Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
This has been an on-going thing for almost my whole life since I was born, my family won’t do anything about it so I’m just in need for advice. My mother has been in a mental hospital before for only a week, due to family issues. Every day, she leaves and comes back and something sets her off, during her episodes she thinks people are watching/talking to her on a voice machine and that they screw with her body… or that my grandparents put her on this voice machine… she also tends to blame me for random things and throws sharp knives away because she thinks my young brother is going to stab us in the middle of the night, when he is NOWHERE NEAR VIOLENT AT ALL, he’s only 3. I am just wondering if signing her up to a mental hospital, or maybe therapy will help it mentally abuses me and will do so my brother once he is older.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['This has been an on-going thing for almost my whole life since I was born, my family won’t do anything about it so I’m just in need for advice.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
Hi,Rather than answers, I am looking more for a bit of direction. Over 3 years ago I was pressured into trying a single ecstasy tablet. When this pill kicked in all was fine for an hour or two until I started to get heavy panic attacks. After that, life’s been very different. Days later a lot of mental issues that I’ve never had before suddenly appeared: sensitivity to sound, completely inability to fall asleep, or opposite of that sleeping for 16hrs+ per day and constantly being tired, afraid of the light, tickling in stomach sensation, etc etc etc. I feared that I’d be stuck with this forever, and thus my symptoms just kept getting worse as a result.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feared that I’d be stuck with this forever, and thus my symptoms just kept getting worse as a result.'], 'answer_start': [557]}
So for a long time now I have suspected that I may have been sexually abused when I was a child. I always put the concerns to rest, but I am realizing now that I cannot ignore it anymore. As I am getting older I see that my behavior and feelings about intimacy and sex do not make sense to me. I feel very confused. I always feel threatened by men and constantly feel the need to have a guard up. I was always afraid of men when I was little, but at the same time there was this curiosity and I was known to be very flirtatious. It is hard to talk about but I have 2 polar feelings about sex and I always feel like an object rather than a person. The reason I suspect I may have been sexually abused as a child is because my memory keeps bringing me back to this journal that I had. I believe it was my first journal. I remember vividly what it looked like. I remember being extremely sad at the time when I would write in my journal. Throughout my life until I left to college I used journals as a way to express my feelings. I grew up in a home where my father was verbally/emotionally/ and somewhat physically abusive and I was not allowed to have a voice so I would put all my feelings and thoughts in my journals. The reason I bring up this journal is because my memory keeps going back to this page in the journal. It honestly disturbs me. I was a young child it could have been a joke but the drawing I drew in the journal was of a naked man. I was around 6 or 7 years old when I drew this. I drew the penis correctly. however I keep wondering how did I know what a penis looked like at that age? In addition the the drawing, I drew a line coming from tip of penis down to bottom of page and then the line became intense scribbles going in a circle looking like a puddle. I do not understand why my mind keeps taking me there. I want to find that journal but I cannot remember where it is. It just disappeared.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['The reason I suspect I may have been sexually abused as a child is because my memory keeps bringing me back to this journal that I had.'], 'answer_start': [647]}
I believe I may have dissociative identity disorder. I lose time, I have alters, I lose time. I went through 17 years of abuse. My psychiatrist won’t diagnose me because he’s never seen me switch. I’m currently not in therapy because my last therapist told me I was too much for her to handle. I’m also totally blind. I don’t know what to do. I live in a mental health care facility, and only like two of the staff here believe me. I just feel all alone with all this.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I am depressed, lonely (seem to have nothing in common with those my age), sad and frankly a little desperate to be writing to an online forum. However, the cognitive therapy I have tried recently (four separate times) did not help at all – did not get the root of the problem. I have a terrible dread of my mom’s death. She is in her eighties and I feel I can’t go on without her. I have guilt about not moving to where she lives, to spend precious time with her, but I am law school here (went to law school because I thought it would cure depression) and have a good job also. In many ways, although my childhood was scary and violent, I wish I could be twelve again – maybe that way I wouldn’t have to face reality of aging and death. I had psychotherapy in my late 20s, early 30’s and was relatively okay til I got to mid 50s. I should also mention I take care of my younger sister who has fibromyalgia and who lives with me. Because of the pain she’s in, she can’t shop, cook, clean etc. so I do it all. I love her a lot, but this is draining and makes me angry at times. Not sure what to do. But, as Kilgore Trout once called out, “Make me young, make me young, make me young!” sums it up.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have a terrible dread of my mom’s death. She is in her eighties and I feel I can’t go on without her. I have guilt about not moving to where she lives, to spend precious time with her, but I am law school here (went to law school because I thought it would cure depression) and have a good job also.'], 'answer_start': [278]}
