Empathy is a luxury, while compassion is a very dangerous poison on which self-importance feeds on. My body cried all night. . ...While I was  experiencing the most intense happiness in the thought of rejoining my group. . This body is sick, yet it could live a month or ten + years.. so It is "sick " as every other body in this universe. And may be it will live longer than many others. .___________________________________. I have decided to write about this as I know many in my position would hide in order to escape the cruel judgment of the many. . The many which will point fingers and ronounce your illness as 'a punishment you deserve'. ... I have a different view... a month ago the opinion of my life, which I always viewed difficult, painful and hard as changed. .. The hate, the abuses and lack of love which have filled  this lifetime were indeed a blessing. I was kept  from  getting comfortable into a morbid  'living life'. .. What I call; the death of the spirit. ... I have been blessed as I'm blessed today while I'm given a chance to confront  this illness. .. I have decided to keep away everyone who is so deeply trapped into his own self-pity to wanting to give me compassion. ... Empathy is a luxury, while compassion is a very dangerous poison as feeds the self-importance. . Self importance is what the mind speculates on in order to keep you