Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: I never thought it was a issue until I hit a breaking point from my Internship meeting. I was told that I’m not processing things (as he pointed at his head) at that moment I felt like I was retarded. That’s where I began to see a pattern from my previous jobs and through life. I would make a lot of mistakes when I am being told to do something. I’m not nervous, or deaf. I can hear, but when people talk to me I block out/they seem like they mumble rather than talking so I block out. It is troublesome because I have to repeat people all the time, and when I do managers shout at me and I hold back my feelings until I finish my shift which have nightmares about. I feel like I’m slow when doing a task. However it does not makes sentence because I have good grades and do all my homework and yet I can’t do what is asked to be done. I came to the point were I had to confess to my employer and my school, that I have problem and don’t know what it is. All I know that I can’t understand messages or phone calls (Even in high volume) , can’t follow instructions, I try to concentrate what people are saying but the words cant process in my freaking brain which makes me mad and helpless at myself that I can’t do anything right, it is very had to multitask, I sturred/can’t talk right. Even my family notice something was wrong with me when they talk to me because I always do the opposite of what they say. I always thought if I try harder it will be better, but with me my mistakes remind the same. To be honest my mind works differently when people talk to me I mix words up or numbers. I always have to solve what people say if I forget/block out, which makes them repeat themselves, I always compare myself with other girls and be like why can’t I get it like her, you know. As for right now, I am taking notes and writing what people say so I won’t get mix up, but sometimes that doesn’t work so I have show to them what I wrote down “what I think they said.” I cry a lot because this a problem that stops me from maturing and succeeding in my career. I don’t know what is holding me back mentally because it’s effecting me physically. I’m scared because I might not going to find a good job to provide for my family. My school also wants to know what is wrong because they know I’m doing great in school learning medical billing, but they are getting my reviews on what I can’t do which is frustrating.
Distorted part: I feel like I’m slow when doing a task. However it does not makes sentence because I have good grades and do all my homework and yet I can’t do what is asked to be done.  All I know that I can’t understand messages or phone calls (Even in high volume) , can’t follow instructions, I try to concentrate what people are saying but the words cant process in my freaking brain which makes me mad and helpless at myself that I can’t do anything right, it is very had to multitask, I sturred/can’t talk right.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Secondary Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: So to begin, I’ve been diagnosed and recieved treatment for depression and an eating disorder, seen 2 therapists, and struggled with self-harm in the past 3 years. Lately I’ve noticed a few behaviors that are bit strange to me. Here’s a list of the behaviors that are concerning me: – I excessive clean my room – When I’m the only one home, I organize the pantry, clean and straighten up the countertops, and try to put everything in order – When I babysit, after the kids have gone to bed, I wipe down all the counter and table tops, straighten paperwork/books and put them in the upper corners of the table, straighten the TV remotes so they are perpendicular to the TV, and put all dishes in the sink – I used to bring all my horse equipment home every weekend to clean it (I don’t ride anymore so this isn’t happening anymore) – I regularly go through all my school work and try to organize it based on class and date – I’m picking at my skin a lot. I pick at my chapped lips for hours at a time, as well as ripping open the skin around my fingernails, and picking off all scabs multiple times – I have very limited personal relationships with people and struggle to make friends – I had 2 childhood friends that I kept for a long time (one for 8 years, one for 10 years) the 8 year friendship ended recently and I really don’t feel like I miss her – When my family goes out of town for long periods of time I don’t really miss them but when they call I tell them I miss them because I feel rude if I say that I don’t – I hardly spend time with my friend (the 10 year friendship I mentioned) I see her maybe once every couple months – ' – I lie a lot and am extremely secretive
Distorted part: I feel as though if I cut everyone out of my life I wouldn’t really miss anyone
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: Before getting to the issue, please allow me to give you a brief description about myself : My parents always told me that when i was young i was a “leader” that i’m the one that led the group of friends when we were playing or doing sports or any kind of activity. I remember being a very happy child. Also note that i had the tendency to steel things beginning at a very young age and kept doing so till i was 26.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I first started searching about DID when I was 12, because the voices I kept hearing were giving me a headache. I scored 92 on the sanity test for Dissociation, and have taken several other tests that confirmed that I may have DID. I cannot remember most of my childhood, and certainly can’t remember ever being physically nor sexually abused. My personality seems to change depending on who I’m around, and I feel as though I’m not quite ‘there’ at times. I have a lot of memory gaps as well, and there are a lot of students at my school who claim who know me, yet I don’t remember ever speaking to them.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From S. Africa: We have been in a relationship for a few months before my boyfriend ask me to marry him. I said yes. So I’m engaged for 10 months. I love him very much. We have a big religion issue now — he wants me to leave my church and go to his church but I dont want to do it, now we need come to a conclusion if we’re gonna leave each other because the church decisions because we need to be as one attending to the same church. Can you please give me advice on how or what’s best?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From the UK: I have had Myalgic Encephalopathy (ME) for 25 years and have experienced several traumas including domestic abuse that have affected me badly. I have retreated into a complete state of hiding from life and avoiding all activity including looking after myself. I havent had a bath for 2 months.
