only momentary the residual effects can hang around for weeks, sometimes even months. Slamming to me parallels every bad decision and choice I've ever made. The thoughts that lead me into horrifying situations were completely constructed by me. I wanted all the bad shit that I've been through to happen to me. As did you, whether or not you're smart enough to understand that you are the architect of your own life is of course up to you. Once you reach that point then magic can happen. You start to create in the moment. Everything is but a thought a way. I met a beautiful girl a few weeks ago. Of course she's being a woman about the whole thing, arms distance and all that. The games don't bother me, if they bother you then check your rule book because you can only lose if you believe you will. This woman is the top of the pile for me, looks wise anyway. I love pretty things, especially pretty things with soft skin and gorgeous eyes. This is a game I will never stop playing. I live for the chase but I am extremely happy once I've caught what I'm after to sit on it until I either walk out of her life or she walks out of mine. Either way I'm happy to just be able to walk.