Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Patient Question: I am worried that there may be something wrong with me or with my anger management skills. For the past few years, I have experienced very short but very intense bursts of anger which I suppress and don’t act on. They are mostly triggered by my abusive brother who lives in the same house as me because I am not married yet and unable to move out due to national policy. Whenever I see him doing something inappropriate (he masturbates with his room door open) or when he yells at me or when he makes a mess of the house, I get so angry that my body vibrates, I clench my fist so tightly that I cut my palms with my fingernails, and I grit my teeth. These bursts last for about 2-3 seconds then it will pass, and I will feel myself warming up a little and my heartbeat getting stronger. I get very violent thoughts during these episodes but I never act on them at all. I am aware that my brother is very abusive, to the point that even my parents cannot do anything about him because they are afraid of retaliation. So my strategy has always been to just avoid him as much as I can until I can finally get a place of my own and move out.
Distorted part: Whenever I see him doing something inappropriate (he masturbates with his room door open) or when he yells at me or when he makes a mess of the house, I get so angry that my body vibrates, I clench my fist so tightly that I cut my palms with my fingernails, and I grit my teeth.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I have had 2 homosexual dreams but I am only aroused by women. Gay thought keep coming to mind, but I truly hate it. What is wrong with me? I just woke up from a 2nd gay dream. In Dream 1, a man tried to have sex with me, after I followed a woman into a shower, but I ran away from the man. In Dream 2, I tried to kiss a girl but i ended up kissing my best friend (a dude), but in the dream I hated it also. I constantly have homosexual thoughts during the day but tune them out. They do not arouse me. I dream about women constantly and the thought of man on man action does not turn me on. I love my friend, but not in that way. Am I gay?
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a young woman in Egypt: The first person I ever loved was my boyfriend of a few months. It was toxic and abusive. He was suicidal and so was I at the time, he would self harm with me on the phone with him and hang up sometimes saying “goodbye, good bye”; as in “I’m leaving”. I would stay up all night.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I’ve been obsessed with psychopaths, sociopaths and serial killers for as long as I can remember. I started thinking “what would it be like to kill someone?”and I realize… I wouldn’t care if I hurt someone. In fact… I want to. Just watching that kind of power over someone’s life come from me, especially if it were an enemy. It wouldn’t affect me. When I was younger, I used to torture animals. Grab them by their tails and drag them down the hallway. My sister ended up calling me an “animal abuser” My sister is now afraid of me. I’ve hurt myself rather than hurting someone else because I just recently got in trouble for almost assaulting someone with a pair of scissors and I realized… I do not want to deal with that again. I am not here to seek help, I am here to seek answers.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: I have been dating my boyfriend for almost three years now. Three months ago, we moved in together. We are getting married soon and I love him so I want him to get better. He has displayed anger problems once in a while, but they seemed minor. However, lately, he has been losing it over small things.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From the U.S.: I grew up a straight A student but a few things happened 5 years ago and I’m not the same. Anger is the only emotion I can feel deeply everything else feels like a shadow of what I should feel. I laugh at my own misfortunes and when my anyone cries to me I do what a normal person would do but its alien to me. The women and drugs no longer thrill me and I want to be the man I should be. I just want to know what’s wrong with me and what should I do
Distorted part: I grew up a straight A student but a few things happened 5 years ago and I’m not the same. Anger is the only emotion I can feel deeply everything else feels like a shadow of what I should feel.
Dominant Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Secondary Distortion: Should statements
Patient Question: I have battled with my idiosyncrasies since I was a little girl. I always thought I was merely particular, maybe slightly obsessive. However, after having a child my “sensitivities” if you will, have become markedly more intense. My skin has always been hypersensitive. In fact, I cut my hair multiple times, not bc I’m Daring as I let people believe, but because the individual hairs touching my skin drive me up a wall. Almost to the point of anger. Certain sounds make me want to curl up in a ball or scream. I don’t want this sort of thing influencing the way my child learns to cope with emotions. I have certain ways every little thing needs to be done and I feel like the world is ending when those systems are disrupted. A way of organizing the cabinets, a way of organizing the fridge, a way to load the dishwasher. I have panic attacks when I think about all of the things that are out of order while having a child and it exhausts me. I am severely socially apprehensive although I can mask it. I grew up with many siblings in a very abusive household and had to develop qualities that could help me protect my siblings and form lifelines outside of our home. I struggle every day to leave the house and go to a noisy bar and talk to people all night.
