have kids but i'm scared to have them now incase his depression is passed on and i also become a single parent. I'm probably worrying too far ahead, but all of this is going through my mind. I don't want to miss out on life because of him... but at the same time i wouldn't enjoy life if we weren't experiencing it together. I love him so much. I'm new to this as well. Things fell apart about 3 weeks ago for me when I endured 48 hours of constant verbal bashing. We are 37 and have three kids. I was breifly married at a very young age to a man who also suffered depression and popped heaps of pills every day. That ended very quickly. He came home told me he didn't love me and to move out. Luckily I had no children at that stage and it wasn't a difficult decission. This time however I love my husband dearly and we seemed to have the perfect relationship. Upon reading these other stories I to am pondering how the hell I'm going to cope. I already wait on him hand and foot and am confident I haven't anymore left in me to handle this. I'm lost for words really. Shattered that I feel like I've failed twice now. Shattered for my kids as well. I called someone for help after his initial breakdown and they told me to shopping, have cuppas with my friends or whatever it is that