P is no good and to be honest how could it work anyway. imagine the trouble he would have getting to see his children if he was with me. Still........... Just watched ' my family' on telly and I know it would be great to have the passion that is protrayed there, I know only a programme! What stops you really leaving April? I have to admit it is the lack of financial security for me. Once I have a job, at least I will be able to think about supporting me and my children. The bravenest may then return. But as everywhere at mo, there are just not many jobs around, never mind part time. Tonight, i am on the wine again. not the best idea but i may be able to sleep then. hopefully tomorrow will be brighter - weather man says heavy showers in the south so perhaps not!!!!! Which part of country are you? dont want details, just north or south. For you all I would say, is, you have given your children at stable childhood. It is now your turn. Yes leaving for MM may be a mistake and things may not work out. HOWEVER, they may well work out great. Imagine being on your death bed and thinking ' if only' or have on your grave stone ' could have been truely happy, but never was' . Seriously, you are at a position in life when you , I believe, could take a leap