in hospital so whether the treatment works or not at least i can be confident i will be there to get it. A magic button,a bed,tulips all i need now is for the lab rats to not have died in vain . Just a quick hello as i am off to get the train and join the other rats for my magic medicine-back on wendsday-so am in suppressed panic mode.I hope all is as well as possiable for you and ian. Have been a bit kackered-was back in london on friday for blood  (have to be done 3 days before chemo) and have the site checked as it itched like crazy and then someone left a message that  i could come in  the following monday-had very long conversation about how i was going to come up this monday come hell or high water.I totally understand why sounding off can seem like a good idea.Anyway dont want to prove him right by missing the train. Part of me cant quite believe that this week has gone so well.If i had been given a penny for everytime a doctor had looked at me and said "unusual" i might not be rich but i reckon i would have damm near the price of a pint,so when i hear about potential unusual side effects in my head i am hearing the words "you will get....."  It does not help that i am a red head  and i burn and i blister  at the slightest