Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Hi. So I was diagnosed with Bipolar about 5 years ago. I haven’t been medicated in a while due to the fact I don’t have the funds to meet with a psychiatrist to get the correct prescription. I’ve been doing well without medication and I don’t believe I am experiencing a high or low mood, but I’ve started to notice something else that has become a major concern for me. For the past few weeks I’ve been hearing voices that aren’t my own. These voices do not speak to me, they sound more so like someone else talking behind my own thoughts. If I try to focus on the voices when they appear I can’t, they slowly fade away so I can’t really get an idea of what they say. These voices appear during the day and at night while laying down so they arent specific to a tired state. I have never experienced psychosis or hallucinations before and from my knowledge if hallucinations were to appear wouldn’t they be from depression or mania, not a pretty stable mood? Could there be another cause for these voices I’m hearing? I’ve been rather stressed recently due to college starting again but that is the only change in my routine/life recently. My main concern is that these voices aren’t a cause of my bipolar but a whole new illness (maybe schizophrenia) starting to present itself.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My main concern is that these voices aren’t a cause of my bipolar but a whole new illness (maybe schizophrenia) starting to present itself.'], 'answer_start': [1141]}
From the U.S.: I woke up one day in the Hospital, not remembering the last two days, after having 3 grand mal seizures. I was told I was conscious and able to make decisions after each one, (after going through a coma state) The hospital put me through a few tests, such as an MRI and I believe an EEG. The tests claimed I had no seizures, but the nurse that held me during one of them diagnosed them as grand mal seizures. I was given Morphine from biting my tongue so bad.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m prone to overreacting every once in a while, I’ll usually throw a fit in my room at night and try to be quiet (hitting pillows, crying, screaming into pillows) which I’m sure is ordinary. The real problem is I seem to be missing something. I’m too…open-eyed, I guess. I sit around with a stupid smile on my face. At school, I feel uncomfortable if people try to sit next to me at lunch, so I sit on my own and read, and this doesn’t bother me at all! But my mother thinks I’m hurting myself (socially), but she doesn’t seem to understand how strained I feel when I’m put into a situation I don’t like. On the other hand, when I do feel chatty, I always seem to mention topics that aren’t related, or I steer the conversation towards me, or I’m unintentionally mean. I try to remind myself not to behave that way, but every time I talk it seems like I mess everything up. I think about things no one else really cares about. I’m not sure if my personality is weird or if something is actually going on with my brain that doesn’t happen with everyone else, because even introverts (i think) have their own little group of friends to sit with, even if they don’t talk, but I feel stifled and nervous when I haven’t started talking on my own terms. I’ve started noticing that I take nudges and pushes a little too seriously, and when I try to replicate that playful atmosphere with my siblings I end up hurting them or angering them. Everyone gives me a hard time because of it. My siblings make me feel guilty. Once I had politely declined an offer from a nice girl who wanted me to come and sit with her and her friends, and when I later on related it to my mother, she was upset that I didn’t accept the offer and told me that I wasn’t going to make many friends if I was rude like that. There’s also the fact that I act a lot like a child and can be loud and annoying, and I feel like I interrupt people all the time. I just love being alone and feel agitated if someone, like one sibling of mine often does, impedes my private space unannounced. Thank you for listening.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I think about things no one else really cares about.'], 'answer_start': [875]}
I am wondering (& def believe) stepdaughter lengthy ongoing issues stems from psych problem but no diagnosis yet. We are desperate for help since this has been going on for over 15 years. My 31 year old stepdaughter has had drug problems for 15 years &  just up & left yet another rehab while on Vivitrol. She goes into detox hospitals and then gets transferred to residential recovery houses, which she stays at for a couple weeks then up and leaves and then loops through this process again and again. I know she has said she is empty inside and has talked abt hurting herself, but it’s hard to tell if she actually is being honest about that or is using that to get back in rehab places after she has left. She doesn’t seem to have reasons for leaving any of these places. Though, she acts very immature and does seem to struggle with authority and taking responsibility for anything. She has been in trouble with law, and while once she cared very much for her looks, she now has covered her body in tattoos. She has a young daughter, who she OD’ed in front of (she no longer has custody) & parents who are desperate to get her help and finally get her on the right path. But she seems to easily disconnect from what she’s done and does &  doesn’t seems to care how much she is hurting and worrying everyone. . With all these hospitals and rehabs she has been in, she has gotten some counseling, but i very much believe she has an underlying mental health prob that has not been diagnosed that could be at the root of this. I am hoping you could advise on anything you might think it could be. Thank you so much!!! (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['But she seems to easily disconnect from what she’s done and does &'], 'answer_start': [1176]}
From Romania: My parents are divorced, my father had problems with drinking and was very violent towards my mother (not towards me, but I witnessed his violence towards her many times growing up), however she tried to fight for the family. They got divorced after 25 years and she came to live with me.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My boyfriend of six months suffers from panic attacks and/or anxiety when in relationships. (He told me about this early on, and that it’s happened in every relationship previously.) He’s talked to people about relaxation techniques, etc. to help when it does happen, and is wonderful about reassuring me it’s not me personally, and desperately wants this to go away and is willing to work on it, but as we get closer (and we are very close…closer than either of us have been with others), they seem to be coming more often (even when we’re not together). The effect is that he feels like he needs to get away from me–the “flight” response.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From my daughter’s late teens she has experienced episodes of depression. She was abused physically and verbally from her faher who is and was an alcoholic. She is now in her late thirties and abuses herself, she has always had problems with personal relationships and lashes out at her family.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['She is now in her late thirties and abuses herself, she has always had problems with personal relationships and lashes out at her family.'], 'answer_start': [157]}
From the U.S.: My fiance has anger problems. He has hit me, once two years ago because i put frosting on his face. The force bruised my thigh so badly that i had to cover it up for weeks. Recently there has been little things that have made me concerned about his anger again. He has yelled at our child (at the time he was 6 months) because he was crying. He left the room clearly upset because i splashed water on his face. Told him if he didn’t get the stick out of his ass i would put whip cream in his hair and he told me if i did there would be consequences to my actions.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['He left the room clearly upset because i splashed water on his face.'], 'answer_start': [357]}
This is painful for me to write about, because of the fears i have that i really may be schizophrenic, but here goes! i am a 35 year old female veteran of the US Armed Forces. i joined when i was 25, with no prior history of mental illness. i moved successfully through bootcamp and my schools, although during the last phase of training, and before my first duty station, i became pregnant. i decided not to terminate this pregnancy (much to the chagrin of my family), and place this child with a loving adoptive couple who could not bear any themselves. unfortunately, during the delivery of this child, i developed some kind of “blood infection” which, thankfully, did not hurt the baby, but almost killed me. i was sent home from the hospital before the illness was discovered, and was rescued a day later by my friend who found me vomiting and hallucinating. i don’t remember much of that at all, just waking later in the hospital.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['This is painful for me to write about, because of the fears i have that i really may be schizophrenic, but here goes!'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I have no ability to maintain self control over anything I do. Thankfully I do not enjoy acts such as smoking, or drinking. Yet, the level to which I can’t maintain self control over the things I do enjoy is debilitating, and frustrating. I am constantly on electronics, not socially though (E.g. Talking to people). I can’t seem to stop myself from playing video games, surfing the internet, etc. This is not regular either, I’m a student and I would say almost every minute I’m not eating, or attending class, I’m on my computer, or phone. This can go until 8:00AM the next day, or I’ll even just pull an all-nighter to continue doing what I’m doing on my devices.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have no ability to maintain self control over anything I do.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
In the last year or so my psychological development has been very unusual (though it always was). I’ve started developing a massive distaste for sun. My eyes have become incredibly sensitive to light, so much so that even with sunglasses on I can barely keep my eyes open at times if the sun is too bright. My head starts hurting and I feel lightheaded and weak. I start feeling as if I’m losing my breath. But the psychological effects are even worse. I feel so vulnerable and exposed whenever I’m in the sun. It’s like I’m underneath this huge spotlight that I can’t run away from, so I get panicked when there’s no shade near by. The air becomes thick and I feel like I’m trapped and suffocating.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['It’s like I’m underneath this huge spotlight that I can’t run away from, so I get panicked when there’s no shade near by. The air becomes thick and I feel like I’m trapped and suffocating.'], 'answer_start': [511]}
