Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I’m not in a constant state of sadness, but I have moments where I feel very sad, sometimes even suicidal. I recently asked my parents if I could get a therapist, but I only mentioned stress because I thought they would be too worried if I mentioned depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts. However, I did end up telling my principal two days ago that I think about harming myself about once a week, which means she told my dad that I do. He’s in another country, so he’s not addressing it directly; he has just been writing more emails to me. I broke up with my boyfriend about 3 months ago (about a month after school started), and ever since then, I feel very awkward when talking to anyone besides the people I have known for two years. I’m always unconsciously thinking about what to say next. I know I have a lot of friends at school, but it just does not feel comfortable talking to any of them (this is my first year going to this school). Before I broke up with my boyfriend, I was just shy in talking to some people, not awkward. I am theorizing that breaking up with him has done something to my conscience, but I’m not entirely sure why.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I broke up with my boyfriend about 3 months ago (about a month after school started), and ever since then, I feel very awkward when talking to anyone besides the people I have known for two years. '], 'answer_start': [546]}
From a young woman in Hungary: Dear Doctor! I’m writing because I think I have a serious problem with my relationship and I feel like I’m unable to handle it on my own. I overcame depression years ago, but even without it I’m pretty much an introverted person, who has never been emotionally stabile and I feel like my boyfriend is using this against me.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I overcame depression years ago, but even without it I’m pretty much an introverted person, who has never been emotionally stabile and I feel like my boyfriend is using this against me.'], 'answer_start': [169]}
I have been feeling lost and confused about life. I’m 30 and still don’t know what I want to do with my life. I did not go to college and I don’t feel It’s for me. I work in retail but I hate it. I thought I had a passion for other jobs that I’ve had in life, but it turned out I don’t. I can’t find anything that makes me happy and that I can stand. I quit jobs constantly because I don’t like them or I just feel like i don’t fit in with the people at the jobs. I’d rather work alone because I can’t stand working with people because a lot of people drain my energy with being negative.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I thought I had a passion for other jobs that I’ve had in life, but it turned out I don’t.'], 'answer_start': [196]}
I am wondering what stage of breakup I am in. Breakup occurred three weeks ago, had been five years with him. I’m starting to accept the reality, but I’m wondering if I’m still in denial and have the other four stages of grief to go through. He (former boyfriend) blindsided me with the breakup, it was sudden. I have spent many days being extremely upset and wanting him to contact me and tell me he regrets that decision. While I still hope he eventually regrets it, I feel like I’m starting to accept he is gone and let go. This would mean I skipped the anger, bargaining, and depression stages of grief and I can’t imagine I’d be in acceptance this early. However, I don’t feel like I’m in shock as much, and I am consciously telling myself the relationship is over and I need to move on. Does this mean I’m still in denial? Or does it seem like I am transitioning to a different stage?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I love cutting my skin open so much. Although sight of blood makes me sick (and seldom faint), I love watching blood oozing out of my self-inflicted wound. I am extremely addicted to it. I don’t understand. Why is this happening and what can I do to prevent it. (I have talked to a number of psychologist but that did not help.)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: when i was 16 i started smoking weed heavily everyday for about a year and a half. i started smoking because i had a bad breakup. the girl i loved deeply at that age, left me for another man. i had to stop after i had a bad trip on acid which during the trip. i had anxiety and fears of getting schizophrenia the whole time for 12 hours. this happened about 7 months ago. ever since then iv had to quit weed because it gave me panic attacks. iv had 3 total panic attacks since then. 1 on weed. 1 i think from nicotine. and the last one was from me being sober?.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['i had anxiety and fears of getting schizophrenia the whole time for 12 hours. this happened about 7 months ago. ever since then iv had to quit weed because it gave me panic attacks.'], 'answer_start': [285]}
From South Africa: Hello. My fiance’s mother passed away last year from cancer, so we took his 8 year old brother into foster care. At first it was fine, but we are having problems with him lying a lot. He says he lies because he does not want to get into trouble, although we have explained many times that he will be in bigger trouble if he lies. He recently started swearing at the older kids at school, when I asked about it he lied about the words he used and who he said it to.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My mom always makes fun of me when she’s mad. When she gets mad she starts making fun of my face and says I have such ugly acne and I’m overweight and nobody likes ugly tall girls. Every time I misbehave like any other teenager would, she would forcefully make me apologize to her and my dad and if I don’t they would just stop talking to me and eventually I’ll end up apologizing at the most smallest things. And every time my two sisters would misbehave my parents would just forgive them. I ALWAYS have to apologize when I do something wrong and they don’t.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I ALWAYS have to apologize when I do something wrong and they don’t.'], 'answer_start': [492]}
