17. I contemplated committing suicide at the time, I thought that my life had been bad so far and wasn't going to get any better. Eventually I reasoned with myself and decided that the future was a bit like an adventure and could it really be worse than before? It was hard. I had no one to help me (incl family and friends -- a story too long to go into) and ended up on the streets briefly with no food, money or support from government agencies in the UK as I fell into a void based on age. I was extremely lucky and got into an emergency homeless hostel within 2 days and 6 months later met my wife. It was only through meeting my wife that I had some guidance and support to get myself to where I am now. She got me out of the hostel system and into my first place -- one room with shared facilities -- part paid for by the dole and part by my wages. 10 years later I now own my own 4 bed home in Australia, have qualifications (a degree), lots of work experience and i'm about to start my own business. If I was in your situation, I would seek help from family, friends and definitely get a job, even if it's part time. This way you can pay for your rent, study etc and enjoy life. Financial security is very important to mental wellbeing I think. Actually in