lots of happy memories and smiles and to show that he knows that while he can never take back what he did, he will try to replace bad memories with good. He acknowledges the dates. Next week - OMG - will be tough. The dates she was out here, the date I buried my brother...just a lot. I know he feels it. He sent my dad an email yesterday again to acknowledge my brothers death and to again apologize for everything. Betrayal is such an ugly thing and he sees it. I know he is dealing with his own triggers, some same dates and I am sure others that may stand out based on what they talked about. I know when he is triggering - over the last couple of weeks he will out of the blue send me a text saying how much he loves me and how sorry he is for what he did. I don't even ask, but just tell him that I love him too and to get back to work :-) I am very confident that we will come out of this a success as long as we can make it past the first year. Like I told him from the begining, we will either end up a tragedy or a great love story. I'm working on the love story - I still believe in love, pain and all. ...and Mr. Blunt - your post made me cry - in a good way - yep