will not let my hurt show. I am fortunate that I do have some very good friends that give me support. I know it was wrong but at the time you dont see that,you just see a gorgeous man wanting you. He was certainly a drug, and just as a withdrawal from drugs causes pain and shakes, this is how i feel. Time will sort out but I will never get her friendship back and that hurts more than anything. How could I have been so foolish, its true what they say, you dont know what you've got til its gone. Suzzy Excuse me suzy, but I am not exactly sure why are you hanging around in the playground every day? (forgive me if it is in THERE somewhere, but I figured it would save me some time to ask, and I will undertake to eventually process all posts.) Do you think the kids are aware at all of the dynamics going on with the sexual politics, unspoken hostility and all the rest? I am personally struggling to get my head around this situation you have on your hands (not to mention the other fellows whose stories lie within)...the following of the path of sensuality and desire over familial love and duty and trying to have it all and not knowing whether it is right or wrong and/or what to sacrifice so therefore not really being able to make a decision and move on...these are just some of the themes