Litmus Tests For Knowing If You Are Rebellious Or Arrogant Towards God
Thank you. Regarding the prayer, humans are always gonna make mistakes, at least minor ones, if those minor mistakes were also not forgiven then wouldn’t that sort of make the voluntary prayers obligatory in a sense? If someone missed concentration while reciting the entire chapter Fatiha, then yes, it makes sense to me to make offering voluntary prayer a must. Is there a complete video from Al Mawrid, or from sir Ghamidi that could help me perfect my prayer? I only offer obligatory prayers for the sake of ease, but I can add some voluntary prayers from now on. Btw, I do feel some reactions (that could turn out to be very arrogant and rebellious if I acted upon them) coming up against God when I feel like I am being burdened like when I read your reply about offering more prayers. That’s what is causing me the self-doubts. I have such thoughts or reactions coming up but I don’t act upon them, this causes things to be in grey-area for me. I do have OCD so that could be the reason. Need your opinion, is this a common thing and not to be worried about as long as I am not acting upon it? It does feel like a part of my character though that I am only just not acting upon it out of fear of God and because I know it is wrong, otherwise I might have. I appreciate the help. Thank you
Yes. Bad temptations are part of the test, one should not turn their face away from their fitrah and reality. Just try not to act upon them until you enter Paradise. You may already be doing all that but that is not main takeaway, the point is you asked for a litmus test. Prayer is that test, as long as a Muslim pray 5 times a day, he can be humble and avoid arrogance. Prayer may not be perfect or perhaps never be, but it is more about struggle, towards what a person is struggling, if he is striving towards humility and humbling himself in prayer then he is passing the test. If he is striving away from prayer then he is heading towards arrogance. This is the litmus test.