Hi and thank you. I hate to say I’m desperate but I feel like I am. The quick – my sister passed 3 years ago from lung cancer, I have taken sole custody of my 12 year old niece. She was 9 when my sister passed and 7 when my sister was diagnosed. My Niece’s father passed before she was born. I am the sole caregiver. No real family support – we are in Colorado – any family that does exist is in NY.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My mother, age 49 has been living with my grandparents for about a decade now in order to help tend to them. Also, because she and her soon to be ex-husband always had trouble living life as “adults” should and could never get and keep a place to live.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in Poland: I’m a very collected person in public, but when I’m at home alone, it’s really easy to annoy me. Most of the time I’m getting really angry at the smallest things and my behavior while in this state really worries me. Even if it’s only me accidentally turning off my work without saving it I get so angry sometimes I start to cry.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Most of the time I’m getting really angry at the smallest things and my behavior while in this state really worries me.'], 'answer_start': [120]}
My mother-in-law is best friends with my husband’s ex, who he has known since he was little and dated after high school for like 2 years. We have been married for 7 years and it has been an issue. His mom treats her like her daughter and because of this I distance myself from her. The ex tried to separate us several times and even married my husband’s friend. She got pregnant last years and miscarried and tried to reach out to my husband for support. My mother-in-law talks about her to me all the time with no sympathy even though my husband and I have said things to her. In a few years my husband and I want to build a house and have my mother-in-law move in for financial reasons and because she is an older lady. But I know she will want the ex to come over and she will say she helped pay for the house so she can have whoever she wants over. Although my husband understands why I am upset, he and his mom both say I have issues and need to grow up. I am at a loss of what to do. Do I just get over it and if they have an affair I get a divorce? Or do I get over it and trust my husband that she is an ex and he doesn’t want anything to do with her? I am a jealous person and I have trust issues. I love my husband but I feel like my mother-in-law needs to respect my feelings after many conversations (ending it she will talk to who she wants and I need to grow up and I have issues). The ex has no concern over my feelings because I have confronted her multiple times about it. I am at a loss.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am a jealous person and I have trust issues.'], 'answer_start': [1160]}
Recently, I’ve been feeling sad, although I’m not sure that’s enough to see somebody. I’ve never had very high self esteem, and during high school I think I went through periods of depression. I even self-harmed during those times. The only person I’ve ever opened up to and relied on was my boyfriend, but he recently broke up with me before he went off to University. That has been getting to me because sometimes I feel like I’m mourning even though obviously he’s still alive. Currently, I’m stuck at home going to community college because I didn’t have good enough grades in high school, and I only have two close friends that I talk to daily (but not about this kind of stuff). I’ve been feeling lonely lately but I don’t know if it’s something to be worried about or not.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: Five years ago my younger step-sister and I had a falling out over something that I really thought was just a misunderstanding. From the beginning I told her I wanted to repair the relationship only to be completely shut out by her… no communication via social media, email or text. Throughout the years I have continued to send tentative contact her way and have been ignored, even after the birth of her son which I thought would soften our relationship. Because she is my step-sister and I am not around her mother and my dad very often we almost never accidentally cross-paths. The few times we have she has been friendly to me, as if nothing is wrong. She encourages I interact with her son and calls me Auntie to him. I always see this as signs of hope for us, but when I reach out to her I get nothing back.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I suffer from bipolar and anxiety. I’m a wife and a mother of two. I had seen the same psych doctor for 10 years. Then it got to the point that I couldn’t drag myself to go to my spots. Finally, they booted me from the clinic. I’m still taking the same meds I begged my doctor to change as they were not working. My mother passed away in jan 2015 and my step dad in April 2016. They have me on 3 different meds cymbals, gabapentin n Valium. I started school in March to try to take my thoughts away from all the overwhelming stuff. Well the whole time I’ve been in a brain fog. I feel disassociated with reality. I either sleep alot or to much. I don’t go in public because I get high anxiety or pop two or three Valiums. I sleep to much or to little. Thoughts of suicide come and go. Because I think of all the suicidal lies. I’m scared some days of it but I get threw it somehow. There’s day where I plan out to do it but don’t. I’m not really suicidal right now. I can’t lock myself up as I’m going threw an adoption. I seen one psych doctor ge was weird but made me go up on my meds that I don’t like I don’t feel they are helping. I can’t seem to get out of this brain fog or funk whatever u wanna call it. I feel like smoking pot though I havent. I’m tired all the time. I never feel fully rested no matter how much I sleep and I generally feel overwhelmed in life. What are your thoughts and suggestions?

