respect and admiration for your courage in sharing this with us, and the best of wishes that you will find whoever and whatever is right for you on your so suddenly changed path through life. Thank you. I have been the most worried about the reaction of you long-time loyal forum regulars -- I knew that some of you would turn out not to be Christians or some other committed faith, and might not swing with it -- you ones I'd notice and really miss, if you went away.  THANK YOU. Yaaaaaaay. . . . There's lots and lots more to say, of course, and I'll certainly say some of it sooner or later.  But tomorrow I really am going to write about something else.  And right now I am going to bed, to sleep the sleep of the semi-just. *** I am so not going to get into this.  But one of the things that put me off Christianity for nearly sixty years is the whole blind grovelling obedience thing.  Eh.  Here on the other side that's not what it looks like.  But the language can be a little off-putting. + Not that I'm even most of the time moderately good at this. ++ Speaking of the kind of wild coincidences that happen:  my road to Damascus moment happened in the afternoon. That evening Peter's brother the retired priest rang and I picked up the phone.  I literally hadn't spoken to him in YEARS:  we emailed occasionally but he