Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
From the U.S.: I have been diagnosed with OCD years ago and it has recently resurfaced worse than ever due to stress. I can’t see a psychiatrist anytime soon so I’m reaching out for advice. I fear that I’m in the stages of prodromal psychosis. I’ve been on Celexa for the past 3 weeks and it isn’t reacting well with me so I’m tapering off now while getting on Anafranil because the medication saved me years ago.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I fear that I’m in the stages of prodromal psychosis'], 'answer_start': [190]}
From a teen in the U.S.: I will try my best to get all of this stuff out in a condensed manner. Contextually, I may have been traumatized during my 3rd grade school year. I remember the incident unusually well, and can recall definite features 8 years after the fact. I had gotten into an argument with this one kid. In the midst of this argument I had dragged another guy into it (so-to-speak). All-in-all I was harassing the guy, and I said some really awful things to him. That much, I feel guilty for.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I was on some wrong medicine for my diagnosis and I was struggling one night because my daughter would not stop whining and crying. My son heard me yelling and crying and called my mom. When she got there I was calmed down. She came in the bathroom where I was and told me she was tired of my drama and why didn’t i just kill myself. So being in the mental state I was in I ran into the bedroom and grabbed a pistol, that I thought was unloaded. was told it was unloaded. She and my son wrestled the gun from my hand and i locked myself in the bathroom. She called ems and I was involuntarily committed. I was let go the next day. She can’t understand why I’m mad at that and says I’m unforgiving.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['She can’t understand why I’m mad at that and says I’m unforgiving.'], 'answer_start': [631]}
From Indonesia: I am sorry if my English is not that good. I’ve been diagnosed with pure Os for 10 years or so, and I’ve been drinking SSRIs for 2 years, which helped me a lot. Now my obsessions are lowered and there is only one kind of fear that buggers me a lot. I am afraid of being influenced by someone’s opinion, when that person doesn’t like the things that I like. I am afraid that by understanding her/his perspective, I’ll stop enjoying the things that I do enjoy. It works on some emotional level even when I understand how unreasonable is that fear of mine.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am afraid of being influenced by someone’s opinion, when that person doesn’t like the things that I like. I am afraid that by understanding her/his perspective, I’ll stop enjoying the things that I do enjoy.'], 'answer_start': [265]}
From the U.S.: Can dietary mineral supplements like potassium and/or magnesium (or anything else) reduce the solitary adverse reaction of muscle stiffness I’m having to my daily 20 mg of Latuda. It’s a terrific drug for doing what it’s supposed to do., but I have stiffness. At first stiffness caused me to stop going to the gym so I gained weight. But when I realized that the soreness was not getting worse, and I was getting fatter, I went back to the gym. I basically feel like I’ve been working out 24/7 even when I’m not. I’e taken ibuprofen occasionally for the pain, but not often. I’ve been on Latuda about 6 months; noticed soreness right away.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I basically feel like I’ve been working out 24/7 even when I’m not.'], 'answer_start': [460]}
From Australia: So I worked in an industry which is well known for boasting a “toxic” work environment for some 5 years. Throughout this time, I loved my job and was somewhat ignorant to the way that I was treated until it got pretty bad and I developed a career ending injury. For the 4th and 5th year of my career, I was not treated with respect, there was no sign of appreciation for all of those extra hours I put, or level of reliability despite illness and injury. My was not a nice person, and my manger became even worse to the point where I could no longer ask them questions as I knew the abuse would follow.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['For the 4th and 5th year of my career, I was not treated with respect, there was no sign of appreciation for all of those extra hours I put, or level of reliability despite illness and injury. My was not a nice person, and my manger became even worse to the point where I could no longer ask them questions as I knew the abuse would follow.'], 'answer_start': [278]}
I feel unmotivated, stuck in life I got laid off about a year ago but, I’ve been feeling this way before then just don’t know where I’m at or where I’m going I don’t have a plan when I wake up every day I struggle to find work getting caught up in the little things like clean cook etc. I have a live-in gf and we both have one kid each living with us as well. I feel like nothing I do is good enough. negativity just lingers around more in my head even simple things I know don’t matter. I would like help but I would like to avoid drugs.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['negativity just lingers around more in my head even simple things I know don’t matter.'], 'answer_start': [402]}
I am worried that there may be something wrong with me or with my anger management skills. For the past few years, I have experienced very short but very intense bursts of anger which I suppress and don’t act on. They are mostly triggered by my abusive brother who lives in the same house as me because I am not married yet and unable to move out due to national policy. Whenever I see him doing something inappropriate (he masturbates with his room door open) or when he yells at me or when he makes a mess of the house, I get so angry that my body vibrates, I clench my fist so tightly that I cut my palms with my fingernails, and I grit my teeth. These bursts last for about 2-3 seconds then it will pass, and I will feel myself warming up a little and my heartbeat getting stronger. I get very violent thoughts during these episodes but I never act on them at all. I am aware that my brother is very abusive, to the point that even my parents cannot do anything about him because they are afraid of retaliation. So my strategy has always been to just avoid him as much as I can until I can finally get a place of my own and move out.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Whenever I see him doing something inappropriate (he masturbates with his room door open) or when he yells at me or when he makes a mess of the house, I get so angry that my body vibrates, I clench my fist so tightly that I cut my palms with my fingernails, and I grit my teeth.'], 'answer_start': [371]}
I have had 2 homosexual dreams but I am only aroused by women. Gay thought keep coming to mind, but I truly hate it. What is wrong with me? I just woke up from a 2nd gay dream. In Dream 1, a man tried to have sex with me, after I followed a woman into a shower, but I ran away from the man. In Dream 2, I tried to kiss a girl but i ended up kissing my best friend (a dude), but in the dream I hated it also. I constantly have homosexual thoughts during the day but tune them out. They do not arouse me. I dream about women constantly and the thought of man on man action does not turn me on. I love my friend, but not in that way. Am I gay?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a young woman in Egypt: The first person I ever loved was my boyfriend of a few months. It was toxic and abusive. He was suicidal and so was I at the time, he would self harm with me on the phone with him and hang up sometimes saying “goodbye, good bye”; as in “I’m leaving”. I would stay up all night.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’ve been obsessed with psychopaths, sociopaths and serial killers for as long as I can remember. I started thinking “what would it be like to kill someone?”and I realize… I wouldn’t care if I hurt someone. In fact… I want to. Just watching that kind of power over someone’s life come from me, especially if it were an enemy. It wouldn’t affect me. When I was younger, I used to torture animals. Grab them by their tails and drag them down the hallway. My sister ended up calling me an “animal abuser” My sister is now afraid of me. I’ve hurt myself rather than hurting someone else because I just recently got in trouble for almost assaulting someone with a pair of scissors and I realized… I do not want to deal with that again. I am not here to seek help, I am here to seek answers.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have been dating my boyfriend for almost three years now. Three months ago, we moved in together. We are getting married soon and I love him so I want him to get better. He has displayed anger problems once in a while, but they seemed minor. However, lately, he has been losing it over small things.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I grew up a straight A student but a few things happened 5 years ago and I’m not the same. Anger is the only emotion I can feel deeply everything else feels like a shadow of what I should feel. I laugh at my own misfortunes and when my anyone cries to me I do what a normal person would do but its alien to me. The women and drugs no longer thrill me and I want to be the man I should be. I just want to know what’s wrong with me and what should I do

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I grew up a straight A student but a few things happened 5 years ago and I’m not the same. Anger is the only emotion I can feel deeply everything else feels like a shadow of what I should feel.'], 'answer_start': [15]}
I have battled with my idiosyncrasies since I was a little girl. I always thought I was merely particular, maybe slightly obsessive. However, after having a child my “sensitivities” if you will, have become markedly more intense. My skin has always been hypersensitive. In fact, I cut my hair multiple times, not bc I’m Daring as I let people believe, but because the individual hairs touching my skin drive me up a wall. Almost to the point of anger. Certain sounds make me want to curl up in a ball or scream. I don’t want this sort of thing influencing the way my child learns to cope with emotions. I have certain ways every little thing needs to be done and I feel like the world is ending when those systems are disrupted. A way of organizing the cabinets, a way of organizing the fridge, a way to load the dishwasher. I have panic attacks when I think about all of the things that are out of order while having a child and it exhausts me. I am severely socially apprehensive although I can mask it. I grew up with many siblings in a very abusive household and had to develop qualities that could help me protect my siblings and form lifelines outside of our home. I struggle every day to leave the house and go to a noisy bar and talk to people all night.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['In fact, I cut my hair multiple times, not bc I’m Daring as I let people believe, but because the individual hairs touching my skin drive me up a wall. Almost to the point of anger. '], 'answer_start': [270]}
I separated from my boyfriend of 6 years more than 3 years ago. It was a very passionate relationship and we had 13 years age difference — he was older. I basically grew up with him and he was my first relationship. We separated because he had a lot of commitment issues and would not move in with me [he’s had many relationships, but ours was his longest].

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: Around age 7 my father began a serious relationship with my now step-mother. I also began to become sexually curious at this time. My step siblings and I would play some inappropriate games, such as spin the bottle, while exploring this curiosity. For my youngest step brother and I, this progressed over the years into a sexual attraction. By the time I was 13 we began to have oral sex and by age 16 we had intercourse.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in Egypt: I have noticed that I change my feelings a lot towards people around me, from family to friends, and it causes me problems with them and I just don’t know what’s the root of having to experience this. I sometimes love them too much and other times I just can’t stand being around them. When I start to feel irritated by my some of my friends I immediately decide that I won’t talk to them ever again, but I always feel guilty about these feelings because I have no real reason to feel this way. Lately, I have been trying my best to be positive but there’s always something that happens and just simply makes me feel negative again.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I sometimes love them too much and other times I just can’t stand being around them. '], 'answer_start': [223]}
From a teen in the U,S.: I fit the DSM-5 Criteria for BPD. I scored 88 for BPD on sanity score connected to psychcenteral, and the borderline test connected to psychcentral gave me a score of 43 when 33+ is supposed to be generally severe. I know that BPD isn’t usually diagnosed in adolescents but recent studies are starting to show that symptoms actually start at this age.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Let me start by saying that I am an 18 years old hetero male and I am suffering from these thoughts for 2 years. It all started with me face-planting to my mom’s breast get a split second turn on. I felt disgusted by myself, wanted to die, thought that I don’t deserve to live or even go to heaven. I thought I belong to hell. I always tried to check if I get turned on by thinking a sexual thing about my mom and I felt disgusted by myself more and more. But I’ve left it behind when my doctor said that it’s normal to get turned on because I face-planted to a women’s breast and my body reacted to it. Then after suffering these, I started thinking that I am a pedophile. It all started with me getting sexual thoughts from a child anime character who’s name is kanna kamui . She has very thick thighs and wears thigh high socks. Let me say that have a kink about thigh high socks. It all happened again. Disgusting myself, thinking I belong to hell, and not wanting to live. I always checked her pictures to see if I get turned on or not. Which I did n’t. My doctor said that I am not a pedophile as well and suffering from POCD. So with that I always said YOU’RE NOT A PEDOPHILE to myself. I didn’t get any intrusive thoughts about having a sex with children so that helped me as well. And yesterday I’ve gone to my doctor saying that I am not taking medications anymore and I was feeling great. He did some tests on me and I’ve passed all of them. I was happy, better than before. But that day I said okay I am gonna look at the pictures of that child anime girl and think having sex with my mom to see if I get turned on or not if i don’t then I’ll be happy forever. You know what happened? Split second turn on both of them. Now I want to die again. I don’t want to accept that I am a pedophile nor incester. Now I check pictures of that girl and think sexual things about my mom to see if I get turned on but i don’t. But why did I felt that split second turn on? Was it because I was scared that it’ll get it? I am not seeing myself having sex with my mom even if it’s possible. I am not seeing myself having sex with children even if it was ok and legal. I don’t fantasize about children nor my mom. I don’t get turned on by looking at children. I can say that they look good, their legs look good. But not in a sexually aroused way. I just ask myself that if their legs look good or do they look good and say yes or no. I don’t fantasize about their face or get romantically aroused by their face. Am I a pedophile and incest or is it POCD? Please help me. (From Turkey)

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['It all started with me face-planting to my mom’s breast get a split second turn on. I felt disgusted by myself, wanted to die, thought that I don’t deserve to live or even go to heaven.'], 'answer_start': [113]}
I think I might have some sort of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. My mind is constantly wandering and I can never seem to pay attention to anything. When somebody asks me a question sometimes I know that I know the answer but I just can’t seem to find it and it literally feels like there’s nothing but blur in my head. I guess the bottom line is, I want to get professional help with this but I am only 14-years-old and I do not know how to approach the question with my parents. Do you have some advice?

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['My mind is constantly wandering and I can never seem to pay attention to anything. When somebody asks me a question sometimes I know that I know the answer but I just can’t seem to find it and it literally feels like there’s nothing but blur in my head.'], 'answer_start': [76]}
My boyfriend of almost 2 years, who is 27 years old, has a baby with a previous girlfriend. I didn’t find out until a couple months into our relationship when his ex-girlfriend sent me a message via facebook and told me. I, completely shocked, confronted my boyfriend about it and he cried and said he hadn’t told anyone about it and didn’t know what to do. He said he was going to tell me when “the time was right” but he didn’t want to lose me. He apologized (and still does) for being selfish and that if I didn’t want to stay with him he would understand. At that point I was already completely in love with him and wanted to be with him.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
So I have no close friends at the moment probably I know some people enough just to say hi but no close one and whenever I make any they go away I don’t know if its my personality the reason or the way I behave and the only friends I can gain are school friends since there is no other place I go to I can’t really stand myself alone. Thanks for helping.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['So I have no close friends at the moment probably I know some people enough just to say hi but no close one and whenever I make any they go away I don’t know if its my personality the reason or the way I behave and the only friends I can gain are school friends since there is no other place I go to I can’t really stand myself alone.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I can’t grasp how many women my boyfriend has been with. My boyfriend has been with more people than I can imagine. He feels rather ashamed of his sexual history. He has had sex with friends, married friends, one night stands, and made friends just to have sex with them. As far as he can “remember,” he did not use a condom with 3 of them (his total number of sexual partners is 15). Since then he has been checked for Sexually Transmitted Diseases (STDs).

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['My boyfriend has been with more people than I can imagine.'], 'answer_start': [57]}
hi , i keep obsessing on how mind works Like how you think (by that i mean how you produce your inner voice), how you memorize, how you calculate, how you imagine, etc,it makes me so freaked out. It also makes me feel so aware of everything, even my awareness, I want to get outside of myself, but i can’t hide from this hyper-awareness of my consciousness so it makes me even more freaked out (i feel trapped, condemned to listen to my inner voice for eternity). My thoughts scare me, but at the same time it seems like i can’t think about anything else … Sometimes i realize that i was not thinking about thinking but when i realize it i instantly get back in this existential circle. Right now it feels like hell and like i couldn’t ever forget how i’m feeling right now,It’s only when i think about thinking that i feel strange and anxious. When i’m lost in my thought i don’t think about it, of course. Then i realize i was ‘‘lost in my thoughts’’ and i feel a burst of anxiety trough my body,It’s like i’m so aware of my thought processes that it becomes kind of unusual,constant running comentary in my head for everything im doing through the day. HELP ME PLEASE

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Right now it feels like hell and like i couldn’t ever forget how i’m feeling right now,It’s only when i think about thinking that i feel strange and anxious.'], 'answer_start': [687]}
Hi I am 20 years old and just recently moved to Chile with my mother after the separation with my step dad. I have always suffered from depression and have taken medication for it but it seems to never work. These past few years it seems that I have gotten worse. I am constantly down on myself never thinking I am good enough. I can’t even remember what it feels like to be happy. I get angry over what my mother tells me are small things but I tell her they aren’t small to me. I am always on a rollercoaster of emotions, I can be having a good time and the simplest thing will bring me down and I am upset the rest of the day.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am constantly down on myself never thinking I am good enough. '], 'answer_start': [264]}
From the U.S.: My wife and I got married 17 years ago. A couple of days before our wedding my wife had her last bridal shower at the church she was attending at that time. I was living in another city at the time and on that day I had an argument with my father before I came to the shower. At the shower I was very quiet and did not say too much at all to anyone.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From India: I have known my best friend for the last 14 years and she is 50 and i am 36. She has two grown up daughters. She is a person who worries a lot and takes all things seriously even when her husband teases her. As her husband lived abroad she lived in her moms house, She did have a lot of troubles with her husband and even now he is the general Manager of an estate she continues to live in her moms place as she does not want to go and live with him.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}