Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
My older brother has diagnosed bipolar disorder with anger issues (amongst other undiagnosed issues) and has just lost his job again. He has a 5 year old son, is currently separated from his child’s mom, but is dating another woman. He was recently pulled over (he gets pulled over often for excessive speeding) and got caught with marijuana and a pipe. These aren’t even my causes of anxiety- it’s that he is causing so my stress to my parents. My mom is chronically ill, and my dad breast cancer last year. They have contact with my brother, as they have a great relationship with my nephew, but it is almost constant stress because of the things my brother gets into. He can’t keep a job because he falls asleep at his desk from his meds, shows up late from over sleeping, calls out too much, blows up on someone- you name the problem this time. I live 10 hours away by car, and every time my mom calls to tell me something has happened with him, I feel such guilt. 1. For living far away and feeling helpless. 2. For deciding to not have a relationship with my brother because I feel he is toxic. I want to help, but I don’t know what to do. I go back and forth between feeling like I should reach out to him and then mad that he never reaches out to me. I won’t be a part of a one-sided relationship, especially because he uses my parents and never apologizes.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I live 10 hours away by car, and every time my mom calls to tell me something has happened with him, I feel such guilt. 1. For living far away and feeling helpless. 2. For deciding to not have a relationship with my brother because I feel he is toxic.'], 'answer_start': [849]}
My husband and I have been married for almost three years. We dated for over six years before we married. I felt like I knew him so well and we would be fine. I knew he had a temper (at times)but overall he is an amazing person. He really is very loving and kind overall. Sometimes though (more frequently recently) he gets SO angry. He curses at me and calls me names. I feel like he really hates me at those moments. He doesn’t hit me he just yells a lot and I can tell he is FURIOUS! He gets angry when things don’t go his way. His behavior is fine if all is well but if things go downhill just a little (the car breaks down, I’m late for something, or any other inconvenience) he gets angry really easily. I feel like he is a spoiled brat sometimes because he gets so mad when he doesn’t get his way.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like he really hates me at those moments.'], 'answer_start': [370]}
I don’t like being around people. When I’m forced into social situations which is every day i just want to run back to my bedroom and be alone. I have always been extremely shy and quiet. But now I don’t even want to hang out with all my friends who im very close with. Its getting to the point that my friend gets frustrated with me because I never want to hang out and just want to be alone. This is also not just with my friends its with my family as well. I look forward to being home alone because then I would finally be relaxed. Please help me I dont know whats wrong with me. I have always been a shy person but its gotten so much worse.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have been with my boyfriend for a over a year now. He had always gone above and beyond for me. We do have an age difference where he is 4 years younger than me. But he has always been very mature and well-spoken for someone his age. Recently we have been experiencing a lot of downfalls in our relationship. He has a very busy schedule and doesn’t make a lot of time for me. We are also long distance, he lives across the country. I’ve been asking for some time to video chat and discuss over some of our issues and he agrees that we should do that as well, but he has not prioritized time for me. I’m feeling very insecure in our relationship because lately when we fight, he doesn’t seem to care. One minute he is expressing how important I am to him and that he loves me. And then the next, he is getting defensive and said that I’m not being considerate and understanding. During our 6th month together, we had a big fight which led to me breaking up with him because I was frustrated with him. He ended up getting drunk that night and told me he kissed one of his female friends. It took me awhile to forgive him and to move past it, but I feel like the feeling of betrayal never really left. He told me he would never do something like that to me again and that it was something stupid that he regrets so much. But I feel like anytime he gets upset with me or we have an argument and he goes out with his friends, I fear he would hurt me again. I don’t know what to do. He isn’t giving me much to work with because I can’t seem to be able to get him to sit down long enough to talk. If he isn’t going to class or studying, he’s working. And that’s almost 7 days out of his schedule packed. What do I do? I love him so much and I want to work past this, but I just feel so defeated. (From Canada)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Lebanon: It has been a long period that I’ve been worried, asking constant questions to myself. First of all, I am a gay guy, at the age of 21. My life was a continuous fear of expression and exposure of my true self to the world. Ever since I knew I was gay at the age of 7 or 8, I started having irrational fears and extreme anger/irritation that dragged into all of my early adolescence. I had an extreme hate towards myself, sabotaging every artistic talent that I had, from a writing skill, a drawing skill, a beautiful voice, basically every aspect of my talent that was feminine, I hated it. I was always afraid of being judged,

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I had an extreme hate towards myself, sabotaging every artistic talent that I had, from a writing skill, a drawing skill, a beautiful voice, basically every aspect of my talent that was feminine, I hated it.'], 'answer_start': [396]}
My diagnosed (years ago), medicated s/o is manic right now or so I believe. Stress from a new job along with skipping meds for 2 weeks because he didn’t have the money, has triggered. The high signs are there and I recently, on Friday, caught him with another woman. I left without saying a word. However, I did leave a note letting him know how hurt I was. His response was just to delete him from my life. I returned the following day while he was at work and gathered all my things and left. I have not spoken to him since. I am a very supportive s/o we have had our true ups & downs but never infidelity. Now my question is, how do I approach him and when? I want to support him, and I want to be with him. But i also need him to know that it wasn’t acceptable. I’m just trying to figure out if I should wait for him to reach out to me or should I let him know that I still love him and need to talk. At this point I’m not sure if he even wants to talk to me or be with me at all.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
For most of my life, but recently in the past 8 years I’ve noticed I can’t handle stress as well as my peers. I crack easily under pressure when I’m presented with a very difficult academic task. My heart rate increases, I sweat, my thoughts race, I burst into tears, and I am very hostile towards people. School seems to be the main stressor in my life and I worry about it every single day. I worry that I will fail a class or if I don’t finish my homework I will get penalized. I also constantly worry about due dates of assignments and I find it difficult to stop worrying about it. With depression, for the past two years I’ve experienced moderate- severe depression. Since then for about a year, my depression has gotten a lot better. I went to a therapist but it didn’t seem to help. My depression cleared up on it’s own.During that time, i was very happy and elated and loved doing things with my friends.But recently I can feel the depression coming back slowly. I’m crying more and I’ll get days where I have terrible mood swings. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and why this happens to me. Could I have a form of Bi Polar?

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['For most of my life, but recently in the past 8 years I’ve noticed I can’t handle stress as well as my peers. I crack easily under pressure when I’m presented with a very difficult academic task.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From a 12 year old girl in Lithuania: I can’t tell if my mom is abusing me or if I’m just overreacting. My mom is a normal mom but whenever she gets mad she cusses, hits or ignores me. She calls me bitch, a piece of sh-t, an idiot, and more. However, when she’s on Instagram or in front of other people, she acts as if she never calls me names or stuff.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’ve thought about killing. I’ve always wanted to beat some one until they were black and blue and bloody. I’ve wanted to taste blood from people. Ive never felt anything towards anyone except my dog. I’ve wanted to kill everyone but I’ve never done it. I mean it’s like I have a flip and I just thinking about psychotic things. I’ve thought if I was a psychopath or a sociopath. I mean I don’t care for people dying period. I’ve always wanted blood to be all over my body. Ive once sat in my bed laughing at the thought of beating someone up or killing. I’ve been wanting to destroy my room or destroy everything. I mean I just want to do everything destructive. I have depression, add, adhd, and bipolar. I have a short temper too. I’ve just wanted to kill and kill every day. I love hurting myself and blood rushing out. I laugh at the pain. I couldn’t tell my mom about this because obviously she would send me somewhere and I probably kill her if she did. I don’t know what to do right now honestly. My friends think I’m heartless. Anyways yea

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’ve been wanting to destroy my room or destroy everything. I mean I just want to do everything destructive.'], 'answer_start': [555]}
From a teen in the U.S.: So I recently just started so see a new psychologist who was quite terrible as mine has gone on a long holiday. I have anxiety depression and from what I thought depersonalisation. It is always with me since I was about 15 and has gotten worse as I have gotten older. The world just seems a bit unreal to me but nothing looks out of shape.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Before I got married I use to wear men’s bikini underwear (regular and string). For almost two years I have been secretly putting on and wearing woman’s panties. At first I was trying on and wearing my 18 year old step daughters panties in which she was ok with and than I decided to go out and buy some types of them for myself. eventually I was told to stop or a divorce was coming. I constantly thought about wearing them again to include men’s underwear i use to wear. I now continue to secretly wear my step daughter’s panties and buy some for myself. Is it wrong for me to wear/do and is there somewhere to go for help? I dont want my wife to know.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have been diagnosed with depression but, lately I have come to realize I have many more problems, that I didn’t even realize till the other day..I am a compulsive liar. I will lie about anything, even simple things for no reason. Sometimes I won’t even realize that I have lied until later on. And now looking back in my life I have always done it. It’s like an addiction. I can’t stop no matter how hard I try. I will lie about the stupidest, pointless things..for absolutely no reason.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am a compulsive liar. I will lie about anything, even simple things for no reason. Sometimes I won’t even realize that I have lied until later on. And now looking back in my life I have always done it. It’s like an addiction. I can’t stop no matter how hard I try. I will lie about the stupidest, pointless things..for absolutely no reason.'], 'answer_start': [147]}
