blown affair. now he has finished it, not because he does not still want me but the guilt is getting to him. He is not in love with me but i am with him. Problem i want him back but its a no go, he still wants to be friends and we talk daily, do not want to be with husband but with children feel cant leave. God knows why we get ourselves in these messes. I wish I could help you with advice how to get your life back, but I too am confused and stuck. Spend half my time in tears and the other day dreaming when i should be being a good mother to my children... To the writer above, we are in a similar position as not being able to leave because we got children and its just heartbreaking at the thought of breaking our family and tearing the kids' world apart. I don't judge you for being in love with your friend's husband because sometimes in life, things like that happen and it's not something we want to happen but its very difficult to control our emotions or choose who we want or won't fall in love with. I am sorry to hear that you are now going through difficult time and been crying to yourself and i am sure missing the guy and still wanting him and thinking of him. That would be me when I finish it all with William. Or when he