be addresssed either way. No contact with the other, other than just 'hello' when saw on sat, painful, just wanted to chat but no. So low, it is killing me. Just want to be happy. Suzzy i, Obviously found this site cuz of my own position, would help so much to air my problem and have input from people who dont know me. I am engaged.  Have been with my fiance for 4 years but have been best friends with him for ten.  I have a 2 and a half year old son.  Last year after being unhappy and arguing sice my son was born I started talking to a guy who i knew through a friend.  At first it was only talking, and neither of us ever intended on falling for each other.  But it happened.  The affair started and i was so sure i was going to leave my fiance to be with this guy.  Even my mum knew what was going on.  But after nine months of not leaving things changed.  My affair and i decided to split as he could no longer handle me living with my fiance.  But we didnt stop talking but for a while i thought me and my fiance would be ok, until my affair guy started to tell me he was going to stop talking to me and move on.  This has thrown me into despair.  I dont want him to move on and forget about me.  I love him but