Yes! An exploration into what you're truly capable of, into what your strengths are. Wildly enhance those strengths the same way Albert Ellis did with his own, and then apply them for the benefit of yourself and for mankind. You have nothing to lose and all to gain from such an experience. I meant you should try to do for yourself what Albert Ellis did for himself. quote: now all I need.......is....the............money...\\... boat! quote: I dont want to own a boat, I just want to buy one and maybe give it away or blow it up . I want to buy it just because...........for no other reason than the fact that I can actually buy a boat, thats it. Find something that makes you happy and do it! achieving self goals is the only away to achieve self happiness without bullshitting yourself, Start small could be anything from a food you want to eat to be healthier or a new job but if you don't dream new ideas to achieve and journey into you become stuck in a depressed state of who cares and fears To be happy one must search with in ones self and outside of ones self, find the balance between the internal world and external world that meets your needs ! It's gona take time but believe me a lot can happen in only a few years