your nose. Don't have a set destination, just go and find yourself! Best thing I ever did years back. Go and see ever part of europe you have heard of. You will find war graves that you never contemplated the number, feel the desolation of prison camps, you will dioscover wonderful people and discover how happy poverty can make people if they want for nothing else. You can see huge cathederals, Wonderful buildings, fantastic views - the wonders of alpine villages, the hustle bustle of big cities - the list is endless. Sorry too here of your plight, my family too are in a similar situation with my son so maybe I can see it from a different perspective. In my opinion children, unless there is good reasons for it are better with both or one of their parents. As you say the process takes forever and the outcome will leave distress no matter who has control of the children. Even with the decision made in favour of the father you will still be given some form of care or visiting rights to your grandchild, so there is no reason why you should lose all contact with your grandson. If you have a good relationship with him now then why should that not continue. Grandparents do have rights in law as do parents. Good luck.... Sorry to hear of your problems. Getting away for a bit sounds exactly what you need. But I would not commit to fulltiming for a