Anonymous-EmpathyAI/Distortion-Analysis-PACLIC39 huggingface dataset:
I’ve been professionally diagnosed with depression and briefly received counseling, though my grandmother cancelled my treatment and refuses to continue it. My father cannot convince her to change her mind and my mother is out of the picture. My father supports me, though won’t take any action of his own because he doesn’t believe depression is real. My grandmother refuses to attempt an understanding of depression, and I have nowhere to turn. I’ve asked many times over the course of over entire year for her to allow me help again ever since she has cancelled my counseling, but all my efforts have proven pointless. My condition is worsening and I’m experiencing passive suicidal thoughts, and though I’ve told my family about this, they have purposely done nothing to help me or to get me help. My grandma forces me to literally pretend I’m not depressed, and my father won’t acknowledge me when I mention my depression. Essentially, my family is denying me help and I have nowhere to turn. I haven’t slept for more than a few hours every night night in maybe weeks, I have sleep paralysis and terrifying nightmares relating to my depression, and I battle the urge to self-harm every time I’m alone and whenever my thoughts begin to take over. I’m scared that I’ll soon turn to suicide, and I have nowhere and no one to turn to for help. Please tell me what I should do.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Depression is destroying me I am cutting my arms multiple times a day and I don’t feel like even living most of the time. I don’t want to have to feel this way and I always try to cover it up and be happy but it never works and I am losing hope and happiness every single day I just need something to help me. I have tried to kill myself multiple times but I just can’t push myself to do it and I feel as if I don’t have anything to live for anymore. So please respond as soon as you can and help me with this because I can never get enough courage to even say this to most people. (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['Depression is destroying me I am cutting my arms multiple times a day and I don’t feel like even living most of the time. I don’t want to have to feel this way and I always try to cover it up and be happy but it never works and I am losing hope and happiness every single day I just need something to help me. I have tried to kill myself multiple times but I just can’t push myself to do it and I feel as if I don’t have anything to live for anymore.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
Alright ill try to make this quick but i cant stop lying constantly ive been lying to friends and my Boyfriend and its not about making myself look good particularly its about stuff that is terrible! This year I met a girl that became a very good friend of mine i wont say her name of course but she is what most parents would be scared of their Daughter turning out to be She parties alot and has already done sexual acts with other guys so when first upon meeting her i lied about how i would drink alot of adult beverages and Go out and do illeagal things when in reality Ive never done any of that stuff but the way her reaction was self fulfilling if that makes sense ? So Fast forward to two months later when my boyfriend and i got into a relationship i told him every lie i told my friend with out even thinking and now i stay up at night in guilt and dread asking why the hell i would do that what was the point in that ? Why do i want someone to see me this way ? Its tearing me apart and I need help even though im young and im still in Highschool the guy I met is someone i dont want to loose I dont mean to sound all hormonal but im tired of digging myself a grave.

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['Alright ill try to make this quick but i cant stop lying constantly ive been lying to friends and my Boyfriend and its not about making myself look good particularly its about stuff that is terrible!'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I have been having sexual relations with a stripper at a strip club for nearly a year. My therapist believes I may have developed a type of sex addiction. My therapist recently had to go out of town so I have not seen her in nearly a month, but I told her I was going to try and stop seeing the stripper. I have not gone to the strip club in over a month, but I’m still constantly thinking about the stripper, and I’m always turned on. It’s distracting and it makes it hard for me to focus on school or work. I was also seeing a psychiatrist for a mood disorder, and I was on an anti-psych medication that I stopped taking about a year ago. When I first started seeing the psychiatrist I told him I had began having powerful sexual urges that began a year before I started seeing him, but I never acted on them. I was also a huge germ-a-phobe. Why am I still thinking about the stripper and constantly turned on when I haven’t seen her in over a month and is this related to my mood disorder?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
For so long I’ve really felt like I couldn’t define myself, and it contributed to depersonalization and other problems. Now looking at it I see it’s not that i can’t define myself, it’s that my definition of myself is the opposite of what i want to be. I am cautious, yet want to be adventurous, anxious, yet want to be mellow, inflexible while wanting to be adaptive, realistic while wanting the ambition realism cannot support, isolative and self-supporting while I’d rather be reliant on people if it meant I would be social, and more. I know who I am, and I know who I want to be, but the only things left uncontradicted are not any thing important. Can I change who I am to fit how I want to be, and if so, please aid me with a detailed description of how it is even possible. I really need this. If it means anything, self esteem also plays a big part.

Cognitive distortion: Should statements
Distorted part: {'text': ['For so long I’ve really felt like I couldn’t define myself, and it contributed to depersonalization and other problems. Now looking at it I see it’s not that i can’t define myself, it’s that my definition of myself is the opposite of what i want to be. I am cautious, yet want to be adventurous, anxious, yet want to be mellow, inflexible while wanting to be adaptive, realistic while wanting the ambition realism cannot support, isolative and self-supporting while I’d rather be reliant on people if it meant I would be social, and more. I know who I am, and I know who I want to be, but the only things left uncontradicted are not any thing important. Can I change who I am to fit how I want to be, and if so, please aid me with a detailed description of how it is even possible. I really need this. If it means anything, self esteem also plays a big part.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From a teen in the U.K.: I’m not really sure where to start, so I’m going to vent. All my life I have felt disconnected and as a child I barely used to talk and kind of drifted my way through my school years, not feeling sad, but empty, waiting for it to end. I had no sense of direction or purpose (and at the time mental illness was never a thought that crossed my mind) but what upsets me the most thinking back is that there were clear signs that something was up with me and I wish someone would have stepped in.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I had no sense of direction or purpose (and at the time mental illness was never a thought that crossed my mind) but what upsets me the most thinking back is that there were clear signs that something was up with me and I wish someone would have stepped in.'], 'answer_start': [260]}
From a young man in the U.K.: A few years ago I noticed a strange tic-like symptom had appeared, it seems whenever my mind wanders to something embarrassing or uncomfortable in the past, no matter how significant or otherwise – I often tense up for a second and am unable to control myself from blurting out the words “Kill yourself” or “you should die”, “shoot yourself”; often rather loud and violently directed at my own self. I have a harder and harder time trying to squash these outbursts in public.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a teen in the U.S.: I have an extremely low self esteem for no apparent reason; my mom and my family always go out of their way to tell me im beautiful, and sometimes i feel that way, but sometimes i feel horrible, which is selfish when i think about it. I also feel really self conscious about my personality, since it feels like no one likes me, maybe thinks im annoying or that im not worth talking to them.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I have an extremely low self esteem for no apparent reason; my mom and my family always go out of their way to tell me im beautiful, and sometimes i feel that way, but sometimes i feel horrible, which is selfish when i think about it. I also feel really self conscious about my personality, since it feels like no one likes me, maybe thinks im annoying or that im not worth talking to them.'], 'answer_start': [25]}
Since i was little I’ve had a desire to watch as thing fall apart. at first is was just things but over the past five years I’ve started to feel the urge to see what happens when the human mind breaks down forcibly. I’ve never been a violent person but recently i have found pleasure in tormenting people with small changes only noticeable to certain individuals.in my mind i had been listing them as experiments, but i noticed that they have been escalating in severity and i’m not sure what i’m doing any more.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Hello, my husband has started a friendship with a workmate (female) 4 months ago, she is married we met her and her family. At first I was ok with it but I started getting jealous with the way my husband is extra attentive to her- we have other female friends too but to my observation he does not behave the way he is with them. He admitted that he like her more than he like our other friends, he enjoyed picking her up from home to go to work, it was his idea to carpool. He loves inviting them for family barbeque. He said he wants me to be friends with her- I am trying but my jealousy is still here. My husband is aware that I am jealous of his friendship with this person but assures me it is only friendship, a platonic one. Is it me who just had the problem, I admitted to him that I am jealous of the time he spent with her, like he would pick her up for work but have to go earlier so that they can have a coffee at her place ( sometimes the husband is home, other times it is just her at home). He asks me if I am ok, but when I say Iam not ok with this he seems not to be able to understand.Am I just stressing myself?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I have 4 “versions” of myself. The main one (me) is the artistic one and sees everything in a positive light but can get depressed easily. The second main is Jake who is logical and sees everything more realistically but can get angry easier than the rest of us and is the strongest. The third version is Jack who is a over confident person who has no emotions for others and gets things he wants for the body’s benefit. The fourth one jakey is the happiest out of all of us and is very careless about the body. jakey sees things as “life is short so why not” type of attitude.jakey comes out in a very happy scene or when I get into a deep depressed state. We are all aware of each other and we all share the same memories. They started to exist after an overwhelming event of getting out of a bad relationship, going home to angry parents, and going to school was hell. I was 13 at the time and I kept my sadness inside because I didn’t want to worry my parents even more. I have a history of suicidal actions, and self-hurting actions. There are times where we all fight like siblings but nothing too harsh. They don’t look different from me however they act a lot different from me. I hope this make sense. Its not multiple personality because they look like me but they act very different from me (hence they are called versions) However, I know that it’s not nothing. I’ve decided to accept them and let them have full control of the body for one day throughout the week. Please tell me if this is a mistake or if there is something better I should do. Thank you for your time.