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I never feel fully rested no matter how much I sleep and I generally feel overwhelmed in life.'], 'answer_start': [1277]}
Hello. From the outside I am a perfectly normal girl, with a Masters Degree, with good friends around me, but I am 26 now and I never had a boyfriend. I have plenty of male as friends, but I am so shy I always keep the distance. To be honest I am ashamed to say that I’m a virgin. I did dated guys, we kissed, but when it comes to more I feel shy and scared to say I’m a virgin at my age.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I did dated guys, we kissed, but when it comes to more I feel shy and scared to say I’m a virgin at my age.'], 'answer_start': [281]}
I spent a good portion of my life depressed, and was somewhat suicidal. I would have killed myself but I didn’t want to cause the people who cared about me pain. I finally decided to close a portion of myself because I felt I could not beat it and if I didn’t close off my emotions, I would have killed myself. Fast forward about 6-7 years and I’m wondering if it’s time to try to reopen myself.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I finally decided to close a portion of myself because I felt I could not beat it and if I didn’t close off my emotions, I would have killed myself.'], 'answer_start': [162]}
From a teen in the U.S.: Every few months I start feeling a sort of mix between deja vu and dissociation? Starting last year, I have infrequently had this feeling of being in autopilot and being an observer looking through my own eyes as something or someone else keeps going, whether it be driving or working or whatever I may be doing. My personality doesn’t change, it just doesn’t feel like me doing it. I start feeling a bit sick to my stomach, and vague, obscure memories of similar experiences start rushing back, almost as though I’m remembering bits and pieces of dreams I’ve had but previously didn’t remember, similar to the feeling of deja vu. It’s a very intense experience and I usually get rid of it by forcing myself to sleep through it, but I’d like to know if there’s more behind it, and whether I can prevent it or just let it run its course when it happens.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I stopped loving my daughter. I usually live alone with her thousands of miles from my family and her father, and my whole life is devoted to her, who is just turning ten years old. I am a bipolar2 and a borderline 50 years old woman. I struggle being a mother with mental health issues. Now she’s in europe, visiting my family and her father, and I don’t want her back. Suddenly, in the past three weeks, I stop having any feeling whatsoever for her. I even try to picture her in pain, or crying, to see if it would stir any emotion in me, but instead I feel nothing, like I have never loved her. I’m in a panic, she’s due back in a month and I just can’t face her, I’m scared I would make her life miserable if she was to come back to me

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m in a panic, she’s due back in a month and I just can’t face her, I’m scared I would make her life miserable if she was to come back to me'], 'answer_start': [613]}
Hi, I am forty years old and currently single. My problem is a bit difficult to describe, but more or less it is the following: Even though I have no problem talking to women – or people in general – I somehow feel very strange when a communication with a girl/woman seems to be heading to flirting. It’s like something inside of me trying to hold me back and I feel like the need to get out of the situation. This may not be 100% of the times, but definitely a 90-95% for sure. This was not always the case. When I was younger, around 20, I remember myself wanting to be with women, to flirt and trying to find these things in life. Unfortunately for many years now this is not the case. I tend to believe that this was due to a very hard break up that I had when I was around 21. From discussions I had with a therapist she insists that this cannot be the case and that the cause should be in earlier years in life (when I was a child). Maybe it is important to explain, that I had relationships during the last 20 years though in almost all cases only when I was feeling wanted I moved on. I think there are a lot more that may explain my situation better, but I maybe these are enough as an initial approach. (From Greece)

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Unfortunately for many years now this is not the case. I tend to believe that this was due to a very hard break up that I had when I was around 21.'], 'answer_start': [634]}
