to be happy with my husband. I am stucked and desperate about my future, sometimes I feel suicidal, I do not know if anyone here had that feeling. But it is scary. If I do no have my kids, I have left this marriage 19 and half years ago. What can I do? Dear Jenny I am sorry, didn't realise that your marriage is that unhappy and it involves domestic violence. Any degree of physical attack at home is unacceptable. It's not healthy to bring up children in such unhappy enviroment and to witness such acts too. Im sorry to hear you haven't got family around you. I dont know which country you are in but can you not find any support at all? Some support group who can put you in touch with other mums your age or in your local area? You do need friends and support to help you through. My bestfriend has provided me lots of support last few weeks when I was in turmoil. I hope you can find some support in your area because you really need it. If you are in an unhappy marriage where violence is involved, do not be afraid to walk out. Your children will benefit more to see one single happy parent than two unhappy parents put together. If you walk out now, you still have a chance to start a new life and eventually meet another person to share your life with. But if you don't do it,