Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
When I was young, maybe 7 or 8, I was watching Blue Hawaii and there is this scene where Elvis takes this girl over his knee and spanks her because she tried to kill herself by driving into the lake…when I say girl, I guess I really mean young woman. Anyways, ever since I saw that scene, I was really intrigued and curious. I had never seen a man spank a full grown woman. The only thing I could relate spanking to was the abuse that I witnessed my mother perpetrate in my home. But this scene didn’t seem like what my mom did. So anyways after that every time the topic of spanking was broached, I got this feeling of anticipation…like just hearing or reading the word made me excited, for lack of a better word. When I was in 8th grade I started looking at things on the internet that had to do with adult spanking. This led me to the domestic discipline sights that talk about spanking in a relationship. I became engrossed to say the least. I read all the DD stories. And decided that I couldn’t be in a relationship that did not include me getting a sound spanking when I deserved one… Also, another aspect that I think may be relevant is the fact that I have struggled with self injury off and on for 5 years.I was wondering if that somehow correlates with my spanking needs… but the real issue I guess is…is this a healthy expression? Is there something wrong with my desire to be disciplined by my mate?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hello, What brought me here is that I believe I am a pedophile, I am shocked and anxious about it and disgusted by myself. I’ve been diagnosed with OCD (relationships OCD) 3 years ago and for the past 1,5 years I’ve been struggling with thoughts/fantasies about my gender and possible homosexuality. 6 months ago the worst was added to the roaster – I started to think that I am a pedophile when I felt something that I believe is attraction to a 12 year old girl. It got me panicking and later on I think that my feelings were exaggerated due to anxiety and there was nothing sexual there. But for the past months I’ve been struggling: I do definitely find teenager girls attractive (16 and up mostly) and as far as my research goes there is nothing biologically wrong with it (it’s a grey area in terms of social and legal issues though), plus research shows that many men respond with arousal to teenagers, they just don’t pay as much attention to it as I do due to fears of being a pedophile.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['It got me panicking and later on I think that my feelings were exaggerated due to anxiety and there was nothing sexual there.'], 'answer_start': [465]}
For quite some time now, I’ve had this overwhelming sense of emptiness as if something about myself was somehow off kilter. Everyday I go through the same self-scrutinizing process. Waking up, “what the hell’s wrong with me?” Showering, “why am I such an awful person?” Brushing my teeth, “Damn, my conscience is seriously a hot mess right now.” You get the idea. This vicious circle is pretty much part of my everyday routine. The scariest thing by far was my recent revelation of my sociopathic behavior. Yeah, I’ve tried to justify why I do the things I do, but it’s a waste of time. Deep down, I don’t believe my petty justifications anyhow. It’s pretty futile and silly to lie to your conscience, but I digress.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Everyday I go through the same self-scrutinizing process. Waking up, “what the hell’s wrong with me?” Showering, “why am I such an awful person?'], 'answer_start': [124]}
From a teenage girl in Phillippines: i am listing things that i experiences that i have trouble understanding. – i lie. i lie a lot and people believe me all the time, i always feel like the moment they knew me for who i am, they’ll leave me. sometimes i try to tell the truth and it always sounds like a lie. -i am currently in my senior year and my friends know me as a socially awkward person with claustrophobia. i don’t have claustrophobia but i enjoy the feeling of them taking extra care whenever we are at tight places. i am not socially awkward (i think so) because i have many friends and can befriend someone easily. -i tend to try to manipulate the people around me for no reason, i always ruin my relationships as soon as someone gets too close to me. -i once was sexually abused but my family said it’s not true and that all of it was just a dream. at night, i am troubled by those memories and am confused whether they are true or only a dream. -i want to be punished but not verbally. -my parents are on constant war and they hurt each other physically and sometimes i want them to die (this is wrong but i’m just telling the truth) -i get thoughts like wanting to hurt someone, torture and kill someone involuntarily, these thoughts grow stronger when i’m angry and i secretly start to think of the most painful way to kill someone, since i wont and cant do it, i hurt myself instead. -i have been wounding myself whenever i get urges to hurt someone. -i want to smoke so badly. i get urges to do a lot of wrong stuff and all day i would get these urges unless i give in to the craving, most of the time i just wound myself to stop the craving. -i always end up ruining things. -i want someone to know me for who i am but i don’t know how they’ll accept it. -i was bullied in my junior years and those memories sometimes comes back and i get panic attacks. -i cry at times for no reason. there is just too many thoughts in my mind that sometimes i get tired of it. -i want to die so badly, my family know i am wounding myself, they talk to me at times but i just dont know how to explain things to them. how can you explain something you dont understand?

