issue?
Distorted part: But as I got older, this feeling became less enjoyable, and much more distressing. I removed all posters, covered up DVD cases, drew over the eyes on books.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: Hi. My daughter is over 18 and she is dating a guy who is also over 18, is missing one eye, has no education, no job, and no money. he makes her pay for his lunch, dinner, etc. they spend a lot of time together. he seems abusive and does not let her hang out with any other friends. he intends to marry her but he has made it clear that he is not going to cover living expenses. My daughter has a degree and a full time job. I have told my daughter that she would be miserable in this marriage but she doesn’t listen. she just fights with me. what should I do? I love my daughter and I don’t want to see her miserable. Everyone says they are adults and I should let them make their own decisions and mistakes. I am looking for another answer. If you can offer any help, I would appreciate it.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I feel I’ll never be in a relationship. I’m 23 and never have. There’s nothing wrong with me from the outside looking, in fact, I always have admirers and guys who ask me out. I’m funny, nice and quite good looking. However, I have a super hard time developing feelings for guys, and the few ones I really fall for never ever like me back, which makes me feel like a failure. I’ve been on many dates with great guys who were serious and were looking for a relationship, and in the beginning when a handsome guy gives me attention I feel thrilled about it and even fantasize about us getting together, but as soon as he actually tells me he likes me or starts showing physical affection, the world turns upside down, and no matter how attracted I was to him, I start feeling sick, and feel like I’m in a parallel universe because a good guy liking me is not supposed to happen in real life, just in my fantasies. It’s like a thousand voices in my head start screaming at me how I don’t deserve it and how life is playing me an evil trick and if I fall for it, something horribly painful will happen and I will make a fool out of myself. I don’t even know how to word or interpret these feelings, but they take over me completely and I get confused, sad and repellant towards the guy. It always ends up with me running away, not looking back. I’m always the one to break things up, no guy has ever really rejected me, and yet being rejected scares me so much my subconscious seems to drive me to “leave before I get left” as Taylor Swift puts it… So basically, when it’s clear that a guy likes me back, I lose my feelings for him and get super uncomfortable instead. When I date more “douchy” kind of guys, I feel safe, like things are the way they should, but then I also get annoyed by their behavior and keep thinking that I deserve someone better. I’m so sad, lonely and confused, and I feel like something is wrong with me and I should be ashamed that I can’t find a boyfriend. I’m also a super jealous person, I’m jealous of my friends who are in relationships, I feel like I can never have that, despite all the guys who want it with me. (From Europe)
Distorted part: When I date more “douchy” kind of guys, I feel safe, like things are the way they should, but then I also get annoyed by their behavior and keep thinking that I deserve someone better. I’m so sad, lonely and confused, and I feel like something is wrong with me and I should be ashamed that I can’t find a boyfriend.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: Ever since I was a little kid my dad has been an awful person. Once I got spanked for sticking my tongue out innocently. Once he destroyed my brothers stuffed animals when my brother found his knife. My brother was 3. Once my brother spilled water on his computer and our dad threw a bible at him. By the age of six I was expected to get to school on my own while dad slept. My brother and I were allowed to go to the park on our own while he slept as well. He thought anything we did wrong was a slight against him. Our babysitter abused us and he didn’t care. He’s always late picking us up from any babysitting type place we’re left. He told me my mother and her family didn’t care about me at all. He’s called me a bitch, wench, and other things of that sort. He poured water on my head when I told him I wasn’t going to kill myself if he was gone. He was upset losing him wouldn’t be enough to drive me to suicide. And even though he’s never actually hurt me…im scared of him. I’m scared he’ll snap one day and kill me. He keeps guns and knives around everywhere. And his temper is so explosive that I’m so afraid…every second I’m at his house im afraid for my safety. I called cps already but they didn’t do shit about it! I’ve thought of running away but I have nowhere to go, and if I’m caught that may be what tips him over the edge. I’m so afraid and no one will help me.
Distorted part: I’m scared he’ll snap one day and kill me.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S. : I seem to have a lot of problems connecting with people and building unbreakable bonds with people.  I try to because I want to feel that type of love and have those kind of bonds but it’s like the feeling is foreign to me.  I feel indifferent a lot of the time,  even when it’s something I should care about, I just don’t, even when I want to care.
