I wasn't Shaye the bulimic. I was simply Shaye, who happened to have bulimia. It was something I could completely recover from. As Amanda spoke, Bulimia screamed - "She's lying!" A memory clawed its way into my mind... It was of a woman I knew, talking about her daughters bulimia... "Bulimia isn't something Gina will ever recover from, she'll always have to manage the symptoms of it." "See," Bulimia shouted... "I'm here for good!" I Was Almost Sucked in by Bulimia's Lies But somewhere , through the darkness, I glimpsed a sparkle of hope in Amanda's words. It was small, but it was there. And it gave me the belief that perhaps I could change. And change is what I needed, because electrolyte imbalances were starting to play havoc with my heart... Over the months that followed, I began applying Amanda's advice along with tips from the countless self-help books I'd read. I also started keeping a diary of what was working and what wasn't. And you know what? I began to get better. Some days I could even get to the afternoon without binging and purging. This made my heart flutter with excitement. Recovery felt within reach. I was now binging and purging once a day, down from 15. It Was Time For a Reward - A Holiday in the Sunny Pacific Islands 3 weeks later my binging and purging was completely out of control. I had cancelled my trip to the islands and had gained 6lbs. Why? I'd