(the promise was about physical injury as we can't predict what might happen emotionally and we both got that) and I no longer trust him, with me or the kids. If he could do that to me what would he do if he lost it with the kids? I am so sick of crying. I am wanting to move on but my well husband is a man that would be impossible to walk past. Witty, intelligent, caring, loving and kind. Loves his kids to bits and plays with them beautifully. The temper has affected them, Miss 4 still has bladder control issues when he is about. Yes he has hit her, hard no but inappropriately YES. The pain that I can't fix things at times feels unbearable. What do you say to a nearly 2 yo who wants his Daddy to tuck him in? Or a 4 yo who screams that "Dad would not make me do this"? I am tired and sleep does not want to come when I feel like this. Just realise that what I am writing is my normal journal entry... Really I just wanted to share and say yes there is one more carer out there, also to thank those who have shared before me. With luck we will all come through in one piece. I cried when I read your post too. A couple of years ago our family was in exactly the same situation. Venting feelings of resentment, confusion, shame, disgust, hatred became