Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: I’ve thought about killing. I’ve always wanted to beat some one until they were black and blue and bloody. I’ve wanted to taste blood from people. Ive never felt anything towards anyone except my dog. I’ve wanted to kill everyone but I’ve never done it. I mean it’s like I have a flip and I just thinking about psychotic things. I’ve thought if I was a psychopath or a sociopath. I mean I don’t care for people dying period. I’ve always wanted blood to be all over my body. Ive once sat in my bed laughing at the thought of beating someone up or killing. I’ve been wanting to destroy my room or destroy everything. I mean I just want to do everything destructive. I have depression, add, adhd, and bipolar. I have a short temper too. I’ve just wanted to kill and kill every day. I love hurting myself and blood rushing out. I laugh at the pain. I couldn’t tell my mom about this because obviously she would send me somewhere and I probably kill her if she did. I don’t know what to do right now honestly. My friends think I’m heartless. Anyways yea
Distorted part: I’ve been wanting to destroy my room or destroy everything. I mean I just want to do everything destructive.I couldn’t tell my mom about this because obviously she would send me somewhere and I probably kill her if she did.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: So I recently just started so see a new psychologist who was quite terrible as mine has gone on a long holiday. I have anxiety depression and from what I thought depersonalisation. It is always with me since I was about 15 and has gotten worse as I have gotten older. The world just seems a bit unreal to me but nothing looks out of shape.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Before I got married I use to wear men’s bikini underwear (regular and string). For almost two years I have been secretly putting on and wearing woman’s panties. At first I was trying on and wearing my 18 year old step daughters panties in which she was ok with and than I decided to go out and buy some types of them for myself. eventually I was told to stop or a divorce was coming. I constantly thought about wearing them again to include men’s underwear i use to wear. I now continue to secretly wear my step daughter’s panties and buy some for myself. Is it wrong for me to wear/do and is there somewhere to go for help? I dont want my wife to know.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I have been diagnosed with depression but, lately I have come to realize I have many more problems, that I didn’t even realize till the other day..I am a compulsive liar. I will lie about anything, even simple things for no reason. Sometimes I won’t even realize that I have lied until later on. And now looking back in my life I have always done it. It’s like an addiction. I can’t stop no matter how hard I try. I will lie about the stupidest, pointless things..for absolutely no reason.
Distorted part: I am a compulsive liar. I will lie about anything, even simple things for no reason. Sometimes I won’t even realize that I have lied until later on. And now looking back in my life I have always done it. It’s like an addiction. I can’t stop no matter how hard I try. I will lie about the stupidest, pointless things..for absolutely no reason.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Secondary Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: From a teen in Canada: So here’s the deal, I’ve never had a good childhood, i’ve dealt with issues like depression and suicidal ideation, and the one thing which has recently become more intense, was that I’ve always had trouble understanding how other people felt. Empathy is difficult for me, I find that I have to force emotions out of myself to at least appear sane to others.
Distorted part: Empathy is difficult for me, I find that I have to force emotions out of myself to at least appear sane to others.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: I’ m lonely on the inside and outside. Any of my clumsy attempts to start conversation will be laughed at, so they should be stopped now. I’m not funny or interesting enough, I want to call myself ‘an open book’ but that’s just because there’s nothing exciting about me I could hide. I don’t have any talent or occupation I could justify my loneliness with. Every day a voice inside me tells me not to approach people, because I’m not wanted there and they’ll be better off without me. I pity myself and it makes me pathetic. Saying that I’m pathetic out loud only makes me more pathetic. I’m utterly childish, vapid and dull, but every time I try to improve, I feel like I’m losing my old self and it pushes me back. I feel myself old, ‘out of trend’ and so, so boring. Do I need to do something about it? Or maybe most people feel the same, and then I’m just making drama? *Sorry for being wordy.
