Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I have trouble controlling what I speak when im angry. My mother hurts me with her words and I hurt her right back. I really don’t mean to do that it just happens. I have trouble controlling myself from breaking crockery when im angry. I cant communicate very effectively while talking. Breaking crockery usually calms me down. I have dug my nails into my mother’s arm once because she wouldn’t stop accusing me. Never again. It scares me how vicious I was. After an outburst I cry a lot. But after that I have trouble even remembering what made me so angry. Or what words exactly triggered it. I have a severe headache and I sleep it off. Sometimes I have trouble falling asleep too. I have frequent mood swings. I happy one moment and I could start crying the next. Even if it’s a commercial in TV I may start crying. I get very sad. I hardly talk to people. It irritates me if someone tries to talk to me when im in this mood. Other people’s habits annoy me. Any kind of sound irritates me when im in this mood. I cannot stand people who are fake or selfish or people who lie n deceive or those who show off. So I avoid such company. I have very limited friends. Im very selective. Im very cynical. I either believe people too much or don’t believe them at all. Me being so critical makes most of my relationships temporary. When I get angry, I have headaches, nausea, my eyes hurt n also I have occasionally breathlessness. My parents stayed together because of me and usually my mother blames me for all of her problems. I feel very guilty. N hurt. I have been trying to please them all my life. But nothing ever makes them happy. Im normally quite content in my own bubble… talking to myself, talking to imaginary friends… I am used to staying by myself..i take up hobbies to busy myself and never get bored. I don’t socialize much because my parents wont let me… but I do love making friends. I really don’t know how to handle myself. I don’t like this side of mine. I don’t wish to hurt anybody with my words but I end up doing the same. Please help. (From India)

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Any kind of sound irritates me when im in this mood.  '], 'answer_start': [962]}
From the U.S.: Forgive me, this is going to be a very fragmented story…About 5 months ago my female therapist of a year and a half transferred me to a male therapist because I was a little obsessed with her. Nothing sexual. But I did look her up online and managed to find out…. probably everything about her.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I’m 17, and throughout my years on this earth I’ve never really had anyone stay around for long, and if they did I’d eventually regret that they did. My parents weren’t really much of parents, my brother had abused me for years, and I rarely see any of my other relatives. I’ve only been able to say the words I love you once in my life and mean them. I haven’t hugged anyone in years, I can’t remember when I last did anyways. In short, I feel unlovable, I feel as if this world doesn’t want me and subsequently has decided to leave me behind.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['In short, I feel unlovable, I feel as if this world doesn’t want me and subsequently has decided to leave me behind.'], 'answer_start': [443]}
1. She arbitrarily ‘chooses’ people, distrusts them and thinks of them as liars, amoral, inferior, etc. People arbitrarily chosen are the ones close to me. 2. Thinks her family, her morals and beliefs are ‘superior’ to mine but bends her ‘superior morals’ whenever needed to suit her convenience. 3. My wife has a similar personality. She will make a fuss out of something, call her mother and trigger her off (Eg; During my wedding reception, my parents got carried away greeting guests. My wife blamed my parents for ‘not offering her water on purpose’ – she did not even ask for it. She triggered her mother. Her mother asked me to ‘offer water to a thirsty woman even if I am not willing to feed my wife’. Both women soon got enraged.) 4. Shows dual behavior – first she is this soft ‘parent-of-an-abused-girl-god-believer’, transforms into a raging verbally abusive woman derogating me and my family, cursing death/dismemberment/etc. to my parents. Later, she absolutely denies all she said in her anger and swears on gods that she never lies – I am the liar. 4. Every time we try to speak about these issues, she ‘faints’. My wife says there is ‘no oxygen flowing to her brain’ and asks her father to violently shake her head while blaming me for what happened to her mother. She ‘regains consciousness’ after a few minutes. Opportunity to address problems lost. 5. Recently, she began exhibiting literal split personality. She went into a trance – some ‘god’ had entered her. She said my birth was flawed and that god has come here to save me, threatened my parents with curses and death and asked me to treat my wife well. She physically hits my wife when angry. 6. My wife is very similar – dual behavior – shows affection, romance, we live normally for a few days and then finds a random fault with a sudden mood swing and goes into a rage-crying-despair cycle. In her rage mode she is absolutely uncontrollable. She hits me physically, abuses me verbally, weeps and threatens to call the cops and book me for ‘dowry harassment’, degrades me in front of her mother, plays the victim and so on. 7. My in-laws seem to act mostly on impulse without thoughts about consequences. My wife and FIL both rigidly obey my MIL.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['My in-laws seem to act mostly on impulse without thoughts about consequences.'], 'answer_start': [2107]}
From the Netherlands: I am so scared of some specific people that I cannot see or even hear theyr voices. I completely panic. I am scared of going out and see this people, Because if I see them I Always have crisis and there was one time I thought I would lose my control. I also cannot see them in pictures, cause brings me bad feelings.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am so scared of some specific people that I cannot see or even hear theyr voices. I completely panic.'], 'answer_start': [22]}
