Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
Recently I have been developing a friendship with my ex husband. It was a rocky marriage. Divorced 15 years ago. He has received counseling for being a peeping tom 17 years ago. Yes he peeped at my daughters. In case you need to know, he never touched them, he watched from afar. They are now in their 30’s. They hate him. He has mellowed and is regretful. He has said he is sorry to them twice and would get on his knees if he thought it would help. Two months ago we started ‘hanging out’, going places. I did not tell them because I was just seeing him and not asking them to engage in any form of relationship because I knew they would not want to. About two months ago they figured out that we had gone out of town for the night. They sent me terrible texts and threatened not to speak to me again if I didn’t not stop seeing him. I have continued to do things with him because we are so happy together. He seems to have truly changed. I understand that time will only tell. We are not getting married or even including them in the time we spend together. Neither of us remarried after we split up many years ago. We have both been very lonely, not the type to jump into relationships. So now I am torn up inside. I will be miserable if I cannot keep my friendship with him but my stomach stays in knots because I have now been excluded from my family. I am miserable without my family but would be without him as well.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I did not tell them because I was just seeing him and not asking them to engage in any form of relationship because I knew they would not want to.'], 'answer_start': [506]}
hello, thanks for taking the time to read this. I came here because I’ve lived the last 4 years of my life in the same way. i am either always depressed, irritable or completely “done” with the world and feel as if no one could do anything to change my view or the world itself. this attitude on life began when i was 13 and i thought maybe it was just puberty. however, it did not stop as i aged. i am never happy where ever i am. (my occupation makes me move around every year or so when locations become expensive). ive lost all desire to get married or start a family. i have no motivation or ambitions. im in a constant state of boredom, hopelessness and anger. and i dont know why. i wasnt abused as a kid, im not starving. everything in my life is great except me. i dont know why i cant take that to heart and be happy. please help because its no fun to wake up depressed and go to sleep angry. thanks.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['i am either always depressed, irritable or completely “done” with the world and feel as if no one could do anything to change my view or the world itself.'], 'answer_start': [124]}
From a teen in the U.S.: I went to a party last night that I didn’t know anybody but my brother. I felt like such a loser cuz everyone was communicating and didn’t even notice I was there. Even when I was standing in a group of people this one guy was introducing his self and didn’t even acknowledge me, like I didn’t even exist.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I felt like such a loser cuz everyone was communicating and didn’t even notice I was there.'], 'answer_start': [97]}
I’ve had paranoid OCD for 17 years- but those issues were always based in the real word- that people were lying to me or out to get me. In recent months, I’ve started to believe that I can sense a shadow dimension, where beings that feed on fear have been causing my anxiety issues. I know it’s absurd, but I can’t shake this belief. My understanding was that delusional people don’t know they are delusional, but I am aware that all of this makes no sense, and I want it to stop. I never thought I would say this, but I miss my regular old paranoia!

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I know it’s absurd, but I can’t shake this belief.'], 'answer_start': [283]}
I honestly don’t know what my problem is. Some days I wake up and instantly hate everything and everyone around me. I go out of my way to block very solution people present me to whatever problem I focus on, and any form of happiness or consolation downright enrages me. If I see someone who is happy, I’ll want to make them unhappy. If I sense any positivity, I want to turn it into negativity. I seldom act on these feelings of anger, I just let them sit until eventually they go away. Though it should be noted that every now and again I lash out at my loved ones in the form of intense arguments and verbal fights.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Sarajevo: I believe i might have some problems, but before seeing a doctor i feel its easier to get some advice here. So, this has been going for a longer time, i can’t really say it is since childhood. It’s really bothering me right now because school is getting a lot harder and I feel like i can’t keep up.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['It’s really bothering me right now because school is getting a lot harder and I feel like i can’t keep up.'], 'answer_start': [208]}
A lot of things have changed for me in the past two years. My entire way of thinking has changed. For an instance, if I see a spider web, I will make note of the presence of eight, which is evil, and how orb webs are circular and circles are best divided into eight sections, and how two fours are needed to overthrow eight, etc. Personally I think there is nothing wrong with this, but others say otherwise. Is it wrong? I sometimes get visual hallucinations, and more often I hear voices or get thought insertions. This is nothing compared to the awful feelings in my head. These feelings make me think there is a robot taking me over and controlling me inside my brain. I am not sure if these feelings are mental or physical. It feels sometimes like hands are pressing my head, like something is moving inside my head, I feel it eating me. This distresses me so much I cannot be in school when it gets bad. I think my head will explode like a bomb. Not all of me agrees with this, but I am confused. Lately I have lost interest in much. I do not enjoy learning like I used to, nor reading or even drawing. I am always zoning out and I am never aware. I try to be normal but I can’t. Sometimes I cannot understand what people are saying though I hear them. I never had these problems before. My mom says I am showing signs of schizophrenia. This worries me a lot. I can’t stop worrying. Is this common for teens? Should I worry? Thank you for your help in advance.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My entire way of thinking has changed.  '], 'answer_start': [59]}
From the U.S.: Hi, I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for nearly half my life, I have been on medications and went to see different doctors, but nothing yet has worked. Now, my anxiety is getting worse. I am starting to display what I would call “social anxiety” symptoms. I don’t leave the house unless I have to for work, I avoid going to parties, I avoid meeting friends for lunch or dinner, I even show up late for family Christmas parties.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Now, my anxiety is getting worse. I am starting to display what I would call “social anxiety” symptoms. I don’t leave the house unless I have to for work, I avoid going to parties, I avoid meeting friends for lunch or dinner, I even show up late for family Christmas parties.'], 'answer_start': [182]}
Lately I’ve been having mood swings where I’ll get really hyped and confident and encouraging and then I’ll get angry and whenever my boyfriend says to calm down it’s like a switch and it’s as if I never felt anything to begin with. At any other point I’m either at a low point or feeling normal/stressed.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['Lately I’ve been having mood swings where I’ll get really hyped and confident and encouraging and then I’ll get angry and whenever my boyfriend says to calm down it’s like a switch and it’s as if I never felt anything to begin with'], 'answer_start': [0]}
Hi, My boyfriend – who took lots of drugs and cannabis – had a psychotic crisis in March this year. He thought he was a psychopath (not a criminal one) and said lots of strange stuff. First I was OK with it then became very anxious of all that happened, i couldn’t sleep and became very tired. I didn’t have much news neither as he went back to his home country. I didn’t know how things were and became more and more anxious. Made myself movies. Read a lot about psychopaths and psychotic people on the internet and with the tiredness, not having much news I began to think I was a psychopath myself, that I am a very bad person and began to have flashes of me doing bad things to people and i got very scared so i didn’t sleep well again for weeks. Being very anxious. Sometime I am good but sometimes suddenly it comes back and I have panic attacks or very anxious time. I am very scared and it is not possible to live like that. I am scared to ask him if he still thinks he is a psychopath. I know it has never been linked with criminal stuff but I turned it into another way. I don’t know by his family if he still thinks he is. I guess he was just saying shit as he was not doing well.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Read a lot about psychopaths and psychotic people on the internet and with the tiredness, not having much news I began to think I was a psychopath myself, that I am a very bad person and began to have flashes of me doing bad things to people and i got very scared so i didn’t sleep well again for weeks.'], 'answer_start': [448]}
From a teen in the UK: 5 months ago I was attacked in town one night and a group of people (around my age) beat me up and tried to hurt my friends. Since then there hasn’t been a single day where I haven’t thought about that night and often worry about it happening again, it causes me to get very upset if people start shouting at me or anything like that because I get scared that they’ll hit me, even if it’s someone close to me and I know really that they won’t hurt me. It’s also caused me to be very paranoid when I go out and the other day when there was a man behind me on the canal I started crying and may have had a panic attack and had to call my friend to calm me down. I know it’s probably nothing as serious as PTSD but it’s really starting to interfere with my life and I don’t know what to do anymore.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Since then there hasn’t been a single day where I haven’t thought about that night and often worry about it happening again, it causes me to get very upset if people start shouting at me or anything like that because I get scared that they’ll hit me, even if it’s someone close to me and I know really that they won’t hurt me.'], 'answer_start': [148]}
From England: I am the youngest out of 2 sisters and 3 brothers. I have always supported my family members and been there for them whether when my sister went through depression when she lost her job or when my brother became a drug addict. I help each and one of them on their weddings and spent at least £2000 in each wedding. I am now getting married [redacted] of August and I just realized that my dad is not coming, my sister is not coming, my brother is not coming and my second brother said he is coming and does not want to help in the wedding at all. My best man who I have known for 15 years has just told me he can’t come to my wedding because of his job even though I have been telling him to book his holiday from one year and he has been slacking off and maybe doesn’t want to come in person. All I have coming is my mum and sister. I don’t have a lot of friends. I cannot believe this is happening to me. I don’t know why is this happening. After each wedding, I get exhausted because I keep doing chores for 2 weeks for each of my family members and now when my turn comes, they keep giving me these stupid excuses. I am not a horrible person.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
