of the see-saw Learn some mind calming tricks ...that's another thing the ptb are keeping from you and enjoy your life. Use what you are learning to plan for the future, eat well and let your moral compass guide you.....yes it's fucked up out there, but also there are many wonderful people doing lots of positive work (your average miserable conspiracy theorist doesn't get a thrill from posting that though ) GOOD IDEA - get yourself an allotment, maybe your family could get involved too, they are good skills to have and you will be living ever so slightly out of the matrix P.S there is absolutely no going back.....we need you on this side of the see-saw Firstly, thank you for not simply presuming that I have just gone through a period of just waking to some information. Thus giving me "Wake up depression". I can assure you though that I am not depressed. I went through, like many others, every kind of emotion through the time. Fear, depression, anger and so on. My family and I do alot of constructive things together. We are a family. We are also a very happy family. I also do accept that there is no going back. The things I have seen, witnessed ect are up there, printed in my mind. My reasoning though is my family. I live for them, I would die for them. All of which would be useless if I didnt enjoy every moment of my time on