I have Bipolar Disorder and some anxiety issues that cause panic attacks when I get overwhelmed by people, noises, stress, worrying, etc. For some reason, I always think I am going to be harmed. When I was little I couldn’t watch the news because I would become upset and always think about the people who died.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have Bipolar Disorder and some anxiety issues that cause panic attacks when I get overwhelmed by people, noises, stress, worrying, etc.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I have been dating my boyfriend for about a year and a half now and we have lived together for about 6 months. He does have a bad temper and sometimes throws things during fights and other things of that nature, but I just always thought he had a temper and that was just that. But, come to find out the more I talked to his brother and mostly his sister in law they have told me many things about his childhood (they are 10 years older than him). His father was never around, he does drugs and is an alcoholic and verbally/emotionally abused his mother and my boyfriend when he was very small, up until about age 7 and still to this day plays guilt trips on him about anything he can. But I have noticed my boyfriend is ALWAYS very angry and VERY short fused with his mother. When she calls he will get very agitated and annoyed just by talking to her for a minute and she stops by randomly without notice almost daily and he gets very angry at her for this but she won’t stop.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['But I have noticed my boyfriend is ALWAYS very angry and VERY short fused with his mother.'], 'answer_start': [686]}
I haven’t gone to any psychiatrists or mental check-ups my entire life. Maybe I’m just imagining that I have a problem with my mental condition but to be sure, I want to check online if I do have one, before going to a psychiatrist to have an official check-up. I haven’t told my parents about this because I don’t think that they would appreciate having a child who has mental issues and I don’t want to deal with the drama that will undoubtedly ensue.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I haven’t told my parents about this because I don’t think that they would appreciate having a child who has mental issues and I don’t want to deal with the drama that will undoubtedly ensue.'], 'answer_start': [262]}
From the Arabian Gulf: My boss, also a “friend”, has – multiple times over the last couple years – insisted that first hand experiences of mine never happened. She will literally dig in her heels, turn pink and argue with me relentlessly that what I’m saying didn’t happen, despite it being my experience, her not being there, and the issue not being all that important. It’s infuriating. And when I stand my ground she doubles down on her argument, especially if there are staff or her family around. She’s never done it in front of HER friends.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I am having a very difficult time accepting my fiance’s past relationships. His past is not a past as he has two ex-wives and a kid from each of those marriages (although he questions if he is the real father and was not really in their lives at all until recently) therefore, his past is really part of our present and our future. Between constant child support payments, conversations with the ex’s, his family’s connection with those ex-wives (since they still talk) I feel like we are never going to be able to move on with OUR lives and focus on starting our own family. I am tired of having to deal with all these ex’s and kids when all i want him to do is have him cut them out of his life completely or not talk to them and only talk with the kids. However, I know this is unfair. This has all DESTROYED us financially and is now putting stress on our own relationship. We also recently found out that his 16 year old daughter is having a baby so now there’s not just kids but grand-kids! This is all new to me as I was not brought up this way at all and am having trouble not being judgmental. What can I do to learn to accept his past and know that it will always be a part of our lives because I do love him and want to be with him. (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in France: I sometimes see things that aren’t there. It doesn’t happen often, but I do. I sometimes see shadows that aren’t there from the corner of my eyes ( I know that they aren’t there because when I turn to look at them they’re gone ), but apparently it happens to a lot of people so although it’s kind of scary it doesn’t worry me.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My niece accused me of molesting her as a child, 10 years ago. In the beginning, she changed her story 4 different times, 3 of which didn’t directly include me. She has had problems with her parents, teachers, others, and marriage to an unstable criminal (along with their 2 daughters they live with her parents). Her parents have been believing her about the molestation, sharing it with my ex-wife and her family (She and her three children are survivalist from a third world country = fooled me, lies, cheats, steals, immoral). So they have joined in out of spite. When married we had one son, who is now married and has his own son. My son knows me and knows I would never do anything like molestation. As I raised him with respect, responsibility, and to be a mature man.  They are trying to convince my son that he was probably molested by me and that he has blocked it out.  Also, some of the family has disturbed my daughter-in-laws thinking and she won’t let me hold my 9 month old grandson. Which Hurts !!!  My niece keeps calling my son and he is polite and then hangs up.  