and respect me for the different view I have come to cultivate. Nothing ever has been given to me that easily and I have come to appriciate this as a gift rather than a burden. I know where im coming from, but it is more important for me to keep looking at where I am going. Have achieved respectable success in the music industry as DJ, promoter and blogger, but my vision and passion keeps developing in new directions and I am getting more eager to really contribute in this world. If you have been diagnosed by some doctor and think that his opinion is so important. I dare you to prove him wrong and be the best you can be and work at it. If your serotonine system has not been as damaged as mine by excessive chemicals, well then... You might just do a lot better than me if still have some guts in you I dare you to try. Thanks for sharing your story. I hope it encourages those who are struggling in similar ways as you have. I especially liked what you mentioned about being proactive instead of playing victim. I've noticed when I begin to feel sorry for myself, others seem to sense it & sometimes believe what I convey in my expressions of low self esteem. Yet, when I am feeling better about myself, more optimistic about the future & appreciative about what's made me me, others seem to respect that more too. Thank