Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I really want to run away from home (I’m 18 yo) because of my toxic family. I really feel like I’m on the edge from just going insane because I feel helpless/hopeless. I’m someone who is forced to be isolated and I have low self-esteem/poor confidence from what I believe is emotional abuse from my childhood. The people I live with are belittling and make me feel bad about myself. They’re the reason I have low self-esteem issues and I feel worthless/incapable. I want to defend myself but I don’t know how to cause I’m scared to and I’m honestly not used to defending myself. It’s even come to the place where I might have to physically defend myself. Can you please advise me on what I should do to build my confidence and courage so I can stand up for myself? What should I do about wanting to run away from home even though I have nowhere to go, but sometimes home really makes me want to snap? (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I really feel like I’m on the edge from just going insane because I feel helpless/hopeless.'], 'answer_start': [76]}
I have a lot of anxiety and ocd. But I also get thoughts in my head such as you don’t do this, something bad will happen. Or stop doing this or something bad will happen. These things never relate really. For example my recent issue with it is if you don’t stop daydreaming violence or negative situations than your relationship will end.I know it sounds crazy and a lot of it is superstition but it does affect me. My daydreams I enjoy and are usually just me in my own little story or a story of some kind of character I’ve seen, like from an anime. Is this fear something I should listen to? Or is my daydreaming fine to do?

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['But I also get thoughts in my head such as you don’t do this, something bad will happen. Or stop doing this or something bad will happen.'], 'answer_start': [33]}
From a teen in the U.S.:  I am 15 years old and suffer from depression, anxiety, insomnia, ect. My mom is well aware of these things and even knows that I have self harmed however, I am too afraid to tell her that I still do because, she believes that I stopped. The reasons I don’t want to tell her I am struggling is because I’m afraid she will try to bring everything back to her.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['The reasons I don’t want to tell her I am struggling is because I’m afraid she will try to bring everything back to her.'], 'answer_start': [263]}
Hi. I would like some advice as to why I’m always mad at my boyfriend. I pick fights over the smallest things and i don’t want to be like this. I want to change into a better person. He is so good to me, i know he doesn’t deserve the way I treat him but I dont know how to control myself. I get mad over every little thing he does like coming home late from work or when he says things that i shouldn’t be getting mad over. OK so basically I get mad at things I shouldnt be getting mad over, I get mad at things I should be able to just brush off and keep going on about my day but I don’t and I can’t and it gets me very very frustrated because I know he’s getting tired of it and I know I could lose him over it but I can’t stop – Ive tried so many times to control myself and let things go and i am able to but it only lasts hours or maybe 1 day and I go back to how I was and I cant stop even though i know he could leave. I want to change and let all of the anger go, I know it’s not healthy which is why I want to change, I just don’t know how to…

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I get mad over every little thing he does like coming home late from work or when he says things that i shouldn’t be getting mad over. '], 'answer_start': [289]}
From a teen in India: I’m an 17 yr old Indian with ADHD and i want to pursue medicine and PG in forensic medicine.I cannot concentrate even for two minutes and i’m afraid that it’ll affect my career. I got my 12th results yesterday and found it disappointing as i expected better grades.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I cannot concentrate even for two minutes and i’m afraid that it’ll affect my career.  '], 'answer_start': [114]}
From a teen in the U.S.: My dad sometimes goes to trips outside the state so it’s just me and my mom. I’ve always noticed that if she can’t see something, she doesn’t believe in it. So when I tell her a problem that she can’t see, she ignores it. Like my severe back problem, my continuous cold, my headaches, sudden pain in the body, etc. I do everything for her. Everything she asks for I do it. I care for her when she’s ill. I wish that she showed me such love.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’ve always noticed that if she can’t see something, she doesn’t believe in it.'], 'answer_start': [102]}
From a young woman in Bangladesh: I have been in a very physically and mentally abusive marriage for 4 years now. I tried my best to make my marriage work and meet up to my husband’s and his family’s expectations but I am always being told that I am good for nothing and I should probably kill myself. I have been accused of infidelity multiple times even when I had never done anything like that. But recently, I just couldn’t tolerate all that anymore.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I tried my best to make my marriage work and meet up to my husband’s and his family’s expectations but I am always being told that I am good for nothing and I should probably kill myself.'], 'answer_start': [114]}
My best friend is turning 21 and she’s got a pretty scarred childhood what with being raped by her adopted, iron fist, controlling, Christian father and her father’s priest friend as a child, then again later by someone else. Her family by the way has legally disowned her because she’s not Christian. Like wtf!? Overkill much? Then not to mention being beaten senseless by a group of guys she knows not long ago, but won’t tell me their names because she knows I’d make them eat out of straws. She loves to have fun and drinks quite a lot, but she’s extremely hard on herself, and struggles with accepting failure. She’s also a bit of a bad luck magnet too. And she almost seems to like having her boyfriend never say a single nice thing to her or ever complement her. So she effects this seemingly tough/strong persona on a daily basis. But she, at an increasingly number amount of times, likes to harm herself with thumbtacks. Legs, arms, face, she doesn’t care. And she tells me, “It’s fine I do it all the time, don’t worry about it, I’m fine”. And it’s because she wants to, “feel something”. When drunk, she often cries and then constantly pleads “don’t hit me”, even to me! As well as just today I found out she’s into BDSM and has a couple of whips, a gag ball, and I think some leather cuffs or something? Also, she continuously claims that no one cares about her and that her funeral would be empty. And so my main concern is that she has now been thinking about suicide because she feels as though she is unstable, or “fucked” as she put it. She may be right. And I feel as though she simply can’t grasp the fact that, I at least care about her. But aside from that, I’m really just wanting to know what to do, because I am honestly the only person in her life that truly loves and cares about her. And also because she refuses to see or talk to anyone about how she’s been feeling except for me. So pretty much how do I keep my best and only friend, alive and happy? Anything would be much appreciated. Thank you.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['And I feel as though she simply can’t grasp the fact that, I at least care about her.'], 'answer_start': [1572]}
For about two years now, my brother had been dating this girl, and she has broken up with him six times. He keeps going back to her he just about got in a wreck a month ago over it. He has been fighting with my dad about every little thing. Then talks to her after every fight.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['He has been fighting with my dad about every little thing.'], 'answer_start': [182]}
I’ve recently received a microphone in the mail that I had boughten about a week ago. Trying it out, I feel so scared and distracted. I feel as if the more I express myself, the more frightened I am to express myself, and I think it’s all because of what I did when I was in middle school. Back in middle school, I used to be a huge cyberbully, and I used a microphone to express such meanness. Now I regret such actions, and that makes me too scared to say anything again.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel as if the more I express myself, the more frightened I am to express myself, and I think it’s all because of what I did when I was in middle school.'], 'answer_start': [134]}
From France: I work as a teaching assistant at the university. I have a mentor who I assist and who also should be my dissertation mentor. Because nothing I did was ever good enough we decided together that I should seek for a new mentor. I had immediate success and my thesis was confirmed very quickly, even praised by an eminent scholar.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Because nothing I did was ever good enough we decided together that I should seek for a new mentor.'], 'answer_start': [139]}
When i get mad i over react. i dont realize it but everyone else does. i break stuff , i say very threatening things and i want to harm whoever angered me. i cry a lot when im mad and i tend to rage almost instanly. it could be very small but within 3 minutes im raging and throwing glass and swearing. i cant help it im afraid i have anger issues, mainly family really gets me this way. and because of how i live i have to TRY to bottle it up (doesnt help at all) bc when i really get pissed everything bottled comes out. my family always tries to tell me WHY i shouldnt feel a certain way and it makes it worse.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['my family always tries to tell me WHY i shouldnt feel a certain way and it makes it worse.'], 'answer_start': [523]}
So I met my best friends in the world when I started college. I finally found a group of people I clicked with and it was all great last year. This year however, every single one of them has switched on me. They ignore me when they see me and walk right past me which is immature and hurtful. The worst part of it is my best friend also hates me now. I met her to reconcile but it led nowhere, and she didn’t really tell me what I did to cause this change.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I met her to reconcile but it led nowhere, and she didn’t really tell me what I did to cause this change.'], 'answer_start': [351]}
Hello, thank you for reading this, People say overthinking is to think about a given issue way too much for me let’s say I had some trouble a week ago and now I have made a decision and that problem Is all solved and I know it however when I am free or happy I force myself to think about it and everything I just can’t stop it and I do that until I stop feeling happy. I do believe I have OCD however could this be a symptom of it? Also when I am very frustrated I cut it doesn’t give me happiness and isn’t an addiction it’s very rare but when I do cut I feel calm again and my mind goes to rest usually people cut to feel something and after that they feel happy which is not my case so is my cutting still an issue? I hope to hear back from you. Thank You so much for your time and efforts I appreciate it.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['Hello, thank you for reading this, People say overthinking is to think about a given issue way too much for me let’s say I had some trouble a week ago and now I have made a decision and that problem Is all solved and I know it however when I am free or happy I force myself to think about it and everything I just can’t stop it and I do that until I stop feeling happy.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From a grandmother in Canada: My grandchildren ages 7 and 8 have been telling me for almost 2 years that they are afraid of mommy, my Grandson age 7 started soiling his pants, so I took him to the doctors and he said he’s afraid of mommy and she smacks them quite a bit in the head, I got the CPS involved and they sent the children to counselling. The counsellor seen the children one time and informed the children’s father the children are lying and are making stories up to get mommy and daddy back together.