Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: I have been getting hit by my dad for as long as I can remember. It has been a really long time. He really ruins my life. I am so scared to be in my own house. He abuses me physically and mentally. He punches with full force, he gives me bruises, marks that last until the next day, he hits me with the belt, and today he threatened to break my neck. He almost strangled me. I don’t love him at all. I have no respect for him and he means nothing to me. We don’t have a good relationship, I don’t tell him anything. Even if I don’t do anything wrong he will find a way to make it seem like I did do something wrong and yell and me and hit me. I can’t take it anymore. Last week I almost told my school, I really want to but I’m scared because I still have to deal with living with him until I am a legal adult. I have pictures of it the marks and bruises he has given me. I lock myself in the bathroom whenever I get into fights with him or he hits me. I really don’t know what to do anymore. He scares me more than anything in this world. I don’t even want him to be my dad anymore. He says he wishes I was never born, I’m stupid, I am useless, there is nothing good about me, I am a devil, he wishes he never had me, I am the worst kid out of all 3. He also says “why did god curse me with you”. He really ruins my life. If he weren’t in my life, it would be amazing. I can’t be with him anymore. He is the worst father a kid could have. Please help me.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I am a 28 year old single mother of two who lives with her parents. I graduated from college in 2008 but have not been able to find a job at all. I don’t have anybody at all. I had to move in with my parents because my ex was abusive. I have been suffering from depression for about three years. I can’t go and talk to someone because I have no money or insurance. I have insomnia and have been hallucinating. I find myself being irritable and lashing out in anger. I haven’t bathed in about a month. I’m afraid to go outside and I stay in my room in bed all day. I have constantly thought about death everyday, I like to cut myself. My parents get mad at me because they do not want to hear what is going on with me.My dad attacked me one day and my mother called the cops on me. I am so lonely. I just cut all my hair off today. I feel so lost and incapable of doing anything at all. I hate myself and my life. I want to always kill myself. I can’t get a job because I don’t have enough work experience. I don’t know what to do or where to turn. Help me! I feel like I’m drowning. I feel guilty and like a failure in life. I feel out of control. My brother tells anybody who will listen that I don’t do anything and am lazy. I can’t get over the only man I have ever loved and he dumped me 3 years ago and is married. I’m just a wreck. I feel like I’m crazy.
Distorted part: I feel so lost and incapable of doing anything at all.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: From a teen in Australia: This story is incredibly long but I’m going to do my best to cut it down and only include the most important bits. When I was 14 and in a very low place, I met a teacher at my school. She was around 30. I didn’t think much of it at first, but eventually I kept talking to her more and more and seeing her around. We grew close quickly and for some reason I just felt connected to her. One day I received a text message from her as she had gotten my number off another student.
Distorted part: We grew close quickly and for some reason I just felt connected to her.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient Question: From a woman in the U.S.: My Therapist of eight months terminated. {new job}.   I cancelled our final appts: because I could not face her. I had lied to her to test her and ultimately push her away.  She knew I think and I believe she felt betrayed.  I could tell because our sessions changed… She was in fact pushed away.
Distorted part: She knew I think and I believe she felt betrayed. I could tell because our sessions changed… She was in fact pushed away.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: I don’t even really know where to start. For the past 7 months I’ve been under extreme mounts of stress followed by a few panic attacks, that have left me so emotionally unstable that I feel that I’m teetering on edges of insanity. I’m in constant fear that I might be experience psychosis. I’ve been having hypnagogic hallucinations right before falling asleep that have left me in so much distress. Sometimes I’ll hear a loud sound or different voices that are loud. I’d like to not that I’ve experienced this for most of my life. But since having these panic attacks and just hours on the internet and reading about mental illness it has left me scared that it maybe something more. I’m extremely scared I might be in the beginning stages of schizophrenia. I’ve become hyperaware, I literally am always making sure that I’m not hearing things or seeing things. I just feel so lost and sad all the time I just want to feel whole again. Sorry if this seems a little jumpy I’m just in tears as I type this. I’ve never been diagnosed with anxiety or any anxiety disorder and I fear it may be more than that anyway. I’ve become so afraid of my mind because if I have a weird thought I am constantly ruminating on it and it drives me up the wall. Couple of days ago I literally typed in the same question about schizophrenia 30 different times. I need help but I’m so afraid that the Doctor may confirm my fears. I just don’t know what to do. Is the hyperawareness of sounds, weird thoughts and hypnagogic hallucinations a sign that I’m becoming schizophrenic? I also have a cousin who is schizophrenic and I have an older father so I know I’m at higher risk. I’m in shambles over this. Anything would help. I don’t really know if any of this even makes but please help.
Distorted part: For the past 7 months I’ve been under extreme mounts of stress followed by a few panic attacks, that have left me so emotionally unstable that I feel that I’m teetering on edges of insanity. But since having these panic attacks and just hours on the internet and reading about mental illness it has left me scared that it maybe something more. I’m extremely scared I might be in the beginning stages of schizophrenia.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient Question: From a woman in the UK: Hi, I have a 4 month old baby boy and i have to go back to work when he’s 7 months. I understand that will be a key age for forming secure attachment and i won’t be around for some of every day. i can work from home but not all the time. I’m worried about disruption to our relationship and his attachment. We are breastfeeding, cosleeping and i wear him in a carrier often. He is settled and doing well with this arrangement but of course we will have some distance when I’m back at work. Is there anything i can do to make things easier for my baby? Thank you
Distorted part: I’m worried about disruption to our relationship and his attachment.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: Me and my sister in law are both pregnant right now. And I’ve been noticing the inconsistency of level of care about our baby from my fiancée side of the fam. This situation really has me depressed, and unsure what to do. for starters my sister in law and that side of the family has made it a competition between the babies, I don’t want it to be a competition. It always who can do what first. Then we notice that their side of the family doing all these things for their baby and not ours.if we happen to go visit them, and someone asks about our baby, someone always brings up the other baby and that the other baby “does it bigger” basically. And they are always all over my sister in laws belly, never once mine. They have literally cried over feeling her belly, never even touched mine once. No one ever asks how my baby is doing. I just want it to be equal, and I don’t know what to do. I need some serious advice. I don’t want this to continue when both the babies are here (which will be very soon), I don’t want my child noticing it either.
Distorted part: And they are always all over my sister in laws belly, never once mine. They have literally cried over feeling her belly, never even touched mine once. No one ever asks how my baby is doing.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: I cannot hold down a job because I refuse to submit to arbitrary authority. I’ve been diagnosed with BPD as well. I continuously get fired or quit due to workplace conflicts. I’m trying to move to a region of the country where employment opportunities may be more varied, pertain to my career field, or pay more; however, my inability to work is making this goal nearly impossible to achieve. I simply cannot work. No amount or type of coping skill makes the pain of submission to authority or workplace bullying any less excruciating.
Distorted part: I’m trying to move to a region of the country where employment opportunities may be more varied, pertain to my career field, or pay more; however, my inability to work is making this goal nearly impossible to achieve. I simply cannot work.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: I found out very recently that my mom has cheated on my dad 4 times in the past. They’ve gone to counseling each time, where she denies her cheating until finally she admits it but blames it on him “not meeting her needs.” I didn’t want to hear this in the first place but you can’t unring a bell.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a woman in the U.S.: I had a dream that seemed so real. Someone shot my boyfriend in the stomach and he threw up. After the man shot my kids father he came to me and stood over me for what seemed like a life time. My heart was racing so fast I mean I could literally see the guys face but I have never seen him before in “real life”.  I was sitting across the street from where my boyfriend was shot. I remember for some reason sitting on a blue bench, holding a box, that was filled with snacks. (I never hang around outside on corners) I begged him not to shoot me because I had two babies right up the road. He still shot me in my head it felt so real.. I seen the flash from the gun, I felt the hot bullet; go through left side of my head, (right behind my hair line) and i also felt the the bullet come out of the my right side of my neck/underneath the chin.  I could also feel the warm sticky blood coming from my head and neck. He shot me again and then i woke up.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a woman in the U.S.:  My husband’s daughter is 19 years old and she constantly causing drama. she lies and tells people I mistreat her tell people she hates me etc. me and my husband have been together for 6 years we have two children a 3 year old and 2 year which his daughter never asks for at all. they don’t exist to her but the moment she can talk about me she will bring up how she doesn’t see them etc
Distorted part: they don’t exist to her but the moment she can talk about me she will bring up how she doesn’t see them etc
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I’ve been talking to myself for over 6 years now. It’s only now that I realized I don’t have control over it. I don’t really talk to myself, I talk to people I no longer know and people I wish to know. I engage in long conversations with them that may last for 1~3 hour/s. I talk and imagine their answers in my head and then reply. I’ve been okay with it but for the past year, it started to bother me because I realized I waste about 30% of my day on it. I low-key like it, because it gives me chances I was never given and probably will never be given. I imagine myself doing all the stuff I couldn’t do. I started to feel really bad about it when I realized I don’t fully move on from any single thing in my life (a past lover or something I failed in before) because of this. I basically never forget anything that happened to me because I keep repeating everything in my head and also make up scenarios that never happened. It’s starting to get out of control because it makes me unable to focus, whenever I see a movie I keep pausing to talk for some time and then I go on with the movie and repeat, which ends up with me finishing a 2 hour movie in over 5 hours. I never felt bad about it but now I do because I came to know that’s basically why I never move on. I repeatedly think about things that happened years ago. I’ve had OCD since I was in grade 5 (about 8 years ago), I never fully recovered from it, it comes and goes. I don’t know if it might be related. I tried controlling myself and refusing any urges to talk to whoever I talk to but I always fail. Thing is, I fully understand I’m not talking to real human being and I’m merely pleasing myself by achieving stuff I couldn’t in real life, so I don’t think I’m crazy or something. I just need to know if it’s serious, and I certainly need help on how to stop this because I need the time I waste on doing it. (From Egypt)
Distorted part: I never felt bad about it but now I do because I came to know that’s basically why I never move on.  I tried controlling myself and refusing any urges to talk to whoever I talk to but I always fail.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: Hello! I would like to know some exercises or something I can practice to get myself out of this numb state of emotions. Last year was really hard for me (break up of a 4yr relationship, rape, loss of 2 good friends) and I was in constant pain and then I think it just switched somehow in me some kind of defense mechanism I think when I just stopped feeling at all. It was helpful and helped me a lot to sort out a lot of things. Now when it’s relatively a long time over and im supposed to get better I just cant. The bad thing is that i cannot express love or open myself to any bpdy because I just can’t feel what they feel… I imagine it as some kind of a barrier in me. Do you have any advice on how to get rid of it? It really bothers me because I’m a young person and I love life and my friends and I wanna fall in love sometimes etc. Thank you for listening :) (From Slovakia)
Distorted part: Now when it’s relatively a long time over and im supposed to get better I just cant.  The bad thing is that i cannot express love or open myself to any bpdy because I just can’t feel what they feel…
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: From a young woman in Australia: I care little about people other than immediate family and my partner. I’m very possessive of people and get angry (internally) if they show interest in/preference to others. This applies most to “friends”; (they would call me a friend but I don’t consider them that), my family, my partner, my students.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Hi I am a 21-year-old male student. Recently I smoked weed for second time in my life. I smoked more than what I smoked during my first time. I inhaled the smoked fully 6 times and then I started experiencing auditory hallucination like hearing people laugh when no one was there. Then I also heard song playing which was actually not playing. It got over after 2-3 hours. But now I am really scared that I might get schizophrenia in future. Because I have a family history of schizophrenia but not my parents and siblings but my cousin and his father. I got this fear because I read on internet that only those people predisposed to schizophrenia will experience these symptoms after smoking weed. And the weed was not mixed other substances. And I did not have any psychotic symptoms before that. Please response.
Distorted part: But now I am really scared that I might get schizophrenia in future.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: From a teen in the Philippines:  I don’t take Social Isolation for 3 years as a serious problem. But everyone around me begs to differ. By ‘everyone” I meant my mother, as my father works overseas. But nonetheless, I found myself curiously fascinated by my lack of concern for my health, social and physical. It’s not because I don’t care for any of those, but rather the prospect of doing so seem bothersome. Maybe “not caring” and “not bothering” are the same sentences in different context. And maybe it is. I just find the word “not caring” a bit strong, as I do care to some degree, just don’t care “enough” which is one way you can put it.
Distorted part: I just find the word “not caring” a bit strong, as I do care to some degree, just don’t care “enough” which is one way you can put it.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: Me and my older brother have always been close and he’s always been my hero. As for me, myself, I started the journey of getting couyselinf since I was when apparently, I would masterbate in school (in class, in the bathroom, and once even on the monkey bars). I also got in trouble once for peeing in front of my dad. So im sure this plays a part I why my mood has been so negative recently. And no, I was never molested. My parents are loving but always absent. this also plays a part in what is going on in my life. Given I was very sexual at a young age, I told my brother while crying frantically that I wanted to be his wife. 2 times I was the cause of him vbreakinbg woth someone he loved (guilt), and I wad responsible for insisting to let me see what sex feels like. I lost my virginity to him I n a triumphany victory because I though after we made love that he would be all mine, what a sick thought in reflection, although the most intense sex ive ever had. We are highly sexual with each other still. I even cater to his extreme foot fetish and bdsm although afterwards every time I feel so dirty and putrid. what a paradox, pain mixed with pleasure, so confusing. its to the point now where other guys don’t turn me on anymore. I only want to have sex with him and to make it worse, I get jealous when he even mentions other girls. How do I stop doing this?
