bourbon then at least a bottle of wine. I drink it like water. I watched my father do the same thing. Maybe I'm afraid of the "what if." What do I do with my boredom and deep loneliness if I'm not covering it with drinks and pot at night. What a mess! Hi Steve, I used to think I could never fill the time without drinking, but I was wrong. I find now that there are not enough hours in the day to achieve all the things I want to achieve. Drinking your evenings away is a complete waste of your very valuable life, but you know that. How about giving sobriety a try? What have you got to lose? I spent the early days/weeks reading everything I possibly could on alcohol and its repercussions (enough to keep anyone sober). Waking up clear headed was the first real benefit I noticed after quitting and it is still wonderful after all this time to wake bright eyed and ready for another day. A bottle of bourbon a day is seriously high intake Steve and I would advise you to seek medical assistance before quitting, but then go for it and good luck. Sal, Do you have any advice for the 'reward' type of thinking for drinking? I stated in my post earlier that when I get everything done through out the day, and I feel my drink is my reward. But now that reward is turning into a problem. Thank You