I like to pretend to be a character from a movie or book. It’s really hard for me to be honest to myself that I’ve been pretending. Recently I imitate a character from a movie with depression, social anxiety, and hallucination and I become really depressed that I cut myself, taking analgesic pills, and talked to my friend like I’m really a depressed person. I always confessed myself that I’m not pretending but I think I can’t do this forever. I’m scared I can’t control it anymore. I once became a person with bipolar disorder and I actually felt like I have extreme mood swings but if I thought about it honestly I was more like trying to have those mood swings. I like to read about psychological problems and that’s why I know the symptoms. I feel like there’s something wrong with me but I can’t stop it, it’s like I automatically imitate the character even if I don’t realize it. It’s really hard to explain because I can’t really distinguish my real self or if I’m just pretending. I’ve read about munchausen syndrome but I’m not really sure if I did it because I want attention. I rarely tell people if I’m mentally ill or anything. I even act like everything’s okay when people start to question me. This is also happen when I’m in a relationship. Unconsciously, I’ll act out as a really jealous girlfriend(even if I’m not that jealous type) or a bossy person or basically someone I’m not and I like to create some scenarios in my head and I’ll lead my relationship to that scenario and I think that’s why I don’t have any long-lasting relationship. And honestly, I somehow want to be mentally ill. I’m scared I’ll lose myself. What should I do?

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m scared I can’t control it anymore.'], 'answer_start': [447]}
I’ve always been a pretty anxious person. But recently I started seeing things; shadows, faces, demons, and a lot of house cats that aren’t there when I go near them. I occasionally hear voices, mostly people yelling at me, but the hallucinations are more common. I’m so paranoid most of the time. I feel like I’m being watched or followed. I feel like there is someone outside of my bedroom door right now. I have a small TV in my room and I can see my refection in it from where I’m sitting. Something is telling me that’s not my reflection and it’s a supernatural creature watching me. I refuse to eat food that wasn’t made by myself because someone could’ve poisoned or spit in it. I tried to lay next to my mom earlier (she realized I was having an anxiety attack and wanted to hold me), and she had her arm around me. Something in my head, not a voice but a feeling, told me she was going to dig her nails into my back and rip out my heart. I got up and ran into my room without saying anything. Also, whenever I’m outside or in public, when I hear someone laughing or talking I feel like they are making fun of me. I don’t trust anything. I put paper over all cameras on my all my devices. I feel like the government is watching me. I thought I could have schizophrenia (my great-great grandma had it), but all the stories I read, people which schizophrenia seem to not be aware that something is wrong with them, although I am very aware something’s not right with me. Pretty much everyone in my family has anxiety and depression. My brother and cousin have struggled with anorexia and my mom is bipolar. Should I get help? My mom thinks I’m clairvoyant. Even just the thought of sending this to a real person is making me nervous.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Something in my head, not a voice but a feeling, told me she was going to dig her nails into my back and rip out my heart.'], 'answer_start': [824]}
Recently I feel like I have been acting odd and people are starting to notice. I randomly zone out and have visual hallucinations like tall silhouettes and people following me. There’s also a voice in my head that will whisper to me during the day, but becomes extremely more vocal at night. Sometimes they’ll tell me to do odd things like hide under a desk or confess my undying love or hate to a stranger. Sometimes it’s worse, they just whisper my name over and over, sometimes tell me to kill or hurt people that I wouldn’t want to. They also seem to control my thoughts and feelings, because sometimes they say I need help and I believe them. Other times they say I don’t and I believe them. They generally control how I feel about people. I’m also convinced that other people can read my thoughts, maybe not everyone, but definitely most people. Nobody else believes me and I really do want an answer. Thank you very much.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m also convinced that other people can read my thoughts, maybe not everyone, but definitely most people.'], 'answer_start': [745]}
From a teen in the UK: Okay so I was bullied during primary school by kids younger then me which made it so embarrassing that I never told anyone. They used to make fun of my weight and that’s where I think my issues began but I never acted on them. When I went to secondary school at about 12, although I wasn’t being bullied anymore, I went on a diet. Gradually I began restricting further and further until I became dangerously thin, by the time I was 13 I was in a dangerous state, believing that a banana would make me gain a ton of weight,

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}