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': [' People say overthinking is to think about a given issue way too much for me let’s say I had some trouble a week ago and now I have made a decision and that problem Is all s'], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Recently, a few months ago, found out my dad was a cheat. It was shocking cause he’s such a religious man I never thought it could happen. But our family dynamics were already weird he moved when I was 3 so never really had a relationship anyway. It really hit my mum I guess as her parents had both died within the last year and she took it hard and i feel like she got quite sad. It was already tense that he didn’t want to go to the funeral, due to different religions. Then she found out about a month after her dad died that he was cheating. I was the one that discovered it by text anyway and I told her. Everything’s been a mess now and she’s changed so much. We used to be relatively close and in the first few months she was just always angry at me or crying because of him and since my brothers went to university it’s just been me and her. It feels like she’s so codependent on me and I can’t turn her away cause she’s my mum and that’s not me but it’s hard because I can barely deal with my own problems (depression). Now although it’s been a few months it just feels horrible all she’ll talk about is that other woman, whom she just follows around on social media and my dad. Everyone’s told her to just leave him but she won’t say that people told her it’ll affect us, but it really won’t it’d just be better really. She doesn’t think about what I want anymore just what she thinks or people tell her. She’s always on the phone to other people, got a massive extended family and it’s too the point where I’m just ignored and neglected, despite me making time for her. I feel like she doesn’t even love me anymore. Sometimes she’s say sorry so she knows she ignores me. It’s hard it’s my gcse year and this mess has just made my already bad mental health worse. I feel bad because life’s been hard for her since she’s essentially got with him, she got ill after pregnancy and poor financial decisions have moved her from the middle class to poor. I don’t want her, she’s 50, to be alone and sad. How will I ever have my own life leaving her alone? (From the UK)

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like she doesn’t even love me anymore.'], 'answer_start': [1582]}
I know the site has many articles on this but I feel like it may be different somehow. I have had homicidal thoughts from a young age, I am 14 now, but just about two months ago they started to become very common and sometimes intrusive, or at least more than before. I was hospitalized for suicide attempts and excessive self-harm in March so some people think this may be the cause of it. These thoughts are not disturbing to me, rather I enjoy them. I think of things like abusing people, what it would be like to drive something through someone’s skin, watching people bleed or beg. I have also been just grabbing different things when I am alone that seem sharp and just driving them into whatever material is near me. It gives me an adrenaline rush similar to what I would experience whilst self-harming. I believe it could be due to withdrawal from self-harm so these thoughts are sort of like a substitute, but I might just be lying to myself. I have always experienced this but I thought it was something everyone had until recently so this makes me think that it might be less than what I am making it out to be for some reason. I feel as if I am lying to myself and I am only telling myself that I am homicidal just because. I do not trust others and I do not trust myself so a lot of the time I feel as if I am not mentally ill and only making it up. My therapist tells me this is not the case but I continue thinking I am only making things up. So I am conflicted as to whether these thoughts are real or not and I am just acting like it. When I was younger I used to only think about killing specific people, but it can be anyone now. Anyone that causes me the slightest bit of anger, my closest friends, my family (especially my mom, I have wanted her to die or for me to kill her since elementary), animals, teachers, or even strangers. My doctors and I believe that the situation is not urgent but it has been bothering me lately. I know that a lot of what I said is probably conflicting or something like that but I thought I would ask.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I do not trust others and I do not trust myself so a lot of the time I feel as if I am not mentally ill and only making it up.'], 'answer_start': [1236]}
From a middle schooler in the U.S.: There are some reasons why I think I might be possibly a sociopath. One is, I know I lack a lot of empathy. A lot of people that know me tell me this. An example is, one time I made my friend upset (she was crying a lot) and I didn’t care at all. I knew how she was feeling but I didn’t really care. I didn’t feel any remorse.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['One is, I know I lack a lot of empathy. A lot of people that know me tell me this. An example is, one time I made my friend upset (she was crying a lot) and I didn’t care at all. I knew how she was feeling but I didn’t really care. I didn’t feel any remorse.'], 'answer_start': [104]}
My girlfriend who has my best friend for 2 years and I decided to move into a relationship. She an introvert INFJ. We have both been in love since we both met but never acted on it. On my first visit I discovered she was lying about communication with a male friend who she had a one-night stand with last summer.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I remember my dad raped me in the kitchen and i blacked out because i couldn’t breathe. it was very sudden. i hated him. after he did that then other men would use me. they stopped because i’m just the filth what’s left. wish i’d still be used by someone, because i don’t like being nothing. i killed my pets, gerbils and hamsters, when young, a kid, maybe 7 I tried to get the dog to give me a bj. does this mean that i am evil? even now i find myself being cruel to my cat.would i hurt my girlfriend if i ever had one? am i prey or predator? i guess i’m a psychpath and that’s why they all used me. should i isolate myself or die to save everyone else?

