decision for yourself about your way forward. thanks morwenna but i dont want to talk to anyone about it.  if you want me to stop posting i will.  things are just so complicated.  im supposed to be getting married in 11 months.  I dont want to go through with that either but my fiance and his mum went the other day without me knowing and put 1000 deposit on the venue and i have my dress that my mum and dad bought and they dont have a lot of money and spent 1000 on it. I am 28 and feel like a 17 year old trapped in a situation she can get out of.  so confused and upset.  I will stop posting.  Hope everyone elses situation works out. Kat Hi Kat, it is absolutely your choice whether you talk to anyone about your situation or not, and please feel totally OK about continuing to post on this site if you want to, whatever you decide to do, it can be very helpful just to get the comments of other site users on your difficulties.  You will find that other users feel for you in your situation - as do I. I think that there are alot of second hand Millls and Boons for unrequieted lovers arent there? And The Bridges of Madison County always does it for me...other than that, theres work, kids, community, friends and family to keep numbness and/or temptation at bay... Yes I go through alot of