minute of every day but now I can managed 2 hours without thinking of him, which is quite a huge step forward. This site really has helped me and thanks also to all of you who shared. To the dad above who wrote in, I still care for my husband as a person and also as the father of the children. I dont know about "in love". Its been such a long time together and I think I may love him but as the father of my children rather than as a romantic interest. I am hoping to build it up with him again, to rekindle a bit of romance and sparks, not sure if its possible but I am trying on my part. So is he too. Our marriage definately worth a try again. And if I can save it, I want to start a new chapter with my husband and hold my head high and love/protect my family with love and pride. All the best to us here and hope we find happiness in love and life. Keep writing. Emily, Just to say, my affair is completely over. The recent scare has thrown us both and whilst I still love him so so much, it can never be. I have had to explain certain things to my husband but he does not know the full story. I have simply told him I have fallen for someone else but that it is not going anywhere and that for the