I have been struggling with OCD and anxiety for the past 6 months. It has been an intense 6 months and I am still struggling daily although I am trying my best to do the little things that help me to not be so obsessive over my worries. Recently, I have been worried about one day going insane and not being able to control it. I once watched a movie about a man who was able to time travel against his own will, everytime he woke up from his sleep. I know this is ridiculous but I actually thought what if that happens to me? And feared for a couple days straight. I know this is impossible and now that I look back on it, I realize that this is almost laughable. Although I no longer fear that I will be able to time travel, I’m afraid of the fact that I even feared such a ridiculous, impossible scenario. It triggered anxiety in me because I thought that I was going crazy. It was different from any other fear that I had because this was a fear that was sprouted from fiction while all of my other fears sprouted from things that happened in real life. (Ex. Cancer). I researched online and read that people who are crazy have a hard time differentiating reality from fiction. But during those two day of fear, it was almost as if It could happen to me (which I know that it couldn’t). Am I going crazy? I’m really afraid. Thank you for your response.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Recently, I have been worried about one day going insane and not being able to control it.'], 'answer_start': [237]}
I’m struggling to do anything at all, all I really want to do is sit somewhere on my own and rot away forever. I have been skipping school and not keeping in contact with my friends for the past month all of my relationships feel strained like they would be better without me. I really don’t know how to put into words how I feel even though I try they feel so chaotic and confusing I don’t know how to describe them. I normally feel this way when there is a lot of stress and I leave it alone until it overflows, and I end up doing irrational things if I go out. I usually take recreational drugs to cope with this I don’t think I overuse them though. not often. My life is spiraling out of control and I need to find some way to stop it. I don’t know what to do. (From the United Kingdom)

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m struggling to do anything at all, all I really want to do is sit somewhere on my own and rot away forever.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
Hi, Doctor, I think I’m continued dive in the depression. I can’t feel very well. When I trying to get rid of my bad thoughts which is continuously coming to my mind –I can’t. When I trying to concentrate on my work I can’t. Every time I think about ” what happened next or what if I can’t do anything in my life.” I literally struggled to live a normal Happy life. 'Please help me to overcome my meaningless fear and the big one of the big problems for me is I’m not very Happy with my physique… I’m a very skinny guy and of course, I just want to get rid of this skinny shit… Pls help me what should I do…….pls pls pls reply soon…..Awaited to ur reply. (From India)

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m now 24 and nothing I’ve to do with my life. When I get up –think to do take a step for my career or anything, I feel fear–; the fear of nothing I don’t know where this fear in came from and why I feared a lot'], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hello, I am a 16 years old boy, and attending my second last year of school. Time management has always been a problem for me, but my grades never showed this as I was gifted as a student. Things started changing at the beginning of the year, my grades were dropping because I was not putting in the effort. I used to play games, and this may have contributed somewhat.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Please help me. I am fairly strong and I have been in therapy during hard times in my life but my doctor retired years ago I am going through a crisis of grief, isolation, friends not being there and serious anxiety and depression and I cannot wrangle it and I don’t have any money to see a regular therapist. I feel so alone and I’ve not been able to wrangle it no matter how bad it is. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel very alone I reach out to people but they don’t seem to realize that support is one of the main cornerstones in life.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel so alone and I’ve not been able to wrangle it no matter how bad it is'], 'answer_start': [310]}
I wear lingerie & panties… can’t accept and can’t stop… (HELP) I’m a 28 year old married male with a new 8 month old son. Ever since I can remember (around 8 years old) I’ve had a thing for women’s undergarments. I can remember looking at the old JC Penney’s catalogue and immediately being drawn to the lingerie pages wondering how it might feel to wear these items. I took this wonderment to the actual by trying on my mom’s panties and occasionally my sister’s. I couldn’t help then and now to feel how taboo this is and that I am wrong in doing it… still to this day it feels wrong… I cannot accept this part of my life. I really just wish it never would have happened in the first place.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I couldn’t help then and now to feel how taboo this is and that I am wrong in doing it…'], 'answer_start': [465]}
