loves in our lives and the 'big love' will be the one that stands out from the others and results in a magical, kinda hippy, picnic style wedding whilst I am pregnant (just putting that out there!!). ? My ability to organise my work, my home, my charity projects and most other elements of my life are somewhat tainted by the hidden secret that I am a little bit hopeless with my finances. My taxes are often left for many years undone, my savings are erratic and I have no interest in owning a property and paying a mortgage! Of course I have dreams about painting walls and floors white and creating artworks on ceilings, things I cannot do in rentals, however those dreams do not motivate me enough to get serious about home ownership, yet. ? I have lost quite a few friends over the past few years, since becoming a single Mother, choosing to be more honest and moving out of Bondi a handful of people for various reasons related to these factors have disappeared. It could be seen as sad, of course it is a loss and there has been grieving, however I truly believe that the people we lose make way for the people who have a place in our new space. OK I am a little afraid that telling you any more of the things I am afraid to tell may result in a mass evacuation of my lovely readers, so that is it for