those symptoms up in the DSM. They won't be there. But if you read these 2 old blog posts in combination with this one (if you haven't already), you'll begin to understand how my CP manifests itself in my mood disorder. Friday, May 18, 2012 I was talking to a friend maybe 3 weeks or so ago, give or take, and I said, completely without thinking about it, "There still might be something there, eventually , but in the meantime, it's his loss. I need to start looking, because I have something to offer someone. " Or as I like to put it (there's a cute story behind it for another time) "Some Guy." If I was someone who gasped, I would have let out a gasp right then. Who is this person uttering those words, "I have something to offer someone"? Not me . Not the person who used to sit in her room and cry because no one would ever love her. Not the person who used to think using a chair made her a burden. Not the person who has been consumed with apathy for well over a year. Not the person who always uses her failures as data to prove she's always going to be a failure. ( THANKS former shrink! ) But yet I can't deny the fact that I did say it, when I least expected it. "...it's his loss. I need to start looking, because I have something to offer someone (Some Guy)."