AKS... You are right.. she has moved on, and I have to accept that. I talked to her last night, I sent her a desparate text telling her I needed to talk to her. And we talked, and I just said I am having a hard time understanding all of this, and that all I really want is to hear what she is feeling, to know what is going on in her heart.. and she is younger, and I dont think wants to commit to something like this right now... She was in a relationship when we started this, he lived there, and she went right from him to this, and she was saying that when she was with him, and unhappy for so long, she fantasized about dating, and being out there, free and open to experience new things... and I know that is where she is now, and I can't ask her not to explore that.. that would be insanely selfish on my part... it is all I want to do though, but that awould just make it worse... so, she has a huge mational meet coming up (she is a swimmer), and we are going to get together after she gets back and talk... share our feelings, because I do care about her, and I really do want to know where she is at... she is an amazing friend, and part of me does not want to lose that... plus, I think getting it all out would