Late pregnancy sucks. HARD. And it especially sucks when you're old (I was 38 with #2 and hated every single second!) The good news is that it'll all be over soon. Yes, there's a lot of sleepless nights in your future, but there will likely be a lot more joy too. What you are feeling is abso-fucking-lutely normal. Your life will be different, because you have a beautiful son that you and your wife are raising, but becoming a parent doesn't need to change the person you are or want to be. Best wishes, for you and your family. PS Don't wear black shirts; white hides the applesauce, drool, puke and snot much better. My son is four and still wipes his nose on my shoulder. Kids are disgusting but it's worth it when they sleepily curl into you, holding your thumb and treat you as the island that will save them. Would only add to this comprehensive masterpiece that trying to help others *using the time, skills and resources you already have* goes a surprisingly long way towards earning back some the karma you would otherwise burn through like tissue paper as a parent of young kids or part-time soul-searcher. Law office person should know that there are thousands of poor people not far away who are in desperate need of legal advice and help which they can't afford and many not even know about. Talk about making a mark -- you can save lives. Literally.