written by sufferers of depression (many who've made it out of the dark) and also those who live along side them. I'm finding it to be a relief, much like this forum. I'm not alone. And it also helps to explain the effects of depression on the mind. I'm hearing it from others, not just from my husband. After all there are only so many "I don't know how I feel" or "I don't know if I love you" that I can take. Once again, I wish I had a way of giving you an email address. I would love to be in contact with others but without the forum. I wish I could help. You are not alone. We are all here - all of us in our own little worlds of pain, all at differing levels, and with differing points of view. Thanks A Girl... have decided to stay for now. He's started really opening up to me today about his drug use and how he feels - a first for him and I think it freaked him out a bit, letting someone else into his dark little world... I'm sure the difficult times are not over, but as you say, so long as the lines of communication stay open and things are not frightening, unbearable and sapping the life out of me, then it is all worth it. Strangely, living with him has taught me to be a stronger and better person. I've learned a lot about