love and prayers to you and your family to get through this incredibly painful chapter in your lives. Dear Rachel, I came to your blog through the article on Mamamia... I am just so sorry and saddened for you. I didn't really want to read about such sadness but you write so beautifully, I have been pulled in. I just wanted to tell you that I supported two friends who lost babies to stillbirth at full term. One by long distance. Mostly they needed me in the first year. I was someone they could vent to, a shoulder to cry on. I mourned both these babies myself, deeply. Especially the first one, who was my close friend's daughter, and was born sleeping just two months after I had my son - we had planned to try and get pregnant at the same time. I never expected anything in return for my support and friendship to them during a time when many turned their backs or just failed to understand. At the end of the day, just being there for them to help make their load that tiny bit lighter, that was my reward. And I am sure your friends feel the same way. You feel you cannot "repay" them but you don't have to. Let them help you stand. I am so sorry for your terrible loss. It is the worst thing that can happen to a parent, no matter the age or circumstances of the loss of their child.