Although he shared all of his previous relationships with me, he was open on the fact that he was not the marrying type kind of guy. Not sure why, when asked, he said he's not sure if he can live with another person in the house for a long time or just having someone in bed or seeing the person everyday! Weird you might think. That already was a red flad for me. I did not listened and paid attention. I thought, things could change besides, I am begininng to fall for him.  I was very vocal  in telling him how I feel about him and though he was so cautious in saying it verbally, his frequent text messages on what his doing, meetings, gym and his caring and supportive gestures says something else. To the point of deciding to date exclusively. He oftenly insisted we are lovers, I am his girlfriend. Since I am so naive in this relationship, I felt wanted and needed. Therefore, I began to "love" the situation I was in. I although i am aware it was wrong but, I never felt so good about myself for a long time, I never felt so wanted, so beautiful and so sexy. It was the time when I finally paid attention on how I fell. how to look good always, how to dress well, how to do great in all I do. Furthermore, I felt a sense of joy enveloping me everyday. I begin to smile and