I am a 56 year old female and my guy is 57. We have a relationship based on friendship with benefits. He doesn’t want any type of relationship that will result in commitment. So I have agreed to sleep with him because he is so kind and sweet to me outside the bedroom. The surprise came when we got into bed. He became a different person. He is very aggressive. He does not engage in any foreplay. Oh, and when I mentioned it, he corrected it by kissing me on the neck. Then he hopped on top of me and ask me if I am ready for him.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: So this started happening summer of last year. My brother all of a sudden threw all his clothes away for no reason. He would often come to my room at night and say ask how my day was and then say things that wouldn’t make sense. For example he would say, “did anyone call you, no? I think someone called me I don’t know who” etc. Recently this year he has been locking himself up in his room, not eat until nighttime. He won’t even sleep until 4-5 AM.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I cannot speak any languages without my original language. even I know these languages but I don’t know why I can’t talking with people sometimes I feel I don’t have a desire to do that even I need it at work and school. I feel I’m changed everything is different now. I’m was so active girl. I was having a work a lot of friend and perfect body. Now I’m fat I do everything but I can lose some weight everyday my weight is changing. I can’t focus on my study also I don’t have a desire to know new people. please help me because now I can’t even going to cinema I scared to know anyone because I can’t speak. I feel very calm and I do not want to feel anything. I remember my past life and I want to go back to it. I feel I do not have time to rebuild my life. I’m 29 now and I came to America two years ago. I graduated from college and had my work and friends. Never again. I’m scared. I feel sorry. Unfortunately, I know that I should not be. I tried to prevent myself from thinking this way, but to no avail.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['Now I’m fat I do everything but I can lose some weight everyday my weight is changing. I can’t focus on my study also I don’t have a desire to know new people. please help me because now I can’t even going to cinema I scared to know anyone because I can’t speak.'], 'answer_start': [347]}
I am 22. My partner is 38. His daughter is 16. I have witnessed some ghastly behavior from his daughter. She has always hated me and has always tried to get rid of me, but now she’s going too far. She is OBSESSED with her father – my partner of nearly 6 years. She will find his dirtiest, smelliest shirt/jacket, bury her head in it, take a big smell, then she’ll just smile up at the ceiling. She constantly brags to her father about her ‘sexual exploits’. Talking about how she ‘has no gag reflex’ and ‘likes the feeling and taste of…’ well, I think you can guess where that quote is going. She constantly asks him about our sex life and tells him things I can do to “make him feel nicer” She is trying to replace me, and I don’t know how to deal with this. I have various mental problems and am too weak to deal with this in a rational manner. I can’t do this. I’m begging you, please help. (From Australia)

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['She is trying to replace me, and I don’t know how to deal with this.'], 'answer_start': [691]}
My husband I have been married for three years and up until about three months ago, things have been great. There have been a number of stressful events for him lately: I had a minor health crisis and a car accident (unrelated), he experienced medication-induced weight gain (a BIG no-no for him). Also, he was adopted as a baby and recently found his biological family. That’s been very positive, but very emotional too. Lately, he’s been lashing out at me on a regular — almost nightly basis. The slightest thing can set him off. He gets angry if I don’t help enough. But many times, I’ll ask “What can I do for you after work?” He’ll say “nothing.” Then he gets mad at me for not helping. Or he’ll say he had ABCDXYZ to do and I didn’t do any of it. If I point out that I had no idea he had all that and he should have asked for my help, he snaps that I should have just known it. I try to stay calm but it’s hard not to feel hurt when he hurls accusations at me, like saying I don’t care about him and that I just married him for his money. That’s not true. He’s also angry that I’m close to my family (he’s never gotten along with his adoptive parents) and he keeps insisting that I must have been molested as a child and then brainwashed because that’s the only reason I’d be so loyal to them. I’m hoping finding and bonding with his biological family — which is already happening — will help with the family stuff but I’m still afraid. I love my family. I know they’re not perfect but I also know they’d NEVER hurt me. Or him. It’s becoming an almost nightly occurrence that we’ll have several hours of him lashing out at me and me basically taking it and feeling worse and worse about myself or more and more resentful of him. He always apologizes and says he knows he was wrong. Yet it happens again. He won’t do counseling. He’s tried it before and insists it doesn’t work for him. He does see a psychiatrist and takes mood stabilizing meds. What other options do I have? I want him to be happy and to be more like he was.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['It’s becoming an almost nightly occurrence that we’ll have several hours of him lashing out at me and me basically taking it and feeling worse and worse about myself or more and more resentful of him.'], 'answer_start': [1534]}
My problem started when i started seriously training in ballet. I loved ballet and considered it my life. Around the age of 12 my mother made it seem to me that ballet was the only thing i could do in my life and i had no other option but to do it. Ballet made me hate myself, i constantly felt like i was not good enough and even my teachers would tell me i wasnt good enough. So i quit ballet and everything went downhill from there. I made a bad decision just like im sure every teenager has done once in their life. I went to hang out with friends during the day without telling my parents when i moved 1000 ft away. instead of being grounded for a week or two i was told all of these horrible things such as your a failure, your a disappointment, your a whore, your a slut, no one likes you, your trash, you have no real friends, kill yourself. Ever since then (that was around 6 months ago) ive been told that every day. My whole life has been one bad event after an other and nothing ever seems to get better. I have no one to talk to about how i feel and dont know how to fix this. I feel like nothing will ever be better for me and im starting to believe that i am what my mom tells me. I cry every day for at least 4 hours. I dont sleep at night anymore. I eat junk food constantly. I however have still managed to focus in school and get good grades because i know if i do that the closer ill be to leaving my parents and finding happiness. These past 6 months I’ve never felt worse and things haven’t worked out for me in even the slightest bit. I feel like if im living in this house with someone who sees me a certain way and accuses me of being someone im not, the only way out is to kill myself. Ive tried many times but get stopped by fear. I have been to a therapist once before but my parents never allowed me back. I need something worth living for. All of my happiness has been taken from me. I dont know why they dont love me like i love them.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like nothing will ever be better for me and im starting to believe that i am what my mom tells me.'], 'answer_start': [1090]}
From a teen in the U.S. Everyday I have thoughts of death, hurting people or myself. I hate it. I cant control my thoughts. I hurt myself and don’t realize it until its done. I have bee diagnosed with, ADHD, Depression, anxiety, and PTSD. My thoughts are disorganized, Some are of saving people and others of killing them. I see everything in cycles. I hate to fail, I get depressed when i fail, and then fail more as a consequence.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I see everything in cycles. I hate to fail, I get depressed when i fail, and then fail more as a consequence.'], 'answer_start': [323]}
People find me smart, but I find myself stupid. Although I love learning, and can earn any degree, in working life I do not know how to solve problems or use my knowledge. This makes me depressed and brings me failure. Also, I am thinking of a change career. Will this ever solve my issues? Or will I be studying in my entire life because I am not able to work properly? Or maybe I am really in the wrong field?

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['People find me smart, but I find myself stupid.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
from a teen in the U.S.: Hello. I wanted to speak to someone who may be able to tell me How to deal with my mother, whose emotion are back and forth. I’m in 11th grade and I’m currently working on obtaining my associates degree. My mother is a single mom.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Everyone always talks about the abusive husband and father. I’ve always kind of been taught that men were always the bad ones. For as long as I can remember I’ve been forced to believe my father was a horrible person. That he was constantly hurting my mom when she was so defenseless. But as I’ve gotten older I’ve been remembering things and finally seeing them for what they really are. The truth is that my father is not a horrible person at all. He is a brilliant and completely selfless person who simply does what he has to do to get by. He’s the type of father every child deserves. I mean, I love my mother, I really do, with all of my heart. I guess that’s why I always took her side for all these years and chose to believe every word she said. But I just can’t take it anymore.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['He is a brilliant and completely selfless person who simply does what he has to do to get by.'], 'answer_start': [451]}
My son has been at basic training for almost two months and I’m having a hard time adjusting. I’m at the point where I don’t even want to go to bed or turn the lights off. He’s left before for brief periods, but now it’s obviously for good. I’m so proud of him but I can’t seem to adjust. I don’t do much other than work. If I’m not working, I just sit at home. I can go days without human contact. I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety disorder back in 2002, so it’s an ongoing issue, but it’s worse now that I’m alone. I keep telling myself I don’t want to be here anymore. I have no emotional attachment to the place I’m currently living. I have the urge to move closer to where my son is, or where he’ll be based. As a parent, we know this day will come. I guess I didn’t really plan for it or think about how it might affect me. People tell me to move on with my life, But I honestly don’t want to. Whenever I picture my son, I picture him as a young child. I guess I can’t get over the past.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I guess I didn’t really plan for it or think about how it might affect me.'], 'answer_start': [772]}
Recently my friend has told me that they are having issues with having the feeling that they want to hurt random people that they do not know. When I asked them about it, they said that they had: – a weird want to hurt people that they do not know. – dreams about hurting others that they do not know. And before I asked them the next questions I reminded them that I was there for them and they could stop my questions anytime that they wanted.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}