a bit and then get over it.  As I said many posts ago, it is like a bereavement.  Time is the only healer even when you have every reason to not love someone any more you go into denial.  Eventually time helps us to see things in a new light... I am a little more steady today - a busy day at work took my mind off things and when I got a text from my MM I felt pleased and yet almost weary -I am tired now of the emotional stress.  I am sleeping so much and my legs feel heavy as I drag them up the stairs.  I want to know the outcome of my own life!  Am I going to be with him or not? How long will it take? how will my friends and family react if we do make the move? How will his react!?! He is smitten -his term. But aren't we all, when cupid's bow shoots accurately?  I don't doubt anymore that I am with the wrong man - but I do doubt the future every now and then.  Although, if you ask for my gut reaction, I think that actually me and the MM would get on great and that he might actually leave for me.  I think I have enough experience to recognise something good when it happens... Gosh, I do hope I am right! x April Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement and sympathy. The past 24