Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I have serious delusions, like every minute of every day I’m convinced I have a life threatening illness (STD’s even though I’ve never been sexually active, heart problems even though i’ve had a heart appointment and given the all clear and cancer because i’m paranoid) I HAVE HAD SERIOUS HALLUCINATIONS FOR THE PAST 4-5 YEARS THAT I AM CONVINCED ARE TRYING TO KILL ME. I jump to different trains of thought mid sentence quite often, and I change subject, leaving the other person wondering what the first one is about, which is VERY irritable. My moods are extremely spontaneous, compulsions have become slightly harder to resist and there is sometimes certain patterns that I must have in the right order. I constantly rock back and forth, until I’ll just stop and be completely still for hours. If I was to describe what being deprived of rocking was like, it would be an insatiable ache. If I can’t rock in whatever situation I’m in and I have to (because of that ache) I tend to get anxiety, and I know some of this sounds like an obsessive compulsive disorder but it is definitely not OCD. Also just wanted to see what I should do and whether or not you can be committed for schizophrenia because that is a delusion I also have, that someone will take me away in a matter of time. Also, the hallucinations have been going on for so long that I have developed an emotional attachment to them and as well as getting SEVERE anxiety when they are there, I get anxiety when they’re not. So I just want to know what I SHOULD do. I promise you none of this is fake or a lie.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have serious delusions, like every minute of every day I’m convinced I have a life threatening illness (STD’s even though I’ve never been sexually active, heart problems even though i’ve had a heart appointment and given the all clear and cancer because i’m paranoid) I HAVE HAD SERIOUS HALLUCINATIONS FOR THE PAST 4-5 YEARS THAT I AM CONVINCED ARE TRYING TO KILL ME.'], 'answer_start': [1]}
Hi, I am 24 and my sister is 22, and she has got to be the most selfish person (family wise) that I know. Anytime anyone from our immediate family asks her for a favor she is too busy or looks at us like she can not believe we are asking her for a favor. A few examples would be our mom had an eye appt and she needed a ride home because she could not drive after, she asked my sister to pick her up and my sister of course was too busy because she was going to go and meet some friends so our mom had to find another way home. When my mom got home my sister seemed like she was so offended that my mom found an alternate way home and didnt call her for a ride………yet she told my mom that she was too busy to pick her up. Another example would be our youngest sister was arriving at the airport and instead of taking a cab home she asked our sister to pick her up, of course again she said no she was going camping so our youngest sister found an alternate way home. My sister who was going camping, then felt she had the right to be upset because she went to the airport to pick her up and she wasn’t there, even though she was too busy to pick her up when she was asked for the favor.

Cognitive distortion: Labeling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Hi, I am 24 and my sister is 22, and she has got to be the most selfish person (family wise) that I know.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From the U.S.: I’m writing to ask for your help in understanding what I’m dealing with in terms of my parents (especially my mom). I hope you can help, as things are snowballing. I’m dealing with life issues (largely, career), as people do, and the response I get from my parents is (what I consider) unsupportive, negligent and wholly unresponsive.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m dealing with life issues (largely, career), as people do, and the response I get from my parents is (what I consider) unsupportive, negligent and wholly unresponsive.'], 'answer_start': [179]}
In my final year of high school, I undertook a course load that was extremely high. This course load, in addition to the requirement of studying for numerous standardized tests / college admissions tests made me quite stressed in the first half of senior year. This eventually developed into a condition similar to depression (though not quite at that magnitude), and I began seeing a psychologist regularly. At the time I got really into the Beatles, and I found that listening to their music was a great coping strategy. Time went on and I gradually grew out of my slump, and actually got to enjoy the latter half of senior year. However, now, whenever I listen to the Beatles, or any other music I listened to near that gloomy time, I am flooded by bad memories and emotions that take a toll on my entire day, sometimes the entire week. I really don’t like this, as the Beatles is my favorite band and I would very much like to listen to them again happily.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Eqypt: I always worry about my relationships with my friends and other people and always conclude things about other people’s actions or thoughts causing me to act upon somethings or situation then regretting acting that way afterwards or act in the wrong way. That issue makes me afraid of starting any kind of conversation with my friends and makes me nervous of making a mistake whenever I talk to anyone which may seem to other people on the outside that I hate them or I’m not sociable and boring.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I always worry about my relationships with my friends and other people and always conclude things about other people’s actions or thoughts causing me to act upon somethings or situation then regretting acting that way afterwards or act in the wrong way.'], 'answer_start': [12]}
I think I have BPD and major depression. When I’m in a good mood I tend to eat a lot and when this happens I don’t feel bad a t the moment but when I’m done I feel gross and just too big. I start overthinking about how I will gain weight if I can’t control myself and make plans on how long I’ll fast to loose weight. That’s when I become very depressed. I really hate gaining weight and I’m can’t stop thinking about it. The thing is that every time I start fasting I can’t complete the goal that I set and it makes me hate myself even more. I’m very sensitive to failing at things due to school and I feel like a disappointment to my family especially my mom. She obviously get’s angry and disappointed with me because I don’t want to eat. Sometimes I also feel like the only reason I’m still alive is her. I’ve been depressed for more than 4 years (on and off).

