years, all the sudden, I met this guy and he has showed me how a real couple should be: physically attracted, chemical between each other, then the sex life -- the basic glue of a relationship. All these are missing from my marriage. I have been married for 16 years now. I wish I had ended my marriage 15 years ago. And had a different life. Now I have two lovely boys, but the environment that we provided them never healthy. You can imagine I am mad all the times even before the affair. I feel bad for my husband, I was not honest to both of us when we were married. And he has never be loved the way he should have been. -- A poor life for both of us. Maybe it is too late! I am a good Mom, I do everything I can for my kids, but I can not pretend I am happy all the time as I am not. It was easier when the kids are younger, they kept my mind busy, I do not think too much and got numb, now they have grown up. I stared wonder what kind of life that I have had? I do not have the confidence that we will make things better. I may have to stay for another 10 years, and I am afraid it will be too late. I am stuck. Anyways, hope I did not bore you all. I do not know what value