Severely Affected With Fear Of Kufr
@Irfan76 assalamu alaikum. May be my question was itself not clear. I meant, the reason behind why I don’t want to marry is like “If I marry I will have to leave my freedom of doing job, going some places where it is permissible to go. But I won’t be able to go if my husband doesn’t permit. And if this notion seems to me to be contradictory to my sense of personal freedom. So I prefer my freedom over marriage. Or if someone gives me any prevention I feel like” why is he preventing me? Don’t I understand my situation? If I feel like I have my own plan. I am not a slave” and this kind of thought/personal belief ends me up with disobeying him (husband/father) My question was if I have above feelings when somone prevents me does this things entails kufr? I know disobeying is a sin itself. But if I beleif husband or father preventing me contradicts my personal freedom is that a kufr? I know husband and father has their own responsibilities. And in any relation one can not ejnoy 100% of freedom that he/she is entitled to have as a human. Like a man can not enjoy his full wealth alone. has ti give something to the wife, children.
Of course, it is not kufr to prefer your freedom over life under an authority. It is like not doing a job to save your freedom.