marriage (not through my drinking as I never get drunk) My daughter died of cancer last year, my business is struggling and I am alone and lonely. My only release is a bottle or more of wine virtually every night. I've lost track of the times I've tried to cut down. Due to polymyalgia I had a full examination at the doctor's, blood tests -- the whole works. I was fully expecting my liver and/or kidneys to show up as damaged but they are all functioning fine. I half hoped I'd be given a bollicking by my doctor as a wake-up call. It would have given me the reason to stop. As I said I never get drunk but I would be a very happy man if I could just be reasonable and stick to three glasses of wine per night. Perhaps then I'd also sleep better. I just can't seem to do it. Good luck to all of you. Steve Steve, I'm extremely sorry to hear of your loss, I completely understand everything you said. You have suffered two losses, you're lonely and the bit of wine of an evening is a comfort, since you don't get drunk on what you drink it doesn't seem so bad, it's like reading my own life story! I drink far too much for a female, it's just I can drink so much without getting drunk so I will drink until I feel a buzz or feel relaxed enough to go asleep. Thanks