Wanting God'S Help To Give Me Full Certainty So That I Don'T Do Wrong
You are right. I am sorry for not being fully clear. OCD mind is not reliable when it comes to fear-responses, for the rest I can rely on it. It is basically gives false alarms and creates self-doubt. The same way a computer that gives false alarms can’t be relied on in this regards, the OCD affected mind can’t be either, for fear responses. It is the truth that no one can deny, a false alarm system isn’t reliable when it comes to its alarms
I understand OCD. It is basically an intolerability to uncertainty. The solution is not to eliminate uncertainty ( as most people with OCD try to do) but to somehow being indifferent to it. Your solution aims at entirely eliminating the doubt via divine help. From a theological perspective, it is not a very sound approach. regardless, you should focus on psychological not theological aspects. Like a person can have OCD where he has thoughts whether he has closed the door or not. A person with OCD generally tries to remove this by checking the doors again or asking from other, hence trying to remove uncertainty and indulging in reassuring behaviors. But this makes it worse. You are trying to do the same,i.e., eliminating uncertainty via divine intervention. You need not to do that and nor will it happen. You need to stop ‘caring’ about the problem; you need to stop ‘solving’ it, since it’s not a real problem but a ‘false positive’ so if it is very intrusive and hinders your daily task, consult a psychiatrist.