I've seen him drinking there sitting all alone hoping and praying that his true love will come home never once, never twice every time she took his breath away every day, every space, every silence he'll say "she's all I have" as if there is anything capable of altering the sway of his heart bring out the gun and shoot me if i'm lying to you oh god I would not bet against him giving his all, completely genuine and oh lord well i've seen him drinking there sitting all alone hoping and praying that his true love will come home end, I was just cowardly I know there are no prizes for changing and doubt, iI made a meal of it and hate was always mine for the taking an eggshell past I'm schtum with shame oh god and his humour a bullet scratched revealed my name loaded for the future face up the backbone and brain don't lace up suspicion of pain won't serve you right the wind turns ill rapes the heart and blinds the will wish you were in love with my nervous tissue heaven preserve us ideas will eat as vultures die lets go forth and multiply such crap fell from a hundred lips in spite i know a history will start to come but boy memories override you're just a bit too eager for martyrdom a worthless man is one who weeps get up and running resist he can and scars he'll keep and