Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I’m a 17 year old guy and a high school student and my problem is everyone is hostile toward me. I have no actual friends and even school idiots ridicule me. I’m doing really good in education, but that does not affect my social status. No one permits me to join their conversation and whenever they let me to join, they probably want to ridicule me in between.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m a 17 year old guy and a high school student and my problem is everyone is hostile toward me. I have no actual friends and even school idiots ridicule me.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From India: My husband started chatting with his female friends frequently during weekends and at home after office. They both used to work in same office. Now my husband has shifted to a new office. They chat about likes and dislikes. When I stopped him from chatting with her at home, he fought with me saying she is his very good friend and nothing else.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I started self harming when I was 12. I punch myself in the leg as hard as I can. I will often be sore for days after. However, because I was born with cerebral palsy, I am not strong enough to leave bruises on myself. I recently began to scratch myself as another form of self harm. I will do this until I skin the area I’m scratching, however I am not able to make the area bleed. I have gotten mixed reviews about whether this counts as self harm. I often try to convince myself that because the punches won’t bruise, and because the scratches don’t bleed, it is not a serious issue. However, some of my closer friends have told me that is still should consider it more serious and that I need to stop before I go any further. What I’m wondering is, are behaviors intended to cause harm to oneself, but which do not cause visible tissue damage or bleeding, considered self harm?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I recently got a job at a local hospital, which is a field far beyond what I have ever done, and it made me realize that I long for someone to just be there for me and take care of me. It goes beyond being pampered or not wanting to do anything. It’s an intense need to know that someone can take care of me.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I find myself constantly frustrated beyond words and the worst part is I have no idea why. I have tried to figure what I am mad or frustrated about but have no idea what it is. I thought it may be a subconscious thing, but I don’t know. I find myself constantly frustrated with my family and all my friends that I love soooo much yet I am always frustrated with. I also am very frustrated with myself all the time. I thought it had to do with something in my past that had happened. I don’t know what it is but I will try to give you info that might come in handy. I am so sick of feeling this way and have tried to scream it out, cry it out, and do everything and I can’t think of what the problem is or how to solve it.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I find myself constantly frustrated beyond words and the worst part is I have no idea why. I have tried to figure what I am mad or frustrated about but have no idea what it is.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From a 15 year old girl in the UK: I always get really angry over the slightest of things and I have massive arguments with my parents but I cant stop myself and just leave it. I hate myself for it but I can’t control my anger. I have a really low self esteem and don’t value myself at all.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I hate myself for it but I can’t control my anger. I have a really low self esteem and don’t value myself at all.'], 'answer_start': [177]}
From the U.S.: I’m 19 and have made noises or repetitive movements for as long as I can remember. But, they aren’t persistent. The longest “tic” I’ve had lasted from when I was at least 5 up to age 13. I used to flair my arms toward my shoulders before doing anything. The only reason I can think that made me stop was just because I grew out of it.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I don’t even know where to begin. I have taken quizzes and seem to be a candidate for multiple issues. Maybe I am just crazy? My moods fluctuate from normal, to withdrawn/depressed, to excited, to crying, to screaming mad and scary irritable. This fluctuation doesn’t happen in any particular order nor does each mood last for any particular length of time, but they are extreme and they are sudden. When I get angry, most of the time I can’t even remember what set me off. When I break down into tears usually its not justified and I was bubbly and happy just before the crying started.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['My moods fluctuate from normal, to withdrawn/depressed, to excited, to crying, to screaming mad and scary irritable.'], 'answer_start': [126]}
I am an alcoholic. I sought treatment in a residential treatment center in 2008. While in treatment my therapist and I entered into a personal and sexual relationship. This continued after my stay and she offered to move me into her home. After about 1 year she had employment issues and lost her job. I was able and strong enough to find a professional job that could support us, but it was out of state. She at this time proposed we marry and have a long distance marriage. The last 3 years we have been living back together and she has worked at 2 different hospitals. I have always had passing feelings that our marriage and entire life was all just a cover up for her actions to protect her reputation. She leads a completely different life and personality away from home. I also have had feelings of numerous extra marital affairs on her part but could never catch her. She is very manipulative and cunning. I finally caught her in an affair with a technician at her last hospital.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have always had passing feelings that our marriage and entire life was all just a cover up for her actions to protect her reputation.'], 'answer_start': [572]}
Hello! I don’t know what’s going on with me, but since a few months, I have been really enjoying looking at blood… I don’t know for sure when it started, but one evening I grabbed a pair of compasses and I stabbed the pointy end in my hand. I really enjoy looking at the way the blood pours out of the wound. I have done this several times in the past few months, but today was the worst one. I cut the skin on my arm open a few times with a scissor. I am afraid that one day myself wont be enough and that ill do it on somebody else… I have thought about cutting someone else’s skin, but I am too scared and I really don’t want to hurt anyone. I have also watched a YouTube video where a camel is being stabbed, and although I feel bad for the animal, I am fascinated by the amount of blood that’s coming out.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
hello im 14 but i don’t want to say my name. i have a bad problem controling my impulses, and im quite reckless, not in a way of hurting myself but, doing things without thinking about the consequences. when im at school i dont fit in at all, but i always try, i try to mimic things that other people do. but i just cant fit in. i get angry, very fast, it doesn’t take that much for me to want to kill someone. i cant controll anything about me, i have alot of anxiety, too much, i can over react. someone scammed me two days ago and i have been contemplating killing him, beating him with a bat, or hiring someone to do something to him, but its very irrational. it just makes be soo mad. when im mad i forget about everything and cant think. i have thought about killing myself because im tired of living that way. ill be on the verge of doing something that i could go to jail forever for, then at the last minute i start to remember what the consequences will be. i like somone one day, the next day i hate them. i dont know who i am, i dont have any goals, at night i get very paranoid, of ghosts and irrational thoughts. and hallucinate at night alot. at some points i will be happy for a few days, because i think im in a movie. i remember periods of time in my life, as what was going on in my mind.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': [' i get angry, very fast, it doesn’t take that much for me to want to kill someone. i cant controll anything about me, i have alot of anxiety, too much, i can over react. '], 'answer_start': [329]}
My son was complaining about bullying issues and becoming very depressed in his high school (9th grade) so my husband and I decided to move him to a therapeutic school with therapy and academics.  Since doing that he is worse…..he says he is depressed and wants to kill himself/not live very often.  His psychiatrist increased his abilify to 10mg and he’s on 75mg fluvoximine.  We are on vacation together in florida and I see his fluctuating moods.  He gives us so much hassle when we want to spend time with our cousins who he has fun with.  When we get him to join us, he swims with them and plays football and is smiling and laughing.  He will then go out to dinner with us, be happy, eat well, have dessert, walk around and suddently get into a foul, disguisting, nasty, rude mood.  Part of me thinks he does this when he doesn’t want us to have fun or meet friends.  We used to leave him and his sister together if we wanted to go out for a little bit locally, but with his unstable behavior, I don’t feel comfortable doing this anymore.  I feel like we are walking on eggshells and am wondering how much his moods are possible mental issues or how much being a nasty teenager.  I feel like he may be saying he wants to die or he is going to kill himself for attention or to get what he wants at times.  Is this possible?  How do I know if he is really feeling this?  I know not to take anything like this for granted and I am praying this may be teenage angst, but it is so difficult to know what to say when he says he feels like this and can’t tell me why. (age 48, from US)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I am 14 and I am in my first year of high school, so school is not very stressful for me at this time. I despise my parents very much and do not agree with them on anything morally. I don’t have any friends because I have been told that my personality is very hard to like. I have fake through and made some fake acquaintences in classes like science or p.e. in middle school I was bullied a lot and was called ugly, fat, and similar thing and have been told to kill myself almost every day in middle school. (Sorry for the kinda long background)

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have fake through and made some fake acquaintences in classes like science or p.e. in middle school I was bullied a lot and was called ugly, fat, and similar thing and have been told to kill myself almost every day in middle school. '], 'answer_start': [289]}
Greetings, first of all please forgive me if my thoughts aren’t being portrayed correctly in my writing. Anyway. My family has had a history of mental illness/disorders, my grandmother suffered from sociopathy and we believe that her mother was schizoid. Recently, I have begun thinking that something is wrong with me, too. I’ve tried to recall moments in my life when I have shown what some people call “concerning” traits/perspectives and there has been a lot. I seem to prey on people who are “helpless,” people who need shoulders to cry on and once I have their trust, I turn on them. I have contemplated suicide, but not because I was depressed but because my life is routine and routine is boring and being bored is probably one of the worst feelings. I have been in trouble quite a lot during primary school and the start of secondary, due to my attitude to the imbeciles in my class- I always say snide things about them and I have found myself trying to provoke a fight, which makes no sense because it is not logical because they are nothing to me and any retort they make to my arguments simply wouldn’t be worth listening to- it would be like listening to a newborn try to come up with a valid argument.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': [' I have contemplated suicide, but not because I was depressed but because my life is routine and routine is boring and being bored is probably one of the worst feelings. '], 'answer_start': [590]}
I have a terrible fear of going insane. I feel as though im slipping into madness everyday. My worst fear is to become schizo. I started having anxiety when my girlfriend (soon to be wife) got pregnant while we were in high school. I finally broke down and asked my mom for help and we went and seen a psychologist. He told me all i had was anxiety and no disorder. I have noticed that I obsess with things. When i was younger i use to have a fear of hiv/aids. (i was not educated on it very well is why i figure i had a fear of it). I have noticed i obsess with 1 topic for a few months then once i start getting anxiety again from life i swap subjects maybe for a relief of some kind? (For instance for a few months ill be really into fishing and want to know all the best stuff then ill swap to trucks and ect.) This causes me no distress really. My distress comes from when i start getting scared im going schizo. This is the only mental illness that i really obsess over. There is no mental in my family except my mom which has depression. I obsess over it so much ill think i hear voices. It says what im feeling deep down like the one of the times i was thinking about a dirtbike and was obsessing over the parts and what id do to it kind of zoning everything out. Then my own voice when i was very concentrated on thinking about it while walking at work poped in my head almost like instant words said “can you even ride good”. This scared me and cause alot of anxiety and still does when i think about it. I Knew it was my innervoice but i felt like i lost control and my mind blurted out without me doing it. Ive never had a person that wasn’t there speaking to me, or hear whispers. Just that i feel like i get so zoned out in something else that i mistake my subconscious thinking into hearing voice. (My own voice not someone elses. I dont feel like thoughts are being placed in my head or supernatural stuff). This has only happened once or twice when im really obsessing over something.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have a terrible fear of going insane. I feel as though im slipping into madness everyday'], 'answer_start': [0]}
Six months ago I went on a camp with some friends. I slept with one of my best friends which was in a long-lasting relationship. We both enjoyed it and wanted to continue with that. We both knew it was a bad and immoral thing, but the pleasure was above all the morality. But I started to fall madly in love with him. Every time I saw him, touched him, kissed him I was feeling so good and appreciated. Nobody ever has given me a feeling like that. And we did not have a single quarrel in all this time. Everything was perfect except the fact that he was cheating on his girlfriend with me and our relationship was a secret. But he started to feel guilty about this relationship about a month ago and wanted to break up with me. I could not stand such a thing and I asked him to give me another chance to make him forget his girlfriend. It did not work out. He is trying to convince me that he is not the right person for me and he is in love with his girlfriend, although he tells me “I love you” every day. I am trying to be the perfect girlfriend for him and do anything he asks, but he still loves the other one more. What can I do to have him? Or should I forget him? I can’t forget him because I love him so much. He is my first true love. I can’t let this behind. (age 20, from Romania)

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['Everything was perfect except the fact that he was cheating on his girlfriend with me and our relationship was a secret.'], 'answer_start': [504]}
