a nasty home life and look forward to a life under your control. As people have said theres support out there if you need it. But its amazing the effects education / work can have on your esteem, the future is going to be better than your past. Do you have any friends you can stay with? Write a journal or something and explain details of nights that she has a go at you like what she says and if she hurts you etc, then you have specifics in case she does turn around and act nice and polite when child services come knocking. I had the same situation a while ago, she would threaten but once i left she would freak out and start looking for me, is this the case with your mother as well? If it is then i suggest you take a walk to the cop station next time she tells you to get out, don't argue or say a word to her just simply walk out the door and when the cops come back to get her side of the story it should open her eyes to how much it's actually affecting you. From then on i'd say she will start thinking twice before telling you to leave. (My situation ended up with me actually getting into a fight with her boyfriend and i left immediately to stay with my grandfather in Sydney, i haven't spoken to her since and she has tried numerous times