Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I always had a problem growing up being slow and being put in small classes in school. I was told I have ADHD and that is why I am so slow. But my mom told me 2 days ago that im mentally challenged. I am not sure what that is or if I have that or what. But I do find it hard to wright read and do math well it takes me longer than most people my age. am a really mentally challenged??? how do i find out if i am becouse i am having a hard time believing my mom. but also my mom told me i got tested and that what the doctor told her – that i am Mentally challenged but what i wanna know is can i grow out of it if i am or was???

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
For a lot of the time I feel indifferent about everything.  It feels like I’m just floating along through life, not really caring much.  For example, I didn’t really care where I ended up going to college, and I should.  I should care that my best friend is going to be moving several hours away that ‘m going to be graduating in less than a month, and that soon I get to live with my sister, but instead I don’t really feel anything, not sadness or happiness just nothing.  But at the same time, I act the same.  I still crack jokes and laugh.  Life just doesn’t feel like it’s quite real.  Sometimes, I’ll be walking and I’ll feel like I’m shoved back into reality.  I don’t know how else to describe it.  It’s like I’m suddenly reminded that I am not a floating voice, I have feet and a body.  I don’t know how long I’ve felt like this, but it’s probably been at least 2 or 3 years, maybe more.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['For example, I didn’t really care where I ended up going to college, and I should.'], 'answer_start': [137]}
From Columbia: I don’t actually know what’s wrong with me, or if there is, but for the past years i have lost interest in everything and I feel like by now nothing makes me sad, upset, angry, excited, happy or anything at all anymore. It seems like I don’t have emotions, but I don’t think i’m depressed.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Honestly, i don’t know how and where even to start… and i dont know how to say all of this in only 400 words…recently ive started to suspect i might have schizophrenia. i believe that everyone is watching me, and i cant trust anyone (that includes you), that there are cameras everywhere, that i am dead and that this is just someone trying to see how id be after my death. ever since i was little too (about 5) i believed i was being watched by people on a secret island and made a film of. i try to convince myself that it’s not real;that there’s no way it’s real..but i cant. i have a psychotherapist, but i just can’t tell her anything i want to. i can’t force myself to tell her anything, but i really want to. and when i tried to explain my anxiety and attacks to her, i couldnt explain it properly.(diagnosed me with DID but i dont feel it at all) at school, when someone asks me something, i can never explain my feelings AT ALL. i always get something wrong,even though i know the answer.i’ve noticed that sometimes my sentences dont make sense to my friends, because i cant even say a sentence properly and i see things they don’t. i also have severe ptsd where at times i go completely deaf and nightmares, but the memories came back only recently (after 3 yrs) and i am sure im just making it up so i can pity myself and have a reason to be depressed. during the past 1yr i also ended up diagnosing myself with different disorders to explain my head-but always changing my mind..(pathological lying,ADD,PTSD,schizo,cotard delusion,SAD..)i know it’s wrong to diagnose myself;but since i cant tell anyone,and just keep lying all the time,im curious&desperate i only have this.i discovered something about myself though-im comfortable anonymous.there’s also always someone watching me from my bedroom window and scared.im suicidal(but im dead anyway so).i have crazy voices in my head that i cant control.i can barely tell whats real and whats not.i hate lying to my friends and family all the time about the smallest things.no one knows though.i cant really put all my emotions and things going on in 400 words.but this is without many details…

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['i believe that everyone is watching me, and i cant trust anyone (that includes you), that there are cameras everywhere, that i am dead and that this is just someone trying to see how id be after my death. '], 'answer_start': [169]}
I have been thinking about my morality a lot lately since watching Death Note. I cant’ help but think about what I’d do if one dropped out of the sky; would I use it or not? For months now I’ve been questioning my morality. I’ve always said that no one should get the death penalty, but I find that I often go back on that without realising. I’ve been watching Dexter recently, (don’t think I’m romanticising his life or anything) and I can’t help but think that if I could get away with it, if a bad person was strapped down helpless on a table in front of me, that I would kill him. As well as that, for a long time I think I’ve been developing mild sadistic tendencies. I’ve never felt like hurting someone in real life but I love seeing characters suffer in their respective universes. I have been thinking about how this happened, and it made me think about a time 3-4 years ago when the ISIS beheading video came out. I was scared to watch it because it was real, but I wanted to see what death looked like. In the end I didn’t watch it, but I did watch the Facebook video of the homeless man being shot. The description on the website warned against watching, saying something along the lines of, ‘it’ll ruin your entire day’, but after I watched it I was just disappointed because of how anti-climactic it was. I know a guy died, but even now I just can’t get myself to care or feel sorry for him or his family, even though i know I should.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I know a guy died, but even now I just can’t get myself to care or feel sorry for him or his family, even though i know I should.'], 'answer_start': [1319]}
I have a 16 year old sister who has social anxiety and does not respond well to talk therapy. She’s been in IOP, partial, individual therapy, and has a psychiatrist. None of this has been helpful. She is still chronically suicidal, self harms, and stays in her room for most of the day (She’s on medical leave from school).

