I do have problem -- a pretty serious one. I am afraid of trying to give it up -- I've never tried before -- but I absolutely know that I MUST try to do this, if I am to continue to function properly in my life. This is a wonderful site. Thank you to Jules for that book reference: I'm going to buy it and read it. I like reading all of these posts; they make me not feel alone with my problem. I have become so used to the alcohol and pot to keep me occupied as I am alone most of the time outside of work. Nothing makes me more comfortable than to sit at home, get stoned and drink a pint of bourbon each night. I look forward to it, yet I get up each day and go to a very stressful but important job. I am an educator of all things. You would think I would have my stuff together but I don't. I am afraid of the severe loneliness if I stop drinking. What do I do with my time. I have no hobbies but drinking. What a mess I have become. 45 years old and live in a shoe. I know my alcohol has robbed my life, yet I keep thinking that since I am a responsible person, work a good job, pay my bills and am relatively harmless, I am doing alright. Besides, I only drink at night. Every night. If it's not