Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: when i was 16 i started smoking weed heavily everyday for about a year and a half. i started smoking because i had a bad breakup. the girl i loved deeply at that age, left me for another man. i had to stop after i had a bad trip on acid which during the trip. i had anxiety and fears of getting schizophrenia the whole time for 12 hours. this happened about 7 months ago. ever since then iv had to quit weed because it gave me panic attacks. iv had 3 total panic attacks since then. 1 on weed. 1 i think from nicotine. and the last one was from me being sober?.
Distorted part: i had anxiety and fears of getting schizophrenia the whole time for 12 hours. this happened about 7 months ago. ever since then iv had to quit weed because it gave me panic attacks.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: From South Africa: Hello. My fiance’s mother passed away last year from cancer, so we took his 8 year old brother into foster care. At first it was fine, but we are having problems with him lying a lot. He says he lies because he does not want to get into trouble, although we have explained many times that he will be in bigger trouble if he lies. He recently started swearing at the older kids at school, when I asked about it he lied about the words he used and who he said it to.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: My mom always makes fun of me when she’s mad. When she gets mad she starts making fun of my face and says I have such ugly acne and I’m overweight and nobody likes ugly tall girls. Every time I misbehave like any other teenager would, she would forcefully make me apologize to her and my dad and if I don’t they would just stop talking to me and eventually I’ll end up apologizing at the most smallest things. And every time my two sisters would misbehave my parents would just forgive them. I ALWAYS have to apologize when I do something wrong and they don’t.
Distorted part: I ALWAYS have to apologize when I do something wrong and they don’t.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: I have been struggling with OCD and anxiety for the past 6 months. It has been an intense 6 months and I am still struggling daily although I am trying my best to do the little things that help me to not be so obsessive over my worries. Recently, I have been worried about one day going insane and not being able to control it. I once watched a movie about a man who was able to time travel against his own will, everytime he woke up from his sleep. I know this is ridiculous but I actually thought what if that happens to me? And feared for a couple days straight. I know this is impossible and now that I look back on it, I realize that this is almost laughable. Although I no longer fear that I will be able to time travel, I’m afraid of the fact that I even feared such a ridiculous, impossible scenario. It triggered anxiety in me because I thought that I was going crazy. It was different from any other fear that I had because this was a fear that was sprouted from fiction while all of my other fears sprouted from things that happened in real life. (Ex. Cancer). I researched online and read that people who are crazy have a hard time differentiating reality from fiction. But during those two day of fear, it was almost as if It could happen to me (which I know that it couldn’t). Am I going crazy? I’m really afraid. Thank you for your response.
Distorted part: Recently, I have been worried about one day going insane and not being able to control it.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: I’m struggling to do anything at all, all I really want to do is sit somewhere on my own and rot away forever. I have been skipping school and not keeping in contact with my friends for the past month all of my relationships feel strained like they would be better without me. I really don’t know how to put into words how I feel even though I try they feel so chaotic and confusing I don’t know how to describe them. I normally feel this way when there is a lot of stress and I leave it alone until it overflows, and I end up doing irrational things if I go out. I usually take recreational drugs to cope with this I don’t think I overuse them though. not often. My life is spiraling out of control and I need to find some way to stop it. I don’t know what to do. (From the United Kingdom)
Distorted part: I’m struggling to do anything at all, all I really want to do is sit somewhere on my own and rot away forever.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: Hi, Doctor, I think I’m continued dive in the depression. I can’t feel very well. When I trying to get rid of my bad thoughts which is continuously coming to my mind –I can’t. When I trying to concentrate on my work I can’t. Every time I think about ” what happened next or what if I can’t do anything in my life.” I literally struggled to live a normal Happy life. 'Please help me to overcome my meaningless fear and the big one of the big problems for me is I’m not very Happy with my physique… I’m a very skinny guy and of course, I just want to get rid of this skinny shit… Pls help me what should I do…….pls pls pls reply soon…..Awaited to ur reply. (From India)
Distorted part: I’m now 24 and nothing I’ve to do with my life. When I get up –think to do take a step for my career or anything, I feel fear–; the fear of nothing I don’t know where this fear in came from and why I feared a lot Every time…my all day went like this.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: Hello, I am a 16 years old boy, and attending my second last year of school. Time management has always been a problem for me, but my grades never showed this as I was gifted as a student. Things started changing at the beginning of the year, my grades were dropping because I was not putting in the effort. I used to play games, and this may have contributed somewhat.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Please help me. I am fairly strong and I have been in therapy during hard times in my life but my doctor retired years ago I am going through a crisis of grief, isolation, friends not being there and serious anxiety and depression and I cannot wrangle it and I don’t have any money to see a regular therapist. I feel so alone and I’ve not been able to wrangle it no matter how bad it is. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel very alone I reach out to people but they don’t seem to realize that support is one of the main cornerstones in life.