Cognitive distortion: Mind Reading
Distorted part: {'text': ['I was 13 at the time and I kept my sadness inside because I didn’t want to worry my parents even more.'], 'answer_start': [872]}
From a teen in the U.S.: Hi, sorry to be a bother, but I have been having some really disturbing dreams recently. As a little background I grew up in a normal, loving family, I attend exercise classes twice a week, and I journal regularly, so I feel like mentally I should be in a pretty good place. But I have these dreams where I do really disturbing things, I will describe a few of them here. In one I was having sex with the dead body of the girl I have a crush on (I am an in the closet lesbian- idk if that is important), in another I was having sex with a young child in a school bathroom. I do not have any, um, desire to be with corpses or children, but I wake up from these dreams feeling aroused. I would never, ever consider doing anything like that in real life, but is this something I should be concerned about?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
From a woman in the Philippines: I was sexually abused when I was younger and diagnosed with clinical depression almost a year ago. I used to have bad temper problems (snapping out or having a mental breakdown in a split-second) which does not happen as often anymore. I still self cut when in the state of depression.

Cognitive distortion: Mental filter
Distorted part: {'text': ['I used to have bad temper problems (snapping out or having a mental breakdown in a split-second) which does not happen as often anymore. I still self cut when in the state of depression.'], 'answer_start': [132]}
From a teen in the U.S.: i’m positive that i am depressed. i’ve had countless episodes where i have felt empty/numb inside and shut everyone out as well as having lost interest in many things. i’ve only recently started cutting myself, but i’m working on stopping the habit.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I recently finalized a highly contentious divorce with an abusive spouse who used horrific tactics to emotionally abuse me, tear me down, turn people against me, and even take my son away for a period of time (using my mental health as an excuse, which is absolutely not a factor and was exacerbated by him). My parents have been on his side through the entire process and I have essentially cut them out of my life for the time being in order to attempt to heal from all of this. During the last part of our marriage, he used tracking devices on me, routinely went through my personal items and phone, and the divorce process intensified his verbal abuse, where I was regularly gaslighted and berated.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Last night something happened that I’ve never gone through. Me in my bf were in my car and I was mad and frustrated with him(remind you the day before was one of my worst days because I almost broke up with him) so I became so stressed and aggravated. He told me to relax and I slowly started to become light headed and eventually I wasn’t able to move. I felt completely soulless. I wasn’t able to feel anymore and I couldn’t talk. Even my bf said I looked dead it took about 2 hours for me to slowly start moving and talking. I remember I was able to see and hear everything but I couldn’t do anything. Eventually I became very scared of what was going on to me and I started crying and he told me it might be a way that my body just shut down so I wasn’t able to feel anymore. I feel like God did this to me so I can finally relax, but I don’t know. Can you please give me the answers ? (From the USA)

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
My dad is severely depressed and continually shouts that he is going to kill himself. He has withdrawn from everybody and REFUSES to get help. He says he is a failure and spends all his time alone or complaining about life. He has lost it and I dont know what to do. Can you please help?

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
Im not reallt sure if i will get a response but i need some sort of answer and i refuse to go to a clinic. Ever since my 16 birthday ive developed strange urges. The urges range from wanting to hurt people and animals, to wanting to convince everyone that they are wrong about everything and that nothing they do is worth their time. Now i k,ow this might seem harmless but im 20 now, and slowly but surley the urges have gotten worse. I usually have 1 episode per year and im concered. Last year i actively went searching for an animal to kill and blugeoned a opposum to death with a pipe. Im not sure if i should seek help or if i should convince myself that its all in my head. Please, i need an answer.

Cognitive distortion: Emotional Reasoning
Distorted part: {'text': ['The urges range from wanting to hurt people and animals, to wanting to convince everyone that they are wrong about everything and that nothing they do is worth their time. Now i k,ow this might seem harmless but im 20 now, and slowly but surley the urges have gotten worse. I usually have 1 episode per year and im concered. Last year i actively went searching for an animal to kill and blugeoned a opposum to death with a pipe.'], 'answer_start': [162]}
I decided to see a private therapist for the first time today, and after the session I felt like it was pointless (I have met with a school psychologist before, and she was absolutely amazing, & professional, so this made me question today’s experience.)

