is required to be interstate twice a year for seven week stints at a time. Naturally they were arranging the next time they were to be away together. She is also married with children. To say I was gutted is an understatment. He promised after this that he would once and for all seek and stay in/on treatment. Six months later, he has still only seen a professional three times and is still not on medication although he has given up alcohol. Everything he does, he does to excess. When he was a smoker - 2 packets a day. Alcohol - every day. Caffeine - 5/6 cups a day. Obession with new things all time interspersed with complete apathy to everything. We moved interstate five years ago from our home town so he could pursue his dreams. This meant me being left with two children under 3 in a new state to make things work, which I was more than happy to do. As his income was not good (and still isn't) I've had to keep working. Luckily I work from home so I don't have to worry about childcare but it does mean working very early mornings and late nights to fit around the kids. They are now both at school and I really thought things would be easier by now. I am having to work more than ever. He is rarely home and if he is, he just mopes around in a fog, neglecting what few chores he