suddenly realize I'm alive and needed by someone who loves me. When I lose my strength I find that I am somebody else's source of strength. Before the mother was about to kill herself she thought of her son, who needs and loves her, and how much it would hurt him if she did commit suicide. When the mother's father committed suicide, he tore her fences down (took away her sense of strength and protection) and this is the darkest side of the mothers heart. However the love for her son, husband and/or other children gave her the strength to stand up and not kill herself. Her fathers love used to mean a lot more to the mother before he killed himself but it died when the mother finally realized the love of her son, husband and/or other children was the air in her lungs that kept her alive because their lives were so much more happier than the olden days, when it was all black and white. The love within the mother's family stopped the storm of a suicide from hitting the tree (symbolical meaning for family?) and bringing them down. Oh I know, they are such vulnerable lyrics. The honesty of this pain, and a sort of hope that doesn't ignore pain but in fact understands it, is really something. I think the tree must mean what happened at Easter- "When I die I'm alive, when I lose I find my identity... Love was those dark clouds on