Becoming Scholar
Brother! You become scholar so you can give other dawah of this deen. Clear them its message, but it should be clear to you first. Because deen is first and farmost your problem as you have to die and be responsible for your own action so first work on yourself and if you think you are educated enough to educate others AND your attraction to become scholar is genuine and not based on some emotions after watching other scholars videos then go ahead and start this journey. I will add that the journey of knowledge is never ending, just keep getting the good understanding of our deen and people will see in you the changes and would ask you if they have any issue understanding the deen. Each of us are giving dawah to our own circle if we understand either by our action or by our words as Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم said ” Each of you is a shepherd and responsible for his flock” (Bukhari, 7138)