Severely Affected With Fear Of Kufr
Sorry, I feel like I unleashed a lot of vague advise without anything practical that can be helpful. Here’s a few practical things that helped me: – During the marriage negotiations, clearly state things that cause u the most anxieties ( things that u feel like will cause u great distress if your husband asks u to do/ or not do them). If u do not feel confident enough or do not know how to respectfully state them in your cultural context , ask your brother or father to ask them. My father and mother both advocated for me. Elders asking certain questions, has the added benefit of them lending their experience and wisdom in regards to what the answer is. – As someone who is still recovering from chronically googling fatwas, i recommend u try to save yourself from this affliction, as it has the potential to cause unwarranted misery while also not substantially enriching u with any real wisdom sometimes. The internet has given us the power and curse to google what ever intrusive religious thought we have, and I am coming to the understanding that (atleast in the Farahi school of thought), an individual should be knowledgeable enough to make certain decisions for themselves. I advise long form media’s to engage with. Books are the best. TBH I really struggle with this. Again, I felt like I was reading my own thoughts when I read your message, hence the really long texts. Take Care. I hope u find freedom from your internal conflicts.