This is a long story so I apologize, but I really need some answers. My brother has been excited to go to Lollapalooza all year. He was finally going to go this past Tuesday. Well we got a call from him after only a day of him being there saying he wanted to come home. He was ballistically crying on the phone and saying he “felt the power of the antichrist.” I decided to drive to Chicago with my parents to get him. When we arrived, he was sitting on a bench without his bags. My dad asked him why he didn’t have his stuff and he said he gave it all away to his friends (it was all his clothing and his wallet.) He also said he threw his phone in the river because it was giving him fear. He then launched into a story about how secret servicemen were hunting him down because of his belief in God. The rest of the night, he continued talking about how God was giving him all these “tests” and how he felt like he was in a scavenger hunt. The next day his behavior got worse. He got up very early and started singing loudly (very unusual for him) then started walking around the city with no shirt, no shoes, and a guitar.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’ve self harmed on and off for almost three years. Most of the time it’s out of sheer apathy, other times it’s out of complete anger towards myself or the others around me. Sometimes when I’m angry I imagine myself doing horrible graphic things to myself and it’s oddly calming when I do.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I have been married to my husband for 3 years. His family is out of the country and visit us for 3 to 4 weeks every year. He has a younger sister who is very attention seeking and comes and lives with us for a month every year. She never tries to get friendly with me and is very clingy to her brother – my husband.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['He has a younger sister who is very attention seeking and comes and lives with us for a month every year.'], 'answer_start': [137]}
My mom has bipolar disorder and depression, she will spend a couple months never leaving her room and watching tv. Then will be super happy for a week, making family dinners and trying to bond with me. Oftentimes her mood swings are timed with her work, she free-lances so when she’s working her moods regulate, but she hasn’t had work for a few months so its been a downward spiral.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My mom has bipolar disorder and depression, she will spend a couple months never leaving her room and watching tv.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From India: one month back I lost my best friend, He committed suicide. I feel as if he betrayed and left me alone, his parents alone. As a result of which for anything bad that happens in my life I blame him. Also currently my boyfriend is facing some very serious family issue and obviously he is sad about it so there is limited contact with him.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['As a result of which for anything bad that happens in my life I blame him.'], 'answer_start': [136]}
From the U.S.: My wife has an 11 year old half-brother (D.), and I have a question regarding something D. did this past Thanksgiving. D. was over at his father’s house that day for the holiday. D.’s father has an adult daughter who has a four year old boy. While at his father’s house that day, D. and the 4 year old boy were playing in one of the upstairs bedrooms. Apparently, at some point, the 4 year old boy was running around naked. D. (who again, is 11 years old) decides that since this 4 year old boy got naked, he would get naked also. Eventually, the young boy’s mother found D. and the 4 year old naked in the room together.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hello, I’m 15 and female.. for a while now, I’ve been having strong thoughts about going to school and killing as many kids as I can. with a shotgun or something. I don’t have many friends and I don’t talk to people as much as I used to. I am very interested in weaponry and I’ve had lots of practice. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I know I need help.. but I’m nervous to talk to someone.When I feel like hurting someone, I can feel this energy running through me that makes me want to do it even more. I feel like I am about to do it when that feeling hits me but I try to stop myself by digging my nails in my palm. I fantasize about killing fellow students frequently.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I come from a family history of multigenerational parental sexual and emotional abuse as well as NPD and severe depression/anxiety issues. Keeping a healthy relationship with my both my parents takes a lot of emotional energy and requires me to sometimes be the parental figure in the situation, especially with my mother. It has required years of therapy and spiritual investment to maintain a forgiving outlook.