Marraige. Tohmat
Wa’alaikum as salam. This question is of personal nature. If you’re seeking religious advice in this matter, please contact me via a private message and I will try to hook you up with a female scholar. But from the question it seems like you’re seeking more of a personal advice. In that case, someone from your family or a close friend who knows you, your in-laws, and your situation at a deeper level should be able to assist you better.