Distorted part: Any of my clumsy attempts to start conversation will be laughed at, so they should be stopped now. I’m not funny or interesting enough, I want to call myself ‘an open book’ but that’s just because there’s nothing exciting about me I could hide. I don’t have any talent or occupation I could justify my loneliness with. Every day a voice inside me tells me not to approach people, because I’m not wanted there and they’ll be better off without me. I pity myself and it makes me pathetic. Saying that I’m pathetic out loud only makes me more pathetic. I’m utterly childish, vapid and dull, but every time I try to improve, I feel like I’m losing my old self and it pushes me back. I feel myself old, ‘out of trend’ and so, so boring.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: Don’t know is this is the right place to ask but I’ve had a bad cough sporadically throughout the years. It only occurs when I’m having stressful or anxious thoughts. Mainly whenever I’m anxious is when it occurs. I have generally been someone who has had a lot of anxiety and since the last few weeks I’ve had some difficult personal situations to go through, I have had an increase of stress and anxiety. The cough came back the same time as this rather difficult time. At one point I do believe I had panic attacks a few years back with the cough. Was hard to tell since the cough seemed to mask the sensation of the panic attack but it seemed like it was for sure there. Now I don’t get that, but this time around I have headaches whenever the cough occurs. It doesn’t even really stay after the coughing stops. I would cough for a few minutes and the headache is usually coming and going with the cough. I’ve gone to the doctor several times for this and was tested for asthma, but that came back negative. More and more I’ve noticed it occurs during anxious times/thoughts so that is why I came here, to see if the reason behind it is more psychological.
Distorted part: Don’t know is this is the right place to ask but I’ve had a bad cough sporadically throughout the years. It only occurs when I’m having stressful or anxious thoughts. Mainly whenever I’m anxious is when it occurs. I have generally been someone who has had a lot of anxiety and since the last few weeks I’ve had some difficult personal situations to go through, I have had an increase of stress and anxiety.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: Happening quite often now (2-3 time a day). I feel like my mind is not able to process anymore and its going to explode (no headache, but heavyness). I feel very heavy inside. When it’s not happening, i feel nothing, everything normal. But when it starts it feels like the processing power of my brain is limited and the input coming is too much, you will say difficulty in reading or writing but NO, that not it…everything is normal. I am not able to explain it well. My head will start to feel heavy and things become too difficult.
Distorted part: I feel like my mind is not able to process anymore and its going to explode (no headache, but heavyness). I feel very heavy inside. When it’s not happening, i feel nothing, everything normal. But when it starts it feels like the processing power of my brain is limited and the input coming is too much, you will say difficulty in reading or writing but NO, that not it…everything is normal. I am not able to explain it well. My head will start to feel heavy and things become too difficult.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient Question: I’m 21 and recently engaged. In a few years, I may want to have children. I have two concerns: will I have to stop taking antidepressants when I am pregnant and what is the likeliness that our children will be depressed if both myself and my fiancé have major depressive disorder?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a teen in England: It started 6 months ago, now I live with my grandparents because of this issue. Basically my mother started getting into card readings and then she started to buy crystals. After that she started to say that our house was haunted and started screaming Jesus quotes in the middle of the night around 11pm to 3am. Then she started to put salt all over the floor and around the sofa and started sleeping there instead of her bed I heard her whispering to herself and she said she wasn’t crazy and just writing a story (which I didn’t believe).
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I do have my handful of disorders in disarray, but that’s not what I’m here for, just a general question that popped in my head. OCD is a very real condition that people do suffer from, but there are the non-suffers who claim to be under the influence of OCD, who just get the satisfaction of an &”OCD-fix” (ie seeing a ball fall into a hole that seems like the hole was designed for said ball). Does this mean that every human has some type of OCD that is a more of toned-down version for the people who have it classed under the mental condition, or is it some type of satisfaction that our brain produces chemicals for, like dopamine?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I’m a 15 year old girl. for several years ive been having suicidal and paranoid thoughts. ive have multiple panic and anxiety attacks (at least once a week from mild to intense) and sometimes feel like im floating out of my body, not recognizing myself or other people. My family is caring but for some reason I remember them hurting me and lying to me. I hallucinated when I was younger of scary things, and I’ve always believed in things like my friend being a werewolf, that i have mind control, that people know things i dont and are targeting me. I often get selfish and defensive, i lie excessively and have a very inconsistent personality. I’m also afraid of relationships and have a lot of trouble expressing my emotions (this was more recently i used to be great at it). I have ADD but was never diagnosed with anything else, im suspecting i had bipolar symptoms before(i slept 2-3 hours and was eccentric. then heavily depressed). and i believe people send me hidden messages in their speech, im an artist and i can emerse myself in a nonexistant world, like i dont belong here and that killing myself will lead me to that prettier world. i do self doubt or try to ignore my thoughts but theyre still there. i get violent and jittery impulses, think about killing and torturing people like its nothing, and i get all excited and giggly. I have a nagging thought process that criticises me and other people. I try to remain honest with myself and laugh off any form of betrayal or oversensitivity. I interpret things to the extreme, sometimes unrealistic but i cant help buying in to it. I believe my father wants to kill me and my mother, i believe my sister is jealous i get more time with my mom, and i hate being happy. Whenever i get happy i need to remind myself i dont deserve to feel that or that its all fake and none if it will last. I self harm. My grades are poor and I prepare to commit suicide within the next three years, or maybe next year, or before college. I dont want to hurt my mother just in case she really does love me. I believe everyone will leave me and have isolated myself. Everything makes me cry. Help.
Distorted part: My family is caring but for some reason I remember them hurting me and lying to me. I often get selfish and defensive, i lie excessively and have a very inconsistent personality. I interpret things to the extreme, sometimes unrealistic but i cant help buying in to it.Whenever i get happy i need to remind myself i dont deserve to feel that or that its all fake and none if it will last.My grades are poor and I prepare to commit suicide within the next three years, or maybe next year, or before college. I dont want to hurt my mother just in case she really does love me. I believe everyone will leave me and have isolated myself. Everything makes me cry.
Dominant Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Secondary Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question:  Ever since i can remember I have always been an angry person. I snap at my mom for stupid things(to the point where i’m screaming at her for nothing, and i know its wrong when im doing it but i do it anyways)and i over analyize EVERYTHING. If you were to meet me you would think that I didn’t have a care in the world. I work in retail and i have been called “fun, bubbily, always happy*, adorable” etc. I feel like i have this act at my job where i just don’t want them to see my angry side, so i don’t show it to them. The only people i actually release all of my anger towards is my mom, sister, and my boyfriend.
Distorted part: Ever since i can remember I have always been an angry person.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: From Australia: My partner and I have been together now for 5 years. My partner comes from a divorced family and only really has his mum and brother as his family. His relationship with his mother can be quite volatile and they can argue and speak to each other with a lack of respect and love sometimes, something which I am not used to in relationships with family members.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I’ve been professionally diagnosed with depression and briefly received counseling, though my grandmother cancelled my treatment and refuses to continue it. My father cannot convince her to change her mind and my mother is out of the picture. My father supports me, though won’t take any action of his own because he doesn’t believe depression is real. My grandmother refuses to attempt an understanding of depression, and I have nowhere to turn. I’ve asked many times over the course of over entire year for her to allow me help again ever since she has cancelled my counseling, but all my efforts have proven pointless. My condition is worsening and I’m experiencing passive suicidal thoughts, and though I’ve told my family about this, they have purposely done nothing to help me or to get me help. My grandma forces me to literally pretend I’m not depressed, and my father won’t acknowledge me when I mention my depression. Essentially, my family is denying me help and I have nowhere to turn. I haven’t slept for more than a few hours every night night in maybe weeks, I have sleep paralysis and terrifying nightmares relating to my depression, and I battle the urge to self-harm every time I’m alone and whenever my thoughts begin to take over. I’m scared that I’ll soon turn to suicide, and I have nowhere and no one to turn to for help. Please tell me what I should do.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Depression is destroying me I am cutting my arms multiple times a day and I don’t feel like even living most of the time. I don’t want to have to feel this way and I always try to cover it up and be happy but it never works and I am losing hope and happiness every single day I just need something to help me. I have tried to kill myself multiple times but I just can’t push myself to do it and I feel as if I don’t have anything to live for anymore. So please respond as soon as you can and help me with this because I can never get enough courage to even say this to most people. (From the USA)
Distorted part: Depression is destroying me I am cutting my arms multiple times a day and I don’t feel like even living most of the time. I don’t want to have to feel this way and I always try to cover it up and be happy but it never works and I am losing hope and happiness every single day I just need something to help me. I have tried to kill myself multiple times but I just can’t push myself to do it and I feel as if I don’t have anything to live for anymore.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Patient Question: Alright ill try to make this quick but i cant stop lying constantly ive been lying to friends and my Boyfriend and its not about making myself look good particularly its about stuff that is terrible! This year I met a girl that became a very good friend of mine i wont say her name of course but she is what most parents would be scared of their Daughter turning out to be She parties alot and has already done sexual acts with other guys so when first upon meeting her i lied about how i would drink alot of adult beverages and Go out and do illeagal things when in reality Ive never done any of that stuff but the way her reaction was self fulfilling if that makes sense ? So Fast forward to two months later when my boyfriend and i got into a relationship i told him every lie i told my friend with out even thinking and now i stay up at night in guilt and dread asking why the hell i would do that what was the point in that ? Why do i want someone to see me this way ? Its tearing me apart and I need help even though im young and im still in Highschool the guy I met is someone i dont want to loose I dont mean to sound all hormonal but im tired of digging myself a grave.
Distorted part: Alright ill try to make this quick but i cant stop lying constantly ive been lying to friends and my Boyfriend and its not about making myself look good particularly its about stuff that is terrible!
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: I have been having sexual relations with a stripper at a strip club for nearly a year. My therapist believes I may have developed a type of sex addiction. My therapist recently had to go out of town so I have not seen her in nearly a month, but I told her I was going to try and stop seeing the stripper. I have not gone to the strip club in over a month, but I’m still constantly thinking about the stripper, and I’m always turned on. It’s distracting and it makes it hard for me to focus on school or work. I was also seeing a psychiatrist for a mood disorder, and I was on an anti-psych medication that I stopped taking about a year ago. When I first started seeing the psychiatrist I told him I had began having powerful sexual urges that began a year before I started seeing him, but I never acted on them. I was also a huge germ-a-phobe. Why am I still thinking about the stripper and constantly turned on when I haven’t seen her in over a month and is this related to my mood disorder?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: For so long I’ve really felt like I couldn’t define myself, and it contributed to depersonalization and other problems. Now looking at it I see it’s not that i can’t define myself, it’s that my definition of myself is the opposite of what i want to be. I am cautious, yet want to be adventurous, anxious, yet want to be mellow, inflexible while wanting to be adaptive, realistic while wanting the ambition realism cannot support, isolative and self-supporting while I’d rather be reliant on people if it meant I would be social, and more. I know who I am, and I know who I want to be, but the only things left uncontradicted are not any thing important. Can I change who I am to fit how I want to be, and if so, please aid me with a detailed description of how it is even possible. I really need this. If it means anything, self esteem also plays a big part.
Distorted part: For so long I’ve really felt like I couldn’t define myself, and it contributed to depersonalization and other problems. Now looking at it I see it’s not that i can’t define myself, it’s that my definition of myself is the opposite of what i want to be. I am cautious, yet want to be adventurous, anxious, yet want to be mellow, inflexible while wanting to be adaptive, realistic while wanting the ambition realism cannot support, isolative and self-supporting while I’d rather be reliant on people if it meant I would be social, and more. I know who I am, and I know who I want to be, but the only things left uncontradicted are not any thing important. Can I change who I am to fit how I want to be, and if so, please aid me with a detailed description of how it is even possible. I really need this. If it means anything, self esteem also plays a big part.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Secondary Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.K.: I’m not really sure where to start, so I’m going to vent. All my life I have felt disconnected and as a child I barely used to talk and kind of drifted my way through my school years, not feeling sad, but empty, waiting for it to end. I had no sense of direction or purpose (and at the time mental illness was never a thought that crossed my mind) but what upsets me the most thinking back is that there were clear signs that something was up with me and I wish someone would have stepped in.
Distorted part: I had no sense of direction or purpose (and at the time mental illness was never a thought that crossed my mind) but what upsets me the most thinking back is that there were clear signs that something was up with me and I wish someone would have stepped in.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: From a young man in the U.K.: A few years ago I noticed a strange tic-like symptom had appeared, it seems whenever my mind wanders to something embarrassing or uncomfortable in the past, no matter how significant or otherwise – I often tense up for a second and am unable to control myself from blurting out the words “Kill yourself” or “you should die”, “shoot yourself”; often rather loud and violently directed at my own self. I have a harder and harder time trying to squash these outbursts in public.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: I have an extremely low self esteem for no apparent reason; my mom and my family always go out of their way to tell me im beautiful, and sometimes i feel that way, but sometimes i feel horrible, which is selfish when i think about it. I also feel really self conscious about my personality, since it feels like no one likes me, maybe thinks im annoying or that im not worth talking to them.
Distorted part: I have an extremely low self esteem for no apparent reason; my mom and my family always go out of their way to tell me im beautiful, and sometimes i feel that way, but sometimes i feel horrible, which is selfish when i think about it. I also feel really self conscious about my personality, since it feels like no one likes me, maybe thinks im annoying or that im not worth talking to them.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Secondary Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: Since i was little I’ve had a desire to watch as thing fall apart. at first is was just things but over the past five years I’ve started to feel the urge to see what happens when the human mind breaks down forcibly. I’ve never been a violent person but recently i have found pleasure in tormenting people with small changes only noticeable to certain individuals.in my mind i had been listing them as experiments, but i noticed that they have been escalating in severity and i’m not sure what i’m doing any more.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion