Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I do not really know where to start. The past three years of my life have been a hell not to mention a blur. I have been diagnosed with sevral disorders, and I am aware that my bi polar disorder can explain my rapid mood swings, but what is happening now is out of hand. For the past month, I might even maybe 2 months I have had these day long events. Starts out normal enough and the day is going fine and then bang I’m angry and not like ‘Oh I’m angry, I’ll get over it, it’s more the anger where your hands shake and your fgriends turn into your worst enemies. I wanna break things and acts of voilence have corssed my mind more then once. I have been verbal all my life so argueing and being hurtful with my word is nothiong new but wanting to take it to the next level and feeling that loss of control is scaring me to death. Ive had fits of rage that turn into a crying session pulled out some of my hair in furstration. there is the other side of that spectrum as well…the depression…crying for hours on end and afriad of everything thats in my life..fearing my self above all. I dont understand why this is happeneing what might have caused it or even exactly what it is. I have been dealing with bipolar, adhd, borderline personality disorder and depression since I was a child. I have never dealt with anything like this and I need some insight. Please help.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['Starts out normal enough and the day is going fine and then bang I’m angry and not like ‘Oh I’m angry, I’ll get over it, it’s more the anger where your hands shake and your fgriends turn into your worst enemies.'], 'answer_start': [354]}
I was raped by my father repeatedly as a young boy, between the ages of 7-12. I was forced to wear dresses even before that, and I have since been afraid of men. I have 5 sisters and they were always safe. It was only myself that this happened to. Right now, I dress whenever I can as a princess or any other kind of little girl dresses. And I actually feel and become an 8 year old girl. I lose all track of time and can’t remember everything after I return to myself. But I am the most happiest and content when I can be this little 8 year old girl. My real childhood was an absolute horror, and I don’t understand what is happening to me. It seems like I cannot control it at all. Nobody else knows about my problem, but I wish I could just stay in the that 8 year old girl’s body, and keep wearing dresses and just play games knowing that I would always feel safe and happy. I have other people in my mind that also take control sometimes. But the little girl is the boss, and I do whatever she says. What is wrong with me, and should I be concerned? Please help, any advice would be extremely grateful. Thank you. (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I was forced to wear dresses even before that, and I have since been afraid of men.'], 'answer_start': [78]}
I am desperate. My 18 year old daughter was recently diagnosed with bipolar. The one thing the psychiatrist told me in fornt of her, is she needed to break up with her current 16 year old boyfriend who is manipulative and controlling. My daughter agreed, but within hours of ending it with him he had convinced her she was the problem and she was at his mercy. A couple days later she drove 500 miles to visit a guy she hardly knew and said it helped her end the relationship once again. She ended up having intercourse with this boy, she was a virgin and thought it was love but found out differently. She returned two days later and within a week she was begging her x-boyfriend to take her back.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
i am 22 and the type of guy i am is quite complicated and dark… i live for my love and surround myself with only her existance, one could say i am obbsessed with her… i moved to a new city for her and began a new life… no family or friends. my problem is that the last few days have been heavy, on me and her. its difficult to say why or how but i feel ugly… not like how i used to feel… she made me feel so special. now she doesnt talk to me that much and finds the time to talk to who she claims is only a friend… my problem is she tells me she would love me forever and be with me forever… even when times are hard. what can i do to make her miss me and want to talk to me again.i am going to buy her a rose today and go over there tonight… god i am so stressed to the point of suicide. how can one person just move on without you… where does that leave me… alone. i just moved away from everything i know

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['god i am so stressed to the point of suicide.'], 'answer_start': [745]}
From the U.S.: I have a insecurity problem concerning not being supported by my family especially when I am verbally attached by someone….let me give you the last example. I and my sister are caretakers of our 94 y/o Mother and of course it is stressful. I vented about one incident on FB (it really wasn’t that bad and I deleted it). One of the family members came in and called me a “Fing idiot”.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My husband’s issues have really begun taking its toll on our family. We’ve been married for thirteen years and from the beginning, I knew of his temper but figured since I had suffered from depression (due to childhood sex abuse) in the past, perhaps we both could assist each other in dealing with our mental health.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Dear Therapist, I’ve been in a very difficult situation lately. It’s been very hard to talk to my mother, and we’ve been having a lot, frankly, a large amount of miscommunication. I never been able to understand what mom says, and always think that I am the one being cornered. Sometimes I could accept what she said but only in some occasions and only in a certain way of her communicating with me. But mostly, I cannot accept what she has told me, and I don’t know why. I’ve repeatedly told her that there’s a way to talk to me so that I can accept all she said easily, but she wouldn’t listen. She always stick to this one principle that it is a child’s duty to change his way and follow parents way. I’ve tried, but I just can’t seem to follow her way. I cannot explain how her way is, it’s just that her way doesn’t suit me. I cannot communicate with her in almost every aspect in my life, because we cannot understand each other.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I cannot communicate with her in almost every aspect in my life, because we cannot understand each other.'], 'answer_start': [830]}
I just started sophomore year and things suck. My parents get mad at me for every little detail of my life. I have okay grades and shitty friends. Worst of all I hate everything that is breathing, heck I hate object too. Today I thought to myself I hate everything, but jokes on them I hate myself more. When i sit by myself thinking anything other than school, I like to think of anything that has made me feel like a bad person. I have to drown it out with music or podcasts to drown out my thoughts. I have trouble sleeping during the night without videos. I used to cry to make me feel better but sense being deemed a cry baby by other and myself, I stopped. I barely smile, but when I do its fake. I fake laugh more. My friends don’t treat me like another person, casting me aside for others. I have this one friend Lara and she is the nicest ray of sunshine and she is so nice, but i get jealous and envious of her happiness. Another reason why I hate myself because I cant cut myself, I’m too afraid of my parents saying “you only have one body that God gave and you should respect it”, if i hear that one time I swear I will scream. My mom hates me, and says how I’m a brat when I talk back to her. My dad is the scariest person you will ever meet when he gets mad (the only time I cry is when Im with him). I play a sport and I used to love it but know I am learning to hate it like everything else. I’m too dumb to get into college for Knowledge I want to leave the stupid state that I live in and live somewhere were nobody knows me and they don’t have any ideas of who I am. Like I want to be someone else who isn’t me with my stupid problems. That don’t even amass to the problems that other people have to deal with. The only person I truly love is my sister and she is gone at college. I can only see her on the weekends sometimes. I feel like a waste of time and only think that the future will worsen and I will never find love or a decent friend. Hopelessness=Me.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I just started sophomore year and things suck. My parents get mad at me for every little detail of my life. I have okay grades and shitty friends. Worst of all I hate everything that is breathing, heck I hate object too. Today I thought to myself I hate everything, but jokes on them I hate myself more. '], 'answer_start': [0]}
I recently discovered a friend of mine has homicidal fantasies. I assured them I would be a loyal and caring friend and I really mean it but I’m concerned and wish to help. I know this needs to be taken care of by a professional, but I have no idea how to get them help when neither of us have the resources to do so. They tell me that they have had this since they were very young and fantasize about murdering other people they know: family, friends, even strangers repeatedly and all the time. They don’t have an urge to act on these fantasies thankfully but they are a very prominent morbid obsession for them. I am the only true friend they’ve ever had and the only one they’ve ever told about this as well as one of the very few people they’ve never thought of killing. I know that this person has a very high tendency to bottle up emotions — they have panic attacks, extreme social anxiety, ect. In short, they’re a trouble individual. Could you give me a general idea as to what tends to cause homicidal fantasy? And, more importantly, what is the best way for me to support them through this as their friend? What can I do to help? And how can I find help provided that they don’t have the money to go see a true professional?

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I know this needs to be taken care of by a professional, but I have no idea how to get them help when neither of us have the resources to do so.'], 'answer_start': [173]}
I’ve had depression for a very very long time but lately it has escalated. I’ve been suicidal for quite a while but now my thoughts aren’t my own. they’re like a separate voice in my head. instead of my own thinking it’s a whole other voice I can’t control. it says the only way it will go away is if I’m hurting myself. I have been clean for a month so I don’t want to but it’s not even my own thought. I don’t know if this is a sign of early schizophrenia or not.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: Lately (and right now) I’ve been having these moments where all I want to do is be alone and do nothing all day. I’m not necessarily sad unless somebody wants to do something with me or just talk which is sort of strange because I’m generally an open person. (For instance, if my family and friends all went on a week long vacation I would be a happy girl).

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: I have been told by many doctors that I have a psychosis related problem (they’re unsure if it’s schizophrenic or schizoaffective) and I have a phobia of people around me vomiting. I know the fear is irrational, I have no idea how I became afraid of it, I have been my whole life. The fear stretched into involving coughing, and I hate the sound of anyone around me coughing. When I hear someone cough, I get very angry very fast and I feel an impulse to hurt them, but instead of hurting them I hurt myself (punching myself, hitting my head).

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I know the fear is irrational, I have no idea how I became afraid of it, I have been my whole life. '], 'answer_start': [206]}
I became close friends with a girl in my class. Then it developed into a bit more than friends when we started flirting with each other. since our classes were on part time basis in the morning, i used to work in a consulting firm in the afternoon till 8 at night. i was well paid over there and had been liked by all, even my boss. i am very soft spoken and very rarely hurt others.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m 20 years old and I suffer from a Borderline personality disorder, which has been hell to deal with and try and change. I have had admissions to hospital and have been in DBT for a while and while I have made some slight improvments, it hasnt fully helped me.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m 20 years old and I suffer from a Borderline personality disorder, which has been hell to deal with and try and change.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I’m a 25yo male, i’ve been diagnosed with depression with suicidal thoughts more than one year ago and i’m still struggling with it, i’ve started receiving medical treatment since may 2016 now, during this period i’ve been prescribed with Dosulepin, Escitalopram, Fluvoxamine, and Sertraline respectively for one month for each but none of them affected me in a good way. And finalyi’ve been on Fluoxetine for 7 months now and still no any improvement at all. I’ve recently came across an article stating that depression can be caused by some hormonal deficiency so i’ve made a list of most related hormones to the problem and got blood tested for them and the results were as following: TSH:2.23 uIU/ml. (Biological Reference: 0.3 – 4.8) Testosterone Free: 17.0 pg/ml. (Biological Reference: 8.3 – 40.1) Follicle Stimulating Hormone (FSH): 2.6 mIU/ml. (Biological Reference: 1.5 – 12.4) Luteinizing Hormone (LH): 7.1 mIU/ml. (Biological Reference: Adult: 1.7-8.6) Prolactin: 14.0 ng/ml. (Biological Reference: 4 – 15.2) Estradiol (E2): 5 pg/ml. (Biological Reference: 7.6 – 43) Progesterone: 0.4 ng/ml. (Biological ReferenceAdult: 0.2 1.4) Testosterone-Total: 4.62 ng/ml. (Biological Reference: Adult : 2.4 – 8.3) Cortisol-am: 19.25 ug/dL. (Biological Reference: 6 – 19.4) Cortisol-pm: 21.21 ug/dL. (Biological Reference: 2.3 – 11.9) Parathyroid Hormone (PTH): 55.2pg/ml. (Biological Reference: 15 – 65) I’ve stopped seeing any doctors and i’m about to give up trying tbh and i don’t have the power to go find a new good doctor and start the whole journey again with him/her.. Do you think that my tests results indicate a physical problem that can be the cause of the whole depression problem? and what would you recommend me to do next?

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’ve stopped seeing any doctors and i’m about to give up trying tbh and i don’t have the power to go find a new good doctor and start the whole journey again with him/her..'], 'answer_start': [1405]}
Hello, my husband and I have been married for 5 years, together for 7. We just welcomed a baby in March. Things were always so great – with the minor ups and downs of every relationship, but nothing serious. After the baby I had a little PPD. I was dealing with it on my own and working through it and was feeling better and confident as a mom by 2 months. Things were good. I didn’t want to go back to work, my husband and both wanted me to find another job as I travel quite a bit. So my brother helped me start on a home business. It was going well, but stressful to handle the business and a baby.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
When I was 12 I was in school and behind me was the 16 year old boy and I felt something behind me in the line to get some dinner, but I wasn’t sure what it was but I felt his whole body in back which was very uncomfortable and I couldn’t see his face properly. But I wasn’t sure if he was touching me at first so I just got out of the line because I felt his hand in my back but I wasn’t sure, so I kinda let it go. So the next day I went to the line again to get some food and I felt something really close to me again and i felt a hand trying to pull my jumper and shirt and it made me very uncomfortable and he touched me in my legs and between them but I was scared I didn’t know what to do I was just frozen I would always try in move but he would always go back, so again I got out of the line. I felt like he was following me everywhere I was really scared my friends were always there to make me feel a bit more protected. It happened for two weeks him just touching me and it always got worse, so I told my head of year but I couldn’t describe what he was doing so it looked like she didn’t really care so I thought I was being exaggerated that it was ok for him to touch me really inappropriately. I didn’t eat at school for days, until one day I went and he was there and once again he touched but this time quite worse as he tried getting between legs again my friends saw so they went to get my head of year and she took him out of the line and I didn’t know what she said to him she never spoke to me about it. The good thing is that he stopped but I was so traumatized and I still am. I have nightmares all the time and flashbacks of his face as I saw him earlier this year for the first time in a year I was scared I was getting paranoid. I was stupid for not saying stop it but I was so scared. Was it molestation or was just something that didn’t matter? These nightmares are just getting worse I just don’t know.