Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: My ex is having a baby with someone else after just one month of ending our relationship. I’ve been having a very difficult time dealing with this. When me and my ex-boyfriend broke up we tried to be friends and hang out from time to time one day out of know where he told me we couldn’t be friends anymore he didn’t give me a clear explanation he just told me he didn’t want me to start to cling to him again. We haven’t spoken since. Later I found out the girl was pregnant at that same particular time and he had made her his girlfriend. I guess she was a rebound gone wrong and he is just taking responsibility for his actions but it still hurts.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I’m 12 and have been caught lying many times. I want to stop, but I don’t know how. My mom is on the verge of disowning me. I cry everyday, and try to stop but it just comes out. I feel as if I have to lie because I’m scared of the outcome. I have tried communicating this problem with my parents but they refuse to understand. I have attempted suicide, because I am sick of life. Please, please help before I either kill myself, or my mom disowns me.
Distorted part: I feel as if I have to lie because I’m scared of the outcome.  Please, please help before I either kill myself, or my mom disowns me.
Dominant Distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: From Australia: im working on my dreams on the side but all i want to do in the day is commit suicide. I hate working for no reason. just a waste of time. I am wasting time that i could be adventuring life and seeing the world but im stuck in a ugly office 8 hours a day. im doing different things each week and trying to get out of my comfort zone everyday. Everything feels so average. my workouts. my job is just boring as fuck. isnt changing your routine supposed to change how you feel? I just feel as though i cant shake this annoyance. Im trying to do everything before i die. i dont want to regret anything.
Distorted part: im working on my dreams on the side but all i want to do in the day is commit suicide.
Dominant Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient Question: I want to ask out the girl I like. We know each other for 10 years now. We are aquaintances not friends. I developed crush on her.I think she also likes me ( I’m pretty sure). I want to ask her out(coffee) in person but I rarely see her although she lives near me.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I had an anxiety attack and in the midst of it I thought I was losing control and was gonna have a heart attack. I thought I just needed to leave school for a minute and take a break. I told a parent about it and they told me that my stress was self inflicted and that I needed to fix my problems rather than run from them. They gave me a list of mental illnesses and reasons for why the illnesses may have happened. I read up on them and identified with them and saw that some people never heal from them and that petrified me into thinking it was no hope for me. That I would be that 1% I tried a self help program and it didn’t do much help because I was scared it was a scam because I couldn’t find any credible information about the program and because the guy who told me about it seems like a pathological liar. I was shook outta my mind realizing it didn’t work for me. A hospital psychiatrist and school therapist said I don’t have schizophrenia. I still have this fear even after hearing that. Ill explain the symptoms I recognize with: I went thru a phase where me and a friend were trying to unlock more than 10%of our brain and thought we could flow our energy in our body by thinking about it. After finding out what a delusion was I quickly realized I shouldn’t even keep trying this.I also believed in 1 too many conspiracy theories and thought that the gov. harmed people that were trying to do positive. I had a really positive idea that could help the world and fear they may come after me for working on it. I quickly dropped that idea too. Now when Im reading tweets I read them a little too quickly and my brain changes words around. This only happens with tweets and when Im stressing about going schizophrenic (almost 24/7now) Ive started having nightmares about my worst fears Anytime I get scared I think ima paranoid schizophrenic now. I’m always scared my thoughts will turn into delusions I fear any low noise that might mean Im hearing something None of this has gone on for more than 6months. Am I losing it? PS I smoked a lot of marijuana prior to the anxiety attack
Distorted part: This only happens with tweets and when Im stressing about going schizophrenic (almost 24/7now) Ive started having nightmares about my worst fears Anytime I get scared I think ima paranoid schizophrenic now.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question: Told mother my weight so that I’d have someone to talk to. She told me that if my father found out then he’d divorce her. I try to help it and gain at least two pounds but I can’t go a day eating normally without being disgusted and restricting the next day. I’m afraid of going to the doctor because I’ve lost over ten pounds since last we met and I can’t fake “eating healthy and exercise” anymore. She looks at my hands for acid stains and it’s a miracle she sees nothing because I purge whenever I can’t handle having all that excess in me. I take laxatives but o hate the idea of the calories absorbing and I purge but I hate the idea of my teeth being yellow even though I brush them so much. I remind myself that I need to gain for my parents but I can’t even convince myself that it isn’t okay that the people I used to look up to as “ideal” aren’t even thin anymore. I can’t eat three meals a day without forcing it out one way or another. I can’t leave the house without someone large over me to hide what I see. I’m self aware to the fact that others don’t see me as “fat” but the fact that I’m not *skinny* matter so much more and I can’t wrap my head around why. I don’t have any friends to speak to, I moved recently and there’s no one here I can speak to without losing my voice- just writing this is making me want to lay my head down because of the ache in my head. I want to move out so that i at least don’t have to pretend that I’m doing okay and forcing myself into this loop, I cant get over how exciting the idea of being alone is the same way I can’t get over the blur of fear in the back of my peripheral at the same thought. I don’t know what to do. I have my whole life ahead of me and my grades match up fine, but as this keeps progressing I lose focus and patience. Everything feels empty and I keep buckling down and closing in. What should I do?
Distorted part: I have my whole life ahead of me and my grades match up fine, but as this keeps progressing I lose focus and patience. Everything feels empty and I keep buckling down and closing in.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: hi i think i have nice life*great parents,great grades,loving boyfrind,a lot of friends who really love me,in fact everyone likes me,i go to gym almmot everyday,i eat very healthy,im etichal vegan,never had any problems in life,everything almmost always worked great for me,couldt aks for anything more)but i could not care less if someone told me that i would die tomorrow,its like 50/50 for me,i love my life but still ready to die..also i cant really conect to anyone,i mean i love my boyfred and friends,but he breaks up with me ill be okey(but i really love him,and he means a lot to me)..and i am going to high schoole of nursing(planning to go to med school when i finish) so when we are in hospital i am always giving my best to help every patient and do whatever i can but yet i dont care about them at all,its same with everyone else,im always happy to help but never care..i often thinks that this is normal and i dont need to tell anyone about this,and im being overdramatic and i have that conversation in my haed a lot,not for just for that,for everything else,im just like no one would care about that anyway so i go through everything alone,i thing i dont care about what they have to say why would them care about what i have to say..and i think i had sort of dissorderd eathing in the past,even today i am not sure that i have 100% healthy relationship with food but ist about 97%
Distorted part: also i cant really conect to anyone,i mean i love my boyfred and friends,but he breaks up with me ill be okey(but i really love him,and he means a lot to me)..
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: My sister, whom is four years older than me, was once the most important person in my life. She was the one I would go to for advice, someone to vent to, and just someone to not make me feel so helpless. She was in a very serious relationship, until she found out some unpleasant things about him. They broke up. She became cold and distant. We stopped going out and no longer had that close relationship.  I no longer went to her with any of my internal struggles because I felt like she was not in the right mindset to help me. She even seemed lost. She was my everything.  After losing her, I feel like I have nobody. I always struggled with letting people in. She was the one person who I always knew I could open up to. They broke up almost a year ago, and things have not changed. I am afraid I have lost her forever. I have great friends, but I also have a phobia of getting close to people and letting them in(except my sister). My family is wonderful, but I cannot talk to them about this. I have brought it up to my mother on several occasions, and she believes that she needs time. It’s almost been a year. A few months ago, I had a breakdown and told her everything that was bothering me, including how distant she has been. She acknowledged her mistakes, apologized, and said she’ll be better. She didn’t change a bit. I feel as though I will never get my sister back. I have no one to talk to about my problems. I keep it all bottled up inside until I have a breakdown, alone. I am a a crossroads and am feeling really lost. The person who I once thought would help me with everything, is no longer there for me. What do I do? (From the US)
Distorted part: She was my everything. After losing her, I feel like I have nobody.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: My girlfriend is paranoid about stuff sometimes (eg. Thinking people are looking at her when we’re in public, likes locks on her doors, makes her Facebook private or deactivates when she sleeps) she is pretty socially withdrawn and will sometimes get into moods where she seems emotionally aloof or depressed (she talks to people on the internet often though) but other times gets into moods to do stuff outside she’s weird about what she wears (only wears black and white cause other colors bother her if she wears them) has a distorted sense of what she looks like often hates how she looks, is pretty impulsive and will randomly want to cut her hair and dye it a different color if she’s stressed. She has social anxiety doesn’t really like to be in public, sometimes will be sensitive to light or smell she says she gets mild hallucinations sometimes (hears mumbling sometimes or her name being called, sometimes sees things in objects or sees a shape for a bit) she was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder and prescribed antipsychotics which she doesn’t wanna take cause the side effects she also has a benign tumor in her frontal lobe. My friend says she’s been like this since he’s known her. my anxiety is making me think of worst case scenarios
Distorted part: my anxiety is making me think of worst case scenarios
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: I am 21 years old and my parents are still super strict with me. I have a job, I go to school, I pay for my own schooling, pay for my own expences( car, phone, insurance etc.). At home I do all that needs to be done, including taking care of my little sister. I believe that I am responsible enough to be treated like an adult but I’m not being treated like one. Ever since I got with my boyfriend they have become even more strict. I have to be home at 9,  pm and I can’t spend a weekend with his family. We are doing anything sexual and I have told my parents this. I don’t know what else I can do in order to gain some trust and respect from them. Please advise. (From the US)
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I always had a problem growing up being slow and being put in small classes in school. I was told I have ADHD and that is why I am so slow. But my mom told me 2 days ago that im mentally challenged. I am not sure what that is or if I have that or what. But I do find it hard to wright read and do math well it takes me longer than most people my age. am a really mentally challenged??? how do i find out if i am becouse i am having a hard time believing my mom. but also my mom told me i got tested and that what the doctor told her – that i am Mentally challenged but what i wanna know is can i grow out of it if i am or was???