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I really hate gaining weight and I’m can’t stop thinking about it. The thing is that every time I start fasting I can’t complete the goal that I set and it makes me hate myself even more. '], 'answer_start': [355]}
I was deceived by a married man for 2 years. I met a guy 2 and a half years ago he was married when I met him but separated his wife had gone back to Germany where she was from and he and I really fell for each other we dated for 2 years and then I decided that we should take a break because he had done 2 tours in Iraq and I felt he needed to deal with some of the stuff he went through over there before we could move forward I told him that I loved him very much and that I would wait for him. We kept in touch, and always talked about getting back together. One day I was searching on the internet and I found his wife’s Myspace page from the looks of it she wasn’t in Germany and never had been it talked about living here with her wonderful husband and that they were planning on having another baby this year. I did more digging and found a mound of evidence that she was here the whole time and not only that I believe there were other woman he was with as well. I’m so devastated how could I be so stupid for over two years? I was and am despite everything still so in love with him we are no longer talking but how do you make love just go away it may have been a lie to him but it was real to me. I almost don’t want to be alive anymore I just can’t get over the lies and deceit. Honesty is so important to me and he knew that. How do I move past this and stop obsessing? He told me everyday how in love with me he was and how we would get married he talked about buying a house together. I believed everything he said how will I ever know the difference between truth and lies again?

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m so devastated how could I be so stupid for over two years?'], 'answer_start': [972]}
So, my fiancé and I have been together for 3 and a half years. We are 9 months away from the wedding and I find myself having doubts. However, my fiancé is wonderful. He’s completely in love with me. Our values are aligned, he’s my best friend, and logically we’re just a perfect match. And then just recently someone else entered my life and has made me question every belief I’ve ever had. I can’t get him out of my head no matter how hard I try to do so for the sake of my relationship. It’s not lust or a purely physical attraction. I just feel like I’ve found a kindred spirit in him and I think I’m in love with him. He doesn’t know how I feel and part of me doesn’t even think he would feel the same way about me because there are some barriers we would have to work through. One of which is that he’s one of my fiancé’s best friends. I know I need to sit down with my fiancé and tell him I’m having doubts. I don’t know if I should tell him about these other feelings I’m having and I don’t know how to figure out what to do to reach a path I want to take. Right now, it just seems like no matter what I do I’m stuck and I feel like I can’t speak to anyone about how I’m feeling because they will just all think I’d be throwing everything away because my fiancé is just great.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['Right now, it just seems like no matter what I do I’m stuck and I feel like I can’t speak to anyone about how I’m feeling because they will just all think I’d be throwing everything away because my fiancé is just great.'], 'answer_start': [1065]}
I was abused as a child along with my 2 brothers and mother. Our relationships with each other as adults tend to be rocky. My brothers are explosive towards anyone when mad. my mother puts us against each other at times. From another marriage my mom had my youngest bro who I was the main caregiver To when she was diagnosed with breast cancer and received treatment since it was 15 I cared for my special needs bro for 11 years doing all his personal care my life has revolved around him. My parents tended to be controlling of me cause of this. Always needing me home never allowing me to have independence without some sort of threat. I ended up self-harming again those last 2 yrs in the home. I was stressed and overwhelmed. I ended up meeting a man that I now call my husband and I’m in a very healthy and happy relationship. However I made the decision to move without warning to my parents. And they reacted as I suspected my one brother cursed me out. My mother told me I was a bad sister and that I wasn’t allowed to see my brother whom I cared for. My stepdad refused to see me. And so I left. I have tried to maintain a relationship with my family. But my mother is constantly finding reasons to not talk to me or remind me that I’m bad for leaving. My special needs bro I have had no contact with as she says he misses me and only will make it worse. My other brothers are mad I left and cut off all communication. And I’m starting to feel like I should just quit trying. I want so bad to have my family. But I don’t know how to fix this? I have said sorry for hurting their feelings for a year now but we haven’t made any progress.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['And I’m starting to feel like I should just quit trying.'], 'answer_start': [1428]}
From a teen in the U.S.: Just about anything can anger me now. Whether it is me stubbing my toe, my mom coughing or the neighbors making the tiniest bit of sound when taking out the trash. I used to be a volcano trying to erupt under ice, but now I’m a car that won’t stop running, and the only thing that keeps me going is adrenaline. I feel so angry about everything. About the people who bullied me, about my mom ignoring me, about my mom constantly checking her Facebook, about her rather going drinking with friends on a Friday, about everything. I am angry about every mistake that I have made, I am angry about every thing I’ve seen people do that was not okay, and I’m angry about every single thing that has been done to me, and I’m angry that these people are now “accomplished” and are happy with their crap lives. They have friends they go out with, they have always had friends, they have always had big smiles on their faces at school, but me? …

