Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Hello, I’m a 17-year-old boy. I was admitted into acute care for mania and self-harm after my father passed away. I was diagnosed with severe PTSD (not acute, because I’d been diagnosed in the past with it) and Bipolar 1 Disorder with Psychosis and Mixed Episodes. But I don’t think that’s the case, my psychosis isn’t only when I’m manic or depressed, it’s even when I’m stable. I’ll hear voices all the time, I’m almost always paranoid or delusional. But because I have some insight into this, I’ve been told I’m faking before. I don’t feel like I’m faking though, an example of a hallucination was I was checking my air conditioning vent and I saw a very vivid face in the vent, and I had a severe panic attack. I’ll hear voices calling my name all the time, or bells ringing, or children laughing at 2am. It’s horrifying and I don’t know what to do. Is this Schizoaffective? I even have the disorganised speech, it’s not very intense but I constantly have people asking me what I’m talking about because what I’m saying, even though it makes sense to me, doesn’t make sense to them. I know I have the major depressive episodes and the mania, but the psychosis doesn’t line up with it. I’m not always in a flux of either one or the other. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Back in December I hit a really bad depressive episode. My relationship with my girlfriend of 3 years wasn’t going well and work was highly stressful. I went into work that morning and got into a verbal altercation with a co-worker who never liked me. That was it, I was fed up with the world. I couldn’t take it anymore. So I went home and around 9pm locked myself in my room and attempted to overdose on my medication for diabetes and depression.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I cried in church today during the baptism of a baby. It’s like all of the loneliness and insecurities inside of me came to the surface when I saw the happy parents and their adorable child in this joyous moment. Because I am so afraid I am never going to have the opportunity to experience this. That I will not find someone to spend the rest of my life with – and in enough time to have a child.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Because I am so afraid I am never going to have the opportunity to experience this.'], 'answer_start': [213]}
I have been an angry kid my entire life, and I realized recently that I get angry at very stupid things but then I can not calm down unless I break something most of the time. If I do not break something or feel that I have done something bad, I am not satisfied with myself.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I am having trouble with my 4 year old daughter. She has several things that she cause her great distress if they are not done her way. Our major one we deal with is the bathroom. After she has gone to the bathroom she has to have a certain size piece of toilet paper “too big” is a common phrase we get. On top of it she wipes for what seems like an eternity to me always feeling like she is still wet. She’s not but she will try to wipe every area until she is basically red. I have tried to help her but she has to do it herself, if I try she just gets more angry. If we are in a hurry to get somewhere and I try to help her by wiping her and getting her pants up she has a fit and has to pull her pants down and wipe some more. Same goes with handwashing, it’s the drying part but it’s how long she has to wash. She soaps up for 3-5 minutes then rinses, we have to turn the water off to get her to stop yet if there is one small bubble on her hand left, we have to rinse some more and more and more. This is just the bathroom issues we have.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hi :) So I recently broke up with my boyfriend and best friend (two months ago). I am at rock bottom as I’ve experienced rape, abuse, dropped out of college to pursue my ambitions but it’s not working out. He was also going through a lot, a life changing surgery and recovery. He broke up with me because he felt that he needed to regain his strength alone before using his energy on a relationship and would like to meet up after he regained his confidence. I had accepted his decision and we remained best friends. He asked for space which hurt me as I need support during my trying times and I’m getting support from my friends but not from him. He ignored my email when I explained how I felt. I feel like it’s unacceptable to ignore someone at their worst as I was there for him at his worst. I don’t know if I can forgive him for this. Am I overreacting? We were always great at communicating but now he refuses to reach out and ask how I’m doing. He’s not there for me at my worst so he doesn’t deserve me at my best? Is this rational thinking? (From South Africa)

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['He’s not there for me at my worst so he doesn’t deserve me at my best?'], 'answer_start': [954]}
My husband is a good guy. He is very positive and understanding. Only problem I have with him is that even though he loves me a lot, when anyone insults me ( like his parents or brother)n he just keeps mum. I do not yell at them either as I do not have the courage to face a fight. Also, it would only worsen the situation. Instead, if he spoke for him, they would be always forgive their son. They would also understand my feelings at some time. Since I have not expressed myself, I bottle up my anger and it reflects on my behaviour with them. Whereas at all times, my husband is a good boy in hteir eyes and I have become a bad girl! I feel very lonely and let down by my husband and is I loved him madly and could never tolerate any kind of blame on him form my people. I would fiht tooth and nail to rpove his inncocence wheras he just watches evrything and always asks me forgive and forget. Now, I feel that my love for him is coming down beacsue of this which is making me sad. PLs advice how to change him.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Also, it would only worsen the situation. Instead, if he spoke for him, they would be always forgive their son.'], 'answer_start': [282]}
From a teen in the U.K.: Lately, I’ve been experiencing some kind of change around me. I’ve been losing emotions to everything. I know I can feel because I do cry etc, it’s just that hobbies, people, as well as places that made me feel a certain way, are starting to not make me react at all. I’m an introvert person and I don’t like speaking to people about my problems. I’ve also been lacking a lot of sleep for the last couple of months, sleeping 1-4 hours a night, most of the time 2 hours… could it be something to do with my mental health?

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’ve been losing emotions to everything.'], 'answer_start': [87]}
I’m a 25 year-old male whose father and cousins have/had schizophrenia. I recently moved to Oregon, where marijuana is a legal drug, so I partake recreationally (3-4 times a week). I just started smoking marijuana when I was 24, and really didn’t make it a regular thing until I was 25. I’ve always had a slight fear of having schizophrenia, as I’ve studied mental illness since it’s been a very big part of my life. Recently, however, I feel those feelings have been slightly amplified due to the correlative nature between schizophrenia and marijuana usage displayed in medical and psychological studies. I’ve noticed myself becoming paranoid when under the influence (a common thing, I know). That paranoia usually subsides after I rest, along with the influence of the drug. That being said, I’ve been having some thoughts of being able to change the world. These thoughts occur heavily when I’m high, but also sometimes happen when I’m sober (only much less intense), and usually come in the form of being able to educate people about empathy and kindness (since I’m a teacher and an actor). I’ve also had moments where I try to empathize with people in order to understand what they’re thinking, and maybe even try to “read their thoughts” in order to better connect with them. Do I truly believe I can? No. But I do think I can come close to identify how their feeling in order to better help them with their problems. I can, somewhat frequently, also have quick mood changes into anger depending on circumstances; they usually happen when I’m driving or when I have a lot of stress in my life.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’ve also had moments where I try to empathize with people in order to understand what they’re thinking, and maybe even try to “read their thoughts” in order to better connect with them.'], 'answer_start': [1097]}
Well here it is, I’m 24-year-old male who has recently kicked a very serious heroin habit, I was using between a gram and half to two grams a day just not to go through withdrawals symptoms. For the last three years. While I used my thoughts and emotions took a back seat I forgot what it was like to left alone with my brain.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m 16, and I’ve been diagnosed with depression, GAD, and gender dysphoria- I’m FtM- all of which I’ve struggled with for years. For a time during my most recent episode, I used cutting to cope. I was working hard in treatment before and during the episode, and I continue to fight as hard as I can. I’ll be two months clean at the end of March, and I’m proud of my progress since I began this journey a year and a half ago.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My boyfriend has a school reunion event coming up next weekend. I’m not going because I didn’t go to his school. I grew up in another country and moved to the UK when I was 18, and met my bf soon after I moved to the uk. I felt very daunted by being with him as he was very popular at school and he still lived in the environment where all his school friends were and where he grew up, while I didn’t know a single person in the country. However, I have always been someone that makes friends easily, I never have any issue with anyone and generally I would say I’m pleasant person. But for some reason some of his school friends were not welcoming to me. perhaps I was seen as an outsider, (I’m European), or as someone a bit different. but me and him are very happy together. Over the years I’ve heard from some of his friends that they had “heard I was a horrible person and heard bad things about me from other people”, and the people were always people I’d never met, and it was just girls or bitchy people that my bf went to school with. I never understood it, but it really did hurt my feelings because as I said before I’m an open-minded and friendly person, and don’t think I’ve experienced people just randomly saying horrible things about me behind my back. we have a great friendship group with lots of his and my friends, and we all get on really well. however, I’m surprised and hurt that he would go to this event next weekend considering there will be people there that clearly have some strange vendetta against me that I can’t explain, nor do I know where it stems from. he says it shouldn’t matter to me, but it does.this is a big deal for me and I’m surprised he would walk over me like this. should I be hurt or just accept that he wants to go to this school reunion? he sees his friends all the time, so it’s not really a “reunion”. thank you (From the UK)

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['however, I’m surprised and hurt that he would go to this event next weekend considering there will be people there that clearly have some strange vendetta against me that I can’t explain, nor do I know where it stems from. he says it shouldn’t matter to me, but it does.this is a big deal for me and I’m surprised he would walk over me like this'], 'answer_start': [1366]}
Here’s my story: Married for 12 years with two beautiful children. During their upbringing, the wife and I grew distant of each other. She began to treat me badly with little respect and I began to emotional disconnect with her and stopped providing the emotional loving support that she needs. Looking back – we both were at fault!

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: My parents and I have always not seen eye to eye, ever since I could walk there has always been physical and emotional abuse. My dad would get drunk and throw plates at my mother and on bad nights my dad would come into our room and break our toys. Both my parents grew up in terrible environments so my understanding was that being mean was all they knew. The last straw for me was my sophomore year in high school when my father was supposed to pick me up, my phone died and I was late getting to his car, he screamed at me and told me to walk home, 4 miles in the dark without a phone.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My parents and I have always not seen eye to eye, ever since I could walk there has always been physical and emotional abuse.'], 'answer_start': [15]}
From the U.S.: I am a 22 year old graduate student who lives at home with my younger brother, my 47 year old mother, and grandmother. I found out my mother has an online dating profile while going through the computers search history looking for a website I found a few days earlier which isn’t a problem, but it isn’t a “normal” dating website. It’s a Spanking Dating profile.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I will try and be as brief as possible: 3.5 yrs ago I fell deeply in love with a man who is 13 years my senior. I had never felt this way and neither had he. We were together full time for 1.5 yrs however it was a long distance relationship taking up to 10 hours each way to see each other. We adored each other and wanted to make it work so made an effort to meet up every 2 weeks. The distance took its toll and when I felt ready to move in with him, he suddenly became very scared (his mum committed suicide 3 yrs before I met him and was quite abusive to him when he was a child) and took a step back which caused no end of heart ache. I knew he still loved me however it was simply impossible to continue as we were. Eventually the frustration of being apart caused us to separate. We decided to take a break- not to break up. But he went into denial and although we were in touch most days during the break, he said that he wanted to stay single. I was dying of heartache and 6 months after our so called break met another man who for the first few months became just a lovely friend, consoling me about my break and helping me, eventually the new chap and I started having a relationship although I had mentioned nothing to the first man (love of  my life) as in my head I thought he no longer wished to be together. After some time he found out and told me that he wanted to get back together by which time my trust had flown out the window. The new man was so lovely and kind and fun and all the rest of it but we lacked much sexual intimacy. Fast forward nearly 2 yrs and they are still both in my life, I am in love with both and both are in love with me. I live with the new one but I am dying inside being away from the first.  I have seen him and we both don’t understand what’s going on. Its so painful and I feel so guilty. Sex is still an issue with new man- I love him dearly rather than passionately. Help me please if you can. (From the UK)

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I live with the new one but I am dying inside being away from the first.'], 'answer_start': [1667]}
It’s So Much More Than A Simple High School Crush. I’m renaming my crush Jack. I met Jack in 7th grade, we were more like acquaintances then, but i had a huge crush on him. Now, almost 4 years later, it’s so much more than that. I cannot get him out of my mind. He pops into my head at weird times. Sometimes, he will pop into my head and suddenly he will appear. I was driving a road close to where i live and he popped into my head. The song playing had nothing to do with love, all of a sudden his truck passed by. It was just me and him on that road (I live in the country so there aren’t many busy roads) and all i could think was why did it have to be him? of all the people who live here, and when he is on my mind he passes me. so weird. Anyway, when I started sophomore year at the end of August last year, Jack was in one of my classes. we got assigned seats and he got put next to my best friend and i got put across from his best friend. the way our desks are set up are sideways from the board. If he wanted to look at his friend who sat across from me, he would have to back his chair to see around other peoples heads to be able to look at his friend. As soon as we got assigned seats, i would catch him looking at me. I figured he was looking at his friend but whenever he would actually look to his friend i noticed him backing his chair up to see around other people. He never backed his chair up and we made direct eye contact. It would be like 5seconds until i turned away. happens in the hallway too. I would catch him looking. I talked to him a couple times in that class but i was so nervous. 2017 is new so i decided to add him on snapchat. I was so nervous and he added me back. We talked for a couple weeks until all of a sudden he would leave me on read. It broke my heart. Now he will sometimes reply but still the random thoughts and appearances of him occur. My mom’s friend said weird thoughts of him popping up are when he’s thinking of me too. Help me?

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['We talked for a couple weeks until all of a sudden he would leave me on read. It broke my heart.'], 'answer_start': [1705]}
My mother and father treat me quite differently. My father treats me pretty nicely, though he expresses doubts about my mother’s way of treating me. She definitely favors my sister, and even worse, doesn’t like to admit it either, even though it is plain as day. As for me, I’ve gotten used to that over the years, however, recently, I’ve started getting empty feelings and like there is no happiness in the world. Laughing is a foreign concept. Another thing is that my mother loves lecturing me about how naïve I am and how I cannot possibly understand the real world. However, she appears not to see me literally wilting in front of her implied insults that she hurls at me without remorse. And, when I think about talking to her about how I might feel, it never seems to turn out right. Then there are also other consequences because of these feelings. First off, I tend to binge on junk food, then, afterwards, feel really bad about it and my self-esteem will drop. Also, I lash out at the people who actually love me, leaving them confused. Help me! :(

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['Another thing is that my mother loves lecturing me about how naïve I am and how I cannot possibly understand the real world. However, she appears not to see me literally wilting in front of her implied insults that she hurls at me without remorse.'], 'answer_start': [446]}
From the U.S.: I am 37 and I cannot stop myself from imagining I am in a different scenario and talking to people who aren’t there. Every day and sometimes before I sleep or when I drive, I am always making up scenarios and characters in my head and live in them. I have these characters, almost celebrities or famous people, I have made up with their own image and I have a character I have made for myself and now I just automatically slip into this character and talk to the people I have made up without even realizing I’m doing it.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I am a gay male and have been out and confident in my sexuality for over 3 years now. However in the past year or so I have become unable to imagine myself in sexual situations with men I find attractive, or even men I don’t personally find attractive.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I realized today that since high school, when something disappoints me, embarrasses me or makes me feel un-special in some way, I give up. I have quit jobs, left relationships, quit committees – not in a huff, I just quietly remove myself. I have always felt insignificant – even though I know, intellectually at least, that I am a very successful individual. Yesterday, after a particularly uncomfortable day, I wanted to quit living – just stop the striving to be better, stop working to be approved of, stop trying to be an important person to someone. Why am I doing this? I am an intelligent person – yet I can’t stop these thoughts.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I realized today that since high school, when something disappoints me, embarrasses me or makes me feel un-special in some way, I give up. I have quit jobs, left relationships, quit committees – not in a huff, I just quietly remove myself.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I have a sister that is in her thirties and I think she has a mental disorder. She is a paranoyed person. Things that to me is stupid she worries about. For example we were doing remodilng in our home and we were working on the bathroom and we took the bathroom door off and she came to my house and had to use the bathroom. It was just her and I there and she had to use the bathroom. She went through and shut all of my bedroom doors and checked to make sure that no one was in the house because she was afraid that someone would see her in the bathroom. She is also a depressed person and real hard to get along with. She has a daughter,her name begans with the same letter as mine and when we are all together she gets our name mixed up she calls her daughter by my name and just keeps doing it. My mom babied her and always has. All of my brothers and my one sister know she has a problem but we are not sure what it is. She drives all of us crazy,its hard to be around her. She is always asking my brother if he is mad at her because she thinks that he isn’t talking to her enough. She always wants pitty. She is a single mother and doesn’t work and expects her family to keep her. She has trouble taking orders at jobs because she gets mad. She got into trouble one time when she was in her twienties for hitting a co worker with a six pack of pop in the face. My brother told me when he was a little boy she used to bite the blood out of him and he would tell my mom and my sister would denie it every time and my mom would beleive her. My mom just doesnt relize she has a problem and I think she does. She told me that she went to the doctor last week and they told her that they thought she had bipolar. She doesn’t belive it. Im tired of my mom making excuses for her and defending her when she is wrong.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['She drives all of us crazy,its hard to be around her. She is always asking my brother if he is mad at her because she thinks that he isn’t talking to her enough. She always wants pitty.'], 'answer_start': [926]}