it. we never really slept together and the timing could not have been worse. so sallyann and i distanced from each other, but not for long and it has been heartbreaking ever since. i cant walk out on a baby, but i also know that the closest thing i have ever had to a soulmate exists elsewhere and is something i will never get at home. sallyann has been understanding and supportive but is obviously heartbroken. She constantly questions the fact we are bad people, and maybe she is right. i hate the way i make her feel, and have ceased contact for now - but it is killing me. absolutely killing me. we are great friends, lovers and share the exact same sense of humour. before remeeting her i felt coldly about love, that it was just a chemical reaction nothing more. but now i know i  can feel it and that she i everything i ever wanted. even the thought of taking on someone else's kids doesn't worry me, because they are part of her and i would love to be part of it. now im locked into marriage and a family life that i dont know how to escape. i love the thought of having a baby on the way - i just wish this could have some kind of happy outcome... any thoughts or advice would be greatly appreciated.... NR N.R.- holy crap, are you my alter ego?  We should talk. To the T.I.O Team, I