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: For a lot of the time I feel indifferent about everything.  It feels like I’m just floating along through life, not really caring much.  For example, I didn’t really care where I ended up going to college, and I should.  I should care that my best friend is going to be moving several hours away that ‘m going to be graduating in less than a month, and that soon I get to live with my sister, but instead I don’t really feel anything, not sadness or happiness just nothing.  But at the same time, I act the same.  I still crack jokes and laugh.  Life just doesn’t feel like it’s quite real.  Sometimes, I’ll be walking and I’ll feel like I’m shoved back into reality.  I don’t know how else to describe it.  It’s like I’m suddenly reminded that I am not a floating voice, I have feet and a body.  I don’t know how long I’ve felt like this, but it’s probably been at least 2 or 3 years, maybe more.
Distorted part: For example, I didn’t really care where I ended up going to college, and I should.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: From Columbia: I don’t actually know what’s wrong with me, or if there is, but for the past years i have lost interest in everything and I feel like by now nothing makes me sad, upset, angry, excited, happy or anything at all anymore. It seems like I don’t have emotions, but I don’t think i’m depressed.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Honestly, i don’t know how and where even to start… and i dont know how to say all of this in only 400 words…recently ive started to suspect i might have schizophrenia. i believe that everyone is watching me, and i cant trust anyone (that includes you), that there are cameras everywhere, that i am dead and that this is just someone trying to see how id be after my death. ever since i was little too (about 5) i believed i was being watched by people on a secret island and made a film of. i try to convince myself that it’s not real;that there’s no way it’s real..but i cant. i have a psychotherapist, but i just can’t tell her anything i want to. i can’t force myself to tell her anything, but i really want to. and when i tried to explain my anxiety and attacks to her, i couldnt explain it properly.(diagnosed me with DID but i dont feel it at all) at school, when someone asks me something, i can never explain my feelings AT ALL. i always get something wrong,even though i know the answer.i’ve noticed that sometimes my sentences dont make sense to my friends, because i cant even say a sentence properly and i see things they don’t. i also have severe ptsd where at times i go completely deaf and nightmares, but the memories came back only recently (after 3 yrs) and i am sure im just making it up so i can pity myself and have a reason to be depressed. during the past 1yr i also ended up diagnosing myself with different disorders to explain my head-but always changing my mind..(pathological lying,ADD,PTSD,schizo,cotard delusion,SAD..)i know it’s wrong to diagnose myself;but since i cant tell anyone,and just keep lying all the time,im curious&desperate i only have this.i discovered something about myself though-im comfortable anonymous.there’s also always someone watching me from my bedroom window and scared.im suicidal(but im dead anyway so).i have crazy voices in my head that i cant control.i can barely tell whats real and whats not.i hate lying to my friends and family all the time about the smallest things.no one knows though.i cant really put all my emotions and things going on in 400 words.but this is without many details…
Distorted part: i believe that everyone is watching me, and i cant trust anyone (that includes you), that there are cameras everywhere, that i am dead and that this is just someone trying to see how id be after my death.  i also have severe ptsd where at times i go completely deaf and nightmares, but the memories came back only recently (after 3 yrs) and i am sure im just making it up so i can pity myself and have a reason to be depressed.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: I have been thinking about my morality a lot lately since watching Death Note. I cant’ help but think about what I’d do if one dropped out of the sky; would I use it or not? For months now I’ve been questioning my morality. I’ve always said that no one should get the death penalty, but I find that I often go back on that without realising. I’ve been watching Dexter recently, (don’t think I’m romanticising his life or anything) and I can’t help but think that if I could get away with it, if a bad person was strapped down helpless on a table in front of me, that I would kill him. As well as that, for a long time I think I’ve been developing mild sadistic tendencies. I’ve never felt like hurting someone in real life but I love seeing characters suffer in their respective universes. I have been thinking about how this happened, and it made me think about a time 3-4 years ago when the ISIS beheading video came out. I was scared to watch it because it was real, but I wanted to see what death looked like. In the end I didn’t watch it, but I did watch the Facebook video of the homeless man being shot. The description on the website warned against watching, saying something along the lines of, ‘it’ll ruin your entire day’, but after I watched it I was just disappointed because of how anti-climactic it was. I know a guy died, but even now I just can’t get myself to care or feel sorry for him or his family, even though i know I should.
Distorted part: I know a guy died, but even now I just can’t get myself to care or feel sorry for him or his family, even though i know I should.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: I have a 16 year old sister who has social anxiety and does not respond well to talk therapy. She’s been in IOP, partial, individual therapy, and has a psychiatrist. None of this has been helpful. She is still chronically suicidal, self harms, and stays in her room for most of the day (She’s on medical leave from school).
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: I have two irrational subconscious ideas that I need to solve. The first one is I think that people are always watching me. My brain tells me they hide cameras or do something so they see me and what I am doing all the time. I mostly think and worry about people I know doing this. My mind tells me they are doing this all the time.
Distorted part: I mostly think and worry about people I know doing this.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: This feels kinda stupid but I know I need help? I’ve slowly lost touch with everyone in my life, including my whole family. I have exams coming up and everyone expects me to do amazing but I can’t. I can barely find energy to get up in the morning. there are times when I feel like crying, even though there’s nothing wrong. I’ve always got a headache, or stomach ache, or just generally feel ill. I think I hate myself and this makes me hate everyone else too. I feel like I’m ‘digging my own grave’. I talked to someone honestly, and she basically told me to ‘suck it up’. Sometimes I wonder if she’s right though, maybe its just me being a twat. Recently, I’ve buried myself in all the fantasy worlds in tv shows. My whole family seems more complete without me, and just generally happier. The friends I used to have got left behind as I moved schools, and I ended up with the popular kids. I just don’t wanna cry anymore. I’m just so tired. and I can’t talk to anyone. my parents think I’m crazy, and I’m making stuff up. they’re too busy with my siblings to even notice me half the time. sometimes I wonder if they wish they didn’t have me. I’ve also gained a lot of weight. it sucks. I’m taller than my own dad like is that even possible? and fat. I’ve tried working out… I look like an idiot. I just want to leave everywhere, but that isn’t possible. I’ve been brought up as a Christian, but sometimes it feels like even god doesn’t want me. I went to a retreat, and came back happy and refreshed. no matter how much I pray I cant get it back. it seems like whatever I do now I always wrong. I’m so sick of being here. sometimes I wish I could just sleep till I’m old. talking to people makes me feel like an attention seeker, begging them to notice me. but I need their help, I don’t know how to ask for it. Everyone keeps asking me if I’m alright, apart from my parents. I thought they were the people who were meant to notice you and know you the best? I always say sure I’m okay but I literally don’t know. I wanna leave home. (From England)
Distorted part: it seems like whatever I do now I always wrong.  talking to people makes me feel like an attention seeker, begging them to notice me. 
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Secondary Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: Hi there, I’ve been in a relationship for 6 months with my boyfriend and honestly this is my first  real relationship. I know I have room to grow but what he has expressed to me is that I have inappropriate emotional dependent relationships with my friends. I disagree and of course I get upset with him if he says harsh things about them which then he counters that I am not loyal to him and I should just accept his brash, rude remarks (because he’s right?). For example he says all my friends are stupid, and they are going nowhere. Most of my friends are actors and like me we are figuring it out, the business is not easy. I tell him if that if he respected me he would not talk about the people I care about that way- which then he counters that I’m more emotionally invested in them. Furthermore we’ve fought about me having gay guy friends, he says its not because they are gay but because they don’t stand for what we are trying to build together. He then just recently said it’s because they are male and I shouldn’t have any male friends, that he should be the only man in my life. I’m not so attached to my guy friends but him saying all this makes me uncomfortable. I don’t see why if my relationships are strictly platonic that I have to cut them off. My bottom line fear is that he’s being controlling. I KNOW he loves me very much and out of respect to me he would cut any of his friends off if I did not like them but I would never do that! (unless extreme circumstances) And he does not see any of his girl friends any more. I’m scared to talk to him about this again because he will think I care more about my friends then him (something he is always saying) and end the relationship. I don’t want it to end over some guys friends I have but I don’t think it’s fair I have to cut them off. What should I do? (From the US)
Distorted part: I KNOW he loves me very much and out of respect to me he would cut any of his friends off if I did not like them but I would never do that!
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading