point my friend's boyfriend stood me up, took me in his arms, swinging me around and dancing with me to the music.  It was so much fun that I couldn't help smiling and laughing.  My daughter Kelly was 11 years old at the time.  She looked at my girl friend and said, "Wow, I've never seen my Mom happy" I know in her child's mind that she didn't mean she had never seen me happy but her reality was that she couldn't remember a recent time when I was happy.  That was a defining moment for me.  I vowed to let my children see me happy every single day from that day on because I did have a lot of things in my life to be grateful for, especially them.  Just because the situation with their father was horrible didn't mean that everything and everyone in my life had to be negatively affected as well.  I had a lot to be happy about and I made a conscious choice to share that happiness everyday.  One of the pages in my Alanon books described this perfectly - "I will not reserve my deference and respect for outsiders whom I want to please or my pleasant expressions for those I want to impress.  The people I live with are worthy of my best behavior, and will surely respond to the respect and loving kindness which, without meaning to, I may have withheld from them" List 5 things you are grateful for in