Distorted part: I feel indifferent a lot of the time, even when it’s something I should care about, I just don’t, even when I want to care.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: It’s so weird. I don’t see anything exciting about living anymore. I feel like something is missing? I just can’t get excited over anything anymore. Someone wants to pay me 20 dollars for a bad drawing? Great. I’m actually doing well in school? Fantastic. I have a whole weekend to do whatever I want? Awesome.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: Ever since I was a child I had the tendency to imagine and create worlds and people inside my head whom I would interact with. I would spend hours upon hours just imagining different scenarios, conversations, and more people to add to the list. As I got older I couldn’t shake the urge of imagining things and soon enough I would retreat to my room playing music as loud as can be and hours would pass me by while I’m stuck in there doing nothing. I will pace my room in circles imagining this other reality and sometimes I will lie in bed in the dark to do the same if I cannot pace. What could this be brought on by? I have been diagnosed with depression and have been taking anti-depressants for years but this has always remained with me for as long as I can remember.
Distorted part: I have been diagnosed with depression and have been taking anti-depressants for years but this has always remained with me for as long as I can remember.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: From a young woman in the U.S.: I feel disgusted when I’m around my mom.  I can’t stand be close with her, I don’t feel “safe” around her, I feel like she’s strange person. I don’t want to talk with her, I don’t want to her touch me or anything like that. So basically I just want be far from her.
Distorted part: I can’t stand be close with her, I don’t feel “safe” around her, I feel like she’s strange person.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: From the U.S.: Okay. I always make everything about me. I always have a explanation for everything. For an example, I can think of every possible way to get out of an issue. I can come up with an explanation of what I said or what I did. I don’t know why. I can sit and conspire with my own thoughts for hours. Thinking of why is this happening or why is that happening. I become consumed by guilt or anxiety and I become irrational. I think of hurting others or myself. I can think of ways to do it with or without getting caught. I can think about a person all day or a memory and just become so angry and I start thinking of ways to hurt or kill someone.
Distorted part: I can think about a person all day or a memory and just become so angry and I start thinking of ways to hurt or kill someone.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Secondary Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: About 5 years ago, I started seeing a therapist weekly to do CBT for my lifelong anxiety. However, my anxiety quickly latched onto the therapy itself. I found myself worrying constantly about what the therapist thought of me and whether I was doing therapy wrong. Going to sessions became a major anxiety-inducing experience, and everything the therapist said felt like criticism. I eventually worked up the courage to talk to the therapist about the issue. She said she understood. We discussed it several times and challenged some of my beliefs about it. But it didn’t help. So, a year later, I discontinued regular therapy. I learned a few useful strategies for anxiety but also came away feeling worse about myself. Last year, after experiencing some stressors in my life – which caused extreme anxiety – I went to see a new therapist. I thought this time would be different. I told the therapist right at the start about my therapy anxiety. Yet now, a year later, I find myself in the same pattern. I feel that my anxiety about the therapeutic process itself, and my relationship with the therapist, is getting in the way of therapy. The therapist is well aware of the issue and we discuss it frequently. She suggests things for me to do – ways to ground myself during sessions, exposure-based approaches to accept the uncertainty – but I’m unable to do them, which makes me feel even more anxious and frustrated. Sessions have now turned into a huge performance anxiety thing for me because I’m so afraid of how they’ll go. My therapist doesn’t *feel* like an ally to me (but I know it’s not her, it’s me). I’m at a loss. Again, I feel worse about myself now than when I started therapy. I do okay in my life despite my anxiety – I have a full time job and a good long-term relationship. I would still like to find ways to reduce the amount of worrying I do … but I can’t seem to be able to overcome my anxiety about therapy to make therapy useful to me. Do I quit and accept that therapy has too many side effects for me to be useful? Are there other ways to overcome my therapy anxiety?
Distorted part: Sessions have now turned into a huge performance anxiety thing for me because I’m so afraid of how they’ll go.  I would still like to find ways to reduce the amount of worrying I do … but I can’t seem to be able to overcome my anxiety about therapy to make therapy useful to me. 
