Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: Hi, I was wondering if you could tell me if I need to turn in me or my ex to authorities. First, my ex was not very kind to me when I was with him. I told him I had a severe form of Non-Verbal Learning Disability when I got diagnosed and that the reason I am somewhat okay socially is because my parents always over encouraged me to be social and one of my friends taught me how to talk to people “normally”(and I’d go to my parents with any social questions). He would tell me I seemed fine and I would tell him that part of it was my generalized anxiety making me stay more quiet and overthink and overthink until I figured out non-awkward or offensive things to say (esp. in a text). When I would bring this up, he would basically tell me to try harder because when we first dated (and I was on Abilify, an antipsychotic that actually can help autistics), I didn’t act so different. Also during the relationship, he told me that he laughed during gore scenes in movies and had obsessive urges to harm people, but drowned it out with stories he told himself and video games. Now that we are broken up and he treats the relationship as if it were my fault for it ending and makes me do all the work to get him to talk to me, we have parted ways completely, and too often I have urges to harm him, mainly to show him the pain he caused me and my cause other, and also because he is entering the military with confidential computer data access which scares me. I’m angry with myself for becoming like him, but he called me out of my mind once, and I had a psychiatrist that tried to convince me I was with practically no evidence. Granted I was histrionic in the relationship and easily anxious that he’d break up with me when we had a really intense text fight involving all caps. He also accused me more than once of cheating when I never once cheated. Never agreed to call me as my therapist suggested us do for my NVLD. Told me it was my fault I struggled so badly to pay attention to my teacher because she never stayed on one topic. He wasn’t nice.
Distorted part: Now that we are broken up and he treats the relationship as if it were my fault for it ending and makes me do all the work to get him to talk to me, we have parted ways completely, and too often I have urges to harm him, mainly to show him the pain he caused me and my cause other, and also because he is entering the military with confidential computer data access which scares me.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: You will likely decide this is too specific and lengthy to answer. It is more a request for a perspective than it is a question. I am a 21 female undergraduate. My life is well-established: I receive excellent marks, my family is financially comfortable, and I am talented enough that I do not lack in self esteem, yet I consistently feel numb or unhappy, such that when I do feel joy over something, it feels like a drug trip.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Im 17 years old. ive lied about having an eating disorder and have been hospitalized many times. ive lied about trauma and have been hospitalized for it as well.
Distorted part: i live a normal life otherwise but i just lie so much i don’t know what’s wrong with me or why i do it and im too far in to stop now.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question:  From Singapore: My GF (22 years old) and I had been together for 1 year plus and during this period, we broke out once before. Since 2-3 months back, I have this heavy feeling inside me when I think about us. Its like I felt that somewhere we are better off being single and I am puzzled as why does this happen. I used to find her beautiful, but now I started to feel otherwise why?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: My best friend of 2 years is going through a lot. He’s trans and his mom is really overprotective, but I’ve been trying to be really supportive. Until today, when he told me he’s “otherkin” with Jack Frost. He honestly believes that he is the reincarnation of Jack Frost from an alternate universe. Honestly, I thought he was smarter than this; we used to laugh about how silly these theories were. I can’t take him seriously anymore. I know he’s been going through a rough time, plus he has pretty bad anxiety, but I feel like I just lost my best friend and I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know whether this is because of his dysphoria or if he’s having delusions from his anxiety, but whatever it is, it’s freaking me out. He’s been talking to these guys online who also believe they are “otherkin” and I think they are just taking advantage of his fragile mind, but I don’t know how to help him. If I tell him to stop talking to them, he’ll hate me. I can’t talk to his mom because he already doesn’t trust her. He’s going to therapy but I seriously doubt he’ll talk about this even if I ask him to. I’m at a total loss here, and frankly it feels like a bad dream I can’t wake up from. I just want my friend back!
Distorted part: If I tell him to stop talking to them, he’ll hate me.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Secondary Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: From New Guinea: When I was born my parents were still in university. I have always been made aware of the sacrifices they had to make in order for me to have the basics. I am well aware of that but how much negativity can one take? My mom is and has been the only person paying for my tuition and every time I make a mistake, which I try very hard not to, such as tell a schoolmate of mine what happens at home she blows up. Then there are threats to stop funding my tuition if unless I agree not to repeat the mistake.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: My husband has been on Depakote for 10 years for bipolar disorder. He was diagnosed at 30, after a manic episode he experienced for two weeks after taking the drug ecstacy. (He took the drug June 24, went into hospital july 4). My husband was not a drug user up to this point, nor did he ever experience bouts of depression or mania before this time. After having the same initial doctor for 10 years, my husband is looking for a new doctor to help him come off of the medicine, as he believes he was misdiagnosed. I am petrified that the drug could have been the catalyst, and maybe he will have another episode. What are your thoughts? Would a doctor agree to take someone off medicine for this condition?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: My 2 best friends have been ignoring me for the past 4 weeks and I just spoke to both of them. They both said they don’t want to be friends anymore. This all started because they thought I was around them too much. One friend even said that dealing with me is stressful and bad for her health. I’m currently on the floor crying because I did nothing to deserve this and we were all fine the day before. I simply hung out with one friend after school twice and she got annoyed with me and wanted to be alone yet didn’t tell me. So in 30 minutes of speaking with both of them, I have lost 2 of my closest friends. Also we all have the same friends because we are all in the same friend group.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a teen in the U.S.: My parents argue a lot. My mom always complains to me about my dad. He’s an alright guy, but he is bipolar. He gets angry so fast for no reason, and we always have to be careful around him. He once wrecked his own room in a fit, then left me and my brother at home without saying anything. That was last year. It wasn’t this bad (I think) when I was younger, but I’m not sure.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I know there are a lot of people who can feel depressed and have a death wish-and I know that I have a life worth living. However ever since I had a chance to think about life – death thoughts have haunted me. I have loving parents, family, and friends (who have helped me with my depression). I’m overweight, and I have been this way since elementary school. I am a talented artist-I draw, write, create etc. I am currently unemployed due to my depression. Besides that I’m in debt, due to hospital bills and moving out too early. And I just got out of another unsuccessful relationship. I know what it takes to get back on track-what is bothering me is that I can’t find the energy or will-I almost just want to pay my bills, disappear and kill myself and no one would ever know. Although my family & friends remind me that they would miss me a lot.
Distorted part: However ever since I had a chance to think about life – death thoughts have haunted me.
Dominant Distortion: Mental filter
Patient Question:  I have been diagnosed with GAD, persistent depressive disorder, and executive functioning deficits. I’ve been in CBT for 2 and a half years, I’ve tried 9 medications (none have worked), I don’t trust mental health professionals because I’m afraid of what they (and my parents) will do to me if I tell the truth. I was abused by my mother from ages 6-11, I was sexually abused from ages 7-9. Everyone around me hates me, everyone thinks I’m crazy. I think I’m crazy. Nothing ever eases the pain, I cry multiple times a day. My executive functioning is terrible, I have stubborn depression and anxiety, but I think something else might be wrong with me. I suspect BPD because a lot of the things/thought processes I have/do are congruent with the symptoms. I guess I’ll never know though, because I’m too afraid to be honest with a doctor. I feel so empty, I can’t control myself. I have misused drugs, vandalized property, I’m failing 3 of my classes. I feel unstable, like I don’t have a set personality. (My therapist described this as “a weak sense of self”.)
Distorted part: I don’t trust mental health professionals because I’m afraid of what they (and my parents) will do to me if I tell the truth.   Everyone around me hates me, everyone thinks I’m crazy. I think I’m crazy.
Dominant Distortion: Fortune-telling
Secondary Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: I was pampered and brought up in my teens, but fell in love, and married in my 18th yr. I have 2 smart children and a loving husband. When I get angry, I am unable to control my anger, I talk continuously and hurt my husband’s feelings and abuse him a lot. The argument continues until my husband apologizes even if he didn’t do any mistakes. I still think him as my lover and I am obsessed with him.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Hi, 21 year old here. I’ve always been an odd child. I spoke to inanimate objects and they spoke back to me, both internally and externally. I have demons which follow me. Sometimes they put their own thoughts and visuals in my head and I’ll see them or say them out loud. I also have contact with, well, what I call “aliens”, but they’re not really aliens, that’s just a word I use to describe them to other people. They’re more like divine interventions, sometimes their thoughts are in my head too. I believe they’re the ones who put me here on earth. The demons sometimes speak to me in my head or externally, but mostly I feel them or see them following me, they’re faceless. They’ll mock me if they do speak, or intimidate me through their presence. The divine interventionalists, they tell me positive things, that I’m more evolved than others. These “voices” aren’t constant.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From Canada: I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 2 years. He was sexually abused as a young child and never told anyone. He was bullied as a child as well. At 18 he joined the Marines for 6 years. He has been a corrections officer for 9 years and works in a very toxic environment.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: So for at least a year I’ve had many situations where I feel for instance that cameras are hidden all around my house and that people are watching and listening to me. While I feel like that I try to tell myself that that’s probably not happening (because I have looked and not found any cameras) but I still feel like it is. (I have thoughts like that at least once a day.) another example of what is happening is I have a feeling most of my friends are secretly trying to hurt me and my reputation when that doesn’t make sense. I have tried to confront my friends, they denied it but a part of me thinks if they actually are conspiring against me then that is exactly what they would say. Something else that might be related (I’m not sure) is that I don’t really speak to anyone at school after I confronted my friends (I used to speak to people) I am just not very interested in talking to people who are out to get me. Do you think what I am experiencing are delusions or just a normal bit of paranoia? *note* i have done some evaluation for schizophrenia and am not schizophrenic.
Distorted part: I have tried to confront my friends, they denied it but a part of me thinks if they actually are conspiring against me then that is exactly what they would say.
Dominant Distortion: Mind Reading
Patient Question: Today, I had to call the authorities on my boyfriend. He has been sharing these thoughts of his. The other day he messaged me saying his head was telling him to skin his (10-year-old) sister and his brother and taste their blood. I was at loss for words but I had been trying to get him to tell me what was wrong. A part of me kind of wishes I hadn’t asked. I want him to get some help. He has been cutting and punching things messing up his hands. I have always been suicidal so I can’t relate to him. I just want to try to understand. I’m so lost and confused imp worried I might say the wrong thing. I told my best friend and he told my dad. My dad said if he doesn’t get help then we can’t be together. Mind you I turn 18 in 2 months so what he says doesn’t matter. I’m just so scared. He has been controlling over me and even violent a couple of times. But when I confronted him about it he didn’t know he was doing anything wrong. He has PTSD from watching his twin brother her die in front of him in a car wreck. He usually sat in the same seat but the day of the accident he switched seats with his brother. he blames himself because his dad blamed him before he passed away of cancer in prison for drug distribution. I’m kind of scared of him sometimes. I cut my hand on accident once cooking and his eyes when he seen the blood, he was like a completely different person. like he had no soul for a minute until he calmed down. he feels like killing people when they annoy him. and I’m always cautious around him now. But I’m in love with him. and I just want him to get help. I called his school. instead of calling the cops which is what the crisis team wanted me to do. and I talked to him. he has agreed to go to the hospital to get help. but I didn’t tell him I told the school and the school told his mom. I’m scared on how he will react to that. I just need some advice. I have no idea what to do. And now I’m getting some bad thoughts too. I have learned to control them. But I use drugs to help me. and he’s okay with it. he’s okay with me cutting and using drugs. I know that’s messed up. I just don’t know.
Distorted part: I know that’s messed up.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: When I was about fourteen I thought I was a narcissus because I met almost all of the requirements, and I still do. Now, I match almost all of the requirements for antisocial personality disorder too. I know these quizzes aren’t meant to diagnose people but I score very high on all of them, including psychopath quizzes, and only these three and I’ve taken a lot of these quizzes.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I want to know if I’m insane. Sometimes I burst into laughter or tears uncontrollably. I have had times where I have taken sharp surfaces, rubbed them against my wrist to peel the skin off, and I was smiling and laughing. Sometimes I act in a way that resembles someone on drugs and wake up confused. I’m scared of therapist and guidance counselors. I feel very afraid of my mind here and there, it’s usually filled with morbid images. I like the taste of my own blood and have a habit of licking peoples’ skin. Other times, I seem perfectly normal, I’m happy and have a lot of fun. I can fake many emotions easily though, sometime I don’t even know how I’m actually feeling. I just want to be able to understand what’s going on with me. I have problems improving on my own and I think this might be a step forward to getting better. When I care for people, it’s a lot and the slightest things either tick me off or shake to the core, leaving me depressed. I bottle things up all the time and have been suicidal before. I need answers……please.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I have bipolar disorder and panic disorder and schizo aff disorder. I was sexually abused as a child. my question is that is wearing diapers wrong? For some reason, they relieve my anxiety and and make me feel relaxed, safe and secure. I find nothing sexual about it at all but I feel like a freak. is it ok to do this if it helps me cope? I am on many medications too and I also cant hold it during the night, I sleep too deeply. I feel ashamed. should I be?
Distorted part: I find nothing sexual about it at all but I feel like a freak.
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Patient Question: Hi- thank you for being there. I was diagnosed about forty years ago with major depressive disorder, been on all types of meds but Zoloft has worked well now for about ten years. Although I went to therapy and took meds I was an active alcoholic for some thirty years but it was all for naught due to the addiction. I’ve been sober now for six years when I relocated here but have been bombarded with circumstances beyond my control about which I hold a lot of resentment;there are times I feel that picking back up is my only answer.
Distorted part: I’ve been sober now for six years when I relocated here but have been bombarded with circumstances beyond my control about which I hold a lot of resentment;there are times I feel that picking back up is my only answer.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question:  From Germany: My boyfriend is in his early 40s, but has never had a relationship that lasted more than 3 years and has never been married. He is very smart, has a great job and supports his family back at home, however, he seems to have a dominating and criticizing mother. He says he was verbally and even physically abused by her and once they even spent a year not talking to each other.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I took up smoking as a form of distraction due to my depression. My father caught me three times and I promised that I would stop all three times, but somehow, I still couldn’t stop myself. It was my way of curbing my depressive episodes and the suicidal thoughts that never cease haunting me. However, when I try to explain depression to him to make him understand depression from my angle, my father refuses to understand. He keeps telling me that other people have it far worse than I do and I should appreciate it. How do I explain to him that it is not that I’m not grateful for my life, it’s that I have this monster in me that is telling me nothing is worth it no matter how good my life is? How do I let him know that I am only smoking because I couldn’t find any other way to curb these feelings? And believe me, I have tried to stop smoking, but when the thoughts come, nothing seems to matter more than to put those thoughts to a stop no matter what. And in my case, it is by smoking. (From Malaysia)
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I don’t know why. We live together and have two beautiful sons,but I’m just get so angry and irritated when she’s around me. We have had a very rocky 4 years together, but lately I just can’t understand why I am so mean to her. I don’t like spending time with her, hearing her voice, etc. I love her and I see her definitely see her trying to get better, but I just can not bear it. I thought that with the constant bickering that I just lost interest, but I think its deeper than that. I don’t hate her, after yesterday and I sat and thought about her crying I just felt bad. She’s not an angel either, but I do realize that I tend to be a little cold to her. We’ve had so much fighting in the past that everything thing she does or says to me, I take as an attack and its not necessarily so. Somedays I want to be with her, some days I want her out of my life. I’ve never been professionally diagnosed with depression, but I think with me being in the Navy and always gone; I tend to take it out her whether she deserves it or not. Please help, I want to be better for our kids, but can you help identify what it is about her that just grinds my gears? or is it just me being plain old mean me?
Distorted part: Somedays I want to be with her, some days I want her out of my life.
Dominant Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient Question: I’m 16 and for years now I’ve been dealing with my parents hurting me emotionally. First off I’m not allowed to have a boyfriend and the only boyfriend I’m ever allowed to have is the guy I’m going to marry. I’m a bright young lady with big dreams. I wish I would go out and observe the world and soak it in while I’m still young, except I cannot do that because my parents never let me leave the house. They let me get my license but I’m not allowed to drive alone, I have to have my mother by my side everywhere I go. I’ve tried everything, she will never let me out of her sight unless I’m at school.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a teen in Saudi Arabia: while growing up my family was very close to another family consisting of a couple and their son who was 2 years younger than me. i loved them and considered them to be my 2nd family. But when i turned 9 and i started developing breasts, ‘the husband’ began touching me and i thought it was inapproppriate back then. but now that i think about it he never touched me anywhere private. i remember him rubbing and pinching my upper arm which in no way is sexual but it was the expression on his face the made me feel disgusted. another time he put his arm inside my shirt and rubbed my back when no one else was around.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Approximately 6 years ago, I started to believe in God. I am very studious, so please don’t consider me an average believer. Anyhow God bestowed upon me success in the form of health, reputation and education. I disobeyed Him and He took it all back, also He made my life very fragile in numerous ways. One of the worst punishment He gave me was that He stopped my growth. Now before you think “It’s all in the genes” well it’s not, my parents have an average height and according to my doctor I should have been average too but sadly I stopped growing without any explanation. Now to my real problem, I have a self esteem issue in which when walking  on the streets I feel tiny (especially in front of women). This is deemed normal for people like me. Mentally speaking, I feel worthless and feel extraordinarily detached from this world (I see the world from space!). My social skills are deteriorating day by day. I used to be an excellent man once but now I am nothing!
Distorted part: Mentally speaking, I feel worthless and feel extraordinarily detached from this world (I see the world from space!). My social skills are deteriorating day by day. I used to be an excellent man once but now I am nothing!
Dominant Distortion: Labeling
Secondary Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient Question:  I don’t feel anything. I have no attachments to most of the population. Other than about 15 people that I actually care about, the rest of the world could die tomorrow and they’d just be names on a piece of paper to me. Including my wife and children. I genuinely don’t care about them. I know according to society and psychology that should bother me, but it doesn’t.
Distorted part: I know according to society and psychology that should bother me, but it doesn’t.
Dominant Distortion: Should statements