I grew up in a family of mostly single females who consistently bitched about how men were rubbish and I shouldn't trust them or ever fall in love. I never had a male figure in my life. I watched my mum, aunts, cousins date endless losers, who would cheat on them, abuse them etc. I watch movies and see couples who seem to spend endless time together and do the most romantic things. Obviously movies aren't like real life...but my friends seem to have relationships like you see in the movies. They go on holidays with their boyfriends, go to family events together, and have loads of pictures together in lots of cute poses and romantic locations which they post on face book. Their boyfriends whisk them away on romantic trips randomly. Even on TSR a lot of people seem to have these amazing relationships. I don't have a relationship like my friends' have and thus feel I'm selling myself short. At the same time it's not as bad as the relationships my relatives have had and I feel I am expecting too much. Therefore I just don't know whether to judge if i have a good relationship or not...which I know must sound incredibly stupid. At times I feel happy but most of the time I'm unhappy....but I feel this is because i don't know what my expectations should be. One that doesn't contain lies, one that you feel independent and dependent on your partner, One that makes you