be proud of me, for the very reason that I have taken things and people serious enough to want right about it and try to put it in perspective, from an early age on, to get rid of frustration and anger that way (and really, who uses a journal to be all lovely dovely in ALL of the time, who are they fooling?) He read those to get black and white proof for himself and everybody for that matter, but above all for me, that I was the 'bad' one, I had the personality disorders, he told me based on my journals, that I had deserved to be cheated upon by my previous LTR's, that my best friend would eventually see me like he does 'now' and even my parents wouldn't love me if they knew me like he did. All the while I haven't killed one fly with my journals, not even by smashing them into corners out of sadness. They have been with me all my life, and are very very important to me. (naturally right? I think so) Although I could see, that only a very sad little boy would say and use things like that, only a sad sad sad man would try to tell somebody is not worthy of the love of their parents, (I have a very good relationship with my parents after years of alcohol abuse of my father who is now sober since 6 years and we get a long perfectly now)