still struggling with going out.. last saturday I blew it yet again. I've just had enough now & don't want to be the one who always drinks more than anyone else. who is too pissed to talk sensibly to anyone else. It will be really painful but I know it will get better. I wish I'd stopped 20 years ago. I really wish I had. You can do it. For your own sake but also importantly for your son Natalie. No need to set a date forever. Just try to get through one evening to start with. Strength. Angelica xx PS Am on day 3 now.. still not feeling great (yes at my age my hangovers last 3 days) but know that by the end of the week will not be feeling so physically sick, but the middle of next week (if i can get through the weekend) I will be on a high emotionally.. much more vibrant & looking at the world as a wonderful place, calmer and more confident. Why didnt I do this years ago? I contribute much better at work, no longer sitting quietly hoping noone realises I have a massive hangover & worrying do I still stink of booze? It is so wonderful waking up in the morning after a sober night out looking back, after a goods night sleep, on a really enjoyable pleasurable evening.. rather than the dreadful memories of shame gradually revealing themselves throughout the day as I emerge from the alcoholic