Distorted part: I feel so alone and I’ve not been able to wrangle it no matter how bad it is. I feel very alone I reach out to people but they don’t seem to realize that support is one of the main cornerstones in life.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Secondary Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: I wear lingerie & panties… can’t accept and can’t stop… (HELP) I’m a 28 year old married male with a new 8 month old son. Ever since I can remember (around 8 years old) I’ve had a thing for women’s undergarments. I can remember looking at the old JC Penney’s catalogue and immediately being drawn to the lingerie pages wondering how it might feel to wear these items. I took this wonderment to the actual by trying on my mom’s panties and occasionally my sister’s. I couldn’t help then and now to feel how taboo this is and that I am wrong in doing it… still to this day it feels wrong… I cannot accept this part of my life. I really just wish it never would have happened in the first place.
Distorted part: I couldn’t help then and now to feel how taboo this is and that I am wrong in doing it…
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: I am a 56 year old female and my guy is 57. We have a relationship based on friendship with benefits. He doesn’t want any type of relationship that will result in commitment. So I have agreed to sleep with him because he is so kind and sweet to me outside the bedroom. The surprise came when we got into bed. He became a different person. He is very aggressive. He does not engage in any foreplay. Oh, and when I mentioned it, he corrected it by kissing me on the neck. Then he hopped on top of me and ask me if I am ready for him.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From the U.S.: So this started happening summer of last year. My brother all of a sudden threw all his clothes away for no reason. He would often come to my room at night and say ask how my day was and then say things that wouldn’t make sense. For example he would say, “did anyone call you, no? I think someone called me I don’t know who” etc. Recently this year he has been locking himself up in his room, not eat until nighttime. He won’t even sleep until 4-5 AM.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I cannot speak any languages without my original language. even I know these languages but I don’t know why I can’t talking with people sometimes I feel I don’t have a desire to do that even I need it at work and school. I feel I’m changed everything is different now. I’m was so active girl. I was having a work a lot of friend and perfect body. Now I’m fat I do everything but I can lose some weight everyday my weight is changing. I can’t focus on my study also I don’t have a desire to know new people. please help me because now I can’t even going to cinema I scared to know anyone because I can’t speak. I feel very calm and I do not want to feel anything. I remember my past life and I want to go back to it. I feel I do not have time to rebuild my life. I’m 29 now and I came to America two years ago. I graduated from college and had my work and friends. Never again. I’m scared. I feel sorry. Unfortunately, I know that I should not be. I tried to prevent myself from thinking this way, but to no avail.
Distorted part: Now I’m fat I do everything but I can lose some weight everyday my weight is changing. I can’t focus on my study also I don’t have a desire to know new people. please help me because now I can’t even going to cinema I scared to know anyone because I can’t speak.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Secondary Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient Question: I am 22. My partner is 38. His daughter is 16. I have witnessed some ghastly behavior from his daughter. She has always hated me and has always tried to get rid of me, but now she’s going too far. She is OBSESSED with her father – my partner of nearly 6 years. She will find his dirtiest, smelliest shirt/jacket, bury her head in it, take a big smell, then she’ll just smile up at the ceiling. She constantly brags to her father about her ‘sexual exploits’. Talking about how she ‘has no gag reflex’ and ‘likes the feeling and taste of…’ well, I think you can guess where that quote is going. She constantly asks him about our sex life and tells him things I can do to “make him feel nicer” She is trying to replace me, and I don’t know how to deal with this. I have various mental problems and am too weak to deal with this in a rational manner. I can’t do this. I’m begging you, please help. (From Australia)
Distorted part: She is trying to replace me, and I don’t know how to deal with this.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: My husband I have been married for three years and up until about three months ago, things have been great. There have been a number of stressful events for him lately: I had a minor health crisis and a car accident (unrelated), he experienced medication-induced weight gain (a BIG no-no for him). Also, he was adopted as a baby and recently found his biological family. That’s been very positive, but very emotional too. Lately, he’s been lashing out at me on a regular — almost nightly basis. The slightest thing can set him off. He gets angry if I don’t help enough. But many times, I’ll ask “What can I do for you after work?” He’ll say “nothing.” Then he gets mad at me for not helping. Or he’ll say he had ABCDXYZ to do and I didn’t do any of it. If I point out that I had no idea he had all that and he should have asked for my help, he snaps that I should have just known it. I try to stay calm but it’s hard not to feel hurt when he hurls accusations at me, like saying I don’t care about him and that I just married him for his money. That’s not true. He’s also angry that I’m close to my family (he’s never gotten along with his adoptive parents) and he keeps insisting that I must have been molested as a child and then brainwashed because that’s the only reason I’d be so loyal to them. I’m hoping finding and bonding with his biological family — which is already happening — will help with the family stuff but I’m still afraid. I love my family. I know they’re not perfect but I also know they’d NEVER hurt me. Or him. It’s becoming an almost nightly occurrence that we’ll have several hours of him lashing out at me and me basically taking it and feeling worse and worse about myself or more and more resentful of him. He always apologizes and says he knows he was wrong. Yet it happens again. He won’t do counseling. He’s tried it before and insists it doesn’t work for him. He does see a psychiatrist and takes mood stabilizing meds. What other options do I have? I want him to be happy and to be more like he was.