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['they stopped because i’m just the filth what’s left.'], 'answer_start': [168]}
From the U.S.: I have been plagued all my life with a lack of memory for practically my whole past. I have a handful of memories for my entire childhood; none for junior high school; very little for high school and, pretty much as soon as an event in my life is over, I have just a little bit of memory of what I experienced. But the fact of my childhood and early teenage years basically being erased in my memory banks, is the hardest to live with.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have been plagued all my life with a lack of memory for practically my whole past.'], 'answer_start': [16]}
I’m an 17 yr old Indian with ADHD and i want to pursue medicine and PG in forensic medicine.I cannot concentrate even for two minutes and i’m afraid that it’ll affect my career.I got my 12th results yesterday and found it disappointing as i expected better grades.My mom is extremely mad at me.I have an entrance exam two days later.She said to perform well in it (i’m not interested but my parents insisted).I actually have not prepared to a level to acquire a good score and i’m ashamed of it.Also a month later we’ve another one (really i’m interested in this) but my mom says don’t completely rely on a single option.The problem is that if don’t do well in the first one, my family and relatives will be really mad at me and i’m scared thinking about it.Also the one in which I’m interested has a tough competition so chances that i’ll get into it are extremely low.I’m feel guilty for betraying my parent’s faith in me.They are unaware that i’ve ADHD and i’m scared to tell them about it.I can’t concentrate on anything and within a few minutes i either start creating scenes in my mind or distracted easily.I want to stop it but I can’t.This habit has reduced my productivity.This is also a reason that i haven’t prepared for my exam.I don’t know how to handle this and i also don’t want to let down my parent’s hope.Help me please.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['The problem is that if don’t do well in the first one, my family and relatives will be really mad at me and i’m scared thinking about it. '], 'answer_start': [621]}
From an 80 year old woman in the U.S.: Life will be going normal.Something will happen that I don’t like or disagree with, nothing serious. All of a sudden I feel pressure in my head, maybe like it will burst.I never know when it might happen and there is no warning. I guess it is an anxiety attack.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From India: My brother is 40 years old and he has a habit of quitting jobs for almost 20 years now. He has done post graduation in English Literature; had joined as a lecturer initially. He quit his first job saying that he is not comfortable with teens; gave an explanation that the countries citizens are built in primary. So saying he gave a gap of 1 year; then after much force he joined a school to teach primary kids. He managed to work there for couple of years but then resigned from that job saying the principal isn’t a nice person. There on he continued doing the same thing of joining different schools with a gap of six months to a year for every school. He prefers not to be advised. He doesn’t listen to anybody. If anyone tries to advice or criticize him, he stops having contact with that person like forever. From past 20 years he is just giving excuses like, “Now I am recovering, once I am better I will start fresh.” Actually now is my right age to this, I ll start once I am recovered.”

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['He doesn’t listen to anybody. If anyone tries to advice or criticize him, he stops having contact with that person like forever.'], 'answer_start': [698]}
From a woman in the U.S.: Well I just found out my man likes a lot of half naked women’s pictures on Instagram and I mean a lot. I feel bad because I thought I’m all he ever wants and dreamed of but it doesn’t feel that way. also he is doing it at the same time we are together like I’m on his Facebook everyone knows we are together but on Instagram I’m not on there it’s like I don’t exist but he’s on there more than he is on Facebook also these girls are opposite to how I look. I feel like he want someone else and is just with me because he can’t get those girls

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like he want someone else and is just with me because he can’t get those girls'], 'answer_start': [483]}