year in a nice and pretty way, but yesterday was just emotionally difficult for me. Steph stayed afterward last night and we drank wine, and I so needed that. My husband listened while I tried to explain the mess that was in my head, then hugged me tight and rubbed my feet. Today, I am going over to a dear friend's house, where I will share a meal with some of my favorite people. Kelly and Lindsey both have adorable, crazy little boys, too, but they are older than Nolan. I know they'll commiserate with me and make me feel like I'm going to be okay. And I am. I'm okay. ........................................\\... In list form, the things in this post that are so good in my life (as in, things I am thankful for)(because I think I do need this right now): #7 (still continuing that list and trying to get to 25 before Thanksgiving). Time to myself, in the morning,my prime time. #8. Nolan is sleeping (mostly) through the night! In his own bed! #9. seeing Nolan so loved by his grandparents and his aunt #10. Playing in the park with my son? One of my favorite things to do right now. #11. Nolan's grandma and grandpa got him snow gear! So unless it's actually dangerous, our outdoor time has been given new life over what's supposed to be a snowy winter. #12. I love my sister-in-law, of course, but I also really like her. I mean, I would