Distorted part: It’s becoming an almost nightly occurrence that we’ll have several hours of him lashing out at me and me basically taking it and feeling worse and worse about myself or more and more resentful of him.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: My problem started when i started seriously training in ballet. I loved ballet and considered it my life. Around the age of 12 my mother made it seem to me that ballet was the only thing i could do in my life and i had no other option but to do it. Ballet made me hate myself, i constantly felt like i was not good enough and even my teachers would tell me i wasnt good enough. So i quit ballet and everything went downhill from there. I made a bad decision just like im sure every teenager has done once in their life. I went to hang out with friends during the day without telling my parents when i moved 1000 ft away. instead of being grounded for a week or two i was told all of these horrible things such as your a failure, your a disappointment, your a whore, your a slut, no one likes you, your trash, you have no real friends, kill yourself. Ever since then (that was around 6 months ago) ive been told that every day. My whole life has been one bad event after an other and nothing ever seems to get better. I have no one to talk to about how i feel and dont know how to fix this. I feel like nothing will ever be better for me and im starting to believe that i am what my mom tells me. I cry every day for at least 4 hours. I dont sleep at night anymore. I eat junk food constantly. I however have still managed to focus in school and get good grades because i know if i do that the closer ill be to leaving my parents and finding happiness. These past 6 months I’ve never felt worse and things haven’t worked out for me in even the slightest bit. I feel like if im living in this house with someone who sees me a certain way and accuses me of being someone im not, the only way out is to kill myself. Ive tried many times but get stopped by fear. I have been to a therapist once before but my parents never allowed me back. I need something worth living for. All of my happiness has been taken from me. I dont know why they dont love me like i love them.
Distorted part: I feel like nothing will ever be better for me and im starting to believe that i am what my mom tells me.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Secondary Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S. Everyday I have thoughts of death, hurting people or myself. I hate it. I cant control my thoughts. I hurt myself and don’t realize it until its done. I have bee diagnosed with, ADHD, Depression, anxiety, and PTSD. My thoughts are disorganized, Some are of saving people and others of killing them. I see everything in cycles. I hate to fail, I get depressed when i fail, and then fail more as a consequence.
Distorted part: I see everything in cycles. I hate to fail, I get depressed when i fail, and then fail more as a consequence.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: People find me smart, but I find myself stupid. Although I love learning, and can earn any degree, in working life I do not know how to solve problems or use my knowledge. This makes me depressed and brings me failure. Also, I am thinking of a change career. Will this ever solve my issues? Or will I be studying in my entire life because I am not able to work properly? Or maybe I am really in the wrong field?
Distorted part: People find me smart, but I find myself stupid.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: from a teen in the U.S.: Hello. I wanted to speak to someone who may be able to tell me How to deal with my mother, whose emotion are back and forth. I’m in 11th grade and I’m currently working on obtaining my associates degree. My mother is a single mom.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question:  Everyone always talks about the abusive husband and father. I’ve always kind of been taught that men were always the bad ones. For as long as I can remember I’ve been forced to believe my father was a horrible person. That he was constantly hurting my mom when she was so defenseless. But as I’ve gotten older I’ve been remembering things and finally seeing them for what they really are. The truth is that my father is not a horrible person at all. He is a brilliant and completely selfless person who simply does what he has to do to get by. He’s the type of father every child deserves. I mean, I love my mother, I really do, with all of my heart. I guess that’s why I always took her side for all these years and chose to believe every word she said. But I just can’t take it anymore.
