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My children were  everything  to me.I put all my energy into  raising  both of them and doing all types of activities with them, even sometimes at the  cost  of my own best interests.I understand they grow up and need their  freedom  ,but for some reason I just can't seem to let go.I am go  happy  that they're establishing their own lives,  [MASK]  I get so depressed whenever I have even a simple  thought  of them.I've been crying for over a week now.I really don't know what to do to make this  feeling  go away.I can't even walk by either one's room without bursting into tears.I don't understand why I'm unable to  overcome  this sense of great loss.I'm  aware  that I need to move on with my own life and find  new  things to devote my attention to, but I  enjoyed  being a mom and spending time on my children.I've  considered  adopting a child but it's  impossible  atthe moment for me considering my poor health.