Religion
What you are experiencing is not loss of intelligence. It is philosophical reconfiguration. And that is painful. You are not really asking whether science explains biology. You are asking whether science exhausts reality. Science explains mechanisms — how neurons fire, how evolution refines behavior, how societies shape conscience. But mechanism is not grounding. Explaining how moral instincts developed does not answer why moral obligation feels binding. Evolution can explain why we cooperate. It does not explain why injustice feels metaphysically wrong rather than merely disadvantageous. If the universe is truly indifferent, then “tyrants getting away with it” is not tragic — it is just statistically unfortunate. Yet you are not reacting with indifference. You are grieving. That grief reveals that you still assume reality ought to be morally structured. That assumption cannot be derived from chemistry. You are also questioning whether the Qur’an is elevated human reflection. Certainly, the Prophet reflected deeply. But reflection alone does not account for a text that restructures moral, legal, metaphysical, and civilizational consciousness with sustained coherence across 23 years in radically shifting contexts. One may reject revelation, but one must also offer an equally strong account of its origin. You are not wrong to examine it. But replacing revelation with “advanced meditation” is not an explanation — it is a relocation of mystery. Now about control. You once believed God micromanaged outcomes. Now you see human agency everywhere and it feels like God has disappeared. But divine control does not mean visible interference. A creator can establish a law-governed system where freedom operates genuinely within structure. Physics does not eliminate God — it describes the system He sustains. You are not choosing between divine control and human agency. You are reconciling levels of causation. The real emotional center of your crisis is justice. You cannot emotionally tolerate a universe where injustice is ultimate. Materialism cannot promise justice. It can only describe survival. Your fear that “this world is all there is” is not relief. It is grief. Because you intuit that moral reality should culminate somewhere. That intuition is not childish hope. It is philosophically significant. If justice is real, it must be grounded. If moral obligation is real, it must be grounded. If consciousness is more than blind mechanism, it must be grounded. You are not losing faith because you discovered science. You are destabilized because the version of God you held was too anthropomorphic and too interventionist. That version cracked. What may emerge now is a more coherent, less simplistic understanding. Do not rush to declare the afterlife fictional just because you are re-evaluating its mechanics. You are not abandoning belief. You are interrogating it. And interrogation is not betrayal. Right now, instead of trying to solve everything at once, take one axis at a time: Grounding of morality, Nature of consciousness, Plausibility of revelation, Meaning of divine control. These are deep but solvable discussions. You are not insane. You are not sinful. You are not unworthy. You are in reconstruction. And reconstruction feels like loss before it feels like clarity.