I’ve been happily single-by-choice for many years. Definitely not even considering ANY possibility of new “romantic” relationship. Out of NOWHERE, I started constantly thinking about & plotting ways to spend time with a man approx 15 yrs younger than I. He works evenings & nights as a security guard where I reside. He’s been working here for approx. 6 mos. I’d seen & even spoken briefly to him several times previously, but without a hint of warning I became “closer” (no physical exchanges due to my faith & beliefs). Here’s the kicker: he couldn’t be FURTHER from what has always been my “type”. Where I live there are many different nationalities & people from many diverse ethnic backgrounds. I’ve always been attracted first & foremost, by physical appearance & to races other than mine (Caucasian). This “young man” is Hispanic, having only arrived in Hawaii last year, and is pure WHITE, skinny, shaved head, big ears & a horrible physique. Now’s the time to add the fact of my extremely good, rare physical shape-not only for “my age” but for women in general. I’ve had 5 large babies but have always been very athletic-serious weight-lifting for many years as well as running, canoe-paddling etc. In 2009 I realized my 35-year dream & underwent an abdominoplasty which removed 2 lbs. of loose skin only-no liposuction needed-& complete abdominal muscle restoration (stretch marks & scars are history & I’ve had extensive tattooing over the surgical scars. People think I’m “fibbing” when they learn about my large family because my body definitely is not the “norm” in the many-children dept. I’m 5′ 2″, still somewhat muscular, have long, straight hair (in which I keep all traces of white from becoming obvious) & am feisty & energetic. I’m certainly not movie-star gorgeous but not too shabby for 61* So…what is up with my totally out-of-character attraction to this guy? He has a beautiful accent I call “Sprench” for Spanish/French because it sounds like a little of both. He’s been very kind & considerate but I think I’ve frightened him with my hyper, “dog-with-a-bone” personality. He’s separated from his wife, who’s in CA. I mean, if my kids ever knew about this they’d think I’d totally lost it. I have 2 bodybuilder sons & all my children are super attractive, as are their kids. What do I do???

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I mean, if my kids ever knew about this they’d think I’d totally lost it.'], 'answer_start': [2145]}
It’s hard to sleep when I am anxious. & I feel anxious because I have been unemployed for roughly 8 years searching for a medication that will help with my anxiety and a sleep aid. But no pill can change the fact that I can never make up for loss time. I’m 30 y/o but I feel like a kid in an adult body & no matter what I do or how fast I do it, I can never seem to catch up with the rest getting left behind.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['But no pill can change the fact that I can never make up for loss time. I’m 30 y/o but I feel like a kid in an adult body & no matter what I do or how fast I do it, I can never seem to catch up with the rest getting left behind.'], 'answer_start': [181]}
I am 26 years old. I am starting to worry about my financial future, as I have graduated with $85,000 in student loans. I am worried about retirement savings and I am worried about my short term future. I am worried that it would be irresponsible for me to get married and have children when I am in debt. The majority of my loans are private, so repayment plans are at a minimum. I have calculated that even with accelerated payments, that I can only be debt free within 10 years with my current salary. That’s 10 more years of living at home, no room for savings, and delaying the family that I know I want. I want to know if it is smart to think of these rewards when I have the burden of debt hanging over me? I know that my priority is to eliminate the debt as fast as possible, but I can only do so much and I am scared that 10 years is too long of a time to wait for a family.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I know that my priority is to eliminate the debt as fast as possible, but I can only do so much and I am scared that 10 years is too long of a time to wait for a family.'], 'answer_start': [714]}
I’ve told my mom that I have felt depressed since the 3rd grade. I used to fake sick just so I could stay in bed all day and I’m sad to say that I still do it even today. I’m in my second year of college, so I can’t really afford to pay for my own help. Anytime I mention it to my mother, I start to cry and all she says is “I know its hard but you’ll pull through.” I constantly have thoughts of suicide and have a history with self harm. My mom has no job as of the moment and my parents are divorced. My family has a history with depression, anxiety, and even bipolar disorder, yet my mom still doesn’t seem to want to believe that I could be depressed or have suicidal thoughts. I don’t know what to do and I feel trapped.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['My family has a history with depression, anxiety, and even bipolar disorder, yet my mom still doesn’t seem to want to believe that I could be depressed or have suicidal thoughts.'], 'answer_start': [504]}
From a young teen: A few years ago, I went through several months of what I guess can only be described as really crippling depression. I was really stupid and slit my wrists and cried for no reason and forced myself to stop eating, that kind of stuff. What I remember really distinctly is assuming everyone else was going through the same thing. Anyway, when I kinda eased out of that phase, I became a lot happier and somewhere along the way I realized there was something different and bad about the way I’d been feeling for a couple of months (more like a year, really).