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: So over a year ago I decided to “experiment” with a psychedelic substance. At the time I used it to help with depression and for some time it did, but I’ve developed now from something else, Anxiety. Since I got Generalised Anxiety Disorder I’ve been looking back at the time I “experimented” and I feel bad for it. Like I did something wrong. I even told my mother to help lift that burden and she forgave me, but I can’t forgive myself. I worry about it and I worry that my mom still thinks about it. But I doubt she does, I’m the one who can’t get it over it. I want to learn how to let go and forgive myself because it keeps gnawing at me. It haunts me and I know it’s a part of my anxiety. I want to learn how to conquer this, so I can start to move forward.
Distorted part: I want to learn how to let go and forgive myself because it keeps gnawing at me. It haunts me and I know it’s a part of my anxiety.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: From the U.S.: My husband abandoned me – left in 2015, found out later he had blown through all of our money and there was another woman. He would be vague in communication or just not respond and he roadblocked divorce, and then I got cancer, which I’ve been fighting since early 2017. After I got cancer, he stopped communicating altogether and has since changed his phone number. He pays me no support (even though he agreed he would). He has never asked how I am, doesn’t seem to care that I’m financially struggling and fighting cancer.
Distorted part: He has never asked how I am, doesn’t seem to care that I’m financially struggling and fighting cancer.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: A few days ago something bad happened. I would rather not go into too much detail but something extremely inappropriate was said to me by a relative who lived with me. I told my parents what happened and the situation was handled. Ever since then, however, any time I try to relax my mind just replays what happened over and over and I make myself anxious and scared.  I begin questioning if it even actually happened, or if maybe I misheard what was said, even though I am positive I heard correctly. Part of me almost thinks I shouldn’t have told anybody because of all the trouble it’s caused but, I know it was the right decision. I guess what I’m wondering is: Are these relatively normal responses to this kind of situation?
Distorted part: Ever since then, however, any time I try to relax my mind just replays what happened over and over and I make myself anxious and scared.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: From Australia: My 58 yr old sister and her 33 yr old son have a toxic co-dependent relationship. Both are mentally ill alcoholics, can’t maintain a home, have experienced homelessness three times and my nephew is physically violent. They’ve had all the help and support in the world but they simply cannot function and it is just a matter of time before the next eviction.
Distorted part: hey’ve had all the help and support in the world but they simply cannot function and it is just a matter of time before the next eviction.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: I don’t know what it is, but I am certain that I need help: I really don’t know how to begin this or to just tell it all, so please bear with me. I am a 15-year-old girl, and, because I really don’t want to be identified or recognized, you can call me “M” if you wish. i’m sorry.
Distorted part: I don’t know what it is, but I am certain that I need help: I really don’t know how to begin this or to just tell it all, so please bear with me.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: Hi, I have been knowing my SO for a year now, I like to believe that we have a great connection. He has told me in the beginning that he has trust issues and have a hard time letting people into his life. He doesn’t have many friends and he prefers to be home on his own which at first I had no problem with because I am a homebody myself. However, after a while, I noticed he had intimacy issues which then rose quite a few problems within our relationship. He distances himself quite often, becomes very cold. He also shared with me that he was sexually abused when he was young but he didn’t go into detail and I did not ask questions because I felt like he didn’t want to talk about it so I comforted him and we have not spoken about it since. I also know he did not come from a good background. He has also gone through my phone and found some messages from social media. The trust was fully broken then but after a couple months of separation, we decided to work out the relationship. A couple of days ago, he became very distant and I began to worry what was on his mind. He finally opened up and told me he suspects his roommates are plotting to get him. I reassured him that that was all in his head and to stay positive. He also bought a knife for protection which I didn’t think much of. However last night, he smoked a little bit of marijuana (he has before and has never acted weird) and after an hour, he began to shake uncontrollably. I had asked him what was going on but he told me he was just cold and told me to go to bed. As I am laying next to him, I couldn’t help but notice his behavior. He was still shaking, his heart was pounding and he was looking straight at the door and noticed he was holding a knife in his hand as he looked like he was prepared for whatever was going to happen. I began to worry even more and he suggested we leave his place.. it was 2am. While we were in the car, he began to suspect I was hiding something from him. He kept saying “What’s going on” and began interrogating me and went through my phone again believing I was out to set him up. I was afraid for my safety and I told him to get out of my car, he got a lyft and just left. I have not heard from him since and I am still worried about his mental state. What should I do? I deeply care for him but he doesn’t trust me and believes I am out to get him. I believe he has paranoia disorder but he doesn’t have medical insurance and I am afraid it is going to get worse. I don’t want him to hurt himself and I want to help but I don’t know if he wants help from me.
