Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
From a teenage girl in Indonesia: first i apologize for my english since english is my third language , i have problem with my temper and i grew up with a bad tempered father, i easily snapped when something really irritated me i remember i yell to my four years old brother when he flip my laptop screen ,

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['i have problem with my temper and i grew up with a bad tempered father, i easily snapped when something really irritated me '], 'answer_start': [104]}
From Canada: I got married a month ago and since the wedding, I keep thinking about the things that I didn’t plan properly. Biggest one being the guest list for the wedding. I decided not to invite some people because my fiance was only inviting his close friends but we had a huge wedding and enough room to fit more people especially since some guests didn’t even show up. I think I was also pressed for time and just didn’t bother inviting some people out of being lazy and wanting to cut down on my workload.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have bipolar disorder, and I am a survivor of emotional abuse. I am finding that in recent years, it has become a trend for my coworkers to begin hating me to a point where it gets me fired. I try to be positive at work, I ask how my coworkers are doing, try to be personable and I make sure to say please and thank you if I ask for assistance in my tasks. Common problems I have found are if a coworker is disrespectful or offensive, I address it as soon as I can and not in front of others so they don’t have to suffer public shaming. Often my coworkers will try to treat me like a doormat by having me do the majority of the work while they do almost nothing at all. If I say something, they’ll hate me. If I don’t say anything I continue to be a doormat. I’m starting to feel like I’ve missed learning some all important social skill that enables people to like me and treat me respectfully. I know it’s very difficult to begin to gauge the problem from a brief paragraph on the internet, but if you have any advice, I would love to hear it. Thank you!

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['Often my coworkers will try to treat me like a doormat by having me do the majority of the work while they do almost nothing at all. If I say something, they’ll hate me.'], 'answer_start': [539]}
My husband and I have been married 30 years. Four years ago we received custody of five grandchildren. The parent have done nothing to comply with Court requirements to get the children returned to them. There are no other family members in a position to care for the children and we have tried but it fails to work out.  Last year I had a major health scare but have since recovered. Now ,my husband has basically told me the kids go or he goes. He has completely disengaged from us and is sullen , critical and grudgingly helpful to a small extent. The bulk of the care and household falls on me. I feel it is unfair to put me or the kids in this position and have told him to go . He is very unpleasant and is narcissistic . I guess I’m seeking guidance and validation in my choice to keep the kids. The only option is foster care and I refuse . They have been with us and are settled in and would be crushed . I realize he may be tired of it , I get tired too but it feels like emotional blackmail to me. (age 56, from US)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I believe my son deals with this. He is currently into a 3 day episode of extremely exaggerated anger based on a non-issue. My concern is his response if he does not get his way – suicide, property damage, etc. Is it better to give in to his wants while the anger lasts? I do not want him hurting himself, someone else, or property. Is pushing getting help the wrong thing to do at this time? I’m torn between caving to his demands to – in his words – put things right or standing up to him and insisting he get help. This sort of behavior has been an issue for years and of course it is never his fault.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hello, We got married 4 months ago. My husband is currently living in another country but will come home soon (few months). We have always lived in different countries but we know each other from childhood. He emails me every day an average of 5 times per day and with lots of love words (sometimes even more times, unless he has something important to do…then he won’t email me for hours). Even though it is not common, it bothers me when it happens because I always find a time to email him when I am busy (he can’t even say “I love you”). I do not think it is that much time consuming. The most he has taken to email me has been about 10 hours.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hello! I’m a 13 year old girl and I’ve been struggling with bulimia for a year and a couple of months now. I’m at a perfectly healthy weight but want to lose 20 pounds. Any time I start dieting I cant handle the hunger, eat as much as I can and then puke in the bathroom. This has been happening everyday for the last 13-14 months but my weight hasn’t changed at all. There were days where I would puke like 5-6 times a day, but sometimes I would manage not to do it for days. (Which is really hard and a whole acheivment for me.) NOBODY knows about it and I haven’t talked to anybody about it. I feel stupid and ashamed of it. I also feel extreme anxiety and suffer panic attacks any time i have to attend a social event, only because I hate my body and I think everyone on the street is looking at me and saying “Oh my God she is so fat, look at her” and etc. Please help me, I want to stop doing that, I want to have a healthy lifestyle and a healthy mind. I feel great for admitting it to you but also awful for being so stupid for having it at such a young age. Please don’t think of me as a silly confused child, I really need help. I scored severe in the Bulimia nervosa quiz at your site, and I know it shouldn’t be taken as a diagnosis, but I’m really sick and tired of it. Give me an advise how to win over it alone, because there are no specialists or clinics where I live. Thank you!!! (age 13, from Bulgaria)

