newsagents. Other times I would do a loop around the streets so I was never further thatn 2-3 mins walk from my flat so felt safe. but would keep going until I began to feel dizzy. This made me realise that I could walk and go out an manage. To start with I'd go out in the evening or weekend when my flatmate was in and tell hime exactly where I was going so that if anything did happen to me I knew I'd be found. Gradually I became happy just having my mobile with several loca taxi firms no. in, knowing that I could always ring for help. I also made myself a survival bag - my mobile, wallet, seabands to help the nausea, dizziness meds, and mints incase I began to feel sick. It was all ways to help me feel safer and feel as if I could handle it if I did start to feel rough. The way I started to see my friends again was to go with my flatmate who I really trusted and promised he would bring me home as soon as I wanted to. I started having a couple of v good friends round for pizza on the thing that any time I wanted I could go and lie down and they'd go home. I then went to theirs knowing I could lie down on their bed if needed, and that they'd take me home anytime I wanted. My first pub trip lasted