perfect -or so it seems but of course they all do.   I knew him as a teen, he is wealthy, handsome, worships me... but loves his children [younger but not babies].  He is torn and I understand as I could not do it when mine were younger, but I am not sure we can continue otherwise.  After all, I don't want to carry on for years -how awful.  I saw a couple earlier today parked at the end of a deadend lane one car hiding the other.  They were kissing passionately -I thought it looked sad -and then I realised I have done that! I never planned to bump into him again after nearly 30 years.  It just happened.  IF he is up for it then I will jump -but I will not try to persuade him -I just can't he must decide on his own. I will check-in tomorrow with an update.  He just text... April x April, I agree he must decide - I know from P that you cant make someone leave. but he is obviously keen as texting you at that time! I have to say your husband doesn't sound like a decent bloke, I mean I know I dont know the guy but you should not have to be emotionally battered. Despite the wine, little sleep again, bad dreams. Its like a never ending nightmare sometimes. i have found the name of a good therapist/counsellor through my doctor who I saw earlier due to lack