Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I’ve felt like this since I was 16. I feel empty inside and it’s almost a constant thing. I have tried to ignore the feeling but it didn’t work. I can’t remember the last time I really felt something. Right now I just feel sad. I feel guilty for things I shouldn’t and I feel so alone and isolated, despite having others around me. I feel like no one really cares about me and that I’m bothering them. I have no energy, I feel tired and all I want to do is stay in bed. I have no motivation for school and I can’t concentrate no matter how hard I try to. I feel awkward and slow, physically and mentally, which results in me thinking I’m an idiot if I do something ‘wrong’. When I get like this, I don’t eat like I usually do. Sometimes I’ll oversleep and still feel tired or I’ll sleep very little with tossing and turning. I don’t feel interested in what I like. Sometimes I just get so angry and the only way I can calm down is by punching a wall. What I hate the most though is that when I get like this, I feel like I’m not real; I feel like I’m watching someone else living their life. I feel like I don’t know who I am. The longest I’ve felt sad has been around 3 weeks, as far as I’m aware.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’ve felt like this since I was 16. I feel empty inside and it’s almost a constant thing. I have tried to ignore the feeling but it didn’t work. I can’t remember the last time I really felt something.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I am currently in university and get overwhelmed with the tiniest bit of stress. I always keep thinking and talking to myself. The very moment that I wake up I start talking, imagining situations, which might never arise or practice what to say at uni today. I have a horrible habit of pulling my lip skin, scratching my head and anywhere where there is dryness, to the extent it bleeds sometimes. I have also called in sick to avoid uni or exams. I enjoy being with people and fell lonely once I am home. I have a younger brother and am always terrified to the extent that I have cried for his safety. I am overprotective about him. I am quite excited at some points in the week that I talk very loudly, lie about my life, I want people’s attention. I loved to study but now I struggle to even pass a course. I feel awful about myself. Not paying attention to my family or friends. I often have ideas but can never implement them. I am always sleepy. Sometimes I need people to tell me that I am a good person. I have had suicidal thoughts. I love shopping but feel guilty even for spending a single dollar and this thought goes on for the rest of the day. I sometimes feel that my dad will go bankrupt because of me. I have become very rude to my family but cry to myself when I do that. It feels like I want to be diagnosed with some disease. I get addicted to things very easy. I cannot get off the Internet. I sleep most of the time and give up before an exam. I was never like this. I have so many dreams but they seem impossible now. I don’t have many friends. Sometimes I am in an excited mood and say/do things without thinking and then regret. else I am awfully depressed. I really need to improve but I don’t know how. I have tried being positive but it doesn’t help. I look at myself in the mirror and mainly notice the flaws in myself and cry about how I used to be pretty and look horrible now. I can’t make simple decisions and just want to run away from everything. I tend to pity myself a lot and cry. I don’t know what to do.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I sometimes feel that my dad will go bankrupt because of me. I have '], 'answer_start': [1158]}
From Germany: My partner and I are having a lot of issues communicating. She feels she can’t communicate with me as I am defensive and that I keep trying to talk my way out of issues and blame her for everything. She feels I am not mature and act like a child. (I’m 32 and she is 41).

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Now I’m in a relationship for almost 4 years with a 25 year old. The first 2 years we had a long distance relationship but now we mostly live together. Now besides all my personal problems I have also relationship issues. I am terribly afraid of penetrative sex and already have been trying for 2 years or more to do something, but without any results. Only once we got farther than usual and I felt a little pain. I even went to a psychologist but it didn’t help much. Though we have intimacy and I understand that I shouldn’t have such irrational fear I just can’t handle myself, it’s like my brain turns off when he just approaches me and I tense up, can’t relax, try to keep distance and begin to tremble, breathe faster.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Hawaii: I am in a solid relationship with a man who is quite a bit older than me. We have been together nearly two years but I have known him for 3. He has, of course, been in many other relationships and was even married for a short period a long time ago.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am in a solid relationship with a man who is quite a bit older than me. '], 'answer_start': [13]}
From Greece: I’m an only child living with his mom. My mother has had a very harsh time. Mostly a bad husband who wasted 30 years of her life in verbal fights. My parents are divorced now, so since my father literally tossed us out, my grandmother is taking care of us, as my mother always took care of the household and no one hires her in her 50s.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Well I went to the atrium in middletown ohio for 3 days for schizoprenic symtoms left 3 days later with a prescription for this drug resperidol 4 millograms then taken down 2 millograms told the doctor wanted off the medication since he did not understand what caused me to have this episode never told him about the pressure of getting a job did it my father was going bankrupt he pushed me hard to find a job any job I did just that & nobody I do mean nobody called me so I didint know what to do or say so I guess he thought I was having mental issues cause the fustration I felt must had triggerd something that never before or after happend again so after the last visit to the doctor I quit using the medication to see if I was ok or not so far I font expierience anything remotely like they describe about schizoprenia well I get depressed but not suicidal or homicidal like the doctor always asks me that bothers me a lot to be asked that every time I see him I don ‘t believe I need this lame ugly pill to balance my mood or in his words to keep me from relapsing it’s been 7 months since I quit taking them & no problems so should I tell my doctor that since they are not really psycologists could I ask for a psyc evaluation so he can stop giving me this garbage?

