it. And that's what I felt I was engaging in by doing those shows. It's not rock n roll no matter how your dress it up. Rock n roll is my first love so I had to stop. I don't care that the audience wasn't as satisfied, that's not why I'm into this. I'm not part of the catering industry. I'm part of this thing that hopefully pushes the boundaries. Albeit in small steps. You don't get giant steps in evolution, but you have to at least be heading in the right direction. But as I said, it's hard to top a show like that. And what I do now has so much less fanfare attached. It's also made more difficult by the fact that I don't know what I want to do. All I know is that I can't go there again. DiS: Isn't that something? Knowing what you don't want to do is almost as good as knowing you want to do, surely? Yes, it's elimination. And I'm talking about a real process. I did those shows, and I know I don't like them. I wish I just knew what I wanted to do. DiS: Do you feel positive about being so restless? Yes, I do. It is positive. It's not necessarily fulfilling or satisfying, but it is a good thing. I feel very positive now, full of ideas and excitement.