humour and I do admire the no nonsense approach you have adopted to fighting cancer. I hope thing turn out okay for you. Take care, best wishes, kind regards Brian What a frank message.  I have so much respect for people who take part in these trials.  The treatments patients get to choose from a rely on are only available because of people like you.  Good luck. You ask about the port - my husband had a portacath fitted then he was first diagnosed.  The only way I can describe it is like a flattish plastic bottle top under the skin.  Magic button works as a description!  It certainly makes having an infusion easier as there's no searching for veins to fit a canula every time, and once it's healed it's healed -  so you can bathe, shower, swim etc without worry. I am wearing the blackbird dress and off for a lovely meal.I even managed some Christmas shopping today -alimp slows me down but does not make me any more economical. Thank you for telling me about the port-while i  logically knew pretty much what it was-in my head it was assuming ever larger vaguely cyborge  proportions.I was getting tired of doing my best brave pincushion impressions-it will be nice not to have people keep approaching me with needels and kind faces saying "sharpe scratch" The daughters gone for a riding day so i can bore on for as long as i want. I am now the proud owner