Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I’ve been observing myself, paying attention to everything around me as much as i can, and i’ve noticed that i have many symptoms similar to the symptoms of schizophrenia. I’ve been experiencing hallucinations and delusions, mainly delusions. I often see a figure following me around just behind my back, shadows near me, and my delusions include the thought that everything i see is not real, that everyone hates me, that something will eventually come and kill me, even if its not alive, amd much more. I also have thoughts that seem to come from someone else, and i cant control any of my thoughts, and i cant control myself as well. My thoughts are always i mess, i cant speak well and i have no speech problems. Its very difficult to express my emotions, and often, it feel like i cant even feel them. I cant take care of myself. The smallest task can seem like such s pain, and i have also many more things i have experienced. I have been diagnosed with depression, and also fear that i may have anxiety. I apologize for english, and how messed up this may end up being.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’ve been experiencing hallucinations and delusions, mainly delusions. I often see a figure following me around just behind my back, shadows near me, and my delusions include the thought that everything i see is not real, that everyone hates me, that something will eventually come and kill me, even if its not alive, amd much more. '], 'answer_start': [172]}
First and foremost, I’d like to preface this with the clarification that my parents are good people. They mean well. They’ve tried to help me with my depression and anxiety in any way possible. I’m lucky. But lately they’ve been unintentionally making me feel so much worse. But when I try to communicate this, my complaints fall on deaf ears. They just can’t seem to comprehend that they don’t have me, their own daughter, figured out.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['They just can’t seem to comprehend that they don’t have me, their own daughter, figured out.'], 'answer_start': [344]}
I feel like I have two personalities, I’m not sure but it feels like it. I can live happily but sometimes I just got this strong urge to kill someone. It feels like something is dragging me into a void and just takes control of me. Nothing has happened so far but I am afraid that someday I might no longer be able to control it anymore. I also feel neither empathy nor guilt. I read that Psychopaths do not feel these two things as well but I on the other hand, can feel fear. Not that someone robs me or tries to kill me, Im not worried about those sorts of things. I am afraid of the reactions of my family since I pretended to be something Im not my whole life. I am also afraid to go see a Therapist, because they are professionals and Im not sure if I can keep the mask up or not. I do not want to spend the rest of my life in a mental hospital. I thought it would go away after a short while, but it seems the more time I ignore it, the stronger it gets. Please tell me I am not crazy.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I can live happily but sometimes I just got this strong urge to kill someone. It feels like something is dragging me into a void and just takes control of me.  '], 'answer_start': [73]}
From a 15 year old in the U.S.: Hi, I’ve had this problem for 4 months it’s been 24/7, but things have all of a sudden felt like everything is getting like fast forwarded or rushed like I sat in a dressing room for an 1 hour and it felt like 30 minutes I don’t know what’s wrong with my perception of time is there any way to fix this??? And I feel very emotionally numb like I’ll laugh but I won’t feel anything. and words on boards seem blurry to me even though I’ve never had reading issues like maybe not blurry just that my mind can’t quite comprehend. I know I have depersonalization but are some of these problems something else

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['Hi, I’ve had this problem for 4 months it’s been 24/7, but things have all of a sudden felt like everything is getting like fast forwarded or rushed like I sat in a dressing room for an 1 hour and it felt like 30 minutes I don’t know what’s wrong with my perception of time is there any way to fix this??? And I feel very emotionally numb like I’ll laugh but I won’t feel anything. and words on boards seem blurry to me even though I’ve never had reading issues like maybe not blurry just that my mind can’t quite comprehend.'], 'answer_start': [32]}
I consider myself a heterosexual male but I have often had difficulty forming romantic connections with women for one reason or another. Instead, I tend to be romantically attracted to men, even if that attraction doesn’t exactly translate into sexual attraction.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’ve been seeing my therapist for about 6 months. Working through a lot of trauma a lot of it related to sexual abuse as a child/teen/adult. I’ve never really been big on sex(I’d go as far as saying I don’t much like it.) and just recently left an abusive relationship. I’ve always had love for my therapist since I meet her. We clicked immediately and I’ve always found her to be an attractive woman but you know laws are laws. And overtime my feelings have grown. Anyways for awhile I’ve fantasize about a sexual encounter with her but in my fantasy she’s always resisted me. I would push up on her and hold her against the wall kiss her etc but stop short of touching her down below because she’d resist me. Recently the fantasy has changed and instead of resisting she flipped me and it became this whole hot and heavy wet sexual scene and I couldn’t escape the need to touch myself. To which I had the most amazing O. I’ve come to the conclusion that I love my therapist deeply and I like the idea of having these fantasies of her knowing I can’t act on them in real life. In a weird way I feel like I’m in a healthy relationship with her though I know that’s not really the case. I feel awkward about living this false relationships in my head but at the same time I love/loved touching myself to the thought of her touching me/us touching each other. And now I don’t want to stop having the fantasy’s. When I did this today I imagined she was somewhere at work in a meeting secretly aroused with unclear meaning. Almost as if I was connected with her on a spiritual level. Anyways I know this probably sounds crazy and I talk to her about everything. Except this. Is this weird, that for now I want to keep this the way it is? And kinda of secretly and slightly irrationally I’m dating her in my head. & I sounds crazy… I feel crazy for wanting to live this out in my head but I equally feel like it’s a better rebound then another fucked up relationship. While I’m grieving the end of a 12year relationship. I’m not sure what to do with these feelings. I know I love my therapist in a very complexed way. I don’t want to let go of the fantasies. I like them a lot. Is this crazy?

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['And kinda of secretly and slightly irrationally I’m dating her in my head. & I sounds crazy… I feel crazy for wanting to live this out in my head but I equally feel like it’s a better rebound then another fucked up relationship.'], 'answer_start': [1734]}
From the U.S.: Everyday I wake up I’m angry. If I don’t wake up angry something small may happen and I’m mad for the entire day. If I go a whole day with nothing happening to upset me then my mind often remembers old things and then I’ll be upset about something that could have happened 3 years ago. I get very irritated about every small thing.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['If I don’t wake up angry something small may happen and I’m mad for the entire day.'], 'answer_start': [45]}
Hi .I am a 17 year old girl living in hong kong. I felt extremely stressful last year so i visited a psychologist(the kind of doctor who give medicine to those who suffer from mental illnesses )i was diagnosed with adjustment disorder. i am on medication and recently i felt better (eg i have less headache) but i suspect myself of having “dependence personality disorder”. I am so helpless that i think i can never get rid of these feelings. I searched in wikipedia about these this disorder it mentions dependent personality disorder is inter-related with adjustment disorder.i found that i feel trouble in decision making , i always allow other people to decide/choices for me ,like letting my mom to decide which school and college for me to go , which subject for me to study.starting from primary school i always lean on one friend(i cannot stand without friend), i will feel anxious and helpless when i was alone. i cant say no or have courage to be alone because i need to lean on others. i dont know what to do with my life now. i cant make any important decisions in my life …beside, i still live with my mom, she likes to decide and define my life for me ,i cannot get rid of her too, i am kind of lean on the decisions she made for me.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['i found that i feel trouble in decision making , i always allow other people to decide/choices for me ,like letting my mom to decide which school and college for me to go , which subject for me to study.starting from primary school i always lean on one friend(i cannot stand without friend), i will feel anxious and helpless when i was alone.'], 'answer_start': [578]}
How can I tell if I have depression or if I’m just a moody teenager? I’ve taken many online surveys before, including the SanityScore one, and they all say I have “Severe Depression” but I’m still skeptical. I have extreme mood swings, I feel hopeless and worthless sometimes, I feel like I can’t control anything in my life, but then sometimes I think I’m just overreacting. I think that there are people who have it worse than I do, and that I should just stop thinking about it. I sort of want to bring the idea up to my mom, but I don’t want her to judge me. I wrote a letter to her but I haven’t given it to her yet. Do you have any advice?

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I sort of want to bring the idea up to my mom, but I don’t want her to judge me.'], 'answer_start': [482]}
I’ve always had homicidal/suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember, but i never spent too much time thinking about them until recently. Since I turned 14, I’ve been thinking a lot more about homicide/suicide, and I’ve been having urges to do it as well. Of course I haven’t acted on these thoughts yet, but they’re getting harder to ignore. I know this isn’t normal, or right, but I’ve been wanting to kill someone recently, and in very graphic ways, even thinking of torturing them before I do it. The people in question are usually people I have a dislike or even hatred towards. I’m scared that I might enact on these thoughts and hurt someone, or worst. I also think of killing myself in very graphic, and usually painful, ways. I don’t want to do these things, but they’re getting harder to ignore. I tried to bring this up to my parents, but they refuse to take me to see a therapist because “they’ll take me away and put me in a mental hospital.” I really don’t know what to do.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I know this isn’t normal, or right, but I’ve been wanting to kill someone recently, and in very graphic ways, even thinking of torturing them before I do it.'], 'answer_start': [348]}
From Greece: I met a guy on Playstation 3. I am 30 and he is 21. We live in different countries. When i looked him up online a few newspaper articles came up about him being involved in a series of car thefts and other previous offences. I decided to overlook these as what he was telling me made me feel wonderful.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My family and I suspect that our mother is bipolar and has been for quite some time. She is a very combative person and very unstable at the moment. She excessively spends money that they don’t have. They had to declare bankruptcy in the past. Currently they are living in a small mobile home that my brothers and I bought for them and they are living off of my stepdads SS checks. They do not have medical insurance which also proposes a problem. She is on many medications, but goes off and on them all the time. They can’t afford many of the medications she needs for other issues such as, gout, blood pressure, cholesterol, Polymyositis and more.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: For as long as I can remember, I have always felt uncomfortable both receiving and giving affection to others. I never viewed this as a problem until just recently. My girlfriend and I have been dating for almost two months now and she’s a very affectionate and supportive person. She seems to always find an excuse to be near me and I don’t have a problem with it. However, I worry that I’m not being as loving towards her as I feel I should be.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['However, I worry that I’m not being as loving towards her as I feel I should be.'], 'answer_start': [391]}
Recently, I have been having some problems. I’ve been seeing things and hearing things that my people around me can’t, I have a hard time remembering moments and even little things like & what I ate for breakfast this morning or what grade I got on my math test and I’ve noticed that I just can’t bring myself to do everyday tasks. I’ve been having a lot of thoughts that come from a voice that doesn’t sound like me. This, as you can imagine, has given me some concerns for my mental-well-being. My biggest problem, however, is that I don’t know how to talk to my parents about my concerns. I feel as though my dad would just laugh at me, and say you are a moron which is what he usually does when I ask him for help on other things. I just don’t know who to talk to, or how to see a professional if I can’t even ask my dad.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel as though my dad would just laugh at me, and say you are a moron which is what he usually does when I ask him for help on other things.'], 'answer_start': [592]}
I started therapy almost 9 months ago because I had anxiety problems and knew that I had underlying issues that may be causing it. My anxiety actually got a lot better, however, a few months ago I got extremely depressed, to the point where I very specifically planned out my suicide. Although I feel a lot better now, I still have a fairly low mood, low energy and I gained quite a bit of weight. I wonder if I am ever going to get better, or if this depressive episode has damaged my brain in a way that can’t be repaired. I feel like therapy isn’t helping with this at all – thinking through things can’t really elevate my mood, it actually often makes everything worse.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I wonder if I am ever going to get better, or if this depressive episode has damaged my brain in a way that can’t be repaired. I feel like therapy isn’t helping with this at all – thinking through things can’t really elevate my mood, it actually often makes everything worse.'], 'answer_start': [398]}
I have had a relationship for two years. It was difficult from the beginning but also very fulfilling in our times. In our second year he was diagnosed with a severe depression that he must have had for a while then. After the diagnosis he had a breakdown and was nearly not able to do anything anymore. He was emotionally aggressive and cruel towards me and I felt abused very often. In trying to take care for him I got health problems myself and found me a therapist. 10 month later I announced I would leave our flat for a while to recover, he left me and broke all contact – I was relieved, though I loved him very much. I lived without him for one year, recovered, were very happy, dated and had a fulfilling job, still I kept feeling I had lost the chance to grow old with someone I really loved.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I lived without him for one year, recovered, were very happy, dated and had a fulfilling job, still I kept feeling I had lost the chance to grow old with someone I really loved.'], 'answer_start': [626]}
For a long time, I’ve had thoughts about murder, I used to hate it but I’ve grown to enjoy it to the point where thinking about killing and playing with a person’s blood and insides sparks sexual desires. Recently I’ve been having images of blood soaking the streets, a big pile of (adult) bodies all mangled and shredded in the center and imagining rolling around and having sex on top of it all, fire and screams in the distance, I guess what you would imagine Hell to be like. (I’m not religious). I’ve also been thinking very strongly about committing a murder, especially when someone gets me very angry (I have a colleague who really likes to wind me up, almost intentionally nudging me towards doing something). Because of this I’ve distanced myself from many people. At work I can’t be around people, and part of my job is to be around people, but they’ve allowed me to keep to the sides and do my work alone.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I don’t think I have the right to be sad because my life is great compared to most but I don’t feel happy. I have no one to talk to and I feel like my mind is just full with different problems. I don’t go to regular school because I constantly feel like I don’t fit in or my self esteem gets in the way.. I’m confused with what is wrong with me or if there is even anything wrong with me. I have almost no friends and keep alienating myself from others even when I feel sad and lonely after. I have tried to talk to my mom about it but she brushed it off. what do you think?

