How I Eliminated All My Binge Urges And Forgot How to be Bulimic! I recovered. You can too! Hi! I'm Shaye. I'm a 26 year old girl from New Zealand. There was a time in my life that I was so deeply lost in bulimia, that I was sure it would kill me . I was constantly pushing the fear of dying to the back of my mind. When I went to sleep at night, I would always pray that I would wake up in the morning. I would promise myself that tomorrow would be different. Tomorrow I wouldn't binge and purge. I broke that promise hundreds of times. As bulimia stole the years from my life, the side effects continued to get worse... Constant fear of death , fueled by an irregular heart beat Horrible rotten bulimia-teeth which I tried to hide by not smiling. Chipmunk cheeks which made my face look chubby. Alienated friends and family - who never knew the real me. Constant depression , anxiety, anger and extreme shame. Completely uncontrollable binge urges. But do you know what the amazing thing is? I've basically forgotten how to be bulimic. In fact, I have forgotten. I can't even remember how to have a binge urge. My chipmunk cheeks have dissappeared, I no longer obssess over food and I smile because I'm happy, not because I'm trying to hide something. It's was a wonderful feeling to permanently turn off those psychotic voices which told me to eat all