What Is Meant By Looking For Dispensation In Fatwa
“Heart at peace” does not mean zero questions or zero fear. It simply means that after thinking sincerely, weighing different opinions, and doing your best, you choose one view honestly, without deliberately trying to cheat yourself or Allah. A little hesitation like “what if the other opinion is right?” is part of being a thoughtful human, not a sign of bad intention. Think of it like making any serious life decision. Even after choosing a university, a career path, or a partner, the mind still asks “what if the other option was better?” That doesn’t mean the choice was insincere. It just means you care. You’re allowed to put different fatwas in front of you, listen to scholars you trust, think slowly, and then choose the opinion your heart feels most settled with, even if some questions remain. I went through the same phase. I used to worry, “What if I’m just choosing ease?” But with time I realized that Allah is not looking for anxiety, He’s looking for honesty. You don’t have to force yourself to reach certainty overnight. Growth in understanding is gradual. For me, it helped to ask: What would Allah actually want for His people?For example, on issues like female covering, I always felt conflicted. Some interpretations felt extremely rigid and emotionally suffocating, but I was scared to question them. When I came across Ghamidi’s explanations, it finally clicked for me — why would Allah, who is Loving and Just, want religion to feel illogical and unbearable? Especially when reality shows that staring or objectification doesn’t magically disappear just because of extreme covering. That realization didn’t come from chasing ease — it came from aligning faith with reason, justice, and lived reality. And my heart felt calmer after that, even though questions didn’t vanish completely. So don’t pressure yourself to “solve” everything immediately. Let your understanding mature. Let things flow. Islam is actually much easier and more humane than we sometimes make it. What matters most is that you are sincere, reflective, and trying — not that you never feel doubt or fear again.