Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
My mother is always telling me she hates me and I was a mistake and she always calls me names, like bitch and dumb shit. She seems to hate on me more than my other siblings (I’m the oldest). She snoops through my stuff at night, picks out my clothes for school, doesn’t let me do afterschool stuff, and she acts like she’s king of the world. She hits me and once when I was younger, she choked me and she always yells and hits me. Whenever she comes home from work, I have to double-check my room to make sure it’s perfect cuz she gets mad at the tiniest things. I’m always anxious and scared around the time she comes home from work because I know she’s either gonna scream or beat me for something small and totally ridiculous. I’ve tried to stand up for myself but it justs makes her more mad. She’s noticed that I’ve become more quiet but she doesn’t really care that much. I hide in my room and try to do my own stuff, but she just yells at me to come downstairs and not to spend too much time in my room. I mean, why would I WANT to come downstairs? What it there to look forwards to besides her beating and yelling at me? Even my siblings are mean to me and call me names as well. I think the only person who cares about the me the most is my father, but it doesn’t actually seem like love. I can’t really explain it. I feel like I’m a waste of life and that I should just leave so I’d be out of their way. I bet nobody would miss me either. I feel unloved and I want to talk to someone about it but I’m really scared. I used to be a cheerful, excited person at school but now I’ve become quiet and shy. And during my period and getting acne she hasn’t even supported me {mom} she’s just told me I look ugly with pimples and when I got my period she just yelled at me and said okay go get a pad stupid don’t show it to me. I’ve lost my self confidence and I feel lost, depressed and unwanted.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': [' feel like I’m a waste of life and that I should just leave so I’d be out of their way. I bet nobody would miss me either. '], 'answer_start': [1327]}
Hi, Please help. In October 2013, my Granny had passed away due to a long term battle with Cancer. Shortly after this (January 2014) my Girlfriend of 6 years had developed Psychosis and spent the next few months going in and out of hospital. I have stayed with her for the past year and a half dealing with it. throughout the past year, I have had two friends that were getting rather violent and angry towards me and stopped talking to me as a result in April. I had a friend commit Suicide in May. I have other friends whom I talk to and see every now and then, However I feel as if they are avoiding me.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have other friends whom I talk to and see every now and then, However I feel as if they are avoiding me.'], 'answer_start': [500]}
I’ve become very concerned for my friend over the past few months, and even more so as recently I went through her notes on her phone when she let me borrow it to text my parents. First off, I’d noticed that she’d lost quite a bit of weight since winter break, at least 15-20 pounds off an already slender frame. It wasn’t just the weight, she hasn’t eaten lunch at school these past months either, and whenever we eat out somewhere on the weekends she hardly touches her plate even though she only orders a salad. Also, she always quickly types on her phone before eating — this is what compelled me to go on her notes, just to see if there was anything, and there was. She has a folder documenting her height and weights, morning and evening, with exact times, from the past 6 months; 5’4″ she started at 120lbs and is now down to 105lbs She also has weights labeled GW and UGW- 100 and 97, respectively. She has a folder in which she’s typed up rules for herself varying from “consume 200-800 calories daily” and “fast once a week”, to “exercise 30- 90 minutes 6X/week”. Also she has one labeled food journal but I didn’t get to look at it because I didn’t want to arouse suspicion for taking too long. Seeing this has shocked me, and since then I’ve been paying closer attention to her, and there’s something else that I find alarming, although I’m not sure what exactly it means. I glanced at her hands last week and saw that not only are her fingernails chewed, the skin around her cuticles and knuckles is torn up and bloodied in some areas. I’ve realized that she’ll pick at the skin and sometimes even bite it- the nails AND skin. I’ve never seen anything like this. I am fairly certain she has an eating disorder, but what is this other biting thing and why? It looks very painful. I feel like I need to tell someone about these things, like her parents or the nurse, but I don’t want to lose her as a friend, I love her and I don’t want her to hate me for betraying her trust, especially if she realizes I went through her phone. How can I help her without damaging our friendship? (age 18, from US)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Brazil: I read a ton of articles about this subject, but my case doesn’t fit any of those. My girlfriend is 31 years old (I’m 24) and we’ve been together for a little over a year. I love here as deeply as I possibly could and I wanna build my life with her.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
So basically my entire childhood has been deeply traumatic. Since I was 6, I lived with my abusive mother (my parents are divorced). I’ve been chronically depressed for as long as I can remember and I have been spiritually interactive as you could say. From age 7, I could see demons in my waking and sleeping hours (Not to mention I had two childhood friends witch happened to be very terrifying demons that have haunted me for basically my entire life). I have had countless interactions with demons and angels. I have attempted suicide 4 times now. Some of the time I sort of laps into a insane mood when I am alone (about once every week or two) witch is full of uncontrollable shaking, self harm, very sadistic and psychotic thinking patterns, uncontrollable crying, rage and basic psychotic disorder symptoms. I am constantly paranoid and I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, insomnia and compulsive self hate. Keep in mind that I am currently 13. I have received little to no help with my mental problems and have a horrible habit of shoving everything down and hiding what I really feel (therefore my emotions are excessively raw and can overwhelm me at the slightest probing from my mother or basically anyone). I 100% consider myself to be unstable, but I am not sure about insane. Do you think I have Schizophrenia or Psychoses? Thanks for your time!

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am constantly paranoid and I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, insomnia and compulsive self hate. '], 'answer_start': [816]}
From the U.S.: I’ve always been known as the girl who’s selfless, caring, and sweet. So, I meet a girl four years ago. She awakens my sexuality. I think I love said girl and I’m really happy with said girl. Said girl introduces me to many friends and we all form this strong bond. A friendship we all deeply loved, trusted, and admired. I’ll call this said girl B. Now, one night when B isn’t around I’m hanging out with other friends (and this is about 3 years ago) and this girl, I’l call her Q, kisses me and it’s /wonderful/. I loved it. Q ends up coming over to my home and she has sex with me. She tells me, ‘What if we were together?’ and I get so happy. I stop ties with B. But then…Q decides that she wants someone else and I immediatly run back to B. I do this for years to B. I tug her along, tell her false promises, and when she doesnt want to deal with my crap I go to Q

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I started cutting myself like two months ago and I can’t stop. I have been so insecure since forever, I have always hated my self and then my sister stopped eating so she began calling me fat. Every single day, and even my dad talked about my weight :( so one night I was in the kitchen and my dad had his razor blade on the counter, no body was in the kitchen..so I cut my arm. I really liked the feeling of cutting, and it took my mind off things. A couple days later, my mom looked at my arms and she saw weird scars, and she knew I cut myself. So I had to explain everything to her and how I felt about my self. She told my dad and my sister and then it turned in to this whole big thing, but she never sent me to therapy or asked for my blade back. My sister never apologized and she still calls me fat :( some times she will get bad at me and tell me to go cut myself.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD. Supposedly this is from the severe bullying I went through for almost 10 years. I’ve only recently gotten help on this two months ago. While going to therapy stopped the crying and anger that I had I feel increasingly tired, I’m frustrated and downright miserable and I feel like I’m failing in life and in school. I don’t have friends. The ones I do have are from High School. I’m terrified talking to people, but yet I can do a public speech perfectly. I don’t think therapy is helping me and going from what my psychology teacher is rambling about he makes me feel like this problem is simple and I shouldn’t even be so upset.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I don’t think therapy is helping me and going from what my psychology teacher is rambling about he makes me feel like this problem is simple and I shouldn’t even be so upset.'], 'answer_start': [486]}
I moved to my husband’s country where I haven’t been able to work and now I have started to hate him. 1 year and 3 months ago I moved to my husband’s country for his job. The place we live is beautiful and I speak the language fluently however due to visa delays I haven’t been allowed to work since moving here. Before moving here, he had always promised me a work permit would not be a problem at all. 1.5 years is a VERY long time to keep yourself busy doing volunteering, or getting to know the city, or exercising or doing all these things that people in my position are told to do, and believe me, I do all of these intensively. Bottom line however, those activities do not fulfill my inner ambitions in the long run. I had a very good paying job in my home country, and I simply can’t stand being financially dependent on him anymore. I had lots of friends and here I know absolutely no one so we are together 24/7 — we have run out of things to tell each other. I’m very outgoing, so I’m always trying to make new friends, but at my age it’s much more difficult to connect.. On top of it, he is excelling and experiencing huge success in his job, while I have become this wreck, a shadow of myself and have watched my self-esteem literally disappear. I feel I’ve been reduced to being a cook, cleaner and errand-runner and I feel completely dumb and impotent because I do not have self-validating experiences. I have realized how I’m trying to distance myself from him because I am just so angry at this situation he has put me in,I feel he deceived me. My patience has run out and I’ve started to have some very negative thoughts. He has started to ask me to try for a baby but I feel that with a child in a place with no family I will have even less opportunity of finding a job. Recently, I was referred here to my dream job at my dream company and had a successful interview, however then HR informed me they were taking me out the process due to my visa situation. I can’t explain the anger and fury I felt at that moment. What can I do to stop this downward negative spiral?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Greece: I broke up with my fiancé. I am 33 and he is 35. We were together for 6 years and the last 2 we were engaged. I was the one that left the house because the last months he was has pressure from his job and also he was telling me that I was putting pressure on him. He didn’t want to talk with me and when I was trying to make conversations he was telling that I was nagging and he was leaving.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, and its driving me crazy. I was dx with schizophrenia, but even though I feel like I don’t have that, just knowing about it doesn’t help anything at all. I am in an early psychosis program, and they’ve helped me a lot but I still feel like I’m not getting any better with some things. I feel like I can never be normal or live normally….

