You know that changes need to be made but everytime you try then the ana just seems to hit back and make you feel like you're doing the wrong thing, or that it'll never work. The pull is just so strong and everytime I try to change it hits me and makes me feel so guilty. I think the secret is perserverence, but that to is really trying. Do you have a good support network cos I also believe that that is key to a successful recovery. It's great that you recognised that you were struggling so much too and asked for help when you did, I'm really proud of you for that!!