are many cancer support groups, have you checked to see if theres one in your area, you definately need to be talking to and spending time with positive people who know and understand what youre goingthrough. when i was in having my first op the other lady in my room was an 82 year old, she had had her 2nd mastecomy after a number of years, even though her prognosis was not brilliant, she wasnt ready to give up, she was super positive. she uplifted me and since lots of others have aswell, they will for you too if you sk them for help.  talking with other ladies in a group or even one to one will be a big positive boost for you. please start seeking them out, they are there for you. xx So sorry to hear your latest news and I just wanted to send you some special Portuguese positive vibes! Let us know what the results say and please come back here and talk to others who have gone through chemotherapy; we do have a lot of positive stories here. I love your new profile pictures by the way - you look very nice in them! Coragem, estamos todos contigo! (that's Portuguese for: Wishing you lots of courage, we are all with you! ) We are not supposed to write in other languages in the forum as nobody would understand but I thought that if I said something in your native language, it would be more