research methodology, her discussion is more focused on helping students conduct autoethnographies of their current lives, while mine focuses mainly on my past. Again, Ellis's focus is also centred on the self, while my focus centres on the connections between self and social, using self as an entry point. There is very little written about researchers using narrative to research their own experiences. I therefore felt I could not use narrative on its own, but found the methods within narrative research to be quite useful when connected to autoethnography. Czarniawska (2004) states that 'narrative is understood as a spoken or written text giving an account of an event/action or series of events/actions, chronologically connected' (p. 17). For Clandinin and Connelly (2000), 'narrative is the best way of representing and understanding experience. Experience is what we study, and we study it narratively because narrative thinking is a key form of experience and a key way of writing and thinking about it' (p. 18). Thus, using narrative is my method of researching my own experiences through autoethnography. I used Clandinin and Connelly's concept of the four directions of inward, outward, backward, and forward to explore my life connected to Citi. By inward, we mean toward the internal conditions, such as feelings, hopes, aesthetic reactions, and moral dispositions. By outward, we mean toward the existential conditions, that is, the environment. By backward and forward, we refer to temporality -- past, present, and future. (p. 50) I explored my feelings as they relate to