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['lie a lot and people believe me all the time, i always feel like the moment they knew me for who i am, they’ll leave me. '], 'answer_start': [122]}
Back story: My father sexually abused me from an early age to the age of 9 when I was placed into foster care where I resided for 10 years. My mother was callous and distant; I have 3 brothers and she beat all of us. My father was also physically abusive. I vaguely recall what happened. It was mostly witnesses that came forward and reported what had occurred. I did torture and kill animals. Mostly strangulation or kicking. Never stabbed or used any tool to kill them. I figure it was my way to vent out my rage I had towards my parents.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: My husband does not handle stress well. He works at home and at times when I call him, he jumps down my throat and yells at me for bothering him. At other times I may just ask him a simple question and he answers me nastily. He has a lot of good qualities, does a lot for me and does a lot around the house, but he does not know how to control himself. He gets all worked up over little things. I believe he needs to be on medication but he won’t take it. He also has anxiety. He doesn’t cuss at me but the way he talks to me makes it hard for me to be loving and intimate. He will apologize later but will do it again. He won’t go to counseling. How do I stop this?

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['My husband does not handle stress well'], 'answer_start': [15]}
I am an only child of parents that are both ‘mentally ill’. My Dad (deceased since 1991, and Mother, still living in Arizona have schizophrenia. Mom has Paranoid Schizo and is abusing me, emotionally. She continues to think that I am living with her ex-boyfriend in another state and keeps asking my “why” I did that to her when it has no basis in reality.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My Sister got divorced about 2 years ago from a very angry man who she was married to for about 40 years. She lived in fear for a couple of years. She has since the divorced been to a few doctors about this bug thing and feels that no one believes her. She did have a mold problem in the place she moved to. I am totally confused as to how to deal with this. She has now added sleep walking to it and is doing things while sleep walking. She even let herself out of the house recently. What do I do? Any advice?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Last year I wanted to see how would it feel like to cut. I remember I got very upset about something. It made me feel like i hated myself. So I cut my self on the wrist, but I was scared, so I did it gently but it didn’t satisfy me and I felt like I wasn’t even strong enough to do anything. It made me feel weak.So every time I cut I try to do it deeper and deeper. But it doesn’t hurt at all. It makes the pain inside go away. This year I did it the most. I usually cut on my stomach which is the area where most people wont notes it. The first time i did it it made me scared. I felt like a total loser why would I ever do that?? i asked myself. So i decided to never do it again. It scared me. But with more things happening this year i wasn’t able to control my emotions at all. The only way that i could let them out is through cutting. I usually do it when i feel that i am worthless, ugly and not worthy to live. Or if i get into a fight with a close person. I haven’t told no one because i know they will say i am stupid for doing it.But I cant stop. it seems like the only way out. This year I felt very depressed. I don’t know why mostly i was very depressed because of myself. I hate myself. I feel like i am harming every ones life. I don’t deserve happiness in this world.This year my step dad lost his job. My mom lost a baby. My cat got hit by a car.I was almost diagnosed with lupus. My mom always tells me i am ungrateful and don’t deserve anything. That really made me feel worse. I get into fights with my mom a lot. I don’t want to tell her she will get disappointed and even maybe yell at me telling me i am so stupid. I don’t really know what she would say. But i hate my self for doing it. I ruin my own life and the life of others. I just cant stop.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I usually do it when i feel that i am worthless, ugly and not worthy to live. '], 'answer_start': [843]}
From the U.S.: I have finally come to terms that no matter how much I want to pretend it was a dream, or that I made it up in my head, or that he some other non-sexual reason for doing it, my father sexually abused me as a child. I have the emotional tools to deal with this. He is older and is beginning to show signs of dementia. As difficult as this is, I, once again, have the emotional tools necessary to deal with this.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
So I’m a 25 year old male, recently in the last 2 years I’ve started to experience some odd sexual desires. It first started that I enjoyed masturbating on video chat for anyone who wanted to watch either men or women. After a few months I started to enjoy watching men masturbate to me masturbating, something about it would absolutely turn me on like crazy. Now as time has passed I find myself curious to find a masturbating friend, but I am not attracted to men. Like the thought of me and another man just pleasuring each other with our hands turns me on but I just don’t get turned on by man. I love women inside and out from head to toe. Any idea what I’m going thru? Could it be a phase or just a random fantasy? Please help and thanks!