Distorted part: He is a brilliant and completely selfless person who simply does what he has to do to get by.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: My son has been at basic training for almost two months and I’m having a hard time adjusting. I’m at the point where I don’t even want to go to bed or turn the lights off. He’s left before for brief periods, but now it’s obviously for good. I’m so proud of him but I can’t seem to adjust. I don’t do much other than work. If I’m not working, I just sit at home. I can go days without human contact. I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety disorder back in 2002, so it’s an ongoing issue, but it’s worse now that I’m alone. I keep telling myself I don’t want to be here anymore. I have no emotional attachment to the place I’m currently living. I have the urge to move closer to where my son is, or where he’ll be based. As a parent, we know this day will come. I guess I didn’t really plan for it or think about how it might affect me. People tell me to move on with my life, But I honestly don’t want to. Whenever I picture my son, I picture him as a young child. I guess I can’t get over the past.
Distorted part: I guess I didn’t really plan for it or think about how it might affect me.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: Recently my friend has told me that they are having issues with having the feeling that they want to hurt random people that they do not know. When I asked them about it, they said that they had: – a weird want to hurt people that they do not know. – dreams about hurting others that they do not know. And before I asked them the next questions I reminded them that I was there for them and they could stop my questions anytime that they wanted.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From Wales (edited from a much longer letter): I feel that I am not enjoying my life, I am filled with regrets, have social anxiety and probably aspergers and let my low self esteem pull me down and feel I wasted my 20s. I feel so frustrated, stuck and don’t know where to start
Distorted part: I feel that I am not enjoying my life, I am filled with regrets, have social anxiety and probably aspergers and let my low self esteem pull me down and feel I wasted my 20s.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: I have just ended a relationship last night with a man for similar reasons. I was friends with M for 8yrs and in a relationship for the past 10months. We met on a job in cape town (where he is from) when I was living there and when I moved back to Scotland we stayed in touch regularly throughout the years. After 7 yrs away from cape town I returned Jan this year. We were reunited and that night we got together. But right away it was difficult, verbally abusive in my eyes and I have allowed terrible behavior from him. He has been cheated on the past but I wonder if they cheated because of his jealous nature.
Distorted part: But right away it was difficult, verbally abusive in my eyes and I have allowed terrible behavior from him. He has been cheated on the past but I wonder if they cheated because of his jealous nature.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Secondary Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: I think scary thoughts sometime, it’s been happening since i was a kid and ever since i had my daughter it’s been worse. I see a dirty napkin and my mind forces me to think of me eating it, i won’t use dishes or even walk in my own kitchen. I think bad sexual thoughts, but what bothers me the most is that i can’t fall asleep because i make a popping sound with my lips over and over. When i was younger i prayed for 2 years straight because i was scared i didn’t believe in god. When i was younger i would wash my hands so much my skin would fall off, then my mom told me i need germs to be healthy and i stopped washing my hands at all. I think it could be ocd but i don’t know. I worry about every little thing and i feel so depressed because of things that haven’t even happened. But it’s so bad at night because of the need i have to make my lips make a popping noise over and over before i fall asleep. I can’t control it or stop it. I get nail clippers and clip all skin around my fingers and toes off, some parts so much that it bleeds. I get days where I’m so jittery and i feel almost like I’m not really here or like I’m about to die or something is off. I want to talk to someone for help, but nobody understands. When i was younger the problems were so much worse, but ever since i became postpartum they are starting to bother me again. Some things i don’t even want to type anonymously because they are so gross. I just want to be happy but i feel like it’s impossible
Distorted part: I worry about every little thing and i feel so depressed because of things that haven’t even happened.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: From a teen in the UK: Recently I haven’t had the motivation to do anything. I have little interest and I’m tired all of the time. I’m in my final years of school and this is making things difficult to manage and I get overwhelmed easily but aside from that, I don’t know how I feel. I just feel here, like I’m living but not really giving it much thought. I think this started about a year ago and my mum has told me that this is just who I am but I don’t really know.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a teen in the UK: Hi there I understand you can’ respond to everyone but I would appreciate if you could give me an answer. When I was below the age of 10 (about 9) I read a newspaper article describing a real life sadistic and disturbing event that happened and I remember “enjoying this”; but I knew how wrong it was and was shocked as to how an individual could have carried this act out. I completely forgot about it and when someone mentioned this story I remembered that I read about it but I must have blocked it out the fact that I enjoyed it.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion