Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Since I started college in a different state than my home, I isolated myself to focus on school; I decided that I would just focus on academics and not socialize. As a result, I have made no friends in college and there are days, and sometimes weeks, that go by where I don’t talk to a single person. What drove me to continue isolating myself like this was the fact that I was doing well academically. However, I started realizing that all this time in isolation forced me to constantly focus on negative thoughts and I saw a significant decrease in my cognitive ability; things I could previously do quickly in high school took a lot longer now. When I entered the fall semester of my sophomore year in college, the coursework really picked up and I saw myself doing poorly on one exam after another; it really took a toll on me and I just became more and more discouraged after each failure. The day I got a 27/100 on an organic chemistry exam was the day that it all went downhill. From this day onward, I don’t feel stress anymore; stress is what previously drove me to get my work done and do well on exams. My brain is preventing me from focusing now, because of how discouraged I have become. I spend hours upon hours studying, but I’m never efficient because I don’t feel stress; this has become a cycle and is really taking a toll on me. I can’t seem to figure out what’s wrong with me.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['What drove me to continue isolating myself like this was the fact that I was doing well academically. However, I started realizing that all this time in isolation forced me to constantly focus on negative thoughts and I saw a significant decrease in my cognitive ability; things I could previously do quickly in high school took a lot longer now.'], 'answer_start': [301]}
A few months back I made a character to vent some homicidal ideations with. As time went on, he became more of an imaginary friend I would talk to all the time I was alone, and somewhat fall in love with. He is a serial killer, without a real reason to kill but he does anyway. Sometimes I imagine killing with him, him killing me, or me killing him. I made him so I could have a way to deal with suppressed feelings of committing murder, but lately the thoughts have become less restricted, more thought of. It’s no longer I could never kill; now it’s & I could, and I kind of want to; I want to be like him, even though another part of me screams not to. I know right from wrong, but I fear the longer these intense homicidal ideations fuel my mind, I may crumble become my nearly lifelong fear. I know he’s become a problem, but I don’t want to get rid of him. I’d feel like I killed him, as dumb as that sounds, especially when I said sometimes I imagine killing him. But he’s my friend. The one I can be completely honest with. What can I do to help myself, without losing him? I don’t know if I can change him, he feels like his own person at this point.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['It’s no longer I could never kill; now it’s & I could, and I kind of want to; I want to be like him, even though another part of me screams not to. I know right from wrong, but I fear the longer these intense homicidal ideations fuel my mind, I may crumble become my nearly lifelong fear. I'], 'answer_start': [509]}
Ever since the start of my sophomore year, I have slowly drifted away from my friends and classmates. It is to the point that we do not even say “hi” in the hallways anymore. I am unable to find the motivation to talk to others and often have periods of sadness. This loneliness has been going on for months. I only talk to people when I am forced to, such as class group assignments or extracurricular activities. There is only one person that I am willing to talk to — my boyfriend.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in India: I was in a serious relationship for 3 years. both of us were best friends and later it turned to love. We had a amazing relationship which was a matured one. this is both of ours first serious relationship. v had gone through many problems and had been in a verge of breakup a lot of times but managed to get over it.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have Borderline Personality Disorder & Bipolar Disorder Type II, with transient psychotic episodes. I was prescribed a brand new anti-psychotic, Invega (3 mgs.) about two & a half weeks ago for: distorted thinking, amplified emotions, & daily crying spells. As opposed to the same class of more recent anti-psychotics, such as Seroquel, I am tolerating this one very well — with the exception of weight gain. I have been dieting & exercising in an effort to eliminate or decrease this side effect, but have still already gained 5 pounds! I’d like to know if this side effect will subside as my body gets acclimated to it, or with time. I discontinued the others because this is the one side effect which I will not withstand. I discontinued the others due to this reason. If the answer is no, then should I try the older anti-psychotics, such a Haldol? Do they cause weight gain, too? Will the other drugs help my symptoms? I’d appreciate your opinion. My psychiatrist says he isn’t sure about my concern, since the medication is so new. Thanks in advance.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
One of my good friends recently got diagnosed with depression. I’ve been trying to help her and be supportive but recently, my anxiety has been bad. From self-harming to feeling suicidal, things have been way, WAY better for me. I want to be there for my friend but every time she talks about something negative, I can just feel a part of me breaking away. I don’t know why it’s happening and I tried telling her to try to talk about other things but she just told me that talking about depression helps her. I feel so bad because I’m an awful friend for wanting to drop her but I just don’t want to talk about mental illness. Another important detail that I think was important: I told her I needed space but she told me to help her instead of herself. She later apologized but I’ve just never really forgiven her for it even though I said I did. I don’t know what to do. I feel so conflicted and broken.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel so bad because I’m an awful friend for wanting to drop her but I just don’t want to talk about mental illness.'], 'answer_start': [509]}
From the U.S.: I am a single mother with a 9 year old son with ADHD. I have been raising him on my own with little to no help from his father since he was born. 2 years ago I met my boyfriend who has terminal cancer. My boyfriend and I have a great relationship except we can’t see eye to eye on the way I raise my son. His father is no help as he has actively defied all of my requests to help discipline my child and teach him responsibility.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I deal with a lot of anxious feelings. If others are talking I am always sure they are talking about me and judging me. I worry almost constantly. I have trouble communicating verbally with others and freeze up when others ask me questions. I have to force myself to make eye contact.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['If others are talking I am always sure they are talking about me and judging me.'], 'answer_start': [54]}
I know you’re gonna look at this and make assumptions because I’m a 16 year old girl and I self harm. Most people do it to feel something or seek attention or whatever, but I don’t really have a reason for doing it. I definitely do NOT want anyone to find out because I would probably wear the Scarlett letter in my family for the rest of my life. I like how it feels to hurt myself and I guess that makes me a masochist. I don’t always cut, sometimes I bruise myself. I wouldn’t say that I’m depressed or have a mental illness that would make me hurt myself, but I just want a professional opinion on this because I regret cutting myself since someone is bound to see the scar at some point or another. I got a little carried away one night and it is a pretty big, red scar. The scar doesn’t bother me at all because I like to see marks on my body but I know my mom would probably have a stroke if she saw it. It’s almost swimsuit season you know. I do feel insecure about my body, what teenage girl doesn’t, but that does not even cross my mind when I self harm. So I am just curious as to what a professional would say because I do want help, but I am definitely not going to ask my parents for it. My older sister went off the deep end 3 years ago, and my parents still use her as an example whenever we do something wrong. My mom went through a lot with my older sister, she currently wears the Scarlett letter, and I am not about to do the same. My sister and biological father both have cluster B personality disorder, it was diagnosed, so I am wondering if I might be the same way. I don’t think I am however because I don’t like being the center of attention, and wouldn’t call myself a narcissist, but who would. Once I go off to college i hope to start seeing someone if I can, but in the meantime I am SOL. So any thoughts from a professional would be great.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I know you’re gonna look at this and make assumptions because I’m a 16 year old girl and I self harm.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I’m 14 years old and recently I’ve been worried about some problems. And I blame myself for all that knowing that I can hurt somebody. When I was 13 I didn’t know about all the paraphilias that existed and never thought of anything related to it but I had an experience with my dog. I never forced or touched my pet in any way and it lasted a few seconds until I realized it was bad and never did it again. Also sometimes I tend to watch people in their private parts. now that I’m aware of the consequences I avoid doing it cause I can affect other people and also myself. I know watching people like that is normal during adolescence but I can’t help feeling guilty. Do I have a problem or do I need help about this experiences?