Distorted part: So im sure this plays a part I why my mood has been so negative recently.   2 times I was the cause of him vbreakinbg woth someone he loved (guilt), and I wad responsible for insisting to let me see what sex feels like.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: From a teen man in the UK:  Back in May, me and my girlfriend had a break up which ended quite badly. I’ve been with her for 3 years and it was quite a surprise when she wanted to end it because we had been having altercations. Anyways, i went round a friends house who lives opposite her house and the night took a turn and we was drinking and getting high. As i was leaving very intoxicated (which is not an excuse) i think my emotions got the best of me and i keyed her car. I instantly regretted this at the time and i couldn’t believe what i done. I still regret it to this day! I instantly wrote a letter of apology the next day and payed for any damage. Im not a nasty person, it was a complete moment of madness from me!
Distorted part: I instantly regretted this at the time and i couldn’t believe what i done. I still regret it to this day!
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: I Do Realize That I Have A Few Psychopathic Traits, However, I’m Not Sure If I Am A Psychopath Or Sociopath. Recently I’ve started to question and compare my actions and thoughts to others. I’ve started to be more aware of myself. I first noticed that whenever I would be angry at someone in close with ( a partner, parent or best friend)my usual feelings that I experience for them disappear completely and it’s as if they’ve changed from the people I care about to the people that I hate the most. So I did research starting from there. I’ve then realized that I lack empathy, guilt, remorse, compassion, you name it. However, I feel empathy for animals, not for humans. This is what’s making me confused. Once I’ve hurt someone, mostly emotionally, I wouldn’t feel guilty, even after my feelings for them have returned (after calming down). I’ve also realized that I’m very manipulative and dominant, I hate it whenever I feel like I’m not in control. I become more aggressive. And once something doesn’t go my way, I play as the victim or I try to make the person feel guilty or pity me so that they can give in. I don’t lie often, mostly because I don’t feel the need to since I don’t do bad things, I don’t mind following the rules as I think that they’re fair and don’t interfere with my life. I do lie sometimes, whenever I need to, I always get away with it. I also have superficial charm, it’s much easier to do online, I’ve noticed that people would fall for me in a matter of days to even a few hours. I don’t think that I am very narcissistic because I do have insecurities but sometimes I would feel like I am better than others, but that kind of feeling disappears quickly. I’ve been told that I can be cruel at times, I do admit that I am, especially towards people I dislike. I also feel satisfaction in seeing them hurt. I have a partner and I do get tremendously jealous, to the point that it’s emotionally violent for my partner. I would like to add that I also get bored very easily. (From Canada)
Distorted part: I first noticed that whenever I would be angry at someone in close with ( a partner, parent or best friend)my usual feelings that I experience for them disappear completely and it’s as if they’ve changed from the people I care about to the people that I hate the most.  I’ve then realized that I lack empathy, guilt, remorse, compassion, you name it.
Dominant Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Secondary Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: From a young teen in the U.S.  So for almost an entire year now, I have not considered myself as TRULY human. But more of a fox/wolf type thing. My therapist himself has said I’m abnormally intelligent for my age. And has also said he’s never really seen anyone like me before. We are only having our second session today, I get that. But i feel like he’s not really understanding my behavior.
Distorted part: But i feel like he’s not really understanding my behavior.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: I’ve always had trouble keeping friends around as I push them away and/or just say stupid things that cause my relationships to crumble. One of those friends left a deep impact on my life both positive and negative and because of the things we talked about and did together. Stupid me focused on her negative past and I feel I failed to be there for her like she was for me when I wanted to commit suicide. I wasn’t there when she needed me the most, instead of helping her be happy in the present I ran or made stupid statements that hurt her more. I’m self-aware of my problems but I can never fix them. I’ve dropped many activities especially ones that remind me of past friends. I’ve recently lost a close friend again because of my stubborn compulsiveness and toxicity and I just want it to stop, I really want to change.
Distorted part: Stupid me focused on her negative past and I feel I failed to be there for her like she was for me when I wanted to commit suicide.  I’m self-aware of my problems but I can never fix them.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Secondary Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: This issue started shortly after I graduated high school and it’;s been going on for 2 months. When it first started I was questioning time and how it works. I had a few panic attacks in relation to that. Then after that I started questioning what I’m seeing and if it’s actually real. That led to me questioning my existence and I feel totally disconnected from the person I used to be.
Distorted part: That led to me questioning my existence and I feel totally disconnected from the person I used to be.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification