wondered doubted hoped
But  I realized at that moment that there is still a  piece  of my heart that will always run to try to  protect  him, no matter how big he might be or where he is.That same piece will  always  remember the five-year-old boy standing in the toy store with the toy ship held to his chest, saying, "I  [MASK]  if I just waited here, Christina, you would find me."