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['Just about anything can anger me now. Whether it is me stubbing my toe, my mom coughing or the neighbors making the tiniest bit of sound when taking out the trash'], 'answer_start': [25]}
I think I’m ruining my life. I can’t figure out what my problem is and I can’t help but feel like I’m exaggerating the depth of it. I’m currently in medical school – in my 2nd year. I’m supposed to be in the third but I failed my very first year. It’s been like cycle, everything is repeating itself all over again. I can’t explain why I failed my first year. I didn’t fail any exams – I just didn’t go. I kept lying to everyone about it. Summer came and I had to fess up. My dad wanted me to pull out but I insisted on going back because I knew I didn’t fail for the reasons he thought I did. It wasn’t because I couldn’t handle the workload – I just never tried. I gave up in an instant. No one forced me into medical school – I’m here on my own accord.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I can’t figure out what my problem is and I can’t help but feel like I’m exaggerating the depth of it.'], 'answer_start': [30]}
I don’t know what to do. I cut myself really bad. At first they were shallow cuts, but now the shallow ones don’t satisfy me anymore. The longer I cut, the deeper the cut has to be for me to feel any sense of relief. It’s been going on for about a year. My mother doesn’t know and I don’t plan to tell her. I don’t want her to think I’m more of a disgrace than I already am. And I’m scared to tell my doctor because I think she will tell my mom. I know there are confidentiality laws but I think those only come into play when you’re not hurting yourself or others. I don’t know what to do. I’ve lost friends because they want me to tell them whats wrong but I just can’t. I’m scared they will tell the administration. Who will then tell my mom. I only cut on my thighs now because if they are on my arms, people will see them. And that would give me more anxiety, which would make me cut more. It’s a vicious path I would rather not go down. I’m already addicted to cutting, and it’s really, really hard to stop. I know I can, I just don’t know how. Please help me.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['My mother doesn’t know and I don’t plan to tell her. I don’t want her to think I’m more of a disgrace than I already am.'], 'answer_start': [254]}
I’m 14 years old, I’m aromantic, and I can’t tell what I am anymore. I feel as if I’m not what I should be. I’m… mentally tired. I’m sick of going to school and watching all this knowledge be forgotten. I don’t want it to wasted on me, a person who won’t live past twenty.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I don’t want it to wasted on me, a person who won’t live past twenty.'], 'answer_start': [204]}
I am a 20 year old female with schizophrenia. I am worried about my sexual fantasies, and worried that if I start stressing about them too much it might just trigger another psychotic episode, so even though this is not a pleasant subject I really need to talk about it with someone, but since I don’t feel comfortable talking about this with anyone, I figured I could write about it here. So here goes. Basically, my sexual fantasies (or dreams) are pretty much always about raping or molesting women. I don’t know why. Also, in these dreams or fantasies, it can even be children, or even babies. I find this really disturbing. (There are other things I worry about, like am I transgender, or am I a lesbian, but obviously the first two things I mentioned worry me so much more.) What I want to know is, what’s wrong with me? Do you have any idea why I have these thoughts? Also, how can I change them? How can I have healthy sexual fantasies? Is there any therapy for this? I really wish I could talk about this with someone, maybe then these fantasies would go away. I guess the only good side to this is that because of my medication, I have very low libido, so these fantasies and dreams don’t come all that often. But I’m still very worried. Also this pattern of having sexual fantasies of non consensual sex has been going on for a long, long time for me, maybe ever since I was a child. Do you have any idea why this could be? Now that I’m an adult its much more worrisome. Thank you for reading, and thank you for your help.

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['I am worried about my sexual fantasies, and worried that if I start stressing about them too much it might just trigger another psychotic episode, so even though this is not a pleasant subject I really need to talk about it with someone, but since I don’t feel comfortable talking about this with anyone, I figured I could write about it here.'], 'answer_start': [47]}
My boyfriend and I have been going out for a little bit longer than 2 years. One year into the relationship I caught him contacting another girl (ringing and texting). The messages were sent as he was out with me (they were sexual) and he had also tried to contact her late at night.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From Brasil: My wife is a brilliant lady and she loves me very much, so do I. I married her 4 years back without the knowledge of my parents as they were against this marriage. She was from a different country and the only way she could live with me was by marrying me to have a visa. Being an emotional person i agreed to marry her at the age of 26 unwillingly.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hello…I planned to do technique called (Image Streaming) to increase my IQ and this technique will increase the intensity of inner voice of me and I am afraid if this technique would cause psychosis or schizophrenia or any mental disorder to me So,is it possible?

Cognitive distortion: Fortune-telling
Distorted part: {'text': ['Hello…I planned to do technique called (Image Streaming) to increase my IQ and this technique will increase the intensity of inner voice of me and I am afraid if this technique would cause psychosis or schizophrenia or any mental disorder to me So,is it possible?'], 'answer_start': [0]}
Ever since I was around 6 to 12 years old, my mother used to hit me with a white plastic/metal rod or with her hand. She would do this every time I couldn’t do a math question or if I didn’t live up to her standard of a ‘perfect daughter’. She would talk about how perfect she was which made me feel worthless or inadequate in front of her. Whenever I cried, she and my older brother would lock me outside of the house until I stopped crying. When I was 12 or so, she and my dad had a fight about something I said, and it lead to her storming out of the house threatening to kill herself. My dad held her to try and stop her, and as she was struggling to get out she looked back at me and told me that if she died it was all my fault. This lead to me believing that everything is always my fault. I cannot remember anything leading to or after that incident, nor can I remember much of anything before I was 13. To this day, every time I hear yelling or shouting I feel really scared and my heart beats faster, even if the yelling is just from the television. So I was just wondering if this would qualify as child abuse?

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My dad held her to try and stop her, and as she was struggling to get out she looked back at me and told me that if she died it was all my fault. This lead to me believing that everything is always my fault.'], 'answer_start': [589]}
From the U.S.: Since young I had constant mood swings and extreme emotions. I said things that weren’t logical or had any sense at all. Most of the times I’ll get so mad I’ll hit someone or say horrible things to them. Had problems with self harm and people thinking that something was wrong inside my head.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Since young I had constant mood swings and extreme emotions. I said things that weren’t logical or had any sense at all.'], 'answer_start': [15]}
From a teen in the U.S.: I don’t know if I’m delusional or a genius. I go through these stages where I have these weird thoughts. Like a few days ago, I convinced myself I was bipolar even though I’ve never had a manic episode or anything close, but I thought I had. I also convinced myself I was autistic, had OCD, and was schizophrenic, schizotypal or schizoid. Now I’m convinced I’m delusional. But that could just be a delusional? But then if it was a delusion I wouldn’t be delusional. It just has my mind in such a twist.

Cognitive distortion: All-or-nothing thinking
Distorted part: {'text': ['I don’t know if I’m delusional or a genius.'], 'answer_start': [25]}
I have had strange experiences for a while now, but when I spoke to one of my friends about it they were pretty freaked out. I see figures made of shadows, and hear footsteps most of the time. I also sometimes hear the voices of two demons. I know that logically it is unlikely for these things to be real, but it is still terrifying. I have tried to be more aware of these things and ignore them while they are happening but I have had very little success. When things get really scary I can talk to my friend and ask if she doesn’t think that is what is really happening, but I don’t want to rely on her every time I think there is a sniper on the hill behind my house. For the most part I have been able to keep it a secret and be normal, but my other friends are starting to notice that something is wrong. I have taken a few online screenings just to get an idea of what to be aware of in case things get worse and I am starting to get worried that something is actually wrong. I am just generally confused and scared. I don’t know if I am overreacting. I just want someone to tell me what to do. Should I try and talk to a therapist about this or should I just keep relying on friends and hope that it goes away?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}