Distorted part: I have retreated into a complete state of hiding from life and avoiding all activity including looking after myself.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I have trouble controlling what I speak when im angry. My mother hurts me with her words and I hurt her right back. I really don’t mean to do that it just happens. I have trouble controlling myself from breaking crockery when im angry. I cant communicate very effectively while talking. Breaking crockery usually calms me down. I have dug my nails into my mother’s arm once because she wouldn’t stop accusing me. Never again. It scares me how vicious I was. After an outburst I cry a lot. But after that I have trouble even remembering what made me so angry. Or what words exactly triggered it. I have a severe headache and I sleep it off. Sometimes I have trouble falling asleep too. I have frequent mood swings. I happy one moment and I could start crying the next. Even if it’s a commercial in TV I may start crying. I get very sad. I hardly talk to people. It irritates me if someone tries to talk to me when im in this mood. Other people’s habits annoy me. Any kind of sound irritates me when im in this mood. I cannot stand people who are fake or selfish or people who lie n deceive or those who show off. So I avoid such company. I have very limited friends. Im very selective. Im very cynical. I either believe people too much or don’t believe them at all. Me being so critical makes most of my relationships temporary. When I get angry, I have headaches, nausea, my eyes hurt n also I have occasionally breathlessness. My parents stayed together because of me and usually my mother blames me for all of her problems. I feel very guilty. N hurt. I have been trying to please them all my life. But nothing ever makes them happy. Im normally quite content in my own bubble… talking to myself, talking to imaginary friends… I am used to staying by myself..i take up hobbies to busy myself and never get bored. I don’t socialize much because my parents wont let me… but I do love making friends. I really don’t know how to handle myself. I don’t like this side of mine. I don’t wish to hurt anybody with my words but I end up doing the same. Please help. (From India)
Distorted part: Any kind of sound irritates me when im in this mood.   I either believe people too much or don’t believe them at all.  I feel very guilty. 
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Secondary Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient Question: From the U.S.: Forgive me, this is going to be a very fragmented story…About 5 months ago my female therapist of a year and a half transferred me to a male therapist because I was a little obsessed with her. Nothing sexual. But I did look her up online and managed to find out…. probably everything about her.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From the U.S.: I’m 17, and throughout my years on this earth I’ve never really had anyone stay around for long, and if they did I’d eventually regret that they did. My parents weren’t really much of parents, my brother had abused me for years, and I rarely see any of my other relatives. I’ve only been able to say the words I love you once in my life and mean them. I haven’t hugged anyone in years, I can’t remember when I last did anyways. In short, I feel unlovable, I feel as if this world doesn’t want me and subsequently has decided to leave me behind.
Distorted part: In short, I feel unlovable, I feel as if this world doesn’t want me and subsequently has decided to leave me behind.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Secondary Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: 1. She arbitrarily ‘chooses’ people, distrusts them and thinks of them as liars, amoral, inferior, etc. People arbitrarily chosen are the ones close to me. 2. Thinks her family, her morals and beliefs are ‘superior’ to mine but bends her ‘superior morals’ whenever needed to suit her convenience. 3. My wife has a similar personality. She will make a fuss out of something, call her mother and trigger her off (Eg; During my wedding reception, my parents got carried away greeting guests. My wife blamed my parents for ‘not offering her water on purpose’ – she did not even ask for it. She triggered her mother. Her mother asked me to ‘offer water to a thirsty woman even if I am not willing to feed my wife’. Both women soon got enraged.) 4. Shows dual behavior – first she is this soft ‘parent-of-an-abused-girl-god-believer’, transforms into a raging verbally abusive woman derogating me and my family, cursing death/dismemberment/etc. to my parents. Later, she absolutely denies all she said in her anger and swears on gods that she never lies – I am the liar. 4. Every time we try to speak about these issues, she ‘faints’. My wife says there is ‘no oxygen flowing to her brain’ and asks her father to violently shake her head while blaming me for what happened to her mother. She ‘regains consciousness’ after a few minutes. Opportunity to address problems lost. 5. Recently, she began exhibiting literal split personality. She went into a trance – some ‘god’ had entered her. She said my birth was flawed and that god has come here to save me, threatened my parents with curses and death and asked me to treat my wife well. She physically hits my wife when angry. 6. My wife is very similar – dual behavior – shows affection, romance, we live normally for a few days and then finds a random fault with a sudden mood swing and goes into a rage-crying-despair cycle. In her rage mode she is absolutely uncontrollable. She hits me physically, abuses me verbally, weeps and threatens to call the cops and book me for ‘dowry harassment’, degrades me in front of her mother, plays the victim and so on. 7. My in-laws seem to act mostly on impulse without thoughts about consequences. My wife and FIL both rigidly obey my MIL.