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I believe, and my family members also believe, that I was suffering from serious paranoid delusions for years. I also had repetitive physical movements that I couldn’t control, and some hallucinations. I came out of it spontaneously, without medication two and a half years ago.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I am a 34 year old woman and I’ve been married for 5 years, no kids. About 3 years ago I had some stressful events in my life and became somewhat depressed. I soon began to discover I’ve lost my libido and could not feel any sexual attraction towards anyone. I still continued to make love to my husband for about a year but I had little pleasure for it and our sexual encounters became less and less frequent till they stopped. My husband seemed very supportive, understood the issue and become more focused on his career/hobbies while we maintained platonic relationship. Since about 6-8 months I began to feel sexual desire again and I started to imagine myself as having sex again, but I felt awkward to push things in that direction, since we’ve been so used to act as just friends. I finally got over my fears and proposed sex to my husband, but he kept finding an excuse. Eventually we had a big fight and he told me that he no longer loves me as a woman, doesn’t find me attractive anymore and he wants to split and see other women. I am devastated, because I love him and because I feel guilty that I’m the one who caused the whole problem. Is there anything I can do about it? Thank you very much!

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am devastated, because I love him and because I feel guilty that I’m the one who caused the whole problem.'], 'answer_start': [1041]}
I finally started seeing a therapist slightly over a month ago and it’s been great and I love my therapist but I’m not really sure to say whether I’ve been making progress or not. I say this because while I’ve experienced a lot of personal growth just within the past month, I can’t help but have some concerns. I’ll start by saying that this year has been a lot for me. I dropped out of college in May due to stress that inhibited me from functioning for months after (to this day I’m still trying to get my life back), after months of persistent mood swings, anxiety, and mild psychosis I went to see a psychiatrist in September (I think) that completely dismissed my concerns by saying I had “mild depression and terrible coping skills”;despite me mentioning I’d attempted suicide over 4 times!; which subsequently sent me into a severe depressive episode after the session. My mood never really lifted, and in November, 2 days before my birthday, I broke up with my boyfriend of over a year. The experience in itself was gut-wrenching and the week following even more so. I had a really bad breakdown one night, broke a bunch of things, wanted to kill myself but blacked out before I could do any damage. I figured things would only get worse until the next week when my mood did a complete 180 and I suddenly knew the answers to life, the fact my ex wasn’t talking to me no longer bothered me, I spent over $200 in 2 days (and the rest throughout the following week) etc. etc. (insert various symptoms of mania here). My therapist told me I seemed more bipolar than just depressed but it seems she dropped the diagnosis as she hasn’t mentioned it since our first session and gave me a diagnosis of “anxiety disorder” upon our second meeting. Anyway, the episode of what I’d call mania lasted for basically a month up to the point I was certain I was god and was considering starting my own religion, but then on Christmas night depression slapped me in the face and I’ve been very down ever since. I feel like I’ve lost all my direction and drive and my hopes for my future are once again slim. (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like I’ve lost all my direction and drive and my hopes for my future are once again slim.'], 'answer_start': [2003]}
I’m a 17 year old female.  I constantly feel the need to have a mental illness because I get bored by normal things. I have obsessive thoughts about having bpd I think that makes you special. I have most of the symptoms except for impulsivity/reckless behavior and extreme fear of abandonment . I also don’t have anger issues but I feel empty like nothing matters much as before. I don’t even want attention I just need myself to be satisfied. I’m super-cautious and almost never take risks. I believe I have less severe form of social anxiety as I find it really hard to start conversations and I don’t express myself because I think I’m weird and different and people will judge. I have a history of self harm and suicidal thoughts  and childhood sexual abuse. I also used to see things that aren’t there but I don’t know if I made myself to believe that I am seeing things or if they were real. I also feel like no one really knows me and am so good at hiding things – like I’m another person in public and can switch off my emotions. My paranoia sometimes disables me to do anything. I am also supersensitive and can get hurt easily by words but I don’t show it. I just wanna know if I have bpd i don’t even care to get better cause I feel more comfortable being my real self which may be sad or in pain ( it’s like I get bored by being happy I don’t want to be stable). Thank you!

