as me as who I am as life within and as oneness and equality. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be directed by the mind, brain, thoughts, feelings and emotions instead of me applying, living and expression self direction in the silence that is me in every moment of every breath. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be directed by the polarity equations of the mind as: strength and weakness and failure and success. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am able to 'temporarily' 'lose' control. I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that when I 'lose control' and 'give into' the impulsions of temptations -- I have allowed myself to go 'back into the mind' and that I as who I am was not here, aware, in and as the moment. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am able to 'lose' anything even control. I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that when I 'lose' something or apparently think and believe that I have 'lost' something -- I have not lived within and as oneness with that 'something' I have or could apparently lose. I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that 'lostness', 'losing', 'lost', 'lose' only exist of the mind when I am in separation. I am one -- therefore -- it is impossible to lose anything because everything is here