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['NOBODY knows about it and I haven’t talked to anybody about it. I feel stupid and ashamed of it. '], 'answer_start': [531]}
From Barbados: when i was eleven yrs old I was encouraged by my older cousin (let’s call her Jyl) to have s** with her brother (who is also my cousin) at first i objected, but she continued to pressure me so I did as she said. Eventually Jyl spoke out about the matter but never speak out about the role she played in the situation. I didn t even defend myself when she (Jyl) confessed it all, I just put on a strong face, but I was crying on the inside. Eventually everyone found out about it, as you know words spread like bush fire. In high school I was bullied for it and other rumors that Jyl and my so call friends created about me.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I ran across an email confession from my spouse. My spouse talked about all the things I do that piss them off. How I am a dead beat and how my ptsd is just an excuse and how they feel trapped in doing anything because of it. Talked about the times I tried to commit suicide about it, about how they wanted to leave me due to my ptsd. But told that they know if they told me they wanted a divorce then they would lose the house, because i own the house. There was a lot of anger in the email, lots of perception that they had that wasn’t 100% true. Lots of resentment towards me. This i am sharing is the confession they wrote to their friends after bitching badly about me.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I work for a company Montego Bay, Jamaica and for the past two and a half years I have been constantly harassed my coworkers. I reported this my managers and Human Resource Department and they do nothing to help or stop the harassment. These people have been lying continuously about me. First they began spreading rumors about me saying that my boyfriend left me for a younger woman. Then, they began saying that they have circulated around the office naked pictures of me including my vagina and they even proceed to describe my private parts as black and ugly. They make comments saying that I need to bathe. This all taking place in an office setting.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: Hello, so I am 20 years old I’ve been with my boyfriend since I was 16 and we now have a 3 year old daughter. My boyfriend does not trust me because I’ve been with other people in the past and he didn’t know about it but I wanted to keep my past private. Now that he knows he rubs it all in my face and he won’t let me forget it. He also believes there is more no matter how many times I tell him he knows everything. He will be okay with me one day and the next he says he knows I’m lying and there’s more when there isn’t but that’s what he assumes, He doesn’t want me to have friends or go out with my old friends because he thinks fun time should be with family only but he hangs out with his friends. I worry that my life will be like this forever. What should I do?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I’m an Education graduate Cum Laude and currently working as a BPO agent. I recently decided to continue to Law primarily to achieve my dream of being a lawyer but mostly to cure my academic insecurity. I think my cousins and friends landed a better course and better job. I ended up working in call center since I hate teaching. I only took up teaching because my mom says so. So, lately I had problem cooping up with school and work. I hate my work, I don’t like the way they do things there. I thought we should be working with integrity but all I can see are the opposite. Then I messed up school. So not like me. I ended up not reading my books, cases or not doing assignments because I cant fit my time to do work and school. I used to multi-task way back college, both working two jobs and studying.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hello, I have a question about a severe case of violent daydreaming. I am a survivor of childhood abuse and have been suffering from violent daydreaming for more than 15 years. I vividly imagine myself or a third person being slowly killed by torture and can’t stop these thoughts. Since these fantasies involve very gory details, I am ashamed of them and don’t have the courage to describe them to anyone because I am afraid what people might think of me. The thoughts come by themselves in waves about twice a month and each wave lasts for about 3-5 days. During these days they slightly interfere with my normal social function as I experience typical sickness behavior (lethargy, depression, loss of appetite, sleepiness, reduction in grooming, hard to concentrate). Even if I try to concentrate on a task I feel like I can’t control my mind or how I generally feel during that time. I thought for a long time that I am the only person in the world having thoughts like that and there is no help for me but recently I thought I might try to search for answers. However, I could not find any information about this phenomenon. Can you please help me women tell me if there is any literature about this that could help me understand what is going on? Is there a type of therapy that specializes in these issues? What could I do to improve my condition?

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['I thought for a long time that I am the only person in the world having thoughts like that and there is no help for me but recently I thought I might try to search for answers. '], 'answer_start': [888]}
I live with my parents and 6 siblings in a very small apartment as we are very poor and cannot afford a more suitable home. There is little to no privacy and almost every single one of my siblings are very irresponsible and inconsiderate. I’ve learnt to accept that as I love and adore every single one of them too much, especially my mother, but their bad behavior and negativity have doubled ever since my father moved in to live with us a few years ago; he’d been away for a decade and his sudden return into our lives drove us all apart, and drove me into severe depression. He is a very toxic person and his toxicity has spread onto all of us, especially my mother. She transformed from a sweet, kind, and happy person to a depressed and inconsiderate pessimist. I can’t even remember the last time I’d seen her smile, she just constantly yells and cries all the time. It is obvious that my father is causing a lot of distress but there is nothing we could do about it, we can’t ask him to return to where he’d come from because he is very ill and cannot take care of himself, he has no where else to go.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I was diagnosed with BPD, GAD and MDD a few years ago, and  different therapists have speculated about quite a few other disorders without officially diagnosing any of them. I’ve both read and been told that anxiety can cause physical pain in the back, stomach and chest. I’ve been suffering from extreme pains in my back and chest, along with intense burning, constant restlessness and inability to relax, and stomach pain/discomfort and nausea for at least five years or longer, and they do seem to intensify when I’m suffering from higher anxiety or a panic attack. But the pain is so intense some days I can barely get out of bed – it makes basic, daily life a debilitating experience. Can this all be attributed to anxiety? Or is there some physical problem that could cause these same symptoms? And also, if it is just anxiety, what could be done to deal with these extreme pains – progressive muscle relaxation and that sort of thing haven’t managed to provide any relief. I can’t remember the last time I was relaxed or completely free of these pains. (age 23, from US)

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I can’t remember the last time I was relaxed or completely free of these pains.'], 'answer_start': [980]}
From Australia: I am recently divorced and looking at possibly moving to start over. My parents have been great helping with my daughter by watching her and making sure she gets to her activities and such. The divorce and the circumstances were quite difficult on my daughter and myself and as a result she has been going to therapy to deal with some of the issues.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From the U.S.: I’ve never posted online or to a forum before, but I am desperate for advice, or even a solution. We started dating a year ago, and shortly into the relationship we became sexually involved. A few months into the relationship, I started to feel pressured into sexual encounters and so I started to alienate myself from him sexually, but that only started to make him treat me like a sex object, which began to disturb me greatly.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
(It’s Complicated.) I am running out of antidepressants and I’m sort of paralyzed because I don’t know how I’m supposed to get a new prescription for them. I originally got prescribed paxil at my student health center, and since I graduated, they won’t keep sending me prescriptions. Can I go to urgent care? I work all week on a relatively rural mountain and I don’t have a car. I also kind of feel like I need therapy for my myriad issues, but I don’t know if it’s cheaper to get a prescription from a GP and go to a therapist or go whole hog and go see a psychiatrist. Not to mention the fact that I’ll have to ask someone to drive me, which is a whole other can of anxiety-ridden worms. Literally the only thing I desperately need is a prescription. Mainly I just don’t want to go through the horrific withdrawal effects. Help?

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Literally the only thing I desperately need is a prescription. Mainly I just don’t want to go through the horrific withdrawal effects. '], 'answer_start': [691]}
Hello, So I’m 15 and under medication for (suicidal)depression (I take clomipramine). I have dealt with self harm and such issues and my depression is under control. Recently though, I started noticing that everything wasn’t going ok. I’ll explain: I feel tired all day but I get overwhelmed by anger and hate. I fantasize about hurting and even killing people, though i would never do this in real life. I feel like those things are getting worse fast.It feels like there are two “ME”s : one kind person and one mean, angry version of myself (I “bathe” in this anger and let it overwhelm me, it makes me feel powerful).

