your agent this morning, he really likes you. He's smart, I'm very pleased to have Josh, he's known me since 2005, my junior year in high school. He's just been helping me ever since. He's great. He's a very smart guy. He can talk your head off. He's a good guy. We've been together so long, I signed with him in 2008 when I was a Brewer and we've been at it ever since. He's helped you through hard times. When I was suspended in 2009, he stuck with me. He talked to people. He understood the decisions that I've made. He's just behind me on everything. When you are suspended for that long, what do you do. I went home to Virginia for a while, to mom and dad. Mom and dad calmed me down. After that I went down to Florida and started working out with buddies I have in Florida. Then spring training and in 2010 I had a great year with the Brewers. I thought that that put me back where I needed to be with them. You've not used since? No, I have a great support system and there is no reason for me to throw away anything else. I've been to the bottom in my life. I've been shamed in the newspaper, I've been arrested. I know the bottom is not where I want to go. Decisions I make now are way more mature than I've ever been. People are going to make mistakes,