feel like have done for ages, lovesick and desparate. Hope you are ok. Write soon HI DB, I have to write after reading your message as I hope to offer some comforting words to get you through this crappy evening. I take it as you rang him or he rang you, either way it makes no difference since you ended up sounding as though you are almost begging him to have you back. Earlier in your other message you mentioned something about your low self esteem issues. It could be that low self esteem which made you stoop to that level and am I right in suggesting your short affair with him has made you feel special, adored and boost your confidence and self esteem (during that time). Now without it again, you are back to that person with little self esteem once again? Do you think he is like a lifeline to you and helped you in shaping your confidence and personality and made you feel special? I got a feeling W is not going to contact me tonight and I am determine not to initiate. Im just going to keep myself busy in order not to think about him. Will update tomorrow. Take care. God you should be a counseller, as thats about it although have not lost all of the boost he has given me. What I do keep feeling is why am I not worth it, his love I mean. Why, whats wrong with me, and