into. Not sure how I feel, give me a few more days. Em, I'll look up that song tomorrow. Have you asked W if he is willing to take on you all? Suzzy Well, in a way that sums up real life -it just goes on good and bad.  Now that you are as good as single -for now- you have to face those bumps.  That is one of the reasons why so many of us don't do it -we are afraid of those bumps.  You are doing it Suzzy -and that is brave.  There is a book called Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway -it might help.  There is another called Why Good People HAve Affairs -corry can't remember the authors but if you google it will find them.  Keep going Suzzy! x April It feels so weird. Spoken to my husband each day as he phones to speak to the children. Not sure if I miss him or the company. The recent events have at least cleared my mind with regards to P. I have no feelings for him at all. what he has done has been totally out of order and ..... quite angry. My issue now is whether I want my husband back or not, and what he wants. It is strange, he has been away before on business but obviously this is different. To be honest it just feels like that at the mo, he away on business so only time will tell how