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['And I blame myself for all that knowing that I can hurt somebody.'], 'answer_start': [69]}
From a teen in the U.S.: okay so, my boyfriend says he trusts me but I feel like he doesn’t because next week I have to go to another city for a competition with my team and we will be staying there for 2/3 days. That city is only half an hour away from the beach so he thinks that I’m gonna be messing around with guys while I’m there. And I told him that I would never ever in a million years do something to ruin this relationship.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['okay so, my boyfriend says he trusts me but I feel like he doesn’t because next week I have to go to another city for a competition with my team and we will be staying there for 2/3 days. That city is only half an hour away from the beach so he thinks that I’m gonna be messing around with guys while I’m there.'], 'answer_start': [25]}
Hello, I’m a 3rd year animation student and I’m concerned about my mental health. For the past few weeks I’ve been shifting from severe depression to a kind of mania. I might have felt this “high”once before but not to this point- especially during finals where most individuals are depressed and stressed. Instead of being depressed or even stressed out over work, I’m not. I’ve even been falling behind on work or being late to class and I simply don’t care.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['For the past few weeks I’ve been shifting from severe depression to a kind of mania. I might have felt this “high”once before but not to this point- especially during finals where most individuals are depressed and stressed.'], 'answer_start': [82]}
From a teen in Wales: I can’t stop imagining the life I don’t have. This problem started maybe 5 years ago and has been getting more frequently noticeable. I mainly pick up on real life celebrities or social figures who I like and place myself in a situation with them.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I can’t stop imagining the life I don’t have.'], 'answer_start': [22]}
Six months ago I met the man of my dreams – except there is one catch – he has a 2 year old daughter. I am 24 and he is 34, we have been dating for 6 months and are now living together. I am finding it very very challenging to accept his daughter into my life. He was not previously married to his daughter’ mother, in fact she accidently got pregrant in there 2-3 week dating period. They tried to make it work when they found out about the pregnancy but could not. My partner is extremely committed to his daughter and has promised to always be there for her. I am feeling very resentful of him and his past mistake. I am angry at him for having a daughter and get physically ill often when she is around as it makes me think of him and her mother. I often think about what it will mean to accept his daughter as a permanent part of our lives when we get married and worry that I will always hold resentment towards her. I am hurt, frustrated, sad, angry and overwhelmed with how this is effecting me emotionally. My partner is extremely supportive and listens with an open heart to all of my ridiculousness constanly. We are constantly working together to find solutions to our dillema. I know I am hurting him though and that he wishes I felt differently. I wish that I could accept his daughter with open arms and be much more understanding however i am constantly angry!

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['am feeling very resentful of him and his past mistake.  '], 'answer_start': [564]}
I have been with my fiance for the past 4 years. He was previously married and is divorced with a child. And me and him now have a child together. As a family unit we run great and smoothly. When it involves are children are life is perfect. But between me and him we are having issues that are slowly escalating. I feel like in our relationship he lacks a lot of respect for me. When the children are not present he will cuss me out when upset, tell me to leave or think of the meanest thing he can say to hurt me. At first he told me he acted that way because are sexually life wasn’t the best (to be honest we have two kids and i am tired) so i have tried to make an effort to make that better and his behaviors got better for a few days and then he is back acting this way. I have tried talking to him about it and again it will get better a few days then back to the same. I love him (and don’t get me wrong he is a good person and an amazing dad). I don’t want to break up our family but i can feel myself becoming resentful and just avoiding him all together to avoid any confrontation. I am lost on what to do?

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like in our relationship he lacks a lot of respect for me. When the children are not present he will cuss me out when upset, tell me to leave or think of the meanest thing he can say to hurt me.'], 'answer_start': [314]}
I was brought up in a religious home and have struggled with the belief that I am possessed. I know it sounds crazy but the feeling is very real. Since early adolescence, I am visited by an evil presence quite often while asleep. He tries to enter me and I am frozen in complete fear. He speaks to me and threatens me with things I can’t bring myself to write or tell anyone. As a child my mom would take me to church and they would pray for deliverance but it never went away even though I eventually told her it did. A few years ago, I started seeing a psychologist for anxiety. After a year and a half of therapy I finally had the courage to tell my therapist about the sexual contact I had by three men when I was between the ages of 6-15yrs. My psychologist is convinced that these possession episodes are flashbacks to those experiences. Is he telling me the truth? I want to believe him but I’m afraid. It’s been very difficult to process the memories from the childhood experiences because of the shame and guilt I feel for being so needy. I enjoyed the attention and even initiated much of the contact. I may have been a child but I knew it was wrong. I feel like God is punishing me.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['It’s been very difficult to process the memories from the childhood experiences because of the shame and guilt I feel for being so needy.'], 'answer_start': [910]}
I have been was in a relationship with a man for three years. I will call him A. We lived together and he wanted to and still wants to marry me. While I started and developed the relationship with him because I was very lonely at the time, I developed feelings for him and to this date, he is my closest friend. The problem that I always had when I was with him was that I was never in love with him. Staying in the relationship felt very emotionally safe and I was happy being with him even though I never felt the “butterflies in the stomach” being with or thinking of him. He felt like a family and I did and still do care about him. And that was what I was looking for – the emotional comfort of having someone next to me who loves me and cares about me. The missing part in our relationship was the fact that I never felt romantically about him and so two years later, I started sleeping with another man B, which developed into a relationship. I feel in love with B but I have been comparing him with A and this of course has made me see more of his negatives. I am very attracted to him and like to spend time with him. However, when the time came to “go home”, i.e. do every day things, relax and stay home, I would always want to meet with A. A continues to feel like home, like the place where I go at the end of the day to be comfortable, share my day at work, watch TV, or just relax while being silent.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I am worried about developing psychosis or something similar. Hello! I am a 34 year old female who has been diagnosed with and dealing with panic disorder with some agoraphobia for just over a year now. I have managed this disorder by doing kundalini yoga, and also by learning to talk myself through a panic attack before the symptoms get worse. I was doing quite well, until last month. I am writing about this panic attack because I am so afraid of developing a psychotic illness. I am afraid that I might have a psychotic break during a panic attack.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am writing about this panic attack because I am so afraid of developing a psychotic illness. I am afraid that I might have a psychotic break during a panic attack.'], 'answer_start': [389]}
If the law says you can’t force someone to go to the doctor and get help…how do you get them help. My mom has suffered from bipolar mania for years. We know because the first time she had it when they had the ambulance take her because she hadn’t slept for 7 days the doc said it was bipolar. No episode for years then for about the last 4 years she has had at least 1-3 episodes per year. Now it’s getting more frequent. She in in major denial. We’ve even set up doctor appointments and she made us cancel. At 71 I don’t think her body can take the level the mania is putting her through. Is there a way to force help on her? How do we address it to her when she is in denial? Do we wait to have the conversation when she is not manic or during manic? HELP…WE ARE AT THE END OF OUR ROPE.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['At 71 I don’t think her body can take the level the mania is putting her through.'], 'answer_start': [508]}
Can you point towards resources for navigating rare cases of carefully considered, consensual, post-therapy romantic relationships between client and therapist? Very rarely, there are legitimate cases of two people wanting to be above board in their pursuit of a relationship. Should we not have resources and guidelines for such situations?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
The other day my family and I were out at a restaurant, and this child in the booth behind us kept screaming and yelling and wouldn’t stop. Around the third time he yelled I had an image flash in my head of me strangling and then cutting up the child. I felt an immense anger for some 5 seconds. Then after that, the thought faded and I was very emotionally detached for the rest of the dinner. I felt no emotion whatsoever and said nothing. I had no urges to do anything but sit and stare at the table. I don’t know why I had such a violent thought, or strange feeling after. I did not act on my thought (just to be clear). (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I felt no emotion whatsoever and said nothing.'], 'answer_start': [395]}
From Australia: Im preoccupied with my boyfriend’s past. He didn’t tell me he was married before. When I found out I said nothing. I bottled it up. I’m reminded of it constantly, either it comes up in conversation, he mentions something about his past, or I ruminate about it in my head.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m reminded of it constantly, either it comes up in conversation, he mentions something about his past, or I ruminate about it in my head.'], 'answer_start': [148]}
I’m 15 and struggle with depression; its become an issue thats affecting my performance in school& ability to function properly. My parents are divorced but I have no choice but for there to be more of my mom’s time & she has more control over my life in general. a few months ago i tried to talk to her about the fact that im depressed and most likely need medical attention, she dismissed it as me just being a lazy hormonal teenager who feels sorry for myself. i said i needed therapy and she said i need to solve my own problems and not rely on a therapist. even if its not a case of mental illness i have no way of knowing this because i cannot get help. its taken a horrible toll on my grades and the only thing keeping me from considering the possibility of suicide is that i have friends who need me. i feel like i cant go on much longer and i have no way of finding out if i need medical attention let alone getting any. my dad would be more understanding but he doesnt have much control and i really feel like i cannot go on much longer without therapy or medication which i cant get. please help.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['i feel like i cant go on much longer and i have no way of finding out if i need medical attention let alone getting any.'], 'answer_start': [809]}