Distorted part: My in-laws seem to act mostly on impulse without thoughts about consequences.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: From the Netherlands: I am so scared of some specific people that I cannot see or even hear theyr voices. I completely panic. I am scared of going out and see this people, Because if I see them I Always have crisis and there was one time I thought I would lose my control. I also cannot see them in pictures, cause brings me bad feelings.
Distorted part: I am so scared of some specific people that I cannot see or even hear theyr voices. I completely panic.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I’ve been happily single-by-choice for many years. Definitely not even considering ANY possibility of new “romantic” relationship. Out of NOWHERE, I started constantly thinking about & plotting ways to spend time with a man approx 15 yrs younger than I. He works evenings & nights as a security guard where I reside. He’s been working here for approx. 6 mos. I’d seen & even spoken briefly to him several times previously, but without a hint of warning I became “closer” (no physical exchanges due to my faith & beliefs). Here’s the kicker: he couldn’t be FURTHER from what has always been my “type”. Where I live there are many different nationalities & people from many diverse ethnic backgrounds. I’ve always been attracted first & foremost, by physical appearance & to races other than mine (Caucasian). This “young man” is Hispanic, having only arrived in Hawaii last year, and is pure WHITE, skinny, shaved head, big ears & a horrible physique. Now’s the time to add the fact of my extremely good, rare physical shape-not only for “my age” but for women in general. I’ve had 5 large babies but have always been very athletic-serious weight-lifting for many years as well as running, canoe-paddling etc. In 2009 I realized my 35-year dream & underwent an abdominoplasty which removed 2 lbs. of loose skin only-no liposuction needed-& complete abdominal muscle restoration (stretch marks & scars are history & I’ve had extensive tattooing over the surgical scars. People think I’m “fibbing” when they learn about my large family because my body definitely is not the “norm” in the many-children dept. I’m 5′ 2″, still somewhat muscular, have long, straight hair (in which I keep all traces of white from becoming obvious) & am feisty & energetic. I’m certainly not movie-star gorgeous but not too shabby for 61* So…what is up with my totally out-of-character attraction to this guy? He has a beautiful accent I call “Sprench” for Spanish/French because it sounds like a little of both. He’s been very kind & considerate but I think I’ve frightened him with my hyper, “dog-with-a-bone” personality. He’s separated from his wife, who’s in CA. I mean, if my kids ever knew about this they’d think I’d totally lost it. I have 2 bodybuilder sons & all my children are super attractive, as are their kids. What do I do???
Distorted part: I mean, if my kids ever knew about this they’d think I’d totally lost it.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: It’s hard to sleep when I am anxious. & I feel anxious because I have been unemployed for roughly 8 years searching for a medication that will help with my anxiety and a sleep aid. But no pill can change the fact that I can never make up for loss time. I’m 30 y/o but I feel like a kid in an adult body & no matter what I do or how fast I do it, I can never seem to catch up with the rest getting left behind.
Distorted part: But no pill can change the fact that I can never make up for loss time. I’m 30 y/o but I feel like a kid in an adult body & no matter what I do or how fast I do it, I can never seem to catch up with the rest getting left behind.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: I am 26 years old. I am starting to worry about my financial future, as I have graduated with $85,000 in student loans. I am worried about retirement savings and I am worried about my short term future. I am worried that it would be irresponsible for me to get married and have children when I am in debt. The majority of my loans are private, so repayment plans are at a minimum. I have calculated that even with accelerated payments, that I can only be debt free within 10 years with my current salary. That’s 10 more years of living at home, no room for savings, and delaying the family that I know I want. I want to know if it is smart to think of these rewards when I have the burden of debt hanging over me? I know that my priority is to eliminate the debt as fast as possible, but I can only do so much and I am scared that 10 years is too long of a time to wait for a family.
Distorted part: I know that my priority is to eliminate the debt as fast as possible, but I can only do so much and I am scared that 10 years is too long of a time to wait for a family.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: I’ve told my mom that I have felt depressed since the 3rd grade. I used to fake sick just so I could stay in bed all day and I’m sad to say that I still do it even today. I’m in my second year of college, so I can’t really afford to pay for my own help. Anytime I mention it to my mother, I start to cry and all she says is “I know its hard but you’ll pull through.” I constantly have thoughts of suicide and have a history with self harm. My mom has no job as of the moment and my parents are divorced. My family has a history with depression, anxiety, and even bipolar disorder, yet my mom still doesn’t seem to want to believe that I could be depressed or have suicidal thoughts. I don’t know what to do and I feel trapped.
Distorted part: My family has a history with depression, anxiety, and even bipolar disorder, yet my mom still doesn’t seem to want to believe that I could be depressed or have suicidal thoughts.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: From a young teen: A few years ago, I went through several months of what I guess can only be described as really crippling depression. I was really stupid and slit my wrists and cried for no reason and forced myself to stop eating, that kind of stuff. What I remember really distinctly is assuming everyone else was going through the same thing. Anyway, when I kinda eased out of that phase, I became a lot happier and somewhere along the way I realized there was something different and bad about the way I’d been feeling for a couple of months (more like a year, really).
Distorted part: What I remember really distinctly is assuming everyone else was going through the same thing.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: I almost never received any love from my father and I spent very little time with my grandfather and I think my attraction to older men has a lot to do with this. I’ve just never had an older man as a role model growing up or any man at all until I was about 15 and by that time, I had already crushed on multiple older guys.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From India: I feel lost, unmotivated,living for the day. My dreams are dying. I don’t have a perfect friend. I don’t feel myself. I have a few hobbies. I am learning to play keyboard. I do pencil sketches. But I have lost passion. I am a short guy with spectacles,but above average looking. I used to be a nerd. I have turned into an atheist. It has really helped me in my depression. I like science but it doesn’t like me back. I had nice curly hair, like jon snow of you will. But recently I am suffering from heavy hair fall. I come from the village. My father was a control freak,drunkard, & little abusive. He’s lost all his money,self respect & health. Whatever he’s done in life has been counter productive to our life. By our means me, my twin brother & my mother.
Distorted part: My dreams are dying.  My father was a control freak,drunkard, & little abusive.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: Over the past 30 years, my parents (and particularly my mother) have never been satisfied with the level of effort I expend toward family relationships. As a child I was accused of ignoring and not liking my sister, and forced to seek her out to apologize for hurting her feelings. My sister, by the way, used to pin me to the ground and pull hair out of my head and painfully tickle and pinch me when I was young. Now she is divorced. She has always been a kind yet very negative, sarcastic person with a mean streak. I find being around her very tiring.
Distorted part: Over the past 30 years, my parents (and particularly my mother) have never been satisfied with the level of effort I expend toward family relationships.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: My uncle has severe paranoid Schizophrenia. His sister may have been mentally ill – she had lifelong substance abuse/addiction problems. Their brother molested them all during childhood. Their father was an abusive alcoholic. My great uncle had two “break downs,” the second one left him “never the same again.” (No actual diagnosis.)
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I am fast reaching my breaking point as nothing seems to be going well in my life. In the span of a year and a half after finishing school, I have started and failed a business, slept on the street while working a 14 hour job, fought and overcame a heroin addiction.
Distorted part: I am fast reaching my breaking point as nothing seems to be going well in my life.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: I have compiled a list of reoccurring symptoms that i have been experiencing and i wondering if anyone could help me piece them together to help understand what is wrong with me. i have been diagnosed with an eating disorder, generalized anxiety and depression but everything is getting worse and i have no clue what is wrong with me. I really don’t feel like it is just depression, and it’s starting to scare me. – mentally and physically drained – constantly crying – paranoia – hearing voices / sounds that aren’t there – punching, breaking and trashing things / places – physically giving way, forgetting how to stand etc – minor memory loss – screaming – severe issue with pulling out my hair – attempts of b/p – starving self – issues regarding weight, image etc – panic attacks – wanting to kill myself – isolating self – lack of socialization – not seeing friends – convinced everyone hates me and that they are plotting against me etc – self harm – mood highs, which are scattered and don’t last long – include rambling words, doing thing i would not do normally, rushed thinking, lack of care for others – deep lows – they come in stages – severe headaches – lack of concentration / motivation – easily frustrated / angered – need to isolate sensations – easily overwhelmed, needing to cover eyes etc – lack of clarity – zoning out – forgetting what i am doing – snapping at people – lack of enjoyment – inability of movements – lack of care and self care – bad headaches – tight chest, most of time – binge eating and then severally dropping in mood
Distorted part: convinced everyone hates me and that they are plotting against me etc
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading