husband broke down and told me that he wasn't happy, that he couldn't see any point to anything anymore. I was shocked and hurt. I had thought our life was pretty close to perfect. And now my 'rock' was suddenly crying in my arms (and i've only ever seen him shed a tear tice before). Now i have to be the strong one.Its taken me lots of reading to understand that its not because i've necessarily done anything... he can't help how he feels. He went to the doctors a week or so after sharing his feelings with me. He is trying alternative methods for dealing with depression instead of the pills the doctor gave him. But they don't seem to be working yet. He needs to speak to a phycologist or someone... but i know i can't keep pushing. He needs to want to go for himself. We are supposed to be having a 6 week holiday in Europe next week. But i'm not sure its wise to spend so much money and all our holidays from work in one go when it looks like this might be an ongoing issue we have to deal with. Reading other peoples stories scares me a bit. I'm scared of how our relationship will now change. I don't want to be lonely. I'm tired of having a lump in my throat from trying to hold in the tears. I never considered i might have to be the main bread winner. We don't