My brother keeps involving our elderly parents (86 yrs old), which causes them extreme anxiety. Early on, I told my brother I would “falsely” admit to the molestation if it would help my niece, but I knew it wouldn’t help in the long run. My brother wants nothing to do with me, though he loves me in some way.  Bottom line, I don’t know how to handle all of this and it hurts.  I hurt for my son too as he tries to defend me.  Please help me handle all of this in a wise way. (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My mom introduced me to this really nice man. He wined me and dined me like no one has. We went to dinner and parties and seem to be getting close. He told me he was diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic.( i dont know anything about this disorder) But he acted so normal to me and I immediately fell in love with him. My main reason was because he was going to school to become a minister. He prayed and read his bible faithfully. Then he told my mom he was falling in love with me. I have had a lot of bad relationships so I thought god finally answered my prayers. I WAS WRONG. We had an the worst argument I ever had with anyone! I had some out of town friends to come and he went into this jealous rage. He accuse me of sleeping with people who are like family to me. He then said they were touching me right of him…

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have had a lot of bad relationships so I thought god finally answered my prayers. I WAS WRONG. We had an the worst argument I ever had with anyone!'], 'answer_start': [481]}
Hi, so last holiday I went to visit my cousin in countryside for a week and there she told me about all her problem. She told me that her parents are often fighting and both are abusive. Her mom seems to cheat on her father. She told me that her mom even told her to prepare for not having a mom. She said she’s depressed and stressed that she harm herself. She showed me her wounds she made and a knife she use. She save all her dried blood on tissue and write the date she harm self on it. She told me she used to passed out in her room without no one knowing and sometimes think about suicide. She said she couldn’t trust anyone else but me. It feels hard to think I’m the only one who can save her and lead her to the right path, moreover I also struggle with self-harm although it’s not as bad as her. (From Thailand)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have a real catch 22 situation which may sound trivial BUT my job which I love requires me to maintain a social media presence that I hate it & posting photos of myself is really not something I like doing but without my job/business suffers I try to force myself to do it but sometimes I just can’t. It’s not a body image thing it’s more I feel like a dick doing it and it seems very contrived & superficial but the only one suffering as a result of not doing it is me. Is there a way around this?

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['It’s not a body image thing it’s more I feel like a dick doing it and it seems very contrived & superficial but the only one suffering as a result of not doing it is me.'], 'answer_start': [303]}
Despite tireless efforts so that my family stays in the dark, I’ve known for years now that there is something wrong with me. I have a family history of mental illness and OCD. I scored high on this site’s OCD test. I’ve attempted to point out behaviors in mind that point to OCD to my family but I’m always shut down. I struggle with anger but, growing up, I was not allowed to express my anger at all. Even as a young child, I was expected to ‘act mature’ and couldn’t even raise my voice a little, or I’d get in trouble. Because of this, I privately turn my anger inward at myself; punching myself, scratching my skin, and getting into fits where I convulse and shake and cry– all while staying completely quiet, of course, because it would not be considered acceptable by my family members. It is how I learned to cope. I have thought before after I had finished having one of these ‘fits’ that if I saw a video of someone else behaving in the same way I would think that they were completely insane. Deviant behavior is held in low regard at my house; even people with tame fetishes my parents and sister proclaimed to be mentally ill and awful people. This way of thinking has been devastating to me, as a person with a few unothodox fetishes and is someone who enjoys ‘kinky’ behavior (I’m not into pedophilia or rape or anything harmful like that, of course). I believe I’m a disappointment for these interests. Certain sounds and physical feelings (for example, the sound of someone humming/singing in the feeling of my hands or arms being kissed or touched and parentheses are simply unbearable. They send me into a panic. These feelings are brushed off by my family if I mention it. I also engage in self stimulating behavior like biting or psyching my fingertips, bouncing my legs and rocking, and very frequent masturbation. Does any of this sound like there is something wrong with me or my just being too sensitive and overreacting like my family says I am wont to do? Sorry if it’s a lot of information; I feel like it’s all connected and if I can get an outside opinion maybe I can do something to help myself. Or maybe it’s nothing. Either way, thanks a lot for reading.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I believe I’m a disappointment for these interests.'], 'answer_start': [1368]}
From a teen in England: I continually go through different moods throughout the day and i’m recently struggling to see the point in living, but I do not want to die. I often look at the world and think everything appears to be fake, that buildings and other objects could easily be ripped down.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}