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I believe I have less severe form of social anxiety as I find it really hard to start conversations and I don’t express myself because I think I’m weird and different and people will judge.'], 'answer_start': [492]}
I used to love everything about life. I was so happy and ready to show the world who I was. I started college and during my junior year everything changed in one night. I got home from work and started feeling terrible. I felt like nothing mattered and that life had no point. Since then I have had difficulty with suicidal thoughts, depersonalization and derealization. Sometimes I feel like part of me is watching over me, and that it wants me to join it in heaven. Other times I get scared when I’m around loved ones because I know they are going to die one day, and that I’ll be left without them. I also get scared that I’m going to die, that I could end my life without realizing I’m doing it. How I feel seems to vary by the day, but they are not mood swings from high to low, just low to lower. When I’m walking around sometimes I feel like I may be in heaven already, especially when I’m walking through scenic environments. If I see something especially pretty or out of place I feel like I may be imagining it. Even going to the lake is enough to make me wonder if I’m real. This feeling doesn’t ever go away. I get overwhelmed extremely easily, and sometimes feel like I’m in a fog. Situations as simple as having a conversation at work or going to the store can make me feel like there’s too much going on, and that I’m about to wake up from a coma or a dream. I always feel like I’m about to hear my alarm clock go off and I’ll wake up. I’ve seen several therapists, talk therapy hasn’t been very helpful. I’ve been on and off Lexapro a few times. I’m on it now and this has been the only successful time. My dad, his parents and my other grandpa are alcoholics and my sister and aunt are bipolar type 1. I feel like a freak and honestly don’t understand why this is happening to me. I have never had real issues in my entire life. (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I used to love everything about life. I was so happy and ready to show the world who I was. I started college and during my junior year everything changed in one night. I got home from work and started feeling terrible. I felt like nothing mattered and that life had no point.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From a 16 year old girl in the U.S.: My step dad told me he liked me then he said he only felt that way because i am his first “daddy’s girl”. He said he liked me as in I want to kiss you, your ass is nice, you are cute. you have nice legs and you know you are sexy right? Then he told me it wasn’t in a sexual way that he just wanted to kiss me. He realized it was only because I was his first “daddy’s girl.”

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My son is 14. He is a great kid and is an A-student in school, but has for a long while shown signs of Asperger. Should I try to have him diagnosed to find out. His symptoms are above all a need to “run” (it is a kind of fast pacing that he does in his room or outside) and a very large need to be a alone a lot and not socialize. Also he finds all criticism and people disagreeing very difficult and has always been very sensitive about how clothes feel. He hardly ever brings friends home, but functions well with friends at school. What I am worried about is his social life as he gets older. His ability to function with a girlfriend or boyfriend and at work. And his “running” sometimes makes things difficult for him. He almost never wants to talk about how things are or how he feels. It is always only facts. He takes after his dad on a lot of things and I am wondering if a diagnosis would help prepare him for life, or make it more difficult. Would it be good to have a word for his differentness, or better just to let it be? Best Regards / teenage mother.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My dad calls me names. He has called me retarded, a runt, and dyslexic, and says I have chicken arms. My brother is special needs so he has some behavioral issues. In the morning I am supposed to make sure he gets breakfast and I can’t even knock and then go into his room without him yelling get out and calling me stupid or something. A behavior specialist told us to have him write 10 sentences if he is rude or does not follow directions. One time he yelled at me so I told him to write his sentences, but he said he only wanted to write 5. My mom has told me that if we do not follow through on this his behavior will just get worse, especially if I let him do what he wanted and only write 5 sentences. My dad was right there and didn’t want to hear my brother argue, so he said he could do 5. I got upset because its frustrating having to do deal with my brother’s bad behavior a lot. I went into my room and my dad came in and got within like 2 inches of my face and started screaming at me about how I needed to listen to him and stuff. I was scared because I actually thought he might hit me, but he didn’t. Ever since I was little my parents would yell and argue with each other all the time. Now they barely talk and don’t sleep in the same room and now my mom is cheating on my dad. I also have social anxiety and sometimes my mom tells me to go into the store and get something by myself, I ask her if she can do it. Instead of asking me what’s wrong or why I don’t want to, she screams and calls me a baby and says I need to learn to grow up. When we are at home she sometimes gets in these moods where she just screams for no reason. I just say mom and she’ll turn around and yell what do you want and look all irritated.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My husband is unpredictable, violent & uses highly abusive language very often and even spits on my face. At the same time he enjoys a very good status both professionally & personally. He is highly qualified. His profession is very much responsive in nature towards society. He is a journalist in press media. Unpredictable ?€? My husband, me & four other in-laws family members were taking walk after taking meal at night. My husband slapped me at my shoulder, lovingly. So did I. Again he did the same. (The same I did. He acted the same again.) But this time when I did, he got aggressive & forcefully pressed my neck with his hand & pushed me aside. The whole situation / environment became tense & horrified. Everyone present there thought that my husband was kidding with me.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My husband is unpredictable, violent & uses highly abusive language very often and even spits on my face.'], 'answer_start': [0]}