people your age in a different country online, then you could find out how feasible it is to go somewhere different. If that becomes possible then you choose between music or electronics or hands-on work like training to be a plumber or electrician. If your english is good (sounds real good) and you are clever and willing to work, then you can get somewhere in this world, anywhere in the world. Anyway, consider going to a Community College. That will give you a chance to see if there's some field you're especially interested in. While there, you can also talk to people in the Counseling Center, both for psychological counseling and career counseling.