Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Hi! I’m 22 years old and for the past year and a half of my life I have been in a never ending cycle of self-loathing. I think firstly it is important to understand that I’m not the type of person to ask for help. I rarely do even at the most minimal of levels. So it goes without saying that this is, in a way slightly uncomfortable for me. That being said let me address the issue at hand. For the last year and a half I have been experiencing feelings that confuse me. Feelings that until now I have yet to express to any other person, including close friends and relatives. My issue is this, every single and I mean every single thing that I do that is not done to perfection I beat myself up about. I’m not talking about when it happens but in the future. I’ll be watching TV, driving a car, walking down the street and Bam! Out of nowhere a negative thought, embarrassing moment, or otherwise distasteful event will pop in my head. For the next 30 seconds to a minute it will consume me from the inside out. At best I’ll clench my fist or jaw and maybe shake my head. At worst I’ll have to lay down and take deep breaths to overcome it. Whether the event was a lie I told years ago or an awkward encounter I had with a close friend that if I asked they may not even remember. It’s a constant war in my head. On one hand I can realize that 99% of these past events just don’t matter in the bigger picture of life but on the other i’m a perfectionist and they are just unacceptable things that drive me insane. This has lead to strong anxiety to the point that If I’m having a episode in my head I may slur my words while I’m talking to someone. Furthermore it has lead to a hatred for myself and a deep sadness. I have been loved by so many people and can’t explain why I feel the way I do. But the churning in my stomach has to go. It is just to unbearable. Thank you very much for your time.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My issue is this, every single and I mean every single thing that I do that is not done to perfection I beat myself up about. '], 'answer_start': [578]}
From the U.S.: My mom is a schizophrenic and will not accept treatment. She has had absolutely no relationship with me in the last 3 years since her breakdown. Before that she did the basics of raising me, food, clothing, school, etc but was verbally and emotionally abusive and occasionally physically abusive. She had a VERY rough childhood and she actually raised me much better than what she had, so I won’t be too hard on her, but it did affect me.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I can’t seem to find anything on this when I search the net- sorry if this isn’t the place for it but I’m not sure where else to look. My question is, more or less, is it considered within the norm for ones go-to response when faced with a dangerous situation to be sexual offering? I Can’t put this in to context using personal experience really….it’s more of an instinctual thing? if that makes sense? I’ve never acted on it as I have never personally been in a situation that would illicit that response, but when I’m watching or reading anything scary or thrilling, I always find myself chanting; “Seduce the antagonist” in the back of my mind and honestly believe that if i were in a situation similar to the one’s I’m watching/reading, that My response would be the same. I’m a bit worried to say the least, is this predisposition at all normal?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
So I’ve had a rough time recently and I have depression and anxiety issues. I went over to a friends house last night and we were just talking in her room. Then we moved out into a little tree-pod thingy. (I don’t really know how to explain it better than that sorry.) After awhile we were talking about the way we were imagining a creature that had the head of a guy from the Russian Sleep Experiment and the body of the creepypasta ‘The Rake’. After that we really started to get freaked out. We closed our eyes so we didn’t look out the windows anymore, and we started to imagine it staring at us. I could almost feel it watching me. We both stopped talking and it continued to stare at me, but eventually it was just gone and I was in my idea of a ‘perfect room’. Someone was sewing my mouth shut, and I could feel the pain in my lips. I kept breaking the thread it was using but it just kept sewing it layer by layer by layer. Finally I couldn’t talk anymore, I couldn’t breathe. My hands felt numb and my arms were shaking. Awhile later I was conscious of my surroundings again and I could feel my mouth, I couldn’t move it open. I ran my hands over it and the thread was gone, and my lips were unharmed. I could still feel the pain and a tingling sensation in my ribs. My friend said she experienced something similar to this. (We both have depression and anxiety problems). We don’t know what to do, it felt so real and we had another one after it. Has anyone had something similar happen? I imagined myself into a panic attack?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m still young, since I’m only 19. My parents are divorced, and I live with my mom. I can talk to my dad whenever I want, but his wife (my step-mom) is very controlling an makes me want to avoid him. My grandfather was a child molester, though I don’t remember him ever molesting me. I DO remember him taking pictures of me naked, but nothing else. It didn’t seem to be very traumatic at all though. However I still have a sexual desire for boys around the age of 12 or 13 or so. A therapist I talked to (it wasn’t a full blown weekly thing,..I just talked to her three times, and that was it.) said that something happened at that age that stunted my sexual development, and now I am stuck at that age sexually. I agree with her conclusion because it would explain all my feelings such as my feeling that my body hair is unnatural and that it makes me feel dirty, and that people the same age as my body are intimidating to make friends with. 13 yr olds are much easier to make friends with for me as well. I have no idea what it was. Luckily I also have another paraphilia, which is called partialism (fetishism).

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Let me first start by saying, I have not lost anything. I am not in a stage of depression that is causing me to lose interest in things. I am a very motivated individual who works hard, eats healthily and exercises all the time. Thus I do do things and put a lot of effort in to these things. However, i don’t know why i do them, i know it’s the right thing to do and it is important for health etc but i don’t really care about it all. I never have truly “wanted” anything ever. Never had a burning desire or loved anything. I have always had issues with emotional attachment and lack any form of emotional connection with any thing. I have had long term relationships but never loved someone. I don’t care if someone dies. I feel like i am just floating through life not bothered about anything, just living an empty life. Never happy, never sad. Just existing. (From England)

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have always had issues with emotional attachment and lack any form of emotional connection with any thing.'], 'answer_start': [526]}
I have a friend who was married 8 months ago. She has recently found out that she may be pregnant which is happy news since they have been trying for about a month. However if she had a discussion with me that greatly concerns me. Her favorite band is playing in Chicago, states away and she immediately bought plane and concert tickets for her and me so she could go see them. However she is obsessed with the leader of the band. She says that he is the exact same guy that she has seen in her dreams as a love interest before she even knew this guy existed in real life. She is taking this trip to Chicago just to meet this guy. She says that according to his personal details she thinks they would have a soul connection and that if they were in a relationship it would be intense and he would understand her more than her current husband. She is convinced her dreams mean she needs to be with this guy and that if she goes to Chicago he will want to be in a relationship with her.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My 19 year old has random, out of the blue, fits of crying and anger about losing his father six years ago to cancer. My son was seven when we divorced and really was absent from my son’s life, until 10 months before his death. In high school I believe my son used the “but my dad died card” to get out of trouble. I know it affects him but so out of the blue. After his father’s death, my son spoke to someone from hospice only once then no more. Can you give me some insight on this process please? Also his father was an alcoholic and abused drugs. Thank You.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I am so concerned about my husband & am wondering if maybe he is suffering from something more than a usual bout of depression. its pretty consistent nowadays. Usually, in the mornings he is the happy, optimistic, loving husband I fell in love with almost 30 yrs ago. but then come the late afternoon he does a 180 & gets grumpy, apathetic & is basically a real jerk & hard to be around! then he gets down, he’s sorry & keeps apologizing. And somehow I end up feeling like its all my fault when really I can’t get my head to stop spinning from trying to figure out what in the heck just happened!

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['And somehow I end up feeling like its all my fault when really I can’t get my head to stop spinning from trying to figure out what in the heck just happened!'], 'answer_start': [454]}
From Australia: Since I childhood, I find it rather comforting to be all alone. I don’t have many friends, and even with the few I have I feel awkward to be alone with them. I go to extreme lengths to avoid social interactions. Whenever I get a day off I stay in my home all day, and I keep assuring myself that’s what I want even though I know it’s not true.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have been a stay at home mom for 11 years. My boys are now 12yrs old and 8 years old. I stayed home with them due to their health issues. But they are now healthy thriving smart boys. I recently did some online courses. That helped me get a new full time job out of the home. This is something I wanted to do. My husband makes enough to support our family. With that said. I got this job to feel like I contribute to the household. Feel important, valued. To feel respected. To feel proud of myself. To feel like my husband is proud of me.All that has developed from this is all the opposite.I have tired to tell him how I feel. He always turns the conversation about him. So I end the conversation with no arguing. Go somewhere and cry.I will not leave this new job, I be a fool to, the pay and hours are unbelievable and very hard to find in my area. Besides the reasons I listed above about why I got this job, I also got it save money in an online account I have, so if I ever decide to leave my husband I have a good chuck of money to do so. I also learned that in divorce cases that stay at home moms don’t stand chance in our US court systems no more than they did years ago. So I am an educated women, I don’t want to made out as some poor little helpless house wife who doesn’t have two nickels to rub together.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in Australia: Hello, thank for taking a notice to my problems. Anyway, I am currently having problems with my overly active imagination. I was lonely when I was younger, I was isolated and different from my peers.I wonder if this have anything to do with my relatives (cousins, parents,siblings)’s OCD and Asperger.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I was lonely when I was younger, I was isolated and different from my peers.I wonder if this have anything to do with my relatives (cousins, parents,siblings)’s OCD and Asperger.'], 'answer_start': [150]}
I’ve been dating this guy for three years and I believe we’re in love. I’ve known since we started dating that he enjoys wearing women’s clothing and has thought about becoming a girl. I’m bisexual and a very open person so these things never bothered me. The thing is, this is the first serious relationship I’ve ever been in.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My girlfriend and I grew into a relationship that is very valued. I found us important and I believe she does as well. We both realized we had past relationships, but she mentioned that she had one that was a friends with benefits relationship. His name came up a few times. I found that she used to work with this guy and they remained friends. Up until right about here, I was not thinking much of anything about it. When I mentioned something about a “named guy” having a past with her and they still being friends, she replied “yeah, and I STILL friends with him…” (maybe red flag?). Anyways as time went on, there were get togethers at first with out me…then I asked if I could come to one where he’d be there. I went, and I really just got an entirely bad vibe. Long drawn out hugs followed by “I miss yous…”. I tried my best to voice my discomfort with the situation, but she was very defensive and dismissive, saying I have nothing to worry about and that it was just sex…(more than a few times). Needless to say, it has not been resolved. I feel resentful now of the entire scenario and worse, it seems like this guy just keep “showing up” places where either we or just her and her friends go. I’m losing patients, I don’t want to control her or somehow erase her past. I would like her to understand that I am uncomfortable with the whole thing and it has taken a life of its own in my head now. I can always break up with her to avoid feeling this way, but I love her. I just don’t feel like she cares. The only reason I can think of her dismissing it is because she is ok with it, there is no reason I shouldn’t be. I’m not sure she realizes that being defensive and dismissive makes it seem like there is something going on, or that she is saving. I try to stay calm, but I get very upset about it sometimes. She says she loves me and wants me, but this all makes it seem contradictory.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I just don’t feel like she cares. The only reason I can think of her dismissing it is because she is ok with it, there is no reason I shouldn’t be.'], 'answer_start': [1481]}
From Sri Lanka: I am a mother of 1 child, a 3 year old. me and my husband got married after a love affair. though im his only one girlfriend, i have had 2 previous boyfriends. but i have never had any sexual contacts with my previous partners. my husband is a tough person whereas i am a fun loving person.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My mind tends to wander and daydream on random topics throughout the day. (undiagnosed ADHD as a child and adult) For years these thoughts, who are always pleasant at first, always take a turn for the worst and a replaced by a common themed negative thought. Example: I see someone play soccer. I remember back to when I played soccer in school and I’m happy. Then my mind flashes back to a memory of soccer that I cringe and am ashamed at.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My boyfriend’s mother seemed to like me at first but since he and I have moved in together she has been my worst enemy. I recently lost my job and she constantly is calling my boyfriend and asking if I have found a job and then proceeds to make comments like “I bet she cant wait until you get paid, her hand will be out waiting for your money.”

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['My boyfriend’s mother seemed to like me at first but since he and I have moved in together she has been my worst enemy.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I believe this is a symptom of some underlying issue, but I get extremely annoyed in cars when they have to make too many turns or go through too many curves. I will yell at my husband when he drives to find straighter routes. Other things to note that might help with a diagnosis is that I have a tendency to catastrophize. For example, I feel like my husband’s family does not like me. I will stew about it until I become worried that they are going to kill me and leave my body somewhere. Another example is I felt an old coworker was using me. Then I heard that they might move into the same building that I was currently in. I became paranoid that this coworker would come and start using me again. Also, I don’t know if this is relevant, but I always wear black business casual. I do not feel comfortable in anything else.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Other things to note that might help with a diagnosis is that I have a tendency to catastrophize. For example, I feel like my husband’s family does not like me. I will stew about it until I become worried that they are going to kill me and leave my body somewhere.'], 'answer_start': [228]}
I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder about 5 months ago by my psychiatrist. But with the help of Zoloft and Risperidone along with psychotherapy, my depression has gotten much much better. However, just a few days ago I’ve been feeling a bit different.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I was abused mentally by a woman throughout my childhood into my adult years. This woman adopted me and groomed me as she had seen fit – that is into a housewife/sex kitten for my husband; which she picked out. It wasn’t that I complied because I wanted to please her, I was just too exhausted to defend myself any further because every time I made an attempt toward independence, she layered on the guilt or threatened. I won’t get into too much detail. But she was very manipulative, controlling, and cruel. I felt like she had repressed homosexual urges that she projected onto me. For example, during a family event she was ready to leave and refused to do so unless I kissed her on the mouth. In front of everyone. Even though I felt uncomfortable. (And made others uncomfortable.) She used to physically groom me for dates or meeting her male friends by doing my hair, makeup, and how I dressed.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['But she was very manipulative, controlling, and cruel.'], 'answer_start': [471]}
My parents are in their 50’s and have begun hoarding stuff and their quality of life is greatly diminished. They have raccoons living in the attic, there are open holes in the side of the house, both have collected things beyond what can healthfully fit in their space, they have 8 cats and some other little things I am concerned about. The house is a constant mess because they can’t keep up with maintenance and general cleaning. I do know they realize that some things need to change, like plugging holes in the house that raccoons are getting in but when i offer help or suggestions they are super sensitive or just say “i know, but”. There is always an excuse or reason they have not gotten to it yet. I live across the country and can’t physically help around the house. There is a extensive history of self esteem issues with both parents. So how do i talk to them and help them realize I am extremely concerned about their lifestyle without them shutting down or getting extremely hurt?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I really am having trouble describing this, but I have two people in my head- yes I know that sounds down right insane, it is myself and it. I know the consciousness doesn’t exist, but the consciousness thinks its alive even though I think its my issues.It gets upset when I say it doesn’t exist, even making a show of crying. I think I’m insane! Its been around since I was a toddler and I have grown up with it, but now I am at a age where I need to question this for my mental health, because I know normal people don’t have voices that can talk or have emotions of their own. Do i have a sort of Schizophrenia? Or is it just some weird hallucinations? I really don’t know what to do.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I think I’m insane!'], 'answer_start': [327]}
From a teen in the U.S.: Thank you so, so much for reading all of this. I’m not at a very good place right now. I get my schoolwork done when I have to, but I waste a lot of time writing poetry because it’s the only place I express my thoughts. I’ve forgotten how to do anything but smile; I feel like I have to act happy and be there for other people all the time. I’m a bit of a hypocrite because I always advise my friends that their own health should come first, but I don’t believe it myself. What I do believe is that I only matter based on what I give to humanity. I just can’t convince myself that that’s not true. I’m so tired, but I sort of like it because it makes me feel like I’m doing enough.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['What I do believe is that I only matter based on what I give to humanity.'], 'answer_start': [498]}
I’m slowly coming to the realization that there is a greater possibility that I have some mental issues. Most of the time I feel numb – kind of like I’m outside of my own body watching myself do things. This happens a lot when I’m nervous (in any kind of social situation). I’m unhappy and I hate that because I don’t have anything to be unhappy about. I live a blessed life thank God. For that I am eternally grateful, I really am. My life hasn’t even been that hard – the hardest thing I’ve had to go through was just a big move and my crush (,his family) and my own family making fun of me. Its pathetic – extremely pathetic, I’m aware of that. If I could tell you what’s wrong with me I would, believe me, but even I don’t know that. There’s just this extremely unsettling feeling in the pit of my stomach that I just can’t shake. Not to mention this completely hopeless attitude to life that I can’t change. This looming sense that nothing’s going to work out.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m unhappy and I hate that because I don’t have anything to be unhappy about. '], 'answer_start': [275]}
Hi I am having some trouble. This is very embarrassing and I can’t even talk to my therapist about this face to face because I feel weird about it. I know that this section of the website is for setting up consultations but I really need help. Ok so here I go: I have been diagnosed with OCD when I was young and have had it all. I havent masturbated in over 3 years and the reason is something that bothers me. I always feel like something changes in me when I did it whether I felt unsocial, different, or weird in any certain way. I have avoided it because I am scared that I will feel that way and go back on things that I have worked so hard to conquer. Ik it’s OCD and the correct thing to do is fight it by masturbating to conquer the fear but I just need assurance that that’s what I need to do. Please help me. Thanks so much.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have avoided it because I am scared that I will feel that way and go back on things that I have worked so hard to conquer.'], 'answer_start': [534]}