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: I have two irrational subconscious ideas that I need to solve. The first one is I think that people are always watching me. My brain tells me they hide cameras or do something so they see me and what I am doing all the time. I mostly think and worry about people I know doing this. My mind tells me they are doing this all the time.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I mostly think and worry about people I know doing this.'], 'answer_start': [250]}
This feels kinda stupid but I know I need help? I’ve slowly lost touch with everyone in my life, including my whole family. I have exams coming up and everyone expects me to do amazing but I can’t. I can barely find energy to get up in the morning. there are times when I feel like crying, even though there’s nothing wrong. I’ve always got a headache, or stomach ache, or just generally feel ill. I think I hate myself and this makes me hate everyone else too. I feel like I’m ‘digging my own grave’. I talked to someone honestly, and she basically told me to ‘suck it up’. Sometimes I wonder if she’s right though, maybe its just me being a twat. Recently, I’ve buried myself in all the fantasy worlds in tv shows. My whole family seems more complete without me, and just generally happier. The friends I used to have got left behind as I moved schools, and I ended up with the popular kids. I just don’t wanna cry anymore. I’m just so tired. and I can’t talk to anyone. my parents think I’m crazy, and I’m making stuff up. they’re too busy with my siblings to even notice me half the time. sometimes I wonder if they wish they didn’t have me. I’ve also gained a lot of weight. it sucks. I’m taller than my own dad like is that even possible? and fat. I’ve tried working out… I look like an idiot. I just want to leave everywhere, but that isn’t possible. I’ve been brought up as a Christian, but sometimes it feels like even god doesn’t want me. I went to a retreat, and came back happy and refreshed. no matter how much I pray I cant get it back. it seems like whatever I do now I always wrong. I’m so sick of being here. sometimes I wish I could just sleep till I’m old. talking to people makes me feel like an attention seeker, begging them to notice me. but I need their help, I don’t know how to ask for it. Everyone keeps asking me if I’m alright, apart from my parents. I thought they were the people who were meant to notice you and know you the best? I always say sure I’m okay but I literally don’t know. I wanna leave home. (From England)

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['it seems like whatever I do now I always wrong. '], 'answer_start': [1551]}
Hi there, I’ve been in a relationship for 6 months with my boyfriend and honestly this is my first  real relationship. I know I have room to grow but what he has expressed to me is that I have inappropriate emotional dependent relationships with my friends. I disagree and of course I get upset with him if he says harsh things about them which then he counters that I am not loyal to him and I should just accept his brash, rude remarks (because he’s right?). For example he says all my friends are stupid, and they are going nowhere. Most of my friends are actors and like me we are figuring it out, the business is not easy. I tell him if that if he respected me he would not talk about the people I care about that way- which then he counters that I’m more emotionally invested in them. Furthermore we’ve fought about me having gay guy friends, he says its not because they are gay but because they don’t stand for what we are trying to build together. He then just recently said it’s because they are male and I shouldn’t have any male friends, that he should be the only man in my life. I’m not so attached to my guy friends but him saying all this makes me uncomfortable. I don’t see why if my relationships are strictly platonic that I have to cut them off. My bottom line fear is that he’s being controlling. I KNOW he loves me very much and out of respect to me he would cut any of his friends off if I did not like them but I would never do that! (unless extreme circumstances) And he does not see any of his girl friends any more. I’m scared to talk to him about this again because he will think I care more about my friends then him (something he is always saying) and end the relationship. I don’t want it to end over some guys friends I have but I don’t think it’s fair I have to cut them off. What should I do? (From the US)

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I KNOW he loves me very much and out of respect to me he would cut any of his friends off if I did not like them but I would never do that!'], 'answer_start': [1318]}
(I’ve edited this letter down by half) From a 19 year old young man: When I was 12 years old a new teacher came to my school. She was young, approx. 22 years old, and this was her second year of teaching. We clicked from day 1, and over time, we developed a strong, positive student – teacher relationship.. . We began email communication between her and I. At first, they weren’t really anything, just conversations about school, the subject she taught, and things we had in common (which turned out to be a lot).

