is gonna sound really corny haha, but it worked for me. There was this video game i played when i was 12-13 and every level up a message popped up on screen. Put together, they actually portray a really realistic progression of experience and ability on the path to self-actualization. http://continuedconsciousness.tumblr.com\\... I printed this off and imagines myself a level 1. It was enough inspiration for me, hope something I said sticks. Good luck, don't give up.