Thoughts You Have While Drowning (POEM) - SCP Foundation

Content Warning for mentions of suicidal ideation and depression

Thoughts you have

While drowning

In your past

Present

Future

And forever

Do people hear

Me break

Surface tension

Tension draining

From my face and arms

As I break

From deep within

And know I never

Was pieced together

Tell them I’m sorry

And stare them down

In the face

Until they look

Reasonably sad

For the situation

At hand

Reasonable doubt

That it was in their hands

My eyes go dark

I am your black hole

Made of star dust

This dying nova

Though my lungs cave in

Though the water rushes

And I am still so young

And romantically strong

I am so tired

I’m going to bed

Please don’t follow me-

Please don’t follow me here-

I’m going to the lake-

I’m going to die one day-

You should hear voices

You should hear me

You should see them-

They are empty threats

These are empty words

I am empty space

Vomiting my life

Into the next pound

I can lose

And the next friend

I can lose

And the next game

I can lose

So can I win this one

One empty lake

The perfect place

To be alone for now

And then again forever?

Am I fighting for air

Or am I fighting instincts

Sucking in water

So I drown faster

Than I can pretend

I’m coming back

There are not enough words

To string together

Anymore

I’ve tried to say to you-

“…”

So many times

And you don’t

Hear me

Or the sound

Is garbled

From the water

Or you don’t

Care about

The living dead

Only about keeping

The dead alive

There are not enough words-

Or sound

Or light

I’m running out of time-

I’m running out of-

Thoughts to have

While drowning-

There is nobody here-

But me-

And the sky-

And

You

Do

Not

Recognise

Me

I

Am

Nothing

I

Have

No

Face

While

Drowning

Thinking

Thoughts

Drowning

Thoughts

I

Thought

Drowning

…..

You do not recognise the bodies in the water