Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
For a while now I have been completely obsessed with my own mental health, I am currently in Secondary School with Aspergers and I am thinking about going on to A Levels and Uni to study psychology and Mental Health, however, I am currently obsessing on my own mental health. One of the main problems is a constant urge and desire to have some sort of serious mental health disorder, and I mean disorders from Schizophrenia to Dissociative Identity Disorder, and I can understand how absolutely horrible that sounds. My mind never seems to drift away from over-analyzing any small part of my day that may be related to some sort of symptom of a disorder (such as overreacting to any thoughts that don’t seem to be mine kind of thing). I have already researched different disorders out of curiosity and know about different symptoms, I don’t believe I am a hypochondriac. I am currently seeing someone about a possible Anxiety Disorder and I believe I am showing some early symptoms of a Dissociative Disorder and some form of Psychosis, but I can’t help but worry about NOT being diagnosed with a disorder. Most nights I have imagined myself in a mental hospital when I am older or developing some sort of alternate personalities, the idea of someone experiencing these fascinate me, one recent dream of mine I remember was the exact life of me living with DID but I can’t remember it exactly. I have also been on edge more than normal, I have flinched a shuddered to noises constantly struggling to reassure myself if the noises were real, I have also experienced Depersonalisation for at least 2-3 years which has started to mix with Derealisation which has also kept me on edge. One thing I think would help with my obsession would be to actually hear the thoughts and experiences of someone with the Disorders I am paranoid about. I would like to hear an opinion to help calm these obsessive thoughts. (From England)

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My mind never seems to drift away from over-analyzing any small part of my day that may be related to some sort of symptom of a disorder (such as overreacting to any thoughts that don’t seem to be mine kind of thing).'], 'answer_start': [517]}
I met this friend on the first day of college freshman year (we are soon to be juniors) and it has become increasingly apparent that something is not right. My other friends actually sat me down to tell me they thought she was genuinely in love with me, but I thought they were just being dramatic. She has always been a little nuts (yelling at guys she doesn’t like, getting belligerently drunk, etc). I thought she was just a lot of fun and I didn’t mind be friends with someone a little out there. Everything changed when 4 of my best friends (including her, who was my best friend at the time) got an apartment together. It’s too hard to explain so let me just list things that have happened and are happening: – she screamed at guests we had over for being too loud and insulted them when she could have just asked for quiet (by the way she is the loudest person I know) – Recently, we had to take her to the emergency room when I got a call from my friend saying she was unresponsive and needed to go to the ER. When I showed up she started yelling to everyone to fuck off and to only let me near her when I wasn’t even the one at the time helping her – We went out one night and she got so angry at me for not wanting to go to the same club as her that she yelled at me in public – Every time I go out with her she drinks so much that I have to follow around and take care of her ALL night – she tells every person she meets that I am her best friend and that we are attached at the hip – She spent over 1k on me both my birthdays even though anyone who knows me knows I would NEVER want that – she constantly talks about how we will be each others bridesmaids – she follows me around for entire days and nags me constantly to hang out with her – she gets very jealous and angry when I have other friends. She has straight up bullied my new roommate since she moved in She has had an extremely hard life and I feel so guilty but I can’t do it anymore, help?