Distorted part: In fact, I cut my hair multiple times, not bc I’m Daring as I let people believe, but because the individual hairs touching my skin drive me up a wall. Almost to the point of anger.   I have certain ways every little thing needs to be done and I feel like the world is ending when those systems are disrupted.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I separated from my boyfriend of 6 years more than 3 years ago. It was a very passionate relationship and we had 13 years age difference — he was older. I basically grew up with him and he was my first relationship. We separated because he had a lot of commitment issues and would not move in with me [he’s had many relationships, but ours was his longest].
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From the U.S.: Around age 7 my father began a serious relationship with my now step-mother. I also began to become sexually curious at this time. My step siblings and I would play some inappropriate games, such as spin the bottle, while exploring this curiosity. For my youngest step brother and I, this progressed over the years into a sexual attraction. By the time I was 13 we began to have oral sex and by age 16 we had intercourse.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From a teen in Egypt: I have noticed that I change my feelings a lot towards people around me, from family to friends, and it causes me problems with them and I just don’t know what’s the root of having to experience this. I sometimes love them too much and other times I just can’t stand being around them. When I start to feel irritated by my some of my friends I immediately decide that I won’t talk to them ever again, but I always feel guilty about these feelings because I have no real reason to feel this way. Lately, I have been trying my best to be positive but there’s always something that happens and just simply makes me feel negative again.
Distorted part: I sometimes love them too much and other times I just can’t stand being around them.  Lately, I have been trying my best to be positive but there’s always something that happens and just simply makes me feel negative again.
Dominant Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient Question: From a teen in the U,S.: I fit the DSM-5 Criteria for BPD. I scored 88 for BPD on sanity score connected to psychcenteral, and the borderline test connected to psychcentral gave me a score of 43 when 33+ is supposed to be generally severe. I know that BPD isn’t usually diagnosed in adolescents but recent studies are starting to show that symptoms actually start at this age.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Let me start by saying that I am an 18 years old hetero male and I am suffering from these thoughts for 2 years. It all started with me face-planting to my mom’s breast get a split second turn on. I felt disgusted by myself, wanted to die, thought that I don’t deserve to live or even go to heaven. I thought I belong to hell. I always tried to check if I get turned on by thinking a sexual thing about my mom and I felt disgusted by myself more and more. But I’ve left it behind when my doctor said that it’s normal to get turned on because I face-planted to a women’s breast and my body reacted to it. Then after suffering these, I started thinking that I am a pedophile. It all started with me getting sexual thoughts from a child anime character who’s name is kanna kamui . She has very thick thighs and wears thigh high socks. Let me say that have a kink about thigh high socks. It all happened again. Disgusting myself, thinking I belong to hell, and not wanting to live. I always checked her pictures to see if I get turned on or not. Which I did n’t. My doctor said that I am not a pedophile as well and suffering from POCD. So with that I always said YOU’RE NOT A PEDOPHILE to myself. I didn’t get any intrusive thoughts about having a sex with children so that helped me as well. And yesterday I’ve gone to my doctor saying that I am not taking medications anymore and I was feeling great. He did some tests on me and I’ve passed all of them. I was happy, better than before. But that day I said okay I am gonna look at the pictures of that child anime girl and think having sex with my mom to see if I get turned on or not if i don’t then I’ll be happy forever. You know what happened? Split second turn on both of them. Now I want to die again. I don’t want to accept that I am a pedophile nor incester. Now I check pictures of that girl and think sexual things about my mom to see if I get turned on but i don’t. But why did I felt that split second turn on? Was it because I was scared that it’ll get it? I am not seeing myself having sex with my mom even if it’s possible. I am not seeing myself having sex with children even if it was ok and legal. I don’t fantasize about children nor my mom. I don’t get turned on by looking at children. I can say that they look good, their legs look good. But not in a sexually aroused way. I just ask myself that if their legs look good or do they look good and say yes or no. I don’t fantasize about their face or get romantically aroused by their face. Am I a pedophile and incest or is it POCD? Please help me. (From Turkey)
Distorted part: It all started with me face-planting to my mom’s breast get a split second turn on. I felt disgusted by myself, wanted to die, thought that I don’t deserve to live or even go to heaven.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I think I might have some sort of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. My mind is constantly wandering and I can never seem to pay attention to anything. When somebody asks me a question sometimes I know that I know the answer but I just can’t seem to find it and it literally feels like there’s nothing but blur in my head. I guess the bottom line is, I want to get professional help with this but I am only 14-years-old and I do not know how to approach the question with my parents. Do you have some advice?
