love you more with each day and I want to wake up with you every morning and fall asleep with you every night.' But anyway, that aside, something is stopping me from sending it.  I want to wait, see what happens, let him breathe.  See if he contacts me. I did see Matt in passing at work the other day.  I could see out of the corner of my eye that he saw me and he stood and looked for a moment.  It was heart wrenching, seeing him looking brown and happy and relaxed, cup of coffee in his hand, smiling and chatting. I want him so much. And I don't believe that he's so good a liar that he completely made up all those lovely things he said to me, really only a matter of days ago. The pain is unbearable.  DS I feel for you so much.  But how can you expect someone to answer the question 'why don't you love me as much as you used to?'  From what you've said, it sounds like she's moved on and taken that irrevocable step away from you and while she's the focus of this other guy's interest she won't look back at you.  Perhaps it's my cynical experience talking here, I hope so and I hope she comes to her senses and realises how much she cares for you but it sounds unhopeful. How do I stop myself contacting him? Hanging on endlessly?  I want to let go... AKS