From a teen in Canada: So here’s the deal, I’ve never had a good childhood, i’ve dealt with issues like depression and suicidal ideation, and the one thing which has recently become more intense, was that I’ve always had trouble understanding how other people felt. Empathy is difficult for me, I find that I have to force emotions out of myself to at least appear sane to others.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['Empathy is difficult for me, I find that I have to force emotions out of myself to at least appear sane to others.'], 'answer_start': [266]}
I’ m lonely on the inside and outside. Any of my clumsy attempts to start conversation will be laughed at, so they should be stopped now. I’m not funny or interesting enough, I want to call myself ‘an open book’ but that’s just because there’s nothing exciting about me I could hide. I don’t have any talent or occupation I could justify my loneliness with. Every day a voice inside me tells me not to approach people, because I’m not wanted there and they’ll be better off without me. I pity myself and it makes me pathetic. Saying that I’m pathetic out loud only makes me more pathetic. I’m utterly childish, vapid and dull, but every time I try to improve, I feel like I’m losing my old self and it pushes me back. I feel myself old, ‘out of trend’ and so, so boring. Do I need to do something about it? Or maybe most people feel the same, and then I’m just making drama? *Sorry for being wordy.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Any of my clumsy attempts to start conversation will be laughed at, so they should be stopped now. I’m not funny or interesting enough, I want to call myself ‘an open book’ but that’s just because there’s nothing exciting about me I could hide. I don’t have any talent or occupation I could justify my loneliness with. Every day a voice inside me tells me not to approach people, because I’m not wanted there and they’ll be better off without me. I pity myself and it makes me pathetic. Saying that I’m pathetic out loud only makes me more pathetic. I’m utterly childish, vapid and dull, but every time I try to improve, I feel like I’m losing my old self and it pushes me back. I feel myself old, ‘out of trend’ and so, so boring.'], 'answer_start': [39]}
Don’t know is this is the right place to ask but I’ve had a bad cough sporadically throughout the years. It only occurs when I’m having stressful or anxious thoughts. Mainly whenever I’m anxious is when it occurs. I have generally been someone who has had a lot of anxiety and since the last few weeks I’ve had some difficult personal situations to go through, I have had an increase of stress and anxiety. The cough came back the same time as this rather difficult time. At one point I do believe I had panic attacks a few years back with the cough. Was hard to tell since the cough seemed to mask the sensation of the panic attack but it seemed like it was for sure there. Now I don’t get that, but this time around I have headaches whenever the cough occurs. It doesn’t even really stay after the coughing stops. I would cough for a few minutes and the headache is usually coming and going with the cough. I’ve gone to the doctor several times for this and was tested for asthma, but that came back negative. More and more I’ve noticed it occurs during anxious times/thoughts so that is why I came here, to see if the reason behind it is more psychological.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Don’t know is this is the right place to ask but I’ve had a bad cough sporadically throughout the years. It only occurs when I’m having stressful or anxious thoughts. Mainly whenever I’m anxious is when it occurs. I have generally been someone who has had a lot of anxiety and since the last few weeks I’ve had some difficult personal situations to go through, I have had an increase of stress and anxiety.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
Happening quite often now (2-3 time a day). I feel like my mind is not able to process anymore and its going to explode (no headache, but heavyness). I feel very heavy inside. When it’s not happening, i feel nothing, everything normal. But when it starts it feels like the processing power of my brain is limited and the input coming is too much, you will say difficulty in reading or writing but NO, that not it…everything is normal. I am not able to explain it well. My head will start to feel heavy and things become too difficult.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like my mind is not able to process anymore and its going to explode (no headache, but heavyness). I feel very heavy inside. When it’s not happening, i feel nothing, everything normal. But when it starts it feels like the processing power of my brain is limited and the input coming is too much, you will say difficulty in reading or writing but NO, that not it…everything is normal. I am not able to explain it well. My head will start to feel heavy and things become too difficult.'], 'answer_start': [44]}
I’m 21 and recently engaged. In a few years, I may want to have children. I have two concerns: will I have to stop taking antidepressants when I am pregnant and what is the likeliness that our children will be depressed if both myself and my fiancé have major depressive disorder?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in England: It started 6 months ago, now I live with my grandparents because of this issue. Basically my mother started getting into card readings and then she started to buy crystals. After that she started to say that our house was haunted and started screaming Jesus quotes in the middle of the night around 11pm to 3am. Then she started to put salt all over the floor and around the sofa and started sleeping there instead of her bed I heard her whispering to herself and she said she wasn’t crazy and just writing a story (which I didn’t believe).

