my dad I loved him and he told me that's the most important thing!! THANK_YOU,s EVERYONE, your lovely kind words fill me with warmth, I,m so sorry for all of you who have lost a loved one it is so hard knowning you have to let them go when all you what is to keep them by your side. Lorraine your situation it very much like my & I can see how hard it is for you , I,m sure like me you keep hugging Ian & telling him how much you love him, I feel thats all I can do now & just be there. I can see he his getting weaker now 7 it breaks my heart to see him like this. It helps so much knowing people know how I feel & share there thoughts with me, as family & friends never can unless they to have lost someone they love. I try & be as happy as I can for him even though I know he,ll know the truth that in side my heart is breaking. I don,t know what I,m going to be like after he as gone  but I,v told him I,m going to make him proud & be strong and try to make the best of the rest of my life. I say this as I know how much he worry,s about leaving me on my own & I don,t want him to worry. He,s not in pain at the moment & I