Distorted part: My mind is constantly wandering and I can never seem to pay attention to anything. When somebody asks me a question sometimes I know that I know the answer but I just can’t seem to find it and it literally feels like there’s nothing but blur in my head.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: My boyfriend of almost 2 years, who is 27 years old, has a baby with a previous girlfriend. I didn’t find out until a couple months into our relationship when his ex-girlfriend sent me a message via facebook and told me. I, completely shocked, confronted my boyfriend about it and he cried and said he hadn’t told anyone about it and didn’t know what to do. He said he was going to tell me when “the time was right” but he didn’t want to lose me. He apologized (and still does) for being selfish and that if I didn’t want to stay with him he would understand. At that point I was already completely in love with him and wanted to be with him.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: So I have no close friends at the moment probably I know some people enough just to say hi but no close one and whenever I make any they go away I don’t know if its my personality the reason or the way I behave and the only friends I can gain are school friends since there is no other place I go to I can’t really stand myself alone. Thanks for helping.
Distorted part: So I have no close friends at the moment probably I know some people enough just to say hi but no close one and whenever I make any they go away I don’t know if its my personality the reason or the way I behave and the only friends I can gain are school friends since there is no other place I go to I can’t really stand myself alone.
Dominant Distortion: Personalization
Patient Question: I can’t grasp how many women my boyfriend has been with. My boyfriend has been with more people than I can imagine. He feels rather ashamed of his sexual history. He has had sex with friends, married friends, one night stands, and made friends just to have sex with them. As far as he can “remember,” he did not use a condom with 3 of them (his total number of sexual partners is 15). Since then he has been checked for Sexually Transmitted Diseases (STDs).
Distorted part: My boyfriend has been with more people than I can imagine.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: hi , i keep obsessing on how mind works Like how you think (by that i mean how you produce your inner voice), how you memorize, how you calculate, how you imagine, etc,it makes me so freaked out. It also makes me feel so aware of everything, even my awareness, I want to get outside of myself, but i can’t hide from this hyper-awareness of my consciousness so it makes me even more freaked out (i feel trapped, condemned to listen to my inner voice for eternity). My thoughts scare me, but at the same time it seems like i can’t think about anything else … Sometimes i realize that i was not thinking about thinking but when i realize it i instantly get back in this existential circle. Right now it feels like hell and like i couldn’t ever forget how i’m feeling right now,It’s only when i think about thinking that i feel strange and anxious. When i’m lost in my thought i don’t think about it, of course. Then i realize i was ‘‘lost in my thoughts’’ and i feel a burst of anxiety trough my body,It’s like i’m so aware of my thought processes that it becomes kind of unusual,constant running comentary in my head for everything im doing through the day. HELP ME PLEASE
Distorted part: Right now it feels like hell and like i couldn’t ever forget how i’m feeling right now,It’s only when i think about thinking that i feel strange and anxious.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Secondary Distortion: Fortune-telling
Patient Question: Hi I am 20 years old and just recently moved to Chile with my mother after the separation with my step dad. I have always suffered from depression and have taken medication for it but it seems to never work. These past few years it seems that I have gotten worse. I am constantly down on myself never thinking I am good enough. I can’t even remember what it feels like to be happy. I get angry over what my mother tells me are small things but I tell her they aren’t small to me. I am always on a rollercoaster of emotions, I can be having a good time and the simplest thing will bring me down and I am upset the rest of the day.