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I do have my handful of disorders in disarray, but that’s not what I’m here for, just a general question that popped in my head. OCD is a very real condition that people do suffer from, but there are the non-suffers who claim to be under the influence of OCD, who just get the satisfaction of an &”OCD-fix” (ie seeing a ball fall into a hole that seems like the hole was designed for said ball). Does this mean that every human has some type of OCD that is a more of toned-down version for the people who have it classed under the mental condition, or is it some type of satisfaction that our brain produces chemicals for, like dopamine?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m a 15 year old girl. for several years ive been having suicidal and paranoid thoughts. ive have multiple panic and anxiety attacks (at least once a week from mild to intense) and sometimes feel like im floating out of my body, not recognizing myself or other people. My family is caring but for some reason I remember them hurting me and lying to me. I hallucinated when I was younger of scary things, and I’ve always believed in things like my friend being a werewolf, that i have mind control, that people know things i dont and are targeting me. I often get selfish and defensive, i lie excessively and have a very inconsistent personality. I’m also afraid of relationships and have a lot of trouble expressing my emotions (this was more recently i used to be great at it). I have ADD but was never diagnosed with anything else, im suspecting i had bipolar symptoms before(i slept 2-3 hours and was eccentric. then heavily depressed). and i believe people send me hidden messages in their speech, im an artist and i can emerse myself in a nonexistant world, like i dont belong here and that killing myself will lead me to that prettier world. i do self doubt or try to ignore my thoughts but theyre still there. i get violent and jittery impulses, think about killing and torturing people like its nothing, and i get all excited and giggly. I have a nagging thought process that criticises me and other people. I try to remain honest with myself and laugh off any form of betrayal or oversensitivity. I interpret things to the extreme, sometimes unrealistic but i cant help buying in to it. I believe my father wants to kill me and my mother, i believe my sister is jealous i get more time with my mom, and i hate being happy. Whenever i get happy i need to remind myself i dont deserve to feel that or that its all fake and none if it will last. I self harm. My grades are poor and I prepare to commit suicide within the next three years, or maybe next year, or before college. I dont want to hurt my mother just in case she really does love me. I believe everyone will leave me and have isolated myself. Everything makes me cry. Help.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['My family is caring but for some reason I remember them hurting me and lying to me. I often get selfish and defensive, i lie excessively and have a very inconsistent personality. I interpret things to the extreme, sometimes unrealistic but i cant help buying in to it.Whenever i get happy i need to remind myself i dont deserve to feel that or that its all fake and none if it will last.'], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Ever since i can remember I have always been an angry person. I snap at my mom for stupid things(to the point where i’m screaming at her for nothing, and i know its wrong when im doing it but i do it anyways)and i over analyize EVERYTHING. If you were to meet me you would think that I didn’t have a care in the world. I work in retail and i have been called “fun, bubbily, always happy*, adorable” etc. I feel like i have this act at my job where i just don’t want them to see my angry side, so i don’t show it to them. The only people i actually release all of my anger towards is my mom, sister, and my boyfriend.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Ever since i can remember I have always been an angry person.'], 'answer_start': [1]}
From Australia: My partner and I have been together now for 5 years. My partner comes from a divorced family and only really has his mum and brother as his family. His relationship with his mother can be quite volatile and they can argue and speak to each other with a lack of respect and love sometimes, something which I am not used to in relationships with family members.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}