thanks for recommending Stay by Sugarland, Im listening to it. How about Better in Time by Leona Lewis? Keep writing. Hi emily, Yes, my feelings have gone. I feel so used by him, and dont believe a single thing he said anymore. I feel sick when I think of him and the things we did. i truely believe he is an arsehole and cant believe what I have risked. Ok my marriage is not very exciting but at least he loved me for me. I dont know if I can repair things or if I can feel love again but as far as P is concerned, he can sod off... end of rant. suzzy I have found this thread incredibly helpful and a real comfort. Thanks for your honesty Emily. Please give us an update and don't keep your conversation with Suzzy too private, although it's good you support eachother we want to know how you're doing! Also Emily I just want to say (that's me above, my initials are AKS) that you could be me. Everything you describe emotionally and how you're dealing with things could be me too, it's uncanny and I feel quite strengthened by reading it. My concern is that you might feel isolated and a failure if you get back with William because of all your posts about determination and resolve and moving on. Please don't be hard on yourself. You didn't choose to be in this position (although there was obviously some free will