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I don’t think I have the right to be sad because my life is great compared to most but I don’t feel happy. '], 'answer_start': [0]}
From a teen in Indonesia: Hello, I’ve been struggling to find out what’s happening to my sis, she’s 20 turning 21 this year.. She always have this weird kinda act, for example like, she’s sulking because of one problem and then she became quiet and didn’t talk to anyone for 1/2 days then later she starts laughing and then crying, I don’t know what to do because she didn’t want to open up and slowly she makes me mad too because she kept laughing, scoffing Idk maybe she’s angry at me or what == I tried to tell my mom that maybe we need to go to psychiatrist but she just shrugged it off and said its not a big deal but then it startes to makes me feel depressed ughh so yeahh Thankyou~~

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['She always have this weird kinda act, for example like, she’s sulking because of one problem and then she became quiet and didn’t talk to anyone for 1/2 days then later she starts laughing and then crying, I don’t know what to do because she didn’t want to open up and slowly she makes me mad too because she kept laughing, scoffing Idk maybe she’s angry at me or what'], 'answer_start': [126]}
From the U.S.: Hi. I’m 12. I’m not trying to be offensive, stupid, ignorant, and I’m not self-diagnosing myself, either. First of all, I think I have Aspergers. I’m trying to get diagnosed, although it doesn’t bother me too much. I’m not sure if this is an obsession caused by Aspergers or if it’s something different. I feel like this obsession has lasted alot longer than my other recent obsessions, which usually last only a couple days or months.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m not trying to be offensive, stupid, ignorant, and I’m not self-diagnosing myself, either. '], 'answer_start': [27]}
From England: We had an argument with our teenage son who was rude and insolent. I handled it wrong. I got angry and shouted at him. I told him to stay at his grandmother’s house until he learned manners. But his grandmother has taken his side and my brother has too including taking him on a shopping spree and spending hundreds of dollars on him.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['We had an argument with our teenage son who was rude and insolent.'], 'answer_start': [14]}
I feel myself screaming in my own head, have compulsions to act…insane…like doing weird twitchy movements, talking in a nonsense language or just making grimaces and noises. So far I am in a firm control of these compulsions, they never slip in public. But when I am alone, sometimes I just…cant. And its like something overtakes my body while I just scream internally. Its like my own mind is trying to imprison my consciousness in a prison while replacing it with raving lunacy, while I fully realize what I am doing and what is happening around me, but am too deep to regain control. My therapists and psychiatrist do not believe me and keep convincing me that I am just making stuff up. I dont know how to convince them to take me seriously. Lately I have been considering hurting myself badly, just to prove them that I am serious. But It seems ridiculous to me. Hurting myself to gain attention seems stupid and childish… Any idea what is happening? Advice on what I should do?

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Hurting myself to gain attention seems stupid and childish…'], 'answer_start': [868]}
I am having daydreams where I am being physically punished. They are stories in my head where I am always the victim. They usually involve an authority figure beating me and forcing sex on me. These daydreams have become obsessive that I have lost interest in my hobbies. It is disturbing to me that I enjoy them and I want them to happen to me in real life. It is difficult to focus at work and driving with this story script running in my head. I am 45 and have Had Schizoaffective disorder since my 20s. These daydreams are always a precursor that I am getting sick. I get the daydreams and 1 or 2 weeks later I hear voices. This time I lasted 2 weeKs before the voices started. I take my medicine as prescribed. I am udergoing increased stress with a bankruptcy. My question is why do I get these daydreams and how can I stop them before I get extremely sick and need hospitalization? Thank you for your time in answering my question.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Ever since I was about eight or nine, I’ve always had a desire for a mental disorder. Its less like a want and more like a need, I need one, so much so that I attempt to convince myself, and sometimes other people, that I have one. Ever heard of mind over matter? I try to use that to my advantage. I spend hours trying to find something, anything that I might have, its almost hurting.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Its less like a want and more like a need, I need one, so much so that I attempt to convince myself, and sometimes other people, that I have one. '], 'answer_start': [86]}