Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
If I feel motivated, I am either triggered by anxiety, or I am just doing something that I very much enjoy. I feel lazy, and I wish I wasn’t. I know my responsibilities, but nothing ever seems to make me prepared for them. I rarely ever bathe, brush my teeth or my hair, and I have LITTLE motivation to get dressed, and when I decide to do all of those things, I am probably going out in public or visiting some people, and MOST TIMES, I won’t even do my hair or get dressed — I’d just wait in the car and stay incognito. I rarely ever go out and I’ve never had any friends in school. All the people that I’ve known before are never interested in my friendship and I feel like there may be something wrong with me. I always hear the same excuses. I should be writing a book right now, but I never feel motivation to do that either. I feel like maybe if I had some friends that accepted me, that I’d LIKELY go the extra mile and do all of these NORMAL things. Sometimes anxiety isn’t enough to make me want to bathe and it can take me hours to get a SIMPLE TASK finished — because I am so slow and unmotivated! I feel happy when I do things I love — other than that, I’m always bored or something. I’m usually on the internet watching movies or listening to music, scrolling Facebook to see if I’ve gotten a message from my ACTIVE friend. The only person I feel TRULY respects me, is someone from the internet. I get bored sometimes because it’s not like we can actually go out or something, we are HOURS away from each other, and the flight would be very expensive. Sometimes I use material items as motivation, (not often) and I wish I didn’t have to do that. Not many things impress me anymore, and all the things I would like to have are probably overpriced. (From Canada)

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I rarely ever go out and I’ve never had any friends in school.'], 'answer_start': [522]}
I don’t know why, but I have the urge to hurt or kill certain things. I was at a friend’s house this weekend and I was playing with their cat. I felt the sudden need to hurt the cat. I don’t know why, I love cats and would never want to hurt one, but my mind just kept telling me to harm it. I never did hurt the cat, I stopped playing with it because of this. Also, when someone gets me annoyed or mad I want to harm them even though there’s really no reason to. I have never hurt or killed anything in my life, but this feeling has been going on for a while now. I don’t know why this is happening, please help!

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have been unhappily married for 11 years. I basically married the wrong person. We have 2 boys. I thought my husband represented all I wanted from life. My sex life consisted of all give and no take before. I had no intimacy with my husband, he was gone all week and only home on the weekends only to be miserable and grouchy and very non-intimate, but expected sex every night he was home and blatantly told me at the beginning of our relationship that sex was a very important part of a marriage.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I’m 22 and ready to move out, but I’m not sure how to break it to my mother… My mother is financially dependent on me and has been for about four years. She has a job, but is not extremely responsible with money and because of that her credit has/is suffering. I have attempted to help her with her debt, even went as far as offering to pay for her to file bankruptcy. She has refused the help and lied several times about her plans to get herself help financially. She becomes vague or argumentative when I bring up her money situation.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My husband is a wonderful man who has many different interests. But, since we have been married, I have noticed that he gets his mind on a certain hobby and, well, almost obsesses about it. Last year, it was photography. He was talking about wanting to be a professional photographer. He bought many many books on how to become a photographer and to submit his photos to get them published. Although I believe his photos are very nice, he never once submitted one of them. He also convinced me to buy a very expensive digital camera which he has not used in months. At the time he wanted the camera, he said that if I bought it for him that he would help pay me back. This never happened. In fact, he began looking up other expensive lenses and equipment. He was constantly looking on websites and in catalogs to find more stuff for his photography.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['But, since we have been married, I have noticed that he gets his mind on a certain hobby and, well, almost obsesses about it.'], 'answer_start': [64]}
Hi. This is a complex issue. But essentially my husband’s family recently learned that his younger brother suffered sexual abuse from a family member 10 years ago. I was in this family 10 years ago (though not married yet), but when they met to discuss the issue, they excluded me. My husband flew across the country to learn the bad news in person, and I had to stay here waiting to hear over the phone…

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