Cognitive distortion: Overgeneralization
Distorted part: {'text': ['I decided to see a private therapist for the first time today, and after the session I felt like it was pointless (I have met with a school psychologist before, and she was absolutely amazing, & professional, so this made me question today’s experience.)'], 'answer_start': [0]}
I’m lost in life, I often feel rage, anger and hatred towards others for no reason and I want it to stop. When I was younger I always was that light hearted hopeful little boy that helped anyone he could, now I look in the mirror and all I see is a Monster filled with so much rage that I could spit fire.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['I’m lost in life, I often feel rage, anger and hatred towards others for no reason and I want it to stop. When I was younger I always was that light hearted hopeful little boy that helped anyone he could, now I look in the mirror and all I see is a Monster filled with so much rage that I could spit fire.'], 'answer_start': [0]}
From the U.S.: My PTSD has been difficult to treat and I have often wondered if it is a matter of “belief”;. I understand that trust may be an issue there, but I do trust my therapist and very much respect him, I just think EMDR is bullshit. We’ve tried it 7 times now and I’ve read several books/articles and it just strikes me as Confession for secular people, complete with ritual and sanctification. (I’m sorry, I’m a scientist, if it works by simulating REM, then why don’t we just compare fMRI scans of EMDR and REM? You could even scan the same client!) I want it to work, I’ve tried coaching myself to let it happen, let the process do its thing but it just hasn’t been the “miracle” you read about for me, which is crushing.

Cognitive distortion: No Distortion
Distorted part: {'text': [''], 'answer_start': [-1]}
I used to always just joke about being depressed and hating life, but in the past few months (sparked by bad arguments with my mom, having to put down the dog I’ve had and loved for nearly 12 years, and getting put into a class with a very bad teacher in school), I’ve been getting worse and everything I never dreamed I would actually do/feel/think is becoming a reality. I’ve been thinking about self-harm even though I’ve always found it ridiculous, and my mental breakdowns have been occurring more and more often. I’m more prone to crying out of nowhere or at the slightest mention of something even remotely upsetting to me. I’ve been in two relationships and both of them were terrible, one partner forcing me into sexual activities, and one partner leaving me for someone else while blaming me for the relationship failing. My mom has been switching between being nice to me, ridiculing me, and ignoring me. It makes my already low self-esteem drop even more, and at this point, I’ve learned to ignore her, but It’s still difficult sometimes to tone out her words. My teacher at school doesn’t teach the material but expects us to know how to do it on his level even though we’re beginners (AP Language). He gives everyone bad grades all the time and never praises us when we do good. His lectures to the class are no better than saying we all are terrible students and should be receiving even lower grades. He makes me feel unwanted and going to his class makes me really anxious. I’m currently trying to drop it, but my principal won’t return my emails regarding it. I want to get help, but the other part of me feels like I don’t deserve it. I’ve been surprising myself when it comes to controlling the urges to harm myself or worse, but the urges have been getting more tempting as of late. I haven’t really been feeling any positive emotions lately, but whenever other people are around I subconsciously smile, even when I don’t want to. I hate the way I am now, and I want to get better, but I also don’t want to cause anyone trouble.

Cognitive distortion: Personalization
Distorted part: {'text': ['My teacher at school doesn’t teach the material but expects us to know how to do it on his level even though we’re beginners (AP Language). He gives everyone bad grades all the time and never praises us when we do good. His lectures to the class are no better than saying we all are terrible students and should be receiving even lower grades. He makes me feel unwanted and going to his class makes me really anxious. I’m currently trying to drop it, but my principal won’t return my emails regarding it. I want to get help, but the other part of me feels like I don’t deserve it.'], 'answer_start': [1073]}
From a woman in the U.S.: MY husband (married this past July) has struggled in the past when we were dating with drinking issues. They have been addressed and he admits the times he was drinking too much but over the years this has caused SEVERE anxiety in me. He still (just 4 months ago) drove home drunk from a co-worker’s house. So there hasn’t been a time where he has consistently shown a change because little things like that keep happening to recylce me into this time where he was drinking excessivvely.

Cognitive distortion: Magnification
Distorted part: {'text': ['They have been addressed and he admits the times he was drinking too much but over the years this has caused SEVERE anxiety in me. He still (just 4 months ago) drove home drunk from a co-worker’s house. So there hasn’t been a time where he has consistently shown a change because little things like that keep happening to recylce me into this time where he was drinking excessivvely.'], 'answer_start': [130]}