All we had on us now was a meth pipe and some meth.  So that's not that bad. I think social recreational drug use is fine.  I don't think it's dangerous at all.  I think you take drugs with your friends, you know what they are.  You ask them what they do to you.  I mean, there are people that OD on ecstasy and shit like that -- that's dangerous, but you know, it's just such a minimal amount of people.  I mean, it is still dangerous but ... if your dream is to get to the top of it, you're only going to end up fucking down, back at the bottom anyway.  So yeah, it's got a bit of danger in it, but you have to find the danger out for yourself.  No-one can really tell you about it.  You sort of have to live it yourself really. I do get depressed -- I suffer from depression quite severely, like the low side of bipolar disorder, and maybe that's where it comes from.  Like maybe, maybe not, but maybe that's why I need to be told all the time or like be reassured from girls that they like me or they want to hook up with me and they're texting me and they steal their number out of their girlfriend's phone and shit like that.  Fuck, it makes it real, like you know -- on TV or something.  I still think I'm pretty cool now.  I'm just going to