eyes out. I felt I had been so careless, stupid and reckless. I could have put my husband at risk too, I could have cause so much harm and damage in my family. All because I was seeking OUTSIDE and sleeping with someone else recklessly. My whole world could have crashed down and my whole future wiped out if I catch anything as scary as HIV. To cut a long story short, I am now looking at life in a positive, clearer way. I have deleted all of W's texts and emails. I am now moving on my life and don't want to see him again. It's not worth putting myself through that risks. I will still check back this site and will try my best to provide some moral/emotional support to all who still need it. But to all of you still confused, I don't judge you all because I have been through it myself. But instead of looking elsewhere, it is always worth to try and fix the problems at home first. If you have kids, look at their little faces and think hard. Our reckless actions might cost their happiness and change our/their life/future. Please, think hard and keep safe with your family, if that option is the best. Will write again. Well, firstly Emily I really hope things work out for you - sadly my life is turning in a different direction. We went out for dinner last night, i was hoping we would have a