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['She has always been a little nuts (yelling at guys she doesn’t like, getting belligerently drunk, etc).'], 'answer_start': [299]}
I was a child who would get beaten and cursed at on a daily basis by my mother, beaten with wood, pots, and pans, etc, until I left my home when I was 17. I heard daily how awful I was, how my mother didn’t know how God put someone like me in the world, how I would be nothing etc. I was sexually abused by a family friend but to this day no one knows. I was had panic attacks when I was a teenager and came off of it by myself. Now, I’m a 38 failure, I’m homeless, jobless, depressed etc. I had chances to do something with myself but I always seek destructive situations to be in, so I think I’m addicted to being sad, poor, and having people treat me as they wish. I can’t speak my mind, I feel I can’t ask for anything because I’m bothering people. Is it possible that I am addicted to being a failure? (From Helsinki)

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Now, I’m a 38 failure, I’m homeless, jobless, depressed etc. I had chances to do something with myself but I always seek destructive situations to be in, so I think I’m addicted to being sad, poor, and having people treat me as they wish.'], 'answer_start': [429]}
I’m having flashbacks of being involved in sexual activity from the age of around 7, the boy was 4 years older than me. I remember waking up to him touching me during a sleepover and telling me to be quiet. I didn’t know what he was doing and was too scared to say anything.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in Germany: I’ve started to recognize my weight problem at the age of 15, where most of my peers were already gaining both muscle and bone mass, while I just simply couldn’t gain none of the two. During the years, it became more and more obvious that I’m underweight. My body became skinny to the point where there is a thigh gap between my legs, my ribs are visible along my heartbeat (my skin on the stomach moves as my heart beats) and worse of them all: my arms are like twigs.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['During the years, it became more and more obvious that I’m underweight.'], 'answer_start': [208]}
I have OCD and intrusive thoughts because of my OCD. But for as long as i can remember i have this constant fear of someone being in my house and them going to kill me. I constantly check closets and around corners. The fear never goes away and im always on edge that some random person is in my house and i could die. Im not sure if its apart of my OCD or not. Thank you for reading and helping me.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['But for as long as i can remember i have this constant fear of someone being in my house and them going to kill me. I constantly check closets and around corners. The fear never goes away and im always on edge that some random person is in my house and i could die'], 'answer_start': [53]}
I’m 16 now and since I can remember I’ve been avoiding a topic I don’t even know for certain happened. When I was younger I used to get flashbacks of sexual things I was involved in that included another young girl that was around the same age as me. The reason I have avoided talking about it is that it involves homosexuality and I don’t/didn’t feel comfortable talking about it to my family. In one of my flashbacks, I remember getting caught but now whenever the person that participated in the sexual acts gets mentioned, the activities in my flashbacks never get mentioned. I don’t know whether they don’t want to say or that it never happened and it’s just my mind making it up. Growing up, I began to settle with the thought that I was making it up in my head but then around 13/14 I began to remember specifics like how the other person said things like you were born a boy, your just born in the wrong body’ or incidents I woke up in a bed with a naked man. At this time I began questioning if the person I thought I was doing these things with wasn’t even a little girl but an adult man. As you can imagine, I was extremely confused but still managed to dismiss it until recently. It turns out that my family had a couple of family friends who were pedophiles. When I heard this I got a sick feeling and started to question everything again.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['It turns out that my family had a couple of family friends who were pedophiles. When I heard this I got a sick feeling and started to question everything again.'], 'answer_start': [1192]}
My brother was diagnose with severe depression a few months ago. He seemed to be better recently with his medication. However, he refuses to see any therapist even though I really think it would help him a lot. Recently, I signed up for Mental Health First Aid Training so I can be a help to my brother. Should I ask my brother to go with me to this training? I wonder if it would be beneficial for him to attend an event like this. I thought maybe through the process of learning how to help other people he can also help himself. My worry is that maybe he would feel pressured or uncomfortable during the training and may breakdown or get more depressed again.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['My worry is that maybe he would feel pressured or uncomfortable during the training and may breakdown or get more depressed again.'], 'answer_start': [532]}
From a teen in the U.S.: This started in 7th grade, but its been getting really bad. i’ve always been irritated by certain sounds, mainly ones other people make. Like breathing loudly, clearing throat, tapping pens, any repetative motion. It’s now sending me into panic attacks, i have to leave the classroom several times and i cant look at anyone, i cant pay attention in class at all because my heart is pounding and i cant breath. I cry it out in the bathroom and miss a lot of class.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['It’s now sending me into panic attacks, i have to leave the classroom several times and i cant look at anyone, i cant pay attention in class at all because my heart is pounding and i cant breath.'], 'answer_start': [239]}
Hi, I’m about to be 15 years old and since I think maybe when I was 12 years old I’ve been pretending that I’m a fictional character. I sometimes when I’m sitting in class i pretend to have random conversations to characters I made up in my head I don’t talk out load I just talk in my head, I try to snap out of it sometimes because I miss writing notes down off the board it really interrupts my school work.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: My mum had cheated on my dad twice before ;my dad knows about one time she cheated. my dad has cheated on her too once. I think he is okay with it , my mum has told me about this after a longer time. I stay with her now and dad stays in another state , few months back I had checked my mum’s text accidentally and I felt like she’s again having an affair I had asked her to open about her relationship if she ever had any but she said no at that time.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My Sister has Stage 4 Lymphoma and throughout everything I have only been able to help her once. During the time that my vehicle was working I drove her around to help her with errands (depositing money from her benefit), taking her to pay bills, etc. She filled up my tank in exchange, but a month later my car’s transmission failed. She texted me recently and said “You need to step up”, I’m currently without a car, I have no sleeping schedule (it varies as my SO works nights), and I am experiencing signs of Agoraphobia. It is so intense that sometimes I pace between my front and back door trying to feel safe enough to go outside for a Cigarette. I don’t understand how to heal myself let alone be something better for my Sister. And It truly is heartbreaking. All my life my parents told me “You just gotta get over it”, but after 25 years of “getting over it” (just pushing it down inside), I was starting to be successful and find a job that I really enjoyed (because I was helping people) as a Pharmacy Technician. I worked at Humana as a Call center Tech., and I started hearing Voices. I knew they weren’t there, because I’d say “huh?” and my co-workers would tell me they didn’t say anything. It got to the point where I actually admitted to my boss that I have anxiety and it really affects me to the point where I panic to even go to work. I have quit so many jobs due to this.. and I have never lasted more than a year at any of them. My sister (the one with cancer) told me years ago that I needed professional help, and the minute I seek out for it, she tells me I am full of crap. I am basically wanting to know if any of this is justified, and I’m unsure of how to react of feel.. I am hurt, in a way I have already mourned her, and it’s hard for me to empathize with her when she’s treating me like this.. What do i do?

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['She texted me recently and said “You need to step up”, I’m currently without a car, I have no sleeping schedule (it varies as my SO works nights), and I am experiencing signs of Agoraphobia.'], 'answer_start': [335]}
My friends all say I don’t reply enough. I always cancel plans and ignore calls. It sounds awful and I feel guilty, but I can’t seem to care about my relationships with people either romantically or otherwise. I get bored with people after a couple of weeks. I’m not particularly nervous or anxious to be around people and I’m popular enough in school. I’m not scared as to why I’m alone, I know I don’t have to be, I’m scared as to why I’m choosing it. I hate telling people personal details. I feel uncomfortable telling my mum I feel sick or have a headache. It’s just those little things and I can’t understand. I don’t know why I act like this. I seem to breeze through each day tired and numb. I barely sleep. (From Dublin)

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['It sounds awful and I feel guilty, but I can’t seem to care about my relationships with people either romantically or otherwise.'], 'answer_start': [81]}
Hi, for awhile I’ve been thinking I have a stress or anxiety disorder but I’m not able to see a therapist or counselor. I often become stressed or anxious easily about things I can’t control also small inconveniences or events make me very upset. I’ve been noticing I don’t sleep well and I’m often tired, I find it hard to focus on anything for a long period of time and almost everything in my life causes me to become stressed or anxious. Since I’m a minor and my parent doesn’t think I have any mental health problems I haven’t been able to see a therapist. I’m not sure what to do in this situation and I feel my mental health isn’t getting any better.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I often become stressed or anxious easily about things I can’t control also small inconveniences or events make me very upset. I’'], 'answer_start': [120]}
From roughly the age of 9 I have had an extremely volatile relationship with my mother. From the outside looking in, she is a very law-abiding pilar of the community. Very pleasant to speak to within certain audiences, her family, our friends etc but when we are alone she is almost like a completely different person. As though her problems manifest into those few moments (I limit time alone with her now) and she lets it all out. How terrible her life and usually how myself and my father are to blame. I used to feel sorry for my father but now as an adult with my own children, I feel a sense of anger as to why he has allowed this to go on or was it that he doesn’t see the full extent of the emotional abuse. One time I remember as a child she was in one of her moods so I put my headphones in as a coping mechanism. We were in town and she grabs them out of my ears and told me to get lost (in polite terms) and I walked to my grandmother’s house which was around 4 miles away alone. My father came to collect me and I got told off as he did not believe it was my mother who told me to do this and I suppose that had a lasting impact as since then I don’t believe he trusts me as an innocent party.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['My father came to collect me and I got told off as he did not believe it was my mother who told me to do this and I suppose that had a lasting impact as since then I don’t believe he trusts me as an innocent party.'], 'answer_start': [992]}
I have no idea why I have this fear or anxiety. I am taking online classes full-time right now and have been for the last 3 year. I will always start the school quarter off well and be on track with Homework and grades but then if I don’t get online for just one single day (which is completely fine to do. We aren’t required to go online everyday) it becomes extremely hard for me to get back online to do homework and to check my grades.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I will always start the school quarter off well and be on track with Homework and grades but then if I don’t get online for just one single day (which is completely fine to do. We aren’t required to go online everyday) it becomes extremely hard for me to get back online to do homework and to check my grades.'], 'answer_start': [130]}
From the UK: i have this problem that i have been dealing with for 1 year now and it has not worsened and during times when i am occupied with my education or work it seems to get better (and basically stop). I see things in my peripheral vision for a split second and then they disappear. I dont know what it is that i actually see and its different every time and i am not saying this in the sense that i cant describe what i saw but in the sense that i actually do not know as it was my periphary or an area in my feild of vision where i was not focusing.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 4 years now. After a year of me commuting to see him (he lived 2 hrs away), we purchased a house together in his area and I began working from home. This is when I started to see issues. He would drink heavily every Friday & Saturday which wasn’t different from before but now he was showing his true colors. If he got angry or upset about something, he would take it out on me. He’s threatened to kill himself numerous times and has held loaded guns to his head while screaming at me. He’s even fired off a pistol into the ground right next to me while yelling. Another night, we both were drinking and went to bed late. I woke during the night and ran to the bathroom to vomit. He was angry that he had to come check on me and started to say nasty things. I began yelling at him asking what’s wrong with him and banged my hands onto his chest as I did that. Well, he hauled off and punched me in the fa ce. I never reported this to the police. He’s called me pathetic, said he has no respect for me and many other nasty things. This past May, he put a gun to his head again and that was it for me. I moved back to my town with plans of either selling the home we purchased together or him refinancing to have me removed. He still wouldn’t let me go and I allowed it for some reason!!! We’ve been seeing each other every other weekend since July (again, I’m doing all the driving). He has been doing much better with not drinking but I have caught him lying about it because I can tell when he is. In November, he decided to get drunk again and we had another nasty fight. He apologized saying he would never do it again, that he does not like the person he becomes when he’s drinking and that I should be treated like a queen. So, I gave him yet another chance. This past weekend, I asked if he got beer jokingly and he responded that he did but only a six pack. SMH! He then proceeded to tell me that he wanted to reach out to friends he cut ties with and when I asked if that was a good idea because they like to party, he got enraged! Called me all kinds of nasty things and was extremely hurtful. I told him I cannot do this anymore, that I deserve better and that he really needs to seek help from all the pain he has from childhood. He says he’ll NEVER go to therapy and that I need help because my emotions are out of control. He’s says I’m throwing away 4 years all because of a little argument. Why do I have such a hard time leaving this horribly abusive relationship???? There’s way more but I cannot fit it all in.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Why do I have such a hard time leaving this horribly abusive relationship????'], 'answer_start': [2455]}
My parents have been divorced for 19 years. I grew up with my mother and grandma in her house. During my childhood, my grandma would tell me horrible things about my father such as that he abandoned me, that he doesn’t care about me, etc. which resulted in me not having any kind of relationship with my father up until my late teen years when we started rebuilding it. He and my mother don’t talk and she is convinced that my father wants to turn me against her and this is the reason for many terrible arguments I am having with her which sometimes end in her issuing an ultimatum- either I’ll act the way she wants me to or I can pack my bags and move to my dad’s place. She also claims that I don’t love her or care about her and that I will always prefer my father over her which is not true because for my whole life I wanted them to get along and respect each other. On the other hand, my dad won’t visit me at my place because he could run into my mom since I am living with her. He does hate my mom for all the thing she did to him in the past and is avoiding her completely while she blames him for everything bad that happened to her. Recently my mom started seeing a neuropsychiatrist who diagnosed her with depression and anxiety. Because of that I sometimes avoid certain topics for discussion because I’m afraid she would judge me or get angry with me. For these reasons, I don’t feel close to either one of them nor I have the freedom to talk about my problems with them. Often I feel like they pressure me into picking a side and I am tired of being in that position.I care about them both equally and my love for them could not be measured. Picking a side would only mean hurting one of them. I feel trapped and I don’t know how to act or what to do anymore. (From Sarajevo)

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Because of that I sometimes avoid certain topics for discussion because I’m afraid she would judge me or get angry with me.'], 'answer_start': [1244]}