I can be/do/say what I need to and she will accept it. And that I can simply accept the same from her, without angst or worried concern. After I hit "send", I ran back upstairs and slid under the sheets and fell asleep almost immediately. This morning I woke up to my husband flailing around, the sun shining and my body feeling a thousands times more relaxed than it had all week. I made the right decision. Kelly emailed that she was still planning to go, so I'm anxiously awaiting her email or blog post about the class. I hope it was wonderful -- the potential was certainly there for it to be a very cool experience. It just wasn't what I need right now. And that's okay. And all day I plan to remind myself that it's okay.