Distorted part: I believe he has paranoia disorder but he doesn’t have medical insurance and I am afraid it is going to get worse.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: Ever since I was a child (7 to 10 years)I would feel aroused when I see someone humiliated or slightly tortured, I would imagine myself being the one receiving getting humiliated. I began masturbating when I was about 10, I didn’t even know what was I doing, I didn’t even know anything about sex or had any sexual feelings. I would lay on my stomach and just sort of pressure myself against the floor and I would never use my hands or finger myself, it has been the same way ever since. I am 20 years old, and I never get turned on by anything rather than humiliation and torture such as whipping and stuff. I learned that it’s a sexual masochism disorder. However, this whole issue has been bothering me for so long, and I cannot just get convinced that I was born this way. The fact that I only feel aroused this way ever since I was a kid makes me mad, especially because it’s not even associated with sex. It’s not like imagining having sex in that kind of way, sex is never even a factor in this. Never. Sex and steamy scenes never make me feel anything. I even began thinking that maybe I was sexually assaulted or abused in general as a child. My parents were normal and good, though. But for example, as a child and a teenager and even now, I am depressed most of the time. I am also very reckless towards myself like in fifth grade I swallowed so many pills to die and it was for a stupid reason. I used to self-harm very deeply( not related to masochism), and there is so much other stuff. Lately, I have been trying to remember my childhood. We had a nanny for a few years when I was 6 or 7, I remember that I hated her so much, that I once held a knife and told her that I would kill myself if she didn’t stop bothering me. I don’t remember though what she used to do, I cannot even remember her face which is weird because I remember people and stuff from a stage much earlier than that in my life. I have also been bullied as a kid from my friends but not like physically or anything. I know it’s stupid but I desperately want an explanation. (From Egypt)
Distorted part: However, this whole issue has been bothering me for so long, and I cannot just get convinced that I was born this way.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I’ve been in therapy for 3 years with a great therapist. He has been a true godsend. The problem is, I’m having difficulty talking to him about sex, I was abused as a child and spent over 30 years, blaming myself for what happened. But now I feel ready to enter a intimate relationship with someone, however, my lack of confidence and my inexperience have made me very nervous about sex. I have wanted to talk with him about some of the details about my childhood abuse, to try to work through some of my fears and anxiety, I just don’t know how to even start the conversation. I have always viewed sex as being a shameful act and the thought of talking to him has caused me such embarrassment that I’ve spent whole sessions with him without talking at all. How would you suggest I handle this?
Distorted part: I have always viewed sex as being a shameful act and the thought of talking to him has caused me such embarrassment that I’ve spent whole sessions with him without talking at all.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I think I’m going insane. My nightmares, my dreams, they’re so vivid, and they’re never natural, i dont feel like one person i swear I’m not alone, and they talk to me through my dreams, nobody understands me when i talk about them, i do rituals where i self-harm and put the blood all over myself. I sit in the dark and twitch and i dont hear voices but I FEEL them, I FEEL them inside me, i feel different from everyone else, I dont know what is wrong with me. I swear I’m going crazy. I hurt myself and then after I realize what I’ve done and i cry. I cry during i do it and whisper to myself. My dreams are so impacting they determine my mental state throughout my day. They are so real like, I feel panicked throughout the day. This isnt like the nightmare disorders I’ve read about. I love them even though they’re so detrimental to me. I cant let go of my past. Please help, I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
Distorted part: I think I’m going insane.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling