Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Ever since I was a child (7 to 10 years)I would feel aroused when I see someone humiliated or slightly tortured, I would imagine myself being the one receiving getting humiliated. I began masturbating when I was about 10, I didn’t even know what was I doing, I didn’t even know anything about sex or had any sexual feelings. I would lay on my stomach and just sort of pressure myself against the floor and I would never use my hands or finger myself, it has been the same way ever since. I am 20 years old, and I never get turned on by anything rather than humiliation and torture such as whipping and stuff. I learned that it’s a sexual masochism disorder. However, this whole issue has been bothering me for so long, and I cannot just get convinced that I was born this way. The fact that I only feel aroused this way ever since I was a kid makes me mad, especially because it’s not even associated with sex. It’s not like imagining having sex in that kind of way, sex is never even a factor in this. Never. Sex and steamy scenes never make me feel anything. I even began thinking that maybe I was sexually assaulted or abused in general as a child. My parents were normal and good, though. But for example, as a child and a teenager and even now, I am depressed most of the time. I am also very reckless towards myself like in fifth grade I swallowed so many pills to die and it was for a stupid reason. I used to self-harm very deeply( not related to masochism), and there is so much other stuff. Lately, I have been trying to remember my childhood. We had a nanny for a few years when I was 6 or 7, I remember that I hated her so much, that I once held a knife and told her that I would kill myself if she didn’t stop bothering me. I don’t remember though what she used to do, I cannot even remember her face which is weird because I remember people and stuff from a stage much earlier than that in my life. I have also been bullied as a kid from my friends but not like physically or anything. I know it’s stupid but I desperately want an explanation. (From Egypt)

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['However, this whole issue has been bothering me for so long, and I cannot just get convinced that I was born this way.'], 'answer_start': [658]}
I’ve been in therapy for 3 years with a great therapist. He has been a true godsend. The problem is, I’m having difficulty talking to him about sex, I was abused as a child and spent over 30 years, blaming myself for what happened. But now I feel ready to enter a intimate relationship with someone, however, my lack of confidence and my inexperience have made me very nervous about sex. I have wanted to talk with him about some of the details about my childhood abuse, to try to work through some of my fears and anxiety, I just don’t know how to even start the conversation. I have always viewed sex as being a shameful act and the thought of talking to him has caused me such embarrassment that I’ve spent whole sessions with him without talking at all. How would you suggest I handle this?

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have always viewed sex as being a shameful act and the thought of talking to him has caused me such embarrassment that I’ve spent whole sessions with him without talking at all.'], 'answer_start': [578]}
I think I’m going insane. My nightmares, my dreams, they’re so vivid, and they’re never natural, i dont feel like one person i swear I’m not alone, and they talk to me through my dreams, nobody understands me when i talk about them, i do rituals where i self-harm and put the blood all over myself. I sit in the dark and twitch and i dont hear voices but I FEEL them, I FEEL them inside me, i feel different from everyone else, I dont know what is wrong with me. I swear I’m going crazy. I hurt myself and then after I realize what I’ve done and i cry. I cry during i do it and whisper to myself. My dreams are so impacting they determine my mental state throughout my day. They are so real like, I feel panicked throughout the day. This isnt like the nightmare disorders I’ve read about. I love them even though they’re so detrimental to me. I cant let go of my past. Please help, I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I think I’m going insane.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From a teen in the U.S.: Hi i have been in a relationship since the 2nd semester of 9th grade, were now 5 years down the road and its not the same, the past 2 years i’ve been trying to break up but every time she says she can’t take it anymore and everyone in her life is leaving her and i’m the last person she has,

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
It’s been a year since I’ve been getting these thoughts (they aren’t external). But recently they have been getting more and more violent. They make me hit myself or I will jerk my head and scream “no” when the voice decides to bother me. Usually it will make me do things, or else something bad will happen. Other times it will make me hurt myself. These thoughts give me horrible anxiety but I’ve never gotten actual mental health. My brother is already in therapy from our traumatic experiences, but my parents just think I’m copying my brother’s behavior. I don’t want to self-diagnose, but I don’t want to sound greedy if i beg for help. What are these voices, and what should I do?

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['These thoughts give me horrible anxiety but I’ve never gotten actual mental health.'], 'answer_start': [350]}
What can I do if I suspect my mother has factitious disorder; she has, for many years, exaggerated sickness when lacking attention, persisted in problems to get possibly unnecessary surgery ( from which she inexplicably has difficulty or never recovers from), and most recently seriously mis-manages her type 2 diabetes. As example, recently when my sister, father and myself were away seeing to the needs of my grandmother who was very ill and eventually passed away, we received a call from a neighbor saying that she went to visit my mother and found her lying in the floor unable to get up because she was so weak. My mother claimed to have been there for 3 hours unable to get up because she was so weak from the flu. she was taken to the ER where she was cleared and given antibiotics and an inhaler for coughing. She has manipulated her insulin/food intake three times in as many years to bring about a seizure episode and requiring ambulance/hospital intervention. She did this just this weekend by pretending to eat breakfast after administering insulin injection, then not taking her purse containing the glycogen she keeps there, resulting in her making a scene saying that she needed chocolate then eventually ending in a seizure and ambulance ride to the hospital. She, of course, was examined and released once her blood sugar regulated. These seizures have ONLY occurred when extended family were present and she appeared to be ‘pouting’ for lack of perceived attention. She spends 98% of her time at home alone (she is retired, but insists that she isn’t well enough to do anything or much more than leave the sofa) and she has never had an ‘episode’ or seizure while alone. This is so dangerous to her and frustrating for us! What can we do??

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['These seizures have ONLY occurred when extended family were present and she appeared to be ‘pouting’ for lack of perceived attention.'], 'answer_start': [1352]}
My mental health care provider dropped me as a patient. I called to get refills on my medication and was told that they could not refill my medication because I hadn’t been seen in some time. Therefore, I made an appointment for the following week and asked to have my medication refilled until the appointment. They told me that wasn’t possible. I went to the mental health office and asked to see if I could speak to my provider or manager. They refused to let me speak to anyone until my appointment. The manager finally took me in her office and explained they could not give me my refills. When she opened her office door to let me out, two security guards were standing there. They escorted me out of the facility and refused to let me go to the Emergency Room. They stood by my vehicle as I sobbed like a baby, and told me to vacate the premises or they would call the police. When I made it home, I received a phone call from the manager stating that they had canceled my upcoming appointment, and were dropping me as a patient. They sent me a certified letter as well. I asked why I was being dropped and they told me it was my behavior. I don’t understand how asking for refills on my medications accounts for “bad behavior” resulting in being dropped as a patient. I would like to know if there is anything I can do to hold this office accountable.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
The man I’ve been on and off with for almost 6 years has finally admitted to me that “everything is there” in me, but he cannot see a future. He is an honest, good man who has deep fears and avoids intimacy. He doesn’t know what to do when I cry and never talks about his feelings. Our “relationship” has been quite unusual. We never interacted with friends and family, never dated. We were basically friends with benefits who also shared deep and casual discussions with daily interaction. I’ll admit I have learned I have fears as well. But each ending consists of him literally disappearing on me. He runs. He can often jump into a new flirtation, take her around his people, date her but it always ends and we always wind up back to each other. He admits now that he doesn’t understand why he can’t let himself do those things with me. There was a point in time, years ago; when he did fall in love with me but then it was like a flipped switch he shut it off and we’ve never gotten back to that place. My counselor thinks it’s because it would “mean too much” to date me. Because we are so right for each other that it could be the real deal and he’s blocking it. Do you agree? I don’t know of anyone else who has gone through something to this degree. I have loved and supported this man in every way I know how. I don’t want to live a life knowing we walked from what could have been the best relationship if we had just given it a chance. Why does he run from me but give himself to other casual girls who never had to “earn” that from him? I know he is confused and I’m giving him space but I’m so tired of the confusion. I have tried to move on as well, but no matter what happens, I long for our connection. I have no control over his actions, but I don’t understand why he won’t just give in to me. Or is it that I really just don’t matter enough? Please help. Thank you.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['Because we are so right for each other that it could be the real deal and he’s blocking it.'], 'answer_start': [1077]}
My daughter has been in a volatile marriage for about 10 years. there is verbal and emotional abuse from each of them (husband and wife) and little we can do to intervene. she is extremely volatile and angry over her life and lashing out at anyone who offends her including me and other family members. we have always been very close as a family so this kind of behavior is not the norm. we have had issues in the past, but this is intensified as I believe she is reflecting on her life–I believe she is reviewing and trying to figure out how she ended up in the situation she is in and she wants to blame everyone else. I am very worried for her because her anger and attacking of us and others is escalating to the point that she is unreasonable and cannot be reached and is shutting all of us out. things are so blown out of proportion and she is completely unreasonable and so angry that she is saying hateful and horrible things mostly through texts saying she is done with all of us.. she goes on and on relentlessly attacking us and anyone who disagrees with her.. she has a victim mentality where everyone else is alienating her, not caring for her, abusing her, etc. I am beyond heartbroken. this description is oversimplified in light of trying to give the picture and be brief.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['we have had issues in the past, but this is intensified as I believe she is reflecting on her life–I believe she is reviewing and trying to figure out how she ended up in the situation she is in and she wants to blame everyone else.'], 'answer_start': [388]}
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 4 years and have been living together for a little over 3 years. About a year ago his friend stayed over at our house while we were out on vacation, I’ve never met his friend before and only said yes because he said his friend was trustworthy. His friend ended up bringing over a female coworker and not letting us know but I found an eyeliner so I was upset and asked my boyfriend to talk to him since he didn’t want me to talk to his friend myself. Fast forward to last night his friend (the same one) called me my boyfriends ex-girlfriends name. Keep in mind this guy has been at my house and my boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years. I got upset and ended up leaving early because I was so mad and didn’t want to make a scene with someone I barely knew. Before I left I told my boyfriend he needed to talk to him because his friend disrespected me and made me wonder why he would call me someone’s name who was in my boyfriend’s life over 4 years ago. He said he talked to him and told him to apologize to me so his friend tried to add me on Instagram to apologize. I want nothing to do with his friend and I’m upset that all my boyfriend did was have a talk with his friend that I made him have and then went on to act like nothing happened. Now we’re arguing because I’m afraid my boyfriend doesn’t respect me since he did absolutely nothing except what I asked him to do. I feel like I shouldn’t have to deal with after being with him for 4 years, we also just bought a house together 3 months ago. Am I wrong to want him to do more than just talk to his friend (a talk I asked him to do) ? He thinks I’m being unreasonable and doesn’t think it’s a big deal since his friend made a mistake.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['Now we’re arguing because I’m afraid my boyfriend doesn’t respect me since he did absolutely nothing except what I asked him to do.'], 'answer_start': [1305]}
From Canada: My husband of 9 years has, in the last 3 months or so, increased his partying. On 7 different occasions he has gone out with single/divorced “friends” and come home stumbling at 4 am. I have respectfully asked him to stop as this is starting to bother me. The last time he went out, he didnt even tell me where he went and who with. I called him 10 times at 1:30 am and he sent me a text at 4:11 am saying he didnt see my calls. He then came home at 4:45 am, drunk.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Finland: In the last year or so, I’ve been partying more than usual. I have not been drinking daily or medicating anxiety with alcohol (I have a history of anxiety), only on friday OR saturday (never both), but definitely drinking more than is healthy. Put it this way: there have been fairly few weekends over the last 6 months where I have been sober all the way through. My hangovers tend to be really bad. I have noticed in the past that sometimes, the day after a hangover, my anxiety tends to flare up and it sometimes lasts for nearly a week.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My best friend and I are extremely close. I have OCD, an eating disorder, depression and anxiety. She has depression and anxiety. About two weeks ago she suddenly stopped talking to me. I apologized profusely for whatever I had done. She then said I hadn’t done anything wrong but that she didn’t like my personality and that I made her uncomfortable.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My daughter recently moved into my home and shortly after I started to have problems with my boyfriend I feel like he was cheeting on me, then he got an std which thank God i didn’t get it we were not having sexist the time he rejects me all the time . So anyways I left my phone recording one morning while I took my other kids to school .. it was just to hear if called someone he was cheeting with to my surprise I hear him with a. Girl getting pleasure and towards the end he said her name and his talking to her as i walk in … she was the only one here. I confronted both of them but they deny it … now I don’t trust them alone.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I confronted both of them but they deny it … now I don’t trust them alone'], 'answer_start': [559]}
From a teen in Turkey: hello. being an open minded person, my Turkish family is not. i have a not-muslim boyfriend for more than 1 year now, he lives in Europe and i live in Turkey. the problem is, my parents don’t accept it or want me too him. for me its not a problem because it is my life, it is not their life and it will work between us weather they support or not, they can just make it easier or harder but it will work anyway. for new year, we planned to go to Istanbul together, but they dont let me go, saying me very harsh words and making me feel like i am doing something very wrong… but im just in love! i love my parents ofc but i also love my boyfriend. please help me what should i do? im 18 years old

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['for new year, we planned to go to Istanbul together, but they dont let me go, saying me very harsh words and making me feel like i am doing something very wrong…'], 'answer_start': [435]}
From a young man in Nepal: My brain is active all the time and has to either listen to all the subtle noises happening around and decipher their rhythms, or remember past memories and audio samples, sometimes on loop. I often get irritated by my my family members who I otherwise adore and are great people and I love them and behave well most of the times.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I often get irritated by my my family members who I otherwise adore and are great people and I love them and behave well most of the times.'], 'answer_start': [218]}
From Canada: I am a 15 year old living in Canada. Since new years day (4 days ago) I have been experiencing bad insomnia, severe panic attacks and dissociation like never before. I have had dissociation since May but it never stopped me from functioning. Over the last few days, it has been really bad and I spent lots of time researching symptoms and they seem to match stories of people with acute schizophrenia.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Over the last few days, it has been really bad and I spent lots of time researching symptoms and they seem to match stories of people with acute schizophrenia.'], 'answer_start': [255]}
From an adult in the U.K. Just before Xmas last year I wanted a one in one with my mother so as I could tell her of a Grandchild of 21 that she didn’t know of. I had a feeling this request would be ignored or dismissed by my mother so I got in contact with her closest friend of 40 years and told her of the situation and asked her to ring my mum and to try and arrange a one to one for me with her in the next month or so.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I had a feeling this request would be ignored or dismissed by my mother so I got in contact with her closest friend of 40 years and told her of the situation and asked her to ring my mum and to try and arrange a one to one for me with her in the next month or so.'], 'answer_start': [160]}
So I met a girl in August and we fell in love with each other, she lives in the USA and I live in Sweden. We soon started to Skype and I noticed how I just can’t speak. Even now after 3 months, I’m still very quiet and it makes both her and me very frustrated.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['We soon started to Skype and I noticed how I just can’t speak. Even now after 3 months, I’m still very quiet and it makes both her and me very frustrated.'], 'answer_start': [106]}
As I write this, I am currently at my grandparent’s house in Alabama. The reason for this is that my grandfather passed away. I decided to finally reach out because, quite frankly I don’t like how I’m handling this. I don’t mean to tangent, but I’ve had a crazy year. It’s like when I hit 20, something inside me went off and it led to a series of events of which the results still really resonate with me, and I haven’t really had a chance to really get someone else’s perspective. I think something that didn’t help is that I developed a really unhealthy obsession with J.D. Salinger’s The Catcher in The Rye during this time. I think it honestly had a negative effect on me, despite my deep love for the book

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['It’s like when I hit 20, something inside me went off and it led to a series of events of which the results still really resonate with me, and I haven’t really had a chance to really get someone else’s perspective. I think something that didn’t help is that I developed a really unhealthy obsession with J.D. Salinger’s The Catcher in The Rye during this time. I think it honestly had a negative effect on me, despite my deep love for the book'], 'answer_start': [268]}
I am in a relationship for the past 8 months and have been really happy in it(although I don’t know what happiness is because I don’t remember the last time I was happy). My boyfriend is a year and a half younger to me yet is my senior in college(because I dropped two years between school and college). He is a very nice guy and absolutely lovable, and am his first girlfriend. In the initial days I told him briefly about my past 3 relationships and thought he’d be fine with it, but it turned out after a few days that he wasn’t able to take in the fact that I have been with others before him and started having a million questions. I answered patiently and eventually one day lost my cool as the series of questions wasn’t ending. He said he realized he’s having a severe retroactive jealousy and he can’t help it that he’s haunted by my past. He finds it too difficult to accept me as I am. Although I lost my virginity with him and never as much as even kissed any of my exes properly(only had pecks), he finds it difficult to erase such images of me with someone else from his mind. He says he’ll get mad one day because it’s getting out of control. We both love each other a lot and can’t even breakup(although we’ve tried) and it’s impossible to give up. But how long will it go on? Need suggestions and help to help him recover from it.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['We both love each other a lot and can’t even breakup(although we’ve tried) and it’s impossible to give up.'], 'answer_start': [1158]}
My mom and I are always fighting. She is constantly telling me how to live my life and that any choices I make are wrong. She always constantly puts down my husband and says the nastiest, most vile things about him and I. I try to talk to her about it but it always ends with her and I yelling at each other and her telling me that I am being disrespectful to her.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I try to talk to her about it but it always ends with her and I yelling at each other and her telling me that I am being disrespectful to her.'], 'answer_start': [222]}