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['What I remember really distinctly is assuming everyone else was going through the same thing.'], 'answer_start': [253]}
I almost never received any love from my father and I spent very little time with my grandfather and I think my attraction to older men has a lot to do with this. I’ve just never had an older man as a role model growing up or any man at all until I was about 15 and by that time, I had already crushed on multiple older guys.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From India: I feel lost, unmotivated,living for the day. My dreams are dying. I don’t have a perfect friend. I don’t feel myself. I have a few hobbies. I am learning to play keyboard. I do pencil sketches. But I have lost passion. I am a short guy with spectacles,but above average looking. I used to be a nerd. I have turned into an atheist. It has really helped me in my depression. I like science but it doesn’t like me back. I had nice curly hair, like jon snow of you will. But recently I am suffering from heavy hair fall. I come from the village. My father was a control freak,drunkard, & little abusive. He’s lost all his money,self respect & health. Whatever he’s done in life has been counter productive to our life. By our means me, my twin brother & my mother.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My dreams are dying. '], 'answer_start': [57]}
Over the past 30 years, my parents (and particularly my mother) have never been satisfied with the level of effort I expend toward family relationships. As a child I was accused of ignoring and not liking my sister, and forced to seek her out to apologize for hurting her feelings. My sister, by the way, used to pin me to the ground and pull hair out of my head and painfully tickle and pinch me when I was young. Now she is divorced. She has always been a kind yet very negative, sarcastic person with a mean streak. I find being around her very tiring.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Over the past 30 years, my parents (and particularly my mother) have never been satisfied with the level of effort I expend toward family relationships.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
My uncle has severe paranoid Schizophrenia. His sister may have been mentally ill – she had lifelong substance abuse/addiction problems. Their brother molested them all during childhood. Their father was an abusive alcoholic. My great uncle had two “break downs,” the second one left him “never the same again.” (No actual diagnosis.)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I am fast reaching my breaking point as nothing seems to be going well in my life. In the span of a year and a half after finishing school, I have started and failed a business, slept on the street while working a 14 hour job, fought and overcame a heroin addiction.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am fast reaching my breaking point as nothing seems to be going well in my life.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I have compiled a list of reoccurring symptoms that i have been experiencing and i wondering if anyone could help me piece them together to help understand what is wrong with me. i have been diagnosed with an eating disorder, generalized anxiety and depression but everything is getting worse and i have no clue what is wrong with me. I really don’t feel like it is just depression, and it’s starting to scare me. – mentally and physically drained – constantly crying – paranoia – hearing voices / sounds that aren’t there – punching, breaking and trashing things / places – physically giving way, forgetting how to stand etc – minor memory loss – screaming – severe issue with pulling out my hair – attempts of b/p – starving self – issues regarding weight, image etc – panic attacks – wanting to kill myself – isolating self – lack of socialization – not seeing friends – convinced everyone hates me and that they are plotting against me etc – self harm – mood highs, which are scattered and don’t last long – include rambling words, doing thing i would not do normally, rushed thinking, lack of care for others – deep lows – they come in stages – severe headaches – lack of concentration / motivation – easily frustrated / angered – need to isolate sensations – easily overwhelmed, needing to cover eyes etc – lack of clarity – zoning out – forgetting what i am doing – snapping at people – lack of enjoyment – inability of movements – lack of care and self care – bad headaches – tight chest, most of time – binge eating and then severally dropping in mood

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['convinced everyone hates me and that they are plotting against me etc'], 'answer_start': [874]}
I’m a sixteen year old male, and I think I might be a sociopath. For the longest time, I’ve really started to take pride in things that most people would feel guilty for. I’m a very good liar and I tend to boast about it. I often lie quite frequently as well. Sometimes I do it just out of sheer convenience, and I’ve become so good at it that I can convince myself that I’m telling the truth. I tend to take pride in my different view of the world. I often find myself contradicting the common conception, and I make valid points when I do. I take very complex steps at getting things I want, and I’ve always been proud of my status as an outcast. I’ve never wanted to be normal, and I feel that if I found out that I was a sociopath, I’d take pride in it. People always like me though, I’m not a danger to them. I’m very good at making myself appear very wise and insightful. I don’t learn from punishment well. When ever my parents punish me, I don’t stop doing what I did. I simply find sneakier ways of doing it. My mother often tells me that it’s what I do when people aren’t around that determines who I am, but I disagree with that. I think society determines the kind of person you are. It’s not what you do that decides your personality, it’s how the rest of the world sees you. Please respond soon, this question has been on my mind for a long time.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['For the longest time, I’ve really started to take pride in things that most people would feel guilty for.'], 'answer_start': [65]}