Distorted part: I am constantly down on myself never thinking I am good enough.  I am always on a rollercoaster of emotions, I can be having a good time and the simplest thing will bring me down and I am upset the rest of the day.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Secondary Distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Patient Question: From the U.S.: My wife and I got married 17 years ago. A couple of days before our wedding my wife had her last bridal shower at the church she was attending at that time. I was living in another city at the time and on that day I had an argument with my father before I came to the shower. At the shower I was very quiet and did not say too much at all to anyone.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From India: I have known my best friend for the last 14 years and she is 50 and i am 36. She has two grown up daughters. She is a person who worries a lot and takes all things seriously even when her husband teases her. As her husband lived abroad she lived in her moms house, She did have a lot of troubles with her husband and even now he is the general Manager of an estate she continues to live in her moms place as she does not want to go and live with him.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: My mother always comments on my appearance or tries to quickly fix small things about how I look– like hair or clothing– even though I constantly ask her not to, and now I hate receiving compliments from her. She also constantly asks what I’m doing on my phone or laptop and accuses me of doing things I’m not supposed to if I say no. At one point, maybe a year or so ago, I accused her of putting spyware on my phone and she didn’t say no and, if asked, would describe small parts or features of it, albeit hesitantly. When I came out to her she said sexuality fluid and, brought up again later, said I “decided” to be this way and wouldn’t elaborate, and hasn’t brought it up again. I brought up her toxic behaviors to her and she got really angry at me and assigned me chores to do because of it. My brother, who is 18, constantly belittles and yells at me for minuscule things, like not doing a favor for him, and will call me a crybaby if I cry. My mom has stopped trying to stop or punish him and hasn’t for a long time now. I don’t like coming out of my room when either of them are home because it usually always ends up in an argument and I desperately want to get away, but I don’t want to stay with anyone else as I always feel awkward and out of place near other people like family or friends.
Distorted part: My mother always comments on my appearance or tries to quickly fix small things about how I look– like hair or clothing– even though I constantly ask her not to, and now I hate receiving compliments from her.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: Whenever I am in public, perhaps School, I tend to get very uncomfortable whenever people touch me. For example, if someone were to lay their arm on my shoulder I would immediately feel very grossed out and become angry and yell at them to get it off. It doesn’t happen with everyone though, there are a few select people, mostly family members and close friends, that it does not bother me when they touch me. But for the most part I cannot stand when people touch me. (From a preteen in the U.S.)
Distorted part: For example, if someone were to lay their arm on my shoulder I would immediately feel very grossed out and become angry and yell at them to get it off.
Dominant Distortion: Magnification
Patient Question: I lie about things all the time. I make up things and tell people that that is what happened to me. I have told my boyfriend i was raped and severely abused as a child and i lie about things i don’t need to lie about. I had a bit of a tough up bringing with a lot of conflict but not as bad as i tell people. I am wondering if there is a name for this and if there is anything i can do about it? I don’t know why i do it.
Distorted part: I have told my boyfriend i was raped and severely abused as a child and i lie about things i don’t need to lie about. I had a bit of a tough up bringing with a lot of conflict but not as bad as i tell people.
Dominant Distortion: Overgeneralization
Patient Question: Hi. I’m married for an year and had a love marriage. We were in relation for 9 years. And I had to wait 4 years for the approval from my husband’s family for our marriage because we are in different religion and I had to convert to their religion for this marriage . My husband is working abroad and I am staying with in laws. In the first time my in laws were very nice to me. But they hesitated to spend money for my needs—where they give to my sister in law. And my in laws where jobless and my husband was giving them money for daily needs he spent around 60000 -80000 rupees and I had a job with very low salary. And my husband didn’t give money for my needs because I had job. Now I am pregnant I used to spend my own money for my needs even hospital needs. Never my in laws gave me anything. When I told this to my husband he asked thme about this had some issues. From that we decided that we will start a new life and save some money. I was thinking it was going perfect till now. Yesterday I just asked him that whether he is giving money to his parents or not. Then replied yes . And he give 50000 rupees every months to his parents for their expenses. Where I was struggling to find money. Please tell me how can I can get him to help me? (From India)
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: Why does a person pursue men who are unavailable? Examples: 1. Attracted and “tried” dating a guy in high school who was gay but not out of the closet. 2. Asked out guys that were off limits in college, such as resident advisor and leader of organozation (both students who said they weren’t “allowed”to date other students. 3. A man that lived in another state and would hook up on his business trips. I’ve always suspected he was married. 4. A man with no relationship experience who was emotionally the equivalent of a teenager. 5. A man who was recently divorced with two kids and did not want to remarry or have more kids. 6. A man who was still married. 7. A man who lives in another country, doesn’t speak English, has no money, and cannot come to the US unless get a marriage Visa.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion
Patient Question: From the U.S.: My mother has always been critical, but now her behavior is becoming more bold. When she’s called out, she claims to forget or accuses others of misinterpreting her or being too sensitive. She calls people fat in public when they might hear her, but she says doesn’t remember. She commands me to tell her I love her even when I just said it and then tells everyone I refuse to but everyone just heard me. When I get upset she says it’s all a joke, but it’s not really funny, just awkward. Her behavior is bizarre and she’s started to tell me the same stories every time we’re on the phone, just rambling.
Dominant Distortion: No Distortion