would never forget our last meeting, we were both sitting talking about our position and he was holding both my hands tightly throughout our two hours chat and looking at me deep into my eyes with such emotions.  And at the end of it, he told me he felt really low. Part of me don't want him to give up. I want him to pursue. I want him to tell me he loves me. But I suppose if he has a right mind and sense with him (which clearly he has), he knows its not worth pursuing someone's wife who has admitted she is scared of leaving the marriage. I have to keep telling myself "Life goes on". With a sigh. Emily, I have found below writing from a website. Would like to share it with you. It helps me to see things differently. Just admit it to yourself: he's not as great a guy as you thought he was, he was insensitive and selfish and wrapped up in his own needs; he is FLAWED, f*cked upSeeing him for who he really is rather than the romanticized version of him you have in your heart must happen in order for you to let go enough that you aren't eaten alive by resentment and feeling like he victimized you. He is just a man, a flawed human, and you entered his sphere of f*cked-up-ness and got burned because you have your own human flaws and foibles and got caught up in