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My father has turned a new leaf the past few years and has become a very loving and devoted Christian. He recently had a radical nephrectomy because of kidney cancer (renal carcinoma). During the awful symptoms and trials of the actual cancer and numerous trips to the hospital, he was amazingly positive and strong. After the surgery (He is now cancer-free!) he has been making suicidal statements (which he has NEVER done before to the best of my knowledge) and his past uncontrollable anger has resurfaced 10-fold.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’ve been friends with a girl online for almost 10 years. She’s always struggled with depression, and has dropped out of middle school, then high school, then university. She’s 24 now. She just got a really good job, but then she almost immediately started deteriorating. I’m Bipolar II, and I suspect she is also Bipolar. She cycles rapidly between manic states and depression. She has repeatedly told me she is constantly thinking about suicide.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Hong Kong: I’m a 14 year old guy and I don’t know if it is rare or not, but I seem to have an interest on the inside of people’s mouths. When I look at people’s mouths, I tend to have an erection, and I feel kinda excited about it. Sometimes I like to search for mouth pictures online, or search for mouth videos on YouTube, just to give myself the desire of looking at people’s mouths. Sometimes I would just weirdly (?) ask my classmates to open their mouths, and they would usually do it, and I would get really excited and I would erect. Is this a normal “fetish”? Or am I just a really weird person?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hi there. I am a genderqueer person in graduate school for mental health to become an LCPC. I am worried that having a gender identity that is incoherent to most others will lessen my ability to build a therapeutic alliance with a wide range of clients. I am worried I will not be effective outside of a very narrow community. I have thought about trying to live as more clearly female or male, but this idea is uncomfortable to me. I feel the answer I keep getting is that I have to be myself to create an authentic relationship, but I think that answer ignores the reality that expressing a genderqueer sense of self often confuses most people and impedes building relationships very often. Yikes. What do you think???

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Awhile back my husband asked me to take videos of my sister naked after she took a shower. I told him no, but he kept bugging me until I finally gave in. He told me he would not ask anymore, but he still does. It has gotten to the point to where I can’t be around her without him asking for “pic pics”. It makes me hate her and despise him. He asks me why I cant just accept that it is what turns him on but it hurts because I should be enough. Ive always been second best to my sister. She was a goody goody and I was rebellious. So she always got what she wanted, whereas I ended up on the streets bc I got tired of living in a place where I felt alone. She has always has tons of friends. My husband is all I have and now it seems as if she has won him over as well. She is 18 and thin and blonde so I get the attraction but it still kills me to see him act this way. It’s my fault for giving him the photos in the first place. We have only been married for 11 months and have our first child on the way. I don’t want to give up hope that he will change yet but he won’t let it go even though it is ruining our marriage. He watches me cry and it’s as if he doesn’t care. We are both very young. He is 24 and I am 22. This is why I am hoping he will grow out of this. But it has become an obsession and it hurts more than anything I have ever felt. I just wish I could get him to see what it is doing to us. What should I do?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Sometimes, especially when something traumatic has or is about to happen, I have these sort of black outs. It hurts like I am being pushed aside. I call them black outs, but I remember a small bit of what happened, how I couldn’t really control what I did. They like causing me pain, and laugh at me when I try to fight it. I don’t remember quite what happens, only how much it hurts and how funny they think it is for me to do so. The last time this happened I was texting my fiancé, and I started having an episode. When they took over, They told him that I should get a new nickname, Patches. Then continued to say that they would leave a scar to remind him. I woke back up holding the phone to my ear and my fiancé telling me to wake up. There is a small patch carved into my leg along with a few eraser burns. And all I can think about now, is the name, and how much they enjoyed the pain, and how, in a sick twisted way I do too. I have become reclusive, and I am afraid of my own shadow. The only person I can really talk to now is my fiancé. I am afraid that one day I am going to hurt someone, but I don’t want to get put away cause I am normal on the outside, suggestions?

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['They like causing me pain, and laugh at me when I try to fight it. I don’t remember quite what happens, only how much it hurts and how funny they think it is for me to do so. '], 'answer_start': [257]}
From the U.S.: I am a 22 year old recent graduate and my fiance is 30 years old and a hard worker as a business analyst. We started dating when I was 18 (he was 26). We dated through my years at school, he broke up with me shortly twice in our earlier time together (my family was not very accepting of me dating and he saw that). Later when I moved to Dallas for the last two years of nursing school, we decided to move in together.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have held on to feelings for my best friend in elementary school for years now. She was the only one to comfort me when I was feeling down, which was often. It evolved into a crush. But she had to move to Georgia in the fourth grade. I never truly got over it. I believed that I loved her but never got to tell her. She had called me before once, but I never got the number and still never got to tell her how I felt. She was the only one I loved ever since and never had a girlfriend relationship. I believed that it would be unfair for the other person if I can’t love them how they may love me because I’m still hoping that she will come back into my life. I am 20 years old and I know I should move on, but I don’t know how. Every time I thought I have moved on I remember her and it almost moves me to tears.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Israel: Recently I noticed how many of the things I do are done to get appreciation from people around me. I daydream about putting a good status on Whatsapp so that some specific girls will see it and think “He is funny” (I avoid acting on this). I dream of saying smart or funny or sharp things just on the right time. I keep helping people on a big Facebook group of help, and wait for the people to thank me, or just know that others that see it know how smart I am and how funny and helpful. When I talk to people and they laugh, this is what makes me happy. It’s like all the things I do are done to be appreciated. It’s an addiction. Some of my life decisions were based on the will to be seen by people in a good way. My happiness depends on the approval of others!!! Even writing this question is for you to think how smart I am, and think of my poor situation. Can you give me self help ideas and book names to get out of this, and start discovering and doing what I WANT to do? Thank you very much.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['When I talk to people and they laugh, this is what makes me happy. '], 'answer_start': [502]}
I am dating a guy that I really care about, he is generally really good to me and helps me better my life in terms of school and work. The idea of him talking to other girls bothers me, a lot. I’ve behaved very “crazy” like with him. I feel impulsive, out of control. I imagine all of these threats, and even if they are real, my behavior is out of control. I’m not asking this question so I could make my relationship better, I am asking because I am really concerned, and my behavior is affecting those around me. But I am not usually like this, I have not been like this with other guys. I am generally calm, I generally don’t experience anxiety mentally. I dislike emotional people, but now I am being extremely emotional and irrational.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['The idea of him talking to other girls bothers me, a lot. I’ve behaved very “crazy” like with him. I feel impulsive, out of control. I imagine all of these threats, and even if they are real, my behavior is out of control. I’m not asking this question so I could make my relationship better, I am asking because I am really concerned, and my behavior is affecting those around me.'], 'answer_start': [135]}
From Lebanon: Growing up I thought what my dad used to do was completely normal and I had accepted the bad behavior. But by the time I grew up I realized that having someone mentally abuse us with harsh words and sometimes physical aggressiveness, it was too late. Recently he loses his mind, he spies on us all leaving devices hidden in our cars. He and my mother have been seeing other people openly, they can’t get a divorce because he’s gonna make my mom’s life hell if she leaves (has happened). He wouldn’t stop calling and showing up everywhere and threatening to hurt her. And if she stays it’s all the same, it’s horrible. He’s even dating her only best friend to make matters worse. And he keeps pointing fingers and saying that mom ruined his life while all along he was the one who was always losing his temper and threatening us and making our lives hell. He’s pretty much normally a very caring generous person, but he’s lost that bit because there’s like a little devil in his head sparking up a thing to get overly mad about … this is not even scratching the surface of what I have to say but I’ve tried taking him to therapy. He just won’t go and we can’t afford a good therapist. I need help because I’m on the verge of breaking down. 24 years of my life have gone by with horrific waves of madness. I just need to help him. I don’t know where to begin.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}