afraid of being labeled or judged. I wish you all the best in your journey. You all sound so much stronger than I feel right now. I have been a single parent for many years and the battles that I face have made it hard to cope sometimes. At the end of the day, I want my 'reward' of sitting and drinking. I consume 5-6 drinks a night. In the morning however, I'm feeling sick, short tempered and less motivated. I'm fearful this is taking a toll on my parenting. Since I'm the only parent he has, he really needs me. Thank you for giving me a venue to vent about this. I will continue to follow your thoughts. Hoping for a change soon. I have "quit" several times before. The quits, at least at that time, were actually successful and I felt proud and more positive. I loved not having a hangover everyday. What brought me down was the fact that any socialization I had/have revolved around drinking and I guess I wasn't strong enough to avoid it. The only benefit to the repeated quits is that it is no longer uncharted territory. That doesn't really mean that it is much easier but it is fighting an enemy that you are at least more familiar with. Another trap that I fall into is that after awhile my memory fades of how bad drinking really is. Because I start to feel better and the depression alcohol causes leaves and I