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I was stupid for not saying stop it but I was so scared.'], 'answer_start': [1756]}
Very embarrassed to discuss this issue, but simply, I have reason to believe my father has a slight sexual attraction to me and my sister. Growing up he was very touchy feely and he still is until this day. He will touch our butt and make comments about our breast. He always says it in a joking manner, even in front of our mother, and she doesn’t think much of it. It has become more of a problem for me as I have gotten older and I do not want that kind of attention from my father. It makes me very uncomfortable. This behavior isn’t incessant, but I still do not find it normal. I still have a good relationship with my dad, however, and go to him for emotional support. I just think his treatment toward my sister and I, no matter how casual it is, is normal to me at this point.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: Ok so, sometimes I feel really lonely and like i cant talk to anyone else about what i am feeling, because it is really hard to put into words. i have some days where i am fine but other days where i get really sad. i feel unwanted by people and like i always give more than other people and feel under-appreciated.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['i feel unwanted by people and like i always give more than other people and feel under-appreciated.'], 'answer_start': [241]}
From a teen in the U.S.: I have an overwhelming fear of home invasions. My house in the past has been broken into multiple times. Despite the fact that we now have an alarm system, dogs, etc. I still do not feel safe. This fear often keeps me up at night, listening for any noises or looking out for anything out of the ordinary. During this time i often experience panic attack like symptoms as well as extreme paranoia.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Despite the fact that we now have an alarm system, dogs, etc. I still do not feel safe. This fear often keeps me up at night, listening for any noises or looking out for anything out of the ordinary. During this time i often experience panic attack like symptoms as well as extreme paranoia.'], 'answer_start': [130]}
Im just 13 years old and i felt this since im a kid. I dont know but when i’m in my grade school i lied to my schoolmates that i have a blood illness even if i dont have but im wishing that i dont said that and when i turn grade7 from a different school far from my family but im staying in my aunt’s house. Im just a transferee in that school and no one knows me. Then something on me want to have reputation so i lied to all my classmates teachers to anyone in my school. I said that my family is rich (even if not) I always said to my friends that i felt like no ones loving me so i rebel in my past years (ofcourse that wasnt true again) my family loves me that’s the true. And ofcourse i dont want my auntie know about all what im doing so i always lie to her everyday ive seen her face and ofcourse i dont let her come to my school. I alwys lied to them but something on me felt some guilt when i remebered my family it feels that i want to shout the truth but everyt ime i go to school another story i invented and im feeling that im more intelligent than ordinary. And now i never think that my fearest day will come when everyone find out what’s the true. But it come and im so scared and another lie i invented just to shade my prev lie . I cry just to make them believe and even tried to kill myself coz im really ashame but i feel that i should’nt said that at all.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['And now i never think that my fearest day will come when everyone find out what’s the true.'], 'answer_start': [1073]}
From the U.S.: I have been diagnosed with Scheuermann’s Disease which affects my posture. As a result I have difficulty establishing a posture that I am comfortable with. The problem is that in social situations I have difficulty appearing normal because I am always compensating for my posture. People only see that sometimes I might include them in my vision and think that I am doing it to offend them. If I just let my head face downwards I feel like I am doing harm to my body and depriving myself of a universal right. It has gotten to the point where people take a quick glance at me whenever they see me because they think I am going to take an offensive look at them. I can’t seem to break free of this pattern and it has been going on for years. How do you suggest I deal with this?

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['It has gotten to the point where people take a quick glance at me whenever they see me because they think I am going to take an offensive look at them.'], 'answer_start': [525]}