of, he'd send them multiple letters if they didn't reply!! Just keep trying. Can you get private lessons? Somebody who's really patient and explain it to you? Look for somebody who will explain it by using visual examples, like toy blocks or a slide ruler. There's nothing to laugh about, just don't tell your friends if they are silly enough to laugh. Look at me. I haven't been the brightest in the maths department. I looked for somebody who explained it to me like that, he even used fruit etc. to show me! And suddenly, it clicked. And I enjoyed maths so much! So what has become of me? A 747-400 pilot, and later I studied phil. II and now hold a job with the Government. So where would I be without us looking for private lessons? I don't know.... You have to work very hard for it but go for it. If I can do it, you can do it as well. Most pilots now do not start in the RAF and move to airliners If you ever get to the stage of having a commercial pilots licence you will most likely have no choice but to be a first officer on a Cargo plane first, next a Captain on a Cargo plane, then first officer on an airliner and only then progress to captain on an airliner - that is how it is done even for pilots coming from the RAF and USAF If you are too chicken