I dont think I want to go it alone. I would have gone with him, no doubt and yes, this may have been a mistake but I will never know. All I know is that here and now, being with my husband is better than on my own. Cowards choice maybe. All the signs for P are completely negative, so end of. Still looking for a job and running. Perhaps in time I will find the strength to do what I really want to, but not now. Sorry - not so brave after all am I. Why are we women so needy!?  I do worry that if I dont sort things out though, I could be tempted again by someone else, as it is another (why now? never this popular when I was young and single!) guy has been giving me the come on and has made no bones about what he wants - not interested dont need the hassle, but its like bloody buses!!!!! Emily, you really need to think things out. If you, like me wait til the children are a bit older, we will still be young enough to start again, as we areonly in our thirties now BUT having been there, you really must try your damnest to work out who you want or it will break you and you'll end up a shell of your forma self. A good friend of mine was so worried I was so into P but not getting anywhere and