and my escape is drink... I will drink anything I can to numb the pain... I dont drink on work days but when I'm at home which can sometimes be a few days a week I can drink from maybe 10 in the morning..... Hi everyone, It is a slight relief to know so many are going through what you are. I mostly don't drink during the week but Friday,Saturday and Sunday I go all out and completely binge. It's scary how much alcohol I can consume before I'm drunk, I sometimes feel immune to it and that's not good for my health especially being female. I don't really feel the need to drink during the week, although sometimes I do but I can say no even though I spend most days alone and it get's very lonely but when the weekend arrives I hit the bottle, I don't go out much because I don't really have many people in my life so if I didn't have something to drink after a week I would go insane. I would like to be able to say no some weekends or be able to stop at a few but when you're lonely with nothing to do it's hard not to numb that and get some sort of buzz from life. Sorry for the long comment, got carried away! Thanks for reading, good luck with everything. You all sound like friends somehow. I'm 60. Wife left 11 years ago after 30 years of