deny your grief for your precious friend. Don't try to fake cheerfulness -- especially on your blog -- just "for the sake of trying." Yes, Jackie would want you to continue living life to the fullest. Yes, Jackie would want you to celebrate her life. Yes, Jackie would want you to move through your grief... BUT you cannot "move through your grief" if you don't allow yourself to grieve in the 1st place. And remember when Maddie passed away? Jackie didn't crawl into bed w/you & tell you to be happy and write something happy: she wrapped her arms around you while you cried. She understands grief. As for celebrating her life: every picture & story you've shared has been a celebration of Jackie! and her life. Please, please, be gentle with you. You're the only you we've got! You have been in my thoughts so much recently, Heather. You have been through a lot of straight-up shit. Soak up your time on the floor. I know you'll get back up again someday. I second the recommendation of Joe Biden's speech above. You needn't be in any rush at all to feel happy and celebratory. I know you're probably trying to pull it together to say wonderful things about Jackie! at her service, and I am confident whatever spills out of you will be just the right thing. Thank you again for sharing Jackie! (and everything, really) with us. You're all in my heart today. And maybe this is a