tempted to stay as friends with him but I can't be bothered to initiate contact. I know he stays friends with all his exes and eventually we will be able to be friends again but for now, its really best to stay away from each other. I realise there is no emotional fulfillment in my relationship with W. Sexual and physical fulfillment yes but no real emotional fulfillment. It was all time wasting and I am glad its over now before dragging it any deeper only to cause more pain for myself. I agree, I had idealized my friend M too. Still my heart want to continue to keep his prefect image -- I am fighting with myself all the time. My feeling to M is very similar as you have for W. In fact, at the beginning, he was over weight and during the time he pursues me, he started working out because I am very active physically. It was a good influence. He lost more than 50 pounds and looked so much better before we broke. On one hand, I am glad that I made difference in him in a good way, on the other, it made it harder for me to forget him as he is so "prefect" now. I dream about him a lot, and sometimes even about his baby. I still miss him so much although I know "to love him enough to set him free". I think I need to do the same things