The relationship between me and my mom is quiet difficult to describe and understand. At one point we often laugh and talk together, when I want a hug she’s the first person I’m going to, but at the same time she’s the only person that I actually fell deep hatred towards. For already 4 years now she’s been slowly damaging my mental health and I can’t do anything about it. When I was 13 I started being completely unmotivated for an unknown reason which led to me laying in my bed for 90% of my free time, not studying etc. The only thing she said was: ‘You’re acting like you’re depressed. I have to warn you – no child of mine will be mentally ill, so I hope you’ll get out of that immediately’. I never spoke to her about my real feelings, only some minor things, like stuff that happened during day, a book or a movie. She doesn’t know how I feel, at all, but I’m sure she can somewhat sense that I’m not doing okay.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['She doesn’t know how I feel, at all, but I’m sure she can somewhat sense that I’m not doing okay.'], 'answer_start': [825]}
I have a friend who’s parents found cannabis in his bedroom. Following this discovery they removed him from all outside activity, got him a prescription for large doses of antidepressants and are currently forcing him to take them.  Since he started taking them he’s begun extremely troubling behavior. He has been drinking extremely high doses of cough syrup, ingesting huge amounts of benadryl with hopes of hallucination, taking large doses of snorted painkillers, heavy trazodone use and probably far more that I don’t know about. He recently described feeling like a brick wall after taking his prescribed medications, he described a deep hatred for them and a will to stop taking them, I’ve been asking why he can’t refuse to take them and started to see some of the extent of parental abuse. In the past I’ve witnessed physical abuse from slapping across the face, to emotional abuse of shaming him for being gay and kicking him out of his home. People have tried to get CPS involved to no avail. I am extremely worried about his health and am wondering if a parent can legally force their child to consume prescribed medication, and as a minor if there is anything I can do to help the issue. Thanks in advance. (From USA)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: A few years ago, (5 or 6 years) when I was still trying to figure out who I was and what i wanted out of relationships, sex, etc etc I became very dear friends with a couple who were open-ish (wife is Bisexual and Husband is Heterosexual). The friendship started out as just a great platonic friendship. They’re both a little older than me so I would go to them with relationship struggles or just general life advisers and confidantes.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’ve seen my current T for a year and we have managed to build a good and trustworthy relationship. Now he started his summer vacation,I last met him 3 days ago. Our next appt. will be in 6,5 weeks. This is really hard cos we met thrice a week, which I feel isn’t enough.I have no one else to turn to. I am so weak and broken, traumatized and beaten up. No one understands. I’ve seen a psychologist at the psych. outpatient clinic but he just hurt me more.T is everything, and the only thing that helps.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have no one else to turn to. I am so weak and broken, traumatized and beaten up.'], 'answer_start': [271]}
From a teen in Serbia: My psychological state was never quite alright ever since I entered puberty it seems. It first all started with a case of mild depression as a result of having some existential dilemmas and coming face to face with the uglier face of this world for the first time. Slowly but surely this feeling of dread started creeping into me, and I completely shut myself of from the rest of the world somewhere at the age of 13, spending my days in the darkness of my room along with a book.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in Serbia: So, I am 16 and this is happening a few years so far. I’ve been wondering if I can deal with this issue by myself (i don’t want professional help)? I think a bit bad of myself and like I’m gonna blow up after shortly after that happens, but nothing other then that and that confuses me. Like it doesn’t really affect me and it makes me feel that there’s something wrong with me. I know that abuse is not my fault but i can’t figure out what’s wrong with me.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Like it doesn’t really affect me and it makes me feel that there’s something wrong with me.'], 'answer_start': [310]}
My mom and dad recently got divorced. I have one sister who is 19 and lives 2 hours away at college and they told us together in January when we were visiting her that they were getting a divorce. I am fine with that my sister didn’t speak to our family for a month or two and this march I thought my mom was up to something and I told my dad my suspicions and he tried to dismiss them but I couldn’t let it go so I dug around a bit. I suspected she had cheated on my dad and was still with this guy. I drove by my mom’s house one night and saw a random car there around midnight, and it was still there at 5 AM the next morning. I noticed this about 6 other times. I hid a voice recorder in my mom’s house and played it back and I heard things no child should hear. His name is Rick and he is getting divorced too and he and my mom are in a relationship. That and a few unmentionable things are what I learned from the recording. I told my dad and he said he found out earlier in the year from a PI he hired and when they signed the divorce document my mom told him everything. He told me what he knew and my mom has been seeing this guy for 10 years and she isn’t planning on telling my sister or I, nor does anyone on my mom’s side of the family know… they never will. SO basically, my mom doesn’t know I know and my dad only disses my mom with me and I don’t show anyone how bad it hurts me. I can’t tell my sister because she would literally leave my family and it’s not my place to tell her, but secretly I wish she had gone through it too so someone could feel the pain I feel and so I could have someone to talk to, I know that’s awful. My dad can’t see it hurts because I have to be there for him. This divorce broke him and he has become my bff through it and I can’t be weak I have to be strong for him. I can’t stand my mom now that I know the truth. She lies about EVERYTHING and its so easy to see the truth. I think my sister has the “ignorance is bliss mindset” but I get in moods where I flip out and cry because of this and have Panic attacks. Please Help. There is still alot more I feel but only so many words are allowed. I have all ot these bottled up feelings and I have to be strong around everyone and im tired or being strong. I’m just so tired.. life is so tiring I cry at the slightest thing and this is affecting all of my relationships and im constantly sad and mad but I try so hard to never show it. (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m just so tired.. life is so tiring I cry at the slightest thing and this is affecting all of my relationships and im constantly sad and mad but I try so hard to never show it.'], 'answer_start': [2253]}
From Sweden: I have seen my current T for one year during which we have managed to build a good, trustworthy relationship. My road to therapy has been very traumatizing, complex and very painful. My T started his summer vacation 3 days ago, when I last met him. We had 3 sessions per week, which for me is the absolute min. and not always sufficient.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m a mom of a 6 y.o., and stepmom to a 9 y.o. with ADHD, and a 7 y.o. who is violent, short tempered and manipulative. He has no problem with lying on a daily basis. His mother is a drug addict and prostitute. He is not fully aware of her issues, but is aware of her pathological lying.He is very intelligent in “book-related” things, such as reading and mathematics. Other than that, he is below par. He shows little to no respect for the rights of others. He has made up stories of children being molested in the classroom, and other stories to get others in trouble and show how “good” he is. He has stolen and “coveted” things that do not belong to him. He lies so much, I assume everything he says is untrue. He will attack the other two boys on a daily basis for the slightest percieved ‘wrong’. If he does not get what he wants, when he wants it (litterally), he will fake-cry (it is obviously fake) for up to an hour. For example, when his father comes home from work, the child immeadiately will ask for a quarter and a trip to the store so he can spend it on a gum ball machine. After the tooth brushing bed time routine he will continue asking for something to eat (even though he had a snack before brushing) untill his dad gives in or he is carried, crying and faking injuries to his bed. He seems to not understand at all that the rules also apply to him, “because he gets good grades in school”. His ego is so out of control, we simply can not take it any more.The unmedicated ADHD child is much easier to deal with!He is perpetually seeking attention by any means necessary. He unfortunately, can’t seem to handle positive attention. He will use it to manipulate the emotions of everyone around him.Even when he does do what he is told, it has an air of selfish manipulation.He seems to do it to make the others seem bad, and himself, the best.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['He seems to do it to make the others seem bad, and himself, the best.'], 'answer_start': [1792]}
Lately I’ve been feeling like nothing is going right in my life and I’m just too tired to deal with it. I go to boarding school and my relationship with my parents has been deteriorating because they limit my freedom a lot when I’m at home by not letting me go out and my mom especially manipulates me into doing things her way all the time. When things don’t go her way she sometimes blows up at me and yells at me calls me a failure and says she doesn’t want to talk to me or care for me. I’ll spend whole days just in my room and she’ll pretend I’m not there. These episodes have occurred every few months for my whole life but lately it’s been several times a month. I’ve started to keep aspects of my personal/academic life to myself because I just want to avoid this kind of situation. For example, I’m working on a research project that I’m very stressed about but I didn’t tell my mom because she would get stressed and we’d end up yelling at each other. I was also dating someone and I didn’t tell them because I didn’t want to get yelled at. But then about a month ago is when everything kind of fell apart. My boyfriend broke up with me because his personal life was also falling apart and he couldn’t commit to a relationship. Initially, I accepted this answer but later I couldn’t shake the suspicion that he was just lying to make me feel better and that he just didn’t like me anymore. That some things about me were off-putting to him. Then my research project just kept hitting dead ends while everyone else’s seemed to be progressing. Then a few days ago I accidentally caused an evacuation by burning Teflon plastic and creating highly toxic fumes in the lab. The teacher keeps bringing it up and I sometimes have to try not to cry when he does. This has made all my self-loathing and guiltiness and embarrassment worse and I feel like I’m failing academically and also failing as a person. Am I just bad at handling life? Or is it normal to feel like this?

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Lately I’ve been feeling like nothing is going right in my life and I’m just too tired to deal with it. '], 'answer_start': [0]}
From a teen in Mexico: I know this question has been asked a lot, but I still need help. My mother has been calling and texting this Doctor. I noticed because one day I entered her text messages since she asked me to send some picture to a friend. When I did, I saw a conversation with only the phone number that said “HI Love”. I got freaked out but didn’t tell her about it.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My therapist and I had been working with different parts/alters of my system (D.I.D. diagnosis) when 1 of them decided that therapy wasn’t allowed anymore. That was almost 2 years ago! Thankfully my therapist has been amazing and will still speak to me in crisis (unless she gets hung up on by “someone”) and/or email/text with me when needed (if not deleted). We’ve set appointments and those either get cancelled or just don’t show up.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’ve been in an online relationship a transgender girl for nearly two years and she’s struggled with depression and self-esteem issues since she came out as trans a few months prior to us getting together. She talks to me about how her parents don’t really seem to care about her. One time, her parents were watching a show that made fun of trans folk and they leered at her when she came into the room. Another time, her mom tried to make her out to be mentally retarded to get support money.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a 14 year old girl in the U.S.: I have always been a shy person. I’ve never particularly enjoyed making small talk with strangers or spending a great deal of my time around people. However, I never really saw this as a problem until now, when a lot of my schoolwork has started to depend on being able to talk to others.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a 16 year old girl in the U.S.: I have been struggling to control my emotional responses, usually crying, since as long as I can remember. I’m not sure what triggers it, but I am certain it only happens with any adults, including my parents. Whenever the conversation turns to anything but small talk, there is a chance that I could become tearful. I’ve seen it also occur when a teacher jokingly makes fun of me or even another student; even though I am aware of their lightheartedness and even may find the joke funny, I still get teary.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Whenever the conversation turns to anything but small talk, there is a chance that I could become tearful.'], 'answer_start': [247]}
I’m feeling completely blank and I’ve lost trust in myself. I don’t know what is wrong with me and things are suddenly becoming hard for me. I feel empty leaving home, dispirited working in office, and exhausted coming home. My colleagues are deceitful and I’m feeling like I’m in the wrong place. Am I too conservative to make myself overcome difficulties or am I in severe depression?

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m feeling completely blank and I’ve lost trust in myself. I don’t know what is wrong with me and things are suddenly becoming hard for me.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
My father has physically abused me since I can remember. He has also verbally abused me. I am in college now, and the abuse has slowed down because I’m better at avoiding it. It all started before I was 6. More recently, say from age 11 onwards, when he abuses me, it is usually because I am rude to him. I don’t listen to what he says and I don’t obey him. He would punch me, backhand me, kick me, push me into things, and slap me. It was very painful and very traumatizing. It lasted all the way through high school and even now it is possible that he could start beating me. My mother would always protest but she thinks that child abuse is okay. She thinks what my father did to me was okay because I deserved for being rude.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['It lasted all the way through high school and even now it is possible that he could start beating me.'], 'answer_start': [476]}
My boyfriend is the kindest person I have ever met. Since the day I met him, he has made me feel that someone cared about me. He always thinks of me and is always willing to listen to anything I have to say. I tell him to be open and honest with me, but I’m never that way with him. I always think he’ll leave me for some pretty girl he’ll meet. And no matter how much he assures me that he loves me, I can’t supress that doubt and fear, and I push him away. I want him to hate me just so I can prove he was just messing with me, but at the same time pushing him away is not what I really want.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I always think he’ll leave me for some pretty girl he’ll meet.'], 'answer_start': [283]}
My mother-in-law (with whom I shared a great, close bond) had a sudden heart attack at the age of 53 when I was taking her to the hospital. One and a half years have passed now, and I am moving through the grief slowly, but my husband has become detached, withdrawn, sad, irritable, has been excessively eating. He has also completely lost his sex drive. I understand that now he has just finally begun to grieve, but I’m unsure as to how to help him. He is a bloke. He does not talk about his feelings at all, especially not to strangers, and he hasn’t admitted it to himself. What can I do to help him go through and experience the grieving process but not get lost and not sink so deep that he completely detaches from me and our marriage? I am struggling enough to cope with me and my own feelings but I’m afraid he is the quiet horse that will not be able to pull himself out.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am struggling enough to cope with me and my own feelings but I’m afraid he is the quiet horse that will not be able to pull himself out.'], 'answer_start': [743]}
I am currently in my first ever relationship, as I have always struggled with confidence issues and meeting people has been difficult for as long as I can remember. My boyfriend and I have been together for about six months. I am in my early twenties and he is in his mid-thirties, so there is somewhat of an age gap. He is a great partner and is funny, intelligent, and we have lots of similar interests.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}