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I was accused of murdering my cousin when she came to live with me and my mother, and stepfather. I was unwell and under care of a psychiatrist at the time which solely led to police unwilling to move their focus to anyone else. It was public, and things came out that I felt were unfair, both true and false. I’ve been obsessed with having my side of the story known. My life since then has been aimless and but for that goal. I now realize I lost 15 years trying and hoping for something that I had no evidence would make any difference anyway. That too, something of an epiphany further adding to my current state. That is one where I now feel no purpose or have any desire to do anything with life and feel it not too far away where it becomes unmanageable and I will commit suicide, albeit not wanting it. Can it be as simple as writing to a newspaper and saying “up yours if you think I am the killer, and all these other things you have read about me”? To the police who botched the whole investigation from day one, never to even give us a crime scene, ” I think you need to provide answers to my family, and show why I should still be a suspect when there is no evidence, not just against me, but not against anyone or anything. Nothing. There is zero but for my having mental health treatment from a doctor which I sought. I went for help. And ended up before the courts and newspapers because of it. I’ve never been able to get past not speaking out in my defense, and I guess also that no family did for me either. It was horrible and now its all for nothing over a decade later. How can I get a sense of drive, purpose in life. I care not for work or career of any kind now. I don’t fear consequences for myself.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['That is one where I now feel no purpose or have any desire to do anything with life and feel it not too far away where it becomes unmanageable and I will commit suicide, albeit not wanting it.'], 'answer_start': [618]}
Although I know it’s wrong to self-diagnose, I self-diagnosed myself with dysthymia just in February because I started thinking about killing myself, although I never actualized my thoughts (because I know it’s wrong), when before, starting when I was around 8, I just thought of about how life for me and for everyone else around me might be better off without me being born – because I noticed the favoritism of my parents toward me over my sister.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Although I know it’s wrong to self-diagnose, I self-diagnosed myself with dysthymia just in February because I started thinking about killing myself, although I never actualized my thoughts (because I know it’s wrong), when before, starting when I was around 8, I just thought of about how life for me and for everyone else around me might be better off without me being born – because I noticed the favoritism of my parents toward me over my sister.'], 'answer_start': [1]}
The only time I feel any happiness is when I’m on LSD, and the next three days after a ‘trip’. It’s the only time I feel as I have any feelings…in general. I’ve been this pretty much ever since I can remember, way before I even began taking LSD. Doing LSD is pretty much the only good choice I’ve ever made. I believe I started a few months after I turned 14.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Doing LSD is pretty much the only good choice I’ve ever made.'], 'answer_start': [246]}
My older brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia 10 years ago. Before his psychotic break, we were close. After he got sick, I moved away for college and never moved back to my home state. For almost a decade, he’d only communicate with me in person. He was afraid to use email or the telephone because he thought people were spying on him. We I did talk to him, depending on what meds he was taking, he might be talkative or might not speak at all. He’s not really in treatment. He sees a psychiatrist every 2 or 3 months and takes a long term injection. That’s all. Other than that he never leaves the house. Technically he’s been medicated for 10 years, never off antipsychotics, but his delusions are always a problem. He still believes that certain people have betrayed him and tried to ruin his life. So I can’t say he was ever recovered or stable. His psychiatrist is aware of his ongoing delusions. In the beginning I encouraged my parents to get him to see a psychologist or other therapist and work out a treatment plan. They said, “He doesn’t want to do that.” So it never happened. Now I’m not close with my brother. He’s missed much of what happened in my life over 10 years, including my wedding because he didn’t want to go out of the house. My parents are trying to get us talking more. They use group text or Facetime. At first it was strained, and a year later I feel like I just don’t like the guy anymore. I don’t like the way my brother acts now. He’s rude, pushy, arrogant. He’s always criticizing and belittling me. He tries to manipulate me into buying things for him online. He starts fights about politics that seem endless and he won’t ever let them go (and we all have the same politics, we’re all registered democrats, so I don’t even know how we manage to fight). He never asks me about my life, job, husband, hobbies, house, town, etc. When I talk to him about my life he changes the subject. He only likes to talk about his interests (movies, politics, music). If I talk to a friend I haven’t seen in 10 years, we catch up. My brother’s not interested in that. It feels really one-sided. There’s no give and take the relationship. I currently have health problems and my physician asked me to avoid stress. I just feel like it’s impossible to do that with his toxic tantrums once a week. But I don’t know how to tell my parents to just leave it alone, let us grow apart, we have nothing in common and just shouldn’t be talking. If he was in REAL treatment maybe things would be different but he doesn’t want things to change. If a friend was this judgmental, rude, abusive, manipulative, I wouldn’t associate with them anymore. I think I shouldn’t have to be subjected to that.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['But I don’t know how to tell my parents to just leave it alone, let us grow apart, we have nothing in common and just shouldn’t be talking. If he was in REAL treatment maybe things would be different but he doesn’t want things to change.'], 'answer_start': [2321]}