I feel my husband is in need of mental health help, however he refuses to seek help. He told me he is afraid they will lock him away like his father. His father has bi-polar and seeing this as a child greatly affected him. He has extreme mood changes from happy to rage in a split second over the smallest things. He now admitted that he is seeing people that he knows have died. He will look at someone and they will look just like the dead person he knew, then he looks away and they are normal. He is also dealing with a sex addiction and has just reached out to SA for help last night so he is taking the first steps needed.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From England: If I’m doing something new I get very anxious, because it is new I can’t accept it and deal with it as it comes, I have to make phone calls and send messages to find out everything so what comes is less of a surprise. I have even been known to reject some things in order to reduce the anxiety I was feeling and get back in control. This has led me to not having a job when I was capable of doing the training for it, it’s just that I can’t settle not knowing what things are all about before I start. I worry about how I will cope and how I will do things, plenty of what ifs and how’s, I know it isn’t the way, but I find myself doing these things and then feeling guilty if I’ve not completed them. I don’t regard myself as lazy,but I just want things to be simple so I can cope with them and the more complicated they seem the more pressure I put on myself to get out of the situation as quickly as poss.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I worry about how I will cope and how I will do things, plenty of what ifs and how’s, I know it isn’t the way, but I find myself doing these things and then feeling guilty if I’ve not completed them.'], 'answer_start': [516]}
It started recently when I was finishing up my sophomore year of high school. I began to become increasingly paranoid (I thought people were out to get me, and that people kept staring at me, even if I was alone), that people could hear my thoughts, and I kept feeling like there was some sort of presence near me, and/or following me. Not only that, but I would have the occasional auditory hallucination. I didn’t hear voices, but rather noises people make such as breathing (as if someone were right next to me)r when I was alone (happened twice), a snarl (also as if someone were right next to me), and an exhale (right next to me; alone) , however these are minor compared to the visual hallucinations. These occurred in the corner of my eye. I would see moving shadows, full blown people (I would see them moving, sand they would be extremely detailed, but when I looked back they were never there in the first place.[this occurred 3 times]), and sometimes pictures would look like they were moving or finishing an action. Some of my other visual hallucinations I could see directly such as a face at the top of a door (occurred once), and one time I was sitting in drivers Ed and my teacher was talking about bugs when all of the sudden I see two black dots swarming around her head like flies, but it didn’t last long until they flew behind her head and disappeared. Another time I was sitting in a car and I saw a fly, fly right up to my face, so I swatted at it, but I realized that there wasn’t actually a fly, because I couldn’t find it anywhere, neither did I hear the buzzing of its wings. Another instance is when I thought I saw a bug crawling down my arm, but I didn’t feel it, nor did I see it where it should have ended up. Another time u thought I saw a bug crawling across my wall, but again I didn’t see it where it was suppose to end up (on the ceiling; it was crawling up). Not only that but when I walked down the hallways of my school, they would appear to be crooked, and moving, causing me to walk funny. Then there is other stuff like my loss of motivation, emotion (not flat effect), I would miss letters when I wrote, I began talking to my inner voice as if it were real (it talked to me first), I now have a bad attention span, and it’s now fairly hard to get my point across because I’ll get tongue tied, plus my personal hygiene is not the best, and my memory (especially short term) seems to be increasingly getting worse. That last part could be due to my dysthymia, but it still doesn’t explain the rest of the things I’ve been experiencing. I never have and never will use drugs, and I don’t take any medications. Thank you for your time.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I know I need to go to the doctors but before I do I wanted to get other opinions. I’ll start at the beginning; when I was in year 4 I used to scrap my hands on the floor and hurt myself, pinching, pushing my eyes. Things like that. Self-harm has been something I have done a lot, I have also cut for several years but now it is burning myself. However, I have not had an incident in a few months.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I know I need to go to the doctors but before I do I wanted to get other opinions.'], 'answer_start': [0]}