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel like those things are getting worse fast.It feels like there are two “ME”s : one kind person and one mean, angry version of myself (I “bathe” in this anger and let it overwhelm me, it makes me feel powerful).'], 'answer_start': [405]}
Thank you for your time. I’m not that skilled with words so I apologize if this does not make sense. I am a student athlete who holds several leadership positions on campus. To everyone I seem great but in reality I’m not even close to being okay. Between all of my commitments I am completely overwhelmed. Nothing is fun anymore and has not been for some time now. Also, I often find myself faced with a deep and powerful hatred toward myself and my mind is often consumed with the notion that I deserve to die. It has progressed to the point that I have been considering suicide as a valid and logical option. Even though cognitively I recognize that it should not even be a consideration. I fight this everyday and I am afraid of what might happen if I lose control for even a little while. That’s why I so strictly maintain the façade of being completely fine. I fear that if I even allow myself to admit that I am not fine then I would cease to be able to function. The most frustrating part of this whole situation is that there is no reason for it. My life has been great and there is a copious amount of objective evidence that would indicate that I have no reason and no right to feel like this. I’m an intensely private and independent person who struggles to open up. So my question is, how do I get past this on my own?

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['Also, I often find myself faced with a deep and powerful hatred toward myself and my mind is often consumed with the notion that I deserve to die. '], 'answer_start': [366]}
Over the past few years I have been curious as to what is wrong with me. I feel different, detached and slightly alienated. I have no interest in friendship or relationships (emotional or physical). I feel very emotionally cold and distant, I do still have emotions, but they are very diminished, I also have difficulty understanding what emotion I am feeling at any given time, in addition to lacking empathy. I often find myself being very manipulative and lying almost compulsively. It has gotten to the point where I will lie frequently for no reason, simply for the sake of lying. I am very impulsive and lack direction in my life, I pick up and drop new hobbies very frequently and I find it almost impossible to plan ahead and stick to life goals that I have set for myself.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I feel different, detached and slightly alienated. I have no interest in friendship or relationships (emotional or physical). I feel very emotionally cold and distant, I do still have emotions, but they are very diminished, I also have difficulty understanding what emotion I am feeling at any given time, in addition to lacking empathy. '], 'answer_start': [73]}
Hi, I am 15 years old and about three months ago I had a “Panic Attack” in bed at night. Since then at night-time I have this extreme fear. This includes heart palpation, trembling, numbing in hands and feet, fast breathing, fearful thoughts such as someone breaking in, ghosts creepy dolls you name it! I also sweat and feel extreme nausea the whole time. Because of this, trying to sleep is a problem as I can’t stop thinking of the fear, I can’t close my eyes for more than 5 seconds and if I want to sleep I have to have a video on and sometimes my lamp on though sometimes it is impossible to shut my mind off. It used to be much worse than now as I don’t have it regularly and can kind of control it but i do have my days. From what I have googled I cannot find many people with the same problem. I also have experienced waking up with my whole body numb, with loud ringing in my ears heart pounding and difficulty breathing. It is like I am in a bag as I feel detached from reality. When it is over however it feels like it never happened (btw I can move a bit but very difficult) it has happened twice but it terrifies me . I also have no idea what that is and when I went to the doctor he was not helpful AT ALL. I have been to counseling but the problem has not been solved. I get very stressed easily and have my fair share of anxiety in the day too. I am quite a healthy in size yet I don’t exercise and my diet could be better. I am just wondering what the fear at night is and if it may be possibly linked to stress during the day. Thanks a lot for taking your time to read this. (age 15, from New Zealand)

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have this extreme fear. This includes heart palpation, trembling, numbing in hands and feet, fast breathing, fearful thoughts such as someone breaking in, ghosts creepy dolls you name it! '], 'answer_start': [114]}