have to take care of your reputation and of your family's. Suzzy, no time to let your heart rules your head now. You have to think wisely and smartly now. Write soon. Ivan, I know the longer I drag on with W, the more difficult it is to come out of it. That is why I brought up the commitment issue with him because I need to get straight to the point; Is there a future? If not, I rather not waste time and take anymore risks. The more I am with him, the stronger I felt for him. Of course your two year affair is deeper than my few months of affair with W. But I felt the pain and my heart broke just the same. But its not too bad. Today I felt better than yesterday. I went through a lot of "what could have been" or "if only". Ivan, though J sleeps with her husband, I am sure its not the same as it had been with you. Sex with the lover usually is much more thrilling because of the excitement and sensation with someone new/different.  I think I am doing the right thing to avoid intimacy with my husband "for now" until I am completely over W. Then i will slowly try to build the passion up with my husband. I am putting a bit more effort at home and been shopping for a valentine gift for my husband too. I am really trying hard to