change his lifestyle since being with you, all for the better. Of course its more difficult to forget him especially now that he is nearly perfect with the image too. With W, I love the way he looks. We both match with our height and size. We are both slender in figure and look very matching together. My husband plays the rugby and he has a rugby player's body wherease I am very slender. When I cuddle up with W, I fit in his arms perfectly and we just clicked in place beautifully. Our hands fit beautifully in each other's too. It's been one and half week without W now. I really wonder if he misses me and still longs to pick up the phone to get in touch. Surely he can't erase me off just like that? As for my marriage, I look at my husband every day and I kept asking myself "can I be happy with this man again?" Without W clouding my judgement, I really hope to find the answer for myself. But until I let W go (from my mind and heart), I will not be able to give my marriage its very best. Having said all that, I have been reasonable at home with my family. I did spend more time with the family by doing more family things together. Tomorrow is going to be awful because its Valentine Day and I am going to be thinking of W quite badly. Sigh. Suzy/Ivan, how