Last night my boyfriend broke up with me over an issue I didn’t think was a big deal. Yesterday my friends and I planned a night out and I made the mistake of not inviting my boyfriend because of this one guy. That guy broke our relationship once and that’s the reason why my boyfriend dislikes him so much. I thought I did the right thing by not telling him about it, but apparently he didn’t think so. He told me that I would have never gone if I knew that guy was coming but the truth is that was the only night I could go out and stay out late so I thought to myself, “Why would I stay at home just because of another guy?” and went for it anyway. While I was on my way to the gathering I got a text from my boyfriend asking me where I am and I sent a message telling him where I was going but apparently the text hadn’t gone and he thinks that I ignored his message because I didn’t want him there. He doesn’t like any of my guy friends. He’s a Muslim boy and I’m not so there’s a lot of cultural clashing in terms of clothing, views etc. My parents do not accept him but I love him with all my heart. I feel numb and I can’t think straight. I don’t know what to do now. Please help me. Please. (From Sri Lanka)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m a 19 year old male who used to smoke pot when I was 15 here and again, and it never had an effect on me. 10 months ago I had my first panic attack out of no where and had an anxiety attack every night for 3 days. My mum was on vacation and it was just me and my girlfriend. After 2 days my conditioned worsened to the point where I was laying in bed shaking, afraid to leave the house, feeble and hazey. My neighbour took me to a doctor and he prescribed me with Citalopram. The first day I took it, I had a high of where I said ‘oh my god I feel back to normal’ for about an hour, then after; a low of where I was crying which faded out during the evening. I took my second tablet the next day of where the same thing happened but I decided to come off them. 10 months have passed and my anxiety is extremely at bay, however.. my brain feels re-wired. I feel (as the internet describes) depersonalized (DP/DR) it started off terrible being the only thing on my mind but now I don’t think about it and I am able to live my life. However.. I still feel different, as if something has changed the way I feel and view reality. Although I can ignore it and get on with my life; I still feel like this ‘not real feeling’ is a black cloud that has improved but may not ever go away. Ever since that panic attack, reality hasn’t seemed the same since and I always yearn to go back to when my life was.. ‘normal’. I know I’m not crazy and I don’t have thoughts of suicide, but a lot of the time I’m wondering why I don’t feel as happy as I should. I feel great after the gym and eating healthy sure; but constantly my mind is saying ‘you feel great.. but not as great as you used to, there must be something you’re not doing’ what do you think has happened? Do you think my mind has gone through so much trauma that it’s re-wired itself or taken a different course? – thank you.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel (as the internet describes) depersonalized (DP/DR) it started off terrible being the only thing on my mind but now I don’t think about it and I am able to live my life. However.. I still feel different, as if something has changed the way I feel and view reality. Although I can ignore it and get on with my life; I still feel like this ‘not real feeling’ is a black cloud that has improved but may not ever go away.'], 'answer_start': [857]}
From the U.S.: I have lived with my boyfriend and stepson for 6 years. My stepson is now 19 years old and my 12 year old daughter also lives with us. I have caught my stepson numerous times watching me, my daughter and most recently a female friend of mine while we sleep. It is always the same — you wake up with him standing over you, and when he realizes he has been caught he will make up an excuse like “oh I was just turning off the light” or “I am just grabbing this pillow.” It is very disturbing to say the least and my boyfriend, his father, does not know how to approach the situation. Should we be upset? How do we make him understand that we are not ok with this behavior? Thank you.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m a person that struggles a lot when it comes to socialization. I’m afraid of making new friends or acquaintances out of fear they’ll just use me and discard me when I’m not useful anymore. The root of this problem comes form my childhood. My late brother was a very social person with a lot of friends, something I envied a lot, and he would often buy things for them, bring them to our house for snack parties, and go out a lot with then, but when he got diagnosed with cancer and was bedridden, they all left. This left a very negative impression about friendship in my head, and I remember my father telling me that friends don’t exist, and that people only like you for what you have. Because of this I avoided making friends and going to social gatherings. To show people I didn’t want any friends, I became a bully. I got in a lot of fights and often insulted people to leave me alone, and used to bully weaker students to make sure no one approached me. I remember very vividly my teacher telling me that people wanted to befriend me but I pushed them away. At the time I didn’t care. However, deep down, I wanted friends, I wanted to belong to a group, but my irrational fear of betrayal got the best o me. To suppress it, I became nastier to people and even started abusing my pet cat. I would often punch and kick the poor thing for no reason other than to release some of my frustration. This is something that’s haunts me to this day.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m a person that struggles a lot when it comes to socialization. I’m afraid of making new friends or acquaintances out of fear they’ll just use me and discard me when I’m not useful anymore.'], 'answer_start': [0]}