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I see him I don ‘t believe I need this lame ugly pill to balance my mood or in his words to keep me from relapsing it’s been 7 months since I quit taking them & no problems so should I tell my doctor that since they are not really psycologists could I ask for a psyc evaluation '], 'answer_start': [958]}
So recently, I’ve been having a lot of intrusive thoughts. It started when I started having thoughts about suicide, but that ended quickly, and didn’t bother me as much. Then I began to fear that I would end up hurting my mother after reading it was one of the symptoms of OCD. Now, for some reason, my mind thinks everything is somehow a threat to me. Like recently, I was watching an Asian YouTuber, and all of the sudden my mind went, “Oh, it’s an Asian guy. You should hate him.” But I don’t really know why? But now I feel as if I should avoid anything that has to do with Asians, like the games and the things they’ve invented. Though I really don’t know why. These are feelings and thoughts I can’t seem to get rid of and it’s really scary. Is this anxiety? Depression? Panic attacks? All I know is all this started when I started getting intrusive thoughts when a kid was talking about suicide and I started thinking about it too. Almost obsessing over it. It’s something that I can’t really get rid of no matter how hard I try. I don’t like these thoughts because I know none of the things my brain is telling me to fear/get irritated by/hate is going to harm me, so why do I feel this way about certain things for no absolute reason? I feel tired all the time, my head feels heavy, I have trouble concentrating. I’ve been told I have iron deficiency. Could that be the cause of it? But I have been taking pills but it doesn’t quite seem to be helping with my mental state. Please help and try to get back ASAP.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['Now, for some reason, my mind thinks everything is somehow a threat to me. '], 'answer_start': [278]}
I’ve been looking and i can’t seem to find a question like this, but i don’t know why i consider myself as “unattractive.” I’m a 15 y/o boy in high school and I always feel like i look so hideous, but people keep trying to tell me that I’m not. Sometimes I tend to get angry, because I feel that these people are just trying to be nice or generous. As a straight forward person, I like to be honest and expect the same from my peers. I try to avoid photos and videos, and when I talk to people, I feel as if they’re disgusted having to look at me. I think that this is a very negative thing, as people get angry at me because they think that I’m seeking attention, but I’m not. I just want the truth from people, but my thoughts of myself being undesirable can’t cope with some of these people’s opinions. Sometimes my flaws are so easy to see, and people still tell me that I look fine. Truthfully, I hate it, and if these people are lying I want them to stop. And if they’re telling the truth, I want my thoughts to stop telling me that I look ugly. It’s a disadvantage for me, for my love life and for my social life. (age 15, from US)

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’ve been looking and i can’t seem to find a question like this, but i don’t know why i consider myself as “unattractive.” I’m a 15 y/o boy in high school and I always feel like i look so hideous, but people keep trying to tell me that I’m not.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
My husband and I have been together 11 years. I started to write this letter because we can’t agree on moving into a new house. As I began writing I realized it is about much more than whether we move or not. My husband cannot handle change. No matter the situation, he gets completely overwhelmed, starts thinking about the worst possible outcome, and stresses himself out.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['No matter the situation, he gets completely overwhelmed, starts thinking about the worst possible outcome, and stresses himself out.'], 'answer_start': [242]}
I have been seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist since I was hospitalized in 2012 for a suicide threat. I’ve been treated for depression and anxiety since then and, because nothing has come up since about 2011, I have not opened up about other issues. But lately I can feel something coming on again. Every few months I would go through a few weeks to months of delusions, hallucinations and mood swings usually resulting in me sequestering myself from church, school, friends or whatever else I was involved in. I had a recurring experience of a demonic familiar, visiting other dimensions, and shadow people that seemed to stop when I got a custom tattoo on my back that is an alchemical symbol for demon warding. But it’s starting to slip back. I’m distracted, hear and see things that startle me, and recently put myself in the hospital again when I got so agitated that I cut myself deep enough to damage a tendon. My problem is I just can’t open up in person about exactly what is going on; I feel it coming back like someone following me down a sidewalk, like drowning placidly. I guess what worries me is that I know I’m going somewhere that will harm me but it is familiar and in many ways more real as if it replaces my daily life. Have you ever passed out when really drunk and just before you do you feel like you’re falling into a deep hole that will certainly kill you? It’s like that. I just can’t get myself to talk about it. In the past few weeks I have seen both of my doctors and didn’t feel like wasting their time with this. How can I open up before I no longer feel that it is necessary? It’s been more than ten years; it needs to end.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['In the past few weeks I have seen both of my doctors and didn’t feel like wasting their time with this. '], 'answer_start': [1443]}
I’m obese but told that I’m not. My moods change based on how people treat or what they say to me. I get annoyed easily. I’m empathetic but act like I don’t know anything. Everything I try to succeed in I fail because I’m not good enough. I waste so much money on beauty supplies but fight the knowledge that it’s just society. I pick zits to the extent of scarring because I can’t stand anything raised on my skin. I’m an INFJ and Pisces. I watch how people judge me and it makes me regret being unique (I try to be different but within reason to what I like in general.) I often wonder why I don’t fit into this world and if there’s another but know deep inside there probably isn’t and I’m wasting time acting like this but can’t help but think of all the wonders. I always have hope for the best but never find it. All of my friends just stop talking to me and always place me on the back burner because they know I’m always there when they need me. I feel overwhelmed with life. Depression medication always makes me gain massive weight (20lbs in a month) so I don’t take them and anxiety meds won’t be prescribed because of the drug issues within our community to someone who looks like I do (tattoo’s in a rural area.) I feel like I’m supposed to do something great but I don’t know what that is and feel like I won’t know until it’s too late. I must have everything clean and in its spot at all times or I get super frustrated and lose my temper. I focus so much that I lose the concept of anything. I have around 10 major crying fits a year as said from my husband. I don’t feel attractive after having our children in 2012, 2013. I don’t feel successful, everything that is mine has gone to shit and I’ve lost a sense of self. I’m confused by the world and would like to stay tucked away in a forest with a huge fence around the area. Doctors act like they know right what it is “depression” or have no idea but would like me to ‘try’ said medication to see if it helps and it never does. What is wrong with me?!!!!

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Everything I try to succeed in I fail because I’m not good enough'], 'answer_start': [173]}
My mother is 50, I am 18. I cant recall how long this has been going on, less than a year, however. When Im in my room I usually constantly hear my mother talking to herself and laughing hysterically to herself. Ive went in before and asked what shes laughing about and she will simply respond with “Oh, nothing.” or “Just thinking about something.” I havent asked her about who shes talking to or what shes talking about. She sometimes changes the voices as well, she does a very scratchy, forced voice that I cant exactly describe, the kind that would make your throat hurt kinda. She also does her normal voice. The laughs may go consistently from 5-10 minutes on occasion. At first when I first heard it I thought maybe she is just thinking of something funny, but its everyday now. all day. she doesnt do this stuff when she knows Im in the room. Only when Im in my bedroom, and when we spend time together like out driving she doesnt do anything like it. or when Im in the room with her. only when shes led to assume Im out of the room. Ive also caught her talking to the couch as if theres an invisible person there while Im in the kitchen. Please help.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I recently ended a 3 year relationship with someone who I’ve realized was emotionally abusive. I started wondering if I was being abused about a year ago, and recently read an article on this website that seemed to detail exactly how I feel and how I was treated. The title of this article is ‘Emotional Abuse and the Impact of Absence.’ He would withdraw without telling me what was wrong, leaving me to guess. He would rarely apologize, and seemed to be emotionally unavailable. Sometimes his withdrawal was due to me being upset about something that had nothing to do with him. He was extremely critical of my children, and my family. He found fault in the way my kids walked too loud, held their fork wrong, a look on their face he didn’t like, etc. and claimed that it wasn’t their behavior that was the problem, but my lack of disciplining them for it. However, it seemed no matter how I responded, he would find fault with it, and I felt like I was walking on eggshells when he was around because I never knew what would irritate him next.  In the past, I have tried to tell him how his actions made me feel, and how it affected me, but he responded with defensiveness and I ended up feeling worse, like everything was my fault. I felt like I was accepting any crumb of affection or attention from him even though I knew I wasn’t being treated right. I quit trying to talk to him about my hurt feelings because I feared it would just make him withdraw more, and possibly end the relationship. I’ve told him the situation was emotionally unhealthy for me, but I never confronted him about his actions being emotionally abusive. Now that the relationship has ended, I’m still struggling with all the hurtful things he did, and can’t seem to get past it. Should I confront him and tell him I think he was emotionally abusive and why? I’m afraid if I do, he’ll respond negatively and I’ll end up feeling worse, and if I don’t, it will continue to eat away at me, and I’ll regret not standing up for myself. (age 42, from US)

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['In the past, I have tried to tell him how his actions made me feel, and how it affected me, but he responded with defensiveness and I ended up feeling worse, like everything was my fault.'], 'answer_start': [1048]}
I was professionally diagnosed with ADHD and I’ve struggled with it since childhood. Later I was diagnosed with BPD and GAD, and a different doctor diagnosed BD2. I am certain about the BPD and ADHD, but I think I might actually have MPD (not GAD and BD2) and I’m concerned. I always hate telling my parents or my doctors about problems I think I might have for fear of looking dramatic or “wanting to have problems.” I fit every description in the DSM5, but when I think of MPD I immediately picture the movie Sybil and I know I am not nearly as severe as her. I would like to get help but like I said, I’m afraid it will be seen as one of my “attention seeking behaviors” (but I’m extremely aware of those, and I’ve been making them healthier behaviors as much as I’ve been able) I wouldn’t even know what to do if it were MPD, all the treatment options sound so scary and the thought of being labeled as one of the so-called “crazy” disorders is also scary.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am certain about the BPD and ADHD, but I think I might actually have MPD (not GAD and BD2) and I’m concerned.'], 'answer_start': [163]}
I live at home with my sister and parents. My sister never leaves the house and doesn’t ever visit any friends, although there are people who care about her and often ask me how she is doing. Basically she’s at home 24/7. She sleeps a lot and is sad often. She doesn’t answer text messages from anybody, not friends or even family. I have spoken to her because I am concerned about her mental health, and she knows she is sick. She thinks that she has depression, as well as a disorder somewhere between social anxiety and avoidant personality disorder. But she just won’t see a doctor. I have set up appointments for her only to fail in getting her to go- she just refuses and makes up an excuse like ‘I’m feeling tired’ or ‘I’m busy’. The few times she has set up appointments have been the same- she just doesn’t go. When she’s physically sick she will go, but won’t tell the doctor about her mental health because she feels embarrassed and awkward to tell a stranger about it. I can’t afford to have a doctor come to her, and neither can my parents. Even my parents don’t seem that concerned about her, they just complain that she has no job, even though that’s the least of the problems and a mere symptom of her mental health issues. I just don’t know what to do. It’s also hard because she seems to be dependent on me as I’m the only social contact she really has. When I went away on holiday for a month, she complained to me that she missed me and I needed to come home. I want to be there for her but it is so draining to be the person that she depends on, especially because I’m not a doctor, and she is not receiving any therapy at all. When she comes on outings with me, I end up not enjoying myself because she gets very anxious and I feel that I need to mediate that all the time. I also suffer from social anxiety on a smaller level, and it’s stressful to wonder what people might be thinking, if they notice her dependency and us both being anxious, and because of this, I prefer going alone. Please help, I don’t know how to help her! (age 22, from Australia)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have a long history of trauma and deal with symptoms of CPTSD on a near daily basis. I am on a low dose of Zoloft and see a therapist once a week. Progress has been very slow but I do see a steady improvement in my ability to self-regulate and a shift in some of my very fundamental patterns of thinking.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: In the past, I have been described by therapists as having all of the hallmarks of a PTSD sufferer, except for the fact that I do not really recall events with specificity. Instead, I forget them for the most part. If flashbacks happen, they are triggered by very specific things. the time I was so anxious all of the time that I was non-functioning. My GAF was probably around 30.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have a very hard time explaining things so Im going to keep this short. I have a lot of problems with me as a person and every time I think about my problem I just get this sinking feeling then I get angry and just sometimes I hit myself like punch my head. I have social anxiety, suicidal depression, ADHD, and Im pretty sure I have dyslexia as I have a very hard time forcing myself to read things. I started hating myself since 1 year ago and it just keeps getting worse. I’ve been in home hospital since the start of 9th grade because I could never focus in class because of my social anxiety and ADHD, its been helping but not enough and none of my parents are helpful since they cant relate. I dont know who to go to so Im going to try to find help here.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': [' I started hating myself since 1 year ago and it just keeps getting worse.'], 'answer_start': [403]}