x Suzzy, Seems we are of similar mindset today.. I have been asking myself the happiness question a lot recently.. why am I never happy with what I have? What is it about me that makes me always look over my shoulder? Yesterday, my mom and sister and her family came over for Mother's Day. We have fun, there was some tension in the air, but it was fun. Last night, i was talking with my wife, and we were talking about this idea of happiness, and she mentioned that she has noticed that my entire family, mom, sister, dad, is never happy with anything. There is always something wrong with everything. Not enough of this, or too little of that, or not good enough, or it would be better if it had this, or whatever... And that is my environment. My parents were never happy with anything they had, always wanting something else, more, better, etc... And that is now how I am too. Have been for my entire life. Always dreaming about what I wished I had. And I would do that with the girl too. I would. And it probably would not take long either. I have figured out that for some reason, I cannot allow myself to be happy. There is something inside of me that will never be content with what I have. And it has, and will continue to ruin every meaningful relationship I have. Which is why I am going to talk to