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.:  My husband and I separated 2 years ago for a couple of months (he was my fiance then). Guess the wedding planning was taking its toll on us. After 5 months we got back together and went ahead with the wedding. During the breakup he met a woman and started a relationship with her. When he realized he still wanted to be with me he called off his relationship and we got married.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My boyfriend of four months has invited me on a trip across Canada this summer. We have already planned out most of the itinerary and have discussed the cost of the trip. All that I needed was a yes from my parents. When I brought it up, my mom was on board, initially, but asked me to speak to my father about it. She then told me that she was less comfortable with the trip because I haven’t been with my boyfriend for long enough. When I asked my dad about it, he was initially concerned with the distance and length of the trip, because I do get anxious at times and can have panic attacks. After speaking with my dad, he seemed to be okay with the trip except for not having known my boyfriend for long enough. While I agree that this is completely reasonable, I want them to be able to see it from my perspective.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
We’re both in our late 20’s and have been dating for 8 yrs now. We enjoy being with one another, he makes me laugh and I make him laugh too. But lately, I’ve been feeling very jealous. He works a lot and the only time we have together are on the weekends. But he doesn’t even want to spend that time with me. All he ever wants to do is hang out with his friends, and when I get mad at him, he thinks I’m being “crazy”, unreasonable, and can’t understand me. I’ve been getting mad pretty frequently lately. And I’m sick and tired of being mad. He thinks the part of the problem is me not wanting to hang out with his friends. Am I really being crazy? What can I do?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: I’m 19 years old, and I have a great fear of developing schizophrenia. It all started when I watched a video about Marina Joyce and her supposed mental illness, and being the idiot that I am looked up the symptoms and noticed something I sometimes do (thought blocking), but I stopped myself from doing that.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m 19 years old, and I have a great fear of developing schizophrenia.'], 'answer_start': [25]}
I grew up in an extremely abusive home. My mother used to watch me get beat, she too was beaten, and there was never anyone that could help me. At age 9, I snapped and decided to kill my stepfather, but on that day my mother’s parents came took me to live with them. They showed me love, and cared for me, but I have always felt like something was missing from my life. I have sought to fill that void through relationships, but all have failed except the one I am currently in. I have had a spouse that got hooked on drugs commit suicide, then got remarried years later only to be cheated on, and now I can’t stop being suspicious of my current spouse.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have severe generalized anxiety and treatment resistant major depressive disorder. I am prescribed medication by my family doctor, whom I see once every two months. During my last prescription renewal, I asked him if there are any other treatments or medications that I haven’t yet tried, and his answer was very confusing. He said, “Psychiatry hasn’t changed. The only treatment I know of that works [for depression] is to have a full life, be active socially, work full time, get plenty of exercise, and get up at 6:30am every day.” I asked him, “How do you do that with anxiety and problems, and chronic trouble sleeping?” He responded, “All at the same time, I guess.”

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a 13 year old in the U.S.: Hi, I struggle with what seems like depersonalization but I can’t find anything like my case on the website. I don’t take any drugs and I haven’t had any really bad anxiety since fifth grade. However, I feel detached from reality.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Well I fell in love with a friend. first I didn’t know she was bi. we hangout a lot and one day we were at my house and she started getting close to me and she kissed my neck and I didn’t push her off. we didn’t kiss or had sex. well the two days after we acted like we were together but secretly because she wasn’t out. and after that she apologized for the day when she got close to me. than I had to tell her that I love her and she rejected me. we met for a quick talk and she told me that she is in love with our straight friend (her best friend) and she don’t want to use me as a rebound. and what she felt the day we got close was only physical. well I don’t think so because she is not a sexual/physical person and she told me that when we talked again on the phone (contradiction) What I know that she had issues with her dad and that common friend (a girl) stayed by her side back in the days. I don’t know also what type of issues she had with her dad. what I know is that when she talks about him she describes him as an animal. the straight friend is so much caring, she cares about everyone and stayed next to her this time. it’s hard for me because I saw the spark in her eyes when we hang out together even this one friend want us to be together because she thought that the girl I love likes me too because it’s obvious. it’s hard for me because she still talks to me every day I see her at college we have the same classes. it’s very hard because she gave me signals than she rejected me I don’t know if I should tell our common friend that she loves her I don’t know if a should stay by her side I don’t know if I should leave it’s just too hard for me I care for her and want to know if this bad relationship with her dad and our friend being caring are the reasons that she rejected me or she maybe thought that was love and she is just afraid of losing her best friend. ps she told that even if her best friend will only think of her as a sister she would be happy to stay with her because she loves her and she rejected my help to get out of the situation. (From Lebanon)

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['it’s hard for me because she still talks to me every day I see her at college we have the same classes. it’s very hard because she gave me signals than she rejected me I don’t know if I should tell our common friend that she loves her I don’t know if a should stay by her side I don’t know if I should leave it’s just too hard for me I care for her and want to know if this bad relationship with her dad and our friend being caring are the reasons that she rejected me or she maybe thought that was love and she is just afraid of losing her best friend.'], 'answer_start': [1338]}
From a teen in Australia: I don’t know why, but I enjoy feeling in control of others more than I should. I manipulate and blackmail to get what I want, which makes me sound like a bad person when I’m really not, but recently I have started to think about and even seriously consider murder. How easy would it be to just stab my parents in their sleep? Of course, I would never do something like that, but for some reason I’m not worried about my homicidal thoughts, when I really should be. I would ask my mother about this, but I’m pretty sure she’d just dismiss my questions, as I have a history of lying to get attention.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I don’t know why, but I enjoy feeling in control of others more than I should.'], 'answer_start': [26]}
Alright, quick backstory here: I’m currently 17 years old and I’ve moved out of my mother’s place last year. For pretty much my entire life, I’ve witnessed my mother acting like a lunatic. My dad and her argued over nonsense and he had to move us multiple times because she thought there was something wrong with the houses we lived in. She complained about demons being in the walls or something.. I don’t know.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['For pretty much my entire life, I’ve witnessed my mother acting like a lunatic.'], 'answer_start': [109]}
…but it seems different to other experiences people have with it on this site. I think i may have OCD but i am slightly confused as it is very area based. The type of OCD that certain items ahve to be in the right place. I also do a lot of mental counting. Such as the fact that I have to do everything either 3,4,9,10+ (not 13) times. Everyday i have to do these counting and moving rituals although some days are worse than others. Some days i have no control but some days i have more control over them. Individually these rituals do not take long but when added toughener they take up about 30 minutes. It vary a lot by each day)(I have never really counted and so this is just a guess) of my day. For example when i am going to be I always have a certain pattern that can take quite long. I can also get quite distressed if i do not do these rituals. These reasons i am saying this and not looking at other, already answered questions is that it is very area based. I only get the moving and organizing rituals at my house. Anywhere else and I do not get them. Even the counting rituals are not as bad. But when i get home they suddenly all come back. I am speaking about it now as i used to just think that i was just an organized person but i am thinking now that because i have little control over my obsessions that it may be OCD. I feel like if i do not do my obsession then something bad will happen. Such as my house burning down, family member getting ill or something bad happening to another human/animals. I have certain images stuck in my head that make me do the rituals, otherwise the images will come true. When writing those words i feel anxiety rise up. I also get lot of other small obsessions. Too many to count. For example so are how i look at video online, i cannot skip backwards and this can very annoying. I is as though i have another brain telling my what to do.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like if i do not do my obsession then something bad will happen. Such as my house burning down, family member getting ill or something bad happening to another human/animals.'], 'answer_start': [1340]}
How do I stop myself from losing control, all of sudden I will be freaking out screaming at the top of my lungs at my bo? I have been dating my boyfriend for 2 years now and we are certain we are going to spend the rest of our lives together, but will wait a few more years for marriage. I love him so much, but we have these huge horrible fights. For example today, he came over for lunch today and everything was great, I found out he had Saturday off of work, so I said we should plan something. And he thought I was yelling and I did not think I was, he said that we don’t have to have this perfect day like in the movies, but I was just excited to have a day off together and wanted to plan something so he did not make plans with others.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['How do I stop myself from losing control, all of sudden I will be freaking out screaming at the top of my lungs at my bo?'], 'answer_start': [0]}